#i am kind of confussed

[its-elioo]

As someone who is long-time fan of Mlp EG and who has just finished watching TFP, your fic is true delight. I read it 5 times at least and it is still awesome. You perfectly matched girls with their autobots partners just as well as you did with decepticons as their evil counterpart. For example Twilight/Shockwave - both have high inteligence, but while one uses it for greater good and to help the others, the other abuses it to gain power and hurt the others; Fluttershy/Soundwave - even thought they are both animal lovers and quiet types, FS is just very shy girl while SW is calculating sadist; Rainbow/Starscream - Apart from being queer icons (If you can look at these two without the word gay constantly entering your mind, congrats, you´re legit cishet) they´re actually pretty similliar in function and personallity wise. They´re both eccentric, aroggant showoffs and are also fastest on their team. But it´s their differences that are making them great foils. RD is impaitent hothead, who jumps straight into action without the second thought, while SC is great schemer, who has his plans planed out. RD is literally element of loyalty, while SC is mostly loyal to himself and etc. I can´t wait to see all their interactions in the future. If you´re interested in some writting advice, there is one minor thing that can be fixed : your description of characters feelings and thought. You start explaining how and why they feel that way instead of giving readers benefit of the doubt. The best term I can think of is that you are describing a picture. Like you want us to see, hear and understand everything at once. It creates unnecessary sentences or whole paragraphs without which some emotional moments would have sounded better. For example if paragraph in Ch.2 with sentence "She was too stuborn." it would have sounded so much better. Or sentences like "She was too precious." are also kind of waste of space since they don´t tell anything new.It´s not worst type of description,but it can create a feeling that you don´t trust youre readers to read from emotions characters alone. Many new writers and comic artists are often doing this. It can be solved 2 ways : by improving their writing or start drawing comics. I´m sorry if I confussed you in some way. I tried my best to explain it, but english is not my primary language. If you don´t mind, I would recommend fics from @whatwooshkai to see what I am talking about ( it´s mostly TF shipping stuff, but man, the writting is so good that I can´t stop reading even if I wanted to). Overall great story and art, just writting needs a little improvment.

I want to finish this already long post with few questions:

1.What is group dynamic with eachother? I mean in and outside of their decided pairings. I can see Sideswipe and Rainbow´s relationship as chaos siblings and that Rainbow is definitely driving Ratchet insane, but what about the others? I´m courious to know.

2.Did you already started writting the next book? If not, do you have planned when you will start?

3.Do you consider draw this as a full time comic or at least draw some parts of it? Or drawing some strips of your incorrect quotes?It´s just that you´re artstyle is so pretty and redesigns of the autobots and girls are great. It´s shame to see so little of them.

4. Did you thought about getting your comics dubbed on youtube?

5. Do you draw ideas from the asks from your followers on Tambrlane or you take commissions only? Like if they had a idea for a comic/sketch and they post it to you, would you draw it? If not, could they draw it with your redesignes?

6. What gave you idea for this crossover? My best guess is that comic from Hasbro.

Holy- I never thought I would get such a long ask.

*rolls up sleeves and rubs hands*

Okay, let’s do this!

First, I want to thank you so much for the kind words, the fact that there are people who got really interested in my fic makes my heart flutter. <3

And I really love it when readers point out small details that I haven’t thought about that much while writing! Thank you a lot for the advice and recommendations, I really appreciate it! I will keep that in mind!

Now, to answer your questions:

1. You are absolutely correct about Sideswipe and Rainbow’s relationship, in my opinion, they will be the best chaos siblings (I am 100% sure that most of the members will go insane because of their pranks) I could write more detailed headcanons for them and the others too.

2. The next book is nearly finished, I will make sure to post it at the beginning of January.

3. I will drop more art soon, promise! Sorry for the lack of content, I’ve been pretty busy for the past few months. But now I’m finally free and I will certainly start drawing again! I also have several ideas in mind for some parts of the next book.

4. I don’t mind my comics being dubbed as long as I’m credited and they’ve asked for permission.

5. Again, if I’m credited and asked for permission, there will be no problem for other artists to draw my redesigns. I don’t usually take requests and it really depends on my free time and motivation, but if I really like the idea that has been suggested, I would (probably) draw it.

6. Good guess! But actually no. I was really into this crossover way before Hasbro decided to make a comic of it. I’ve been into a lot of fandoms and reading crossover fanfics basically became like a hobby to me. I got a lot of inspiration after I accidentally stumbled upon some pretty good written Tf/Mlp fics, but it took me a lot of time to finally get enough courage and start writing my own. I’m more than thankful for the support and love that I was given through the years! It really motivated me to keep on going!

[streets-in-paradise]

Waiting - Andy Barclay x Reader

Requested by Anon

" hey can you make a story about Andy Barclay getting jealous at someone because they’re flirting there S/O. Btw it can be fluff or whatever I am having you have that choice thank I love your content ❤️❤️❤️❤️"

Sure, anon! And thank you for your kindness <3

Warnings: No proofreading, Insecure Andy being reassured by his s/o in fluffy and flirty ways.

Summary: A hopeless time of watching him unsuccessfully date other persons in front of you preceded the beggining of your relationship with Andy and now you can't believe he is the one feeling jealous.

Tags: @losersclubisms

Too long you had watched in the shadow of his failures, waiting untill he would stop ignoring the fullness of the woods for a single tree. As a server in the restaurant were most of his disastrous dates took place you had a privileged spot to observe the regular downfalls, convinced that you have never meet anyone with such terrible luck for romance. What started as an empathy driven approach just trying to help him out quickly turned into something else and you found yourself trully Interested on him.

Andy was a sweet guy who just have been lonely for too long. Everytime one of his dates would leave him heartbroken you were there to pick up the pieces hoping he would catch your signs. Getting to a point where you could start dating required a lot of patience from you, virtue that you lost after the redhead fiasco leading to directly asking him out by yourself.

It took him a while to understand you actually wanted to be with him, since at first he was convinced you did it out of pity. His way of loving made you feel as if your relationship was the best thing happening in his life and he was constantly afraid of loosing you.

He was not the kind of man who would start a fight over jealousy, but you could tell whenever he would be swallowing those feelings pretending to be just fine.

The first time it happened you realized he was so not ready to deal with other people flirting with you. A silly confussion with a stranger at a bar ruined the whole moment for him. The actual episode wasn't even a big deal, since you politely declined and sneaked your hands on top of the back pocket of the pants of your silently angry boyfriend to send a passive agressive message making the stranger dissapear.

Andy felt your hands softly squeezing his butt and that at least managed to distract him a bit.

" Did you notice how shocked he was? That dude couldn't believe i'm with you. " He openly commented. " … Sometimes even I can't believe i'm with you. "

" After all I have been waiting for you? " You sweetly complained. " How many cute people did i see you with before you stopped drowning in self pity and noticed I wanted your attention all along? "

He didn't consider that before, probably because those dates had such terrible outcomes he couldn't imagine you caring for that.

" Did I make you jealous?" He asked while a soft shade of blush in his face made him look down for a brief instant. " Me?? How?"

" I saw you put your heart and soul into each one of those, trying so hard for things to work because you liked those persons. That amount of dedication had completely won me over even before we started dating. " You frankly admitted. " They may have been desperate to run away, but I was there watching and wanting so badly to be them. You didn't have an easy life, i could tell that, but you are a wonderfull man so sweet, thoughtfull and handsome. A bit weird, maybe, but still adorable. You wanted love and I was desperate for a shot to love you, but there was always someone else rejecting you that you cared more about. "

" I was a fool, i know. " He apologized, still in disbelief. " Let's say I was misguided by the advice of an old friend. "

" You were driving me insane and I was so jealous of your dates. I began to ask myself what else could I do to make you notice me. I almost changed my hair colour but a friend told me that going redhead would have been too much. "

The confession made him chuckle.

" I love you exactly as you are … and I'm feeling quite jealous."

Verbally expressing his feelings was hard for him, but he did it in the spirit of his surprise.

" You have no damn reason for it, because i'm going nowhere. " You reassured him, pulling him closer. " I'm here with you and there is no other one I could want to be with ríght now. "

He was a happy, awkward mess evidently affected by your words in all kinds of ways.

For so, you decided to carry on taking things a bit further.

" Once we get back to my place you are all mine." You whispered close to his ear. " I'm going to show you exactly how much I love you and how wild you drive me. "

The insidious thoughts temporally faded under such delightfull promise.

[vaicomcas]

I think a story where Jack brings back att the angels and most demons, and Empty let's them go cause they want to sleep, but takes Castiel's memories because they are still angry at Jack and Cas would be amazing.

Like Cas has memories somewhere before pulling Dean out of hell but everyone else around him remembers all that happened.

I wrote a really long ost about this fic idea byt tumblr ate it, so I am going to try again, I am sorry if I miss any details this time around.

There is an old post, about Naomi and Cas, I don't I will be able to find, but one person in the tags said, (paraphrasing) 'It would be intresting and kind of hillarious if only Castiel was mindwiped after his rebellions or disobidience and others rememberd.'

Cas loosing his memories after his lastest visit of the Empty would be as you said very messy.

Imagin, Jack goes to empty, after getting Chuck's powers, and Cas is not happy with the situtation but he also know they don't have much time, the Shadow is angry about everything. So Castiel helps Jack make a deal with the Shadow, to get most of the angels and hamdfull of Demons, who would actually help rather than messing them up evern more (Like Crowely, Rowena, Meg, etc), they deal with the rest and seasl the void so that the shadow is never disturbed again.

But before the leave, The Shadow takes Castiel's memories, or something happens, but Castiel does forget everything that happened.

So, as he comes back the last thing he remembers is planning a seige to hell, to pull out Dean.

And everything is a mess, right?

Hell is cahos, Deamons don't know who to obey, Rowena and Crowely are at eachothers throats.

Heaven is worse, Angels are hostile towards Jack, he is Lucifer's nephilim, raised by the Winchesters, he took Godhood from their father. They don't know if they want should trust him. Even Cas himself.

It doesn't long for everyone to realise something is very wrong with Cas, either. Like Cas then thought Balthzar is dead, and now when Cas doesn't remember, Batlh who is still angry doesn't know how to tell his brother, who is so happy to see him, he was the one to kill Balth. Similar interactions goes for Anna, for Samandrieal, for Racheal, and others.

Like all the angels are angry at Cas, but blowing up gets only confussion from him. And like he doesn't want to belive what they are telling him, because its too much and its disarterous for him.

Jack comes to realise, he doesnt know shit about Castiel or the angels or heaven and hell. He has no idea what to do and how to help

Like Cas is the one being who could have conneted all the frayed edges of Heaven and Hell, but he can't do that.

Its immposible to write this concept in way that would do justice to everyone, but it has a lot that can be explored

Wow, that really is a spectacular mess, isn't it? (in a good way) It is super interesting, but I can't even get started on how one would try to resolve it to satisfaction.

So then I started to blow it up even more:

In Hell, not only Rowena and Crowley would have unresolved issues, but Meg and Crowley too. And Crowley surely had issues with all the remaining demons, who first of all chose Lucifer over him, then also became loyal to his abusive mother while they were never truly loyal to him. I have no choice but to conclude that he would become an outcast of Hell in this situation (unlike almost everybody except one, I don't buy "redemption" of Rowena for suddenly become a loving mother after Crowley died).

Now onto Cas. I really hope that when Cas was in the Empty making the deal with Shadow he didn't let Naomi out, or the archangels. Because that would make Heaven as fucked up as before.

But do the angels who get out remember all of that past oppression? Do they, now free of Chuck's (the show's) narrative and Naomi's mind control, begin to think for themselves? Do they put the blame in the right places, and not just make Castiel the scapegoat of their enormous misfortune like the show made them do?

Assuming (probably too optimistically, but I can't bear the alternative) that this is the case, Castiel would still be under so much distress, as you described, hearing all the horrors, not wanting to believe, not remembering any of it, yet couldn't not believe.

Then I really don't want him to recover his memory; because it would just be so devastating, especially, also, if he remembered Jack, and realized that his son had learned about all of his "crimes", and understandably became disturbed, if not traumatized by that knowledge.

Whew, knives in the heart at every turn in this story, isn't it?

So then I can only come to one conclusion. Castiel, heartbroken, not knowing who he was anymore, banishes himself from heaven, meeting Crowley who was on the run as an outcast from Hell. Castiel may initially distrust a demon, but he thought himself in no position to judge anyone anymore; while Crowley remembered his fondness for his old friend, and welcomed the clean-slate they were given. Castiel and Crowley found the only source of solace in each other in this new world that was no longer theirs.

What happened to Jack through all this? I have no idea LOL.

Thanks for elaborating on this idea! You blew something up and I followed the ejecta in one direction, but there are a lot more ways to go.

[alcoris-shiz]

One Hell Of A Love (part 1)

One Hell Of A Love (part 1) Description: (The story was written right after finishing Season 1, so of course due to not following the full storyline of the show, apologies future readers!) Now that Sir Pentious makes it to Heaven, he meets a cute little nonbinary angel who shows him around. Important note: I write fanfiction like this when I get drunk for fun. I kinda go on long drawing/writing sprees and so I figured I would let y'all darlings have some fun with me being an idiot. ⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ Part 1 Part 2 ｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ ~ Master List~ ⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆

 Sir Pentious’s POV

I glanced around my ssurroundings and gave a ssmall wave, the girl in front of me was grey-toned and had wings. She looked like Vaggie in a way! I looked over mysself and realized I wass sstill a ssnake. Good! I don’t want Cherry to be disappointed when we ssee each other again.

“Welcome to heaven! Oh my, you must be from that awful extermination! But I knew you guys could redeem yourselves! See Sera! I knew it!” the younger girl ssaid jumping up and down excitedly.

“Ssso thiss iss what it’ss like in heaven?” I asked glancing around. “I am in heaven, right?” 

“Yes yes, of course! I have a friend who can show you around! Oh I can’t wait! Maybe they’ll let you have the spare room until we can get you a place!” asss confussed asss I am, I guesss I have no choice but to accept their kind offer.

A knock was heard on the door as the young girl quickly texted on her phone. A ssigh was heard from Ssera, “Come in Y/N!”

“Oh and, I’m Sera as you heard, I’m a Seraphine of course and this is my younger sister.” Sera said as she motioned to the excitable girl.

A door was heard swinging open behind us but I glanced at the excited girl. “I’m Emily! Oh oh! But I do like nicknames!” 

I turned to watch her run to the door and jump on ssomeone. They weren’t very tall and had X (A/N: I’mma use this for leaving colors of your choice) skin and X eyes. Your usual angel look from the sseemss of it. But they were beautiful. I am loyal though! I will be waiting until I ssee Cherry Bomb again!

They glanced up at me and their cheeks went red. “Woah.. you’re pretty! I mean, you look cool. I mean pretty cool uhh. Hey, I’m Y/N!”

Y/N’s POV

Oh wow was he pretty. I’ve never seen someone like him here. Everyone looked very much the same, but he was gorgeous and different!

“Hello, I am Ssir Pentiouss! You are alsso very pretty!” his face went red and he slithered closer to myself. 

“Em, is this really one of the souls from Hell? That’s so amazing! What’s it like there?” Sir Pentious looked around me and smiled. “I have sso many sstories!” Emily came and joined me as we looked at Sir Pentious in awe.

“How about I talk to him about the rules we have and then you show him where he will be staying.”

I paused, oh yeah I was gonna house him. I’ve had temporary roommates staying while I waited for my sister to return. But I feel we’re gonna be good friends and maybe temporary roommates won’t be needed anymore.

 We all sat around the table as we watched Sera think. 

“We have many souls here who will not be thrilled about this turn of events. I have no problem with it, though it is complicated. You, Sir Pentious, do have a place here in heaven now. You will be staying in Y/N’s sister's old bedroom, we have not seen her in many years so do not fear that you will be taking her space. Y/N likes decorating after all and likes for it to meet their guest's standards and style.” I smiled at Sir Pentious, softly placed my hand on his arm, and glanced up at him, who smiled back.

“Though, we have rules. Families are common here in heaven. But due to the circumstances of where you have come from. No children. If you decide to have children, you must marry beforehand. Adoption is an exception to the marriage rule. You will not return to Hell for anything, I’m very sorry. But we keep those two very separate. We have few who go between worlds. There will be no speak of the exterminations either, it will scare our people. You must also know that you must stay on the down low, no speaking of where you are from. You are just a human soul who joined us. For now, that will be it, but remember that we are very strict in our rules.”

Sir Pentious saluted Sera and fell over, “Yes M’am!”

I led him up the steps to my townhouse and handed him a key to the apartment, “If you would like, I can help you decorate the room. It had of course belonged to my sister V, but she hadn’t been home in years. It makes me feel better because she was forever changing the style of the room, so I feel that she would’ve loved it this way.”

Sir Pentious looked at me with almost a frown, “Do you, know what happened? If not! I don’t mean to budge, it’s your life or something after!” I giggled. “No you’re okay, I wanna make you comfortable!” I paused and he put his hand on my shoulder. “I don’t know where she went. She left to work one day, I don’t know what she did for work, I know she worked with-... it doesn’t matter. She never came home and if I know her like I do, it’s because she helped someone.” I smiled at Sir Pentious and hugged him. “It’ll be okay.” Sir Pentious whispered and hugged me after a moment.

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A/N: So yeah, this will have reader pregnancy, and smut, and be quick-paced and messy. But I enjoy my drunk stories, so I hope you do too lol

897-word count I know it's not much for a first chapter but I promise there is so much more and other ships as well 🩷 Also so sorry, this was my first post on here I think ever for tumblr. But I needed a change in scenery.

[it-begins-with-rain]

Hello lovely,

I have a question for you about American (work)culture.

What the fuck are sick days and how can you run out of them? How manny days do you get? What if your out of days and still sick? What happens when you don't use them all up? Do you need a doctors note? Or can you use them to go on a litlle vacation?

That was more then one question, but i'm very confusse about the concept. You are the only American I know, so you get my questions ;)

I'm going to post this openly, just to see if others can help answer. I'm a contract worker (technically part-time at one job, but they treat us as contractors), so I actually don't get any sick time at all, ever. That's something that only salary workers- to my knowledge- can have. So most of my answer is just what I'm aware the policies are at places I have worked for those on staff.

Because contract workers don't get paid if they don't work, you end up having a lot of very sick people working when they shouldn't. During COVID the policy at work was *literally* "If we like you and you get COVID, you'll still be paid for what you would have worked. Don't tell anyone else about this policy because if we don't like them, we don't want them thinking they'll get paid." (three of us were on the 'we like you' list, and it was literally just who the department director liked, not based on quality of work or what you do).

I do know that where I work, the people on staff don't get specifically sick-days, they get "paid time off", which in other companies is usually a wholly separate thing (but where I am, they're lumped together). In other places it's usually like, if you work overtime and they don't want to pay you for that, they turn those hours into extra time you can take off. So if you work 3 hours overtime, you can leave 3 hours early another day.

Typically if you run out of sick days, I think you're just SOL (shit out of luck), unless your company has a separate thing you can kind of apply for. A lot of companies straight up don't care, and after a certain amount of time, they'll fire you. That happens a lot where I live.

**I should say at some point, I work in a state that is ranked as one of the most employee-hostile in the country. The laws will be different state to state.**

Some require doctor's notes if you use sick days, some don't.

If you don't use sick days or paid time off by the end of the year, some places let you roll them into the next year. Other places will figure out what your average daily pay is and give you that as a "bonus" for not using your sick/leave time. Sometimes you can roll it over up to a certain number of days (like, you get 6 sick days a year, maximum of 12 if you aren't sick and those days keep collecting year to year).

My father was in the military for 20 years and only took sick days if he absolutely could not function (I don't remember him taking them more than like one the day of a surgery, he was even back at work the next day). That was because the military rolled over sick days year after year, no expiration or maximum. So when he left the military, we moved away, and he was still paid as a full-time soldier for 4 months, he'd built up so much sick time.

Again, I work in one of the absolute worst states it is possible to work in. Someone literally died at an Amazon facility and the governor had people from the labor board go and help the people at Amazon fill out the reports to file so they wouldn't be penalized.

I work in a state that literally prioritizes companies over dead employees.

**I should also say that rules around sick days and such- if there is a Union protecting an employee, that kind of stuff will be included in the contract, so it isn't even necessarily a matter of state law at that point, it's a matter of what the Union has secured for people.

If anyone has anything to add, go for it!

[nutzo0001]

rant

- ) or that feeling, "living in the future" when y2k came, it was for people, like dream, fascination - hope: - year 2000 is at the door, world looks bright, internet is "ough" to "solve" all our problems, maybe even "to topple the game (of rich bastards) down"... -- feeling like this - if you got me (this sentiment, dream of utopia, unity, mutual understanding "coz of net" - oh man, if they knew...) - which reminds me of thread [sic] "MLP and New Sincerity" - about being sincere, "you", - all that *sweet* (or not) jazz...

addendum:

#0 punks and emos of 2000s-2010s: basically "When we were young" fest, - safe for fact it was then "current thing": pic-rel + all those rock, punk, emo, - things playing on radio --- a psyop??? + 80s (music, not aesthetics) nostalgia occuring around that time... : music-rel (yeah, pretty much this playlist is "getting rich" from nostalgia - go, figure :/)

#1 youtube campaign "broadcoast yourself" - dawg man, i am so confussed how we could "get bought" over this - and believe come corporation! it sounds so - ironic; looking at it from lens of someone, living in *these* times "after fad"... - really believing(?) that commonmen can, thru sheer "influence" thru net, shape world... (what a joke!!!) [were we sold on *this feeling"!???]

#1b general naiivity over "corporations allowing us all this" - how was that not suspicious!! i wonder... (letting our guard and awareness so low) ~ but then, werent we (born 1999-and so; living with siblings (sister), of 8 year difference...)

#1.5 campaign of web providers (geocities, goDaddy or such), *basically* saying "be you"/"promote yourself"

(if you get me, that is; i am - getting nostalgic, over something i very fogly remember - in fact, now i get - why those "boomers" over here are getting nostalgic over living in socialism (when, they were kids... - so was i...)

--- WAS this all^ psy-op - contrarian messages, just "selling feeling", scham, make-believe dreams?

or is it that *there somewhere*, it was "all taken away from us" - well, as i see, that is very little probability, and it was just tactic to "get everyone on net" - those fxxx bastards!! (#me, being naiive...)

On Apathy: Man. I don't want to shit on the current generation too much because it's been done to death, but you're gonna be hard-pressed to find a late zoomer/Gen-A who can use a hammer or any other tool properly. It's like there's no awareness of the world around them. We're talking missing 9/10 of the time with a hammer. Honestly, I think they're just tired of it all and don't care to learn anymore. I can't blame them. It feels like the whole world is falling apart, but never enough to bring an end to the stress that comes from it. Perhaps it's a demoralization sort of thing. A "_______ is going to happen so it won't matter anyway." sort of situation. Everyone is just tired and doesn't have the energy to care.

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end: - i was played on. -- world of broken promises pre-2001~2008... --- "you need to be unique to stand out", so, next step in my mind was > "no way to be normie" >> i never knew what *they* (who?) meant - does computers screw us all in some way? or was is that we made ourselves... we build them... then, we dont know ourselves > you dont know things until it is too late? or > was it "The Plan"? use people as puppets > "NPC Naysayers"? - to make all sorts of crazy laws? power-trip? I dont want to - but, do i HAVE TO be bad, in any sense? -- Last time i had any confidence was in 2010-2015... but it was nothing much, it was just fuzzy feeling. there were bad things, yet, i felt fine... so, do i hate myself now? because - why? am i afraid to lose that? then, what happened!? is it some kind of trauma - or simply, disability to adapt? maybe thats why --- i miss 2008-2013 - times when i could be naiive. myself. no pretend, even if i wanted to... is it only now that i am afraid? or am i going insane and want to blame others for "making problems to sell cure"? - maybe i never was teenager, so with strict and boomers-like parents, it is like i have to make my dreams now - if i only wanted to - if i wasnt so emberassed... -- "teen-ages in stasis"? > peter pan syndrome? --- i dont want to live in my head - but what to do - - what i even want?? - am i afraid of success, of being "too strong", "bad" to others? there are like milion things...

AM I NORMAL?: could be, maybe i am just afraid to be

The commercial exploitation of the web has become a growing facet of the world economy, particularly in the last several years. In June 1999 NUA Internet Surveys estimated that 179 million people are connected to the Internet worldwide. A recent study by the University of Texas sponsored by Cisco Systems estimated that the "Internet Economy" generated $300 billion in revenue in the United States alone.

Conrad Johnson and Brian Donnelly, “A BRIEF HISTORY OF THE WORLD WIDE WEB AND THE INTERNET “, Part 6, Columbia.edu, (Oct 24, 2003).

[jamietarttownsmyheart]

you know grow up wstching jSuds aand love Ted lasso and every week I'm like i think i crack the case like i do guess correctly most thing in the sow or annoy my friends with a question or theory or concern and they answet my questions and do my theories so I'm like huh the most interesting is Colin and Jamie cause in season 1 Colin Jamie and Isaac were besties and bullied Nate and like Colin legits defends Jamie and tries to get him away from Roy and isaac but then season 2 Colin's annoyed aboit the worm thing of course not so much and colin was ready to stand up and fight Jamie's dad but it was Beard who beat him to it then the total football episode Colin was seriously mad at Jamie they quite of had a fight for real and now episode 9 so i'm just like confussed cause colin has a boyfriend hell be back but they dont really like share about it so im like are they gonna break up are they setting up colinjamie i am delusional delulu all the time but what was Jason aiming at also Jamie really grow up his not interested in Keeley so I'm like jSuds i know you but i cant crack that part of me thinks probably michael is just back to kiss colin but part of me is like so lame you didn't give me their backstorys like pretty sure it has a meaning right but im just like jsud im on your walls lets talk like for real if you show someone ColinJamie interactions they will think they are canon

i love that you find so much joy in guessing the outcomes and plots of the show! its a really cool way to engage with the content!

I'm like huh the most interesting is Colin and Jamie cause in season 1 Colin Jamie and Isaac were besties and bullied Nate and like Colin legits defends Jamie and tries to get him away from Roy and isaac but then season 2 Colin's annoyed aboit the worm thing of course not so much and colin was ready to stand up and fight Jamie's dad but it was Beard who beat him to it then the total football episode Colin was seriously mad at Jamie they quite of had a fight for real and now episode 9 so i'm just like confussed cause colin has a boyfriend hell be back but they dont really like share about it so im like are they gonna break up are they setting up colinjamie i am delusional delulu all the time but what was Jason aiming at

oh see the thing is, i really don't think they'll make colinjamie canon, they won't even let jamie come out and say he's bi. i think that since this is a show built on themes like, kindness and forgiveness, and not on relationships, we won't see that kind of stuff coming from the team.

we're getting hints of roykeeley yes, but i do think that is The Relationship™ of the show, along with Nate and Jade in this season. I have this feeling that the other ships, such as Tedbecca will be left open-ended or resolved last second. Not really a focus here. Colin has Michael (I'm assuming, since a previous anon told me Billy Harris said Michael will be back) and I'm happy that there is representation, but it seems more like his presence was a part of Colin's story, rather than a character on his own. What I'm trying to say is, he seems more like a part of the plot then someone the plot is happening to, if that makes sense? So I don't think they're setting up for colinjamie (though I would not be complaining if they did lol) but you're right, there are certainly a lot of interactions that support the ship.

also Jamie really grow up his not interested in Keeley so I'm like jSuds i know you but i cant crack that part of me thinks probably michael is just back to kiss colin but part of me is like so lame you didn't give me their backstorys like pretty sure it has a meaning right but im just like jsud im on your walls lets talk like for real if you show someone ColinJamie interactions they will think they are canon

right so, do i think Jamie loves Keleey? Yes. Do i think he's interested in her? No, I think he thinks that it's over, and is glad to love Keeley as a friend. So I agree, with the way the show is going I do think there is love there--now what type is up in the air--but is he looking to date her? I think he's closed that chapter of his life.

*have to say real quick, i don't mind the ship, i think they were really cute and there was genuine affection there*

but yes, like i said, michael seems kind of flat, character wise, as in the purpose was to give colin a boyfriend, not to establish michael as a character. perhaps it is a meta way of exploring colin's relationships-his arc is tied in with the team, and who michael was to him is hidden from them for so long. i think its entirely possible michael was a frequent hook up and it is entirely possible he is a boyfriend! i would like to know more about his character.

and yes. colinjamie is canon to *me*

[selitoxicmoon]

VENT ART #2

Kinda pretty done without spelling a word about it... i know that you will understand this, I just have the need to make you know about this.

My astrologist was right in something, this 20th year is my year of hard changes around. I gotta stop or I will collapse, what's wrong? Too mamy things, I will go one per one, this might take long:

- I really wanna keep doing my Partytober list I swear, I just need time. I don't wanna take my art as a job anymore, rather than just being hobbyist and practice about it to be better and improve my skills, with it, I wanna expand my knowledge and learn other medium like 3D, sculpture and animation.

- I'm healthy not ok, I can't do my good healthcare because I've got no control on myself and my actions, with that being said, my anxiety is the cause of my unstability and pressure into art or create content making it forget about myself and what I need.

- I'm recently in a status which I will move for the first time into another house once I get my driving license. YES I'm in driving lessons too, because my mother wants a house in the middle of the forest/mountain away of the city, so cuz of that, I need a car.

- My burnout is the reason I feel obligated to do these, not because you pressure me which I thank and appreciate you all because of that, it's because I self-demand it or I would feel useless and unproductive. I have many wips, many plannings, many stuff to do like the comics, commissions too, but... i feel so much pressure, a pressure that it's just me!

- Drawings... will come up time to time, I can't breathe, I honestly can't breathe, specially because of high school feeling again I am not enough, I'm not giving that much I have to bring.

- As last thing, my emotions and feelings are uncontrollable that I just get lost and experiment paranoia and confussion. I get mad too fast, I cry when I don't want to, I laugh when it's not even the right moment. So emotional unstability, what a new, I have to change to good and control myself, I have never been able to control my emotions at all, so now is the chance.

Once again, thanks for reading, and wish y'all the best of the best. Love y'all, you're being so supportive and kind with me, I love your memes, your comments, everything, every comment makes me smile, brings me satisfaction. Which thanks so much for ur support 💚

[crazykokoapod]

there's gonna be lots of text... -_-

Deep Down Drowing

So this one was kind of a vent, I did it very hurried but I liked the way it turned out!

I got inspired with two musics, both with a vibe for what I was feeling.

Well, yesterday I talked with a person that I don't like but yet I did because I thought it was ok to say hi. Well, they were horrible and ignored my obvious yells of help through those messages. And it was well until i said one thing and they were like "oh it's just the government", "stop exagerating, you're doing fine", while I was angry, scared and confused about being alive in general.

and damn, when I found out that RM released a new album and listen to this song, it was the first time that it felt right for me to be upset about everything, to be upset with him, to be feeling okay with not inviting him to my bday party.

And I imediately went to do something about that feeling, so I drew. I drew my fear, my will, my nightmare.

I was (and still am) struggling with many personal things, them being related to other people or not, it's been hard as hell. But I'm taking small steps, can't risk falling down the stairs.

^^^^ this one was the one that made me feel like it was okay to feel like that, sad and weak, and it was what told me that it was okay to feel that way.

now the next one was the one that awakened the feelings, it was what told me "hey, you're still that miserable and sad human that you were when born." and it was like it was saying that I would never be able to run from those feelings.

Hurt, guilt, confussion, pain, annoyed, jealous, angry. those were only a few that I remember feeling, and I've been hiding them, masking them, for so long that they almost bursted.

I felt... like I was only a small grain of sand in the middle of the desert. I was part of a whole, but useless alone.

it made me think that, maybe I don't care, and that I should talk with someone about it. that I can't bottle them up for too long. Because one day, the jar will break and it will spill.

it... gave me hope, to be honest. it made me think that maybe, just maybe, I cared about my life, even if it was for a fraction of seconds.

I guess that was it, it sure was a long text but it was worth it. And thanks for reading all of this, if you liked it you can leave a like, maybe reblog too. I'm not demanding anything, but hoping I've been heard by someone.

[who-ever-said-i-was-nice]

Hi! I like your writing so much 🥰🥰🥰. How incredible they are! So, I have a resquest about how Napoleon, Mozart, Leo, Comte,Vincent, Will ( sorry if it is too much) react to a MC who is taller than them 😂😂😂 ( like her height is 185cm) and how they fall in love with her. Thank you so much ☺️☺️☺️

Ah girl. I'm sorry for taking so damn long. I am buried under so much work, but now I have a few minutes to spare so I decided to finish this for you. I hope you enjoy and It was worth your wait. Love you and thanks again.! Here is the part 2!

Napoleon

    Napoleon was strolling around the mansion one evening. It had been a surprisingly good day. He want out with Isaac and taught the children, he sparred with Jean. It was fulfilling. He walked passed the Door, but when he got to the end of the corridor he heard something. He turned around and hurried back, only to find..nothing. He looked both ways and was ready to dismiss it, but then he heard a small sniffle come from behind an open door a little down the hall. He opened it to reveal a very beautiful girl. And she was so tall, which only added to her beauty.He, Napoleon, The nightmare of Europe, The emperor of France, felt like the wind had been knocked out of his lungs. He quickly recomposed himself and glanced back to the woman who looked about ready to cry. He closed the door and took her hand. "Why are you hiding behind a door? Everything's alright you don't need to hide. And - he paused a little - please don't cry nunuche. He smiled at the woman and extended a hand.She took it without much hesitation. "Can I have your name?" he questioned, looking slightly up to gaze into her E/C colored eyes. " Y/n" she responded rather timidly and Napoleon felt his heart flutter.                                                                                                                                           -------------------Time skip to two weeks in-----------------     

       Napoleon still felt an odd stirring feeling whenever Y/n was around. Fortunately he had now realized why. He had fallen in love with her. He wanted to tell her, he really did, but he couldn't figure out how. One cold winter night he plucked up the courage to tell you, which was a lot harder then he would have thought. He walked out into the garden looking for a very specific flower. Finally he found it. An Algerian Iris.

He picked it with careful hands and hurried to Y/n's room. He got there and swallowed hard before knocking on her door. Y/n opened it and stared down at the man. He cleared his throat. " Y/n, I know I haven't known you for too long, but I can't suppress these feeling anymore. Over the past month you have always been there for me. We laughed together, shared memories together and even made new ones. Your smile always lights up the world and no matter what happens I want you to remember, I love you." He smiled up at Y/n. Tears of happiness streamed down her face. He offered her the tiny flower. She held it with such gentleness, as if it could shatter at any moment. She then embraced her lover as she sobbed. Napoleon hugged her back, his face buried in her neck. He urged her to lean down a bit and he kissed her. She kissed back smiling into it.

Mozart

    Mozart sat alone in his room. A thousand thoughts swirling in his mind, as he tried so desperately to perfect his new masterpiece. His skilled hands glided over the keys gracefully. Suddenly he was pulled out of his thoughts by the loud noises coming from the dining room. He got up. Annoyed at all of the residents for ruining his concentration. He walks out of the room in a hurry.  When he makes it there, he turns the corner ready to throw an insult at them, however the words die in his throat as his eyes land on the tall figure standing in the middle of the room.  He's baffled at how tall that woman was. He quickly composed himself and walked over to her. The closer he got, the more he noticed about her. The way her eyes sparkled as she talked to the residents, how she would bring her hand up to her mouth when she laughed, the sway of her hair, the way she shifted her way fro one long leg to the other. But most importantly, he noticed her eyes dart around a little when looking down, as if she was afraid of something. Mozart, however could not put his finger on it. He was soon spotted by the infamous flirt, Arthur. " Mozart! Our loved composer. Come over here don't be shy." he flashed his boyish grin and Mozart made a small noise of irritation, but cam up to her. " Hello, I am Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, composer" He looked up to find her eyes shining with excitement. "Hello! I'm Y/n. It's a pleasure to meat you! I love your music and..." She just kept going, rambling about how amazing he and his music was. Mozart will never admit it, but it warmed his frozen heart. As he watched her talk all he could think about was: ' You innocent, little lamb. Where you the one I was missing? I didn't even know I was missing something till now. Someday, somehow I will make you mine'          

                   -------------------Time skip to two weeks in----------------- 

        Mozart was playing the piano, channeling all his anger into it. He missed a note and jumped up immediately. He was angry and sad, but worst of all he felt betrayed. He banged his fists against the wall as tears streamed down his face. He didn't want to cry. He fought with all his might. but the river just kept flowing. He could not have her, he could not. That was the truth. He heard a small knock on the door. He yelled an angry 'go away', but the door opened anyway. In stepped Y/n. When she spotted him, her eyebrows furrowed in confusion and worry. She hurried over to his side and placed a delicate hand on his back. Mozart tried to trow a sarcastic comment her way, or at least push her or get her away from him, but he was rooted to the spot, crying his eyes out in front of this sweet, little lamb. " Wolf? What happened? Why do you cry?" her voice was cracking with worry and fear. Mozart lifted his head from the wall, but did not meat her eye. Instead he starred at the ceiling and spoke in and unusually quite voice. " That man...downtown. He had his arm around you....I didn't know you had a lover." He finally looked at her, only to find an expression of shock on her face. " You mean the man that walked up behind me, put his arm around me and attempted to flirt, only to get punched by Jean?" Now it was his turn to be surprised. However he could tell she spoke the truth. Had he watched a little longer he would have seen it all happen, but he was consumed by his emotions and as his anger turned to a forte, he could not look anymore.      Everything slowed down. It was a peculiar feeling. It seem like all noise had been muffled and all the thing and events faded. She smiled. A soft, sweet smile. She reached up and gently whipped his tears. She found his jealousy a bit childish, but she knew that she loved him and she would have broken down too. She understood and so she could accept. Mozart's eyes softened as he gazed into her smiling eyes and basked in her tender touch. They both moved at the same time and met in the middle. It was a sweet and gentle kiss filled with love.

Leo

      Leonardo da Vinci. The renaissance mastermind.That is what people called him, or so he had been informed by Sebastian. He always thought long and hard about that. He had invented and created a lot of things, yes, but he was not always certain he deserved that title. A nagging fear always crept up on him. Was he really that special? Was he worth it at all. After all, he faked his death. He lied to all those who adore him now. He did not deserve anything in his mind. And even if he did, he could not keep it forever. Time kills everything he loves. The people he cared for turned to dust in his hand and the hand on the clock just kept ticking. On and on and on. For eternity. He shivered and set the pocket-watch he had been fixing down. He needed some air. And a cigarillo. As he wandered the corridors he heard a bang coming from the direction of the magical door. Curious, he walked towards it only to find a simply ethereal woman standing and yanking at the doorknob. He walked up to her. " Can I help you Cara mia?" She spun around with a glare on her face looking ready to fight, but she relaxed when she saw that the man standing in front of her was not a threat.

                  -------------------Time skip to two weeks in-----------------            

       Over the course of  the week, Leo found himself enjoying her company more and more. The truth was, that he had caught feeling for her. She had beautiful h/l h/c hair and e/c eyes that sparkled every time she talked about something she liked. Not to mention, she was tall. Really tall. Taller then him actually. And he loved that. He thought it was the most beautiful thing in the world. Whenever she wore her 21st century pants or skirts you could see her lovely long legs. However he tried to push these things away. He could not harbor feeling for a woman he knew he was going to loose. He could not control or tolerate the ace in his heart every time she would pass him by, or help him with something. Unfortunately, he knew that if he gave in he would hurt a thousand times more.     It was 12 o'clock at night and he could not fall asleep. Well not that he was trying to hard. He got up and decided to walk around the mansion. As he passed Mozart's door he heart Y/n's small sobs. He stopped dead in his tracks and listened. He couldn't hear what she was saying, but he caught a few words. ".. Can't have him......doesn't love me....I'm too tall" Those words where like an electric shock to him. He could make out Mozart comforting you and another voice that he believed was Jean, but he couldn't concentrate. It felt as if the whole world caved in on him. He was selfish. He had chosen his comfort over your and now this was the price he had to pay. He should have known. The bill comes due. Always! He pulled himself together the best he could and knocked on the door. Everything went silent. Mozart opened the door, looking even more pale then usual. He was about to shut the door in his face when Y/n soft voice rang out. "Don't, it's alright. I will talk to him" Jean looked ready to protest, but he let her go anyway. The stood facing each other in the hall. Leo looking slightly up to meat her teary eyes. He reached up and wiped her face. He met her gaze once again and whispered: "I'm so sorry." He pulled her in and kissed her with everything he had. Pouring all the hurt, denial, pain and love he felt. She kissed back with just as much passion. Finally he had to pull away for air. He looked back at her again." Don't ever say, you are too tall, mia bella"

As you can see, it got really long. Idk if this is what you had in mind, but yeah. I will do the other half and maybe other residents too, because this was really fun. Once again thank you for your patience and have an amazing day/night.tags: @nad-zeta @dazaiswindow @blu-tigerr @jeanstan @ichigoamamiya @shookspearewrites @chaotic-coyote I ummm taggd you guys here, idk if you want me to tag you again next time or you want me to stop, ummmm tell me i don't really know how this works so if this is not how I'm supposed to do it, tell me. I appreciate it😅

[localspaceangel]

(Whatup, sorry again for not saying anything, but i just wanted to quickly vent about something, if you dont mind ;-p )

Hhh man i kinda hate when theres a story where one character is acting really kind and friendly to another character but its reaviled at the end that it was manipulation... bc like, it makes me feel very conflicted about said character, especially when the stuff they said seemed so honest!! :'-(

[fightzclub]

My ntltc crewneck has shrunk to the size of a child’s crewneck this is weird for 2 reasons

1. I’ve never had an iteam or clothing srink in the wash / dyer

2. My family only uses cold water to wash things

@ ariana what is this ?

[mattycashyx]

To much - Ben Chilwell

words: 1065

A few weeks ago Ben posted a picture of me and him kissing together on instagram, to show everyone that we were in a relationship.

At the beginning everyone was really nice, I was glad and relieved that his fans had excepted me but that didn't last long. It began all innocent by some of them saying that I was fat or wasn't pretty and that Ben could do better.

But more and more people begun saying those things under every thing i posted. The only thing under all my instagram posts where hate of his fans saying all these nasty things about me. At some point some of them even started sending dm's with deadthreaths, that they wished I was dead or never existed.

Ben warned me that not everyone was gone be nice to me and some of his fans would hate on me. But I never expected to be it this hard and I never thought that some one could be this mean.

Everthing i posted was something that they could hate on, then it was my face that I should wore more make up, or then it was my body that I wasn't skinny enough or I was not pretty enough for Ben. There was always something that wasn't good enough for them, if you get so much hate you start to believe it yourself.

How was I ever good enough for Ben, I wasn't some kind of model I was just a random girl from a little town nothing more. He deserves way better. So thats when I couldn't handle it anymore, they where right.

ꕥ

You were packing your suitcase you tried to pack as much as you could, but it was to much to take with you all at ones so you had to come back later.

You lived with Ben in his appartment, 2 years ago you moved in with him, you couldn't wait to move in with your boyfriend. Ben was the best thing that ever happened to you.

Ben was training right now so you could leave without any trouble. Ben had noticed that you were more distand lately but he thought that you were stressed out of work.

His training was over so he came back home only to find out that is girlfriend wasn't home, all here clothes were gone he was confussed but thats when he found a note on the kitchen counter.

Dear Ben,

You were the best boyfriend I ever had and I couldn't wish for anything better. It's not your fould but it's me, I can't handle the hate it's to much for me and you deserve way better. You deserve some one who can handle your fame and who isn't so insecure about them selfs. But i break up with you.

I love you and I am so sorry x Y/N

He was shocked and couldn't believe it you had left him and when realization hit him his heart broke into pieces. He loved you so much and he hated himself for not seeing that you were so hated by his fans.

Few days later

You went bake to his appertment to get your last stuff, you were standing infront his door. Suddenly you got very nervous to see Ben, you where scared that he was mad at you. But you had to get your stuff, so you knock on the door.

A few seconds later Ben opens the door. he doesn't look good, his eyes are red from crying earlier, it looks like he hasn't showerd since the day you'd left. He didn't say anything and waited for you to say something.

"I came to get my last stuff" you said and he nodded and let you in. you grapped your last things and wanted to walk out of the house but a soft voice stopped you.

"wait Y/N" Ben said you turned around and looked him in the eyes, his eyes full of sorrow and hurt. "why didn’t you just told me that you got so much hate" Ben said "I-I don’t know" you told him "I could have helped you" Ben said and you stay silent "please let me help you" Ben said and you started to cry softly, he took you in a hug and you felt save in his arms.

You cried in his arms and you stayed there for a while in completly silence until he began to speak up. "I’ve missed you so much Y/N please let me help you, I can’t live without you" he said "I’m just so afraid of what they are gonna say" you said still sobbing into his arms "it doesn’t matter what they say the only thing that matters is us, we will get through this together" Ben said "I missed you to and I’m so sorry for hurting you Ben" you said and he give you a kiss on your forehead.

"I love you and please promes me that you’ll never leave me again" Ben said looking deaply into your eyes "I promise" you said looking back in his eyes not much later you shared a passionate kiss. "I love you too" you said.

The rest of the night you two watch a movie while cuddling in each others arms.

You two were wathing a movie while cuddling in each others arms, you had fallen asleep in Ben's arms. Ben was still upset about the fact that his fans were so mean to his girlfriend so he decided to post a picture and say something about it.

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benchilwell I’m in love with this girl and I can’t understand why you would hate her. She’s literally the best thing that happened to me and it hurts me, that my fans have hatted on her so much that she doubted our relationship and her self. She’s a strong and beautiful woman and I’m glad that I can call her my girlfriend<3 @y/nusername

@y/nusername: Ahw this made me cry🥺 I love you so much benji❤️

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I didn’t know if it should be a happy or a sad ending but it turned out to be a happy ending. What do you think? I don’t really know how I feel about this. Please let me know if there are any mistakes!

Thank you for reading<3

[3seven-gambler]

#⌁꒰Kuko Hɑɾɑi with ɑ GN!S/O who is tɾγing to be ɑ betteɾ peɾson꒱

⋆ word count: 896

⋆ genre: angst, fluff

⋆ You and Kuko met a long time ago in school, when you two were teenagers.

⋆ At that time, you were part of a small gang there, you basically were a bully.

⋆ Your parents were too busy with work, so you basically started to live alone at a very short age.

⋆ You usually didn’t do much, you just scared kids. Maybe sometimes you did remarks about how ‘ugly’ they were and you also used to steal others money.

⋆ One day though, one of your ‘friends’ (the leader of the gang) made you hit a boy from your class, who was known because his father was the owner of an important company.

⋆ You were on the school rooftop, and no one was around there at that time. Or at least you guys thought that.

-”c’mon (y/n), if you still wanna be around us so bad then show it, or are you a softy?”

⋆ -”I-is not that, we already have his money and lunch, I don’t see why we should do this guys…”

⋆ -”Are you disobeying me (y/n)? Huh, after everything we have done for you stupid bitch”.

⋆ The leader of the gang grabbed you by the collar of your shirt and he was about to throw you away from the roof, but you both heard an angry scream coming closer to you both.

⋆ You recognise the red head who was running towards you, Harai Kuko, a boy from another class.

⋆ You were waiting for him to punch you, but instead you heard another scream, but a scared one this time.

⋆ You slowly open your eyes and saw that your ‘friend’ has fallen from the rooftop to the ground.

⋆ -“W-what? how did he…”

⋆ -“Are you ok?” Kuko asked you.

⋆ -“Uhm… yes” you looked at him surprised.

⋆ He nodded at you and then he went to check on the other boy, seeing if he was injured or something.

⋆ You noticed that you still had his belongs, so you stood up and walked over where him and Kuko where.

⋆ The boy looked at you very scared, but when he saw you giving back his things he looked confussed.

⋆ -“I-I’m sorry, ok?” you said harshly. -“He…” you look to the injured body of your 'friend' -“He made me do this kind of things and I- I-” you were letting out some tears -“Just grab your things and get out!” you screamed. The boy say a small -“T-thanks” and run away.

⋆ Then you and Kuko were left alone.

⋆ -“You know, I was about to throw you too… but I’m glad that I didn’t do it, you are different, you want to change, I am wrong?”

⋆ You looked at him for a few seconds, not really knowing what to say. -“I uhm…y-yeah… I’ve been wanting to do it for a few months now but I was scared. The gang would make my life a hell, I mean, it’s kinda a hell anyways but I didn’t want this to be worse than already is…”

⋆ Kuko gave you a small smile. -”Then, let me help you”

⋆You looked at him surprised -“W-what, why would you…”

⋆ -“Because you want to be a better person, I used to be similar to you, but I changed, a little at least” he gave you a wider smile. -“So now, you can change, I wanna help you. What do you say, (y/n)?”

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.

.

⋆ After a few years, Kuko and you were the best friends. And you have developed romantic feeling for him. But of course, you try to avoid those feelings.

⋆ He helped you a lot in many ways, even in the smallest and silly things.

⋆ One day the two of you were hanging out as you always did.

⋆ -“Hey, (y/n), I don’t think I’ve ever told you this but, I’m proud of you. Since that day on the rooftop you had improved a lot, in many ways and I see how you are still trying to be better and I really love that about you. I-I mean is not the only thing I like about you because you are also beautiful and inteligent and… uhm I-I’m sorry” he laughed nervous, while his cheeks were with a soft pink.

⋆ You laugh -“That’s maybe because I’ve the best teacher with me” you said as you laid your head in his shoulder, while your cheeks were getting red. -“But now seriously, I own you a lot, Kuko, I’m really thankfull with you” you said as you made eye contact with him.

⋆ -“Don’t even mention it (y/n), I love you very much and I will always help you and protect you…” Kuko didn’t even realized what he just said, well until he finish saying it.

⋆ -“You what?” you asked suprised and with disbelief in your voice.

⋆ -”I-I nothing! I didn’t say anything, w-what d-did you hear?” he asked laughing nervously.

⋆ -“I love you too, Kuko, a lot” you said, smiling softly to him.

⋆ You suddenly could see a spark in his eyes, and without even asking, Kuko grabbed you by the cheeks and pulled you into a long and sweet kiss.

⋆ -“I love you” you both say at the same time and then laughing at it.

❥ 𝖱𝖾𝖻𝗅𝗈𝗀𝗌 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝖺𝗅𝗐𝖺𝗒𝗌 𝖺𝗉𝗉𝗋𝖾𝖼𝗂𝖺𝗍𝖾𝖽. || 𝖣𝖮 𝖭𝖮𝖳 𝖱𝖤𝖯𝖮𝖲𝖳/𝖳𝖱𝖠𝖭𝖲𝖫𝖠𝖳𝖤.

[luna-nigthshade-wood]

How (not) to propose an Angel?

Summary:

-So, Cas, what I am trying to say is, would you marry me?- Dean says kneeling down Static, that is the only thing that Castiel can hear. This is supposed to be the happiest moment in his life, a culmination of a happy relationship, there is just one problem, Dean and him are not dating.

Aka Dean proposes Cas in front of their friends and family, there is just one problem no one, including Cas, knew they were dating

-So, Cas, what I am trying to say is, would you marry me?- Dean says kneeling down

 Static, that is the only thing that Castiel can hear. This is supposed to be the happiest moment in his life, a culmination of a happy relationship, there is just one problem, Dean and him are not dating.

Cas turns around watching the confused faces of their friends and family looking at them, Cas understands their confussion, he is confused as well, Sam looks like he is choking on air, Cas turns his face back at Dean, who is still kneeling down now with angst in his face, Cas wants to console him, but he doesn’t know what the fuck its happening.

 -Cas- Dean says finally breaking the spectral silence that has fallen in the Bunker- you are killing me, is it a no?

-I…-Cas starts, but he is not sure what to answer.

-Dean- Sam finally intervenes- What the fuck?- he asks, finally convening the feeling of the room

-Kind of in the middle of something, Sammy- Dean exclaims

-You cant ask Cas to marry you!!- Sam yells exasperated

-Why?- Dean says angrily standing up- You have a problem or something?

-Yes- Sam responds not backing up- I have a problem. You cant ask Cas to marry you when you are not even dating.

-What are you talking about Sam?- Dean says confused- Of course Cas and I are dating, right Cas?

 The angel in question doesn’t say anything. He still doesn’t understand whats happening? Since when are Dean and him dating? Is Dean cursed? Had they been transported to an alternative universe? What is happening?

-Cas?- Dean´s voice breaks through his thoughts- Are you ok?

-Am I ok?- Cas says, finally finding his voice- Are you?- asks voice shaky

-Well, I am not going to lie, this is not how I thought my night would go

-It is safe to say that neither did I- Cas responds- Dean, we are not dating.

-Of course we are- Dean says hysterically- Everybody knows it, right guys?- the hunter says turning to his family and friends- Guys?

 Silence falls again in the room. Nobody is sure how to answer Dean until Jody takes control of the situation by saying:

-Alright, those of you that think Cas and Dean are a couple raise your hands?

Dean raises his hand but he is puzzled to notice that the only other hand up besides his own is Jack´s.

-What the fuck guys? How could you have not noticed that Cas and I were dating? How could you have not known for that matter, Cas?- Dean asks

-Well- Emma answers- To be fair, we thought you didn’t know, dad

-How couldn’t I have known?- Dean asks

-Three words- Claire responds- UST

-You have to recognize you are kind of emotional constipated, Dean-O- Donna continues

-Not to mention, we didn’t even know you liked guys, man- Sam concludes with a knowing tone, until he turns around and notices that nobody else is supporting his sentence- Why are you looking at me like that?

-Because, Moose brain, we all knew that my father was bi- Emma responds to Sam.

-What Emma said- Ben responds, getting nods of the remaining ducklings

-Emma, we talked about calling Sam names- Dean says, getting a mumble from Emma before turning to Sam- And you, Sammy, I have a serious question. How, in Chuck´s green Earth, did you thought I was straight?

-Wait, what? I… but… dad?... posturing… what?- Sam.ex stopped working.

-Dude, what did you think Lee and I did? Play marbles?

-How was I supposed to know?- Sam finally says

-We weren’t exactly subtle- Dean mumbles- Even dad knew

-What? And he was okay with that?- Sam explodes

-Well, no, not really, he basically gave me a water down version of “Don’t ask, don’t tell” but he learned to accept it, of course that was after Bobby shoot him with a rock of salt and they have a very large and loud “conversation”, but yeah. He hated Lee till the day he died though, but that may be just Lee, cause Bobby also hated him, something about me being too good for him.

-And you all knew?- Sam asks turning to the group

-Well, as Dean said, he wasn’t exactly subtle- Jody answers- Besides there were a lot of clues.

-Dr Sexy, for starters- Eileen says

-The messy wee situation with Fergus- Rowena continues

-The whole thing with Benny- Cas growls with jealousy

-Well, I…-Sam says deflating and sitting down- I don’t know how I didn’t notice Dean, but I just want to say that I love you and I accept you as you are and I am sorry if I ever seem unsupportive.

-I know Sammy, I love you too, now stop crying you big girl- Dean responds, hugging Sam

-Jerk- Sam lets out

-Bitch- Dean responds

 -As touching as this moment is for everyone- Claire starts- I think we kind of get out of the topic at hand.

-I agree- Krissy continues- Dean-emotionally constipated- Winchester was going to explain to us why did he thought he was dating Cas and since when.

-Shh you both, don’t rush him- Kaia chides them- You will scare him

-No, please, do rush- Patience interrupts- My dad wants me at home sometime this week.

-I don’t think they will take a week- Jack says confused

-No, you are right Jack, they may take longer if we don’t push them- Jesse responds him

-Alright kids, enough- Cas says

-Don’t tell me what to do- the cambion mumbles

 -Dean…-Cas starts- I am flattered that you would do this whole proposal as a sign of your love for me…

-You don’t have to say it, Cas- Dean interrupts- I understand, you don’t love me back

-Dean…

-I apologize for making things awkward between us    

-Dean…

-I am so stupid, how could you, a perfect pure angel, possibly love me, a worthless hunter with 2-cents to his name?

-DEAN!!-Cas says stopping the litany and closing the space between them- You are the most insufferable human that I ever had the pleasure to meet

-I know- Dean responds looking down. But Cas puts his hand in his cheek forcing him to look up

-How could you possibly think- Cas starts catching a stray tear in his palm- after everything, that I don’t love you?

-What?-Dean says confused.

-Dean, you are full of love, you are the most caring man on Earth, you are the most selfless loving human being that I have known and that I will ever know and I am honored that you love me. Dean, I love you.

For a moment time seem to have stopped, before Dean closes the little space that its between them with a kiss, which Cas responds eagerly.

 The kiss lasts almost an eternity and they only separate when they hear a cough behind them, remembering them that they have an audience.

-Alright, kiddos, remember there are little children present- Jody reminds them

-Yeah, boys, keep these PG rated- Donna says

-Sorry- Dean responds blushing taking Cas hand in his.

-Dean, I love you, and I am grateful that you love me back but I am still severely confuse, why did you think we were dating?-Cas says, still confused

-Because we are- Dean claims exasperated, making everyone groan

 -Alright- Patience interferes, proving she is the voice of reason- Dean, why don’t we start easy? Since when are you dating Cas?

-Since the Apocalypse- Dean claims

-Which one?- Ben asks, getting a punch from Claire.

-The first one- Dean says- Don’t you remember Cas? We even sleep together.

-You did what???-Sam asks screaming- When??

-It was when we separated for a while, Sam. Before Cas and I tried to trap Raphael, I took him to a brothel, he called him a “den of iniquity”

-I am sorry- Kaia interrupts- You took an Angel of the Lord to a brothel?

-Yeah, I was trying to get him laid- Dean says- Needless to say it was a bad idea, but afterwards we started talking one thing let to another and bam we were fucking and then dating.

Cas can feel the blush coloring his cheeks and everybody´s eyes on him.

-Dean, you said it was a rite of passage- he says at the lack of other words

-I also said I love you- Dean says petulantly- Besides, alright, lets say that time didn’t count, but I asked you to teach me angel mating rituals

-I thought you wanted to learn about angels.

-I helped you groom your wings, which you said was a very intimate act

-I thought you wanted to help!- Cas exclaims

-I did!- Dean exclaims- Alright, someone cover Jack´s ears

-On it!- Kaia says amused.

-We have fucked more times that I can count- Dean says

-Well, yeah, but I thought it was more like friends with benefits kind of situation

-Cas, buddy, my pal, you threw a gallon of holy water on Crowley after the Summer we don’t talk about

-In my defense, Crowley is very annoying- Cas responds

-You told Benny and I quote: “Touch him again, bloodsucker and I will detach your head of your body after I pumped you full of dead man blood”

-I didn’t know his intentions Dean

-We had a threesome Cas, more than one to be honest- Dean says

-Please for the love of all, stop talking- Sam says commiserating

-No, no, keep going- Claire says while filming the whole thing with his phone- Alex is going to hate missing this. Should have called in sick

-You have been filming this whole time?- Bobby John asks

-Of course, this is perfect blackmail

-Can I have a copy?- Emma, Jesse and Bobby John ask at the same time

-Of course, I will email you

-Children…-Jody says making them keep silence

-I mean, you also erase my mom and I memories- Ben tells Cas

-Dude- Bobby John says- will you ever let it go? Why do you always have to bring the subject up?

-Because I am tired that every time they start talking about exes they forget my mom.

-Let it go, Elsa- Emma says

-But that begs the question- Jesse asks- why did you went to Lisa´s if you were with Cas?

-Cas broke up with me- Dean says

-How could I have broken up with you?- Cas asks more confused than before

-You said you had things to do and it was better that I went back to my sweetheart, broke my heart right then and there after losing Sam

 -So I am confused- Kaia says- They didn’t know they were dating but they were dating or they weren’t dating but Dean- don’t do chick flicks- Winchester thought they were for some reason?

-I think they were dating and they are just bad at feelings?- Claire says

-I told you they were dating- Jack says, finally taking Kaia´s hands off- You just didn’t believe me. They have a profound bond, it is really not hard to miss, I knew since I was born

-I need a drink- Sam says finally

-I cant believe I agree with the Moose, but me too- Emma says

 -Wait, you are telling me that after everything that we did, everything we said, we still have a chance?- Cas says, eyes shining with tears.

-Babe, we are basically raising 10 and a half children together- Dean says- Nothing would make me happier than being your “official” boyfriend.

-No- Cas says surprising everyone, but before Dean can interrupt, he continues- You had a question you wanted to ask me, so ask me.

-Wait, for real?- Dean asks surprised

-Yes, Dean, please asked me again

-Wait a minute, guys, lets talk about this you cant get marry if you haven’t even started officially dating.

-Samuel, I am an Angel of the Lord, I can do whatever I want.

-Yes, Samuel- Ben says- Lets them get engaged.

-Didn’t you dislike Cas?- Patience asks

-I am sucker for a good and chaotic love story- Ben responds- So please continue.

-Ducklings, I take it from here- Dean says- Sam, interrupt us again and I will let Emma loose with a pair of scissors on your hair.

-Shutting up right now- Sam says, taking Eileen´s hand.

 -With that said, Cas, love of my life, my guardian angel, my best friend, we have been through a lot, we have had our fights over the years, big ones, we have survived terrible moments together, but we have preserved. We have a house, we are raising kids together, so here with them surrounding us, in the presence of our friends and of our family- Dean says, getting into one knee, showing Cas a ring- would you do me the happiest guy on Earth, Heaven and Hell and become my husband?

-Yes, Dean, of course, forever and ever- Cas responds with tears in his eyes, before kissing Dean, while their family cheers around them.

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Bonus scenes (I couldn’t resist)

 Bonus #1

-So you want to marry my brother?- Michael asks, towering over Dean.

-Yes, Michael, sir- Dean says gulping

-I don’t understand- Michael asks- Weren’t you already married?

-Not yet- Dean responds- So is that a yes?

-Well, I supposed you have my permission

-But you don’t have mine- Gabriel says appearing in thin air

-Gabriel- Dean jumps clutching his chest- weren’t you dead?

-Not yet kiddo- he responds eating a lollipop- Now, if you want to marry Cassie you have to beat me in a sword fight.

-Okay, why?-Dean asks confused

-Honestly, because I want to beat you- Gabriel responds

To this day, Gabriel still denies that Dean beat him, no matter what Michael claims

 Bonus #2

Alex, waking up after a 24-hour-shift at the hospital and watching the videos and audios Claire and the rest of his family sent her, calling Claire:

-I hate you- she tells her after she picks up- I will never miss another family dinner, now put me up to date, what did I miss?

 Bonus #3

-Sam, of course I knew Dean was dating- Garth tells Sam over the phone- It was pretty obvious, how didn’t you know? Anyways, who did you think helped Dean with the proposal? Now please, tell Claire to send me the video over. Bess and I are so sorry we missed it but Bess is ready to give birth anytime soon, and the story of how their godfather got engage has to be the first my kid hears.  

AO3

[regardingjenmish]

Hi!!

First of all thanks for being awesome and a voice of reason inside the mess that is this fandon at the moment.

As a Misha fan I'm really greatful for your comments and the safe space you are providing.

I get the anger and the confussion, I get it. I understand that feellings were hurt, and why some people think they lost a "friend" and an ally, but what I don't understand is the hate and the lack of compassion and empathy. This part of the fandom (at least in my little corner) was always so full of love and respect, it was funny, it was a happy place.

Misha was never perfect, we all knew that, he talks without a filter most of the time, he makes mistakes like everybody else. He always showed compassion and love for all his fans, why we cannot do the same thing for him right now.

What scares me the most is that maybe after this Misha won't be able to keep fighting.

Please be kind, if you can forgive, please do it. If not just move on, stop the hate.

I agree with you nonnie. I fully understand why certain fans are feeling the way they are feeling. It's valid and who am I to tell them that they shouldn't be upset. However unfortunately there are also the fans that have decided to use this opportunity to take things way too far and make this into something way worse than it is (I've unfortunately even seen fans tell him to kill himself)

I hope that the fans are able to move "on" from this and recover from it however they decide its best for them. But I also hope Misha is okay. And that this won't completely break his heart because i know that he is most definitely feeling similar feelings (even if for different reasons)