#i adore you beyond words

[goldeneagle27]

"Everything I need I get from you, givin' back is all I wanna do"

[ontoheartache]

[this-world-of-beautiful-monsters]

am I the only one who can't quite get over that Adoration of the Shepherds With A Donor is. like. a real painting. because for some reason I convinced myself it was made for iwtv like the Marius one but it has a wikipedia page??? and the wiki page even mentions that it's referenced in the show, while leaving out that it's specifically a centerpiece for a monologue about grooming/forced prostitution, so. Palma Vecchio's painting is getting a major injection into modern culture and is now instantly recognizable to a decent-sized niche of people that realistically would not have given a shit about his work otherwise, but only because of a tv show where a fictionalized version of Vecchio was contracted to paint it by a vampire in exchange for getting to fuck said vampire's nonconsenting younger boyfriend who later became an immortal memory-eating theater kid. also the kneeling figure who's Amadeo in the show was the actual donor irl, but he's going to go down in pop culture history as whitewashed Assad Zaman. the vampire Sam Barclay can go fuck himself this is the real RPF shit.

[several-ravens]

jonathan is away, and martin is trying his best to fill in in his absence, and it's making so sad but also so proud

[court-of-constellations]

i am so lucky to be alive at the same time as you.

it's amazing that we've found each other, even when we're oceans apart. when everything feels hopeless and i can't see the point in trying to make it another day, the thought of you is what i use to motivate myself to get out of bed in the morning.

even now that the world feels like it's falling apart around me, and it seems like it'll never get better, i know that there's still something good left, because you exist. any universe where you are alive is a universe that cannot possibly be hopeless, because you're there. i love you more than i could possibly express, and every day that I get to see you on my screen is a day that i can smile.

maybe we'll never see each other face to face. maybe, to me, you'll always remain words on a screen, a faceless figure that i can only see in this world of code and circuits. but even if we do, i will still love you.

i will love you no matter what, because you're my friend, and you make me happy. you give me hope. you remind me that there are things worth fighting for, and i love you.

[namtanlovesfilm]

there's something about ten showing a picture of prem to his dead mother's portrait while having the biggest, happiest, loving smile, that absolutely GOT ME. like... yes, this man is completely gone for prem & I love it, but the mom storyline??? that shit wrecked me ngl 😭

[vimbry]

just honest to god adore those deconstructed concepts in the lyrics like "glass of milk, standing in-between extinction in the cold" as a descriptor for mammals and the function they're named for, "flammable undiagrammable sentiments pass between animal beings" to mean sparks fly during romantic chemistry, and "newborn citizenship of the micronations" referring to reproducing and new offspring, like. like! like!!!

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[marshbarks]

being a multishipper who also adores all iterations of character designs really works out well for me

[meatriarch]

yknow im probably going to sound a bit overdramatic for a moment with this sorry but,

ive said like two lore streams ago or w/e that im not going to let myself get as heated as i did at the start with how gun's been handling ( read : forgetting she exists ) maria all this time bc at this point i consider my portrayal of her an oc, as i essentially feel across the board with my other texas muses frankly but like.

i do think, while i was obviously thrilled to no end that they announced maria & she was playable etc, i do think the execution of her in-game really sincerely disappointed and pissed me off so badly. like yes end of the day shes a bunch of pixels etc etc whatever sure but its like. genuine frustration at how absolutely sidelined she has been since day one. and i know theres plenty of valid arguments for other characters receiving similar treatment ( ie. sonny ) in a variety of ways, and i do get the angle of maria initially serving as a haunting of the narrative, haunting her friends and sister and being more of that sort of invisible presence rather than physically there in the moment like they all are - but its severely disappointing to see just how little they give a shit about her, both in lore & in gameplay etc.

model-wise? shes completely fine i adore how she looks and everything shes beautiful shes adorable shes exactly as babygirl as i hoped and imagined her to be & look. but shes otherwise both so underwhelming and so borderline useless ( being generous ) and her ability is just the most uncreative pointless thing i feel they could have thought to give her. like. theres so many pieces i can rip apart for just that alone but i dont wanna yap for an eternity lmao

i just wish they gave an ounce of a shit about her. and like sure yes they could easily alter things or add on things on for her in the future etc. sure, yeah, fine and all but its just... i dont think im going to forget how sloppily put together they made her. or how they've consistently forgotten & disrespected her all these months. and with them branching away from her & the friendgroups' story into other victims' as time passes, their already sheer-ass attention spans are only going to grow thinner across the rosters and i guess in my eyes theyre just never going to make up for any of how they treated her character. and like yes thats fine bc i & others will do her infinitely better justice than they ever will but its still just like... its still disappointing.

like so much went wrong with that release day that i think i was just trying to cling onto the excitement of her just being playable but everything else, certain other complaints etc i wont get into, made me think that disappointment in how she was executed was an exaggeration on my part bc im too attached to her lmao and so i kinda just internalized the disappointment i think but it really is just like man. i feel like ive lowkey been in mourning of her since she was released. no faith at all that they are ever going to give her an ounce of dignity outside of how her model looks.

and again. i know i and the fandom do her infinitely more justice than they ever will at this point and that fact alone does make up for this all, i just wish she was remotely fun to play as and didnt feel like such a slapped together, zero-thought, near copy-paste non-asset in-game. i play her bc i love her but she also just makes me fucking sad LMAO

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[navree]

Thouggts on alys? And alysmond

Oh God do I have thoughts on Alys and Alysmond, anon, you have no idea. Alys is likely going to become my second favorite character in the entire show the second she shows up (provided they don't screw her up) because I literally just love her so very much. And Alysmond is literally peak for me, they're my number one ship on this show.

I think Alys is a very interesting character. There's a lot about her that's shrouded in mystery in Fire&Blood, because she's not a Targaryen and she was only involved with the Targaryens for a very brief period of time, but even the stuff we do know lends itself towards a fascinating character. Alys as a character is a type of person we don't see a lot in stories in Westeros, particularly when it comes to points of view. She's a bastard, but unlike our other fave bastard, Mister Jon Snow, she's not treated nearly as well (not to say that Jon didn't suffer at Winterfell, he clearly did due to his bastard status and also the way Catelyn treated him). For one, she's a woman, which in general is cause for concern when living in Westeros, and for two, Lyonel treats her far worse than Ned treated Jon. Ned made Jon a part of his family, did treat him as his son, raised him as a brother to his trueborn children, and while he didn't do much when it came to Catelyn's shit of "oh he can't sit with us on Such and Such occasion because he's too bastardly" and "oh yeah no once you leave I'm gonna kick him out of the house at the ripe old age of fourteen unless he decides to join the cult border patrol that tells him to never have a family or a wife or kids and also has to fight ice zombies" he does still love Jon and care for him and look out for his emotional and physical wellbeing as best as he can. None of that seems to be present for Alys and Lyonel, by all counts he looked at his own daughter and made her a freaking servant! Sir that is your child! So Alys comes from this place of living amongst the privileged but being disprivileged in so many different ways, due to her birth status and her gender and her class, to say nothing of being an apparent old gods worshipper in a location of Westeros that was pretty firmly vested in the Seven.

I think Alys was very molded by her circumstances, that she's not just crafty and fiercely intelligent but also incredibly observant, that having been someone who would likely be in the "should be seen but not heard and even then barely seen" category of life, knows what to look for and how to use the information she can process to her advantage. I also think that Alys is a very neutral person, personality wise, very even keeled, given that we see her being the level head in several situations, like stopping Aemond from killing that messenger. Alys is gonna live her life to the best of her abilities and not feel too much about things, because having strong emotions about nonsense isn't really useful for surviving in the real world and as such doesn't serve. But she's still got her moments of softness. For one, we know that she had children prior to her son with Aemond, and also that all of them were stillborn, so that speaks to some intimacy with someone at some point, and, given that she's a "woods witch" and that people do have access to shit like moon tea in this world, a desire to at least have a family rather than just be firm on contraception. I also have a theory that she and Larys were actually close when they were younger (since I think she's around the same age as Harwin and Larys), due to their respective disadvantages drawing them close, the servant bastard daughter and the clubfooted second son. I like the idea of them hanging around in the forests around Harrenhal, Larys looking for special bugs and Alys wanting to gather fun herbs that she'd heard about to see what they do. I think that they're actually close, and that Larys probably does consider her the person he's closest to emotionally (my own pet theory is that he sent a warning to her about the fire at Harrenhal so that she'd be able to survive, and knowing she wouldn't stop it due to likely not having any sort of relationship with Harwin and her antipathy towards Lyonel and the way he treated her in childhood). I also do want to remark on just how smart Alys must be, to have survived in such a dangerous world for as long as she did, and to thrive. I picture her as someone who is oddly charismatic, charismatic enough to win over the people at Harrenhal in the absence of their actual liege, and keep herself alive. Harrenhal was taken by the Blacks first, and Daemon is not a very patient or understanding person, not to mention something of a raging misogynist, so it's entirely possible that the situation could have gone badly for her if she hadn't played it really well, which she clearly did, since Daemon let her live. She's smart and resourceful but also true to herself to the utmost degree, doesn't hide her magic or her old gods worship (which she likely took some sort of comfort in during her early years) and has made herself a survivor without losing any of her humanity in the process. She's so rich and layered, she has the potential to be the best character in the entire GOT/HOTD TV franchise.

As for Alysmond.........oh baby. It makes me fucking nuts. Even the way it starts off is so feral, given that Aemond basically wiped House Strong out in a single day and for some reason, the only person he didn't kill was Alys. We have absolutely zero clue why he did this; did she just not show him any fear? Did she appear apathetic enough about the deaths of the other Strongs that he thought it was interesting? Was there just something about her? Who knows, but from minute one there was something about Alys that jumped out to Aemond, and like vice versa. Again, Daemon took Harrenhal first, spent time there, and as Lyonel's only child in the castle, Alys would have likely engaged with him. But there's no record of them having an affair, and it's not because Daemon's a faithful family man who'd never dream of cheating on Rhaenyra; Alys is likely the one who just was not interested. But something about Alys and Aemond drew them to each other, and there's so much space to think about why. Aemond's had a much easier life than Alys, but that doesn't necessarily make it an easy life in and of itself, he's had to deal with the bullying and the being attacked and maimed and all the trials that came with his physical disability after losing an eye, to say nothing of the emotional issues he's had already that have only gotten worse by the time he's at Harrenhal (remember, his time at Harrenhal comes after Blood and Cheese happen as revenge for his "murder" of Lucerys and after Aegon names him regent after saving him at Rook's Rest, Aemond's got so much guilt and fear and self loathing and family issues wrapped up in him by the time he gets to Harrenhal it's a wonder he didn't explode). Having both had childhoods feeling disconnected from their families, albeit in a different ways, is a connection that they actually share, feeling like you're living on the margins of your society due to things outside your control is a connection that they share, even just feeling like they don't fit in and that they're wrong somehow is something they share, though Alys probably got over that a while ago while Aemond is still young and angsty. I also see Aemond as someone who's felt that he has to work for love, that it's conditional (I blame Viserys) and who feels that if he's not perfect, the people he cares about most, like his mother and his siblings, are going to stop loving him, and he's never had a relationship where he feels he can be himself with no reservations and whatever softness the other person is feeling won't go away. His relationship with Alys, even before it got physical/romantic, is likely the first time in his life where he's feeling like he doesn't need to strive for someone's love or affection. For Alys, Aemond's likely the first person who actually sees her as someone entirely herself. We know from Jon's ASOIAF chapters that part of the issue with a bastard growing up in the lord father's castle is that everyone they know sees them as "Lord X's bastard" first and foremost, even members of their family (like the way narration about Jon from other Stark kids have them refer to him as "bastard brother" even if they have a good relationship, like Arya or Bran). Everyone around Harrenhal, for her entire life, views Alys through the lens of "Lyonel's bastard daughter" and "Larys's bastard sister", and Aemond is probably the first person who doesn't, who just sees Alys Rivers as Alys Rivers, and even if she's less emotionally fragile that Aemond just through age and experience, that's still profound. I also like that there's a lot of room to play with how they went from just cohabitating Harrenhal to being out and out lovers. Aemond could tell her the truth about Luke, Alys could use some of her woods witch knowledge to help him with some chronic pain with his eye, there can be a moment where Vhagar lets Alys touch her in a sort of "Meemaw approves" thing. The possibilities to build up to them as a couple are endless and also extremely compelling. And romantic.

And once they become a couple, it's romantic as all Hell. For one, even with some of the power dynamics involved (Alys is technically a prisoner of war), it's still a pretty equal relationship. They listen to each other and their counsel, given that Aemond is willing to stay his hand when Alys stops him from killing that messenger, and that this does seem to be a relationship where they were both clearly enthusiastic and also able to trust each other, like Alys not being worried once Sabitha Frey takes her hostage after Aemond leaves. And the canon stuff is just...Aemond being so into Alys everyone can tell, being so besotted that he can't bear the thought of leaving her, having left Harrenhal and then doubling back, into enemy territory, to set an entire castle on fire just so that he can save her and get her back. The way that after that, he literally refuses to part with her, and they stay together until God's Eye, until the literal end, and the horrible doomed tragedy of the fact that they both likely knew that God's Eye was It, given that Alys has her old gods magic that helps her see the future and Ewan said that thing about Aemond having some sense of when and how and where he's gonna die, ugh the Tragical Romance. And I know there are people who are like "Aemond just dicking around Harrenhal and get a girlfriend while his family's in trouble makes no sense for his character" but like here's the thing. For one, he's not dicking around, he and Criston are in the Riverlands for a reason and they're doing shit, not to mention this happens pretty late in the game. For two, he can't go back and just retake King's Landing. Beyond the logistical nightmare, he needs to worry about his family. No one knows where Aegon even is, and most importantly, Rhaenyra does have hostages in King's Landing, Aemond's mother and Aemond's sister, that she can absolutely kill if Aemond's attempt to retake King's Landing isn't one hundred percent perfect on the first try. So him staying at Harrenhal and doing what he needs to do for the war out in the field is in fact in character, and if he happens to fall hopelessly and desperately and utterly in love with the hot goth witch in the meantime, that's just one of the perks. And it is love, I wholeheartedly believe they're in love. It's the coming back to Harrenhal that clinches it, if Aemond didn't really care, he wouldn't have done such a fast U-turn on Vhagar and gotten so vicious, but that's exactly what he did because maybe he can't save his family but he can save Alys, save their unborn child, allow himself to be well and truly happy for a little while longer. And if Alys didn't care, then she wouldn't have gone with him afterwards. She wouldn't have left Harrenhal with him, or stayed with him through their journey, or told him where to find Daemon, or even stayed to watch him die. Plus, I mean, the last thing Aemond ever does with two feet on solid Earth is kiss Alys goodbye, most romantic shit I've ever seen.

Her dragon. His lady. His Alys.

TL;DR I think Alys is going to be a top three character for me when she appears cuz she's already a top ten character for me in Fire&Blood, and Alysmond's relationship is literally so important to me it's the epitome to true love on this show no one else is even going to touch it.

[fullscoreshenanigans]

Me whenever I remember Shirai and Demizu went back to include these panels in the volume 20 release of chapter 181 of the trio finding each other again in their dreams, along with this adorable, perfectly paralleled bonus scene at the beginning of the chapter:

[clever-and-unique-name]

What/why do you think your relationship with Husband works so well? (Not a trick question or questioning your relationship, genuinely wondering <3)

I hope you’re able to get some peace with work stuff and emotional-life stuff soon!

Hi Anni! Thank you, I'm relatively peaceful with stuff today (helps to have the day off work :p )

Hummm it's difficult to put into words exactly, and I'm sure I'll miss some important things...but husband and I are very similar in a lot of ways (social needs, daily lifestyle, life goals, sense of adventure, priorities with financial things, sense of humor, probably more)...

...and also different in ways that encourage each other to grow. For example, he's very upfront with confrontation and has an extremely strong moral code, and challenges me to follow my values and stand up to people (including him at times!) when I would rather avoid difficult or uncomfortable talks to keep the peace.

We're both fairly independent people, and we both just like each others' company a lot. Even after almost a decade of being married, we miss each other when we go a few days without much dedicated time together. We support each other just by being present and sharing our lives together, finding comfort and stability in sharing the mundane, and we're both always unconsciously seeking ways to remind the other that we love them.

And we do have occasional conflicts, and difficult conversations, and we both deal with our own share of triggers, but even in the middle of a fight we never question the love of the other person. When one of us expresses that we've been hurt by the other, we take their pain seriously, we don't interpret it as an attack.

I feel like we've both changed and grown a lot over the years, but we've been growing together, and now we're just thoroughly entwined like vines tightly snaking upward. It's very special for us both to feel so securely attached to another person. All parts of me love him very, very much. <3

[eternalchant]

i keep goofing about it on twt but i for real feel like sleep token was created in a lab specifically for me

[astrxealis]

i associate astarion with an unhealthy amount of hozier songs (there is something wrong with me)

[saninthebuilding]

i like you more than i should.

like a lot.

i swear, seeing you makes my week and seeing your smile makes my day. you don't even have to talk to me but just hearing your voice and your laugh makes me so so so happy. i can't stop thinking about you, and it doesn't help that literally everything reminds me of you. i think of you way more than i should, but it's not like i mind because you make me really really happy. like i can't explain it, but for some reason i see you everywhere. my eyes pick you out in a crowd automatically and you just draw me in. i can't keep my eyes off you, as weird as that sounds, but i literally can't help it you practically draw me in and whenever i see you it's like everything else blurs and you're all that's left. i like literally everything about you- the way you have that casual grace when you're sitting but you're kinda slouching like you're extremely comfortable with yourself and that just makes you way more attractive than acceptable (but it's you so i accept it), the way you talk with that air of confidence (well-deserved, of course), that laugh you do where it's like you're scoffing but it's like this really attractive version of a chuckle and your hand comes up halfway to either point at whatever you're laughing at or just to kinda cover your mouth, the way you walk like you own the place and look so fine doing it, your smile because holy fuck you're so gorgeous, your nose is so so so pretty i literally can't describe it because for some reason i just love it so much, i've said this multiple times but your eyessssssssss are literally my favourite thing about you because they hold so much in them i can't explain it and they're so beautiful, for some reason you also have really nice hands like hello leave something for everyone else, your hair looks so so soft and the way it falls over your forehead and sometimes covers your eyes is really cute, those little moments of eye contact that have me grinning like an idiot for the rest of the day because just seeing you makes me the happiest ever, the way you're the most charming and endearing and adorably annoying person i've ever met because god damn your teasing and playful attitude is so cute to me, the way that you make me feel like i'm the only person in the room whenever you catch my eye, the fact that you're the only boy that makes me all smily and giggly and whipped and the biggest simp and just feel this way in general even if it's one-sided because i'm so gone for you and i'm completely okay with it because it's you.

fuck i like you so goddamn much and i don't know what to do about it because you're just so special to me and i adore you.