#i always feel nervous making this bc i dont know if they made this already or not-

[juneneedsabreak]

best mates

[genekies]

screaming in the club

time for another vent in tags

[daryl-fucking-dixon]

Tw slap of homophobia

“Tha’ hell? No way, we’re jus’ friends. Stop tryna make it into somethin’ tha’ its not”

“‘Jus’ friends’ don’t look at each other like tha’ little bro, think yer hidin’ somethin’ under yer shirt”

“Yer fuckin’ delusional, Merle”

“Yer a fuckin’ fag, Daryl

Darly Dixon’s first love, a boy from his shitty hometown. He was like a breath of fresh air after months of drowning, head barely above water. His parents were also shit, but they were never home either, and his house had become Daryl’s safe space.

He was certain this was just his friend, best friend even. But the side long glances, nervous touches of fingers, and awkward eye contact, he’s not sure anymore. At first it scares him, the idea of being gay, he knows what his family would think, and they already despise him. He’s hesitant, even flat out denies it for a moment.

“Nah… I don’ really think m’into anyone”

Over and over, he kept telling himself that, hoping if it played on loop enough that it would actually start to be true. Nervous touches turn into soft caresses, ones that make Daryl’s heart skip beats. His bedroom is small, bed even smaller. It made Daryl nervous, he was scared, but so excited at the same time.

Soft caresses eventually turn into hand holding, and Daryl has long gone stopped watching the TV, cheeks red and gaze everywhere else in the room but in his direction, that is until he gently turns Daryl head, forcing him to make eye contact in what felt like years.

He smiled at Daryl, and it was like the whole world had just completely stopped, only the two of them alone together. He pulled Daryl’s hand to his chest, shyly glancing at him before tugging his arm over his shoulder, crashing into Daryl’s lips. He was taken aback at first, but easily melted into it, his heart hammering and cock twitching.

Simple and innocent hangouts had morphed into messy and heated makeout sessions, each kiss deeper than the last. It was like their own personal routine, waltz around his empty house before going to curl up together in his bed, kissing, touching, exploring each other. He was Daryl’s very first time, making him feel so good in a way he wasn’t even sure was possible without drugs. He was Daryl’s very first love, first kiss, the first time he felt safe.

He was Daryl Dixon’s very first everything.

｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

“Eeeerm actually Daryl wouldnt gay because well I dont see him being gay 🤓🤓” Like what does a gay person look like to you bro I can assure you I do not give af if you think hes gay or not please dont hop on my page with no shit bc I always have the time TRUST😭🙏🏾

[opal-owl-flight]

in an au where someone else were the agents, what would the agents life be like instead? (for eight, Octo expansion still happens but like she quits agent work after that)

This is a very interesting ask! This is a "things go well despite someone else filling in their roles" situation. Only got 3 and 4 so far bc I know who'd replace them EJDJE

Under readmore bc long! Also bonus Alt!3 art under there

4/Rain remains in the turf leagues after highschool. Sometimes working Grizzco for the cash, but once she went pro she left. A huge bitch to everyone, teammates and opponents, yet somehow making it work. Shes proud of where she is. She made a great life for herself here in Inkopolis and shes not going to let ANYONE forget. Doesnt help that the squids in that particular community/rank are also rude as fuck. Shes imitating the common attitude to fit in. Find SOME place she feels she can belong.

Marie called to her from the sewers to be Agent 4, but she declined the offer. Because...

...of 3/Tanara.

This snooty bitch of a squid also made a good life for themself after escaping from an oppressive home. Hows Rain any special? Worst of all, theyre one of the few who can go toe to toe with her on the field, snarky comments and everything. Rain's sure that they enjoy seeing her stumble (they do).

Proud of their progress and skill, they tend to (literally) look down on anyone that doesnt impress them. Their prior training as a squidling really helps them dominate matches, in both combat and strategy... Tanara lives for the sport. Their life is sport. Its the life theyve always wanted -- a life of play and fun and fresh vibes forever! If its too easy, wheres the fun? They seek hard fights.

Rain impresses them, for sure. But they also just LOVE messing with her. Rub in her face how much better they are. Its exhilirating to see all that bluster crumble! Yes! The bitch is down!! Eat your words!! Type of shit.

As for the other two...

John would still be great as an Agent 3 — remarkably, he doesnt get sanitized bc he takes care of himself and doesnt crash headfirst into a blender. he kicks it instead. doesnt get knocked out.

Hes kind as always. very supportive of a terrified all the time Sun. Hes like…a silly agent 3. hes goofy hes a lil stupid hes John

John does get war hardened but its not as intense a time as 3 had. Hes still smiling a lot! probs the fact that he had a good home life and a good support system in his team. (Tanara is in his team!! Hes the one usually reining them back from emotionally wrecking opponents. Hes also the one who makes Tanara's soft side emerge! They have one. Its just buried under their desire to be Cool)

and Sun? he never got into Grizzco. he became Agent 4 and saved the world! barely!! he keeps running from the troops until Marie has to drag him back by the ear! John carries Sun around like luggage a lot. its comforting for the nervous wreck.

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3 was just…theyve already been dealt a bad hand, and the universe kept expecting more from them. theyre under so much pressure, all the time!!

at least here, they dont have to worry about anything but their win streak and how 4 is annoyingly cute

Anyway. More Alt3!

[princesssmars]

cant live without a poly ship so pjhazel with reader...light (?) nsfw. making out and allusions to more. fem cheerleader reader. are there any pj fics i mean this is rachel sennot we're talkin about. not gonna proofread we die like jeff should have. reuploading bc tumblr hates me and wont make my posts show up on the tags.

maybe reader is a cheerleader who both of the girls have a crush on, made difficult by them being...friends. aka pj has had a crush on hazel for years and has tried to stomp it down into the dust while hazel tries to forget about her feelings. which definitely always works.

you probably didnt notice them before the fight club, but once you join its hard not to. you like hazel because she's genuinely so nice to everyone and cute in that "you kinda scare me but i weirdly really like it", and you like pj because while her attraction is so obvious by the way she refuses to hit you, constantly adjusting your posture, and how you've caught her staring at your ass about twenty damn times already. but shes cute in a "you're obviously a loser but your desperation kinda turns me on way."

maybe pj catches on to how close you're getting to hazel, then being the hotheaded ass she is (affectionately) confronts hazel about it, telling her if she was a real friend she'd do her a solid and back the hell off ??? obviously hazel isnt falling for it, saying they should leave it up to you to decide who you're interested in.

lucky for them you invite them for a study date at your house that night ! when they ring your doorbell pj is nitpicking hazels button-up, getting surprised when hazel bites back and critiques her plaid zip up jacket because really? plaid?

they both quickly shut up when you open the door, smiling casually like you arent standing in front of them in a lacy bra and shorts, turning around inviting them up to your room as you expect them to follow you. they do, of course. (hazel makes sure to clowe and lock your front door beacuse shes. polite. yeah.)

the fake studying you do is dreadfully boring. hazel tries to pay attention to the work, while pj is flirting with you and getting more flustered the harder you flirt back. eventually you get sick of the bullshit, grabbing her by that fugly plaid jacket and bringing her lips down to yours.

you have to pull back only three seconds in when to your shock the brunette lets out the loudest groan you've ever heard and brings her hands up to squish your breasts, looking slightly embarrassed as giggle at her and brush some of her frizzy hair back away from her face.

a mix between a shaky inhale and a snort reminds you of the other person in the room, turning to see hazel with such a strong grip on her pencil you're slightly scared shes going to stab herself with it.

you ask her "dont laugh at her, you think you could do better?" and before you know it she's crawling towards you from the bottom of your bed and kissing you with the passion of a long lost lover.

you have to admit you're slightly surprised at how proficient she is at kissing, knowing just the right way to tilt your head and graze your lips with her tongue. it makes you so light headed you fall onto your back on the covers, hazel never giving you a chance to pull away as she follows you down and cages you in.

you make out with her for another minute or two before gently pushing her off to catch a breath, your chest rising up and down at a mile a minute. once your head clears more, you look above you to see hazel looking almost nervous. her eyes dart from you to the space to your left, and you tilt her head to see pj doing the same.

"you guys can kiss too, yknow. i wont mind. it'd be pretty hot actually."

you meant it as half of a joke but your breath catches in your throat when pj grips the sides of hazels head and kisses her. well, more like starts licking at the area around her mouth, but with a little guidance its not long before the two are in a heated makeout above you, the sight and the sounds they're making turning you on in ways you didnt think was possible.

you press a hand into both of their chests, the girls pulling apart and looking at you like they're both waiting for your command.

yeah, you were gonna have fun with this.

was looking at hazel tiktoks and a comment complained about the lack of stuff about her on wattpad, then someone said to head over here and sometimes i forget that. u r real people. reading what i write. so. whats up.

[correctproseka]

get rarepaird. akinene + mizushiho

Tbf the first things i get are usually rarepairs

Also im sorry akinene's is not as good as my usual hcs bc. Honestly im not as familiar with how their relationship would be

Who said “I love you” first

Akinene: Akito. He says it on such a win and he's the one to nearly die as soon as he realizes what he said

Mizushiho: Shiho, despite having the fame of being grumpy, Shiho also is more open to her feelings thanks to leo/need, Mizuki is cheerful but really closed off, so they'd never say it, but they're so fucking thankful that Shiho reciprocates it.

Who would have the other’s picture as their phone background

Akinene: hands down Akito, Nene probably has the default one tbh

Mizushiho: Mizuki. My girl's a simp and has a selfie of them together. Shiho says its cringy but smiles whenever she sees it.

Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror

Akinene: tbf i dont think either would, but Akito draws on it for himself and Nene always comments that she liked it

Mizushiho: Mizuki again, she draws cat ears at Shiho's height so when Shiho leaves the shower she sees herself with drawn on cat ears on the mirror

Who buys the other cheesy gifts

Akinene: Probably both. Akito likes to give her flowers, Nene makes him chocolate

Mizushiho: Mizuki primarily, but Shiho likes to reciprocate with the sappiest shit she can think of and Mizuki always melts

Who initiated the first kiss

Akinene: Nene, after Akito confessed and they went on a date, she had to go on her tip toes though

Mizushiho: Shiho, i feel like Mizuki just annoyed her (lightheartedly) sm that Shiho kabedonned Mizuki and kissed them (also on her tip toes)

Who kisses the other awake in the morning

Akinene: Nene goes to sleep at the time Akito's waking up so she kisses him awake before passing out asleep at like 5am.

Mizushiho: both, depends on who wakes up earlier

Who starts tickle fights

Akinene: Akito, he lives with a sister he can't live without tickle fights anymore. Nene is used to it due to Emu but she's not strong enough to ever win one

Mizushiho: Mizuki. Shiho always ends up pinning them down and tickling (and kissing) them senseless tho

Who asks who if they can join the other in the shower

Akinene: Nene, but i feel like they both like a time for themselves where they can relax with just them yknow, Nene usually brings it up though

Mizushiho: Shiho, Mizuki is afraid Shiho will think they're disgusting despite Shiho knowing the secret already, slowly Mizuki starts asking more tho because they like to ramble about things and talk about their day

Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunch

Akinene: Akito doesn't have set work time but Nene usually does, so he tends to bring her lunch more often, she does the same when she has lunch time free

Mizushiho: Shiho, a similar reason as above, Shiho's work is practice and as they have Honami they rarely ever skip lunch, Honami always remembers the others, so Shiho ends up bringing Mizuki lunch during leo/needs break time because Mizuki 9 times out of 10 will be hyperfocusing and forgetting to eat

Who was nervous and shy on the first date

Akinene: both. Nene almost threw up before it. Akito made a bigger front and pretended he was confident though

Mizushiho: both, Shiho's panic was more subdue and she kept picking on her sleeves. Mizuki was screaming about which outfits to wear for three hours with Ena

Who kills/takes out the spiders

Akinene: Akito kills them

Mizushiho: Shiho takes them out

Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunk

Akinene: possibly Akito he's the loudest generally

Mizushiho: Mizuki would do it sober AND drunk dont underestimate them

[kenlvry]

hiii, ur works are so cute, any chance we could get nsfw hc’s for stan and kyle with a shy fem reader?

thank you <333

stan and kyle nsfw hc's with a shy fem reader!

an: hello!! im pretty nervous bc its my first time doing nsfw hc, both of them are 19+ you can js imagine what they look like. also i didnt know if you wanted separate or tgt so i made separate but if you wanted to both at once feel free to send me another one!

stan marsh

you were always a shy person and stan loved your personality, it was so cute to him that you were so shy that you even cover your smile with your hand.

even when he kissed you, you forced him to close his eyes because you were too shy for him to see your goofy kissing face.

your weak spot was your nipples and whenever he sucked on them you'd always moan , you bit down on your lip suppressing them and stan stopped "cmon dont hide em, scream it out" you were a bit shocked but just looked away. he smiled and continued.

whenever he was about to give you head you were very shy about it, you were scared he didnt like the taste and even covering it sometimes because stan was staring too long at it or whatever making so many excuses. and he got annoyed tbh "i don't care, its you. youre always perfect" after that he immediately went down not caring about your protests. he was giving it kitten licks and kissing it before finally licking it. you were beyond surprised when he licked it your back arched and you wanted to hold his hair as something to hold on but were shy, he grabbed your arm and put it on his head winking to you and continued to work on your pussy.

whenever he stuck his dick in it would always start with you laying down and him putting it in, you didn't make eye contact with him. he grabbed your face with his fingers so that you were looking at him while he put it in, he grunts when the tip was in and you were moaning. he wondered what would it be like if he put it all in if you were already a mess with just the tip.

if he puts your legs on his shoulders so it can go in deeper you'd be so surprised and ask if he was okay and if it made him uncomfy having to hold your hips while thrusting into you. "fuck i dont care, all i care is that you are pleasured" with that he thrust into you and you'd cover you face to not moan, you two talked over it but he was too deep in to care.

whenever you rode him it was a complete mess, before even putting it in you made so many excuses "what if im too heavy??" "what if it doesn't make you feel good?" "what if it feels too good i cant move??" even saying your suddenly sick or smthn because youre too shy to ride him, he'd watch you the whole time and you'd get nervous "no matter what size you are i would pick you up like you are paper, it doesn't matter if it doesn't feel good, as long as my girls happy and i can see your frustrated face, if you cant move I'll do it for you. now cmon im loosing patience"

when you were riding him youd stop midway because you were too tired, and stan kept his promise! he hold your waist and helped you thrust in and out, you were a moaning mess.

when you were about to cum you'd tell him and tbh he could tell he just wanted to hear it. he'd go faster just so you can have the best orgasm. he always came on your stomach and you cover it sometimes because your shy about it but he moved away your hands and took in to enjoy the view

all in all sex with stan is the best, he always puts you first <33

kyle broflovski

with your shy personality it was hard to have sex, you'd cover your pussy and tits even though at the end hes still gonna see it. he thought it was really cute though. it was like you were a virgin even though you fucked other people before.

kyle knew all your weak spots and would always hit them, you tried not to make a face but you were a moaning mess he'd hit it over and over and it just felt too good!

kyle lovessssss hearing you moan, and he hates it when you hide it from him. if you hid it with biting your hand he'd take your hands and pin it next to your head with his hands, he basically trapped you, both of your hands being tied down with his own so all you could do was moan loudly, he loved it<33

he likes it when he puts your legs over his shoulder, it gives him a much more deeper position and he can see your face better, you'd be squirming while he was thrusting in and out of you, hiding your face and such but kyle didn't stop because it was so cute.

after care with him is really an argue battle, even though he has gave you head and fucked you, you're still shy about him looking at your pussy so if he tried to clean it you'd immediately get up trying to wash it by yourself, kyle would pull you back to the bed "shhh let me handle it, ive seen it a thousand times, it still looks like the pretty pussy as always" you ended up sleeping and letting him do it

sex with him is the best because he knew all your weak spots and always tries to make you have a fun time!

[5-htagonist]

god damn im so happy rn... ill stick it under a readmore bc its about food and my appetite idk if it would be triggering also this turned into more of a diary entry than anything lol My Blog My Rules though

i made curry last night and im really happy because ive been having a lot of trouble eating and Making myself eat, on top of being really erally really broke so we havent had much food in the house thats just Ready To Go consistently.. like, we always have oats, but we dont always have milk, and i cant eat them with water.. or we have ham but we run out of bread, or all i want are fruits and leafs but we cant really keep anything except apples/oranges/grapes because they dont go bad before we finish them, or bananas cause they arent really ruined if theyre overripe you just throw them in the freezer. so we cant get salad materials.

if i try to just shove calories in my body and i dont like it i wont finish it. like i will feel full until i stop trying to make myself eat it. and this isnt even just when adderall affects my appetite.

then, on top of all that, i know if i eat i have to do dishes. my husband usually does them, but hes been going through a really bad time for the past couple months too, plus we only moved out july 2023, and before that his mom had been Divorced outta the house earlier that year iirc plus id been living there since july 2022, so his brain and nervous system has felt safe enough for the ptsd recovery stage for nearly 2 years. and he gets hit really hard with seasonal depression, and he has adhd too. he typically does dishes, i typically do laundry. the problem is its easier to wear the same clothes for a few days, or rewear laundry that isnt rancid, or wear ill fitting clothes that have been shoved to the back of the dresser, but its hard to wash a dish when the sink is full and the kitchen is overwhelming.

so, to avoid having dirty dishes, i wont eat. whats worse, is i was insanely stressed over school for like 3 weeks. all the stress i should have had this semester hit me really bad all at once. when im that stressed, i cant think about anything relevant to maintaining myself-- especially not maintaining neutral-positive self talk and constructive self esteem. which means i shut down if anyone needs anything from me real or imagined. which means i cant be there for my husband and make sure he eats and check in on him. so all this stupid shit just feeds into itself. ive had more s/h urges than ive had in years i think, and not even in response to anything extrinsic.

my goofy ass got drunker than i usually do super quick the other night, it wasmy husbands birthday party. i cleaned up the apartment super nice since mostly my stuff was strewn everywhere and did the dishes. i didnt eat all day and i think i had like, one inadequate meal the day before. so i was exhausted after cleaning, our roommate ordered pizza and i ate and passed out for 3 hour nap. by the time i got up everyone was already at Least buzzed. my brother in law got a mom call and my husband (drunk) was like Hey. Give me the Phone.. tell her i wanna talk... because she LOVES being upset that her kids are having a good time and feels the need for Hour Phone Call when and where she wants it, and my BIL is an adult but they dont treat him like one, so hes still really deep in feeling trapped in these trauma responses.

this i think is what really got me, other than not being on my full dose of adderall so my emotional abilities were compromised lmao. i was tryingto tell my husband i love him, because i was leaving to weed store, and he was getting triggered while drunk, so he was annoyed i was interrupting the call and i didnt get my byebyehugnkiss. not to mention they were being really loud earlier. so now i feel bad. i get back immediately down 2 shots (3 shots is where i am Comfortably Drunk) and share a j actually post cancelled kendrick just dropped. the point was that i got too drunk and started hitting myself on the head and crying in the kitchen floor lol but who cares about that KENDRIIIIIIICKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

[meownotgood]

MAGS HI HOW R U!!!!!!! i missed checking ur blog all the time but i shared ur gale x reader fic w my friend (they got me into bg3 and we are both so normal abt gale) and AAUAUUAUAUAYG!!!!!!! so GOOD!!!!!!!!

also got lookup aki and i fully understand all the accessories u bought for him.. i keep taking silly pics hes just such a little goober and i love holding him like 🤲 hes so cute

anyway …. imagining aki in a normal no-devils au as ur coworker .. he has a crush on u but keeps it very respectful at work, but he also loves helping u clean up/hes quick to help out customers if ur already busy. he Loves being scheduled around the same time as u and usually ends up clocking out + leaving kinda late bc he just wants to talk to you :( and hes always texting outside of work (you get flirty with him late at night but dont address it in the morning) .. i started a new job so imagining aki working w me has made it a lot more easy to manage cries

- 🐙

(also a closing thought tht popped into my brain just now: playing with gales hair and braiding it)

HI LOVE!!! I'm doing good! and I hope you are well :D good luck with your new job 💞💞💞

aw you'll make me emotional... thank you so much, I'm glad you enjoyed my fic 🫂 I'm very honored!! it was super fun to make and I'm excited to write more gales!!!!

lookup aki is pure seratonin, he has so much love in his little fat head. I must kiss it every time I see him. they truly made him so cute it should almost be a crime

aaaakiiii 🥹 aki in a no devils au will make me emotional because he finally can rest a bit... I think he would be very different but a lot more comfortable to be his awkward self lol. he thinks he's bad at flirting but the simplest things he does always make you fall head over heels. your coworkers comment on how handsome he is but he never talks to them as much as he talks to you (he has an obvious crush, apparently he doesn't know he's making it obvious). he comes up with dumb excuses to meet with you outside of work, offering you come over for dinner for no special reason at all, because he's nervous about asking you to hang out. honestly... so boyfriendly.....

and you have spare gale thoughts for me??! I AM SPOILED!!! I feel like if you played with gale's hair he would fall asleep so fast... just relaxing with you... my bg3 oc has little braids in her hair so I imagine her trying to put matching small braids in gale's hair..... haha

[quobber]

some of my many many gweter headcanons under the cut because i dont feel like writing but i DO feel like talking about them

i guess these all take place after they moved in together in england because we all know thats what happened :) !!!!!!!! right!!

gwen has a bunch of little nervous habits that she does including but not limited to drumming her fingers on her thigh, humming while shes working, smoothing her skirt out, and twirling her hair

peter is a cat person and gwen was not until peter brought home a kitten he rescued and they raised him like he was their own

i personally believe. that peter parker would be a taylor swift enjoyer. (this one isn’t technically gweter but i wanted to fit it in)

gwen is not a morning person at all and peter is. she takes like an hour to fully wake up and peter has already cleaned the whole house and made breakfast

peter rambles a lot about little random things and gwen just goes :)!!! yes this is so cool!!!! even if she has no idea what he’s talking about

peter is an introvert and gwen is an extrovert so she does most of the talking if they’re in public (peter gets nervous sometimes so he just holds/fidgets with her hand)

something i’ve noticed no one really talks about is gwen’s brothers? probs because they contribute absolutely nothing to the plot of TASM movies and weren’t in the comics but. justice for howard and philip and simon come on

bringing that up bc i think peter would def hang out with her brothers and just idk. what do men do for fun. play basketball or something idk they’d be friends 😭

gwen buys any and all cheap/knock off spider man memorabilia she finds and gives them to peter. she thinks its actually the funniest thing in the world

i think eventually they would have kids. peter always wanted a daughter and gwen has no preference. they end up having one boy and one girl (and several more cats throughout the years)

even after they have kids/have been together for years they’re still completely in love with each other. there have been some ups and downs (as there is in any relationship) but they know how to work through things with each other

similarly they still make time to go on dates and spend time with each other

ummm idk thats it for now. i do have more so maybe i’ll post them at some point idk

[minarcana]

tiny ultima thule urithan bc if i dont get the brain mold out itll colonize

Back aboard the Ragnarok, everything is a nervous mess. he loporrits scramble in a panic they try desperately to assure everyone isn't a panic as they try to find the way to Meteion's nest, and everyone goes through the stages of accepting that they will not be able to stand alongside the Warrior in this last moment.

Once again, the burden of a thousand thousand lives and deaths is on her shoulders, alone. And there is nothing Urianger can do about it. Strangely, he thinks to himself, it isn't his priority at the moment. He knows what he can and cannot do. The things that plague him that he can't fix are easily pushed aside for the things he can address.

And he finds Thancred, grabs his arm, and pulls him to stop pacing. It's not appropriate for the moment, perhaps, when Thancred's clearly worrying about the Warrior of Light and not anything else, but Urianger has to stop him.

He has to. Otherwise, the feelings roiling in him fester. Thancred stops with a quiet “Urianger?” and Urianger takes the invitation to wordlessly stand facing him, only a breath away, hand still clinging to Thancred's forearm. Urianger ducks his head down to press his forehead to Thancred's, eyes closed. His other hand cups Thancred's jaw. He can fel the reality of Thancred's presence like this, warm and solid before him. The faint fan of Thancred's breath, the heartbeat he can feel against his little finger when he splays it further down Thancred's neck. Urianger's breath is shaky.

Thancred doesn't talk yet. He just reaches up to loosely hold Urianger, too. After a moment, not wherein Urianger gathers himself, but wherein he can process the feeling: "I feared thou had gone wither I could not follow.“ His voice is shaky and it takes a pause for him to get the full sentence out.

He's stubborn, he sits for a time in denial always. That Thancred had died was not his main fear. It was that Urianger would not see him again, wherever he had gone, that Urianger had been left behind with only the feeling and not the person, without the ability to speak to him like this. He can't fault Thancred the action, and there wasn't an alternative, which maybe makes it worse. There's just this, the leftover of fear and anger and still-fading hate at the scared child that made them do this. ”Sorry,“ Thancred says gently, despite both of them being aware that he isn't. ”We're here now. We'll make the most of it, and we'll go home.“

The same choices would always have been made, needed to be made. Urianger laughs quietly, the noise coming with shaky breath and a burning feeling that manifests as a tear falling to Thancred's face. He rarely lets himself cry, far easier to shove it down and not waste time with he unproductive, but the reminder now is: he was scared and upset and every assorted feeling he's never actually dealt with bubbles up into silent tears that Thancred simply accepts. What if he'd been unable to have this, afterwards, with a body before him to speak and hear? ”Let it be said, I love thee.“

"I know that, I knew it then, too." He says it gently, not an admonishment or a tease, just reassurance.

But it wasn't in the air more than rarely. Too binding for Urianger to wish to place it on Thancred, already selfish enough over him. And if he'd disappeared, present but unable to hear? Then what, what might he not know? ”I love thee, I love thee….“ Until he's satisfied and he's certain, Urianger not even thinking that this display could be run across by anyone simply walking down a hallway. They're alive, they will be, he has to protect this before him first and foremost.

[flockofdoves]

im going fucking cuckoo bananas. why is it so hard to fill my schedule to be a full time student for my last semester when i am infamously the type of person who wants to learn about everything ever and jumps at any opportunity to take random classes

have really really really wanted to take advanced spanish grammar for so long but every fucking semester i have a necessary class during that time (due to the epidemic of every class in the world being in late morning on tuesday/thursday) and this semester my One Singular Class I Absolutely Need To Graduate is at that time

so then i was like. oh well. i'll take italian 1 instead since my grandfather has been trying to plan one last trip to where his family is from and if i get to go it will be good to practice italian in a formal context

but then that trip fell through and i just really really want to improve my spanish so i emailed a class for heritage speakers to see if it would be appropriate for me and the professor got back to me and said i was welcome to come to the first class and try it out

and so today i went to the spanish for heritage speakers class and it made me so so excited to be immersed in spanish again and going over the content of the course, with the exception of how i don't really need much writing help since when i was learning all the basics of how to read and write i did that as much in spanish as i did english, all the grammar topics were exactly what i needed and the idea of a class where everyone talks at a high level and theres no english but you still get into the basics of explaining different grammar topics is so so refreshing!!!

and at the end of class the professor was like your spanish is at a high enough level for this class so if you want to take it then see you monday! and it got me so excited

and then the italian class was just really extremely basic. i understand basically anything said to me in italian and know a decent amount of vocab i just have trouble speaking but throughout my life i have at least studied basics like past and present tense and articles and stuff. so my goals were to learn more grammar and make my pronunciation better (i always pronounce everything so spanish and dont have a good sense for what words have which e or o sound)

but this professor was like yeah basically this whole course is just present tense and well learn the sinple past tense right at the end. but i already know that!!! and also unfortunately she has a noticeable american accent while speaking so thats not much help for improving my accent either

so i was like well whatever that makes my decision easy ill drop italian and take the spanish class. but still just in case i asked her about if i could take an italian placement test (was nervous about that originally because the next level up was during my necessary class again) and she was like yeah ive never had to do that before but i can figure that out for next week. which is a little nervewracking bc add/drop ends on wednesday. but whatever i was excited about taking spanish now

but then when i got home today i saw an email from the spanish professor (technically a grad student) like ‘i talked to my colleagues and even if your spanish level is high enough since you are not a heritage speaker here are some classes better suited for you [classes where you write huge essays in spanish which i do not have the time or desire for rn]’

and that was upsetting because i just really most of anything wanted to take a spanish class but then i was feeling a bit better because it turned out there was a new section added of the italian 2 class that fit my schedule and looking through that classes textbook it seemed the exact mix of easy but not boring because ill still actually be learning stuff that i needed. and i even called my mom (who used to be an italian language professor) and read the textbook units and she agreed it seemed exactly right for me

so i went to start writing an email to that professor to be proactive even before taking the placement test but in the fucking half hour since i had last checked the page rhat section of the class filled up with no waitlist

so i looked through the entire search of classes in a certain block of time not on tuesday thursday for my giant university and literally rhe only thing that seemed both manageable and interesting was an intro to japanese class. and i was excited like wow! how did i miss this when i was first searching for classes! only to click on it and remember i did see it and the reason it wasnt on my backup class list was because it doesnt allow seniors to take it

[akiraiscute]

Other story with zero bc i wanna write abt him<3 (IM WRITING ANOTHER PART OF NEW CRIME AND ANOTHER REID STORY<33)

“Honestly, it’s super hot.”

Zero X Reader! (No gender, no race)

Based off of this song.

Tw ; Zero is the hero & Reader’s Frenemy and their situationship… (Honestly, im not even thinking so im trying to make this a angst/fluff?😭) Flashing lights at the end for the gif<3…

“I spent so long hating every move you made.”

You muttered out softly as you watched Zero talk to his other friends, god. His voice is so annoying, why can’t he just end up dying alone. Why can’t you get him out of your head? He’s your enemy, well. As a villain, you were his enemy and he was yours… Yours.. yea, your enemy- why are you making such a big deal out of it. Zero looked back, feeling someone staring at him… of course, with his stupid senses……. He smiled before waving at you, being the childhood friend you are-.. you waved back, smiling. Before turning back to your locker and taking your books and absolutely running to your class to not see his stupid- handsome.. hot- stupid! Stupid face. Nothing else. Not handsome, not hot, just so fucking stupid.

Zero looked around, he asked you to go to the park with him as he has been busy with.. school, being a hero.. well you didnt know he was a hero but- yea.. (Hes jst dense as fuck help) having other friends made him busy so he couldn’t spend time witn his best friend!(crush.) Then he saw you, walking to him while fixing your clothes.. god he always thought you were pretty, but not this pretty… what- what did he just think of? God… Zero shook his head as you finally got to him, he was happy he was next to you and hanging out after a few weeks! “Hey! It’s been awhile, hasn’t it?” His voice laced with worry as he got a bit nervous that you didn’t care.. why is he worrying..? He just…. Wants to stay best friends with you! Yea!..

“I realize you're super pretty..”

You were at your locker, smiling and talking to one of your friends. You and Zero almost had the same friends- but thats mainly because they always go to zero than you… he has to ruin every relationship you wanna have, he has to ruin every friendship you wanna have! You went for the boys, the girls, as friends and as lovers but they always preferred Zero. He is already ruining your year! Of course. But when you turned around, Zero was talking to another girl… of course, the girls in this school prefer him over any boy. Its stupid, so so stupid because he isn’t handsome, he isn’t hot, he’s.. pretty.. not pretty. Yea, not pretty. Fully not pretty. Did you just call him pretty? No, you didn’t… You didn’t, you just lost your words because you hate him so much!! Your friend stopped talking, noticing you’re staring at someone- they looked at what you’re looking at before giggling. You immediately turned to them, asking..

“What? What are you laughing at?”

“You. God just confess to him already, it’s getting tiring seeing you drool over him!”

You gasped loudly, making Zero turn to your way.. confused. You were blushing, yea you hated him But It’s embarrassing someone saying that! It fully is.

“No! I dont have a crush on him idiot, you’re being crazy.”

“Uh huh, watch if he gets a girlfriend. You’ll be heartbroken bro.”

You won’t, You know he can’t get a girlfriend because he’s a hero. How do you explain that to a girl..? How do you make her stay even if you’re out late nights and being a hero, getting hurt always. And if he does get a girlfriend, then thats good for you. You get a weakness for him, to destroy him finally.. to be better than him, to better good at something he is! Not having a weakness is something you and Zero both have… well not really but you didn’t know that you are his weakness. You’re the only weakness he has, and if that stupid enemy of his hurts you, that… that’ll be horrible for him! It absolutely will! He will destroy them if he has too to get to you.. you’re his childhood best friend! He’ll do anything for you! And he knows you’ll do anything for him! That’s what best friends do.. right? Yea! Right.

“Each time you speak I want my hands around your throat”

As you and zero fought, he gave a bunch of speechs which was always so fucking annoyed. Like this one where he used his best friend as a subject, whoever that is. You didn’t care if he saw you as a best friend, You didn’t care, you didn’t know. But if you remember it clearly, he sounded like he had a crush on this best friend, maybe you should find out whoever this is to get his weakness… maybe that’ll work. It’ll work. But back to the fighting, he said he’ll win but right now he’s under you and you’re choking him. You hate his voice so much! Why can’t you put your hands around his throat.. you know how this goes, he’ll win either way but right how. You’re absolutely feeling like shit so if he wins, you are quitting and thats.. final. You saw the light in his eyes slowly faded, really slowly but you quickly stopped and got off of him.. you wanted your enemy to die fighting for his life and he wasn’t so.. it didnt work. It didn’t.. work.. he.. still. Won…. No! You made him pass out! You won! You.. won.. finally. You yelled out a yay.. really loudly..

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YAYA, this is out and it was quick:D but it looks so long help, ik it aint😭 BUT I LOVE MAKING THESE WITH ZERO. IDK WHAT TO MAKE HIM LOOK LIKE BUT I LIKE WRITING ABT HIM!!!

— Akira.. Akira! Logging off.. logging- logg…. Off.

[cogbreath]

thank u for ur reply!! i always love ur insight :) n ive read the article before LMAO now that was a classic example of his pretty privilege working cus if he didn’t look the way he did, his behaviour would’ve raised eyebrows. but no…he was viewed as a quirky silly guy by his roommate LOLZ. makes me wonder if mohammed atta would be viewed the same way if he were white passing.

anon you fascinate me im very very intrigued by the fact u already know so much abt this... keep sending asks its soo rare that i actually do get to talk to someone who already knows this much abt this. Anyhow I would reason to bet he might have been viewed more sympathetically if that were the case, however, in any case he was arguably more reserved and stoic by comparison so i think even if he was, people would be maybe a bit more suspicous with him, especially cuz fitting in seemed to come more naturally to jarrah for various reasons... atta never seemed to want to fit in more than he needed to in order to stay under the radar. I know that atta and jarrah did also butt heads abt this to some degree, i know that atta was suspicious that jarrah might even give up on the whole thing cuz of how he kept backsliding. I also think a lot of writers can "see themselves" in jarrah while they really cant with atta, he's an unfamiliar personality imo, specifically bc most writers in the anglosphere come from a secular culturally christian perspective. I think they r sympathetic to him because they start to realise that this sort of stuff really is something that "just anyone" could find themselves getting roped into thru means of being radicalised. Meanwhile I think they view atta as someone who already was quite "radical" at least in their eyes. of course, this is just my experience, but I've had many of my muslim accquantinces comment on how its actually quite a shame that atta took the path he did, because they feel he was otherwise quite promising, and might have made a good scholar or something along those lines. So thats the other side of things if you will. I think I can agree with that perspective myself. Of course its important to not get too engulfed in that mindset, because you can't forget they made the choices they did.

But yeah, there are many things about atta that Ive read about that i find to have been equally quirky and silly of behaviors, but i find myself annoyed how writers (even terry mcdermott does it in his book, perfect soldiers. which is a bit disappointing bc hes a writer who i otherwise rlly enjoy the perspective of on this) dont seem to think that way and paint it to be something as flaws or show of bad character when really, personality and behavior quirks have little to do with his actions. Yknow what i mean of course. Demonizing behaviors that have nothing explicitly to do with being a terrorist. You are really fun anon, its fun for me to get to discuss this stuff, the psychology/characteristics/behavior of those involved with the hamburg cell. its fun when i get to discuss it with more than just my super close friends. sometimes i get nervous ppl might think im trying to be a sympathizer/idolizer but i think i make it more than clear its not the case though xP. its undeniable that its a pretty understudied and underdiscussed facet of 9/11. U see it for other crimes and criminals but not really ever on this side of the fence. I feel its a case of dehumanization borne from islamophobia. Easier to get ppl to feel hate when you paint the perpetrators as faceless monsters. If u ever wanna dm me off anon u are super free to. Also, if you have anything to share that is interesting like a video or article or anything like that, feel free to send it! even if i have seen it or read it before, i would be eager to discuss my thoughts and feelings on it.

[banghwa]

re that jihope ask, i'm pretty sure the fact that they have been roommates for SO LONG speaks volumes. they most likely chose to have the same room, too, even after dorm changes. and even when they had enough money that i'm pretty sure they didn't have to share? having the same room means spending time together, whether you talk or not. it brings people together and makes the relationship different, you know. jimin said that one of the things that made him happy was talking to hobi after work in their shared room. so even if it's not documented well, i'm 100% sure these two have always been close. you can't be roommates for years and not have that influence your relationship imo

EXACTLY like. like i dont even know what to add to this bcs it makes me so so happy for them. them being roommates for so long rly is a testament to how close they are but also just how well they know each other on and off stage. they can read each other like an open book and know what they need and how to take care of each other in such specific ways, and this shows in everything they do together. from the way hoseok makes sure to watch jimins rehearsals and performances bcs he knows how much jimin likes his feedback and validation. to jimin FLYING ACROSS THE PLANET to go see hoseok perform bcs hes proud of him and also likely bcs he knows how hoseok gets when hes nervous like he was. like they were making the "we should live together until we're old men" joke up until early 2022, a point in time where they were probably already moving out of the dorms !! and thats i think what i love so much about their dynamic. how its founded on such a genuine and profound love and respect for each other both professionally and as friends. and its something you can see despite - or perhaps because! - no oversaturation or seemingly forced content. its something that seems to run so deep for them from the moment they met and honestly as much as i love their dynamic i hope they continue to keep something so precious to themselves and continue to only let fans in on as much as they feel comfortable sharing <3333

[just-some-random-blogger]

good morning, meow meow!! it must around 8:30 a.m. in your timezone and i've just finished all the tasks i needed to do *star eyes* 'i forgot to answer your ask this morning' good. i already thought i said smth wrong, shouldn't had linked those songs or idk TT glad to hear from you anytime, though! 'if you dont want to' no but i literally don't know if i even have an opportunity to do so... actually, the whole death thing is... you know, burning? it's really important to talk about it. it's hard to describe but the death is just not the thing that stops me. omg i haven't watched comebacks for.. a lifetime... srry. but it's really been a long time. 'WHO IS YOUR BIAS MINE IS JOHN' giirl give you 3 seconds to guess yourself... yeah mine too. also doyoung seems too much like me so i just LoOk and relate. 'thats so random' I FORGOT THE WORD COACH!!! hghfjjd. awful. like irl i always say every word i know while trying to cheer up smn so my friends joke about me being one of those buisness-motivation coaches. 'interesting to know you like music like that' ig it's more about hyperfixation and nostalgia. it's published in 2012 and it feels. but it's the best part for me. actually, i like 'my sea' better. but i did fell in love with noize and all his songs yeah... 'i didnt really like the song' it's ok. i was just excited to unit my two fav thins at this moment: your fics an this artist. 'i like the chorus part' AHAAH it's funny that i'm opposite TT 'i never actually imagined the first scene to be a childbirth scene' LOLL ok maybe it's me and my bad memory but it mentioned a child and a wound on her stomach so i though... 'fuck your trauma, she could die and you wont be there?' SAME!! i was a little taken aback when i've read he wasn't present during rhaenyra's labour and didn't support her after due to his trauma and was like?? you claim to love her, fuck she beared your child and you couldn't like don't pay attention to the thing that happened how much time ago? 6 years? literally dont remember even if she died, you wouldn't be there to say her goodbyes like with laena?? i'm angry now(( 'i love how were planning the ending already but i havent even made p3' lol well you asked for this and triggered my imagination, so just enjoy. i'm glad you at least like it. *proud of myself* you may or may not include it, it's just a thought, maybe i'll even have the other ones after another part(s?) i trust you to do your big brained thing. 'i started writing it' YAY good luck catmom, meow meow!! sending you all my best love and big brained thoughts through a lot of kisses!! 'wow i love it when language does that' i'm glad you love it TT i was really nervous about sending russian songs. 'i will say im not feeling making smth fluffy' ig i'm falling ill so my fluffy side craves more sacrifice so... what's going on with the lifetime... 'honestly im a sucker for plots like this' GIIRL were again the same!! i always think what if daemon had a wise present wife instead of rhae (sorry babe you were perfect) who would've made him attend all the council meetings so viserys would've thought about naming daemon his heir... thinking... thinking so much... she'd be besties with corlys and rhaenys and they'd spill some tea every now and then.... ok now i'm crying bc it sounds good for me. (winking but not really. you decide. but one day maybe...) What about dimash!! this song is in russian. a lot of artists from post-soviet countries sing in russian. it's easier to promote like this ig. dimash is not really popular in russia as i know? he's been famous for being popular in asian countries as i remember from my most active time in kpop. but he is indeed talented. his voice is amazing. i'm happy to hear he inspires you so much. he's soso good i think he should be more popular and appreciated. hope you've done good with your midterms last semester! love you!! have a nice day/evening!!! take care!! <3

GOOD MORNING LOVIE

me going through your love letter HAHHAAAH

it must around 8:30 a.m. in your timezone and i've just finished all the tasks i needed to do *star eyes*

well im readinf this at 10:13 am, i googled russian time and the general consensus is that is morning, good morning <3 HAHAH

'i forgot to answer your ask this morning' good. i already thought i said smth wrong, shouldn't had linked those songs or idk TT glad to hear from you anytime, though!

T_T plssssss T_T i will always reply to you i promise T_T i literally just forgot i hadnt done it yet you can tell me anything, link any song, i will read and listen to it all. i will reply as soon as I can always <3

'if you dont want to' no but i literally don't know if i even have an opportunity to do so... actually, the whole death thing is... you know, burning? it's really important to talk about it. it's hard to describe but the death is just not the thing that stops me.

that's fine if you cant watch it. i agree the whole death thing should be talked about, as well as other things that are quite hard to process as a human being.

omg i haven't watched comebacks for.. a lifetime... srry. but it's really been a long time.

that's fineee T_T its all fine T_T

'WHO IS YOUR BIAS MINE IS JOHN' giirl give you 3 seconds to guess yourself... yeah mine too. also doyoung seems too much like me so i just LoOk and relate.

OMG JOHNNY GIRL!!!!!!! I LOVE THAT FOR US :AS:ASH:FAHS:FSAAFAFJFAJF:JASFJASF SLAYY SOULMATES <3 AND DOYOUNG LIKING YOU TOO MUCH AHHAHAHHAH RELATABLE

'thats so random' I FORGOT THE WORD COACH!!! hghfjjd. awful. like irl i always say every word i know while trying to cheer up smn so my friends joke about me being one of those buisness-motivation coaches.

like a motivational speaker? AHAHAH it's ok i get what you mean but LOL ??? THE EARN YOUR FIRST BILLION WAS SO RANDOM HAHAHH

'interesting to know you like music like that' ig it's more about hyperfixation and nostalgia. it's published in 2012 and it feels. but it's the best part for me.

i completely understand what you mean. i have a lot of song i hated as a kid that i love now only because its a song i knew when i was younger. not that im saying you hated this song or whatever

actually, i like 'my sea' better. but i did fell in love with noize and all his songs yeah... 'i didnt really like the song' it's ok. i was just excited to unit my two fav thins at this moment: your fics an this artist. 'i like the chorus part' AHAAH it's funny that i'm opposite TT

yeah i like the 2nd song better too. interesting to know you like noize haha. i cant believe my fics are one of your two fav things T_T and HAHAHHAH it so funny we're opposite about the chorus HAHAH

'i never actually imagined the first scene to be a childbirth scene' LOLL ok maybe it's me and my bad memory but it mentioned a child and a wound on her stomach so i though...

NAH YOURE SO RIGHT THOUGH. i didnt give too much details on the first part because what was important to me was to show she was DEAD HAHAH and i thought she was like, idk, stabbed in the gut by someone mid wartime thus why Daemon managed to find a sorcerer cos he and yn were situated someone like idk the woods yeah. also in my head she was not that pregnant like full on big belly pregnant ya know. but its 100000% fine that you thought it was kind of a pregnancy death scene T_T albeit the fact again idk if i would ever write smth like that.

'fuck your trauma, she could die and you wont be there?' SAME!! i was a little taken aback when i've read he wasn't present during rhaenyra's labour and didn't support her after due to his trauma and was like?? you claim to love her, fuck she beared your child and you couldn't like don't pay attention to the thing that happened how much time ago? 6 years? literally dont remember even if she died, you wouldn't be there to say her goodbyes like with laena?? i'm angry now

ReAL 🤬🤬🤬🤬 men (derogatory)

i understand that you got trauma boy, but being pregnant/giving birth IS SUPER FUCKING TRAUMATIZING AND DEADLY HELLO??????????????????????????? men (derogatory)

(( 'i love how were planning the ending already but i havent even made p3' lol well you asked for this and triggered my imagination, so just enjoy. i'm glad you at least like it. *proud of myself* you may or may not include it, it's just a thought, maybe i'll even have the other ones after another part(s?) i trust you to do your big brained thing.

[chanting] trust in the big brain. i love all your ideas. im happy i trigger your imagination. [pats head] i'll do my best to make everything coherent and add as many ideas as you told me into the story

'i started writing it' YAY good luck catmom, meow meow!! sending you all my best love and big brained thoughts through a lot of kisses!!

'wow i love it when language does that' i'm glad you love it TT i was really nervous about sending russian songs.

you can send me alien songs id still listen to it

'i will say im not feeling making smth fluffy' ig i'm falling ill so my fluffy side craves more sacrifice so... what's going on with the lifetime...

[chanting] SACRIFICE SACRIFICE i will say tho i have some fluffy fics lines up so HAHAH but idk if p3 of waiting for a lifetime will be fluffy

'honestly im a sucker for plots like this' GIIRL were again the same!! i always think what if daemon had a wise present wife instead of rhae (sorry babe you were perfect) who would've made him attend all the council meetings so viserys would've thought about naming daemon his heir... thinking... thinking so much... she'd be besties with corlys and rhaenys and they'd spill some tea every now and then.... ok now i'm crying bc it sounds good for me. (winking but not really. you decide. but one day maybe...)

the 'sorry babe you were perfect' AHHAHH 💀💀💀💀i love the chaos. DAMN sometimes i wish i could just watch these ideas instead of writing them T_T or someone else could write it so i could fucking read T_T asflashfasfafhafash [dramatic wailing noises]

What about dimash!! this song is in russian. a lot of artists from post-soviet countries sing in russian. it's easier to promote like this ig. dimash is not really popular in russia as i know? he's been famous for being popular in asian countries as i remember from my most active time in kpop. but he is indeed talented. his voice is amazing. i'm happy to hear he inspires you so much. he's soso good i think he should be more popular and appreciated.

he is he is such an amazing artist. im glad it was in russian i totally knew that AHHAHAH lololol jk. interesting fact to know about post-soviet countries. he is more popular in asian countries i think. i hope he finds more success too <3

hope you've done good with your midterms last semester!

yeah my midterms was fine. my partner made her part too high and un-singable for herself though 💀💀💀and i couldn't save her with autotune. idk why she did that i made the key not so high and she still messed it up a/lshflas T_T RIP

love you!! have a nice day/evening!!! take care!! <3

i love you <3 i hope you have a nice day as well. i fell like i have to say i finished writing at 10:45am so idk you know what time im sending this from <3

take care my lovie. i have assignments to do now

xxx