#i am gay and insane sry

[katbam]

Using all my brain power to telepathically tell pokemas staff to add faba dont worry guys im on it

[1moreoffkeyanthem]

Aight here’s a few of my favorite SP fics that no one asked for

I’m generally more of a one shot kinda lad but since getting into South Park I’ve read SO MANY GREAT longer ones so here’s just some highlights: (all on ao3)

Ship In A Bottle FayOfTheForest. One of the first sp AU’s I read, we got PIRATES. HOMOEROTIC SWORD FIGHTING. WLW CREEK. SLOW BURN STYLE. (Injured stan my beloved) KENNY. BUNNY. The parents SUCK. Literally such a kickass story!

This House of Mine by OrcaTimes. VIOLENCE. GANG ACTIVITY. CREEK. I really love the characterization of everyone in this fic, especially Craig. Seriously man. Also THE K2 IN THIS SLAYS (we got some PRIME Kyle injury too god I love him) THE ENDING IS SO SATISFYING TOO!!!

Peppermint by boxwinebaddie. Bro. Literally my all time favorite style fic. I’m so serious. The writing and story are BEAUTIFUL LIKE SO FUCKING AMAZING The PINING. THE HEADCANONS. I COULD GO ON FOR HOURS. Pls if you check out any of my Recs READ THIS ONE.

Maybe For Real This Time & The Kids Are Alright by WeirdBBQDad. Dude. I have no words other than KENNY FUCKIN MCCORMICK. Also Style. Also families. Just- just check it out.

Hang ‘Em High by littledeathsinmusicalbeds. Cowboy au. Creek. Established Style. Bounty hunter Kenny. Massive slay.

The Thief Trilogy by wintergrew. WHEN I SAY IT LIVES IN MY HEAD RENT FREE. The world building is PHENOMENAL literally my favorite SOT AU OF ALL. Long as hell, but SO worth the read holy fuck. I adore Stick Of Truth.

You’re The Prettiest Boy I’ve Ever Seen by burnt_pancakes. CREEK. STYLE. MISCOMMUNICATION. BUNNY. KENNY IN GENERAL. the friendships in this are PERFECT.

Your name written upon mine by sooduhnim. SOT STYLE. Soulmate au that’s INCREDIBLE seriously I love this one and can’t wait for an update.

How We Began by PastorCraigEnjoyer. Ok yes I’m cringy as shit for the self promo but this is my favorite long fic that I’ve written. Slow burn SOT STYLE, no war just fantasy gays falling in love, injury, sickfic, all my favorite bullshit and I loved writing it ok.

N1SM by kiritila. A classic in the fandom. Style. A masterpiece.

Between the Sinners and the Saints by KaiterTot. Oh. My. God. When I say this one altered my brain chemistry… THE ENDING DUDE HOLY-

A Few Last Wolves by Jwink85. Yes, I am a resident of the State Of Style by way of Creek Nation but this is Cryle. And it’s a slay. If y’all liked Frank and Bills episode in TLOU, it’s kind of an au of that. It works man.

Winter Butterfly ALSO by Jwink85 and ALSO Cryle. What can I say it’s incredible. The Style in the beginning is CUTE until shit hits the fan, too, and I thought this fic was a really interesting take on all the characters and relationships. I adore Tweek in this one too.

Something Sweet Like Honey by bluebryy. Ok this one is unsettling and creepy Craig makes me feel icky but I cannot WAIT for an update on that fic, I got my fingers crossed for Style endgame. Also CHECK OUT THEIR ART ON HERE they converted me to a short king Kyle truther and it’s a slay tbh.

Ladies and Gentleman We Are Floating In Space by gremlinteeth. A classic. The first sp multi chapter I read. THE LORE BRO. CREEK. STYLE. STANS CHARACTERIZATION GOES SO HARD HES MY BOIIIII

Ok. That’s all my recs for now. Sry for being insane.

[enlighten3d]

okok soo gonna try to put a timeline for janette and adele’s relationship/story! (in order)

-They both meet at the town’s pub (adele being there after an argument with josh, her husband, and janette being there after a problem at the church)

-They end up flirting, adele lying about being married and end up hooking up basically (but before that janette explained her being aro-spec to just put put there that she isn’t wanting anything romantic and adele pretended to listen)

-They then end up in a friends with benefits relationship (adele’s husband josh is oblivious to this she’s definitely not telling him) for a couple of months and janette says that she hopes they can be friends as well

-Adele refuses that, since she has very complex feelings about aro-spec people (adele your arophobia is showinggg/hj) and thought they had a romantic relationship(since she didn’t believe janette) and they don’t speak for a while after an argument over that

-During that time, Janette has to (forced by her mum’s ghost) carry out a ritual of sorts to solidify a next heir to run the cult when janette’s dead and she doesn’t want to give up her nephew so she chooses a girl named Carmela (i have lore for her too) and due to the prophecy (that this ritual is based off) carmela has to hurt/kill a loved one, and it ends up being her boyfriend ryan beckett, adele’s son!

-This ends up with him loosing an arm and adele immediately knows who’s behind this (janette) and decides to carry out her own form of revenge (of her son and herself since she thinks janette was manipulative in their short lived relationship- adele darling stop making things worse)

-Said revenge ends up being burning down the cult building and Janette ends up being in it when that happens and she burns alive (uh oh) and adele thinks that’s been taken care of

-Until Janette comes back alive thanks to weird monster/spirits that give her life basically except with a catch- which is that if she cuts her skin in anyways, blue flowers and vines will burst through her skin and probably kill her again

-She’s forced to stay out of the town since if she walked back in, she’d be killed on sight (weird rules that i can explain) so she has to figure out how to kill adele

AND THATS ALL I HAVE! FOR NOW! So basically yeahh adele is kind of a shitty person!!! I have more lore for all the characters so if you have any questions pls do send them my way! (i live for questions about my lore/hj) :D these characters stay in my head aghh toxic yuri beloved uhmm okok byee this was longer than i thought oopsies

(sry this took a hot sec to reply to)

oooh boy.. this truly is VERY toxic yuri... i want to fight adele ngl. as an aromantic person, i am staring at her and Judging.

adele is on some shit.. sgdhdnf

ARSON. ARSON AS REVENGE 👍👍 IS YOUR SONS ARM GONE?? ARE YOU AROPHOBIC AND VERY GAY?? THE SOLUTION IS ARSON.

gods i feel bad for josh... he knows Nothing. poor guy.

OOH THATS FUN.. (janette being cursed like that). are bruises and shit okay?? if its severed skin specifically... oh boy yeah shes not gonna last long is she.. paper is her mortal enemy...

whys she gotta stay out of town?

ALSO WHAT DOES THE CULT WORSHIP. I AM SO CURIOUS. IS THE EXISTENCE OF THESE SPIRITS WIDESPREAD KNOWLEDGE, OR JUST SHIT THAT THIS CULT KNOWS?

was adele insane before she met janette or was she always this way

does janette know it was adele who started the fire...

WHAT ARE CARMELAS THOUGHTS ON ALL THIS (esp the having to fuck up her boyfriend... do they break up afterwards.. does he know it was her...)

i have so many questions /pos

[crazylittlejester]

I’m hopping on the train that eats and Twi say the most Batshit insane stuff when theyre drunk, and the chain get to hear it!

twi: *drunk walking over to a also drunk wars sprawled out by the fire* homie are you like…good?

wars: Nah bro, I’ve been feeling kind of penis lately tbh

Twi: like in the gay way

wars: no like the sexy depression way yknow?

twi: oh yea dude I totally get it, I feel penis like..all the time

wars: in a gay way?

Twi: kind of but like in a bisexual but gay bisexual way

wars: that’s metal dude I think the gays are a little funky sometimes but I fw them

Twi: wars..literally kill yourself

wars: brooo I tried like 50 times before it never works

Twi: Man that sucks have you ever considered getting therapy? Do u Fw therapy bro?

wars: Nah all the therapist are woman, and Cia fucked up my woman perception so I usually just screamed at them

Twi: bro, misogyny is like, really not a vibe tho tbh.

wars: Ik like I fw feminists and lesbians and stuff but like…all the therapist ladies are girls. So I have to cope by blasting Lana del Ray at night

Twi: bro that’s not healthy tbh, Lana del Ray sucks literal ass pussy

wars: yea ik but like what else am I gonna listen to?

Twi: idk bro do u Fw smash mouth?

wars: yea ig

twi: ok then listen to them or some shit

wars: do they fw woman

Twi: yea I’m pretty sure, I don’t think they’re misogynists Time, are smash mouth misogynists

time: I don’t fucking know son

wars: Ah man I can’t listen to them, they Fw with woman and shit I’m gonna have a panic attack if I listen to one of they’re songs. I guess it’s back to Lana del Ray for now

Twi: Wars you dumb dumb bubble gum ass bitch Lana del ray is like literally a woman

wars: Oh shit bro, guess I gotta kms now ig

Twi: nooo don’t Kys your so sexy aha

Wars: we’re like literally siblings bro that’s like not cool, plus I’ve been objectified by ppl my entire life don’t ruin of my perception of men too

Twi: I’m sry man are we chill

wars: yea we chill

legend: *watching from the other side* what the fuck is wrong with them

wild: I honestly have no idea

wind: I know I should be concerned but this is really fucking funny

Time: I’m gonna kms

anon did you by any chance send me an mini fic prompt on april 15th about wars with an eating disorder that was several paragraphs long and end it with ‘don’t forget to mew’? because the writing style is eerily similar 😭

also the idea that they know modern artists is funnier than it has any right to be

[ur-all-so-annoying-on-here]

In some arguments the basic ideas and state of facts of the parties are so different that arguing would be pointless. Like what am I gonna do, explain that the whole thing is insane medical malpractice? Sry but even if the reason the guy was targeted is that he was j-- it's not gonna change the fact that he was a eugenicist. The concept of gender identity didn't even exist back then, but sure. Also like - my dude even if you accuse me of things that doesn't make them true. I know my views fairly well and if you even have to clarify that you wanted to accuse me of sth different but you cant bc I gave the definiton before, then like. I'm not taking a word you say seriously. If the worst thing doesn't work bc of that then I'm not taking you srls just bc u used the second worst thing you could think of.

The historical revisionism is wild. Tw were not targeted for their 'gender identity' but for the fact that they were -generally correctly- assumed to be gay men. That one reply killed me - they wrongly assumed he was a gay man and killed him for that. My dude the killing him was obv wrong but the assumption was correct. They want special victimhood so bad and for some reason it's prohibited to even fucking question whether any of their shit makes any sense. Literally parroting homophobic eugenicist bullshit and no idea. This will be a massive medical malpractice scandal in sth like 10-20 years and then they will come out like 'wow how could anyone think this was a good idea with those roots' and we can only hope history hasn't been revised so much that we can't find the truth anymore by that point. This idea that the 'progressive' take must be to moral and soon-to-be-proven-correct one is so goddamn harmful. We're gonna run into this soon because of multiple topics. Sometimes new ideas are wrong. Or based on terrible science. Or a nice idea that just turns out not to work. Left doesn't equal correct, it's a political ideology and nothing more.

The current sucking up in particular to tras feels like a fever dream. Sure, we'll ignore reality :) whatever :) you want us to say this? Sure we will! Sources? Well, if you read them in this one specific way that's totally unnatural then you will see that we have one :) maybe two if you redefine a word :)

Not looking forward to the fallout of this for ssa people. Considering we're kind of a victim of this id think this wouldnt be a problem but the general public aint smart.

[nenastrology]

I feel like this whole ff thing gets taken so seriously for all the wrong reasons. like idk some ppl just write cuz it's fun not bc they consider themselves or aspire to be the next literary genius. it's crazy how surreal and unimportant this debate seems when u look outside the internet box

sry 2 send u asks about this lol but i think part of whats rly irritating sbt the fanfic discourse for lack of a better words is that a lot of ppl sct as if every published book is written by a bigoted cishet white man and that fanfic is inherently more progressive than published books and completely ignore ther are wonderful authors who arent bigoted cishet white man and completely ignore how much of a nightmare fandom spaces are

LITERALLY i feel like quite honestly the entire debate seems to be people building up strawmen of the absolute worst parts of the other community and like using that to honestly just sit around feeling extremely smug both in the sense of like somehow positioning writing as this pure media designed only for like inspiring intense contemplation and seemingly like... forgetting that plenty of media exists mostly as simple entertainment and its ridiculous to pretend otherwise (not to say that media like that is devoid of themes or anything to analyze i am a blog devoted to never shutting up about naruto after all lol just that things have different goals and people have different reasons for consuming said media) and then on the flip side people act like somehow fanfiction and fandom by extension are these wonderful bastions of free expression and just like love and positivity when like i swear the majority of people who hold that opinion are like people who seem to believe romanticizing and sexualizing everything under the sun and trying to destroy anyone who dares criticize it is like the ultimate form of free expression and creativity.... like truly fandom is a goddamn nightmare zone and its insane to me how people enjoy pretending that doesnt exist...like honestly its kind of wild how people act like its some kind of great place for lgbt people to find themselves in media uwu when like until very recently i feel like fanfic was practically synonymous with like straight women writing extremely weird and fetishized portrayals of gay men and like... femslash is still sooooo hard to find like truly id love to know where this great representation is lol like thats changed a lot but my god some of the shit i found as a child truly scarring i think... idk the entire discussion is like this ridiculous ego stroking mental exercise that u probably just lose when u open the conversation up and yet .. it just keeps coming up constantly

[schaefferisqueen]

Holy Musical B@man Song Ranking

I OMG this was so hard there are only like 10 songs how am I supposed to rank this or Starship omgggggg. anyway I love HMB cuz COSTUMES and SONGS and CAST holy shit its so funny and amazing I love (June and Nick Gage went OFF) so..um. controversy as always

9.To Be a Man (Ok... I know a lot of ppl like this but,, I just,,,,, don't? like I love and totally ship superman/batman but I don't rlly like this song. its funny but I don't think its as funny as everyone says it is so I sry, its low. oh well. but Brian and Joe slay as always and Brian slamming the dummy of Joe is great too)

8. Robin Sucks (a lot of ppl hate this song but I think its hilarious, sadly..... but not hilarious or good enough to be higher oh well. I hate that this only has 9 songs cuz they so hard to rankkkkkk ughhhh. I honestly love the tune and shit to this song and Lauren is hilarious especially when she sings w/o pants I dieeeee)

7. Dynamic Duet (I lOVE THIS it was higher but then,,,,, it wasn't,,,, so oh well. but omg nick and Joe are so funnnnnyyyyyy. and the KICKLINE A KICKLINE IS INEVETABLEEEEEEEEEE sry I had to the kick line is amazing and everyone joining in is the best thing in the whole fucking world change my miiiiiinnnddd. also joe and nick killing everyone they come across is also hilarious I cantttt)

6. Dark, Sad, Lonely Night (yesssss joeeeeeee do I need to explaninnnnnnnn???? I never had a pony or pets, just some bull shit butler building bullshit jets OOOOAHHHHHH omg its so gooooodddd. I wanted to make it higher buttttt I like the others more I sorrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyy anyways this song slaps so hard and every joining in is amazing I loveeeee)

5. Holy Musical B@man (YAY GO DYLANNNNNN YESSS KINGGGGG Dylan slays if anyone else but him or nick gage had sung this it would be lower Istg. but Dylan kills it and the opening is hilarious and crazy Jeff killing batmans parents omg so funny its so good aaaahhhhh amazing opening numberrr)

4. Super Friends (omg I love its so funnnyyyy and actually like heartfelt and shit and all of nicks little lines are amazinggg and Nico saying them at homecoming and joey at geeky con 2015 holy shit its so funny joey messing them up is so worth it and amaizngggggg. ugh OMG THE HARMONIES AT THE ENDDD and nick sings the no more dark sad lonely niiiiigggghttttsss  ya know the high part Lauren and jaime sing every time ITS SO FUNNY AND AMAZING AND NICK GO OFFFFF)

3. Rogues Are We (ok so if u know me u surprised by this and I don't blame u. I LOVE ROGUES R WE SO MUCH also ROGUES MEDLEY CAME FROM THIS FUCKING SONGGGGG I LOVE IT SO MUCH howeverrr I like the last two more oops sorry ANYWAYS omgggg Dylan and jaime and Denise and nick Strauss KILLL ITTTTT AAAAHHHHH they are so amazinggg and onmgggg I cant and jaime going and a dirty way to win YEASSHHHHH aaaaahhhhh I like just figured out im ace but holy shit am I gay for her I love her and everyone somuchhhhh alsooooo apocalyptour KILLSS SITTTTTT ANHIAUHFJDHF)

2. The American Way (ok this song is hilarious cuz the CONTRAST like Brian being all good and holy and Joe being like MONEYYYY and Jeff is certifiably insane is great this is starkid chaos at its best FIGHT MEEEEE I fucking love so muchhhhh ahaaahhha. also the choreography SLAPS and Jeff with his cane and everyone like waddling and shit on and off stage and the END ING AHAHAHAHkahgkjdhfj)

1. Rogues Are We (Reprise) (OKAY GO OFFFFFF JAIME AND JEFFF and joey in apocalyptour and concerts and shit BUT OMG YESSSSS SO AMAZINGGGG AHAHHA this is my fave fucking song and sometimes I forget that it is LONGER than the actual rogues song and I find that hilarious too ahdkfhdkjfhkajh I loVEEEE akdhfjkdhfkd like YESSSS SWEEETT TOOOOOTHTHTHHTH ugh u absolute kING and poison ivy too I cnattttttt)

ok so,,,,, once again Thank you if u read the whole thing I apologize for chaos HMB is one of my fave starkid shows and I have 0 control over anything when I type these hehehehe. and there we SO MANY key smashes lmao its great I loveee anyways thank youuuuuu! Starship is already ranked I just need to add commentary! it should be out next week!

<3, alimay ok so this is like a month ish after I wrote this and omfg I was crazy,,, but ya I have no control over my brain and hmb (especially since I just finished behind the curve reaction to it akihdfkjahdkj) but ya hope you enjoyed I fucking love hmb so ya 

[mikeshanlon]

goddd I cannot believe u have read iwwv u don't know me but for some reason we watch like.. the same shows and now books lol. anyway can I ask what were ur thoughts on the ending? like to me at least it was onvious Oliver had not done it and he wasn't gonna pull a unreliable narrator last minute (despite being an unreliable narrator) I'm talking abt the whole uhh James is a**** thing.. like what HAPPENS NEXT? is he w wren? also I feel so bad for meredith like girl love urself.. sry 4 the essay

omg yes taste!!!! Also no I’m dying to talk abt this novel so don’t apologize if anything im sorry bc I wrote way too much answering ur question LGRNLRGN

IF WE WERE VILLIANS SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT go read it if u haven’t it’s legendaric

Okay the ending!!!! AH!!!! Okay yeah so I think it’s clear Oliver did not do it, I think the ambiguity lies more whether or not James intentionally killed Richard or if it was an accident. Like, did he see Richard stumbling out in the woods hella intoxicated and think to himself that this was the perfect opportunity to get revenge for all the abuse and torture Richard had been terrorizing him with??? Did he lie to Oliver? Personally, I believe James that it was an accident… of sorts. I don’t think James set out with the intention to kill Richard at all. But Richard was goading him and fighting him and after the buildup of cruelty and tension between them over the past few months, Richard be a homophobic dick and calling James and Oliver qu*er and prodding at the most important relationship in James’ life struck a nerve. So when Richard wanted to keep fighting and hurt him again he was like fuck this and he hit Richard too hard with the hook and that in tandem with Richard being drunk caused Richard to fall and die. And, like the others, James felt awful but there was a sort of sick sense of relief.

(Also, I’m not exactly sure Oliver counts as an Unreliable Narrator. I mean he is certainly keeping some things from that detective guy but, and I was reading something from M.L. Rio about this, like he’s literally just oblivious and dumb as fuck sometimes LKGNLRGLKNRG. So idk how often he’s intentionally Unreliable but I also get what you mean)

Anyways I’m totally a believer that James is alive bc despite enjoying dark stories im like okay but I need a happy ending LGKNLKRGlkenlgneg. Like c’mon they never found the body……….. A metaphorical death and shedding of his past life bc he blames himself for Oliver taking the fall is like the MOST tragic hero Shakespearean shit ever like it just works so well!!!!!! The part where Oliver describes the last time James visited him in jail…

“Oliver I’m begging you,” he said. “I can’t do this anymore.” When I refused again, he pulled my hand across the table, kissed it, and turned to leave. I asked where he was going and he said, “Hell. Del Norte. Nowhere. I don’t know.” (343).

GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd. God. Anyways I think that was very telling of his plans. Hell (for “committing suicide”, moreso for all of his wrong doings). Del Norte is the beach that him and Oliver slept on that one night and so I feel like that place holds a lot of significance for them, but it’s a place only those two know the significance of. So, I like to think he ran away there and started a new life. He wrote that letter with the disjointed Pericles monologue I think to hint to Oliver that he was at Del Norte, if he wanted to find him, because even though his “death” was a self-punishment for ruining Oliver’s life, he still cares for him a lot and doesn’t want to be without him. Like a whole monologue about the sea????????? The fact that he literally said the monologue to Oliver while they were at Del Norte?? “To give my tongue that heat to ask your help; / Which if you shall refuse, when I am dead, / For that I am a man, pray see me buried.” LIKE WHAAAAAAAAAAT god !!!! Also water is gay<3 and in my heart Oliver goes and finds him and they like work through shit and are together.

Anyways I don’t really think he’s with Wren. Their relationship during senior year was always sort of ambiguous to me…. Like they definitely got super close, they probably were romantically involved in some capacity (since other characters like Alexander who is much more perceptive were like Oliver how did it take you this long to notice LRGNRGNK) though idk if it was like the Encompassing Love Affair Oliver thought it to be bc he’s oblivious and jealous. And also like James was very much enamored with Oliver so idk. (EDIT i just remembered they slept together LMAO but i think my point still stands) In the epilogue Wren is in London and is a recluse and doesn’t reach out to any of the Villains which like. Good for her LRGNRLG even though I hated Richard I can’t imagine like how much of a toll that took on her to see her cousin die and all their friends be like uh yeah we should let him die and then have to keep up a lie like… even though she agreed Richard was awful that has to be so heart wrenching (badumtss) and life ruining. So I think she especially wouldn’t want to be with James seeing as he essentially led Richard to fall into the lake, though I’m not sure if she knows that or not.

And Meredith!!!! Like I’ll be real sometimes she frustrates me but I think she’s also SUCH an interesting and realistic character (which is something I love about this novel, all the characters are interesting to me and I like how the female characters are portrayed.... like i LOVE Fillipa she is such a bad ass bitch but again she’s not just like. Expected to always be strong and clever like she’s got feelings too. Anyways love her). As I said before I was perusing through the author’s tumblr a bit and ppl were like “omg why did Meredith go through all the male friends” like BYEEE literally feeding into the stereotypes that made her feel insecure and weak… (Also again, they’ve known each other for four years… so its not that insane lmao). I think Meredith’s relationship with her sexuality and beauty is very interesting and relatable for a lot of women (I mean I am not. Like a seductive femme fatale like she is but LGKNKRGN). On one hand she is definitely a multifaceted person who is more than her sexuality, on the other, she’s constantly Literally Cast by Gwendolyn in sexualized roles and seen as sexualized by her friends/bf (Richard) and constantly told her worth in and out of the theatre is her body. Like there is an interesting duality about the power she possesses with her sexuality but also the extreme insecurity that is bred by being constantly sexualized and this struggle of like knowing she has worth outside of her body but also sort of … not in the eyes of others. That scene where they’re doing those exercises of their strengths and weaknesses really Hit. Anyways yes Meredith love urself queen… get a hot respectful gf… become a powerful successful legend…..

Related-ish sidenote, obviously I like James and Oliver together the most though I will say Meredith and Oliver’s relationship was interesting though ultimately unhealthy…. Like one of the aspects I like about their relationship is Oliver respects Meredith and when he realizes he is falling into that idea that Meredith is this super sexualized person he’s like hold awn that’s shitty of me… But also I think the fact of the matter is that their relationship was catalyzed by shitty stuff,,, like lust and the need for revenge. Like I honestly don’t really think they would’ve gotten together if not for the extreme animosity with Richard and the adrenaline of like that whole show run and more particularly That Night…. It feels like they got together because they were drunk and they’re attractive, which like yeah fine valid, but also, subconsciously, to be like fuck you Richard. Like, guess what I’m with the guy who you’re constantly saying doesn’t matter. And also seeking comfort and validation when their most important people are not valuing them (Richard being literally fucking awful to Meredith, James sort of pushing Oliver away—again I think subconsciously was sort of a revenge jealousy type thing where Oliver is with the person that James doesn’t really like and makes not amazing comments about being promiscuous). And then their relationship I think keeps going because like. Wow grief is a bitch and they want some comfort. Meredith is drawn to Oliver because he’s one of the only people who values her for more than just a sexual object which like is What She Deserves but their relationship is like a mess of sex and guilt and Oliver is in love with James (the parts where Meredith drags Oliver for caring more about James… iconic as she should! Like when Oliver is like sorry James is visiting me I’m not coming or when she’s like are you more jealous of him or me when they kissed for that scene….. OOP!). Anyways idk if that makes sense but I find Oliver and Meredith’s relationship interesting bc it’s not like… the worst unhealthy relationship ever or anything and I think there is genuine care and love/attraction there between them but like Oliver is never going to totally Be What Meredith deserves especially because like… he loves James more. Also the part where Meredith slaps Oliver when he gets out of jail and he’s like yeah I deserve that is so GLKNRglkenrgnrg to me.

Anyways I probably have more thots but wow. This is long. Sorry LGRNLKRGNng