#i am a perfectionist im so sorry 😭

[eggsdrawings]

the dilemma of wanting to post my fic fully completed versus the 2/4 chapters i actually have done is eating at me

[gorillaxyz]

sigh........... i keep posting i cant stop sorry. but anyway i just remembered drama class.......... urrgh. im so harsh when i give constructive criticism/feedback i hate it bc no one wanrs to talk to me "sorry i just got thrown off bc cam is so critical" dont blame me because you dont know how to stay in character 😕 i just told you it doesnt make sense to wave your hand at the side of her head where she cant see it

[somewhere-at-the-burrow]

hii!!! i hope your move into your college dorms went well ☺️

im so happy i found your blog, its amazing! i am an aspiring shifter, i’m shifting to a hogwarts-related DR with the main desire to fall in love with my s/o (i love love haha) but also to just be at hogwarts, have fun, have adventures, three work at the ministry, etc - so i would like to permashift!

i adore your aesthetic and everythingg, im learning so much and just reading your posts make me super happy! you inspired me to create a blog too. hopefully i’ll have experiences that i can share soon

and we’re almost the same myers-briggs type - i am an infj 🩵

i have a few questions, i hope they’re not too much ~ 

do you have a waiting room, and if not, if you were to have one, what do you think it would look like

2. did you script others’ names for random  students at Hogwarts (like did you script that italian guy coming to Hogwarts, or did you just script that your DR plays out with interesting scenarios and drama scenarios and that is how it played out?) i feel like i remember you said you didn’t script stuff like that, i’m still reading through all of your posts so i’m so sorry if you already mentioned this!

3. did you age up to 15 years old for fourth year? did you keep the same 7 year format for hogwarts?

4. do you have another dr that follows the main harry potter x voldemort plot?

5. is there a muggle washing machine equivalent in the wizarding world? is there a laundry room where you bring all your dirty clothes in to be washed? who washes them, the house elves, or is there a way for students to do it on their own and they pick it up when it’s clean and dry? does that mean your clothes have to be labeled with your name? i feel like i remember in the sorcerer’s stone that they got crabbe and goyle’s uniforms with their names on it from the laundry or something!  

6. do students wear muggle clothing after school or on the weekends? the prisoner of azkaban was such an aesthetic because of the jeans and 90’s style clothing everyone wore after school but i would think everyone mostly wore their uniforms, even after classes are done for the day, like in the books, but i’m not sure!

7. can you only go to hogsmeade on the weekends? like if you need a quill or book for school and it’s not a hogsmeade weekend yet, would you have to get an order form and send it by owl to a shop and send over the galleons by mail and your order is delivered to you by magical mail? 

8. so sorry if this is a little tmi, no need to answer if it’s uncomfortable! but as a girl, i’ve always wondered how do girls deal with their cycle while at hogwarts? is there a magical cloth pad that absorbs everything without needing to change it?

9. did you script in that there would be magazines like Seeker Weekly that you and Ginny read? i’m so excited to be a Quibbler magazine subscriber 

10. did you have to study the layout and appearance of hogwarts, common rooms, the burrow, hogsmeade, diagon alley, knockturn alley, the hogwarts express, etc. before you shifted? a big part of my problem is that i feel like i need to script in everythinggg detail by detail because i suppose i don’t believe that everything will just play out (im a perfectionist and my anxiety is not making it easy 😭)

11. does news from the muggle world get into the wizarding world, or does it feel like the two worlds are truly separate/does it feel like you’re in a lovely bubble in the wizarding world? 

i’m so sorry for all the questions!!

thank you!!! 🥹 🩵🩵🩵

you're so sweet! also, thank you so much angel!! i'm so glad my blog can be of help to you... and your blog is looking awesome already .. i'll def be sticking around to see how it goes <3

𝖆𝖓𝖘𝖜𝖊𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖒𝖔𝖗𝖊 𝖖𝖚𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖘 !

{ about my Hogwarts reality }

do you have a waiting room, and if not, if you were to have one, what do you think it would look like

waaaay back in the beginning of my shifting journey, I envisioned having a waiting room that was similar to Newt Scamander's case! I created many layout sketches for it and thought about it all the time, but I've never actually shifted there yet. I also thought about having this magic suitcase include a ladder that leads to a wizarding world reality, but I didn't have one at the time so it just didn't work out. I think the idea is very fun, though! just imagine having the coziest little workshop with bowtruckles and vivarium environments to visit... it sounds so relaxing. in my version, I also envisioned a magical greenhouse with colorful tiles, a kitchen to bake whatever I want, and pathways that lead all over the workshop / vivariums!

2. did you script others’ names for random  students at Hogwarts (like did you script that italian guy coming to Hogwarts, or did you just script that your DR plays out with interesting scenarios and drama scenarios and that is how it played out?)

I personally didn't script anything about how school would work in terms of people there / drama. that is just how it turned out, I guess! I think if you really wanted to, you could script the possibility for drama or different scenarios, but I wanted to see how Hogwarts social circles would play out if I didn't really script anything! and BOY IS IT CRAZY. sometimes I get so caught up in the daily events in my personal schedule, I forget that there is drama happening 24/7 with people that don't exist ANYWHERE in canon. something that was also interesting is the fact that most of my best friends do not exist in canon. I was fully expecting to only be friends with the "main characters", but shifting is real life and you can really have no idea how things like that will play out!

3. did you age up to 15 years old for fourth year? did you keep the same 7 year format for hogwarts?

the 7 year format is the same at my Hogwarts, except we start our first year when we are 15 years old! so, I guess you could say it is kind of like a university / Hogwarts mix? I knew that I wanted to shift into the chamber of secrets timeline, and because I am in the same year as George and Fred, I did the math for how I could interpret my current age into entering my fourth year at Hogwarts. so everyone is aged up!

4. do you have another dr that follows the main harry potter x voldemort plot?

I thought about it once, but when I actually started shifting to my weasley reality, I realized that I didn't want to go through the stress of crazy (and most times traumatic) plot lines. although the harry potter canon events can be pretty interesting sometimes, actually being there and starting my class schedule gave me a bit of an existential crisis and I don't want to deal with that AND umbridge (for example!)

5. is there a muggle washing machine equivalent in the wizarding world? is there a laundry room where you bring all your dirty clothes in to be washed? who washes them, the house elves, or is there a way for students to do it on their own and they pick it up when it’s clean and dry? does that mean your clothes have to be labeled with your name?

this is such a cool question, and I was definitely very curious about this as well before I shifted! at my Hogwarts, there are multiple different ways you can get your laundry done (depending on how fast you need it cleaned etc). the most common option is through the dorm laundry basket, which is usually in the bathroom and is magically collected every evening. there is a laundry room near the Kitchens, and there are staff (wizards and house elves) that use cleaning spells to wash through the laundry baskets they collect! they then fold the clothes and the hamper re-appears in our dorms usually by the next evening. there is also a second option for students who may only have one uniform to cycle through, and that is usually through walking down to the laundry room (typically during the free hours before dinner) and washing it yourself. because the laundry staff have so many clothes to get through, this is the fastest because laundry and drying spells do not take hardly any time in the wizarding world and sometimes working at your own pace is best. IT IS AMAZING!! and yes! you can also pick up your clothes from the wash room if you so choose, but it is so much easier to just use the dorm laundry basket IT MAKES ME SO LAZY FR

6. do students wear muggle clothing after school or on the weekends? the prisoner of azkaban was such an aesthetic because of the jeans and 90’s style clothing everyone wore after school but i would think everyone mostly wore their uniforms, even after classes are done for the day, like in the books, but i’m not sure!

Hogwarts uniforms are only necessary during official school hours, so from 8/9am -- 4:30pm. also, fridays depend on the student's schedule, because sometimes professors will schedule classes on friday but they are usually a study day! the general rule is to put on your uniform if you are visiting a study hall (library, great hall resource hour, selkie commons, etc), and you can take off your uniform and change into regular clothes after school is done or on the weekends. it is pretty common to see an array of students at dinner both wearing their uniforms AND wearing everyday clothes. on the weekends, you will rarely ever see a uniform unless there is a school sanctioned trip or a class that may be meeting for an exam or something! ALSO YES THE 90s STYLE CLOTHING IS AMAZING

7. can you only go to hogsmeade on the weekends? like if you need a quill or book for school and it’s not a hogsmeade weekend yet, would you have to get an order form and send it by owl to a shop and send over the galleons by mail and your order is delivered to you by magical mail? 

something I like about my Hogwarts reality is how Hogsmeade can be visited every day if you would like to go! sometimes it can be very impractical, though, because school/clubs can get out pretty late and it is another 20-30 minute walk to the village, but many older students tend to socialize or get something to eat later in the evening. it all depends! usually that type of stuff is reserved for the weekends, though. school is very busy, but usually everyone plans their work so they can spend one day during the weekend at Hogsmeade!

8. so sorry if this is a little tmi, no need to answer if it’s uncomfortable! but as a girl, i’ve always wondered how do girls deal with their cycle while at hogwarts? is there a magical cloth pad that absorbs everything without needing to change it?

no worries! there are so so many products that are advertised in the wizarding world, but most people just stick to muggle methods because plain and simple.. the cycle sucks and we do what we've gotta do! the dorm supply closet is always supplied with necessary things, and there are also potions that can be given to you in the Hospital Wing for cramps and stomach aches.

9. did you script in that there would be magazines like Seeker Weekly that you and Ginny read? i’m so excited to be a Quibbler magazine subscriber 

I've always wanted to get my hands on a Seeker Weekly magazine, especially when I saw them for the first time in goblet of fire. so, I guess it was just my desires to read crazy wizarding magazines that solidified them in my weasley reality!! there are truly so many different forms of media to consume--- from books to radio channels to magazines. i'd definitely keep that in mind to explore when you shift!

10. did you have to study the layout and appearance of hogwarts, common rooms, the burrow, hogsmeade, diagon alley, knockturn alley, the hogwarts express, etc. before you shifted? a big part of my problem is that i feel like i need to script in everythinggg detail by detail because i suppose i don’t believe that everything will just play out

I definitely have an advantage because I was that kid in high school who was making maps of Hogwarts and stuff like that! but I definitely didn't plan out the entire school and know my whole way around before I shifted. when I try and shift (especially to a new place), I sometimes create a small pinterest board and then I focus on the place I am going to wake up. I have found that that helps me not get so overwhelmed about everything! I didn't know my way around the burrow AT ALL before shifting this summer, but I watched a small video on it and tried to shift imagining what my bedroom would look like. the rest just came with memory when I shifted! you absolutely do not need to script every single detail with your DR.. I personally think that takes out the wonder of shifting and the fact that it is real life to be explored :)

[struwberrii]

HIIIIIIII I'D LIKE TO REQUEST A MATCHUP (romantic matchup) 💗

im a girl, she/her pronouns, u can call me sofie. i want to be paired with masculine characters, and i dont want to be paired with Hinata, Wakatoshi and Kageyama.

1- Ideal traits: intelligence is the MOST important thing in a person for me. i want someone understanding, who i can be blunt and honest with, and be myself without worries. nerd because i am a nerd and i want to discuss about my nerdy interests :D

2- My personality: my friends say im smart but lazy, and also a difficult person to approach at first. im pretty quiet and i hate small talk so i get why they say that. they say im good at giving advice, but im really awkward when it comes to giving comfort. i cant really say what i think 100% bc im afraid of upsetting them 😭 im an overthinker, caring, perfectionist, anxious, introverted person. i worry about any little small detail and i plan every little interaction i have, even when i go to the market. my friends say im calm outside and chaotic inside. i do panick sometimes but i'd say that im pretty calm. i HATE those hotheaded people that want everything fast, LIKE BITCH CALM DOWN!

3- My hobbies: i like to draw and bake. OMG I CANT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I LOVE BAKING BROWNIES ITS THERAPY OMG

4- love language: i give quality time and acts of service, and im open to receive any kind expect physical touch for too long. i cant stand more than a 20 second hug.

5- dream date: A CAFE DATE! omg my dream is to go on a cafe date with someone and get all the sweets in the menu while talking about our nerdy interests (i have a sweet tooth).

6- Appearence: im 1.57 cm tall, 45kg. i would say that my body is average. i use glasses, my hair is short brown with red highlights and my eyes are dark brown. i have round cheeks and some pimples like any teenager. i dont care about what i wear as long as its decent and comfortable.

7- mbti: INTJ-T 5w6

THANK U SO MUCH, TAKE UR TIME DOING MY MATCHUP, NO PRESSURE!

match up: tetsuro kuroo ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

i hope u like the matchup sofieee!!!

so the reason i paired you with kuroo is because i see him as very accepting and understanding of people, so i can see him being very open to discussing all your nerdy interest along with him discussing his nerdy interests (because he is also the biggest nerd ever LOL)

also he seems like the type of guy to not get his feelings hurt very easily so i can see him being ok with any of your blunt or straight forward comments and understanding that you didn’t mean it in a rude or unfriendly way.

also your mbti type are compatible, he is an ENTP :o (wasn’t even surprised when i found out his type 😭)

i also think kuroos giving love language would have something to do with acts of service, or gift giving.

he also seems like the kind of guy to do research on the things you like so that he can talk to you about it and actually understand :,(

i also feel like he would encourage you to speak your mind and be honest with him. he wouldn’t want to you to be unhappy if it’s something he can change.

plus CAFE DATES literally would be the cutest thing, he seems like the kind of guy to really want to know a girl before he seals the deal, so i think he would take you on a lot of cafe dates just because he loves talking to you and learning more about you :)

sorry if this was a lot to read but i rlly hope you like the matchup 😭🙏

[sansalealea]

TO MY GORGEOUS AMAZING COMMISSIONERS!!!

I JUST WANTED TO SAY THANK YOU ALL SO INCREDIBLY MUCH!!! @afreakingdork @hijinxensues @kirikatalksalot

I have so much love and appreciation for you three!! You guys were my first proper commissions ever!!!! I had so much fun drawing up the comms to the best of my ability, and im so so SO thankful that you each deemed my art worthy enough to be paid, or tbh literally just ASKED for in the first place. The fact you guys even like my art is beyond me?!? 🙇‍♀️😭🫶🏻 (Also, im doing the perfectionist artist thing where i keep looking back at them going... they deserve better... what if i just re drew it... [theres the possibility i might tbh🧍‍♀️])

I genuinely dont know how to explain how insanely thankful i am for you all!! 🫠🫶🏻

I remember with each commission i would freak for a bit, kicking my feet, squealing, jumping around, etc... before calling/messaging my parents who were just as stoked that I had managed to succeed enough to finally have people who actually liked my art enough to request a commission!

As shown in my squeal-y excited texts lmao

@afreakingdork my mum knows vaguely about you just bcs i constantly honk abt "this fanfic i really like!!! thats so well written!!! and is the size of multiple novels!!! The author is so lovely!!! RAH RAH RAH!!!" (I frl dont shut up when a new chap comes out, even if im vague abt what its about... im not THAT comfortable with my family HAHAH)

But seriously, from the bottom of my heart, thank you all so much. You each made my year, tbh my life, i genuinely wont ever forget how lovely you all have been and the support you have given me :,) <3

Sorry if this is annoying/embarrassing to have me freak out and fangirl over you each so much but IM JUST SUPER HAPPY 🙇‍♀️🫶🏻😭

So much love to you all, Stella. <3 xx

[onathinker]

i am begging on my knees please pull through with a fic or a snippet or anyyyythinggg because this day has been horrible and we all need some cheering up😭😭😭 (no stress tho but would be lovely)

girl i couldn’t even answer this yesterday i was so heartbroken 😭 i understand but tbh looking at my wips is still a bit depressing rn

and ik yall are gonna hang me from the rafters for this but 30k is postponed for the time being cus i’ve been dealing w a lot irl and im on vacation next week n i really need a break from everything including stressing over this fanfic! if u wanna yell at me i get it but this is ur chance bc i wont be answering 30k asks for at least a week 🫶 i really am sorry trust me i wish i could just finish it but i’m such a neurotic perfectionist and i genuinely don’t have the time or mental capacity atm

here’s a snippet from a different wip to hopefully soften the blow:

(^^ this is a wip i reworked after ona’s uwcl injury and it takes place during the week she left spain camp and lucy had the france games. no smut mostly just cute facetime calls and a sappy reunion moment at the end. if i took an adderall i could probs upload it before i leave but no promises ❤️)

[collegetennisoriginstory]

OK. UM. first of all, hiiii! <3 ok lemme just gush a lil bit:

1. I LOVE UR FIC OHMYGOD HOLY SHIIIIIIIT

2. god, i don't even have the slightest idea of how tennis works, but this is just so????? like?????? you know. and i kinda get how the play goes?? YOU'RE AN AMAZING WRITER GOSH.

3. i actually remembered most of the characters?? considering there's a lot of em, this is practically a miracle. again, you're goddamn amazing. i dont know how. maybe the pace is great, but definitely THE CHARAS ALL HAVE PERSONALITY/DEPTH??? like, i actually even remembered the side charas!!! mike, thalia, diego, felix, that cool ass girl in that shooting game, etc. umh just perfecto.

4. THE TENNIS MATCHES ALL FEEL SO SATISFYING!!! <3333333 omg. i feel like WUOOOOOH u know. i feel so cool playing a cool talented mc omg im loving it (i play a i-win-everything type of mc becuz im a perfectionist with a fear of failure) the matches me on edge in my seat oh gosh <3 and when u win it somehow just go WOOOOOOOH again!!! AAAAAA<3

5. aw, and of course, my beloved rivals to lovers rayyan <3333 *sigh* the slowburn.... (hes actually my first & only one. i go: ohhh tension!?!? and make a run for it. um, if it's ok to ask, is there a lot of content in the romance area as of now or in the future? like, replayability in terms of romance? im sorry if this is rude, i didnt mean to, i suck at words & i wont ask that again.)

6. FOUND FAMILY YAY! FOUND FAMILY YAY! <33333 (we genuinely lack those in the if community pls.) soulmates w/ sam. ride or die diego. very reluctant ride or die G (imma be honest, his name is just so hard so my head for some reason just go Guacamole 😭). aww tobin u very big cinammon roll ill protect u. shenanigans. & others too many to name honestly.

7. help this is just so good i had to force myself to sleep at 3am for a 7am lecture and i sat in the front rows and i put my head on the table and the fricking professor called me out ohmygod- BUT IT WAS WORTH IT GODDAMN!! ILL DO IT AGAIN IF I HAVE TO! HA! i cant wait for the next update- i'm gonna have this fic in my head for the next week oh pls noooooo. (no pressure tho. u do u author! take ur time!!! ill be here to support u, whoo!)

8.ALL IN ALL, I LOVE IT I LOVE THIS I LOVE EVERYONE I LOVE YOU AUTHOR *runs over & hug you w/ consent* <333333333333

ok. um. that's not it but if i continue it's literally gonna be an essay so i'll stop.

author. i will die for this fic. ahaahahahah. if i may ask, what's ur fav IFs? (i really, really love this one so im kinda hoping maybe u have similar taste in IFs eheh. again, im sorry if this comes as rude or insensitive.) oh uh & if my long rambles bother u, i won't send it again sorry.

<333 okok. take care of urself, dont forget to eat healthy, drink water & good sleep. have a nice day :D

Wait. I think I might have missed replying to this I am so sorry!!! It gave me so so much joy. Maybe I subconsciously did not want it to leave my inbox haha.

1. And 2 -> THANK YOU!

3. Gosh this is such a great thing to hear. There are a looot of characters, and I definitely worry sometimes that it gets to be too much, but I think the IF is getting long enough for me to give enough-ish screentime to each character... though it takes me a while to cycle back to different side characters. I cant believe you remembered the cool ass girl in laser tag! :)

4. AWESOME to hear! 🥰

5. Yup, being a character driven IF, there will be a lot of romance (or friendship) beats / moments in the IF (which is already true now). The next couple of chapters will follow the same mix of sports, school and romance / hanging out, so you should already have a sense of how much romance there'll be (it'll just keep unfolding / developing for each of the RO routes!)

6. Hehe found family is my fave trope to insert in stories as well.

7. Hahaha aww oh no fictional college life is catching up to your real college life!!

8. HUG YOU BACK (with consent)!!🤗🤗

[crguang]

What the fuck that Kafka fic was so good and all of you are insane for making it, for me kafka is like all abt the yearning, she distances herself from relationships so if someone liked her she’d be very distant and vice versa, she wants to feel the one thing she can’t, and she plays an instrument and music is pretty connected w emotions and like communicating them even though she intelectulizes (? idk how to spell rn) a ton of her emotions I just ugh. Just like Kafka thinking abt r everytime she plays, her being unsatisfied w all other accompaniment, like i needed a warning or smth Also I’m finally writing the uni au like i might make a side blog or smth to post it on here, but I need the escapism rn, it’s been awful this week, like the election, genuinely what the fuck, and I’m stuck in America bc I have uni and ppl are being extra racist to me like it’s suddenly okay? And even though I just finished midterms I actually only have like a month until finals? anw sorry for venting but um am i allowed to yap abt arcane s2 on here, i mean a ton of it is me hating on Caitlyn. -🌠

youre so right about her distancing herself when she realizes she’s getting too involved thats why im obsessed with the idea of her learning that defence mechanism in response to getting hurt when she was younger, paired with her need to be great and not allowing herself too many distractions + the competitive field of classical music and the whole “distant bitchy perfectionist” persona protecting her from that as well… it all connects very well i think thats why i love this AU so bad😭 kafka communicating through music but that doesn’t mean everyone will understand what shes trying to convey, and at the same time it gets her closer to her goals and the life she wants to live so its two birds, one stone. she thinks she needs R to be the best because playing alone has left a void she can’t fill with other accomps when really that void is there because she never mourned life separating them. you know how the more you try to ignore something or restrict yourself from something, the more it obsesses you? that’s her. so successful yet so unfulfilled ugh

i’m so happy you’re writing especially since things are shit right now, having an escape is important so im glad you can forget about stuff at least for a while. i also hope you’re safe and surrounded by good people because a ton of hatred and racism, xenophobia, transphobia and misogyny has reemerged after the election results and it’s so disgusting to see. this is what trump stands for and this is why he couldn’t win, i fr cant believe he did again. i hope he croaks before january. i’m sorry you’re going through it with uni as well, i know how exhausting the month of november is for college students, hoping the rest of the semester goes by fast because i can’t do it anymore either, man.

you can yap about arcane s2 now that i’ve watched the episodes, especially if its cait hate lol this is a safe space i do not like that girl!!!

[etheries1015]

Okay it's probably so obvious about who I am but f it lmao

Onto the actual thing, I would just like to rant about how well you characterize Vil like it's so???? I love that you don't write him as some shallow overly vain character and that you've really bothered to show that although he may be an amazing and strong person theres times even when he'll get hurt and be funny and just be a normal college student and not be the perfrct persona that he purs on.I love that you write him as a person that doesn't criticize everything he sees, has feelings, is empathetic, and is flawed, the way you write Vil just feels so realistic, and well, human. I could go on for years and your writing in general is absolutely beautoful and just so heartwarming 😭😭😭

I have absolutely zero clue who this is so ummmm you should come forward lol

But THANK U SO MUCHHH AAAHHH IM GLAD YOU LIKE MY WRITING ITS TRULY MY FAVORITE COMPLIMENT TO RECIEVE. Years about my writing being beautiful and heart warming? Ugh Anon compliments like that make my heart SOAR.

I love Vil 100% and I think people write him as this cold perfectionist and I think they realllly must have not played the same game because all I see is a sensitive person who was forced in the position of putting up this perfect person facade. He likes video games, he likes giving hugs and cheek kisses (I mean. He did it so willingly during book 6, he MUST have some sort of touch starved attribute to him...) He says Epels accent is his charm, just wants to teach him a time and a place in the way he speaks (I personally have the mouth of a sailor, he'd have a field day trying to get me to stop swearing all the time HAHA)

I see Vil wanting to be a normal person who can laugh and make a mess, someone who can be honest and talk about his opinions without fear of being ridiculed. Vil is probably one of my favorite characters because he has such depth to his personality and layers you can pick apart. He's very very human unlike the way others who paint him as a picture of statuesque perfection, get cries easily, he feels the pressure of being in the publics eye, yet he can still be a joyful and sensitive soul who is honestly just your normal guy.

SORRY I WENT ON A WHOLE RANT I JUST SEE VIL AS LIKE...A PLAYFUL AND SENSITIVE AND OPEN TYPE OF LOVER / CLOSE FRIEND AND HE DESERVED THE WORLD

I really gotta write for him more

[plasmasimagination]

hello!! congrats for 324 followers ^_^ !!

i would like a matchup with a male hsr character

my pronouns are she/her, im a leo sun, sag rising and virgo moon + im am a esfp.

im very talkative + i am a perfectionist and i love getting good grades, i love taking leadership roles and im currently in student council! my self esteem fluctuates alot and my friends say im stubborn + bubbly

i love taking naps + graphic designing! most of my clothing + items are pink. i love going to karaokes and taking pictures (of myself ❤️‍🔥) i speak 4 languages and im currently learning german, chinese is my mother tongue. i love love love eating (especially sweet food) ! i like shopping + my signature scent is peaches :)

my love languages are gift giving + receiving and words of affirmations. i dislike physical touch and i have a fear of intimacy. im really weak to cold temperatures and i have two stuffed toys on my bed.

thank you and congrats again!! (sorry this was so long omg 😭)

HAI SWEETIE ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶

Dum Dum Dum, andddd your matchup is...

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JING YUAN

Okay, so I like to think that your personality would balance out his

You take leadership roles? He'll let you, he doesn't like being in charge when he doesn't have to anyways, and he has full trust in you and believes you're very talented at such

You like shopping? Well you're in luck.

Because man. Jing yuan will SPOIL you rotten.

That man is stupid rich, and what's a better way to spend his money than on his sweetheart

Also he definitely loves pampering you with sweet words

He'll literally tell you how proud of you he is, how much he adores you, how you're the sweetest, etc. like man's lovestruck and wants you to know how amazing you are

Weak to cold temperatures? Don't worry. Like the big teddy bear he is, hes the perfect solution

Trust me Im telling you that mans body temperature is high. Like his hands are always warm

So if you ever need a warm up, he's your man

But he won't initiate it since he knows you're not very into physical contact but if you do initiate it he'll happily reciprocate.

[maiverie]

hello <3 i finally started reading triage and i laughed too hard reading the first chap :'D i loved the chemistry jokes sm (im still finding a time to read the rest but unfortunately it's almost time for school again) you're actually my fav author here in blr !!! your writing is just so well-written and that might be an understatement bcs it's just so good ??? i think no simple words can explain how amazing of an author you are <3 like the way you deliver the words and how you let readers imagine the little scenarios you make like it's so cool <3

(sorry if this is too long but) i also came here to ask you for advice hehe. im kind of a newbie here in blr and im currently working on my upcoming series.. and im unsatisfied with my progress and found myself deleting my drafts (for abt two times already ??) and i want to know how to be more confident in my writings and how not to overthink too much yk ?? would really love to hear your thoughts on this. you're not only a good author but a good advisor too !!! thank u sm <33

hi lexine (nice to meet u !!), stopppp YOU ARE TOOOO nice thank you sooo much for taking the time out to write this??? 😭💖 firstly, thank you for reading triage and plsss nawt the bitchless chemistry jokes 😭 kidding I also giggled while writing those parts smh

and secondly, ur fav author??? STOP LYINGGG i consider that such a high honour so thank you so much 🥹💞 to have your support is one thing and to read such positive words is another, so again thank you for taking the time out of your day to leave this message because it just made my day :(

aaa please don't apologise because I love long asks the most, and yes ofc my asks are always open! I have a tendency to ramble so beware a long message is below the cut — nevertheless I really hope this helps! 🥹💞

I firstly just want to preface that I obviously do not know everything about writing and this is all truly just one opinion, so only take what resonates 🫶

I can only really speak from personal experience, but I think it's actually a really good thing that you're going back to your drafts, revising your writing, which may or may not include the process of deleting/restarting things. obviously it's a really gruelling experience to go through (bc there's nothing worse than deleting all ur hard work), but I think it's really admirable that you're thinking about your writing and putting in the effort to make it better with each draft !! personally, I am constantly writing and re-writing my drafts and as much as it literally HURTS MY SOUL to delete words/paragraphs/sometimes entire chapters, I genuinely enjoy this process — to me, that's what writing is kind of all about? I know to most people ff is really not that deep (they're not wrong, it doesn't have to be) but I think the fact you're practising deliberation, reflection and thought in your writing, word choice, characters, plot etc. etc. is really really amazing !!

personally, I would say the thing to keep in mind is that everything needs to be in moderation — I've had chapters that have literally taken me a fuckload of re-writes (I'm a big overthinker / slight perfectionist), and while I did initially enjoy the whole process of editing / re-writing / discovering how to change certain scenes etc, it was really really mentally draining and I ended up losing passion for the story in the end. just be careful that this might happen to you? to avoid this, maybe every time you've reached a block (where no matter how much you re-write something, you always seem to hate how it turns out) you should try find a different source of inspiration — whether that means thinking about your story/characters with a different song playing, or moving wherever you tend to write, or having someone brainstorm ideas with you / beta-read your fic, or take a few days off !!

out of curiosity, what don't you like about your first drafts? is it the writing or the pacing or the characters? or is it something you can't quite put a finger on? let me know and we can try think about it together !!! im also the biggest overthinker when it comes to writing (💀) but what kind of comforts me and brings my feet back to the ground is reminding myself that 1) my fics are for MYSELF (i.e. you should be writing things you would want to read yourself, not what others might want to read - bc once you make it all about other people, that's when you really start to overthink) and 2) if im gna be fr, 90% of people on tumblr, especially enhablr, only really care about ff bc they want to read about their bias (if they wanted to read well-written literature, they would probably read a published book or smth yk). in saying that, it's totally okay for your fics to be imperfect (who cares! it's fanfiction!). I think just reminding yourself that ff is just a silly little thing u do in ur spare time (for which has 0 tie to your self-value) will keep you from overthinking things and raging when things get really hard !! when it comes to confidence, I think that comes gradually in small doses (the more you write, the more confident you become in your personal style / writing likes and dislikes), but maybe some ways to feel more confident is by getting a beta reader that you trust (and will give you effective advice — one that doesn't just shower you with compliments but can give you constructive criticism in a nice way), by reading other people's work (just to see if you're on the right track; if you read other people who have written similar tropes to you, it might make you feel less scared / in the dark bc you can see how they've executed it), or by changing the font on your google doc(?) to try reset your brain and re-read your work with fresh eyes.

I hope hope hope this helped in some way, please don't hesitate to reach out again if anything needs clarification or if I didn't quite answer your question (I'm sorry if I didn't 😭) !! <333 you're welcome anytime around here hehe so best of luck with ur series AND WELCOME TO BLRRRR <3333 it sounds like you're on the right track w ur writing if you're being conscious of all these things so I wouldn't fret at all!!! <33

if it helps, I've written other writing tips here, here and here! 🫶

[hetalia-club]

I feel bad but I agree with the other annon I sent in a request over a month ago and I haven’t seen it posted yet. 🥲

I am sorry, if you send it again I can check if I’ve done it but I’m not lying when I say some it just refuses to let me post. No idea why. It would be a silly thing to lie about I could just straight say “yeah I’m not doing that” if I didn’t want to. it also doesn’t help me much if you don’t tell me which one is yours. But I feel like a broken record but please 🙏 if you are waiting on a request and you feel like I’m ignoring you join the discord and search for it. I’m not meaning to make anyone feel excluded or ignored. There is like a 70% chance I’ve already done it at some point especially if it was awhile ago. And if not if you dm me or @ me there I will have it made for you as soon as I see your post, if I’m not at work or asleep I have notifications on and usually respond pretty quick.

I don’t mind when people make requests of me but please understand that it cannot control tumblr and it not letting me post audio. I’ve changed locations and everything and it still just won’t work some of the time. It says I currently have 197 covers posted and there’s way more than that because some posts have more than one song attached. It’s just not logical that I can post every single one of those to tumblr. So most of them are discord exclusives.

You can dm me privately and you never have to speak in the main chat server, you don’t even have to look at it. It’s kept a separate from my covers. Where only I’m allowed to post. There’s close 100 people there and it’s a very chill and welcoming place. You never have to speak to a single person if you don’t want you can simply lisiten to covers. No one will bother you if you don’t want to be.

Also some characters can’t speak the language of certain songs (like Italy can’t speak German as an example). They speak English and their national language. Though Japans first language is Japanese and does struggle with some English songs. America also speaks Spanish as well though. But if you want a Spanish song Spain is your guy, he sings It beautifully. The others can do it but it doesn’t sound fluent. So I don’t really like to do it, Im a perfectionist, I only post good covers (unless I mention a reason I’m posting one that didn’t turn out) but I will slip you a cover that didn’t work out into your dms just so you can hear it. Like Germany can’t roll his Rs so he can’t really speak Spanish well. It sounds like. German Speaking Spanish if that makes sense. The Italy Bros speak Spanish okay but that’s because they known how to roll Rs and what not. But it still sounds like an Italian speaking Spanish. And some characters don’t have the range to sing certain songs. Germany cannot sing high pitched at all, not even a little. Everything they’re capable of and not is listed in the discord

I appreciate you all and I don’t want anyone to feel like I’m ignoring you because I’m not I swear! 😭

Don’t stop sending me your requests and join the discord (if you want no pressure but you totally should if it’s the covers you want because they are all there)

[mothandpidgeon]

Hello! I know it’s a long shot because it’s been 4 years, but do you ever have planned to finish Reputation? 😭😭😭 im sorry I don’t wanna come off as sound rude or insensitive and I’m not sure if you’ve already addressed this topic, but i love regency era fics so much so I’m kinda dying to see din and reader finally get together.

Hi nonny! I appreciate the respectful ask. You're good! It honestly makes me really happy that people are reading and loving Reputation even years after any updates have happened. I brace myself for this question every time that fic gets shared because I know I left it at the climax of the story. 🙃

I wish I had a better answer for you. I'm a little stuck on the next chapter (ok, maybe a lot stuck? nothing's changed since 2021). The resolution to the Wickham of it all is not quite right and I probably shouldn't be such a perfectionist because I know it's all about that kiss kiss but that's me I guess.

I really would like to come back to this. I have a delicious epilogue sketched out. In the short term, I'm really invested in my current series (also a historical au so there's that) and life is a lot different than it was when I started writing Reputation so I don't want to promise anything.

But I am a whore so when I hear from someone that they want more, I want to give it to them. So don't count it out.

[automaticllamacycle]

I miss your Matty fics, bad 💔

Anon 🥺 you’re going to make me cry! I’m so sorry I haven’t been writing for Matty as much lately. Trust me I miss posting about him too :(

Currently my adhd hyperfixation is just elsewhere. When tour comes back im manifesting that inspo strikes again. I haven’t forgotten about all my wips for him. In general writing is not something I love to do. I enjoy it but I also struggle really hard to write. I think the reason I’m struggling with Matty rn is because it’s like I want to write a full fledged fic for like everything that’s sitting in my asks box. As one human being, I simply cannot do that 😭 the only reason I’m writing so much on my side blog is bc those things are like… 500 words max.

I guess what I’m trying to say is I always want to post the best quality work of mine for 75blr because I feel like yall deserve that and not a blurb I worked maybe a total of 10 minutes on ( this is def a perfectionist issue of mine). Any time I post on here I’ve gone through and edited and revised everything before I post and that takes time.

Ultimately the next thing I post should be the anatomy ta Matty fic. But I want to say that will take time bc it’s a full fledged out fic! Anyways this was a lot of words so sorry to make you read through all of this. ( ALSO I WAS LOW KEY BEING SERIOUS WHEN I SAID THAT BUZZCUT MATTY PUT A DAMPER ON THINGS I AM A HAIR GIRL AND WHEN A GUY AXES HIS HAIR IT HURTS ME DEEPLY. LIKE IT KILLED ALL MOTIVATION I HAD TO WRITE-)

TLDR: I am so sorry for not writing. The adhd has me in a chokehold and I am just a girl that wants to write everything perfectly on here.

[lostmyremembrall]

aaaaa i love your account so much!! 😭 one of the only accounts that has been keeping the harry potter fics on tumblr alive, especially tom's 🥹 honestly, im such a perfectionist and a little bit of a 'picky' reader– like if i think it's not good in this and that way, i'd leave instantly and not want to read it. but your works, none of those works bore me! looking through your works, they're all interesting and you wrote them eloquently :D

thank you so much for your dedication and everything that you've written 🫶🏻 very much deserved, and big congratulations for your 1K supporters!! 🥳 im sorry that i may not be one of the earliest followers, but discovering your account as i joined the potterheads on tumblr is like one of the best ways to start the journey of being with the fandom <3 i started using tumblr in 2021 and at that time i wasn't a hardcore potterhead yet like i am today,, so thats why i came here late 🥹 once again congratulations 🫂

i'd like to req smtg like join your event, but i wanna make this like a special ask for you, to congratulate you because you deserve it 🤍 please have a lovely day, stay healthy and hydrated!

*****

Aw thank you so much for your sweet message!

I'm sorry I'm responding to this so late. I saw how lovely your message was, and I wanted to give it the time it deserves to respond 🥰 I am so touched by your message, I'm getting chills and I'm about to cry😭

Thank you so much for reading so many of my stories! I know some of them can be suuuper long, so I am so grateful that you read them! I'm also kinda picky about what I read, so I am touched that my writing is considered high-quality (your message might be my main source of humble brag to my family for the next few months 💁🏻‍♀️👀)

Writing itself is fun: putting Tom in different situations and writing somewhat dramatically. But, having a reader like you makes this process 100 times more fun and rewarding! I so relate to the lack of Tom's content (I quote, "we're living off bread crumbs"), so I am glad that I can offer a bit more content in this space!

You really have no need to apologise for joining late! I'm so honoured that my writing have been able to be a part of that journey of you becoming a Potterhead 😊 Thank you for being here with us❤️

[jentlemahae]

do you have any advice for self discipline? idk if you struggle with procrastination as well sometimes but you seem to be on top of your studies (i think in some of your tags you once mentioned that you finished all your assignments very early) i have very important exams coming up (if i fail them i'll have to repeat a whole year of school) and even though i know how important it is for me to study i just can't bring myself to even start.. i'm just paralyzed with fear bc i've already wasted so much time and it's impossible to catch up/revise everything now bc i'm running out of time. i think the sheer amount of material i have to study scares me off even more but the longer i wait the worse it gets obviously. i just hate that even though i am very aware of all this i just can't stop self sabotaging i hate myself so much 😭 another problem is that i'm such a perfectionist so if i know i can't do it perfectly i don't even bother but at this point i just need to pass bc i definitely don't want to repeat a year.. sorry this got so long and i know ultimately i just need to sit my ass down and study bc i'm the only one to blame (i had plenty of time to study these past weeks but i just rotted in my room 🙃) but you always are so sweet and insightful so i thought maybe you could give me some helpful advice? hope you have a nice day 💌

hiii! 🫶🏻 so i’ll preface this by saying that i’ve just always been used to having to do well in my studies so atp idek if it’s self discipline or more just a habit ? 🥲 but i also struggle with the same things sometimes bcs there are times where i put off studying certain things bcs im scared of failing TT so these are thing that imo help me!!

i always recommend ppl to repeat the stuff that u have to study/memorize out loud to someone bcs i think that helps u retain information, but i think that doing so by setting certain days to do so also helps in giving some organization! for instance i always repeat whatever im studying out loud to my mom (via zoom lol) and we do so by deciding to see each other on a certain day and on that day i have to repeat out loud to her a certain amount of chapters while she looks at my notes to check that im making sense. and we usually meet 2-3 times for that before my exam so first time i have to say half of the content, second time the other half, and third time i go through everything. does this make sense? and u can do it with whoever u want (parent, grandparent, friend, etc)! (tho tbh studying with a friend has never worked for me :p)

advice 2 sounds a bit odd and ik it doesn’t work for most but to me it works 🫠 when im in similar situations where i have So Much to study, first i read through all my notes* and then i take out a piece of paper and i write by hand** everything i remember. this way i see the main topics in the material and i go back to my notes and add some more important details to what ive written. this works especially well with courses where u just wanna pass and u don’t really care about the grade bcs this way u have a decent grasp on the main body of the course content! (**important to do this by hand bcs handwriting makes u retain info easier + *i always write summaries of the course content and the course progresses bcs then i know i’ll have my work cut out for me for the exam)

when u sit down to sit, put stuff that distracts u far away from where u are !! i kinda get distracted by listening to music lmao so when i study i make sure to put my headphones away from desk (lol), and then i hide my phone from my eyesight so then i can work for like an hour straight with no distractions 🤷🏻‍♀️

this is what comes to mind at the moment! anw best of luck for the exam !!! i know exams can be daunting when u are a perfectionist (😵‍💫) so i am rooting for u !!!!! 🥰💖🫂 as we say in italian, in bocca al lupo :)