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[band--psycho]

141 x Reader - Them Paying For Your Nails

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These are only my opinions on what the guys would be like, so please no hate!!

Kyle Garrick

He would 100% have an input on your nails, he’d be happy to scroll through Pinterest with you for hours if need be. Searching for the perfect design that you loved. 

He wouldn’t care how much they cost either. 

“What about this design?” Kyle suggested, leaning over to you slightly so he could show you the nail design he had on his phone.

There was no denying that you absolutely loved them; they were exactly what you’d been looking for…but you also knew that getting a nail set like that wouldn’t exactly be cheap. 

“You don’t like them?” He asked, noticing how your smile faltered the longer you looked at the picture. 

“I love them, but they’ll be so expensive Kyle,” you answered softly, continuing to scroll through your own phone for inspiration. 

“I’ll pay for them,” Kyle said with a smile on his face.

You opened your mouth in an attempt to protest his offer, not because you weren’t grateful but because you felt bad letting him spend that much money on your nails.

But before you could even get a word out, his finger was on your lips, silencing you, “No arguments.”

You knew better than to try and argue with him after that, so the next day you came out of the salon; with not only a brand new set of stunning nails, but also a very proud looking Kyle. 

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Johnny McTavish

Johnny would happily help you pick a colour for the base of your nail set when you undoubtedly became indecisive of what to choose from; and he’d leave the rest for you to decide unless you were stuck on what to choose from. 

It reminded him of when his sisters used to ask for his opinion on such things. 

When it comes to paying for them, he would have no problem with agreeing to it. 

He loved spoiling you, with whatever you wanted, so if you wanted your nails done he’d happily pay for them. 

But I don’t think Johnny would realise how expensive it would be, his sisters never really told him that, think the poor guy could pass out from the shock when he finds out. 

“They look beautiful, Bon,” Johnny beamed, mirroring the smile that was on your face. 

God how he loved it when you smiled. 

“Let’s see if you still think they’re beautiful when you find out how much they cost,” you said softly, you’d already warned him that they weren’t going to be cheap, yet the Scotsman still insisted on paying for them.

A moment you were certain he was regretting as the nail artist told him the price, the colour draining a little from his face. 

“Steamin’ Jesus,” he muttered, his eyes wide as he looked at the price on the screen, then at you, before looking back at the screen. 

“Ye gonna have to persuade Price to give me a raise,” he continued with a soft chuckle, the colour now returning to his face as reached inside his jacket pocket for his wallet.

As shocked as he was by the price, it was worth every single penny, because the smile that was on your lips was priceless to him. 

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Simon Riley 

Simon, I don’t think would really be bothered by the colour or design you had on your nails as long as it made you happy. 

Much like the other two, he would love spoiling you but unlike Johnny, he knew how expensive the types of nail sets you liked could be. 

Would he still pay for it? Of course.

I also imagine him watching what the nail artist was doing, meticulously so. 

He would observe every detail, perhaps taking notes on how to do what the nail artist was doing. 

“What are you doing?” You questioned, unsure of why Simon was sitting on the chair next to you, with his pocket notebook in hand. 

“Taking notes,” he answered simply, as though what he was doing was the most obvious thing in the world. 

“Why?” You questioned again, making a small frustrated sign slip passed Simon’s lips at your interruption.

“So I can do them for you next time,” was all he said, turning his attention back to quickly writing notes in his notebook.

You couldn’t help a smile from growing on your lips, nor could you stop the heat from rising to your cheeks at his words. 

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John Price 

John would probably not be super phased about what colour or design you got on your nails, although he did prefer more simplistic styles, as long as it made you happy, then he was happy. 

But he would probably have a limit on how much he’d pay for them unless you really loved them. 

“Hmmm, I don’t know sweetheart,” John began, raising his hand to his bearded chin, pondering the amount of the money this was going to cost him. 

To be clear, the money was not the sole reason for his reservations on your design. The main reason was because John knew you. Knew how often you changed your mind on nail designs. You could love it one minute, get them done and then absolutely hate them a few days later. 

He just wanted you to be sure that this was the design that you wanted. 

He looked over at you, sighing at the sight in front of them. 

He knew what you were doing, the pouty bottom lip and puppy dog eyes, something that was like kryptonite to John. 

“Sure these are what you want?” He asked, lifting his hand to your cheek. 

“I’m sure,” you nodded with a smile. 

“Okay,” was all John said, reaching inside his jacket before placing his wallet in your hand. 

He knew that you were still probably going to change your mind, but regardless of this, he couldn’t say no to you. 

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[willo-ly]

Looool— I should have known.

Gonna do all 4, but in the order of popularity. Keep an eye out! 💛

Uuuugh—

There are so many fandoms I want to draw fanart for, but I have no time.

I have a Griddlehark AU surprise in the works, but stiiiiilll…

[accio-victuuri]

August CPNs round-up ❤️💛💚

it’s bobo’s birth month! let’s start with this chaotic behind the scenes video 🫶🏼

• the letters yb was flashed in xzs vlog

• two people spotted in xz’s mountain drawing

• a hongkong politician posts about xz and wyb being good celebrities that will help promote HK

• 8/5 yibo’s day clowning part one part two - this year was too loud! the bday photo alone is enough to szd. 😂😂😂😂 part 2.5 part 3

• yibo and xz related hot search for bobo’s bday

THEIR VCRs for Han Hong’s foundation, a charity organization they both are a part of. We love them generous Kings!

• in the xinxiangyin live, we see an activity that they filled with things xz likes and will have something to talk about. you will notice a couple are the same as yibo’s. hotpot ( which i must admit is more general ), photography, fitness, tennis and films.

you can say that these are not unique interests, but when you put them together and another person has the same one seem sus. this is something i always say, even if you don’t believe that they are in a romantic relationship — these clues show that they have maintained that connection. no matter how many people cry about the “copying” agenda, we can’t deny that the coincidences are too much. this is why they get along, they can adapt each other’s interest. they have the same values. they are out here ticking all the boxes for a fruitful relationship <3

• the similarity 👀👀👀 right is xz in ELLE’s feature video for XZ.

• QUATRE BLUE 💙💙💙

oooohhhh i love jewelry. tho i’m kinda on the fence about this cause boucheron is a brand that xz is promoting and it makes sense that it will be used for a magazine. he is endorsing this line of rings but has never used this blue which just happened to be something wyb before. i understand why people are going 👀 because the photos were released days after Bobo’s bday.

• XZ’s Elle September issue feature clowning

• 8/10 yibo-official bts video clue

• yibo’s montbell shirt

• bobo shows some bxg bias @ pechoin live

• in the LINSY product launch conference, they were talking about a sofa and it had a special feature thing where you can put stuff in it & wyb mentions you can put chips. lol. that was so fast. he is not someone who likes chips, but we know one who does! i’d like to think that it’s a subconscious answer. he just thought of an important person in his life. 🫶🏼

• matching high school students hair 😂😂😂

• ANTA 🤝 LI NING

• their airport fashion looking so identical 👀 we could argue all day about how this is not unique and just about anyone can do this combo.. but does anyone else do this? no. it’s always these two. it’s harder to tell them apart when they are like this, which we guess is helping them when they visit each other on set.

the two of them doing couple wear!

• bottled joy x tsingtao collab 🍻

• xz’s heurueh boyfriend t shirt

• mengniu fan benefit featuring the boys

• handprints next to each other in the Qixi Wall

• this gif is gold!!!! pleaseeee!!!!! 😂😂😂😂 and it even went on hot search!

• analysis and details of wyb’s new song = somebody else’s arms

• wyb’s post YH concert weibo update 🟡🟡🟡

• i talked briefly about the cpf support during the concert and i have nothing more to add. i’m sure i can make another post that “shows” how wyb appreciated the cpfs indirectly during the concert but i won’t. there is no need for proofs of any kind — we know the truth. 😌😌😌 tho i will never be pro violence or insulting and being very mean to people in person just to prove a point. there’s a whole nasty situation that happened post concert which i have no energy for and i do not condone btw.

• their weibo 15th bday post 🌙

• the final episodes of exploring the unknown is on oct 5-6 because tencent has released the watching schedule. yes, wyb probably had a lot more input in this project but he was probably not alone in deciding when this would premiere and how the episodes are gonna line up. but i’m still happy with this coincidence. ✌🏼

what we wanna know tho is what will be the episode on 10/5 cause if it’s him in the desert i will — 🤯! cause his photo there was the one he used for his bday, which is eerily similar to GG’s from last year. so yeah. we will see!

-END.

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See you all next month!!!!! 💛💛💛

[c0untry-mouse]

I come to you, oh High Priest of Horny Sunday, with a puzzle I’m stuck on. I say this with love and affection for all and a desire to keep everyone feeling welcome and horny on our most holy day. It’s awesome that so many people have loving wives to brag about in detail…. But for those of us who don’t, it’s kind of a bummer? And becomes a little “Ah this is for people who currently have partners, not me. I am embarrassed and sad I can’t participate equally and disappointed in myself that their fun makes me feel bad.”

Putting our heads together, is there some tag or something to sort this so everyone can continue to have fun, including feeling welcome and joyous in their wife-bragging? There’s not an easy answer here and the last thing I want to do is quash anyone’s Holy Horny! But maybe I’ll be taking a step back otherwise.

Hi anon,

Firstly, thank you for coming to me about this. I love this little community and the last thing I would ever want to do is cause someone to leave it with my silliness - so I am very motivated to reach a solution here, even if that solution ends up being me shutting up a bit.

Secondly, it seems like this is the kind of issue which is going to require a little back and forth to reach a solution, so if you are comfortable doing so please do slide into my DMs and we can chat about which content in particular gives you The Sads ™️ and which you still want to see. I assume blocking the entire #📯💒 tag is not what you want here? (If you want to talk to someone objectively nicer than me hit up @modestflamboyance or @jamie-clayton and talk it out with them. I will enact whatever you guys agree to 🫡)

Perhaps it's simply a matter of consolidating our #wifeposting #wifeguy #mrs27 tags into something we all use to denote such content? Or do we need to separate generic wife stuff from horny wife stuff?

With regards to the questions and polls and such, believe it or not we do put a fair amount of thought and discussion into making them as inclusive as possible - albeit the "we" I'm talking about is 3 people married to women so perhaps we could use your input with that?

Anyone please feel free to hop into the notes of this post if you've got any ideas or if you've got your own concerns we could work out together as well...

With love and appreciation to the wholes Rizzles fam, who have made me so so happy since I found you.

- your devoted court jester 🃏, 27.

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

[partyof4game]

hi! i just found your if but i find it a bit strange (?) that you can only choose to be nb as your agab, not as a trans option for afab or amab ppl. is there a reason you did it this way? ty in advance for your answer!

Hello! Thank you for this ask because the gender section is something I've been tinkering with for a hot minute. At the moment the choices that lead to a trans character is to choose your birth gender m/f, and then you'll be prompted with "is this still true to you?" if you select no, the game will change all of the relevant pronouns and set a trans variable as well as an amab and afab variable based on the og choice.

However, I've been wondering if pulling that from behind the m/f/nb choices would be easier, so everything is presented all on one line. Any input would be appreciated! 💛 Edit: I reread this and I think I missed the original point LMFAO. Not me being obtuse af. 😂

You know what, though, I think you're right. I am going to work on this, too. I dislike the idea of starting with a binary, but I think it would work really well for later in the game when explicit scenes come up.

The letter is based on the infant body, so acknowledging its incorrectness would be good.

[tilseptemberends]

Working on one of my fics and I'm torn on Neris parts because we've got two options if I want them to be endgame. The first being that she's still Cassian's mate and I have to deal with that if I ever write a sequel fic. Or skip all that and make her and Eris mates instead. Input appreciated 💛

[stoopid-turtle]

hello... 😅 uhm, first of all, i truly am sorry in advance for being awkward 😭 but for once i decided not to let my awkwardness keep me from sharing (what i think/hope are) positive thoughts with a stranger on the internet, so here i am.

i'm not around much and legit only made this acc bc like you i'm a late bloomer here and needed as many outlets for my yizhan/wangxian obsession as i could get my greedy hands on, in the big year of 2023... sigh. anyway, as an avid lover of meta/analysis posts since my early fandom days began around 15 (oof 🥲) years ago, finding your acc was such a lovely surprise. i agree with your views a LOT, and really appreciate how eloquent and well-written your posts are! even more so bc there's a lot i still don't know and most of the time the source material is very hard to reach and/or understand due to the language barrier, so having other turtles to rely on to access those, even if filtered by their own biases/opinions, is wonderful. besides, such input coming from a new fan is also comforting and imo refreshing, juxtaposed with that of older fans... it keeps the fandom alive and all that jazz. it's also very brave given how ruthless some folks can be on the internet, and on this corner in particular 😮‍💨 it just felt like reading my own thoughts written by someone else sometimes. i gasped and nodded at your posts soooo many times djskdjdj thank you for that!

(btw you followed me back the other day and i legit fangirled irl bc ??? whatttttt 😅 i still think it was an accident but okay omg djskdjdj AHEM. sorry)

then today i logged in and read your recent posts feeling squeamish about sharing more thoughts and as much as i 100% relate to you saying that kind of attention makes you anxious, i just... idk, i had to let you know i enjoy everything you post, even though adult life has kept me from being able to read it all so far. i understand you stepping back and i respect that decision, i'm not by any means asking you to go against what you know is best for you. at the same time, i can't help but hope you'll still show up every now and then bc your posts will be missed 🥲 i guess the whole motivation behind this is that it just made me sad to think your valuable insights will be something i'm yet again late to, if that makes sense?

djskdjdj again, i'm so sorry for being awkward and weird and dropping all of this on your inbox unprovoked. you don't have to reply (or read this AT ALL omg 😭😭), in fact i'm so embarrassed by this that you'd probably have to reach me through inquiry lmaooo 💀 anyway, have a great life, thank you so much for the great job, bjyxszd etc ❤️💚💛

Oh, don't be anxious! I'm really not a big deal.

Thank you for dropping into my inbox! I love hearing from other turtles, especially relative newbies, like myself! One of my fav parts of coming out of lurking mode is getting to talk to other people. I kinda follow back anybody who follows me, cause it seems polite? I don't know tumblr etiquette. I just follow the tags when I get the chance.

I appreciate the encouragement! I try to avoid dramatics, so I'm sorry for the upset last week. The situation is largely resolved, and I am feeling more okay. I kinda backed off because I wasn't sure of my footing here in fandom as compared to others, especially as I do think I have some takes that fall outside fandom consensus. Again, I don't mean to rock any boats and I'm not invested in convincing anybody that they should have the same opinions as I do. Hearing from turtles who do want me to continue posting gave me some more confidence there.

So, yeah, I expect I'll post some more as I have time. I'd like to post more on dd (cause he's my fav). I'd also like to try to figure out gg cause that dude is so confusing to me. I do have RL stuff going on, and I don't have the time to be super-active outside of occasional posts. But I'd like keep posting stuff. At least until I get all my Yizhan thoughts out.

[gregorygerwitz]

As a queer servicemember who did serve during dadt that got out the year before it was repealed - FUCK DADT, it ruined lives and fuck the fact that it took so long for our military members to get their dishonorables changed and the fact that they left homosexuality on the new dd214s so former service members still had it follow them.

As someone who has never served myself and only has internet research and old Navy stories from my grandfather and cousin and one former coworker who was briefly in the army to go by, and every single one of them is cishet, I appreciate your input immensely. and, quieter, thank you for this, specifically, because this is exactly my point, I just don't have all the exacts to back it up like this. I've been doing my best to not rant about it and start things because it's about a fictional character it isn't that deep but also... considering how many people it affected in real life, yes it is.

I can't tell if you're yelling at me, specifically, or just using the anon function in my inbox to protect yourself from the fandom having different opinions (I get that, zero judgement whatsoever, I've been doing that a lot the last ~week just so I can have my opinion out there and avoid the backlash that comes with that and protect my sanity), but I'm going to put my own thoughts here, too, either way, because I feel like we're on the same page?

I know that using DADT seems like an easy out for speedrunning Tommy's timeline and making him younger than he would logically be to fit Lou's age (45 isn't old and 45 doesn't "look" all that different from 39 unless you're being ageist but whatever), but it's really not. There are so many complications that come with it - such as a dishonorable discharge.

Someone reblogged one of my posts earlier this week (the same person my vague post was about today, and I'll keep it vague I'm not here to call people out directly this is my blog and I'm going to put my opinion on it, no one should go harassing this person about any of it because it's fictional characters, they're allowed to have different opinions and headcanons about things), with a comment about how the LAFD (and PD? it's less relevant and I don't want to scroll back in their blog or my notifs for something minor like that) was hiring people regardless of sexuality in the 90s. Good for them! That doesn't change the dishonorable discharge tho!

Like... please correct me if I'm wrong, because again, I have no personal experience with any of this, just too much time on my hands and too many military blorbos, but when a dishonorable discharge shows up on someone's record, it doesn't necessarily say why it's there. It doesn't say if it's related to DADT or some other incident in the field or whatever it is. So yes, while the LAFD might have been hiring queer people far sooner than that, they still aren't going to look at a guy who has a (recent!) dishonorable discharge and say "yeah, we're going to put him through our training, which costs taxpayers x amount of money, and then hire him and pay him to have someone's life and death in his hands."

DADT and all the discharges that came from it completely ruined lives and made going on with any kind of career, especially something for the government even on the level of firefighting or police work, all but impossible. It's not an easy out to make Tommy the same age as Lou. It's actually completely nonsensical because he never would have been allowed to even get within 100ft of the fire academy, let alone be a senior member of a firehouse in 2009 when Hen joined the 1118.

There is a reason it's called a dishonorable discharge, and it would have completely ruined his life, no matter what the reason was for it.

(also, re: the game I play with Kit and Cass, the complaint this morning puts Tommy's age at 55 💛)

[intersexfairy]

pmdd anon here and thanks for the input! i would like to embrace the community by labelling myself as intersex, but at the same time i would hate to not be welcomed or considered valid as "actually" intersex, as well as the fact that i don't know if it would be considered overstepping just because you're okay with all these variations being linked together based on overlap/experience alone. i may just say questioning instead, but like i mentioned before, any sort of other clarification seems impossible to find, or i just haven't found it yet despite searching.

so i guess my next question would be, what should i call myself? an ally? a broader term for intersex than y'all already have? something in between? reproductively disabled? something else? i'm very lost so help is appreciated 💛

reproductively disabled seems like the most accurate to me. but sex nonconforming may work, too, as i imagine part of why you're drawn to the intersex label is having a different experience of something related to sex. i suppose from there you could also say you're reproductively nonconforming. and there's also the term extersex, for people who don't know if they're dyadic or intersex. i think the term sex queer also exists but im not sure. could make it exist anyway XD

[potionpeddlerpatchy]

Hi dear patchy! Hotaru & I are ready to join your beach party & we even brought a some chilled watermelon slices to stay cool in this heat 🍉 I’m curious about your Hotarana beach day hcs if you have any, pretty please? :3

AND who is your date for your party?

My sweet and darling Nana! A party of mine would not be nearly as fun without you! Though, sadly, as much as I try, Patchy cannot find herself to enjoy watermelon! But, that just means more for you and Hotaru~ 😉💛

Though its hard to tell, Hotaru does enjoy being out on the beach. He enjoys the sand, the waves, and sometimes even taking the occasional long swim - though he would prefer if it wasn't crowded with people.

Either way, he loves to take you out with him! A great way to unwind after a long week - and of course there is no one else he would want to enjoy this small slice of happiness with!

Bring a picnic basket, large towels, and an umbrella because you will be spending the whole day there! (So, I guess bring a book or two as well!)

He would love for you to float around with him in the water, if you're up for it! If not, then he's more than happy to stay landbound. After all, he does enjoy building/creating things, and sand is a wonderful medium.

He creates quite the awe-inspiring castles, for you to admire! Of course, as he builds he asks for your input. But don't try and help him - though he appreciates the sentiment, a master cannot be distracted! Just ensure he drinks enough water and has plenty of sunblock! 🥰

If i were to join you, it would be with Gyomei in tow! (he's great at carrying all that is needed) 🤭 And I would sit and enjoy the suns rays next to you, as Gyomei plays with the kids in the water. Picking them up, gently throwing them into the waves, or carrying them on his shoulders, he certainly gets his fill!

And perhaps we'll even share a picnic~ 😊💛

come join my beach party~ 🔮

[luxurybrownbarbie]

How can I get this princess spoiled mindset and better myself?🤍

Intrinsic vs Extrinsic motivation. 💛

My desire to keep bettering myself is intrinsic. I don’t function well when I’m feeling stagnant or unambitious. I push myself more than anyone else will ever be able to push me, and I don’t compromise on what I want. I’m my biggest critic and my biggest cheerleader, so nothing other people say or do really has an effect on what I want. My reward for doing what I do is self-satisfaction, which doesn’t rely on anyone else’s input.

I, like all people, enjoy being rewarded for what I do. Your self confidence and mindset cannot be based upon extrinsic motivators, you’ll frustrate yourself to no end. Extrinsically, I know that my ambition plus successful results equals external rewards. The rewards are a bonus. I don’t expect them, but I will appreciate them. When I do something, I’m quick to acknowledge whether I’m doing it for self-satisfaction or external rewards. But what happens if the ambition is there, but the outcome isn’t successful?

Basing your mindset on what external rewards you’re going to get out of it will destroy you. I found my life got better when I decided not to speak down about myself, forgive myself, and recognize what the absolute minimum was the could make me happy. Then I worked to exceed that by a thousand.

L

[youremyheaven]

Chitra girly here again, I agree with you. Men are shitty. I’m really picky when it comes to men. I make it really hard for them. Like, I had a situationship with a man who wanted to see my kitty cat, but I kept denying him and eventually ghosted him because he wanted to have s*x with me. My ex was a shitty man and never got to have s*x with me because again I denied him and plus he was too aggressive with his approach to s*x and I couldn’t fully trust him. When I was younger, I could neverrr do casual s*x and I hated how d*cks looked like. I just have these thoughts of different types of ways to experience s*x because I’m getting older, I want to experience it, and I been getting sexual urges this year because I’ve repressed them for so long and s*x was shamed in my home and never talked about. Tbh, most men are assholes. My ex was a poor man and was a complete asshole. I have experienced good and bad men. I’m just saying I don’t mind doing the things I need to do to get what I want. Men do it all the time. (This might sound wrong but the double standards are crazy and in the end we are all negatively affected by the system the world has created.) In reality, I’m really careful about s*x. The thoughts about casual s*x is mostly because of my urges but I rather obviously want it with someone I trust. Like I wouldn’t want to do it with a random who has like 500 diseases. Trust is a really big thing for me when it comes to s*x whether it be with a rich man or not. I hope I didn’t come across rude or anything and I appreciate your input!

noooo girlie i understand it 100% and i know the thought process behind it. I lost my virginity to r*pe when I was in school and I feel like i lowkey feel paranoid for all women who are inexperienced or think that they can use sex to their advantage.

but yeah I'd rather bang a rich man than a poor one too lmfao

but it's the idea of climbing the hierarchy using sex that I feel is sus. what we gain quickly, we lose quickly and that's if we gain anything at all.

yk all those tiktoks women make of "how to bag a rich man" everytime i see them I feel so bad for these women bc it's so delusional to place all your bets on a man 😬

but I hope I didn't sound too preachy or anything,, sometimes I be lowkey projecting and giving unsolicited advice 😭😭 but tysm for taking it in good spirit 💛

[accio-victuuri]

i know it’s early to interpret the song based on the teaser lyrics but with what we have, i think we can see what the subject and message of the song is. it is in the point of view of someone who appreciates everything that happened to them both past and present. and isn’t that such a good outlook?

wyb is not credited in the lyrics, but the composer is the same as like the sunshine. lyricist is dongyufang. but again, wyb definitely had some input and the song speaks to him or else he won’t sing it.

now it’s time for some clowning. you can interpret this and stretch it however you want based on every line but i’m just including some connections noticed by cpfs. 🤍

I love early spring and i will love late autumn. I love black hair and i will love gray hair.

the black and gray ( white ) hair in here most likely can talk about himself that he will love his youth and as he ages. it’s all good. but ofc the cpn spin is the contrast in their hair for a time. xz’s black and wyb’s is white ( chanel ). it’s giving the caption he used for his bday that he celebrate with xz on cql set ; that what he decided when he was 21, he will continue on till 81.

the white hair is reminding me of that old sus cpn and the lrlg that joked how xz is stressing wyb out with worry and he will have white hair because of it 😂

I love the wandering people coming home to their doorstep.

This is a line that i guess both of them can relate to, because of how many times in the year they spend away from their home. How they are both wanderers, but what he loves the most is when he/them gets to go home. No matter where they go, they will have somewhere to come home to. This line is also similar to LTS, where he goes — you’ve been wandering for a long time.

if you wanna go years back, there was a rumor that after the filming of cql, they had no contact but there was a sense of hoping to be with each other again.

I love the new and i will love the old. I love waking up from dreams and i will love daydreaming.

the love of new and old here is so romantic, at least to me. it may have a more general feeling in different interpretation, but to me, it’s someone who loves the relationship when it was new and no matter how long it lasts. wyb also loves to joke around xz being “older than him” but the truth is he really doesn’t care. if his comments about xz looking so young and how he doesn’t feel the age gap at all is any indication.

next is the subject of dreams ☁️

this one is the real hammer if you will. it brought us back to xz’s bazaar love confession and how he connected to dreams and waking up to it as when he found the one he loves. they are each other’s dream that has come to life. 😭😭😭😭 ( the bazaar confession is a pretty well known cpn so i won’t explain at length here. i talked about it before on my blog too )

I tightly hold on to the people i love. I love everything I lost in the past.

how he holds on to the people i love, which i think is very true for yibo. that he has a close set of people with him and his inner circle is trusted. but at the same time, he still appreciates those who lost in the past. again — very yibo. even if there are people who he had some falling out with, he won’t speak anything bad about them. and maybe if one day, they ask for forgiveness, he will grant them that.

i’m really looking forward for the two new songs! for his nye performances! the cpn we get is just a bonus! ❤️💛💚

[carry-on-my-wayward-butt]

Hey bestie!!!

I’m so sorry, I meant to include in my first ask about multiplayer that you should feel free to just delete it if it’s not relevant!! (I was out of my lane and prepared for an ask delete lol 😂)

I really appreciate your explanation, it helped quite a bit! I also appreciate your kindness despite my unsolicited input totally lacking context. (Usually I’d mind my business, but you just got me thinking and I wanted to share, so thanks for being gentle with me.)

BUT now that you’ve shared the tea, I have to say it’s piping!! I think the fact that it’s ruining a storyline for you totally rules out “finding a way to make an activity that I don’t like and wouldn’t do otherwise fun for me too” because it IS an activity you would do otherwise!! A friend should be able to respect that.

But even regardless of that, you should be able to say no thanks for any reason without a ton of peer pressure. It sounds like you love them a lot, but that’s still so hard.

Anyways, I’m rooting for your bestie! I hope they start to understand and change, bc ruining BG3 for yourself is NOT EVER a fun group activity 😭💛

i can tell yr a good noodle. and there could be others feeling the same as i do who desire kinship in rage so thats why i wanted to answer it instead of just ignoring it. i appreciate the effort it took to write it all out and send to a relative stranger and i want to pay back that sincerity to people.

thanks for yr messages

[tordenvejr]

hey vic 💓

i would love your input on something if you’re willing. my eating disorder has gotten unmanageable and i want to recover but i feel like i can’t without an audience, if that makes sense. a big part of me wants to be sicker, and the part that wants to recover thinks im not sick enough to warrant recovery yet. i think about trying to challenge a behavior and it feels useless unless everyone around me knows about it and is proud of me for it, like i can’t just do it for myself to be happier. i’ve been to treatment twice, and i think now my brain thinks that im only allowed to recover in that setting. im also really struggling with the possibility of weight gain. i gained a lot of weight during my second round of treatment and maintained that for 2 years until this relapse, but the whole time i was absolutely miserable and felt awful about myself. i feel like if i gain weight again it’s going to be the exact same thing and i can’t deal with that again; i hated myself so much. now that i’ve lost most of the weight i’d gained i recognize myself again and i don’t want to go back to how i felt before. any thoughts or advice would be immensely appreciated. thank you vic.

hi 💛 be curious to get to the root fear of the resistance to getting better, we'll ask a lot of questions to cover a lot of ground, some may be resonant and have big answers, others may not be relevant. go with what makes sense to you ✨🌻

• what are you protecting yourself from?

• what are you truly trying to control?

• what emotional needs do you have that are not being tended to right now?

• which parts of yourself do you reject or shame?

• what do you perceive that you gain from being sick?

• do you feel that you are allowed to be visible and take up space, emotionally and expressively? do you feel comfortable with this? why, why not?

• are there any people you are not comfortable being perceived by? when and how did that begin?

• what need is your disordered eating fulfilling albeit in a harmful way? control - if so what are you afraid of surrendering to, what are you afraid will happen if you don't have it? comfort - what do you need comfort around, what other ways could you fulfill this need? being invisible to certain people and feeling safer as a result - how else could you tackle this need for safety? gaining approval - whose approval do you want? why would disordered eating provide this?

you can extend the curiosity to things that you yourself are saying:

• why do you need to be witnessed to care for yourself? go with whatever answer intuitively comes up. has there ever been a time where you were rejected, alone and you tried to justify the treatment by also abandoning yourself?

• what does your story look like in terms of health and the care you've received growing up? has there been a certain extend of suffering needed to be cared for?

• do you feel others are proud of you, in general and/or in various aspects of your life? do you feel that they care or that they are indifferent to you? do you feel that your recovery matters in their lives? it doesn't matter what you think, what do you feel?

i find that little of disordered eating is actually about the physical aspect, it's how it shows up and how we recognize it, but it's almost always tied to something else

i'll give you my experience for insight. when i was experiencing disordered eating as a child and as a teenager - anorexia, binging, bulimia it was at a time i didn't feel there was any space for me. i was anxious, scared, actively experiencing trauma. dissociating all the time as a result of said trauma. i didn't feel safe or "good", i felt i should disappear. i felt no one understood, listened, or could help me. i needed food for comfort, to soothe because i didn't have any emotional regulation tools, and i couldn't bear being visible to others. this was after many years of being groomed online as well, plus having a very strange relationship to my body in terms of my gender identity and experiencing dysphoria. i'm sharing this because the environment around me, my emotional state and the state of my nervous system was a huge part of my disordered eating. and for me, what really helped me get better was healing my relationship with me, gaining tools for emotional regulation, fostering acceptance and then love for me, not my body, me. it doesn't mean it can't still be hard for me at times or i can't be triggered, but when i do i understand why and what happened and i don't spiral. know your triggers. for me my main one is getting misgendered a lot in a short span of time, so when that happens, i'm aware, i tend to myself, i give myself space to struggle - while tending to and giving my body care and food. it is possible to have a very sturdy healthy baseline, and at the heart of it, i think, is emotional healing + feeling safe ⭐️

[girlinthetardis04]

💛MAMMON💛

Most people wouldn't realize how sneaky Mammon could be. He was loud and clumsy and boisterous, and a lot of people would just assume that's all there was to it, but in truth he could sneak around unnoticed as a shadow (he used to be a spy during the War, after all); just like that night, when he was creeping just outside of Lucifer's bedroom in hopes of retrieving yet another confiscated credit card.

Given the late hour, Mammon hadn't expected his older brother to have company, let alone their youngest sister.

He carefully peered through the slightly open door, trying to catch whatever they were saying.

Yara was sitting on Lucifer's desk, while he was gently holding her arm, the soft blue glow from a spell emanating from his hands. Mammon guessed it was a healing spell, given the discarded bloody bandage on the desk and...wait, was that blood RED?

He leaned as close as he could without being noticed.

"There, all fixed. Now, you're sure it was just Beel around?" The oldest asked. Yara nodded.

"That's good. You can trust Beel, he wouldn't tell anyone if you asked him not to"

"I did. Are you sure he wouldn't...like...eat me or anything...?" She asked meekly.

"Why in the hells would he do that? You're family"

"Because I'm human?"

The shock was too much.

Mammon slammed open the door, not caring about stealth anymore.

"WHAT!?!?"

Lucifer snapped his head towards the open door, and Yara startled so hard she almost fell off the desk.

"Mammon?"

"WHAT THE HELL DOES IT MEAN 'SHE'S HUMAN', HUH??"

"Mammon, be quiet before I hang you for the next decade! Get inside" Lucifer hissed, closing the door. He nodded towards the chair, signaling his younger brother to sit down.

Mammon complied, too dumbfounded to protest. He stared at Yara with a bewildered expression; for her part, the youngest Morningstar was hiding behind Lucifer, who had one of his wings wrapped around her.

The eldest sat down in front of Mammon, taking a deep breath before explaining in detail the exact circumstances of Yara's adoption.

"Beelzebub is already aware due to today's...incident, but I expect you to keep your mouth shut in front of the rest of our brothers. Do you understand, Mammon?"

"Yeah, I do. What I DON'T understand is why ya wouldn't tell me first. Ya don't trust anymore or what?"

Lucifer sighed.

"It's not that and you know it. I was planning on telling you all at once, though obviously that's not exactly feasable anymore"

"Alright, I'll keep yer secret. Though you know it can't go on much longer, right? It's not good for you, and I don't think it's good for Yara either"

"I appreciate your input, but I believe I'm still in charge of that decision. Goodnight Mammon"

Lucifer opened the door, motioning for his younger brother to exit his room. Mammon turned to Yara as he walked away, before turning back to Lucifer.

"Goodnight"

(cross posted from AO3)