#i am kind of confussed

[mari-lair]

Koukane is beautiful, a solid rare pair that's dear to my heart, so let's talk about them!

Kou is easily overwhelmed by Akane, kind of stumbling into being his friend when it clearly wasn't in his plans.

Their first interactions are adorable in a pitiful way because Kou can't keep up with Akane's mood swings, he is so nervous he calls Akane "Sir" completely umprompted, constantly being at lost for words near the older boy.

And while Kou aknowladge Akane can be scary and unhinged:

This nervousness is born from admiration, he gets flustered near Akane when the older boy isn't even trying. Stuttering and startling and awkwardly reaching out for him without daring to approach.

His habit to awkwardly reach out likely involves wanting to help Akane, he just can't force himself to actually close the distance and be of help.

The one time Kou was able to help, delighted to the point of happy tears by the opportunity, Akane killed part of his pride by showing off a power Kou seems to think is much cooler and stronger than his own, judging by the way his big blush turned into sweat.

To further stab his poor heart, when he was honest about how cool Akane powers are, Akane dismissed his own as pathetic. So I don't blame Kou for being so nervous about trying to help his 'cool upperclassman' during the entire arc.

Akane has no nerves when it comes to Kou so he is the one that always approaches Kou and get them closer,declaring Kou his friend, kicking Hanako when it looked like he was mocking Kou's desperate determination to save Nene, and being the only one who touches Kou, Kou never dares to touch Akane.

Surprisingly, Kou's respect seem to extend to Akane's view on Hanako, cause we don't see his reaction to Akane's "you're a murderer, you make me sick" rant, but we do know Kou isn't nearly as unseatled as Nene about it, he isn't even angry, when he brings it up again later with Hanako, he is pretty casual about it. And in the recap he is just confussed.

Maybe Akane reminds him of Teru, and he is used to such a harsh stance, or he is thinking of the young exorcist arc where Hanako's beliefs were the same as Akane's 'I am being nice now but i murdered someone kid. What would ever justify murder? How can a murderer ever be good?' so I think Kou is mostly shocked someone with Akane's belief decided to go through with the alliance anyways. Teru would never.

Back to Kou being extremely nervous!

During the clock keepers arc, after Akane dons his clock keeper uniform, Kou never disagree with Akane directly. Even Kou's habit to back up Nene doesn't get in the way, hyping Nene up but not agreeing with her contrasting views like "hanako isn't bad" or directly refuting what Akane says.

This hesitation/nerves slowly dissapears as they grow closer, nowadays Kou isn't scared of speaking his mind, able to be extremelly rude and not filter his offence.

We aren't show them interacting much in the main manga but we are told that they do talk outside classes, likely alone (?), so Akane's declaration they're friends was not a thrown away line, he genuinely vibe with Kou, he even gave him his phone number.

Kou got more comfortable with Akane, able to express that the boy is a weirdo but still keeping his respects for Akane, seeing him as a wise older boy and following his lead without question: He is excited to hear about Akane's romantic advise and he listened to Akane's advise even when it comes to dealing with his own brother.

Akane likes Kou, he is the one who declared them friends. He admires his determination and want him to succedd in his goals, he wouldn't have stopped his time on what he consider an 'imposible task' to save Nene otherwise. He also really appreciates that Kou doesn't like Aoi. And he is constantly comparing Kou with Teru, baffled by how much they differ.

Akane grows to like when Kou is cheerful, either overwhelmed by Kou's expectations and feeling pressured into doing what Kou wants or charmed by it, unable to resist the urge to tease him.

There is a translation where he refers to Kou as Teru's 'cute little brother' and considering how he treats Kou, even if it is a mistranslation i wouldn't be surprised if that's how he think.

Specially with the way he acts as if Kou is too good to be related to Teru, touched by his kindness, seeing him as a sparkling/glowing figure.

Akane also loves his food, blushing when he eat it. He respect him as a chef.

Akane trying to cheer Kou after his fight with Kou up is really sweet to me because he sucks, they aren't close enough for hugs or shoulder pats but still enough for Akane to take his distress seriously. He is unconfortable and sweeaty, awkwardly reach out, as if he want to help Kou but has no idea how. It remind me of Kou's own awkward reaching out gestures in the clock keepers arc.

Their friendship is beautiful and funny but every flavor of koukane is good, so let's add a puppy crush on Kou. He already finds Akane attractive.

This is attraction by the way, he isn't flustered because Akane is being suggestive. Even if we put asside how pretty Akane was drawn here, Kou is not weak to sexual comments, he is used to Hanako, whose pervy jokes are far more explicit, but he isn't a fan of them, always gets mostly annoyed not flustered.

In the spin off it is revealed a girl Hanako isn't 'his type', but when Hanako possessed Nene's body (who Kou used to have a crush on so he consider her an attractive girl) he becomes imcapacitated. It is a big weakness.

So Akane's smirk is what got Kou flustered. Reading Kou's nerves as half admiration and half the poor boy feeling way too bi to know how to handle Akane would be fun.

I can imagine Akane talking about Aoi, since Kou is one of the few boys who doesn't have a crush on her and Kou feeling awkward cause everytime Akane send him a cute smile thinking of Aoi, Kou short circuit.

Considering we only see Kou call Akane "sir!" after his transformation I headcanon he is more attracted to Akane's keeper form than his usual apparence. If Akane teases Kou while on the keeper uniform Kou may explode.

If we keep this ship one sided, it would never leave the dock, Kou would never go after Akane, but I can see him trying to help Akane get with Aoi when they become close friends, similar to how he had helped Nene with Hanako during the donuts chapter. Boy got the 'he is so out of my league i won't even try' doubts mixed with a sprinkle of i don't like boys' cause internalized homophobia is one fo the ingredient of Kou's 'i want to be tough and reliable! I don't want to be a housewife' complex.

(Just realized Kou think using your bare fists to fight is the peak of toughness and guess what Akane's fighting style is. Guess.)

Akane liking him back is amazing because they both got the acts of service displays of love, something Akane will be touched by and Kou will be comflicted because he is the acts of service guys that's his one thing he can do right, let him do stuffs!! What Kou is weak to is words of affirmation, so he would explode if Akane says he does a good job, is handsome, or kiss well or anything really.

Akane can consistently overwhelm Kou when he is being confident so if he say "Sit down I'll clean today," Kou would try to argue but inevitably cave in and have to awkwardly let someone help him. I am telling you right now, when they live together breakfast will become Akane's role.

Kou may be a hard working boy that carries his family on his back but he is NOT a morning person. A single sleep over would be enough for Akane to notice that and let his wondeful boyfriend rest. Depending on how sappy he is feeling, or if it is a important date like birthdays or valentines, he'll give Kou breakfast in bed.

Kou being easily overwhelmed/having low self steem and Akane's habit of being very open about his love, puting his partner first, would result in Kou being super flustered and flattered and uyguygyugu at the start but slowly turn into a problem if unchecked.

Akane is reliable so he can help Kou with chores, studies, or supernatural problems, which Kou would appreciate, and rely on, but it would slowly make Kou feel useless by comparation.

(It would feed into Teru's fears that his siblings are growing out of him too buuut i'll make a post on Teru's amazing potential roles/affect in the ship for later)

Even when Kou does help he has a habit of focusing on what he can't do instead of what he can, feeling like all he does right is cook, and that Akane doesn't trust him, since Teru is the one Akane goes to when it comes to supernatural troubles and help him in the student council. He worries about Kou more than he ever relied on him, at least, when it comes to battle.

Unlike with Mitsuba, I can't see Kou being angry Akane doesn't rely on him, there was never any illusion that Kou can 'grant his wish' or that he is the only one trustworthy in Akane's life. Kou is the one who usually seek him for help from the start, and he respect the people Akane work with more than he respects himself, so he would just be extremaly frustrated with himself that he isn't capable enough to be Akane first option in troubling times.

Thankfully, unlike Aoi, Kou's poker face sucks, and he is an incredibly bad liar, when he bottle up his emotions it easily overflows. Anger, sadness, nervousness...

Just look how he acts with Nene after he learn about her lifespam, how easily his smile breaks after his visit with mitsumom, how reactive he get with Hanako, and so on...

So Akane, who is used to playing hard mode (since he grew up reading Aoi's eternal smile) would notice all of Kou's mood swings right away. If Kou dismisses it, Akane will let him be, but when it keep happening, or he is visibly very troubled, a talk would occur.

I think the first time a misunderstanding would hapen relatively earlier, over something small: Such as Akane thinking Kou is cute when Kou wants to be cool. Kou would be embarrassed at first, he is never complemented on his apparence in the manga in any way, in fact, he is comparaed to a delinquent in apparence, but find it kind of pathetic after a while that the main thing Akane calls him is cute.

Imagine Kou trying out cooler clothes and Akane being somewhat baffled but endeared. Akane won't even question, if Kou want to have a punk era, good for him, but when he finally connect the dots at his anxious behavior he will figure out exactly what kind of compliment Kou craves and overwhelm the poor kid.

Eventually every little piece and small issue would connect and Akane will call him out on his "I need to be useful" complex. Probably result in tears from Kou and regular training sessions.

Kou is incredibly powerful, he is a Minamoto! The only one who caught Mirai mid air, and all the monster he killed at the aquarium was while his weapon was sealed, so Akane would absolutely grow to respect him. Kou would also be a non tradicional fighter, knowing some tradicional exorcists attacks and some judo tecniques.

Akane consider getting homemade food the peak of displays of love (it's a fantasy that is brought up a LOT/ he was extremelly flustered when Aoi gave him a little homebaked sweet)

So despite Kou not thinking much of every bento he makes for Akane, his upperclassman would be delighted. Specially when Kou's meals become more and more tailored to Akane's tastes everytime Kou learns more about his preferences, made with Akane in mind. Add in how Akane naturally loves Kou cooking, even ship lenses, and every meal will be Akane's favorite time of the day.

Instead of leaving Akane to his fate when he is having even day to day troubles Kou would try to help now that he isn't so nervous anymore, and can move instead of reaching out and awkwardly staying in place. Just like when Tiara was troubling him and Kou immediately went to help.

They teamed up for damage control flawlessly. Just saying if they ever live together the chores would be split and all would be nice.

Akane always try to do things alone, and we are constantly said Akane get stuck with jobs no one want to do, helping others but not asking for help. Kou naturally always tries to do things for others, so he would tell him to relax when he is too tired and offer help in small tasks he can, like delivering papers to various clubs, things he would consider pretty unhelpful but Akane would be touched by, specially pre-relationship/the very start.

ALSO! Their height difference is cute! It would start with Akane being taller:

And if grown up Kou REALLY is the same as Teru, he'll become a little taller than Akane.

The idea of Akane either in complete denial his Kou looks like Teru when he gets older, or him genuinely being so in tune with every detail of his features that he is the only one who sees Kou as completely different and far more beautiful than Teru are equally funny to me.

[thegremlininyourcloset]

what your favorite Young Justice member says about you

I would like to preface this by saying: please don’t crucify me, this is just supposed to be in good fun

also I am queer and autistic, for context

@fictfrenzy

Having Said That….

Begin!

Tim Drake

you desperately wish for some kind of disease or diagnosis that would justify the pain and/or distress you feel

also your a disaster bisexual

and you have commitment issues

(and by that I mean you want connection but are terrified of intimacy if any kind)

Kon-El

Oh sweetheart…

Your childhood was Bad™️, and only now that you are out of that environment you are realizing it

also how’s that gender crisis going?

Bart Allen

AUTISM DIAGNOSIS ASAP

if you don’t already have one.

80% chance you also have ADHD

you relate to this silly little guy with your entire fucking soul. You are constantly confussed and distressed by the weird way the world is.

People also assume you’re dumb. You are NOT dumb.

Cassie Sandsmark

fffffffff—

yeah you’re gay. Just the gayest girl kisser to walk the earth. Just. So very gay.

also you have a complicated relationship w/ your gender and how you present

And you had a crush on/situationship with a best friend who either turned out to be straight, moved away and you lost contact, or both.

Cissie King-Jones

hello mommy issues haver. Hope finding yourself out of your mother’s expectations and shadow is going well.

you also may or may not have a very strong sense of justice that sometimes gets the better of you in the form of anger issues

also you are most definitely trans. What kind of trans? Who knows. Probably not you.

Greta Hayes

Honey you are inventing never before seen kinds of toxic yuri in your head

You’re seemingly sweet, but honestly kinda unhinged once people get to know you.

you have a basket of issues and you are doing your best to handle them, but sweetheart you should probably open up about that.

[alexbkrieger13]

Even Bernd fucking Schmelzer who normaly only commatates for Man football managed to Figure out that ann and jess are a couple so i am very confussed why the nwsl commatators have such a hard time calling it was it. Maybe they intimate are by Emmas comments and there for avoid to Say it but it is kind of strange.

idk probably some weird American thing

[its-elioo]

As someone who is long-time fan of Mlp EG and who has just finished watching TFP, your fic is true delight. I read it 5 times at least and it is still awesome. You perfectly matched girls with their autobots partners just as well as you did with decepticons as their evil counterpart. For example Twilight/Shockwave - both have high inteligence, but while one uses it for greater good and to help the others, the other abuses it to gain power and hurt the others; Fluttershy/Soundwave - even thought they are both animal lovers and quiet types, FS is just very shy girl while SW is calculating sadist; Rainbow/Starscream - Apart from being queer icons (If you can look at these two without the word gay constantly entering your mind, congrats, you´re legit cishet) they´re actually pretty similliar in function and personallity wise. They´re both eccentric, aroggant showoffs and are also fastest on their team. But it´s their differences that are making them great foils. RD is impaitent hothead, who jumps straight into action without the second thought, while SC is great schemer, who has his plans planed out. RD is literally element of loyalty, while SC is mostly loyal to himself and etc. I can´t wait to see all their interactions in the future. If you´re interested in some writting advice, there is one minor thing that can be fixed : your description of characters feelings and thought. You start explaining how and why they feel that way instead of giving readers benefit of the doubt. The best term I can think of is that you are describing a picture. Like you want us to see, hear and understand everything at once. It creates unnecessary sentences or whole paragraphs without which some emotional moments would have sounded better. For example if paragraph in Ch.2 with sentence "She was too stuborn." it would have sounded so much better. Or sentences like "She was too precious." are also kind of waste of space since they don´t tell anything new.It´s not worst type of description,but it can create a feeling that you don´t trust youre readers to read from emotions characters alone. Many new writers and comic artists are often doing this. It can be solved 2 ways : by improving their writing or start drawing comics. I´m sorry if I confussed you in some way. I tried my best to explain it, but english is not my primary language. If you don´t mind, I would recommend fics from @whatwooshkai to see what I am talking about ( it´s mostly TF shipping stuff, but man, the writting is so good that I can´t stop reading even if I wanted to). Overall great story and art, just writting needs a little improvment.

I want to finish this already long post with few questions:

1.What is group dynamic with eachother? I mean in and outside of their decided pairings. I can see Sideswipe and Rainbow´s relationship as chaos siblings and that Rainbow is definitely driving Ratchet insane, but what about the others? I´m courious to know.

2.Did you already started writting the next book? If not, do you have planned when you will start?

3.Do you consider draw this as a full time comic or at least draw some parts of it? Or drawing some strips of your incorrect quotes?It´s just that you´re artstyle is so pretty and redesigns of the autobots and girls are great. It´s shame to see so little of them.

4. Did you thought about getting your comics dubbed on youtube?

5. Do you draw ideas from the asks from your followers on Tambrlane or you take commissions only? Like if they had a idea for a comic/sketch and they post it to you, would you draw it? If not, could they draw it with your redesignes?

6. What gave you idea for this crossover? My best guess is that comic from Hasbro.

Holy- I never thought I would get such a long ask.

*rolls up sleeves and rubs hands*

Okay, let’s do this!

First, I want to thank you so much for the kind words, the fact that there are people who got really interested in my fic makes my heart flutter. <3

And I really love it when readers point out small details that I haven’t thought about that much while writing! Thank you a lot for the advice and recommendations, I really appreciate it! I will keep that in mind!

Now, to answer your questions:

1. You are absolutely correct about Sideswipe and Rainbow’s relationship, in my opinion, they will be the best chaos siblings (I am 100% sure that most of the members will go insane because of their pranks) I could write more detailed headcanons for them and the others too.

2. The next book is nearly finished, I will make sure to post it at the beginning of January.

3. I will drop more art soon, promise! Sorry for the lack of content, I’ve been pretty busy for the past few months. But now I’m finally free and I will certainly start drawing again! I also have several ideas in mind for some parts of the next book.

4. I don’t mind my comics being dubbed as long as I’m credited and they’ve asked for permission.

5. Again, if I’m credited and asked for permission, there will be no problem for other artists to draw my redesigns. I don’t usually take requests and it really depends on my free time and motivation, but if I really like the idea that has been suggested, I would (probably) draw it.

6. Good guess! But actually no. I was really into this crossover way before Hasbro decided to make a comic of it. I’ve been into a lot of fandoms and reading crossover fanfics basically became like a hobby to me. I got a lot of inspiration after I accidentally stumbled upon some pretty good written Tf/Mlp fics, but it took me a lot of time to finally get enough courage and start writing my own. I’m more than thankful for the support and love that I was given through the years! It really motivated me to keep on going!

[confusedgoldenflower]

This. This is why if you’re not already there,

Stay. Away.

I’m honestly amazed they’re not all downvoted to hell. I’ve seen worse for much less. And idk if there’s any harrassment, I am not in the space to deal with the shit rn. Cue the flood of “pRoShIpPiNg Is AcHuAlLy…” and “cEnSoRsHiP-” 🙄

If anyone does see any harrasment there (I don’t encourage looking), please let me know. I’d like to gather solid examples <3 (Can tons of down votes count? It certainly has a psychological effect.)

‘Nother appeal. Any other examples of how minors are treated in this “movement?” Very appreciative of your truth or screencaps. Of course no pressure. You heal as you need to.

“Anecdotes are not data,” *slow white man blink.* The fuck? It very much IS! You’re hyper intellegent asses don’t understand history and primary sources?—The data of SEX OFFENSES HAS TO COME FROM ANECTDOTES.

https://www.reddit.com/r/AO3/s/FQ2VAfHuuH [Maybe just… don’t sexualize minors?)

https://www.reddit.com/r/AO3/s/HanM4Ij79F [Is everyone here pork addicts?] lemme tell ya, it sure feels like it. Especially when they jump on people for not liking or wanting smut.

https://www.reddit.com/r/AO3/s/JaAq97qqhz [What’s with proshippers and double standards?]

I also notice that many proshippers dont minds bullying children or people who are confussed/was antis in past. I feel like you can say "I was anti" and many proshippers gonna act as If you was bullying them in the past (even If you say you never do things like that). "We are the one who really care about children, but we also gonna hate you and bully If you are child and you tell us you was anti but run away from some toxic antis space"

OP’s account is now deleted. Y’all probably know the conclusion I’m drawing.

https://www.reddit.com/r/AO3/s/DdshVDigdG Wrow it’s almost like language changes (if “anti” ever actually meant what they all claim)

https://www.reddit.com/r/AO3/s/aNn9oykSDh [I really don’t like how some proshippers behave] great so how about y’all straighten yourselves out before interacting with anyone else please. Y’all do not have a good track record. Not a “cohesive movement” my ass, you all have the same regurgitations whenever you so much as “feel threatened.” (Gods, movement, you’ve had centuries. Actual centuries of that shit. It’s time for victims to have justice now damnit.) Then there’s “well they’re not real proshippers” ergo “I’m the good one” which is also something they complain about others doing.

Been trying to refind this one for a while. https://www.reddit.com/r/AO3/s/ZEcKruiEIG [what’s up with the proshipping support on here?]. Really ridiculous that the ARCHIVE OF OUR OWN subreddit is really just an echochamber. Fucking go off to r/proship. Go away. Some of us actually want decency. Yes, it pisses me off. Fuck I saw the first comment!

**Goes without saying, no find these ppl! Again, I don’t support harassment etc. Let’s just have fun and find comfort and spread safety by tearing their illogical logic apart.

No <3. Just no. The definitions are leaving your control and we’re defining you by your actions. OP is right. Sorry, OP. Really hope they weren’t pulled in by “kindness” and literal buzzwords.“Antis are just so dumb. But you’re smart, you’ll pay attention in class. I’ve been to college, listen to me”🤮. Most of it is just appeals to emotions, y’all see this too right??? (Can’t open OPs accnt, worried.)

https://www.reddit.com/r/AO3/s/Eti8zyO4bP [proship as a movement should be allowed criticism]. A call from inside the house! 🚨🚨 Aaand another OP deleted. I am having a feeling they’re not showing downvote numbers to not-your posts. Weird.

“cHilDrEn ArEnT mY rEsPoNsIbIlItY, wHeRe ArE tHeIr PaReNts🥴.” Now I’ve said it before but that’s what communities are; responsibility to everyone. And I guess these people are actually not smart enough to understand it’s no longer the fifties! Even if there’s multiple adults or even elder siblings, there’s simply no way to monitor a child’s online activity especially with the rabbit holes and pipelines. Why, it’s almost like children are SOCIETY’S RESPONSIBILITY.

Just admit you’re refusing responsibility for exposing children to this shit because you’re weirdly against proper tagging and post it accessibly. Put it behind some sort of gate or community-join-thing! And stop drenching fandom in it!

Y’all ever click something out of morbid curiosity or accident and get some sort of note like “I’m a mother, but I’m not YOUR mother. If you can’t handle, don’t read.” That literally doesn’t do shit especially if talking about children, they’re learning self control as is, how to protect themselves mentally, and curiosity will absolutely win out. Especially if they have *that one friend* that dares or taunts them to read it. Boom, trauma. Yes, you CAN be traumatized by written stories/fiction (and even hearing about a traumatizing event). Also, being an adult does NOT mean you’re some perfect, “rational” human; that’s so weirdly essentialist and ableist.

Also… if I learned my mother, or any parent or relative, wrote noncon content for fun🚩🚩🚩. Absolutely not. Nope. Disinvited from family gatherings or anywhere near my loved ones unless they get therapy. Actual therapy.

[streets-in-paradise]

Waiting - Andy Barclay x Reader

Requested by Anon

" hey can you make a story about Andy Barclay getting jealous at someone because they’re flirting there S/O. Btw it can be fluff or whatever I am having you have that choice thank I love your content ❤️❤️❤️❤️"

Sure, anon! And thank you for your kindness <3

Warnings: No proofreading, Insecure Andy being reassured by his s/o in fluffy and flirty ways.

Summary: A hopeless time of watching him unsuccessfully date other persons in front of you preceded the beggining of your relationship with Andy and now you can't believe he is the one feeling jealous.

Tags: @losersclubisms

Too long you had watched in the shadow of his failures, waiting untill he would stop ignoring the fullness of the woods for a single tree. As a server in the restaurant were most of his disastrous dates took place you had a privileged spot to observe the regular downfalls, convinced that you have never meet anyone with such terrible luck for romance. What started as an empathy driven approach just trying to help him out quickly turned into something else and you found yourself trully Interested on him.

Andy was a sweet guy who just have been lonely for too long. Everytime one of his dates would leave him heartbroken you were there to pick up the pieces hoping he would catch your signs. Getting to a point where you could start dating required a lot of patience from you, virtue that you lost after the redhead fiasco leading to directly asking him out by yourself.

It took him a while to understand you actually wanted to be with him, since at first he was convinced you did it out of pity. His way of loving made you feel as if your relationship was the best thing happening in his life and he was constantly afraid of loosing you.

He was not the kind of man who would start a fight over jealousy, but you could tell whenever he would be swallowing those feelings pretending to be just fine.

The first time it happened you realized he was so not ready to deal with other people flirting with you. A silly confussion with a stranger at a bar ruined the whole moment for him. The actual episode wasn't even a big deal, since you politely declined and sneaked your hands on top of the back pocket of the pants of your silently angry boyfriend to send a passive agressive message making the stranger dissapear.

Andy felt your hands softly squeezing his butt and that at least managed to distract him a bit.

" Did you notice how shocked he was? That dude couldn't believe i'm with you. " He openly commented. " … Sometimes even I can't believe i'm with you. "

" After all I have been waiting for you? " You sweetly complained. " How many cute people did i see you with before you stopped drowning in self pity and noticed I wanted your attention all along? "

He didn't consider that before, probably because those dates had such terrible outcomes he couldn't imagine you caring for that.

" Did I make you jealous?" He asked while a soft shade of blush in his face made him look down for a brief instant. " Me?? How?"

" I saw you put your heart and soul into each one of those, trying so hard for things to work because you liked those persons. That amount of dedication had completely won me over even before we started dating. " You frankly admitted. " They may have been desperate to run away, but I was there watching and wanting so badly to be them. You didn't have an easy life, i could tell that, but you are a wonderfull man so sweet, thoughtfull and handsome. A bit weird, maybe, but still adorable. You wanted love and I was desperate for a shot to love you, but there was always someone else rejecting you that you cared more about. "

" I was a fool, i know. " He apologized, still in disbelief. " Let's say I was misguided by the advice of an old friend. "

" You were driving me insane and I was so jealous of your dates. I began to ask myself what else could I do to make you notice me. I almost changed my hair colour but a friend told me that going redhead would have been too much. "

The confession made him chuckle.

" I love you exactly as you are … and I'm feeling quite jealous."

Verbally expressing his feelings was hard for him, but he did it in the spirit of his surprise.

" You have no damn reason for it, because i'm going nowhere. " You reassured him, pulling him closer. " I'm here with you and there is no other one I could want to be with ríght now. "

He was a happy, awkward mess evidently affected by your words in all kinds of ways.

For so, you decided to carry on taking things a bit further.

" Once we get back to my place you are all mine." You whispered close to his ear. " I'm going to show you exactly how much I love you and how wild you drive me. "

The insidious thoughts temporally faded under such delightfull promise.

[alcoris-shiz]

One Hell Of A Love (part 1)

One Hell Of A Love (part 1) Description: (The story was written right after finishing Season 1, so of course due to not following the full storyline of the show, apologies future readers!) Now that Sir Pentious makes it to Heaven, he meets a cute little nonbinary angel who shows him around. Important note: I write fanfiction like this when I get drunk for fun. I kinda go on long drawing/writing sprees and so I figured I would let y'all darlings have some fun with me being an idiot. ⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ Part 1 Part 2 ｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ ~ Master List~ ⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆

 Sir Pentious’s POV

I glanced around my ssurroundings and gave a ssmall wave, the girl in front of me was grey-toned and had wings. She looked like Vaggie in a way! I looked over mysself and realized I wass sstill a ssnake. Good! I don’t want Cherry to be disappointed when we ssee each other again.

“Welcome to heaven! Oh my, you must be from that awful extermination! But I knew you guys could redeem yourselves! See Sera! I knew it!” the younger girl ssaid jumping up and down excitedly.

“Ssso thiss iss what it’ss like in heaven?” I asked glancing around. “I am in heaven, right?” 

“Yes yes, of course! I have a friend who can show you around! Oh I can’t wait! Maybe they’ll let you have the spare room until we can get you a place!” asss confussed asss I am, I guesss I have no choice but to accept their kind offer.

A knock was heard on the door as the young girl quickly texted on her phone. A ssigh was heard from Ssera, “Come in Y/N!”

“Oh and, I’m Sera as you heard, I’m a Seraphine of course and this is my younger sister.” Sera said as she motioned to the excitable girl.

A door was heard swinging open behind us but I glanced at the excited girl. “I’m Emily! Oh oh! But I do like nicknames!” 

I turned to watch her run to the door and jump on ssomeone. They weren’t very tall and had X (A/N: I’mma use this for leaving colors of your choice) skin and X eyes. Your usual angel look from the sseemss of it. But they were beautiful. I am loyal though! I will be waiting until I ssee Cherry Bomb again!

They glanced up at me and their cheeks went red. “Woah.. you’re pretty! I mean, you look cool. I mean pretty cool uhh. Hey, I’m Y/N!”

Y/N’s POV

Oh wow was he pretty. I’ve never seen someone like him here. Everyone looked very much the same, but he was gorgeous and different!

“Hello, I am Ssir Pentiouss! You are alsso very pretty!” his face went red and he slithered closer to myself. 

“Em, is this really one of the souls from Hell? That’s so amazing! What’s it like there?” Sir Pentious looked around me and smiled. “I have sso many sstories!” Emily came and joined me as we looked at Sir Pentious in awe.

“How about I talk to him about the rules we have and then you show him where he will be staying.”

I paused, oh yeah I was gonna house him. I’ve had temporary roommates staying while I waited for my sister to return. But I feel we’re gonna be good friends and maybe temporary roommates won’t be needed anymore.

 We all sat around the table as we watched Sera think. 

“We have many souls here who will not be thrilled about this turn of events. I have no problem with it, though it is complicated. You, Sir Pentious, do have a place here in heaven now. You will be staying in Y/N’s sister's old bedroom, we have not seen her in many years so do not fear that you will be taking her space. Y/N likes decorating after all and likes for it to meet their guest's standards and style.” I smiled at Sir Pentious, softly placed my hand on his arm, and glanced up at him, who smiled back.

“Though, we have rules. Families are common here in heaven. But due to the circumstances of where you have come from. No children. If you decide to have children, you must marry beforehand. Adoption is an exception to the marriage rule. You will not return to Hell for anything, I’m very sorry. But we keep those two very separate. We have few who go between worlds. There will be no speak of the exterminations either, it will scare our people. You must also know that you must stay on the down low, no speaking of where you are from. You are just a human soul who joined us. For now, that will be it, but remember that we are very strict in our rules.”

Sir Pentious saluted Sera and fell over, “Yes M’am!”

I led him up the steps to my townhouse and handed him a key to the apartment, “If you would like, I can help you decorate the room. It had of course belonged to my sister V, but she hadn’t been home in years. It makes me feel better because she was forever changing the style of the room, so I feel that she would’ve loved it this way.”

Sir Pentious looked at me with almost a frown, “Do you, know what happened? If not! I don’t mean to budge, it’s your life or something after!” I giggled. “No you’re okay, I wanna make you comfortable!” I paused and he put his hand on my shoulder. “I don’t know where she went. She left to work one day, I don’t know what she did for work, I know she worked with-... it doesn’t matter. She never came home and if I know her like I do, it’s because she helped someone.” I smiled at Sir Pentious and hugged him. “It’ll be okay.” Sir Pentious whispered and hugged me after a moment.

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A/N: So yeah, this will have reader pregnancy, and smut, and be quick-paced and messy. But I enjoy my drunk stories, so I hope you do too lol

897-word count I know it's not much for a first chapter but I promise there is so much more and other ships as well 🩷 Also so sorry, this was my first post on here I think ever for tumblr. But I needed a change in scenery.

[it-begins-with-rain]

Hello lovely,

I have a question for you about American (work)culture.

What the fuck are sick days and how can you run out of them? How manny days do you get? What if your out of days and still sick? What happens when you don't use them all up? Do you need a doctors note? Or can you use them to go on a litlle vacation?

That was more then one question, but i'm very confusse about the concept. You are the only American I know, so you get my questions ;)

I'm going to post this openly, just to see if others can help answer. I'm a contract worker (technically part-time at one job, but they treat us as contractors), so I actually don't get any sick time at all, ever. That's something that only salary workers- to my knowledge- can have. So most of my answer is just what I'm aware the policies are at places I have worked for those on staff.

Because contract workers don't get paid if they don't work, you end up having a lot of very sick people working when they shouldn't. During COVID the policy at work was *literally* "If we like you and you get COVID, you'll still be paid for what you would have worked. Don't tell anyone else about this policy because if we don't like them, we don't want them thinking they'll get paid." (three of us were on the 'we like you' list, and it was literally just who the department director liked, not based on quality of work or what you do).

I do know that where I work, the people on staff don't get specifically sick-days, they get "paid time off", which in other companies is usually a wholly separate thing (but where I am, they're lumped together). In other places it's usually like, if you work overtime and they don't want to pay you for that, they turn those hours into extra time you can take off. So if you work 3 hours overtime, you can leave 3 hours early another day.

Typically if you run out of sick days, I think you're just SOL (shit out of luck), unless your company has a separate thing you can kind of apply for. A lot of companies straight up don't care, and after a certain amount of time, they'll fire you. That happens a lot where I live.

**I should say at some point, I work in a state that is ranked as one of the most employee-hostile in the country. The laws will be different state to state.**

Some require doctor's notes if you use sick days, some don't.

If you don't use sick days or paid time off by the end of the year, some places let you roll them into the next year. Other places will figure out what your average daily pay is and give you that as a "bonus" for not using your sick/leave time. Sometimes you can roll it over up to a certain number of days (like, you get 6 sick days a year, maximum of 12 if you aren't sick and those days keep collecting year to year).

My father was in the military for 20 years and only took sick days if he absolutely could not function (I don't remember him taking them more than like one the day of a surgery, he was even back at work the next day). That was because the military rolled over sick days year after year, no expiration or maximum. So when he left the military, we moved away, and he was still paid as a full-time soldier for 4 months, he'd built up so much sick time.

Again, I work in one of the absolute worst states it is possible to work in. Someone literally died at an Amazon facility and the governor had people from the labor board go and help the people at Amazon fill out the reports to file so they wouldn't be penalized.

I work in a state that literally prioritizes companies over dead employees.

**I should also say that rules around sick days and such- if there is a Union protecting an employee, that kind of stuff will be included in the contract, so it isn't even necessarily a matter of state law at that point, it's a matter of what the Union has secured for people.

If anyone has anything to add, go for it!

[jamietarttownsmyheart]

you know grow up wstching jSuds aand love Ted lasso and every week I'm like i think i crack the case like i do guess correctly most thing in the sow or annoy my friends with a question or theory or concern and they answet my questions and do my theories so I'm like huh the most interesting is Colin and Jamie cause in season 1 Colin Jamie and Isaac were besties and bullied Nate and like Colin legits defends Jamie and tries to get him away from Roy and isaac but then season 2 Colin's annoyed aboit the worm thing of course not so much and colin was ready to stand up and fight Jamie's dad but it was Beard who beat him to it then the total football episode Colin was seriously mad at Jamie they quite of had a fight for real and now episode 9 so i'm just like confussed cause colin has a boyfriend hell be back but they dont really like share about it so im like are they gonna break up are they setting up colinjamie i am delusional delulu all the time but what was Jason aiming at also Jamie really grow up his not interested in Keeley so I'm like jSuds i know you but i cant crack that part of me thinks probably michael is just back to kiss colin but part of me is like so lame you didn't give me their backstorys like pretty sure it has a meaning right but im just like jsud im on your walls lets talk like for real if you show someone ColinJamie interactions they will think they are canon

i love that you find so much joy in guessing the outcomes and plots of the show! its a really cool way to engage with the content!

I'm like huh the most interesting is Colin and Jamie cause in season 1 Colin Jamie and Isaac were besties and bullied Nate and like Colin legits defends Jamie and tries to get him away from Roy and isaac but then season 2 Colin's annoyed aboit the worm thing of course not so much and colin was ready to stand up and fight Jamie's dad but it was Beard who beat him to it then the total football episode Colin was seriously mad at Jamie they quite of had a fight for real and now episode 9 so i'm just like confussed cause colin has a boyfriend hell be back but they dont really like share about it so im like are they gonna break up are they setting up colinjamie i am delusional delulu all the time but what was Jason aiming at

oh see the thing is, i really don't think they'll make colinjamie canon, they won't even let jamie come out and say he's bi. i think that since this is a show built on themes like, kindness and forgiveness, and not on relationships, we won't see that kind of stuff coming from the team.

we're getting hints of roykeeley yes, but i do think that is The Relationship™ of the show, along with Nate and Jade in this season. I have this feeling that the other ships, such as Tedbecca will be left open-ended or resolved last second. Not really a focus here. Colin has Michael (I'm assuming, since a previous anon told me Billy Harris said Michael will be back) and I'm happy that there is representation, but it seems more like his presence was a part of Colin's story, rather than a character on his own. What I'm trying to say is, he seems more like a part of the plot then someone the plot is happening to, if that makes sense? So I don't think they're setting up for colinjamie (though I would not be complaining if they did lol) but you're right, there are certainly a lot of interactions that support the ship.

also Jamie really grow up his not interested in Keeley so I'm like jSuds i know you but i cant crack that part of me thinks probably michael is just back to kiss colin but part of me is like so lame you didn't give me their backstorys like pretty sure it has a meaning right but im just like jsud im on your walls lets talk like for real if you show someone ColinJamie interactions they will think they are canon

right so, do i think Jamie loves Keleey? Yes. Do i think he's interested in her? No, I think he thinks that it's over, and is glad to love Keeley as a friend. So I agree, with the way the show is going I do think there is love there--now what type is up in the air--but is he looking to date her? I think he's closed that chapter of his life.

*have to say real quick, i don't mind the ship, i think they were really cute and there was genuine affection there*

but yes, like i said, michael seems kind of flat, character wise, as in the purpose was to give colin a boyfriend, not to establish michael as a character. perhaps it is a meta way of exploring colin's relationships-his arc is tied in with the team, and who michael was to him is hidden from them for so long. i think its entirely possible michael was a frequent hook up and it is entirely possible he is a boyfriend! i would like to know more about his character.

and yes. colinjamie is canon to *me*

[lilisouless]

I get some choices a worth the critique, such as Alina´s so called ambition not being exactly well done , the darkling being victim of the MCU Thanos syndrome and granted LB uses him a lot for hype (he should have stayed dead) however, most of their arguments is that the writing is bad because Alina didn't end up with him, as if that wouldn't be an murder of her whole character, why would she be romantic with a man that hurt her friends and her? His character is also very not like they see him, they infantilize him to no end and act as if he was this simp, ignoring he normally trives to have the upperhand in any interaction he gets. I ignore why a book with an scene where a group of girls comfort each other , four of them being hurt by that man in one way or another (Alina,Genya already said, Zoya´s family getting killed. Nadia´s best friend getting killed) would end up with one of them in a ship of that man in question and the others fangirling i guess.

They clearly wanted a self insert fantasy, to be fair LB once was close with SJM so they thought her writing was similar. I can understand being confussed by the promo of the first book since it was "A dark heart. A pure soul. A love that will last forever" i get it was misleading on purpuse yet it was not actually false advertising. People thought it meant the dark heart and pure soul were the love that last forever, when it´s actually about the three characters: one is the dark heart (the darkling) , one is the pure soul (Alina) and another one is the love that last forvever (Mal) the point is realizing at the end of the book it was always like that. I get the misleading and if you think the LB books are like SJM books i can understand why they thought the second might pull a switch, however if you get to the end of S&S and still think that they are going to be endgame then thats on you because if you still think they will get together after that, you are sorry but illiterate as fuck (and i am being nice by not saying another description). The tone already has set up, the themes already were set up, it´s not soft porn, it´s about the trauma he injects on her and the book can't be more clear about it.

I once read someone seeing when Alina pretends to choose the darkling at the end of the second book and people were like "OOH YES SO EXISTING!" by that point he had scarred Genya, murdered many grishas, tricked Alina into kissing him and leaving her so traumatized she tried to have herself killed.

So if after that your reaction is "YAY MY SHIIIP" then thats people that gaslighted themselves. (hell, she even says internally that she loves Mal, it can't be more clear that this is something she doesn´t want) Hell, they were more upset about Alina betraying him than trying to kill herself, like i get that some books make the whole killing each other sexual but thats not the case, it´s a tragic moment where Alina thinks this is all left for her and she feels that at least there is the victory of taking her abuse down with her because she would rather die than be with and like him.

DA fans are like MCU fanboys that think that fanservice is equivalent of quality. If they limited themselves to ship and enjoy the relationship, i will give a pass but those kind of shippers never do that, they always go "the writting is bad because what i wanted didn't happen, it´s bad because it didn't serve my personal taste despite being warned so many times"

And to finish: if to you a man´s dick is more important than a woman´s authonomy and mental health, then Leigh Bardugo is not the writer for you.

why do most darkling stans and darklina shippers despise leigh bardugo and her work yet never move on from it?

i don't know too much about darklina shippers and darkling stans to be qualified to answer this question, but i'll do my best.

(i'm sorry if this answer offends anyone; it's just my opinion)

you will notice in other fandoms as well that people read books and for some reason struggle to grasp the main point, the foundation of the books. instead their focus wanders elsewhere onto trivial things they make a big deal out of.

so, while darklina fans may not appreciate leigh bardugo's writing and stuff, they never seem to move on from it because that's what haters do. they are more obsessed with the work than the fans. they fight imaginary battles trying to prove an irrelevant point. because dislike is a very strong force.

hope this made at least a little bit of sense :)

[who-ever-said-i-was-nice]

Hi! I like your writing so much 🥰🥰🥰. How incredible they are! So, I have a resquest about how Napoleon, Mozart, Leo, Comte,Vincent, Will ( sorry if it is too much) react to a MC who is taller than them 😂😂😂 ( like her height is 185cm) and how they fall in love with her. Thank you so much ☺️☺️☺️

Ah girl. I'm sorry for taking so damn long. I am buried under so much work, but now I have a few minutes to spare so I decided to finish this for you. I hope you enjoy and It was worth your wait. Love you and thanks again.! Here is the part 2!

Napoleon

    Napoleon was strolling around the mansion one evening. It had been a surprisingly good day. He want out with Isaac and taught the children, he sparred with Jean. It was fulfilling. He walked passed the Door, but when he got to the end of the corridor he heard something. He turned around and hurried back, only to find..nothing. He looked both ways and was ready to dismiss it, but then he heard a small sniffle come from behind an open door a little down the hall. He opened it to reveal a very beautiful girl. And she was so tall, which only added to her beauty.He, Napoleon, The nightmare of Europe, The emperor of France, felt like the wind had been knocked out of his lungs. He quickly recomposed himself and glanced back to the woman who looked about ready to cry. He closed the door and took her hand. "Why are you hiding behind a door? Everything's alright you don't need to hide. And - he paused a little - please don't cry nunuche. He smiled at the woman and extended a hand.She took it without much hesitation. "Can I have your name?" he questioned, looking slightly up to gaze into her E/C colored eyes. " Y/n" she responded rather timidly and Napoleon felt his heart flutter.                                                                                                                                           -------------------Time skip to two weeks in-----------------     

       Napoleon still felt an odd stirring feeling whenever Y/n was around. Fortunately he had now realized why. He had fallen in love with her. He wanted to tell her, he really did, but he couldn't figure out how. One cold winter night he plucked up the courage to tell you, which was a lot harder then he would have thought. He walked out into the garden looking for a very specific flower. Finally he found it. An Algerian Iris.

He picked it with careful hands and hurried to Y/n's room. He got there and swallowed hard before knocking on her door. Y/n opened it and stared down at the man. He cleared his throat. " Y/n, I know I haven't known you for too long, but I can't suppress these feeling anymore. Over the past month you have always been there for me. We laughed together, shared memories together and even made new ones. Your smile always lights up the world and no matter what happens I want you to remember, I love you." He smiled up at Y/n. Tears of happiness streamed down her face. He offered her the tiny flower. She held it with such gentleness, as if it could shatter at any moment. She then embraced her lover as she sobbed. Napoleon hugged her back, his face buried in her neck. He urged her to lean down a bit and he kissed her. She kissed back smiling into it.

Mozart

    Mozart sat alone in his room. A thousand thoughts swirling in his mind, as he tried so desperately to perfect his new masterpiece. His skilled hands glided over the keys gracefully. Suddenly he was pulled out of his thoughts by the loud noises coming from the dining room. He got up. Annoyed at all of the residents for ruining his concentration. He walks out of the room in a hurry.  When he makes it there, he turns the corner ready to throw an insult at them, however the words die in his throat as his eyes land on the tall figure standing in the middle of the room.  He's baffled at how tall that woman was. He quickly composed himself and walked over to her. The closer he got, the more he noticed about her. The way her eyes sparkled as she talked to the residents, how she would bring her hand up to her mouth when she laughed, the sway of her hair, the way she shifted her way fro one long leg to the other. But most importantly, he noticed her eyes dart around a little when looking down, as if she was afraid of something. Mozart, however could not put his finger on it. He was soon spotted by the infamous flirt, Arthur. " Mozart! Our loved composer. Come over here don't be shy." he flashed his boyish grin and Mozart made a small noise of irritation, but cam up to her. " Hello, I am Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, composer" He looked up to find her eyes shining with excitement. "Hello! I'm Y/n. It's a pleasure to meat you! I love your music and..." She just kept going, rambling about how amazing he and his music was. Mozart will never admit it, but it warmed his frozen heart. As he watched her talk all he could think about was: ' You innocent, little lamb. Where you the one I was missing? I didn't even know I was missing something till now. Someday, somehow I will make you mine'          

                   -------------------Time skip to two weeks in----------------- 

        Mozart was playing the piano, channeling all his anger into it. He missed a note and jumped up immediately. He was angry and sad, but worst of all he felt betrayed. He banged his fists against the wall as tears streamed down his face. He didn't want to cry. He fought with all his might. but the river just kept flowing. He could not have her, he could not. That was the truth. He heard a small knock on the door. He yelled an angry 'go away', but the door opened anyway. In stepped Y/n. When she spotted him, her eyebrows furrowed in confusion and worry. She hurried over to his side and placed a delicate hand on his back. Mozart tried to trow a sarcastic comment her way, or at least push her or get her away from him, but he was rooted to the spot, crying his eyes out in front of this sweet, little lamb. " Wolf? What happened? Why do you cry?" her voice was cracking with worry and fear. Mozart lifted his head from the wall, but did not meat her eye. Instead he starred at the ceiling and spoke in and unusually quite voice. " That man...downtown. He had his arm around you....I didn't know you had a lover." He finally looked at her, only to find an expression of shock on her face. " You mean the man that walked up behind me, put his arm around me and attempted to flirt, only to get punched by Jean?" Now it was his turn to be surprised. However he could tell she spoke the truth. Had he watched a little longer he would have seen it all happen, but he was consumed by his emotions and as his anger turned to a forte, he could not look anymore.      Everything slowed down. It was a peculiar feeling. It seem like all noise had been muffled and all the thing and events faded. She smiled. A soft, sweet smile. She reached up and gently whipped his tears. She found his jealousy a bit childish, but she knew that she loved him and she would have broken down too. She understood and so she could accept. Mozart's eyes softened as he gazed into her smiling eyes and basked in her tender touch. They both moved at the same time and met in the middle. It was a sweet and gentle kiss filled with love.

Leo

      Leonardo da Vinci. The renaissance mastermind.That is what people called him, or so he had been informed by Sebastian. He always thought long and hard about that. He had invented and created a lot of things, yes, but he was not always certain he deserved that title. A nagging fear always crept up on him. Was he really that special? Was he worth it at all. After all, he faked his death. He lied to all those who adore him now. He did not deserve anything in his mind. And even if he did, he could not keep it forever. Time kills everything he loves. The people he cared for turned to dust in his hand and the hand on the clock just kept ticking. On and on and on. For eternity. He shivered and set the pocket-watch he had been fixing down. He needed some air. And a cigarillo. As he wandered the corridors he heard a bang coming from the direction of the magical door. Curious, he walked towards it only to find a simply ethereal woman standing and yanking at the doorknob. He walked up to her. " Can I help you Cara mia?" She spun around with a glare on her face looking ready to fight, but she relaxed when she saw that the man standing in front of her was not a threat.

                  -------------------Time skip to two weeks in-----------------            

       Over the course of  the week, Leo found himself enjoying her company more and more. The truth was, that he had caught feeling for her. She had beautiful h/l h/c hair and e/c eyes that sparkled every time she talked about something she liked. Not to mention, she was tall. Really tall. Taller then him actually. And he loved that. He thought it was the most beautiful thing in the world. Whenever she wore her 21st century pants or skirts you could see her lovely long legs. However he tried to push these things away. He could not harbor feeling for a woman he knew he was going to loose. He could not control or tolerate the ace in his heart every time she would pass him by, or help him with something. Unfortunately, he knew that if he gave in he would hurt a thousand times more.     It was 12 o'clock at night and he could not fall asleep. Well not that he was trying to hard. He got up and decided to walk around the mansion. As he passed Mozart's door he heart Y/n's small sobs. He stopped dead in his tracks and listened. He couldn't hear what she was saying, but he caught a few words. ".. Can't have him......doesn't love me....I'm too tall" Those words where like an electric shock to him. He could make out Mozart comforting you and another voice that he believed was Jean, but he couldn't concentrate. It felt as if the whole world caved in on him. He was selfish. He had chosen his comfort over your and now this was the price he had to pay. He should have known. The bill comes due. Always! He pulled himself together the best he could and knocked on the door. Everything went silent. Mozart opened the door, looking even more pale then usual. He was about to shut the door in his face when Y/n soft voice rang out. "Don't, it's alright. I will talk to him" Jean looked ready to protest, but he let her go anyway. The stood facing each other in the hall. Leo looking slightly up to meat her teary eyes. He reached up and wiped her face. He met her gaze once again and whispered: "I'm so sorry." He pulled her in and kissed her with everything he had. Pouring all the hurt, denial, pain and love he felt. She kissed back with just as much passion. Finally he had to pull away for air. He looked back at her again." Don't ever say, you are too tall, mia bella"

As you can see, it got really long. Idk if this is what you had in mind, but yeah. I will do the other half and maybe other residents too, because this was really fun. Once again thank you for your patience and have an amazing day/night.tags: @nad-zeta @dazaiswindow @blu-tigerr @jeanstan @ichigoamamiya @shookspearewrites @chaotic-coyote I ummm taggd you guys here, idk if you want me to tag you again next time or you want me to stop, ummmm tell me i don't really know how this works so if this is not how I'm supposed to do it, tell me. I appreciate it😅

[localspaceangel]

(Whatup, sorry again for not saying anything, but i just wanted to quickly vent about something, if you dont mind ;-p )

Hhh man i kinda hate when theres a story where one character is acting really kind and friendly to another character but its reaviled at the end that it was manipulation... bc like, it makes me feel very conflicted about said character, especially when the stuff they said seemed so honest!! :'-(

[fightzclub]

My ntltc crewneck has shrunk to the size of a child’s crewneck this is weird for 2 reasons

1. I’ve never had an iteam or clothing srink in the wash / dyer

2. My family only uses cold water to wash things

@ ariana what is this ?

[mattycashyx]

To much - Ben Chilwell

words: 1065

A few weeks ago Ben posted a picture of me and him kissing together on instagram, to show everyone that we were in a relationship.

At the beginning everyone was really nice, I was glad and relieved that his fans had excepted me but that didn't last long. It began all innocent by some of them saying that I was fat or wasn't pretty and that Ben could do better.

But more and more people begun saying those things under every thing i posted. The only thing under all my instagram posts where hate of his fans saying all these nasty things about me. At some point some of them even started sending dm's with deadthreaths, that they wished I was dead or never existed.

Ben warned me that not everyone was gone be nice to me and some of his fans would hate on me. But I never expected to be it this hard and I never thought that some one could be this mean.

Everthing i posted was something that they could hate on, then it was my face that I should wore more make up, or then it was my body that I wasn't skinny enough or I was not pretty enough for Ben. There was always something that wasn't good enough for them, if you get so much hate you start to believe it yourself.

How was I ever good enough for Ben, I wasn't some kind of model I was just a random girl from a little town nothing more. He deserves way better. So thats when I couldn't handle it anymore, they where right.

ꕥ

You were packing your suitcase you tried to pack as much as you could, but it was to much to take with you all at ones so you had to come back later.

You lived with Ben in his appartment, 2 years ago you moved in with him, you couldn't wait to move in with your boyfriend. Ben was the best thing that ever happened to you.

Ben was training right now so you could leave without any trouble. Ben had noticed that you were more distand lately but he thought that you were stressed out of work.

His training was over so he came back home only to find out that is girlfriend wasn't home, all here clothes were gone he was confussed but thats when he found a note on the kitchen counter.

Dear Ben,

You were the best boyfriend I ever had and I couldn't wish for anything better. It's not your fould but it's me, I can't handle the hate it's to much for me and you deserve way better. You deserve some one who can handle your fame and who isn't so insecure about them selfs. But i break up with you.

I love you and I am so sorry x Y/N

He was shocked and couldn't believe it you had left him and when realization hit him his heart broke into pieces. He loved you so much and he hated himself for not seeing that you were so hated by his fans.

Few days later

You went bake to his appertment to get your last stuff, you were standing infront his door. Suddenly you got very nervous to see Ben, you where scared that he was mad at you. But you had to get your stuff, so you knock on the door.

A few seconds later Ben opens the door. he doesn't look good, his eyes are red from crying earlier, it looks like he hasn't showerd since the day you'd left. He didn't say anything and waited for you to say something.

"I came to get my last stuff" you said and he nodded and let you in. you grapped your last things and wanted to walk out of the house but a soft voice stopped you.

"wait Y/N" Ben said you turned around and looked him in the eyes, his eyes full of sorrow and hurt. "why didn’t you just told me that you got so much hate" Ben said "I-I don’t know" you told him "I could have helped you" Ben said and you stay silent "please let me help you" Ben said and you started to cry softly, he took you in a hug and you felt save in his arms.

You cried in his arms and you stayed there for a while in completly silence until he began to speak up. "I’ve missed you so much Y/N please let me help you, I can’t live without you" he said "I’m just so afraid of what they are gonna say" you said still sobbing into his arms "it doesn’t matter what they say the only thing that matters is us, we will get through this together" Ben said "I missed you to and I’m so sorry for hurting you Ben" you said and he give you a kiss on your forehead.

"I love you and please promes me that you’ll never leave me again" Ben said looking deaply into your eyes "I promise" you said looking back in his eyes not much later you shared a passionate kiss. "I love you too" you said.

The rest of the night you two watch a movie while cuddling in each others arms.

You two were wathing a movie while cuddling in each others arms, you had fallen asleep in Ben's arms. Ben was still upset about the fact that his fans were so mean to his girlfriend so he decided to post a picture and say something about it.

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benchilwell I’m in love with this girl and I can’t understand why you would hate her. She’s literally the best thing that happened to me and it hurts me, that my fans have hatted on her so much that she doubted our relationship and her self. She’s a strong and beautiful woman and I’m glad that I can call her my girlfriend<3 @y/nusername

@y/nusername: Ahw this made me cry🥺 I love you so much benji❤️

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I didn’t know if it should be a happy or a sad ending but it turned out to be a happy ending. What do you think? I don’t really know how I feel about this. Please let me know if there are any mistakes!

Thank you for reading<3

[3seven-gambler]

#⌁꒰Kuko Hɑɾɑi with ɑ GN!S/O who is tɾγing to be ɑ betteɾ peɾson꒱

⋆ word count: 896

⋆ genre: angst, fluff

⋆ You and Kuko met a long time ago in school, when you two were teenagers.

⋆ At that time, you were part of a small gang there, you basically were a bully.

⋆ Your parents were too busy with work, so you basically started to live alone at a very short age.

⋆ You usually didn’t do much, you just scared kids. Maybe sometimes you did remarks about how ‘ugly’ they were and you also used to steal others money.

⋆ One day though, one of your ‘friends’ (the leader of the gang) made you hit a boy from your class, who was known because his father was the owner of an important company.

⋆ You were on the school rooftop, and no one was around there at that time. Or at least you guys thought that.

-”c’mon (y/n), if you still wanna be around us so bad then show it, or are you a softy?”

⋆ -”I-is not that, we already have his money and lunch, I don’t see why we should do this guys…”

⋆ -”Are you disobeying me (y/n)? Huh, after everything we have done for you stupid bitch”.

⋆ The leader of the gang grabbed you by the collar of your shirt and he was about to throw you away from the roof, but you both heard an angry scream coming closer to you both.

⋆ You recognise the red head who was running towards you, Harai Kuko, a boy from another class.

⋆ You were waiting for him to punch you, but instead you heard another scream, but a scared one this time.

⋆ You slowly open your eyes and saw that your ‘friend’ has fallen from the rooftop to the ground.

⋆ -“W-what? how did he…”

⋆ -“Are you ok?” Kuko asked you.

⋆ -“Uhm… yes” you looked at him surprised.

⋆ He nodded at you and then he went to check on the other boy, seeing if he was injured or something.

⋆ You noticed that you still had his belongs, so you stood up and walked over where him and Kuko where.

⋆ The boy looked at you very scared, but when he saw you giving back his things he looked confussed.

⋆ -“I-I’m sorry, ok?” you said harshly. -“He…” you look to the injured body of your 'friend' -“He made me do this kind of things and I- I-” you were letting out some tears -“Just grab your things and get out!” you screamed. The boy say a small -“T-thanks” and run away.

⋆ Then you and Kuko were left alone.

⋆ -“You know, I was about to throw you too… but I’m glad that I didn’t do it, you are different, you want to change, I am wrong?”

⋆ You looked at him for a few seconds, not really knowing what to say. -“I uhm…y-yeah… I’ve been wanting to do it for a few months now but I was scared. The gang would make my life a hell, I mean, it’s kinda a hell anyways but I didn’t want this to be worse than already is…”

⋆ Kuko gave you a small smile. -”Then, let me help you”

⋆You looked at him surprised -“W-what, why would you…”

⋆ -“Because you want to be a better person, I used to be similar to you, but I changed, a little at least” he gave you a wider smile. -“So now, you can change, I wanna help you. What do you say, (y/n)?”

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⋆ After a few years, Kuko and you were the best friends. And you have developed romantic feeling for him. But of course, you try to avoid those feelings.

⋆ He helped you a lot in many ways, even in the smallest and silly things.

⋆ One day the two of you were hanging out as you always did.

⋆ -“Hey, (y/n), I don’t think I’ve ever told you this but, I’m proud of you. Since that day on the rooftop you had improved a lot, in many ways and I see how you are still trying to be better and I really love that about you. I-I mean is not the only thing I like about you because you are also beautiful and inteligent and… uhm I-I’m sorry” he laughed nervous, while his cheeks were with a soft pink.

⋆ You laugh -“That’s maybe because I’ve the best teacher with me” you said as you laid your head in his shoulder, while your cheeks were getting red. -“But now seriously, I own you a lot, Kuko, I’m really thankfull with you” you said as you made eye contact with him.

⋆ -“Don’t even mention it (y/n), I love you very much and I will always help you and protect you…” Kuko didn’t even realized what he just said, well until he finish saying it.

⋆ -“You what?” you asked suprised and with disbelief in your voice.

⋆ -”I-I nothing! I didn’t say anything, w-what d-did you hear?” he asked laughing nervously.

⋆ -“I love you too, Kuko, a lot” you said, smiling softly to him.

⋆ You suddenly could see a spark in his eyes, and without even asking, Kuko grabbed you by the cheeks and pulled you into a long and sweet kiss.

⋆ -“I love you” you both say at the same time and then laughing at it.

❥ 𝖱𝖾𝖻𝗅𝗈𝗀𝗌 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝖺𝗅𝗐𝖺𝗒𝗌 𝖺𝗉𝗉𝗋𝖾𝖼𝗂𝖺𝗍𝖾𝖽. || 𝖣𝖮 𝖭𝖮𝖳 𝖱𝖤𝖯𝖮𝖲𝖳/𝖳𝖱𝖠𝖭𝖲𝖫𝖠𝖳𝖤.

[luna-nigthshade-wood]

How (not) to propose an Angel?

Summary:

-So, Cas, what I am trying to say is, would you marry me?- Dean says kneeling down Static, that is the only thing that Castiel can hear. This is supposed to be the happiest moment in his life, a culmination of a happy relationship, there is just one problem, Dean and him are not dating.

Aka Dean proposes Cas in front of their friends and family, there is just one problem no one, including Cas, knew they were dating

-So, Cas, what I am trying to say is, would you marry me?- Dean says kneeling down

 Static, that is the only thing that Castiel can hear. This is supposed to be the happiest moment in his life, a culmination of a happy relationship, there is just one problem, Dean and him are not dating.

Cas turns around watching the confused faces of their friends and family looking at them, Cas understands their confussion, he is confused as well, Sam looks like he is choking on air, Cas turns his face back at Dean, who is still kneeling down now with angst in his face, Cas wants to console him, but he doesn’t know what the fuck its happening.

 -Cas- Dean says finally breaking the spectral silence that has fallen in the Bunker- you are killing me, is it a no?

-I…-Cas starts, but he is not sure what to answer.

-Dean- Sam finally intervenes- What the fuck?- he asks, finally convening the feeling of the room

-Kind of in the middle of something, Sammy- Dean exclaims

-You cant ask Cas to marry you!!- Sam yells exasperated

-Why?- Dean says angrily standing up- You have a problem or something?

-Yes- Sam responds not backing up- I have a problem. You cant ask Cas to marry you when you are not even dating.

-What are you talking about Sam?- Dean says confused- Of course Cas and I are dating, right Cas?

 The angel in question doesn’t say anything. He still doesn’t understand whats happening? Since when are Dean and him dating? Is Dean cursed? Had they been transported to an alternative universe? What is happening?

-Cas?- Dean´s voice breaks through his thoughts- Are you ok?

-Am I ok?- Cas says, finally finding his voice- Are you?- asks voice shaky

-Well, I am not going to lie, this is not how I thought my night would go

-It is safe to say that neither did I- Cas responds- Dean, we are not dating.

-Of course we are- Dean says hysterically- Everybody knows it, right guys?- the hunter says turning to his family and friends- Guys?

 Silence falls again in the room. Nobody is sure how to answer Dean until Jody takes control of the situation by saying:

-Alright, those of you that think Cas and Dean are a couple raise your hands?

Dean raises his hand but he is puzzled to notice that the only other hand up besides his own is Jack´s.

-What the fuck guys? How could you have not noticed that Cas and I were dating? How could you have not known for that matter, Cas?- Dean asks

-Well- Emma answers- To be fair, we thought you didn’t know, dad

-How couldn’t I have known?- Dean asks

-Three words- Claire responds- UST

-You have to recognize you are kind of emotional constipated, Dean-O- Donna continues

-Not to mention, we didn’t even know you liked guys, man- Sam concludes with a knowing tone, until he turns around and notices that nobody else is supporting his sentence- Why are you looking at me like that?

-Because, Moose brain, we all knew that my father was bi- Emma responds to Sam.

-What Emma said- Ben responds, getting nods of the remaining ducklings

-Emma, we talked about calling Sam names- Dean says, getting a mumble from Emma before turning to Sam- And you, Sammy, I have a serious question. How, in Chuck´s green Earth, did you thought I was straight?

-Wait, what? I… but… dad?... posturing… what?- Sam.ex stopped working.

-Dude, what did you think Lee and I did? Play marbles?

-How was I supposed to know?- Sam finally says

-We weren’t exactly subtle- Dean mumbles- Even dad knew

-What? And he was okay with that?- Sam explodes

-Well, no, not really, he basically gave me a water down version of “Don’t ask, don’t tell” but he learned to accept it, of course that was after Bobby shoot him with a rock of salt and they have a very large and loud “conversation”, but yeah. He hated Lee till the day he died though, but that may be just Lee, cause Bobby also hated him, something about me being too good for him.

-And you all knew?- Sam asks turning to the group

-Well, as Dean said, he wasn’t exactly subtle- Jody answers- Besides there were a lot of clues.

-Dr Sexy, for starters- Eileen says

-The messy wee situation with Fergus- Rowena continues

-The whole thing with Benny- Cas growls with jealousy

-Well, I…-Sam says deflating and sitting down- I don’t know how I didn’t notice Dean, but I just want to say that I love you and I accept you as you are and I am sorry if I ever seem unsupportive.

-I know Sammy, I love you too, now stop crying you big girl- Dean responds, hugging Sam

-Jerk- Sam lets out

-Bitch- Dean responds

 -As touching as this moment is for everyone- Claire starts- I think we kind of get out of the topic at hand.

-I agree- Krissy continues- Dean-emotionally constipated- Winchester was going to explain to us why did he thought he was dating Cas and since when.

-Shh you both, don’t rush him- Kaia chides them- You will scare him

-No, please, do rush- Patience interrupts- My dad wants me at home sometime this week.

-I don’t think they will take a week- Jack says confused

-No, you are right Jack, they may take longer if we don’t push them- Jesse responds him

-Alright kids, enough- Cas says

-Don’t tell me what to do- the cambion mumbles

 -Dean…-Cas starts- I am flattered that you would do this whole proposal as a sign of your love for me…

-You don’t have to say it, Cas- Dean interrupts- I understand, you don’t love me back

-Dean…

-I apologize for making things awkward between us    

-Dean…

-I am so stupid, how could you, a perfect pure angel, possibly love me, a worthless hunter with 2-cents to his name?

-DEAN!!-Cas says stopping the litany and closing the space between them- You are the most insufferable human that I ever had the pleasure to meet

-I know- Dean responds looking down. But Cas puts his hand in his cheek forcing him to look up

-How could you possibly think- Cas starts catching a stray tear in his palm- after everything, that I don’t love you?

-What?-Dean says confused.

-Dean, you are full of love, you are the most caring man on Earth, you are the most selfless loving human being that I have known and that I will ever know and I am honored that you love me. Dean, I love you.

For a moment time seem to have stopped, before Dean closes the little space that its between them with a kiss, which Cas responds eagerly.

 The kiss lasts almost an eternity and they only separate when they hear a cough behind them, remembering them that they have an audience.

-Alright, kiddos, remember there are little children present- Jody reminds them

-Yeah, boys, keep these PG rated- Donna says

-Sorry- Dean responds blushing taking Cas hand in his.

-Dean, I love you, and I am grateful that you love me back but I am still severely confuse, why did you think we were dating?-Cas says, still confused

-Because we are- Dean claims exasperated, making everyone groan

 -Alright- Patience interferes, proving she is the voice of reason- Dean, why don’t we start easy? Since when are you dating Cas?

-Since the Apocalypse- Dean claims

-Which one?- Ben asks, getting a punch from Claire.

-The first one- Dean says- Don’t you remember Cas? We even sleep together.

-You did what???-Sam asks screaming- When??

-It was when we separated for a while, Sam. Before Cas and I tried to trap Raphael, I took him to a brothel, he called him a “den of iniquity”

-I am sorry- Kaia interrupts- You took an Angel of the Lord to a brothel?

-Yeah, I was trying to get him laid- Dean says- Needless to say it was a bad idea, but afterwards we started talking one thing let to another and bam we were fucking and then dating.

Cas can feel the blush coloring his cheeks and everybody´s eyes on him.

-Dean, you said it was a rite of passage- he says at the lack of other words

-I also said I love you- Dean says petulantly- Besides, alright, lets say that time didn’t count, but I asked you to teach me angel mating rituals

-I thought you wanted to learn about angels.

-I helped you groom your wings, which you said was a very intimate act

-I thought you wanted to help!- Cas exclaims

-I did!- Dean exclaims- Alright, someone cover Jack´s ears

-On it!- Kaia says amused.

-We have fucked more times that I can count- Dean says

-Well, yeah, but I thought it was more like friends with benefits kind of situation

-Cas, buddy, my pal, you threw a gallon of holy water on Crowley after the Summer we don’t talk about

-In my defense, Crowley is very annoying- Cas responds

-You told Benny and I quote: “Touch him again, bloodsucker and I will detach your head of your body after I pumped you full of dead man blood”

-I didn’t know his intentions Dean

-We had a threesome Cas, more than one to be honest- Dean says

-Please for the love of all, stop talking- Sam says commiserating

-No, no, keep going- Claire says while filming the whole thing with his phone- Alex is going to hate missing this. Should have called in sick

-You have been filming this whole time?- Bobby John asks

-Of course, this is perfect blackmail

-Can I have a copy?- Emma, Jesse and Bobby John ask at the same time

-Of course, I will email you

-Children…-Jody says making them keep silence

-I mean, you also erase my mom and I memories- Ben tells Cas

-Dude- Bobby John says- will you ever let it go? Why do you always have to bring the subject up?

-Because I am tired that every time they start talking about exes they forget my mom.

-Let it go, Elsa- Emma says

-But that begs the question- Jesse asks- why did you went to Lisa´s if you were with Cas?

-Cas broke up with me- Dean says

-How could I have broken up with you?- Cas asks more confused than before

-You said you had things to do and it was better that I went back to my sweetheart, broke my heart right then and there after losing Sam

 -So I am confused- Kaia says- They didn’t know they were dating but they were dating or they weren’t dating but Dean- don’t do chick flicks- Winchester thought they were for some reason?

-I think they were dating and they are just bad at feelings?- Claire says

-I told you they were dating- Jack says, finally taking Kaia´s hands off- You just didn’t believe me. They have a profound bond, it is really not hard to miss, I knew since I was born

-I need a drink- Sam says finally

-I cant believe I agree with the Moose, but me too- Emma says

 -Wait, you are telling me that after everything that we did, everything we said, we still have a chance?- Cas says, eyes shining with tears.

-Babe, we are basically raising 10 and a half children together- Dean says- Nothing would make me happier than being your “official” boyfriend.

-No- Cas says surprising everyone, but before Dean can interrupt, he continues- You had a question you wanted to ask me, so ask me.

-Wait, for real?- Dean asks surprised

-Yes, Dean, please asked me again

-Wait a minute, guys, lets talk about this you cant get marry if you haven’t even started officially dating.

-Samuel, I am an Angel of the Lord, I can do whatever I want.

-Yes, Samuel- Ben says- Lets them get engaged.

-Didn’t you dislike Cas?- Patience asks

-I am sucker for a good and chaotic love story- Ben responds- So please continue.

-Ducklings, I take it from here- Dean says- Sam, interrupt us again and I will let Emma loose with a pair of scissors on your hair.

-Shutting up right now- Sam says, taking Eileen´s hand.

 -With that said, Cas, love of my life, my guardian angel, my best friend, we have been through a lot, we have had our fights over the years, big ones, we have survived terrible moments together, but we have preserved. We have a house, we are raising kids together, so here with them surrounding us, in the presence of our friends and of our family- Dean says, getting into one knee, showing Cas a ring- would you do me the happiest guy on Earth, Heaven and Hell and become my husband?

-Yes, Dean, of course, forever and ever- Cas responds with tears in his eyes, before kissing Dean, while their family cheers around them.

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Bonus scenes (I couldn’t resist)

 Bonus #1

-So you want to marry my brother?- Michael asks, towering over Dean.

-Yes, Michael, sir- Dean says gulping

-I don’t understand- Michael asks- Weren’t you already married?

-Not yet- Dean responds- So is that a yes?

-Well, I supposed you have my permission

-But you don’t have mine- Gabriel says appearing in thin air

-Gabriel- Dean jumps clutching his chest- weren’t you dead?

-Not yet kiddo- he responds eating a lollipop- Now, if you want to marry Cassie you have to beat me in a sword fight.

-Okay, why?-Dean asks confused

-Honestly, because I want to beat you- Gabriel responds

To this day, Gabriel still denies that Dean beat him, no matter what Michael claims

 Bonus #2

Alex, waking up after a 24-hour-shift at the hospital and watching the videos and audios Claire and the rest of his family sent her, calling Claire:

-I hate you- she tells her after she picks up- I will never miss another family dinner, now put me up to date, what did I miss?

 Bonus #3

-Sam, of course I knew Dean was dating- Garth tells Sam over the phone- It was pretty obvious, how didn’t you know? Anyways, who did you think helped Dean with the proposal? Now please, tell Claire to send me the video over. Bess and I are so sorry we missed it but Bess is ready to give birth anytime soon, and the story of how their godfather got engage has to be the first my kid hears.  

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