#i am actually wildly curious to know how obvious it is that i swerved when i swerved

[mego42]

author meme!

tagged by @whiskeyjack and @bethsuglywigs to ramble about the inspiration/evolution of the idea that eventually became a song inside the halls of the dark. 

This was actually really fun because I went back through my drive and found my initial wildly rough draft of what was going to be the beginning of it and am howling because it’s supposed to be Beth POV but the voice is like, me, so it reads a little like Annie is narrating Beth’s life and state of mind hahahahaha whoops!

putting the rest of this nonsense below the cut bc i got a bit verbose. shocking, I know.

BUT OKAY SO this will come as no surprise to anyone who has paid any attention to my perpetual WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING meltdowns but song was originally supposed to be a short one-shot!

Baaaaaasically, I was listening to is there somewhere by halsey a lot because I am nothing if not a basic bitch and also I love that song let me live. I was really into the idea of writing something where Beth and Rio end up having to spend a night in a hotel room (obvs there is only one bed), going into it with a functional relationship but walls definitely up and basically being forced to get to know each other on a level they previously hadn’t because they’d never had reason to spend this much time with just the two of them together. it was all going to lead to them both having individual oh shit, I think I like like you moments. Basically it was gonna be a bottle episode, set sometime in the partnership era of s2.

Obvs what came out was very different.

I started asking myself questions like well why are they in a hotel room? They were on a job far away. Okay, okay, why can’t they leave? Mmmmmmm what if one of them is injured? Oooooh interesting, how did one of them get injured? Job went wrong. Fascinating! How’d that happen?

(yes this is a mostly accurate representation of how conversations with myself often go but usually with more participants and a lot of commentary from the peanut gallery)

Over the course of asking those question, the initial set up with Mia and the Canada meeting started taking shape and that was really what killed my whole it’s gonna be short I swear MO because as soon as I came up with Mia I was like oh!!!! I like her!!!! I want to know more about her!!!! who is she??? what does she want??? what is her backstory????? I think I love her???????? and started trying to come up with ways to shoehorn more about her into a concept that was v much not built to sustain OCs. Then, to further complicate things, somewhere along the lines I decided that actually, if someone’s getting hurt, wouldn’t it be more loaded and interesting for that to happen in s3 times when Beth and Rio ~~~hate each other and have to reckon with do I save this person’s life or no? Also what does the fallout of all of this look like and more specifically when does Mia come back? 

And lo, the initial outline of song started to take shape!

(fun fact! it radically changed two more times during the writing of it! which….I dislike admitting out loud bc idk about you but when I know that, I can see the scar tissue all over it, hahahaha)

tagging:

@joeyjoeylee - law school AU

@pynkhues - navigate a broken path (or pirate au even though you already talked about it today or yesterday for you bc australia is in the future bc i cannot stress enough how much I love hearing about that fic)

@septiembur - a bit of a stretch

@foxmagpie  - delinquents and/or all four seasons *stares in peer pressure*

@sothischickshe - the to everything there is a season series

rules/q’s/meme backstory:

recently I have become really fascinated with fanfic authors and what exactly was rumbling around in their brain that inspired a fic?

Was it a line of dialogue you couldn’t get out of your head?

A scene you wrote WAY in advance and then crafted the whole story around?

An image in your mind?

Inspiration from another form of media?

Maybe someone suggested something to you and it just TOOK off from there?

What is the cornerstone of this fic -what is it all built around? The idea that started it all?

Tag an author & their fic. Let’s hear about what sparked your story. What exactly got your booty movin’ shakin’ motivated and writin’ ?