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flyingspicerack · 2 years ago
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NO UR OKAY IM THE SAME WAY uhhh gimme like. What mao does in downtime? how she gets along w/ the other matsus?
UAH OK OK OK this is going under cut cause i wrote LOTS
(also just letting u know they use they/them pronouns)
Mao is kind of a closeted otaku, or former? They were a hikikomori/shut-in for almost a decade and while they were in solitude, they were very much into anime and manga, idols, video games and MMOs. So, nowadays, they'll still watch anime and play video games but not to that same extreme. They have one craft hobby that they're not very good at and its needle felting, they love doing it despite nothing ever turning out good and constantly stabbing their fingers.
SO THE MATSUS WOAH MOMMA (Ill be 100% honest, I haven't gotten far enough into development/writing my fic to that Mao has fleshed out relationships with the other boys (its a slow/mid-burn and they hardly know the boys outside of Ichi at the point I'm at rn) so im gonna write how their relationships are now and how i hope i might be able to mold them in the future)
Osomatsu They atm don't have much of a dynamic, he's one of the brothers they know the least, but they've picked up that he's a bit cheeky and... not abrasive, maybe a little pushy? But not in a bad way, a neutral way. In the future, I do really want them to be closer, specifically I want to explore how the two would be drunk together. Mao doesn't drink often because, like Ichi, they're a lightweight but they'll get carried away and also tend to black out, so they don't. BUT they also get a lot more loosey goosey and are a bit more silly and confident, and deep down they're kinda vulgar so I think they'd be able to drunkenly joke together? NOT SURE YET.
Karamatsu OK So this is the dynamic I haven't touched on AT ALL, so I am really at a loss... I think they would find him funny in an ironic kind of way. I think they would want to genuinely be nice to him and encourage him, but would see how Ichi seems to think he's 'cringe' and would probably be like "aw, c'mon Ichimatsu, let him cook' or something to that effect. They're also jealous of the fact he can like, sparkle and shit.
Choromatsu OKAY OKAY AS MUCH as I dislike Choromatsu, I'm kind of excited to talk abt this. So currently they have not a CLUE abt Choro, no dynamic at all, HOWEVER!! These two have the most overlap in terms of interests (see above) so I'm genuinely excited to write how these two will interact abt otaku stuff BECAUSE they are going to rip him a fucking new one, say his fictional waifu is trash (yes i know he's mainly an idol otaku but you cant deny the fucker has some anime/light novel waifu he likes or something), and say his taste in content is sub par, but there is going to be one thing, ONE SINGLE THING that they agree on and its something they both hate and hate watch for the same reasons....
Jyushimatsu EEEEEEE SUNSHINE BOY!!!!! He's one of the ones they're had more contact with atm and they think he's absolutely delightful. They truly don't comprehend how the two are identical but are such polar opposites. Well they do, but they also kinda don't (they're an only child) and they think that their friendship/brother ship is so cute. Jyushi is also the only one Ichimatsu brings up in conversation /pos, any of the others he'll complain about. Mao thinks he is so silly goofy and admires his baseball autism passion. I want them to be closer and sillier friends, like one of Mao's favorite things to do is laugh, and yes Ichi makes them laugh in his own way, but Jyushi's way of doing it is different, not better, different.
Todomatsu He's a bitch. A total... little .... bitch. So, atm, Mao thinks he's a little knife cat bitch who uses his cuteness to manipulate, but ultimately these two are gonna get along great... eventually.... I just don't know how.... Something something fashion, something something hair (I kinda wanna steal/incorporate @ oh-gh0st's headcanon that Totty is into doing hair stuff) so I think he would help them bleach and dye their roots when they come in? Maybe?? I dunno I also just see them gossiping together... about something... i dunno
BUT THATS IT!! THANK YOU
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mediumgayitalian · 6 months ago
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fic rec friday 16
hi!! welcome to fic rec friday. every week, i pick five fics i have bookmarked and rec them with a little review. check them out!
best friend, baby by @ghosttotheparty*
“You— You make me feel so… good,” he finishes lamely, his head void of any words that could describe it, because how can Will describe the peace he finds in Nico’s presence, or the way he feels like he can finally breathe whenever Nico looks into his eyes? “You’re my favourite person,” he breathes. “My best friend.”
hooooooo boy the intimacy tag was NOT joking. i was gagged. yall tell me all the time how high u value will angst and like....this one DEVASTATED me for him??? like do yall ever think about how the first dialogue we hear from will in nico's perspective is self-loathing. yall ever think about how nico has always known him hating himself. well this author did. "i know you hate yourself but just because you hate yourself doesnt mean everyone else does too" hey what if we FOUGHT. also im going back in to all my FRFs to star my FAVE FAVE FAVE fics bc this is one of them LET ME TELL YOU.
2. just a dumb game by @ghosttotheparty
Nico di Angelo is not a party person. But Will Solace is going to be there. So.
they are SO FUCKING GAY and SO FUCKING IN LOVE and SO FUCKING STUPID. god i love them so fucking bad like they are inherently down bad obsessed with each other and this is how they should be. this is the way of the world.
3. even in the silver light by @ghosttotheparty
Nico is back. Will is still smitten.
first of all. latino and nb will. thank you. second of all. i am (obviously) obsessed with this author bc they KILLLLLL w burning intimacy. like you have no idea they write them like there is a twice burning fire only alive within them it's CRAZZZYYY. i also fckn LOVE that this is like. okay so the author says its plotless and it is kind of 45k of plotless, yes, but idk theres something to be said of love as a plot?? of learning and loving each other as a storyline.
4. splash by @ghosttotheparty
Annabeth is reading her favourite book. Someone walks directly into her.
yeah okay i think this is another one author week. sue me. this fic made me GRIN okay. it was so fucking cute and sweet and soft and autistic annabeth my beloved!! my love and light!! they are so in love in every universe fr and i fckn LOVE them dude i am OBSESSED. when this author writes people together it's as if you can hear them click.
5. isnt she lovely by @ghosttotheparty
Their eyes always meet in the halls. Her eyes are grey and shiny, and they make Percy think of stormy skies and marble sculptures. (She could be a marble sculpture, in the entrance of a museum, surrounded by scholars and artists and mesmerised passersby. Fucking beautiful in a way that only art ever is.) - - - Percy has had a crush on Annabeth since eighth grade. (He doesn’t know she likes him too.)
percy hitting the ground when annabeth kisses him 😭😭 HES SO REAL. i just recced this fic on instagram and i am here reccing it again bc it is EXCELLENT. i rly rly love to see pjotv percabeth in fic like i DO. theyre so fucking cute. and i LOVE how this author writes autistic annabeth!! it is so important to me!!! and this one is so CUTE like percy had such a huge crush on him.....like not just he liked her he had a CRUSH on her. god. i am melting.
thank you for joining me this friday!! happy reading!!
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discoveredreality · 10 months ago
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intro post <3
don't mind me editing this like every single day lol
my dm's and askbox is always open if u want to talk <3
anons are welcome too <3
also if u want to make new friends i am right here pls say hi im fucking lonely😭
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BELOVED MOOTS <33333 (everyone is tagging them and this is fun)
this in no particular order just whoever pops up on my dash or smth idk. not every moots just the ones i actually know lol. ok so
@im-ur-sleep-paralysis-demon THEY'RE AMAZING LOVE THEM SM IF U DON'T FUCK OFF BECAUSE OMG KJHLGJKFJHLKYFJHKJGL
@ma-lan13 HELP MY BESTIE IRL GOT TUMBLR OMG OMG. AND SHES ACTUALLY USING IT WTF?????? ANYWAYS SHES THE BEST <333
@bloophasarrived SHE'S THE SWEETEST AND SO WONDERFUL. HER PERSONALITY SPARKLES AND OMG SHE'S SO FUN AHHH
@marylily-my-beloved I LOVE HERRR WE HAVE THE BEST CONVERSATIONS. SO NICE AND EASY TO TALK TO. AND WHY DOES SHE KNOW ME SO WELL <3333
@im-just-here4853 my vent buddy omg we just vent to each other i love her so much idk what i would do without her <33
@im-on-crack-send-help TWINNING IN LITERALLY EVERYTHING. SAME MUSIC TASTE. SAME TASTE IN FOOD. IN DRINKS. IN THE WAY WE THINK. WTF. ANYWAYS SHE'S MY POOKIE I LOVE HER <333
@the-gay-skeleton-in-ur-closet THEY'RE THE BEST OMGGGGG and they're nice and cool and shit <333333 i'm quoting myself it's fine AND LIKE SO NICE AND GOOFY AND EVERYTHING OMG
@cubemagnet somene i met on a random post and now we occasionally team up to correct grammar lol 🤓🤓🤓 anyways she's amazing :D and everything she says is so iconic like isjflsrijglruhglsuglijrsg
@book-girl4eva SHE'S AMAZINGGGGG. IT'S SO EASY TO GOOF AROUND W HER I LOVE IT. SHE ALWAYS SLAYS SO HARD. EVERYTHING ABOUT HER SLAYS. idk if you'll see this but this is for u pookie <3
@mil-pinterest-sss-here-i-am ??? questioning why we're moots. but he's literally so nice. literally will be my therapist and help me w maths because that shit is impossible 😭
@dandelionflowery omg literally so kind and everything all the time. so fun fun reading their fics and doing shit together omg
@sweetwarmcookies16 OMG RIJGDJFGIJFGIF THE BEST I LOVE PLAYING GAMES TOGETHER AND TALKING AND EVERYTHING. ALSO AN AMAZING WRITER
idk brain isnt braining ill add ppl as i go along
moodboards made by my lovely lovely moots <3
so far i only have one here cause i forgot to link the previous ones whoops 😭😭😭
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about me
i'm ari. she/her. nicknames welcome. go wild. dude/bro/girl/literally anything is also fine. i use 'lol' and '<3' too much. minor. literally the biggest procrastinator and so disorganised i dare u to find someone worse than me. i'm indian but i live in australia. bengali/north indian idk. band kid :D my pinterest is here. PLEASE DM ME IF U WANT TO. I NEED FRIENDS. IM AWKWARD AND BAD AT MAKING CONVERSATION BUT STILL PLS 😭😭😭
personality/star sign or whatever
according to the mbti test here i am an istp-t. i am also a cancer. i found out my sun, moon and rising signs and the marauders version and i wrote it down and lost it so then i redid it and i lost it again so i can't bother at this point someone help me :(
time zone
Australian Eastern Standard Time (AEST) i think?? SUCK ON THAT AMERICANS AND WHOEVER ELSE EHHEHEHHEHE ;LSDJFSFJIJFDJF;LJ
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my music taste
i love taylor swift, conan gray, olivia rodrigo, sabrina carpenter and honestly a lot of other stuff lol. also love bollywood music.
favourite books and authors
i love reading and i'm usually a really fast reader lol. i love harry potter (fuck jkr tho), kotlc, chetan bhagat books, the inheritance games, agggtm, literally all of karen m. mcmanus's books, the divergent series, pjo and hoo, lorien legacies, the selection, powerless, soc, girl in pieces, dictionary of lost words and bookbinder of jericho, all the books by amish, and a bunch of other books.
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dni
idk the usual?? if u think ppl arent valid or you're literally an asshole. honestly you all can go get stuffed. idgaf
tag games and shit
yes you can absolutely tag me. i love tag games and chain asks. sometimes i may not get to doing it but i usually will and it makes me so happy when i'm tagged lol
tags
i don't post that much stuff so i don't really have mulitple tags for my posts. anything or any shitposting or thoughts will be tagged #ari's shit. for asks it's #ari gets an ask?
fandoms!
i'm literally obsessed with drarry but i'm mostly part of the marauders fandom. i'm starting to make my way through all of the marauders fics. i love love love hermitcraft. i'm an ethogirl literally who doesn't love etho?? also really into trafficblr. i literally love six of crows so much like omg. desperately trying to get through the magnus archives im only 8 years late haha i also love kotlc sm. (team foster-keefe forever!) i'm low-key in love with keefe sencen cause omg. aaaand also a bunch of other shit but those are the main ones idk bro
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i'm bored and this is too long already might as well add more so here are a bunch of userboxes :D
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and that's all not because i have self control but because there is a limit to images per post 😭😭😭 i literally had to delete some of my aesthetic images for this soooo
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all the above photos are not mine, i got them off of pintrest.
my profile pic is obviously from the makowka picrew here
the beautiful dividers are linked here. these are by @saradika-graphics she is a literal star these dividers are so good
IK THIS IS WAY TOO FUCKING LONG AND I KEEP ON ADDING SHIT MORE SHIT SO IF U ACTUALLY LIKE READ TO THE BOTTOM THIS HERE IS FOR U LMFAO ILYSM <333333
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I know people have had fanfic ideas about Lucifer hunting Valentino down for sexually harassing Charlie, but honestly, I don't think Charlie is going to even mention that moment to anyone. Charlie is already ashamed about how things went down at the studio due to how her actions affected Angel, she's probably to consumed with guilt to even care about Val's drool on her arm due to how minuscule she'd see it as compared to what Angel went through. Plus, her promise to not interfere with Angel's life outside the Hotel would also contribute to her not getting her dad involved despite hating Valentino's guts enough to nearly fight him herself.
Hello my friend,
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I actually never read read those fics. There are too many fics that it is overwhelming and not enough time to read them. So, having someone defend Charlies honor and beat Valentinos ass for sexually assaulting her isnt in my main interest in fic reading in the fandom.
I understand the sentiment and appreciate it. Its even sort of sweet. I also can see how it be satisfy for readers and writers to have a story one.
Nonetheless, I agree with you. I don't think she even mention it to anyone beside possibly Vaggie who she shares everything with. If she did mention it to Vaggie, I think Charlie pretty much forgotten about it until she was retelling it to Vaggie and just shrugged it of after verbally rant her disgust of the action. Because seriously who greets people like that?
The other part is, she reacts much more of Val suggesting she star in a film, more than the act of Val tongue running up her arm.
I'm sort of like Charlie here. I dismiss a lot of things I shouldn’t have just not to make a fuss. At the time I would make excuses for it and and it seems like a minor thing, and it sort of is yet isn't.. I'll even dismiss it so easily that I forget about it until much later in retrospect, wish I was vocal how uncomfortable, uneasy it made me feel of just plain wrong. I think Charlie is similar. She the "Good girl."
By good girl, I am talking about the way of thinking how woman have to endure their suffering in silence at the expense of other people's comfort. The do what your told and don't talk back, don't make a scene, fuss or trouble, and always put other needs before your own.
We see Charlie act some of these out. She just a good person in general so most of it is just natural to her but she also believe that the sinners are caple of the same thing...and they are...yet they are sinners who are not motivated to be so. She more than likely let things slide in the offenders favor just in her hopes they can be better with their second, third, upteeth chance. So Charlie will continue to dismiss situation involving her light to diffuse the situation in hopes the offender see the error of their way. But in reality she just letting them continue the cycle as they are not suffering any repercussions of their actions.
She shown to dismiss her own issues (she avoids her issues by fixing everyone else said by Husk and by Alastor commercial) or attempt to minimize the issue. “Pfft, it’s no big deal.” When she clearly showing she bothered by it. Like how she was talking to Vaggie about her mother's absence.
Going by this and her personality and always trying to be a “good girl.” And constantly trying to diffuse the situation. From what I remember, Charlie only gets upset when she witness disrespect of her people. (Adam talking down about her people or Val treatment of Angel. I think when it comes to events like Val happen to Charlie, She rarely gets worked up about it, it’s generally people get angry for her. Similar to how she gets upset for her people. 
I also doubt she going to run to father and immediately and bring up Val’s actions. Charlie and her father are just starting to mend and re established their relationship. The incident may be brought up about past the point that is recent, but I don’t think it be brought up with Lucifer nearby unless Charlie was use into it as and example to lead a group therapy session.  I definitely think Lucifer would go overprotective daddy mode once he aware of it and want to kill Val but I think if Lucifer did act, he would threaten/warn and flex his power and status as King. I think if Lucifer were to act out beyond threatening and actually double dead Val, there be too many repercussions. The other Vees wouldn’t take it lying down and would drag Lucifer name through the mud, along with Charlie’s name and the hotel. Not only that, Charlie may be touched but greatly disapprove as she trying to lead by example of forgiveness and rehabilitation.
I also agree with your assessment that Charlie would be hesitate to bring up her issues with Val. She doesn't want to stir up more trouble by sticking her well meaning nose even further into Angel business. Yes, its her issue and not Angles, but it would directly affect Angel as it involved an asshole of a person who owns Angles soul who would not hesitate to retaliate or vent out his frustrations towards and on Angel.
TLDR: I understand the Catharsis of writers and readers wanting protective daddy Lucifer killing the PoS Val for sexual assulting Charlie but I don't think it be canon compliant from what we see and know.
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popppyfur · 28 days ago
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...Im having thoughts and i need a 2nd opinion.
How long ago do we reckon trolls were caught/eaten/found by bergens? (relative to the great escape for simplicity)
lemme walk you through my thoughts...
we dont know how the tunnels got there, did the trolls dig them? or something else? or were they always there?
When did Peppy decide to use the tunnels? when were they discovered?
How many trolls did the bergens eat. surely at first they must have bean eating HEAPS of trolls daily before realised that they would run out. how long was it until then?
It had to have been long enough that they would have then decided to make trollstice (help cant spell) a yearly tradtion. could it at first have been monthly?
We dont know how many pop trolls there were at first. have their number gone down? by how much? since more being eaten means less babies.
How many queens/kings were at the troll tree? Just peppy? his parents? But that raises the question of wether or not any of the escaped trolls remember a time before the bergens.
-- A brand new, different anon.
GOD you reminded me of when i eventually realized how massively fucked the pop trolls were pre 1st movie. i remember trying to read everything i could that talked about it and staying up til 4 am to do it because holy hell they were being eaten on a yearly basis. IM HOLDING UR HAND AND SHAKING IT REALLY HARD. and im gonna answer this as jumbled as i can bc. its me. the professional yapper.
on that note ! all under read more to spare everyones dashboards
also, i havent really gone through actual specific numbers, my brains just settled on some vague decision that the pop trolls dont pass the hundreds, or five hundreds. that is to say, poppy would probably still try to know everyone by name just bc she would lol. so i hope you guys can just make up imaginary numbers of years too !!
we dont know how the tunnels got there, did the trolls dig them? or something else? or were they always there? When did Peppy decide to use the tunnels? when were they discovered?
ive always kinda assumed that the pop trolls dug it themselves! they knew about it long enough that they bothered to leave behind decoys of themselves after all. im assuming its a part of a long, long long list of attempts to escape, and they finished digging just a bit before the last trollstice. peppy wasnt gonna risk losing any more, especially since poppy herself was gonna be given to gristle
How many trolls did the bergens eat. surely at first they must have bean eating HEAPS of trolls daily before realised that they would run out. how long was it until then? It had to have been long enough that they would have then decided to make trollstice (help cant spell) a yearly tradtion. could it at first have been monthly? We dont know how many pop trolls there were at first. have their number gone down? by how much? since more being eaten means less babies.
i lost the damn reddit post so im gonna make my own screenshot instead LOL
from left to right, classical, techno, pop, funk, country, and the red blob under them; rock with a mix of other trolls
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so like. THIS FUCKING DEVASTATED MEEEEEEEEEEEE. assuming theres more classical trolls just off screen, the visible sheer difference in numbers from the pop trolls in comparison to the other tribes (FUNK IS AN OUTLIER HUMOR ME) just. genuinely left me a bit speechless.
and if you go back to the first movie and remember that the entirety of their village fit in branch's bunker not to mention the DAMN POT? it just. really puts itself into perspective. bc that stage was still relatively big, but the pot. the fucking pot. the entirety of pop village
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ALL of them. in THERE? isnt that crazy? we can say that some escaped, sure. but just the fact that they couldve gotten wiped out just like that is so. messed up to me man ToT
i dont remember which fic i read it from anymore, but there was a line going how the pops initially outnumbered the other tribes and thats how they were ever able to threaten actually overtaking everyone. and like. YEAH SURE. fuck me up even more like that why dont ya!!!!!
so suffice to say, pop troll population not doing so hot! and all your thoughts is just one domino falling after another. you piece together the pieces and ultimately just ending up with one undeniable answer. they got eaten. simple as that.
How many queens/kings were at the troll tree? Just peppy? his parents? But that raises the question of wether or not any of the escaped trolls remember a time before the bergens.
and ur first question, putting them together for one last godawfully long ramble :]
How long ago do we reckon trolls were caught/eaten/found by bergens? (relative to the great escape for simplicity)
the fact that world tour makes it a point to say that only peppy ever knew of the other tribes makes me lean more onto the assumption that its been... a while? but also like. no one's ever mentioned viva? no one remembers the princess who was old enough to fight bergens and mention that to poppy??? whos to say these guys arent just repressing everything as they always do????????? [ITS HARD TO ARGUE SPECULATIONS HERE BC they had to make plot for the movies to make sense!!! its why it feels so mean to me to just blame everything on peppy LMAO. even if that is the easiest way to make sense of it. I WANT NUANCE DAMMIT]
so for the sake of it. i like to think that theyve been under the bergens' capture long enough that everyone outside of the royal family forgot about the time that they were even free from the bergens. long enough that the royal family could rewrite the scrapbooks to make it seem like it wasnt their fault. that it never was. whether to spare themselves the blame, selfish deniability, or just. give up the hope that there was a single minuscule possibility to have help from the outside.
i said before that i headcanonned peppy holding resentment for them in the belief that no one could ever bother to just check. and thats part of the reason why he doesnt even want to attempt getting to know them, since it probably felt like no one EVER cared except for themselves.
again. im sorry that i dont have a specific number for you though ToT the most i can say is that: its long enough that they forgot.
POST ANSWER ASK RAMBLEEEE
heres a fic that made me ugly cry about this! i think it gives really good answers to your questions!!!!!!! and though it doesnt completely fit with whats 'canon' (when has anything ever) its such a horrifying and deliciously good outlook on how the bergens affected the pop trolls as a whole! cant recommend it enough!! please leave the author kudos and love especially if this is your type of jam!!!
more than anything. the realization of how hard the pop trolls' lives mustve even been prior to the first movie made me have so much fucking love for them even more?? T_T even if it is unhealthy to an outside perspective, they tried to stay positive, and they got through all those yearly eatings thanks to it, no wonder they try to stay within that mindset even after everything. sometimes i wonder if they felt like its all they had
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misscongeniality18 · 1 year ago
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if ur not comfortable with writing this one i totally get it but it would make me the happiest person on this planet if you could do peter sutherland x reader who has dependent personality disorder? if ur unfamiliar with it, symptoms include feeling helpless, submissive, incapable of taking care of themselves, difficulty being alone, trouble making everyday decisions, being over sensitive to criticism. for me it developed from childhood trauma/abuse so if u could include that too? dpd isnt something i see represented like, at all in fics and it would make me the happiest girl on earth to read one with peter <3
I am unfamiliar with DPD, but I'll give it my best shot! I hope you don't mind if I take a few liberties with the specific details of the reader's background, but I'll follow your request! I also apologize in advance if this doesn't represent correctly.
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Keep Holding On - Peter Sutherland
Synopsis ! You are having a rough day, and you turn to Peter for support. Pairing ! Peter Sutherland x fem!reader Genre ! Fluff, some angst Warnings ! Reader has dependent personality disorder, people being rude for no reason, mentions of childhood trauma and abuse Word Count - 925
" Keep holding on 'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through Just stay strong 'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you " -Keep Holding On, Avril Lavigne
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Today was just one of those days.
Like Peter, you worked nights as an operator for a tech company’s help desk. But since you worked at home, you were left alone once Peter left for work. While you were actively taking calls, you were fine, but in between, you struggled.
You hated being alone because you didn’t know what to do with yourself. Sometimes there were so many things to do, you felt overwhelmed and just decided to watch TV instead. Peter was very sweet about it when he would come home, helping you make something to eat or offering to put your laundry in with his.
Peter was the only person who made you feel better.
Your dependent personality disorder started with your childhood. Your parents weren’t always the most supportive or loving parents in the world, and they were incredibly selfish. Instead of being allowed to play outside, you were forced to be in the house doing chores or constantly studying.
And you never did anything right. Or at least to her standards.
Your mother was controlling, and she always corrected everything you did. You didn’t scrub the counters in circles, and you used the wrong sponge. The clothes were folded too sloppily, and your handwriting wasn’t legible enough. Write your equations going across the paper, not going down. What do you mean, you want to take dance lessons? How will they help you in the real world? Go to computer camp instead, that will look good on your resume, and everyone used computers nowadays.
While your mother was stifling and constructive, your father was absent and dismissive. Spending most of his time at work or in his home office, he only cared to acknowledge you when it concerned him. He didn’t care what you did, as long as you didn’t bother him.
After you moved away for college, you were only able to obtain an associate’s degree in computer science, and you only managed to scrape by from the help of your roommate and your understanding professors. To you, nothing was good enough and you often had to be led through each assignment in order to complete it.
With your job, you got lucky because it was computers, and you knew computers inside and out. It had been programmed into your brain ever since you were a child. Your mother had made sure of that.
You had been lost until you met Peter. He was caring, protective, and understanding. He wouldn’t let anything or anyone hurt you. He was the person you would turn to for comfort.
Until he couldn’t be there for you.
It wasn’t his fault, you knew that. Just like you, he had to work. But you still couldn’t push down the feeling of helplessness whenever he wasn’t with you.
You were feeling that way right now as you tried to reason and help a customer on the phone.
“Sir, I understand that you’re upset—“
“Upset?! Of course I’m upset! My computer isn’t working and you’re not doing anything about it! What are you, stupid?!”
Your bottom lip began to tremble, and you stuttered as you started to explain yourself. “I-I’m sorry s-sir, but y-you need to b-bring your c-computer in t-to one of our l-locations to r-remove the v-viruses—“
“Oh d-d-d-do I?” He stuttered mockingly back at you. “What do you know? You sound like a child, crying like that! I’m calling someone else because incompetent individuals like you don’t know how to do anything!”
The man hung up on you, and you dropped your phone into your lap, reminded of all the times your mother had yelled at you when you had done something wrong.
Tears ran down your cheeks as your body began to shake uncontrollably. You signed off of your work program, not caring if you were early. It was almost five in the morning, so you were close enough to clocking out.
Your hands scrambled for your phone as you pushed your laptop away, calling the first number on your speed dial.
“P-P-Peter,” you whispered when he answered.
“Baby, what’s wrong?”
You couldn’t even get a few words out before you burst into tears.
“I’m walking down the hallway right now, I’ll be there in a few seconds.”
Soon enough, Peter walked into the apartment, throwing his briefcase down and rushing over to you. He didn’t say anything, just held you in his arms while making soft shushing noises into your ear. Once you calmed down enough, Peter pulled back, wiping away the saltiness on your cheeks and smoothing your hair from your face.
“Wanna tell me what happened?”
You let out a shaky sigh, still trembling from crying. “This customer on the phone was being difficult, and he yelled at me and called me some names, and it only made me think of my mom, and…”
Your breath became labored, and Peter shushed you again, pulling you to him. Peter pressed his lips to your hair, your tear-stained cheeks. He rubbed his hands over your arms and your back, trying to smooth away the anxiety.
This time, your sigh came out calm and eased. You wrapped your arms around Peter’s neck. “Thank you,” you whispered. “You always know what to do.”
Peter pulled you away so he could see your face, staring into your eyes, still sore from crying. “It will be okay. It’s one step at a time. You just have to keep holding on.”
He kissed you, hands cradling your jaw, and there was no place you felt safer.
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prettyboykatsuki · 1 year ago
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hi fang!!
i apologise if this is something u get asked often, but ur writing is most definitely my favourite to consume and ive never felt feelings the way i do when i read anything you've written, and was wondering if you have (or have already posted) any writing tips that u could give me?
reading your creations for so long has honestly really inspired me to write too but i have no idea where to start in terms of anything. i've never attempted to write before, i've always been more of a reader, but if i could make anything even close to what you do for beloved characters and fandoms then it would make me so so so happy.
if you need me to be more specific about what i'm having trouble with i could try and narrow it down but honestly everything is pretty accurate T-T
anyways thank u for posting everything u do, i am eternally grateful! at this point im conditioned to get excited every time im scrolling on dash and see the green katsuki pfp <3 hope ur 8 hours wherever u are isnt too perilous >:(
this made my lower lip tremble how could u think so highly of lil ol me.... im very glad my writing could invoke such feelings you!! enough so to even inspire like how huge is that... im a very unpolished and messy writer by nature so im extra moved when people are kind to me about this kind of thing. like.. ough. i have moved u... what a world...
i dont know if i have any good writing advice to give you!! im very clumsy in my own writing. here is some advice i have given people before
my biggest piece of writing advice is stop worrying about it and do everything lightly. i think there is a lot of pressure and expectation on people who are trying their hand at any creative thing to hit a point of being objectively good. im a huge perfectionist in my normal life - but because of that, i always miss out things i could actually do. being that caught up on the details made it so that i never actually tried at anything
a lot of my writing has typing errors and things i could do better but i have to intentionally allow myself that grace because if i don't - i would've never finished a piece of writing in the first place. i only get better if i write and i only write if im not so caught up on the details. there is always going to be a learning curve. im always going to look back at old writing and wince a little at all the things i can do better.
but at the time, i had the confidence to put that out into the world. now that its out, i can look at myself critically. posting for me is a way of holding myself accountable if that makes sense. everyones already seen the flawed version, so there's no longer any reason to not improve or be embarrassed. its also why i dont delete fics even when i hate them later. there was one person who liked the cringe worthy sincere aspect of me. how nice would it be if i could make something even better than that.
writing can be anything you want. it can be the most important thing you've ever done or the thing you do on the bus ride home. it can change your life or you can forget about it the very next day. its yours. your voice is always all yours.
but you it can never be anything to you if you don't just give it your most honest try. do everything very lightly. pick an idea, map out a beginning middle and end, and write a story.
more practically - it will help immensely for you to observe the way other people write first. try to read critically instead of for enjoyment and see what you like. what inspires you? a persons flow, diction, dialogue? and emulate that in your own way. when you start your voice will not be much more than a mish-mash of all the things you love and that's okay. that's what all writers with very distinct voice tend to do anyways.
i know it seems counter intuitive and pointless to stress but really - the best thing you can do for yourself when it comes to writing is just sitting down and giving it a try. pick any idea, plot out a simple 3 point beginning middle and end, and just see what you can do. you can be critical and edit as much as you want after. just get it down on paper first the best you can and don't worry yourself sick over each sentence or nothing will ever get written
i can try and give you more practical advice if you let me know what you need!! ive given writing advice before but im very under qualified for that i fear. even so i hope it helps you a little to give it a shot. i know it sucks to hear u just have to try and see but it rlly is true
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writtengalaxies · 2 years ago
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hey hey! im down for a little chat <3
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i only found this blog like, 2 days ago but i can already feel myself getting the urge to go back and reread everything here. content of the highest quality over here <3 /gen
all the fics on AO3 would be really nice as well imo! although i cant say that i use the site that frequently, it could be a good way for others to find your works! at least thats how i see it
i think its due to how much i simp for this man, but i really love love LOVE the memory files. the trope is fairly common (from what ive seen) but the way you write it? chefs kiss. i am patiently but eagerly waiting for the next part mwah <3
the cup god chronicles were also a really fun read. i dont fully really see content (READ: fics) for him regularly so i was immediately intrigued and when i tell you, i was HOOKED. big fan, i love this doofus <3
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now imma ask you something. who's your fave ego? my guess is engineer lol
also, whats your pronouns? i havent seen them listed anywhere ^^"
if you dont mind me asking, how long have you been writing? just in general. it seems like a basic Q but the answers are fascinating.
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and as a last little tid bit of me im willing to share for the night, i read most of your works in around 2 hours. what that says about me is irrelevant,, goodnight, i hope this isnt too big of a text wall to answer <3
WAAAH thank you!! Also all of that in two hours?! Oh gosh! (And you're all good! I like big text walls!)
That was more or less my thought with posting them on Ao3! I know a lot of writers do cross-post them, so I figured "hey, why not". I...might end up doing that today, since I managed to pull a muscle in my back real bad in the night and I'm laid up in bed. gfhj
Ooooh, Lost Memory Files does tend to be a fan favorite. XD I'm really happy people like it! It...actually spun out of a similar idea but with Engineer and a Captain who can't remember wormholes and looping...heh. The next part, based on my loose notes, is likely going to continue the hurt.
Cup God Chronicles was really my first attempts at writing Night, the smug bastardass. The reader being a sarcastic little shit is in part I'm a sarcastic little shit, and in part based off of @ghostf1ux. I did notice there aren't a ton of fics for him that aren't...uh. Spicy. I have a couple more fics planned for it!
Favorite ego is 100% Engineer. "The smartest dumbass" was how I saw him described at one point and I'm like "yes. THIS ONE." There's something about like...realizing that even through all the hurt on both sides of that, he still fully trusts the captain? Despite everything. Never knowing the full extent of everything the captain goes through, despite his own misconceptions...
And well, hope is very important to me. So ISWM being very centered around never giving up hope kind of hit real hard, you know?
I DIDN'T REALIZE I DIDN'T PUT PRONOUNS ANYWHERE. ghjk WHOOPS. Honestly, almost anything! (My one exception is it/it's, and that's just because it doesn't feel like me. Big love to everyone who does though! Y'all rock it!)
I'm a genderfluid menace so they're always changing anyway!
How long I've been writing...the first thing I really clearly remember writing was either HP or Yu-Gi-Oh! fanfic waaaaaaaaay back in the day. I must have been about 10 or 11? So...20+ years at this point.
If I had to think about creative writing and doing it more consistently, that's closer to about...16 years? (I had to think about when I graduated high school and I felt like I aged SIGNIFICANTLY in an instant.)
One of my English teachers really drove a lot of confidence in my writing! Shout out to Mr. Craig, who liked some of my original stuff I had written for his class so much, he still has it and checks in from time to time on what I'm up to.
He's a big reason as to why I have an 111k original fiction novel and a novella I self-published for a while. He also did a front-flip off a stage with a lightsaber for a student-written play.
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doctorweebmd · 6 months ago
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We will wait and wait in that space and part 2 of tht series keeps me up at night well i havent read both of them but i read the summaries and the end of part 2 and started crying
you write angst so well omgg
ive read some of ur fics and posts and u seem like a really cool person!!! What do you think is your saddest fic? I'm a sucker for angst. Im reading ur bkdk fics and im like this hits so hard omg
also new mha chapter, if this isnt too much i just wondering what r ur thoughts on it? I saw a recent post from u abt it so im assuming u alr read it or something. Sorry if this is alot!
hahahha oh my gosh thank you! i don't know how i gave off the impression i was cool at all because i am not
hmmm in terms of the saddest one? I'd say its we will wait and wait in that space, hands down. There's such a certain helplessness and hopelessness in loving someone so much, trying to save them over and over and over again, and knowing that the only way they live is if you're not part of their life. for Izuku, who desperately wants to save people, who got his power because he wanted to save Katsuki - urgh. The devastation. If any of them are worth a read for angst specifically, its that one.
ooooffff thank you for asking about the new mha chapter. its a really, really hard question to answer. there's a very melancholic vibe in the classroom, it seems. i feel for izuku. the amount of loss he's suffering through is immense. he failed to save the one person that he promised himself he's try to reach. he lost his quirk, his dream, broke his body to save everyone around him. he saw his heroes, his idols, his friends die and break and mutilate themselves and felt responsible for all of it. he is sixteen years old and the world as he knows it has changed. forever. how can that boy possibly be in a place where he can return to any semblance of normal?
i hope we have a chance to explore his grief. i hope there is a deku vs kacchan part 3, where katsuki beats izuku's 'i'm fine' out of him. i hope he cries and breaks down and tells him just how tired he is of pretending to be strong for everybody else. i hope they finally talk. that izuku acknowledges just how sincerely and completely katsuki admires him and cares for him. i hope that they can hold each other up, support each other. i hope that he can start to forgive himself. i hope, you know?
on that note, i desperately desperately hope that the 'mysterious' figure in the end is Tenko. listen, i've thought a lot about shigaraki's 'death' in the past week and a half. and, as always, i stand with the fact that horikoshi is an excellent writer and whichever way he decides to end this series and his characters is the right way. he has never been careless in the past ten years with these stories, and i dont have a single doubt he'll start now.
i've spent years talking about how shigaraki is by far my favorite antagonist in any anime ever, and that the LoV are, in every sense of the word, the greatest villain team of all time. horikoshi wrote them with as much love and sincerity as he did the heroes. if the choice to kill tomura is deliberate because it hits so hard, then i dont think it was the wrong choice. he stayed a villain until the very end, and we still loved him. we still sympathized with him. he will still haunt the narrative forever. he still was a hero to the villains. he still gave the disenfranchised hope. he still changed the world.
if he's dead, i need him to be grieved. by toga. by touya. by spinner. by izuku. i need him never to fade.
BUT. but. if he lives. if what disappeared was simply his 'vestige' of Decay and his physical body still exists somewhere, Quirkless. If he has a chance to live as Tenko Shimura. free from All for One. From the house that bound him. from the name Shigaraki itself..
i. i can't imagine a more powerful narrative than to give the villains a chance to live. to be cared for. to be loved. to see the world around them and know that it is with their own hands that they changed it. for people like them. for the future. if this is a story about hope, then that is what hope looks like to me.
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bethhiraeth · 1 year ago
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okay here goes!
the strawberries are dying
byler in the 30's during the great depression, great exploration of class differences and them accepting being queer in an even more homophobic time (ongoing)
a bed in your shape
only two chapters so far, but a really cute and well written fic. will lies about being a virgin and everyone thinks that he and mike hooked up. adorable characterisation and them bonding over being gay
White lies
mike's family thinks he and will are dating, and invites him on holiday with them as his boyfriend. classic fake dating
filling in the blanks as we go
byler bookstore au. the cutest, fluffiest ever. will being a mess, awkward flirting, creative writing major mike. think coffee shop au but in a bookstore
the vale of shadows
im sure you've probably read a dram always the same and its sequel, but the last part of the series is just as good (maybe even my favourite). i wont give too much away, but its a fantasy au that picks up where over a bridge of time ends off. i am normally not a fantasy fan, but i really really enjoy this one (its ongoing)
i hate accidents (except when we went from friends to this).
classic 'mike thinks they're dating and just doesnt want to rush will and will has no idea what the fuck is going on'
laying on a sandy beach, sun shining in my eyes
the party goes to the beach in their senior year. really cute and fluffy
To Witness, The near Disappearance of Mike Wheeler
everyone thinks will is dead, for real this time. but hes not, hes trapped in the upside down again by vecna before he died. will trying to escape + exploration of mike's mental health which i felt dealt with it really well. be warned with this one, HEAVY angst and depression, so check tw.
something hungry for blood
vampire!mike but make it like. really funny. the vampire thing isnt even all that relevant tbh. hes still an idiot <3
Hide From The World (In Your Arms, Preferably)
cute but also angsty spidey!will, where he almost dies and lands in mike's living room, who he hasn't spoken to in over a year
playing pretend never felt so real
apparently im a sucker for these things, because this is another 'mike and will fake date on holiday with his family' one. and it is. adorable. my mouth was actually hurting from smiling so much. also impeccable wheeler family dynamics. holly is an icon (i was in hysterics every time she said something) and nancy adopts will as her baby brother. fluff all round <3
i was enchanted to meet you (please don't be in love with someone else)
adorable byler coffee shop au feat. mike being a fucking idiot
you are sick (and you’re married)
another coffee shop au but will is the idiot this time
Love goes 'round
will and mike meet in a laundromat at 3am. just really cute one-shot, and cool liminal 3am vibes
Tattoo
mike gets a tattoo and gets kicked out by his girlfriend. he realises maybe it has more to do with the fact that hes in love with will and didnt know it that the tattoo
Take My Breath Away
tooth-rotting byler wedding:)
he is half of my soul, as the poets say
THIS. FIC. I go back to it whenever I am feeling a little down. Featuring mike and will both being dorks for luca, the song of achilles, and having cats that are soulmates. i just. love it so much
thats all ive got for now! i hope all the links work, and that you find something that you enjoy (and havent read!) <3
anybody have any byler fic recs?? im trying to get back into reading to give me motivation to write
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mediumgayitalian · 9 months ago
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fic rec friday 3
hi!! welcome to fic rec friday. every week, i pick five fics i have bookmarked and rec them with a little review. check them out!
Memories Made by zjass06
"Hi! I'm Will! You're my new neighbour!" the blonde boy beams; Nico frowns in turn, peering curiously at this Will. "My ma' says not to talk to strangers," Nico replies as he sits himself upon the grass. Will plops himself down next to the dark haired boy, who giggles so purely it makes his smile contagious. "I'm not a stranger, I'm your neighbour! You live next to me now and we can be friends!" Or A few snippets of Nico’s life and how his friendship develops with Will, all within a much treasured treehouse.
childhood friends to lovers will ALWAYS be elite. to me. and the centrality of this treehouse in this fic is so fucking cute bc they absolutely are the type of nerds to have a treehouse they use well into their late teens lol
2. Mafia by @buoyantsaturn
Nico is the most terrifying mob boss in New York, and Will is his live-in doctor. A Mafia Au
MY FAVE SOLANGELO SERIES TBH. like is it toxic a little bit? yeah. did the second one make me squeamish? yeah. in the 6/7 years since its been posted, have i read it literally DOZENS of times?? you betcha. idk man theres something about the danger of it all. the insane mob boss and the doctor hes whipped for. SO SO much fun and so so so romantic
3. you stormed into the battlefield (of my heart) by fedyaism
“Doctor Solace,” he says, “would you be willing to tend to a foe?” Will blinks. (He had practically expected everything but this.) “I’m sorry?” “I need you to heal an enemy for me. Can you do that?” Grace asks in a tone that lets Will know that he wasn’t really asking. “An… an enemy, sir?” “Yes. I will send him to you.” “Of course, General.” (What else could he say?)
this ends ambiguously but i am Choosing to believe they find each other again and live happily ever after for ever and ever bc im a weenie. its just...man fuck the military and i got no fondness for war BUT this isnt real and ergo i can sigh dreamily at love that is inherently kind of tragic and all the more desperately beautiful for you, yknow??
4. It's a Process by @oh-hush-its-perfect
When Nico comes out to Hazel, she really isn't sure how to react. Of course, she loves her brother to pieces, but something is holding her back. It takes a while to get over old beliefs. It takes a while to become accepting. It takes Hazel a while indeed. A.K.A. Nico is gay and Hazel can't wrap her head around it.
contrary to what the summary may lead you to believe, hazel is NOT at all homophobic in this fic. in fact her number one goal at all times is to be supportive, even as she struggles, and you know what? thats more important i think. her love for her brother is so transparently obvious in this one, she spends like 8k words doing everything she can to make SURE she is loving and accepting!!! hazel i love you. also the campfire scene had me giggling fr
5. three times everyone thought they hated each other by lizamarri
and the one time everyone realized they didn't ~ ft. capture the flag, big three kids sparring, will healing nico and being sassy about it, and more. enjoy!
NOTHING hits as hard as flirt fighting. truly nothing. also 3+1s are my weakness i stg, theres just something about outside pov and the sheer clarity of how much they love each other and love driving each other up the wall lmfao
thank you for joining me this friday!! happy reading!!
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lepidopteragirl · 2 years ago
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hello!! I was wondering if you had any karlnapity fic recs! Any genre is fine because literally I am starved where are the karlnapity fic writers QAQ
i do anon ive actually had a long ass fic rec list on and off in progress for like 4 months now but i will give u a few favorites hehe.
loooove you're dead on ao3!!! vampire hunter turned vampire!sapnap/vampire!quackity/eldritch horror!karl i love it so so much, karl esp is just perfectly written and its so fucking funny. its ongoing right now, and is rly long and such a fun read BIG REC (also my good friend anonymous dentist wrote this one!)
I speak as one about to die by cryptofhoney god this fic. go home everyone this fic gets cfiances mythology analogies like no one else. i promised i wouldn’t spoil any lines from these fics but know that at least twice a week i think of the line talking about ksq and their relationships with the gods and have to lay down, genuinely. trojan war sci-fi with karl as sort of kassandra. tragedy what if we all died. thinking about this fic is making me emotional its so hgngnghghgh. 1k ish one shot (this is also yen’s fic! hi yen!)
this light from all eclipse which is quackity centric lighthouse horror. im a huge baby with horror and i loved this, super super funky vibes that makes you want to stare at a wall for an interminable amount of time. im not selling it very well but this fic is on the list of stories that have changed me as a person, as well as fics that have made me cry its so so good
pretty face (pretty boyfriend too) sapnap is jealous of karls new boyfriend, who he maybe kinda likes too? karlnapity from ao3 user karlnapity what more could you desire
there's an ache in you (put there by the ache in me) is so so damn good the most banger hurt/comfort, soulmate au which isnt always my thing, but i love how its done here, soo lovely
here's to us FIANCES WEDDING FIANCES WEDDING FIANCES WEDDING no more thoughts no more words just fiances wedding go read this please please it so soft and sweet ough
also where the sunlight dies if u havent read that one!!!!!! i feel like everyone here has its a classic, but its worth the hype its soo good
all the authors on this list slay sm btw cannot recommend the rest of their works enough im just reccing some of my favorites but go look at the rest of them too go go go!!!!
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dorotharry · 3 years ago
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two days to be whoever you want - part one
a harry styles fic
pairing: hslot!harry x musician!reader
summary: you can’t believe the harry styles wants you to be one of his opening acts for harryween. and the short two days you spend with him and band turns out to be the best two days of your life.
a/n: this is procrastinating from university because i am delusional and have been obsessing over love on tour. i’m vicariously living through all my beautiful american harries bc harry still hasn’t rescheduled his australian tour 🤡 THIS ALSO ISNT PROOF READ SO ILL CHECK IT IN THE MIRNING TELL ME WHAT U THUNK
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You still couldn’t believe it. Today (well technically tonight) was October 29th. Tomorrow was Harryween. The biggest day of your carrier so far. Not that you had much to compare it to, but still something you were sure you would always remember.
Being the big Harry Styles fan you were, you had originally bought pit tickets to both nights of Harryween, but then covid happened and everything got postponed or cancelled and you weren’t even sure if it would go ahead. You’d kept the tickets though just in case.
Turns out you wouldn’t even have to, whoever was initially one of the opening acts (the one just before Harry’s set) couldn’t end up performing halloween weekend 2021. A blessing in disguise for you. You couldn’t believe it when you got the phone call from your manager that Harry’s team wanted you, (you!!) to open for him instead. Which meant selling your tickets of course now that they weren’t needed.
Now you had always wanted to be a singer, a musician but when covid hit and you had just finished your music degree the year before that, it seemed like a distant dream. Surely enough though, in a time of need the world needed people to lift their spirits and that’s exactly what you did. You made a TikTok account and surprisingly a lot of people loved your music. You’d built up quite a following over the 12+ months everyone was stuck inside, little did you know that Harry was also one of them.
You weren’t massive like him, but you were proud of the community you had built on the internet and you were constantly overwhelmed with the support. You’d never thought in a million years you’d end up being able to release your music, be signed with a record company, have a manager and everything else in between but you did and you were so proud of yourself.
But now all the waiting was over and the concert was tomorrow and you were (to put it lightly) freaking out. Of course it was Harryween so you had to source costumes in advance, and even though they weren’t Gucci like you knew everyone else’s would be, you were happy with them. Not only would you be settling into Madison square gardens!!! Tomorrow morning. But you’d also be meeting one of your idols of so long.
But first of all you needed to sleep, tomorrow and Sunday were going to be big days and you needed to be on your best game.
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Waking up at 6am already buzzed, even without your morning coffee; you knew today was going to be a good day. Having previously packed your essential items the night before; all that was really required of you was to have a shower, get dressed and head to the arena. But you weren’t needed there until just before 12 so you had some time to keep yourself relaxed.
Getting out of bed, after scrolling on your phone for an hour or so you decided to meditate a bit to try and calm your nerves. It worked a little before you hoped in the shower, and started your long shower routine. Which was filled with shaving, washing hair, exfoliating. The lot. The water was also rather hot so you could use this time to steam your voice in precaution to not wanted to damage it once you started to warm up.
Once finished in the shower and dressed in some comfy clothes, you finished the rest of your skin care routine and headed out of your apartment to treat yourself to some nice breakfast and a coffee. Settling yourself in one of the cute cafes just down the road from your place you stayed there for another hour or so just keeping yourself preoccupied. By the time you were done it was 9:30 am and you figured it would probably be best to get ready to head to the arena.
Time flew by as you did some vocal exercises whilst preoccupying yourself with other things to slowly wake your voice up, and soon enough it was 11 and time to catch your uber. Fortunately you didn’t have much with you as your costumes had been taken earlier that morning by someone else to the arena, and you weren’t doing your own makeup so all you had to do was pretty much get yourself there.
Arriving at Madison Square Garden it was already buzzing with people, getting things ready and setting up the stage. The fans were already lining up, and man were their outfits awesome. You were looking forward to finding out if anyone watching the show tonight knew your music, and would be singing along.
“y/n!!” waved your manager as you walked through the back entrance and into the area where all the people keeping the show running were. “Hey Grace!” you beamed back, happy to know someone. She ran through some of the information with you, like why you needed to be here earlier for photo shoots of costumes and when your set run would be. Just as she was walking you to your change room she spotted and someone dragging you to be introduced to them.
“Jeff! Jeff!” Grace frantically yelled, still holding your arm whilst frantically waving the other one. The man turned around laughing at the both of you. Grace was a professional woman but she was also a little frantic and out there, one of the many reasons you loved her as a manager but also one of the many reasons she stood out in a crowd.
Stopping in front of the man she turned to you, “y/n, meet Jeff, Harry’s manager.” Shocked to be meeting Harry’s manager so awkwardly you smiled and took out your hand for him to shake which he took graciously. “We’re excited to have you here!” He beamed, “we’re all big fans of you.”
You thanked him, still feeling extremely flustered and said goodbyes for now as he was ushered off somewhere else. We you thought, wondering if perhaps that included Harry. Grace began leading you once again to your dressing room, this time making it without distractions. There in the door was a sign informing everyone that this was your dressing room, and you couldn’t help but let out a squeal, taking out your phone to take a photo. As you entered you noticed all your stuff including costumes were there, and it felt nice to be away from the rush of everything.
“Okay so your sound check is in an hour, make sure you’re there 5 minutes earlier in case they’re running ahead.” Spoke Grace informing you of your schedule. “The first opening act will be rehearsing before you, then you go. Then you need to be back here for hair and makeup and to get into costume straight after that. Then your needed in the photo shoot room I showed you to take photos before the concert.”
You nodded, thinking out everything in your head as Grace engulfed you in a hug. “I’m so proud of you y/n, your going to kill it out there tonight.” “Thanks Grace, I appreciate it. And thanks again for organising all this.” You responded giving her a smile.
She left straight after giving you your free time to do what you needed, one of which was to ground yourself because right now you felt like you could die of excitement.
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The hour had passed and now you were on stage rehearsing, tonight you’d be mainly singing originals but also some covers. Then you had the pleasure of telling the crowd that Harry would be on soon. It felt like such an achievement. You still had yet to meet Harry but you knew him and everyone else was going to be so lovely. The other opening act hadn’t stayed during your set as they needed to get into costume and there was only so much time in the day, but they did stop to introduce themselves.
Grace was stood by the stage with Jeff during your rehearsal as they spoke eagerly watching you. Once you were done, you headed off and towards them with a massive grin in your face. “I can’t believe i’ll be performing up there tonight with so many people watching me, this is surreal!” Jeff and Grace looking at each other amused before looking back at your with grins just as big as yours.
“Don’t be,” responded Jeff, “if that’s how you practise, you were made to up there. I can’t wait to watch you tonight.” You blushed and looked down at your feet. “Gosh your too humble” gasped Grace cause a laugh to escape from your mouth. “Anyway darling what did I say, off you go! Go get ready we’re on a tight schedule!”
“Okay, sorry sorry.” You giggled once again heading in the direction you came before rehearsals so you could go get ready.
Once you were there, you were swarmed with people pushing you one way and the other in order to get your hair and makeup ready in time. You sat there basically acting like a doll, not wanting to get in the way of their artistry. Tonight’s outfit you were super excited for, you were dressing up as Marilyn Monroe from Gentlemen prefer blondes, and you were wearing her outfit from “Diamonds are a girls best friend.” It was an outfit you had always wanted to do and now seemed like the perfect time.
Grace had organised a hot pink gown, that looked like the original with a modern twist on it, and then you had organised all the accessories, gloves and Marilyn wig to really pull the look together. Sitting in the dressing room whilst the artists finished their work you truly were feeling pretty damn glamorous at this point. When they were done, it meant heading to the room where the photo shoots would be happening for promotional things and also person needs. You could tell Harry had just finished his sound check, and most likely him and the band were getting ready in their costumes. Something you were yet to find out was what they would be.
Arriving at the room, Grace was there once again along with all the other team members of Harry’s this time Jeff wasn’t there but some other faces you hadn’t seen before were.
“y/n! Over here!” shouted Grace with two guys besides her. One you could tell was the photographer due to the camera around their neck and the other was someone you didn’t recognise. “y/n, meet Harry Lambert, he’s the one who designed your gown for tonight,” she spoke gesturing to Harry, “and this this Anthony Pham, he’ll be taking the pictures!” she finished, gesturing to Anthony.
“Hi!! So nice to meet you both,” you responding giving your hand to shake which they both accepted. “Thank you so much Harry for designing this gown is everything and more I could have wanted.” You spoke looking down at the hot pink dress which fit your body perfectly, and hugged it in all the right places.
“It’s not problem lovely,” responded Harry. “I had to make sure you wouldn’t upstage the diva himself, so I was happy to take on the task.” He joked, giving you a playful wink causing everyone around you, and including yourself to chuckle.
“And Anthony,” you continued, “Thank you for taking your time to take my photos! I really appreciate it, and I love your photography.” This caused Anthony to smile at you and tell you it was really no trouble, but even so you felt so blessed to be treated so kindly by Harry’s team.
Eventually you were finally meant to take the photos so you got into the area and started posing. You hadn’t had many photos shoots, but you always enjoyed them. This one in particular because it felt like you were playing a character. And you could really go out of the box when it came to poses. At some point Jeff had snuck into the room and had been whispering with Grace and Harry Lambert about something which puzzled you as Grace smirked your way.
It wasn’t until the door burst open and entered Mitch, Pauli, Niji and Harry dressed up in suits that things began clicking in your head. You couldn’t help but feel a little embarrassed knowing this was the first way you’d be meeting the band and Harry.
“y/n! When Grace told us that you’d be dressing up as Marilyn from Diamonds are a girls best friend, we just knew we had to get you some guys to take some of the icon scene photos.” Spoke Jeff amused as you were sure your face looked mortified.
Walking closer to you Jeff brought them over, allowing them to introduce themselves. Everyone was super lovely and said they loved your work, shaking your hand or giving you a small side hug. Then finally when it got to Harry you were nervous as ever.
“y/n, it’s so nice to finally meet you! I’m a big fan!” chuckled Harry as he gave you a nice big hug. You could literally faint right now in this moment. “I’m a big fan of yours too,” you responded smiling. Well duh you thought instantly regretting this very moment. He laughed again, as Anthony ushered the 4 men into position for photos.
You began to relax as you were able to mess around with them for some pretty funny photos you knew were going to turn out well. They were all actually really sweet guys, and it made you feel a lot more comfortable knowing that.
Once you were done with the group photos the other walked out of the way and Harry stayed out for some more photos of just you and him which you figured made sense.
“So how long have you been singing!” he asked making conversation now that it was just the two of you. “Basically all my life,”you laughed, “but I just graduated college with a degree in popular music majoring in voice.”
“Oh so we’ve got a smart one here,” he grinned. Causing you to whack his arm playfully as he stuck his tongue out. It was so easily to feel comfortable with Harry he was very good at making people feel welcome just like his staff. You were sure Anthony was getting photos of all of this.
Anthony briefly said you could stop as he showed the pictures to Grace, Jeff and every other important person in the room so they could discuss if they liked them. Based on the happy voices it seemed they did.
“So what’s your costume for tonight?” you asked raising an eyebrow at Harry.
“Can’t tell you, you’ll just have to wait to see me after your set.” He responded giving a wink, “don’t know you very well you could leak it to the fans or something.”
You fake gasped as you pretended to be hurt by his suggestions causing you both to start laughing again. Finally someone came up to you both and positioned you for the main photo you were taking. It would be Harry holding a large chunky diamond necklace and you pulling him in with it, whilst you stared directly at each other.
It all felt a little bit romantic but also mostly surreal. Holding the position you tried your best to play Marilyn and look seductive, whilst Harry wiggled his eyebrows suggestively trying to make you laugh. This man was like a 27 year old child, but you were glad because right now you didn’t feel uncomfortable in the slightest.
The photo shoot came to an end the of course they all had to leave to get into their own costumes, they all waved goodbye as Harry gave you a small hug and told you he’d be watching from side stage and to, “break a leg.”
If you thought you’d couldn’t have been more excited earlier to perform earlier, you definitely were now after meeting one of your idols, who you happened to get along with really well and who also said he’d be watching you. What a dream.
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The first opening act was on and you were side stage with Grace, the crowd was going crazy and Harry wasn’t even performing yet, it was amazing. It made you hopeful that the audience would be the same for yourself. It was amazing to see everyone in costumes as well, some people had some great signs.
Their set went by fast and suddenly it was your turn. Your band prepared themselves and on to the stage you walked, especially after Grace gave you a literal shove towards the stage. Looking back she was rolling her eyes knowing you were nervous but trying to lighten the mood. Here goes nothing you thought.
“Hello Madison Square Garden!!” you yelled into your mic. “Are you ready to for Harryween?!” The crowd went wild as they all screamed and cheered. It was crazy.
“Now I know you all want to see Harry Styles,” you started, “but first I’m going do a bit of singing to get you all warmed up and ready. Let’s party!” And your set began.
Just as you’d hoped a lot of the crowd did know your stuff. There were even a few signs in the audience that said stuff like, ‘I’m only here for y/n’. Which made you want to cry in the best way possible. You were truly giving it your all and rocking out as much as you possibly could in a floor length gown. Though you were sure Harry Lambert had tried his best to make it as movable as possible.
You were about half way through your set list when it was time for your first cover of the night. Of course you’d be singing Diamonds are a girls best friend but in a more modern and sped up version. “Now some of you tonight might know who I’m dressed up as tonight, but some of you might not. I’ve heard gentlemen prefer blondes, so I’m here as Marilyn Monroe.” The crowd screamed and one girl even through a film camera up at you which you caught, causing everyone to erupt in screams again.
“Anyway this is diamonds are a girls best friend.” You smirked moving to the back of the stage and getting in a position. The band started by playing the original songs sound, as so you began to sing.
“A kiss on the hand may be quite continental But diamonds are a girls best friend”
You grinned as everyone sung along to a classic song you could only hope you were doing justice for. Trying to act the way Marilyn does in the scene from the movie. You quickly also took a photo of the audience and then a selfie on the film camera before chucking it back at the girl from the audience.
“A kiss may be grand but it won’t pay the rental,” You shook your hand gesturing a ‘no’.
“on your humble flat, or help you at the auto mat. Men grow cold as girls grow old, And we all lose our charm in the end.”
You strut across the stage trying to be as diva like as possible.
“But square cut or pear shaped these rocks don’t lose their shape!” You snapped one of the diamond necklaces off your band member (on purpose) giving the audience a look of ‘oh no’ now still playing the part. Then threw them up in the air on the last line of the first verse.
“Diamonds are a girls best friend!”
That’s when the music cuts in and becomes what you’d like to call a more rock version of the song to fit your aesthetic. The song continued to the end, and then you played the rest of your songs. Completely forgetting to even see if Harry had been watching like he said he would.
As all things must, soon enough your set came to an end, and though it was a sad moment you knew everyone would be buzzing for Harry now. “Thank you all for having me tonight, now I may be done but the person you’ve all been waiting for is going to be here very soon. Keep that energy up!” you yelled and ran off the stage. The thousands of screams fading behind you as you got into backstage.
“y/n!!! That was brilliant!” screamed Grace running up to you from wherever she’d been watching engulfing you in a hug. “I knew you were good but gosh you really come alive out there.” Spoke a very familiar Jeff.
“Thanks guys!” You beamed, “I enjoyed every second of that!” Everyone backstage congratulated you, and you congratulated the other opening artist for their spot on performance as well. You planned on staying there to watch Harry’s set with the others so once you got a hold of your phone you casually leant against a wall, smiling as you watched some of the stories you were already being tagged in.
Looking down at your phone suddenly you could see a pair of red sparkly boots, and red fishnets. Instantly you had to look up only to be met with the cheeky grin that could only belong to one person. You face instantly mimicked his expression, as he wrapped his arms around you and nearly squeezing you to death as he raved about your performance. Lucky you were wearing foundation so he couldn’t see you blushing like crazy.
He dropped you and you thanked him, but you knew you had to say something about his outfit. “When Lambert said I wasn’t allowed to upstage you, he clearly didn’t release that would impossible when you look that damn beautiful dressed as Dorothy.” You giggled as Harry did a little twirl in his dress.
“Aw, did’ya just call me beautiful?” He spoke fluttering his eyelashes, which you just noticed had small falsies on them. “F’course, everyone knows that.” You responded whacking him.
“No but seriously,” he began, “that was awesome out there, I knew we made a good choice when we picked you to open. Tell me as soon as your having your own headline tour and I’ll be at everyone of ‘em” he smiled.
“Pft, but thank you Harry.” You smiled back, just staring at each other for a moment. “Now go kill it out there on stage, your fans have paid good money!”
That caused him to laugh as he gave you another hug. Going to run off to the band he quickly turned back to pick up toto who he’d forgotten at your feet making you burst into a cackle of laughter. “Can’t forgot toto…” he responded awkwardly as he picked up his basket. You covered your mouth to drown out the laughter a bit as he ran off after that.
That man is something else you thought to yourself. Making your way over to Grace and the rest of Harry’s team you followed them to the side stage in order to watch Harryween take fold, and boy did it.
Once the set began it’s like the audience had all gone mental, as they screamed and cheered for their hero. It made sense though, if you were in their position right now like you were going to be you would have been doing the same thing, just maybe not dressed quite as well as you were.
You danced and screamed along with everyone else side stage as Harry and the band made some epic music and memories for the night. Occasionally he’d look at you and you’d pull a funny face, and so he’d return one. Every time he spoke to a fan or read a sign you’d be giggling like an idiot, sometimes it was funny sometimes it wasn’t. Just like all the fans anything he said was funny, because of who he was.
When he sung over the rainbow you definitely let out a few tears, joining the rest of the crowd in sobs. You were sure you could ever be one of those famous musicians who just watched something and didn’t become immersed in the experience. You had come from nothing and now you had just performed for everyone at the MCG, and you were going to do it again tomorrow.
But right now you didn’t want tonight or Harry’s set list to end. Tonight you were whoever you wanted to be.
PART 2 AND 3 TO COME!!
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pansyslut · 4 years ago
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mother, may i?
hermione x reader
summary:
warnings: dom!hermione/sub!reader, safe word in place, mommy kink, dumbification, praise, slapping, clit slapping, use of vibrator and blindfold, subspace, aftercare
a/n: i’m not sure if everyone knows the game “mother, may i” but it’s basically where you have to ask the person in charge,“the mother” if you can move a certain way or do something and they reply with a simple yes or no. usually the end result is like getting to the end of the pool or something but in this, she gets to... you know. i also hate this fic so read with caution
“mione i’m bored,” you whine while hanging upside down from the foot of the bed. your girlfriend has been doing schoolwork nonstop for hours now and your patience was long out the door. you loved that she was always so on top of everything and was little miss know it all, but there came a point where it’s over doing it. “there’s no reason for you to be doing work due a week from now!”
you watch as her eyes are still set on the paper in front of her, only letting out an eye roll in acknowledgement. sitting up, you crawl across the bed and start taking everything from her lap and straddle her.
“y/n! i’m not finished what are you–” she cuts off when you place your lips on hers. you feel a surprised gasp escape from her mouth as you deepen the kiss. feeling her fingers rake through your hair, she tightens her hold and suddenly tugs your head back.
“jeez ‘mine you’re gonna give me whiplash,” you say while rubbing your scalp. your girlfriend gives you an evil grin and chuckles softly to herself before pushing you off of her and going to rummage through her closet.
not knowing what she was up to, you slump against the bed and cross your arms. seeing hermiones head pop out, she notices your expression and throws her head back in laughter, “you’ll lose the bratty attitude soon enough, y/n. i would watch your tone if i were you.” part of you wanted to be bratty to show her how annoyed you were for not showing you attention all day, but at this point you were just glad you could finally spend time with her.
finally stepping out of the closet, you see her with her tie and a vibrator in each hand. feeling your breath quicken, you were not expecting this to escalate this fast but you weren’t complaining.
sitting on the bed next to you, “mione, what are you–” she cuts you off by placing the tie over your eyes, completely ignoring your confused expression. “now y/n, you know that’s not my name. and you also know you’ve been very bratty today– more bratty than usual at least. but don’t worry, if you play the game correctly, you’ll get your reward. although i doubt you’ll be able to do it; you and i both know you’re incapable of following directions.”
you stutter, unable to comprehend her words. everything is dark and you felt your scenes being heightened. “but– but mommy i just wanted your attention,” you say with a quivering lip. feeling a harsh slap to your cheek, you gasp and went to rub it only for your hands to be pinned down by her.
“you know better than to talk back, baby. i don’t know what has gotten into you,” she says. you feel like you truly are being scolded by your mother with all this, ‘i’m not mad i’m just disappointed’ nonsense.
“do you know the game mother, may i?” she asks and you nod, not wanting to earn another slap. “good girl. so everytime you want to do something, you have to ask. yes?” she says and you nod again. “now for this particular game, you will be allowed to talk freely. but do not test me little girl or else you won’t get your prize,” she says sternly. you nod your head rapidly and mutter a “yes ma’am”.
feeling her hands trail down you, you knew she was teasing you but couldn’t help but arch your back, wanting more of her touch. feeling her hands press down on you hard, you let out a hiss. “did you ask your momma if you could move?” she says and you slowly shake your head no.
“mommy may i touch you?” you ask softly. hearing her let out a hum, “good girl, y/n. i knew you could play right.” she says praising you, making your lips quirk.
trying to find her silhouette, you find her shoulders and trail your hands down to her breasts, grasping them through her bra and massaging them. hearing hermione let out a moan, you try to buck your hips to gain friction only to earn another slap on the cheek.
“play the game correctly or we’re not playing at all. if i remember correctly, it was you who was so needy a few minutes ago,” she says sternly. biting down on your quivering lip, you try to hide that her words had so much effect on you. “oh baby,” hermione says sweetly, “you’re okay, mommy’s got you. i know your small little brain sometimes can’t remember the rules but that’s okay,” she says caressing your face. “my dumb precious baby is so good for me, isnt she?” she says making you rapidly nod your head, eating up all her praise.
“alright bubs, we’re gonna continue. if the blindfold or anything else gets too much, you know your safe word,” she says. her praise made you feel so much better and you were excited to take whatever she would give you. “momma so generous,” you thought out loud, giggling to yourself. “i am, aren’t i? only for sweet little girls like you who deserve it,” she says and presses a quick kiss to your lips.
feeling her lips trail down your throat and down your stomach, she stood with her face in front of your center, her hot breath against you. fighting the urge to wrap your legs around her head, you let out a loud whimper and you hear hermione chuckle at you.
she starts pressing kisses on your inner thighs and on your clothed pussy as she watches you try to contain your squirming. “i think my dumb little baby’s been thinking so hard recently, huh?” she says and starts pulling down your panties. “just turn your brain off and let momma take care of you.”
pressing a kiss to your clit, your legs wrap around her head, pulling her in tighter, only earning a slap to your bare pussy. “mo– momma may i put my hands through your hair?” you ask hesitantly. you feel her nod against you when she puts her head back down. lapping your pussy with her tongue, you hear a faint buzz and suddenly feel a vibrator pushed against you, sending out loud moans as you grip hermiones hair harder.
“mommy it feels so- so good,” you babble in your fuzzy state. pressing a kiss to your thigh, she replies, “i know pretty baby. mommy makes you feel so good, huh? look at you, all spread out for me. my own little toy, aren’t you?”
not being able to reply, you let out stutters of her name, “mom- momma- may i please- please let me- may i cum?” you spew out and as soon as she mutters “of course baby” you’re body tenses, climaxing as you jolt and moan.
slowly calming down, you feel hermione retract the vibrator and you try to speak out, “more, mommy, more– want more,” you say breathlessly, only to be cut off. you feel her raise and untie your blindfold and you rub your eyes, adjusting to the light. watching her blurry figure, she enters the bathroom for a few moments and comes back out with a small washcloth.
sitting next to you, she presses a small kiss to your forehead and starts whipping you down. accidentally hitting your clit, you immediately shut your legs and growl. “shit– i’m sorry, y/n/n. didn’t mean to.” she says and you shake your head aggressively. “not y/n/n, mommas. it’s toy. your dumb toy,” you let out and giggle to yourself.
seeing her shake her head, “not a dumb toy, a pretty girl. i have the most gorgeous girlfriend in the world. y/n, come back for me, alright? i know it’s all fuzzy but i know you can do it,” she coos and you nod.
“i’m ‘kay, ‘mione” you let out and grab her hand. hearing her let out a ragged breath, she presses another kiss to your lips. “such a good girl, y/n. i promise we can cuddle and i’ll put away my work for the day. wanna spend time with you,” she says and rubs her nose against yours.
nodding your head, you let her pull you into her arms and you rest your head against her shoulder. falling into a deep sleep, you hear her continuing praises, “such a good girl, y/n. so beautiful.”
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minahoeshi · 3 years ago
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you were loved the most of all.
Ushijima Wakatoshi x reader | break-up angst
summary: You should've known that when Ushijima Wakatoshi found it easy to fall in love with you, it might be even easier for him to fall out of it. But who expects the worst when it comes to loving someone as seemingly perfect as him, anyway?
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He said it was easy to fall in love with you. He said he didn’t know when exactly, at which place, nor for what reason. Simply one day, Ushijima Wakatoshi found himself looking at you with the epiphany that maybe there’s something more meant to happen between you and him. There you stood before him that day, the person he could promise love to. (And there he stood before you that moment, the boy whose promises you found yourself believing in no matter what.)
So maybe that’s why it was even easier for him to fall out of love. When he told you he was no longer in love with you, it didn’t matter to you to ask when exactly, at which place, or for what reason. Even the universe itself is meant to fizzle out one day along with the death of the stars. Just one more person drifting away from you like a lone planet with no real orbit shouldn’t leave you broken. You are used to this. You won’t fall apart.
But you break anyway.
It was snowing outside when he decided to tell you to end things now before it hurts both of you even further. Not that the snow has anything to do with the coldness creeping up your chest threatening to spill out of you in endless sobs. You were glad, though. That at the very least, he remained honest with his feelings. He never left you guessing. Every time, he never forgets to tell you what’s on his mind. His honesty is something he thought was necessary.
“I understand, don’t worry. Thank you for telling me right away. I know you’re also considering me–” you tell him and choke up. There are tears running down your face but you’re not worried about that. Wakatoshi never let you mask your emotions around him. For the longest time, he reminded you to feel free to be completely bare with him. All the good and the bad, he said. Don’t be afraid to show them to me. I will always understand.
He steps closer and puts you between his arms. You feel his chin on top of your head as you lean your face into his chest. You’re sobbing now. “I’ll be fine, Toshi. We’ll be fine.”
He kisses the top of your head and lets you stay in his arms for minutes. “I loved you then, and I love you still. It’s just that they’re no longer the same kind. I will stay if you ask me to, okay? Anything you want.”
This only makes you cry harder. He’s always been too good. And even in breaking your heart, he’s too good. You want him to hold on. You want to ask him to stay with you for years and years. Even with a different kind of love, you’ll let him be as long he’s close by. But someone like him who has dreams beyond yourself shouldn’t ever be with someone like you who still lacks certainty toward anything.
“Just for tonight,” you ask, still crying. “Can I stay?”
“of course,” he replies. Anytime you want. Anything you want. It has always been this way.
Because humans are creatures of routines and familiarity, you spend that night the way you usually do when you’re at his place. You cook dinner with him and eat on the dining table, sharing stories and laughter. You keep adding food to his plate and he smiles as you giggle at everything you find funny.
It’s okay, it’s okay. You’ll be okay. You’ll be fine.
You clean the kitchen and stay in the living room. He leans on the couch as you lay down with your head on his lap. You keep talking and laughing. He goes along, sometimes adding things to make you laugh even more, sometimes simply agreeing, sometimes asking questions. You keep it loud and light, afraid of the silence. Inside you, it’s so heavy, your heart might just fall off. This will be the last, you tell yourself. You want to be happy for now. While he’s still here.
"Do me a favor, okay?" You tell him as you're nearing slumber. "Let me leave first tomorrow. Maybe stay in bed, maybe pretend you're asleep. But tomorrow, don't get out of the room until I've left the house." Your voice shakes, feeling yourself wanting to sob.
"I don't want to wake up to another empty bed but I don't want to see your face when I wake up too," you curl into him even further. "I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry I still don't really know what to do. And I know you wake up pretty early and you know, do stuff, but just for tomorrow, please?"
Wakatoshi didn't really understand why. He originally planned on cooking breakfast for you and taking you to the train station. He would watch you board the train and he'd make sure to smile at you as he waves. You always waved back. That's how it works. Even after fights, and even after especially bad nights, you'd still do the same. Watching you leave with a smile was how you both knew you'd still be fine the days after. That nothing much can affect your relationship. For years, this has been the routine.
But tomorrow, he knows he has to give way. He knows what he said hurt you. It would be wrong of him to do what he wants simply because he's used to.
Tomorrow's the last, he realises. And then if you want, he'd never see you again.
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You wake up pretty early. The sky is a calm shade of blue, the world outside still waking up. You check the time on your phone and find it's 6 AM. Last night, you slept with your back on him. The sight before you is the other end of his bedroom and you notice just how much of yourself you've managed to leave around his place. Pieces of just one other person in his life, scattered in places around his world pretending that’s just where they belong. You didn't mind leaving things behind back then. You never really thought of the day that you might’ve to take back all of them. Just how does one pick up parts of themselves when they thought they’ve finally found a place for them to stay?
But as you stand up, you conclude that when things end, traces shouldn’t be left behind. He didn’t decide to break up only to be reminded of you even after you’re no longer close to him. So you go and pick every little thing that's yours. Even your jacket and sweaters and a few pairs pyjamas in his closet. You'll just take his things from your place too and hand it to Tendou's shop. Coming back here won’t do you any good. Him coming to your place instead wouldn’t either.
Collecting all your things, even the ones you can't use anymore, you leave the bedroom and enter the living room. You don't have many belongings here aside from some DVDs and books. You only take the books and leave the rest for him. You've always preferred reading anyway.
Setting your bag and things aside on the sofa, you go ahead and wash yourself in the bathroom and bring your toothbrush and some other products with you when you're done. You then head to the kitchen to cook him something light to eat for breakfast . You knew you didn't have to. He knows how to cook. It has always been him cooking breakfast for you. When you could, you’d rather stay in bed until the very moment you must start preparing to go to uni or work. But you did anyway. He's probably in his bed, awake. He has never been a heavy sleeper. With all the moving you did around his room, he was bound to wake up if he wasn't already.
You make him a simple omelette and write a small message on top of it with ketchup. "Good luck with practice today!"
You've already cleaned everything you used, preferring to wash and set utensils as soon as you're done with them. That way, when you're sitting down to eat, there won't be any cluster around to distract you.
You put the ketchup down and decide that should be enough. You'll stop here. You should go now.
Ushijima is sitting on his bed. He's been awake since 5 AM when he usually goes on his run. It isn't the first time he chose to stay with you instead of going out, but he can't help but feel heavy this time. He stayed in for you. But as the minutes pass by, it seems that he simply cannot find the courage to sit up and face you.
He wants to sink into his bed.
There's knock on the door followed by sentences uttered softly. "Toshi, I'm going now. There's breakfast on the table. Make sure to eat before you go."
There goes the heavy feeling again. Maybe if this keeps up, he might just actually sink and never get back up.
You've done that a few times. Leaving while he's still in the room. You don't even open the door. You simply knock and tell him you're about to go, always reminding him to eat before he goes too.
But this will be the last, he thinks. If you leave now, will he never see you again?
a/n
chapter 2 will be up soon not rly sure when tho. (it's up now the link is at the top)
also, im not entirely sure but i think i didnt use any pronouns or gendered nouns for this except "girl" in the 1st paragraph which i erased just now? if i'm right, then i hope everyone reading this get to feel as though theyre rly the person in the story. unless ofc u dont want that bc this isnt the happiest ushitoshi x reader fic u can find🥲. but thanks for reading!!!! m so sorry for typos nd other errors as well. i kinda cant read my own writings bc sometimes doing so makes me wanna smack myself in the head and never write again nd i hate that so now im leaving my mistakes to the gods nd hope they love me enough or smth. but yes thank u sm again for reading!!!!
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kylie-writes-stuff · 4 years ago
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“wife”
pairing: corpse husband x reader (female)
words: 1,714
requested?: no (send some in tho pls :) )
plot/summary: felix invites his friend, y/n, to play among us when they need an extra player. her and corpse get along well
authors note: so this isnt that good and i know a lot of corpse fics use a similar plot. i just wanted to try to write for corpse. hopefully things i write for him in the future are better. let me know what you think tho! also i really wanted reader to be best friends with karl bc i love him sm. uh every swiggly line is like a small time skip. this was written late at night btw and i didnt take much time to go over it
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You sat up from laying down when you heard your phone ring. You looked at the caller ID.
Felix.
"What's up Felix?" You ask with a small yawn.
"Aww, how sweet," You hear in the background.
You giggle and ask, "Is that Sean? Hi Sean!"
"Yeah, we're playing Among Us and need an extra player. You down?" Felix explained.
"Sure, just give me a few minutes. See you soon, whore"
"Bitc-" You hang up before he can finish.
You got up and turned off your TV, going to get ready. 
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You quickly tweet out that you're going live and say something on your insta story as well. You start your stream and slowly watch people flood in.
"Hey everyone! How are you guys doing?" You wave and smile, reading the chat.
"Everyone doing good, awesome! And i'm sorry to anyone having a bad day. I hope i can brighten it a bit!"
"Okay, sorry i didn't give you a further notice. I didn't even know i was gonna stream. Felix invited me to play Among Us so... here we are!"
You quickly join the discord and pull up the game, putting a cover over where the code goes.
"Hello?" You ask as you join the call. A chorus of greetings came your way.
"(Y/n)?"
"Karl!" You smile brightly.
Karl Jacobs was a good friend of yours. You would play on the Dream SMP sometimes. When you would, it would mostly be you being stupid with Karl and Alex, also known as Quackity. You were even a well know citizen of El Rapids.
"LET'S GOOOOO!" He yelled, making you laugh.
"Hey (Y/n), do you know everyone here?" Sean asks you.
"Um," You quickly scan through the names, "no, i don't think so."
You recognized names but you only personally knew Felix, Sean, Karl, and Ethan.
"Oh my god! Your voice is so cute!" Pokimane exclaims.
You giggle softly, "Thank you Poki!"
You're voice wasn't high pitched or anything like that, you just always spoke very softly and calmly. You were also a bit quiet.
Felix introduces you to those that you didn't know.
"There's one more person we're waiting for," He says.
While everyone waits, you and Karl run around each other's little characters and make jokes between yourselves. You mute yourself to read donations every once in a while.
You hear the discord chime, signaling that someone joined the call.
"WAIT CORPSE! DON'T SPEAK YET!" Felix yelled. "We have a new player. This is my friend (Y/n), say hi to her"
"Hello (Y/n)," Corpse said. You were taken aback by how deep his voice was but you didn't show it.
"Hi Corpse! Nice to meet you!" You said happily.
"Okay, how is she not freaking out?" Bretman said, making everyone laugh.
"Uh, (Y/n), do you mind letting me have black? It's cool if not.." Corpse asked gently.
"O-oh sure, no problem." You were usually black with the pink flamingo hat, but you ran over to the little computer and changed your color.
"Simp," Ethan mumbled, knowing you never switch from black.
"Thank you," He said, then the game started.
The word “Imposter” appeared on your screen in red, yours and Corpse's characters underneath.
As the game started, you thought no one could hear you so you spoke to your chat. "His voice was so deep, what the fuck? Holy shit that was hot, i'm gonna-"
"(Y/n)," Rae laughed, "You know we're playing proximity chat, right."
You blushed as you realized and said "Ha, anyways..." and ran to start faking tasks.
You ended up in electrical with Karl. "(Y/n)! My good friend, my buddy, you would never kill me right? Haha..." He said.
"Of course not, Karl! My good friend, my buddy. Why, I'm not even imposter," I said as i quickly dipped into the vent and back out, making him laugh.
I decided to show him because I knew Karl wouldn't say anything, and it's funny.
"Oh that's good then. Are you sure you're not imposter?"
"Mhm, pretty sure," You said, going back in. As you came out, Sykkuno walked in and froze.
"Uh, (Y/n)?"
"Fuck... Karl run! Go!" You said, Karl starting to leave. You walked closer and quickly killed Sykkuno then vented to security.
"That was close..." You told your chat.
You saw Corpse as you made your way around the map and walked into navigation.
"Hey, Corpse, how ya doing?"
"Ah you know, good. Just being crewmate and all."
You stifled a laugh, "Oh yeah I feel that, buddy."
"Yeah because there's no way that i'm imposter. No way i could be faking tasks and there's no possible way you could be the other imposter" He said quickly.
"For sure. Hypothetically speaking, though, if you were imposter, how many people would you have killed by now?"
"I would say probably around two."
"Interesting," You said right before a body was reported. It was Sykkuno's. Felix and Rae were also dead.
"WHAT!" Corpse yelled.
"Where was the body at?" Sean laughed.
"Uh I found it in electrical," Bretman said.
"I'm pretty sure Karl was in there earlier."
You calmly said, "It's not Karl, I was with him for most of the round."
"How do we know the two of you aren't imposters?" Sean asked.
"I was alone with him, he would have taken the chance to kill me."
"No, he's your best friend."
"He's also ruthless,"
"TRUE! SO TRUE!" Karl yelled.
"So skip?" Corpse asked.
Everyone agreed and the voting was skipped.
The next round, I spent with Ethan. He was pretending to be mad at me because Sean said Karl was my best friend.
"What happened to Blue Boi Buddies, huh?!" He exclaimed.
"Neither of our hair is even blue anymore!" You argued back.
You were in reactor with him when Corpse and Poki walked in. He hit the lights and you took it as a sign to double kill. He killed Poki, you killed Ethan, and the two of you made your way to electrical to help fix lights.
You and Corpse went the opposite direction of reactor after the lights were fixed, Karl going with you.
Poki's body was reported. That double kill only left you, Corpse, Sean, Karl and Bretman. You only needed two more kills.
"I still think it's Karl and (Y/n)," Sean said quickly.
"I was with (Y/n) the whole time," Corpse said, "In fact, I think it's you."
"That does make sense. Why so quick to accuse others, Sean?" You ask.
"It's not me!" He yelled.
"I actually agree with Corpse and (Y/n)," Bretman said.
"I was with you!"
We all voted for Sean, him voting for Karl. Sean was ejected.
When you load into spawn, you wait for the kill cool down and kill Bretman, saving Karl.
"Victory" appeared on your screen.
"God damn it!" Sean yelled.
"Good job, (Y/n)," Corpse said lowly.
You smiled, a slight blush on your cheeks, "You too Corpse."
"Their voices go together and they're a fuckin dream team? What have i done...," Felix sighed.
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A few more games went by. Most of them you and Corpse spent together, whether you were both crewmates or if one of you was imposter.
You really enjoyed his company and you actually got along with him pretty well.
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"(Y/n), before we get serious, I have one question to ask you." Corpse said as both of your characters stopped.
"What's that?" You giggled.
"Do you know Bingus?"
"Bingus? As in, our lord and savior, Bingus?"
You could hear the smile in his voice, "It's settled, you're my wife now."
This made both of you laugh and your chat go crazy.
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Eventually, people had to start leaving. You said your goodbyes to everyone and left the discord call and the game.
You set stream to where it was just your face cam.
"Guys, what should we do now?"
You saw some people asking what time it was for you.
"It's 3 AM right now... I’m not tired though.” You had been streaming for a few hours; You never even noticed how late it got.
People in chat were yelling at you to go to sleep, making you chuckle.
“How about we do a quick QnA, then at 3:30 I go to bed. Deal?”
You watched as the chat filled with questions. They obviously seemed to like the idea.
“‘Who is your best friend? Karl or Ethan?’ Neither, Alex Quackity. Next question.” You answered quickly.
You laughed, “I’d like to clarify that that’s a joke, i love all my friends equally.”
You answered more questions. Some were from new viewers asking basic questions, some were about future streams and videos. 
“‘How do you feel about people shipping you and Corpse?’“ People are already shipping us?” You laughed, “I’ve said before that I’m okay with shipping, as long as the other person is too. I think it’s funny.”
You continued to read chat. “Wait, we’re trending?”
You checked Twitter and “#(your and corpse’s ship name)” was trending in the US.
You laughed as you scrolled through the tag, “Oh this is so funny.”
“Fanart already?! You guys are so talented!”
You read chat, looking for more questions. You saw people telling you that it’s 3:30.
“Okay fine, a deal’s a deal. I hope you all have, or had, a great day and I’ll see you guys later. Depending on what time it is for you, you should also get some sleep. Stay hydrated, love you!” You ended stream.
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You scrolled through Twitter as you laid in bed, liking fanart and dumb memes. Also replying to a few of your friends’ tweets.
karl :) @/KarlJacobs_
@/(your username) what the honk ?
*clip of you saying Quackity was your best friend*           
You liked the tweet and replied, “karl no,,, look away,,,”
You continued scrolling, feeling your eyes get droopy. Your eyes fell closed but quickly opened when your phone vibrated. It was a DM. 
From Corpse.
You two had followed each other earlier.
Corpse: hey (y/n), just wanted to say you’re really cool and i’d love to play again with you soon 
You smiled, a light blush spreading across your cheeks, and replied.
You: i’d love to, corpse
Corpse: ok, see you soon ‘wife’
You: back at ya, ‘husband”
Corpse: :)
You: :)
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