#i also got an ebay gift card

[cingulata]

I got the Mayhem mug for my birthday!!

The only merchandise ever to feature Jimmy Shoe. As Jimmy Shoe's #1 fan, I feel it's fitting that I have this.

[ionozoned]

( cant wait for my Real ortega card to come in the mail so my collection of iono and her siblings can be real even though ortega will be the only official card of them all. )

[kuregure]

okay so second part!

volume 8 Japanese limited edition with the drama cd. I got it at a reasonable price on Vinted as well so I was very happy!

Even if I understand absolutely nothing of what they are saying, there is no image or subtitles, I appreciate it 😔 I literally jumped when I heard Shinya's voice calling Guren as he knocked on his office door! I was listening and smiling like I understood something LMAO

also it's a limited edition of volume 8, the volume where Guren is on the cover, ARE YOU AGAINST HIM?? IT'S A CONSPIRACY ?? DO YOU WANT TO REPLACE HIM??? 🤨🤨🤨 (this is a joke just in case huh)

and I saw that there was another limited edition, I don't know which volume, but I'm waiting for it to be on Vinted because well yk, ebay is a definite no from now on

next, the cat16 drama cd!! With the volume number 6 of cat16 ! I haven't listened to it yet and this time I was able to read the translation on tumblr of what was there thanks to someone (she will recognize herself and THANK YOU really!!!)

it had Guren on the cover too, of course I took it. I bought it from the same seller as the limited edition volume 8!

I miss cat16 a lot and i miss Asami

the supposedly limited edition DVDs but there is always stock somewhere lmao so not really limited. However, the stickers, posters, photos, cards and books inside were VERY appreciated!

both POP Yuichirooooo! the second is damaged because the person who sold it to me didn't put it in a box, just in bubble wrap 😠 I was outraged

maybe I will buy Shinoa later. It will depend on how it evolves! For now, I'm proud of her

I'm sad there's no Guren in POP but that's life. (I sob)

THIS is my favorite thing in my entire room. I received it this week and OMG I spent so much on it! I had no choice but to buy it on ebay because it was no longer in stock anywhere and no one was selling it on another site. I've been looking for it for 2 years at a lower price.

One day, someone listed it for only €70 on Vinted, I was only €20 short and my mother told me NO. As a result, obviously someone bought it and I had to buy it 2 years later at the price of €295 (shippings included) 🤡 it's my trauma

but I don't regret it and sometimes I suddenly remember that I have it, I raise my head to look at him and I smile 😭

And finally my wall ! Everything is from the limited edition DVDs, I had to hang them somewhere. And the frame is a gift from my mom! I didn't hang the stickers and cards

I'm thinking of printing and hanging a nice picture of Guren somewhere. I had done this before but crushed a bug on it so had to throw it away 😔 maybe I'll print some cat16 images too

so Kagami, I spent a lot on your work! so you better have to make a happy end 😔😔😔😔

what do you mean by "Guren" is my favorite?? no 🙄💅

[oh-no-boi]

mm lrb (last reblog? is that a thing haha) and just its not the same but the assumption that im not doing anything with my life/time bc im not dating and not going "out" is rly stupid

my coworker didnt mean anything by it but his shock abt me not dating anyone and alao that bc im a homebody, im not doing much..... like no i make games, i draw, i craft, i write, my 3 journals take up plenty of time too.. also i go to downtown toronto somwtimes for stationary stuff LOL im tired from working but i got plenty of shit im doing

like currebtly:

• finished domino club game jam thus resting

• i have likr 25 linoprints where i gotta print layer 2 (winter holiday cards bc snailmail is great)

• im back to sorting my dolls for ebay and after that, i am finally going to organize my 3 display cases

• as always, 2 out of 3 planner/journals, take up at least 2-3 hrs a week as i write the daily pages from my phone notes

• i would like to go to the park more, i wish i had energy to walk and draw again but i just go to the playground swings for my mental health occationally now 😔

• i am reading so many danmei novels like one after another.. balancing my time between reading and doing other things is a careful balance

• winter holiday gifts are on my mind.. one has been ordered but many more to figure out..

idk like theres comics to read too and games to play, and books to read, and so much art supplies i shud fucking use one of these days.. need to get back into watercolours lol.....

my life isnt worse or more boring due to me not dating or staying home/close to home....

i've literally gone to place in toronto where u can be nude and see ppl getting it on and put on the "not interested" bracelet and fell in love with not giving a fuck abt my own nudity levels and falling in love with the heated pool...... holy shit is it nice to just wear swimsuit bottoms and a swim shirt without a bikini top lmao the fucking best (i have been nude but i also am a weirdo who does like the feel of clothes and like i cant live without socks when not in bed, and underwear is a helper in controlling my bladder feelings, and then i just love an oversized tshirt ok it feels good but also im chill to be tits out)

idk theres just something great abt knowing that sure i might be squemish to ever try sex and sure im aroace something, and i dont think im gotta end up actually dating anyone but fingers crossed i guess? but also yeah i masturbate, i've been nude in nudist place, i've sent nudes before tho not sexy chat lol i draw porn, i have a lot of distressed anime girl porn on my phone what of it, im an adult and im happy* living my life and frankly i dont see how dating would even work for me when i want to be reading bl half my waking hours... i just need to hang out with friends more

oh also coworker was like "ur 23, right?" and im just oh buddy haha

*i mean mild? depression but we ignore it bc we are only truly depressed when thinking bad thoughts or like the future or anything, ok fine i still feel like its fake but we cant ignore that i did try antidepresants and also did get close to vague suicide thoughts but like im fine, i got planners and stickers and weekly bubble tea ok

[valle-de-sombra-de-muerte]

My Edgar & Ellen Collection

I've been scouring eBay and buying everything that I think is worth collecting from this series. This is everything laid out.

(Individual pictures under the cut)

First we have all the mainline books. This should be all unless by some miracle Nodyssey #4 gets untangled in its copyright hell and gets published (please one day please).

Here are the bonus books. Mischief Manual, an "instructional guide" on how to be a prankster like Edgar and Ellen. Hair 'Em Scare 'Em is billed as a pop-up book, yet only has one page that pops up. Graphic Novelty is a collection of comics done by a number of guest artists.

Also included is a DVD containing the first 13 episodes.

Here's a 250 piece glow in the dark puzzle that I've previously opened and assembled, and the Mischief & Mayhem board game. I've never actually played it. I need to get some people willing to play it with me.

A close-up of the game pieces. Aren't they cute?

A set of holographic Target gift cards, three pencils, and a little ball and bucket game. That last one I didn't get from eBay. I've had it for years. I think I got it from a middle school book fair.

And finally the Del Taco doorknob hanger, along with an ad from Nickelodeon Magazine advertising the premiere of the cartoon. I've placed it in a very nice wooden frame.

[bnha-littlespace-things]

Hi hi! I was wondering if I could could please request a Little! Bakugou with a Caregiver! Kirishima?

I hope you have an amazing rest of your day! <3 :D

ofc! sorry i didn't get to these sooner ^^; hope this makes up for it!!

tw; none that i can think of, let me know if there's something i can add!

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Sometime, when Bakugou was stressed, he would age regress. Pretty much no one knew about it, except for Kirishima.

Kirishima found out on accident, even though Bakugou had been intending on telling him. The red head started coming over and hanging around whenever Bakugou was regressed, and if he regressed during their regular hang out sessions, Kirishima wouldn't bat an eye and ask if he wanted to switch activities. Sometimes Bakugou would say yes, sometimes he'd say no. Kirishima also helped him with some of the things he struggled with doing while in his small headspace.

Kirishima becoming Bakugou's caregiver kinda just... happened. But he was a very good caregiver. He made sure to communicate as much as possible with Bakugou. He made sure the little didn't stay up past his bed time, picked up all his toys, and gave him extra treats when he deserved them or after a bad nightmare.

Kirishima was always there for Bakugou, and Bakugou wouldn't want anyone else as a caregiver.

So he wanted to do something extra special for him. Maybe it was sappy, trying to make the spiky red-headed rock a gift, but Bakugou didn't care. He needed to show Kiri that he was the bestest caregiver ever. And Bakugou didn't award that title lightly! You really had to be amazing in order to earn such high praise from him!

And Bakugou needed his gift to be just as spectacular as his caregiver.

That's how he found himself sitting at his desk, half in his headspace, glaring at the card in front of him. Yeah, it was good. It was handmade and the drawings were amazing. But a card? No, his caregiver deserved something even cooler! Though he was pretty proud of the card, so he would still give it to Kirishima. So, the partially regressed teen walked over to his bed and flopped onto it, pulling out his phone.

Kiri deserved something amazing, so he was gonna get him something amazing!

Bakugou scrolled through various Etsy stores and Ebay listings, trying to find something that was perfect. Eventually, the little found just the thing.

Gasping, he sat up excitedly. "Eiji'll love it!" he declared, not noticing how much he'd regressed already. "It's perfect! I gotta get it for him!" Bakugou quickly bought the gift, and now all he had to do was wait. And not tell Eiji! Eiji couldn't know, it had to be a surprise!

When the day came that the gift arrived, Bakugou could barely keep still. He was practically vibrating in excitement as he wrapped the gift up and place the card on top of the box. He texted Kirishima, struggling a little with typing it as he slipped into his headspace. Eiji would love his gift, he knew it!

Kirishima arrived, and Bakugou pulled him over to his desk. "Eiji! Eiji! Got you somethin'!" Bakugou said, bouncing on the balls of his feet.

"Woah, you didn't have to Kats."

"I know! But you the bestest caregiver, gotta show that! An' the gift is perfect!" Bakugou stated matter-of-factly.

"Alright. Well, before I open this, no doubt, awesome gift, Kats, are you little right now?"

Bakugou was about to answer no, when he realized that, yes, he had slipped. "Uh-huh! But still! Your gift!" Bakugou picked the box up and pushed it into the red-head's hands.

"Thank you, Katsuki," Kirishima said, ruffling the blondes hair. Bakugou beamed.

Kirishima teared up as he read the card. The handwriting was slightly shaky, but Bakugou's handwriting was still very neat. It read, 'For the bestest caregiver in the universe! You're the manliest!' and it had a bunch of silly, slightly childish drawings of him and Bakugou, as well as some doodles of Crimson Riot. "This card is lovely, Kats! I'm going to hang it up and keep it forever and ever," Kirishima said definitively, and Bakugou nodded.

"Yeah, cause it's the coolest! But it's gots nothin' on your real gift!"

Kirishima nodded, and delicately unwrapped the wrapping paper, doing his best to avoid tearing it. When he saw the box, he almost started balling.

It was a limited edition Crimson Riot action figurine. One that only had some ninety-seven in existence. Kirishima had tried to get one, but they were expensive and sold out extremely quickly.

"Kats..." Kirishima said, voice wavering. "Kats I love it, thank you so much...! How did you even get this?"

"Ebay!" Bakugou responded proudly. "I wan'ed to show you that you're the bestest and the coolest!"

Kirishima hugged Bakugou. "Well, thank you Katsuki! I'm gonna treasure this figurine forever!"

Bakugou hugged his caregiver back. "Your welcome, Eiji!"

[tangledbea]

Some time ago you mentioned you have a ton of Rapunzel art, and I remember seeing a New Dream wall painting too. Do you have some other New Dream or maybe Eugene art?? I need some inspiration XD

Also, thanks for the kind words about my URL on my last ask! <3

Oh man, I have So Much New Dream art (and a tiny bit of Eugene solo art). XD Some of it's official, some of it's fanart, a lot of it isn't even on my walls, because I don't have space, but I have every intention of putting it up someday. Prepare for a lot of art with brief explanations:

Bought at the Disneyland Resort in Anaheim, CA:

The top one was bought at Off the Page in California Adventure. It's actually got dimension, since Rapunzel and Eugene are cut out and raised on some thick foamboard. The bottom two were bought at Wonderground Gallery in Downtown Disney.

From Walt Disney World:

While I have not been to WDW since 1989, I have friends who go frequently, and over the years, they've picked me up stuff. Top left: a wet paint sign they used to use regularly (I'm sure they've change it by now). If the painters were working, and you asked nice, they'd often just give you one or more. I painted the frame, and my sister made the bead garland. Top right: A card handed out at a Valentine's Day event. The other side says "True Love". Bottom left: A parks map and guide. Bottom right: Tangled cards from the Sorcerers of the Magic Kingdom TCG that they no longer do.

Official art from various sources:

Top row: I don't remember the artist, I'm sorry. I've had it for years, though. 2nd row left: a lithograph print of the official art for the Disney Fairytale collection. 2nd row right: two (of five) lithographs that came with the pre-order of the blue-ray at the Disney Store. 3rd row left: a lithograph print of the official art for the Disney Fairytale Designer collection. 3rd row right: LE lithograph of concept art. I don't know what the lithograph was for, but I literally just bought it the other day off eBay. Bottom left (left): wedding silhouettes. Fanart, and unfortunately the artist closed their shop. Bottom left (right): The certificate of authenticity for the 17" Rapunzel wedding doll. Bottom right: two "wedding invitations" from the Disney Store from when Tangled Ever After was going to be released to video.

Briana Garcia:

Left: she used to sell it as a print. Right: A one-of-a-kind gift that a friend got me.

Misc fanart and gifts:

Top left: from that same out-of-business silhouettes artist (I glued them to the sparkly paper myself XD). Top right: a completely black-market print of the first Thomas Kinkade Tangled painting. Middle: This is actually highlighting the wanted poster, which I meticulously recreated. But hey! Life-size standee! Bottom left: a card from a friend. Bottom right: a sticker my boyfriend got me a few Christmases ago.

[littleautobot]

new additions from friends/christmas ebay gift cards/money from estranged dad

(i also got star hopper but she has not been shipped yet)

[the-technicolor-whiscash]

Hello mr whiscash. I read your tags on a post about how non fiction books slap and I'd like to ask *where* exactly you started reading? Cause there's some topics I'm interested in but I don't know how to find books about them. Like, did you follow a recommendation from someone else? Did you go to a library and ask? Did you google "cool book about space" and click on the first bookstore link you found? Thank you.

(Sorry if this response is a few days late I didn't know the question came in lmao)

So, I can only speak to my experience, but I started looking for astronaut nonfiction because I reached a point in watching documentaries where I was getting a lot of repeat information. I knew the only way I was going to learn more about the subject, and to the level of detail I was looking for, by going to books.

To start with, what I did was find a web page from NASA that listed all of their known biographies, memoirs, and autobiographies written by/about astronauts. I also looked for books that had been used as sources for documentaries or movies. This provided me with a pretty thorough list of reading material. Obviously I'm not going to read all of them because there's like a hundred, so instead I pick the ones that interest me the most via subject matter, either based on what astronauts are involved or what the mission entailed.

What I also did was found different books on the same subject so I could see different points of view. A lot of these guys had strong personalities and differing opinions on events that happened. I wanted to learn about the drama in Apollo 7, so I wanted a couple different books to formulate my own opinion on events from different sources.

I also went to a number of museums and found books that interested me but I was unwilling to pay full price for in their gift shops. The Smithsonain air and space museum had a fantastic collection of books and it was there I learned about Fred Haise's memoir, which I will absolutely be buying after my next paycheck.

From there, once I had a list, I went to Libby and looked to see where I could find audiobooks of the ones I was the most interested in. It's a fairly niche interest subject so my local library had literally none, but my friend lets me use her Boston public library card so there's more options there but still not everything. It did have a lot of the big ticket ones like First Man and Moon Shot, both of which I listened to. If you attend a college, there's a chance they may have a greater selection of nonfiction than a regular library since students use them as sources, and some college libraries do let the public browse books so you might luck out there.

For the ones that weren't on Libby, I turned to thriftbooks. My coworker who leads a book club swears by thriftbooks so I knew it was bound to have a lot going on and indeed it has had nearly every astronaut book I've looked for, including ones that have been out of print for years. I have gotten everything from there, ranging from a brand new signed copy of Gene Kranz's memoir (I know he's not an astronaut but he was heavily involved in the space program) to a former library copy of Wally Schirra's book to a 1963 copy of We Seven. Nearly everything is pretty cheap except for certain extremely niche finds - I love you Gus Grissom but I'm not spending $40 on your out of print book from 1968. Someday, maybe. But not today.

There's a few I've chosen to get from other sources too, like Charlie Duke's book Moon Walker which I bought directly from Duke himself. I've been eyeing a copy of Alan Bean's book Apollo: An Eyewitness Account on ebay for a while but i want a verified signed copy and theyre expensive lmao. But for the most part literally everything I have I got off thriftbooks.

I would also suggest if you have something you're interested in to find websites or blogs or reddit communities that may have discussions about books about it. I got Deke Slayton's memoir because I saw someone talking about it on reddit and it was one of my favorite astronaut books I've read so far. I found out about We Seven and Schirra's Space from some guy's fan website about Wally Schirra. And obviously not everything is going to have a webpage like NASA does, so communities are going to be a good bet to start out with. That and seeing what books are recommended under listings on thriftbooks since they're usually at least semi relevant to the subject.

One thing you can also try and do is on Wikipedia looking at the sources it takes and seeing if any books are referenced. It's not always gonna work, but it might get you started.

Nonfiction books are absolutely slept on. They're like the best way to learn about a subject especially once you've run out of documentaries. I wish you good luck on your pursuit of knowledge.

[elizabethplaid]

daily notes - april 16, 2024

Got up fine today, though I still didn't quite feel "on my game". How bad was I spaced out? Didn't realize I forgot my nose ring until I was already at the library. Remembered my other jewelry, though!

LL-J wasn't there, so it was an "indulgent" day. Since joined me again, too. I played phone games the whole time, until there was like an hour left. Then I read badly-edited romance novels and kept having to stop and cringe, pedantically.

"Why am I reading this?" I asked myself. It's the smut, truly. But a lot of the stories on the app are fantasies: eg werewolves, billionaires, mafia, fated mates, etc. So the lead-up romance scenes aren't always smooth.

I had just finished a really nice story set in a bakery with a hard-of-hearing FL and an ML with burn scars on his leg. (It's "Wrong Number" by Laura Brown, on the Readict app, if you're inclined.)

There was another recent one with some cursed pirate-ghost situation. Seemed to be set in my area of Maine, though they only mentioned nearby towns. They also spelled Eastport as two separate words and misspelled the name of my college's town. Other than those details, it was pretty nice. ("Salvation" by Jacqueline Paige)

I haven't been reading on the app as much since mid-January, when my phone-friend got in contact with me again. Between our conversations and rereading my own writing, it's a lot harder to turn off my brain for these stories.

The hyper-empathy is also a challenge, as I envision how I'd react in those situations. In particular, it's the rich guy buying expensive things for the woman without consulting her. (In contrast, those shopping-spree montages in movies are a fantasy I know I want but can't achieve. More because of what sizes stores offer, than the fictional budget. Guess it's about control and my opinion mattering.)

My mom used to do that a lot, with her ebay purchases, and her bad spending habits were a big source of tension in the family. But she'd buy these things with me in mind, allegedly. Sometimes it was something I wanted to show her to say "hey this is neat"; other times, it was something of interest that I hadn't seen. But they were unwanted. After all, if money is finite (mom always ran up her credit cards to the limit), I should make what I get count - pick out something -really- good, that I won't regret getting.

I've mentioned this to phone-friend before. When thinking of trinkets as gifts, I said I wanted something practical yet meaningful, preferably not expensive. And they gave me a Saint Sebastian key chain, which I adore. My side of the exchange was our friendship bracelets.

Over time, I've learned -and am still learning- just how much my mom mucked with how I perceive relationships. It's tough to accept being appreciated for just being myself - that I don't have to do some service in order to be "worth keeping around". (It was easier to accept that my body type can be seen as attractive, and that's already a hurdle for many people.) Accepting gifts makes me feel guilty sometimes, reliving those memories. I'm getting better about asking for allowance, but I don't like spending money often.

It's funny that mom was the one who introduced me to romance novels, including the smutty ones. Now I'm noticing my struggles with enjoying them, because of her affect on me. Then again, I keep thinking of what I would do in these situations. Basically, it's food-for-thought as to developing my own stories.

[raspberryconverse]

Tonight's edition of "Is this what marriage is?" Perhaps Wisconsin's Tattletale Notice isn't such a bad thing.

As I've mentioned a few times on here, our range's oven does not work. Does it heat and cook food? Technically, yes. Accurately or for longer than 15 minutes? No.

The internet said that the best time to buy new appliances is the beginning of the year. I saw one that I liked the first week of the year and we noticed the tag said the price was good though 1/4, so we decided we'd see what the next sale would bring it to. Well, that was a dumb move because it went up in price $100 and has yet to come back down to that price.

We finally started seeing prices drop on some models and found a similar one that's reasonable and a few others we hadn't seen because we had only been looking at Home Depot (my dad gave us a $300 gift card for Christmas/my birthday). Basically the only feature I really want is a lower storage drawer because our kitchen is tiny and we just don't have space for baking pans if we lose that drawer. My spouse doesn't want anything with a white cooktop because it shows all the dirt. We had it narrowed down to 2 models, but both Best Buy and Home Depot have new ads starting tomorrow (well, technically today). The Best Buy one is about $100 cheaper, but obviously we have $300 to spend at Home Depot (not that we wouldn't be able to use it for other things) and that makes us want to lean that way.

Since we knew the ad was changing, we decided to talk about it and make a decision. I currently owe my spouse about $800 for Lola's toe, so I suggested we pick one and I pay for it all with my PayPal credit account. If we pay it off in 6 months, we don't pay any financing. We were about to pull the trigger when apparently my spouse didn't gather that I already had that account.

NGL, I fell hook, line and sinker for the promotional offer of saving $50 when my watch broke and I wanted to buy a new one on eBay (I had a Fossil Q Venture Gen3 smartwatch and the newer models don't use the same size bands and I honestly didn't want to get one that wasn't going to fit the bands I already had, so I bought a Gen4). And I've been using it for awhile on frivolous things like new tile sets for my Letterfolk Tile Mats and that time I got sucked into the sex toy sponsorship Jordan and McKay did recently. I've actually done surprisingly well for me with a new credit account by not using up the whole thing like I'm always tempted to do.

But apparently my spouse is really pissed that I opened the account without telling them. And that completely shut down the new range conversation and I'm back to whatever can fit in the air fryer and the tech support "did you try turning off and turning it back on again" method for anything that requires more than 15 minutes to cook in the oven. The cooktop works fine (at least 2 of the burners work, which is enough for anything I cook), so that's good. Spouse also bought a toaster oven (the box says "countertop convection oven" and IDK if that's different from a toaster oven or not) for $15 at a thrift store a few weeks ago, but we have yet to test it out. But I'm kinda starting to feel like we're never going to buy a new range at this rate because I can no longer be trusted and don't deserve a new one.

Just to be clear, I'm not saying my spouse has no right to be mad about the account. If anything, I'm more mad that they gave me this whole "IDC what you buy. You don't have to have my permission to buy things and you don't have to sneak things in" spiel ages ago, but never gave me the caveat of "it has to be purchased with cash." I guess I'm less concerned about our credit now that we got the house, but I'm also realizing we've had to finance a ton of shit and we haven't even been here a year yet. And Lola is old and Meeah is ancient and Mable got bit by ticks before we adopted her, so they're all really fucking expensive. We just have very different philosophies when it comes to finances and it's really starting to come out now with owning an old house.

So maybe it would have been better if we were still in Wisconsin and they would have gotten a notice saying I opened the account. IDK. Is this what marriage is?

[lesless]

I got a $75 gift card from my insurance for like, going to the doctor & getting tooth cleanings, which is cool. So, I was like hey let me get some nice workout clothes or self care stuff I normally wouldn't spend $ on. Now, my friend loves lululemon which I had never stepped foot in, but I have seen girls on campus wearing the leggings & they always look flattering, too. So I popped in & took a look around today after work. The prices were very absolutely not but I did still like the fabric so I tried on many pairs to figure out what style/size I am in some leggings & shorts & dodged some very aggressive salespeople & then I went home and bought a pair of each on Ebay for less than a single pair of either, combined. I still have $4 left on my gift card. Also I bought one of those face rolly things just for funsies. Moral of the story is you don't need to spend that much ok?

[goldeyesblackheart]

Ordered a digital camera recently -- a canon EOS rebel XT -- still unsure if it's fully functional, even though the ebay listing said it should be since I only just got the lens adapter and charger for it in the mail today. Still waiting on the CF card and the card reader to attach to my laptop.

It won't have the quality of film photography and doesn't have the resolution of modern phone cameras but I'm hoping that the flatness in cellphone photos that I hate so much isn't an inherent aspect of digital but rather, an aspect of how the lens for the phone camera works since I've seen some digital photography taken with vintage lenses that's closer to what I like.

Not to mention I haven't had the chance to work with a manual lens before so maybe the Sears KS Super II that I got the lens from (which sadly seems to have broken in shipping or else the ebay seller lied but I'm not going to accuse them of that in the review) isn't the best choice since it's film and film is...

A little cost prohibitive for me being disabled and on a very limited income at the moment. Only managed to get my cameras and the gear to go with them because of some very generous friends and some art commissions.

So learning to shoot on a digital camera will probably be better for my wallet in the long run, even if I plan on shooting in film when I can just because it's so much better in every way except for budget.

Also had a friend gift me a vintage Polaroid OneStep that we got from a local antique mall for 15$ which is of...dubious working order since the film that was still in it had the battery die long, long ago.Once I can get some 600 film I'll be testing it out, though. If not, it'll be a fun display piece since it's such a specific looking camera. Might end up being what happens with the KS Super II if I can't figure out what's wrong with the film advance lever and how to fix it.

Anyway, it's still going to be a bit before I can actually use the camera since God only knows how long I have to wait before the CF card and reader show up in the mail.

[dysfunkt1on]

I had absolutely no time to do much of anything when I got up because I woke up late and had to cram breakfast and a whole pot of coffee into my belly in record time and I drank even more when I got work already feeling like the broken energizer bunny. Thank god today was a normal day at work and there wasn't as much of anxiously scrolling about on my phone for hours waiting till it's time to do stuff or get out. My anxiety levels overall haven't been as high lately as I've been relentlessly tearing into the mechanisms behind how my brain is managing micro triggers and directly opposing them based on the mechanism of which my brain is reacting to and escalating trigger responses. It took many months of experimentation but eventually as I realized large amounts of them we're weakening severely I knew I was doing something right. I nthe fine details of the context of my situation things are far more complex but to find some over arching mechanism that globally reduces trigger loads to allow further dissection of my mind's own processes is extremely interesting and useful all the same. Bursting out the door today into the cold didn't phase me as much as yesterday, I suppose I've gotten entirely used to it already and things won't get much colder so I can rest easy there knowing there isn't much that will surprise me. I bought some scratch off's on the way home and not surprisingly it was another bottom line 5 dollar hit on a 4 card pull. Putting that and the other together the next pull will be less painful at 10 dollars for 4 more which isn't too bad. Honestly I just mine it out of a shoulder shrug these days out of the curiosity of how long it'll take to get a big hit. There's just some comfort I take in gambling, it helps keep my perspective on life in a more stable state. If I didn't spend it on those tickets it probably would have went to some horrible for me take out when I can spend much less at home on something infinitely more satisfying even though there's something just a bit more interesting and refreshing about ripping open a fresh bag of Chinese take out. I remember my first actual casino trip too, there was just some weird magic about the experience of gambling and playing on hope when I'm already near the bottom that I enjoyed. That subtle desperation and those little thrilling up's downs you make it through anyways. When I say keeping myself more I suppose that's what I really mean on the matter. One thing that's becoming increasingly apparent as I get older is it doesn't matter what you do, life levels everyone out in the end anyways. You'll always get where you're going. I also like the ritual of kicking the door in, getting more coffee going, hopping on the internet, and scratching away as I listen to some music and enjoy my coffee. Today was the same as yesterday, just some random death and black metal that looked cool. I might actually order a couple albums on ebay and get the collection going bit by bit because I have some balance left on a gift card. I should start posting every day what my favorite album of the day or even if applicable song of the day was. I'll have to play around with how I wanna style those posts, I also wanna style up my blog a little but don't know how I'm gonna go about that either. I'm feeling quite disorganized and PEM-y at the moment but by the middle of the week working I just expect that. I'm just trying blow through this week honestly as it hasn't been a good one and I might have something to actually look forward to next week. Maybe I could use that old movie theater gift card too I have sitting around this weekend if anyone wants to go. I'm pretty content minding my own business right now at home in my own world but I'm also really bored and need a good ride in the car somewhere with someone to anywhere offering any kind of pleasant experience. I'm not picky, I'll ride around all evening with you just to go to the grocery store and follow you around like a lost puppy wherever else you wanna shop. Just take me on a little adventure.

[subway-tolkien]

Several years ago I received a Kate Spade bag for a my birthday from my friends. Right away I used it every day, I loved the structure of a satchel, and it also made me feel a little fancy despite making $10 an hour, the minimum wage for my state at the time. It was a nice change from Goodwill and deep discount Old Navy.

One day I wore that bag while picking up dinner at the grocery store, and a woman behind me in line audibly tsked when she saw me take out my EBT card. She glared at me as I finished up and moved aside, and when she got to the counter she said to the cashier, loud enough for me to hear, "It's a shame how some people game the system."

I wanted to confront her and tell her it was a gift, but it wasn't worth it. I just got my stuff and left. Felt like crap for days after. Did she think my not immediately selling the bag on eBay to pay for my food was some kind of character flaw? Was I irresponsible and greedy for wanting to enjoy the gift my friends gave me?

Ultimately, I didn't stop using the bag, but I didn't take it to the grocery store anymore.

[racingtoaredlight]

A Very Special Guest Post From TonyToniToneHasDoneItAgain

Hello to the commentariat! I contacted Clyde a few weeks ago asking if I could cash in my "Stein Winners Get A Crack At Writing This Thing" as part of the College Football Pool extravaganza. Now, a couple of items of note: I can’t remember when I won the Stein (2018?) and I had started writing something I was going to use, but I forgot to finish it and didn’t follow through. The topic? Being diagnosed with ADHD at 51. As Alanis would say: ironic, don’t you think?

Anyway, last weekend Mrs. TTT and I, along with our youngest, decided to check out the Funky Flea. This is basically a Flea Market that is….that’s it, it’s a flea market. Where the Funky part comes in, I’m not sure, but what I am sure of is this: the time to shop for RTARLers is done as I have compiled some awesome ideas for the commenter on your Easter list! People buy Easter gifts, right?

Apologies to a certain Boston podcaster who used to write who did a schtick like this. Bigger apologies to anyone that gets left out…maybe stop changing your screen name every 2 days. (ALL PRICES ARE IN CANADIAN DOLLARS…WHAT SAVINGZ!!!)

To Spencer096…that guitar he’s been searching for…

Now, admittedly I am not a guitar aficionado but does this not look like something he would use to practice his techniques? WATCH HIS LEFT HAND…RIGHT HAND…LEFT HAND AGAIN! It’s only $199 according to the 3 year old who made the price tag. Maybe they will throw in the Tupperware bin of picks for free. Not sure what shape the body of the guitar is supposed to represent…something classy no doubt. I should pay more attention to Spencer’s blog posts, I am sure he has explained it to me. Maybe ask this guy:

To Vlad and Wayne Fontes Safari…something Michigany!

Now I know there is another person that would really enjoy something in the Card Collectables Realm (wait your turn BoTS) but Vlad may enjoy this Red Wing legend! I must admit, though, being a Canadian I am required to have an Encyclopedic knowledge of hockey but I do not remember anything about Alex Delvecchio. He’s been in the Hall of Fame almost as long as I have been alive so he must have been the Jaromir Jagr of his day if he played for 24 seasons. I looked for anything Wolverines/Lions for WFS but this Flea Market was only so Funky so you will have to share…you can get the Doug Harvey card above! I actually knew who he was!!

To MSUNY and Ricky…Hilarious Hunting Hats

This looks like the type of thing Ricky would wear…and MSUNY too? Maybe? Not sure but believe me when I say these were the only hats I could post here as the others had…ummm…different hunting “slogans”.

To my man Some Random Old Dude…from YOUR Montréal Expos, Andre Dawson! 

Now I have to be honest here, I got pretty excited when I saw this. Then I thought about my internet friend who is also a fan of Les Expos. There were only 3 problems: one, they were asking 80 dollars for this (eBay had them for 39); two, I remembered that Andre never wore this version of the Expos jersey (it was the much cooler older one); and three, they had spelled Dawson DAHSUN…okay I made that last one up. Maybe SROD would consider a trade for a copy of his novel.

To Clyde…some “reading material”... 

I looked around to see if there was anything Maine-related or obscure violent films…no. So I thought he may enjoy this classic magazine. It’s in a plastic bag so you KNOW it is valuable (or maybe for other reasons…yuck). Also from what I’ve been told if Clyde got “excited” he may take out half the booths here simply walking by. FYI this is Playmate of the Year Lisa Baker from the confusing town of Detroit, Texas. She actually did another layout in 1997 at age 53 and as far as the internet says, is still kicking ass at 80.

For Black…hell the whole crew…the official #meetup shirt

So, ironic item #2, I had this writeup done and then yesterday the somehow clairvoyant WHO IS MEGABLACK?? posted this:

To Scripty…something I think he actually asked me for…

I vaguely remember having an online conversation about license plates and that he asked for this one. If this is true let me know and I can possibly deliver it to you. FYI, it says Green Province but it doesn’t mean recycling but that it is “inexperienced” or “not ripe”...

To BoTS…a card I am sure he does not have but MUST…

I don’t even know where to begin with this…was this a photoshop job? Did Bedard agree to wear the Seinfeld puffy shirt for a hockey card company? Does he moonlight as a background singer for Hamilton? What the hell is this and how much is it worth? Like the Playboy, it is behind plastic. Why?? Anyway, if anyone knows the worth of it, BoTS will…

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And there you have it! We plan on going back again in a couple of weeks so I will be on the lookout for:

DVD copy of Season 1, The Grinder for JHUJ;

There were a bunch of ties here that Trey may like

Butters asked if I could look for some offense for the White Sox but I don’t think the Funky Flea works that way;

Lots of old smelly Men’s League Hockey jerseys for Terry Dixon

Longtime Lurker? He isn’t around long enough for me to know what he likes!

Happy Easter, RTARL!