#i also like Amanda so obviously she’s so cutie

[tomatoart]

r u into saw ..

YES I LOVE SAW!!!!! I LOVE SAW!!!! I LOVE SAW!!!! I wanna draw art of it soon especially being saw1 is dear to my heart !!!!! Haven’t finish the series though I did see sawX :) I think I stopped halfway thru the series and I’m gonna pick up again! I’m a huge fan of horror ^_^

[derelictheretic]

🥵🧠💋🚲💌 + Piper???

Ty for sending these in Amanda!! I need more Piper content on the blog ajsjsbabs

🥵 : Is your OC perceived as physically attractive to others? Is it at first glance or is it something that takes more time to reach fruition?

Piper is a certified cutie and hottie and no one is about to deny that! Some of it is at first glance, her figure is obviously something a lot of people would look at and appreciate first seeing as she does wear form fitting clothes a lot and her smile has always been one of the things she gets complimented on most. I'd say at first it's a 'oh she's a real cutie' and then as they get to know her it shifts into 'she is gorgeous and i'd say thank you if she punched me in the face'.

🧠 : What is your OC’s most mentally attractive attribute?

I think it would be how understanding and non-judgemental she is, while she comes off as a bit aloof she's a really good listener and she's made a lot of stupid decisions in her past so she's not about to judge anyone for past mistakes. Matched with how laid-back she is it makes it easy for people to feel comfortable around her.

💋 : Is your OC a good kisser? How do they do it?

Piper is a clumsy yet passionate kisser, she might miss their lips once or twice in her eagerness and clash teeth a few too many times but I don't think that makes her a bad kisser.

She loves cupping someone's face in her hands and peppering their face in kisses before kissing their lips, it's all fiery and a flurry and she'll always end up smiling into the kiss at some point. Kissing is fun for her and she'll want to trail those messy, clumsy kisses all over her partner!

🚲 : Does your OC enjoy playing the field? Or are they more monogamy-minded?

Piper is a flirt and does enjoy being able to meet a lot of people and she hasn't had a hookup she's regretted yet but despite her having a huge fear of commitment she does dream of having that one person who has her back through it all and would love her through the good the bad and the ugly. So a bit of both really, she's happy having her fun but she'd also be happy settling down into a relationship (after freaking out and being in denial and nearly ruining it a few times anyway).

💌 : How would they plan a romantic evening for a significant other?

Piper is a disorganized mess so the romantic evenings she usually 'plans' are more so spontaneous road trips where they end up at a diner and spend hours talking and telling stories. If she's really smitten and giving it her all she might rope Casper in to helping her set up an inside picnic kind of thing, with a pillow fort in the living room with foods she knows her partner likes and an array of movies and other things they also like. (And her time management is also ass so she'll be shoving Casper out the back door while her partner walks in the front)

[amandayuebing]

My Life is Very Shoujo Manga, Chapter 2: Mal, you cheeky little liar...

I’m writing right now from UNSW’s judo dojo, just across the hall from the kendo competition going on right now, as I wait for the competition to wrap up so I can go out on a date with my boyfriend. I’m excited! 

There’s been a bit of a gap between my last post and writing/publishing this one because I need to admit to you guys, I’ve been having my dreaded perfectionism paralysis… And I’ve been procrastinating by watching “Jane the Virgin” on Netflix-- omg it’s such a great show!! If you haven’t watched it yet, you should give it a go.

And ironically, “Jane the Virgin” is also about a writer who sometimes gets perfectionism paralysis (except my story doesn’t involve an accidental artificial insemination or a rich, hot, baby-daddy (yet 😉 oh ho ho...), and I’m writing this story mostly for fun, and not as an aspiring writer.

I just want you guys to be able to see my story the way I see it— how crazy, but amazing it’s been! How so many times I’ve questioned in my life, “is this really happening?! It sounds straight out of the plot of something ridiculously fiction...” Like a… that’s right! Shoujo manga.

But, yes. What better background to write about the memories of when I first started kendo then to be directly opposite a kendo competition? I can literally smell the kendo in the air right now. (Thank god the judo dojo has its windows open, on this hot, stinking day...)

Let’s jump in!

Once my first kendo class finished, I knew it wouldn’t be a week later until I’d see our favourite kendo club president, Tony, again. I was looking forward to that day, but at the same time dreading it because of how terrible I was that first class. Plus I was starting to have doubts. Doubts like:

1) This is silly… How can you be so interested in somebody when you don’t even know them yet…? Like what do you actually like about him?

2) Do you guys even have anything in common…? Like, you’re one of the least athletically gifted people you know. No, you ARE the least athletically gifted person you know. How many frisbees did you take to the head during P.E. class? How did you even get into law school with all those frisbees to the head?!

3) What if he has a girlfriend…? Surely a cutie like him cannot be single… 

(These are summarised. But when I go into moments of doubt, they just spiral everywhere!)

My main concern was if we were each other’s type… But who was I kidding? I was concerned about everything LOL. I am an obsessive over-thinker!

But man, what better way to crush your doubts about your crush than for your best friend to force you stand righhtt in front of your crush, the university kendo club president (and dojo steward) while he’s leading the whole class for warm-up, and let him and the entire class watch you embarrass yourself. Again. (Mal last lesson: “I won’t do anything bad…” Uh huh, Mal 😒... really?)

I was probably even worse this class because that warm-up? I didn’t get it at all... Tony stood in front of us stretched leaning to the right, and I wasn’t sure whether I was meant to lean to his right or mine. I chose a side. Apparently the wrong side. 

Tony cracked up.

For a second, I was mortified. It was so embarrassing! But then I couldn’t help it. I cracked up! Which made him crack up. 

“Oh my god... I am going to get my ass KICKED, or get KICKED OUT of this class for sure!” I cringed. 

Luckily that didn’t happen.

But I did try my best during that class. And also did my best not to be a distraction to Tony or the rest of the class who wanted to learn... I mean, I really wanted to learn too! I had a freaking stalker! I needed to look like a bad-ass!! 

Oh, that’s right! I haven’t told you guys about my stalker!

So before Tony and I met, I had a stalker who had been following me around for about a year... He was still stalking me at the time I joined kendo. So, when Mal and the girls at the kendo stand tried to convince me to learn how to be a bad-ass and defend myself by hitting people with a big-ass stick?! Hell yeah, it sounded like a sign!

My stalker was a guy who lived in the same on-campus building as I did. Let’s call him... Russell. Russell was significantly older than me (at least 10 years older?), followed me by popping up at unwanted times (he somehow managed to pop up so frequently, and in such unexpected places), and would not leave me alone, even though I expressed I was uncomfortable around him.

He would approach me at very inappropriate times e.g. When I was walking home with groceries alone as the sun was just starting to set (this is actually what happened the first time we met); when I was alone on elevators; in an alleyway, as I was late-night Christmas shopping with just my female cousin, and basically any time... And his intention was definitely to have a threatening and sinister presence around me, as he would not go away when asked. 

Obviously, after that, I would try to limit the amount of time I was alone. But the difficulty was the fact he would only appear when I was alone or in the company of just another female. Never when I was with a male, or in a group of friends. So some of my closest friends doubted he even existed, or that he was as sinister as I felt he was. 

“I’ve never seen someone around that fits that description…”, “There are heaps of people who look like that. How do you know it’s the same guy or you’re just freaking out about every time someone talks to you that looks like  that?”, “Maybe it’s a coincidence he turns up at those times?” “Take it as a compliment…”

But what isn’t sinister about a man staring intensely, directly at me, as an elevator door was closing because I refused to get in with him. Or him stepping out of that empty elevator to stand, wordlessly, facing me, within a couple inches. Staring down at me as I waited in the lobby for the next elevator, while there was ample room for him to stand elsewhere. And him moving closer when I took steps away from him, uncomfortably.

Then, when two elevators arrive, one slightly after the other, and I saw him definitely walk towards the one that arrived first, and I ran to take the one that he wasn’t riding so I could hurry and close the door, then have him lunge towards the elevator I was on and wait until he’s last to press his floor button, despite being the closest to the buttons... Him pressing a floor above everyone else’s (even though you know he lives on a lower floor because he told you the first time you met). 

Remembering all this is honestly giving me chills...

Around this time, just as I was starting kendo, the stalker situation was getting worse. Just three days after I joined, I was studying in one of the common areas of my university housing apartment, while Dad slept on a couch nearby, I ran into my stalker, again. It was honestly so unpleasant. I had just walked out of the bathroom when I saw him walk out of the elevator. 

When he saw me, his head turned slowly and smirked, and followed me back to my desk where I had been studying. 

He started the conversation with a creepy, “heyyyy,” and honestly I don’t remember what else he talked to me about because I just told him angrily, “leave me alone,” repeatedly, and my dad sat up sleepily. I heard Russell murmur an “oh..” before dashing off to the elevators and disappeared.

But back to kendo. (Okay, I am going to be honest and tell you guys early on: if you guys are here to read about awesome and exciting recounts of kendo matches, this isn’t it.)

When the class ended, Mal wanted to stay back a little and get to know the people a little more… (Reminder: “I won’t do anything too bad... Promise” -- Mal, the previous class.)

We talked to a bunch of people, but I got to particularly talk to a girl named Marianne. She was really nice, but something about her gave me this bad vibe...

She introduced me to a couple named Ivan and June, and introduced them as “another” couple in the kendo club. But what was odd was she didn’t explain who the first couple was... Then she introduced Tony as her “punching bag”, and asked him, “isn’t she cute?” (referring to me). And I mean, obviouslyyy he answered “yes, she is” 😉😉 (internal me: *flower pose* 😌🌸). I thought I saw just a flash of jealousy cross her face, but she smiled at Tony sweetly.

I thought Marianne was nice and there were things I liked about her personality, like how bold and self-assured she seemed, and how she genuinely seemed friendly. 

Everything we’d been talking about up until that moment Tony joined in seemed so genuine and I— I knew I had a habit of overthinking, but at the same time, when you get a feeling about something, there’s usually a reason for it, right?

At this moment I felt clues for my 3 doubts being answered:

1) What do I like about him? After two lessons, I could still see the positive things I saw him the first time we interacted. How he’s serious about what he does, but doesn’t take himself too seriously. How he’s kind, patient, sweet, charming..... Yeah, yeah, you guys don’t really want me to go on.

2) Am I his type? Yes, yes, I think! Chance to celebrate anyway.

3) Does he have a girlfriend...? Well......... Although Marianne didn’t outright claim him, it felt like she kinda was. But there was no harm in getting to know him (and her), and I would back off if I needed to... The thought of that made me a little sad, because although we’d just met, I was starting to really like him.

With so much going on, I had so much to think about, and as I was walking home sometime after 10pm, Tyler messaged me with “hey AManda” but I ignored him. What is with this guy and his bad timing?!

(I haven’t explained who Tyler is yet, but you guys will find out soon.)

[acraftynerd]

So, I actually listen to and watch a lot of knitting podcasts, and non-knitting podcasts, and just podcasts in general, so I figured I’d list them here for whoever might be interested.

(also if you’re also a fan of any of these people, please message me and we can fangirl together xD)

Knitting Podcasts:

The Knitmore Girls (audio podcast)

Mother-daughter duo, Gigi and Jasmin, present this hilarious knitting podcast every week (475 episodes so far!), in which they discuss what they're currently knitting, their various "knitting attacks", and other crafty stuff, while also sprinkling in moments of their own family life, which is always pleasant to listen to (and Jasmin's daughter is absolutely adorable, so you should totally follow Jasmin on Instagram).

The Backstage Knitting Podcast (audio podcast)

Basically two theatre nerds who also knit, and watch a lot of movies and tv, and talk about that stuff on their podcast. Prepare to find yourself in stitches — pun intended — as you listen and love this podcast. Also, they only have 39 episodes so far, so you can binge listen pretty easily, which is a bonus.

Yarngasm (video podcast)

This was my first delve into video podcasts, but I do not regret it at all. Kristin knits and dyes yarn from her home in Brooklyn where she lives with her husband and her cutie of a cat, and I've officially decided that one of these days I'll have to splurge on some of her hand-dyed yarn because it's so bloody gorgeous and yummy looking. I'm currently watching some of her back-catalogue of episodes, since I'm all caught up on her most recent episodes.

The Girls In The Yarn Cafe (visual podcast)

I've only discovered these two recently, but they're so freaking cute, and interesting, that I've been catching up on their latest episodes today. This is another mother-daughter podcast, where hosts Christy and Trysten discuss knitting, and yarn-dying, all with an envy-inducing background of yarn that I desperately want to steal. I'm not kidding.

Geeky Girls Knit (visual podcast)

Yet another mother-daughter podcast — these seem to be a thing, not that I'm complaining — where C.C and Dami talk about various geeky stuff, as well as their knitting (obviously) and ugh, these guys are so lovely to watch, and I'm kind of obsessed. Also, Dami's adorable. Just so you know.

Babbles Travelling Yarns (visual podcast)

Who doesn't want to watch an Irish knitter who just has this bubbly personality you can instantly love? Sometimes featuring her kitty cat, Grace shows off her gorgeous WIPs and FOs, and is just generally a really fun person to watch. Besides, I need more Irish knitting podcasts in my life.

Craftea Chat Podcast (visual podcast)

Now we cross the water to Nottingham where Hannah lives and podcasts about her crafting obsession. She knits, she crochets, and she's got pretty coloured hair. That last part isn't particularly relevant but it's something to note.

Covered By Grace Knits (visual podcast)

College student Grace only has a few episodes of her podcast so far, but she's sweet and she can knit, and I've thoroughly enjoyed watching her podcasting from her dorm room bunk bed. This is a relatively new find as well, but I'm looking forward to her next upload.

Non-Knitting Podcasts:

Surprisingly enough, I don't just enjoy knitting podcasts. I also listen to several others on the regular, which you should all go and enjoy.

Fantastic Geeks and Where To Find Them: (Spotify / Itunes)

I've been a fan of Tessa Netting for ages now, so imagine how thrilled I was when she announced she was doing a geeky podcast with her friend and fellow Youtuber Anna Brisbin (Brizzy Voices)? In each episode they cover a different fandom — past episodes have gone into Black Panther and Stranger Things — and sort the characters into Hogwarts houses, discuss key themes, and just be adorable little fangirls. These are my people, trust me.

Potterless (Soundcloud)

A grown man reads Harry Potter for the first time. Do I even need to say anymore? Mike Schubert brings on various guests to go through each book at a time, and discusses various topics with them; including but not limited to:

-Umbridge's likeness to Voldemort -Hogwarts needing a therapist -House Elf taxidermy -Destructive Ron's need for an intervention

And much, much more that you really need to listen for.

Guys We F@#ked (Soundcloud )

Guys, this is a really new podcast find for me, but it's so bloody funny, and crude, and really openly sex-positive. Listening to these two women talking about sex in such an positive and open way, it's so nice to hear. I was listening to their most recent episode on my way to work the other day, and I was in stitches from their guest's story involving an alley, a college guy, and McDonalds. If you never listen to another podcast again, listen to this one.

Spirits: A Drunken Dive Into Myths and Legends (Soundcloud / Website / Itunes ) 

Every episode, Amanda and Julia open a bottle of something, and talk about a different myth from around the world, and this is again, something everyone should listen to, because it's hilarious and informative and engaging — I mean, where else could I find out that Cerberus actually means "spotted one" so then Hades literally named his dog Spot?

Send me more podcasts though, to fill this insatiable void in my brain that's never full of podcast goodness.

[1uvshot]

sefuns | ohsehunpai | huntiddies | lawlliets | peachysuho | kimjongdaes | i ran out of urls ansjkk bye HAVE FUN :)))))

asfd pls thERE WE SO MANY LOLOL 

@sefuns

so um ayu is like the queen of gifs and im so glad because there has never been a bad post out of their blog asfdagh all of the content on my blog coming from tehir blog?? OBVIOUSLY lol but also they seem really sweet and they have a lot of bbh love

@ohsehunpai 

a whole cutie who has such a good blog!!! so much love for sehun on their blog and thats so fuckign cute ok! ALSO THEIR SIDE BLOG SOFTJOY is one of my fucking favorites ever 11/10 recommend both her exo blog and her aes blog ok 

@huntiddies 

laura is a whole cutie whom i adore and love talking to!!! she so sweet and her blog is so aes and makes me really happy!!! also shes so fucking talented LIKE HER MOODBOARDS?!?! she has so much talent and im so glad to get to work on exomoodbaords with her!! 

@lawlliets 

lari is the bestest suho stan out there like they really love him with their whole heart and are so loyal i love reading their tags about suho and just all the emojis on posts that have to do with suho lol also they make amazing gifs and they were so kind to me when helping me with mine and that was so nice and they didnt have to do that and it made my heart like 100x bigger lol i really adore lari and their blog 

@peachysuho 

amanda is such a cute suho-l and like sOO relatable with all of her posts and her tags asdjfa ALSO A GORGEOUS HUMAN BEING!!! like pls i love seeing their selfies and just being liek wow suho got a good stans like that omf i really adore their blog

@kimjongdaes

daisy??? a whole supportive girlie whomst i love and adore?? daisy and i talk a lot and she’s one of my most favorite people to talk to on here! she always is so supportive and listens to me rant about random shit and gives me such good advice and i am really thankful to her for that also she just has so much love for jongdae and ksoo and we tlak about them and bbh all the time and it always makes me happy and she really never fails to put a smile on my face 

[poketin]

My Dream Daddy Route Rankings!

Obviously, this is my personal opinion! Slight spoilers for the routes and such, honestly I wrote most of this at 4 am so please forgive any mistakes on my part.

Faves:

Mat

- He was my fave when the game was announced, and his route didn’t disappoint in the slightest! He had very real issues to work through, a very passionate guy with social anxiety is very relatable to me, and the music was especially great because of Mat being a musicman. The mini-games were some of the better ones, that piano one was really funny to me and the way it helps conclude his arc of sorts is very touching. His dates were all heartwarming as well as fun, hanging at his house with him felt incredibly real. He just felt like such a complex and deep guy.

- Pablo and Carmensita are absolutely charming, I love them so freaking much. Pablo my angel, who I see much of myself in, I hope everything goes well for you in life. May all your dreams come true.

- I only wish that so many points towards his good end didn’t come from arbitrary band stuff that a lot of people may not get, but he is the music guy so it does fit.  

Damien

- I’ve always had a thing for goths, but for some reason Damien didn’t catch my eye until I was actually immersed in the game. And boy, did I fall in love with him. I actually started on my track to Victorian love during the ‘prologue’ of sorts, abandoning any plans of other routes I had after doing Mat’s to immediately date Damien. I was so drawn to him in such a short amount of time, and played his route 2nd because I just couldn’t wait. And damn, was it good.

- He’s not only very sophisticated and Romantic, but he’s also a scaredy cat nerd who loves his son to pieces and handles their relationship extremely well despite teenage rebellion. Damien discussing the multi-facetedness of his character and his worries over people not accepting various parts of himself, leading to him hiding those parts, really spoke to me. I have been in such a position my entire life and I really just felt for the guy. I just love him wholeheartedly.

- Plus Lucien is a real cutie and a real swell dude, I love his and Damien’s relationship a ton (seriously, even though Lucien seems like a jerk sometimes, he truly cares about his dad and their mutual respect for one another was wonderful to see). Mary in this route is a bonus, but holy shit did this route make me love her to bits, she’s amazing. Plus we get to see Hugo and Ernest being great and connecting a little. Damien[s route really has everything.

- Also the gargoyle mini-game wasn’t too bad! I actually had a bit of fun with it haha Speaking of which, the entire garden section was beautiful. His entire route is beautiful. Damien is beautiful. Love and appreciate him, I beg you.

2nd Faves:

Hugo

- He also feels a need to hide his other self/a huge passion of his from everyone he knows. He’s not only a freaking adorable scholarly book-type but also has an incredibly sharp wit that leads to one of my favorite moments in the whole game. His passion for learning, life, and muscles is infectious, and a true blessing.

- Similar in a way to Mat and band references, I wish that Hugo’s second date didn’t rely so heavily on trivia and such to get a good grade. I know you can look it up and get a perfect score, but dang it I really just want to connect to him personally during a date (which did also happen, I’m kind of just nitpicking a little). I love the Ah! Real Monsters pun that was thrown in, thank you for that.

- Ernest is really cute to me for some reason, even though he’s a jerk a lot. He does truly love his dad though, and being able to see that in this route and also Damien’s is a real treat. Also, the character designs in this game are unreal, they’re so good.

Robert

- I actually wasn’t as drawn to Robert as I thought I’d be when I first saw his bio, but just like with Damien, I really loved him when I actually played the game. His route is really emotional, while being a blast at the same time. Plus we get to see Mary being fucking amazing again. His daughter Val is incredibly hot too, holy crap. I love her so, so much, and she’s barely in the game.

- I cried a lot when I played his route. I cried during the other routes as well, especially my top 4, but probably the most and hardest with his.

- So much banter, so many good stories. And ending that was more than satisfying and made me cry. Again.  

- He’s really relatable in many harsh and sad ways, like seriously him talking about “taking and taking” and covering up how he feels with jokes and such also rings really true to my life (I’m just now thinking I have a huge bias towards the dads that I relate to the most). It’s depressing but just like him, I need to face these things, and take my time to heal and improve.

Unexpectedly Liked:

Brian

- I’m a naturally competitive person, so I simultaneously got really fired up and a little annoyed when my character would compete with him. Mostly I got aggravated at my dad just being really focused on beating this guy and kinda shoving romantic feelings to the side until the very end, but Brian’s little confession about the whole competition was really cute and the fish mini-game was also one of the better ones.

- Daisy is really adorable too and her relationship with Amanda is one of the cutest. Brian was never really on my radar so I played his second to last, but it was a really pleasant route.

- That golf mini-game was not pleasant though, you cannot line up your shots accurately because if you take too long, it just putts it with the barest strength and you lose automatically. It’s just a game that you are set up to lose (unless I am completely atrocious at it) and those are never really fun, like c’mon at least give me a chance.

Unexpectedly Not A Huge Fan Of:

Craig

- Honestly I thought Craig would be my second fave character, I loved his design (eyebrow scars are sexy as hell) and dedication to improving himself, but I was a little let down. I thought his storyline with overwork was handled well but it didn’t really grab me, and honestly the park segment for the second date annoyed me to no end, I was really frustrated with it.

- I like all the college stories a lot, it’s great to hear all about the wacky shit he and the MC got up to. Not a bad route by any means, but it just was a bit of a disappointment.

- His kids are super adorable, I wish we got to see more of the twins but I feel that way about some of the other kids too.

Neutral Leaning Toward Dislike:

Joseph

- Playing this one last while getting to know Mary through the other routes made this one extra depressing.

- Joseph never stuck out to me one way or another in the first place. His kids are kind of bland, Christie is the most in-depth one (I use in-depth loosely here) and she is adorable, plus the whole “egg them on” bit is great, but he just rubs me the wrong way. Also the juxtaposition of the yacht scene and the ending was really jarring (although it was nice to see some kind of sad and fucked up realism that hits way too close to home). I did always feel like Joseph had a pull towards the MC at the ending party that happens across all routes at the end of the game, he just looked so sad when you went after other dads, but maybe that was just my imagination. I feel bad for the whole Christiansen family. Nice family name puns though.

Final Thoughts

Overall I absolutely love this game! The music, characters, stories, and art are all phenomenal. My only gripes are the tediousness of some of the mini-games and any complaints mentioned about routes and characters above. I’d give it a 8/10 for a really fun and surprisingly emotional experience. I put about 10 hours into it, so it’s also a good length for your money!

Bonus End Picture Ranking (Best to Least Best because they’re all great):

Mat, Hugo, Damien, Robert, Craig, Brian, Joseph

[mundaneapocalypse]

The Wedding Story

Most of Mark’s friends in Latvia could not come to the wedding, but his best friend, Aleksandr, was the best man. Mark borrowed from my side, like Mom to be his mom at the dance, and some of his friends were groomsmen. Erik was another groomsman. Mark has tons of friends, for an introvert, and many of them came. Because he is already family, neither of us had sides of the church. People just sat down where they wanted.

Ruth was my maid-of-honor, my cousins Amanda and Natalie bridesmaids, and best friend Madison a bridesmaid. They had really pretty floor-length pink dresses. Ruth’s was a different style and the same color, but fancier. We did our own make-up and painted our nails (theirs were pink and mine were rose gold), and I did their hair, but Mom and I had to get our hair done because I could do it, but not as well as it should have been done.

I organized everything and Ruth enforced that it actually happened when it was supposed to.

Mark built the pavilion and tables (pretty rough ones covered up with tablecloths), found the chairs to rent, spraypainted the vases and things, and sewed the tablecloths and bunting. He also took care of the music, photographer, and almost went to Latvia to help Aleksandr figure out how to get here. Latvia does not like people to leave, but thankfully Mark only had to spend about twenty hours on the phone with three different departments with Aleksandr on another line to get his passport and things.

The poles were the “twinkle skeleton”— round wooden posts connected at the top and set into the ground spray-painted rose gold and draped with white gauze and strung with white Christmas lights, and set the walkway down to the bottom of the hill (concrete slabs spray-painted rose gold). There were hydrangeas around the tops of the poles and the upswoops of the gauze with pink ribbon.

By “Mark built,” I do mean he built. He drew the plans (and this man does not plan), built a foundation that is apparently not technically a foundation, but more like the thing wooden sidewalks are built on, by himself. Then he got our cousins and uncles over with promises of beer and hamburgers and convinced them to help nail down the floorboards. Then he figured out how to keep the poles from swaying in the wind or from people leaning on them.

Also, now my parents have a completely useless wooden structure in their yard that can’t be burned because of the pinewood and varnish.

Mom and I decorated, and we spent about three hours the day of the ceremony arranging the church flowers. The church had white hydrangeas tied with pink ribbon to the pews and there were some copper vases with hydrangeas and pink peonies for the altar and steps. Then after the service, the copper vases moved to the reception to be in front of the poles. The church music was on the organ by Janice or from a CD: Appalachian Spring for the prelude, the processional “St. Anthony Chorale” by Haydn, the bridal march “Canon in D” by Pachebel, the hymns “Great is Thy Faithfulness” and “Morning Has Broken” and at the signing, “One Hand, One Heart” from West Side Story, the recessional “Wedding March” from The Marriage of Figaro, and for the postlude, “Sinfonia” by Bach, “Spring” by Vivaldi, and “Bridal Chorus” from Lohengrin. The readings were Ecclesiastes 4:9-12, Genesis 2:18-24, and John 17:20-26. And, I said, “serve, honor, and obey” and Mark said, “love, cherish, and provide for.”

Mark and I did not see each other before the wedding, so the photographer took most of the pictures before the ceremony, and the rest after. Everybody also had to drive half an hour from the church to the reception, which gave us a little more time.

For the reception, we used plenty of candlewick dishes that Mark and I kept afterwards for our nice dishes and we were collecting for a couple years. Weddings tend to have a lot of silver, but Mark and I can’t use silver and neither could some of the guests or our future guests, so the serving utensils were plated rose gold, and the silverware was plastic pretending to look like fancy rose gold.

We could not use silver for anything because Fae were coming to the wedding and it is polite not to burn your guests.

Because peonies and hydrangeas wilt quickly, the ones in the reception that were not in water could not be arranged until the ceremony, and we had to get a florist to do it. Tables had glasses of ice water, and assorted nuts in little pink bags for favors, and guests could also take the peonies on their napkins home. Also, the compost looks spectacular. I had not thought about the wilting before hand. They looked a little brown in the end, but by the end, it was dark.

My aunts cooked, but because it was early afternoon and supper would be later, we had some cheese, dips, crackers, fruits, and vegetables, all made and arranged on Friday, except for the crackers, which they opened that day. We had no alcohol, but soda (individual bottles of raspberry, strawberry, sprite), coffee (decaf or caffeinated), hot tea (decaf English Breakfast, Earl Grey, and green tea), and iced tea (sweet or unsweetened).

Then there were more dips, crackers, fruits, and vegetables on the buffet, and non-alcoholic cranberry cuties, Shirley Temples, sparkling white grape juice, and punch I invented with white grape juice, Sprite, and strawberry juice. For supper, we had sandwiches people made themselves (white buns, roast beef, chicken salad, pulled pork, egg salad, American cheese, Swiss cheese, mustard, mayonnaise, shredded lettuce, sliced tomatoes, sliced onions, dill pickles) and finger foods (cream cheese olive pinwheels, meat balls, devilled eggs, prosciutto, mini crab cakes (packaged), and crostini). I ate without caring that I was worried. Everything except the drinks, crostini, meat balls, and crab cakes were ready the day before, but all the ingredients were prepared on Friday.

Aleksandr’s English is basic and he has a very thick accent. Because of those, he did not want to give a best man’s speech, but apparently Ruth scared him, and Mark helped him translate from Latvian to English ahead of time. He did a good job and it was sweet.

Then I gave the veil away. This is a Latvian tradition, mičošana, where the bride gives the veil away and officially she and the groom become husband and wife. Mark and I did not want to stay up until midnight, and Ruth explained that was the usual way, but we would pretend 5:30 was midnight. We also did not sit on Mom and Dad’s laps. Mom took off my veil and put it in a box and tied an apron around me. Dad gave Mark a pipe. This means we are officially not children living at home and have our own households. Then Mark and I read what our roles would be and they were roughly the same as they have been.

Instead of throwing the bouquet, I gave it away to the longest-married couple. Ruth asked the married guests, “Who has been married for more than twenty-five years?” then increased the number gradually to, “More than sixty?” They were Harold and Florence Metzger, family friends from church, at sixty-two years.

The cake and, because Mark wanted cookies, the cookies, were from a bakery, and the ice cream from Kroger because that obviously goes with cake and for some reason weddings completely miss that basic fact of life. At Mom’s pushing, the cake was four layers, and it was worth it. The first layer was pink champagne, which I had once and loved, the second vanilla, the third strawberry, and the fourth white chocolate. Ice cream was rocky road, vanilla, or strawberry, and Mark’s cookies were chocolate macarons, lemon cookies, and chocolate chip cookies. I mean, every party you attend since you are conceived has cake and ice cream, but at a wedding, you just leave it in the freezer? It makes no sense.

Last was the dancing and Mark and I were almost peopled out. Mark and I danced to “At Last I See the Light” from Tangled, which confused some of our kid friends, one of whom said, “Grown-ups don’t like Disney movies!” We do. Mark and Mom danced to “Try to Remember” from The Fantasticks, and the dance with Dad was, “Sunrise, Sunset”. Then Mark and I hung out a little longer, changed inside, and went off in the VW to the Grand Canyon.

Mark and I wanted the wedding to be elegant and fancy without spending more than $5,000, and we failed, but tried, and achieved the first two goals pretty reasonably. Having lots of the dishes before hand, using a playlist instead of a band, having the reception in the back yard, arranging the flowers, and making the food helped a lot. The biggest expenses were the rings and other jewelry (including bridesmaids), clothing, and food (drinks, ingredients, cake, cookies, ice cream), and then decorations (including flowers), photography, and invitations. It ended up being about $8,000, but Mom and Dad said that they expected that.

We actually spent the night in a hotel in Ashland and are driving late today. We have a week for the honeymoon and are moseying around to parks and sights along the way.

And we are not working. If anything weird happens, we are not investigating.

[gaybellethorn]

what songs represent each character to you? long ass ask i know x

lmaooo omg i luv shit like this, thank u so much anon :’) idk how many i can get through but let’s see!!

apple: ‘alice’ by bianca ryan and ‘obsolete’ by regina spektor

raven: ‘ampersand’ by amanda palmer and ‘oh girl you’re the devil’ by mika

briar: i actually have a fanmix in the works for briar lmao but two Big briar songs are ‘hello girl let’s party til the end of the world’ by titus jones and ‘the point of it all’ by amanda palmer

maddie: ‘love today’ by mika and ‘fascination’ by alphabeat

faybelle: ‘one more’ by elliphant and ‘soulja bois ugly girlfriend’ by titus jones ghjfgkch

darling: hayley kiyoko’s entire discography Obviously and ‘you won’t feel a thing’ by the script and ‘handclap’ by fitz and the tantrums

kitty: ‘demon kitty rag’ by katzenjammer and that fuckin. jinx song from leage of legends. ‘get jinxed’ or whatever. god

lizzie: ‘castle down’ by emilie autumn and ‘go!’ by santigold

cedar wood: the alex winston cover of ‘the cave’ by mumford and sons

cerise: ‘monday morning’ by death cab for cutie and my shit brain won’t let me rest until i also put ‘she wolf’ by shakira so

farrah: ‘the show’ by lenka

uhh that’s a bunch off the top of my head for eah, i’ll do a couple for mh!

frankie: ‘shock me into love’ by lenka

cleo: ‘queen bee’ by rochelle diamante

draculaura: 'TRANSYLVANIA’ BY MCFLY IM STILL SO SET ON THIS

clawdeen: ‘girl i met on the internet’ by girli and ‘the boys’ by nicki minaj

UH YEAH that’s a bunch ahaha, if there’s anyone specific u wanna see songs for or anything lemme know!!

[sumergosuigeneris]

April 27, 2019

Yesterday was eh. I’m feeling anxious about the changes happening at work. Relieved and frustrated that DD is staying. Worried and hurt/insulted for J team. And also, a few people, including work friend seem to optimistic to me, and I worry for them even more. But most of them are Chinese, so there’s the possiblity of cultural issues in my interpretation of how they’re feeling and preparing. I hope my pessimism is proven incorrect, but the problem for all of them/us is the uncertainty. Really from the dean down, this whole situation has been handled poorly and unprofessionally.

I also discoved that one of the j team, the one that’s a problem from time to time, has thought all this time that I was working part time and going to school part time. When she found out I was working fulltime and going to school, she actually appreciated how hard it can be for some people.

I found it hard to concentrate or get much done. I’m worried about how my job will or won’t change. I’m jealous(?) of one of the ladies who I wanted to be friends with when I started is gonna get a promotion. But at the same time, I want her to get the promotion. Like, she deserves it. But. For a group of about 40 people before the breakup, we have 5 managers. So, yeah...if we could hire more people, to give her her own team though, that would be amazing, I think, for many reasons - it would signal confidence in the group, and I think maybe she’d be a good manager. Maybe. But this reminds me I was gonna do some work this weekend.

I’m hoping I’ll get my certificates done and be able to sign up for the PM test before the hammer comes down on expenditures. I have to remember that no one at location2 is to be trusted.

Boss1 ignored me again until he was gone for the day. I wanted to go home, but I made myself go to the game. I’m glad. I found a spot closer to park, and I found a place even closer to park the next game. I pre-gamed. Those budaritas are some powerful juju. One gets me effed up. So I hid the vodkagaterade (I was unimaginative) and hoped it would be there when I left. It was.

I discovered one of the places to eat is a great view. Had a nice waitress, looked like patty lupone. However, she clocked my age pretty close to accurate which was insulting. I hope it’s because I was sitting low and she could see all of my grays in their glory.

I wondered yesterday - the aging I’m seeing in myself is around the time I gave up on life. It probably has nothing to do with it, but I do wonder.

Anyway, sat next to some drunk middleaged bottle blonds. We somehow became friends for 5 minutes lol. Baseball teams bring people together (and tears them apart). Then I went and tried to slip into a good seat. I got one! It was a great view, and I was able to stay engaged for 4 or 5 innings. It felt so good to be so focused and enjoying it. I did leave early though. Even when they move fast, games are long as hell. And I’d forgotten my inhaler at home and had been having some breathing problems all day.

Today, I caught the notification that my thyroid med was ready and got there before they closed! I’m working on declogging my bathtub drain. The weather is nasty, so I didn’t do anything else outside. I napped. I watched some tv. It’s amazing to me that when they rebooted voltron they did 7 or 8 seasons AT ONCE! Fascinating to me. I discovered a new show, Gentleman Jack, which lead to all sorts of googling about the real life person it’s based on. Truthfully, I’ve been wondering about myself - am I really, truly queer? But this research led me to understand that even though I consider it an umbrella term as I should, I saw the umbrella as much smaller than it really is. And so, I’m reaffirmed I guess. Though just like other parts of my identity, there are many who would say I don’t belong.

And I finally started s2 of discovery. It’s an odd show. It doesn’t really hold up to any kind of scrutiny whatsoever at all. But I do love it. Obviously if it was more true to life/the star trek credo Michael wouldn’t be allowed the way she is, and I really see little evidence of Vulcan influence on her, but I am very fond. And of course all the others. However, I’m confused and insulted that after all that, they didn’t make Suru the captain. The only thing I can think of is maybe there weren’t enough ships? IDK. And while he’s different from TOS Pike, I do love this Pike. He’s interesting, and a super cutie. And as only the second captain of the Enterprise (April was the first), I always wanted more of him. But this whole backstory bullshit with Michael and Spock is so weird. And while it’s only one episode plus last season, it seems obvious as hell that Sarek and possibly Amanda favored Michael over Spock. I’m also starting to see the actress more as amanda and less as that pox from that other show, the ell word.

Also, it’s so fucking hard watching tv without access to closed captioning. I feel like I could even use some cc in real life.

I reached out to old acquaintance that I’d started, and saw while I’ve been in my own little increasingly narrow prison of getting by day by day, everyone else has gone on and not noticed I’d slipped away or even missed me. Really I didn’t have many close relationships, but I miss even the superficial ones. Also, I think one of my old classmates when I was taking those other classes not relate to my interests - I think he’s rich, or makes a shit ton of money. I think he lives in an apartment that has a gas fire place! I should ask. Say hi. But....my anxiety over talking to people AT ALL is so high.

The kitty came and sat on my lap today for a bit, and let me pet her. That’s my favorite. I hate when she’s away from me, and love when she’s close to me, but love love love when she touches me, or sits on my legs or my lap. It’s the best.

I know I wasted the day, and hope I’ll be more productive tomorrow, but I’m still happy at the little chores I accomplished, and even crossing some tv off the list counts for that lol. And I did reach out to other humans even if it’s just two and tiny. And me getting that med instead of saying eh and I’ll get it Monday, that’s something that wouldn’t happen normally (feeling bad is the normal). And well, I think I’ve got a stress period, and those always knock me out. So really upon reflection, I think today was good.

[survivorjordanpines]

Episode 2: It's All a Learning Experience Folks. - Andreas

[2017-11-17, 11:17:07 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): oh god puzzles [2017-11-17, 11:17:09 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): im triggered [2017-11-17, 11:19:11 PM] Rafael Hernandez: I'm going to Kermit [2017-11-17, 11:19:19 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): i am honestly awful at puzzles so if everyone else is around and can do them, i don’t mind sitting out Jaiden volunteers to sit out. Me, an intellectual, knows what I need to do now. [2017-11-17, 11:34:11 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): if someone on the tribe doesn’t submit [2017-11-17, 11:34:18 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): they don’t qualify for the worst time gets immunity if we lose [2017-11-17, 11:34:19 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): yes? [2017-11-17, 11:34:23 PM] Jordan Pines: correct [2017-11-17, 11:34:26 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): k cool [2017-11-17, 11:34:29 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): that immunity is mine [2017-11-17, 11:34:32 PM] Jordan Pines: you need to submit a completed puzzle to be eligible [2017-11-17, 11:34:35 PM] Jordan Pines: so you throwing the challenge? [2017-11-17, 11:34:42 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): i don’t know, am i? [2017-11-17, 11:34:45 PM] Jordan Pines: hahaha [2017-11-17, 11:34:47 PM] Jordan Pines: classic charlotte [2017-11-17, 11:34:51 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): ;) [2017-11-17, 11:35:04 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): i didn’t make sure my entire tribe knew i was bad at puzzles [2017-11-17, 11:35:05 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): on purpose [2017-11-17, 11:35:08 PM] charlotte (themyscira host): that wasn’t me I mean, I AM bad at puzzles, this is true, but am I going to be a little extra bad just in case we lose? Absolutely. I would love to be safe going into the next round.. I don't care about going to the Jordan Pond. Let's be honest, I wasn't going to have the best puzzle time anyway lmao HOW CUTE.  

I wonder if nick convinced maybe Allison to flip but not Amanda as he claimed they both would flip one lied one thought he had the votes. Plus drew's voting confession i think the last one was, was on point why i never took him up on that offer. It's week 1 i can't risk my spot for you this time sorry every game is different but my alliance is Madison.

alright alright alright hot damn this game is fifty times better than i expected! soooooo, it's time for a quick rundown: https://image.prntscr.com/image/fkjkBD9RQJikMqASaB5frw.png a 30 person season? not loving that concept. redemption island? not loving that one either. my tribe? i can get down with that for now. i'm feeling very blessed to be on a tribe with icons such as ryan, jessica, and matt summers - well, not anymore, but still. he will always be in our hearts. i've also had some real cute chats with ruthie, andreas, and cole, so i'm love them so far. and that's like 2/3 of the tribe, huh? the other ones - pippa, emma, casey - are all lovely and nice but we haven't really had much to say to one another so far. okay, actually i take that back for casey; we had a good talk the other day about jobs and stuff. only for 30 minutes, but still. i'm a fan of her. so things are lookin pretty good in that regard. my strategy so far? honestly, just sitting back and seeing where this game takes me. it's a foreign concept to me for sure - in all my other games, i always thought of the beginning few days as the most important part, and i'd probably be checking in with everyone every five hours and trying to make 7 core alliances right now. but frankly i just do not have the time or energy for that shit right now. i'm not young anymore. and i gotta say i don't hate it. especially because it seems like that's sort of the case for all of us here; we old-timers have real jobs and real responsibilities and we can't be bothered to be online 25/7, and that's OKAY! promote positive media relationships tm! anyways i have zero alliances right now and that's just fine with me, i'm sure this isn't the case for everyone and there could even be a massive conspiracy going on in this tribe that i have no awareness of but y'know what, nobody is perfect and this is just gonna be how it is for me right now. alright enough of me talking about how ancient i am. who's ready for a TWISTOS TWIST? i sure am cos apparently (through some randomized magic that i still do not completely comprehend) ya boi has a RUBY IDOL! damn!! now i will say that i definitely had not even heard of this thing before now and i don't know exactly how one is supposed to use it but an idol is an idol and this one looks sneaky sneaky so i'm into it! i am certainly not telling anyone about this no ma'am because what's the fun in that? :~~())) and that's really all i've got for you today folks, i ate five pounds of potatoes today and i need a nap so stay tuned for whatever adventures fall upon my head next episode! xoxo stay gold ponyboys

I actually despise this puzzle. However, I feel like I will be safeguarded if we do go to tribal by my alliance. Hopefully, however, we do not have to and continue dominating the game.

Nick was voted out and Idk who that was. Its very clear the icons are vote out matt summers just so he can kill everyone in redemption but like it was so obvious. The twist is interesting bc I could just throw this damn puzzle challenge and be safe for a round but at the same time I love this tribe and I dont want us to lose

Oop, got some new information Apparently, L.A. And Charlotte are friends in real life. I don’t plan on using this yet, but if I’m ever in trouble, I can use it throw them under the bus. Let’s look at the evidence .... -both from New Brunswick -Hosting a season together -LA knew the name of Charlotte’s moms cat

I've decided I want to throw immunity tonight. To put it this way, I want to give myself the opportunity to go to this mythical isle of Pines in order to potentially find an idol. Although Redemption Island is here and there's really no point in idoling someone out to send them to Redemption Island, I want to do something crazy and messy at least once this season so ya. I've been letting the puzzle time go on by as I sit here and wait for the challenge to be *just* about due, and then I'll submit something really terrible. Hopefully we lose and hopefully I'm the worst out of my tribe, then I can go searching and have myself a grand ol' time! I don't know when I'll get this opportunity later so may as well take the chance while I have it. As far as gameplay goes so far, I've tried to be as under the radar as possible. I didn't say much during the first couple challenges because I want people to just forget that I'm even here. I got into an alliance put together by Kage and I'm going to just continue to skim their messages and wait for someone to approach me. I don't normally play super passively like this, but I just need to remain in a good spot with that alliance so I can get through the premerge (for once). 

Jaiden honestly we get it like you dont feel safe but chill a bit you couldve thrown it less obviously. BUT WE STILL WON HAHAHAHAHA I think its interesting that Nick won Redemption and I cant wait to see who the fuck goes next

Ok so I think I forgot to do this last episode oops. I think I am in a good position on my tribe. Right now I have an "Old School" alliance of me Jess Casey and Cole. I do like this group a lot but I know Casey does not care about real life friendships in games, which is fine I would not be upset if she turned on me, it just means in the game I am not going to trust her that much. But I also have Emma and Ari who I trust and like a lot. Then there is Andreas, the last game we played together was a disaster since we were so actively against each other. Ruthie is a cutie but I don't really know her all that well. And Pippa is just..well my daughter who I apparently don't work with ever. Right now my goal is to get Pippa out. It seems like the easier vote, but I would like Andreas/Ruthie out earlier than later in this game. I know they both have lots of friends that are not me or my friends which makes them threats in my opinion. Cole is great by the way and I love him.

I'm really glad it seems like we already have a name of someone to vote out. I'm going out tonight and I'm just semi stressed that things are going to change and it'll be me though, AHH. 

I don't know if I confessed about this so fuck it. I am glad that Kage is going to the isle of pines. I would like to consider him my number 1 ally in this game so far. The "Icons Only" alliance seems to be strong enough to survive one or two votes, but it will definitely get messy as our numbers dwindle. Thankfully, that has not happened yet since we won immunity. I know Jaiden got the worst score to go to the isle of pines but like he didn't need to lose that hard. We won but if we lost because of Jaiden's antics I would have been pissed. I am keeping an eye on him just in case things go awry. In my eyes, he is at the bottom of the totem pole including Gage. However, I like Gage more and I want to keep him close so that we can go against Charlotte and LA if the time comes.

At tribal council last round, Matt went 10-0, which was expected. He hadn't been online, and no one wanted an inactive. Then he also didn't submit for Redemption Island, so he became the first boot of our season. I think Matt going was an easy vote and allowed those of us on our tribe an opportunity to mingle and socialize more. Meanwhile, during the past tribal, Pippa's name was also thrown out because she hasn't really been online at all, and was barely active. I hoped that with the second chance she was given that she would socialize more as she is someone I would like to see deep in this game - but it looks like might not happen. For the immunity challenge, we had to do a god AWFUL puzzle which made me not like looking at Jordan Pines' face. I know - terrible!!!! So, I got the second best time on my tribe, and 4th(?) best overall which I was kind of surprised about. I expected some really good times and tried to have a mediocre time but I came out on top. So, despite Ryan and I being 2 of the best times, we still lost. Then Pines introduced the Isles of Pines, and Cole, who had the worst time, got sent there and was immune from the vote. I think had he not been safe his name may have been suggested. Thinking back, aligning with him might not have been my best bet as I don't see him as someone people want to take further. Especially if he's shit at challenges . But he shall tell me what was there, which is good. So following this, Emma messaged me stating she is worried, as she did not do the challenge that she may be in danger. I assured her she would be fine, and went talking to Ryan and Jessica trying to get Pippa's name back on the chopping block. They both seemed to agree that it made the most sense, and now, with 7 hours left until votes are due Pippa has yet to make an appearance. Unless something sketchy happens, she should be on redemption soon. Emma and I were celebrating that we are probably safe again and then she suggested we make a Her/Me/Ryan/Aru/Jessica/Ruthie alliance which I think would be good. We're the stongest 6 on our tribe if we wanna move forward and I haven't had a solid alliance in recent seasons which I think fucked me over. So we each took 2 names and decided to chat with them. I had Ari and Jess. Ari agreed right away that we should do that alliance and Jess hasn't been online to chat with about it. The tribe is very quiet and I think it's because we all have lives to lead. Plus we just went to tribal with 10 and now there's gonna be 8 of us and it's a huge jump. One last thing, the puzzle thing showed who's better then puzzles at me. And while I did get a time of 18 mins my first time, that was still better then a majority of people. You know when else there was a challenge ? The secret power thing. And if Kage and Drew and Ryan were faster then me, then its safe to assume one of them has it. BUT, Ryan was talking during the time that post went up the first night so he doesn't have it. It's either Kage or Drew then. We shall see what it is. But I know that i'm not gonna go around advertising theirs a hidden power. Did that in Great Lakes and it caused a lot more trouble then it should have. It's all a learning experience folks.

Yay! We won immunity again! Even better I won reward! At camp, I’m working on my personal relationships, specifically with Regan, David, Gage, and Rafael. I hope that by befriending them that they will be more sympathetic in my time of need. Tisk tisk tisk Jaiden, he tried put his own personal desires ahead of the tribe. He tried to get the worst time so if we lost, he’d go the Isles Of The Pines. Jokes on him, I got it. Oh well, at least this just builds my case for whenever I want to get out Jaiden. At Isles Of The Pines I got stuck with Chrissa and Cole. Gross. The only dirt I got from them was from Chrissa saying Liam is probably going home tonight. So not much. I searched and to my luck, found a clue to the idol.... “Along the Southern Path you be, You find a nice and climbable tree. It holds 4 holes for which you see, in one of them is where powers be.“ The clue is still there so someone else could find it. I’m going to go back to my tribe and tell my alliance (Me, Rafael, Jaiden, LA, Charlotte, Gage) that I searched there and found nothing. Let’s just hope they don’t double check that. I’m feeling really good right now as we’re on winning streak, and I’ll hopefully get the idol soon. I have cases on why we should get rid of Regan, Jaiden, and Karen if I ever need them. So right now I’m pretty much the King of the game, to that I say, Long Live The King

Whew I'm really nervous about tonight! Not because I think I'm up for the chopping block, but because I have No Fucking Clue if I'll be there for tribal. Thanks a lot for cooking my pressure, CHARLOTTE (jk love ya) The vote, afaik, is for Allison, and tbh I'm kinda fine with that? Like, I've never personally been a huge fan of her, and she does start to get annoying to be around after a lil while. So if she goes, I'm cool with it tbh.

So we lost again. Sucks. Did the puzzle once and did better then half my tribe. Fucking Cole got 100 mins. Probs in putpose can’t work with that long term we could have fucking won. Anyway pippa is quiet and needs to go

My names Pippa and i hate playing games with RTP bc he sucks butt Jess: Ryan said he’d never vote out Emma Ryan: it’s because you came in late that no one wants to vote with you Me: die Ryan, you little turd

Pippa came to me about an hour before tribal and wanted to vote Emma out. She said to me that she had the number in a ari, Jessica and ryan however none of them really want to send Emma home - including myself. It sucks we're lying to her, but she should've started playing more earlier. Tribal is in literally 3 minutes and she's probably still scheming 

Tag yourself im emma and her crew