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chairofchaos · 6 months ago

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them: is this the hill you want to die on?

me: no, but it’s where I’ll leave your corpse

#back on my bullshit #anyways #almost sliced part of my finger off with a knife today #it must run in the family #bc my grandfather once got his finger chopped off by a chainsaw #they never found the finger btw #also it was his ring finger? we aren’t entirely sure how he did that without getting any other fingers #I am actively crying #I think I’m in shock #I do not handle blood well #OH YES #I fainted #that is very much also a thing that happened #lol #delete later #this is how I handle inconveniences now I guess #straightupchaos #more like straight up LOSING MY MIND #but everything is fine. triple antiseptics. if it’s still a problem tomorrow superglue fixes all #yeah this family vacation is going GREAT #seriously: I am having a good time despite the injury #does this count as a life update?#I think it does #no promises what fics are getting done LMAO

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sonnettohara · 1 year ago

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SOBBING

#I COULD WRITE ESSAYS ON THIS #I AM ACTIVELY CRYING #emily sonnett #megan rapinoe #uswnt

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cappiecarp · 1 year ago

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just saw the cover of volume 9 of skip to loafer. might die.

#guys im so fucking unwell #this is devstating to me #the power this cover haves over me is insane #i am actively crying #bashing my head into the fucking wall #skip and loafer #skip to loafer #this is the first time they arent whimsical and silly together #they want me dead and gone #this is awful #i feel like i just got ran over by a car and then hit in the head with a brick and then crushed to death by an astroid #all while having a migrane #im so not normal #this series has me in a chokehold #it has done things to my psyche that psychologists and therapists will never fully understand #this series has broken me forever i think #i am going to die

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yopcs · 1 year ago

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Just finished Good Omens Season 2. I accidentally saw so many spoilers but it hurt just the same. Maybe worse.

Thanks Neil Gaiman! Haha. Gay men. Hahahahahah *fucking sobs*

#good omens #good omens season 2 #neil gaiman #pain #I am actively crying

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southern--downpour · 2 years ago

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gl!ranboo doodle sheet bc i am actually going insane

#generation loss #genloss #generation loss fanart #ranboo #ranboo fanart #haha get boxed idiot <- said while actively crying #virgil arts #this was drawn at like. 4-5 am while i watched my bf play a half life mod #dude this series has actually grabbed hold of my brain its so so good #also i was in fact looping puppet boy while drawing this #songs just good also started making me feel very sad about gl!ranboo and i think that was the point lmao

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dilfmobius · 3 months ago

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Loki season 2 deleted scene | Roll Call |

“How can there be more?” “Mobius, there are so many people who said I was the problem.”

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ryllen · 2 years ago

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this PSA is brought to u, by first year farmer ・゚ *✧

#fsds just kidding i love how welcoming robin was too; even offering table with her family during the stardew valley eve #but no red carpet can be more welcoming than local grandma who smells like flowers and cookies and take u as her grandchild from day 1 #i thought linus was sketchy at first but then i almost cry because he is the only one drag me back home when i am dying in mine alone #with no one knowing or care where am i #sdv #stardew valley #sdv evelyn #sdv farmer #stardew evelyn #stardew farmer #stardew valley evelyn #stardew valley farmer #fanart #surely it was sketchy at first the way ur money and things are gone #but after knowing linus u get to trust him that he was sincere helping u #it really was like this homeless man cares for me more than anyone in this village #*tho reasonable bcs he's the only one actively foraging for things to live & coincidentally u are one of the thing he found #but i can imagine by the way i was playing; first few months arriving at the valley farmer just keep spending time sitting beside linus #contemplating about life #like second homeless person in the valley #if there's a popularity poll for stardew villagers; evelyn should be top number 1 no discussion #for someone who started stardew valley without any interest of the bachelor/rettes this is how i feel

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m340700 · 9 months ago

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found an old thing

#moondrop #its 11 months old according to my malmal activity #im back to drawing them again it seems TT #they're the kind of characters u can't help but go back to whenever you're tired #or in this case; when you don't have any ideas to draw lol #drawing a character so much that its become a habit even when ure interested in smth else rn #anyway yes im drawing sun and i hate that my improvement really shows whenever i draw them >:(#sorry for the ramble but also not sorry for the ramble (i am the ruler of these tags)#might try writing a fic abt them once i get a hang of writing characters #with my whole heart; i wish for them to fucking Cry #they deserve to be able to weep the tears they haven't wept

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mannequinreligi0n · 27 days ago

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@ the person who just sent me my most recent ask - if i told you vergil was a chubby chaser, would you believe me .

you know how in the ye olden days, having extra weight was a sign of fertility and health, and was extremely desirable…..yeah.

thinking big thoughts.

#also i don’t think size would really matter to either of the twins imo #like they fight DEMONS . do you think they really care if someone’s a size 12 #im finna write the FUCK out of that request tmw #as someone with fucking birthing hips and back problems from my bazongas: i am an active advocate for midsize warriors #fat people <3 #writing #devil may cry #fanfic #dmc #ramblings #vergil sparda #dmc vergil #vergil sparda x reader

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macchiatosdumptruck · 1 month ago

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At this point I don't know how to explain what protagonists are and how they work

#listen. it was never meant to be about him. johnjoshhayden made it about him #because i feel like they wanted a self insert tbh #and he was so good for a brief beautiful time #but he has never stood for miyagi do and its themes. he actively fights against rhem most of the time.#when making a story about LEGACY #why would he be included? he is not part of the legacy.#like i understand wanting to see your special little guy but omg #imagine crying because the karate kid movie is about the karate kid #imagine crying because not everything is catered specifically towards you #the spoiled toddler energy of it all #a fair amount of the people who want it to be about him (and the strange idea that its somehow Ralph being spiteful???)#are also the people eho have been saying shit like “its all just more Asian bull shit ”#and again like. i dont know how to explain.#“why on earth would a movie that heavily features karate (because its not about about karate #its used as a story telling tool. its used to develop emotional growth)#involve the culture that created it?“#i am looking at you so unserious right now.#ck negativity #but really more like #fandumb #but for filtering purposes

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leah2eroes · 21 days ago

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yeah make the disabled girl do unpaid manual labour for you outside in the cold when shes been awake for 20 hours whats the worst that could happen haha

#i dont talk about my living situation much because why would i #but out of guilt for existing in a place without paying money im forced to accept whatever is asked of me #for someone whos supposed to love me unconditionally that fucker sure does force me to act against my best interests #just at a fucking whim because “the garden doesnt look nice like this”#bitch knows i had to quit my job due to physical burnout and the fact that i havent recovered in the last 8 months is very concerning #AND YET that doesnt stop anything. im still assumed to be physically capable of fucking digging dirt to fill a hole #at ten in the fucking morning #3 degrees (about 38 fahrenheit) outside the ground was fkn solid #like i bought a fucking cane because i struggle with mobility #and you already know ive probably done myself in pretty bad because i feel too fucking guilty living here 'without paying rent'#i cover my own food bills and always end up giving money im trying to save because bills need paying #my self worth is through the fucking floor as it is #im just so so scared of being a burden to those around me that i actively harm myself bending over backwards for people who wont love me #god some of you followed me for my hornyposting im so sorry u have to read this shit #for those of u that care about me im literally crying rn even just thinking abt the knowledge that there r people out there who care #especially yall who care enough to support me #i promise your money isnt being handed out needlessly to my pseudo-abusive parent. i am trying my best to save the money im given #at least that which isnt spent on feeding myself #thank you all for supporting me #and sorry for being such a fucking trainwreck im just so overwhelmed and hurting and ugh #:(

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lavenderprose · 1 month ago

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Found out ANOTHER coworker is having a baby and I'm trying not to let the little green monster win so please don't mind me if I get Rook pregnant in every single fic I'm working on. I'll calm down eventually.

#Literally I am actively TRYING not to be the worst person in the world but life is making it hard!#I DID smile and I DID hug her and I DID go home and cry!#And now I will continue coping with my fertility issues the only way I know how #To Delete

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uncanny-tranny · 2 years ago

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I think it can be true that certain lifestyle changes can help with pain and disability, but people really overplay how those changes will affect people's lives.

I've found that exercise has helped my back pain - I have had chronic back pain that PT didn't touch, but exercise has helped. However, what hasn't changed is what exasperates that pain, and when my pain is especially exasperated, it doesn't matter how much I exercise, I'll be in my bed trying so hard to get out, and I'll be seeing white. So, yes, exercise helped me, but it did not save me. That's an example of what I mean.

It's fine to give (solicited!!) advice to people about how to manage things like this. But I'm begging people to be realistic about this. Lifestyle changes can only do so much, and disabilities are - surprise! - disabling.

#disability #i just hate how people turn lifestyle advice into (again) thought-terminating clichés #because i DO all the things i'm ~supposed~ to do and it didn't save me...#...that tells me that it isn't this magical cure people think their advice is #i used my back pain as an example ofc and i'm not saying i have it bad or worse than anybody else #but my pain used to be so much worse and i'm glad it's gotten to the point...#...where i only experience bad days only so often where before it was multiple times per week...#...like as a kid my back pain would keep me up and almost make me cry and PT didn't help me whatsoever #i'm probably about the most active i've been in my life so far and i still have pain because i have a historical precdence for it #this is why i never will judge people for choosing not to make the '~proper~' lifestyle changes that ~help~ with their disability/ies #it isn't a contradiction that i am 'fit' and i'm in the market for a cane (maybe)#(i've been looking around because i want help getting up when i have an 'episode' of pain)

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mandareeboo · 2 months ago

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UGH... I feel like ass...

#Life #Falc talks #My legs are trembling my anti-touch mode is active and I want to cry #Being without weed fucking sucks #But alas. I am also without job

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chloecherrysip · 2 years ago

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I'm telling you, everything's gonna be all right as long as we're together!

#mario movie #mario movie spoilers #super mario bros #super mario bros movie #super mario bros movie spoilers #cherrysip edits #i've seen so many screenshots and a few scattered gifs but it doesn't seem like anyone's actually done a proper gifset SO #I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS SCENE. SO UNBELIEVABLY NORMAL. I DIDN'T WATCH THIS CLIP 60 TIMES AND CRY EVERY TIME #YOU CAN'T PROVE ANYTHING #but seriously it is unbelievable how sweet these brothers are. i am SO grateful that the movie is actually giving a lot of emotional weight #to their relationship! i just can't get over how mario is wholly focused on soothing luigi because that's what's important to him #and how luigi does relax and smile because he trusts his brother wholeheartedly #PICTURES TAKEN SECONDS BEFORE DISASTER :( :( :( :( :( :(#i also love how you can tell mario genuinely did not know that luigi was sucked in too (this is confirmed in the newest tv spot too)#and so he's kind of in quiet awe of where he is and then HE SEES LUIGI and PROTECTIVE BIG BROTHER MODE activates instantly #their reunion in the movie is actually going to end me. i will leave my mortal body behind and rejoin the sea. IT BETTER BE GOOD #but after this i don't see how it CAN'T be. this relationship is clearly the heart of the movie - if it's already emotional in this scene #then they've got to pay that off at the end!!! it's the law!!! otherwise things will just fall flat. i believe in u movie don't let me down

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khaire-traveler · 4 months ago

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Ugh, man. I'm really not feeling great right now. It's one of those moments where you're like, "Wow, I really don't believe in myself and also kind of hate my life." Trying to stay positive about it is unhelpful, I think. I'm not really sure what to feel. Maybe just really alone? Or lost? Oh well. That's that.

#not helpol #vent post #personal #depression has been fucking devouring me #and I honestly just feel like shit constantly actually #and nothing seems to help anymore #not talking it out or crying or even going to therapy #i am getting rid of the therapist i have too because she was actively harmful for me #not a bad therapist; just not the right one for me #but yeah i just feel so isolated #even though i have friends i can talk to i just have this habit of never feeling seen or heard anyway #and i think one of my friends sees me as just being negative all the time #and that just sucks ass really #i don't know what to do.#i really don't.

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