#i am tired its almsot 1 AM

[the-catmans-offical-2]

03 kimblee but also bh kimblee for bingo

Hiiiiiiiii!! I dunno about bh, as I need to rewatch still, but 03 kimblee.

No bingo, but I personally hate Kimblee. I hate a lot about Kimblee, the sadistic actions and killings of an ethnic group, how his hands aren't scarred up from making fucking explosions with his BARE HANDS, and his voice.

Idk, I don't see why people like him, but I am in no place to judge said people.

[weirdcursedvaultkid]

I'm sorry for asking this, but honestly, what do you see in merula????

i just find her character rly interesting and i love chars that go thru a bunch of development and change for the better (and altho merula isnt written the best .. the potential is there for her and that is what i appreciate)

i find her snarkiness rly funny like i think merula says some of the funniest shit in this game.. shes so confident and has such an ego that its funny bc she can be so stupid like how she turned herself into a worm and puffskein.. thats so funny?????? she was so proud of herself when she made that fucking niffler giant??? shes so bad at spying at mc??? idk shes just ridiculous and its great

and then theres her backstory which is sad... shes had to go thru a lot... losing her parents, growing up neglected, ppl just think the worst of u bc of who her parents are, she finally finds an adult figure in her life that sees something in her and she can look up to and then they just end up betraying and torturing her while telling her the most awful things... like rakepick rly knew what to say that would hurt merula most.... despite merulas confidence shes actually a v sad insecure kid 

and then theres her relationship with mc... mc and merula are like foils for eachother they have quite a bit in common.. and its jsut fun i love their banter i love how they go back and forth i love that they become friends in later years

shes also rly important to the plot and we get lots of content for her making her one of the most developed characters in the game as well so 

i never excuse the bad things shes done im aware merula has flaws and is not perfect shes done shitty things and i wish those things had been addressed better but i still find her character rly compelling. i think shes neat and even if jc messes her character up .............. i will still stan i will just imagine she got the redemption arc she desrved bitchhhhh

i think i could prob write an essay about all this like theres so much i didnt touch on in this ask but im not good at explaining myself

[exculis]

JUST found out how tags like, WORK on toyhouse so i set up a tag for characters i want art of to make shit easier when i request stuff lol 

ANYWAY i need to go to bed now bc its almsot 1 am and i am tired af and i have a lot to do tomorrow vis a vis pasta assuming the flour comes at a reasonable time of day 

[peachpxnchh-blog]

thoughts (this long ok)

i want to be loved and taken care of but i also want to take care f someone and i want to explore w my loves (my friends) i cant wait 2 this summer i know me and noodle and maddie and tori and mayb rissa (i hope she can come w) are going 2 this summer abd i met a boy hes wonderful and i care so deeply about him he makes me very happy and life is goood now but i know the happy mood will end and i will be sad again and i dont want to but its the way my mind works and this boy hes an angel i call him that to everyone its so true tho hes so wonderful and i love him so much i hope we last not even in a romantic way bcuz i dont know if he even likes me in that way but even just having him in my life to talk to makes me happy and i said i loved you the night before last and i was so scared but he said it back but not im in lov with you i love you the i care very deeply about you and i enjoy talking to you love thr is a very large difference between the two and a lot of people forget that they are not the same i love you can mean lots of things i love you as a friend you are nice and sweet and i would hate to see anything bd happen to yuo, i love you you are my person you are my best friend you mean the world to me and if we arnt both married by a certain age then we will get married to eachother i tell you everything, i love you im in love with you i think of us being together for a long times and even if it is short ill enjoy every moment of it, and a shit ton more but those r 3 i think a lot abt waht myfuture could be like and also when it will end some times i feel like ill die b4 this june (my birthday) sometimes i feel like ill die when im 109 i dont know and thats so exciting and i often think of what hapens when we die do we go to heaven or hell? do we rot in the ground? do we roam around earth ? do we get t live again? what really happens ? i dont know no one knos my sister is so scared of death and i dont get hy its interesting and i love thinking about it im manic im not tired i havent slept b4 1 am in almsot 3 weeks exept lat night bcuz i took my pill i hate taking it it makes my whole body hurt and my veins and its wild i think im going to watch a movie i dont know 

[mylovenadia]

Part 2

It was the ringtone thaf threw me off. I did asked her before when she was still using her old phone. I said baikkk...tukar special ringtone for him. She said..nda pun. Nda pernah me ubab katanya. At the time, it didn’t bother me much cos she might have changed it when she was still in relationship with him and she haven’t change it back. So i was okay. But not today. She already changed her phone and supposedly all the ringtone in her WhatsApp contact list will changed back to default cos theres no way i cloud will sync that little detail to a new phone. When daus texted i realised his ping is different than the others. I asked her right away and said eh..utk daus berubah ah ringtone nya. She said mna ada. Semua pun sama. Mna me ubah. While she was asleep, i checked my phone settings. Specifically in whatsapp. I know who i have changed the ringtone before i converted to iphone X from iPhone 6 before. I haven’t changed it back when i have this phone. I rechecked the settings and its reset to default settings. I know for sure his ringtone was new set up. Im really upset. I cried in silence. I am super jealous. I managed to fall asleep for half an hour only. Woke up at 0830pm cos we shifted sleep positions. It was bright anyways cos she switch on the fairies lights. She asked, shall we go to lambak to eat. In a dazed she said she’ll change. But i refused cos she looks tired. I rather be hungry than she doesn’t have enough sleep cos of me. I said..get back to sleep. Its okay. I go alone. She asked what time is it now? I told her its 0830 and don’t worry i’ll set an alarm and asked her to go back to sleep. I woke up and switch off the lights. Get back to bed besides her trying to make an attempt to sleep back but couldn’t. Instead i watch her sleeping for almsot an hour straight. I look at this woman that i love sleep soundly besides me. There was a lot of questions played in my head. 1. Is he special? 2. Was she telling the truth? If not..why did she lie? 3. Why only him he changed the ringtone? 4. Did she changed my ringtone too when i texted? 5. Am i special? 6. Does she really love me? 7. Does he hold a special place in her heart? 8. Should i try text her later while she taking her shower and see if she changed mine. All those questions repeated over and over again in my head. I look at her sleeping, touch her cheek slowly and look at her face lovingly. I just couldn’t believe that she is my gf. What does she sees in me? Why does she reciprocate my feelings? Does she genuinely love me? I go crazy for a while then the alarm rang. I wake her up slowly. She moved. She woke up straight away. I hugged her from behind. She realized that i was crying. She touched my face. She asked if im okay. I said i am. She better get ready cos its late already. She went straight to the toilet. I called her up back to the room cos she forgotten her towel. she said she only needs to pee not shower. She took the towel nonetheless. While she was in the toilet, i checked her phone if it was on silent or not. It was not i found out. I texted ❤️ just want to hear ny ringtone. Its the default one. My heart breaks. I woke up and get ready myself. Clean up the bed then went to the other room and changed. She was there too. I couldn’t look straight to her face. My heart shattered. Went to living room and cried while she was getting ready at the back. When i heard she was coming, i jolted walk to the bedroom and wiped my tears. I guess i can’t hide it cos she asked me softly on why i cried. Before i head out to the car, i turned and hugged her tightly and cried on her shoulder. She said to me softly..baby we will see each other again in 2 weeks okay after you come back from offshore. I’ll still be here. I said i will miss you. Then i turned to look back at the wall clock. Its 0945 and i said we should be going or else you’ll be late. In the car, i regain my composure. She told me she had a lot of dreams while she put on her socks. I asked what was your dream? Well she said one of it, she dreamt that shes going offshore and her mom got so upset when