#i always feel nervous making this bc i dont know if they made this already or not-
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juneneedsabreak · 8 months ago
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best mates
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genekies · 1 year ago
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screaming in the club
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time for another vent in tags
#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO#i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe#n one of them said they never saw it i said “but you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdym” and their fiance was just rude to me and i th#ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a#utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai#ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell#like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc#then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no#food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it#harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now.#the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats#fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS.#all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY#SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf#the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther#es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much.#i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the#bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and#no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh#it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression#i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat.#im so close to snapping on them at this point#i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT#everything has gone to shit#vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.
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daryl-fucking-dixon · 10 months ago
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Tw slap of homophobia
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“Tha’ hell? No way, we’re jus’ friends. Stop tryna make it into somethin’ tha’ its not”
“‘Jus’ friends’ don’t look at each other like tha’ little bro, think yer hidin’ somethin’ under yer shirt”
“Yer fuckin’ delusional, Merle”
“Yer a fuckin’ fag, Daryl
Darly Dixon’s first love, a boy from his shitty hometown. He was like a breath of fresh air after months of drowning, head barely above water. His parents were also shit, but they were never home either, and his house had become Daryl’s safe space.
He was certain this was just his friend, best friend even. But the side long glances, nervous touches of fingers, and awkward eye contact, he’s not sure anymore. At first it scares him, the idea of being gay, he knows what his family would think, and they already despise him. He’s hesitant, even flat out denies it for a moment.
“Nah… I don’ really think m’into anyone”
Over and over, he kept telling himself that, hoping if it played on loop enough that it would actually start to be true. Nervous touches turn into soft caresses, ones that make Daryl’s heart skip beats. His bedroom is small, bed even smaller. It made Daryl nervous, he was scared, but so excited at the same time.
Soft caresses eventually turn into hand holding, and Daryl has long gone stopped watching the TV, cheeks red and gaze everywhere else in the room but in his direction, that is until he gently turns Daryl head, forcing him to make eye contact in what felt like years.
He smiled at Daryl, and it was like the whole world had just completely stopped, only the two of them alone together. He pulled Daryl’s hand to his chest, shyly glancing at him before tugging his arm over his shoulder, crashing into Daryl’s lips. He was taken aback at first, but easily melted into it, his heart hammering and cock twitching.
Simple and innocent hangouts had morphed into messy and heated makeout sessions, each kiss deeper than the last. It was like their own personal routine, waltz around his empty house before going to curl up together in his bed, kissing, touching, exploring each other. He was Daryl’s very first time, making him feel so good in a way he wasn’t even sure was possible without drugs. He was Daryl’s very first love, first kiss, the first time he felt safe.
He was Daryl Dixon’s very first everything.
。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆
“Eeeerm actually Daryl wouldnt gay because well I dont see him being gay 🤓🤓” Like what does a gay person look like to you bro I can assure you I do not give af if you think hes gay or not please dont hop on my page with no shit bc I always have the time TRUST😭🙏🏾
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opal-owl-flight · 7 months ago
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in an au where someone else were the agents, what would the agents life be like instead? (for eight, Octo expansion still happens but like she quits agent work after that)
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This is a very interesting ask! This is a "things go well despite someone else filling in their roles" situation. Only got 3 and 4 so far bc I know who'd replace them EJDJE
Under readmore bc long! Also bonus Alt!3 art under there
4/Rain remains in the turf leagues after highschool. Sometimes working Grizzco for the cash, but once she went pro she left. A huge bitch to everyone, teammates and opponents, yet somehow making it work. Shes proud of where she is. She made a great life for herself here in Inkopolis and shes not going to let ANYONE forget. Doesnt help that the squids in that particular community/rank are also rude as fuck. Shes imitating the common attitude to fit in. Find SOME place she feels she can belong.
Marie called to her from the sewers to be Agent 4, but she declined the offer. Because...
...of 3/Tanara.
This snooty bitch of a squid also made a good life for themself after escaping from an oppressive home. Hows Rain any special? Worst of all, theyre one of the few who can go toe to toe with her on the field, snarky comments and everything. Rain's sure that they enjoy seeing her stumble (they do).
Proud of their progress and skill, they tend to (literally) look down on anyone that doesnt impress them. Their prior training as a squidling really helps them dominate matches, in both combat and strategy... Tanara lives for the sport. Their life is sport. Its the life theyve always wanted -- a life of play and fun and fresh vibes forever! If its too easy, wheres the fun? They seek hard fights.
Rain impresses them, for sure. But they also just LOVE messing with her. Rub in her face how much better they are. Its exhilirating to see all that bluster crumble! Yes! The bitch is down!! Eat your words!! Type of shit.
As for the other two...
John would still be great as an Agent 3 — remarkably, he doesnt get sanitized bc he takes care of himself and doesnt crash headfirst into a blender. he kicks it instead. doesnt get knocked out.
Hes kind as always. very supportive of a terrified all the time Sun. Hes like…a silly agent 3. hes goofy hes a lil stupid hes John
John does get war hardened but its not as intense a time as 3 had. Hes still smiling a lot! probs the fact that he had a good home life and a good support system in his team. (Tanara is in his team!! Hes the one usually reining them back from emotionally wrecking opponents. Hes also the one who makes Tanara's soft side emerge! They have one. Its just buried under their desire to be Cool)
and Sun? he never got into Grizzco. he became Agent 4 and saved the world! barely!! he keeps running from the troops until Marie has to drag him back by the ear! John carries Sun around like luggage a lot. its comforting for the nervous wreck.
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3 was just…theyve already been dealt a bad hand, and the universe kept expecting more from them. theyre under so much pressure, all the time!!
at least here, they dont have to worry about anything but their win streak and how 4 is annoyingly cute
Anyway. More Alt3!
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princesssmars · 1 year ago
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cant live without a poly ship so pjhazel with reader...light (?) nsfw. making out and allusions to more. fem cheerleader reader. are there any pj fics i mean this is rachel sennot we're talkin about. not gonna proofread we die like jeff should have. reuploading bc tumblr hates me and wont make my posts show up on the tags.
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maybe reader is a cheerleader who both of the girls have a crush on, made difficult by them being...friends. aka pj has had a crush on hazel for years and has tried to stomp it down into the dust while hazel tries to forget about her feelings. which definitely always works.
you probably didnt notice them before the fight club, but once you join its hard not to. you like hazel because she's genuinely so nice to everyone and cute in that "you kinda scare me but i weirdly really like it", and you like pj because while her attraction is so obvious by the way she refuses to hit you, constantly adjusting your posture, and how you've caught her staring at your ass about twenty damn times already. but shes cute in a "you're obviously a loser but your desperation kinda turns me on way."
maybe pj catches on to how close you're getting to hazel, then being the hotheaded ass she is (affectionately) confronts hazel about it, telling her if she was a real friend she'd do her a solid and back the hell off ??? obviously hazel isnt falling for it, saying they should leave it up to you to decide who you're interested in.
lucky for them you invite them for a study date at your house that night ! when they ring your doorbell pj is nitpicking hazels button-up, getting surprised when hazel bites back and critiques her plaid zip up jacket because really? plaid?
they both quickly shut up when you open the door, smiling casually like you arent standing in front of them in a lacy bra and shorts, turning around inviting them up to your room as you expect them to follow you. they do, of course. (hazel makes sure to clowe and lock your front door beacuse shes. polite. yeah.)
the fake studying you do is dreadfully boring. hazel tries to pay attention to the work, while pj is flirting with you and getting more flustered the harder you flirt back. eventually you get sick of the bullshit, grabbing her by that fugly plaid jacket and bringing her lips down to yours.
you have to pull back only three seconds in when to your shock the brunette lets out the loudest groan you've ever heard and brings her hands up to squish your breasts, looking slightly embarrassed as giggle at her and brush some of her frizzy hair back away from her face.
a mix between a shaky inhale and a snort reminds you of the other person in the room, turning to see hazel with such a strong grip on her pencil you're slightly scared shes going to stab herself with it.
you ask her "dont laugh at her, you think you could do better?" and before you know it she's crawling towards you from the bottom of your bed and kissing you with the passion of a long lost lover.
you have to admit you're slightly surprised at how proficient she is at kissing, knowing just the right way to tilt your head and graze your lips with her tongue. it makes you so light headed you fall onto your back on the covers, hazel never giving you a chance to pull away as she follows you down and cages you in.
you make out with her for another minute or two before gently pushing her off to catch a breath, your chest rising up and down at a mile a minute. once your head clears more, you look above you to see hazel looking almost nervous. her eyes dart from you to the space to your left, and you tilt her head to see pj doing the same.
"you guys can kiss too, yknow. i wont mind. it'd be pretty hot actually."
you meant it as half of a joke but your breath catches in your throat when pj grips the sides of hazels head and kisses her. well, more like starts licking at the area around her mouth, but with a little guidance its not long before the two are in a heated makeout above you, the sight and the sounds they're making turning you on in ways you didnt think was possible.
you press a hand into both of their chests, the girls pulling apart and looking at you like they're both waiting for your command.
yeah, you were gonna have fun with this.
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was looking at hazel tiktoks and a comment complained about the lack of stuff about her on wattpad, then someone said to head over here and sometimes i forget that. u r real people. reading what i write. so. whats up.
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correctproseka · 5 months ago
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get rarepaird. akinene + mizushiho
Tbf the first things i get are usually rarepairs
Also im sorry akinene's is not as good as my usual hcs bc. Honestly im not as familiar with how their relationship would be
Who said “I love you” first
Akinene: Akito. He says it on such a win and he's the one to nearly die as soon as he realizes what he said
Mizushiho: Shiho, despite having the fame of being grumpy, Shiho also is more open to her feelings thanks to leo/need, Mizuki is cheerful but really closed off, so they'd never say it, but they're so fucking thankful that Shiho reciprocates it.
Who would have the other’s picture as their phone background
Akinene: hands down Akito, Nene probably has the default one tbh
Mizushiho: Mizuki. My girl's a simp and has a selfie of them together. Shiho says its cringy but smiles whenever she sees it.
Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror
Akinene: tbf i dont think either would, but Akito draws on it for himself and Nene always comments that she liked it
Mizushiho: Mizuki again, she draws cat ears at Shiho's height so when Shiho leaves the shower she sees herself with drawn on cat ears on the mirror
Who buys the other cheesy gifts
Akinene: Probably both. Akito likes to give her flowers, Nene makes him chocolate
Mizushiho: Mizuki primarily, but Shiho likes to reciprocate with the sappiest shit she can think of and Mizuki always melts
Who initiated the first kiss
Akinene: Nene, after Akito confessed and they went on a date, she had to go on her tip toes though
Mizushiho: Shiho, i feel like Mizuki just annoyed her (lightheartedly) sm that Shiho kabedonned Mizuki and kissed them (also on her tip toes)
Who kisses the other awake in the morning
Akinene: Nene goes to sleep at the time Akito's waking up so she kisses him awake before passing out asleep at like 5am.
Mizushiho: both, depends on who wakes up earlier
Who starts tickle fights
Akinene: Akito, he lives with a sister he can't live without tickle fights anymore. Nene is used to it due to Emu but she's not strong enough to ever win one
Mizushiho: Mizuki. Shiho always ends up pinning them down and tickling (and kissing) them senseless tho
Who asks who if they can join the other in the shower
Akinene: Nene, but i feel like they both like a time for themselves where they can relax with just them yknow, Nene usually brings it up though
Mizushiho: Shiho, Mizuki is afraid Shiho will think they're disgusting despite Shiho knowing the secret already, slowly Mizuki starts asking more tho because they like to ramble about things and talk about their day
Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunch
Akinene: Akito doesn't have set work time but Nene usually does, so he tends to bring her lunch more often, she does the same when she has lunch time free
Mizushiho: Shiho, a similar reason as above, Shiho's work is practice and as they have Honami they rarely ever skip lunch, Honami always remembers the others, so Shiho ends up bringing Mizuki lunch during leo/needs break time because Mizuki 9 times out of 10 will be hyperfocusing and forgetting to eat
Who was nervous and shy on the first date
Akinene: both. Nene almost threw up before it. Akito made a bigger front and pretended he was confident though
Mizushiho: both, Shiho's panic was more subdue and she kept picking on her sleeves. Mizuki was screaming about which outfits to wear for three hours with Ena
Who kills/takes out the spiders
Akinene: Akito kills them
Mizushiho: Shiho takes them out
Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunk
Akinene: possibly Akito he's the loudest generally
Mizushiho: Mizuki would do it sober AND drunk dont underestimate them
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kenlvry · 2 years ago
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hiii, ur works are so cute, any chance we could get nsfw hc’s for stan and kyle with a shy fem reader?
thank you <333
stan and kyle nsfw hc's with a shy fem reader!
an: hello!! im pretty nervous bc its my first time doing nsfw hc, both of them are 19+ you can js imagine what they look like. also i didnt know if you wanted separate or tgt so i made separate but if you wanted to both at once feel free to send me another one!
stan marsh
you were always a shy person and stan loved your personality, it was so cute to him that you were so shy that you even cover your smile with your hand.
even when he kissed you, you forced him to close his eyes because you were too shy for him to see your goofy kissing face.
your weak spot was your nipples and whenever he sucked on them you'd always moan , you bit down on your lip suppressing them and stan stopped "cmon dont hide em, scream it out" you were a bit shocked but just looked away. he smiled and continued.
whenever he was about to give you head you were very shy about it, you were scared he didnt like the taste and even covering it sometimes because stan was staring too long at it or whatever making so many excuses. and he got annoyed tbh "i don't care, its you. youre always perfect" after that he immediately went down not caring about your protests. he was giving it kitten licks and kissing it before finally licking it. you were beyond surprised when he licked it your back arched and you wanted to hold his hair as something to hold on but were shy, he grabbed your arm and put it on his head winking to you and continued to work on your pussy.
whenever he stuck his dick in it would always start with you laying down and him putting it in, you didn't make eye contact with him. he grabbed your face with his fingers so that you were looking at him while he put it in, he grunts when the tip was in and you were moaning. he wondered what would it be like if he put it all in if you were already a mess with just the tip.
if he puts your legs on his shoulders so it can go in deeper you'd be so surprised and ask if he was okay and if it made him uncomfy having to hold your hips while thrusting into you. "fuck i dont care, all i care is that you are pleasured" with that he thrust into you and you'd cover you face to not moan, you two talked over it but he was too deep in to care.
whenever you rode him it was a complete mess, before even putting it in you made so many excuses "what if im too heavy??" "what if it doesn't make you feel good?" "what if it feels too good i cant move??" even saying your suddenly sick or smthn because youre too shy to ride him, he'd watch you the whole time and you'd get nervous "no matter what size you are i would pick you up like you are paper, it doesn't matter if it doesn't feel good, as long as my girls happy and i can see your frustrated face, if you cant move I'll do it for you. now cmon im loosing patience"
when you were riding him youd stop midway because you were too tired, and stan kept his promise! he hold your waist and helped you thrust in and out, you were a moaning mess.
when you were about to cum you'd tell him and tbh he could tell he just wanted to hear it. he'd go faster just so you can have the best orgasm. he always came on your stomach and you cover it sometimes because your shy about it but he moved away your hands and took in to enjoy the view
all in all sex with stan is the best, he always puts you first <33
kyle broflovski
with your shy personality it was hard to have sex, you'd cover your pussy and tits even though at the end hes still gonna see it. he thought it was really cute though. it was like you were a virgin even though you fucked other people before.
kyle knew all your weak spots and would always hit them, you tried not to make a face but you were a moaning mess he'd hit it over and over and it just felt too good!
kyle lovessssss hearing you moan, and he hates it when you hide it from him. if you hid it with biting your hand he'd take your hands and pin it next to your head with his hands, he basically trapped you, both of your hands being tied down with his own so all you could do was moan loudly, he loved it<33
he likes it when he puts your legs over his shoulder, it gives him a much more deeper position and he can see your face better, you'd be squirming while he was thrusting in and out of you, hiding your face and such but kyle didn't stop because it was so cute.
after care with him is really an argue battle, even though he has gave you head and fucked you, you're still shy about him looking at your pussy so if he tried to clean it you'd immediately get up trying to wash it by yourself, kyle would pull you back to the bed "shhh let me handle it, ive seen it a thousand times, it still looks like the pretty pussy as always" you ended up sleeping and letting him do it
sex with him is the best because he knew all your weak spots and always tries to make you have a fun time!
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5-htagonist · 3 months ago
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god damn im so happy rn... ill stick it under a readmore bc its about food and my appetite idk if it would be triggering also this turned into more of a diary entry than anything lol My Blog My Rules though
i made curry last night and im really happy because ive been having a lot of trouble eating and Making myself eat, on top of being really erally really broke so we havent had much food in the house thats just Ready To Go consistently.. like, we always have oats, but we dont always have milk, and i cant eat them with water.. or we have ham but we run out of bread, or all i want are fruits and leafs but we cant really keep anything except apples/oranges/grapes because they dont go bad before we finish them, or bananas cause they arent really ruined if theyre overripe you just throw them in the freezer. so we cant get salad materials.
if i try to just shove calories in my body and i dont like it i wont finish it. like i will feel full until i stop trying to make myself eat it. and this isnt even just when adderall affects my appetite.
then, on top of all that, i know if i eat i have to do dishes. my husband usually does them, but hes been going through a really bad time for the past couple months too, plus we only moved out july 2023, and before that his mom had been Divorced outta the house earlier that year iirc plus id been living there since july 2022, so his brain and nervous system has felt safe enough for the ptsd recovery stage for nearly 2 years. and he gets hit really hard with seasonal depression, and he has adhd too. he typically does dishes, i typically do laundry. the problem is its easier to wear the same clothes for a few days, or rewear laundry that isnt rancid, or wear ill fitting clothes that have been shoved to the back of the dresser, but its hard to wash a dish when the sink is full and the kitchen is overwhelming.
so, to avoid having dirty dishes, i wont eat. whats worse, is i was insanely stressed over school for like 3 weeks. all the stress i should have had this semester hit me really bad all at once. when im that stressed, i cant think about anything relevant to maintaining myself-- especially not maintaining neutral-positive self talk and constructive self esteem. which means i shut down if anyone needs anything from me real or imagined. which means i cant be there for my husband and make sure he eats and check in on him. so all this stupid shit just feeds into itself. ive had more s/h urges than ive had in years i think, and not even in response to anything extrinsic.
my goofy ass got drunker than i usually do super quick the other night, it wasmy husbands birthday party. i cleaned up the apartment super nice since mostly my stuff was strewn everywhere and did the dishes. i didnt eat all day and i think i had like, one inadequate meal the day before. so i was exhausted after cleaning, our roommate ordered pizza and i ate and passed out for 3 hour nap. by the time i got up everyone was already at Least buzzed. my brother in law got a mom call and my husband (drunk) was like Hey. Give me the Phone.. tell her i wanna talk... because she LOVES being upset that her kids are having a good time and feels the need for Hour Phone Call when and where she wants it, and my BIL is an adult but they dont treat him like one, so hes still really deep in feeling trapped in these trauma responses.
this i think is what really got me, other than not being on my full dose of adderall so my emotional abilities were compromised lmao. i was tryingto tell my husband i love him, because i was leaving to weed store, and he was getting triggered while drunk, so he was annoyed i was interrupting the call and i didnt get my byebyehugnkiss. not to mention they were being really loud earlier. so now i feel bad. i get back immediately down 2 shots (3 shots is where i am Comfortably Drunk) and share a j actually post cancelled kendrick just dropped. the point was that i got too drunk and started hitting myself on the head and crying in the kitchen floor lol but who cares about that KENDRIIIIIIICKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
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meownotgood · 9 months ago
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MAGS HI HOW R U!!!!!!! i missed checking ur blog all the time but i shared ur gale x reader fic w my friend (they got me into bg3 and we are both so normal abt gale) and AAUAUUAUAUAYG!!!!!!! so GOOD!!!!!!!!
also got lookup aki and i fully understand all the accessories u bought for him.. i keep taking silly pics hes just such a little goober and i love holding him like 🤲 hes so cute
anyway …. imagining aki in a normal no-devils au as ur coworker .. he has a crush on u but keeps it very respectful at work, but he also loves helping u clean up/hes quick to help out customers if ur already busy. he Loves being scheduled around the same time as u and usually ends up clocking out + leaving kinda late bc he just wants to talk to you :( and hes always texting outside of work (you get flirty with him late at night but dont address it in the morning) .. i started a new job so imagining aki working w me has made it a lot more easy to manage cries
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(also a closing thought tht popped into my brain just now: playing with gales hair and braiding it)
HI LOVE!!! I'm doing good! and I hope you are well :D good luck with your new job 💞💞💞
aw you'll make me emotional... thank you so much, I'm glad you enjoyed my fic 🫂 I'm very honored!! it was super fun to make and I'm excited to write more gales!!!!
lookup aki is pure seratonin, he has so much love in his little fat head. I must kiss it every time I see him. they truly made him so cute it should almost be a crime
aaaakiiii 🥹 aki in a no devils au will make me emotional because he finally can rest a bit... I think he would be very different but a lot more comfortable to be his awkward self lol. he thinks he's bad at flirting but the simplest things he does always make you fall head over heels. your coworkers comment on how handsome he is but he never talks to them as much as he talks to you (he has an obvious crush, apparently he doesn't know he's making it obvious). he comes up with dumb excuses to meet with you outside of work, offering you come over for dinner for no special reason at all, because he's nervous about asking you to hang out. honestly... so boyfriendly.....
and you have spare gale thoughts for me??! I AM SPOILED!!! I feel like if you played with gale's hair he would fall asleep so fast... just relaxing with you... my bg3 oc has little braids in her hair so I imagine her trying to put matching small braids in gale's hair..... haha
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minarcana · 1 year ago
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tiny ultima thule urithan bc if i dont get the brain mold out itll colonize
Back aboard the Ragnarok, everything is a nervous mess. he loporrits scramble in a panic they try desperately to assure everyone isn't a panic as they try to find the way to Meteion's nest, and everyone goes through the stages of accepting that they will not be able to stand alongside the Warrior in this last moment.
Once again, the burden of a thousand thousand lives and deaths is on her shoulders, alone. And there is nothing Urianger can do about it. Strangely, he thinks to himself, it isn't his priority at the moment. He knows what he can and cannot do. The things that plague him that he can't fix are easily pushed aside for the things he can address.
And he finds Thancred, grabs his arm, and pulls him to stop pacing. It's not appropriate for the moment, perhaps, when Thancred's clearly worrying about the Warrior of Light and not anything else, but Urianger has to stop him.
He has to. Otherwise, the feelings roiling in him fester. Thancred stops with a quiet “Urianger?” and Urianger takes the invitation to wordlessly stand facing him, only a breath away, hand still clinging to Thancred's forearm. Urianger ducks his head down to press his forehead to Thancred's, eyes closed. His other hand cups Thancred's jaw. He can fel the reality of Thancred's presence like this, warm and solid before him. The faint fan of Thancred's breath, the heartbeat he can feel against his little finger when he splays it further down Thancred's neck. Urianger's breath is shaky.
Thancred doesn't talk yet. He just reaches up to loosely hold Urianger, too. After a moment, not wherein Urianger gathers himself, but wherein he can process the feeling: "I feared thou had gone wither I could not follow.“ His voice is shaky and it takes a pause for him to get the full sentence out.
He's stubborn, he sits for a time in denial always. That Thancred had died was not his main fear. It was that Urianger would not see him again, wherever he had gone, that Urianger had been left behind with only the feeling and not the person, without the ability to speak to him like this. He can't fault Thancred the action, and there wasn't an alternative, which maybe makes it worse. There's just this, the leftover of fear and anger and still-fading hate at the scared child that made them do this. ”Sorry,“ Thancred says gently, despite both of them being aware that he isn't. ”We're here now. We'll make the most of it, and we'll go home.“
The same choices would always have been made, needed to be made. Urianger laughs quietly, the noise coming with shaky breath and a burning feeling that manifests as a tear falling to Thancred's face. He rarely lets himself cry, far easier to shove it down and not waste time with he unproductive, but the reminder now is: he was scared and upset and every assorted feeling he's never actually dealt with bubbles up into silent tears that Thancred simply accepts. What if he'd been unable to have this, afterwards, with a body before him to speak and hear? ”Let it be said, I love thee.“
"I know that, I knew it then, too." He says it gently, not an admonishment or a tease, just reassurance.
But it wasn't in the air more than rarely. Too binding for Urianger to wish to place it on Thancred, already selfish enough over him. And if he'd disappeared, present but unable to hear? Then what, what might he not know? ”I love thee, I love thee….“ Until he's satisfied and he's certain, Urianger not even thinking that this display could be run across by anyone simply walking down a hallway. They're alive, they will be, he has to protect this before him first and foremost.
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flockofdoves · 1 year ago
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im going fucking cuckoo bananas. why is it so hard to fill my schedule to be a full time student for my last semester when i am infamously the type of person who wants to learn about everything ever and jumps at any opportunity to take random classes
have really really really wanted to take advanced spanish grammar for so long but every fucking semester i have a necessary class during that time (due to the epidemic of every class in the world being in late morning on tuesday/thursday) and this semester my One Singular Class I Absolutely Need To Graduate is at that time
so then i was like. oh well. i'll take italian 1 instead since my grandfather has been trying to plan one last trip to where his family is from and if i get to go it will be good to practice italian in a formal context
but then that trip fell through and i just really really want to improve my spanish so i emailed a class for heritage speakers to see if it would be appropriate for me and the professor got back to me and said i was welcome to come to the first class and try it out
and so today i went to the spanish for heritage speakers class and it made me so so excited to be immersed in spanish again and going over the content of the course, with the exception of how i don't really need much writing help since when i was learning all the basics of how to read and write i did that as much in spanish as i did english, all the grammar topics were exactly what i needed and the idea of a class where everyone talks at a high level and theres no english but you still get into the basics of explaining different grammar topics is so so refreshing!!!
and at the end of class the professor was like your spanish is at a high enough level for this class so if you want to take it then see you monday! and it got me so excited
and then the italian class was just really extremely basic. i understand basically anything said to me in italian and know a decent amount of vocab i just have trouble speaking but throughout my life i have at least studied basics like past and present tense and articles and stuff. so my goals were to learn more grammar and make my pronunciation better (i always pronounce everything so spanish and dont have a good sense for what words have which e or o sound)
but this professor was like yeah basically this whole course is just present tense and well learn the sinple past tense right at the end. but i already know that!!! and also unfortunately she has a noticeable american accent while speaking so thats not much help for improving my accent either
so i was like well whatever that makes my decision easy ill drop italian and take the spanish class. but still just in case i asked her about if i could take an italian placement test (was nervous about that originally because the next level up was during my necessary class again) and she was like yeah ive never had to do that before but i can figure that out for next week. which is a little nervewracking bc add/drop ends on wednesday. but whatever i was excited about taking spanish now
but then when i got home today i saw an email from the spanish professor (technically a grad student) like ‘i talked to my colleagues and even if your spanish level is high enough since you are not a heritage speaker here are some classes better suited for you [classes where you write huge essays in spanish which i do not have the time or desire for rn]’
and that was upsetting because i just really most of anything wanted to take a spanish class but then i was feeling a bit better because it turned out there was a new section added of the italian 2 class that fit my schedule and looking through that classes textbook it seemed the exact mix of easy but not boring because ill still actually be learning stuff that i needed. and i even called my mom (who used to be an italian language professor) and read the textbook units and she agreed it seemed exactly right for me
so i went to start writing an email to that professor to be proactive even before taking the placement test but in the fucking half hour since i had last checked the page rhat section of the class filled up with no waitlist
so i looked through the entire search of classes in a certain block of time not on tuesday thursday for my giant university and literally rhe only thing that seemed both manageable and interesting was an intro to japanese class. and i was excited like wow! how did i miss this when i was first searching for classes! only to click on it and remember i did see it and the reason it wasnt on my backup class list was because it doesnt allow seniors to take it
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akiraiscute · 1 year ago
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Other story with zero bc i wanna write abt him<3 (IM WRITING ANOTHER PART OF NEW CRIME AND ANOTHER REID STORY<33)
“Honestly, it’s super hot.”
Zero X Reader! (No gender, no race)
Based off of this song.
Tw ; Zero is the hero & Reader’s Frenemy and their situationship… (Honestly, im not even thinking so im trying to make this a angst/fluff?😭) Flashing lights at the end for the gif<3…
“I spent so long hating every move you made.”
You muttered out softly as you watched Zero talk to his other friends, god. His voice is so annoying, why can’t he just end up dying alone. Why can’t you get him out of your head? He’s your enemy, well. As a villain, you were his enemy and he was yours… Yours.. yea, your enemy- why are you making such a big deal out of it. Zero looked back, feeling someone staring at him… of course, with his stupid senses……. He smiled before waving at you, being the childhood friend you are-.. you waved back, smiling. Before turning back to your locker and taking your books and absolutely running to your class to not see his stupid- handsome.. hot- stupid! Stupid face. Nothing else. Not handsome, not hot, just so fucking stupid.
Zero looked around, he asked you to go to the park with him as he has been busy with.. school, being a hero.. well you didnt know he was a hero but- yea.. (Hes jst dense as fuck help) having other friends made him busy so he couldn’t spend time witn his best friend!(crush.) Then he saw you, walking to him while fixing your clothes.. god he always thought you were pretty, but not this pretty… what- what did he just think of? God… Zero shook his head as you finally got to him, he was happy he was next to you and hanging out after a few weeks! “Hey! It’s been awhile, hasn’t it?” His voice laced with worry as he got a bit nervous that you didn’t care.. why is he worrying..? He just…. Wants to stay best friends with you! Yea!..
“I realize you're super pretty..”
You were at your locker, smiling and talking to one of your friends. You and Zero almost had the same friends- but thats mainly because they always go to zero than you… he has to ruin every relationship you wanna have, he has to ruin every friendship you wanna have! You went for the boys, the girls, as friends and as lovers but they always preferred Zero. He is already ruining your year! Of course. But when you turned around, Zero was talking to another girl… of course, the girls in this school prefer him over any boy. Its stupid, so so stupid because he isn’t handsome, he isn’t hot, he’s.. pretty.. not pretty. Yea, not pretty. Fully not pretty. Did you just call him pretty? No, you didn’t… You didn’t, you just lost your words because you hate him so much!! Your friend stopped talking, noticing you’re staring at someone- they looked at what you’re looking at before giggling. You immediately turned to them, asking..
“What? What are you laughing at?”
“You. God just confess to him already, it’s getting tiring seeing you drool over him!”
You gasped loudly, making Zero turn to your way.. confused. You were blushing, yea you hated him But It’s embarrassing someone saying that! It fully is.
“No! I dont have a crush on him idiot, you’re being crazy.”
“Uh huh, watch if he gets a girlfriend. You’ll be heartbroken bro.”
You won’t, You know he can’t get a girlfriend because he’s a hero. How do you explain that to a girl..? How do you make her stay even if you’re out late nights and being a hero, getting hurt always. And if he does get a girlfriend, then thats good for you. You get a weakness for him, to destroy him finally.. to be better than him, to better good at something he is! Not having a weakness is something you and Zero both have… well not really but you didn’t know that you are his weakness. You’re the only weakness he has, and if that stupid enemy of his hurts you, that… that’ll be horrible for him! It absolutely will! He will destroy them if he has too to get to you.. you’re his childhood best friend! He’ll do anything for you! And he knows you’ll do anything for him! That’s what best friends do.. right? Yea! Right.
“Each time you speak I want my hands around your throat”
As you and zero fought, he gave a bunch of speechs which was always so fucking annoyed. Like this one where he used his best friend as a subject, whoever that is. You didn’t care if he saw you as a best friend, You didn’t care, you didn’t know. But if you remember it clearly, he sounded like he had a crush on this best friend, maybe you should find out whoever this is to get his weakness… maybe that’ll work. It’ll work. But back to the fighting, he said he’ll win but right now he’s under you and you’re choking him. You hate his voice so much! Why can’t you put your hands around his throat.. you know how this goes, he’ll win either way but right how. You’re absolutely feeling like shit so if he wins, you are quitting and thats.. final. You saw the light in his eyes slowly faded, really slowly but you quickly stopped and got off of him.. you wanted your enemy to die fighting for his life and he wasn’t so.. it didnt work. It didn’t.. work.. he.. still. Won…. No! You made him pass out! You won! You.. won.. finally. You yelled out a yay.. really loudly..
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YAYA, this is out and it was quick:D but it looks so long help, ik it aint😭 BUT I LOVE MAKING THESE WITH ZERO. IDK WHAT TO MAKE HIM LOOK LIKE BUT I LIKE WRITING ABT HIM!!!
— Akira.. Akira! Logging off.. logging- logg…. Off.
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cogbreath · 1 year ago
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thank u for ur reply!! i always love ur insight :) n ive read the article before LMAO now that was a classic example of his pretty privilege working cus if he didn’t look the way he did, his behaviour would’ve raised eyebrows. but no…he was viewed as a quirky silly guy by his roommate LOLZ. makes me wonder if mohammed atta would be viewed the same way if he were white passing.
anon you fascinate me im very very intrigued by the fact u already know so much abt this... keep sending asks its soo rare that i actually do get to talk to someone who already knows this much abt this. Anyhow I would reason to bet he might have been viewed more sympathetically if that were the case, however, in any case he was arguably more reserved and stoic by comparison so i think even if he was, people would be maybe a bit more suspicous with him, especially cuz fitting in seemed to come more naturally to jarrah for various reasons... atta never seemed to want to fit in more than he needed to in order to stay under the radar. I know that atta and jarrah did also butt heads abt this to some degree, i know that atta was suspicious that jarrah might even give up on the whole thing cuz of how he kept backsliding. I also think a lot of writers can "see themselves" in jarrah while they really cant with atta, he's an unfamiliar personality imo, specifically bc most writers in the anglosphere come from a secular culturally christian perspective. I think they r sympathetic to him because they start to realise that this sort of stuff really is something that "just anyone" could find themselves getting roped into thru means of being radicalised. Meanwhile I think they view atta as someone who already was quite "radical" at least in their eyes. of course, this is just my experience, but I've had many of my muslim accquantinces comment on how its actually quite a shame that atta took the path he did, because they feel he was otherwise quite promising, and might have made a good scholar or something along those lines. So thats the other side of things if you will. I think I can agree with that perspective myself. Of course its important to not get too engulfed in that mindset, because you can't forget they made the choices they did.
But yeah, there are many things about atta that Ive read about that i find to have been equally quirky and silly of behaviors, but i find myself annoyed how writers (even terry mcdermott does it in his book, perfect soldiers. which is a bit disappointing bc hes a writer who i otherwise rlly enjoy the perspective of on this) dont seem to think that way and paint it to be something as flaws or show of bad character when really, personality and behavior quirks have little to do with his actions. Yknow what i mean of course. Demonizing behaviors that have nothing explicitly to do with being a terrorist. You are really fun anon, its fun for me to get to discuss this stuff, the psychology/characteristics/behavior of those involved with the hamburg cell. its fun when i get to discuss it with more than just my super close friends. sometimes i get nervous ppl might think im trying to be a sympathizer/idolizer but i think i make it more than clear its not the case though xP. its undeniable that its a pretty understudied and underdiscussed facet of 9/11. U see it for other crimes and criminals but not really ever on this side of the fence. I feel its a case of dehumanization borne from islamophobia. Easier to get ppl to feel hate when you paint the perpetrators as faceless monsters. If u ever wanna dm me off anon u are super free to. Also, if you have anything to share that is interesting like a video or article or anything like that, feel free to send it! even if i have seen it or read it before, i would be eager to discuss my thoughts and feelings on it.
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romanarose · 9 months ago
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Hello there ✨️ love your work 💕 I'm a long time fan 🫶🏼. I've been on tumblr a few years now, but I'd never found the courage to post anything of my own til now. I've been feeling a little optimistic these days, and genuinely excited about posting some of my writing and sharing it with the people out here. Do you have any advice on how to start posting and interacting from scratch? Cause I'm low-key nervous abt it and it seems like my target audience has already formed a solid community I don't know how to get into 🥺
Wow, this might be the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me wowie!!!!!!
okay let me tell my advice
The numbers don't equal quality. Certain things appeal to people more, like shorter stories, straight up smut, Joel Miller gets way more than when I write Marc. I think one of my best works was my Marc X Jewish!Reader series, Seattle, but it idnt get anywhere really even at the height of moon knight popularity bc people dont read OC's esp ethnic oc's. Put your heart into it and those who enjoy it will enjoy it. I had a William Miller series that averaged like 8-20 notes per chapter but I had a handful of readers I knew adored it and thats what mattered
This site is so much better with interaction. PLEASE DON"T ONLY INTERACT FOR THE SAKE OF GETTING FRIENDS WHO"LL REBLOG!! However, if you dont already, make sure you are reblogging stories and leaving nice words! Me personally, if someone reblogs regularly and leave nice words, espcially things that show they really paid attention, I usually just follow back bc I love friends. Im happy to get to know you!
Yes, it's hard sometimes to break it. It took a few months for me to get into the Oscar Issac writer circles, and then when I started writing Pedro it took a while too but I always reblogged and tried to communicate and I made friends. Isn't it crazy we can just.... become friends with our fav writers? Obvs Im not friends with all my favs but MOST of my favs became my friends <3
It's kinda annoying to me bc Im bad at it but aesthetics help. Title, a picture to catch eyes, summary, warnings, note. Try to make it look nice. Im really had at this LMFAOOOOOO. My lovely friends have made my best looking banners. If you have graphic design skills, use them! i wish i didn't have to but it does help catch readers when you have an interesting headers and everything looks pretty.
Few technicals. Use the readmore option. No one wants to reblog a LOOOOOONG story and clog up the feeds. Use as many correct tags as you can. Tag any triggering content. And I'm the worst at this but proof read. Im bad at proof reading, everyone who reads my work knows spelling, grammar, wrong words are a common issue I have bc Im bad at typing. When I still had word on my laptop I started typing in word and using text to speach to help me catch stuff!
Keep at it! IDK where you know my work, weather moon knight, triple frontier or tlou or whatever but all those fandoms right now are like.... a little less active. So don't be dissapointed if it takes a while. With TLOU, theres SOOOOOOO many amazing writers. With Moon Knight theres just less buzz rn. If you write for lesser known characters like Llewyn Davis or Will Miller, you probs won't reach the notes of established writers in Joel Miller. Just the reality. the point is keep going, find what you like and what gets people excited and go from there
This is the most important. Write what you want. I mean it. I love writing Will Miller because he's my special man <3 even though it's a small fanbase. My series Rooms On Fire, a lot have lost interest bc its a long series. That's okay! I love the series and it makes me happy to write it. I wrote a few Miguel O'Hara stories because, I'm being honest here, I wanted to capitalize on the hype. Guess what? They weren't good. I'm not proud of them. Since then, I write what Im inspired to.
THIS SHOULD BE FUN AND IF AT ANY POINT, IT"S NOT FUN STOP AND FIGURE OUT WHY
feel free to say hi off anon! I'm always happy to get to know new people. If you like Triple Frontier, I have a discord server that is pretty much open to everyone! I'm trying to revive it and you can share your works and meet knew people!
Anon or not, let me know if you have any questions!
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platonicmoonwater00 · 5 months ago
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frrrr personally i do headcanon peter as asexual but not aromantic(i have an original character of mine that i ship him with), also he actually has a personality!!! omg!! but nah i didnt used to hc peter as ace but i started recently. lemme explain my hc of peter real quick.
first of all, he's a huge drama kid whos good enough to be the star in every play but the "hot" guy who cant act for shit always gets it which really pisses him off. also he plays the drums(i do not take credit for this idea cos i got it form tcoptp) but he isnt in music class bc he started when he was in in primary school and would js be so far ahead of everyone else. also he is like super loyal(ironic ik but i never write canon compliant fics so it's fine) but hes got a really loose tongue so cant always keep a secret, but hes just doesnt think before speaking, hes not malicious.
he was also a huge people pleaser in primary school and at the start of of high school but in like year 8 he was like fuck this and now he seems like a pushover so people get surprised when he goes off at them when they try to walk all over him.
i also hc that after he first started dating his gf they yknow *did the deed* and he was like completely repulsed. he went through a few stages where he was like "maybe i dont really like her" or "maybe it'll get better cos this was our first time" and "holy shit, what's wrong with me" which is a sad one cos theres nothing wrong with him. but eventually he talks to remus about it and remus already had kinda guessed that peter might be ace bc of past comments he'd made. so remus is like just kinda listening and nodding and lets peter get all his feelings out.
personally as soon as i talk to somebody about something thats confusing or frustrating me they dont even need to say anything and i kinda js end up answering my own question or figure out a solution by myself.
so he kind of just ends up realising and is like "OH" and so he does a bunch of research and a LOT of am i ace quizzes and is eventually quite sure of it.
and mind you this was like half a year into his relationship so my man was nervous like he made it into a really bad thing in his head and thought that everybody(especially his gf) would hate him. and he thought she'd break up with him and no one will ever date him again. but eventually remus hypes him up enough to tell his gf and shes from a traditional family but is like insanely open minded even though her family isnt so she hadnt heard of asexuality before but he explians it to her and shes soooo accepting and understanding and i love that for them(her parents are bitches about it when they find out tho after peter and their daughter get married)
sorry i have been waiting for a long time to dump this on someone. but i totally agree, making peter ace or aroace js because you think no one will like him or should be shipped with him cos hes fat is so silly billy like girly he was really nice. i mean even if we're being canon compliant, they genuinely never thought he'd betray them, like ever. and lets be so fr its not like he was a total pushover, i mean if we are still being true to the books(i never am) then james was a stupid kid who had some of his values skewed so he wouldnt have befriended or stayed friends with someone that was completely useless?? and its not only fatphobic to make peter useless like people do but its also kinda acephobic like "oh hes useless and fat and unloveable and no one would want to be with him and i dont want to ship anyone with him imma make him ace ig" like girl no.
and its really weird honestly like i know plus sized people who are super nice and have really good personalities AND i know plus sized people who are really popular and really bitchy. but half of the perceptions of peter are js him being useless and not having a personality? which is stupid bc theyre people, not aliens and they have personalities. is that such a strange concept?? like what???
also i totally agree about the plus sized lily thing like i feel like plus sized lily is SUPPOSED to make us accept our bodies but like a lot of the fanart makes me feel bad about mine. like i have prominent stomach rolls, thick thighs that i hate, back fat and yknow the fat next to your armpits that sticks out when you wear singlets. also i dont exactly have a double chin but you definitely cant see the line of my jaw. i dont have an hourglass figure either. so now im going from oml im supposed to be skinny to hey maybe its ok not to be skinny to oh its ok not to be skinny but im supposed to have a jawline and an hourglass figure????
LIKE WHAT
sorry i did say id explain that 'real quick' but i got carried away
also peter isnt a 'prude'. he drinks and smok3s w33d and goes to party hes js ace. like id also like for us to demolish the stereotype that ace people are goody two shoes pls. like if anyone in the marauders doesnt do ^ that stuff its james lets be so fr.
Fatphobia in the Marauders fandom
I have spoken briefly on this before, but I think perhaps it is time we stop making Peter a prude, or unable to find a date, or "a late bloomer". I'm really fed up of regularly seeing posts saying these things with no explaination or supporting headcanon for why.
I think if you want to make him asexual or aroace for legitimate reasons then that's fine, as someone on the ace spectrum I love seeing good representation, but so often it feels like people do it because they can't think of anyone to ship him with because they don't want to ship someone with the fat kid. It's not because he turns bad later, because he's not bad during the Hogwarts years. But it is consistently Peter, someone who is not conventionally attractive, who is portrayed as some undesired sexless character who betrayed his friends because he couldn't get laid or have some great love like them.
Guess what, fat people date too!! Fat people are capable of having interests that aren't related to food or proving their worth through other ways. "He's fat but it's okay because he's really good at chess". NO. Peter can want to date, Peter can participate in talking about sex, Peter can have a partner and it not be a big deal that "him of all people" pulled someone.
If you don't think that this is a genuine problem in the fandom then you might need to re-evaluate. This is not the representation plus-size people deserve.
"But Lily is made plus-size and gets put in ships, plus-size Lily is hot". Plus-size Lily is still usually drawn in a way that is acceptably fat by society's standards. She's curvy with thick thighs and an hourglass figure, with a jawline and a small stomach. Give me fics of her an apron belly and a double chin and a realistic waist where James or Mary or Pandora or anyone still thinks she is the hottest shit. Please. We deserve this.
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SOOOOO UPDATE:
I feel nervous about reading Hwa already because I SWEAR I CHANGED MY BIAS 2 DAYS AGO TO SAN FROM HWA (because he's too hot for me)😭 well soooo I finished yunho's memoir and I gotta say.... I CRIED TOWARDS THAT PART WHEN SHE REALISED THAT SHE'S THE MOTHER
Now I clicked on mingi and realised oh my Tumblr is not working then I forgot to read the note beside it💀🤦‍♀️ take your time making that I'll be waiting heheheheheheh
I FINISHED READING SANS YJHD FIC and I lost it there itself💀💀💀😩 because damn mate this fic is so perfect and imagining san as srk is more than enough for my delusional brain because they remind me of each other(?) HOW ??? IDK IM CRAZY BUT IM A BIG SRK FAN hehe but I'm definitely reading this again before enrolling into college 😍 to keep my SANity sane
Now I shall start Hwa... feeling nervous and hot but i can do this... can i-🤡 ANYWAYS... what would you suggest me to read first in all of your hwa fics?🥸
2/2 I made a mistake ... I got so excited that I mixed up Ranbir Kapoor with srk🤡😍 PLS DONT MIND ME I GOT TOO EXCITED 😭
AAAA IM SO EXCITED FOR U TO READ SEONGHWAS BC I KNOW I JUST KNOW THAT BIAS CHANGE U DID WILL BE IN DANGER <33 oh yikes that fic yes i will put it out soon with a romcom!!
nO I GOT IT FBSBFHEFK san as srk would be actually mad,,, but san as ranbir 🤚🏻🤚🏻 it’s the slight cockiness that gets me fbkwbddj LMFAOO NO WORRIES
im pretty sure u must’ve already started but i will always rec mr and mrs park!!!! the absolute enemies to lovers with every cliche in it <33
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