#i appreciate all input 💛💛💛💛

[thecoolsquirrel]

The Little Mermaid AU w/Azul

A continuation (?) of this drawing! I drew them the same day-and @camrastuff predicting it JSANDJSA

omg i love this thankyou for thinking for me cause with every drawing for this au im like,,how much longer can I bs that i actually know what im doing JSNADJAS 💛💛

Other Drawings For This Au: Here

<3 Tags for Little Mermaid Au:

@a-very-werid-mirror @twistiraki @azulashengrottospiano @pianostarinwonderland @fjshii @cowboy-rowlet @femmefaeryboi @savanaclaw1996 @taruruchi @thehollowwriter @thefiasco-onyourblock @the-trinket-witch @@adorable-person @twistedcece @ukkipeach @lilyalone @g0ul666 @cecil-garlicbread @girl-nahh-two @amayan0

[accio-victuuri]

August CPNs round-up ❤️💛💚

it’s bobo’s birth month! let’s start with this chaotic behind the scenes video 🫶🏼

• the letters yb was flashed in xzs vlog

• two people spotted in xz’s mountain drawing

• a hongkong politician posts about xz and wyb being good celebrities that will help promote HK

• 8/5 yibo’s day clowning part one part two - this year was too loud! the bday photo alone is enough to szd. 😂😂😂😂 part 2.5 part 3

• yibo and xz related hot search for bobo’s bday

THEIR VCRs for Han Hong’s foundation, a charity organization they both are a part of. We love them generous Kings!

• in the xinxiangyin live, we see an activity that they filled with things xz likes and will have something to talk about. you will notice a couple are the same as yibo’s. hotpot ( which i must admit is more general ), photography, fitness, tennis and films.

you can say that these are not unique interests, but when you put them together and another person has the same one seem sus. this is something i always say, even if you don’t believe that they are in a romantic relationship — these clues show that they have maintained that connection. no matter how many people cry about the “copying” agenda, we can’t deny that the coincidences are too much. this is why they get along, they can adapt each other’s interest. they have the same values. they are out here ticking all the boxes for a fruitful relationship <3

• the similarity 👀👀👀 right is xz in ELLE’s feature video for XZ.

• QUATRE BLUE 💙💙💙

oooohhhh i love jewelry. tho i’m kinda on the fence about this cause boucheron is a brand that xz is promoting and it makes sense that it will be used for a magazine. he is endorsing this line of rings but has never used this blue which just happened to be something wyb before. i understand why people are going 👀 because the photos were released days after Bobo’s bday.

• XZ’s Elle September issue feature clowning

• 8/10 yibo-official bts video clue

• yibo’s montbell shirt

• bobo shows some bxg bias @ pechoin live

• in the LINSY product launch conference, they were talking about a sofa and it had a special feature thing where you can put stuff in it & wyb mentions you can put chips. lol. that was so fast. he is not someone who likes chips, but we know one who does! i’d like to think that it’s a subconscious answer. he just thought of an important person in his life. 🫶🏼

• matching high school students hair 😂😂😂

• ANTA 🤝 LI NING

• their airport fashion looking so identical 👀 we could argue all day about how this is not unique and just about anyone can do this combo.. but does anyone else do this? no. it’s always these two. it’s harder to tell them apart when they are like this, which we guess is helping them when they visit each other on set.

the two of them doing couple wear!

• bottled joy x tsingtao collab 🍻

• xz’s heurueh boyfriend t shirt

• mengniu fan benefit featuring the boys

• handprints next to each other in the Qixi Wall

• this gif is gold!!!! pleaseeee!!!!! 😂😂😂😂 and it even went on hot search!

• analysis and details of wyb’s new song = somebody else’s arms

• wyb’s post YH concert weibo update 🟡🟡🟡

• i talked briefly about the cpf support during the concert and i have nothing more to add. i’m sure i can make another post that “shows” how wyb appreciated the cpfs indirectly during the concert but i won’t. there is no need for proofs of any kind — we know the truth. 😌😌😌 tho i will never be pro violence or insulting and being very mean to people in person just to prove a point. there’s a whole nasty situation that happened post concert which i have no energy for and i do not condone btw.

• their weibo 15th bday post 🌙

• the final episodes of exploring the unknown is on oct 5-6 because tencent has released the watching schedule. yes, wyb probably had a lot more input in this project but he was probably not alone in deciding when this would premiere and how the episodes are gonna line up. but i’m still happy with this coincidence. ✌🏼

what we wanna know tho is what will be the episode on 10/5 cause if it’s him in the desert i will — 🤯! cause his photo there was the one he used for his bday, which is eerily similar to GG’s from last year. so yeah. we will see!

-END.

<<< previous posts

See you all next month!!!!! 💛💛💛

[tilseptemberends]

Working on one of my fics and I'm torn on Neris parts because we've got two options if I want them to be endgame. The first being that she's still Cassian's mate and I have to deal with that if I ever write a sequel fic. Or skip all that and make her and Eris mates instead. Input appreciated 💛

[stoopid-turtle]

hello... 😅 uhm, first of all, i truly am sorry in advance for being awkward 😭 but for once i decided not to let my awkwardness keep me from sharing (what i think/hope are) positive thoughts with a stranger on the internet, so here i am.

i'm not around much and legit only made this acc bc like you i'm a late bloomer here and needed as many outlets for my yizhan/wangxian obsession as i could get my greedy hands on, in the big year of 2023... sigh. anyway, as an avid lover of meta/analysis posts since my early fandom days began around 15 (oof 🥲) years ago, finding your acc was such a lovely surprise. i agree with your views a LOT, and really appreciate how eloquent and well-written your posts are! even more so bc there's a lot i still don't know and most of the time the source material is very hard to reach and/or understand due to the language barrier, so having other turtles to rely on to access those, even if filtered by their own biases/opinions, is wonderful. besides, such input coming from a new fan is also comforting and imo refreshing, juxtaposed with that of older fans... it keeps the fandom alive and all that jazz. it's also very brave given how ruthless some folks can be on the internet, and on this corner in particular 😮‍💨 it just felt like reading my own thoughts written by someone else sometimes. i gasped and nodded at your posts soooo many times djskdjdj thank you for that!

(btw you followed me back the other day and i legit fangirled irl bc ??? whatttttt 😅 i still think it was an accident but okay omg djskdjdj AHEM. sorry)

then today i logged in and read your recent posts feeling squeamish about sharing more thoughts and as much as i 100% relate to you saying that kind of attention makes you anxious, i just... idk, i had to let you know i enjoy everything you post, even though adult life has kept me from being able to read it all so far. i understand you stepping back and i respect that decision, i'm not by any means asking you to go against what you know is best for you. at the same time, i can't help but hope you'll still show up every now and then bc your posts will be missed 🥲 i guess the whole motivation behind this is that it just made me sad to think your valuable insights will be something i'm yet again late to, if that makes sense?

djskdjdj again, i'm so sorry for being awkward and weird and dropping all of this on your inbox unprovoked. you don't have to reply (or read this AT ALL omg 😭😭), in fact i'm so embarrassed by this that you'd probably have to reach me through inquiry lmaooo 💀 anyway, have a great life, thank you so much for the great job, bjyxszd etc ❤️💚💛

Oh, don't be anxious! I'm really not a big deal.

Thank you for dropping into my inbox! I love hearing from other turtles, especially relative newbies, like myself! One of my fav parts of coming out of lurking mode is getting to talk to other people. I kinda follow back anybody who follows me, cause it seems polite? I don't know tumblr etiquette. I just follow the tags when I get the chance.

I appreciate the encouragement! I try to avoid dramatics, so I'm sorry for the upset last week. The situation is largely resolved, and I am feeling more okay. I kinda backed off because I wasn't sure of my footing here in fandom as compared to others, especially as I do think I have some takes that fall outside fandom consensus. Again, I don't mean to rock any boats and I'm not invested in convincing anybody that they should have the same opinions as I do. Hearing from turtles who do want me to continue posting gave me some more confidence there.

So, yeah, I expect I'll post some more as I have time. I'd like to post more on dd (cause he's my fav). I'd also like to try to figure out gg cause that dude is so confusing to me. I do have RL stuff going on, and I don't have the time to be super-active outside of occasional posts. But I'd like keep posting stuff. At least until I get all my Yizhan thoughts out.

[gregorygerwitz]

As a queer servicemember who did serve during dadt that got out the year before it was repealed - FUCK DADT, it ruined lives and fuck the fact that it took so long for our military members to get their dishonorables changed and the fact that they left homosexuality on the new dd214s so former service members still had it follow them.

As someone who has never served myself and only has internet research and old Navy stories from my grandfather and cousin and one former coworker who was briefly in the army to go by, and every single one of them is cishet, I appreciate your input immensely. and, quieter, thank you for this, specifically, because this is exactly my point, I just don't have all the exacts to back it up like this. I've been doing my best to not rant about it and start things because it's about a fictional character it isn't that deep but also... considering how many people it affected in real life, yes it is.

I can't tell if you're yelling at me, specifically, or just using the anon function in my inbox to protect yourself from the fandom having different opinions (I get that, zero judgement whatsoever, I've been doing that a lot the last ~week just so I can have my opinion out there and avoid the backlash that comes with that and protect my sanity), but I'm going to put my own thoughts here, too, either way, because I feel like we're on the same page?

I know that using DADT seems like an easy out for speedrunning Tommy's timeline and making him younger than he would logically be to fit Lou's age (45 isn't old and 45 doesn't "look" all that different from 39 unless you're being ageist but whatever), but it's really not. There are so many complications that come with it - such as a dishonorable discharge.

Someone reblogged one of my posts earlier this week (the same person my vague post was about today, and I'll keep it vague I'm not here to call people out directly this is my blog and I'm going to put my opinion on it, no one should go harassing this person about any of it because it's fictional characters, they're allowed to have different opinions and headcanons about things), with a comment about how the LAFD (and PD? it's less relevant and I don't want to scroll back in their blog or my notifs for something minor like that) was hiring people regardless of sexuality in the 90s. Good for them! That doesn't change the dishonorable discharge tho!

Like... please correct me if I'm wrong, because again, I have no personal experience with any of this, just too much time on my hands and too many military blorbos, but when a dishonorable discharge shows up on someone's record, it doesn't necessarily say why it's there. It doesn't say if it's related to DADT or some other incident in the field or whatever it is. So yes, while the LAFD might have been hiring queer people far sooner than that, they still aren't going to look at a guy who has a (recent!) dishonorable discharge and say "yeah, we're going to put him through our training, which costs taxpayers x amount of money, and then hire him and pay him to have someone's life and death in his hands."

DADT and all the discharges that came from it completely ruined lives and made going on with any kind of career, especially something for the government even on the level of firefighting or police work, all but impossible. It's not an easy out to make Tommy the same age as Lou. It's actually completely nonsensical because he never would have been allowed to even get within 100ft of the fire academy, let alone be a senior member of a firehouse in 2009 when Hen joined the 1118.

There is a reason it's called a dishonorable discharge, and it would have completely ruined his life, no matter what the reason was for it.

(also, re: the game I play with Kit and Cass, the complaint this morning puts Tommy's age at 55 💛)

[haystarlight]

Disabilities and Disclosure

@lollytea made a post about this idea and I went with it.

I don't have dyslexia. If you or someone you know has it, I'd appreciate your input!

@avatarmerida @fairytales-and-folklore

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"Disabilities and Disclosure"

"I'm gonna have to borrow that book when you're done with it!"

Willow wasn't really thinking when she made that promise. She'd been too caught up in Hunter's cool outfit and his sweet smile to realize what she was signing up for. She'd been so preoccupied with flirting with the cute boy she didn't bother to think she was actually going to have to read that book later.

At first, she put it off. They were busy fighting villains, rebuilding society, rebuilding their homes, starting a new semester at Hexside. Then, a few months after she and Hunter started dating, he remembered she had expressed interest in reading Cosmic Frontier.

Oh no.

"Here you go! you can keep it, I have another copy at home."

"Aww, Sunflower, this is so nice of you."

Hunter blushed, he always blushed when she called him that.

Aw fuck. The book was even bigger than she remembered.

"A little fat, ain't it?" She chuckled nervously "how did you read it all in 2 days?"

"Haha well, yeah. I don't wanna brag but you do remember I've been called a 'genius teen prodigy'," He said this in a tone that sounded like he did want to brag. "it's not that fat, tho. A regular reader like you can probably kill it in a week or two. And then you can share your thoughts with me, Gus and Camila!"

Yeah. Sure. A regular reader like her.

A week or two. Sure.

Hunter must've sensed her uncertainty because his voice immediately dropped from excitement to comfort.

"Hey, I won't get upset if you don't like it. Just so you know."

"Aw, yeah, I wasn't worried about that. But thanks."

She tried looking at the summary on the back and almost got a headache. She knew he wouldn't mind if she didn't like it... But would he be disappointed if she couldn't even finish it?

"Oh, and I hope you're cool with this... I kinda wrote stuff on the margins," he said this bashfully.

Willow opened the book on the first page. The first two pages of every book are always blank before the actual story gets started. She'd always considered that a waste of paper.

This time, however, she saw on the first blank page something written in Hunter's perfect calligraphy. He had such nice handwriting. Her writing was so messy in comparison.

Even she was able to read the three simple words written there with love and care.

'To my Captain 💛'

What had she done?

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The days passed by and no matter how hard she tried, the damn book was impossible to finish.

It's not that she couldn't read at all! She could read! She was 16, not 5!

But some words were harder to understand than others. Words that were really long and complicated gave her the hardest time. It didn't help that all these characters had odd names that looked impossible to pronounce and even harder to spell. She kept getting headaches whenever she stared at a page for too long.

She had always been like this, since she started school. It was one of the reasons abominations were so much harder for her than plants, abominations required a lot of reading and theory, plants were direct hands-on action. She had so many memories of staying up late with her parents trying to help her as she agonized over the homework.

And, as the days passed, she kept avoiding having to talk to Hunter. He always asked her how far into the book she was, which scene had she gotten to, who was her favorite character so far. And Gus was no better. Gus knew of Willow's reading issue but it seemed like the young boy had forgotten about it as he got caught up in the excitement as well.

One day, Willow was alone, sitting on the school steps when she suddenly couldn't take it anymore and screamed in frustration, throwing the book away from her.

Luckily, someone caught it.

"Wow! You must be really angry at this thing," Luz said, in between scared and impressed. "did your favorite character die or something? I hate it when that happens."

Willow sighed.

"No, it's just... it's so hard to read."

"Really? It says here the age rating is 13 and up," Luz pointed at the back of the book.

Willow groaned.

"Is it because you don't understand all the weird sci-fi things? I know you guys still don't know a lot about the human world. It makes sense you don't get all the space and science-y thingies," she laughed. "heck, I'm a human and even I don't get it half the time! It's super confusing, you don't have to feel bad for -"

"That's not it either, Luz."

There was a silence between the two of them. Luz felt the weight of that silence and sat down next to her. The human carefully laid a hand on her best friend's shoulder.

"Hey. You don't have to tell me but it looks like it'll make you feel better to tell someone."

"It's... I don't... it's not that I can't read or write! You've seen me do it! I know how to read and write! I'm not a baby!"

Luz simply stared at her, waiting for her to continue.

"But, even though I can do it, I find it very... difficult. There's lots of words that I can't spell because they're too long, the letters sometimes like... move around and blurr together even when I'm wearing my glasses!" She took off the golden frames as if to clarify. "and I keep getting headaches and I hate it when a sentence has too many comas and -"

"Oh, you have dyslexia!"

Willow stopped her rant to look at her friend. She put her glasses back on, confused.

"What?"

"Oh, that's what humans call it! I don't know how witches call it or if it even has a name here. I didn't know witches could have dyslexia... but I guess it makes sense cause human brains are very similar to witch brains. I wonder if-"

"Luz, what's dyslexia?"

"Oh, right, sorry," she smiled apologetically. "it's a learning disability. It's what you just described. Someone who has a hard time reading, who can't spell long words, who struggles with big books... etcetera."

Willow looked shocked, her mouth slightly opened. It has a name? Other people have it?

"I'm not a doctor so I can't really diagnose you. But, if you want, we can do some research! There's lots of info on the human realm! It's actually a really common thing so we have lots of methods to help make it easier. We can look up Cosmic Frontier audiobooks! You can just listen to it, no reading required."

Despite of herself, Willow smiled. Luz was a really good friend.

"Thank you, Luz. That sounds nice."

"And I bet Hunter will love to help! You know how he loves research!"

The smile dropped as quickly as it had come, replaced by panic.

"NO! DON'T TELL HUNTER!"

"Okay, why?"

"He just... Hunter's so smart and I'm..."

"You're smart! Just because you have a learning disability doesn't make you not smart! Mom has ADHD and she's super smart!"

"What's ADHD?"

"Oh, it's another learning disability. I think I have it too but that's a conversation for another day."

"Mmmkay," Willow shrugged and went back to the matter at hand. "Hunter's so smart and he's such a good reader and... and he's always going on and on about how talented and clever I am and he admires me so much and... I don't want him to be disappointed or to see me different."

Luz stayed silent for a moment while she contemplated what to say. She finally settled on:

"I'm not gonna tell him because I respect your privacy but I think you should tell him. Hunter loves you but he doesn't have you on a pedestal, he knows you're a person with limits and weaknesses. He's not going to be disappointed if you tell him this."

Willow didn't respond but she knew her friend was right. Oh, where would she be without Luz the human?

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A few days of research and information gathering with the assistance of Luz and Camila, and Willow was now ready to come clean to her boyfriend.

She sat with him on a picnic they'd set up in the forest as she laid out all the information. Hunter would occasionally ask a question but, for the most part, he just let her speak. In the end, Willow stared at him in deep dread.

"Wow, ok. Thanks for telling me this," he stopped to take a sip of apple blood before continuing. "how can I help?"

Willow stared at him, processing the words.

"You want to help?" She asked incredulously.

"You're my girlfriend and you need help, therefore, I'm willing to do what I can. Is that not how it works?"

Willow couldn't help but smile. Hunter was getting better at this relationship thing.

"Yeah, thank you. I was just... I was being paranoid."

Hunter tilted his head, offering her to go on.

"You're always... you're so smart and well-read and... you always tell me how talented and clever you think I am and you compliment me for knowing so much about flyer derby and plants and insects... I feel like I'll disappoint you if I'm actually not as smart as you think I am."

Hunter frowned. He did tend to go on about how amazing his girlfriend was, he couldn't help it! He loved her! And she had always looked so happy when he said those things, responding with a smile or a blush or a thank you or paying him a compliment in return.

He didn't realize that maybe there was a bit of a negative side to it.

"Willow, I'm not gonna be disappointed in you for having limits and weaknesses. Nobody's perfect! And that's fine! You're the one who taught me that!

The plant witch snorted. It was true, she had been the one to teach Hunter that. Why couldn't she remember her own advice?

"There it is," Hunter said, fondly.

"There what is?"

"You snort like a pig when you laugh, you kick people in your sleep, you take pictures of strangers on the street like a creeper..." He counted on his fingers. "I could keep going but the point is, I know you're not perfect. It's okay to not be perfect. I don't love you because you're flawless! I love you because you're Willow and you're impossible not to love."

He said that last part so sincerely, she had to believe him. The plant witch grabbed her boyfriend in a tight hug. He hugged her back and she felt the warmth fill her with comfort.

"I love you too, Sunflower."

They kissed. They'd already kissed so many times, it came naturally to them by now. Willow was long familiar with the taste of his lips but it still somehow brought firebees to her stomach no matter how many times she did it. It never got old, she would never get tired of it.

Every time they kissed, like clockwork, flowers came out of Willow's head. It was like her heart and her magic couldn't control themselves when she felt his kisses. This time, the flowers on her hair were white bellflowers.

"Now, back to the 'how can I help?' thing," Hunter said, after they had broken apart. "I think I have an idea you might like."

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Normal people would simply find a Cosmic Frontier audiobook for Willow to listen to. Or maybe they would read to her out loud. Or maybe they'd show her the movie adaptation (tho, she'd been told by Hunter, Gus and Camila that the movie was awful and did a terrible job at adapting the original source material).

Hunter wasn't a normal person, not by a long shot.

He'd decided to act out all of the memorable scenes from the book like it was a play. After telling the others, they had also been incredibly excited to help.

Everyone did something. Willow built the stage and props, Hunter made the costumes and wrote the scripts, Vee and Gus were on special effects with their shapeshifting and illusions respectively, Amity brought some abominations for extra manpower and Luz and Camila put together a playlist of songs that went perfect with every scene. Eda and King brought snacks.

When the night of the premiere finally came, Willow sat down at the Owl House's backyard with Luz, Amity, King, Eda and Raine as they watched it all unfold. Luz took out her phone and started recording because she wanted to put it on Mewtube, Amity didn't understand anything that was going on, Eda ate all the snacks and King fell asleep on Raine's lap halfway through. Perfection.

It wasn't a quality production, it was very low budget and DIY. It reminded Willow of those plays the bard witches from the drama club at Hexside often did. It was silly and weird but it was wonderful.

At the heart of it all were the actors. Vee obviously knew how to play a convincing alien monster, Gus and Camila were not professionals but they felt such passion and appreciation for their character's plight that they could bring themselves to do a pretty good performance. And Hunter was just IN IT! He was an artist lost in his art and Willow never wanted him to stop ever.

His voice cracked with emotion on the dramatic scenes, he stricked poses and smiled at the audience, he recited every line from memory, he even cried on the sad parts. It was hard not to love the book when it inspired something so incredible on all these people she loved.

When the play ended, the actors took a bow and everyone clapped. Luz was the loudest, woohoo-ing and wolf whistling. She cheered so loud, King woke up with a yelp.

Willow made flowers with her magic, throwing them at the stage enthusiastic. Gus caught one and pointed a finger gun, winking at her. Vee caught one and giggled. Camila caught one and her smile got even bigger.

She threw a whole bouquet of roses. Hunter caught it and blew her a kiss.

Yup, this was her new favorite book.

[intersexfairy]

pmdd anon here and thanks for the input! i would like to embrace the community by labelling myself as intersex, but at the same time i would hate to not be welcomed or considered valid as "actually" intersex, as well as the fact that i don't know if it would be considered overstepping just because you're okay with all these variations being linked together based on overlap/experience alone. i may just say questioning instead, but like i mentioned before, any sort of other clarification seems impossible to find, or i just haven't found it yet despite searching.

so i guess my next question would be, what should i call myself? an ally? a broader term for intersex than y'all already have? something in between? reproductively disabled? something else? i'm very lost so help is appreciated 💛

reproductively disabled seems like the most accurate to me. but sex nonconforming may work, too, as i imagine part of why you're drawn to the intersex label is having a different experience of something related to sex. i suppose from there you could also say you're reproductively nonconforming. and there's also the term extersex, for people who don't know if they're dyadic or intersex. i think the term sex queer also exists but im not sure. could make it exist anyway XD

[potionpeddlerpatchy]

Hi dear patchy! Hotaru & I are ready to join your beach party & we even brought a some chilled watermelon slices to stay cool in this heat 🍉 I’m curious about your Hotarana beach day hcs if you have any, pretty please? :3

AND who is your date for your party?

My sweet and darling Nana! A party of mine would not be nearly as fun without you! Though, sadly, as much as I try, Patchy cannot find herself to enjoy watermelon! But, that just means more for you and Hotaru~ 😉💛

Though its hard to tell, Hotaru does enjoy being out on the beach. He enjoys the sand, the waves, and sometimes even taking the occasional long swim - though he would prefer if it wasn't crowded with people.

Either way, he loves to take you out with him! A great way to unwind after a long week - and of course there is no one else he would want to enjoy this small slice of happiness with!

Bring a picnic basket, large towels, and an umbrella because you will be spending the whole day there! (So, I guess bring a book or two as well!)

He would love for you to float around with him in the water, if you're up for it! If not, then he's more than happy to stay landbound. After all, he does enjoy building/creating things, and sand is a wonderful medium.

He creates quite the awe-inspiring castles, for you to admire! Of course, as he builds he asks for your input. But don't try and help him - though he appreciates the sentiment, a master cannot be distracted! Just ensure he drinks enough water and has plenty of sunblock! 🥰

If i were to join you, it would be with Gyomei in tow! (he's great at carrying all that is needed) 🤭 And I would sit and enjoy the suns rays next to you, as Gyomei plays with the kids in the water. Picking them up, gently throwing them into the waves, or carrying them on his shoulders, he certainly gets his fill!

And perhaps we'll even share a picnic~ 😊💛

come join my beach party~ 🔮

[luxurybrownbarbie]

How can I get this princess spoiled mindset and better myself?🤍

Intrinsic vs Extrinsic motivation. 💛

My desire to keep bettering myself is intrinsic. I don’t function well when I’m feeling stagnant or unambitious. I push myself more than anyone else will ever be able to push me, and I don’t compromise on what I want. I’m my biggest critic and my biggest cheerleader, so nothing other people say or do really has an effect on what I want. My reward for doing what I do is self-satisfaction, which doesn’t rely on anyone else’s input.

I, like all people, enjoy being rewarded for what I do. Your self confidence and mindset cannot be based upon extrinsic motivators, you’ll frustrate yourself to no end. Extrinsically, I know that my ambition plus successful results equals external rewards. The rewards are a bonus. I don’t expect them, but I will appreciate them. When I do something, I’m quick to acknowledge whether I’m doing it for self-satisfaction or external rewards. But what happens if the ambition is there, but the outcome isn’t successful?

Basing your mindset on what external rewards you’re going to get out of it will destroy you. I found my life got better when I decided not to speak down about myself, forgive myself, and recognize what the absolute minimum was the could make me happy. Then I worked to exceed that by a thousand.

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[youremyheaven]

Chitra girly here again, I agree with you. Men are shitty. I’m really picky when it comes to men. I make it really hard for them. Like, I had a situationship with a man who wanted to see my kitty cat, but I kept denying him and eventually ghosted him because he wanted to have s*x with me. My ex was a shitty man and never got to have s*x with me because again I denied him and plus he was too aggressive with his approach to s*x and I couldn’t fully trust him. When I was younger, I could neverrr do casual s*x and I hated how d*cks looked like. I just have these thoughts of different types of ways to experience s*x because I’m getting older, I want to experience it, and I been getting sexual urges this year because I’ve repressed them for so long and s*x was shamed in my home and never talked about. Tbh, most men are assholes. My ex was a poor man and was a complete asshole. I have experienced good and bad men. I’m just saying I don’t mind doing the things I need to do to get what I want. Men do it all the time. (This might sound wrong but the double standards are crazy and in the end we are all negatively affected by the system the world has created.) In reality, I’m really careful about s*x. The thoughts about casual s*x is mostly because of my urges but I rather obviously want it with someone I trust. Like I wouldn’t want to do it with a random who has like 500 diseases. Trust is a really big thing for me when it comes to s*x whether it be with a rich man or not. I hope I didn’t come across rude or anything and I appreciate your input!

noooo girlie i understand it 100% and i know the thought process behind it. I lost my virginity to r*pe when I was in school and I feel like i lowkey feel paranoid for all women who are inexperienced or think that they can use sex to their advantage.

but yeah I'd rather bang a rich man than a poor one too lmfao

but it's the idea of climbing the hierarchy using sex that I feel is sus. what we gain quickly, we lose quickly and that's if we gain anything at all.

yk all those tiktoks women make of "how to bag a rich man" everytime i see them I feel so bad for these women bc it's so delusional to place all your bets on a man 😬

but I hope I didn't sound too preachy or anything,, sometimes I be lowkey projecting and giving unsolicited advice 😭😭 but tysm for taking it in good spirit 💛

[accio-victuuri]

i know it’s early to interpret the song based on the teaser lyrics but with what we have, i think we can see what the subject and message of the song is. it is in the point of view of someone who appreciates everything that happened to them both past and present. and isn’t that such a good outlook?

wyb is not credited in the lyrics, but the composer is the same as like the sunshine. lyricist is dongyufang. but again, wyb definitely had some input and the song speaks to him or else he won’t sing it.

now it’s time for some clowning. you can interpret this and stretch it however you want based on every line but i’m just including some connections noticed by cpfs. 🤍

I love early spring and i will love late autumn. I love black hair and i will love gray hair.

the black and gray ( white ) hair in here most likely can talk about himself that he will love his youth and as he ages. it’s all good. but ofc the cpn spin is the contrast in their hair for a time. xz’s black and wyb’s is white ( chanel ). it’s giving the caption he used for his bday that he celebrate with xz on cql set ; that what he decided when he was 21, he will continue on till 81.

the white hair is reminding me of that old sus cpn and the lrlg that joked how xz is stressing wyb out with worry and he will have white hair because of it 😂

I love the wandering people coming home to their doorstep.

This is a line that i guess both of them can relate to, because of how many times in the year they spend away from their home. How they are both wanderers, but what he loves the most is when he/them gets to go home. No matter where they go, they will have somewhere to come home to. This line is also similar to LTS, where he goes — you’ve been wandering for a long time.

if you wanna go years back, there was a rumor that after the filming of cql, they had no contact but there was a sense of hoping to be with each other again.

I love the new and i will love the old. I love waking up from dreams and i will love daydreaming.

the love of new and old here is so romantic, at least to me. it may have a more general feeling in different interpretation, but to me, it’s someone who loves the relationship when it was new and no matter how long it lasts. wyb also loves to joke around xz being “older than him” but the truth is he really doesn’t care. if his comments about xz looking so young and how he doesn’t feel the age gap at all is any indication.

next is the subject of dreams ☁️

this one is the real hammer if you will. it brought us back to xz’s bazaar love confession and how he connected to dreams and waking up to it as when he found the one he loves. they are each other’s dream that has come to life. 😭😭😭😭 ( the bazaar confession is a pretty well known cpn so i won’t explain at length here. i talked about it before on my blog too )

I tightly hold on to the people i love. I love everything I lost in the past.

how he holds on to the people i love, which i think is very true for yibo. that he has a close set of people with him and his inner circle is trusted. but at the same time, he still appreciates those who lost in the past. again — very yibo. even if there are people who he had some falling out with, he won’t speak anything bad about them. and maybe if one day, they ask for forgiveness, he will grant them that.

i’m really looking forward for the two new songs! for his nye performances! the cpn we get is just a bonus! ❤️💛💚

[carry-on-my-wayward-butt]

Hey bestie!!!

I’m so sorry, I meant to include in my first ask about multiplayer that you should feel free to just delete it if it’s not relevant!! (I was out of my lane and prepared for an ask delete lol 😂)

I really appreciate your explanation, it helped quite a bit! I also appreciate your kindness despite my unsolicited input totally lacking context. (Usually I’d mind my business, but you just got me thinking and I wanted to share, so thanks for being gentle with me.)

BUT now that you’ve shared the tea, I have to say it’s piping!! I think the fact that it’s ruining a storyline for you totally rules out “finding a way to make an activity that I don’t like and wouldn’t do otherwise fun for me too” because it IS an activity you would do otherwise!! A friend should be able to respect that.

But even regardless of that, you should be able to say no thanks for any reason without a ton of peer pressure. It sounds like you love them a lot, but that’s still so hard.

Anyways, I’m rooting for your bestie! I hope they start to understand and change, bc ruining BG3 for yourself is NOT EVER a fun group activity 😭💛

i can tell yr a good noodle. and there could be others feeling the same as i do who desire kinship in rage so thats why i wanted to answer it instead of just ignoring it. i appreciate the effort it took to write it all out and send to a relative stranger and i want to pay back that sincerity to people.

thanks for yr messages

[tadpolesonalgae]

i don't mean to be annoying but i was wondering if you were planning on making longer chapters for cbmthy. i remember you saying something abt it but i'm not sure. it's just that bc the fic is slow burn longer chapters would help with the waiting...and it's my favorite fic so i'm kinda being greedy wanting more

So honestly, I think after The Other Woman I might feel a bit more comfortable with slightly longer chapters? Not really long, but a bit? The only thing is that writing more for the chapters might mean it takes longer for the next part to be finished 🫣🫠

And you’re not annoying at all, any sort of input I always appreciate, especially regarding cbmthy! And thank you so much for enjoying it! I’m hoping to have part 13 finished by Friday? (I think🤞) so I hope you enjoy that when it’s ready :) 🧡💛

[your-gay-grandma]

with regards to your dilemma, as someone who is currently dating the person who is and was their best friend, it can go well! the fact that they are a lesbian probably means youre not gonna have to deal with any 'ew what the hell' type reactions, but only you will know whether it is worth the risk, if you guys are close im sure with time if the feelings arent reciprocated youll be able to repair your friendship, however if you dont say something it could equally strain your friendship, so its up to you. Also like, not to assume anything but we do have the reputation for being entirely oblivious so they may even have feelings for you too, you'll never know unless you ask... anyway best of luck whatever you decide! im sure itll go fine :-)

you all do not know how much i appreciate your sweet and thoughtful input and encouragement and advice! it warms my heart to know that you are dating your best friend - what a beautiful and special thing!

there have been several times where i think this friend and i may have been “flirting” but me being autistic and having a little trouble reading these things, i can’t be too sure!

that said, i may try and build up the courage to express my own feelings a little more clearly!

thank you ever so much my dear 💛

[tordenvejr]

hey vic 💓

i would love your input on something if you’re willing. my eating disorder has gotten unmanageable and i want to recover but i feel like i can’t without an audience, if that makes sense. a big part of me wants to be sicker, and the part that wants to recover thinks im not sick enough to warrant recovery yet. i think about trying to challenge a behavior and it feels useless unless everyone around me knows about it and is proud of me for it, like i can’t just do it for myself to be happier. i’ve been to treatment twice, and i think now my brain thinks that im only allowed to recover in that setting. im also really struggling with the possibility of weight gain. i gained a lot of weight during my second round of treatment and maintained that for 2 years until this relapse, but the whole time i was absolutely miserable and felt awful about myself. i feel like if i gain weight again it’s going to be the exact same thing and i can’t deal with that again; i hated myself so much. now that i’ve lost most of the weight i’d gained i recognize myself again and i don’t want to go back to how i felt before. any thoughts or advice would be immensely appreciated. thank you vic.

hi 💛 be curious to get to the root fear of the resistance to getting better, we'll ask a lot of questions to cover a lot of ground, some may be resonant and have big answers, others may not be relevant. go with what makes sense to you ✨🌻

• what are you protecting yourself from?

• what are you truly trying to control?

• what emotional needs do you have that are not being tended to right now?

• which parts of yourself do you reject or shame?

• what do you perceive that you gain from being sick?

• do you feel that you are allowed to be visible and take up space, emotionally and expressively? do you feel comfortable with this? why, why not?

• are there any people you are not comfortable being perceived by? when and how did that begin?

• what need is your disordered eating fulfilling albeit in a harmful way? control - if so what are you afraid of surrendering to, what are you afraid will happen if you don't have it? comfort - what do you need comfort around, what other ways could you fulfill this need? being invisible to certain people and feeling safer as a result - how else could you tackle this need for safety? gaining approval - whose approval do you want? why would disordered eating provide this?

you can extend the curiosity to things that you yourself are saying:

• why do you need to be witnessed to care for yourself? go with whatever answer intuitively comes up. has there ever been a time where you were rejected, alone and you tried to justify the treatment by also abandoning yourself?

• what does your story look like in terms of health and the care you've received growing up? has there been a certain extend of suffering needed to be cared for?

• do you feel others are proud of you, in general and/or in various aspects of your life? do you feel that they care or that they are indifferent to you? do you feel that your recovery matters in their lives? it doesn't matter what you think, what do you feel?

i find that little of disordered eating is actually about the physical aspect, it's how it shows up and how we recognize it, but it's almost always tied to something else

i'll give you my experience for insight. when i was experiencing disordered eating as a child and as a teenager - anorexia, binging, bulimia it was at a time i didn't feel there was any space for me. i was anxious, scared, actively experiencing trauma. dissociating all the time as a result of said trauma. i didn't feel safe or "good", i felt i should disappear. i felt no one understood, listened, or could help me. i needed food for comfort, to soothe because i didn't have any emotional regulation tools, and i couldn't bear being visible to others. this was after many years of being groomed online as well, plus having a very strange relationship to my body in terms of my gender identity and experiencing dysphoria. i'm sharing this because the environment around me, my emotional state and the state of my nervous system was a huge part of my disordered eating. and for me, what really helped me get better was healing my relationship with me, gaining tools for emotional regulation, fostering acceptance and then love for me, not my body, me. it doesn't mean it can't still be hard for me at times or i can't be triggered, but when i do i understand why and what happened and i don't spiral. know your triggers. for me my main one is getting misgendered a lot in a short span of time, so when that happens, i'm aware, i tend to myself, i give myself space to struggle - while tending to and giving my body care and food. it is possible to have a very sturdy healthy baseline, and at the heart of it, i think, is emotional healing + feeling safe ⭐️

[ilovedthestars]

congrats on the ability to answer ask memes, stars! I shall ask you: single heart emoji, gift box, yellow heart, pallette?

(usually when I answer these I include a link to the meme for reference- also, bc of the way my phone is rude, these emoji descriptions might not match what you see XD just lmk if so)

thank you verso!!! look at me, answering an ask!! I feel very fancy! (I appreciate the tips very much lol)

let's see, this should be a link to the ask game: Fanfic Writer Ask Game

and I think the ones you asked for are: ❤️🎁💛🎨 ❤️ What is your favorite line that you’ve written in a fic?

Obviously this has to be something from carry us to freedom. The line about “safety as the unfaithful child of obedience” is the one that people quote back at me all the time, and I’m very proud of it, but I’m going to go with something different. I’m cheating because this is two lines, but it doesn’t make sense alone and I really like it because it distills a lot of the writing I’ve done with SecUnits going rogue: “But those who have had their first taste of hope are soon addicted to its ache. They would leave behind this life-long death for a single breath of freedom, even if a second breath is too much to ask for.”

🎁 Have a piece of a WIP you want to share?

verso thank you for enabling me. I always want to talk about WIPs. the question is which WIP snippet I haven't already put on discord that will make sense without too much explanation. hmmm....here, how about a sneak peek at chapter 2 of Old Unit, Young Unit? don't mind the [bracket notes], this isn't polished yet.

This is not a security incident. Cameras show that a crowd is gathering in the [public space]. The supervisors are looking for a way for the workers to blow off steam without diminishing productivity. 

When we enter, the crowd of humans gets loud and rowdy. HubSystem is smart enough to recommend that another two SecUnits be redirected here in case the crowd becomes out of control. I backburner most of my SecSys inputs. They will be irrelevant to my current task. The supervisor has given us our instructions.

Beside me, Unit 8891 stiffens almost imperceptibly. Young units are often distressed by situations like this one. I am not. I have been in similar situations more times than I can count. Unit 8891 is lucky that we have been ordered not to use our energy weapons. 

Unit 8891 pings me. Is that a challenge? A threat? I ping back. I’m not interested in posturing. I will ensure the fight is as short and uneventful as the supervisors will allow. 

Knowing humans, it will not be short or uneventful.

💛 What is the most impactful lesson you’ve learned about writing?

The thing I have learned and am learning and will probably never be done learning is how to be less of a perfectionist, lol. I get very embarrassed about sharing work that’s not up to my very high standards for myself. But honestly fanfic and ao3 and discord have really helped me with that—sometimes I want to show off this cool thing I made more than I want it to be perfect!! And knowing that people will enthuse over cool ideas with me even if I don’t write them perfectly is so freeing.

🎨 If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?

Oh my goodness LITERALLY ANYTHING, I would be so honored if someone made art of my fic!!! But if I had to pick something…well, carry us to freedom is still my most beloved fic (altho Old Unit, Young Unit might catch up once I have more of it to share!). I’m not really sure how you would visualize it, since it’s very short but also broad in scope and there aren’t really any specific characters, but if someone could find a way to capture the prosetry vibes in art I would be in awe. A lot of my others are just sort of miscellaneous Murderbot interactions and emotions and somewhat similar to each other—but ooh, you know what else would be fun to see visualized? what did I do?, the fic i have gotten the most wordless screaming for.

thank you again for the questions, verso!! 💜 (fingers crossed that I post this correctly)