#i am my own monster

[sp00kysk3lly]

First therapy session today with the psychiatrist today…

Feelings: Anxious. Scared. Worried. Wanting to make myself ill so I don’t have to go….

I don’t know what to think about it. I’m scared they’ll be like all the others that I had at that place, (I’ll call it CC).

At CC I’ve had a psychiatrist tell me to go online and see which mental health problem fits me best…. (It’s not a fucking clothes shop mate!)

I’ve also had a CBT therapist spend 50 minutes EACH session, sit and talk about diabetes and testing me on my diabetes knowledge. Every. Single. Session. The only thing I did for CBT was a story of how I’d kill my friends. That’s it. Nothing else.

Then I’ve had 2 people don’t really know what they were to be honest (I doubt they had any medical degree, they didn’t seem to know a lot). They fobbed me off on some “support worker” who turned out to be weird. Kept wanting to come to my house even after I told him I wasn’t comfortable with it and I’d gladly meet him somewhere else. I don’t know if it’s because he was a man or if I just had red flags thrown into my face, but I was certainly 100 percent uncomfortable.

They always tell my doctors or whoever referred me that I was “reluctant” when I simply just left because I wasn’t getting the right help or support. Why should I stay somewhere when I’m not being helped?

I don’t think talking about my diabetes for 50 minutes each week was helping me with my thoughts, was it?

Hopefully these people are better. I’ve looked up the psychiatrist I’ll be seeing, and she seems qualified enough. But I still don’t understand why they’d have a occupational therapist in the appointment??? It doesn’t make sense as I’m there for PTSD and Pure O OCD??

And I’m also not very good with new people so I hope they can understand that. Sometimes these mental health professionals, they think people are going to go in there and be all talkative.

Considering that I’m also angry at my current therapist for ending my sessions early. I was suppose to have 8 sessions, not 4!!! Making me comfortable and then make me leave and go somewhere new with new people that I don’t know?? How am I suppose to feel? Happy?

What annoys me most is the fact that on the 28th, in my session with the current therapist, I slightly made eye contact, something that I don’t really do much and haven’t done since HJ was in my life.

Wish me luck I guess!

[idolomantises]

sometimes i forget i'm allowed to be indulgent. i'll make another female character and several lesbians and then think "Gosh i hope people dont mind 🥺" like hello? these are MY ocs, what the fuck am i saying.

[feelo-fick]

i thought the reason was obvious..??

but you dont seem to get the implication so i guess ill just keep talking and you can listen if you want to

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that one meme but its them :] sort of a sequel to this

[ilikedetectives]

- So you'll stay with me, and have a mind flayer as a consort?

- Why would I ever leave?

[sparkdoesart]

(YOU CAN'T LET THEM GO HOME.)

[heckyeahponyscans]

Would anyone in France (or possibly Europe might work) be interested in acting as proxy for me in buying this, ie I pay you to buy this book off eBay and ship it to me? It's on eBay France.

I messaged the seller and, via Google Translate, asked if they shipped to the United States and basically said I would pay whatever amount of shipping was necessary, but they never got back to me. I am dying to read it and scan it. I've never seen this book before but it translates to "My Little Pony and the Ice Monster".

[holy-reference-in-a-username]

A Discussion

Content Warning: discussion of sex

this will probably see a followup on my nsfw blog... hope yall like hurt/comfort!!!

[aracariwren]

Imps of Miitopia

Alternate coloring + trivia:

They're drawn in order by their number in the journal.

There are 2 imp Miis because there are 2 different costume models (like every job's gear) and also because I wanted to draw both the 3DS and Switch promo/default Miis.

I didn't draw a face on the blue imp (Imp "Cheery Granny"/"Traveler's Friend"/"Teammate"/"YOU") because since they're the only imp monsters who have an entire face, they vary so much throughout everyone's playthroughs depending on what Miis you have.

I also made the blue imp's collar similar to the Dark Lord's because this imp resembles the Dark Lord the most, and they only appear as bosses, so the Dark Lord must value them a lot... They're the ones he calls on for help, after all.

For the imp, naughty imp, and clever imp, whatever eyes/glasses they had when they first popped up in the journal, those were the ones I drew.

I've never played the Switch version of Miitopia so seeing the red fiend threw me for a loop.... look at him... waffle fiend....

Spoilers are for the imp Miis' outfits (because one is end-game and one is post-game) and both the terror fiend and the red fiend (mostly/only encountered post-game). Mostly for the red fiend.

Thank you for reading, I leave you with this terror fiend gif. (⁠＾⁠∇⁠＾⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♪

[crumbpigeon]

✸ If you could only see the beast you've made of me, I held it in but now it seems you've set it running free ✸

[brionysea]

I'm trying really hard not to just be The Complainer because that's an energy I don't want to bring here when I love (present tense; I rewatch it like 5 times a day) arcane season 1 so much but does anyone remember when powder was taken in by silco and being raised by this very utilitarian merciless 'the ends justify the means' type character made jinx turn out violent and merciless as well. and vi was horrified by her and the lanes were terrified of her and piltover was falling over itself trying to scapegoat her as the one bad apple of the undercity to kid themselves into believing that everyone else was perfectly fine with being treated as less than. and that contrasts vi after vander etc. died because she was raised by him and internalised the idea that no one wins in war and fighting back against systemic oppression isn't worth the damage it causes to your own community which is why she ended up working with cait and the council like vander worked with grayson. the people who raised them shaped them into who they are today but then in season 2 jinx has a daughter and she's suddenly completely normal and well adjusted and her attachment style isn't digging her nails in until she draws blood at all. like What. what happened. didn't things used to mean something

[ophanstears]

🍀

I know that Clover's gender is up to interpretation (the devs DID say so themselves) but I still feel weird when people make them exclusively male or female LOL Like it's TECHNICALLY fine??? but it leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

more in tags as usual because I am a yapper. i am so sorry for having strong opinions about gender and representation. i am usually more fun than this 🥲🥲🥲🥲

[adm-starblitzsteel-4305]

“Godzilla usually cuddles her every time, inhaling her lovely scent.”

He’s so real for that

"You've got to be kidding me, aren't you Goji?" The Queen asked, her voice muffled by her fluffy fur.

Of course, why would it be? Thought Godzilla, his face squashed on her delicate fur, the loveliest scent of rare flowers are addicted, for a King to his Queen.

Both were tired dealing with almost a month of checking the humans and Titans. So much that the King of the Monsters yearned her scent. When the two finally met each other, they settled down on a huge cozy cave.

That didn't wipe his goofy smile upon landing his golden orange eyes at Mothra's lovely sapphire blue ones.

Something that he really, really meant to cuddle her for a long time.

The King bring his tongue out to lick her fur, nipping it tenderly. She squirmed a bit, almost feared if he squished the moth too much, but he was a gentle King.

"Feeling better?" Godzilla asked, earning a nod to Mothra.

Adjusting one more time of their position, the moth finally fall asleep.

He took one last inhale of her scent, feeling his mind become lightheaded, dreaming of their never ending love and loyatly to one another...

"Good night, My Queen."

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Books of 2024: THE GREAT CITIES DUOLOGY by N. K. Jemisin.

[cloud-ya]

so I finally beat primordial malzeno and redrew this one scene

that snout doesn't seem much expressive though

[wereoz]

i think declan touching doyle’s hand and saying ‘i remember you…’ and doyle responding ‘i’m sorry’ was the perfect way to end the emily & doyle & declan arc. it’s the perfect way to show that in a horrible, dysfunctional way they were a family (forced to be!!) and even though emily and doyle wanted each other dead and declan lives without both of them, a little bit of each other will live in all of them forever. honestly including this in the same ep where it’s revealed declan was born through doyle keeping his mother captive to force her to give birth, and emily’s disgust at that really makes this arc more powerful and tragic. like - she had to live with that man and make loving him believable. she had to believe 100% she was in love for him for this to work, not to mention she was further trapped by actually caring for declan and wanting to know he was okay. it’s a painful, confusing situation with no good outcome. if it’s not believable, you die and compromise the operation. if you believe it, you compromise your morality and identity and when everything ends you feel as though you’ve destroyed your home, your family. emily was left feeling so empty. god <//3

[aliciavance4228]

"Medusa x Perseus" Why don't you guys ship Bellerophon with Chimera? Or Heracles with the Hydra?