#i am aware that for a post calling up stability this looks very unstable. however. onwards.
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meirimerens · 10 months ago
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while still-ongoing Pain is making me feel like a prey animal I Must Not Let The Rot Consume Me many things are afoot. the City Philosophers' Tour is afoot. i will do everything in my power to get back to uni & the process is started. i will do everything in my power to go work with the horses this summer and all i can do for now is wait for the job offer. goddess willing they will have a job offer this year like they had the year before. i will do everything in my power to get this monetary aid for uni and rent and all i can do for now is wait. goddess willing it works out. i will do everything in my power to live with passion and whimsy in my heart. i will not let the rot consume me. i will not let the rot consume me.
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like-rain-or-confetti · 4 years ago
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Request: Near Death (Volturi Leaders x Reader)
WARNING: Major Injuries! Near Death Situations! 
Disclaimer: I am not a doctor or in the medical profession. I did some google searches for the themes mentioned. Such injuries usually take weeks to months of healing not to mention rehabilitation. I’ve had to condense this process down significantly. 
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Alice's eyes shifted rapidly, panic etched across her face. Jasper held her hands, sitting beside her. It was his attempt to comfort her but she didn't seem to recognise he was even there, too caught up in the vision as well as the panic. She wouldn't even explain what was happening before her. Alice begged for someone to contact the Volturi. However Carlisle was at work and no one else knew if he'd have a direct line to them. 
Regardless, Alice continued to plead to inform the Volturi. Inform them of what, it was yet to be known. She wouldn't say. "What is it Alice?" Jasper asked again, trying to get her attention as Emmett typed away on the laptop. "We're going the long way." He said hurriedly as Rosalie grabbed the phone. She looked over Emmett's shoulder as she dialled. She didn't even spare whoever it was on the other end of the phone a greeting. "This is Rosalie Cullen and you need to pass the phone to the Volturi immediately! No, not just a guard! Aro! Anyone! Just do it!" Rosalie turned her attention to Alice. "Alice, you need to tell us what's happening now!" 
Everything was peaceful in the Volturi castle. Yet the receptionist seemed to start pandemonium in a matter of seconds. She hurried to the first guard she could find who had been Jane. She stared the human down as the receptionist hurriedly relayed that Rosalie Cullen was on the phone and had to talk to the leaders. All in fluent hurried Italian with fear of the situation as well as fear of Jane. Jane silently took the phone, telling the human to go back to her post which she did. "Rosalie?" Jane said into the phone. "Jane!?" "Yes?" "Jane, this is an emergency. You need to go to Aro immediately!" "What is this about?" "Don't ask questions, just do it!" Rosalie snapped. All the while Jane could hear a panicked Alice Cullen in the background rambling. Jane huffed but complied. 
Jane moved briskly into the throne room, moving into the middle, phone in hand with a stern expression upon her face. "Masters, pardon the intrusion but Rosalie Cullen is on the phone. She deems it is an emergency. I believe I may have heard (Y/N)'s name." The three suddenly had all their attention on Jane. "Jane!? Jane are they there!?" Jane put the phone onto speaker. "We're all here and can hear you." "Alice had a vision about (Y/N). Some thing is happening!" 
Rosalie's attention moved back to Alice. "Alice! They're on the phone! You need to tell us what is happening!" "I chased it!" Alice cried out. "I chased the vision. I saw (Y/N) in a car and i think it was about to crash!" There was silence on both ends, only Alice saying a word. "I'm trying to see further!" Alice continued to talk, no one else able to say a word. "I saw them lying there in a hospital bed, please let me be wrong! Please!" Suddenly Alice screamed and the three leaders rushed towards Jane who still had the phone. "Alice, what is happening!?" Aro demanded. "They...it crashed. They...they're not moving!" 
Charlie Swan kept his hand on his radio, listening in for any updates. More police had been called in when it was discovered the driver who collided into the taxi vehicle was very drunk. He had been speeding whilst intoxicated and both vehicles were absolutely destroyed. The taxi driver had so many injuries that he couldn't be properly identified. It was clear the man was dead. He had to have died instantly. His passenger on the other hand wasn't so easy to determine. Although Charlie recognised them immediately. You were a family friend of Carlisle's. 
The paramedics on scene determined it was necessary to remove you from the vehicle. So with help from officers, they did. You were laid on the cold ground. From what Charlie could hear, you were barely clinging on and completely unresponsive. You had to be taken to hospital immediately. That was when Charlie could get a better look at you. You were in very bad shape and covered in blood from your head. Never would he know, as his thoughts went to the Cullen family, Alice had already seen the image of your unconscious body and unable to hold back, she screamed. 
Before the three Volturi leaders decided they'd immediately go to America, another phone call was received this time from Carlisle. Half an hour after Alice's phone call. "Are they alright?" Aro asked. Carlisle was silent in the other end of the phone before finally answering. "We nearly lost them on the way to the hospital. They're condition is very unstable right now. However we're doing everything we can to stabilize them. We'll be working on them all night. I'd ask that you wait for my next call before you leave." "You ask that we stay here whilst our mate is over there and injured!?" Caius seethed. "I need your trust. I will do everything I can. As soon as I have more answers, I'll give them to you and we can go from there." "Carlisle..." Marcus finally spoke up. "Are they going to make it through the night?" There was silence again. "I will do everything in my power to make sure that the next time we speak, (Y/N) is stable and we can arrange for you to come. I'm sorry, I can't give you anything more than that." Marcus clenched his eyes shut turning away. Aro and Caius knew what he was thinking immediately. He couldn't go through this again, losing another mate. Caius wanted to demand that you be changed but he knew that wasn't possible in your condition and where you were. There was too much attention surrounding you. 
Hours passed and the silence from Carlisle was slowly killing the three leaders. Caius was the first to break the silence. "We should never have left them there." His voice was quiet- which was very unlike him. "It's what they wanted." Aro replied softly. "We wanted them here." Caius shot back. "We don't even know how this happened." "We will." Aro responded. "We need to have hope that (Y/N) pull through." "If they don't?" Caius asked. "That's not an option." Aro replied. 
For twelve hours, a different kind of silence lay over the Volturi castle- a heavier one. The three perked up as the phone rang again. Caius and Marcus stood up sharply. Marcus had his hands covering his nose and mouth, pure anxiety hitting the man at this point. Aro was the one who answered the phone. "Hello, Aro. We were operating all night. I have good news and bad news. I will start with the good. (Y/N) is alive and significantly more stable." Marcus exhaled, falling back into his chair, Caius putting a hand on Marcus' arm to steady him. Caius' hand stayed on Marcus' arm as he glared into the phone as though trying to pry out more information. "They are?" Aro responded. "Yes. Although I'd ask you all be sitting down for the bad news. It's quite hard hitting and extensive." Caius grumbled but also sat back down. "Go on, friend." Aro said.  "(Y/N)'s injuries are mostly in their head and torso. Their legs are badly bruised but not broken. They have minor cuts in their hands and arms from the glass shattering. We believe they moved their arms to cover their face. Their spine is bruised but not broken. Upon the investigation with the police, (Y/N) was jolted multiple times upon impact. Their face is bruised but I couldn't feel any fractures or breaks. Unfortunately we discovered more serious injuries upon further inspection which forced us to operate. (Y/N) has broken ribs which punctured her organs and caused internal bleeding. We have since stopped the bleeding and corrected the breaks within their ribs which will be healing in weeks. However, I must inform you that (Y/N) has not been responsive or conscious during their observation period. We have discovered that (Y/N) has minimal brain activity." "What does that mean?" Aro asked quietly. "It means that (Y/N) is in a coma." "Carlisle, I don't know what that means." Aro said flatly but his jaw had begun to clench. "It means that (Y/N) is alive but cannot be woken up. They show no sign of awareness and is unresponsive to their environment. Sometimes the extensive injuries cause the brain to shut down to minimal activity so that the healing process can take place. They are currently in a vegetative state and at this time, all we can hope is that they will at one point wake up on their own." "Can we go to them?" Marcus asked. "I have to keep in what we are and I think it's best if you make that decision, wary that the smell of their blood will be stronger." Carlisle answered. "It will take us a few days." Caius continued, the other two leaders no longer able to speak. "Surely that would be enough for that to settle." "Of course. All I ask is that you prepare yourself to see them. It will be a shock and I will need to prepare you before hand regardless." 
When those days passed and the three leaders had arrived. They discovered there had been no change in your condition. Carlisle had somehow been able to get you transported to his home given the relationship he had with you. Therefore he would be able to care for you, just as he had in the hospital. However, as unconventional as it was, the hospital insisted they remained updated with your condition. 
The three leaders and Carlisle stood outside your room, Carlisle put his hand on the handle. Before they'd enter your room, Carlisle warned the three again. "You'll see them attached to a lot of machinery. Keep in mind it's a very good sign that (Y/N) is breathing on their own, however they do have apparatus to help them breathe better. Although I am more concerned that their visible injuries will be shocking for you." "Thank you for preparing us, friend." Aro said passively and Carlisle opened the door. The three were around your bed in moments. All exhaling with horror and heartbreak. 
You looked more fragile than you had ever. Purple, black and blue bruises across your body from what they could see. However the cuts in your hands seemed to be the first thing to really heal. "Why not change them now?" Caius said flatly trying to hide his emotions but the way he physically sank into himself, as well as the broken look in his eyes, he was broken by the very sight of you. Carlisle shook his head. "They can't be changed. Not until they wake up." "Why?" Caius asked sternly. "Because right now there is a chance that they won't wake up. Changing them won't fix this. We need to give them time." "So we sit and do nothing and hope they wake up!?" Caius snapped. "You're role is just as important and it's vital that you do it. Be there with them, talk to them, comfort them because I can't do that. You're their mate." Carlisle responded before turning to Aro. "All we can hope is that they wake up and then we'll take it from there." Marcus lightly touched your hand. "Do they knew we're here?" "Comas aren't so clear. We don't know if they can hear us." Carlisle responded. "Regardless it's important you interact with them because it may prompt their brain to respond to stimuli. Even if you don't get a response. It'll help." "Thank you, Carlisle." Aro said with a blank stare. Carlisle nodded. "I'm so sorry that I couldn't fix this." Carlisle said with sympathy and some guilt. Aro nodded. "You did everything you could." "I had really hoped for a better outcome. That they'd be awake for you arriving." Aro smiled slightly. "We all had that hope, nevertheless, our mate is alive because of you. For that, we are grateful." "Carlisle?" Caius spoke up, his fingers coaxing your hand gently into his. "How did this happen?" "The accident?" Carlisle asked. Caius nodded. "A drunk driver, speeding and collided into the car (Y/N) was in. The one driving in (Y/N)'s vehicle died instantly." Caius mouth twisted in hatred. "A human...nearly killed our (Y/N) because they were intoxicated?" Carlisle slowly nodded. "Don't tell us who it was." Marcus said gravely, his eyes stuck onto you. "If you do, we won't hesitate to kill him." "Laws, be damned." Caius agreed. "One more thing..." Marcus spoke up, finally tearing his eyes from you and towards Carlisle. "Are they in pain? Right now and before. Has (Y/N) suffered?" Carlisle shook his head. "They haven't been conscious and now that we know they're in a coma. I can safely say that haven't felt a thing. Due to the minimal brain activity and unresponsiveness, they won't feel any pain. None of their senses are working." Carlisle continued. "Remember what I said, the most random of interactions at any time can be picked up and that's the first sign of waking up." 
Aro was the first to really approach you. He ran his fingers across your cheek. He couldn't see anything from the accident onwards. He didn't dare lose hope that you were still in there though. "Hello, beautiful. We're here now." He said softly, kissing your forehead. Caius silently looked at his brother. Watching as he doted over you with ease. He couldn't help but feel a pang of jealousy, wishing he could move past his emotions and do the same. However the most he had been able to accomplish was lightly touching their hand, coaxing it into his own. It wasn't the same, your hand was described as the rest of your body. Unresponsive. His touch went unnoticed and he had never longed for even a twitch in your body. Some movement that told him you were there. However his silent pleads went ignored and you didn't move.  Aro smiled at his brothers, seemingly knowing what they were feeling and why they hesitated. "You need to think of it like they are here because for all we know, they are. They've been waiting for us."
Sometimes all three stayed with you, other times they took turns individually, each growing to find comfort that you were still alive and it's easier to think you were still in there. When it was Caius' turn. You'd have been shocked as he had closed himself off from everyone, barely speaking a word whether in company or left alone with you. Caius seemed to struggle the most with your condition. He struggled to see past it. Struggled with knowing you weren't conscious and you didn't know he was there. He found it more difficult to talk to someone who wouldn't give even the smallest sign they had heard him. 
The first thing he did was approach your bedside, hovering over you to kiss your forehead. Caius whispered something to you, in that moment, unable to care whether you could hear it or not. The relief had finally sank in that you had survived the accident. "Thank you for not dying." He pulled up a chair beside you. "I never thought I'd see you like this." Caius softly admitted. "Forgive me. I find it difficult to talk to you. I know it could help. I look at you and the pain in my chest only grows bigger. So much that I'm unable to talk. I want to be optimistic like everyone else. Talk to you because you will eventually wake up. I want that more than anything. Instead I can only stare as my heart breaks over and over again because someone hurt my (Y/N) and I wasn't here to protect you." Caius paused, his eyes running over you. "Marcus says that you look peaceful. Like your sleeping. I think to myself about how deluded that sounds. Even looking at you now. This isn't you sleeping. All I see is your body laying there. Day in and day out." Caius sighed. "So I must ask of you, please sweetheart." Caius leaned closer. "Please, fight to wake up. Let us see those beautiful eyes again. What I wouldn't do to see that wonderful smile again." Caius trailed off, the small reminiscing smile falling from his friend. "I know it's a lot to ask. Please understand that I have to. If you can hear me, please fight to wake up and come back to us." 
Aro was the most capable of them all to speak to you. He did so with ease and without hesitation. "Hello cara mia." He smiled as he kissed your forehead. "All of that bruising is healing nicely. Some of the smaller ones are gone. Isn't that wonderful?" Aro gently held your hand. "The guard have been asking about you, perhaps we'll let them see you soon. Once some of more these cuts and bruises heal. You'll get a break from Caius, Marcus and I too." Aro hummed in amusement. "As tempted as we were to bring the full guard. Perhaps that wouldn't have benefited anyone. “The twins are here with us and we're expecting Felix and Demetri within the next couple of days. We'll all be here when you're ready to wake up." Aro leaned closer. "I know you will, my love. You will wake up. Do it even to spite Caius for being a pessimist." Aro smiled slightly. You had always enjoyed challenging Caius and in all honesty it was enjoyable to watch. "We will help you. Even after you wake up, you'll have us at your side. We'll get through this together." 
Marcus gently cradled you hand between is own, lightly kissing the back of your hand. He stared at you, for the longest of time. He noticed the soft fall and rise of your chest but other than that, so still. Finally Marcus broke the silence. "I've been trying to think of what I could say to you. Aro is better than Caius and I at this. As you know." Marcus continued after a moment of thought. "Although Aro has his faults. We never told you it was Caius who was determined you'd stay with us. He took one look at you and that was it. You had his heart and he whether we agreed or not. You would be with us." Marcus wore a small smile. "He convinced me to put a little trust in you. He was right. You have given me so much joy and love in the time we've been together that, you asking to stay was a sacrifice I was willing to make. We were all willing to make. So I'd like to ask you to make a sacrifice for us, my beautiful (Y/N). I want you to wake up. I want you to claw your way back to us if you have to. Although I'm aware that given your condition you might not want to. That might be too much for you to face alone in your mind but I need you to know you're not alone. We're waiting for you, sweetheart." Marcus leaned towards your ear. "Make sure you come back to me, okay?" 
One day the Volturi came back from their hunt to an absolute miracle. Carlisle was waiting for them when they arrived with a smile. "We have progress." The three could barely stop themselves from bombarding into your room. "They're out of the vegetative state." Carlisle explained. "Right now, as we speak, they are sitting up." Caius and Marcus inhaled sharply as Aro smiled. "I need to you to know that (Y/N) isn't awake. They can't see or hear us yet but their eyes will be open and they're beginning to register touch. Whilst they didn't respond to holding my hand, they did move away slightly because I'm colder and will move if in any discomfort. They won't talk yet either but regardless this is a very good sign." 
The four entered the room to find you sitting up. You were hunching over slightly, your eyes drifting ever so slowly at times. As Carlisle had said, you weren't focused at all and didn't seem to notice that they were there. Your eyes and hands were a major give away. Your hands were limp whilst your eyes seemed a little glazed over. Carlisle moved to your side, taking the cup of water at your bedside before putting it to your lips. To the leaders surprise, you leaned into the cup and actually drank it's contents. Aro moved closer whilst Caius' and Marcus were so taken aback they were rendered speechless. "Did they sit up on their own?" Aro asked. "No, they're still healing. I was checking on them and I couldn't help but notice that their eyes were opening. Once their eyes were completely open. We gently helped them sit up. They've been sitting like this for forty-five minutes." Carlisle finished with a smile. "It's working?" Aro asked. "Interacting with them? Yes." Carlisle smiled. "However I do think I'll get them to lie back down now. Everyday, we'll get them to sit up for a short time." That being said, Carlisle lay you back down gently. Your eyes remained open, continuing to focus on nothing. 
A day passed and whilst the leaders were spending time with you together, they noticed a small change. You were lying down, eyes open. Caius was mumbling into your ear, his head hovering inches over yours. His eyes narrowed on you when he noticed that your eyes drifted towards him but this time your eyes stayed drifting to the side he was on. You blinked, your eyes shifting back slightly up and down motions. "(Y/N)? Can you hear me?" Caius asked softly, getting Aro and Marcus' attention. Aro immediately got Carlisle who looked you over. He insisted that Caius continued speaking to you and didn't move as he did so. Carlisle and Caius both kept their gaze on your eyes, that still hadn't moved on from Caius' vicinity. "Judging by the eye movement, I appears to be (Y/N) is trying to focus on something which is a very good sign." Caius smiled down at you lovingly. "I'm here, sweetheart." His voice barely above a whisper. 
The next sign came at random. The next day Marcus had your hand in his with a very light grip, his fingers barely curling around your hand. Whilst your hand occasionally twitched you didn't seem to really notice his hand, only the cold temperature. That was until your hand shifted again. This time you curled a finger slightly around his own. The movement had Marcus watching you intently but you made no other sign. You had the leaders on the edge of their seats every given moment. Yet you seemed to take your time, taking the moments they least expected to startle them. Although regardless, they would be patient. They'd wait forever if they had to. 
It wasn't too long after that day that you shocked the leaders again. Caius and Aro had laid on either side of you. Marcus was beside your legs. Your head was tilted towards Caius as he ran a cold fingers up and down your hand as the three spoke to you. Once again your eyes shifted to Caius, who was significantly closer to your head than anyone else. Your eyes passed Caius as they had hundreds of times, trailing back and forth. Then they stopped, directly on Caius' face. Caius ran his thumb across your cheekbone before noticing your eyes hadn't moved. "(Y/N)?" He said gently, getting both leaders attention. All three stared at you for a moment before you took a deep breath, blinked and moved your head. However your eyes were different now. Their was cognition behind them. The leaders had seen you move before so they had to be sure. "(Y/N)?" Marcus said and your head turned to him. You had heard them. The three gasped, you were awake. "Hello, sweetheart." Aro smiled widely. "oh grazie ... grazie, tesoro." Caius sighed in relief, mumbling Italian under his breath. Marcus couldn't tear his eyes from you. 
As Aro stood up to get Carlisle, Marcus took his place. He didn't even dare to blink. Your eyes followed him as he moved beside you. "Can you hear us?" You made a slightly nodding motion before reaching out slowly, cupping his cheek. Your brow began to furrow and the two grew increasingly worried. 
In that moment, Carlisle entered the room along with Aro. "Well, well, look who's awake." Carlisle smiled warmly. "Hello, (Y/N)." Carlisle moved beside Marcus. "Can you hear me?" You tried your best to nod again, against the aches of protest in your back. "Good. I imagine you're very confused right now and you should know it's perfectly fine to feel that way. You may not remember but you were in a car accident and fell into a coma. You've been unconscious for many days now. You're injuries were severe but you are healing and I'll run some tests on you to see how you're doing. There's absolutely nothing to worry about. You may feel some slightly discomfort or pain, you're on very heavy pain killers. The best you can do it relax and rest." You looked down at your bruised body. Carlisle was right. There were aches and pains all over but a numbness too. The mixture made you aware that whilst you felt some pain, you weren't feeling even half of it. Carlisle continued but his voice was so low that only the leaders could hear him. "They'll likely feel irritability and confusion. Comfort them and try to be patient. It'll take some time for them to come to terms." 
When Carlisle left, you were still looking down at your body, brow furrowing and tears welled up in your eyes. Marcus moved a hand to your face, getting your attention, your eyes met his before you swallowed hard, lip quivering slightly. Your sobs were silent but heavy at first, wracking your body. As your sobs continued they grew louder, the closest thing to your voice they had heard in days. "Oh tesoro." Aro said softly as Caius shifted further down the bed. Your sobs now jutting your shoulder into his chest but he didn't mind. Slowly and gently, he put his arm across your waist, the best he could do to hug your frail body. His head against yours with his eyes shut. Marcus took your other hand, pressing a kiss to it before leaning into it. They let you cry and you cried until you fell asleep. 
When you woke up. Marcus and Aro were gone, leaving Caius and another two visitors. Felix and Demetri smiled at you. "You scared the hell out of us." Felix said to you. "My heart was nearly jumpstarted after centuries only to have a heart attack." It was rough but a hum of amusement escaped you. Felix was always able to make you laugh and now more than ever, Caius appreciated it. Caius smiled down at you, lightly tracing patterns against your hairline. 
The visits were lovely distractions from the pain in your body, but you couldn't help but be more aware of it every passing day. The cycle of all it. You wake up, get more pain medication that led you to be as high as a kite and then the small moments of clarity clicked in when you realised, you weren't okay. You were bloodied and bruised, scarred from surgeries and your brain slow and fogged from being in a coma. You tried to be happy and swallow the pain and fear for your mates if not for yourself but the more coherent you became and the more you healed, the less medication you needed. Finally left with the simple knowledge that you weren't okay. You were so lost in thought that you didn't even notice your mates trying to get your attention. You looked over to the three, worry etched upon their faces. After a moment, you reached your arm out to Aro. He took your hand with ease, before he looked back to you. "Cara mia, we know. You can feel this way. We're here to help you no matter how you feel each day." Caius and Marcus looked to Aro for an explanation. "(Y/N) isn't feeling too well today. It's a bit much, they're a little overwhelmed but have been trying to put in a brave face." You knew Aro would give them more detail out of your ear shot and whilst grateful, even that made you want to cry. Caius immediately turned to you, his hand immediately reaching out for your arm. "Look at me." He said firmly but quietly. "We love you, no matter what. Having you here with us, alive is the greatest gift you could have ever given us. Don't you dare, hold back any emotion you are feeling for us or for anyone." 
 A few days later, Carlisle began his daily routine, checking in on you and your injuries. "Hello, (Y/N)." Carlisle smiled at you and you did your best to smile back. "How are you feeling today?" You held a hand out, palm down. "Somewhere in between? That's better than before." Carlisle smiled. "I'm going to ask you some simple questions, I know you can't talk yet, but don't worry you shouldn't have to with these. That will come soon." Carlisle assured you. "Remember, slow and gentle movements. I'll pick them up better than you think." You smiled slightly at the tease. "How old are you?" He asked. Without having to think about it, you held up the appropriate fingers. "Very good!" He praised with a smile. "Didn't even hesitate. How many movies did you watch last night?" You promptly held up two fingers. "Very nice. How many mates do you have?" You didn't seem to notice how intently the leaders stare was but it was more than likely you were used to that by now. You held up three fingers. "Alright and where are they?" Carlisle asked. You pointed to the three leaders. "Great. This is a very good sign. Your response times are very good." Your injuries had cleared much more, the bruising on your body no where near as bad as before. The swelling in your face barely noticeable as well as any cuts you had. You ribs where the biggest problem if anything. However you still hadn't said a word. That was Carlisle's next goal now that he knew your memory was in tact. 
"Alright, you may not like me today." Carlisle warned you with a smile and you looked at him with confusion and dread, wondering what sort of test he'd out you through now. "This one will be a little more complicated but today, you're going to try and talk." Your eyes widened a fraction, dread completely over taking your confusion. "We'll start with names, specifically, the names of your mates." You scrunched up your face. They didn't have the easiest of names as it was. "I assure you, once you get used to talking, you won't have to think twice about it. We'll start easy. Try to say Aro's name." You took a breath, thinking hard before being unable to hold back a smile. Never had talking seemed to complicated? Like you had to think about using your mouth and creating the sounds you wanted. "Take your time and be patient with yourself. Let your brain wake up." The expression on your face said a thousand words. First, curse Carlisle. Secondly, this is embarrassing. Thirdly, if you mess up Aro's name you'll never forgive yourself. Lastly, you are so sorry if you mess up his name. Aro couldn't help the small chuckle escaping him, the other two smiling in amusement. "A...Aro." With so much concentration, you had shut your eyes, testing it out. Your voice was a little scratchy from not using it in a while but it was still clear. "There you go, one down. Can you try to say Caius?" "C..." You paused trying to think it through. "Cai...Caius." You finally forced out and Aro giggled with glee, Caius reaching out for your hand. "Alright, this is the more difficult one. It'll require a little more brain power. Marcus." You remembered the motion to make a 'M' sound. That being the difficult part of the name. It took a few more pauses but you slowly managed it out. "Well done." Carlisle smiled. "So since you didn't need promoting on how to say these things, I'm confident you could start talking just fine. Just remember to be patient with yourself." 
Soon after showing the extend of your talking and cognitive abilities, Carlisle told you that it wouldn't be long before you got to go home. The leaders were delighted, more than eager to bring you to Italy and finally put this nightmare behind them. "How did you do it? How did you cope when I was out?" You asked, finally finding the courage to do so after all this time. Aro and Marcus looked at each other and to your surprise Caius responded. "We pretended you could hear us, that you were with us. I found it the most difficult."  "I don't think I could have done this without you." You admitted quietly. "You could have." Marcus replied. "It is us who couldn't have survived without your strength." "We wouldn't have it any other way." Caius added softly. "When you're better, we're bring you with us back to Italy." Aro smiled at you. "We almost had to live without you. Now we can't stand the thought of you being so far from us." Caius explained.
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meetmeatthecoda · 3 years ago
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Okay so, I wanted to offer my two cents on that ask about Liz’s reaction in Luther Braxton: Conclusion. This is NOT meant as an attack on anyone—I find it 100% valid that the OG nonny (and anyone who related to them, including you dear Coda 💖💖💖) feels the way they do; they can’t control how they reacted to Liz any more than I can control how I reacted to that ask. Plus like, this is all fiction so no harm done? I purely wish to share my perspective, not ~present a counterargument~ or anything like that. :) Apologies in advance for how long this got. 😅😅😅
I get why you would react negatively to Liz’s screaming at Red, but I feel like?? That incident of all the times she’s treated him unjustly was (one of?) the most reasonable. Now, how she continues to act afterwards (regarding the Fulcrum but also, like, for the rest of the show welp) is 100% a continued bad decision in so many ways on her part and reflects terribly on her character, but her reaction in the immediate aftermath?? IDK, I feel the need to kind of defend her, probably because I absoluuuutely saw myself in her when she did that. I’ve (I shamefully admit) yelled, shoved, and even kicked at loved ones when they just wanted to comfort me but their attempts made me feel cornered and small. I’ve made logically unbased and ethically/emotionally unfair accusations against people who’ve done nothing but try to help me when I just needed something to get them away (literally or otherwise). When I just needed to attack something—take out my frustrations and confusion and fear and anger on someone. (And if Liz was like that, she might have latched onto Red as her target because he was the closest thing—physically, emotionally, and even in relation to the cause of that confusion and anger itself.) I have inflicted real harm on people while in an unsettling or unfamiliar mental state—harm that I couldn’t take back even when I could look back with a clear(er) mind and realize I never should have said/done any of that.
(Also, side note: when I first watched that ep and I saw Liz screaming at Red not to touch her?? I’d actually thought they were depicting her as being touch-averse due to the trauma and/or overstimulation, and I was?!! Like, call me badly coping but I appreciate seeing characters not being comfortable or straight-up being aggressive about being touched, even for just a moment, because that is me 24/7. Then of course a few more seconds and it turns out it’s not actually that?? Liz is just repulsed by Red’s Bad Guyness again apparently?? Whenever I rewatch the ep I still choose to see it as overstimulation though because, well… my heart is clearly very talented at choosing comfort characters for me. 🥲🥲🥲)
So speaking from personal experience, coming out of a trauma (or revisiting an unresolved one) is so stressful that it’s only natural to react explosively—even to the extent of unfairness and unreasonableness—in an attempt to protect or heal yourself, whether that attempt be justified or not. And honestly, I could even make the argument that for Liz, her attempt was to some extent justified. Of course Red would never hurt her, but sometimes a person needs breathing space. Like, literally needs. Maybe for the sake of her mental stability/health, Liz should have had her first moments coming up from her trance to herself. Does that make sense?? IDK if I made any sense there; I just know that while I never could have gotten to the place I’m at now without the EVENTUAL professional and personal support I’ve been blessed with, I also can’t fathom how much more mental anguish I would have experienced if I’d had people who knew me (or like, the “closest person” in Liz’s case) see me in the immediate aftermath of my trauma. Just… The state I was in? Yikes, am I glad only I saw myself pull myself together; I’d have had so much more to worry about with others seeing me like that. That might just be me and totally inapplicable to Liz of course, so I digress!
I’m not saying Liz isn’t responsible for her words/actions simply because they happened while she was in utter emotional upheaval and under mental and physical duress—Red definitely did NOT deserve that treatment from her. He did NOTHING WRONG. But with that kind of complex angst comes the inevitably mixed but nonetheless potent reactions of fans, I completely understand that. Everyone has different experiences and thus different viewpoints, and that’s fine and totally healthy in my book. Still, something about that discussion struck a chord with me—you can (and should) hold someone accountable for the harm they do while mentally unstable, but it’s possible and also healthy to do that without, yourself, harboring anger or resentment against them, you know? I had to teach myself (and those around me) that, so I guess I just wanted to put it out there. Again, I don’t mean to start anything and I’m so, so sorry if I inadvertently have. I hope it’s okay that I came here to explain my thoughts (and so wordily too, ack I’m sorry), and if not, I won’t anymore. Thank you for hearing me out this time though, I really appreciate it. :)
Dear anon!! 🤗🥰❤️ Firstly, I want to thank you for your kindness & respect for other's opinions!! This ask was worded in the sweetest, most considerate way & I appreciate it very much!! There's absolutely no need to apologize for having your own opinion & perspective, especially when you share & explain it so nicely, so never fear!! 😊❤️ Moving on to the meat of your ask - which is in regards to this previous one - you make such a good point!! When you look at it that way, the Luther Braxton Post-Memory-Unearthing Screaming Explosion is perhaps Liz's most justifiable negative reaction in the series LOL I guess looking back from where we are now - knowing all about & being completely fed up with all of Liz's awful writing & characterization in the subsequent seasons - it's easy to dismiss her reaction in Luther Braxton as something unreasonable & irritating & unfair to Red (which, to some extent - as you graciously allow - it is). But - as you generously point out - while that's a valid way of looking at it, it's also definitely worth examining from another point of view!! And I think your point of view (in everything ofc, but particularly in this) is so valuable!! I can relate at least on some level... I have definitely snapped at people, even those trying to help me, verbally & otherwise, when I lost my temper & just needed some space!! In fact, I think that's a pretty universal stress reaction & it's not necessarily something to be super ashamed of (but definitely something to be aware of & work on - a good reminder for us all!!) & it's definitely not a stretch to imagine Liz was going through something similar after being effectively water-boarded & having her memories so unceremoniously rifled through!! And, after all, Liz has one thing we generally don't... a perfect, convenient, willing catalyst for all the negative things in her life: Red (however undeserving of that title he may be.)
(And re: sidenote of touch-averse!Liz - Omg, I definitely thought about that being their angle at first too!! While I don't usually default to reacting that way myself [kind of the opposite for me usually LOL] I know that plenty of people do & it's 1000% valid as a coping mechanism & honestly??? A touch-averse Liz would be one of the more realistic reactions she's ever had 😂😭 especially considering the circumstances!! And hey, no shame about gravitating towards that interpretation bc it's 1) less painful for you & 2) you like comfort characters bc you 👏 do 👏 you 👏 but also?? I can't say anything bc the reason that I like that interpretation??? I love the angst of an overwhelmed & touch-averse!Liz unintentionally shattering Red's heart by completely rejecting his well-meaning physical comfort anddddd I'm not sure what that says about me tbh 😂😂😂)
Long story short, anon, you made perfect sense here, not to worry!! You were so respectful & cognizant of others' feelings, thank you so much for that, it doesn't go unnoticed!! You bring such a good point to the discussion with your perspective & outlook & I'm so thankful you chose to contribute!! I loved reading your thoughts & don't worry at all about the length, I appreciate your thoroughness!! (Plus, we all know I'm hardly one to talk, I never use one word when twenty will do 😂) Please don't hesitate to come back to my inbox any time to discuss whatever you like, I always love a little bit of friendly TBL conversation, especially since the show as we know it is so abruptly & unexpectedly over 😭 Yes, still grappling with that, in case you were wondering ���� Anyway, thank you again for your lovely ask, anon, I appreciate you greatly, & much, much love to you, of course, my friend!! ❤️
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After ten months of NSTP, it is now time to say goodbye. Utilitatem was a joy to run and manage as it enabled me and my groupmates to vent out our honest opinions on what was happening in our subject and in our activities. Kapoy siya, pero worth it sad kaayo. Nakita gyud nako bilang leader na naningkamot akong mga kagrupo sa pagbuhat sa mga tasks, and I could not have been any more prouder. I feel like we have worked on this project to the best of our abilities, and I am willing to do it all over again. Here are my groupmates say on this last blog post. 
Alex: My NSTP experience was refreshing. Amid all the other courses that we had to take, NSTP was like a breath of fresh air — it was entirely different from all the other subjects. In NSTP, I was able to learn a lot of lessons that I knew I’d be able to immediately apply in real life. I was able to learn the importance of service and being a person for others. The activities were enjoyable, our NSTP instructor was memorable, and my classmates were always great to work with. All of these factors have shaped the perspective I have of NSTP: that it is a course which I will always hold in my heart. I think that I would’ve been able to learn a lot more if the course were done in a face to face setting. However, given the circumstances, I can still definitely say that going through NSTP was one of the highlights of my first year in college, and I know that I’d be looking back on it in the following years to come. 
Harly: My NSTP experience was an eyeopener to various social problems. The last project inspired me to do well in my studies to become an OBGYN upon learning that there are many cases of teenage pregnancy in Brgy. Langub. I believe that that evidence-based sex education programs were effective in promoting sexual health among teenagers. If I become an OBGYN, I will conduct a lot of seminars about sex education to parents and teenagers. 
Hannah: NSTP is one of those subjects which will give you a boring impression, a not so interesting course. Yet, as the class started my first impression was so wrong. the class was not boring and it was so interesting. It teaches us to be a better person. It helps us to be aware. It molds us socially, mentaly and personally.  Being a person for others and to honor thy country is one of the most worthy values I have gained. It equips us with everything we need to learn from day to day living, hazards, environmental aspects and most especially our nation. For me my NSTP experience was such an incredible experience. Because it helps me to build friendships and helps me also to be a better student. Our professor was such an amazing teacher also. Every time he begins his class, he always brings amazing games and activities in order to uplift the spirit of the class and becomes jolly. We’ve learned a lot of knowledge from him. NSTP makes us experience everything during our virtual training. Harnessing and developing  new skills is fun. Lastly, NSTP brings the most unforgettable leadership training. 
Tranque: My NSTP experience was a rollercoaster ride throughout the whole year. At first, I was so uncertain of the content and outcomes of this course since it was my first year in college. But as soon as the months progressed, I was now a bit more comfortable and was able tor relate it to our previous extra subject in AdDU SHS called Leadership Development Program or LDP. On the first semester. I was struggling in terms of interacting with the my groupmates since I am really an introverted person. Regardless of that, I can say that I was still cooperative and submitting the tasks that are given to me on a specific session. During the second semester, everything was now on my track since I was a bit more comfortable in the course, my classmates, my teacher, and especially my groupmates. Everyone was now a familiar face and I was able to interact with my group comfortably. The only problem I had was internet stability, since I was in my hometown in the province that time and we really had bad internet connection. There were times that I could not attend synchronous meetings because of the unstable internet. However, I still managed to comply all the necessary tasks that were given to me. I still managed to cooperate very well on the class project despite being situated far from the city or the target community. I really thank God for these experiences and I am hoping that I would be able to apply everything that I have learned in this course not just in human welfare, world peace, nature, etc., but for the good of all things. 
EG: NSTP has been one of those subjects that felt light on the heart throughout. It’s not about understanding life in a biological sense, making sense of chemical compositions, or lessons that deal with complex concepts. It is a simple subject that teaches us the value of service, and despite everything, it has made me learn vital lessons about who I am as a person. From the classroom setting (online, of course) where general concepts are taught about service aligning towards the nation’s betterment while also encapsulating Atenean values to the actual implementation of a community project, there were lessons to be learned. Of course, not everything has been perfect, and I find some flaws here and there, but even those have lessons that can be extracted from. It was not an ideal experience, but it was a learning experience, especially in these trying times. 
Danika: My NSTP experience opened my eyes to lots of new things. First, I felt like it was such an opportunity to be part of an activity that was a concrete act of helping out other people. Throughout my past community engagement experiences, I never got to directly communicate with the people we are doing the project for. However, in this course, it was quite exciting to actually be involved in the organizing process because I get to pay an upgraded contribution to the cause. Second, my socializing skills and ability to work with other people improved greatly especially with this online setting. Not that I prefer it over face to face communication, but this setup gave us all a challenge that helped us to become better in communicating with others and working together instead of giving up or srick to a mediocre output. Lastly, NSTP allowed me to discover within myself that it is not difficult to offer a helping hand even when we are given such limits or boundaries. I learned that there will always be a way if the cause is for the common good. 
Mao na to ang last anecdotes sa akong mga kagrupo, and for now, it is sad to say that Utilitatem is going offline. Thank you for the journey and we hope to see you again in the future. Utilitatem, signing off.
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Personal Development Change Can Make You Happy
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Personal Development Change Can Make You Happy
A lot of people struggle with the right place or way to start their personal development. Since everyone is different it is important to identify what can work for you when you're thinking about personal development. There are, however, some common advice that can help a majority of people get started on a personal development journey, and that is what the following tips cover.
When dealing with the emotional downers in your life, self help is many times the solution for people. Like anything else in life, it requires dedication to succeed, but there is always room for improvement and you should always strive to better yourself. Remember to always keep your head up.
    If you would like to move forward in personal development, you should be humble. Realizing that you are but a small part of the bigger picture will potentially open your mind to attaining new insights. By instilling these ideas in your brain, you will be more open to improving yourself and learning new information.
  You are responsible for the state of your life right now. You have the ability to make changes and own up to the decisions you have made by embracing them and extracting the value and experience you have gained from them. By realizing you are in control of your life, you can be more effective in identifying the things you wish to improve or change about yourself.
  How Meditation Helped Me to Uncover My Path
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I remember the time in my life when I was stuck amidst the false narratives of success, failure, and competition. Humans are free species with a mind that is capable of doing wonders, and natural abilities to achieve astonishing outcomes. But do you know what stands between you and the success? It is your own mindset and insufficiency to disconnect from the unnatural wrath of ego that comes in between. I was in the same position a couple of years ago – completely delusional, dwelling under forced expectations, and just living my life on absolutely absurd terms. I had no idea what my heart wanted or what my soul was searching for. Living in denial is one perilous thing, isn’t it?
Humans love living in absolute renunciation because it offers some short-lived emotions- love, greed satiation, and ego inflation. What was missing in my life? Why wasn’t I happy even though I was living a life that had everything approved by the societal norms and standards? I realized that every waking moment of my life was a slave to some or the other requirement or demand. My work was not serving my soulful purpose and my bank account was there just to boost my ego. Ask yourself, “is this what you want?” It was way back in 2016, that one of my friends introduced me to Yoga & meditation and since then, I never looked back.
The unnecessary mind chatter was over all of a sudden, happiness was there in the heart, and an unreal sense of satisfaction encompasses my gut. Suddenly, everything looked bright and every morning, the sun looked even more beautiful.
Meditation turned my life upside down…..for good.
Constant Anger
Past 4 years were a roller coaster ride of emotions and mental instability. Anger was my second personality and nothing was working enough to pacify the strange irritation towards everything and everyone. I was always hungry, stressed, and my gut wrenched in pain. In a nutshell, I was annoying and unapproachable. During the first few days of starting my meditation session, I was horrible, failed to concentrate on anything, and could not keep my eyes closed. With time, I learnt to connect with my body and keep up with its demand. The first wake up call for me was to change my lifestyle and diet for a while to see if it changes anything. I am a pescatarian now. I feel full, stay humble, feel energetic, and my hunger pangs are controlled. I was missing the basic vitamins and animal hormones, which is why I was ungrounded for most parts. It is proved that some of the basic vitamins and minerals are found in animal products and I was obviously missing from my diet. Led by the new-age cult, my lifestyle was affected in the most pathetic ways possible and my brain remained wishy-washy about the positive changes. Meditation brought me closer to my existence and put me into a thinking mode. I became practical enough to take care of my body first and include things that can help me reach healthier goals.
Your gut regulates your life, let that sink in!
Eating Disorder?!
Eating disorder is not a pleasant sight, believe me. Eating a bag of chips, a burger and still not feeling satiated! No one wants to be this monstrous with food. I had an unhealthy relationship with food that made me unstable and extremely annoyed for most parts. Nothing was working on my appetite and by the end of the day, I was bloated and sick as hell. Meditation taught me to focus more on the moment and this helped me a lot during my withdrawal symptoms and helped me go through the paradigm shift, with ease. I learned to chew each morsel with contentment and concentrate on that very moment. My emotions were all over the place and I found solace near every junk food stall or truck. However, scientific studies prove that junk food has a high content of Omega-6 that messes up the gut and everyone knows that happiness starts at the gut. The art of mindfulness taught me to stay in harmony with my disrupted emotional well-being, take food as a fuel, and stop obsessing with my meals.
Career Path
But where do you get the food from? I had to live a life on my own terms and ethics. This is not easy as you need both emotional and financial support, which is steady enough to take you through thick and thins. A closed mind is an outcome of societal conditioning, childhood preaching, and certain religious beliefs that stops you from being your real self. A constant need of a polished self-projection puts pressure on your tender mind and often forces you to do things against your life’s purpose. My career path was the most arduous terrain I have ever walked, no jokes. At some point in life, I was nearly close to sabotaging my desires and suppress my skills. You become a push-over when you stay in denial and disconnect from Nature. I started trusting my instincts more and developed the strength to follow my skills.  The art of meditation brings your soul back home and make you realize that temporary emotions satiate the ego, not the soul.
Success Rate
You have to understand this thing- “the effective way to lead a happier life is to stay grounded and be grateful”. Greed is a common emotion and honestly the most powerful one. Constantly fanned by ego, your greed takes everything to extreme. At first, my approach towards life in general was extremely haywire and this is why my mindset was haggard and unsteady. Meditation is a scientifically proven tool to deactivate the parasympathetic nervous system, which means less unstable emotions, eased up mind, and more energy to take up intricate tasks. In every sphere of my life, I elevated from a confused to a more mature human being and my mind levelled up from being unsteady to becoming practical. Wondering what this can do to you? A stable mind leads to a more realistic approach towards life; you feel better about yourself, approach your goals with a calmer mind and sop rushing into things. These attributes confirm nothing but a steady success rate and constantly fueled ambitions to move ahead in life. This will take time but things started to change after a week.
Do I Owe Stability to the Cumulative Effects of These Changes?
The art of meditation is not a magic wand that yields result at the single swirl. Consider this – you approach to use a divine tool in order to achieve a higher consciousness but this is not an easy path. Meditation is a catalyst to this mission, which makes you aware of your instabilities, weaknesses, and covered ego. First few instances of failure shall teach you that your life is not only a bed of roses but often days of walking the eggshells. I was more than exhausted and this was because meditation takes a lot of energy, the negative one. You will not feel it at the first go – all that sitting at one place with closed eye thing. My mental chatter stopped after a week and this was no miracle. It was more about lack of centered emotions and unnecessary inclination towards egotistical qualms.
A lifestyle that was not serving my higher-self had to be shunned so that I could listen to my mind and feed my body the right way. Inculcate the art of meditation in your everyday life, add it to your workout regime, morning routine or simply do some inhale-exhale action before hitting the sack. The rhythmic breathing patterns helps pacify stressed nerves allowing you to raise your vibrations in the most realist way.
  Om Singh is blogging at Retreat Kula, a website that offers best yoga retreats and yoga teacher training for yogis around the world.  He is always on the lookout for interesting places to visit. It took him 25 years of his life to realize where his true calling lies, but once that was done, there’s been no looking back. Since the last ten years that he is on the go, He is sharing his travel experiences by writing about them.
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Being able to effectively manage your time will play a huge role in the level of success of bettering yourself and your life. Staying organized is important because the stronger your plan, the less leeway you have to get off track and the less excuses you will be able to make.
  You can contribute to a more loving and fulfilling relationship with your partner by making an effort to clearly state your specific needs and expectations as they relate to showing appreciation for one another. Yes, you love your partner dearly, but you do not share the same brain. He or she should not have to guess when it comes to your wants and needs. In fact, this concept can be readily applied to your work and family relationships as well.
  Build strong and healthy relationships with good people. The people that you share your life with are going to help you in your journey to a happy life. If you are around negative people, it is not going to help you change your ways and find the life that you want to live.
  If you hear a voice in your head, chances are it is just your subconscious talking to you. Those words you hear are called affirmations or your inner voice. Some of these may be positive, and some may be negative. The goal is to concentrate on the positive ones and work to eliminate ones that are negative.
  Don't rely simply on your memory for knowledge, invest in understanding things completely. You need to approach life and learning not only with the goal of understanding the 'how' and 'what', but also of understanding the 'why'. When you begin to grasp why something occurred, you are are opening up a layer of knowledge that many people ignore.
Top 10 Things You Can Do To Improve Your Memory
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To be on a path of personal development means not leaving things to chance. Don't let yourself blame the universe for what happens. Take control of your life and you can choose what your life will be like. In every situation, you have the choice on how you will react, so make the right choice, starting today!
  Be honest with yourself. If you are trying to change something about your life, you need to be brutally honest about what you can and can not do. If you are not a very emotionally strong person, you will need to work on that before going into your deeper issues.
  To achieve your goals you need to recognize what motivates you. Although advise from others can be helpful, do not be surprised if what works for them does not work for you. Once you realize what motivates you, you will be able to set up an award system for yourself that will help keep you focused on your goal.
  Don't forget about the power of positive thinking. It is necessary to maintain the proper mindset on your road to personal development and negativity will only thwart your best efforts. Practice positive thinking to achieve positive results. When you remain positive about everything that you do, good things will follow.
What Is Your Success Meter?
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Religion can help some people. Perhaps the religion you were raised in is not for you if you consider yourself an atheist. Certain people see religion as a way of finding their place in the universe, and some people see it as a way to improve their daily life by adopting a certain philosophy.
  Self awareness and self control are a part of personal development. Knowing who you are, being confident in your perception of the world around you and controlling your emotions will allow your true self to prosper. Always stand up for what you believe in, but try and do so without infringing on others beliefs.
  Consider learning an instrument as part of your personal development. You probably had some type of music training when you were young, and it is never too late to learn again. Learning an instrument can expand your appreciation for various types of music. Music teachers for adults can customize lessons and use music that are more appropriate for adults. Therefore, do not worry that you will only be learning children's songs. Being able to play an instrument is a wonderful feeling, you are really missing out if you don't give it a try.
  Use whichever suggestions from this post seem applicable and practical for your own situation; not every tip will work for every person. If you are aiming for success in nearly any area, the information available in this material will help you. If you know of anyone who could also pick up useful advice from this piece, pass it along and help them begin the journey to becoming a more well-rounded individual.
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Personal Development Change Can Make You Happy
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Personal Development Change Can Make You Happy
A lot of people struggle with the right place or way to start their personal development. Since everyone is different it is important to identify what can work for you when you're thinking about personal development. There are, however, some common advice that can help a majority of people get started on a personal development journey, and that is what the following tips cover.
When dealing with the emotional downers in your life, self help is many times the solution for people. Like anything else in life, it requires dedication to succeed, but there is always room for improvement and you should always strive to better yourself. Remember to always keep your head up.
    If you would like to move forward in personal development, you should be humble. Realizing that you are but a small part of the bigger picture will potentially open your mind to attaining new insights. By instilling these ideas in your brain, you will be more open to improving yourself and learning new information.
  You are responsible for the state of your life right now. You have the ability to make changes and own up to the decisions you have made by embracing them and extracting the value and experience you have gained from them. By realizing you are in control of your life, you can be more effective in identifying the things you wish to improve or change about yourself.
  How Meditation Helped Me to Uncover My Path
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"You're reading How Meditation Helped Me to Uncover My Path, originally posted on Pick the Brain | Motivation and Self Improvement. If you're enjoying this, please visit our site for more inspirational articles.
I remember the time in my life when I was stuck amidst the false narratives of success, failure, and competition. Humans are free species with a mind that is capable of doing wonders, and natural abilities to achieve astonishing outcomes. But do you know what stands between you and the success? It is your own mindset and insufficiency to disconnect from the unnatural wrath of ego that comes in between. I was in the same position a couple of years ago – completely delusional, dwelling under forced expectations, and just living my life on absolutely absurd terms. I had no idea what my heart wanted or what my soul was searching for. Living in denial is one perilous thing, isn’t it?
Humans love living in absolute renunciation because it offers some short-lived emotions- love, greed satiation, and ego inflation. What was missing in my life? Why wasn’t I happy even though I was living a life that had everything approved by the societal norms and standards? I realized that every waking moment of my life was a slave to some or the other requirement or demand. My work was not serving my soulful purpose and my bank account was there just to boost my ego. Ask yourself, “is this what you want?” It was way back in 2016, that one of my friends introduced me to Yoga & meditation and since then, I never looked back.
The unnecessary mind chatter was over all of a sudden, happiness was there in the heart, and an unreal sense of satisfaction encompasses my gut. Suddenly, everything looked bright and every morning, the sun looked even more beautiful.
Meditation turned my life upside down…..for good.
Constant Anger
Past 4 years were a roller coaster ride of emotions and mental instability. Anger was my second personality and nothing was working enough to pacify the strange irritation towards everything and everyone. I was always hungry, stressed, and my gut wrenched in pain. In a nutshell, I was annoying and unapproachable. During the first few days of starting my meditation session, I was horrible, failed to concentrate on anything, and could not keep my eyes closed. With time, I learnt to connect with my body and keep up with its demand. The first wake up call for me was to change my lifestyle and diet for a while to see if it changes anything. I am a pescatarian now. I feel full, stay humble, feel energetic, and my hunger pangs are controlled. I was missing the basic vitamins and animal hormones, which is why I was ungrounded for most parts. It is proved that some of the basic vitamins and minerals are found in animal products and I was obviously missing from my diet. Led by the new-age cult, my lifestyle was affected in the most pathetic ways possible and my brain remained wishy-washy about the positive changes. Meditation brought me closer to my existence and put me into a thinking mode. I became practical enough to take care of my body first and include things that can help me reach healthier goals.
Your gut regulates your life, let that sink in!
Eating Disorder?!
Eating disorder is not a pleasant sight, believe me. Eating a bag of chips, a burger and still not feeling satiated! No one wants to be this monstrous with food. I had an unhealthy relationship with food that made me unstable and extremely annoyed for most parts. Nothing was working on my appetite and by the end of the day, I was bloated and sick as hell. Meditation taught me to focus more on the moment and this helped me a lot during my withdrawal symptoms and helped me go through the paradigm shift, with ease. I learned to chew each morsel with contentment and concentrate on that very moment. My emotions were all over the place and I found solace near every junk food stall or truck. However, scientific studies prove that junk food has a high content of Omega-6 that messes up the gut and everyone knows that happiness starts at the gut. The art of mindfulness taught me to stay in harmony with my disrupted emotional well-being, take food as a fuel, and stop obsessing with my meals.
Career Path
But where do you get the food from? I had to live a life on my own terms and ethics. This is not easy as you need both emotional and financial support, which is steady enough to take you through thick and thins. A closed mind is an outcome of societal conditioning, childhood preaching, and certain religious beliefs that stops you from being your real self. A constant need of a polished self-projection puts pressure on your tender mind and often forces you to do things against your life’s purpose. My career path was the most arduous terrain I have ever walked, no jokes. At some point in life, I was nearly close to sabotaging my desires and suppress my skills. You become a push-over when you stay in denial and disconnect from Nature. I started trusting my instincts more and developed the strength to follow my skills.  The art of meditation brings your soul back home and make you realize that temporary emotions satiate the ego, not the soul.
Success Rate
You have to understand this thing- “the effective way to lead a happier life is to stay grounded and be grateful”. Greed is a common emotion and honestly the most powerful one. Constantly fanned by ego, your greed takes everything to extreme. At first, my approach towards life in general was extremely haywire and this is why my mindset was haggard and unsteady. Meditation is a scientifically proven tool to deactivate the parasympathetic nervous system, which means less unstable emotions, eased up mind, and more energy to take up intricate tasks. In every sphere of my life, I elevated from a confused to a more mature human being and my mind levelled up from being unsteady to becoming practical. Wondering what this can do to you? A stable mind leads to a more realistic approach towards life; you feel better about yourself, approach your goals with a calmer mind and sop rushing into things. These attributes confirm nothing but a steady success rate and constantly fueled ambitions to move ahead in life. This will take time but things started to change after a week.
Do I Owe Stability to the Cumulative Effects of These Changes?
The art of meditation is not a magic wand that yields result at the single swirl. Consider this – you approach to use a divine tool in order to achieve a higher consciousness but this is not an easy path. Meditation is a catalyst to this mission, which makes you aware of your instabilities, weaknesses, and covered ego. First few instances of failure shall teach you that your life is not only a bed of roses but often days of walking the eggshells. I was more than exhausted and this was because meditation takes a lot of energy, the negative one. You will not feel it at the first go – all that sitting at one place with closed eye thing. My mental chatter stopped after a week and this was no miracle. It was more about lack of centered emotions and unnecessary inclination towards egotistical qualms.
A lifestyle that was not serving my higher-self had to be shunned so that I could listen to my mind and feed my body the right way. Inculcate the art of meditation in your everyday life, add it to your workout regime, morning routine or simply do some inhale-exhale action before hitting the sack. The rhythmic breathing patterns helps pacify stressed nerves allowing you to raise your vibrations in the most realist way.
  Om Singh is blogging at Retreat Kula, a website that offers best yoga retreats and yoga teacher training for yogis around the world.  He is always on the lookout for interesting places to visit. It took him 25 years of his life to realize where his true calling lies, but once that was done, there’s been no looking back. Since the last ten years that he is on the go, He is sharing his travel experiences by writing about them.
You've read How Meditation Helped Me to Uncover My Path, originally posted on Pick the Brain | Motivation and Self Improvement. If you've enjoyed this, please visit our site for more inspirational articles." https://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/how-meditation-helped-me-to-uncover-my-path/
Being able to effectively manage your time will play a huge role in the level of success of bettering yourself and your life. Staying organized is important because the stronger your plan, the less leeway you have to get off track and the less excuses you will be able to make.
  You can contribute to a more loving and fulfilling relationship with your partner by making an effort to clearly state your specific needs and expectations as they relate to showing appreciation for one another. Yes, you love your partner dearly, but you do not share the same brain. He or she should not have to guess when it comes to your wants and needs. In fact, this concept can be readily applied to your work and family relationships as well.
  Build strong and healthy relationships with good people. The people that you share your life with are going to help you in your journey to a happy life. If you are around negative people, it is not going to help you change your ways and find the life that you want to live.
  If you hear a voice in your head, chances are it is just your subconscious talking to you. Those words you hear are called affirmations or your inner voice. Some of these may be positive, and some may be negative. The goal is to concentrate on the positive ones and work to eliminate ones that are negative.
  Don't rely simply on your memory for knowledge, invest in understanding things completely. You need to approach life and learning not only with the goal of understanding the 'how' and 'what', but also of understanding the 'why'. When you begin to grasp why something occurred, you are are opening up a layer of knowledge that many people ignore.
Top 10 Things You Can Do To Improve Your Memory
www.developgoodhabits.com
"Some things just won't stick, you can't remember them. Everyone sometimes forgets something, but sometimes it is important that you remember certain things, and including some of the mentioned habits can help you out. The list contains ten tips that give your memory an extra boost. They are small tricks, habits in your everyday behavior, and […]The post Top 10 Things You Can Do To Improve Your Memory appeared first on Develop Good Habits. " https://www.developgoodhabits.com/improve-memory/
To be on a path of personal development means not leaving things to chance. Don't let yourself blame the universe for what happens. Take control of your life and you can choose what your life will be like. In every situation, you have the choice on how you will react, so make the right choice, starting today!
  Be honest with yourself. If you are trying to change something about your life, you need to be brutally honest about what you can and can not do. If you are not a very emotionally strong person, you will need to work on that before going into your deeper issues.
  To achieve your goals you need to recognize what motivates you. Although advise from others can be helpful, do not be surprised if what works for them does not work for you. Once you realize what motivates you, you will be able to set up an award system for yourself that will help keep you focused on your goal.
  Don't forget about the power of positive thinking. It is necessary to maintain the proper mindset on your road to personal development and negativity will only thwart your best efforts. Practice positive thinking to achieve positive results. When you remain positive about everything that you do, good things will follow.
What Is Your Success Meter?
www.dumblittleman.com
"What does success mean for you? Here’s an interesting story. In 1983, a young talented guitarist was kicked out of his dream band. He was delirious with joy even just before the manager called him at his office to kick him out. It happened just three days before he was about to record his first […] The post What Is Your Success Meter? appeared first on Dumb Little Man." https://www.dumblittleman.com/what-does-success-mean/
Religion can help some people. Perhaps the religion you were raised in is not for you if you consider yourself an atheist. Certain people see religion as a way of finding their place in the universe, and some people see it as a way to improve their daily life by adopting a certain philosophy.
  Self awareness and self control are a part of personal development. Knowing who you are, being confident in your perception of the world around you and controlling your emotions will allow your true self to prosper. Always stand up for what you believe in, but try and do so without infringing on others beliefs.
  Consider learning an instrument as part of your personal development. You probably had some type of music training when you were young, and it is never too late to learn again. Learning an instrument can expand your appreciation for various types of music. Music teachers for adults can customize lessons and use music that are more appropriate for adults. Therefore, do not worry that you will only be learning children's songs. Being able to play an instrument is a wonderful feeling, you are really missing out if you don't give it a try.
  Use whichever suggestions from this post seem applicable and practical for your own situation; not every tip will work for every person. If you are aiming for success in nearly any area, the information available in this material will help you. If you know of anyone who could also pick up useful advice from this piece, pass it along and help them begin the journey to becoming a more well-rounded individual.
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Personal Development Change Can Make You Happy
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Personal Development Change Can Make You Happy
A lot of people struggle with the right place or way to start their personal development. Since everyone is different it is important to identify what can work for you when you're thinking about personal development. There are, however, some common advice that can help a majority of people get started on a personal development journey, and that is what the following tips cover.
When dealing with the emotional downers in your life, self help is many times the solution for people. Like anything else in life, it requires dedication to succeed, but there is always room for improvement and you should always strive to better yourself. Remember to always keep your head up.
    If you would like to move forward in personal development, you should be humble. Realizing that you are but a small part of the bigger picture will potentially open your mind to attaining new insights. By instilling these ideas in your brain, you will be more open to improving yourself and learning new information.
  You are responsible for the state of your life right now. You have the ability to make changes and own up to the decisions you have made by embracing them and extracting the value and experience you have gained from them. By realizing you are in control of your life, you can be more effective in identifying the things you wish to improve or change about yourself.
  How Meditation Helped Me to Uncover My Path
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"You're reading How Meditation Helped Me to Uncover My Path, originally posted on Pick the Brain | Motivation and Self Improvement. If you're enjoying this, please visit our site for more inspirational articles.
I remember the time in my life when I was stuck amidst the false narratives of success, failure, and competition. Humans are free species with a mind that is capable of doing wonders, and natural abilities to achieve astonishing outcomes. But do you know what stands between you and the success? It is your own mindset and insufficiency to disconnect from the unnatural wrath of ego that comes in between. I was in the same position a couple of years ago – completely delusional, dwelling under forced expectations, and just living my life on absolutely absurd terms. I had no idea what my heart wanted or what my soul was searching for. Living in denial is one perilous thing, isn’t it?
Humans love living in absolute renunciation because it offers some short-lived emotions- love, greed satiation, and ego inflation. What was missing in my life? Why wasn’t I happy even though I was living a life that had everything approved by the societal norms and standards? I realized that every waking moment of my life was a slave to some or the other requirement or demand. My work was not serving my soulful purpose and my bank account was there just to boost my ego. Ask yourself, “is this what you want?” It was way back in 2016, that one of my friends introduced me to Yoga & meditation and since then, I never looked back.
The unnecessary mind chatter was over all of a sudden, happiness was there in the heart, and an unreal sense of satisfaction encompasses my gut. Suddenly, everything looked bright and every morning, the sun looked even more beautiful.
Meditation turned my life upside down…..for good.
Constant Anger
Past 4 years were a roller coaster ride of emotions and mental instability. Anger was my second personality and nothing was working enough to pacify the strange irritation towards everything and everyone. I was always hungry, stressed, and my gut wrenched in pain. In a nutshell, I was annoying and unapproachable. During the first few days of starting my meditation session, I was horrible, failed to concentrate on anything, and could not keep my eyes closed. With time, I learnt to connect with my body and keep up with its demand. The first wake up call for me was to change my lifestyle and diet for a while to see if it changes anything. I am a pescatarian now. I feel full, stay humble, feel energetic, and my hunger pangs are controlled. I was missing the basic vitamins and animal hormones, which is why I was ungrounded for most parts. It is proved that some of the basic vitamins and minerals are found in animal products and I was obviously missing from my diet. Led by the new-age cult, my lifestyle was affected in the most pathetic ways possible and my brain remained wishy-washy about the positive changes. Meditation brought me closer to my existence and put me into a thinking mode. I became practical enough to take care of my body first and include things that can help me reach healthier goals.
Your gut regulates your life, let that sink in!
Eating Disorder?!
Eating disorder is not a pleasant sight, believe me. Eating a bag of chips, a burger and still not feeling satiated! No one wants to be this monstrous with food. I had an unhealthy relationship with food that made me unstable and extremely annoyed for most parts. Nothing was working on my appetite and by the end of the day, I was bloated and sick as hell. Meditation taught me to focus more on the moment and this helped me a lot during my withdrawal symptoms and helped me go through the paradigm shift, with ease. I learned to chew each morsel with contentment and concentrate on that very moment. My emotions were all over the place and I found solace near every junk food stall or truck. However, scientific studies prove that junk food has a high content of Omega-6 that messes up the gut and everyone knows that happiness starts at the gut. The art of mindfulness taught me to stay in harmony with my disrupted emotional well-being, take food as a fuel, and stop obsessing with my meals.
Career Path
But where do you get the food from? I had to live a life on my own terms and ethics. This is not easy as you need both emotional and financial support, which is steady enough to take you through thick and thins. A closed mind is an outcome of societal conditioning, childhood preaching, and certain religious beliefs that stops you from being your real self. A constant need of a polished self-projection puts pressure on your tender mind and often forces you to do things against your life’s purpose. My career path was the most arduous terrain I have ever walked, no jokes. At some point in life, I was nearly close to sabotaging my desires and suppress my skills. You become a push-over when you stay in denial and disconnect from Nature. I started trusting my instincts more and developed the strength to follow my skills.  The art of meditation brings your soul back home and make you realize that temporary emotions satiate the ego, not the soul.
Success Rate
You have to understand this thing- “the effective way to lead a happier life is to stay grounded and be grateful”. Greed is a common emotion and honestly the most powerful one. Constantly fanned by ego, your greed takes everything to extreme. At first, my approach towards life in general was extremely haywire and this is why my mindset was haggard and unsteady. Meditation is a scientifically proven tool to deactivate the parasympathetic nervous system, which means less unstable emotions, eased up mind, and more energy to take up intricate tasks. In every sphere of my life, I elevated from a confused to a more mature human being and my mind levelled up from being unsteady to becoming practical. Wondering what this can do to you? A stable mind leads to a more realistic approach towards life; you feel better about yourself, approach your goals with a calmer mind and sop rushing into things. These attributes confirm nothing but a steady success rate and constantly fueled ambitions to move ahead in life. This will take time but things started to change after a week.
Do I Owe Stability to the Cumulative Effects of These Changes?
The art of meditation is not a magic wand that yields result at the single swirl. Consider this – you approach to use a divine tool in order to achieve a higher consciousness but this is not an easy path. Meditation is a catalyst to this mission, which makes you aware of your instabilities, weaknesses, and covered ego. First few instances of failure shall teach you that your life is not only a bed of roses but often days of walking the eggshells. I was more than exhausted and this was because meditation takes a lot of energy, the negative one. You will not feel it at the first go – all that sitting at one place with closed eye thing. My mental chatter stopped after a week and this was no miracle. It was more about lack of centered emotions and unnecessary inclination towards egotistical qualms.
A lifestyle that was not serving my higher-self had to be shunned so that I could listen to my mind and feed my body the right way. Inculcate the art of meditation in your everyday life, add it to your workout regime, morning routine or simply do some inhale-exhale action before hitting the sack. The rhythmic breathing patterns helps pacify stressed nerves allowing you to raise your vibrations in the most realist way.
  Om Singh is blogging at Retreat Kula, a website that offers best yoga retreats and yoga teacher training for yogis around the world.  He is always on the lookout for interesting places to visit. It took him 25 years of his life to realize where his true calling lies, but once that was done, there’s been no looking back. Since the last ten years that he is on the go, He is sharing his travel experiences by writing about them.
You've read How Meditation Helped Me to Uncover My Path, originally posted on Pick the Brain | Motivation and Self Improvement. If you've enjoyed this, please visit our site for more inspirational articles." https://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/how-meditation-helped-me-to-uncover-my-path/
Being able to effectively manage your time will play a huge role in the level of success of bettering yourself and your life. Staying organized is important because the stronger your plan, the less leeway you have to get off track and the less excuses you will be able to make.
  You can contribute to a more loving and fulfilling relationship with your partner by making an effort to clearly state your specific needs and expectations as they relate to showing appreciation for one another. Yes, you love your partner dearly, but you do not share the same brain. He or she should not have to guess when it comes to your wants and needs. In fact, this concept can be readily applied to your work and family relationships as well.
  Build strong and healthy relationships with good people. The people that you share your life with are going to help you in your journey to a happy life. If you are around negative people, it is not going to help you change your ways and find the life that you want to live.
  If you hear a voice in your head, chances are it is just your subconscious talking to you. Those words you hear are called affirmations or your inner voice. Some of these may be positive, and some may be negative. The goal is to concentrate on the positive ones and work to eliminate ones that are negative.
  Don't rely simply on your memory for knowledge, invest in understanding things completely. You need to approach life and learning not only with the goal of understanding the 'how' and 'what', but also of understanding the 'why'. When you begin to grasp why something occurred, you are are opening up a layer of knowledge that many people ignore.
Top 10 Things You Can Do To Improve Your Memory
www.developgoodhabits.com
"Some things just won't stick, you can't remember them. Everyone sometimes forgets something, but sometimes it is important that you remember certain things, and including some of the mentioned habits can help you out. The list contains ten tips that give your memory an extra boost. They are small tricks, habits in your everyday behavior, and […]The post Top 10 Things You Can Do To Improve Your Memory appeared first on Develop Good Habits. " https://www.developgoodhabits.com/improve-memory/
To be on a path of personal development means not leaving things to chance. Don't let yourself blame the universe for what happens. Take control of your life and you can choose what your life will be like. In every situation, you have the choice on how you will react, so make the right choice, starting today!
  Be honest with yourself. If you are trying to change something about your life, you need to be brutally honest about what you can and can not do. If you are not a very emotionally strong person, you will need to work on that before going into your deeper issues.
  To achieve your goals you need to recognize what motivates you. Although advise from others can be helpful, do not be surprised if what works for them does not work for you. Once you realize what motivates you, you will be able to set up an award system for yourself that will help keep you focused on your goal.
  Don't forget about the power of positive thinking. It is necessary to maintain the proper mindset on your road to personal development and negativity will only thwart your best efforts. Practice positive thinking to achieve positive results. When you remain positive about everything that you do, good things will follow.
What Is Your Success Meter?
www.dumblittleman.com
"What does success mean for you? Here’s an interesting story. In 1983, a young talented guitarist was kicked out of his dream band. He was delirious with joy even just before the manager called him at his office to kick him out. It happened just three days before he was about to record his first […] The post What Is Your Success Meter? appeared first on Dumb Little Man." https://www.dumblittleman.com/what-does-success-mean/
Religion can help some people. Perhaps the religion you were raised in is not for you if you consider yourself an atheist. Certain people see religion as a way of finding their place in the universe, and some people see it as a way to improve their daily life by adopting a certain philosophy.
  Self awareness and self control are a part of personal development. Knowing who you are, being confident in your perception of the world around you and controlling your emotions will allow your true self to prosper. Always stand up for what you believe in, but try and do so without infringing on others beliefs.
  Consider learning an instrument as part of your personal development. You probably had some type of music training when you were young, and it is never too late to learn again. Learning an instrument can expand your appreciation for various types of music. Music teachers for adults can customize lessons and use music that are more appropriate for adults. Therefore, do not worry that you will only be learning children's songs. Being able to play an instrument is a wonderful feeling, you are really missing out if you don't give it a try.
  Use whichever suggestions from this post seem applicable and practical for your own situation; not every tip will work for every person. If you are aiming for success in nearly any area, the information available in this material will help you. If you know of anyone who could also pick up useful advice from this piece, pass it along and help them begin the journey to becoming a more well-rounded individual.
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