#i am jealous of people who can do fanart because they can literally draw the scenes they imagine and they always turn out so pretty 😭

[storiesofaot]

I think I am developing a serious obsession with Levihan childhood fanart - like honeslty, I don't even know how many pictures I have saved in the past hour. ....Pinterest will be the death of my poor little heart 🥺

[fanfic-lover-girl]

Hello, do you have any controversial opinions about Harry Potter? If so, what is it? I would like to hear something else, by the way I am also immersing myself a lot in the fandom of The Last Airbender and although I don't know much, I like the Zutara drawings.

Hey!

Anything can be controversial lol! I literally have seen unpopular HP opinions videos on Youtube where people list Harmione not having chemistry as controversial 🤪. Like Harry has romantic chemistry with anyone haha!

I am not a true HP fan so I don't really know what's controversial or not.

However, I will say this potentially controversial opinion about some popular HP headcanons: I absolutely DETEST seeing Hermione and Harry as POC!!! I hate it!!! Every time I see fics with Desi Harry or Black Hermione, I don't read them. I don't care how good they may be. To be honest, whenever I see Drarry or golden trio fanart with Indian Harry, it low-key looks ugly to me. I don't mind Hermione fanart where she has tanned skin but I don't like seeing her with dark skin. I cringe inside whenever I see the Granger-Weasley female actors from Cursed Child. Black people are always saying we need more rep, but gosh that does not mean we need to accept every low-branch rep the media throws at us.

Just because I am black, it does not mean I am happy Hermione was retconned as black by JKR. I dislike Hermione's character already but making her black...goodness everything about her becomes 10x worse. The violence she shows against Ron in book 6, the SPEW thing (the SPEW thing is bad whether she is black or white! it just adds another uncomfortable layer to it). Desi Harry makes no sense. James Potter and Lily Evans were white! I can't see Lily as Indian. James even less! Look, I think Indian women are stunning. And I have met some Indian men at work who are gorgeous. In fact, when I was a kid I used to be jealous of this Indian girl at my school - I wished I had her beautiful, silky hair (even now I am not very fond of my kinky hair). So me hating Desi Harry is not because I hate Indian people. I just hate Desi Harry.

Keep Desi!Harry and Black!Hermione far, far away from me!

Oh, Zutara is amazing! The fandom is full of amazing fanfic writers, artists and insightful media analysis. The Zutara original songs are good too :). Katara and Zuko are two of my favourite characters and I am happy that you are liking the art so far. Zutara was my first non-canon ship so it is very dear to me. I think Zutara was the first ship I ever really had. Welcome to the Zutara fam!

[himbos-hotline]

Writing masterlist

Disclaimer: It is totally fine to draw fanart of my fics [tag me if you post it. I will love you forever] and that stuff, it is not okay to reupload them or to post them on another website without my permission.

Taglist:

@allelitesmut @homoeroticgrappling @dustinslovehandles @paradoxunknown @katries @mrsmatt @echoxshxrx @malewifemoxley @kass-the-kitten @itsnoosetome @racerchix21 @jacedoe @chuckstaylors @old-no7 @thekadster @mandiableclaw @tahiri-veyla

[send an ask or a DM if you would like to be added or removed]

Last updated: 24/09/2023

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Tumblr requests/fics:

1.) Very nice, Very tired, Very evil || Prompt: “You should sleep." “I am not human. I don’t need sleep.” || Ship: Hookhausen || AU: The Bakery Au

2.) How much time ya got? || Prompt: Eddie Kingston and Jon Moxley sitting in an all night diner talking about the new "adoptees" of the BCC. Bonus if you can work in Regal shipping them and a serious question on how many teeth to get Danhausen to curse Jericho. || Ship: Kingmox || Fluff

3.) Blood is as rare and as sweet as cherry wine || Prompt: have i not suffered enough? has my sacrifice been insufficient to entertain you? || Ship: Hangkenny || Angst with no happy ending

4.) BTE buddies || Prompt: “that hurt more than a brazilian wax.” || Ship: The buck brothers || OC: Jay Orton || Family fluff

5.) I love the way he looks at me || Prompt: "Waiting outside in the car after dropping the other off to ensure they at least get inside their homes safely before driving away." || Ship: bluejays and blowjobs || OC: Jay Orton || AU: the highschool AU

6.) Hand in [un]lovable hand || Prompt: “Do you trust me?” || Ship: The polycule & Southern lovin' had me a blast || OC: Jay Orton || Angst with a happy ending

7.) Getting you off is my favourite hobby || Prompt: I’m gonna stop if you don’t cum.” || Ship: Southern lovin' had me a blast || OC: Jay Orton || Fluff and smut

8.) We'll bury these old ghosts here || Prompt: “You literally don’t have to do anything to catch my attention because my eyes have never really been on anyone else other than you.” || Ship: bluejays and blowjobs || OC: Jay Orton || angst with a happy ending

9.) I need to purge my urges [I need somebody to blame] || Prompt: CM Punk trained Jay turning on him to join BCC or The Elite || Ship: Welcome home || OC: Jay Orton || AU: Elite!Jay

10.) If I said you could never touch me || Prompt: I wish you would write the conversation between Kenny and Hangman on Kenny's return. || Ship: Hangkenny || Angst with no happy ending

11.) Would you love me more? [If I killed someone for you?] || Prompt: "You're bleeding… You're bleeding bad…” || Ship: The Elite Polycule || Angst || Adam Cole gets killed

12.) We made our peace with weariness and let it be || Prompt: You were a good person once. I looked up to you" || Ship: Hangkenny || Angst with a happy ending

13.) I find myself alone at night [unless im having sex] || Prompt: "Person A gets cold during the night, and joins Person B in bed" || Ship: Hangkenny || Angst

14.) There's always some reason [To feel not good enough] || Prompt: things learned in a nearly empty diner || Ship: Hangkenny || Angst

15.) An open hand [for your other man] || Prompt: “How much did it hurt?” || Ship: Hangkenny || Angst

16.) It's fine, fine, fine [Who am I?] || Prompt: "just tell me what you need. let me give it to you?" || Ship: Hangkenny || Angst with a happy ending || Kenny is a DiD system

17.) Angel to me // Watashi ni totte tenshi || Prompt: 'how long have you known?' || Ship: Hangkenny || Kota comes to AEW [1/2]

18.) You know the distance never made a difference to me || “i can't hide from you like i hide from myself” || Golden Lovers || Kota comes to AEW [2/2]

19.) I'll tell you my sins and [you can sharpen your knife] || Prompt: "I'm starting to feel jealous when I see you with other people." || Ship: bluejays and blowjobs || OC: Jay Orton

20.) The dead man in the dream is you || Prompt: "I've got a lot of bad shit that I'm taking to my grave." || Ship: N/A || OC: Jay Orton || Trans Girl Adam Cole

21.) I picture it soft and I ache || Prompt: Singing them a lullaby || Ship: Hangkenny || Fluff || Kenny Omega's stories for young lovers [1/4]

22.) Show the method of your selfless tongue [Give me a sermon] || prompt: “are you..are you blushing?” “NO physical activity just makes me red okay” || Ship: Hangmatt || smut

23.) no lover leaves the rose garden without blood on their hands || Prompt: “if I asked, would you stay?” || Ship: Hangkenny || angst

24.) Everything stays [But it still changes] || Prompt: “Kisses that have them hiding their face in your shoulder” || Ship: Hangkenny/Golden Lovers || Angst

25.) Look at you [how could I not be in love with you] || Prompt: Leaning in without realizing and then stopping just before their lips are attached to look in the other’s eyes to see if they want this too || Ship: Hangkenny || Comfort no hurt, Fluff

26.) I could be a better [boy]friend than him || Prompt: "This is a bit weird, isn't it? Sharing a bed with a stranger." || Ship: Adam Squared || Fluff

27.) I hate what you’re doing, I hate that it feels so || Prompt: “How far is too far?” “I honestly don’t know at this point.” || Ship: Hangkenny || Angst

28.) Did you kiss me so my lips would bleed? || Prompt: "Those soft gazes you can feel burning into the side of your head, and when you look back at them, they’d either hold their gaze or they’d quickly look away so you don’t catch them staring at you." || Ship: Hangkenny || Angst

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Poetry/Original works of fiction:

1.) Girl || A poem about my dysphoria || Angst

2.) Elizabeth || Original Fiction || Angst with no happy ending || Based on two alters in my system

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Wrestleprompts fic prompts/warm up writings:

1.) With tears in your eyes, you begged me to stay || Prompt: It was you the whole time || Ship: Bluejays and Blowjobs || OC: Jay Orton || Angst with a happy ending || Week two

2.) We only write by the moon || Prompt: A proposal on the beach || Ship: HangKenny || Fluff || Week three

3.) Just Cole || Prompt: When the otp+ are not on a first name basis and it becomes more intimate than more technically familiar address ||Ship: Bluejays and Blowjobs || OC: Jay Orton || Fluff || Warm up writing

4.) Can we just lay here and just forget the world? || Prompt: "I just want to lay here, with you, for a little while longer." ||Ship: The polycule || OC: Jay Orton || Fluff || Warm up writing

5.) The things we used to share || Prompt: A reluctant trip to the zoo to make a partner happy || Ship: Hangkenny || Fluff || Week five

6.) Write it in ink or in blood [it's the same either way] || Prompt: "You got a tattoo of what?" || BROTP: Crimes? Crimes! [Jay Orton & Matt Jackson & Nick Jackson] || Found Family || Week six

7.) To you I'm just a man [to me you're all I am] || Prompt: N/A || Ship: hangkenny || first fic

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Twelve days of Chirstmas 2023:

1.) glass on the rocks || Prompt: "I know it's winter, but you don't have to act so cold!" || Ship: Hangmatt

2.) But let me kiss your lips [so I know how it felt.] || Prompt: "Please open the door before I freeze to death." || Ship: Hangkenny

3.) Dancing on the blades, you set my heart on fire. || Prompt: "If you don't have gloves, you can just hold my hand." || Ship: Hangkenny || AU: The Highschool AU

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Archive of our own exclusives:

1.) Til death do us part, please keep breaking my heart [Til it ceases to beat, please be mine] || OTP: Hungbucks || Work in progress

2.) The ghost story would be over || Ship: The BCC] || OC: Jay Orton || Work in progress

3.) Love always finds a way || OTP: we're so full of love || OC: Jay Orton || AU: The Indies AU || Discontinued

4.) You know I'm gready for love || ship: N/A || Fictober 2022 || Family fluff

5.) Jon Moxley's weird way of showing affection || Ship: N/A || Fictober 2022 || Family fluff

6.) I should have known you'd bring me heartache [Almost lovers always do] || Ship: Hangkenny || Fictober 2022 || Angst no happy ending

7.) Holding his wax wings together || OC: Jay Orton || Ship: we're so full of love || Fictober 2022 || Angst and fluff

8.) Hold on [One more time with feelings || OC: Madelyn Orton || Ship: oh my god and they were roommates || AU: The roommate AU || Half-abadoned/ Currently being re-written/re-worked

9.) je ne parle pas français Sami || OC: Madelyn Orton || Ship: oh my god and they were roommates || Prestablished relationship fluff

10.) Oh I'm so human || OC: Madelyn Orton || Ship: We could build a lego house || AU: the Mob AU || Complete

11.) Fairytales don't exist || OC: Madelyn Orton || OTP: we could build a lego house [Finn Balor/Madelyn Orton] || Angst and fluff || Complete/ Currently being reworked/re-written

12.) I am not a vessel for your good intent || Dead Girl Adam Cole || Angst/fluff || Currently being written

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[bananzaarcade]

🕹Hello Hello!🕹

This is another @gigglemugphentermine alt and a @selfyshipzirkus new account!

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Sup mini boppers! My name is chris,christie or murrissey and I'm just a 15 year old autistic and depressed attention deficit rat who is currently fixated on fanboy and chumchum,arcades and scene culture and I welcome you to the bananzaarcade!

This side account will be used for posting about my good amount of drawings of my ocs,oc/self insert x canon ships and fanarts of my fictional others,enjoy your stay!

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F/o list(💌 if mainly focused atm)

Mettaton ex(UT)

Chris McLean(TD)

Boog Shlizetti(FBACC)💌

The Onceler(2012 Lorax)

2d(Gorillaz)

Rosemary(Delicious Party Precure!)

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DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE A:

Bigots in general(Lgbtphobe,racist,etc)

Anti Xenos/Mogai

Cringe culture Suppoters(you guys are the reason I feel embarassed while posting about my interests:))

Terfs,Radfems,Transmeds

Fandom(Canon vs Fanmade),LGBT and Racism discourse accounts

NSFW,KINK(specially DDLG),and Age Regressors

Anti Oc/Self insert x Canon shippers and people who believe into the OC vs CC barrier

Fujo/Fudan/Himesharts

PROSHITS(BOTH PROSHIPPERS AND PROFICTION PEOPLE) AND (AC/NO)MAPS/PEARS

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Dangaronpa fans/srs

R/totaldramafanon and it members/supporters

AnimationgamingGuest and her stupid brainwashed bootlickers(don't you guys realize that she's the reason why I no longer feel safe in the popee the performer fandom,she groomed me and 5 other people!:D)

For your information:

I tend to talk and gush ALLOT about my f/os so please,if you share one with me and you are uncomfy with me doing it so,I reccomend blocking me and avoiding me at all costs

If you violate my DNI or simply makes me uncomfy I'll simply block you,no warnings

I tend to take my hyperfixations and love towards my f/os specially my current ones very seriously so please,refrain from telling me that they're "just fictional" and similiar,it's only fine to tell me that when I feel jealous towards someone who is more famous for liking the same f/o as me and about that

I have immense jealousy issues so please,make sure to calm me down during that,I can literally snap at people or even start showing self destructive behaviours from harming myself or even others,I'm so sorry

I am very emotional so please do not try to upset me or make me have a panic attack,I may be emotional but I also might end up bottling it all and leave your servers/unfollow you,you still free to talk with me and so find a solution for the problem,but,if I end up blocking you once you upset me,this simply means I don't want to talk with you at all

I tend to use the classic emotions like :), :(,:P,>:(,XD etc, since I loved using them on my computer times on roblox so yeah,I'm NOT doing this for attention

I tend to type stuff in the end with !!!!!!,?????? And words where I replace the s with z,w,and x because I think it's fun

Currently the year my mindset is at is early 2000s-late 2010s so please do not harass me over it,I seek comfort in nostalgia and allot even tho I only Joined the internet around 2015 and officially became apart of it in 2018/2019,I may have arrived right when the fun stopped but I still remember allot of things by there even as a kiddo:P

I have a au where the characters I love and their friends(ex:gorillaz & fanboy and chumchum) are all scemo cats or even cat hybrids with other animals so yeah

I know there are scums who might harass people over their characters,au and etc,since I used to be one before,if I find your comments/reblogs or even about your existence you r getting blocked!!!!

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Thank you for understanding!

[zirkkun]

Maybe this is cheesy, but with all the praising on stream, I decided I wanted to just gush about my friends and people I look up to on here too. I’m gettin’ sappy and sobby at this hour and I just wanna go out on a high note.

(Started writing this at about the half hour mark before Unus Annus’s death, and now it’s like an hour later. Gosh I just don’t know when to shut up huh? lmao)

@zilthai37 - heya!♥ know you don’t follow Unus Annus stuff, so this will definitely be out of no where for you, but god. You’re too good of a person. I can go to you for literally anything and honestly I probably take it for granted. Something trivial, something serious, you’re always down to talk. I’ve never met another human being who’s so open with talking about things and so open to learn about other people and ideals. You’re honestly so great and so wonderful, man. I love talking to you and I just want you to know that you’re incredibly irreplaceable as a friend and a person.

@cheshiregrinnbuttoneyes - I think you’re the only friend of mine from high school that still talks to me consistently -- and that’s so wild, considering during high school we almost never had the chance to talk. God, you’re just so passionate about your works and you’re always working on your art, and your art is so cute and wonderful. You’re also one of the NICEST people in the world. I don’t know many people who would be willing to give away what they have to support someone else. I adore talking to you and I’m so glad I didn’t lose you, and I never want to, not prematurely.

@secretly-neurotic - heyo! i dunno if you’ve been watching Unus Annus at all, so this might be a little random, but I just really want to say that you’re such a great friend and such a great memelord to talk to. Your art is AMAZING and I’m so glad that you’ve had the chance to be able to spread it to more people recently. I should do a better job of reblogging it so even more people can see it, haha. I know you’ve been real busy with school stuff lately and honestly i just feel really proud seeing you work towards things that you’re really interested in doing, while memeing it along the way. Tell your dad good luck with his BOTW game, hope you get your Switch back eventually lmao

@thoughtfullytired - i think of all my irl friends on this list, i’ve know you the shortest amount of time, but that doesn’t mean you’re any less valuable to me than any of my other friends. You always work so hard to improve your art, and you’re always so amazing at being able to express your emotions into your artwork. I love talking to you about everything, whether it be our nerd stuffs or just regular stuffs. You’re also so incredibly kind to offer your help on Act to Flirt, completely unprompted, when I came to you just ranting about my inability to write music, haha. Hoping the best for you in school (and for your space ship!!) even though I haven’t seen you in a long while.♥

@sansismybitch - ah the name sticks out in this sappy list, but it’s still a very fitting name regardless lmao. you’re honestly a really great and really inspired person. your dedication and interest in supporting those whose works you like is honestly unparalleled. i love when i get asks and memey submissions from you, it brings a smile to my day! talking to you is just so wonderful, and i know a lot of people out there would agree. i just want you to know that you’re really a wonderful person, truly.

@alch3mic - we’ve not talked very long, and I know I definitely already wrote you an incredibly sappy message the other day lmao, but this write-off wouldn’t feel right without saying something to you, especially since the two of us have been watching this stream together (though separately!) You’re just so incredibly passionate with all your projects and I honestly really look up to you and what you do. I’m always so happy seeing when you post because everything you write or draw always brings a smile to my face. Keep doin’ what you do man♥

@teirrart - maybe we don’t really talk (unless it’s some intense thirsting over milo), but I still really adore the work that you do! i think you were one of the first couple of people i followed when joining the fandom and re-joining on Tumblr here, because I adored the buttons you had on your store and bought them IMMEDIATELY haha. It’s still kinda funny to me to realize I have a set of buttons with Ink and Lust made by you and you’ve got my charms of Ink and Lust too.. it’s like a trade in a way, but I’ve just never had it happen lol. Your work is so cute, your characters are wonderful, and your stories are so emotionally driven. I adore them and adore what you do.

@tatatale - god, I still think about the drawing you did with Lust, Insans, and Ace. It brings such a smile to my face and it makes me so happy. I never thought someone who’s artwork and comics I’ve been reading since they started and really admired would ever make something with the characters I’ve made. And you do collabs and fanarts of people’s others works a lot! It’s so incredible to see. This kind of fan interaction is honestly so precious and rare. I adore your comics, I adore your art style, and you’re just so kind.

@owl-bones - we’ve only talked a few times, usually passively talking about the development of our dating sims, haha, but honestly your artwork is amazing, and the work you put into what you do is amazing. sometimes I sit here, a bit jealous of just how good Bonely Hearts Club is, but it’s honestly some silly jealousy lol. You put in an incredible amount of heart and soul into every bit of that game, and it’s so clearly evident even in just the short demo we’ve had so far -- everyone can see that. You’re an incredibly talented person.

...and, well, although you two will probably never ever see this, I suppose I’ll take the chance and throw my voice to the wind anyhow lol:

@markiplier and @crankgameplays - jesus christ, I’ve been watching you two for so long now that i can’t even believe how long it’s been. i was literally barely in high school. it’s so funny to me how I literally had the thought of “Man, I wish Ethan and Mark did more collabs” when YouTube decided to recommend me the escape room video from Unus Annus, a channel that I had somehow MISSED entirely. (At that point, of course. I watched every video from then onward and the ones from the couple of weeks I’d missed). It’s just so wild to me to really think that... a lot of what you two have done have really shaped me today. People often talk down upon the idea of looking up to others because people can do things wrong in the future and then - oh no - now you’re suddenly regretting supporting them. But you two have never once given me that kind of vibe, and I don’t feel like I’ll ever get that from you two in the future. Your work ethics and dedication to what you do really inspires me. It’s gotten me to where I am. Unus Annus ironically made me want death less when I was at such a low point in my life, and made me realize the value of using the time I have been given. It just somehow clicked for me. So, if either of you ever do see this? Just - thanks.

Memento mori.

but also, memento vivire. Remember to live.

[bluemoonbeam15]

Okay so, can you pls answer the questions: 1, 2, 7, 11, 14, 15, 16, and 18? :O

My Favorite Character Overall?

Absolutely Hopper, with Flik coming in for a close second. I've already stated how I hate his death in the movie and all that. More so, there's a personal connection I have with his character -- especially with the background I gave him. Hopper is essentially my outlet to write about my own trials and traumas without it being extremely obvious. I've discussed it with a close friend of mine on Discord, but this is, I guess, an open testament as to how I write Hopper's character. A lot of his mannerisms and past experiences are based on my own.

My Favorite Piece of ABL Merchandise?

Honestly, I don't have any ABL merchandise XD. One thing I can say is that my older brother used to have this room guard toy when we were little. It was a Hopper toy that would speak/yell whenever I tried sneaking into his room. As a child, Hopper terrified me, not gonna lie. So, I ended up sneaking back into his room and flinging something at it before it could speak and the toy broke. So, sorry Hopper, but I felt proud of myself in that moment XD.

My Favorite Pairing/Ship?

Gypsy and Manny have the golden relationship that I dream to have myself one day. They are the perfect couple, in my opinion. I also adore Gypsy's heart that she portrays in the movie and how Manny wholeheartedly uplifts her in everything. Also, it blesses my heart that Gypsy is the star of his performance and he intentionally has her in the transformation scene for others to gawk over her beauty. He is just so astounded by her that he keeps her in the spotlight of his own act.

The Character I Am Most Like?

I mentioned in the first question how I write through Hopper, but I'll disregard the backstories I've created for the characters and focus on their canon personalities. In that case, I am most like Flik. As much as I try to be this unemotional and detached person, I am very tenderhearted and will bend over backwards to help others. As well as trying to see the best in the worst and being outcasted by those around him. Flik and I also tend to pour our hearts out to people who treat us like trash and still ignore the way they treated us for the sake of a connection.

My Favorite ABL Fanfic?

Answered that in another post. "Find Your Wings" and "Unlikely Alliance" are absolutely masterpieces in my opinion. Many other stories stand out to me but those are the main stories that drove me to write for A Bug's Life.

My Favorite ABL Fanart?

Literally EVERYTHING that @petitefrancis has posted on her Patreon. I do have a favorite drawing, though, but I can't disclose that picture without permission. Highly recommend following her Patreon if ya'll haven't already because ever work she does is an absolute beauty that Picasso would be jealous of.

My Name For the ABL Fandom?

I guess for this Tumblr it is officially Bluemoonbeam, or Blue for short. I still haven't come up with a persona or something that Kiri told me about. Like a bug personality that would essentially be me in their world. But I'm hoping to come up with one before long!

Have I Ever Cried While Watching This Movie?

Absolutely. I doubt any of you will be surprised to know that, even to this day, Hopper's death drives me to tears and I can't watch it. And everything after that scene loses color in my eyes. Basically, I have become emotionally attached to Hopper and that last scene kills me too. I honestly want nothing more than to rescue him and hold him tight away from the bird so it doesn't lay a single claw in him.

Thank you for the ask!

[colour-outside-the-liness]

Hey, I'm doing good too. Just normal amounts of stressful stuff right now. Just moved to a country I've never been to before but can't complain, things are not as hard as the last time I did this so. Thanks for asking! Yeah, I saw you posting about some pretty scary health issues before, I'm glad you came out of that alive and hope you're healthier now!

The nerve some people have! Haha I know I would be pissed if people were questioning my intelligence like that especially after a couple of drinks in haha. Though I do like taunting people when I play group games, I'll be like "don't need to try that hard guys, you're gonna lose anyway" just to mess with them or just call people sore losers if they accuse me of cheating haha (they're probably right on the accusations tho). People get real mad sometimes it's kinda funny. 😂

Omg literally laughed out loud reading this! Hahaha, how did you manage to fall over a road sign then end up in a ditch? lol omg hope you didn't get hurt too bad 😂 I was trying to downplay my drunken escapades but since you shared yours I should tell you my worst one:

I was at this summer street party at night and got drunk on something made out of tropical herbs and cachaça (which is about 48% alcohol), drank 3 and a half bottles of that like it was apple juice, made friends with a bunch of strangers in a bathroom queue (who tried to talk to me weeks later but I had no idea who they were), had to be held by my best friend while I peed (mostly missing the toilet), fell in the middle of the street and scraped my knee, threatened this boy who was helping me walk and told him not to try anything funny or I would beat him up, then dragged my friends to the beach and left them shortly after to go make out with my ex, came back with lipstick all over my mouth and chin and when my friends asked what I was doing I said I was just talking to my ex and they were like NO YOU WERE NOT, hahaha then I kissed all my girl friends on a dare and we danced under the full moon, then I told my best friend I had to puke so she took me to the ocean but I changed my mind and happened to step on a dead turtle on the way back and started crying bc of it, but last month my best friend told me it was a rock I had stepped on (I believed it was a dead turtle for 7 years!). Had the worst hangover of my life the next day. ✌️✨

Ah I'm happy you liked it! I've never listened to Six musical before but it sounds fun! I can see why you like it haha made me want to dance around my apartment 💃. And hey if liking musicals is your thing then it's great, I'm sure Hozier will understand if he's not your top artist of the year. 😋 Here's my "damie" Pinterest board if you or anyone else wants to check it out, totally recommend making one if you're a visual person like me!

https://pin.it/UcHVlkq

Oh I could talk about Dani and Jamie forever I think. I love the beast in the jungle speech too and it's so painful to watch, VP delivered that beautifully, but I have to admit I'm always a crying mess from episode 1 when older Jamie starts reciting that song about being sad while waiting for her lover to return, this show is fucking cruel I hate it and love it at the same time hahaha. Omg your mom 😂 but I mean it's truly an honor to be compared to someone like Dani, no? She's really great even if she needs a little help haha (don't we all).

Aaah you're amazing! Thank you so much, I'll read this pirate AU soon!

I used to draw a lot, really loved doing it when I was a kid as I said before, and all throughout adulthood too but I haven't done that in almost a year now bc I've got a bit of a case of burnout I guess, it just takes a lot of effort to do it when it shouldn't be like that at all. I used to do fanart too, for other fandoms. Even made one for Dani x Jamie but ended up not liking how it turned out haha. I've got a lot of respect for writers and fanfic writers also! Yall can make words make sense in really interesting and beautiful ways, build worlds so enthralling I can see them vividly in my head. Writing is such an incredibly fascinating skill to have! And I guess the most important thing is that we enjoy doing these things right? Even if we think we're not particularly good at it.

Anyway, have a lovely weekend! 👋✨

Good I'm glad you're doing great but sorry you're dealing with stressful stuff!! Hope living in a new country goes well for you I'm so jealous that you've lived in different countries I'd love to live somewhere else even if just for s few years!! Awwh thank you so much I definitely came out of it alive and am feeling so much better now thank you I mean I do some pretty ditzy things so when people say it to me it's pretty deserved sometimes, I'm secretly smart and people just don't expect it so I never mind too much haha I might have to start saying the things that you do and just taunting them over it I mean, I usually do win even when they make me answer different questions so I will definitely have to start saying things like that to them Haha I love that you're just like "yeah they're probably right in their accusations" I agree seeing how mad some people get over games and stuff is funny (it's me I'm people I hate loosing games depending on what it is and I am very competitive) So it was very dark and all we had for light was my roommates flashlight on her phone but while we were walking home a friend of ours that lived else where kept texting her to make sure we were still safe (my phone as dead at this point) so while she was texting him her flashlight was facing down and someone had moved this road sign to the footpath and it was on that sits on the floor so while I couldn't see it I walked into it and fell over it but while I feel I grabbed hold of it and flipped with it and fell in a ditch with it on top of me... I was fine and was just laid laughing while my friend looked down at me and in the most northern accent ever just said "get up you dickhead." and helped me off of the floor and then asked if I was okay... and I was so it was all good!! Haha 😂 I love this drunken story that sounds like one hell of a night and is a roller coaster from start to finish!! I'm sorry you thought you had stood on a dead turtle for 7 years though, someone really should've told you that it was just a rock!! But that sounds like my kind of night!! I love nights like that... stories that will last a life time... the only down side is the hangover... luckily I have only ever had one hang over in my life and it wasn't the morning after the road sign fiasco... I felt surprisingly good the morning after that haha 😂 It's such a good musical it's about Henry VIII wives and I just love everything to do with his wives and that musical is so much fun and actually gives a little insight to the lives the six Tudor queens had away from Henry and with him because at school we're mainly just taught about him which sucks!! I loved the Hozier song and am definitely gonna have to listen to more of his stuff!! I love musicals so much I mainly listen to musical soundtracks at the minute- usually, Legally Blonde and Six on repeat haha 😂 Ooo thank you I will definitely check out this Pinterest board thanks for sending it to me!! I could talk about them forever too... since watching Bly Manor my niece has been asking me so many questions about it and I am more than happy to talk to her about it haha!! The beast in the jungle speech just breaks my heart every time I relate to it so much and VP just delivers it so beautifully!! Oh yeah now I know at the beginning that it's older Jamie I am just a wreck the whole show is just so beautiful and heart breaking at the same time I LOVE IT!! Even though it makes me sob- I keep putting myself through it!! I mean, yeah I was happy that she said it Dani is great but it was the way she said it... my mum can be something else sometimes... she said she thought Dani was like me the first time she does the accent when she says "I've fallen quite in love with London" because I just randomly do accents a lot too but it was the way she was like "She needs help... but I like her she reminds me of you" I was just like... "Should I go get help?" I still don't know the answer to my question about if I need help or not but I mean I probably do need it You're welcome I really hope you like it!! It's a

great fic I love it!! Yeah I get that if stuff starts taking too much effort and burns you out you're not gonna wanna keep doing it so it's understandable that you stopped!! I think fan art is great and I really would love to be able to do it myself but I just don't have the skill it takes!! Awwh it's a shame you didn't like the Dani x Jamie one you did I would've loved to have seen it!! Honestly there are so many talented writers out there and when I read their fics I am just in awe of the worlds they have built and the stories they have created we are so blessed in this fandom to have so many amazing writers and so many amazing fics out there Oh yeah definitely its important to enjoy what you do!! I know I love writing and love writing fics for Dani and Jamie so I think I'll be doing it for a while even if I'm not great at it haha Awwh thank you very much I hope you have a great weekend too!! ☺️

[mcrmadness]

Rambling about my (dä fan)art...

I was writing another post and this kinda got out of hand and turned into me talking about my art overall. I’m gonna put this under the cut because I don’t know if people are interested in my art nor especially in my thought about it and my “art history” basically, but if you are, then I hope you enjoy.

And yes, this is gonna be about my die ärzte fanart mainly!

So let’s start with the HELL coverart drawing because that’s what I was talking about originally:

I’m extremely happy with how the drawing turned out in the end and I like that feeling of success when I’m happy with something I have created. That is not always self-evident with myself. More than often I have plain hated my drawings or have felt like there should be something done differently, or something that I could always improve at and do better. So this feeling where I’m actually content and happy with what I have created is something new and different. I have a dopamine rush every time I look at that drawing. I like the drawing. I think it looks nice. And I’m extremely happy about this fact and I am not afraid of admitting it. Perfectionism is a curse and a gift. It can sometimes make your life a living hell when something that is perfectly good still feels like it’s not enough. When everyone else sees that what you have done is actually good or even great but your brain just keeps repeating how it’s shit and everyone else is just delusional and that they don’t see what you see. And this is like the polar opposite of that feeling. It wasn’t other people who were delusional, it was you and youself all along. You were the one seeing the image in your head and the drawing not matching that image. Other people saw only what you had created and couldn’t compare it to anything. And that doesn’t mean it was never good.

So whenever I do these comics and comic style drawings nowadays, I just feel so happy. I feel that I am no longer failing them, I feel like I can draw the image I see in my head. I finally feel like I can draw, I have some skills, I’m not a professional and maybe not as good as everyone else but I’m good at what I’m doing. This is my thing and I’m good at it and it’s enough. And I love it when I feel like I’m improving. For years I felt like I was stuck, like my skills would have been glitching somehow, I didn’t get better no matter how much I drew. But I guess I tried too much and was too harsh on myself because I believed that a drawing is good only when no reference photos have been used. And I sucked at drawing without them. I still do! I was staring at the Hell coverart the whole time I was drawing! I wouldn’t have been able to do this if I didn’t! And this feels particularly good also because this is the first time I have tried something different with these comics. I have never tried to draw a photo or existing picture with this style. I have only drawn my comics and those I have created all by myself. The clothes come from what I have seen in videos and photos but the plots are created by me alone, with a idea coming from somewhere actual usually, as inspirations do.

For comics I do look at reference photos of people sitting or standing, or I look at the mirror, or even take photos of my own hand to be able to draw something. And that’s lots of fun and also challenging because I’m mixing there my old habit of portrait drawing with my less serious comic book style but I really really do like the combination. It also makes me feel that I am memorizing what I draw and the next time when I need to draw that same posture, I no longer need the reference photos because they’re no in my brain. And in my muscle memory. My hand remembers how to do the lines now.

Here you can see one of the sketches I did in 2018 - I had this image in my head and I wanted to draw it and I just... drew it in my sketchbook. Didn’t use pencil. But now I’ve noticed I like doing these on proper paper instead of the sketchbook AND it’s so much more fun to first draw the sketch with the pencil and then draw on it with the fineliners. That I have always done with the comics (apart from one) because they take more time than these quick sketches. But here you can see Farin’s legs on the first image - I think I might have looked at reference photos for that but then it was so much easier to do the to the comic I made in 2019.

I have now also figured out that a big part of my style is not to draw just simple straight lines. I like making those sketch-like lines even with the marker. They look more rough but that’s something I like seeing with my art. That’s what I was missing when I was staring at the lines I had drawn before and hated every detail of them. They were too clean and neat.

^These two I have also drawn on my sketchbook in 2018 and I don’t really know why. I guess I was still a bit stupid and didn’t really realize I’m drawing again. But anyway, they both were inspired by my own fanfiction I have written a long time ago. It’s one of my favorite self-written fanfics and it had these two scenes I just saw in my head and felt like I could try drawing them. Maybe that’s why they are in my sketchbook, I wasn’t sure if they were going to turn out even good... The marker around the second one obviously was shit and the paper wasn’t good for it, and I never finished with it so it looks a bit weird. Do I need to say that I really enjoy drawing very small, repetative details, like those tiles? It’s so soothing, almost like a therapy.

I think that quitting antidepressants in 2013 has done so much good for my creativity. If you compare my work from 2011 to 2019, the difference is huge - all are just parts from my comics:

Can you guess see the difference? But have to admit I am jealous for myself for how I have drawn Farin’s hair to the 2011 one and maybe have forgotten to color Farin’s arm but... I actually had so long pause from drwing (~8 years) that I forgot how I did that and had to use THAT as a reference when I was trying to draw late 80s Farin’s at some point last or this year :D

Anyway, my style with the shadows is a little different when I use colored pencils than when I use markers. This is from my latest comic from this year, where I experimented with Promarkers the way I had never done before and I really like how it came to be:

I have owned this set of Promarkers (black + 5 greys) for years and have never really used them, apart from the black which I usually used for the thick lines anyway. And wanted to see if I could find some use for the greys too! (Yes that’s Bela back there - this comic was an alternative ending for Für Immer music video :D)

And I wanna end this post with a face progress comparison for all three. During this I also noticed that before I used to draw their side profiles and it was really difficult to find images where I’d have drawn from from the front. And nowadays I have mainly drawn them from the front and it’s hard to find side profiles! Interesting! Here’s one of Farin and Bela from a drawing I made this year:

Also the hand that was so much fun to draw but I also took photos of my own hand in that posture in order to even draw that - that was fun! :D

But here are the last three images - using the HELL one as the last for each, of course:

Bela has always been the easiest to draw. And the first one of these three is actually from my first ever Bela&Farin comic! I didn’t color their skin back then. With the next ones I already did color their skins too but I used darker colors to do the shadows. Nowadays I do the shadows with fineliners. Or it depends - that 2019 one doesn’t have that lol.

Damn it was so difficult to find something where I’d have draw Farin from the front :D And I see the HELL one literally is my second (or third) time drawing Farin with his grin. Or if you count all those numerous extra mouths I drew because I failed the first one, then I have drawn his grin at least 15 times by now. I probably can draw his teeth with no reference photos from now on.

I haven’t drawn Rod too many times. I can actually count about... 5 times? And then there’s only 2 times when I’ve drawn his side profile but he’s at the background. I don’t know if I’ve ever really succeeded at that, I usually try to draw his head a more round and his eyes smaller than for Bela and Farin and I was actually bit worried for the HELL one and was wondering if I’m going to ruin the whole thing. But in fact, that was actually easiest of them to draw. And STILL I’m surprised by how alike he looks in that last one. In fact, I think his dacial features are perfect for a carricature drawing so you don’t need to do more than a few lines for the mouth and it looks like his mouth. The middle one was for a drawing I made for a friend and with this I actually looked at photos so that I could draw some of his hairstyles from the 90s and I liked this one the best and it was also quite easy to draw too.

Do I even have to say that I’m not extremely motivated what comes to drawing? I feel like my creative has become what it has never been before. I still don’t really know what to draw but I just feel that whatever it is I’ll start next, it will be good. And if it doesn’t... who cares? I had so much fun with those extra mouths  of Farin which was maybe visible from the video I filmed, and that is what makes drawing worth it. Before I took the drawing process so seriously and a mistake felt like the end of the world but now I laugh at them and make fun of them and don’t take them too seriously. And I always have ways to fix these, or I can redraw. Just like I did with Farin’s mouth (or a half of his face actually) for this newest drawing. The most important thing is that I’m having fun and enjoying what I do, that way usually the outcome will also be a success.

I have now at least 2 dä comics on my to-do list (I don’t remember if there’s a third one too) + one pencil drawing that is halfway there. It will take one more night/day for it to get it finished. I also have probably 5 ideas for self-comics etc. in my sketchbook and I try to find some time to work on those. Or actually I have a plenty of time. Adhd, time blindness and executive dysfunction just make it feel as if I didn’t :D Can’t wait to get working on my next drawing projects, tho!

(I wish I knew how to make art for a living even but that’s a topic that will need its own post which I’m probably do in a near future if I don’t forget :D)

[caswatchesoveryou]

30 questions for artists

thanks for tagging me @jdragon122 <333 :3 so it’s your fault that i didn’t get any tag games for weeks °^°

Rules: there are no rules! Tag whomever you want if you choose to answer the questions

Do you prefer traditional drawing, or digital? digital! °^° i started traditionally like everybody else but now i can’t function without my tablet.. xD like..where’s the undo button? why can’t i resize the head? °A° horrible ‘°-°’ the only times i draw traditional are when i’m chillin at the lake with a drawing buddy c:

How long have you been drawing? since kindergarten :3

How many classes have you taken? uhh..i had classes in my graphic/design assistant education o_o

Do you have a DeviantArt, personal website, or art blog? only my tumblr and my deviantart ^^

What’s your favorite thing to draw? Cas? :3 destiel? :33 cute happy stuff, sad stuff too or basically very emotional stuff.. c:

What’s your least favorite thing to draw? i think cars? buildings..hands.. hands are beautiful but damn they’re hard to draw.. >_<

How often do you use references? always :’D refs of their faces and pose refs and designdoll is a big big help c:

Do you draw professionally, or just for fun? welp i wish but it’s just for fun^^

How much time do you spend drawing on an average day? i only have 1-2 hours each night because of my job so i can’t draw much except for the weekend. and i only draw every night when there’s a project that needs to be done. but otherwise it’s the weekend where i can draw 1-4 or 5 hours c:

Are you confident about your art? most of the time i really really like what i see but in the early stages i feel like i can’t draw anything because it looks so horrible °-° and sometimes i have to give up and finish it even if there’s something i don’t like..but oh well.. °^°

How many art-related blogs do you follow? i dunno..many? °3° too many amazing artists out there D:

Is it okay for people to ask you about your process? of course :D anytime ^u^

Do you prefer to keep your art personal, or do you like drawing things for other people? i love to draw for other people and making them happy is the best :’D but i promised so many people that i could/would draw them something for their birthday and in the end i couldn’t do it.. >_< and there a still requests waiting and i’m so sorry guys.. T.T i didn’t forget you and one day i will draw it! T.T that’s why i don’t do commissions.. ‘°-°’’’

Do you ever collaborate with others? no i never had the opportunity :’< but i would LOVE to do a collab!!! so if there’s anyone who wants to do one i’m in <:’D

How long does an average piece take you to complete? it depends on how detailed it is and if there’s more than one person in it, how hard the perspective is, the pose, kisses take a while too and so ooon.. lineart takes always the longest because anatomy hates me and that’s why i’m always relieved when the lineart is done because shading and coloring is so much easier.. = u = if it’s a really quick one like the mini comic for new years then..probably still 5-6 hours.. >_< if not more.. i’m a very slow artist.. :< and stuff i want to do as perfect as possible probably 10-20 hours or more.. xD

Do you draw more today than you did in the past, or do you draw less? definitely more! D: in the past i was drawing too, anime/manga stuff but not that regularly like today. until i completely stopped because there was no real motivation but then spn came.. *o* and with it destiel came and THAT made me draw again more serious than ever! i dunno..an angel and a human in love, that sparked something inside me and i really, really wanted to draw them and get better and all of a sudden i was motivated and inspired again by their beautiful love and especially Cas is my fave thing to draw because he’s an angel.. *u* and overall an amazing character <33 and you guys are such a huge motivation to keep going so thanks a lot! <3 :’D

Do you think you’re justified in giving other people art advice? uhhh..more or less? :s i’m still very bad at anatomy and perspective so you shouldn’t ask me about that >_< but maybe i could help with shading and coloring..i dunno D: i don’t trust myself to be a good teacher.. xD

What are you currently trying to improve on? anatomy °^°

What is the most difficult thing for you to draw? ANATOMY!!! >A<

What is the easiest thing for you to draw? the easiest..nothing? xD everything is hard for me.. >_< except for shading/coloring and maybe expressions? 0:

Do you like to challenge yourself? yeah more or less? if i have an idea i really want to draw then i’m motivated enough to deal with the things i can’t draw well or never drew before. but i don’t practice on my own to draw just cars or buildings or anatomy.. >_< which i really should do but it’s not fun if there’s no story idea behind it :<

Are you confident that you’re improving steadily? yep i’ve improved a lot thanks to spn :D

Do you draw more fanart, or more original art? fanart fanart and more fanart c:

Do you feel jealous when you see other people’s art, or inspired? (Be honest!) jealous >_< and after that i feel like crap, thinking that THIS is real art and mine looks like crap all of a sudden =A= and then i think that i want to draw like that too and try to learn how they did it and get inspired :’D

Do you like to draw in silence, or with music? i did draw with music but these days it’s just the tv because i like some random noise and i can take my eyes off the screen and watch the show from time to time and then get back to drawing again c: or quiet movies are great for me too. i like it when they just talk like in “The Matrix” what is real? what is the matrix etc..it’s really calming this talking somehow = u = or lord of the rings is also one of my fave movies to draw to = u =

For digital artists: what program(s) do you use? paint tool sai <3 c:

For digital artists: how many layers does a typical piece require? uff..this years deancasreversebang piece which i finished last weekend has 100 layers.. °-°’’’ it really depends on how detailed a piece is because the more details the more layers i’ll add.. xD i’m just too scared to screw up another layer so i’ll make a new one just to be safe.. xD a simple piece has 5-6 layers or something c: but when i’m putting all my energy into it they become more..  haha ha HAHAHAHAAAAA:DDD

For traditional artists: what medium do you like most? (Pencil, charcoals, etc) pencil °3°

For traditional artists: How do you usually start on a big piece? (Light sketch, colored lead, sketchpaper, etc) i don’t °-°

What inspires you to not just make art, but to be a better artist? i think what inspires me the most is that i wanna tell stories with my art, i want to convey emotions and want to make people feel something and to see that i actually can cause these emotional outbursts on some people with just my art is the best thing ever..<3 i want to make them laugh, i want to make them cry and just happy :3 <3 it’s just great that they feel what i felt and that they understand what i wanted to say..<3 and yeah..i always wanna get better to touch peoples hearts <3 that’s pretty cheesy i know but this is what i love the most about art >u< and of course all of you with your tags and comments inspire me A LOT and you make me very happy :3 thank you so much! <333 <:3

alright that’s it :D i really don’t know who to tag so i just won’t do it. sorry :< if you want to be tagged just tell me and i’ll do it :D

[iateyourwaffles]

A somewhat short but long message to Yuri on Ice fans...

Lately, I haven’t been seeing any new works or projects from the Yuri on Ice fandom, also haven’t been seeing any content that’s reblog worthy for me to put up on my blog. Or pretty much just any sort of Yuri on Ice related content that really piques my interest, and honestly, it’s starting to bother me. I just wanted to say, what’s the big hold up, my Yuri on Ice fams? I remember back when the show was still in the middle of airing and even a few months after it finished airing, soo many people were making YoI AU’s, comics, fanfics, and fanart like crazy. Now, like ever since yesterday or day before or so, not many people are posting any new YoI content for me to reblog and like. I mean, sure there’s still some fanarts, and depictions of scenes from fans still floating around, but other than that, I feel as if the Yuri on Ice fandom is starting to slowly become silent. I’ve seen some fans who were big YoI fans, and then shortly after Yuri on Ice finished airing, the next day they changed their profile pics to something else, changed their usernames, and started to post other stuff and basically moved on from Yuri on Ice. I just have to say that they are missing out on a lot of good Yuri on Ice official arts and merch and events that’s going on right now and that has been released recently. In other words, they don’t know what they are missing. Too bad for them though, I kinda feel sorry for them. But if it’s their choice, then that’s fine. 

I know that fandoms usually die over a period of time, but it honestly just makes me a bit upset when an anime ends, most fans just move on to something else and never come or speak of that fandom ever again, and they just move on to whatever else that’s popular or is starting to become popular. I think that’s stupid, imo, and I honestly don’t get why most people do that. 

Anyways, I just want to say that for those of you who are still into Yuri on Ice and are huge fans of it, to not stop what you’re doing. I know this has been said before on another blog, but I just wanted to say it. I really love the creative side for Yuri on Ice, and all of the creative fans out there who make really amazing fanart, AU’s, AMVs, dance covers, fanfics, etc. I’m not the creative type, so I don’t bother writing fanfics, drawing, and stuff like that, but I do really enjoy looking at other people’s works, so you could say I’m just one of those fans that’s sort of just there, so I’m really not anyone special, unlike most of the Yuri on Ice fans who apart of the fandom here. (Hence why I don’t have too many followers, and not many people know of my existence here. Sort of like how i am in real life.)

Really though, I just think that you guys are really creative people and are very important to me and this fandom as a whole. You make really fun and enjoyable Yuri on Ice content that most of us fans enjoy, and I respect that. 

And the fact that I see these like awesome and incredibly amazing ice skaters who have experience in ice skating making covers of the skates from Yuri on Ice absolutely amazes me and has me literally blown away and even makes me a little jealous. (I mean I can barely even stand on the ice, let alone even skate and move on it. )

And kudos to the wonderful AMV makers as well. I mean, lately for the past few months or so, I’ve been watching nothing but Yuri on Ice AMVs like crazy, and I’m not ashamed to admit it. They are just amazing and I really love the awesome and breathtaking editing skills fans put into their AMVs. My likes on my youtube channel are literally cluttered with nothing but Yuri on Ice AMVs, and I listen to them all the time when I work out. xD

So pretty much to those of you who make awesome AUs, fanfics, fanarts, covers, dances, and pretty much anything else that really adds some entertainment and fun to the Yuri on Ice community, thank you. You are really helping out this fandom and proving to show that we truly love Yuri on ice, and that we really want a season 2 for Yuri on Ice, because it’s just that good. 

I don’t know about most people, but this anime has actually changed my view point on Love. And has really changed me as a person in general, actually. I know it may sound weird, but this anime kinda made me open up to others a bit more, and made me understand what the meaning of Love really means and such. It’s kind of a bit hard to explain, but that’s how I feel. Yuri on Ice has changed me in a lot of ways. And that’s one of the reasons out of like a billion of others as to why I love it soo much. So obviously, I’m not popping out of my little Yuri on Ice shell for a while now. Even though the fandom has it’s ups and downs (But there’s a bad side to every fandom though. No fandom is perfect.), it’s still a really great fandom. As I wouldn’t call it a very nice fandom, it is a fandom that really is pretty easy to get along with and I feel like all of us in this fandom can understand each other in a way, and it’s honestly just like we’re one big family.

I know this is kinda long, and very weird, and even a bit embarrassing, tbh, but I just wanted to let everyone of　you who’s apart of the Yuri on Ice fandom know that  I love you guys. 

[abi-the-weirdo]

1-30 because I'm a way too invested/interested gal (u don't have to answer the ones other people want to know)

Aaaa, thank you, friend!

Here we go then!

Do you prefer traditional drawing, or digital?

Traditional but I enjoy digital as well! It’s just… very different?

How long have you been drawing?

Pfffft I’ve been drawing for as long as I can remember. Started drawing digitally 2 years ago in photo shop though.

How many classes have you taken?

I’ve been taking a few classes in the weekends for about 9 years but I wasn’t learning much [was rather going there because I liked the atmosphere and because I was able to participate in many art competitions.

I’ve been taking architecture classes as well for half an year now!

Do you have a DeviantArt, personal website, or art blog?

Ah, well, this is my art blog actually! [personal blog: @the-creepy-unicorn]

And I also have an instagram account: thecreepyunicorn

What’s your favorite thing to draw?

Probably girls [just girls in general], my OCs and eyes [love putting details in them]

What’s your least favorite thing to draw?

Ooooh now this is an interesting one. Honestly, probably armors because they take WAAAAY TOO LONG.

How often do you use references?

For almost every drawing, usually character references to make sure I get the character right, poses references because… anatomy and angles… Yeah, as long as it’s not an OC I use references for everything.

Do you draw professionally, or just for fun?

Considering that I mostly post fanart, I would say I do it for fun! Bur I am also preparing a portfolio for an architecture university in the meantime…

How much time do you spend drawing on an average day?

It really depends! But far less than I want to. I usually doodle daily, a small sketch every day at least or I don’t feel good. It’s just a thing I do. But I don’t draw bigger projects such as requests until I really have time because I put a lot of effort in all the things I post and I can’t just work 40 minutes and let it go. I should draw so much more but… school… fuck school…

Are you confident about your art?

Hell no! I’m probably the biggest hater of myself [not just in art] especially when it comes to it because it really never seems to be goo enough. But it’s not like I can stop. Once you’ve started drawing, you can never go back, NEVER. I am always disappointed in my art and sometimes just hate everything about it but again, I can’t stop. So I’ll just wait to improve and maybe some day my art will actually be decent. 

How many art-related blogs do you follow?

MANY! A LOT! SUPPORTING ARTISTS IS VERY IMPORTANT WITH ALL YOU HAVE! ALWAYS! That’s why I let people see who I follow on this blog [90% of the people I follow here are art blogs and I just hope this comes as a mini shout out to them, even if it doesn’t get much because I’m not that good or popular, the people I follow here deserve all the love somebody can give.

Is it okay for people to ask you about your process?

SURE! I would never mind! I’m not that good but I maybe know a thing or two?

Do you prefer to keep your art personal, or do you like drawing things for other people?

Both. I mostly draw fanart but I always draw for myself, like doodles, sketches, OCs [nothing big though except the things I do for architecture]

Do you ever collaborate with others?

STILL WORKING ON OUR COLLAB DON’T THINK I FORGOT [it just takes a lot of time i’m sorry]. You [ @joolychuu ] are actually the only person I have collaborated so far thought! OwO

How long does an average piece take you to complete?

Weeks. Or at least 3 days for me to be OK with it. I can also do a small not s detailed piece in 2 hours as well but it usually takes me a lot of time because I put maximum effort in all my pieces. [even if the notes don’t show it]

Do you draw more today than you did in the past, or do you draw less?

Hard to say, really. I paint less but overall I think I do draw more.

Do you think you’re justified in giving other people art advice?

Not really? I Even thought I do it sometimes, I do it because those people ask for advice and I might not know a lot, but I am willing to share whatever I can with people interested. 

What are you currently trying to improve on?

I am trying to go back to a style. I want to be able to call that my style finally, to be pleased with “the personality” my drawings should have. I just want to have a style that people would see and say: OOOH IT’S HER! But I doubt I will ever be good enough…

What is the most difficult thing for you to draw?

Axonometric projections [architecture term] or request I don’t really enjoy. Skin is also a pain in the ass as well!!!

What is the easiest thing for you to draw?

Faces. Because I doodle and sketch them all the time.

Do you like to challenge yourself?

Usually yes, I like to try new thing but I don’t think I can say I have an “artistic comfort zone either..

Are you confident that you’re improving steadily?

No because I am not. I can’t see major fast progress. I can’t see a certain style, I can’t do big projects, I am not good at art but I try.

Do you draw more fanart, or more original art?

A mixture actually because I do traditional art to improve my lines and architecture knowledge but I draw fan art digitally for pleasure.

Do you feel jealous when you see other people’s art, or inspired? (Be honest!)

INSPIRED! I’ve learned to control my jealousy level and if I want to get in “the artsy mood” I usually just watch sketchbook tours or see my favorite artists’ or friends’ work. I AM ALWAYS SO HAPPY WHEN MY ARTIST FRIENDS GET NOTES OR FOLLOWERS OR ASKS I AM JUST SO HAPPY FOR THEM!

Do you like to draw in silence, or with music?

Music. I need to be disconnected from anything happening outside if I want to get focused and music just inspires me.

For digital artists: what program(s) do you use?

PhotoSop CS6 ! [also known as hell]

For digital artists: how many layers does a typical piece require?

Varies from 3 to 15. Depends on the style and the complexity.

For traditional artists: what medium do you like most? (Pencil, charcoals, etc)

Pencil! But painting with acrylic colors is also a BIG part of me.

For traditional artists: How do you usually start on a big piece? (Light sketch, colored lead, sketchpaper, etc)

I don’t do big pieces traditionally except for architecture classes and for paintings… depends on what I want to do and how I feel. Sometimes I don’t even do pencil sketch on canvas but if it’s for a present, I do at least 2 sketched before starting the linework on canvas and starting to paint.

What inspires you to not just make art, but to be a better artist?

My friends who are also artists and just good art in general. Also reblogs and likes and small “comment tags” or asks just mean SO MUCH for literally every artist. It just gives you the validation you sometimes need and represents that thing that just keeps you going.

THANK YOU FOR ASKING! 

[frenchibi]

Tagged~

Ok, hold on to your hats people because this is going to be a long-ass post. I have been told my cuts don’t work on mobile (?? TUMBLR PLS) so if this doesn’t work I sincerely apologize in advance for a lot of scrolling :’) Alright so I was tagged... like 6 times I think? And I’m just going to answer them all in here xD

Also I’m gonna tag a bunch of people and you can just... decide which ones you want to do, do several, do all of them, do none at all - whatever you prefer xD @cheatos @chxngsey @fairylights101writes @cheetahleopard @snowflakers @notinvidia @anyadisee @tallihoo @lalikaa @seijouho @astersandstuffs @phea-chan @owlkaashi-keiji @heirxx @thehibiscusthief @screamingnitrogenchallenge @fandang1

...alright, let the oversharing begin :’)

1. Tagged by @grand-king-toru (thank you, and you’re tagged in all the other ones too, obviously!!) and @queeniwaizumi (your tag was a little different but basically all your questions were in this one too so I didn’t do it separately FORGIVE ME TAT - and ofc you’re tagged too!!)

Favourite place: My apartment, or on top of a mountain, or in my car, or at my mom’s house, or in a Café in the center of my city where I can sketch people Relationship status: Single Favourite colour: Phtalo blue and magenta Pets: I have allergies :’) Last song I listened to: We Know The Way from Moana Favourite tv show: If we’re talking anime, it’s Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood (by a MILE). As for non-anime shows, I’m currently enjoying A Series of Unfortunate Events very much (those books were my childhood & I’m so pumped for this series you have no idea) First Fandom: Harry Potter probably, first anime fandom was Inuyasha Hobbies: writing, drawing, singing, skiing, driving my siblings places (being the oldest is GreatTM), currently trying to learn to play the guitar Books I’m currently reading: Ella Minnow Pea by Mark Dunn (and 50 others I started in Better Days™ when I had more time for reading) Favourite book: Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini, The Chaos Walking trilogy by Patrick Ness, Harry Potter by JKR, Howl’s Moving Castle by Dianne Wynne Jones, Die Stadt der Träumenden Bücher by Walter Moers Worst thing you’ve ever eaten/tasted: Milk that had gone off. It’s gross. Living alone is hard, please don’t make the mistakes I did.

2. Tagged by @seidou-chan (thank you, you’re also obviously tagged in all the others as well~)

Name: call me French :D Nickname: French, Frenchie Gender: female Sign: Pisces Height: 155cm Sexual Orientation: Pansexual Hogwarts house: Gryffindor/Ravenclaw Favourite colour: (see above) xD Favourite animal: Dolphins, Turtles, Owls Time right now: 1:15pm Average hours of sleep: Ideally 8, currently 3, I probably need to see a doctor about this Cat or dog person: Allergies :’) (tbh I love both ok) Favourite fictional character from Harry Potter: Ginny Weasley (, Sirius Black, Molly Weasley, Hermione Granger, Bellatrix Lestrange) Number of blankets you sleep with: One Favourite singer or band: currently Of Monsters and Men Dream trip: Cities! I love sightseeing :D Also Skiing, always skiing. Dream job: Musical singer/actress When was this blog created: 20..13? Started out as a Supernatural blog xD When did your blog reach its peak: Still climbing hopefully What made you decide to make a tumblr: blame @notinvidia

3. Tagged by @marleeb (ty friend, we haven’t talked much yet so sorry for the spam of information here xD Feel free to do whichever of these tags interests you :D)

5 things you’ll find in my bag: Notebooks (at least 3) Assorted pens Allergy medication My wallet Haikyuu keychains :D

(see also this post)

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom: An enormous bookshelf (ca 1,5k books, 850 mangas) Assorted recording devices & equipment A large easel and all sorts of art supplies (acrylics, aquarelles, watercolors, pastels, colored pencils, crayons, markers, modeling paste, ink, soapstone) The door to my kitchen xD My workspace w/ computers and legal dictionaries ^^

5 things I’ve always wanted to do in life: Publish a novel Raise children Own a house with a private library and a large conservatory full of plants Perform on a large stage (did that, was amazing, love to do it again) Become a translator (lol I had no idea what i was signing up for)

5 things that make me happy: Singing (is the ultimate joy of my life) and performing w/ my choir Getting feedback for my writing (makes me ecstatic ngl) and exchanging ideas with people My brilliant, lovely, multi-facetted family My warm, patient and understanding friends Being able to create, and share my ideas to people who care about them :D 5 things I’m currently into: Moana (it has consumed my life and my life is infinitely better for it) Haikyuu (and the wonderful people I’ve met through it) My original stories (which I cannot wait to work on more) A Series of Unfortunate Events (the netflix series is so great and it really lives up to the books in my opinion??) Wasting time on tumblr and ignoring the BA-thesis that I need to be writing (and my work because why be responsible)

5 things on my to-do list: *cringes* my thesis My invoices & VAT returns Get someone to help me change a lightbulb (this is not a joke, I’m short) Finish writing two letters to friends that I’m working on :D (though this one I’m looking forward to) Finish writing the 60+ fics I’ve started and work on my original projects too :’)

(what a boring to-do list is2g)

5 things people may not know about me: I OVERSHARE ALL THE TIME (you knew that) I’m a legal translator (German/English) and I work freelance I am allergic to EVERYTHING I…really love…girls… I speak 4 languages (and a fifth one barely) :D

4. Tagged by @ghost--fox (this was a while back and I’m sorry for being so slow ;-; THANK YOU FOR TAGGING ME!!! I did your other tag too, below this one :D - obviously you’re tagged in any of the above if you feel like it xD)

Rules: Put your music on “Shuffle” List the first 10 songs Tag 10 people

1. Avicii – Hey Brother 2. Nothing’s Carved In Stone – Spirit Inspiration (Zetsuen no Tempest Opening) 3. Suzanne Vega – The Queen and the Soldier (I’m gonna base an AU on this just you wait) 4. The Cab - Endlessly 5. Blue Stahli – Anti You 6. Ramin Karimloo – Show Me Light (Have I yelled about how much I love him? I love him!!) 7. All Time Low – Cinderblock Garden 8. Genesis – Follow You Follow Me (I have no regrets, love me some 80s Phil Collins) 9. Ayumi Hamazaki – Dearest (Inuyasha Ending) 10. Nightmare – Sekai Wo (Death Note Opening)

5. Tagged again by @ghost--fox :D THANK YOU!!

A - Age: 21 soon xD B - Biggest fear: not making a difference C - Current time: 2:08pm (this took long omg) D - Drink you last had: I actually bought a fresh coconut and drank it :0 (my allergies are like “uhm girl that was a bad choice” but tbh it was worth it) E - Every day starts with: Removing my retainer and taking my allergy meds F - Favorite song: Empire by Of Monsters and Men and Invincible by Hedley G - Ghosts, are they real: Idk fam H - Hometown: Munich I - In love with: being inspired & motivated?? it’s the BEST?? J - Jealous of: healthy people K - Killed someone: couldn’t even if I wanted to L - Last time you cried: Out of frustration in December M - Middle name: Johanna (after my grandmother) N - Number of siblings: 4 (3 + an older step-sister I see twice a year) O - One wish: Stop using religion as an excuse for hate crimes P - Person you last called/texted: My dad/my friend Nina respectively Q - Questions you’re always asked: Can you chill? / Can you drive me to [place]? / How’s it going with your thesis? - pls But also: Are you doing okay? / Do you need me to listen? / Sing with me? – YES THANK YOU R - Reasons to smile: Fanfiction and fanart exists. Hot chocolate, tea and fluffy blankets. Music, Art, Books, Stories. Stars & the sky. Brilliant people are making brilliant things every day. A small act of kindness from you to a stranger can make all the difference. S - Song last sang: The Lasset uns nicht zerteilen chorus from Bach’s Johannespassion in my singing lesson (in preparation for our next choir concert), and then assorted Hamilton songs on my drive home xD T - Time you woke up: 7am U - Underwear color: dark blue V- Vacation destination: Cities w/ lots of art & culture :D W - Worst habit: biting my fingernails & cuticles I HATE MYSELF X - X-rays you’ve had: lots for my teeth (wrecked a tooth and used to have braces also), one for my knee after a hiking accident Y - Your favorite food: lasagna (w/ meat or spinach honestly I like both a lot) Z - Zodiac sign: Pisces

...and lastly, 6. Tagged by  @missellaineous (this is also super old I apologize but I liked your questions so :D - feel free to do any of the other tags if you want xD)

1. What can’t you sleep without? My phone. Literally I use it as an alarm clock xD 2. What are your favorite kind of socks? :0 I like big fluffy warm ones – and also I like skiing socks because they fit really tightly and they’re also super warm xD 3. What’s your favorite snack/meal/drink? Atm I am very weak for cookies (I have… phases. At one point I ate so many gummy bears that now I just cannot), my favorite food is lasagna and my favorite drink is water or tea (no milk, no sugar, I dislike sweet drinks except if it’s hot chocolate xD) 4. What’s your favorite kind of weather? …do you know the artist Yuumei? A lot of her pictures have spectacular skies that are like… the sun breaking through dark clouds after a storm? That. That’s my favorite weather. It’s so… motivational and  hopeful? Idk, but I love it. 5. What do you like to listen to/do to relax and feel better when you’re upset? I love the songs from musicals because they’re great to sing along to and singing always improves my mood :D I have endless love for Les Mis, Phantom of the Opera and Hamilton atm. Also what always helps me is, in my mom’s words, to “talk to someone who doesn’t hate you”. Because I tend to hate on myself a lot when I’m upset (for not being better, happier, healthier, enough) and it helps to talk to my friends, who objectively don’t think I’m as awful as I tend to think I am ^^ And they’re all really kind and understanding (and/or blunt when I need someone to tell me to snap out of it). 6. What’s your favorite store to shop at? HOO BOY ok I love bookstores (because duh, books) and lately I’ve also been loving Muji a lot? xD Also we have an art supply chain here in Germany that has GREAT STUFF and I always go overboard xD 7. What color do you wear the most? Black probably, but that’s because most of my pants/leggings are black. Other than that I own a lot of blue and also a lot of red, esp. dresses :D 8. What’s your favorite (video/board/social/party) game to play? That’s hard?? I don’t play a lot of video games but I absolutely adored Undertale. Funnily enough we play card & board games a lot when we meet with my old friends from school, but tbh I don’t have a favorite. I recently learned how to play Skat, which is really enjoyable? (Google tells me apparently that’s mainly a German thing, ok.) And, eh, I’m not a big fan of parties & party games ^^ 9. Any guilty pleasures? When I have time, I watch objectively bad or cliché anime and write commentary xD Also I spend way too much time playing The Sims if I’m totally honest... and scrolling through my dash. Damn. 10. If you could go anywhere (in real life or in fiction), where would it be? Or fiction??? HOGWARTS?!?! Teach me all the magic pls?! …ok but for real though I would love to visit some of my online friends :’)

Alright that’s it, thank you all again and sorry I’m slow and this is a huge post full of way too much information, I’m gonna let myself out now

[koolkitty9]

Why I Love Yumoto!

This is for @mindsebbandflow‘s new giveaway!!! To be honest, I literally have no great idea on how to express my love for my favorite character in Boueibu…but here we go!

If you’ve followed me long enough (or even by looking at my current icon), Yumoto is my favorite character (Besides Akoya and Atsushi). I actually fell in love with Yumoto as soon as I saw him in Episode one. Not because he was a protagonist but because of how silly he was. I also found him very adorable and Usagi-like. 

Now I’ve talked about him a LOT…now under the cut, I’m going to talk about how Boueibu affected my life and what else I think about Yumoto.

What Boueibu did to me:

Before Boueibu, I was in the Beatles’ fandom, writing fanfictions for my OTP at the time and was even called the Queen of my OTP. I personally never felt welcomed in there at times and slowly began to disappear from the fandom…when my sister showed me a gif set of these five boys:

Needless to say, I was hooked. My sister watched the first episode WITHOUT ME! I actually started watching it the second week it was airing and I quickly watched the first episode…and then the second and COULDN’T WAIT for the next episode. Then…I forgot about it…and then I remembered that I needed to finish it! (It was only up to episode 5 or 6 at the time) 

Then I watched more of it! Forgot about it until the FINAL episode aired! I was so amazed by it, that I watched episode 12 TWICE. Then I looked up the tag…and slowly joined a lovely kind fandom. You won’t believe how many times  I’ve watched season 1 too. It’s a lot, probably like 10 times now

 Eventually, I started to make Boueibu theory videos and ideas on my youtube channel (keep in mind that I use my crap web camera for videos and if you want to send me a new one pm me ;) )…in fact one of my videos of season 2 about the VEPPer has over 1,300 views on it! Boueibu has really made me happy and made me feel like I finally belong in a fandom…

Now back to fluff head!

Yumoto, like I said is my favorite character, when I got my season 2 OP CD, I literally screamed when I saw him (It’s also a video on my youtube lol). I have always found him cute and innocent. Most people found him annoying, but I never have. He’s just gdjasdgdsj;klsd I love him so much.

His personality is so funny and I wish I were like him…but I really think he’s hiding something…

One of my favorite things about him though is how much he truly loves his friends. I also love how En and Atsushi are basically his parents during school and during battles. Heck, in my AU En literally taught Yumoto to call Atsushi "mama" because of this. I even wrote a fic with Atsu-mama and Yumoto lol.

I love Yumoto’s bond with Gora and am TOTALLY jealous of it too! Their bond is actually one of the hardest things for me to write too and I wish I could write it better! 

Yumoto and Gora’s relationship makes me happy (like I said above) and I almost feel like their parents are dead…which makes me sad. 

I’ve felt bad for Yumoto ever since the series started too, I just had the feeling that he was bullied/a loner in school before meeting the DC. This shows a lot in season two and when he went into berserk mode, this showed that he really isn’t all sunshine and rainbows.

When I saw that part (the berserk mode) of episode 12, it made me wonder about his evil side coming out. Wombat basically called Yumoto the embodiment of love in the first novel (even though Gora told Wombat to stop that because Yumoto is Yumoto only)…so that makes me wonder what Yumoto truly is. 

Also, he loves pandas, and so do I. 

Which this goes to a theory I have (and this sort of ties into my God of Love AU, well…this theory made me start that AU) Which you can read here along with my other Boueibu fics!

Yumoto was once a God (or a Prince with powers…?) but was reborn into a mortal(Similar to the SPOILER for Skyward Sword whole Hylia being reborn as Zelda). This theory really only came from Wombat saying that, and to be honest, I’d love if Season three would maybe go into that (but with EVERYONE a part of it, not just him).

Heck, even draw fanart for the kid (and in fact Boueibu art has helped me improve on my art too!) But I still can’t draw hands xD You can see more here

This kid is also usually my focus in fics too! If Yumoto hadn’t been a character, then my OC Araki wouldn’t exist (who I really only made to give Yumoto a first-year friend because I felt bad for him!) 

Now to my merch! I have season 1′s OP, season 2 OP and ED, a Yumoto gashapon, Cerulean strap and card, and two wall scrolls along with my items I’ve recently gotten from Nardaviel. I got the scrolls at a con and screamed when I saw them…

Yumoto really is my favorite and I wish I could express my love for him more but can’t seem to get the correct words out. Like my love for this kid is so great  I know I didn’t go into crazy details, but this is how I feel about Yumoto c:

I can’t seem (again) to put it out in words!

I truly love Yumoto and Boueibu, and I am so glad to be a part of this amazing fandom. Thank you for reading this long post c: I know it’s probably not the best thing written, but my brain is fried and tired from school.