#i apparently have high standards
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Thin privilege is being the sum of your personality and accomplishments and not the sum of the purely imaginary things strangers believe you put into your mouth.
#seriously what is it with people opining over the fine details of what they believe fat people eat#leftists even do this and call it attempting to be compassionate or some crap#I have an otherwise fat positive thin friend who just posted about how she is so compassionate to fat people#and apparently that meant that she accepts they just get hungrier than she does#and backed up her statements as being something she heard in a podcast once#she's a professional writer with a high research standard but is okay with the crappiest possible sources for her views about fat people
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Thinking about that time when a popular artist was a prick to me personally (claimed that I "baited" them for a conflict when all I did was pointing out something in lore contradicting their claim, without any rudeness or condescension, and basically told me to go hang out with other autists instead of bothering them) but the reason I blocked them was not that, it was the fact that they've admitted on not even caring about the source material and just using scraps from it to do their own thing. Priorities hfngkfngj
#fandomry rambles#I can excuse asserting ego at my expense and acting as though my knowledge of lore is an offence but-#-I draw the line at taking advantage of an IP to get attention easier instead of 'just making an OC'#there is a line between creative liberties and not caring about source material!!! they are not the same thing!#and FANdoms are places for FANs of something! not for some pricks to advertise themselves!#again I just pointed out something that seemed like honestly forgetting or not knowing#and I instantly commented on how alternative they suggested wasn't bad and how it could still work!#but because they have super frail ego they perceived it as a personal attack apparently#and since Anna unblocked me right after to stalk me it just feels like they mocked me within their group later#again I wonder why popular artists with high skill but very little care for canon are SO insecure?#everyone admires them everyone wants to be their friend everyone draws fanart of their designs and ships#and yet slight event out of the line makes them turn into that one Wojack with a crying face behind smug mask#like how do you shovel notes and have more attention than what you can give back and STILL are this-#-insecure? really popularity can't heal you#if you fellow nobody artists feel as though your art being noticed would heal you: no it would not#honestly as for care for canon they already gave signal by boasting about prettyfying micolash because-#-they preferred 'aesthetic'#it is just something I've neglected because I was looking at redesigning characters differently#but seeing awful bimbo marikas for two years taught me better ngl#really I am dying to see them try to pull this one out with a female character#no really. try to pull the 'she looks ugly but I want me aesthetic so I polished her'.#hate double standards regarding drawing the character depending on their gender#but yeah in case you could not tell touching Bloodborne with ten yards stick just triggered a bad memory#I just.... I still love that game story and characters. I can feel it looking at these posts.#I really am the 'just make an OC' person#they should become friends with Eugene (champion of not caring for the source material) if not already
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my friend: oh btw i got diagnosed with adhd and i got meds that actually work!! i can do things now!!!
me: love that for you!! oh and i think i might have it too bc im having A LOT of the symptoms lol
my friend: yeah i've had that suspicion about you for years, we have the same symptoms
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#i find this funny tbh#i should probably talk to my doctor about this#but i tried talking to my last therapist about this and he was so dismissive#bc i got really good grades up until high school it is IMPOSSIBLE to have it apparently 🤡#i really think he wasn't educated in how it presents differently in afab people#bc he also said the standard “well you weren't hyperactive as a child so it can't be that”#stina.txt#adhd
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mcu and mcu-adjacent writers who acknowledge sleipnir’s backstory but try to spin it so the original myth was ‘a misunderstanding’ or change it into something more palatable are fucking cowards. loki is that horse’s biological mother and if you can’t face that you don’t have what it takes
#this post brought to you by Past Topsy and the golden age of the mcu fandom circa 2014 or something#would that i could have posted this to thousands of online strangers back when it was relevant to both my interests and fandom in general#i didn’t have a platform at the time only pet peeves and correct opinions about the cowardice of authors#and i include the actual movie writers in this idc#god the mcu really used to be possibly going to be so cool do you guys remember#early mcu was one of the only things i read fanfiction for prior to 2020#not a ton but like there was a year or so there when i was still riding the high of one of my main childhood interests becoming an#entire cinematic extravanganza when i was just the right age to fully Experience The Spectacle but still hadn’t developed critical thought#and even then i apparently already had SOME standards bc i developed this extremely niche pet peeve somehow#mumbling
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"Me at my angriest is not me at my most honest."
WOOF. As someone with emotional regulation issues (thanks ADHD/RSD! 🙃) needing space away to parce emotions and be able to come back and have a productive conversation is SO important.
#worlds beyond number#the wizard the witch and the wild one#fireside chat#brennan lee mulligan#also#i am once again reminded that the kind of person i assumed didn't exist so i should lower my standards and expectations#does actually exist 🙃🙃🙃#i hate it here. i did not need this knowledge.#i could have been contented-ish being lonely forever rather than stuck in a relationship that didn't work for me#because my standards and ideals were too high and that was just on me for having unrealistic expectations#but apparently i just live in a shitty area with shitty people in a shitty society#ANYWAY#ask me how my brain is doing this fine weekend 🫠🫠🫠#j/k don't ask you do NOT want to know#brb gotta go scream into the woods for an hour#he's perfect and i also hate having the knowledge that he exists
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I just learned something so incredibly fucked up
#i am trembling#i cannot let this enable my issues with paranoia further! haha! oh my fucking god#im not joking btw im literally physically trembling. how did this happen oh god oh GOD nononono dont let it get to you#i just need to know. was someone like. double dealing? was someone telling him about it#i wouldnt give a shit if they were stalking me online occasionally (well id care a little bit but honestly itd just be kinda fucked)#but if someone was telling him about me and my personal stuff?#stop. i dont want to think about it. i dont want to think it happened. i have to get this out of my head#but still. absolutely fucking deranged.#ESPECIALLY bc apparently he's been saying i “made him think he was abusive'' and that doing that was shitty of me bc he actually#just has bpd??????#sol if you're reading this listen closely: one of my best friends has bpd. diagnosed and everything. so shut the fuck up#much like you've been saying i blamed my adhd for being neglectful (read: not meeting your sky-high standards for Truly Loving You 24/7)#you cannot blame your bpd for what a shit person you've been#repeatedly asking you to work on a flaw that's been hurting me is not telling you you're abusive you fucking prick#get a life‚ learn to care about other people away from what they can do for YOU‚#and LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.#p.s. imagine being mad that people who were friends with both you and your partner didnt suddenly cut the other one off after you broke up#like actually angry at these people. what the actual fuck. you're like a divorced parent upset that their child still talks to their ex-wife#my posts
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what did you think about Perfume Of The Timeless!!
I personally liked it, I think it gives a small hint of what the whole album is going to be without making it super obvious. Which is the point of a single, to just give a taste, a nudge.
Also, mark my words, the song is not going to be the 1st of the list, there's going to be at least 1 behind it that will connect to those initial drums.
Sidenote but oh joy of joys on that 5:30 mark where finally we make a return to a much missed element that I was weeping for: letting emppu going berserk and bring those gorgeous heavy riffs back to life with enough force to revive the dead!
#📜🪶#it's too abrupt it's screaming a connector#also apparently some people are already complaining about floor's voice being too faded on the chorus? which it's the whole point of it?#it's a choir it's supposed for her voice to sound more uniform with everyone else's. have these people never heard a choir before?#and it's not like you can't hear her she still stands out#i personally have more... well 'issues' (for a lack of a better word bc it's not really an issue) with troy singing. it's... nice.#and that's it. just nice. just alright. and now it's going to be even more noticeable given the band's latest departure#look you know i love the 3 vocalists. tarja anette and floor brought different things to the table and they all were fantastic#you know who was always the perfect vocal complement to the 3 of them? exactly. putting floor and troy together?#he's not going to complement her vocals it will only enhance her vocal power and the lack of his. love him as an instrumentalist though#but i can't help thinking that his part on the song would sound like if it was marko's voice#but it is what it is#i have a good feeling about this album though#is it my favourite single from the band? no. it's no wish i had an angel or nemo or bless the child or amaranth.#but still good i like it better than other singles that they have released in the past#i'll give it a 6.75 out of 10. which may not look that high but this is by nightwish standards.#a 6.75 from them is worth more than some other artists' entire discography#anyway i digress i'm stopping or else god knows how i'll spend the entire night writing my analyses about their whole discography
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literally I need a slice of life segment scene of Clear catching MC up on lesbian pop culture???? Like making them watch a Shane McCutcheon edit on repeat or throwing carol on the tv
all of them crowding on the couch to watch the L word together would be kind of iconic ngl. Clear definitely has the full series dvd box set (she collects lesbian lit and media). i do have a hard time imagining Valentina watching anything really, she's more of a book kind of gal, but she could definitely be convinced... then she'd probably get really into it, 8pm sharp once a week for the L word episode. or else.
#ive never seen carol actually :/ sowwy...#im behind on a lot of lesbian movies actually bc i have the attention span of a goldfish#last one i watched was the hunger which was like. Okay. kinda slow but that was to be expected#watched it for my novel it actually came up while i was researching lesbian bars apparently it was a favorite#that they played a lot at the bars#it was kinda crazy since my novel is also about lesbian vampires but i had never heard of the movie before#and then to find it while researching the bars rather than like. actual lesbian vampire media. was a fun coincidence#it's considered ~problematic~ by todays standards but apparently back then it was like Huge in the lesbian scene#lesbian tv shows i tend to just not bother with... i find them....bad. i did watch the L word many years ago tho in college (dont rmr much)#same with orange is the new black when i was in high school which was one of the first times i saw a real butch on screen#dont remember much of that either except for natasha lyonne and lea delaria being sexy#ask#anonymous
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It's always Wens this and Weds that, where is the Wends representation
#/mp#Wednesday Netflix#Wenclair#i have high fic standards apparently lol#how are you people pronouncing weds and wens surely not how it sounds
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Having a cousin with a newborn child really makes you realize how out of touch you are with societal expectations
#me not actually that convinced that we live in a society where gender stereotypes are really *that* relevant to (at least) everyday life#vs me reading with my own two eyes the kind of comments some relatives make about this baby#like! leave her be!! She is not 'already acting like a diva' that's a baby having fun figuring out their whole range of motions!!#beginning to be sincerely grateful to my own upbringing#I hope so so bad that when she gets older they won't start the amatonormativity comments nor the way too high focus on how she looks#but despite it all I've never actually been that much in contact with an actual growing baby so that's going to be a fascinating experience#(also it's very fun and sweet to hear my mum's comments on the situations as they arise because she's pretty rational and kind hearted)#(my dad's too actually but he's more on the affections side until he can see the rationality coming to form in the baby's head#at that point he can switch it up pretty fast between being incredibly grounded and groundlessly affectionate)#but the common thing they have is that neither of them comments on a baby as anything else than an actual baby#they don't really seem to fall for gender stereotypes while talking about them (e.g. 'he's such a ladies man' 'she's such a diva already')#which I thought to be like. a standard reaction. but apparently not really??#fascinating#my post#anyway back to studying
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How u keep making girls cry 😭😭
listen man if you cant handle getting yelled at in the middle of a rush you shouldn't work in a restaurant
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if you ever tell someone with acne that their forehead/chest/neck/back/face looks like pizza i genuinely hope your death is as painful as humanly possible <3
#like wow#making fun of something people have no control over and society sees as a moral failure for failing to measure up to beauty standards?#groundbreaking#sorry that the mere SIGHT of my GENETIC AND HORMONAL SKIN CONDITION THAT I HAVE TO LIVE WITH offends you#i'm sure the pain of you having to see someone without clear skin is just as painful as a cyst welling up and making it hurt to smile#i'm sure you making fun of it will magically make me work to fix it (because obviously that's the problem) so hard#because obviously i am unclean#and obviously this isn't you bullying me like i my peers did in high school for having acne#or you bodyshaming me like my parents used to#you're doing a Good Deed by pointing out something Painfully Apparent on my face in the most Degrading Manner possible#just in case i didn't notice it on my own fucking body#and wasn't Properly Ashamed of it
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I am once again sad that a person I bonded with in a dream is not real
#ALEX. where are you and who are youuuu#okay so the dream was crazy. like.. coherent by my usual standards but still ridiculous#i was back at high school but was the age i am now & i was attending a class in ‘business and employment’ which was supposed to help us all#get jobs and learn skills. but in reality the vast majority of the people in the class (including myself) were in mlm schemes#(multi-level marketing before anyone gets confused with the acronym)#myself and the entirety of my high school friend group (about 8 or 9 people) formed the largest faction and we were selling fragrances#for exactly the sort of company you would expect. anyway. i’d been elected manager even though someone else in the group (who actually sells#this shit irl lol) had recruited me & another person’s mom had invested money into it so that none of us had to actually buy inventory#and i was so uncomfortable and ashamed. i was like ‘okay i’ll just do this for a month and then bounce so i can at least get work/management#experience’. so i was very much checked out when everyone was brainstorming ideas for how to come up with a brand & sell it#the only thing i did notice is that there was this guy named alex who was pretty much reporting us whenever we breathed. an example would be#we wanted to call ourselves ‘lions’ but apparently that was the name of an lgbt society in the area that was important to him#so he complained to the teacher/facilitator about us and we couldn’t use lions. and our whole group was complaining about him#but i was thinking ‘fuck i hope he gets us shut down’. he seemed like a nice guy and the stuff people started saying was borderline#homophobic so i had to be the one to shut them down like ‘hey i’m bi as well and i’m your fucking manager. any more of that and you can find#yourself a new job’#so anyway. next thing that happened was the facilitator was like ‘okay we seem to have pretty much been taken over by mlm schemes BUT here#is a list of people in the class who do not want to be recruited & their reasoning. just so you can take note’ and she does a presentation#of course it starts with alex and his ideological opposition to mlms; but there are other people like a girl who has a large academic#workload. but it becomes apparent that alex is the one who rallied them all together to spread dissent. so i went over to talk to him#(for some reason he was now hiding in a tent) and i was like ‘yes alex!!!! can i shake your hand?’ and he was puzzled but he let me#then i stood up and said ‘can i just say something. everyone has great reasons for not wanting to be recruited and as a manager; i want to#say that if i catch any of my employees trying to recruit anyone on the do not recruit list for any reason; you will be fired immediately’#of course this causes a schism. but it also causes me and alex to end up having a heart-to-heart where he’s like ‘why are you even part of#one of these things’ and i’m like ‘honestly i just want legitimate work experience’ and he’s like ‘i can think of so many more legitimate#jobs. including like. fly-tipping. i’d rather have that on my cv than scentsy’ and i was like ‘you’re so right’#and then i woke up thinking ‘god i’m going to have to go door to door selling this shit’ but then i realised i actually didn’t#and i was so happy#it has motivated me to go back to job-hunting though because my god.#that five minutes when i thought i was going to have to traverse the neighbourhood dressed like an idiot and selling wax melts? bleak.
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mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom, you see its too much to ask for and i am not the doctor
read the tags for some character lore haha
#my art#artists on tumblr#fnv oc#brian sturges#<- it has been apparently three years since i last posted art of him!#i am in the midst of um. recontextualizing his and boones relationship?#i uh. think they are bad for each other and it eventually ends up in a breakup#should i elaborate#although boone is nice to him because he views brian as filler for carla#brian lets himself be enamored bc after a long string of directly bad abusive relationships#boone bombs his relationships both with brian and ty when he tells them about bittersprings#brian is a bleeding heart but i think he shoves away his thoughts on boone being a soldier bc when he warms up to him hes nice#while brian isnt from vegas he still represents that glamour and wealth. especially when he talks about the comforts he misses#these tags got out of order bc mobile sucks. anyway#hes nice because he sees a carla shaped filler#which is. super fucked.#but brian likes him treating him so nicely because its the first time in a long time to have someone romantically pursue him that way#or at least it feels that way to him#i think even before the bittersprings bombshell is dropped it becomes apparent to him that boone does not see him as equal#and holds him up to this high standard based around the idea of his dead wife that exists in his head#brian still goes along because he tells himself that he'd rather be seen highly and be codependant than outright abused... right...#but of course its very bad for him in entirely different ways#he spent this time going against his better judgement to allow boone to pursue him bc he convinced himself that he wanted this#and now that he has what he thinks he wanted he keeps trying to pump the breaks#so he becomes quiet and agreeable bc that worked in the abusive relationships why wouldnt it work for this ''''healthy'''' one#ty notices because shes been his best friend for like a decade. he knows that she knows theyre on a shared wavelength like that#but since theyre always in a group on the move theres hardly ever a beat where its just the two of them to talk about it#which also like im not gonna get into tys relationship with boone in these tags but its also very complicated#after bittersprings it all comes falling down though brian cant let himself be agreeable anymore#ive been thinking abt this for a while as ive become more of a boone hater
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Scott Pilgrim is, I think, the best example I can think of for establishing a setting's Nonsense Limit. The setting's Nonsense Limit isn't quite "How high-fantasy is this". It's mostly a question of presentation, to what degree does the audience feel that they know the rules the world operates by, such that they are primed to accept a random new element being introduced. A setting with a Nonsense Limit of 0 is, like, an everyday story. Something larger than life, but theoretically taking place in our world, like your standard spy thriller action movie has a limit of 1. Some sort of hidden world urban fantasy with wizards and stuff operating in secret has a nonsense limit around 3 or 4. A Superhero setting, presenting an alternate version of our world, is a 5 or 6. High fantasy comes in around a 7 or so, "Oh yeah, Wizards exist and they can do crazy stuff" is pretty commonly accepted. Scott Pilgrim comes in at a 10. If you read the Scott Pilgrim book, it starts off looking like a purely mundane slice of life. The first hint at the fantastical is Ramona appearing repeatedly in Scott's Dreams, and then later showing up in real life. When we finally get an explanation, it's this:
Apparently Subspace Highways are a thing? And they go through people's heads? And Ramona treats this like it's obscure, but not secret knowledge. Ramona doesn't think she's doing anything weird here. At this point, it's not clear if Scott is accepting Ramona's explanation or not, things kind of move on as mundane as ever until their Date, when Ramona takes Scott through subspace, and he doesn't act like his world was just blown open or anything, although I guess that could have been a metaphor. there's a couple other moments, but everything with Ramona could be a metaphor, or Scott not recognizing what's going on. Maybe Ramona is uniquely fantastical in this otherwise normal world. And then, this happens
Suddenly, a fantastical element (A shitty local indie band finishing their set with a song that knocks out most of the audience) is introduced unrelated to Ramona, and undeniably literal. We see the crowd knocked out by Crash and The Boys. but the story doesn't linger on the implications of that, the whole point of that sequence is to raise the Nonsense Level, such that you accept it when This happens
Matthew Patel comes flying down onto the stage, Scott, who until this point is presented as a terrible person and a loser, but otherwise is extremely ordinary, proceeds to flawlessly block and counter him before doing a 64-hit air juggle combo. Scott's friends treat this like Scott is showing off a mildly interesting party trick, like being really good at darts. The establish that Scott is the "Best Fighter in the Province", not only are street-fighter battles a thing, Scott is Very Good at it, but they're so unimportant that being the best fighter in the province doesn't make Scott NOT a loser. So when Matthew Patel shows off his magic powers and then explodes into a pile of coins, we've established "Oh, this is how silly the setting gets". It's not about establishing the RULES of the setting so much as it is about establishing a lack of rules. Scott's skill at street-fighter battles doesn't translate to any sort of social prestige. Ramona can access Subspace Highways and she uses it to do a basic delivery job. It doesn't make sense and it's clear that it's not supposed to. So later on, when Todd Ingram starts throwing around telekinesis, and the explanation we're given is "He's a Vegan" , you're already so primed by the mixture of weirdness and mundanity that rather than trying to incorporate this new knowledge into any sort of coherent setting ruleset, you just go "Ah, yeah, Vegans".
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So I just learned from a UQuiz that apparently not everyone sees the world through a transparent sheet of technicoloured sand.
& that it’s like. A whole ass diagnosable rare condition if you do.
& that said condition also causes a lot of other symptoms that I had assumed were normal at the degree I experience them?
Like the bright skittering lights on bright light surfaces or the sky aren’t supposed to be beyond counting?
& not being able to see properly in the dark because everything is bright coloured splotches everywhere…
Also I’m inferring from what I’m reading that it… isn’t supposed to be hard to tell if you have a migraine aura or not???
‘Cause most people don’t just have flashy bright colours everywhere all the time.
Like it’s not a progressive thing & I’ve had it all my life, so it’s probs not a big deal or anything.
& I’m gonna tell my neurologist at my next appointment.
But I am seriously reeling from the fact that this is actually not the common experience.
#I… I’m 33.#I have seen this way literally as long as I can remember.#& I genuinely assumed it was standard#so no one talked about it????#Like we’re all just ignoring the millions of brightly coloured sparkles everywhere.#Right???#Also apparently seeing colours when you close your eyes in the dark#is also not the common experience???#I’m sorry guys this is kinda fucking me up???#What do you MEAN most other people don’t experience the level of visual effects as I do???#What do you mean other people don’t have issues seeing in the dark#because the sparkles blur everything????#stardust rambles#Relatedly apparently the normal amount of high pitched ringing to hear at all times is none???#I GENUINELY THOUGHT WE JUST WERE ALL IGNORING THESE SENSORY EXPERIENCES AT ALL TIMES.#apparently just me & <10% of the population….#fucking wild…#Like I know it’s not super uncommon but that’s definitely not the average experience that I am having
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