#i am LOVING the content for them nowadays pls keep it coming

[pinkpastels113]

i really think chloe and red would just be chatting one day and red would realize that chloe is rambling the more she stares at her and then without thinking red would just lean in and kiss chloe, kind of to shut her up bc she’s not paying attention anymore, and that would be how they know they like each other, yknow?? like this:

chloe: yeah and then like she just kinda swung that way and i was like whoa whoa whoa didn’t i just tell you that is the wrong way to swing a sword ‘cause like you will literally sprain your wrist but she just looked at me like i was crazy but i’m not like i know what i am doing i have had years of practice yknow and i’m tired of people not realizing that and-

red, totally not listening and just leaning in, and gives her a kiss**

chloe, shocked but she obviously kissed her back because she’s had a crush on her roommate for WEEKS NOW and now they’re just gently making out by a table in the middle of the quad**

chloe, when they finally pull apart: um. so what was that for? not that i’m complaining

red: you were talking too much, princess. my attention span is not that long

chloe: oh. so. was that just a way to distract me or…

red: or that you were being cute rambling your head off? yeah. i guess that too

chloe would giggle and blush and red would be relieved that chloe did actually kiss her back holy shit she was gonna play that off as a wonderlandarian thing if she didn’t but WHEW and viola THEY FINALLY GET TOGETHER YIPPEE

[admiringlove]

hurtful things

+synopsis: genshin boys and the hurtful things they said.

+genre: angst; headcanons.

+characters: kaeya; diluc; childe; zhongli.

+warnings: swearing; crying; implied panic attack.

+order: hey bubs! i saw you doing requests and i HAD to ask for genshin angst :) spare me some tears pls <//3 preferably w kaeya or diluc or childe :) [submitted by @crackheadsara​]

+author’s note: okay so i included zhongli bc he’s the love of my life, also i needed comfort from him after writing such hurtful things :D

+navigation: main menu, genshin menu.

— KAEYA.

“i’m better off without you.”

you know from the way your door was knocked in the middle of the night on a weekday after months, that it’s kaeya. you rub your eyes sleepily, trudging towards the door as anger and doubt fuse into a nasty green in your mind. 

you unlock the door, pulling it open to see the man with the eyepatch tapping his foot on the deck of your home impatiently. he smirks when his eye lands on you, attempting to walk in but stopping himself when he realizes you're standing at the door, unmoving. 

"kaeya, it's three in the morning. and it's monday. i have to report to jean in three hours," you mumble tiredly as you look up at him. the lamp grass by your windowsill outside and the moonlit night accentuated his cerulean eyes and contrasting coffee-colored skin. he frowns, peering down at you as he asks, "may i come in?"

you shrug, opening the door wide as you let the man in. he places his sword on the table and proceeds to walk into the bedroom when you ask, "where have you been for the past two weeks?"

"work," his reply is the same. you let out a sigh in impatience as you retort, "that's the same excuse as always."

he was tired and wanted to sleep off the fatigue from his latest mission. but when he hears you say that, something in him snaps and he turns around, his jaw clenched and a fixed glare making you a little agitated. he raises an eyebrow as he says, "well, unlike you, i am an actual important member of the knights of favonius."

"kaeya, all i meant was that you're always gone. you never write a letter back even if i send you one, and you somehow manage to come back every single time, expecting that it doesn't hurt me. what am i supposed to do?" your voice is small as you look down, hair drooping towards the ground. you're not even yelling at him, you're just worried. he always leaves you alone(sometimes you tag along, but you couldn't tell why nowadays he'd leave you alone without some sort of warning).

"does it ever occur to you that you're just a hindrance?" he bites back, thinking that you're trying to put up a front. you flinch at his words, causing him to force a jeer before he starts again, "you always come along, so maybe i wanted to be away from you for a bit. that's why i leave without a warning so i don't have to tend to your yapping all day. because i'm better off without you."

you gasp as you look up to his figure, now retreating to your shared bedroom. you hear him fall onto the bed with a content sigh as you stand there, wiping at your tears incessantly as hiccups escape your lips. you bit your tongue to stop yourself from crying, pressing a hand on your mouth to muffle the sounds so you don't disturb kaeya. you get a quick peek in, eyes widening when you see him sound asleep and tucked in. 

so that's how it was, you think. 

the next morning, kaeya wakes up to a cold bed as his arm reaches out to an empty space. his eyes immediately pry open as he wakes up, to see that you weren't here. 

ah, he ponders to himself, you must've gone to tend to your duties. 

he stretches, letting out a yawn before walking out to the kitchen. he smiles when he sees a plate of food left for him on the countertop with a note from you. but somehow, something felt very wrong about this whole ordeal. this had happened before—he had come back from insanely long missions to you before, so what felt different?

and then it hits him. the things he said last night. he frantically looks around, his azure eyes completely drowned in horror as he notices small changes in your shared household. a few picture frames are missing on the living room walls, your keychain isn't on the bookshelf anymore, and worst of all, when he runs into the closet, half of your clothes are gone. 

did you really feel that bad about what he said?

in panic, he runs out and keeps going till he reaches the headquarters of the knights. he barges in this time, not returning the greetings of the guards upfront as he walks into jean's office. 

"where are they?" he pants, "i-i messed up, do you know where they are?"

jean's eyes widen as she says, "our associates were having a hard time handling with the fatui in liyue harbor so they volunteered to go there for sometime."

"how long has it been?"

"they left long ago, it's about to be around ten hours since," she says. kaeya's heart shatters as he hears those words. he hadn't expected you to outright leave like that, but if you had said the same things to him, he definitely would've stormed out. his voice cracks as he looks at the ground in shame, "h-how long until they'll be back?"

"i.. don't know."

he regrets everything he's said. he truly does because he doesn't even notice that tears are streaming down his cheeks until jean comes to his aid. he hates himself for all of it—he hates that he has to live in a home where traces of you are visible everywhere; worst of all, he hates how he knows he lost you for good. even if you come back, he knows you wouldn’t run and melt into his arms like you did before. you’re gone now, fading into the darkness and away from him. 

maybe it was for the best.

— DILUC.

“you’re nothing but a burden.”

after taking on a few abyss mages and mitachurls, diluc lets a grunt out in pain before you see the slash on his right arm. you gasp, pulling him to the side of the lake as you pull out a bandage and cotton from your bag to clean his wounds. he's reluctant to it at first, but he sits there quietly and broods as you clean the blood with cotton and some type of healing ointment. 

you tie the bandage on his arm, a tiny bit of vermillion liquid seeping through the white cloth before sitting down next to him, finally catching a breath. sighing, you look up at him and say, "that was reckless."

"no, what you did was reckless. who told you to come along with me to dadaupa gorge? you knew what you were getting into when you came along, so don't put this on me," he grumbled, frowning as you look at him with narrowed eyes and furrowed brows. you are sort of hurt, but you know he's only saying this in faux indignation, so it's okay. you chuckle out, beginning, "diluc, i was-"

"i don't know why i even bother with you at this point," he exasperates, looking into the distance behind you. he curses slightly under his breath, his rouge eyes filled to the brim with anger as it finally overflows, "you're nothing but a burden."

your eyes suddenly flick to gape at him in disbelief. you stand up, your voice hitching in your throat as you ask, "diluc, you mean that?"

and it all simmers down into ashes when he mumbles "of course i do" under his breath. your vision is blurry as you walk away from the red-haired man, your body trembling as you almost give away that you're crying your eyes out. you walk back in the direction the two of you came from, leaving your broken heart in the hands of diluc, who sat by the lake not muttering a word after. 

he knows he's said things he doesn't mean; he does that all the time, but you probably knew that. he figures you're leaving to catch a breath of fresh air—to be away from the tension-filled environment for a bit, you had a habit of doing that at home. he sighs as he ponders over his words for a bit. he knew it was wrong to display such harshness to you, but you probably knew he didn't mean anything by it. he always bubbled over rash things when he was frustrated. 

the sun sets in front of him, painting hues of aubergine and peach as it flows down. he wonders where you are, getting up from his spot by the lake to venture towards the path you walked off. 

only when he can't find you, is when he thinks that you might've actually taken offense to his words. although he cares about you sincerely, he finishes his mission first, getting a lead on the abyss order—because protecting monstadt was his first priority. you lingered in his mind every second of every day till he finally got back home. and when he didn't find you there, he asks adelinde about it, who only shakes her head and tells him, "i'm sorry, master diluc, but i haven't seen them come back. i thought they were with you."

it all pieces together in his mind now, how a small gasp had escaped your lips when he had called you a burden. the way you nodded begrudgingly, getting up and walking away from his presence as your shoulders trembled. the way he could hear you choke back a sob, but still ignored it, thinking you had overreacted in the situation. 

he searches the whole city for you. he searches every nook and corner, and even walks into the headquarters of the knights of favonius(he ignores kaeya's teases instead of biting back this time). and when he finally sees you, he holds himself back. his hand is suspended awkwardly in the air as he reaches out for you, your back turned towards him. 

maybe this was better—maybe it was a good thing that you had walked away from him. this way, the abyss order won't be able to harm you. this way, he won't be able to harm you. this way, you'll be safe and sound, away from the storm known as diluc ragnvindr.

— CHILDE.

“it’s not like you mean anything to me.”

it's not often you see childe. he's always in liyue, and you're here, stuck in monstadt or snezhnaya. it's cold today(as it always is) in snezhnaya, the snow covered almost everything outside as you looked out of your window, sipping on hot coffee as you sigh at the wilting roses on the sill. they'd wilted when you had gone to monstadt and you didn't have the heart to plant new ones.

just thinking about the blue-eyed childish man would make your heart bloom and cheeks flustered. you longed to spend more time with him, really. if only he wasn't affiliated with the fatui, he'd be able to spend more time with you. it had been months since you had seen him, and you longed to be in his arms once again, but who knows when that'll happen again? whenever he comes home, he chooses to spend a night with you and then head back. he'd laugh alongside you, tell you about his adventures, and give small reactions when you told him about yours. and the next morning, you'd wake up to an empty bed with a small note by the table, saying how he has to leave for work.  

a knock at your door snaps you out of your entranced state. as you open the lock and look out, you see childe, standing there with a tired grin and disheveled hair as he walks in without a word. he hands you a small paper bag, saying, "i brought you back something from liyue this time."

the same excuse, you think. it's always the same. he brings back small mementos and souvenirs as a pretense for staying, and by the time you think you can forgive him, he's gone. he plops down onto the sofa, stretching his arm out so you could join him. the thought of confronting him crosses your mind, but you shake it off—since he had only just gotten back. 

the night is the same as always. talking about each others' adventures, eating dinner by the fireplace, laughing alongside one another until you hit the bed. it's quiet now as you watch over his sleeping figure, his lapis-colored eyes now hidden. you sigh as you lay there for hours on end, twiddling with his brown hair as you wait for him to wake up(so this time you can actually say goodbye). 

when his eyes flutter open, he's a little taken aback when he looks over at you to see you wide awake. his brows furrow just a smidge as he says, "you're up."

"well, i wanted to say goodbye this time," you chuckle dryly, "you always leave without waking me up."

"i don't like the way you said that," he says, getting up from his position on the bed. you look away from him, your eyes displaying hurt as you murmur, "i don't like the way you leave."

"well, it's my job. it's not like i'm an adventurer like you, wasting my time around. i'm a harbinger and i have responsibilities," he says. his voice is neither too soft and nor too prickly, and you can tell that he's a little worked up by the way he lightly nips on the skin of his bottom lip as his gaze bores into you. 

"i didn't say you don't. all i said was that you could maybe sometimes stay for more than one night. it feels like you're using me, and when you're bored, you leave."

"oh?" he cocks an eyebrow as he stands up, "i'm using you, huh?"

you grimace at the tone of his voice, and when you look at him, you notice the sheer annoyance he puts up towards you. your voice is small when you ask him if he loves you—because you don't know anymore. seeing him once in a few months for the past few years has sure hurt you more than anything, and if you don't tell him now, then you might never get a chance. 

"what if i say i don't?" he smirks, walking up to you, "it's not like you mean anything to me. what if i agree that i am using you to make myself happy until i'm bored, so i can then throw you away?"

he doesn't like what he's saying either. his mind is screaming at him to stop, but he's worked up. he's irritated by the way you jabbed at him first thing in the morning, even though he knows you're right. his heart almost stops when he looks at the expression on your face after he says those words, and as he reaches out his hand for you, you turn away. 

your voice cracks, and he's sure his heart did as well when you mumble, "i-i'd like you to leave, please."

"wait, i didn't mean-"

"tartaglia," your eyes look into his, perhaps for the last time, as you give him a sad smile, "you don't have to come back to me anymore."

it hurts him as he leaves your home that morning. it hurts him when he comes back months later to see that your home is now empty. it hurts him because he tarnished the you that was once his. 

it hurts him, but he thinks it's for the best if you stay away from him if all he does is bring you pain.

— ZHONGLI.

“i’d like you to leave me alone.”

zhongli was never one to pick fights. he was peaceful; his thoughts were positive(most of the time), and he almost always preferred to talk about his problem rather than fighting about it—he believes that fighting will only bring pain, so why not confide in one another about our problems instead?

he's quiet. he's not shy(it's quite the opposite, actually), but he's one to prefer to only talk when absolutely necessary. he's the type to listen rather than speak, saying something like, "we have two ears and one mouth. speak less than you listen."

he smiles when his mind goes back to the time when he said that to you while having a cup of tea together, and you'd replied, "my mother used to tell me that when i was a child."

because it's true; every child in liyue harbor has heard those words at least once in their lives. the quality of listening is appreciated more than the quality of speaking—and zhongli, for one, was a listener. 

you, on the other hand, were a speaker. you always woke him up every morning with a smile as bright and everlasting as the sun, babbling about breakfast and tea as he got up from the bed. you were the one that carried conversations on your shoulders on morning walks, you were the one that intertwined your fingers with his as the two of you walked amongst flowers, adoring them as you talked about the contrasting colors of silk flowers and glaze lilies. he loved you for that. he loved you because you were a speaker. he loved you because you were a perfect balance, the only one who could soften his hardened heart. the only one whom he'd chosen to wake up next to in the mornings, the only one whom he'd let ruffle his hair without asking(because he secretly liked it). 

so why had he reversed the roles tonight? why was he the one to bubble out his frustrations to you, speaking in a cold and stern manner instead of the loving tone that was only reserved for you? why was he the one to speak tonight, and why were you the one to listen?

it's not like he was actually frustrated—he was only thinking about something else as you asked him what he wanted for dinner. it surely wasn't your fault when he had poured over turbulent words to you. and he knows that the ones that hurt the most probably were, "i'd like you to leave me alone."

he looks up at the stars, a heavy sigh escaping his lips as he walks back into his shared home with you. he looks around, and when there's no sign of you, he feels himself break apart even more. 

had you actually left? he wants to run to you and tell you he hadn't meant any of those words because he hadn't. he wants to touch you, to caress you, to please you, to make you smile—and he wants to admit he was wrong. he wants to make it right, but he doesn't know where you are. 

he walks into the empty bedroom, sitting on the cold mattress as his eyes sting. he doesn't understand what's happening, or why there are small drops of water falling from his eyes. he doesn't understand why everything feels heavy all of a sudden—his heart, his throat his lungs, everything. he doesn't understand why he feels like he's trapped in a box, and the water seems to be filling up more quickly than he'd prefer. he wants to reach for air, but he can't.

he couldn't breathe without you. 

he hears the door close and immediately gets up in haste to walk to the living room where he sees you take off your boots. you turn around to see him, his disheveled hair and frantic eyes finally calming as he walks over to you and engulfs you in a warm embrace. his throat cleared up, and so did his heart and lungs as he mumbles against your ear, "i'm so sorry."

you smile smally, looking up at him as you cup his cheeks and wipe a stray tear, and mutter, "it's okay, zhongli. stress gets to the best of us."

god, how he loves you. he places a small peck on the top of your forehead as he feels his lips turn upward at your touch and the scent of glaze lilies lingering over you tells him that you'd been to the flower garden. he sleeps with your fingers weaved with his that night and pulls you even closer if you untangle with him in sleep. 

he makes a promise to himself saying he'd never hurt you like that again, and he keeps it.

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[kataraslove]

Maiko for the ship<3

send me a ship and I will tell you:

when I started shipping them:

i don’t even know but i remember them being like. my oldest ship ever. i was obsessed with my goth babies and I still am.

my thoughts (and what makes me happy about them):

absolute soulmates!! i completely disagee with the way the new fandom keeps calling them toxic (lbr, fandoms nowadays will call anyone arguing with each other above a whisper as toxic). it was pretty clear that the conflict between them at times was very much a product of the surrounding environment, such as being part of an imperialistic, genocidal regime that assigned them to restrictive societal roles and regulation. the show essentially establishes that mai and zuko are not incompatible; rather, in order for the two to truly be happy with one another, they must decide on how best to balance their love for their nation with their love for each other. aka, how can the two truly be happy and themselves whilst continuing to serve a tyrannical regime under the false pretense of freedom? ultimately, the two learn to embrace that freedom by rejecting the roles that were inflicted upon them from a young ago. they both consider their own choices and what makes them happy and fulfilled over an obligation to serve their imperialistic empire. zuko chooses to save the world alongside aang. mai chooses to rebel against azula out of love for zuko. at the end of the series, they are at their happiest with each other now that they are no longer dictated by fire nation tyranny.

what makes me sad about them:

the fact that they are so underrated and dismissed as a “toxic couple.” they’re not some random edgy teen couple that the writers decided to put because they feel an obligation towards romance. their romance can be hilarious at times, no doubt about that. but there’s an entire subplot surrounding the reasons for them being put together in the third season. and it makes sense.

things done in fanfic that annoys me:

I’ve not read maiko fanfic in general. but I think that their fandom genuinely tackles both the characters well.

things i would look forward to if I were to read fanfic of them:

probably a really good fic detailing mai accepting the position of firelady. ALSO FIRST PARENTS MAIKO WITH BABY IZUMI.

my wishlist:

- canon maiko endgame content pls avatar studios

- for gene luen yang to stay the fuck away from them.

who I’d be comfortable for them to end up with, if not each other:

zuko: single dad zuko only seems right. but if we were to really have him end up with anyone, he deserves a husband.

mai: TY LEE!!!! no questions asked. the next obvious endgame for mai - if maiko doesn’t end up being together - is mailee. like come on. I don’t even need to elaborate.

my happily ever after for them:

growing old together as happy fire nation nobles :) also for mai to be happy in her role as firelady.

[majesticnerdynerd]

Author Interview Tag

I was tagged by @iris-best-taken-in-small-doses, thank you for tagging me! <3

Name: Vee

Fandoms: Primarily Sherlock BBC, but also RDJ Holmes, Harry Potter, and the Fallout games universe, plus Supernatural and bits of Doctor Who which I’ve seen and liked

Where you post: Ao3, I love this site

Most popular multi-chapter fic: So far it’s my first ever published fic from earlier of this godforsaken year, Harry Potter and the Adventures of Sherlock Holmes, which has just a few days ago surpassed 2k hits. It’s a crossover between HP/SH, and I must admit I do neglect it a little because I have a second fic I publish, which brings us to....

Favourite story you’ve written till date: Definitely Reichenbach Falls. I speed-wrote the first 8-and-a-bit episodes over the course of 2 months while also studying for transfer exams, and I keep my pace up and it is my main focus at the moment. It’s also the most ambitious crossover I’m attempting, because it is the Holy Trinity of SuperWhoLock, and a Gravity Falls AU, so it offers a lot of lore I am proud that I came up with. It has its own challenges I like to tackle, especially when it comes to intertwining characters from numerous TV shows to coherently worked together, plus their character arcs and character developments that are to come. I hide easter eggs here and there and put some of my soul into it, so it is very dear to me. I think I am doing the job adequately so far, but time will tell. :) I do love HPatAoSH, because it is my first fic ever and I am still excited about it, but I put it on the backburner and procrastinate on the chapters I post usually

Fic you were nervous to post: Both my big series, really. One never knows what reception they’re going to get, and we all hope to get the characters to interact just right. The HP crossover because it has two timelines that later intertwine in 1997 when the Golden Trio asks the Baker Street Dumbass Detective Duo for help and I need to make certain corrections in some earlier chapters. Reichenbach Falls because it is SuperWhoLock and as I said, it’s huge, 3 parts in 1 work, so 300 chapters give or take in total, and I hope to do my best with everyone’s characterisation.

How you choose your titles: Depends. HP/SH was a bit self-explanatory, and I think it fits well into the AU and foretells what’s up in a sense that you know who is involved and if you know both fandoms, you get a whiff of a couple shenanigans. Reichenbach Falls was a bit difficult to name and I stalled on it, but then on one hot summer day that I spent cowering inside the house like the pale gremlin I am, I thought hm,,,,, the show is called Gravity Falls, but I can’t use that of course. And then I remembered that Reichenbach is a thing, the waterfall is in canon as well and BAM - Reichenbach Falls. It’s all more about a sudden epiphany than hard thinking, it comes by itself. 

Do you outline: Yes, but do I stick to it? Nah. I do write steps for each episode for RF, but those serve only as a mild reminder of what the end goal is, and I wing the rest to my standard. It works well so far. With HP/SH, I just wing it and rely on the past chapters because as I mentioned, I’m a sorrowful procrastinator on this one for now. My outlines are general which gives me space to improvise and improve on the run, which I like, it doesn’t restrict me in any self-induced way, so I prevent mental blocks nicely. 

Complete: Living Musical, which is a one-shot I wrote for Steph from inevitably-johnlocked. Fluffy, too! And it needs revision because I wrote it in 4 hours until it was 1am and I have no recollection of that evening anymore. And... god, I need to fix the typos. *facepalms*

In Progress: HP/SH crossover and Reichenbach Falls I linked above already. They’re plenty to take care of :D

Coming soon/not yet started: this is what I am excited about! I have a new AU in mind, either some postapocalyptic wasteland AU, but most probably also an AU of the game Fallout: New Vegas at the same time (it’s basically the same concept). I have the basic plot in mind and down, and ohhhhh guysssss I really like it. I’d also like to make it an interactive fic where the readers may choose which factions John and Sherlock could join, which would affect the ending of the fic, much like what happens in the game, but I’m not decided on this. But there is great potential, I think, though I need to make a big mindmap and brainstorm all that would need to be involved, so there’s lots of lore to consider (which I already got started on). It would be another huge fic, and I plan to write at least half of all that could be published before sending it to ao3, possibly. We will see, but you can see how my mind is overworking itself already... >:) it looks quite badass (but that’s just me so far), and its working name is Fallout: New London. Actually, there’s a prologue and first two chapters that are constant (meaning that it is firmly locked to the AU and can’t be influenced by choices) and in progress already and semi-drafted because I am a psycho like that, but no details yet! I have no self-control.. but yeah, this is the biggest one I’m excited about out of all the fics my mind invents.

Do you accept prompts: ehhhh, maybehaps? I don’t know. Probably not at the moment, maybe in a year or so. I like the idea of doing Christmas prompts, so maybe in 300 days approximately, who knows?

Upcoming story you are most excited to write: Currently, it stays on Reichenbach Falls and its 2 later seasons, because that’s when things get real >:)) also Fallout: New London. so much johnlock in sight.

Upcoming story you are most excited about: Due to my lack of time at the present moment, I nowadays mostly revisit some comfort fics if I feel like shit, but I do keep my eye out on @iris-best-taken-in-small-doses‘ The Corvus That Calls at Night. I am subscribed to the ao3 profile so once it an email popped up and I saw ‘medieval’ and all the other priceless tags (pls check them out I love them) I went oo >:D I am merely waiting for my holiday spirit to kick in fully so I can put my feet up and catch up to my reading; there’s also @simplyclockwork‘s Hired Gun I keep my eyes on, and I patiently wait for @jbaillier‘s Messages From Deep Waters -- I remember that back in August(?) she posted a post about doing research on sea fish and how to gut them? Not sure on the English word or if I’m correct at all right now, but hmmm Scotland staged AU, I like that. Also her You Go To My Head stories that are coming, I love them dearly, and I am so excited there’s going to be more Medical Husbands content :’) 

[snailythefan]

I WENT AND FUSED MY TWO HYPERFIXATIONS BCUS NO ONE WAS THERE TO STOP ME-

Presenting, my personal take on Matsustuck: They’re all trolls but also it’s the musical matsu set

i made more things for this au but for now let’s leave this as Part 1 and if u don’t mind reading my ramblings go under the read more

[cracks my knuckles] alright let’s go:

- i know i’m not the first one to make a homestuck au but u know what, i still wanted to give my take on it. It also means i take some liberties lol

- The setting of this au is straight up the same as the friendsims except Totoko is the ruling heiress in place

- their horns are a reference to the fawn set

- despite being in different levels of the hemospectrum, they’re all still losers

Orrson:

He’s a burgundy blood, but he can’t communicate with the deceased.

instead he has Protagonist powers. no one understands what the hell that means, but he can take the helm of the narrative if he wants to, to varying results.

Weapon of choice is a trident (like a devil, get it?)

head over heels for Totoko, thinks that he’d have a chance with her if the caste system wasn’t such bullshit (yeah right)

part of the rebellion, but you’d never know cause he barely does anything to show his support. No, it’s not him being secretive. He’s just lazy.

has a red panda lusus

Kharla:

He’s a cerulean blood, but lacks any cool psychic powers or mismatched looks

he thinks the caste system is too barbaric but is too much of a wimp to say anything about it (and is lowkey glad he has it better than others)

he’s a total music snob. feels obligated to enlighten everyone with obscure musical trivia and is adamant about Vinyls being the only Acceptable way to experience the classics. He has an impressive collection of them! No, you can’t touch them.

hopeless romantic. can someone PLEASE fill his quadrants.

and the Worst Possible Thing…..! he’s a theater kid

Weapon of choice is a Sword (like a knight!)

has a tiger lusus

Charly:

He’s an oliveblood, but he seems to be far wimpier than others of the same caste.

he’s a nerd, he genuinely enjoys gaining knowledge about all possible subjects, but he has a superiority complex about it.

He wants to be known as the perfect intellectual and has a blog dedicated to Culture, Politics and (wait for it) Discourse. In reality he’s very bad at making arguments and tends to straight up lie to win online discussions. So far he hasn’t won any of them.

and boy does he love idols. his (secret) chittr is a stan account for many, many troll idols. Once he got a reply from one of his faves and He’s Still Thinking About It.

he holds a grudge against Orrson ever since The Incident. Now they’re former moirails. He won’t admit it but he misses those days. Nowadays one might think he wants to be Orrson’s kismesis but that couldn’t be more Wrong.

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his weapon of choice is a Giant Key. yeah babey, just a giant key like some kind of kh reference (but it’s just like the mage choro unit)

has a sheep lusus

Itchhy:

He’s a purple blood, but he really, really, doesn’t get anything about clown church. Why is he even here, he just wants to go pet some purrbeasts and sleep.

He’s not even that bloodthirsty (apparently).

prefers to indulge on obscure interests like Troll Witchcraft and Depressing Novels about the nature of trollkind, not to mention Horror Films and DarkWave music. Not that he’d ever tell anyone about this though (except his moirail, Juiicy).

has blocked Kharla in all of his accounts. He Knows What He Did.

weapon of choice is a Machete (like Jason!Ichi)

has a three headed cat purrbeast lusus (like hades!Ichi)

Juiicy:

He’s a gold blood, but has zero hacking abilities and only one pair of horns.

Instead he has a great passion for films, specifically sci-film films and their VFX! He makes bad homemade movies trying to hone his VFX skills.

Aliens aren’t real but He Wants To Believe.

He has too much energy, quite literally, so he tends to have random outbursts of psionic energy that leaves him drained afterwards. Some of these outbursts are painful for him, so to spend his energy he practices Lethal Clubball (baseball?) A Lot.

To his delight, he and Itchhy found that some good ol’ Shoosh Paps can stop his psionic outbursts on time before he gets drained.

Juiicy loves…. Itchhy!!! Juiicy loves…. Clubball!!! Juiicy loves….. REVOLUTION.

weapon of choice is a big spiked bat (like delinquent!Jyushi)

Has a Giant and Scary dog barkbeast lusus (like inugami!Jyushi)

Toddhu:

He’s a fuchsia blood…. except Not Really. His blood isn’t 100% Pure Fuchsia tone, and thus he lacks any privilege/powers/responsibilities that comes with the caste. He’s still a seadweller though, so he thinks he’s better than any landweller….

Except he lives on land AND on the burgundy district, because he knows he might get culled by Totoko. He lays low but fantasizes about living it up as The Real Prince He Was Meant To Be All Along (he gets infinitely teased by Orrson about it).

on that note, he’s Orrson’s neighbor.

Big on social media, but he poses as a violet blood to run his chittr account. He distributes a lot of memes about cute lusii and Hot Takes about the heiress, while at the same time posting things supporting her rule.

He’s also broke pls donate to his patreon

Wants to stick to the status quo. Can’t be a prince if they overthrow the system! He however has dreams of one day challenging Totoko for the throne. Might or might not have pitch feelings for her (oooh boy he does).

His weapon of choice is… whatever that thing angelKiller!Todo had

has a super cute and fluffy bunny lusus

I have more ideas for this au but it might take me a while to produce more of this?? in any case, as long as i’m obsessed with these two fandoms i’ll keep this au going babey!

ah i wanna do a fan friendsim for this but doing all those sprites…. OOF

anyway if you read this, thank you! and maybe come chat with me about All This Mess?

(and if you want another excellent matsustuck content, pls check @ Totalchunder on tumblr, i keep coming back to their dead blog bcus i am still in love with it)

[alithographica]

What would you recommend a novice buy to get started sketching?

Okay hopefully this post doesn’t look terribly intimidating. I am anything but brief. The tl;dr is “buy 2B, HB, and 2H pencils, a sketchbook, and go”. 

Pencils

Drawing pencils come in a variety of hardnesses. You’ll usually see them range from 6H (very “hard”, or light) to 6B (very “bold/black”, or dark), though higher numbers exist. An HB pencil is a very middle-of-the-road pencil. Your old yellow No. 2 pencil is usually somewhere around an HB.

You can go buy a variety pack, or pick an assortment of loose pencils. A 4H, 2H, HB, 2B, and 4B will cover all of your needs. Use a B pencil for darker lines, an H for lighter ones. B pencils are softer and will need to be sharpened more regularly; H pencils have a higher clay content and hold their point for longer, and won’t get as dark as a B pencil naturally will. 

(Note: One brand’s HB might be equivalent to another brand’s 2B. It’s easiest to stick within one brand so that you know your scale is consistent.)

I also love Col-Erase pencils. I use them for sketching, not for colored-in work. They kind of just make everything ~feel~ like a sketch rather than a serious drawing, you know? It’s purely psychological but I feel less critical when my drawing looks like a draft. Pick up regular pencils, but you might find these fun too. (You can also do rough sketches in colored lines and then refine them with regular pencil!)

Papers

Go into an art store, find something cheap labeled “drawing paper”. Done. 

If you feel like the choices are overwhelming and you just want a specific recommendation: Strathmore 300 series is available pretty much everywhere. It’s the one with the bright yellow cover. (You may see other Strathmore drawing papers labeled 400 or 500 series - those are higher quality papers. No need to spend the extra money, 300 is a good paper when you’re starting out.)

The main point is just to not use lined paper or printer paper or stationary paper; grab something that was manufactured for drawing. I have Paper Opinions (and some fairly arbitrary loyalties) nowadays but a lot of it comes down to personal preference. I can now tell whether I’ll like a paper for a given medium by its touch but I only figured that out by drawing on a lot of different common drawing papers.

Miscellaneous Stuff

Get a half-decent sharpener, I guess?? I usually just grab whatever metal thing is near the store register, often this cheap little guy (beware, this is a pack of 25 lol). Some people have much stricter sharpener opinions than I do. Do keep your pencil sharp, though.

Good erasers! I have a few go-tos…

A vinyl block eraser, I personally swear by Pentel’s Hi-Polymer eraser. Good for just picking up a whole area.

A retractable eraser. I use any old one that looks like this, but if you want super detailed erases you may want the Tombow MONO Zero which has a tiny point.

I like kneaded erasers too. You can gently press them on an area to lighten, but not totally erase, a line. You can shape it to get fine points and details. When they get dirty, just stretch them out a few times to ‘clean’ it (though at some point it will be too full of graphite to continue using). Bonus: Great for stress relief and idle fidgeting. :D

A lot of other tools exist in the art world. Blenders. Transfer paper. Compasses. Lead holders and point sharpeners. Different types of papers like bristol and hot/cold-press. They have their place, but when starting out I think they just complicate things. You can make great sketches with a shitty pencil and a pad of paper.

p.s. all these links are for online stores but if you have a local independent art store pls go support your local art store

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Your techniques are far more important than your tools. Good tools can make your life easier but you can’t buy your way to the art you want to make.

Do observational drawings. Find a flower or a sleeping pet or any other object, draw it. It might suck. Turn the page, draw more. Use references. (Drawing from imagination is fun! But learn to use references.)

Work on controlling your hand. This is, imo, an artist’s most important technical skill. Learn to make really, really faint lines regardless of the pencil you’re using - you don’t want to carve into your paper, you want to just leave graphite on top of the surface. Tilt your pencil, learn what kind of lines you can get from the side of the pencil vs. the tip. Adjust your grip, make different lines with different hand positions. Your average “writing” grip is good for tight drawings, but for loose sketching you’ll want to hold farther away from the tip.

Experiment. Your drawing paper isn’t sacred, don’t be afraid to ruin a page. Make note of what you do and don’t like.

I can do an actual Techniques For Making Lines On Paper And Lines That Look Like Things post if there’s interest for that. But hopefully the above was helpful in buying your first set of art supplies!

[woozi]

twt being no.1 on updates, true that <3

not jaebeom speaking abt the mark, hui, btob youngjae fight on youngk's radio show at the time i was typing away abt temper 😭 dhdjdkkdks it's so funny whenever these guys meet someone has to mention abt it and then everyone starts talking. it's like that one story in your friend group you all just can't let go of and some might be like ' how long are you gonna talk abt it?' & next thing you know they're also talking about it at some other time djdjsksk. (but also not him saying he hugged mk to stop him 😔🥺 this was new info to me) i get what you're trying to say hdjdke <33.

oh no alexa pls play you can't sit with us by sunmi. sorry jaebs you are not allowed in our club anymore </3 dhdjdk. RIGHT?? need some silly things to hang on to, to make life interesting jdjdkdkd. naur <///3 i love yugs' smile and laugh sm. i like calling him, chan and seungkwan(even tho sometimes this one makes me want to fight him) ' babu ' (it's a cute term of endearment in my language djjdd idk how to describe it in eng it's something btwn bub and cutie but tbh comparing it to these two makes it a lil bland djdjdk also i feel like sharing this will give away my identity bc i use these a lot in tags 😭😭 also idk if you got the notif but i accidentally liked & then unliked last ask jdjdkd) anyway all 3 of them make me very happy 🥺.

im starting to l*ve u and ur taste too 😿💗. i'll be honest i don't know which bsides have choreo from old albums ( i only know of current ones bc i was there during cbs djdjk 😭) unless someone tells me abt it, i haven't seen it yet but that's what i'm gonna do after sending this. also samee i dont wanna get my hopes up but since jus2 are basically from same agency i am also looking forward to them being in one track in future.

gotsvt chef's kiss 💖. i think ppl just start naming songs they personally dislike, flop these days djjdke. maybe it's just younger ones or just those who listen to title tracks only. there used to be this one song i listened to, of jamie, it was also a feature can't remember name of it, but other than that i haven't listened to her discography much :3. tasteee it's a banger! on the rocks makes me want to miss my non existent s/o djekdkdl. the lyrics </3 the vibe </3. i think drive you home comes close to it for me. after on the rocks that's another one i love with capital L.

dhdjkdjdek that's okay i tend to repeat same phrases too, and trueeeee live performances hit differently.

it's funny how you say i'm keeping up w g7 bc i have no idea where jackson is or what he is doing and until his 2nd bday live i thought mark was in china but then got to know he was in hawaii 😭 i've given up on keeping track what they're doing off stage/irl unless i get update via ig stories through them. keeping up what their releases is still somewhat easy so i'm just doing that. ( i had no idea jaebs was gonna be on eric nam interview but finally today i got the chance to watch it 🥺💚) also!! yes i had didn't know what or how bam's agency is like but everything abt bam's cb i was content with and loved it, i'm impressed.

omg you're chan's age??? i'm a 97 kid :3 and yeah same that's what i thought too, couldn't really find any answer as to why he wasn't :/.

also no worries abt playlist jdjddk i'll slowly start listening to their discography here and there. BUT ALSO i saw there is slchld on the playlist you linked, I LOVE THEIR SONGS OMG. NO IDEA WHO THEY ARE BUT I LOVE LOVE LISTENING TO THEIR SONGS, yerin baek too!! after woozi's cover i started listening to some of her songs <333 also kehlani 💖 i love her voice. thank you for sending in just that too <3

also did you notice seungkwan's ball which got stuck om roof, is still there in same place in 4th ep of in the soop djsjskslsl 😭 i found that so funny for some reason. no one bothered to bring it down.

i hope this week is being kinder to you since last weekend was one rough (else i'm fighting it), stay hydrated <3 yza 💗 goodluck w uni - 🪂

WAIT HE DID????????????? I DIDNT GET TO WATCH THE THING THATS SO FUNNY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

literally how many times have they talked abt this... AND EXACTLY FDJKFJDKFD it's the predebut fight bond for me <3 ok but i can see jaebs hugging mark so he won't beat the living shit out of the other boys that is So Him 😭

YOU LISTEN TO SUNMI... EVERYDAY U GET SEXIER.. WHAT THE HEAL.. it's like that w astrology to me too KJKJDFKJFDKJ i would also fight seungkwan no hesitation tbh it'd end up w me headlocking him im just so sure of it <3 OHHH I THINK IM FAMILIAR W UR NATIVE LANGUAGE THEN??? filo???? im not so sure though fdkjfdjkf and no u don't have to worry abt that i don't check my notifs anymore JKFKJJKDFKJ i just check mentions replies and asks <3 i know i'm missing a lot by doing so but it just takes up too much time for me now :/ and i will pretend to not know even though i have def seen those tags KJFKJDJKFDKJFD

dw i don't know most of them either KJFJKJFDD i just come across things!! i don't even know A Lot of things abt the groups i liked ever since i came back from my kpop hiatus jkfdkjdf i dont feel like i need to know Everything anymore just to like things lol 😭 im hanging on to this frail hope... jus2.. BLEASE....

ik :/ and there's no reasonable.. idk guideline anymore for "successful" songs which is also weird to me.. i think thats bc of streaming and shit :/ JAMIE IS SOOOO GOOOD!! i knew her from her reality competition days and when she eventually debuted in 15&. jype fucking sucks though she could've been v big now :/ the vocal chords on that woman.. incredible. <3 JDSKJDSJ WITH A CAPITAL L!!!! jacks' latest songs are always abt heartache what is he going thru 😭 how did u feel abt LMLY?

i know like.. only 13 words max nowadays so 😭

i think jacks is just always busy so we both cant keep up with him 😭 AND MARK IS IN HAWAII?????????? I THOUGHT HE WAS IN LA WTF 😭 i actually am not keeping up w them as much as i used to i just still have a lot of g7 moots and i follow update blogs so JKFJKDKJFD i still love the boys sm though it's just that im becoming a svtpoppie now 😭😭😭

yes i am <3 he's just a few months older than me!! ALSO WAIT we're the same age as g7 and svt's maknae lines 👁️👄👁️

HELL YEA!!!!!!!!!!!! i actually don't know who they are either i just listen to them too fdjkfjkkjfd lately spotify's doing most of the work for me <3 ALSO U KNOW ABT JIHOON'S COVER... UR SO- ok we're besties 4 life now <3 CAN I JUST SAY... WHAT THE HELL IS UP W JIHOON.. DOING IT IN THE ORIGINAL KEY.. HE HAD NO BUSINESS SHOWING OFF LIKE THAT OK UR TALENTED N IM A LITTLE IN L*VE W U WE GET IT 😭😭😭

AND NO DFKJFDKJJKFDFDKJDF WHY IS THAT SO FUNNY TO ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HOW DID U EVEN NOTICE!!! NOW IM GONNA HAVE TO LOOK FOR CLIPS OF IT JKFDFJKDFD 😭 they're truly relaxing they cant even be bothered lmaoooo

looks like it'll be much better!! i'm kind of excited for uni ngl <3 i hope everything's well w u as well and that all ur endeavors are bussin <3 u stay hydrated too and get lots of sleep!! <3

[yumikoyuki]

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? ummm i’m not confused atm really. 

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? no. :C

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? i would definitely mind. i wouldn’t want anything to do with it, but it’s ok if they do it in very moderate amounts. just keep it away from me tho.

4: Do you find it easy to trust others? yes and no. depends on the person.

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? i don’t remember. sitting by the computer? sleeping? watching netflix?

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? i’m either alone or with a friend.

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? really, really hurt, but’d want to talk about it with them and try to understand.

8: Are you close with your dad? yes, very.

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? our kitty of course.

10: What are you listening to? the sounds from venla gala recording. missed it today so i’m watching it late online.

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? berry juice.

12: Do you like hickeys? they don’t look nice but in the moment the feel nice. or they used to at least. i might be too old for them to even feel nice anymore.

13: What time do you go to bed? depends. usually around 1 am - 3 am

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? not that i can think of.

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? yeah. i don’t even use both hands for texting.

16: Do you always answer your texts? no. depends on how important they are and if a reply is required. usually yes even when they are not important in any way.

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? no.

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? today a few hours ago.

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? yeah.

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? i really don’t remember.

21: Is anyone else in the room with you? no.

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? i like to believe so at least. hate to think that complete ass hats get away with being an ass hat, and that the sweetest of persons wouldn’t get as much sweetness in their life.

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? no don’t think so? or yeah? i remember being completely burned at some point i have lost the track of time. also it’s really hard to think when exactly i have had happier or sadder periods. anxiety and depression are bitches.

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? yes.

25: In the past week, have you cried? yes.

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? navy blue and black.

27: Do people ever call you by your last name? no.

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? don’t know.

29: Do you have a best friend? several good ones.

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? haha no. i don’t even know the person i last kissed oops. the most bizarre bus drive of my life.

31: Who was your last call/text message from? from my brother.

32: Are you mad at anyone? no.

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? yes.

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? i have no idea- wait no i think she said she’s 25? so 26.

35: How many more days until your birthday? around 4 months worth of days.

36: Do you have any summer plans yet? a trip to japan at least. i really really really hope. trying to make it happen some way or the other.

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? hmm yeah one.

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? nah not really.

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? nah don’t think so.

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? yes.

41: Do you think age matters in relationships? depends. i think age is really just a number, what what matters is that the two people are in the same “maturity level”. i mean that helps at least for me. an older person might be the more childish one compared to their younger spouse, so yeah. age is just a number. just have to find the right balance as individuals.

42: Are you available? yes.

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? one.

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? ahh i used to want my brow pierced but now i’m not into that anymore. i think a surface one somewhere would be the most me nowadays.

45: Do you believe exes can be friends? yes. have managed to succeed in that.

46: Do you regret anything? yes.

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? i should probably sleep but eh.

48: Did you ever lose a best friend? i don’t like saying “lose”. we just grew up and grew up being different than we were as kids. our interests are not in the same wavelength anymore and that’s ok. we don’t keep in touch anymore but we have nothing really that makes it impossible for us to contact each other or if we wanted to hang out sometime!

49: Was your last kiss a mistake? mmm i don’t know. it was weird. but i liked it.

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? um it’s a bit complex. i like them but not that much and i don’t really want to date them because of a few reasons. also it sounds creepy, “pursuing” someone. i don’t really do that.

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? no.

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? nnnno. but it’s like i mean i just met her! i don’t know if we are gonna talk more in the future. probably not tho.

53: What was the last thing you ate? one salmiac pastille.

54: Did you get any compliments today? i don’t remember.

55: Where are you going on your next vacation? don’t know yet.

56: Do you own anything from other countries? yeah.

57: Are most of your friends guys or girls? mostly girls.

58: Where have you lived most of your life? helsinki, finland.

59: When was the last time you took a long drive? last month. 13 hours from helsinki to lapland.

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? yes.

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? no.

62: Who do you text the most? my friend i guess.

63: What was the last movie you saw? batman: the killing joke.

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? i’m single.

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? one.

where did the numbers here go :(

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? i feel monogamous as i can be jealous and i like to concentrate my affection to one person. but i don’t see a polygamous relationship as an impossible thing. it is super duper unlikely for me to work or even occur as a possibility, but yeah, not impossible.

71: Have you ever been dumped? yes.

72: What do you most like about making out? the intimacy.

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? yes.

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? depends on the person. usually eyes though, as they say so much. i love seeing a person’s feeling and thought through their eyes.

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? my friend. sorry i don’t tell names in these things.

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? no.

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? no.

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? um compliments. kisses and hugs from someone i care about romantically.

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? uhm. i am no good with kids and i will never get one myself, but if like. if i really, really liked someone enough, i might get used to them having a kid. don’t know. i have never been in such a situation.

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? yes.

83: Do you miss your last sweetie? my last what? partner? i miss my sweetie little kitty who is in the living room.

84: Last time you slow danced with someone? wow i can’t even remember when that was. i have danced waltz 4-5 years ago? but slow dance? don’t remember, honestly.

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? no.

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? no. not in that way anyway.

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? you know, there are perks in being single, i have a lot of freedom, but dear damn god i miss the perks of being in a relationship. i want hugs and kisses and sex and comfort and trust and all that jazz. i do wish i was in a relationship, but i am content in being single as well.

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? i don’t look for anything, i just like someone if i like them (tho i mean of course i have types), but it sure helps their case a lot if they are taller than me even when i’m wearing heels, or at least the same height. it might be a cliche, but it really makes me feel so good being the short one.

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? yes.

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? i don’t know. don’t remember.

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? yes.

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? *shrughs* i don’t really do dating? but i mean yeah why not if i happened to like them but as of now, no.

101: Hugs or Kisses? both pls.

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? depends on a person. friends calling me that is all fine and fun lol. significant other yeah why not, but a person have no relations with? no.

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? it is not enough to just be sexy oh god no.

107: Your last kiss? wasn’t this asked already?

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? yes.

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? yes.

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? eh i don’t know.

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? my cat. :3

112: Does someone like you currently? romantically, no idea.

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? nah.

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? serious.

115: Ever made out with just a friend? yeah.

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? depends on the relationship. i have had a shitty one and a really good one. but yeah i remember that when it was good it was damn fucking good and i sure as hell wasn’t as much depressed so yeah. being in a good relationship helps me a lot. but i don’t want to be in a relationship so it would “help me” lol :DD i just love being cared for and caring for someone myself.