#i am very very passionate about my work HAHAHA

[nmakii]

How about yandere! Alastor (human) with a reader who ran away from him... Reader and Alastor are married out of obligation (because of the decade), but what no one counted on was that Alastor really fell in love and was obsessed with his wife, but the reader didn't ...because of work and his secret (that he killed people and devoured them) Alastor hardly spent time with the reader.. Reader then began to fall in love and have a secret relationship, without Alastor knowing.. . So even though reader didn't want to hurt Alastor, since she saw him as a friend (more than her husband), reader ran away with her lover and passion... Leaving behind a very angry Alastor... (reader doesn't know what Alastor It's true)... What would happen?

NO ONE’S BETTER THAN I AM

— the feeling of a fresh love— oh, how wonderful. you only wished that man would have been alastor, just so that he wouldn’t have hunt your true love.

— hey pals 🔥🔥!! i took manipulation tactics from my social studies class and mother gothel, did i do well? HAHAHA :]

being married to alastor, the radio show host is quite the sensation in your town. you grew to be quite a local celebrity, many women even attempting to befriend you to get closer with your husband.

although, because of your marriage, many assumed you were a woman of many talents and high intelligence. but, unfortunately… it appears as if you have the perfect life; beautiful home, wonderful husband, a comfortable life— and, while most of it is true, it is still very far from the truth. the sad truth of it all was that this was a marriage of convenience

it was the only thing that made sense. you and alastor were close in age, you were both still single, you refused to marry a man as old as your father, alastor simply wished to rid himself of the many women throwing themselves at him, and you were already quite close to him since your parents were close, it was the best-case scenario.

when both of your parents had learned of the news, that alastor proposed to you, they were more than delighted. alastor’s mom immediately welcomed you into the family as one of her own, and alastor had grown to be fond of your father.

in front of cameras and watching eyes, alastor played the role of a loving husband well; keeping you safe with an arm wrapped around your waist, giving you his coat in cold weather, and speaking nothing but lovely worship in your name.

you played the ‘doting wife’ role surprisingly well too. the only thing that was different was alastor didn’t stop the act when you were behind closed doors.

‘what if someone is spying on us, hm? they may reveal our little secret to the media!’ that was his excuse. and your reason to let him kiss you, hold you against his chest, and even join you as you bathe occasionally. it always felt weird though. to you, alastor was nothing more than a friend, even something like a brother. doing all these intimate and romantic things with him, it felt wrong.

and even despite all the intimacy, you still felt lonely. here in your large house, you felt lonely; cooking a dinner for two, eating as one, and always having to leave the pot simmering over the stove, so that it’s still warm for your husband. warm for him up until midnight, when he’d usually come home— sometimes even returning home later…

and, on these late nights, you’d remain sleepless. what could he be doing? his radio broadcast only lasts up until 9 in the night. could he possibly be engaging with a mistress of sorts? doing all kinds of scandalous things before returning to your bed, bringing your back close to his chest and resting his face on the nape of your neck.

although it was unlikely… considering how you always wake up to a love letter from alastor in place of where he should be in your bed, but nonetheless, it didn’t stop those thoughts.

eventually, life began to grow boring… chores day and night before going to sleep again— it was just a boring cycle that filled your life with despair and simply just making you miserable.

that is, until you met eugene. quite the handsome man, he may even be a model! you ran into him when he was in a luxury shop, inspecting various items for purchase.

his fuzzy eyebrows, his big brown eyes, and his charming and gorgeous american smile— it’s hard not to fall for such a man.

it started off so innocent; just meeting him to shop together, then it escalated into lunch together, and then that night…

alastor brought you to a club he frequented, and just by coincidence, eugene had been there with some of his high school friends. under the influence of alcohol, alastor had climbed up the stage and danced along. laughing at your silly husband, you pointed him out to eugene as well.

and, in that moment he turned you around and kissed you. you tensed, fearing the sudden infidelity; how media would cover this kind of news for months. oh wait… everyone’s wasted, aren’t they..?

your breath heaved in fear, eyes darting to your husband, not even glancing at you— that was when you melted into his kiss.

after that night, the two of you had made an agreement to rendezvous every now and then at your house while alastor was still busy as ever at ‘work’.

and as these meetings with eugene became more and more frequent, the two of you may have… fallen in love. despite that, you still felt guilty; cheating on your husband who has done nothing but be a gentle and loving provider, how could you repay him like this?

but, then again, it is simply a marriage of convenience… alastor doesn’t love you, he couldn’t possibly… the two of you are best friends! so, if you told him, would he mind?

still, you couldn’t possibly risk it. this isn’t a relationship that will last long if the two of you keep it a secret, you have to find a solution soon.

“run away with me.”

“what?! are you insane?!?” you frowned at your lover. “you need to get away from him, and you’re too scared to tell him, aren’t you? it’s the perfect solution.” he argued back.

“alastor… won’t accept it that easily… he’ll probably try to hunt us down, then take me back…” your nose scrunched in fear at the thought. “isn’t it worth the risk, my love?” he took your hand in his, placing a gentle kiss on your fingers. “ah, f…fine…”

a week later, that was when you decided to leave. you packed a suitcase filled with your belongings. honestly, it was not much. most of the things in the house were bought by alastor before he had married you.

you were just about to leave, your lover right outside the door with a getaway car, prepared to leave your life in new orleans behind when your husbands voice stopped you.

“going somewhere, my love?”

“alastor! w-what are you doing up?” you jumped, turning around to face him. “i’d like to ask the same thing, my sweet darling. why do you have a suitcase and a car waiting for you?” he grinned wide, tilting his head.

“ah— i was gonna go out of state for a surprise for you…” you lied, breath shaky. “were you now? was this surprise that i’d never see my beautiful wife ever again?” he scoffed, walking over to you and grabbing you by your chin.

“did you think i’d really be so ignorant as to not know when my own wife is sneaking out? especially to meet other men…” he raised an eyebrow. “alastor! t-this isn’t what you think it is…” you frowned, tears building up in your eyes.

“oh, my dear, how pretty you look when you cry…” he smiled, taking a finger to wipe your tears and putting his finger against his tongue. “fine then, leave your loving and sweet husband behind… just know that— i’ve already corrupted you for any other man to enjoy. no one will love a divorcee, will they?” he moved his hand to cup your cheek, gentle despite his harsh words.

“i’ll let you have your fun, darling. soon enough, you’ll realize that there is no man who can love you better than i can.” he pulled his hand away from you, moving to your hips and leaving a lasting kiss on your lips.

unlike how he usually is, this kiss was harsh, possessive, and brutal. so devoid of any love, it was a pure, unadulterated obsession.

“i know what is best for you, darling. i’ll see you home very soon.”

[erabu-san]

I'm really intrigued, I know you like the sumeru squad, but my favourite dynamic among them is actually Alhaitham and Cyno! I wanted to know what you think of them!!

I think they're very similar sometimes, but Alhaitham is introverted and his jokes are hard to distinguish (because he's too smart for anyone to understand that he's not /srs hahaha) and Cyno is extraverted but his jokes are just awful, BUT I think they like each other's jokes a lot, and I think they encourage each others' theatrical/playful sides. I also think they'd both enjoy going to watch performances together since Alhaitham and Nilou became friends after that event before, and we all know Cyno likes to watch.

I also think Alhaitham probably enjoys playing Genius Invocation with him, since he evidently really values passionate people. He'd let Cyno infodump like crazy about his new cards and how he feels about new rules, and even though he'd make "oh woooow that's so interestiiiing" sarcastic comments, he'd sit still and keep the information. And Cyno knows he's like this, so he's happy to go on, but he'll start being like "if you don't want to listen to someone talking, you could go do your job" and they'd both be like "lol :)"

He also really respects and trusts Cyno canonically (for example his story quest relied on Cyno understanding his secret messages, and once he got there, Alhaitham immediately stepped back to let him work) which I think is a huge deal for him, since most of the time he wants to be at the center of things so he can keep the situation under control. Luckily with Cyno he knows he can leave trouble in trustworthy hands.

They're both just the type of person to be straightforward and say exactly what they think, and although they've definitely butted heads because of it before, I think they would really treasure that honesty in their friendship. I think they'd really enjoy each other as friends.

Anyway it's a shame that they're both so misunderstood by the fandom, I feel like their friendship gets ignored because people think Alhaitham is a cruel person, and people seem to forget Cyno exists if he's not being shipped with someone 🥲 they're two of my favourite characters and I love them so much 😭

OOOOH REAL !! For me, AlHaitham and Cyno is like.... a funny duo (in kind of some way) in sumeru squad. I sometime imagine Cyno considerind AlHaitham like a rival ! Cyno is way too shonen in his routine, and AlHaitham is his perfect opponent (this kind of Frienenemies but lighthearted) and Alhaitham doesn't mind bahahaha he spends good time with Cyno being competitive and him being effortless strong in whatever he does AND !!! THIS PIC

Ayato Itto are strong opponent, and they call them themself "bro" whatever FOR BEATING THEM, CYNO MAKING PEACE W ALHAITHAM (in his mind, because he is the only one who was in competition) and saying thing like "OKAY, FOR THE SAKE OF WINNING, LET'S PUT AWAY OUR DIFFERENCE AND FIGHT TOGETHER, BRO." AlHaitham who would be a bit confused like "we had difference?" NGHHHH when this pic was out I wanted to draw them sob but no motivation... BUT YEAH I ALSO LOVE THEM A LOT ! I am so so soooo glad to be able to talk abt them without bringing ship or what aaaaaa Thank you so much for the opportunities, anon !! <33

[gutsluttsbelly]

get to know me!

my favorite things

color - pink! 🩷

food - JUICY cheeseburgers

animal - raccoons! 🦝

season - fall 🍁

tv show - game of thrones ⚔️

movie - coraline

flower -  lily of the valley ⚪️

cocktail - dirty shirley 🍸

subject (when i was in school) history!!!

love language- TOUCH and words of affirmation!

about my personality

i was riddled with social anxiety as a kid and young teenager. but now i’d describe myself as VERY outgoing. i love meeting new people and making new friends.

honestly good luck getting me NOT to talk 😭

my best friend has described me (this is straight from my tinder bio btw)

“sexy, hilarious, cool, smart, sexy, funny asf, sexy and like so hot”

but in all honesty, i love life, im a huge optimist, i soak up the moment im living, i am passionate, can cook (duh) and can be a little clingy

random shit

the perfume i wear is “mon paris” by YSL :) floral and fruity scent

i work and go to school to become a 📚✏️📓

i make song covers and post them to other platforms! (no i’m not posting it here)

i do special effects makeup

i have BPD! #mentalhealthadvocate

i’m a sagittarius!

i’m a stonerr lmao, i’m sure some of you knew by my memes hahaha

i do tarot readings!

i loveeee fashion. my closet is insane haha!

and i’ll try (almost) everything once! i’m very adventurous:))

[theink-stainedfolk]

Writer Questionnaire Tag

Thank you @drchenquill @the-golden-comet and @paeliae-occasionally for the tag

how long have you had your writing tumblr/writeblr? a fast and loose estimate is fine!

It's been at least 6 months or more I believe.

what led you to create it?

I actually had it from before but i never really posted anything. The thought that there might be people willing to read my works more than my own family and friends led me to create it. I was done shying away.

what's your favourite thing about the writeblr community?

I absolutely adore the supportive and inclusive nature of the writeblr community! It's a space where writers from diverse backgrounds and genres come together to share their passion for storytelling. I love how everyone encourages and uplifts each other, offering constructive feedback and celebrating each other's successes. The community's enthusiasm is infectious, and it motivates me to keep writing and improving my craft. I also appreciate the wealth of resources and knowledge shared within the community, from writing tips and prompts to editing advice and publishing insights. It's amazing to see how writers willingly share their expertise and experiences to help others grow. Most of all, I cherish the sense of belonging and connection that comes with being part of this community. Writeblr feels like a virtual writing group, where we can discuss our projects, share our struggles, and rejoice in our triumphs together

what's one thing you'd like your mutuals to know about you?

That i really love talking about my WIPs and OCs aand everything related to my story. I feel happy, seen and appreciated. If you like anything i woorte, please don't hesitate to ask or just tell me how you feel.

is there anything you'd like to see more of on your dash?

Uh..memes? More aisan drama related things? More HSR stuff everything about my interests etc.

which wips or writing projects are you noodling about, lately?

Very wrong question lol. I've been going back and forth between my WIPs. But the most recent one I've done, or am thinking about is The Masque of Murder .

how long have you been working on them?

Hahaha.... Since months, years and i still haven't even written a chapter for some of them. I hate myself for that. But since The Masque of Murder is recent, it's been a week or so.

do you remember what inspired them/ what got you started?

Yeah i remember reading a manhwa which had this crazy but mad genius doctor as a minor villan. It got me thinking that it was a waste of his abilities and damn good looks and he would have been surely protected by the plot armour had he been the main character instead. This forced me into making it lol.

how much time, in your best estimation, do you spend thinking about them?

🎵Every hour, every minute, every second. And night after night, I'll thinking 'bout you right, 7 days a week.🎶

name any characters you created. side characters, protagonists, antagonists, characters who've never been written, the first original abomination you ever pulled from your ass; whomever you'd like!

Uh... every single one of them? I created everyone, if that's what you're asking haha.. I'm not sure if i understand it correctly but i created everyone on my own. I'll mention the one that comes to my mind first then.

Side character- Emrys from In The Silence, Strength

Protagonist- Dr. Phineas Abel Thorncroft from The Masque Of Murder

Antagonist- Dante from Beyond The Pages (but he is also the protagonist)

And i can't really remember the last two.

when someone asks the dreaded, "what do you write about," question, what do you usually say?

Yknow, fantasy stuff with magic and murder mystery with actual murder and blood and stuff and all that hahah none of the stuffs that you like or understand or are interested in right? Hahah it totally doesn't have queer peoples. Just fictional stuff you don't wanna know hahaha.

Deadass.

who's the most unhinged?

Dr. Phineas Abel Thorncroft (from The Masque Of Murder), Acheron (from Legacy of Creation), Dante (from Beyond The Pages) and Eitenne Lumiere( from Wicked Games, Wicked Fates) from what i remember .

who comes the most naturally for you to write?

Vesperine, Cleo, Pareen

do you ever cringe at them?

Hahaha... sometimes..

how much control do you feel you have over your characters? do they ever "write themselves," refuse to cooperate, or do things you didn't expect? to what degree? are some less cooperative than others?

I feel like i have 70% control and 30% is something they do it themselves because i give them the freedom to do so. Because that is the story of my character and not of me, even if I am the one who wrote it. Sometimes the decision i make for them is not what they'd do.

do you enjoy people asking questions about your characters? and do you have a preferred means of receiving said questions? for example, as asks, as replies, as reblogs, as tag notes, as comments on ao3, etc.

Yes i absolutely love it please ask. Doesn't matter how just ask♡♡♡

what makes you want to follow another writeblr account? do you follow 'em as you see 'em, or take time scoping out the blog to make sure you align with its content? do you follow based on wips, or vibes?

I take time scoping out the blog to make sure i align with it's content. And i follow based on both, wips and vibes but mostly vibes.

what makes you decide against following?

If i don't align with the content or i don't fond the story interesting, i don't follow.

do you interact with non-mutual often?

Not often but i do.

do your mutuals' characters occupy space in your noodle?

There are so so many characters of my mutuals that i love love loveee but my memory rn isn't functioning at its best so i will just write whom i can remember rn.

The Madness, the lady and that guy from Foliè written by @drchenquill, my friend. Whose writing always leaves me with surprises and cliffhangers. She supports me so much i almost feel guilty 💕💕💕💕 i love you so much💖💖💖

@paeliae-occasionally Xanren, Marsh and Paeliae. I love their stories it captivated me. I hope you can tag me on their journey 👍, @cssnder, my first mutual whom i talked with so much courage that i almost didn't open tumblr the next day due to embarrassment and nervousness. Her works are like renaissance paintings, truly mesmerizing and beautiful. Thus Saith The Lord is truly a work of art and i hope i get to read it soon.😭 And also, @roarintheheavens , my new friend, I'm so happy. Vron Carson, he is very interesting and i can't wait to know more about him. And of course, @the-golden-comet, I'd very much like to read more about peter hart.

Just because i didn't mention everyone doesn't mean i don't appreciate your works, it's just that i haven't read them yet. I hope you all can send it to me. I'll definitely read it.

I'll tag @finickyfelix @willtheweaver @ascotwriting @agirlandherquill @leahnardo-da-veggie @illarian-rambling @winglesswriter @graveyardshift111

[prince-liest]

Your last 666 series installment is the best thing that happened to me. Its full of gore, somehow fluffy and wait-.. do I finally see some FRICKING COMUNICATION between the two idiots!?!?!

Ngl, Vox's 'Alastor not being able to love' statement hurt my soul. Your writing is brilliant and and let's just see what ending ya wro-..O MA LORD IS THAT VAL'S LOVE POTION!?!?!?!?

Now I need to know what's next!!!! And VOX I SWEAR IF U USE THIS SITUATION IN ANY WAY IM GOING TO SKIN YOU ALIVE.

This series is a blast♡ love it!♡ makes me weirdly passionate and excited hah!

Some communication, and some communication failure, hahaha. They're going to be talking a lot more in the next one, actually, because I meant to write some NSFW and they had to go and attempt a healthy conversation instead. What can you do.

Thank you so much, I'm delighted that you're enjoying! :D

And: Way more anon asks about the latest 666 getting answered under the cut! <3 I combined a bunch from the last couple of days.

prince, I'm going insane over the latest fic. so we know from Alastor's inner monologue that he knows the roofie was an accident, but considering the super stressful situation, the fact that Vox was the one to ask for a kiss and the fact that Alastor accused him of wanting instead of loving him not a few minutes ago…. makes me wonder if Vox might not be at least a little worred that Alastor might think it was on purpose <3 gonna be rotating this in my head for the foreseeable future - ✨

I am so glad that these things are on y'all's minds, hahaha. Because you can bet they are on mine. >:D And THANK YOU, very pleased to be dragging everyone down into insanity with me.

“Should I stitch together the scars your teeth left in me in a mirror of my own signature on your body.” Fucking. POETRY. 🐈‍⬛

I am always so happy when I write shit like this and instead of everyone pointing at me and going, "Look, what an EDGELORD!" the response is you people being VERY nice and leaning into the feelsy fun! 💛

holy moly ??? i love the new 666 addition aaaah 😭🙏 the trials and tribulations of feeling scorned and ghosted by a loser who confessed his love to you and the next time you see him he’s holding your LITERAL heart in his hands by alastor ! OMFG this was too good esp the part where vox is like “bro why do YOU CARE ?? i thought you didn’t love me huh?” and alastor is like well. maybe i.do. 😐 LIKE CMONN this really played out like some soap drama and i loved the neat details on resuscitative thoroctomy (learned a new word too so double bonus) the fact vel was on the line w her and val’s apparent surgeon for val’a little ‘incidents ??? GOLDEN I SAYY hope we see more of ur oc … 🫣🫣 btw ofc vox would love to an end an argument with a kiss OF FUCKING COURSE HE WOULD 😭 thank u sm for this chapter princeliest my dear <3 hope life is treating u well too !! -🦌

Vox is ahead of Alastor in terms of effective in-the-moment conflict resolution, but goddamn if he isn't fucked up in his own fun little ways. They're so not done with most of these issues, but at least they're on they're way to maybe be able to have a real conversation about them!

You know. If they chose to do that kind thing. Instead of whatever they will probably do instead.

Anyway, THANK YOU!! I had a great deal of fun writing this chapter and digging into some of the issues that have been slowly collecting underneath the surface of kinky radiostatic, so I'm happy you guys are enjoying as well!! :D

AS FOR MY OC... I WILL POST ABOUT THEM SOON. I LOVE THEM A LOT AND IT EXCITES ME THAT PEOPLE WANT TO KNOW MORE OF THEM. Tysm for asking Q^Q

Just read the new addition to the 666 verse, and inside of me are two wolves: The first is saying: Immaculate, artistry of the highest form. We finally get Alastor’s own confrontation with his vulnerability and him trying to figure out what exactly the relationship with Vox means to him. Cannot wait for how this all is going to develop. The other part of me: THE BREADCRUMBS WORKED THE MUSE IS WRITING!!! Followed by this image (since tumblr won’t let me attach it while being anonymous) https://i.redd.it/hx2shk642vs71.jpg -🕊️

LMAO THAT PIC. Amazing, flawless, thank you. The breadcrumbs DEFINITELY worked, please keep feeding. Digging into Alastor's shit is bringing me life and I'm happy to share it, hahaha. We're swinging even harder on the introspection in the next one!

As a sucker for medical gore and aroace angst, I lack the words to express my love and appreciation for your most recent installment of 666, but your writing of radiostatic's dynamic was captivating and proved to be such a lovely read as always! I loved that you touched on Alastor's relationships with the women around him as that has always been such an interesting aspect of his character to me! I never really put much thought into how Vox's apparent avoidance of Alastor in the show could mirror Alastor's disappearance, and now it will Not leave my mind. My heart hurts for these two dorks, super looking forward to chapter 2!

"Medical gore and aroace angst" should be the title of my memoir. Honestly, this series has ended up a lot more edgy-bloody than I expected it to, since I usually tend to prefer to portray my whump/angst/violence/etc in a much more roundabout way, but it's actually kinda tipped over into, like... part of the point is how banal it is, how beside the point. The upsetting heavy-hitting bits aren't the blood, they're everything else that goes on around it. Anyway, thank you so much! <3 I think your heart will find some relief in chapter two, haha, I hope you enjoy!!

Meanwhile alastor, completely convinced that there’s no situation where vox actually loves him and is happy with the way things are—either vox wants more and is going to start asking for more, or he doesn’t actually love him and just wants to have sex with him and thus either way he is a Liar. They’re so fucking bad at this. No one is capable of being the adult here. I think they need an auspitice.

It's really funny that you said that, because that is kind of exactly the role that [spoiler] ends up playing, though in a more roundabout way, hahaha. They certainly need someone to, like, get them to be having the same conversation with each other instead of two parallel ones. I think the fun thing about writing Alastor reacting to his own feelings is just how much his reaction can change based on how things are framed for him, and it leaves a lot of wiggle room for how differently I've ended up writing him reacting to the season 1 finale in 666 vs in Happily Ever After, and Other Shit Nepotism Can't Buy.

But, god, you really nailed the description of what Alastor is feeling. <3

Vox in the latest 666, my ENTIRE HEART. Literally nothing about how he read the situation was a bad take or a leap to conclusions, but alastor constantly says the opposite of what he means and refuses to admit vulnerability or friendship and what the hell else was vox meant to do with that, of course he backed off, they need to have this talk so badly

YES, PRECISELY! Like, I hope it came through that really neither of them was completely crazy to react the way they did! It's a result of how much of their communication has been nonverbal, implied, and talking around things - they'd been doing so well up until this point, but there's only so far that can take you before you start thinking that you're on the same page when really you're reading two completely different books! Thank you sm! <3

‘But I am capable,” Alastor says gently. “I love you very much.” Vox gapes up at him. “...I. Fuck you.” His voice is tight, strained. “I don’t fucking believe you.” Alastor feels his smile thin. “Well. That’s just dandy, then, isn’t it?”’ I AM NOT OK GOING FUCKING FERAL

Probably one of my favorite lines to write, ehehehe. THANK YOU ANONNNN <3 It's kinda interesting to see how differently some people read this. Some folks thought Alastor was saying it to hurt Vox (which is how Vox read it). Some folks thought it was true (how Alastor intended it). Some folks thought Alastor was trying to fit into the mold that he thought Vox wanted from him (how I intended it). All of them make sense as readings! >:)

[aishangotome]

Alfons Sylvatica: Chapter 19

Chapter 18 His POV

♡———♡

Roger: Hahaha…It’s been a while since I’ve seen you so speechless.

As Alistair's footsteps descending the stairs faded away, Roger burst into laughter, unable to hold it in any longer.

Alfons: ...You may not realize it, but I'm often left speechless by everyone.

Roger: Hmm? So, in the end, Kate is just like everyone else, huh?

Roger: If you don't need her, I might seriously steal her away.

Slowly heading towards the stairs, Roger twisted his lips provocatively.

Roger: You don't mind if it's a toy you don't need anymore, right?

Alfons: .................

-

A little later, Roger came down to the basement.

Kate: I'm sorry about earlier... I got a little emotional.

Roger: What do you have to apologize for? I think being passionate and competitive is one of your good points.

Kate: ... Thank you.

Roger: If you get tired of him, tell me, and I'll hold you.

(Another one of those jokes that's hard to laugh off...)

Kate: Don't say such things. I'm actually quite...

---CHOICES---

Because I am persistent

Because I am single-minded

Because I don't give up easily

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Kate: ...persistent. By the time I get tired of him, I might be a grandmother.

Roger: Hahaha! That's quite devoted. I like it, I want you even more now.

(Between Liam and Roger, I feel like I'm always being cheered up.)

(I need to focus.)

Kate: Well then, let's get started quickly. I'll help you prepare the materials!

Roger: Alright.

Roger, from his years of research, had come to the conclusion that among those who possessed the ability to create illusions and whose records remained after death, none of them were cursed.

They seemed to have been spellcasters or charlatans.

(There are no records of cursed individuals... Therefore,)

(We have no choice but to search for people who have experienced "unnatural memory loss" and see if any of them have recovered their memories.)

If we can find that from this vast amount of material in the basement... We can get closer to a way to escape our fate.

(I don't know how many hours or days it will take.)

(But, I just have to do it!)

And so, Roger and I began our investigation.

-

Harrison: These are investigation materials from 50 years ago, right? What, did you start a detective agency or something?

Kate: Harrison! No, I'm just doing some research... Harrison, what are you doing here?

Harrison: You can eat a sandwich even while working, right?

Kate: ...! It's already lunchtime...?

Roger: Ah, sorry. Just leave it there.

-

Ellis: ... Good evening.

Kate: Whoa!? Ellis, good evening... Wait, it's already night?

Ellis: Yes, didn't you notice? Roger, here's some brandy.

Roger: Thanks. It's time for the young lady to sleep, take her away.

Ellis: Yeah, I was planning to. Kate, hold on tight, I'll carry you.

Kate: Huh? Kyaaa!?

Ellis: Sorry, but you need to sleep properly at night, it's not good for you.

Roger: See you tomorrow, Kate.

Just like that, several days passed in the blink of an eye since we started our investigation––.

-

Kate: ... R-Roger, do you have any eye drops?

Roger: Ah, it's in that pipette over there.

The results of pouring over the documents weren't very promising.

My body is aching from accumulated eye strain and stiff shoulders.

Kate: I expected it, but... this isn't easy.

Roger: Well, that's how it is. Want to quit already?

Kate: ...No.

I shake my head and pull out the next document.

The ivy-like lines drawn on the paper connected family names and several individual names.

(Is this... a family tree?)

As I stare at it, Roger leans in from the side.

Roger: ...The first time I noticed the "unnatural blank space" was when I saw this family tree.

Roger: It's the Brown family tree, the third son's part is blank, right?

Roger: But the third son's wife and their children are listed.

His fingertip traces the lines and stops on the broken lineage.

Roger: There was clearly a third son.

Roger: Otherwise, the "wife" wouldn't be on the Brown family tree, and the children wouldn't have been born.

Roger: ...But the wife claims her husband doesn't exist, that the children are illegitimate, and the children say they don't know their father.

Roger: The members of the Brown family also don't remember how the woman, the third son's wife, became a part of the Brown family.

Roger: Even when I pressed them, saying there must have been a third son, a husband, they all just tilted their heads.

I trace the blank space with my finger.

It's so pristine, it's hard to believe that anything was ever written there in ink.

Kate: For ink that was once absorbed into the paper to disappear so completely...

Roger: It's a bit abnormal, isn't it? At first, I thought such a phenomenon was impossible. But... it's an undeniable fact.

(Family registers, family trees, some kind of roster... all text information disappears.)

(But, from what Roger told me before...)

Kate: What about things other than text?

Kate: Remember, you said there was a testimony about someone crying when they saw an empty room?

Kate: That means the room itself hasn't disappeared. So, wouldn't the tools and clothes that person used also remain?

Kate: Even if they forget who used them...

Kate: Are there any cases where someone saw something and miraculously remembered that they had someone important?

Roger looks down as if trying to remember.

Roger: ...As far as I've seen in the materials and from the interviews I've conducted, there haven't been any.

Roger: The testimony about "crying when seeing an empty room" was from the "wife" of the Brown family's missing third son.

Kate: ...! The one on this family tree...

Roger: Yes. When I barged into the Brown house and questioned them...

Roger: "I feel a sense of loss, but I don't know why," that was their only answer.

Kate: ...I see.

As I start to look down, Roger speaks up as if he's thought of something.

Roger: ...But, that was a few years ago.

Roger: Whether they've remembered since then... we could find out by asking them "now."

He gives me a sly grin as I look up in surprise.

Roger: They were already quite old back then. I don't know if they're still alive.

(But, if there's a possibility... I want to bet on it.)

Kate: ...Let's go.

-

–A thick fog covered the outside of the window.

Quiet footsteps approached Alfons, who was gazing out the window for no particular reason.

Elbert: ...Al, is this beautiful?

Alfons: I wondered what you were doing here all of a sudden...

Alfons: You bought another piece of junk, didn't you? You always do this when I'm not looking.

Taking an antique hand mirror from Elbert, Alfons looked at the front and back with disinterest.

Alfons: It's just a common antique. It's old, but not beautiful at all.

Elbert: I see... Thank you.

Grey eyes vaguely followed his childhood friend as he sat down next to him.

Elbert: ...Roger is going on a short trip with Kate tomorrow.

Alfons: Is that so?

Elbert: Do you know why Kate keeps visiting Roger?

Alfons: No, I don't.

Alfons put the mirror on the table, keeping a smile plastered on his face.

Elbert: ...I can tell when you're lying.

Elbert's voice had a hint of reproach.

Alfons inwardly mocked himself for sometimes not knowing how far he had let Elbert into his heart, with his deep, ocean-like eyes.

Elbert: Kate is looking for a way to not forget you.

Alfons: ...What are you trying to achieve by telling me this?

Alfons: Do you think I'll be so moved by her devotion that I'll accept her affection?

Alfons: It's surprising. Do you want her to be sad?

Elbert: ...No.

Elbert: I... I don't want either you or Kate to be sad.

Elbert: But... that's why I thought I should tell you.

Elbert: You looked so happy when you were with her... but now you seem even more bored than before.

Elbert: She also... seemed to be desperately hiding her sadness and smiling.

Elbert: I thought it was because you both... want to be together but are apart.

Elbert: ...Am I wrong?

Alfons: ...Who knows.

Alfons: Most joys and sorrows are forgotten once they pass.

Alfons: Just as my interest has cooled, her sadness will eventually fade away.

Alfons: Once she realizes the futility of all her current efforts,

Alfons: She will give up.

Elbert: But what if she doesn't give up?

Alfons stared at the hand mirror for a few seconds in response to Elbert's question.

The dull mirror surface did not reflect an image.

Alfons: ...I'll think about it then.

Elbert: ...I see.

Alfons: Can I take care of disposing this hand mirror?

Elbert: Sure, but... are you going to throw it away?

Alfons: Yes, of course.

Alfons: It's just in the way.

-

William: Alfons.

As soon as Alfons left the dining room, a voice called out to him from behind.

William whispered to Alfons as they passed each other, without stopping.

William: The Privy Council and the Purification Club have their eyes on you.

William: You should be careful when you go out.

Alfons: Thank you for the advice.

Alfons: I'll be careful.

-

–The next day

A young man appeared when Kate knocked on the door of a house.

Kate: Mr. Brown... um, does Dacy Brown still live here?

Youth: ... Do you know my grandmother? Please wait a moment.

A while later, a white-haired old woman appeared.

Holding a cane, she slowly stood at the doorway and looked at us curiously.

Old Woman: Yes, how may I help you?

Old Woman: ... I'm sorry, I've always had a bad memory. Have we met somewhere before?

Kate: No, this is the first time I've met you. My name is Kate.

Roger: I've met you before. I'm Roger Barrel. I came here a long time ago to ask about something similar to this.

Dacy: ... Something similar to this?

Roger: When I came here, you told me that you cried when you saw the empty room. Don't you remember?

She stared at Roger's face as if trying to remember, then her emerald eyes widened.

Dacy: Oh... that time!

Dacy: I remember now... how many years ago was it? A boy I had never met before asked me so earnestly,

Dacy: I thought it must be something that his life depended on, even though I didn't know anything.

Roger: I'm sorry for my intrusion then and now. ... It's been many years since then.

Roger: I came to ask if you remembered anything about that room.

Dacy: That's right. ... Let's not stand here talking, please come in.

After receiving our gifts and putting them away in the cupboard, Dacy led us to the "empty room."

(Huh...? It doesn't seem like an empty room, it feels lived in...)

As if sensing that I wanted to say something, Dacy chuckled.

Dacy: ... It really was a room that no one had lived in for years.

Dacy: There was a bed, a desk, and bookshelves, but no one in the family remembered them.

Dacy: It's funny, isn't it? There are things in our house that we don't know where they came from, even though it's our house.

She narrows her eyes nostalgically as she speaks.

Dacy: Roger, after you came, our family...

Dacy: We talked many times about how it was strange that I couldn't remember why I became a member of the Brown family.

Dacy: But in the end, no one could remember anything...

Dacy: We came to the conclusion that "the truth doesn't matter, we're family now, and that's okay."

Roger: ... I see.

Dacy: There was an unknown "third son of the Brown family," and he was my husband--

Dacy: We decided that this room was the room of that unknown husband.

Dacy stroked the spines of the books on the shelf as if reminiscing about her beloved, and pulled out one book.

Dacy: Look, this poetry book has a more worn cover and folded pages than the others.

Dacy: I imagine that he must have liked this poetry book.

Dacy: ... Hehe... even though I can't remember his name or face.

Dacy: That's why I left it alone.

Dacy: I thought that maybe someday my unknown husband would come back and I'd remember everything...

Roger: "Someday"...

I could feel an indescribable sadness from her profile... and my chest tightened.

Dacy: But... my grandson wanted to rent a room to go to school... so now it's his room.

Dacy: I hardly ever cry when I see this room anymore.

Kate: So... you haven't remembered anything...?

Dacy: ... No, nothing.

(Nothing--)

A glimmer of hope vanished.

I couldn't take my eyes off Dacy's profile as she looked around the room as if searching for something invisible.

Dacy: Even if I told anyone, they wouldn't believe me, but...

Dacy: It feels like there's a blank space in my heart. It's empty.

Dacy: I feel like something very important was there...

Her cheerful smile gradually distorted.

Dacy: Something that can't be filled with anything else should have been there...

Dacy: ... I don't know why I can't remember...

Deep wrinkles formed on her cheeks, and large tears like those of a young child fell.

Her pleading eyes seemed to be desperately clutching her empty palms, as if something would spill out if she opened her hands...

Kate: ...

Her anguish and sadness flowed into my chest as if it were my own, and my eyes grew hot.

The days of love, the joys shared, the hardships overcome together.

I felt like I was witnessing for the first time what it meant to lose all of those memories... to lose the person you loved.

(This is the reality that awaits those who continue to love Alfons...)

They desperately accept reality and live each day, chasing after the lost illusion.

That wound will never heal.

Because the illusion has vanished.

Dacy: ... Hehe, I'm sorry. I said I don't cry anymore, but...

Dacy: I apologize for showing you an old woman's tears. I'll make some tea, please have some.

Kate: ... No, thank you.

(I came here with my own hopes and...)

(I touched Dacy's scar, which will never heal, without permission.)

Realizing this, I was filled with guilt.

Roger: We came to hear your story. We should be the ones thanking you.

Roger: Thank you, Ms. Brown.

Kate: Thank you for talking to us.

And so, we left Dacy's house.

-

Kate: ... Thank you for today, Roger.

I put on a natural smile and looked up.

Roger: Well, it's not unusual to come up empty-handed in a curse investigation. Don't get too discouraged.

Kate: Yes, of course. I'm fine.

Kate : I really admire you for continuing this kind of investigation for years since you were 5 years old.

Roger: I can't stop now that I've come this far. Besides, I have a "destiny" too.

Roger replied in a casual tone, then rolled his shoulders as if to loosen his stiff muscles in the narrow carriage.

Roger: But well, let's take a break from the investigation today.

Kate: Yes. You haven't slept much because you were with me, right? Please get some rest.

Roger: Don't underestimate a doctor's stamina.

Kate: Hehe, sorry. Then I'll go back to my room and get some sleep. I'm exhausted... Good night.

Basking in the sunset, I headed for my room.

Praying that I was able to smile naturally until the end.

-

Roger: ... Geez.

Roger: She's putting on a brave face when she's clearly not okay at all.

-

I closed the door to my room.

And I couldn't move a step.

Kate: ...

I leaned against the door and slumped down.

Even if fate can't be changed, there might be a way out somewhere.

If I could find that way... I could keep the person I love in my memory.

And Alfons, too, when the time comes that he truly wants to be remembered by the person he loves,

He wouldn't have to push that person away.

(I haven't given up on that hope. I won't give up just because I've been knocked down once.)

(But...)

The weight of Dacy's words, that she couldn't remember anything even after living with the memories of the person she loved for decades, weighed heavily on my chest, and I couldn't breathe properly.

(I won't cry... I don't want to cry because it would seem like I've given up.)

(I'll calm down and start from scratch.)

The Purification Club might even make progress tonight.

(I can't just sit here and wallow.)

Even though I thought that, I couldn't stand up...

-

Before I knew it, the surroundings were completely submerged in the blue of night.

(At least... I have to go to bed.)

Just as I was about to stand up, there was a knock.

Kate: ... Yes, who is it?

Alfons: Good evening.

(Alfons... !?)

Kate: ... Is there something you need?

Alfons: Can you open this door?

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Chapter 19 Premium Story

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[mikuchan]

Hi! Sorry that some people didn't get the point of your graphics because honestly, I thought they were very eye opening. Like, I always knew that sexism was rampant on this fandom (due to some personal experiences) but to also see it reflected into the numbers of fics is even more like...i don't know how to put it but it makes you think holy hell this is worst then I expected. And my expectations were already low. And like fics are just one part of the overall issue, but I don't want this to be to long. I just wanted to say that those were graphics were good and I think putting those numbers out there was also good.

Thank you! Honestly I was asking for trouble by including Astarion and Gortash hahaha.

The biggest issues are people taking the post personally, or pulling apart my examples as if they're isolated issues and not each a facet of a greater pattern - but that's just Tumblr being Tumblr. I am very glad that for every one person missing the point of my post there are multiple others reacting positively.

I don't think misogyny in fandom is an issue that can be solved overnight, but I think acting in good faith and with eyes wide open (whether you're writing Astarion or Orin or your own OCs) is a necessity for any fandom to work cohesively. Others have also been making some really solid posts about sexism and racism (zoloteh-volossya has some really good writeups), I'm glad that these issues are gaining traction & awareness and not being swept under the rug.

Fics are definitely only one small part. I wish I was more clever or techy and knew how to get any meaningful info from Tumblr, Reddit, etc but I just don't have those skills. I like ao3 because I can literally go in and count works by hand lmao I'm a passionate luddite.

I'm really glad you liked the infographic, thanks for the kind words 😊

[feather-bone]

hello, sorry if this is the wrong avenue for it, but i wanted to reach out to you here and just let you know how wonderful your art is. and i want to thank you for the care you put into it and to your packaging. which i think is probably a weird compliment to give, but i haven't been having the best time lately and so i ordered some stickers and prints from your store as a pick me up. and opening the package to so much stuff was just ??? it made me a cry a bit genuinely. i love the little creature cards that come with the sticker packs so much. i love getting to learn about the different animals that i wouldn't know the names of without the cards. it's very obvious that you have a lot of passion for your subjects and for your art and that's a wonderful feeling to share. so, just wanted to say thank you for what you do. i am so happy to have found your page and your work and i can't wait to see what you do next. <3

Hi wow omg thank you for the beautiful message, I left it in my inbox for a while so I could reread it ahahha qwq

I'm so glad my work has brought you some joy!! The world is a dreadful place sometimes. Ive been focusing on rediscovering the curiosity and awe the natural world inspired in me as a kid, the last few years, and my art practice is definitely a part of that. Makes the dread easier to bear. :-)

I do feel very passionate about my work and I'm glad it comes across hahaha. Im really grateful to be able to follow that passion so thank you thank you thank you for helping me do that!!

[mainstoryarchive]

Ensemble - 95: Comeback

Subaru: I don't know what kind of circumstances led to the transfer student appearing in an idol outfit but… Well, that surprised me.

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Location: Soundproof Lesson Room

Subaru: I don't know what kind of circumstances led to the transfer student appearing in an idol outfit but… Well, that surprised me.

(Come to think of it, the president was talking about me and the others… about idols very passionately, but…)

(The transfer student didn't become a topic, almost as if he wasn't looking at her.)

(That's only natural. She only transferred in very recently and is still a beginner as a producer.)

(She knows almost nothing about idols. Until just a few days ago she lived in a different world from us. She had nothing to do with us.)

(To the president, she might have been insignificant. That's why they didn't keep an eye on her. The transfer student is the blind spot of the student council.)

(She holds a small possibility, one that that 'Emperor' overlooked.)

(But the transfer student isn't insignificant.)

(She looked over us as we fell apart, she looked at me as I was getting depressed.)

(And she must have thought that she had to do something.)

(That's probably why she went to ask advice from all kinds of people, Kiryu-senpai for example…)

(She had him make an outfit for her, and even though she looks embarrassed, she still properly changed into it.)

(She came up with an idea no one else would be able to to think of and decided to participate as the masked idol. She came running to help me.)

(I'm happy that she feels that way. No, I respect her.)

(While I was getting depressed and looking down, the transfer student was running around without giving up.)

(She looked at the future, she looked forward and advanced.)

(This isn't the time for me to sit still while holding my knees.)

(The star of hope is still shining!)

Hahaha, I wonder, why was I even depressed? Isn't that just stupid?

That's right, I'm not alone.

I just got depressed on my own and deluded myself into thinking I was all alone.

But there was still the transfer student.

Thank you. You reaaally moved me! I'm so happy that tears just came out!

Chiaki: Fuhaha ☆ You don't have the time to be crying, Akehoshi!

We don't have any time to waste until the DDD—from now on, we will be having intense training!

I want it to be a joint practice of RYUSEITAI and Trickstar. The more people you can practice with, the more ways you can practice, right?

Under the name of thanking you for letting us use this soundproof lesson room. It's too much of a waste to use such a wide room with only so few people.

I want you to let me meddle at least this much, Akehoshi.

I am your senpai, your club president and an ally of justice. Whenever you're troubled, I want you to rely on me without any restraint!

Tetora: Ahaha, though it's a nuisance to us who are being forced to go along with you, but Trickstar is the hero that defeated the hateful student council!

Well, you also defeated Taishou's AKATSUKI, so I have complicated feelings. Even so, I received hope from Trickstar!

I'm cheering you on. No, I want to fight with you! I won't let Trickstar disappear in a place like this!

Let's defeat the student council together and return justice to this school ♪

Midori: These guys are way too intense…

Why did I even become part of a unit like this…

Haaa, I'm depressed, I want to die…

Chiaki: Hey hey, what's wrong? You're not lively at all, Green. Raise your voice, light the fire of your soul!

Hard work, friendship, victory! A great victory and a great explosion! Hahahaha…☆

Subaru: Hahaha ☆

Even though I was depressed just a moment ago… I somehow just became really excited, it feels fun!

Thank you! I'm going to do my best ☆

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[samkerrworshipper]

ok so we obviously know about girlgenius but have you ever been in love?

yes!

full disclaimer i am pansexual so just disclaiming that hahaha

i had a boyfriend when i was 16 who i was totally in love with but i grew up ultra religious and so was he and ultimately i didn’t want to live that same lifestyle so we broke up as a result of different beliefs

i was probably secretly in love with my childhood bestfriend for most of my teens we grew up competing and doing gymnastics together and i literally loved her more than any human being but we weren’t meant to be dating, i think cause we grew up as friends it was a little bit harder to transition like that and for us it wasn’t meant to be but every once in a while we hook up and we like it that way

when i was around 19 i fell head over heals for my first proper girlfriend (she was hot as fuck and the best sex ive ever had) but she was a manipulative bitch who emotional fucked with me so much lol (told me i should quit my passions, body shamed me, used my childhood trauma against me, got me addicted to drugs, etc) and it took a lot of therapy and my friends telling me she was a psycho to end that relationship

since then i’ve been in a couple of very lose relationships but i’m ultimately not looking for a commuter relationship rn especially because of my work atm sooo casual sex for me ✌️

there’s a little summary of my love life lol

[sims-for-semi]

acknowledgements

Surprisingly, it's been harder to write acknowledgements than to have written all this simfiction HAHAHA. Where to start?

I'm happy. I'm very very happy, because not only did I have the opportunity to write about something I love, but because over the course of these three years I have shared with a lot of people aaall over the world, and it has been a rewarding experience in every way. Yes, it wasn't the best novel in the world, but as I mentioned before, I was draining myself of energy as time went on, getting my college degree, starting to work and all that.

If you've been following me for a while, and I know many of you have, you'll know that this started just because I finally had a little bit of time during the pandemic to sit down and get things done. It's been three years since then and damn, it's taken me a hell of a lot longer than expected to finish. Anyway, I'm glad I set out to get it done even though I wanted to give up halfway through, because 1. I like to deliver 2. I owed it to myself. Next year I'm going to be 20 years playing The Sims, and how until then had I not been able to create a silly little story about my favorite video game characters?

One of my missions while writing everything was to be able to maintain some of the gameplay while setting up scenes and editing in Photoshop. Could it have been better? Yes, I'm sure it could. But I also know that I had as much fun as I could have had doing it all.

Simblr is such a wonderful community. I am fascinated to be able to share something I am so passionate about with you. It is a privilege for me that my posts have reached so many people. Who would have thought we were all so invested in the Goths and old, boring Pleasantview.

To wrap things up, I'm gifting you my "Pleasant Valley" so you can read it from the beginning. It's yours. It's ours.

And with the risk of forgetting some people, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart:

and also guallarauco, Piperamitt, tamagniis, da3stars, aheavenscorner, Strangetownfan21, and spookythings as well as the 20 guests that left kudos on AO3. Your support, your likes, your reblogs were FUNDAMENTAL for me to keep writing.

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@plumbtales

@clouse-playssims

@jsasimmer

@keoni-chan

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Gracias totales 💗

[stardustjessie]

DANCING IN MOONLIGHT ALL NIGHT

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I has this idea for a damn good while of Marie in the Persona 3: Dancing in the Moonlight cover since I made her design. It took me a while to get around to making this art. 4 months in fact! I only started drawing it last week. It's been really rough drawing as much as I used to while keeping up with work and my personal life. Art is still my passion, and I'm so glad my art has improved so much. I am so, SO- proud of this art! I got the shading and pose just right and exposed her personality. I'm giving myself the pat on the back here because I never really expect comments on my art, so somebody gotta appreciate it so might as well be me hahaha. I did put a lot of effort into it though, and I'm glad it turned out the way it did. Especially considering that my pokemon OCs are some of my favourite OCs to draw, so I'm glad to make a big art piece like this with one of them!

Anyway, that's it for me! If you're wondering what's been up with my life... Well. I've started listening to Radio and been having a great time with that! I've been slowly sorting out my life and becoming a more responsible person. I'll probably get promoted next year so I'm excited about that. I very much miss doing commissions, since I always thought they were very fun to do. But oh well, that's what you get being a small artist. I have been working on a Half-life map! I'll keep that a surprise until I ever finish it. I've also been starting a writing project. I want to make an interesting read, so that's something to look forward! I'm almost 1 year and 6 months into HRT! I've been far far happier ever since starting, and I'm planning on starting Voice Training sometime soon as well. I'm also starting to study music! I need to properly sit down and study but I'm very passionate about becoming a musician, even if underground.

Until next time you lovely folk!

[fakestype]

Godfather is Seiya Hidaka tinfoil hat theory

Every I know is sleeping or working so I need to be unhinged I'm so sorry those are copy pasting from discord and my crazy antics about Gatekeeper and my tinfoil hat theories.

There's this thing with Priest and Gatekeeper that the two of them are both extremes of Godfather who was the middleground and was their God

And both see this part in one another and have a hard time dealing with that.

For Priest, he sees Gatekeeper as the part of Godfather he saw as a God who was so powerful and could do anything, have an impeccable routine while I picture Priest, described as very emotional, as basically a Mayoi amped to the 1000 as in like. Self hatred and hiding in one's shadows. Never being himself. He can't see himself as useful in anything but imitating someone else's excellence without ever reaching it. Gatekeeper is excellence in what he does and he sees this, but without the warmth and passion.

Gatekeeper sees Priest and sees the abhorrent part of Godfather, the disease he sees in everyone, without the backbone to make anything of it. He says it that it is like kind of pitifully common to him.

However, Gatekeeper is not in tune with emotions and how he feels about them when faced with people, there's something about Priest's passion that perhaps touch him but he cannot look up to it because it does not fit his excellence requirement.

They both see their God in each others without Him being there, and there is only grief.

Gatekeeper has grieved from what I see, while Priest has not, he can't, he's inconsolable.

We may not know a lot about Priest but pull out the legendary chart again

So there's Priest who's an orphan and is like I cannot do anything but mimick greatness I cannot be in the light and be the God and is just super emotional altogether

but then when God dies he literally takes place of said God

Then there's the God, the Ultimate Prodigy Super Idol

But then I'm like… man like some things just make me AAAAAA like there's something about Godfather looking at foster kids and being "Yes good" or himself just crafting his own biological kids to basically be like foster kids

Having no parents at all and be neglected in every direction Subaru is def a parallel to Apostle I can't just. Some places I feel like I'm lacking a thread I need to read more Enstars istg.

Because the entire Eichi Godfather Subaru Apostle parallel is to me like the light baby version of the crunchier dark af other parallel I'm trying to make

Because you got this thing with Negi/Hitsugi being rejected by Priest, their biological father, and then Gatekeeper helping them out and they are grateful to him. Like why would. Gatekeeper do that. WHy would he bring Negi back.

Is it just emotional. Is it for something else.

Is Negi going to be the next Apostle Priest want to bring back "trying to fulfill Godfather’s goal and to bring “Apostle” back into the light, without being fully aware that he is actually destroying it instead"

I am thinking before sending messages but I can also put in my thought like I have missing pieces that keep being shown as the story goes and I'm like AAAAAAAAAAAAAA because we do not know Godfather's last wish, not really like he wants a super idol that will transcend everything and I think it's kind of a torture porn situation where you ascend beyond humanity by being the embodiment of the art without any human quality which is like holy fuck ok which is to me why SS and just everything tries to break the people who tries to be idols or are idols to bring them to that potential and I can hahaha see why Gatekeeper a sadist who was probably a serial killer I believe before he was found by Godfather or some shit like that he's Patrick Bateman let's be honest Went

Maybe he did. Maybe he's just really sadist and not serial killer actually but like. HOnestly given Enstars. I'm here for the serial killer backstory before being an assassin. It'd be sooooo fucking extra of Enstars. because Gatekeeper was first and foremost like Nagisa said he was utterly terrifying, he was the limbs of Godfather and as I quote Nagisa he was here to destroy every obstacle in the shadow and Godfather is here like he sacrificed idols for to elevate the ones he loved most. And Nagisa goes on how brutal it was. Atop of everyone's reaction to Gatekeeper especially Hiiro. Ok 100% Gatekeeper killed again and again and again for Godfather. Now did he do it before. I feel like Godfather wouldn't hire him if he did not do it before. Like see him, saw it was only murder in this man's eyes, and be like "You're hired." He's too unhinged to not pick an actual serial killer. Like if you keep a rando sadist chances are he will leave evidence when killing for you you don't want that. So back at the chart I see parallels upon parallels of Godfather, Priest and Apostle and I'm like where are the Gatekeeper I blinked and I go "… is it Ibara?" Because we got what I feel is like Godfather era: the R-rated story The Godfather aftermath era whatever the fuck happened with his children: the PG-16 story Reimei era: the PG-13 story Yumenosaki: the PG story

And there's always a God figure someone who worships and want that for themselves while just not being able to achieve it, someone cold and calculated to elevate it, and that impostor syndrome and doppleganger idk what to call it twin ass stuff Which is kinda crazy because you can see the influence of Godfather in the current units we have, like what was nurtured through the generations came out as parallel units to it Eden: from Godfather's child to attempt at "grooming" one kid to be that human-less idol… but because it is Eden, Adam (Nagisa and Ibara who had the qualities to be inhuman) failed because of Eve (Hiyori and Jun who just were good friends) Ryuseitai: That hero syndrome of saving the world of idols 2wink: That fuckin impostor weird ass shit of I'm me I'm you who are we we're suicidal UNDEAD: the legacy that never dies fine: it's the cryptid ass beings holding the paradise in the search of their god (the super idol they want) Trickstar: Honestly so far I just think Trickstar is like, the innocence of it all, because the basis of that idolation is a search for innocence, and Trickstar is it, Trickstar winning in ! is how a jaded system found back its innocence and joy of life MaM: it's Madara going "what the fuck is going on AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" I'm thinking way too hard about this. I feel like if I do that for every other unit remaining it will be a flimsier parallel but I do think it's there

basically where are the Gatekeepers between R-rated and PG what the fuck are they doing I feel like a plotwist one day will be that Madara's parents are somewhere in that chart they're mentioned too often and fucked up as hell I'm going insane but I love that asshole

There's also the like… is Madara the parallel? Is the only other guy who wants to be the bloodied limbs of someone else but also who is it… Leo? Like because Leo is a genius who's about to "not be human" because he's a genius so it's always those figures who are prodigies who are elevated during the search of the real celestial god or am I going too far with that

Then there's like Double Face… which I think Godfather def wanted to do with… somebody… I kinda wanna say Apostle, but idk if Madara made Double Face in the way he knew Godfather wanted it to be. Because idk if Godfather would do illegal shit with Akehoshi who died not wanting to compromise his morals.

And then we talk about the illegitimate and adoption line but NEVER THE OFFICIAL ONE LIKE WHERE IS IT THERE'S TOJO AND THE NKANAME AND HIMERU BUT LIKE… DETAILS????

if anything we know more about the Tojo mothers the dad is a total mystery, did the dad have siblings who was his mom

also conspiracy theory Godfather felt betrayed Akehoshi got a family and a wife, which pushed him away from being a brilliant inhuman idol and more of a human so he orchestrated his death, hoped he'd take his help while in custody to be indebted to him and have him under his control because he loved him so much but he did not take it and died and thus Godfather is unconsolable because he killed the one he loved.

ngl if they say that Godfather#2 is Seiya i'm gonna die (taking that out of my ass but funny thought)

Seiya being so close to Ibara and seeing Ibara as the future of the generation when he's. You know. Evil mastermind. Tales of Antique mentioning their interests align. Seiya being WEIRD AF WITH SUBARU. Akehoshi and Seiya's past. Tales of Antiques AGAIN mentioning how Akehoshi's death deeply affected it so he took an "Idol Robot" persona to protect himself WHICH FITS THE WAY HIMERU DOES KANAME NOW THAT I READ OBBLIGATO WHICH WOULD FIT ABOUT THE REAL SEIYA DYING AND PRIEST TAKING HIS PLACE ALSO THIS DESIGN FOR A FACE IS JUST EVIL IT'S SHARP ALL OVER.I KNOW DESIGN

IT'S VOICED BY MOTHERFUCKING SHINICHIRO MIKI AND THERE'S BASICALLY NOTHING DONE WITH THAT LEVEL OF TALENT AND SEIYA UNLIKE ANY OTHER RELATIVE OF THE CHARACTERS HAS A PORTRAIT, A VOICE, HE HAS A PRESENCE WHEN HE BASICALLY DOES NOTHING BUT SAY "HEY GUYS IM HOKUTO'S DAD" WHY WOULD HE HAVE ALL THIS OF THIS QUALITY WITH NOTHING DONE WITH YET―THATS BECAUSE HE'S GODFATHER GDI.

"Do your best to follow in my footsteps and become model prisoners of idol jail ♪"

I'm going insane. Maths (homework) turned me insane.

forgot to add Hokuto not seeing Seiya during his childhood the neglect is here it fits Seiya being a Super Idol. Now "why does no one identify Seiya as Godfather then uh genius" WELL WHY DOESN'T ANYONE KNOW ABOUT THE YUMENOSAKI WAR UH HIDE THE EVIDENCE ITS THAT EASY. Me: I won't invest so much into Enstars lore and theory I'll just chill with my bois I need to tellmyself it is impossible

This started out with me looking up initially for parallels Apostle - Godfather and I was like who's Godfather for Subaru… sure Eichi is at the helm of the system but he does NOT see Subaru like THAT (it's Wataru for him) then I was like … Hokuto? and I was like Hokuto Subaru is PG version… wait

[castlebyersafterdark]

its interestin you say that sub/dom isnt your think but you like some omegaverse characterisation, because isnt the sub/dom role, or rather just any role, always included in characterisation even when not the bedroom dynamics? so all omegaverse is a variation of sub/dom in a way?

a memorable omegavrse for me, because im not big into it either, was one where both boys were omegas. i liked that because if i was pressed to choose, i would say that both mike and will are subs. no idea how this works with them together, is it possible to have two subs or does there always have to be contrasts? actually i would instead say theyre both sides emotionally, but will physically try almost anything.

Haha well, I don't really want to be known as some omegaverse connoisseur because I am not. So it doesn't really matter what's going on in those types of fics because I'm a casual enjoyer. It's a very subtle, like a dog with ears perking up at the concept of both characters being super possessive and the emotional neeeeediness of the sexual desire, but then the sex itself happens and the ears go down and I just scroll and read and nod my head. My metaphors are getting more and more nonsensical around here haha. I guess there's a difference to me in the things I'm into than what might be the common idea of dom/sub.

Take the concept of spanking for example. You can argue that it plays into that dynamic, but the difference in what I like/don't like, is the spanking being sensation play, rather than discipline. I do not like sex being used as punishment/reward if that make sense? Just a personal nope. I get why people like it, totally valid. Not for me. So I like the idea of an understandable world building situation where during a cycled biological situation, two characters who are already holding crushes and feelings for each other, their bodies take over and almost force them to take action and get down to it and admit feelings - just in this 'verse, maybe the feelings are admitted while in the heat of passion haha. That's what i like about omegaverse. It's fantasy and kind of ridiculous but that's the simple appeal.

I just don't think certain relationships need to have dom/sub. You say, can there be two subs and I say, why would that be necessary? That just sounds like two people who are on equal ground who probably both are really focused on giving the other pleasure, which just sounds like a nice relationship or really nice sex where there's communication and care. I guess two doms would be like, aggressive rough sex where both are I don't even know what. Is this true enemies to lovers?? Hahaha. Incredibly intense wrestling and fighting each other than leads into fucking. I don't know!! Too complicated for me, make love not war 🤭🤭

[lifmera]

hi!! i LOVE your matchups and was wondering if i could get one for hazbin hotel!

i use she/her pronouns, romantically i’m interested in men, and as for my personality, i pretty much land right in the middle of being an introvert and an extrovert. i would say im pretty funny, outgoing, and lighthearted for the most part but i always need my alone time after a long day. i’m not really one to be very emotional because i’m just not very good at opening up, but i love my friends more than anything and am always there for them if they need, and i give some pretty good advice if i do say so myself hahah. as much as i hate it i do tend to hold a grudge, especially if someone does something to someone i care about, and i really do love to gossip hahaha. i’m also pretty smart and i really do enjoy school, but that lingering gifted kid trauma makes it absolutely impossible for me to ask for help (but we’re working on that lol). i’m a sagittarius and i think i fit the description of that pretty well too!

my style is honestly veryyy comfy casual, i really just wear whatever’s convenient but i LOVE to accessorize and i’m a sucker for trends. i love jewelry, and i usually go for more dainty necklaces with fun earrings and i absolutely love my nose piercing. i pretty much always wear light makeup, really just mascara and some concealer, but at the end of the day i really don’t care much about how people think i look. i’m 5’5” so average height, and i’m blonde with blue eyes!

my favorite things to do would probably be spending time with my friends, reading, and listening to music. i absolutely LOVE music, literally every genre, but some of my favorite artists are phoebe bridgers, taylor swift, noah kahan, and hozier! i’m a big believer in try everything once though, so i’m always willing to try new things because there’s nothing more exciting than finding a new passion or having an awesome experience because you decided to take a risk with something you usually might not!!!

thanks so much, i can’t wait to see what you think! :)

HI HUN! Thank you so much <3

I've decided to pair you with........ HUSK!

He would be drawn in by your personality at first!! he would need someone more joke-y and lighthearted since he's always grumpy.

he would also need his alone time after a long day!

I think he would SOMEHOW get you to open up- this man knows everything abut everyone. even if you didn't drink. he got Angel to open up! he'll get you too.

Honestly, he'd be glad someone else can give advice. I don't think he likes to talk much unless it's also important- or something he deems necessary.

Husk goes through things, and will most likely turn to you to help calm him down!

Honestly, he wouldn't mind if you held grudges. he holds one against Alastor. Just- don't hold one against him!

I think he'd love to hear your gossip while he's cleaning some glasses!

He's actually really into academics probably- he'd love to what about newer things your good at ! like what English book did you read ?

He's happy that you aren't putting on a facade, and able to wear clothes that make you comfortable!

he also LOVES that you don't care about what other people think about you!

I don't think he'll be huge on music, though he'll play some of your favorites at the bar!

I think he'd love that you are a try - everything - once, but he is PICKY. i don't think this man wants to go out much!

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Thank you so much for requesting! i hope you enjoy <3

[malleleothreesome]

Update on my 12 Days of TWSTmas Prompt Request Event

Hey everyone! I'm gonna try to keep this short cause I feel like I talk too much and it makes my posts unreadable lol

TLDR: I will continue to fulfill your requests throughout the year.

The past 12 days, I have written over 20,000 words (12,000 of which got posted) across 4 different WIPs and 2 posted fics. I really wish I could have posted more, but I am a perfectionist, and I also put my blood, sweat, and tears into each and every thing I post. Even if you sent me only 3 words for your request, chances are, thats gonna be 4k words from me. If you sent me a sentence with some backstory, thats probably another 4k words from me. That's just the type of writer I am—so I'm not efficient at pumping things out quickly, but I hope the quality of my work makes up for that fact! Hopefully, I can get these 4 WIPs out for you guys this January, but I need to keep putting hours into them to get to a place where I'm happy with the story. I'm doing my best!

I have A LOT of requests in my inbox. A lot of amazing, well thought out, exciting requests that I want to keep working on. I want everyone who sent me a request ask to know how much it means to me that you are interested in my work and took the time to send me your ideas.

My number one goal of this year is to keep writing. Writing fics the past few months has been the most fulfilling thing I've done in my 20s (and I'm 27 lmfao) so pretty much when I'm not in my 9 to 5, I want to be writing.

I still can't guarantee if I will get to your request (or when, considering how many hours I put in to each request) but I can promise that if I do get to your request, I will give it my all to bring your vision to life and create a story that was hopefully worth waiting for!

My ask box will always remain open for your ideas (related to or unrelated to the prompts I posted, I'll welcome anything!) as long as you understand I may not be able to fulfill your request. Most of the time, I can only work on things I'm really passionate about. So if you happen to send me something that really sparks my interest, I could very well get it out to you within a week hahaha, but it all depends.