#i am fucking lonely
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☆Have you seen him <3?
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{This is ABSOLUTELY not about me being fucking blind :D}
#tsp narrator#tspud art#the stanley parable#tsp fanart#pls respond#i am fucking lonely#i am not okay#i think i just killed him#dont worry hes fine#i guess?..#just step on him for fucks sake#lol#funny memes#imma kms#hahaha#♡
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last year, i shaved my pussy for a man, and i told myself i’d never do that again…
I NEVER LEARN DO I???????
#this is awful#everything is itchy#EVERYTHING#i cannot sit#i cannot stand#i cannot lay down#there is nothing i can do#i have lathered myself in lotion so many times#tried different underwear#i am so uncomfortable#and for WHAT???#bc a MAN finds hair unattractive???#it’s healthy you son of a bitch#a MAN???#NOOOO#am i really that desperate for attention?#maybe#i am fucking lonely#thanks for that mel#look at this godforsaken mess that you made me#i’m doing great guys how are you?
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“i love being aromantic” i say as i feel my chest cavity rotting from the inside at the unquenchable desire for love in a way that is truly a secret third thing but its not a secret i want to keep it is a secret nobody is willing to listen to and im trapped in a state of isolation of my own making because no matter how much love i have to give it will never be enough. it will never be enough. it will never be enough.
#space.txt#aromantic#its like something gnawing on my bones!!!#i am who i am but who i am is somebody nobody else wants#and do i want to be wanted?#im trapped in a world that will never give me the dignity to be truly happy by myself#financially and culturally! im doomed by the narrative#i look forward and there will be friendships but they will never be enough i feel like a fucking ALIEN#i need to meet another aroace person irl so bad its so fucking lonely how do people deal with this#1k#all the notes on this.. WE WIL BE OKAY!!!#2k
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I have been in the solavellan fandom for...A While. (do not count the years, i beg) and everyone has their tropes and themes re: wolves/halla and hunter/prey and the New Herald being worshiped/the Old God nearly forgotten, and tbh I like bits and pieces of all of them, but like...
For me, the most compelling story is that Lavellan is just Some Guy (gn).
They meet Solas and accept that he is like them. He's an elf. One of The People. You are like me. I am like you. We are The Same People. And because of that, I will protect you with whatever power the humans around us have given me, because I know this is not the safest place for either of us.
And it just fucking... gets him, right? Because that's his whole deal. The world is broken because the people aren't People. He's not like them. They're not like him.
I just love the idea that this impossibly old, incredibly powerful sort-of-god, trips into a hole and nearly throws his entire game away because a regular person (albeit one who was thrust into extraordinary circumstances) decided to be kind. Offered him protection and friendship. Asked him to tell them stories. Grieved with him when he lost one of his oldest friends.
He could not deny that they were a person, because they treated him like a person.
I love how ordinary that is. How simple. How devastating.
'You're real, and it means everyone could be real. It changes everything, but it can't.'
#Solavellan#solas x lavellan#dragon age#like it's such 'in another life i think i'd have really loved doing laundry and taxes with you' vibes#like to live an extraordinarily long and devastatingly bloody and ultimately lonely life#and then be offered love simply and honestly with no strings or caveats from a person who genuinely just...likes being with you?#RIP buddy i think I'd have gone a bit feral myself#I think this is probably why I am still foaming at the mouth over them a decade later#i have never wanted 2 people to Catch a Fucking Break so badly in my LIFE#let them have their life with laundry and taxes ;_;
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whatever happens, please don’t break
#god not a fucking DAY goes by where i don’t think of that one interview and this quote#does anybody have it word for word? please? i’ll pay you#literally every single time i think about how kunikida as w character was MADE for dazai. specifically to share his suffering#i actually sob into my hands because that means they were both destined for tragedy together and the long dark road they will walk#will at least not be lonely. because they have each other. they are each other’s light in the darkness.#DO YOU UNDERSTAND#bro the fact that kunikida is painfully aware of the imperfection of the world and how he still continues to fight for his ideals#paralleling dazai who finds humanity beautiful but cannot become attached bc he feels alienated from emotion#THE WAY THEY COULD HELP EACH OTHER????? SICK SICK SICK I AM SICK#i love kunikidazai sm i wish more ppl could see the potential#but some of you aren’t ready for the sheer perfection of their dynamic#also i’ve noticed that i am only capable of drawing dazai properly when it’s with kunikida what’s up with that 💀#and sorreyy i know their height difference isn’t THAT big but i didn’t realize until i was halfway into the coloring 😔💔#osamu dazai#dazai osamu#kunikida doppo#doppo kunikida#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#lotus draws
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haven't been back here in a while
#GOD. throwing this out here i am NOT fucking finishing it holy shit. holy shit. what ever next thing i'll line will b better -_-#anyway feeling insane over dakota's lonely empty fucking apartment. as always!!!#prime defenders#jrwi#dakota cole#mine
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For the prompts, tim and/or dick for your reverse robins au? I love your version of that au <3
I don’t think I’ve ever talked about this but Tim was Joker Junior-ed, died killing the Joker, resurrected and League of Shadow-ed, and then broke off to do his own thing until Bruce got lost in time. And even then, he was anonymously pulling strings behind the scenes in the hero/vigilante world, until the finale required his presence.
The last thing Bruce expected was for the universe to be saved from time fuckery by The Red Hood, or for the Red Hood to (impulsively) ask if his old job was open.
#tim: i am choosing to go back to gotham. not because the waynes are there or this is the first time ive spoken to bruce in 5 years#tim: im literally not lonely or need a family or anything. im just graciously offering my skills to the bat squad. they need me badly#tim: after all i was basically just a temp as batmans partner not like. in the family or anything.#meanwhile bruce is about to throw up. what the fuck is that my son tim my son who died tim my son#dc#mine#srpbreplies#batkids age reversal#robin reversal
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Initial drawings of that old man… I literally, I haven’t finished reading the book of bill yet!!! I had to stop and take a break for a week to feverishly draw fanart of myself petting fords floofy hair and giving him attention and shit…!!!! The urge was too great….!! I’ve literally. I had a crush on this guy the instant he was first REVEALED in the show, but I did not have the artistic prowess to draw good looking old men back then… but I do now… thank god… thank fucking god
#gravity falls#ford pines#stanford pines#self ship#self insert#si x canon#it me#doodles#I got a haircut! so my hair looks different now.. as haircuts tend to do lol#anyway… yeah… I LOVE HIM… GRAHHFJH#the confirmation that he rlly is just sad and lonely and insecure and craving attention and validation#OHH FORD BBY.. WE R THE SAME#like… ghghg i loved him already just w his prickly nerdy outer shell but knowing more about the vulnerable center is GREAT. ITS AWESOME#also hes a smart nerdy guy who can do science and expirements and shit which is ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS FOR A CHARACTER TO DO#u kno im all about scientists….#I couldn’t draw ship art back then 1 cuz I didn’t kno how to draw old men and 2 cuz I was like 13 lol… which would have been wierd#but I’m an ADULT NOW. GET OVER HERE FORD#also it didn’t even rlly cross my mind TO draw that stuff cuz even tho I did love ford#self ship and x reader sorta stuff was not NEARLY as popular back then.. like I specifically remember it like. booming in popularity#at some point. but being pretty rare before that. anyway. thank u passage of time and trends and new gravity falls book for introducing#me back to fictional man I love. so I can now draw myself smooching him and shit#hell yeah.#13 is probably not actually correct I do not remember exactly which year fords reveal was in…#but I was probably older then 13.. but still#the point remains lol.#also omg. the bit in the book w the goth moth. ‘ur probably into this sorta thing right?’#I AM INTO THAT SORTA THING FORD. thank u book of bill for being written specifically @ me. the immersion it’s great.#like ur so right ford I AM edgy and goth how’d u guess that tee hee. eyelash flutter#aLSO PLS IGNORE MY FINGER BEING IN FRAME IN THE LAST PIC. I was drawing in a tiny bound sketchbook#so I had to hold the paper down to keep it flat. and. I didn’t feel like censoring my fucking. pinkie finger out of the image
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Remember how it took a Skill bond with Fitz for the Fool to realise that Fitz actually loved him and hadn't just been humouring him all these years out of pity I'm gonna fucking vomit
#realm of the elderlings#rote#fitzchivalry farseer#the fool#fitz and the fool#robin hobb#how am i supposed to liveeeeee robinnnnnnnnn#this thought was straight up keeping me awake last night!!!!#fresh off the final trilogy's revelations about the Fool's childhood I think about Farseer trilogy Fool and just want to weep forever#HE WAS SO LONELY. DON'T LOOK AT ME.#after what fucking Capra did to him of course he couldn’t trust anyone and had to FEEL Fitz’s love to believe it#Fitz and the Fool perfectly matched in their inability to believe anyone could love them#robin!!!!!!!!!¡!!¡!
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the drowned woman's poem seemed like a recounting of her time spent in a vast & buried collab oceanic hellscape ??!?!?!?!?!??!?! the drowned woman & alice's encounter being recorded via a fucking tape recorder?!?!?!?!
and, lady m? excuse me? another giant beautiful woman in MY magnus protocol? they really made this show for the Women Lovers
and, finally, lady m finding celia different. hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. if she isnt careful, someone is going to Figure her Out and she'll have plenty of explaining to do
#celia ripley#tmagp#tmagp 15#tmagp spoilers#not art#talking lots and saying nothing#lady mowbray#oh. i am so going to fucking draw her btw#holy shit#giant beautiful woman with a giant gun? two giant dogs?#jonny and alex know what the people WANT#alice dyer#the magnus protocol#i usually have much more organized thoughts but this episode Threw Me#really really enjoyed the statement too#i think protocol's had nothing but BANGERS so far#i meant buried not lonely oopsies#talking lots and saying little
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there is nothing that feels more isolating and hauntingly lonely than being into a fandom that has no G/t content and none of your fandom friends are into g/t and none of your g/t mutuals have even heard of the fandom. it’s like i’m the last member of a near extinct species. i’m drifting alone on a lifeboat in the middle of the ocean. no one is here. no one can hear me scream. i’m just screaming about g/t gays but still.
#g/t#this is exaggerated for humor purposes im not feeling lonely abt it dw#I AM HOWEVER THINKING OF TLT A LOT. I HAVENT FINISHED THE SERIES SO NO SPOILERS BUT#PAL??? WITH TINY CAM AND HARROW AND GIDEON??? WAUGH??#OR AN AU WHERE ALL THE LYCTORS ARE GIANTS……..#HARROW HOLDING A TINY GIDEON. SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPP.#gideon would be such a chaotic tiny. harrow would form a little bone cage around her to prevent antics#and also giant ianthe. need i say more. imagine her hands……..
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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I promise no one will miss me when I’m gone. They didn’t even miss me when I was alive.
#life#tired#no one understands#chànesedice#self love#fuck life#i hate my life#i hate it#dead#death note#sad but true#sad#lonely#all alone#die alone#alone#heart broken#broken spirit#no love#no one cares#grieving#life quotes#severe depression#depressed#lonely girl#all by myself#all by my lonesome#so tired#i'm tired#i am tired
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hold me
#this is cut paper with pastels on it#art#traditional art#paper cutting#artists on tumblr#queer artist#t4t#t4t To Me#bunny4bunny#i am so lonely. i had my blood drawn today and i fainted and the nurse patting me on the back made me tear up because it felt too good#sorry for being fucked up rn ill be normal someday maybe if someone holds me#ever#ill just do bunnies about it
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It took me over 20 hours to get the small fucking crown for Kirin.
#i have a new mortal enemy now#i am going to tear out your horn and use it to pleasure myself you stupid fucking unicorn#btw if you want to farm for crowns hmu im lonely :(#monster hunter#monhun#monhun pain#kirin
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Maybe the single life is for me
#slight??? rant incoming#but like I see people in relationships and get sad and miss being in one myself#then I remember everyone I’ve dated has been men#and I have not been treated right by a single one#and I actually hate when people who are happy and in a relationship tell me ‘you’ll get there soon’ because how the fuck do you know#and I am happy for people#I am.#but I hate how lonely I feel#then again I remember how freeing it is to be single#like I literally don’t have to worry about anybody or anything#but also I can’t pretend I don’t want to be yearned for? I don’t want to be chased? even just a little bit??#anyway I’ll stop before I make myself sad#jade speaks
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