#i am manifesting that i don’t lose my 50/50

[dulcento]

aventurine……… you WILL be mine in eight days………

[threnodians]

that feeling when i realize that i have everything for diluc already, even his signature weapon 🤪 🔥

[sutheworld]

hi

I would like to ask you, can you tell me exactly what my problem is? I feel as if manifestation does not suit me. The more I stress, the worse it gets. I feel as if I am doing everything wrong and I cannot imagine. My fears control me. I fear that I will not be able to manifest my desires and my life will remain as it is. My health is getting worse every day and I am afraid of losing my mother. I am a failure in everything these days. I feel as if my life is meaningless and there is no point in living because I cannot use my strength and believe in myself. The solution is in my hands, but I cannot do anything. I do not know what is happening to me. But I don't want to die like this, I don't want to let my ability to change my life go like this, but I can't use it and nothing works for me. Everyone tells me to work on your self-concept, but even my self-concept and I find it difficult to work on it. I'm very, very sorry, but I don't want to waste more years. Likewise, I have been in this community for 3 years and until now I have not been able to manifest even a small thing even though I know everything

Did you suffer as much as I did in the beginning, or was it just me, and what did you do to succeed in the end?

Well i could write you one of those how to manifest texts now but it seems like you’ve already read a lot of them.

I think what will help you is thinking that you’re doing well right now. It seems like you tried a lot of things and like you affirm too, but then you tell yourself “i’m doing something wrong, this feels wrong, i must be doing something really bad”. Which obviously makes you feel like you’re doing something wrong 🤷‍♀️ so you come back to tumblr.

Don’t be so pessimistic, why see everything from the negative side and worry and worry and worry… The possibility of you doing the method right and of you being on the right track is higher and sometimes just as high as the possibility of you doing something wrong. But you still only look at the chances of you doing it wrong, that’s all you care for. In reality when you affirm there’s a 100% chance you’re on the right track and have it manifested right now. However, you still choose to make it 99% because you feel like there’s always gotta be something wrong and fishy.

Even if the chance of you failing is 50% and of you winning is also 50%, you choose to only look at the 50% failing possibility.

Why are you only looking at the failing side??? That’s not logical it’s not more possible than the winning side…. and only focusing on the 50% loosing possibility makes you feel miserable.

Believing in the 50% winning is free. It doesn’t cost you anything, it isn’t hard either it’s as easy as sticking to the other 50%.

Stop making your life harder by only believing in bad things. The possibility of good things happening, of you doing well, is literally JUST AS HIGH. Plus, when you affirm the possibility of you doing something wrong/failing is fully eliminated, no matter what happens. No matter what contradicting thoughts follow your affirmation, what occurs on your 3D and whatever. You are doing it right, you have already manifested it. Stick to being happy 😭😭😭 why be saaadd

So now i want you to affirm something, like just something positive once or twice is enough. And you’re done! You’re doing it right. For the rest of the day you can feel fully content.

It would work like this if you’d affirm something bad too, you say it once or twice and then your day is ruined. That’s super easy to do, right? All day long you’ll only think of those negative thoughts and worry. That’s perfect training for my current manifestation recommendation!

Affirm, and let those thoughts have the same impact on you as your negative thoughts usually have. Keep feeling happy because you just did something hella right. Ideally the thoughts that just guaranteed your manifestation will keep ringing in your mind, just like your worries would usually do. Like it’s really that easy, just be happy. There’s nothing to worry about, you can now leave tumblr too, as you’re doing everything right.

There’s actually no need for you to ask me for advice. Honestly, you’ve mastered manifestation, it’s just affirm and be satisfied with your method. You are doing super good, no need to pursue further manifestation advice. Everybody has the 100% manifestation guarantee as long as they affirm/apply some manifestation method.

—————- to answer your additional questions:

I like to act like a white male in his thirties, who always believes that everything he does is right. So somehow the start of my manifestation journey was kinda where i peaked. It was the best time of my life, i was so happy to have discovered law of assumption and i tried to apply it as much as i can.

But after that i of course struggled to keep my happy spirit alive at times. It wasn’t easy to always stay on the manifestation track and keep my thoughts clean. Humans usually all live similar lives and share similar experiences, as a human there’s always somebody who is going trough the same experience as you. You’re never alone.

What helps me when i don’t know how to approach a manifestation is identifying my problem. Most of the time the problem is a pessimistic attitude, just me being stressed. So i try to remind myself that i don’t have anything to be stressed about, and that it’s okay to not have anything to be stressed about, because just because my friends are stressed doesn’t mean i have to be stressed too.

I’m aware that i know very well how to manifest, me lacking knowledge can never be the problem here. It’s me thinking i’ll fail no matter how hard i try. I can get rid of that mindset with logical thinking, with the idea i’ve tried to explain to you above: Me doing it right is more probable and sometimes just as possible as me doing it wrong, so why hurt myself by denying my chances of success. When they are higher than my chances of failure.

Even if the possibility of failure is 99%, i’ll believe in that 1% of possible success with my whole soul and being.

That’s how i survive. I just assume that i’m doing it well.

Hope this made sense 😭😭😭 stay happy princess!!

[p-antalons]

HES YOUNGER THAN US PRESIDENT JOE BIDEN WHAT THE FUCK

this winter classic stuff really has me a fool tell me why i thought bobby orr was long dead that man is like 70

[helenofsimblr]

Bob: I didn’t say that. But you stayed out late, and you didn’t contact me and update me. I’ve been down this road before, Elita. With Judith, the lies, the sneaking about and she was out there hurting people.

Elita: You think I’m like her!? You think I’m going to hurt people, suck them dry!?

Bob: No… I… I don’t believe that Elita. I… I’m not… accusing you, and I don’t want to hurt your feelings, but I’m scared history is going to repeat.

Elita: My father stammered over his words, with hindsight I know what he meant. He had, he thought, a 50% vampire hybrid super soldier teen daughter who was literally sneaking about. I did stay out late with Ambrose and I did not report in. BUT, I didn’t hurt anybody and neither did Ambrose. But dad had seen all this before, and he was afraid, so I get it. 

Elita: I knew it! Another monster daughter for you to worry about! Well don’t worry because I’ll pack my shit and…

Bob: That’s enough. You’re not going anywhere. We won’t lose you like we did Judith, you’re not her. Judith was petty, selfish, and vain, and you’re none of those things. But Elita, I can’t have you lie to me honey. If you want to have my total trust, I have to have the truth from you.

****

Elita: Honesty, is the best policy. I told my dad the truth, with but one slight omission…

Elita: I was at the ruined church in Mag Heights, some of the kids at school set it up as a party place. I was told about it, and decided to go to try and make a friend, and fit in. I didn’t report in because I lost track of time, because… I met a guy there.

Bob: “A guy?” Do you know him from school? What kind of age was he?

Elita: He was a spot older than me, he’s a Senior I guess… and we went for a cheeseburger, well, he wasn’t hungry, but I ate. We got to talking, I lost track of time and ran home. NOTHING happened between us. I swear.

Bob: Thank you honey, I appreciate that. I want you to feel comfortable here and be able to come and go as you please, but I need you, Guy, John, and Lyra to all bear in mind… we are not normals. For us there has to be rules. For our safety and the safety of others. It’s unfair, it’s not right, but it’s how it must be.

Elita: I understand.

****

Bob: Come here!

Elita: My dad grabbed me in a hug. And I leaned my head on his chest as he held me tight. 

Bob: I am so proud of you, and I love you very much. Never forget those two things Elita. 

Elita: Thanks dad, I love you too. Sorry I didn’t tell you. 

Bob: Water under the bridge sweetheart. You being here has enriched all our lives, and we’d never be without you. We might not always agree, and that’s ok, because this is your home, with me and Lyra and you never have to feel like you don’t belong here. This is where you belong, with us.

Elita *quietly*: Ok, thank-you.

Bob: Good, now get your ass up to bed. You haven’t slept in 3 nights. Go go go! 

Elita: My own insecurities at that age manifested from time to time, hearing my father reaffirm his commitment and love to me, was just what I needed. I also did need sleep, so bed is where I went.

[manifestingunicorn]

CONSCIOUSNESS IS THE ONLY REALITY

Why most of us fail while manifesting Is because we see it as a tool to change the 3D. That often puts us into states of doubt and worry. “Will this happen” “am i doing it right” “what if it doesn’t work”. We confuse manifesting for a tool to changing the 3D. When it’s not about changing the 3D at all

“No one or nothing to change but self”

What does this quote really mean? In essence, it means change your state/imagination, the rest will follow. You don’t have to do something in particular to get something in particular. If you believe doing 50 pushups a day will get you your SP, and you remain in that state, it will do what you want. You just have to believe. You just have to know that it will give you your results. Or the easiest way to manifest is by simply being. I am with my SP because i say so. No reasoning required. No work to be done. Nothing to be achieved to get that. I am.

Whatever you imagine in your mind, whatever state you constantly dwell in, is the truth. That’s all. Nothing more required to explain. Suspend all buts and ifs and just be it. Either put your 2 legs inside it, or be outside it completely. You can’t have one leg in, one leg out.

“You can’t serve two masters at once”

There is nothing to lose in this world. You can either be that, or you can’t (or don’t). Make your inner world your heaven. Forgive others for causing misery to you because they were just reflecting your imagination (state). Move on from that and imagine the best for yourself and the world. Allow yourself to be free from doubts and worries because now you have already surpassed all that and now you just are.

That is what a state is. Don’t over complicate it. The more you question it, the more reasons you will find to question it. Dive in deep. Know you can’t die (or lose anything) in this depth. There is nothing but fulfilment here.

[cosmosvel]

Chapter Zero - A (K)nightly Reaper Rises

Character - Tsukasa

Side/mentioned characters characters - Keito, Ritsu, Arashi, Izumi, Unnamed Producer #1 (They’ll be referring to the producer as Phoenix), Unnamed Producer #2 (They’ll refer to this producer as Empress)

Proof-Read? - Yes, Proof-Reader: @ryovel

Time - 22:50

Day - Flashbacks’ Day: After the SS Live in the ! era. Current day: Day before Trickstar’s Live (Yes this happens during the main story of Ensemble Stars!! at least in this Au it happens during the main story)

Summary (kinda) - Tsukasa had another restless night after the SS incident. So he decided to go on a walk... At night. Nothing could go wrong, right?

(Tsukasa’s POV, starting with flashback)

“Are you okay? Tsukasa?”

Those were the words I heard from Empress after the incident… The day after I saw Phoenix in the hospital, unresponsive and in a coma. “Please… Please stay with me Producer! I don’t want to lose you!” I said as tears were streaming down my eyes, almost screaming my lungs out as I watched me and the rest of Knights’ Producer still have their eyes closed in the hospital bed. After that, I started to not feel like myself… Getting more tired during my idol work once Knights joined NEW DI, eating less than I usually did, nightmares over and over again. It’s been usually hell on earth that I’ve been thinking it was right now, still haunted by the scene.

That scene… That damned scene my nightmares were filled with over and over again. Seeing my producer be slashed at the back while posing as their brother to protect them, the them was Nagisa, Hiyori, and Jun… The crimson red blood that was on the floor of the stage and their lifeless blue eyes as it closed. It haunted me even through my second year at Yumenosaki Academy… I won’t forget that sight…

[Timeskip to the present]

I was currently in my dorm room, Izumi’s usual text to remind me to eat was sent a few hours ago and I thankfully was able to manage stomaching down my dinner. I felt like wanting to puke though after I ate, like if my body didn’t let me want to eat but I persisted through it and managed. Narukami had asked me if I was okay and I just replied with a yes as Sakuma was taking a nap.

I stares at the ceiling of my room, my lavender eyes staring at it blankly as I looked at my hand before I got up from my bed. Making sure my roommates weren’t there before leaving the room. It felt odd walking through the dormitory at night since everyone was asleep. The darkness of the night prompted me to turn on my phone’s flashlight. Still remembering the day I ended up finding out about that secret Producer had kept even if the two of us were best friends. Now outside the dormitory, I was just walking to a park. Staring at the night sky as I tried to reach my hand out towards it, looking at the shimmering moon. Like a big star in the sky or…

“Oh what am I even saying” I spoke, before looking at my hand again. Staring at it and more specifically the lavender colored clothed I had wrapped around my right wrist, it belonged to the Producer before they fell into a coma. Those were good times as I looked at the cloth tied to my wrist. Then…

A noise.

One I never wanted to hear again.

The static-like sound of screeching causing me to cover my ears as I see it, the deformed manifestation of a dead idol’s dreams. Frozen by fear, trying to remember how to use my performance magic again after a year before I heard a voice it sounded like my own voice but it wasn't...

“My my… You seem in quite the situation me…”

The next thing I knew my vision blacked out as I fell to the floor but felt a pair of familiar arms catch me… It was my own arms yet it was odd since my own body was unconscious.

(3rd person POV)

The one that carried Tsukasa’s unconscious body was… Another Tsukasa but this one didn’t feel human at all, a inky black smudge under their right eye as it was glowing and that same smudge seen coming from it’s mouth. The other Tsukasa was wearing a black cloak and a mask similar to a phantom thief’s mask. ‘Tsukasa’ put Tsukasa gently on the ground before ‘Tsukasa’ looked at the creature that was approaching the two, causing ‘Tsukasa’ to start singing slightly. White, glitching lilies blooming from the ground as it’s vines wrapped around the creature that was about to attack them. ‘Tsukasa’ was still singing before closing their fist, causing the vines and lilies around the creature to be in a fiery blaze. The blaze consuming the creature as it screeched. ‘Tsukasa’ watched the fire, it’s eyes being empty like a dark ocean or a wilting lavender flower.

The actual Tsukasa eventually woke up, somehow in what looked to be an old bar. There was a small stage near one of the walls of the bar before hearing… Humming? It was a familiar sound to him before he got up, walking around the bar quietly. There thankfully wasn’t anyone else there. Or at least nobody that Tsukasa can see before accidentally bumping into someone before seeing the person before Tsukasa spoke...

"Hasumi? What are you doing here?"

To be continued…

(Author Notes time under here!)

(A/N: Hey everyone I’m Lou! Or you could just call me VEL, I hoped you enjoy my actual first work of writing! If you have any questions feel free to ask me in my inbox and I’ll try to reply. To my friends who from the Live Chat of Weirdos server are seeing this, Happy 1st Anniversary LCOW as of writing this! Let's continue having our writing and passion shine like the stars! Also thank you Ryo for the proof-read :>)

[sibyl-of-space]

GUESS WHAT GAMERS!!!

I loved it. I loved it so much. I loved the journey and the process, and I was so afraid that the ending would be a letdown or undermine certain parts of the process, but at the very end of it all I had a magnificent experience, I am so satisfied, and I will very confidently award this with the highest honor I can possibly bestow: “on par with Dai Gyakuten Saiban and Ghost Trick: Phantom Detective.”

shitload of spoilers follow. 130 hours of my life that were so so so well spent.

(don’t worry I played with original sprites on, I AM A PERSON OF CULTURE)

THE ENDING!!!!!! I won’t lie, for much of the “answers” arc I was not feeling it as much as I was during episodes 1-4. Furudo Erika was simultaneously hilarious and an insufferable piece of shit, and I was afraid that reaching a point where the game actually answered all of my questions would kind of ruin its entire point. I was prepared for an AI: The Somnium Files experience where the ending made the whole game “meh” to me in retrospect even though I had loved so much of it beforehand.

BUT!!!!!!! NO!!!!!! THIS GAME AND I WERE ON THE SAME WAVELENGTH THE ENTIRE TIME. Or maybe it’s more accurate to say that the game knew what wavelength I was on and played 5 dimensional chess against me knowing that. The game does not, EVER, explicitly answer anything. But it also DOES. And yet it doesn’t!!! It gives increasingly obvious hints that can and will lead you to MOST answers, but still not all of them! Some things are pretty clear (Shannon, Kanon, and Beatrice, for example) but others will only EVER be possibilities (whether they escaped in the form of Mystery Author Lady; whether the worst possible truth Ange saw was actually what happened).

I had so SO SO much fun coming up with theories the whole time and trying to solve things. Even if many of my theories were way off the mark and others only manifested when the hints became really really blatant, just the fact that I tried to figure it out made the game fun. I was very much rewarded for playing it as actively as possible.

(I would literally never have figured out the multilingual kanji pun epitaph riddle, but I DID spend an hour coming to the conclusion that “sweetfish river” meant “swedish sea” and that the key was Skagen, and I had so much fun coming to that completely wrong conclusion that I’m not upset about it.)

Episode 8 was basically a masterpiece. Solving Bernkastel’s whodunnit was just so much fun, I had an absolute blast with all of those logic puzzles. And then! At the VERY, VERY end. That was just... I got played like a fiddle in the most MASTERFUL way.

Of course, given the choice, I chose that it was magic. OF COURSE I CHOSE IT WAS MAGIC! To me that’s the entire beauty of magic, preserving happiness wherever possible and believing in something fantastic. In literally episode 1 before I knew anything that was happening, I said this in a discord server: “I’m 50-50 on whether it’s a witch murdering everyone or there truly is a logical solution for everything, but I choose to believe in the witch because that’s the cooler option.” And then that ended up being.... a huge part of the game’s main theme, lmao. Wow!

BUT ALSO. I didn’t realize that I had also missed an important part of that theme, the flipside if you will. Ignoring the real and dangerous possibility of an ugly truth. I didn’t pick “trick” because I thought that would represent Ange being disillusioned in everything and losing hope and then falling to her death. I didn’t want to face that. But after everything, after the ending and tea parties, I was mostly satisfied but still not quite.... so I went back and chose that option, expecting a total downer, and BAM! I REMEMBERED. ALL OF THE HUGE QUESTIONS I HAD AND SUSPICIOUS ABOUT THE CIRCUMSTANCES OF ANGE IN ROKKENJIMA. ALL THOSE ALARM BELLS THAT I HAD SINCE TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT.

THE GAME REMINDED ME OF THOSE, AND IT ENDED - TRULY ENDED - WITH ANGE MURDERING IN COLD BLOOD, AND THE ORIGINAL OP, THE GREATEST SONG IN THE ENTIRE GAME, PLAYING AS CREDITS ROLLED.

And if that was not the single greatest way for this game to end...... there could be no better, honestly. Ange has not just kept the cat box closed. Ange has murdered the cat box. It will be a mystery forever, but she gives not a single flying fuck. That cursed island will remain cursed and haunted forever and it’s all behind her.

How fucking poetic, honestly.

(also by the end, despite me hating her guts, I somehow also came to love Furudo Erika. she is just so obnoxious and horrible that it somehow circled back around to being endearing. <Good!> )

[jayvolans]

DUD i am 50/50 at 79 pity on alhaitham's banner right now and im am nervous rn. i always lose my pity well accept from kokomi's banner but thats all. so i dont want to get my hopes up ;; but its al haitham ;; 😭😭😭

YOU MUST HAVW HIM IM MANIFESTING IT im literally in love w him

also tell me why I just realized that I have to pull TWO five stars on the weapon banner to get the charted weapon LMAO don’t be fooled im actually crying rn So now I have Xiao’s pole arm and the SKYWARD CATALYST WTF IS THAT😭😭😭😭😭

[dawnstarranger]

@imperial--orthodoxy

…I did this to myself, so here we go lmao

(Im on mobile so the formatting will suck. I make no apologies lmao. I had to close out of the screen a bunch so I saved as a draft rather than trying to reply to your ask.)

1. Nope! I try not to dwell on it though.

2. Also no?

3. Statistically probably, but not everyone lucks out.

4. Not really.

5. Nope, found family counts too.

6. Yes. Friends are important!

7. I am!

8. I think it’s the same emotion, it just manifests differently.

9. Not as happy, but people do live fulfilling lives without finding romance.

10. Yes.

11. Absolutely lmao.

12. I don’t think so?

13. I don’t disbelieve in it, if that makes sense.

14. I mean, if reincarnation is how it goes, that’s just the way she goes.

15. Cosmically special, no. Special to friends and family on the micro level, yea.

16. Yeah. But debate for the sake of your own understanding. You’re never going to convince everyone else to see things your way, so don’t expect to change minds.

17. Can favorite characters be like imaginary friends?

18. I say no to this because I’m not involved in anything organized and am not looking to be. Insert “the gods are names for what’s already in your heart” here :)

19. I don’t, but I feel like it’s one of those things that if life leads me to change my mind, I change my mind.

20. Isn’t that just life?

21. I mean yeah? Different circumstances would have probably led to me finding love with someone else. I don’t think it’s healthy for current relationships to dwell on “well, what if…” for too long, though.

22. So previously I would have said a loooong fucking time. However, I knew I was with the right person in a matter of about a month, so I guess when it’s right, it’s right?

23. I think it takes a very special relationship to survive when there is no “convenience.” Yes, yes, love is magical and can transcend barriers and whatnot, but long-term I think the simple things like being able to tolerate living together matter a lot, maybe not to the emotion of love, but to the act of it.

24. I think so lol.

25. Probs not as fluid as if I were gen z, but people are people and love is love.

26. Going to college and pursuing what I’m passionate about.

27. I’m a little afraid of losing out on things I want to do, but not especially.

28. Based on family history I will definitely live for at least a century lol. Would not want to live forever though. Maybe it would be cool to have an elven lifespan, complete with slow aging?

29. Yep.

30. I like to believe in free will, at least to an extent. Such as life is, we usually aren’t as free in our choices as we think, or wish, that we were.

31. I’ve survived my mental illnesses so far, so with that off the table I have no idea lol.

32. Ummmm no. If I had a dollar for every time someone asks me this after I tell them I study astronomy…

33. I really don’t think adulthood kicks in until 25ish.

34. By drow standards yes :)

35. A million dollars

36. I married that person and we either get along perfectly or literally not at all.

37. In some things, yes.

38. Absolutely not and I’m glad of it.

39. Sure. Kind of. Maybe.

40. Trying to do what you sincerely believe is good, as long as you’re reducing harm to others. I try my best.

41. Being independent and pursuing what I care about.

42. Kind of, yeah. Most of us are pretty boxed in by various limitations.

43. I used to be much more artistic than I am now. I’m no art major, so I’ll leave the definition to the experts here.

44. I’m generally truthful. Sometimes people don’t need to know your business.

45. Hopefully I’ll be remembered for groundbreaking research one day.

46. Probably not.

47. Suffering is part of the human condition, so yeah. It doesn’t have special meaning, life is just hard and arbitrary sometimes.

48. Insert “there is no freedom, there is only survival” here. Freedom is relative and somewhat up to how you define it.

49. Yes.

50. Honesty, loyalty, and a willingness to tolerate my bullshit.

51. I really don’t know. Probably a few on this list would be good contenders.

52. I’m sure I have inherited beliefs just like anyone else. I try to be able to justify what I think, at least to myself. Should I get really cringe and add “little of what I say or do is opinion”?

53. Could be any of them. I’m not an expert on plenty of things, and I tell to take the approach of time and experience will tell in the end.

54. I don’t think so, not at present, anyway. As a physicist I’d obviously like to, though!

55. I suppose? But that does open the door to the whole “what counts as consciousness” and can AI ever get there and what about really smart animals etc etc etc

56. Useful, inevitable, and very dangerous to society.

57. Yes, and yes, but I think it’s part of what makes us human, and it isn’t a bad thing.

58. Statistically yeah? Probably? But that shouldn’t stop us from continuing to create art.

59. AI generated 15 second clips of remixes lol

60. At the moment we seem to be bringing back the ‘00s, who knows what’s next?

61. Everyone thinks they’re living through hard times. With that said, I do think technology plays a role in how crazy the modern day feels compared to times previous.

62. No and fuck no. I don’t like actual current me enough to want to deal with a clone.

63. I’m not, but fake it till you make it, amiright?

64. Not remotely.

65. Honestly I don’t know. There’s an argument to be made for raising the voting age, but also I don’t think that younger adults are voting “stupidly” more than much older adults.

66. It’s destructive and petty and unfortunately for the world I am a destructive and petty little bitch.

67. A Karen :)

68. I like it fine.

69. If you’re really truly in love with someone (assuming monogamy here) I think part of that entails respecting the other person enough not to dwell on crushes to the point that they get that far. Sometimes it happens, but I don’t think it plays out as nicely as it does in the movies.

70. Bruh, I’m alive. That’s the tragedy.

71. I wouldn’t go see it.

72. Uhhhhhh well, we prosecuted nazis who were acting with the full support of their own laws, so in some cases yes. Maybe just as importantly, we should pardon and rehabilitate people who were arrested for things that have since been decriminalized.

73. To defend it, yes. I live here whether I like it or not.

74. Yes. I do think it’s an important goal.

75. Yes, I think the consequences for not taking care of others is higher than many people like to admit.

76. I crave positive academic feedback and the warm fuzzy feeling I get when my grades are high.

77. Ask Shakespeare.

78. Idk but your mom said I was satisfying ;)

79. I listen to whatever, usually not dependent on mood.

80. I listen to whatever I happen to feel like. I’m not a big mood listener.

81. No can do, am already tied down.

82. Lmao probs not

83. Uhh maybe? I’m happy to do my thing from earth, but the temptation is there. #rememberthecant

84. Binch I don’t have the first clue who people think I am. I don’t even know who I think I am half the time.

85. “Would I be happier if I was born into a perfect and advantageous body instead of the one I’m in” yeah duh, but I still wouldn’t want to flip a switch and change like that.

86. All of them:)

87. Not as easily as in years past.

88. Im definitely more on the jealous side.

89. Maybe some of the same core traits, but I’d be so different without my memories that I don’t know if it matters.

90. That’s a 50/50 question. Some days yes, some days no.

91. Absolutely, and I fucking hate [REDACTED], obviously

92. I’m working on a German minor but I am NOT fluent at all

93. I don’t draw meaning from them, but I do tend to have vivid dreams. Sometimes they’re like a nice little vacation :) sometimes they’re fucked up tho

94. Consistently

95. Really depends. I feel like if it’s unrequited, you aren’t able to get to know that other person on the level it takes to create genuine, long-lasting love. You’re in love with the idea of them more than with the actual person.

96. Again, I can’t read minds so I literally don’t know lol

97. Yes

98. All the time, but I think a lot of people feel that way on some level

99. Not especially. I think there are things we can’t yet explain and may never fully explain, but I don’t believe in magic per se.

100. You only get so many good rolls per dice per dnd session, and you should try not to use them up on stupid shit (this belief is nothing but logical)

[carmenthabaddie]

I am a real ass rich bitch. All 2024 going hard. Spirit and my beautiful black ancestors in me and all I need and my spirits. I’m a supreme I always been a bad bitch witch. 2024 I’m spiritually my man and my black community and persist and trust the journey.

I have a black girlfriend who is going through a rough patch and I’m gone stick by her and uplift her cause black sisterhood is growing and healing. Im so damn high off these pills and ignoring my doubts about David and success and happiness and my dream body. Faith is my only option. Fear and me breaking up. Getting high connects me to spirit and my black ancestors. Getting high makes me see the world for what it is. All I want is to him comeback and he will because law of assumption is all we need to heal and manifest and have success stories.

I always go hard. Hood bitches show me love. And drug dealers give me that good shit that sticky weed. When I get my own apartment I want shrooms and weed. Gateway to the spiritual realm. Will take these bills until I can. It’s my time to shine. I’m on a 21 day no meat detox and on day 4 and messed up twice but determined to complete the rest of 21 days with no meat. This is for mostly spiritual reasons and health.

And weight loss is a added bonus. Spirit and black ancestors taking over my body and will help me put myself first and ice up my arm and cause a ice age. Best revenge is your paper like Beyoncé told us especially us black women. I will stop self sabotaging myself and me and self sabotaging is breaking up. I feel like weight has been lifted off me.

I want to fuck and suck him all night because he will protect, honor, respect, uplift me, lead and provide financially as true high value man. So you know I’m gone fuck him a porn star. Black women should stop giving sex to broke 50/50 men. They will spiritually bring you down and weight go up and down and losing hair and mental illness so be careful who you fuck. We exchange energy through sex. Make sure he king status to get in your pussy. Make sure he deserves your hand in marriage and be the mother of his kids. Stop ignoring red flags. Ignoring be the reason you stay getting taken advantage and used and abused. Abuse is not your fault but we have know what to look for when it comes to red flags.

At 31 I can recognize them from mile away. It’s like when you touch stove and it burns you so you never touch that stove top again cause you don’t want feel that pain again. Hope me sharing glow up level up journey inspire other black women. Im a advocate for those of us black women who want more from life and friends, family and men.

If you don’t learn nothing else from me know you are the creator of your life and can overcome so many obstacles and live a life worth living for. All you fucking need to do put in work. Learn the steps of depression and sadness and surrender to spirit and your black ancestors and show other black women love and heal together. Black women gone have so many breakthroughs in the coming years. We will shine. And being loved and supported and worshiped

I am so happy to put myself first and spirit and black ancestors. Let’s keep spiritually healing, growing and thriving and supporting each other. Hope I meet more level up glow black women to be internet friends. Don’t be shy. 🥰🥰🥰🥰

[realtorjamier]

How to Keep up with Your New Year’s Resolutions!

Let’s face it: New Year’s resolutions are renowned for failure. Studies show that between 50 and 80 percent of these well-intended self-promises are abandoned within months. You’re probably aware that there’s a gym membership spike in January, but did you know that there’s actually a “Fall Off the Wagon Day” (typically in February) when resolutions are notoriously abandoned and fast food restaurants see an uptick in visits?

The biggest reasons for failure include having unrealistic goals, not keeping track of progress, forgetting about resolutions, and making too many resolutions.

So how can you avoid these pitfalls and stay on course with your ultimate goal of self-improvement? Here are four ways to turn 2023 into a year of positive self-transformation.

Create your personal mantra.

As a more promising alternative to the typical resolution, this year try mindfulness through a mantra. What is a mantra? Derived from two Sanskrit words, “manas” (mind) and “tra” (tool), mantras are typically short statements that are repeated over and over, often to aid in meditation. These mind tools can help us focus on our highest intentions.

Commit to an ideal without strict rules. Manifest good intentions over rigid guidelines, and make sure your mantra is personal and meaningful. The most powerful motivators are intrinsic, based on your deep-rooted values and purpose. 

The three most popular New Year’s resolutions from January 1, 2022 can broadly be categorized as living healthier, personal improvement/happiness, and losing weight. If your New Year’s resolution tends to be “I will lose 20 pounds by this summer,” you may find that you fall short of this goal every year.

The premise of this weight loss statement is that you are starting from a place of weakness and are striving to improve. Losing 20 pounds would be great because your clothes might fit better and you may look better. Neither of these are bad things, but quantifying your goal can be a losing proposition. If you lose 14 pounds, that’s great, but technically you’ve failed because you didn’t lose 20. 

The more important purpose for losing weight is probably improving your health, so consider focusing on that goal. 

By choosing the mantra, “I am healthy” or “I honor my body,” you will start off the year in a position of strength. Internalizing this affirmation may be more effective in the long-term than committing to a number on the scale within a certain number of days.  

Make manageable goals.

There are many ways to honor your body and get healthier. By staying optimistic with a positive, open-ended mantra, you can achieve many small wins in many different ways – not simply by a measurement on a scale.

Create a clear plan, identifying actionable steps. These steps are not resolutions but ways you can commit to your mantra. Here are some examples:

My healthy habits list

Improve my sleep by:

Maintaining a schedule of 10 p.m. to 6 a.m.

Moving the television out of the bedroom.

Charge the phone at night and use an outlet that is out of reach of the bed.

Create a relaxing bedtime ritual beginning at 9 p.m.

Attempt new recipes using more vegetables.

Snack on fruits and nuts.

Take the stairs when possible.

Drink more water.

Lift weights a few times a week.

Try yoga.

Meditate daily.

Walk more.

Eat more meals at home.

Choose healthier restaurant options online before heading to the restaurant.

Track your wins.

There are so many goal tracking tools at our disposal: apps, calendars, charts, spreadsheets, graphs. Choose one that works for you and be diligent about keeping a record of the ways in which you are fulfilling your mantra.

Be kind to yourself. Don’t beat yourself up or throw in the towel over a lack of wins. Get back up and keep going. Aim for progress, not perfection.

Reward yourself.

Little rewards along the way can keep you motivated. Here are some healthy reward options:

Get a massage.

Buy new athletic wear.

Eat a delicious (healthy) restaurant meal.

Explore a new hiking trail.

The bottom line: enjoy this journey toward self-actualization (becoming the best version of yourself). When you stumble, practice self-compassion, and then continue to maximize your potential for a happy new year and a more fulfilling life.

[batangisla]

Hey you, you did it.

You got the job. The dream job. Life is great.

After applying for 50 jobs on linked in and 10 interviews. You got the job that you almost missed because you forgot the scheduled interview. Crazy how life works. How it all just fits into place. January you were lost to resign or not. To take the risk or not. February you sent your resignation. The day after, the job you thought you have sent you a text that you didnt make the cut. Bold of you to send that letter when you didnt have stability.

But i didnt lose hope. I know the universe has a plan for me. Yahweh is guiding me. May be even laughing at me for having moments of breakdowns then moments of perseverance. I knew deep down there’s something great waiting for me. I just needed to a little push. I had so many doubts, self pity, fear of rejection etc.

Yet here I am, sitting on the pool bench. On my last lunch break up here doing yoga and meditation. So many words of affirmation and manifestation, i’m finally meditating on gratitude. Little Kyara is proud of you. 2019 lost fresh grad kyara is proud of you. 2021 unhealthy kyara is proud of you. Theyre all rooting for you. Every version of you makes the person you are now.

Malayo pa, pero malayo na. You’ve gone through a lot but for some reason you don’t feel like you’ve done enough. Here’s to a new era. Stable job of learning. Saving money. Travelling the world. Deeping your relationship. Healing from the past. Can’t believe I’m going to Thailand tomorrow to celebrate. Life, indeed, is great.

[valkeakuulas]

If you're still writing prompts: 50. putting a hand over the other’s mouth to shut them up - Jesse/Kix please?

Sure I am! Sorry got into it a bit later than the others and also something completely different. Hope you enjoy it! -- -- -- --

50. putting a hand over the other’s mouth to shut them up

“Quiet.”

“I am being quiet. You’re the one who’s being paranoid.”

“Shh. Not so loud, someone could hear us.”

“What’s the matter? Afraid that you’ll lose your credibility if you get caught by doing extra - mm-hmmh!”

“Do not speak it into the air. Rex will manifest himself here somehow - did you just lick my hand? Real mature, Kix.”

“You don’t complain when lick you in other places.”

“...”

“I can see you blushing, Jesse. Finish the paperwork and I’ll lick you somewhere nicer.”

“... Deal.”

“Rex will just have to find out how dutiful you actually are in the old fashioned way so that he can promote you.”

“Kix!” 

[randomingoftherandomness]

The Bone of Impurity

So with the upcoming Winner is King, my brain got whirling with the thought of The Bone of Impurity which is arguably one of the main plot points of the novel and I thought I would do a bit of a meta for it? It is definitely something I hope they do not dilute for the Live Action adaptation but even if they did touch upon 1% of the shit that goes on into making a Bone of Impurity, it's still pretty Dead Dove Don't Eat. So I thought I would preempt it by actually putting down a primer on the Bone of Impurity.

I did not read the novel in Chinese and read it in English, so some of the more subtle themes present in the original work will have been missed by me. If anyone who has read the Sha Po Lang novel as it was written by Priest, do let me know if I have made any mistakes on any of the below ( •̀ᄇ• ́)ﻭ✧

Fair warning, there's some pretty Nightmare Fuel inducing shit, so I'll be keeping things under a read more in case people get squicked by this lol I'm also basing my references around the translation that Northwest Flower did because that is the one I read.

Just a basic background on The Bone of Impurity:

It is essentially a curse unique to the Northern Man people who utilise it in moments where someone's country is broken and nothing remains but revenge. To attain that, they make a sacrifice to the 'evil' gods of their beliefs

It is a cruel and horrible affliction to put on the person, but the return for it is that the person who becomes a Bone of Impurity gains the strength, intelligence, foresight and abilities of two persons

Whoever becomes a Bone of Impurity is someone who is single-mindedly ruthless and bloodthirsty when pressed towards a goal; they will attain power and their near supernatural abilities will make them unstoppable in achieving their goals

They will also gain a sort of existence that is neither alive nor dead. Sort of a zombie-like living. They also don't live very long

For all this super abilities, the flip side for anyone living with the Bone of Impurity is that they will be constantly highly suspicious and paranoid of everyone and everything; they will be slowly driven mad by the visceral hallucinations that will leave them incapable of knowing what is real and what is fake (Volume 1, Chapter 26; Volume 3, Chapter 70)

A Bone of Impurity attack comes about when the afflicted experiences heightened emotions or moments of extreme stress (I seriously cannot list out all the times it popped up in the novel because we would be here quite long lol)

It manifests in dual pupils being observed in their blood-hued eyes, hypersensitivity of the senses, their body burning up, almost sleep paralysis levels of body-lockedness and they will experience extreme pain with the bouts of attacks lasting hours at a time (Volume 2, Chapter 50 & 51)

The method of 'refining' a Bone of Impurity is...

Basically taking two babies and putting them in a dark place with no air, no water, no food. One of the babies will survive while the other one dies (Volume 3, Chapter 70)

I'm not quite certain if they have to be blood related or not, but the examples given in the book all indicate that if they have a strong connection to each other, then it would be better and that the Bone of Impurity would better take

The dead baby is then... 'refined' with the arcane arts and medicines of the Northern Man Goddesses and fed to the surviving baby (re:baby cannibalism)

I told you it wasn't pretty...

In the novel, Chang Geng is the Bone of Impurity made by Hu Ge Er, his aunt, in order to bring about chaos and tumult to Great Liang that had subjugated her people. Chang Geng is repeatedly described to have almost scary levels of intelligence and foresight, to the point where some of the characters actually wonder if he is omnipotent.

Chang Geng is also revealed to have obtained characteristics of his cousin

One of the ways Shen Yi and Gu Yun identified Chang Geng as the missing Fourth Prince is the congenital defect of a toe - which, lol, the worlds where DNA testing did not exist - and Chang Geng insists that his toe deformity was caused Hu Ge Er (Chapter 8)

It is later revealed that this was one of the further side-effects of the Bone of Impurity where the afflicted would reflect characteristics of the 'devoured' counterpart (Extra: Souls returned home)

Now on to the meta bit:

Chang Geng has a pretty much single focus sexuality on Gu Yun; even when he wasn't clear on what the nature of those feelings were, he was already dedicated to the man, already thinking up ways of how he can support him in the future

Even when he was heartbroken by the reveal of who 'Shen Shiliu' was and the lies and the subterfuge that had flowed between them, just with an apology and assurance from Gu Yun, Chang Geng was already ready to forgive him

Now, we know that Hu Ge Er said with her dying breath that the Bone of Impurity will cause him to lose his mind and will cause the death of everyone he will ever love. I think she said this because she has already detected the level of dedication he has built for Gu Yun and also because she is a horrible person and wanted one last pot shot at tormenting Chang Geng

Through all his Bone of Impurity attacks, Chang Geng has one consistent thing that he fears the most above everything else - Gu Yun abandoning him, rejecting him, leaving him in any way

My thought is simple; what makes him different from the other Bone of Impurities that were explicitly said and described in the novel? One person. Gu Yun.

Had Gu Yun not saved him from the wolves outside of Yanhui Town, he would have definitely died right there and then being killed by the Northern Man wolves. I truly believed that at that time, Chang Geng really ran out there to die. With just the scant descriptions of what Hu Ge Er did to him throughout his childhood, even the brief glimpses into her horrible abuse, is enough to cement that he was very likely unable to handle everything anymore.

If Gu Yun had not shown up and took on the mantle of Chang Geng's Yi Fu - as clumsy and as emotionally stunted as he was to deal with a dependent - was kind to him without any sort of condition attached to it, if Gu Yun had not taken that spot in Chang Geng's heart and mind as a moral compass, guiding his path to tempering the more extreme effects of the Bone of Impurity, I have no doubt that Chang Geng would have destroyed Great Liang before he even turned 21.

Because of Gu Yun, Chang Geng plotted the way to peace for Great Liang; divesting of weak emperors and ushering in a new age of stability and peace, building a foundation for his nephew to take over and build upon. All because he knew that Gu Yun loved his country, loved the people, has broken his back time and time again to toil for peace and defend its borders.

In the novel, they even explicitly say that when Gu Yun is out doing routine inspections of the borders and stuff, Chang Geng essentially shuts down; starts living like a monk and a life without colour until Gu Yun comes back to him (I don't know which extra or chapter this is in because this post has been waaaayyyy too long at this point)

With Gu Yun, especially when he learns that his supposedly unrequited and unfilial feelings were not as unrequited as they seem, he found a path to a future where he can strive to live without pain and without worry. With Gu Yun, he could focus all of the ruthlessness and all the bloodlust and the brilliance and the horrors and make it into a fulfilment of Gu Yun's dream; to be able to walk away from the battlefield and live out the rest of his days in peace and leisure.

Think about it, especially if you have read the novel, how scary can Chang Geng get when Gu Yun isn't around to temper him?

Basically, yes, I am definitely saying that Chang Geng and Gu Yun doing the horizontal dance with no pants resulted in peace for the country lol

[Bit of Trivia] Chang Geng's name is also significant because, according to Hu Ge Er, it is the name of the 'Bone of Impurity' in the Chinese dialect (Chapter 6)

[delta-for-change]

August

Many think August is the start of Autumn, of cold whispers and haunted dreams, but they are wrong. August is the month of boldness. It’s the time when the sun beats down the hottest, when ocean waves are the strongest, and when winds are the most chaotic. This is the month where change is decided, where the old gods are separated from the new. 

So, July was... okay. Some things worked out, some didn’t. I struggled most at the end of the month as well as when outside forces were mentally draining me. More importantly, I’ve finally gotten access to a scale and discovered I’m actually 10lbs heavier than I thought. Thus, to factor for all of the above information, I’ve made a better, stricter plan; my goals have changed to better suit my needs. Heavy Trigger Warning. This is going to be long. 

Before I list out my truth for this month, the ‘you’ I reference throughout the post is ‘me/I.’ These are some of the goals I have for the month, and they are not meant to pertain to anyone else. Please do not follow my diet plan as it is not made for you. If you’d ever like to talk, feel free to send an ask or a DM my way. Recovery is the best option. 

STATS:   → Height: 5′1  → CW: 140.4lbs/63kg  → BMI: 26.5 By AUGUST 31st...   ✩ CW: 131lbs/59kg  ✩ BMI: 24.7 I hope to lose 9lbs this month, putting me back to what I thought my SW was. I will also once again be under 60kg w a healthy BMI range rather than overweight. 

ROUTINE:   ⚇ Morning Routine  ⚇ Daily Planning  ⚇ Exercise  ☉ Productivity towards house  ☉ Productivity towards application  ⚉ Shower   ⚉ Read  ⚉ Night Routine WEIGHT LOSS:    ⇥ Daily kcal limit: 1000 ((7,000 per week. 31,000 total))   ⇥ This means no more binge/cheat days. Those don’t work for you. You use them as an excuse to go ham in your kitchen which makes you take two steps back and negatively impacts your mental health. If you overeat one day, account for it - you know it won’t ruin your progress. Just be aware.  ⇥ Speaking of being aware, track every day. Tracking will help you understand yourself and your body better.   ⇥ Try the One Bite Method. All you need is one bite to satiate yourself. You’re not craving any food; you’re craving that big boost of serotonin - that disappears after the first bite. So, if you want ice cream, don’t make yourself a bowl, make yourself a spoonful.   ⇥ Fast +24hrs, minimum once a week.   ⇥ Before your first bite of the day, you must drink a full bottle (16.9 fl oz) of water. Water is going to help with your skin, help you wake up, and give you a feeling of fullness before breakfast.   ⇥ Do not eat after 10pm.   ⇥ If you’re tired and it’s past 11pm, go to sleep - don’t snack.   ⇥ High protein, low carb, medium fat. Yes, this will be difficult, but you can do it. The most important thing to focus on is the protein - aim for >60g a day, or >50%. Carbs should be <20g. Fats aim for >30g per day.  ⇥ To follow through with this diet, absolutely no refined sugar. In fact, keep your sugar intake low (fruits are fine).   ⇥ Your plates must not only look appetizing but also have a good balance. Thus, you must eat one (1) fruit or one (1) veggie per meal. Yes, this also means you have to account for more calories.  ⇥ Avoid oil, added fats, and butters. Never use to cook, only flavor.  ⇥ Never eat while making yourself food. If you need to taste-test something, do so, but don’t overdo yourself - and don’t forget to track those calories, infinitesimal as they may be.  ⇥ Never go back for seconds.   ⇥ Drink +2L water daily.  ⇥ Exercise Daily. This can be any sort of activity that gets your blood moving, including walking, running, dancing, stretching, workout routines, yoga, etc. On days you fast, heavy workouts are not necessary, but you still must remain active in some way.   ⇥ Finally, eat because you must, not because you want. Never eat when bored, only eat when hungry. You can control your cravings. You can control what and when you eat. All you need to do is remain consistent and vigilant.   

BUSINESS:  ⇥ Always have a To Do list for the day; always have a plan, and always plan to be productive.   ⇥ Use the “touch it once” approach. If you have something to do, just sit down and do it. Squash it and be done. Don’t procrastinate.   ⇥ Be friendly and outgoing towards your coworkers. I know it’s scary and difficult, but nobody is judging you except yourself. Being kind and extroverted will only benefit you.   ⇥ Read min. 30min per day. Instead of scrolling through your phone before bed, open a book. Try to read two books or more this month.   ⇥ Study min. 1hr per day. This can be anything, but ideally it is prep.  ⇥ Give everyone, including yourself, the best ‘impression’ you can give. 

If I follow through with my above rules, I should easily reach 131lbs by the end of the month. I’m already so distraught over how heavy I actually am and how much more difficult it will be to achieve my goals. I must get there, and I’m running out of time. There are only 146 days until Christmas. 20 weeks. 304 days until June 1st 2021. 43 weeks. No time. I must get there. I will get there. I will be the greatest version of myself I can be.  Now, by the end of August, I will have:  ✪ Reached 131lbs  ✪ Finished all college-due assignments and prepared ahead ✪ Fasted +24hrs four times (totaling >96hrs) ✪ Followed all of my above rules to the best of my abilities  ✪ Read 5 books ✪ Brought joy and camaraderie within my communities  ✪ Improved myself. 

If I do not complete the above, I will have failed both my friends, family, and coworkers, my future life, and, most importantly, I will have failed myself. Therefore, I have no intentions of failing. If I cannot do this- the bare minimum- I cannot do anything.  REMEMBER...    ❂ Always apply yourself. Manifest your goals. If you don’t wake up with determination in your heart and strength in your soul, your goals will never come to fruition.  ❂ This period of time is of growth. Your happiness is the most important thing.  ❂ Improve yourself every day. Don’t worry so much about giving a bad impression, just do everything you can to the best of your abilities.  ❂ Above all, care for your soul. Without it, your physical being has no meaning. Your soul drives you; keep it sacred. And remember, the pain you feel today will be the strength you feel tomorrow.