#i am calling The Cannibal 'nasty grandpa'

[selfproclaimedunicorn]

14. What have you been finding frustrating with writing SotF?

Besides the timeline, lmao?

Honestly, I'd say it's probably a lot of characterization things. I can get into some of the characters' heads so easily (Daemon has so much wrong with him & Rhea has so muh going on), and then I'm sitting here with others like Rhaenyra & Criston like "tf do I do with you?" I can logically, at least sort of, come up with what they'd do, but getting in their brains to do it in a way that makes sense beyond "and then this happens because it makes sense for what I know about them vs the altered narrative of this AU" is such a struggle sometimes. Making some of these people be internally consistent is like going to war gjsjgnsjfns

Connective tissue is also hard sometimes, especially if it's not something I know I can skip over (chapter breaks that signify the passing of time, my beloved). I will, quite often, know a big set piece I want or need to get to, but stringing myself along from where I started at a good & decent starting point/some context/my current less major Event™ can be so difficult because I am both impatient and a rambler. Truly one of the combos of all time.

And in terms of my current chapter, as well as chapter 2, coming up with the actual meat of the event is sometimes a fucking Herculean task. In chapter 2, I knew I wanted Yorick to get reasonably traumatized by his time interacting with the gold cloaks, but I wound up eventually having to outsource suggestions for what specifically was going on there. My current "tf is the Event/build up/ship tease before the thing I want/need?" is figuring what exactly my dumb, moody daughter gets up to while under the supervision of The Strong Bros Babysitters For Sullen Teenage Girls®. And I know I'll get there eventually, but it's an uphill battle atm.

[taoamitq]

Story Master list

I tried my best to put them in order I genuinely thought i had less stories. like excuse me?! why are there so many?! some are short most are medium some are long

None of the actual posts are in order and the master list is me grouping them by grade and trying to by timeline

NUMBER DONE: 4/92

Working on it

Finished

Pre-Elementary School Era (most told to me from family) - 5

Family dog Vs baby me - Draft

Peas and Carrots up the nose - Draft

Basement turned swimming pool in old home - Draft

Big move across the Country - Draft

They really put me on a leash smh - Draft

Elementary School Era - 20

3rd grade - Reflexes = Almost Suspension - Draft

3rd grade - Grandma passing - Draft

3rd grade - We get Puppy Marvel Surprise! - Draft

3rd grade - Am I Lactose Intolerant?!?! - Draft

3rd-4th grade - Horse back riding sleepaway camps - Draft

3rd grade - Am I Lactose Intolerant?!?! - Draft

4th grade - The great Sticky note swap shop - Draft

4th grade - They just then learned im a Pyromaniac

4th grade - Guy wanted a kiss?!?! - Draft

4th grade - Dad stop drinking! I called the cops on you! - Draft

4th grade - #1 Girl Scout cookies buyer of my school - Draft

4th grade - HOW DID BRO FIND MY ADDRESS - Draft

4th grade - So your just not letting me put clothes on the dolls - Draft

4th grade - Bad call letting me have thinking putty - draft

5th grade - Toothpicks gave me Trauma

5th grade - Pageant Princess - Draft

2nd-5th grade - Beating up boys and getting away with it - Draft

3rd-5th grade - I have a BF?!??! - Draft

4th-5th grade - Van Saga - Draft

4th-5th grade - Old pill bottles -> ask if kids want drugs - Draft

4th or 5th grade - Cousins Wedding ft. Stinkbugs - Draft

Middle School Era - 15

6th grade - Why did you stop in front of me! I now have 3 sprained fingers - Draft

6th grade - Knife! No! - Draft

6th grade - So he starts it but i get suspended! Tf - Draft

6th grade - Bro tried to grab my honker - Draft

6th grade - Grandpa passing away - Draft

6th grade - Bro was creepin so I slapped him - Draft

6th grade - THAT KID JUST BIT MY ASS - Draft

6th grade - You snorting Pixie sticks and get a burning nose - Draft

6th grade - Now its Kool-Aid?! Wait I gave it too you nvm - Draft

6th-7th grade - Lunch and After school detentions - Draft

7th grade - Why did this perv male Gym Teacher have to be my gym teacher - Draft

7th grade - Note to self: dont try on rings - Draft

7th grade - I- IN PUBLIC TOO?!??!? Girl you nasty af - Draft

7th grade - Horseback ends in Doctors office for sibling - Draft

8th grade - Lil Puppy Wonder comes home - Draft

High School Era - 26

9th grade - Freedom from toxic "friends" - Draft

9th grade - Why you tryna put edibles in my bag?! - Draft

9th grade - Classroom Fire (same day ↓) - Draft

9th grade - Bathroom weed fire (same day ↑) - Draft

9th grade - Guy punches his Gf - Draft

9th grade - Orbeez Gun and $5 - Draft

9th grade - Favorite Cousins Wedding - Draft

9th grade - Waist down went numb - Draft

9th grade - Overheating and boys who cant mind their own business

9th grade - English teacher gives me after school detention for an honest mistakeMy English teachers a Bitch!- Draft

9th grade - I bite back chomp - Draft

9th grade - is our Cheer Team Racist?!?! - Draft

9th grade - So you just gonna ignore my 504? - Draft

9th grade - Are you really wearing pink sparkly leggings? YOUR LIKE 50 SMTH - Draft

10th grade - Dad makes me have 2 mental breakdowns at school pt 1/2 - Draft

10th grade - Dad makes me have 2 mental breakdowns at school pt 2/2 - Draft

10th grade - First Ex-Gf - Draft

10th grade - English Teacher proof reads my Cannibal lesbian love story book for Free?!?! - Draft

10th grade - Booty hole Dad forgets me at school for 43 minutes - Draft

10th grade - So when the teacher calls me disrespectful is a life lesson?

10th grade - Asshole fucks up my laptop - Draft

10th grade - Mental breakdown March - Draft

10th Grade - Panic Era at school shooting threat - draft

10th grade - Classroom smack down w/video

10th grade - You got a gallbladder? nvm - Draft

10th grade - Got the prettiest Gf recently - Draft

Misc. - 10

Sneaky Sneaky child - Draft

My MSP account is no more - Draft

I learned what taking your parents credit cards does - Draft

Shop lifting what's that? - Draft

Algebra make up course makes me cry - Draft

Don't forget to lock the bathroom door kids - Draft

I adopted three kids via summer camp - Draft

Bro really broke my nail off my nailbed - Draft

Imma a runner Imma track star - Draft

We tryin that ADHD treatment. Prepare for headaches - Draft

Artist, Crafter and House Destroyer - 16

Bathroom cabinets look nice? not anymore - Draft

Teehee my bed frame needed a new color - Draft

Oh no, the chair, its broken - Draft

Playdough? Yes please - Draft

I did not cause that stain, nuh uh, wrong person - Draft

Mom! Why did you spill that make up powder >:( - Draft

Don't know where that wax came from def not me - Draft

Scissors + Old Clothes + me = Angry Mom - Draft

Soo, uh lets ignore the breaking sound the couch just made - Draft

Relax, its just window screen. I didn't even fall off the roof - Draft

Origami Take over - Draft

Friendship bracelets all alone ;-; - Draft

Book Binding for zero reason - Draft

My sewing Era - Draft

You thought you could draw bodies huh? - Draft

My writer Era - Draft

Theres 92...

IM NOT EVEN OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL YET WTF

[watching-pictures-move]

Viddying the Nasties #39 | I Drink Your Blood (Durston, 1970)

Now, I can't say how apparent it is to strangers on the Internet, but if anyone has the misfortune of meeting me in real life, they'll know that I'm a huge square. I tuck in my shirt. (Even on Casual Fridays. Sorry, I don't believe in wearing long sleeve button-up shirts untucked, but will allow a few exceptions. Am I talking about clothes again? Yes.) I pay my taxes. I avoid jay-walking when possible. I've never even smoked a doobie. (Even though it's legal here.) What all this has to do with movies is anybody's guess, but let's entertain a hypothetical here. If a gang of dirty hippies rolled up into my town, how would I react? Probably indifferently, what they do is their business. What if they were a gang of devil-worshipping hippies? Again, what they do is their business. What if they started antagonizing the townsfolk? Would I do anything then? Yes, I would. I would very likely soil myself and then call the police (on the hippies, not on myself). Would I, I dunno, give them a bunch of meat pies tainted with rabid blood? Unlikely, but I probably wouldn't feel too bad if somebody did that in this chain of events.

This is roughly the plot of I Drink Your Blood, in which a gang of devil-worshipping hippies roll into a small town, rape a local girl, rough up an old man and give him acid, and then fall into a rabid, murderous frenzy after being fed contaminated meat pies by the old man's vengeful grandson. The obvious inspiration for the subject matter would have been the Manson murders, and the film was released as part of a double feature with I Eat Your Skin a year after Manson's conviction to capitalize on that publicity. (When combined with the similarly titled I Spit On Your Corpse and I Spit On Your Grave, one can extrapolate a tetralogy wherein a cannibal finishes up his meal and buries his victim unceremoniously after. Pointing out the movies have nothing to do with each other would only spoil the fun.) And this ripped-from-the-headlines quality lends the film a reading as a nightmare for a certain reactionary element in society, wherein the counterculture threatens to upend all that the mainstream holds dear. There are similarities to Night of the Living Dead in that respect, but while George Romero admits the result was somewhat accidental on his part (he's said many times that he cast Duane Jones simply for being the best man for the job), I Drink Your Blood is more calculated in its effect.

That the gang's most important members (Bhaskar Roy Chowdhury, who is Indian, George Patterson, who is black, and Jadin Wong, who is Chinese) are people of colour leans into this interpretation, but it's worth noting that these actors are also the most charismatic in the cast, which challenges the audience's sympathies. (Would you rather root for the lame-o kid who spiked the meat pies and his grandpa or these cool, groovy dudes and chicks?) Chowdhury, a dancer by training, is especially magnetic, and brings a physicality that makes him compelling both before and after the rabies-induced insanity. And while he's certainly othered, as far as American movies go, it's a pretty unusual role for a South Asian actor, and his Indian heritage isn't made a point of the way Patterson's blackness and Wong's Asian heritage are. The latter has a scene that brings to mind a famous photograph that would have very much been in public awareness at the time, and despite how insensitive it arguably is, the movie is piling up two-fisted images fast enough at that point that there's no denying to generates the necessary jolt in the viewer.

At this point the movie is at a fever pitch, having shifted to a vision of societal collapse not unlike the Romero film, with the heroes at one point holing themselves up in a none-too-secure-looking house while evading a mindless, violent mob. How the movie reaches this scale I won't exactly reveal and I didn't bother to research whether rabies can in fact be spread in the method employed in this movie, but will hint that the movie's use of a certain plot device subverts the usual kind of threat present when exploitation movies pander with sex scenes. Despite not being polished in the obvious sense, the movie also finds neat stylistic touches, as when it likens the buzz of an electric knife to the thrum of the electronic drone prevalent on the soundtrack. (The scene in question features Lynn Lowry, making her debut here. She has no dialogue, yet her off-kilter presence and distinct features make an impact.) This is far from the most violent movie on the Video Nasties list, and wasn't even the most violent movie released up to that point (Herschell Gordon Lewis had made more graphic movies in the preceding decade), but the fact that it places the violence in a context of societal upheaval, as well as its energetic delivery, give it a sense of real transgression. I'm obviously against censorship and the like, but I can understand why this ended up in a list of banned movies.