#i also wanna really come up with a proper theme for the site before i post the profiles too

[bf-rally]

finished drawing the first batch of boyfriends, lets freakin gooooo

[accio-victuuri]

Hi can you provide the link to read manhuas you prefer?

Hello Anon! OMG Manhua/Manhwa Rec! Here we go! I’ve only been reading for 2-3 months (consistently), so this will be pretty limited. I will link to the legit sites. A google search will direct you to others.

Most of these are WIPs and some, sadly, are discontinued. I won’t add TGCF or MDZS here cause those are already a given. 👇🏼

• Body Electric by Dong Ye ( completed, supernatural, lots of trigger warnings and plotty )

Ba Song is the hotshot cop who’s been handed an open-and-shut case: the suicide of a young woman. Except… who commits suicide by stabbing their own body and strangling themself? There's only one man who can help him with this mystery — Bo Shan, the renowned forensic pathologist with a severe and cold personality. What's more, his body produces bioelectricity, allowing him to acutely sense bodily injury with his touch. There's an electric current between them, and each touch sizzles with energy

If you like crime dramas and stories where they solve mysterious cases then this is for you. The romance is subtle, and their relationship is not insta-love. strangers to colleagues to friends to lovers trope. This also discusses alot of issues the society has that will make you stop and think. Ba Song is really the honorable MC in here who always wants to help people and do good. While Bo Shan is the reluctant one but deep inside, he wants to make a difference too. I wish they would make a donghua or live action out of this.

• 30 year old by S-Monkey - ( ongoing, age difference, blind dates, slice of life)

Charlie Wei is a single and handsome executive. He’s also a closeted gay guy who’s been on way too many bad blind dates with women. Charlie’s still hung up on his ex-boyfriend James and is… gasp, 30! Charlie’s family thinks he’s straight and too old to be without a wife! During another bad blind date, Charlie meets the flirty Ethan, who both annoys and intrigues him. Can Charlie finally come out and find true love with Ethan or will he continue on his streak of bad blind dates?

The cover looks melodramatic but it’s really not. This is so funny! I read this because people were saying it reminded them of BoXiao. And yes, there are moments here that remind me of them, but it’s more like an AU of BoXiao. I stayed up late trying to get caught up in the chapters and you won’t realize it cause it’s just that good. I love seeing the older MC loosening up and being more of himself. and the younger one being more responsible in his career. They just become better versions of themselves because of each other. It’s so sweet!

• I ship me and my Rival - by Pepa ( ongoing, comedy, reads like a meta )

This follows the adventures of Wei Yanzi, a third-rate actor in the Chinese entertainment industry, stumbles onto a shipping fandom for himself and another actor (Gu Yiliang) while trying to escape from the flame wars and negativity. He's so taken with this group of fans who actually see him as a good guy instead of an enemy/rival of Gu Yiliang that he falls head-first into fandom and becomes actively involved in trying to provide shipping fuel and the fans' daily dose of fluff.

IF THERE IS ONE thing you will read here, let it be this. It is hilarious. If you are a CP fan you will relate so much and it’s a good time. It just shows how people who think are rivals can actually be really good friends in real life. What we see is not always what it seems. and people will interpret things based on their bias. The MC here is so dramatic! how his inner feelings/reactions were drawn will make you laugh.

• Path to You - by Sinran (completed, slice of life, age gap fluff and comedy )

When almost college dropout Jensen attempts to drink away his problems, unemployed Nathaniel suddenly pukes on him and ruins his night. As an apology, Nathaniel offers to help Jensen with his studies. Despite Jensen's difficulties in getting along with people, the two become friends and something deeper begins to grow between them

The story is so soft. If you want something with mild angst/misunderstandings— then pick this. I love the progression of their relationship and how they take care of each other. There are other themes showed here other than the romance.

• Red Candy - by Hanse (completed season one with a cliffhanger, explicit scenes, assassins )

Shihyeon, aka “Red Candy,” is a secret agent whose code name comes from bathing in the blood of his marks on dangerous missions. Shihyeon’s tasked with seducing and obtaining intel from Hajun, a hot college professor. Shihyeon can disarm enemies, but didn’t expect to be disarmed himself by Hajun’s own tight body. Now Shihyeon’s caught between loyalty to his spy agency and Hajun. Can Red Candy survive the incoming wave of enemies and still indulge in the sweet ecstasy of Hajun’s embrace?

THIS STRESSED ME OUT MAAAN. Wow. I loved this. That season one cliffhanger. It’s definitely up there as my favorite. If you think about it, the tropes are really not original. An assassin is sent to shadow a person and they develop a relationship. That simple. But NOOOOO! There are so many things going on. The Main mystery plot, Their relationship, their shared past plus you have other sketchy secondary characters. And did i mention explicit scenes? Lots of them. I want this two to have a happy ending!!!

• Lone Swan - by Chu Man (discontinued, cultivation, star crossed lovers)

After losing his memory, Yiqiu Shen, a disciple from the decent sect meets a very special man named Luofeng Yan, who is the leader of the evil Divine Wind Cult. When escaping and conflicting with Yan, Shen gradually finds his original self as well as his previous love back. Together they rip off the facade of the martial world and reveal the hidden true

I didn’t want to add a discontinued story here, with no novel as a source material but this one made an impact on me. so. yeah. THE ART. breathtaking. The plot = layered. There are times I don’t even know who is telling the truth. It had so much potential and i hope it will get picked up again at some point. People rec this to those who enjoyed TGCF and MDZS, and they are right. 👍🏼

• Dragon in Distress by Si Wang Wen Hua - ( ongoing, dragons, past life, lost power, fantasy )

This is a story about a little Eastern green dragon and a little Western black dragon playing together.

The synopsis is pretty simple if you look at it but this one is pretty interesting. and surprisingly funny. tinie AoAo is so cute! 🤍 the other MC has tsundere tendencies tho. Lots of lore and more truths to uncover as the story progresses. I’m not giving it enough justice with how i’m reccing it, but if you like dragons and fantasy — give this a go.

• Breaking through the clouds 2: Swallow the Sea - Huaishang (ongoing, based on a novel, crime, drama, cases)

Wu Yu, a newcomer of the Public Security Bureau, is gentle and frail. He doesn’t care about the difficulties posed by Bu ZhongHua, his strict boss, and only wants to stay in the background to be paid on time with enough for food. However, no one knows that this young man’s head is targeted by top drug traffickers for a large bounty or that this courageous young man has once slaughtered the dragon of the abyss. With a chain of interlocking cases, a series of troubles come one after another. Can the two people work together to survive through the difficulties?

Do you see a pattern with me? lol. I like crime themes. This one is the same and by the looks of it, the cases they solve will take longer to unravel. I haven’t read the novel it’s based on yet so i’m just going with how the manhua is progressing. I like it when Wu Yu turns full on action-mode and when ZH takes care of him. Plus it helps that they are both gorgeous. I’ll get back this with a proper link.

• Where the Wind Stays - by Yusa (completed season one, curses, demons, possession, timeskip, explicit scenes)

To break an ancient curse that plagues the royal bloodline, young Prince Tasara is destined to be sacrificed in death. Nara is enlisted as a palace servant to carry out the prince’s execution when the time comes. But he develops a soft spot for the cursed prince, and after committing an atrocious and unforgivable act against Tasara, Nara is desperate to right his wrongs. Soon, their lascivious relationship that had been kept under wraps tests his resolve. Will Nara be tempted away from his original mission? There’s no telling how far he would go to earn Tasara’s forgiveness.

This story broke my brain, in a good way. I don’t wanna say much cause it will spoil the story. It’s the type that you gave to see and suffer through yourself. I am excited for what happens in season II!!!

Honorable Mentions:

I’m placing these here cause I have only read a few chapters and tho I liked them, I wanna read more before reccing it in full. 👍🏼

• I accidentally saved the Jinghu’s enemy

• Global Examination

• Monster entertainment

• Demon Apartment

And that’s it! Hope enjoy Anon! 😊

[sometimesiwritebadly]

illicit affairs (Spencer Reid x Reader)

Summary: You catch feelings for Spencer after the two of you start casually sleeping together. He doesn’t.

Warnings: Sexual themes, no actual smut though. 

Notes: ANGST. This is based off of the song illicit affairs by Taylor Swift! The song implies that there’s cheating but I can’t see Spencer ever cheating on someone so the scandal of this relationship is that reader and Spence are co-workers and there’s a pretty big age gap. (OBVIOUSLY reader is 18+, I imagine late 20s cause they’re in the FBI. By season 15 I think Spencer is in his late 30s/early 40s) This takes place AFTER the season 15 finale so if you haven’t finished the show don’t read this! There is a pretty big spoiler for the finale! Oh also I tried to make this gender neutral but if I accidentally left in any female pronouns lmk and I’ll fix it :)

oh another thing, I’ve seen a lot of people writing based off of songs from folklore (as they should) so just a little disclaimer: if this bears any resemblance to another story based off of illicit affairs it’s a coincidence! I’ve purposely been avoiding most of the stories i see based off folklore songs cause i don’t wanna accidentally steal an idea but i also understand that there’s only so many stories you can make based off of one song so there’s bound to be some elements that are shared between different fics.

~if it’s in italics it’s a flashback~

Word Count: 1.8k

Masterlist

You’d only been the BAU’s technical analyst for a month the first time. It had been hard joining the very close team, considering you were the youngest member and you were replacing one of their closest friends, but Spencer had taken a liking to you faster than the rest of the team. You knew none of them meant to make you feel bad, but sometimes you felt like you were living in the shadow of the great Penelope Garcia. You never missed the comments about how much she was missed, how great of a hacker she was, how she always came through. Spencer was the only one who actively avoided comparing you to your predecessor. So, really, it’s no surprise that you ended up in his bed after the team came back from a rough case. Unfortunately for you, that was the beginning of your doom.

~ the first time ~

The team was getting off the jet after a rough case. Normally, as the technical analyst, you didn’t have to travel with the rest of the BAU, but this one had called for you to be on site for the first time since you joined the BAU. You were tired, and heartbroken from the deadly results of the past couple days, and all you really wanted to do was go home and cuddle up in bed with someone. Of course, you didn’t have anyone to be with, so you’d have to settle for a cup of cocoa and a comforting movie. As you headed to your car, you heard one of your co-workers, Reid, calling your name.

“Y/N?” You stopped your walking and turned to see the doctor walking towards you. “Do you mind giving me a ride? It’s late, I’d rather not try and get a taxi at this hour.” If it was anyone else, you probably would’ve said no, but you couldn’t resist Spencer’s charm. He was over 10 years your senior, and you knew it could never happen because of workplace rules, but it never hurt to dream. 

“Y-yeah, of course. You live on 23rd and…”

“42nd street. It’s not too out of your way, is it?”

“No, not at all.” It’s on the opposite side of town. You’re sure he could easily tell if you were lying, but he was either too tired to notice or willing to ignore it. When you finally glanced up to meet Spencer’s eyes, you found him already staring you down. With a light blush forming on your cheeks, you lead him to your car.

On the ride to Spencer’s, the two of you discussed how you felt about the case.

“How did you feel with everything? I know you usually don’t have to see firsthand everything that goes on during our cases.” He asked.

“It was..a lot.” You paused, letting yourself steal a glance towards Spencer before focusing your eyes on the road. “I much prefer experiencing these cases from behind a computer screen.”

“That’s understandable. Garcia was the same way. It’s always good having someone to talk to about the rough cases.” 

The conversation continued, but you weren’t really focusing on the words passing between the two of you. No, you were much more interested in Spencer’s hands. Specifically, his left hand, which was slowly inching closer and closer to your thigh. By the time you were pulling up in front of his apartment building, his hand had reached your lower thigh, just above your knee. Now that you weren’t driving, you could face him, and you found that he was carefully watching you. “Is this ok?” He asked. If you wanted an out, this was it. No lines have been crossed, no rules broken, it’d be so easy to stop this now and go back to normal at work Monday morning. 

“Yes.” Once the words left your mouth, Spencer leaned towards you, closing the gap between you. The kiss started gentle, but was far from innocent. You let him have complete control as he explored your mouth. You could feel his intentions through the kiss, and you knew you’d be in for a night. When he pulled away, you could see that his pupils were bigger, and you were sure your face was completely red. 

“Come in?” It was a question, but it felt more like a command. Your only response was to remove the key from your car’s ignition before you both quickly headed up to Spencer’s apartment.

~~

Your many nights with Spencer started out comforting. Whenever there was a rough case, or just a bad day, you could count on him to make you feel better. You were far from a relationship; No one knew that the two of you occasionally slept together, and you never talked about it outside of your meetings. You supposed you could label it as friends with benefits, but that felt like it downplayed what you were to each other. Or, what Spencer was to you. You’re not stupid, you know that he doesn’t feel for you the way you do for him. You’re well aware that you’re not exclusive, and that he has no obligations to you. But when you’re together, which is becoming more and more frequent, you’re really together. Sometimes it’s easy to forget when you’re with him that he’s not your boyfriend. He gives you gifts, calls you baby, sometimes he even brings you to fancy hotels. But the second you two separate, your relationship makes a 180. In the bedroom, you’re “baby.” At work, you’re “kid.” In the bedroom, you wear the perfume he bought you and he praises you for it. When you dared to wear it at work, he’d completely ignore you. 

Every minute you spend with him, you fall a little bit more. But every second you’re apart, your heart breaks over and over again.

~ the hundredth time ~

You were in your car, outside of Spencer’s building. As the two of you kissed, Spencer pulled you on top of his lap. You pulled away for a moment, but he captured your lips once more before you could get your words out. This time, your hand pushed him away so you could speak. “Shouldn’t we go inside?”

“Why not just stay here?” His lips found your neck for a moment before he kept speaking, “It’s faster. We cut out the middleman, you can get home sooner.” You were glad Spencer’s lips were focused on your neck, because it meant he couldn’t see the insulted look on your face. You knew the two of you hadn’t been quite as romantic lately, if ever, but you felt like you were slapped in the face when Spencer implied that even spending the time to walk you to his apartment, having a nice conversation over a drink was just the “middleman.” Before you could respond, however, he pulled away from your neck and looked at you. “Besides, haven’t you always wanted to do it in a car?” And just like that, his charm had caught you again. You smiled, and kissing him again, harder this time. You put all your energy into focusing on him, making each other feel good, and no on how your once romantic nights were slowly turning into quickies whenever Spencer felt like getting off.

~~

At work, you and Spencer were good at keeping it professional. Both of your jobs could be in trouble if people found out. When you really thought about it, you knew that Prentiss would probably be ok with you two dating if you went through the proper procedures with HR, but Spencer had said it’d be better to keep it secret. You didn’t want whatever you two were to end, so you went along with it. 

Today was a rare calm day at the BAU, with no new cases for the team to work on. You’d been catching up on paperwork in your office, but when you were in need of coffee, you decided to stop by the other team member’s desks on the way to the coffee machine. Now that you’ve been with the team for over a year, You’d gotten pretty close with the members. You and Luke have inside jokes, you babysit Matt and JJ’s kids, you, Tara, and Rossi bond over your shared love of old cars. When you walked into the office space, you weren’t surprised to find Spencer, Luke, and Matt talking around their desks instead of doing paperwork. When you walked past the trio, you overheard their conversation.

“So, Reid, you coming tonight? Rossi said he’d bring out the good scotch.” Luke asked. You knew they’d been planning a poker night. Not really your thing, but you figured you’d join just to be with the team. Spencer’s answer to the question is what really got your attention.

“I can’t. I’ve got a date.” You almost tripped over your feet on the way to the coffee machine when you heard him. A date? 

“Oh? Is this the same girl from last week?” Matt asked. As you poured your coffee, you tried your best to listen in without being obvious. You and Spencer had been together last Wednesday...were they talking about you? Had Spencer mentioned that he was seeing you? Did he consider your hookups as dates?

“Yup. I’m not sure where it’s going yet, but I’m excited.” Your mind was racing at this point. Either your dreams were finally coming true, or you were about to get your heartbroken for the millionth time. You were so lost in your thoughts you didn’t even notice that Spencer had made his way towards you to get himself another cup of coffee. “Y/N? You alright, you look a little worried.” He asked, snapping you out of your thoughts. You knew you should wait till you’re in a more private location, but your words come out of your mouth before you could stop them.

“A date tonight? I didn’t think we had plans.” You took a sip of your coffee, trying to seem as nonchalant as possible. If he was talking about you, you didn’t want to seem over excited. But if he wasn’t, well…

The face he made gave away the answer before he spoke. “Oh, uh, no. We don’t.” Ouch. “I met someone at the bookstore near my place a couple weeks ago.” He paused, not making eye contact with you as he poured his coffee. “That’s uh,” His voice was lower this time, “That’s not a problem is it?”

“No! Not at all.” You answered a little too quickly. “It’s not like we’re dating, right?” You didn’t wait for his answer before you walked away. When you made it back to the safety of your office, you couldn’t help the single tear that dropped from your eye before you got back to work. 

Instead of going to Rossi’s with the rest of the team, you spent the night alone with a cup of cocoa and a comforting movie, like you wish you had a year ago.

~~

taglist: @dr-reid-ismyspiritanimal @la-vie-en-amour1 @peculiarinsomniac @andreasworlsboring101

[raquelinseoul]

Site-seeing, Poopooland & visiting cafés

So, almost three days have passed, time for an update! Yesterday (17th), was a rest day. The topside of right foot had a swollen spot. Probably overworked a muscle or something. It hurt quite a bit after a long day of walking and exploring on the 16th, so let’s start by telling what I was up to on that day. The Trick Eye Museum in Seoul is a museum that allows you to take fun and creative pictures, with the usage of an app, or by just providing fun scenes and with the right angle, you can snap a fun picture as well. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but when I found it on the internet, it seemed like a fun and unique experience (and not expensive) so why not? 

It was quite busy. A lot of families, parents who want take cute pictures of their children, who don’t wanna co-operate or are not posing cute enough. So for some photo scenes, I didn’t bother waiting for them. Luckily, my boyfriend is a good model who knows how to work the camera. Or he doesn’t care that much. Me on the other hand, is not that confident by her looks, so she doesn’t pose that much for the camera, or is more picky aboout it. Anyways, here are some fun shots~

Apparently, our ticket also included a visit to the Ice Museum. The idea was the same as the Trick Eye Museum, but less eye tricking and more ice. I thought that I would like the cold, freezing feeling instead of the sticky, sweatyness, but this was a little too much. It looked cute and fun tho, so I’m happy I still went in there, even if it was only for like 15 minutes

Afterwards, we kinda strolled down the cute and fun streets of the area. I came across some make-up brand stores that I’m currently using, so I stacked up on some make-up products. What kinda bothers me here is that you get instantly tailed by a shop employee once you enter the store. I’m assuming that’s just something they do here, but I feel super pressured and watched, and it makes me very uneasy. Sometimes, I just like to look around in a store without wanting to buy anything. Guess I kinda now have to ‘consider’ if it’s worth getting into a store, because there will be someone watching my every move.

We made our way to the Thanks Nature Café. This is an animal café, which are very popular in Asia but also making their way in Europe, but this is an animal café with sheeps!! In the middle of a big city! At first, I was kinda concerned if they animals would be able to live a proper life, with these circumstances here, but after checking for reviews and other information, I figured the sheeps are taken good care of, and I wanted to see them. It was a little bit difficult to find the café. I was looking for a big sign that had something with sheeps on, but we kinda missed it the first time. But we made it eventually and omg, the sheeps were so cute, the café was cute and the drinks were very good!

We just hung out here for a little while. I had a yoghurt shake that was quite sweeter than I expected, so it took me a little while to finish it. In the meantime, we were looking at our route to a sort-of game museum. We were kinda unsure if it was really a museum or if it was really there, but we figured that we might as well take a look. It wasn’t that far from our current location. It turned out, it wasn’t quite an official museum, but more of an antique collection/shop of figurines and toys and anything that relates to that. But if you just wanted to look at old stuff, you could consider it a museum. 

Continuing the nerd stuff, we wanted to try the famous Korean PC Bangs. PC Bangs are basically internet cafés, but upgraded to the max to be an internet café for the gamers. Gaming is super populair in Korea, so in almost every district, you’ll find several PC Bangs. Besides gaming on the best PC’s that are currently available, you’re also able to order food and drinks while you’re gaming. One PC Bang makes the food self, the others order it for you at a shop nearby, and make sure it is delivered to your desk. We just decided to game for 1,5 hour, which costed €1,50. Seriously, compared to the Euro, everything is so cheap here. I played some Overwatch. I needed to do some translating with live Google Translate to connect to right sever and everything, but eventually, I made it in.

Afterwards, we ended up at another Kakao Friends Store. This one was 3 stories high and had it’s own café at the top. Ofcourse, we couldn’t just ignore all the cute things in here, so once again, it was café time.

& then, my foot really died. We picked up some Mcdonalds on our way home and went to bed. As I mentioned before, yesterday was resting day, so we just watched some Netflix and did some relaxing in our AC covered bedroom.

Today was the day we would visit Poopoo Land. Poopoo Land kinda has the same concept as the Trick Eye Museum. Giving you fun little settings for you to take pictures in, all in the theme of cute poop. Poopoo Land also had a little more themepark-ish features. There was a sort quiz you could do while you were discovering Poopoo Land. Went down the digestive system, aka you role playing as poop. It was fun to do. We eventually had 2 questions wrong out of 20 I believe, so our price was two cute little buttons. That I’ll be sure to add on my backpack

Making our way to the district centre afterwards, we came across this little mall. It was covered with art of several artists, all in the theme of cats! Me as a cat and art lover, loved seeing all this different art styles and cute drawings of cats. Some of the artist that were shown here had their own little shop! Needless to say, I had to make a small stop there, to get a closer look at everything.

Our poop related journey had to come to an end at the Poo Café. Because why wouldn’t you drink your coffee out of a toilet and eat your ice cream and waffles out one of those old Asian style squad toilets?

After our poo-licious lunch, we headed to the Jogyesa Temple. This is one of the most well-known Buddhist temples and my boyfriend being a Buddhist, we had to make a visit here. It was absolutely beautiful. In the middle of street, between the high, grey buildings, was this temple. In a way, it looked at of place, but once you entered the ground of the temple, it felt like nothing else was there. 

Our last highlight of the day was the cat café we stumbled upon. We went in, had some drinks, ofcourse, and I made sure that every cat was there got enougb attention from me, and took atleast 10 pictures per cat. The face was very clean and there was enough place for cats to do their own thing, mostly sleeping. Precious little babies

That’s it for now~! Sorry for the lack of interesting text, but I hope you guys enjoy the pictures~ Byeeeeeeeeeeee

[hymn2000]

Chiquitita - MCU AU fanfic - C14

Story summary: Something strange is happening. Someone from space has made their way to Earth, armed with a strange weapon. Targeting teenagers, their ray gun, when fired, turns the victim into a toddler. The Avengers set out to stop this, and find a way to reverse the effects. However, they don’t all come out of the battle unscathed.

Previous chapters: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13

Part of my Frostiron and Spiderson series.

Warnings/themes: de-aging, family stuff, corporal punishment (early chapters only), mental health stuff, hurt/comfort, hospital/medical stuff

Chapter 14 - Should I Laugh Or Cry?

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Tony and Loki both dozed until late in the morning. Eventually they dragged themselves out of bed and had a shower together before getting dressed and deciding they should probably go and check on Peter.

Peter had long since lost interest in the television. He’d emptied most of his toys out of their boxes onto the floor, setting up an elaborate game. He’d also breakfasted himself by way of the big box of jelly babies, which he’d completely finished.The room was a mess, and Peter was a bit sticky from all of his sweets, but mercifully, there didn’t seem to be any permanent damage done to anything.

“Peter, this is ridiculous” Loki said. “Are you playing with all of these toys?”

“Um... yes?”

“No, you’re not. I’ve asked you before to put away anything you’d finished playing with. It looks like a bomb site in here”

Peter pouted, dropping another marble in his marble run. He hadn’t figured it out properly yet, so the marble just dropped to the bottom instead of zigzagging its way down.

“Peter, are you listening to me?”

Peter shrugged, picking up another marble.

“Peter!” Tony snapped. “Don’t ignore us”

Peter jumped at Tony’s tone. Tony held a hand out to him.

“Get up. You’re all grim and sticky. You need to wash your hands and face and brush your teeth”

“I don’t want to!”

“It wasn’t a suggestion. Come on now”

“I’m playing!”

“I don’t care” Tony said. “You need to come with me and have a quick wash”

“NO!”

“Don’t you dare shout at me! Now, you’re going to do as you’re told, or I’ll smack your bottom, do you understand me?”

Peter understood. He scowled, but stood up and let Tony take his hand. 

“Good boy. Let’s go and get you cleaned up”

-

Peter fussed like anything about having to wash his hands and face and brush his teeth. He squeaked and shouted and threw a huge tantrum, until Tony grabbed him by the shoulders and gave him a little shake.

“Remember what I said, little boy! You’ll get a good smack if you don’t behave yourself” 

Peter cried a bit, but he calmed down just enough to get washed without incident.

“Good boy. Now try to behave yourself a little longer while we get you dressed”

“I don’t want you to get me dressed!”

“Well, that’s just tough” Tony said, grabbing his hand and taking him back into the bedroom. “Let’s find you something to wear”

“NO! I WANNA GET MYSELF DRESSED”

Tony paused for a moment. “...Really?”

“Yes! Go away! I can get dressed by myself!”

“Ok, ok! Stop shouting, and I’ll leave you to it. But you come right back through to the living room as soon as you’re dressed, ok?”

Peter nodded. “Ok, now get out!”

He pushed against Tony’s legs, pushing him towards the door. Tony laughed despite himself, and stepped out of the room obediently. Peter quickly closed the door, shutting him out.

-

“...Where is he?” Loki asked.

“He insisted he wanted to dress himself” Tony said, sticking the kettle on. “How do you think that’s gonna go?”

“Well” Loki said. “He’s dressed himself before, when I’ve chosen the clothes for him”

“I think most of the stuff we bought matches, right?”

Loki nodded. “As long as he doesn’t come out with a pyjama top on, it’ll be fine. He’s not got the option of coming in here in a tutu and striped leggings” 

-

Peter marched into the kitchen looking very proud of himself. He’d put on black jeans and a white t-shirt, with his little black denim jacket and a black beanie pulled over his head. Loki laughed at him.

“Very nice. Here, let me sort your hat our, baby” Loki said, taking the beanie off him and putting it back on so he was wearing it on the back of his head. “Aww, you look so cute with your little curls. Doesn’t he look cute, Tony?”

“He definitely takes after me” Tony said. “Look at that fashion sense! He’s gotta be the most style-conscious toddler around. Damn, we chose well when we went shopping. You were right about it being ok”

Peter wrinkled his nose at him.

“You need to go and tidy up your toys, kiddo” Tony said.

“Why?”

“Because we’re going out, and everything needs to be tidy before we leave”

“Where are we going?”

“We won’t be going anywhere if you spend all day asking questions. Go and tidy up your toys”

Peter pouted and stalked off to the second sitting room. He looked at the toys littering the floor. Why did he have to put them away? He’d only have to get them out again next time he wanted to play with them. Besides, they looked fine where they were. Everything was in easy reach. And his toys looked much nicer than his parents tapestry throw pillows and their weird statues from places he’d never been. If they could leave their things lying around, why couldn’t he? He’d just leave everything for now. It wasn’t the end of the world.

-

Tony looked down at Peter when the boy came back into the kitchen.

“Finished?” he said.

“Yep”

“Good boy”

Peter held his arms up to Loki, who picked him up and sat him on his lap.

“Out?”

“Yes, we’re going out in a bit” Loki said. 

“Can we go to the park?”

“No, darling. We’re going to the museum and art gallery”

“That’s BORING!” Peter said. “I wanna go to the park”

“We’re going to the galleries” Loki said firmly.

“I WANT TO GO TO THE PARK!”

“Hey, keep your voice down!” Tony hissed. “We’re going to the museum and the art gallery, and we’re going to get some things to send Liz”

“Why?!”

“Because we want to give her a proper thank you for that box of things she bought you”

“I DON’T WANT TO GO TO THE BORING OLD MUSEUM!”

“It’s not boring. It’ll be good” Loki said. “Now stop shouting”

“I DON’T WANT TO GO! I WANNA GO TO THE PARK! I WANNA GO TO THE PARK!”

“Peter, shut up” Tony said. “Make the most of today, because your next outing isn’t going to be anywhere near as pleasant”

Loki looked at him. “What do you mean?”

“He’s getting his booster jabs tomorrow, remember?” 

“Oh yes, I forgot” Loki said, setting Peter down on the floor. “Go and get your rocket, darling”

Peter stormed off. Tony raised an eyebrow at Loki.

“He’s grumpy this morning”

“Isn’t he just?” Loki said. “I thought he’d be a little more enthusiastic. Big Peter and I spend hours in the museums, even though we’ve been so many times”

“Yeah, but he likes reading everything. The toddler can’t read”

“He likes looking at everything else too” Loki said. “Especially the art gallery. He spent a full 45 minutes in front of a single painting once”

Tony sighed. “Maybe he’ll enjoy himself. Should we feed him before we go out?”

“We’ll see”

Peter reappeared, clutching his rocket to his chest.

“Are you hungry?” Tony asked him.

“No”

“Ok. Thirsty?”

“No”

“Right. Well. Shoes then, I guess”

“His white ones are by the sofa in the second living room” Loki said.

“Good. I’ll go and grab them”

-

Tony called Peter into the second sitting room. Peter stood in front of his father.

“What?”

“Don’t you ‘what’ me, little boy. Now, look around. What do you see?”

Peter looked at the sea of toys on the floor. He shrugged.

“What did I ask you to do?”

Peter shrugged.

“I asked you to tidy up all your toys. Why haven’t you done it?”

Peter shrugged again.

“Stop shrugging!” Tony said irritably. “Use your words. Why haven’t you tidied up your toys?”

Peter just shrugged. Again. Tony narrowed his eyes at the boy.

“Tidy up your toys this instant” he stayed where he stood. “Well, go on then! Get started”

Peter shook his head. “Don’t want to”

“I don’t care whether you want to or not. All of these toys need to go back in their packs, and back in the toy boxes. Now”

“NO!”

Loki came into the room. He opened his mouth to speak, and then saw the state of the room. He sighed.

“Peter, you need to tidy up”

“Why?”

“Because it’s a mess in here, and your toys don’t need to be out in this quantity, especially when you’re not using them”

Peter pouted. 

“Do you want me to help you?”

Peter nodded. Loki knelt down beside him, finding the tub his building blocks belonged in. 

“Ok, let’s put all your bricks in here, ok? Now, once that’s done, we’ll put the Stickle Bricks in this box here, and then we’ll go from there. Ok?”

Peter paused, and then crouched down and picked up a couple of bricks. He dropped them into the tub. 

“Good boy” Loki said softly.

Tony watched them, shaking his head in disbelief. How Loki always knew how to get round the toddler was completely beyond him.

-

No more than twenty minutes later, all of the toys were away, Peter’s shoes were on, the bag was packed, and they were down in the garage. Tony strapped Peter into his car seat.

“Stop pouting, boy-o” he said. “Here, hold your rocket”

Peter buried his face in his rocket, grumbling to himself. Tony shook his head and closed the car door. He had a feeling this outing was going to be a challenge.

-

Peter was still cross when they got to the museum. He didn’t want to be there. He let himself be strapped into his buggy without any fuss.

“Are you tired, darling?” Loki asked, knowing he usually fought not to be put in the buggy so that he could walk.

Peter didn’t say anything. Loki sighed and ruffled his hair. Peter whined and tried to pull away. He flopped back in his seat, pulling at the fabric edges. This was boring. Museums were boring, and his parents were boring. Boring, boring, boring. He wanted to go to the park. The park wasn’t boring.

Peter stayed quiet for a long time in the museum. He hugged his rocket and hummed to himself, daydreaming. Loki and Tony tried to get him interested, reading things out for him and telling him facts about some of the artefacts, but Peter hardly reacted. He just blinked at them, or ignored them entirely, so after a while they gave up trying. They talked quite happily together, stopping to discuss some of the exhibits at length. 

Tony had gotten into museums not long after he had started dating Loki. They’d just been walking past a museum one day, and Loki had stopped in his tracks, intrigued by the architecture and the opening times notice. Tony had elbowed him in the side and said they could go in if he wanted. So they did. They went to a lot of museums and galleries after that. Even now, if Tony was working away and stumbled across a museum, he often popped in for a bit if he had time, taking photos of things that might interest Loki, and always getting a postcard to send to him. 

Loki had always enjoyed his museums. He liked learning about Earth culture and history at first, and now, he liked the calm atmosphere. After getting to know Peter, and especially after adopting him, he’d taken the boy to lots of museums and galleries. Peter liked spending time with Loki, and he liked reading. He often spent a long time reading every scrap of text in a museum, more than the average person, and even on exhibits he wasn’t especially interested in. He took more time than even Loki. In art galleries, he liked sitting on the benches in the centre of the rooms, looking at the art on the walls and thinking. He liked the calm atmosphere too. 

-

Peter fell asleep for a little while. The sound of a baby screaming woke him up, and he jumped awake so violently that he scared himself and started crying too.

“Oh sweetheart, it’s ok, don’t cry” Loki said, unclipping his straps and lifting him out of the buggy to give him a cuddle. “Shh, you’re ok”

Peter calmed down fairly quickly. Loki kept the boy on his hip.

“Shh. Good boy” he said, and tried to turn his attention to the displays in the next room. “Here, look at this. See the old teddy bears?”

Peter looked in the glass case. The bears were incredibly old, bald in placed where their fur had fallen out, and one had no eyes.

“He’s wearing a skirt”

“It’s a kilt. He’s from Scotland” Loki said. 

“I like the donkey” Peter said, looking at the toy donkey on wheels. 

“That’s my favourite one” Tony said. “What do you think of the dolls?”

Peter looked at the dolls on the shelf below the bears. It was a good collection of china dolls, some just in petticoats, others in full dresses with felt kid boots. Peter wrinkled his nose.

“I don’t like them” 

Tony laughed. “Can’t say I blame you: they’re not my cup of tea either”

Peter gave him a confused look, and rested his cheek against Loki’s chest. He went quiet, but he let Loki show him all of the old toys. He especially liked the big rocking horse and the dolls houses. They found a big display case that took up most of one wall. It housed a huge open-front dolls house, and there was a red button in front of it.

“Daddy?”

“Yes, darling?”

“Can I walk?”

“If you’d like to”

Loki put him down. The boy toddled over to the big case, climbing up onto the wooden step in front of it, and pressed the button. Little lights went on in every room of the huge dolls house.

“Oh!”

Peter put his hands up on the ledge, peering into the case. He looked at all the little dolls house people. He looked at the little cupboard under the stairs. He looked at all the dolls house furniture and the little pictures on the walls and the miniature books on the little shelves. He looked at the tiny rugs and the little rocking horse and train set in the nursery. And then the lights went off.

“Oh!”

“It’s ok, darling. Just press the button again”

Peter did, and the lights went back on. 

“Oh!”

Tony chuckled. “He’s so funny sometimes”

“Yes. Well, he’s starting to show an interest, which is nice”

“Funny how the dolls house is what did it”

Once the lights had timed out for the third time, Tony took Peter by the hand. 

“Let’s move on, chick”

“Why?”

“There’s lots more to look at. Come on”

Peter stepped down from the wooden step and went along with Tony. He looked back over his shoulder longingly. He liked the dolls house. He shook his head and moved on, not entirely out of choice. Oh well. Maybe there’d be more toys to see.

-

Peter was good for the rest of the museum trip, but he started whining when they headed to the art gallery. Tony shoved him back in the buggy and gave him some of the shortbread Bruce had bought him to keep him quiet. Peter ate his shortbread and went quiet, cuddling his rocket. They were approached by a gaggle of middle-aged ladies who recognised Tony. It was something that Peter had learnt often happened when they were out. When it was just a few people, Peter was ok. They fussed him too, which was fine, but then more people came over, encouraged by the others who had already braved the celebrity. Peter hugged his rocket tight. It was getting louder, with so many people talking over each other, crowding them. Tony was used to it all, and it didn’t bother him. Loki was used to it too, and although it annoyed him a little, he didn’t mind too much. 

But then it all got too much, and Peter started crying. Hard. 

“Alright, that’s enough. Give us some space” Loki said firmly, kneeling down in front of the buggy. “You’re upsetting the baby”

They all had enough decency to move away and go back to their groups, pretty thrilled with their autographs and selfies. Peter wouldn’t calm down, so Loki had to get him out of the buggy and give him a cuddle. He glanced at Tony.

“I can see what you mean now” he said. 

“Yeah, he really doesn’t like it” Tony said, rubbing the back of his neck. “But then again, ever since the accident, normal Peter hasn’t been too big on crowds either”

“Mm” Loki sighed, rubbing Peter’s back. “Shh, calm down, darling”

“Do you want me to take him?” Tony offered.

Loki nodded, passing the boy over to Tony. 

“Hey, little sweetheart” he said, cuddling the boy close. “Hey, it’s ok! No more crying. You’re ok”

Peter nuzzled into Tony’s shirt and soon stopped crying. Tony kissed him gently on the forehead.

“Good boy. Let’s look at some art now, ok?”

Peter nodded. “Can I have my rocket?”

“Sure thing” Tony said, grabbing it from the buggy and passing it over. “Loll, are you ok with the buggy?”

Loki nodded, taking hold of it. Peter looked happy now on his father’s hip, rocket under his arm. That was all that mattered. At least, that’s what he told himself.

-

Peter wasn’t interested in most of the art. He nearly fell asleep while they were looking at boring paintings of old-fashioned people and country scenes. He liked the modern art and sculptures more, but even they were only enough to hold his attention for half a moment. It felt like they’d been in there for years. Peter was tired, and fed up. He dozed against Tony’s shoulder, too sleepy to even attempt to keep his eyes open.

-

Peter woke up again a while later, and Tony put him down and let him loose in the gallery gift shop. 

“Do you think I’m an idiot?”

Tony looked up from the postcard rack. “Generally, or..?”

“Tony, do I look like I’m joking?”

“Sorry” Tony sighed. “No, I don’t think you’re an idiot. Why?”

Loki looked at Peter. Tony looked too. He was stood looking at a shelf of toys with his hands behind his back, looking far too serious for a tiny child.

“What are you thinking, Loll?”

“Big Peter always loves coming here. I thought it was a good idea...”

“Big Peter... He’s not little Peter. Little Peter was bored. He’s just a little kid. I don’t think there’s many toddlers who are into proper art” Tony said. “He liked all the old toys in the museum though. Especially that dolls house”

“Remember a couple of months after we adopted him, and you got low?”

Tony looked at him properly. “What’s that got to do with anything?”

“What did they say it was?”

“You know what they said” Tony snapped, turning away from him. 

Loki paused. “...I think that might be what this is”

Tony turned back to him. “Well now I do think you’re an idiot. You’re just overreacting”

“Overreacting, is that it? Is that what you think I’m doing? I’ll show you ‘overreacting’-” 

Loki grabbed him by the collar, only to release him promptly when it made someone else in the shop jump. He kept his hand on him.

“Say that again” he said lowly. “Say it. And see what happens”

“Daddy, daddy!” Peter appeared at their feet. “I know what to get that lady who sent me the box!”

“Oh good, well done, kiddo” Tony smiled down at the boy. “Do you want to show me?”

“Yes, I’ll show you!” Peter grinned, grabbing Tony’s hand.

Tony glanced at Loki, who scowled at him and grabbed the buggy.

“I’ll see you at the car”

-

Loki went into a very obvious sulk. Tony ignored him, turning the radio up in the car to drown out his own thoughts. As expected, Loki took a step back when they got back to the house. Tony tried not to care. He made him a mug of tea and something to eat, and sent him to his reading nook. He didn’t want Peter getting on Loki’s bad side. 

Tony fed Peter, and then they sat down together and got out some white paper and a big pack of crayons. Tony found he didn’t really know what to draw. He watched Peter for a while, who seemed to be brimming over with ideas. 

“What are you drawing, kiddo?”

“It’s a secret”

“Oh, right, I gotcha” Tony chuckled. “What should I draw, chick?”

“One of those big whooshy things you get at ride parks”

“You mean a rollercoaster?”

“I think so”

Tony nodded. “Right, ok. I’ll do that”

So he did. At first he was just messing about, doodling, but then he started thinking about it properly. Rollercoasters were all pretty samey. He was sure he could design a good one, so he set to work doing that. His doodles quickly became blueprints. It was quite fun, actually. Maybe it would be a good project for him.

-

Loki’s ears pricked up at the sound of the door opening. He rested a hand on Peter’s head for a moment before going out to the landing. 

“How are you doing?”

Tony shrugged slightly, walking past him. Loki followed. Tony sat down on the sofa, resting his elbow on the arm on the chair, and his head on his hand. Loki perched on the arm of the chair.

“What did the doctor say?”

“It’s not what I though it was” Tony said, his voice nearly expressionless. 

“So it’s not depression?”

“No, it is: it’s just a different kind” 

“What do you mean?”

“...No one ever gave us the reading... Have you ever heard of post-adoption depression?”

Loki paused, and then shook his head. “I can’t say I have”

“They said it’s similar to post-natal depression. Now, I know that’s something you know about”

“Oh Tony” Loki put his arms round him. “It’s alright. We’ll get through this. We always do, don’t we?”

“I just feel like such an idiot, Lolly” Tony said, his voice breaking. “It shouldn’t be this way. For fucks sake, this was supposed to be a good thing! We signed those papers, we had that holiday. We were happy, Loki”

“I know” Loki said gently. “It is a good thing. We all wanted it. It was the right thing to do. We know that... Darling, these things happen. You just need a bit of help, and you’ll be back on your feet in no time. We’ll do it together”

“If we hadn’t’ve adopted him, this wouldn’t’ve happened. It doesn’t make sense. We’ve had him with us for so long. Why did it decide to rear its head now??”

“We both struggled, especially at first. Hence my sabbatical. Things don’t always make sense; you should know that by now” 

“I hate it”

“I know”

“I don’t know why I’m doing this anymore”

The door creaked, and Peter came into the room, biting his thumb.

“Hi dad” 

Tony smiled at him as best he could. “Hey, sweetheart. Come here”

Peter didn’t need to be asked twice. He bounded over to the sofa and let Tony pull him onto his lap. Tony hugged him tight, nuzzling and kissing him on the cheek. He rested their heads together and reached up a hand, resting it on the boys face. He took a deep breath, and held the boy tighter. He didn’t want to let him go.

Loki rested a hand on Tony’s head.

“This is why you’re doing this” he said. 

Tony looked at him. He nodded, and kissed Peter again. 

“I love you, chick”

“I love you too, dad”

Loki put his arms round both of them. 

“My funny little family... We’ll be ok” he said. He rested his forehead against Tony’s temple, speaking into his ear. “We’ll get you through this. Those feelings aren’t forever. But these ones, with him? They can be forever”

Loki rested his hand over Tony’s on Peter’s cheek. Tony didn’t want to let the boy go, but he leant into Loki, taking another deep breath. 

“Thank you” he said, and he meant it.

Everything was so difficult, but that made moments like this all the more important. He knew what was wrong with him now. He knew what the next step had to be. And he knew that he wasn’t alone. He had Loki, his dear husband, and he had his darling little boy - who was now his more than ever before. He could get through this; for his sake, and for the sake of his family. He had a good thing going here. He wasn’t going to let this new strain of depression get the better of him.

-

Loki fell asleep for a bit, but he was just as angry when he woke up. More angry, in fact. He’d had time to think. 

Tony was absolutely unbelievable. After the way he’d been the first week after Peter’s accident with Kindsprengen’s gun, he had no right to judge the way anyone else was feeling, especially him. Who was it who had had to step up and look after a toddler, clueless and scared and without the support of his husband? Who was it who had felt so alone he may as well have been a single parent? Who was it who was decent enough not to take out all his anger and confusion on a helpless toddler who was none-the-wiser to the situation? Was it Anthony Edward Stark? Like hell it was. It was Loki Stark, someone just as fragile and scared, but obviously much stronger. Even if he did say so himself.

So how dare Tony say he was an idiot, and that he was overreacting when he said he thought there was something wrong? Maybe this was a form of post-natal depression. Tony didn’t know that it wasn’t. It was something, anyway. One of those feelings you couldn’t control. Loki loved Peter, and he loved Tony. But right now? Well, he missed big Peter. He wanted big Peter to suddenly walk through the door and run over to him, gushing madly about his latest patrol. As for Tony... Well, he was a cock. That was Loki’s resounding thought. Loki had been nothing but supportive all the way through Tony’s post-adoption depression (any many of his other downfalls), so why couldn’t Tony do the same for him?

Loki took a very deep breath, closing his eyes and listening to the song playing on the stereo.

It's a bit like being angry It's a bit like being scared, Confused and all mixed up And mad as hell, It's like when you've been crying And you're empty, and you're full, I don't know what it is; It's hard to tell

It’s like that there's some music Playing in your ear, But the music Is impossible Impossible to hear 

Loki opened his eyes. He needed to go out. He didn’t know where. He just knew he needed to go.

-

Something told Loki he needed to see Tony and Peter before he went. He pulled on his biking leathers and boots and then went through to the living room. 

“Are you going out?” Tony asked, looking him up and down. 

Loki crouched down, stroking Peter’s hair gently. He couldn’t bring himself to say anything. He kissed the toddler on the cheek. He took Tony’s hand and kissed that too. And then he stood up and walked out.

-

Loki hesitated when he got down to the garage. He saw Peter’s helmet hanging on the hook beside his own, the one he’d bought so that he could pick him up from school on the motorbike. He touched it gently, his heart thudding, his eyes watering. He cleared his throat, grabbing his own helmet and pulling it on. He took his bike outside, and spent a minute looking at it. Something was getting to him. Something in the back of his mind was shouting at him, but he couldn’t understand what it was saying. It had to be whatever this horrible depressing feeling was. Nothing more. He looked at the motorbike. He mounted, shoving the keys in the ignition, and he was off.

-

There was something about being on the motorbike that just felt unreal. It was like being in a different realm of existence, hearing nothing but the rush of the wind and the whirr of the engine. Tonight was no exception; but it was slightly different. The road seemed to stretch on forever. It seemed empty. Quiet. But loud at the same time, as though it was shouting to him. He needed to ignore it. He just wanted to ride, to stop thinking, to forget everything that was happening, just for a bit.

So he kept going, zoning out, focusing only on the streetlights and signs, and on what he was feeling. He didn’t notice anything else. He didn’t notice the sound of another engine. He didn’t notice them swerving, or their drunken shouting. 

But then there was a blur of black. 

He felt everything else.

He felt the impact. He heard it. He felt his bike tip, he felt the collision throwing him. He felt the gravel and the asphalt. He heard the shouting, the screeching of brakes, the crushing metal. He felt his head hitting the road. He felt the curb he collided with, which stopped him going any further. He felt his bike shake the ground as it landed beside him. He felt the strange, numb, almost-pain. He felt the wet of blood or rain; he wasn’t sure which. And he felt his eyes close.

*

[tornbetween2loves]

Clearing the air

This is my submission for the @choices-september-challenge. Today’s theme is “camping”. This was a request from @darley1101 for camping with Riley, Drake, Bertrand and Savannah. It is a stand alone fic. Shout out to @klaudiana-beaumontkkreal for the accompanying photo. She’s awesome.

All rights to these characters belong to Pixelberry. I am simply borrowing them.

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“Are we almost there?” Bertrand huffed, trying to catch his breath. They had been hiking through the woods near the palace for what seemed like hours. Savannah swatted his arm and gave him a little shove. “Stop being so difficult. If Drake says he knows the perfect spot to set up camp, then trust me, he knows.” “Hmmph,” Bertrand grunted. “Seems to me like we’re just lost.” He murmured quietly so only she could hear him. Savannah shot him a dirty look then smiled at Drake and Riley who were waiting for them ahead. “Bout time you all caught up,” Drake teased. “My favorite spot is just ahead.” Bertrand looked ahead but saw nothing different. He shot Drake a doubtful look. “It still just looks like woods to me.” Drake turned and began hiking again. He called over his shoulder, “Have a little faith Bertrand. Things aren’t always what they seem.”

Riley and Savannah both dropped back to walk with Bertrand. “Can you please try to relax and enjoy this trip? Just for one weekend, can you be Bertrand and not the Duke of Ramsford? For me?” Riley pleaded. Bertrand’s mouth dropped open but before he could speak Savannah cut in. “This trip is supposed to be about us bonding as a family. It’s important to me.” He rolled his eyes in submission. “Ok but only because you are my two favorite women in all of Cordonia.” They both smiled and leaned in to kiss each of his cheeks at the same time. Bertrand blushed as Drake turned around just in time to witness the dual kiss. He throws his arms up in the air with a grimace. “Why does he get all the love?” Riley and Savannah run to catch up to him and both lean up to kiss his cheeks. Riley then moves to his ear and whispers, “don’t be grumpy. You’ll have all my love later.” She wrapped her arms around his waist and softly kissed his lips.

“Get a room, you two,” Bertrand said. “Or I guess in this case a tent.” All of them turned to face Bertrand who had a cheesy grin on his face. Riley and Savannah glanced at each other and burst into giggles. The smile faded from Bertrand’s face. “Are you making fun of me?” Drake rolled his eyes and started walking. “Don’t worry about them Bertrand. They’re just being silly girls. Let’s go.” He walked a few more steps then veered off the path into the woods. They all followed behind him, Bertrand trying to hide his annoyance as he navigated through the brush. After a few minutes Drake pushed through one last bush into a clearing. Riley and Savannah followed next, stopping suddenly to take in the view. The clearing already had a fire pit with some wood gathered. There were tree stumps and fallen logs forming makeshift benches around the fire pit. And about 20 ft away the ground dropped off into a cliff, providing a great view of the valley below. “Wow, this place is awesome!” Riley said with a smile. “So pretty,” Savannah commented. “How come you never brought me here before?” Drake shrugged. “I didn’t find this place until after you left. I used to go camping quite often in the first few months you were gone.” Bertrand finally stumbled through the bush, cursing as the branches snagged his sweater vest. “Dammit! This is my favorite vest. It’s ruined,” he frowned as his fingers found the snags in the material. Savannah shot him a pleading look as Drake said, “Who wears a sweater vest camping? You gotta loosen up Bertrand. Especially if you wanna marry my sister. She’s not uptight and concerned with appearances like you are.”

“Ok, babe let’s get the tents set up. I’ll give you a hand,” Riley interjected as she grabbed Drake and pulled him over to the other side of the site. “We’re gonna go gather some more wood,” Savannah called out. Riley nodded at her and waved. She turned and gave Drake an exasperated look. “What? Come on, I’m trying here. He doesn’t make it easy.” Riley took off her back pack and they began to set up the tents. “Look, I know Bertrand is not your favorite person. I understand. But your sister loves him. She is gonna marry him. He is the father of your nephew. You need to try to get along. For the sake of our family. He’s not going away. Do you want holidays to always be as awkward as this camping trip has been so far?” Drake sighed as he rubbed his hands down his face. “I’m sorry, you’re right. I’ll try harder.”

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Later that evening they all sat around the campfire cooking hot dogs and roasting marshmallows. The awkwardness from earlier had faded, but tension still hung in the air between Drake and Bertrand. The girls were trying their best to keep the conversation light, but eventually an awkward silence fell on the group as they all finished eating. Riley couldn’t help but think of future family functions and holidays. Would it always feel this way? She glanced at Drake, pleading with her eyes for him to do or say something to make this better. “I have an idea,” he said as he stood up and walked over to his tent. He returned with a flask. Riley’s eyes lit up. “Oh let’s play truth or dare,” she said. Savannah smiled in agreement. “That’s a wonderful idea” Drake and Bertrand exchanged a look of annoyance. “Do we have to?” Bertrand said with a scowl. “Yeah can’t Bertrand and I just get drunk while you two play?” Drake said as he took a swig from the flask and passed it to Bertrand.

Riley glared at Drake. “That’s no fun. You’re both playing and that’s that.” She grabbed the flask from Bertrand and took a swig. “And we’ll all get drunk,” she snapped as she passed the flask to Savannah. The girls shared a giggle. “Now that the first round is done, who wants to go first. They get to drink next,” Savannah said as she stood up preparing to pass the flask. “I guess I’ll go first,” Drake muttered as he took the flask from his sister. “But only because I need a drink. I pick dare.” Riley giggled. “I dare you to strip down to your underwear,” she began as she looked at Savannah mischievously. “And climb that tree as high as you can,” Savannah said as she pointed at a large tree by the edge of the cliff. “When you reach the top, you must proclaim your love for Riley loud enough that it echos through the valley below,” Bertrand added. Drake’s mouth dropped open. The three of them smiled at Drake. “You all are serious?” He exclaimed. “You picked dare,” Riley said. Drake gulped and took a big swig from the flask. “Fine dammit,” he mumbled as he stood up to remove his clothes. He approached the tree in just his boxer briefs as the other three burst into fits of laughter. He glared at them as he began climbing the tree. It didn’t take him long to reach the top. When he got there, he perched on a branch, threw his arms over his head and yelled, “I love Riley Reynolds-Walker. She is amazing and I’m so thankful for her.” Then he climbed back down as the others applauded and cheered him. Riley met him under the tree and kissed him sweetly on the lips. “That was great my love,” she whispered. Drake brushed a piece of hair behind her ear and smiled at her.

After Drake got dressed he stood in the middle of the group, flask in hand. “Ok so who’s next?” Riley jumped up and grabbed the flask. “Me! I pick truth,” she said. Savannah grinned. “When did you first realize you had feelings for my brother?” Riley smiled and locked eyes with Drake. “It was actually in Lythikos. Drake got angry at Olivia and stormed out into the cold when a storm was coming. I followed him, and we laid in the snow and watched the most beautiful star-filled sky light up with shooting stars.”

Drake smiled at Riley as he wrapped his arm around her waist, pulling her down next to him. She took a swig from the flask, then tossed it to Bertrand. “My turn? I guess I pick truth.” Drake narrowed his eyes at Bertrand. “Are you sure you want to pick truth?” He said. Bertrand nodded as he also narrowed his eyes. “I will answer whatever question you ask.” Riley and Savannah exchanged nervous looks. Drake stood up and walked over to where Bertrand stood. He leaned in close and pushed his finger into Bertrand’s chest. “I want to know what you did to my sister to make her leave,” he said as their eyes locked. Riley and Savannah jumped up and approached them. “Drake that’s not really a fair question,” Savannah said. “He doesn’t know why I left. He didn’t know I was pregnant. I didn’t tell him anything. I didn’t tell anyone anything.” Drake turned to face his sister, his eyes watery. “I need someone to explain this to me. I have to understand what happened in order to move past this. Please.”

Riley approached and placed a hand on Drake’s shoulder. “Maybe this isn’t the time or place,” she began. But Bertrand cut in. “No Riley, Drake is right. This is it. This is our chance to clear the air. So we can put this whole frightful mess behind us and move on.” He took a swig from the flask then passed it to Savannah. He looked Drake in the eye and said, “I can’t speak for Savannah, but I acted like a fool. I loved her, even back then, but was too proud to admit it to myself, let alone anyone else.” “Too proud?” Drake said angrily. “Why? Because you were too good for my sister? Because she is just a commoner and you’re the Duke of Ramsford and it wasn’t proper?” Bertrand moved in closer to Drake. “No! It wasn’t that at all! It was because I wasn’t good enough for her. My house was facing financial ruin. What could I offer her? What kind of future could I provide? So I pushed her away. And for that I will always be sorry.” He turned away from Drake, pinching the bridge of his nose. “I will always be ashamed of my actions.” He approached Savannah and wrapped his arms around her waist. “I’m so sorry that I hurt you. I spent my whole life worrying about the image of House Beaumont and poured all my time and energy into keeping a sinking ship afloat. I should have followed my heart back then. Maybe things would be different. Maybe you wouldn’t have left and maybe there wouldn’t be all this tension.”

Savannah hugged Bertrand close as Drake shook his head. “Financial ruin? I don’t understand.” Riley turned to Drake. “It’s true. House Beaumont is broke. Maxwell brought me here so they could sponsor me in the hopes that Liam would pick me and restore their house’s honor.” Drake looked at Riley. “You never told me that.” “It wasn’t my place to tell you about it,” she said. Drake sighed and approached Bertrand and Savannah. He put a hand on his shoulder. “I understand why you did what you did, Bertrand,” then he turned to face Savannah. “But why did you leave? Without even an explanation? I thought we were close.”

Tears coursed down Savannah’s cheeks as she turned to Drake. “I was so ashamed. I couldn’t believe I was in that position. I always thought I was smarter than that. I couldn’t tell you. I couldn’t stand for you to look at me like you’re looking at me right now. I can take you being angry. But I just couldn’t live with being such a disappointment to you.” Drake wrapped his arms around his sister as tears flowed from both their eyes. “I could never be disappointed in you Savannah. You are one of the strongest women I know. You left the country and had a baby all on your own, with very little support. I’m sorry that you didn’t feel comfortable enough to come to me when you needed help. That’s my fault. But you must know that I would do anything for you. You’re the only sister I have.” Savannah nodded into his chest.

Riley approached and wrapped her arms around them both. “See, underneath that rough exterior, Drake really is just a big marshmallow.” Everyone laughed as they separated from the hug. Bertrand watched the group embrace. Drake motioned for him to join. He extended his hand for Bertrand to shake. They shook hands with a smile, pulling each other into a brotherly hug. “Take care of my sister Bertrand. If you hurt her again I swear I’ll kick your ass.” Bertrand wrapped his arms around Savannah’s neck possessively. “Don’t worry. I’ll never push her away again. She’s mine,” he said as he bent to kiss her.

The tension melted away from the group as they sat back down around the campfire. They all chatted happily about the upcoming wedding. Riley smiled at Drake as she scooted closer to him on the bench. “Thank you,” she said and planted a soft kiss on the end of his nose. “For what?” “For making this work. For clearing the air. For moving past the pain.” Drake smiled and cupped Riley’s cheek. “Well you were right,” he said. “This is our family. It’s important that we get along.” He kissed her gently then stood up. “I have an idea. I’ll be right back.” He went to his tent and returned with a bag a moment later. He pulled out a familiar looking whiskey box. “Uh, Drake I really don’t think we need any more whiskey,” Bertrand stated as he took another swig from the flask. “This isn’t whiskey,” Drake said as he removed the lid. “This is a wedding present from my beautiful wife.” He pulled out the bag of marshmallows and set them on the bench beside him. He reached into the bag and grabbed a box of graham crackers and two chocolate bars. “I’ve been saving these for a special occasion. I can think of no better occasion than this,” he said. “Our first family camping trip.”

[tony-lee-gordy]

Noah’s Notes Chapter 1 Overview/ Frist Impressions

  So recently I've been getting into reading a lot more manga just out of a whim while also being inspirited by one of my favorite YouTubers ChibiReviews. He follows and reviews both currently going manga as well as stuff to watch in each anime season and while I don't watch a lot of the review content (mostly due to the fact there are some shows/ manga I wanna catch up to myself on my own time) I like his personality and quality on how he makes his videos and all that and it inspired me to go out and find a recent manga to read for myself.

  So I looked on the site I go to read manga and the site I'm using to keep up to date on the series I'm cureently following and I saw this one series that started up a little under a month ago. And I will say after reading the first chapter and see the twist near the end and the underlined and defined ultimate goal of the series, I may wanna follow this series. Also keep in mind that I am going to basically spoil the entire first chapter so if you wanna go in completely blind I reccomend it. I will say it is worth your time to read based on this one chapter. Also I am really rusty when it comes to writing stuff like this so bear with me.

    So before the story begins in proper, you see that this is all form the perspective of our main female lead. Meaning this is gonna be one of those stories akin to My Hero Academia where the story is more of how it basically recounts the entire seires from her point of view.. I wonder if this series will have a stronger presence of narration as the series goes on but it's too early to tell. By that I mean will each chapter begin wiht the main female lead introducing and recounting each and every chapter as she write this all down in her notes, which has a bit of meaning behind it now that I think bout it.

   The chapter starts out (for real) and we're introduced to our main female lead Mirai Kotobuki as she complains how useless it is to know about history..a statement mentioned that I'm sure won’t bite her in the ass in a few pages clearly. And I just have to point out just how short her skirt is it like...i can tell this series will be prone to some more fan service type moments later on in the series so I'm interested to see how this will be done for comedy or for distrsction...I also hope this doens’t mean our main female lead will be dull and boring...i hope not. 

 That slight concern aside, we see Mirai is your typical teenager who has the narrow-minded goal of settling down and being a housewife. This explains her disinterest in studying as she believes it will not benefit her in any way shape or form.  An on this particular day she happens to stumble upon a rock wiht a weird shiny object inbedded in a stone...clearly something you would wannna instantly post to on social media (no seriously she pulls out her phone and posts it...i really hope they don;t do THAT many millennial type gags in this.)    

     Not long after however we are introduced to the titcular character Noah Minami Umberbach, an archeologiest and history buff who seems like the type of person who starts off putting his work before others, often leading them into danger. I've seen this type of character before in other media but something about him made him really enjoyable. These types of characters sometimes lead themselves into some mroe comical situations. Maybe the fact he more or less “kidnaps” Mirai and brings her along on his excavation and even holds a gun up to her head and even in her mouth at one point. I didn’t think he would ever outright pull the trigger since I'm sure he mostly did it for the intimidation factor but regardless that was rather ballsy almost irksome to me to be honest. We are also introduced to his assistant Takeda who seems to fill the role of the type of character who would hold Noah down from going overboard but we really didn't get much of him this chapter so we shall see if he gets any devolpment.

     So few pages later, the two arrive at the local train station where they earn that underneath there was an entire cave system. And after a bit of banter we learn the main core message and how important the concept of history is to Professor Noah and he brings up an interesting point in the chapter about how everyone of us have our own personal history and going on the say how basing the actions of the past are how we can better ourselves in the futurw. This is stuff I've heard before but the personal history line he said made me stop and realize how true that is. That all the experiences we go through in our lives technically are apart of our perosnal history and how we can use that to shape our future...i feel like this is going to be the overall message and theme of this manga. 

   After that scneen thye're LED RO a small key holder that just so happened to be what Mirai's strange sparkly thing in the rock was. And upon using it and goind down and elevator we learn the biggest secret as well as the main plot of this seires and the biggest major twist.....

So apparently 100,000 years ago the earth went exstinct and the world they live in now is the “second round" or rahter humanity's “second attempt" to stop the world from ending. Because it eventually learned that 4 years from now in the year 2022, whatever happened to the previous human race will happen once again the cycle seemingly repeating in loop. However, humanity has left behind notes to not only locate and discover what happened and how life was like in the previous time, but hopefully away to prevent this romance happening again. And With that the chapter ends on our main plot line for the series.

  So overall this chapter and impressions of he series are very positive. Initially I was thinking this would be your typical around the world, kind of adventure story, however the added looming threat of the main heroes being on a constant time limit as well as the whole mystery of the past world a world that is pretty much identical to the current world mind you, that are to be descipered  is what hooked me and makes me wanna continue reading from here on. I think this could shape up to be a very fun mystery adventure series and like I said I wanna know more about the past world what happened how did it happen, all the while seeing all the possible locations both the professor and Mirai will travel to on their advenutre to basically save the worl. I'm gonna keep follwoing this and if this gest a good enough reception I may even do weekly chapter reviews to share my thoughts and opnions. I enjoyed wiritng this and hopefully you enjoyed reading it. And who knows? Maybe I got you interested into this series as well.

[dragongirldreams]

So, I guess it’s time enough that I should talk about my experience with Tumblr. I mean, it’s only been, what, a couple months since I said I would talk about it?

...イヤァァですけどー...(For those who can’t read Japanese: “...Iyaaa desu kedo~...” so it would mean something like “...Even though it’s unpleasant...” or ”...Even though I’m reluctant...”)(...what? You think I’m stalling? Me? Stalling? Using the Japanese language? Stalling? ...Okay, okay, you got me.

Uh... the thing is, unlike my time spent on that forum and on Deviantart, the time I spent on Tumblr, well... I don’t really look back on it fondly. And I guess it might have been part of the reason there isn’t really a “4th” influential site...

I- I’m not talking about you though! That era was already looong over by the time my sister had me make this blog. All the people that follow me, and all the people I follow, you’ve all been great!

This already has a fair bit more than I usually put above the “Read More,” so, let’s, uh, continue this there. I suppose the above counts as ample enough warning.

So, uh, to offer a slight recap... There are 3 specific sites I (somewhat frequently) visited at specific times early on in my internet life that stick out to my as “significantl” somehow. I don’t know, I just consider them “important.”

The “First” was a roleplaying forum I was a regular on. I wasn’t really good at roleplaying, honestly, but that wasn’t important. While it was the main focus, roleplaying wasn’t the only thing we talked about. This was the first internet community I really felt a part of, the first place I felt I could be myself, really. It was also where I learned that even on the Internet there were unspoken rules and things you “just shouldn’t say,” when I said why “shapeshifting” was the superpower I wanted, and everyone else called me “weird” for it.

The “Second” was Deviantart. I didn’t actually make an account here, because I was starting to get self-conscious. I mean, I wasn’t going to be writing any stories, (my roleplaying was bad enough when I have other people to help me, I’m sure it would be even worse when I have to come up with everything myself) and I wasn’t going to be writing too many comments, (what if I said something “weird” again and made people uncomfortable?) so why even bother?

Umm, before I continue, I want to make it clear that the self-consciousness didn’t really come from the rp forum. Aside from the one “weird” incident, they never really said anything to put me down. Most of my self-consciousness either came from Real Life and all it’s many pressures, or perhaps because I also started spending some time on TV Tropes, learning all about things like “Mary Sues” and “Self-Inserts” and how it’s all bad writing. I don’t really consider TV Tropes an “important site,” though. Despite ultimately spending a comparable amount of time there as on the others, it feels more like a footnote than a proper chapter, at least to me. It’s just missing a certain, je ne sais quoi.

So, back to Deviantart. While it was (and probably still is) primarily an art site, I spent more time reading... I kinda wanna say “fanfics,” but a lot of them were original, rather than being based on someone else’s work. I guess they were kinda like doujinshi, but short stories rather than manga. That’s the kinda “feel” they had about them. Anyway, I eventually found that I particularly enjoyed “TGTF” stories, and I spent most of my time here looking at groups with that as a theme. I can’t think of any particular lessons I learned here, to be honest. It was just somewhere I could go to escape the stresses of the Real World.

Uhh... onto Tumblr proper, finally. I think I’ve said this before, but to restate it, the reason I came to Tumblr in the first place was that I wanted to learn how to be a better feminist and LGBT ally. So, I mostly hung around in political and social justice tags.

But, unlike the Deviantart groups which had moderators to decide what gets in or not, on Tumblr anyone could put anything they wanted in any tag they wanted.

I could tell some of the more blatant stuff was bunk, if you asked me I would definitely say that trans people were the gender they said they were, and that gay people had just as much a right to love each and marry each other as straight people, but... I was still a kid, and I didn’t really understand the concept of “dogwhistles,” so I got pretty easily fooled by people just appropriating progressive-sounding language, and I ended up internalizing a lot of TERF/truscum and bi/pan/acephobic rhetoric. (Also a bit of racism, to a lesser degree, because I didn’t spend as much time looking into matters relating to race as I did ones related to sexuality or gender.)

Looking at the above, it’s not hard to see a bit of a common theme there. They all paint their targets as “just [privileged group] trying to invade/appropriate [oppressed group] spaces,” and evil for it. This kinda mixed poorly with my experience with “interruptions,” and led me to somewhat misinterpret sayings such as “stay in your lane” and “it’s not my job to educate you.” I managed to see my mere presence as a “straight white cis man” as something which inherently was offensive and silenced minorities. And as I was a big Liberal until recently, I put a lot of value on “free speech,” so if my presence in LGBT and feminist spaces was “interrupting” people, then it was imperative that I, a disgusting straight male, not be in LGBT and feminist spaces.

I suppose that, if that first forum unravelled the lie that the internet was free of taboos, then Tumblr shattered the delusion that it was free of gender.

I kinda want to go on a bit, but I can’t really think of any follow-ups. Such a line just has too strong a sense of finality. Luckily, I’m realizing that there actually was a “Fourth.” And in a way, it kind of acts as a mix of the other three.

So, setting the scene. Having quit the roleplaying forum out of lack of confidence in my roleplaying abilities, stopped reading TG stories on DA to not be offensive, and no longer going on Tumblr due to it only reminding me of my body, where was a gi-- guy to go?

Why, none other than 4chan, of course! That place that’s famous for being offensive! And specifically /tg/, the roleplaying section! I am not smart. (Note: /tg/ stands for “tabletop games” ie DnD, WarHammer, MtG, and the like. It is, for the most part, unrelated to the “TG stories on DA,” which is short for TGTF) (Second Note: Like with Tumblr, I at least had the wisdom to stay away from the boards with especially bad reputations, ie /b/, /pol/, /lgbt/. I also didn’t really go on /a/ or /v/ often, mostly just staying on /tg/ --which was considered one of the more progressive boards, relatively speaking.

Anyway, in /tg/ I especially spent a lot of time in /cyoag/, or the “Choose Your Own Adventure General” threads. Now, some of you might know of the old “Choose Your Own Adventure” books, but the CYOAs posted and talked about in /cyoag/ were very different; they were more like character creators, or would-you-rathers. Here’s some I enjoyed as examples (they’re kind of a big, though);

Sorry for the image spam there. And these are just some one-page ones; there are ones much longer I’ve enjoyed, like “Serene Serendipity,” -- which is about going childhood again, and pretty wholesome despite the name -- “Royal Revival,” -- where you’re secretly the reincarnation of a princess from a fantasy world who got assassinated, but your family managed to pull off a resurrection spell -- “A Mage’s Familiar,” -- you get reincarnated as the familiar of a wizard, or a witch. It does pretty well with it’s execution, there’s a bunch of different ways you can take things -- or the “Accidental Magical Girl CYOA” (or “AMGC,” for short) -- where, for some reason or another, you are turned into a Magical Girl (although an optional perk allows you to be a Magical Boy instead, that means one less perk for other things). I find the use of rolls/random numbers really increases the replayability, and helps to inspire different ways to take things. There’s this one perk, for example, that has you roll up a second character as a teammate, and this one time I rolled it, but then the new characters kept also rolling it until I had a whole 5-girl squad to go on (imagined) adventures with. That last one actually got so popular it had to split off into it’s one thread.

...I’m not sure where I’m going with this. I mean, ultimately I am, but I’m not sure how I’m going to get there. I’ve been trying to think of ways to continue for at least a day or so, now. “Maybe talk about the culture” I thought, but what would be an organic way into it? And how would I be able to capture the feel? A lot of the important things, while nigh omnipresent, were also often in the background.

I don’t know. I don’t know if there’s any kind of lesson I learned there. But it offered some sense of community when that was what I needed, as well as some pretty good escapism.

To end things off, I think I should mention this one line I saw the other day, though I don’t quite remember were. I think it was an old tweet. Regardless, what it said was, “If you were a teenage boy on 4chan, you’re either a neckbeard or a girl.”

I don’t think I’m much of a neckbeard, though. So, I guess what I’m saying is...

[psychedeliceyeball]

I make music, but I sure can’t draw cover art for it. What about you?

(IF YOU WANNA SKIP TO THE IMPORTANT STUFF SKIP TO THE PART THAT SAYS “UNTIL NOW” IN BOLD)

For this writeup, we will backtrack all the way to 2010. Back in the early 2000s, I use to write a bunch of music in MIDI format. Yeah, the music that sounds really bad on every soundcard out there today and for which you’ll likely need pro audio equipment to play properly nowadays. I wrote music steadily from 200 to 2006, which is when I got bored and tired of the limitations of the MIDI format.

If you wanna listen to some of these, check out my old dead site from 2006: http://music.themaxproject.com/midis.php

Fast forward to 2010, where I kinda grew disinterested of music in general apart from making some songs here and here. I was transitioning to audio, but never quite managed to find my footing. I started buying some actual music gear but failed to use it in a proper way. Then, February rolls in and I get to heard about the RPM Challenge. “Record a full album of music all in February.” This was an insane idea, so I signed up.

And I did it! With about 36 hours to spare, I came up with my first complete collection of songs I’d call an album. It was a 10-track set of ambient, wintery songs that depicted the adventures of an unnamed person dealing with winter. It had some filler material due to the circumstances of the project, but it was my very first baby and I was proud of it. It was called “Winter Always Winter”

This process repeated during February 2011 and 2012, where I created two more albums under the same circumstances. 2011 saw the making of a watery-typed album which was more pop-oriented and less on the ambient side, 2012 was a progressive metal-influenced musical journey about the experience of death. You can listen to all of these albums here:

http://themaxproject.rpmchallenge.com/

I released these albums online, but they never ventured far past the website of RPM Challenge. Part of me was doubtful toward the music, the production which I didn’t like that much (especially the 2010 album) but in the end, I designed these albums to challenge myself and not really for the public to hear. As a result, the artwork for these albums was just pictures found on Google Images and slapped without any thought. These albums were not to be sold or shared, so who cares about the cover art? I had some encouraging words here and there, but I didn’t believe that I should share these songs openly.

Until now.

After giving it some thought, I do want this music to reach to a wider audience. I’ll put it for sale on Bandcamp for people who wanna buy it, but I’ll also put free to download versions as well. But in order to do so, I need them to have an actual face. You know, actual cover art and not something taken straight from Google Images.

Since I have no artistic talent (on the visual side at the very least), this is where you can come and help me. If you like drawing pictures or take photographs, you can help picture my music and make cover art for my albums. You can go listen to the music on this URL to know how the music sounds like.

http://themaxproject.rpmchallenge.com/

I'll talk about the albums a little bit more in depth in order to help inspire you in your endeavours and for you to know what kind of thing you'd be dealing with.

Winter Always Winter (2010) : A mostly ambient album with an occasional experimental pop feel. The mood carried through the music is very somber, cold and distant. It conveys the story of a person confronting winter. It starts in an hopeful matter, but they end up losing a friend who gets swallowed in a frozen lake. They lose all reason, running through the woods endlessly and feeling the trees are alive and can attack them at any given moment. All sense of time is lost and they end up lost in the frozen woods, losing the last of their strength as the sunshine finally comes. By then, it's already too late.

Aquastrophia (2011) : The name was supposed to be a mixture of the words "Aquatic Catastrophe" and water is the main theme of the album. In comparison, this is a warmer album which has a stronger pop feel to it. It introduces some electric guitar elements and the overall mood is kinder. In due time, the music gets more menacing as the events unravel. It involves the idea of a beautiful lake that attracts whoever sets eye on it. As time passes, people feel the need to dive in the lake and explore it. However, the lake powers are so strong it lures people in believing they don't need to ever surface. They drown and drift away into a hidden community consisting of sea creatures, where they get revived, but also transformed as one of them, making sure they'll never return to Earth to speak about what they've found, but also making it so that they have a new life in the undersea.

Infinity Decayed (2012) : The last album of the lot. Definitely the darkest album of the lot and also the heaviest. Most of the pop sensibilities from the previous albums are gone, replaced instead with monolithic metal with heavy progressive rock influences. Compositions are dense, bleak and oppressive. The theme of the album is death and its process. The songs convey the following stages of death: the refusal of dying and the fight until the bitter end, the last of your strength fading away as death claims you, the feeling of your soul drifting away in the afterlife, the arrival in Limbo, where a huge stretch of nothing appears before your eyes and where not a single soul is to be found, the refusal of your new eternal home in Limbo and finally, the resigned acceptance of your new fate.

Hopefully that should cover most of it. If you have any artwork you wanna share, feel free to send me a message on Tumblr for me to read and we'll discuss the terms of use and how much money you want me to pay for it. If you don't want money, I can also pay you in video games; just tell me that one game on Steam you want but didn't feel like spending money on!

Thanks for reading!

[airoasis]

Marketing for Lawyers - 8 Tips

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Marketing for Lawyers - 8 Tips

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About eighty% of search at present is cellular. So check your website for your cell. Ensure that it appears just right and in addition do a chook’s eye view assessment of your internet site design in comparison with a few of your different regulation organization competitors. The main factor there’s, your expertise patron is doing the equal factor.So they’re clicking by way of a couple of internet sites they usually’re doing some evaluation of their possess intellect and it is founded on design and content material. So when you believe that your internet site falls quick towards a few of your rivals, you gonna wanna level up for your website so you’re now not a dropping trade centered on design. Tip quantity two, if you want your company to dominate, you need to dominate page, you wanna google to your high search phrases. So depending on what sort of a law organization that you’ve got, feel about those search phrases. Men and women are shopping more than a few matters to find someone for your area. What are those terms? And you are gonna wanna dominate page one for these terms in three places.Position quantity one could be in the paid commercials. That is the highest three listings on prime. You have got to pay to play. So make sure you put money into paid search to be there by way of the paid ad when someone searches. That is main because those are on top. Various times individuals are searching on a cellular these days and so they’re quite not even gonna scroll down. So if you’re now not in the high spots, you are lacking out on talents trade. So make certain you make investments to be there. Number two is to get into the maps. To get in to the maps you’re gonna wanna optimize your google my trade web page. Be certain that it is totally populated, that you’ve the listing on google my industry and that you’re getting studies. For those who do those things and you’re within common proximity of the searcher, you’re gonna show up in the maps and that is position number two.And position number three on page one is organic search. You’re gonna wanna rank organically on the web page you need on your top phrases as well. For that you are gonna wanna optimize your website in lots of quite a lot of methods and you are gonna wanna create ongoing content material for your website by way of a blog put up, new pages of content, movies, infographics and other matters in order that your site ranks greater organically as good. But in the event you suppose about it, there is only rather ten or so positions on Google when someone searches a term If you can own three of these, you’re gonna quite dominate in the space and you’re gonna see a colossal lead drift for brand spanking new expertise purchasers. Tip three is to make use of a CRM. CRM allows you to optimize your strategies, stay prepared, work each leads and purchasers to have the high-quality final result.You can also build an automation which i’m about to break down proper now. So it 4 is to established email automation. That you can established e mail automation very readily together with your CRM if you are utilising a CRM. One example right here could be whilst you conclude a case and the final result is good, that you may have the CRM routinely ship an email out to your customer asking for a overview.This helps construct your rankings and reports and your on-line repute as well as helps you rank better within the maps. And it can be gonna all be computerized. A further instance can be a new lead comes for your website looking for a free consultation. Which you can have automatic e-mails going out speakme about your system, your fame, your experience and different things to aid you shut those offers. Tip 5 is to invest in your on-line popularity. Earlier than anyone reaches out to you, requests a free consultation or calls you, numerous instances they’re gonna return to Google, Search your brand identify and the word reviews. And in case you don’t have a good hen’s eye view there, when you don’t have four 5 stars showing up on the primary page of Google, should you don’t have powerful reports, you are gonna be lacking out on plenty of business. And especially when you’ve got some bad reports, that is gonna hurt you. So you wanna make certain you invest on your on-line fame. Should you don’t have someone on employees that can regularly ask for studies and screen your repute, you really customarily must spend money on a company doing it for you or hire and somebody can care of it for you because it is whatever that you can not be skipping on.Tip quantity six is to get listed in local directories and directory web sites specially ones that are vital to your targeted law company and enterprise. There is lots of exceptional varieties of directories the place individuals maybe shopping for a potential legal professional or lawyer to work with outside of simply searching on Google. And so you’re gonna wanna be certain that you simply get listed there, that you optimize your list and that you additionally capture studies for your listing so that you just stand out in the crowd. Tip number seven is to be certain that you’re doing retargeting.Retargeting essentially stays in front of persons which have visited your internet site or maybe obvious you on social media as they are in the study mode. As , most men and women are doing a bit of little bit of research before they without a doubt take the ultimate step and reach out to you or request a session. And so you wanna stay in front of these people for the period of that study system so when they’re equipped to reach out, you’re there and they suppose of you first. So remarketing is enormous to invest in in view that persons after they discuss with your website online, will see you on more than a few web sites online, on fb, on Instagram, on YouTube. Just further building believe and credibility on your brand of their intellect. So when they come to decision making time, they opt for you.Tip number eight is to develop some informational movies off around your enterprise and put those on YouTube and spend some money investing and promoting these movies so when individuals search on YouTube for various themes, your movies exhibit up because the recommended videos for them to watch. This is primary seeing that a number of people earlier than they definitely relatively attain out to you, they go by way of a interval of research around their specified problem and how they maybe in a position to solve that and the way they probably equipped to get out of it and those varieties of matters. And one location that they may be doing that is YouTube. It is the ultimate place for them to head and educate themselves and watch videos. So should you create content material that answers a few of these questions, they’re gonna see those matters on YouTube and they’re gonna be prompted to then reach out to you and do business with you. And so it is not some thing that’s too difficult in doing. You do not have to have a perfect setup. You could even use your phone telephone to video a few of these hints and trays and things that you simply wanna duvet around your industry.Get these out within the wild on YouTube and invest some cash in advertising these in order persons are looking, it suggests up as a encouraged video for them to watch. So hopefully these tips aid you better fully grasp different approaches that you can possibly market your law company and develop your small business. If in case you have any questions please leave a remark. Also for those who like the video, adore it, share. Comply with us for more content like this sooner or later. You could additionally text marketing to 399704 for weekly advertising and marketing tips sent to you via text message. (soft music) .

[batterymonster2021]

Marketing for Lawyers - 8 Tips

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Marketing for Lawyers - 8 Tips

– on this video, we’re gonna break down eight robust advertising tips for legal professionals. Hello, i am JB with advertising 360 and we aid small organizations grow with our advertising and design skill science via our number one advertising and marketing platform, advertising and marketing 360. We call advertising and marketing and design MAD. And we like MAD and optimistically this movies, will help you fall in love with MAD too. So make certain to follow us to be trained guidelines, tips and systems to grow your business and gasoline your brand. Step number one is to construct a reputable excessive excellent suitable internet site. Most of the time when anyone is considering doing business with you, they’re gonna do relatively somewhat of research and analysis and they’re gonna try this for your internet site. And so you’re gonna wanna make certain you may have a official website on your firm and you are gonna wanna make sure that that internet site’s cell pleasant. About eighty% of search at present is cellular. So check your website for your cell. Ensure that it appears just right and in addition do a chook’s eye view assessment of your internet site design in comparison with a few of your different regulation organization competitors. The main factor there’s, your expertise patron is doing the equal factor.So they’re clicking by way of a couple of internet sites they usually’re doing some evaluation of their possess intellect and it is founded on design and content material. So when you believe that your internet site falls quick towards a few of your rivals, you gonna wanna level up for your website so you’re now not a dropping trade centered on design. Tip quantity two, if you want your company to dominate, you need to dominate page, you wanna google to your high search phrases. So depending on what sort of a law organization that you’ve got, feel about those search phrases. Men and women are shopping more than a few matters to find someone for your area. What are those terms? And you are gonna wanna dominate page one for these terms in three places.Position quantity one could be in the paid commercials. That is the highest three listings on prime. You have got to pay to play. So make sure you put money into paid search to be there by way of the paid ad when someone searches. That is main because those are on top. Various times individuals are searching on a cellular these days and so they’re quite not even gonna scroll down. So if you’re now not in the high spots, you are lacking out on talents trade. So make certain you make investments to be there. Number two is to get into the maps. To get in to the maps you’re gonna wanna optimize your google my trade web page. Be certain that it is totally populated, that you’ve the listing on google my industry and that you’re getting studies. For those who do those things and you’re within common proximity of the searcher, you’re gonna show up in the maps and that is position number two.And position number three on page one is organic search. You’re gonna wanna rank organically on the web page you need on your top phrases as well. For that you are gonna wanna optimize your website in lots of quite a lot of methods and you are gonna wanna create ongoing content material for your website by way of a blog put up, new pages of content, movies, infographics and other matters in order that your site ranks greater organically as good. But in the event you suppose about it, there is only rather ten or so positions on Google when someone searches a term If you can own three of these, you’re gonna quite dominate in the space and you’re gonna see a colossal lead drift for brand spanking new expertise purchasers. Tip three is to make use of a CRM. CRM allows you to optimize your strategies, stay prepared, work each leads and purchasers to have the high-quality final result.You can also build an automation which i’m about to break down proper now. So it 4 is to established email automation. That you can established e mail automation very readily together with your CRM if you are utilising a CRM. One example right here could be whilst you conclude a case and the final result is good, that you may have the CRM routinely ship an email out to your customer asking for a overview.This helps construct your rankings and reports and your on-line repute as well as helps you rank better within the maps. And it can be gonna all be computerized. A further instance can be a new lead comes for your website looking for a free consultation. Which you can have automatic e-mails going out speakme about your system, your fame, your experience and different things to aid you shut those offers. Tip 5 is to invest in your on-line popularity. Earlier than anyone reaches out to you, requests a free consultation or calls you, numerous instances they’re gonna return to Google, Search your brand identify and the word reviews. And in case you don’t have a good hen’s eye view there, when you don’t have four 5 stars showing up on the primary page of Google, should you don’t have powerful reports, you are gonna be lacking out on plenty of business. And especially when you’ve got some bad reports, that is gonna hurt you. So you wanna make certain you invest on your on-line fame. Should you don’t have someone on employees that can regularly ask for studies and screen your repute, you really customarily must spend money on a company doing it for you or hire and somebody can care of it for you because it is whatever that you can not be skipping on.Tip quantity six is to get listed in local directories and directory web sites specially ones that are vital to your targeted law company and enterprise. There is lots of exceptional varieties of directories the place individuals maybe shopping for a potential legal professional or lawyer to work with outside of simply searching on Google. And so you’re gonna wanna be certain that you simply get listed there, that you optimize your list and that you additionally capture studies for your listing so that you just stand out in the crowd. Tip number seven is to be certain that you’re doing retargeting.Retargeting essentially stays in front of persons which have visited your internet site or maybe obvious you on social media as they are in the study mode. As , most men and women are doing a bit of little bit of research before they without a doubt take the ultimate step and reach out to you or request a session. And so you wanna stay in front of these people for the period of that study system so when they’re equipped to reach out, you’re there and they suppose of you first. So remarketing is enormous to invest in in view that persons after they discuss with your website online, will see you on more than a few web sites online, on fb, on Instagram, on YouTube. Just further building believe and credibility on your brand of their intellect. So when they come to decision making time, they opt for you.Tip number eight is to develop some informational movies off around your enterprise and put those on YouTube and spend some money investing and promoting these movies so when individuals search on YouTube for various themes, your movies exhibit up because the recommended videos for them to watch. This is primary seeing that a number of people earlier than they definitely relatively attain out to you, they go by way of a interval of research around their specified problem and how they maybe in a position to solve that and the way they probably equipped to get out of it and those varieties of matters. And one location that they may be doing that is YouTube. It is the ultimate place for them to head and educate themselves and watch videos. So should you create content material that answers a few of these questions, they’re gonna see those matters on YouTube and they’re gonna be prompted to then reach out to you and do business with you. And so it is not some thing that’s too difficult in doing. You do not have to have a perfect setup. You could even use your phone telephone to video a few of these hints and trays and things that you simply wanna duvet around your industry.Get these out within the wild on YouTube and invest some cash in advertising these in order persons are looking, it suggests up as a encouraged video for them to watch. So hopefully these tips aid you better fully grasp different approaches that you can possibly market your law company and develop your small business. If in case you have any questions please leave a remark. Also for those who like the video, adore it, share. Comply with us for more content like this sooner or later. You could additionally text marketing to 399704 for weekly advertising and marketing tips sent to you via text message. (soft music) .

[dailybayonetta]

Oof. Really don't wanna interrupt into your day but I always wondered, when did you start making GIF sets and all that goodness? Did you start on Tumblr with this blog? Kinda a bit curious. But anyways, really hope you have a good day!

Hmmm, yeah, I think I did made gifs before I joined tumblr (around 2010-11? god, that was 8 years ago), but they are mostly were not sets and just simple stuff I made while watching a bunch of animes and I was just capturing some stuff to myself or sharing them with people I watched anims together. 

The first set I “officially” posted on my main blog (and nope, i didn’t started with this blog, some of you still don’t check the owner of this blog/page and don’t realise that dailybayonetta is one of my sideblogs and i’m part of @dailyvideogames and @dailysailormoon ((you can see where gimmick comes from)) too if any of you also want to see my other stuff), unfortanetly the theme says “team” and I’m just lazy to change it for something else in the code,

but, anyway, under tag “my gif” (if any of you want to check out gifs from my main blog why not 🤔) is some Final fantasy gifs that I made from ffxv e3 gameplay showcase (x) and holy fuck, it is a 2013th year! 

After I did a few game gifsб after that then moved to anime because that’s what my fandom was back when (mostly Fma/AoT) and the peak of my animation gifs was this set. It was actually a first time I decided to give up on people resources and try everything myself.

And my first actual gifset I was really happy with and was this one. And looking at it now, I even still like it! Comparing to what gif size limit we had (1MB!!!)....It’s actually aged not that bad. 

And I think, I got better again and finally moved to making gaming gifs (besides resident evil) around when Bayo2 was coming out I backed out and replayed the first game and this was a set that came out with it. And oh sweet, sweet innocent times when I was just downloading terrible vids without any quality. BUT! One of the reasons I didn’t started this blog before even thought Bayonetta was my hyperfixation as well, it’s because Bayonetta never had a PC port so I could easily manipulate it for any gifs I want and when it did got a port I started a gif spam of Bayo gifs on my main, but I decided that would be a waste to just become one themed blog, so I decided to finally use sideblog feature on this site (and holyshit in a few months and it will be 2 years on Bayo on PC)

But then I made, and I still think so, one of my favorite sets ever. Which got me back in shape of making gaming sets again and led to my what skills I have now (and that set is even without HQ setting and sharpening and I still love it!!). I really was under impression that bayo2 is the best game ever 

And this was the set that lead to me discovering how to actually use proper settings in Adobe. Pretty much I neve changed them after that. 

Ooooffff, hope my thoughts mess is readable because I keep getting off from the main theme of your ask!! And, nope, you’re not distracting me, I’m actually very happy to talk about working procces and how I manage stuff on here!

[survivedeathvalley]

EPISODE 3 - “BLESS RANDOM.ORG” - BIANCA

Paul tried it.............. he really did huh!!! Its funny how even though I helped 0% in the challenge I still stayed. I've got the Deadly Viper Assassination Squad with me and that's all I need. As long as I have those numbers, I feel great. If we end up losing again.. bye bye Mattie! 

honestly at this point of the game my alliance is intact and hopefully we make it to merge or in a good place if there's a swap but im not worried whatsoever

Well, I stuck with Misty and Bianca, and Mattie is going to draw the flag, I think.  So this will be exciting, i'm perfectly okay with handing over the reigns to someone else during this challenge, hopefully it will earn us our first win! 

Alright, so the vote actually went as planned. Tanner went home unanimously while voting for Alex. This is great because it means that if I'm on a tribe with snakes that they have yet to embrace those negative tendencies. https://i.makeagif.com/media/11-11-2015/cVGFpC.gif Also, after getting voted out Tanner got online to message me (and everyone else according to the hosts) the word "fake". I'm just... https://img.memesuper.com/3bc6766bbe76cc8447a30d21e851df82_1000-images-about-gifs-on-gif-meme-guy-blinking_624-352.gif 

Tanner literally said nothing to me yesterday except what's up? I even gave him a response which I count as a chance for him to respond, no? Like... if you don't say anything to me during the day then: 1. How are we supposed to strategize if the vote is going to fall any differently 2. How are we supposed to vote for the same person - at all 3. Why would I want to play with you - that makes for a very unreliable alliance http://rs207.pbsrc.com/albums/bb263/slimkid_buckeye/animations/bang-head_zps471ffe0c.gif~c200

Also, our immunity challenge is flag making. Which... I'm a shady ho and I'm gonna say, works better as a reward challenge. Given the amount of people who claim not to be creative in this community making a challenge dictate safety based solely on creativity is a "no" from me. http://68.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb4x3nlrJh1rt2432.gif 

Our challenge is fun though because it's kind of "themed" based on the sorting hat's opinions of us. And the sorting hat decided our tribe was full of the goody-goodies or is it goody-two-shoes? I don't even know, honestly. Anyway.. so I was thinking angels because when I think good I just... think of heavenly bodies? I dunno https://m.popkey.co/a7fc03/e09Oo.gif 

And then Alex, gem that I adore suggest superheroes! And I'm on board completely. These super powered people and all the good they do for the world are perfect. Also, potential for something really cute. Now, if I were an artist this would be absolutely perfect... but I'm not. And Alex already made something so that's neat. I think I'm gonna see what I can do to make it more high quality or something (maybe change it around a bit) since it looks a little pixelated, but yay!  It's adorable. http://cdn.smosh.com/sites/default/files/legacy.images/smosh-pit/122010/Batmanlovescookies.gif

I actually... lowkey hope we lose this challenge LOL "When bitches vote for me, bitches go home" Sound familiar Mattie? And just THINK how iconic it would be if Bianca, Gabby, and I were the sole members of Panamint and slayed the tribe swap

I'm still doing nothing this week and that makes me happy, i hope they don't need me, disconnecting for awhile is nice, i wish i could do it with my main account. 

https://youtu.be/hOcOVfi2l8E

I honestly don't know what I expected out of this experience, but it wasn't this. When I played Divergent, the cast was about 70-80% active throughout an entire day. But this time, it's only active about 25% of the day. The only two people who even say or do anything are Giruga and Dianna, the two people I dislike the most. I have to work from ground up with building relationships with these people because I haven't been present to do that from the start, and I'm worried that my window of opportunity has closed up already. I wanna get the two of them into a chat where we can stick together as the active people of the game (so far). If I have it my way, we can vote off William or whatever his name is. Even though Layla and Kat are more useless than he is, I think he's trying to be deceptive about everything (saying he's NEVER played orgs before, or how he has NO idea how to make alliances) while most people just conceal their personal lives. I find it difficult to socialize too and I have shared these laments with Dianna in the past because we both know it's difficult to engage in proper conversation with others without unintentionally giving ourselves away. I hate that. And also, this game is helping me finally go over the bridge for ORGs. I truly think this will be my final experience, and so far I don't have hopes that it'll be a good one. I'm at a crossroads with these games and my personal life, because I can only take one path, no turning back. I want to say that at the end of this, I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to be happy again. I don't know if I'm here for the right reasons, but let's just try to make it right.

I'm actually... very happy with the flag I made. Imagine if I win this challenge for our tribe after not being here for the last 2? Come on redemption arc!

I wish I knew what was happening. I've gone days without being able to get on Skype bc of the toilet incident. It wouldn't surprise me if they just vote me out lmao

https://youtu.be/33GLERbsEqY

Going to tribal sucks but hopefully the outcome favors my game. 

WHEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I won for our tribe.... and now I'm gonna get them to send me to the devils hole so I can search out some idols bicth yes!

Alex? Barely know him but an Icon! My time at the Devils Hole was short. I found nothing, but my main goal was to find new potential alliances if we swap. As I said.. It was short so idk if I was allthat successful. 

Tribe swap has occurred...

This is so ICONIC!! I got Bianca to pick Alex.. who I'm good with from Devils Hole I got Alex to pick ME I got to pick Gabby.. my ally from my tribe I got HER to pick Giruga who seems like I could get him on my side I LOVE BEING A MASTERMIND!

We swapped last night while I was away which is fine I'm still with Jenny. We've got work to do since everyone else comes from the same tribe but that's ok bc I found an idol! My first ever idol in my org career oh boy. I'm not telling anyone yet bc idk if I really trust Jenny or Alex completely yet, we'll see 

I'm really nervous about tribal if we go or we lose bc if we win Giruga could go home but if we win there's a chance the other 3 might have an idol

https://youtu.be/BPBgQ1QBXWU

So Giruga and I were talking He seems pretty cool and someone I could work with. He's the only one from his old tribe on this tribe so I think I could easily swoop him up. I am worried about the other 4 on our tribe noticing that us 3 Panamint members are close. I wanna work with Alex but I'm worried about his bonds with the other Zabrinskie members. Sooo yeah I'm just trying to make a deal with Giruga rn and hopefully if we go to tribal I'm in majority and my edit stays good! (I'm hoping CP4.... Last episode I better have gotten a positive edit and the one before that I probably got a negative one when Paul went home)

so i was late to the merge party... oops. i like the newbies on my tribe and i also like that now we're at one world, i can get to know everyone now! 

So one world, huh? That's a thing. Interesting to finally meet all these people and see what their like. I need to start making alliances, otherwise I'm screwed.

I...  Giruga and I are flirting by sending dog memes to one another I'm----   anyway, maybe this means that we can swing him over to our side to dominate the vote. ;) 

A fucking tribe swap, and one world. Imagine that. At least now I can start getting a feel for everyone that wasn't originally on Panamint. I've been talking to Dianna a bit because I remember going to DH with her, but sadly she isn't on my tribe so I can't really align myself with her. The bright side is that my alliance with Misty and Gabby (queens!) is all on the same tribe as me. If we can pull in another member of our tribe we could have the numbers to control votes if we ever have to go to tribal. Bless random.org for making me a captain <3 <3 <3

Dianna HAS to be either Dom, Nick or Nic.  Or Ashley but I'm betting it's Dom.  Dianna and I worked close together in Festive BB, and then it was revealed that she was a catfish played by Ashley >.>.  I don't think Ashley would play her again but Dianna's handwriting looks a lot like Dom's now and Dianna, then Ashley and I were a duo until she cut me at final 3 after winning the final HOH!   but I've played two games with Dom, hosted him once and he's hosted me once, I KNOW HIS TYPING STYLE AND the putting 'ME' after everything anywhere, that has to be him and I'm taking notes.  

So we lost.. it sucks. However it gives me more air time so? I love a good bright side! Anyway, of course Gabby/Bianca and I start talking. Apparantly Alex/Kai are pulling her into an alliance. Alex is cancelled. I mean.. how dare he not include me. But anyway. Adelaide may not have spoken to me yet but... Kai, I've got my eyes on you. For now I'm gonna work on Giruga wish me luck!

my alliance didnt want to throw this, but I did. so I performed poorly. I submitted a score of about 3000, which isn't great by any means. If my tribe loses, I'll claim that my second submission (of about 5000) was not scored and I'll make a very public argument over it. of course, the hosts cannot do anything, and effectively send my tribe to tribal council :) then, I'll flip on the old titus bitches and send one of them home (PROBABLY Kat because I don't like the game she plays) I want to go the distance with William and Dianna and Giruga, but Kat is way too unknown for me to ever trust her enough to keep her around. I'll start talking to the three other people on the tribe and hopefully get them to turn their sights from the bigger threats of Will and Dianna. For my strategy, Will and Dianna will be the perfect shields to take into another swap but also the merge. They've got numbers swarming them and I want to minimize our status as threats by having five of our original tribe members going into a merge, and I know that I'll be deceiving them bad, but I hope they don't hold a grudge. Although I'm turning over a new leaf as a player by truly wanting to stay loyal to big threats, I'm still playing the same, old, jaiden way

At this point I don't even have to try at challenges bc I'm always on the winning team *giggles*

Giruga just told me he wants to work with me and the other neutrals Which is the best news I could've heard right now!!!!! I trust him a lot and him plus us three makes four. Tbh I don't really care who goes home between Kai or Adelaide or Alex at this point. I'm just excited to have numbers 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXtP_vOxDzA

IT ONLY TOOK LIKE 800 TIMES AT THE DEVILS HOLE BUT I FINALLY FOUND SOMETHING GAME CHANGING. I have the ruby idol, which could automatically makes a rocks situation if I feel festive enough for it. Hopefully I won't be in a position to use it for a while since I now have an alliance with Misty/Gabby/Giruga in addition to my alliance with Misty and Gabby. I feel good about having majority on the tribe, but I'm trying to stay close to Dianna since she's on the other tribe. I think I'm gonna give her my glow stone when I'm done with it, so that way I can prove that I trust her. I just hope I'm not making a huge mistake.

Aaaa whatwhat isit haopening?!?!!?

I can't make a video right now, but in the event that I get voted out tonight I just wanted to say a few things. So far I've aligned myself with the Neutral tribe and I'm really hoping I'm not being screwed over... because I seriously want to work with them, especially if it means down the line I can flip the game on old Titus. Please just let me survive my first actual tribal!!!!

Help I am being held hostage and the only way to get my freedom is if I make a confessional.

I AM PROB GOING HOME I AM NEVER ON

EP 3 EDGIC