#i am a detail oriented person

[anonauthorsworkshop]

me when I realize in the screenplay bit in the latest chapter ‘COMEDY MASK’ turns into ‘TRAGEDY MASK’ 💔💔

tee hee

[ya-killin-me-smalls]

need a way to translate these images into words

[shalom-iamcominghome]

Question to non-crocheters:

Can you notice how many different stitch types are in this?

I ask because I'm using different stitches for certain parts of my tallit to stand out, but I'm curious how noticable it is to a relatively untrained eye, since I feel other crocheters might have a leg up over you - if you see any differences, I'm curious what you see!

[pumpkinlass]

immediate shit post to follow up the last kiss -- 

featuring finn and ariane not consenting to be voyeurs to the reunion 

[r0semultiverse]

There's always this inherent pressure to look young in trans & other lgbtq spaces online & I actually kind of hate that. I feel like this is a thing anyway and I won't get into all of the societal issues with youth obsession here (you can ask someone else or maybe ask me & eventually I'll come around to answering), but it actually fucking disgusts me.

[clanborn]

ok i have started outlining the untitled horizonshine/alaska clans comic

[siflshonen]

Bean counter-type?

A MERCHANT!!!!! AN ACCOUNTANT!!! A DATA ANALYST!!!!!!!!!! A MATHEMATICIAN!!!!!!!!!! A CAPITALIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A POWER GAMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[hunting-songs]

Laughing in all good humor, Senritsu waved a small hand dismissively. "Maybe I was in my youth.", said the young woman who very much was still in her youth.

[ursaspecter]

For a long time Skyrim was my favorite game. While I was still playing it that is. Once I did everything there was to do, I just stopped playing. I could've spent time maxing out every skill and do endless minor quests, but the grind would have gotten old really fast. I haven't picked up the game in years because it doesn't have any replay value to me. There's not much else I could do differently in subsequent playthroughs other than different character builds and joining the other side in the civil war, but nothing else changes.

The characters are bland and feel like set pieces and stage dressing rather than actual people with lived history. Except for a small handful of characters, they're all pretty forgetful. And even with the characters that do stand out to me like Cicero, Astrid, Aela, Brynjolf, and Paarthurnax, the player character never really forms a bond with anyone. Even the eligible bachelors and bachelorettes are wooden and void of personality.

The most boring character of all though would be the player character-the Dragonborn. I know that the intent is to make them a blank slate for the player to project onto or make a character out of them, but the roleplaying in Skyrim is honestly incredibly lackluster. A lot of the time you're given the option to be mean, awkward, or nice in conversations and sometimes it feels like what you say doesn't matter at all. You can even go through the entire Dark Brotherhood questline saying absolutely nothing and it's ultimately unchanged. You just get different dialog from the targets you're about to kill anyway.

Ironically what really makes the Dragonborn boring is that they're too important. They're the Dragonborn: the ultimate dragon slayer. They absorb the souls of dragons and use their power for themself. But they're also the linchpin to the civil war and whichever side they choose to join is just enough to tip the scales in their favor to win. And they're also thane of every hold. And leader of the Companions and get to be a werewolf. And guildmaster for the Thieve's Guild and a servant of Nocturne as a Nightingale. And also the leader of the Dark Brotherhood and the assassin of the literal Emperor of Tamriel. Oh but also they get to be the Archmage of the College of Winterhold after saving the world again. Oh and also they get super cool weapons from the Daedric Princes after completing quests for them. All these special things keep happening to the Dragonborn, but when everything special happens, it's not special anymore. There's nothing to tie them back down to earth.

The quests I remember most fondly are the ones that really have nothing to do with the major questlines. I remember running across Sindig one night and helping him out because he was nice. I helped him get rid of the ring of Hircine and find him a little spot where he could live in peace. Yes it was a Daedric Prince quest, but it was more about helping Sindig than helping Hircine. The other quest I thought was neat was when I got into a drinking contest with someone else in the bar and woke up the next morning with no memory of the events the night before. The quest was just going around piecing together what happened and it was great! If only Skyrim had more of that, I would want to play it again.

And that's why I'm so thrilled to have found a game such as Red Dead Redemption 2. It might be a bit unfair to compare the two considering there's about 7 years between the two releases, and RDR2 is 20 times the size of Skyrim just by space requirements alone.

But more importantly, Arthur Morgan isn't this all important savior figure. He's just some guy. He's not particularly special other than he has a $5000 price on his head for his crimes. He has history with the other people in camp. He has his own personality, thoughts, and opinions and even butts heads with the others in the gang including their leader and his adoptive father figure, Dutch. He feels real. He feels lived in.

RDR2 doesn't have him campaigning for office in each state or join as many gangs as he can to become the leader because it's just not needed. Instead outside of the main story, he's just helping out every day people and bounty hunting. These colorful characters that also have their own lives. That have actual personality and don't just speak in MCU sarcasm all the time. Albert Mason, Margaret, Deborah MacGuiness, Charles Chatenay, Professor Bell, Marko Dragic, and so many more that I could mention. Even if I don't remember their names, I still remember their missions. I can't say the same for the side quests in Skyrim.

Even the companions in RDR2 feel so much more alive to me than in Skyrim. If Lydia or any of my other housecarls get lost or die in Skyrim, I'm more annoyed and frustrated than anything. In RDR2, when Sean died, I fully mourned him. And again with Kieran. And Hosea. And Lenny. They were written so well and with such care that they mattered to me. When Tilly was kidnapped and Susan grabbed Arthur to go with her to rescue her, I felt that urgency as if she were my own sister. When Jack was kidnapped, I felt the stress and confusion everyone else was feeling especially after barely getting over Sean's death. Skyrim doesn't give you the time or the option to forge those bonds with the NPCs.

A while ago I read a comment on a video essay about Heavy Rain that went something like, "To make a character's misery more effective, it's important to show when they are joyful." I think the same principle can apply to RPG protagonists. To make a character's significance more effective, it's important to show their mundane life as well.

I'm not even done with my first playthrough of RDR2 yet as of writing this, and I'm looking forward to when I get to do my second playthrough. And my third, fourth, fifth, and so on ad infinitum.

TL;DR Friendship with Skyrim over. Red Dead Redemption 2 is my new best friend

[crazymecjc]

in a strange and shocking turn of events I am head full of oc thoughts on this fine evening,,,, this literally never happens

[somekindafairy]

microdosing in doing art/commission work for a living by making a sticker for my mom for free

[xxxairheadedangelxxx]

as con gets closer therse this weird panic settling in my chest thats prepared for me to have fucked up something horrifically thats going to make everyone mad at me like what seemed to happen w every trip i planned w my ex

but Ive poured over every detail. compared every date. flights have been coordinated and booked. I hae the authorization form to submit for our room this week which will prepay for it so I wont even have to worry about it when we get there.

all I really need to focus on now is getting my little projects done. I may finally pull off a trip that is nothing more than the normal bumps and bruises of travel(i always experience an insane amount of minor inconveniences when i travel its so dumb) and it feels really weird

of course theres always room for anything to go wrong literally at any point obviously. but I have back up plans for each one. Theres a plan a b c and so on. everything has a solution and I am in control

[extemporaneousmusings]

4/5/24

Today I:

-spent 8 hours copyediting and coding a journal article for a job app test that's due Monday. I started out feeling a little insecure and finished feeling pretty good about what I had done, so that's good, although my eyes are v weary now

-am making a wild rice and veggie and fruit salad for dinner that will be v tasty

-am going to take the rest of the evening off and watch a movie with Jules

[msvorderofoperations]

More dream journals

I literally forgot to make this post until tonight because I wrote as a draft email at 4am. Anyways.

I dreamt I was in Vancouver looking for a place to live, which is something I have been having to do a lot lately. I don't recall any details about the place I was looking at but it was not the main narrative so it's not terribly important. Afterwards, I go to my favourite restaurant. Except it is entirely different now. The layout is fully changed, the staff are entirely different, and the vibes are off. I go in and see that the place is not fully booked, but all of the staff are very busy. I grab a menu from one of the kitchen staff, because all of the servers are busy. He makes some kind of shitty remarks about me being there alone on Valentine's Day, but I tell him my girlfriend is going to be meeting me here as she loves this place too.

I then try and find a table, but even though not all of them are in use, literally all of them have not been bussed and so I have no idea if people are still using them or not. So I decide to wait at the bar. There is an altercation of some kind not too far from where I am, but all I can recall is that I had to clearly show that I was not involved because that might have been in question. It blows over, the people handling security wish me a happy Easter, which is somehow also this week and I find out why things have been so hectic: the owner of the place is visiting.

It's Donald Trump.

Because his entire retinue and security staff are also present, nobody can get close to him. I'm still waiting to be served, but knowing what's happening has made it clear why things feel off. I can see then that every woman present is suffering, some from being objectified, others from not being supported by their peers, being catcalled, etc. I then decide that I have to get out of there. I hightail it out of there and try to find my way home, which in the logic of the dream is close but not really walkable. Additionally, walking is itself not in the cards because I have somehow lost my shoes.

I try to find a bus that will get me there, but somehow I have been waiting at this place until 5 am, so no buses are running. I then get a voicemail from the person who gave me the menu that I have entirely fucked him over. The menu he gave me also included an iPhone, so I could be notified when a table was ready (this pointedly was not the case, but it had changed in the internal logic of the dream so it felt correct). I check my other pockets, and sure enough, there is an older unlocked iPhone. Part of the problem is that while it is an older phone, it has apps and updates on it that are no longer available so getting an exact replacement is not possible.

I try getting back in touch with my normal phone and the iPhone I now have, but to no avail. The iPhone doesn't seem to have cell service, only wifi and all of the notifications are Instagram thirst traps and scams. Additionally, I find through the suggest and auto complete text that I was the only person that didn't know this place was owned by Trump, and that it was a safe haven for all of the worst of his hangers-on. I then trying just walking back and giving it back, but I can't find the place.

I know the neighbourhood well enough, but I keep missing the cross street until I find that even when I find (what I think) is the right street, it's not there anymore. I then try and get my bearings by going to a grocery store that I know is nearby. I then internalize that in addition to inadvertently stealing some tech, I have also stolen some cuts of meat. I know that I have to replace them, not just bring them back because they've been sitting unrefrigerated for so long that it is no longer legal to sell them (even in my dreams, I still abide by FoodSafe).

I find nothing suitable, but do find some sizable roasts that look very good, but they are way overpriced because of the forthcoming Easter long weekend. I then leave, but I am stopped by one of the staff of the butchers department because she thinks I have shoplifted the raw meat I was comparing to what they had in stock. I frantically try and explain the situation, and mercifully she actually believes me. In response she finds some frozen stuff in storage that will be suitable, and then infects it with botulism (which they also sell for some fucking reason) to get back at these people she justifiably despises. And at this point I woke up.

[melmedarda]

let my uquiz roast the shit out of you <3

[jojosgaylittleadventure]

Not that anyone cares...

But what the fuck is even the layout of the Nijimura house??? Like I know Araki has said in interviews that he usually uses actual buildings as references when he's drawing so that the spacial layout isn't too confusing/is correct, but like...wtf Araki... I have been looking at manga panels and shots from episodes and bitch this house don't make no sense. It's driving me insane pls I have pretty good spacial awareness and can regularly reconstruct buildings from screenshots and stuff I easily figured out the Higashikata house layout (granted there's a lot more of the interior shown) but dead ass I cannot figure out the Nijimura house to save my life How am I supposed to write a fic if I can't figure out the layout damn it The exterior does not match what we do see from the interior and I'm gonna fucking loose it There are too many doors in some places and not enough in others What is happening Also the staircases are in the wrong place...like the house would extend way too far for the second floor to be the way he drew it There's only one flight of stairs and it's on the far right wall when walking into the house and at the top of the stairs there's a large room right across from it. WHERE IS THAT ROOM???? The stairs needed to be spilt for that floor to make sense I just...

Anyways...