#i actually researched for this and like i saw so many different combinations

[gemkun]

@ghostloaded said : ough doc i'm tryin' to sneak around, but i ate too many bullets and the jangle of them in my gut keeps alertin' the hounds.

      ⸻       an   odd   complication   ,   but   the   good   doctor   is   not   one   to   cast   aside   the   chance   at   exploring   unfamiliar   avenues.   following   an   inspection   into   the   composition   of   that   which   rattles   in   the   cyborg   ,   he   extends   a   flask   ,   topped   with   a   concoction   he   had   prepared   before   the   cowboy.   ❝   here   ,   drink   this.   ❞   another   awaits   him   ,   once   the   solution   swims   down   his   throat   ,   stored   in   a   test   tube   ,   pinched   between   gloved   fingers.   ❝   that   should   dissolve   the   bullets   but   not   tamper   with   your   internal   assembly.   ❞   he   says   so   ,   albeit   muffled   with   the   mask   adorning   his   face.   science   is   full   of   precautions   ,   after   all   ,   and   safety   is   a   top   priority.   ❝   it   is   a   primitive   solution   to   your   outdated   dilemma   ,   but   the   dissolution   of   the   cyanide   complexation   will   be   quick.   you   will   remain   here   until   i   say   you   may   leave   ,   should   any   issues   pose   a   threat   to   your   vitals.   ❞

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

Could I get an Hc for how the M6 would react to an Mc that finds out they used to eat a lot of weird creatures and monsters.

I may be obsessed with delicious in dungeon, but like maybe Mc got to try dragon meat and realized that despite it being an 'exotic' food, it tastes familiar. Only gets more surprised. The more weirder foods they end up trying that rnd up tasting familiar.

The Arcana HCs: M6 when MC eats monsters

Julian

From a scholarly point of view, he's actually quite interested in learning more and documenting your finds as medical research

Who knows what medicinal properties these creatures might contain that have gone previously ignored? You could find some miraculous cure or random medicine if you keep snacking your way through the monstrous ecosystem!

Then again, he'd be lying if he said that practice was just as easy as theory. He's pretty well traveled himself, but some of the things you seem so eager to dig into are just ... so ... off-putting

He'll push through with most things but he will draw the line at anything resembling a plague beetle. He was force-fed one of those once and he never wants to experience that again

(he'd never try to keep you from making your own decisions, but to say that watching you eat things resembling plague beetles doesn't turn his stomach and make him anxious would be a lie)

Still one of the best researchers you could have helping you

He's got the background to understand physical nutrients and the importance of a diverse diet - and he's plenty dedicated to you

Asra

They are even more enthusiastic than you are

Sometimes you wish you knew what his limits were, because if things keep going at the rate that they are you might find out that he doesn't even have any

Faust is not helping either - she can and will help distract you if you've finally come across something you're hesitant to try so Asra can sneak a mouthful without being caught

On the plus side, they've tried so many different cuisines already that they have plenty of ideas when it comes to figuring out how to cook something new - and spice combinations you wouldn't dare dream of on your own

He also happens to have plenty of tried-and-true remedies for food poisoning as well (wonder why he learned all of those ...) and is more than happy to share with you if things go south

Absurdly creative with the whole cooking process in general

Keeps trying to incorporate magic. This does occasionally backfire when the beast being cooked is also magical by nature, and the two don't mix as intended

Nadia

She's politely unconvinced, but still mildly invested

Is she personally interested in trying all manner of unconventional dishes? Sure, if it's a well-established recipe from a trustworthy source and contributes to her cultural education

Your recipes, darling MC, do not cleanly fit into that category

She'll still try some, but only after you've been able to replicate the dish multiple times to the point that it's reliably delicious and safe to eat. Otherwise, she'll happily pass her portion to you

However, once you do find a creature that can be reliably cooked as part of a nutritious diet, she is all ears

Do you know what the state of Vesuvia is right now? Any new food source is a welcome food source, especially if it's a resource that isn't being tapped into otherwise. Tell her more about its properties

Will work with you and other nutritionists, chefs, and civil engineers to find a way to introduce it to the populace so they can take advantage of it

Who knows? Maybe if it's popular enough, it can be purposefully cultivated and turned into a major food export ...

Muriel

Not remotely surprised by your habits, for multiple reasons

For starters, he spent his teens living with Asra. In the woods. Who do you think came up with all those natural remedies for food poisoning??? Not the kid picking every mushroom they saw!

Second of all, he lives off of the land himself. The reason his grocery list is so short is because he's learned to find most of his sustenance in the woods around him. You're just doing the same

Third of all (and most importantly) - if it's food, it's food. It's that simple

Will eat anything you hand him as soon as he knows it won't poison him, no hesitation in sight and no further questions asked

His only concern about the whole thing is sustainability. He knows firsthand what happens when something throws the delicate balance of an ecosystem out of whack and he wants to make sure that doesn't happen on accident because you're new to it

Never really stops to appreciate any of the good flavors at first, but eventually develops a palette for the different spices

Insanely good at assessing what kind of nutrients it'll have

Portia

Being an excellent chef herself, she doesn't see much point in eating mostly monster food once the initial excitement has worn off. It was fun for several meals, but now she wants bread

This does not change her general fascination with monsters or magical beasts in general, though, or her overall interest in helping you on your special monster cuisine endeavors

Share the monster facts - all the monster facts

Will work with you on putting together notebooks full of information on monster behaviors, nutritional values, hunting and preparation methods, and ideal flavor profiles

Unrivaled at giving good cooking advice. The meat's good to eat, but too tough? Marinate it in something acidic

It's too spongy to be a starch, but too starchy to be a vegetable? Try roasting or grilling it plain and putting sauce on top

Knows all about how to maximize the "scraps" so that nothing edible goes wasted, and knows how to do it in a way that still tastes good and fills you up

Curious enough to try most of it, smart enough to avoid poisoning

Lucio

Okay, okay, so he'll admit it - he does get squeamish (just a little bit) at the thought of eating the monsters that tried to kill him earlier and he's not particularly fond of revisiting the "eat or be eaten" mentality that was instilled in him as a small child

That said, he is curious

And he very much enjoys all the hunting (and bounties!) involved

You're telling him that he gets to chase down a rare beast, enjoy the thrill of conquering it and the bragging rights that entails, get paid for disposing of it, and then get a free meal after he forgets about it for a couple hours? Sign him up!

Just, uh. Just don't remind him what exactly he's eating if it's from one of the grosser monsters. Devouring a deadly ancient boar? Awesome! Devouring a worm monster? ... yeah, don't ruin it

Has no issues with putting more resources into what you're trying to do. It means free food, bragging rights about killing and eating monsters, and dinner not getting dull and boring

Will not-so-subtly feed anything he doesn't like to Mercedes and Melchior when he thinks you can't see him

[sirenjose]

So I've been really into your analysis lately and I'm a huge fan now, wanted to ask some questions, feel free to not answer any

1- what was your favourite idv story/event to analyze?

2- your least fav of the latter?

3- are you into anything else besides idv?

4-how do you find the motivation to analyze stuff? I've tried before and it was very draining :')

Thanks for your time, hope you have a lovely day

I'm very happy to hear you're enjoying yourself despite my own low opinion about much of what I put out. I'll do my best to answer!

Hmm I always dislike picking favorites because I'm bad at picking eheh... But the ones I liked most... I honestly enjoy T&I and COA (1-5) even more than the main story. So I think I might pick... Atropos' Ropes for T&I and for COA, thats harder... 3-5 are my faves but I might pick 4 just because of how it felt it had the most story/details given than all the rest. Even the *SONG* had story. I loved it.

Least fave, eh... Orfeo and Zinaida immediately come to mind, though Orfeo I'd say was worse... COA 1 is another primarily because of how DIFFICULT it was for me to figure it out enough to put together an analysis. And I had to rewrite that thing at LEAST 3 times to the point I'm just hoping it's good enough and leaving it alone. Time of Reunion I think is another that comes to mind, mainly because I didn't appreciate how they treated Norton in there, especially in the videos (but at least those aren't canon like the in-game event was). So based on all that, I might say Orfeo if I really had to pick 1. Then rank ToR 2nd and Zinaida/COA1 3rd.

FF14 and Honkai Star Rail especially I'm playing actively these days, but I honestly like a lot of stuff. Like Persona (espeially 4), 999 aka Zero Escape, and Star Ocean Til the End of Time. Least in terms of games.

Hmm... Maybe because the 1st reason I play a game is because of the story, and gameplay is always 2nd to me. If the story and characters are good, that gets me interested. Issue with IDV is we only get bits and pieces. Really need to look deeper to really understand some of the characters. I actually only started analyzing because I challenged myself (partially out of curiosity for the answer) to see if I could prove if Norton wasn't as evil as people thought (based on all the comments I saw when I 1st joined the fandom a long while ago). From there, there was Jose who I wanted to analyze because he honestly had so many plot holes I couldn't (and still can't completely) solve. So I get the most enjoyment analyzing something that doesn't have a clear answer. Which is why I don't always post for every letter. A big part of it is I enjoy history and culture and such, so it's fun for me to learn about different foods, or time periods, or how bad the environment was for miners or sailors back in the day, etc... I dont think I have an easy answer (I can see I'm rambling). Norton I actually only began to like because I was spending so long working on my 1st analysis for him (and my perfectionism made me analyze all of Norton's essences before i could call it finished). Jose was because I love Captain Hook, and then after because of the plot holes that bothered me. Then for others, I think I enjoy making analyses to... try to sometimes change people's opinoions/beliefs. Like with Margaretha or Vera. With Edgar was because I was more interested in his story and him as a character only once I put together all his lore. Sort of goes on from there. I could ramble on but I'm going to get even more guilty. I hope this helps somewhat, but let me know if it doesn't and I'll keep going. Maybe the simple is A) I like history/culture/research, B) I like to convince people that certain characters arent as evil as they think or change beliefs I think aren't quite accurate, C) I like solving puzzles and I love story, D) I already think too hard about literally everything, and combined with my perfectionism, we get analysis

[anthroposeen]

tma/tmagp spoilers below!!

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im very hesitant to make any theories about the type of powers at work in the tmagp universe, i dont think theyre the exact same set we had in tma, but i do think the old fears exist in some capacity in this dimension, but likely as different factions, all swirled together, one huge conglomerate, or a secret fourth thing (mixing with whatever entities originally existed in this universe). but after the recent few tmagp episodes im starting to think the old fears (and their divisions) are still playing a role in how the powers are manifesting.

ink5oul is largely an eye-coded avatar to me. they seem to be following a similar path to tma avatars (ink5oul has their own agenda and is researching old tattoo artists and likely has a connection to alchemy in some respect). as an influencer, they feed from the fear of people watching their content and the person whos being tattooed. their victims that we know about have also been somewhat eye-adjacent. in episode 2, they feed off of a woman who suffers from extreme body dysmorphia and is hyper-aware of how others perceive her. she refuses to turn on her camera for therapy, constantly compares her own appearance to others, and insists her therapist perceive her as sane. madam e is similar in that the perceptions of others physically harms her. she says that the hate comments and online drama were cutting her, saying she could feel it when people viewed her content. her body deteriorated because she was famous, because she made a call out video, because she just wanted to be known. these are both incredibly eye-aligned incidents, though they do have aspects of other powers.

other incidents have struck me as overwhelmingly similar to fears we knew from tma, episodes 15 and 14 were heavy handed with their tma fear alignments. lady mowbray is the head of a hunting party who instructed a man to chase after his coworkers and kill them to prove himself as worthy prey, exploring a twist on themes of pack hunting we saw in tma. in episode 14 we get a man whos been puppeted by snakes, operating a disgusting shop infested with pests and littered with rotting food- obviously adjacent to the corruption. just like with ink5oul's victims, these cases also had elements that related to other fears, but ultimately i think they highlight a specific type of fear within each incident. even tma statements had cases that overlapped- confession/desecrated host, monster pig, lost johns cave, murder club. i do think that the tma fears still exist in the tmagp universe, and im actually coming to believe theyre operating similar to in their "original" (who knows) universe, but with some extra variables to scrabble things around.

im still super vague on what i think is affecting the fears, and i doubt ill subscribe to a true concrete theory before we get a reveal, but i do have some loose connections across the tmagp episodes so far. alchemy has been an obvious aspect of whatever is making tmagp's fears a different flavor to tma's fears. the logo for the series is of the trinity expressing the mind, body, and soul- together creating the philosopher's stone, a key to immortality. im being careful to not draw many connections to tma since i believe this to be largely an independent storyline, but this draws some obvious similarities to jonah's pursuits of immortality, ruling the world, and combining the fears to create one all-powerful entity. or, as lena said, creating balance. im unsure of how this is playing out so far- i think whatever big bad (if there is one) that wants to disrupt or bring about this balance is either not known to us yet or has yet to fulfill their arc into a big bad (this could be a corruption arc for someone like sam or gwen, or a reveal of big bads lurking in the background like jmj). but whatever the details of that are, im confident that achieving a balance and connection of the alchemic trinity is a key aspect of how the fears are being expressed in this universe. i mean, there were never really 14 fears, but they still manifested that way because they were partially constructed by human minds. if this universe comprehends them through the lens of alchemy, seeing them as manifestations of the mind, the body, and the soul, then they'll likely conform to that in some way.

another thread i think might be relevant is the amount of gore and personal harm in just about every incident so far. in almost every case we've seen theres been some instance of pain, loss, and intentional harm. this is especially connected to getting a response or reward (being fed) from the encounter. needles needs to cause fear, and he accomplishes that through physically harming someone. the murder violin and the fedora guy dice are both fed by the suffering of others. ink5oul made one girl tear into her own face, and made another self inflict her own heart problems. lady mowbray is a devout cannibal. i dont feel the need to get into mr bonzos messy history. for every avatar/external/feeder of these powers, they inflict a physical mark or pain upon the people theyre feeding from. this draws a much more physical horror than the more psychological fears we dealt with in tma. im not entirely sure what this means in terms of its connections with alchemy and the fears, im not sure if its a real dot to connect or not, but its some food for thought!

[ohfugecannada]

Groot’s many backstories

So earlier I saw this post by @alastorgould where he over some of the many versions of Rocket’s backstories, eventually writing his own take on it that combined elements of all of them. It’s a pretty good summary of Rocket’s past and it’s many incarnations in the comics, cartoons and MCU etc and I highly recommend you check it out along with his rocket and halfworld related art/fics.

Anyway, It inspired to make my own post going over some of the backstories/incarnations of my personal favourite gotg character: Groot. Because A) as mentioned, he’s my fave, and imo one of the more underrated Guardians members out of the core 5, and B) Groot actually has quite a few takes on his backstory already through not only multiple retcons in the 616 comics continuity but also through several multi-media adaptations of the Guardians of the Galaxy franchise. And I thought it would be fun to share some of them with you all.

Obviously, this isn’t gonna cover every single piece of media Groot has been in/has had his backstory mentioned etc. But I did my research and tried my best to cover a good chunk of the most notable continuities and adaptations.

Also, I haven’t read the entirety of every comic Groot is in ever (I.E. the latest gotg Grootfall/Grootrise story arc) so forgive me if I get a few details wrong. If there are any die hard gotg/Groot comic readers out there, feel free to politely and respectfully correct me on a few things.

The Comics

In the main marvel 616 comics there have been at least 3 different versions of Groot’s backstory and origins. 4 if you count his very first incarnation…

Tales to astonish #13 (+ other King Groot appearances)

King Groot is the giant tree like ruler of Planet-X, and an alien invader who lands on earth to kidnap the humans from a small town in order to take them back to his home planet and experiment on them. Conventional weapons used by the towns military don’t work as this groot is immune to fire and explosives. But thanks to the quick thinking of protagonist human scientist Leslie Evens, king groot is taken down by genetically bred super termites. He seemingly dies in this story but later makes appearances in comics like the Howling Commandos, aiding the team. Most commonly being seen as an inhabitant of Monster Isle. There was a time where it was thought the groot on the guardians of the galaxy was the same groot as king groot (mainly the annihilation: conquest series), but this was later retconned as a different Groot impersonating King Groot. Which brings us to…

Guardians of the Galaxy #14 (2013)/Annihilators #1 and 2 (2012)

Groot was a flora colossus sapling who along with his fellow saplings (also all called groot) were looked after by a group of elder flora colossus called the Arbor Masters. This groot was different from the others as he often brefirended the maintenance mammals; small intelligent mammal like beings who most other flora colossus looked down on as inferior. One day, another group of flora colossai were bulling a squirrel-like maintenance mammal and groot steps in to defend it. After one of the more violent flora colossus nearly kills the mammal, groot snaps and tears the other colossus apart. Presumably killing him. This catches the attention of the Arbor masters, who then have groot banished from the planet via a space ship.

This groot would later go on to impersonate king Groot and join the team that would become the Guardians of the galaxy, in Annihilation Conquest: Starlord #1, where he’d first meet his teammate and future bff Rocket Raccoon. The way he was written in annihilation conquest made it seem like he was the same character as King Groot, but this was later retconned in Annihilators #1 and 2 as well as Guardians of the Galaxy #14.

Groot vol.1 (2015)

My personal favourite comic origin for groot. (Also literally the best version of Groot in any media ever dont @ me)

Groot is born on Planet X, where the flora colossus are towering giants who regularly kidnap beings from other planets to preform experiments on them. Groot is disturbed and appalled by the actions of his people but feels powerless to do anything… until one night where he discovers a little human girl, Hannah, being held prisoner in one of the holding pods and decides to help her escape.

After teleporting Hannah away back to Earth, Groot remains behind and destroys the teleportation pad, presumably cutting the flora colossus off from earth, and he is banished by his elders. Groot then wanders the universe for a while, taking in all its wonders and sights, before being thrown in a kree prison where he meets Rocket for the first time. Rocket can’t understand Groot at first, but over the course of months sharing a cell with him, does. After this the two form a fast friendship and break out of prison, becoming bounty hunters/criminals and eventually joining the Guardians.

Groot vol.2 (2023)

One of the most recent and drastically different origins presented in the comics so far.

In this miniseries, Planet-X is a lush forest covered planet and the flora colossus, unlike the other comic origins, are a benevolent and peaceful race of sentient plants ruled over by a giant matriarch tree called Granopy. She looks after and tells stories to a child groot and his two friends Tweeg and Gleef.

One day their forest gets burnt by a gang of mercenaries known as The Spoilers, led by an evil Flora colossus named Agz, and the three get kidnapped. But are freed by a young Mar-vel. Together the four of them, along with an Alpha Centurion hunter called Yondar, fight against the Spoilers and save Planet X. As of writing this, the Grootfall/grootrise arc, which references this miniseries, has only just wrapped up. So It’s not clear if this story is supposed to be a prequel to the 2015 Groot origin or if it’s a full on retcon of it. (Im gonna assume the latter, given how different Flora Colossai are in this compared to the previous origins. Unless Flora Collossus society/planet X as a whole really went down hill after Groot grew up, somehow going from the peaceful forest utopia we see in vol. 2 to the desolate wasteland ruled by an evil king groot in tales to astonish/groot number 6 but I digress) so it’s up in the air for now if/how they connect to each-other…

Origins in other media

As a Marvel multi-media franchise, the Guardians of the Galaxy, and by extension Groot, have had a number of different adaptations and interpretations across various non-comic book mediums including movies, games, tv shows etc. so let’s take a look at four of the most famous ones.

MCU

Weirdly enough, despite this version of Groot (and his son Groot ii aka baby groot) being the most widely known by general audiences thanks to the popularity of the MCU, MCU Groot is the most mysterious when it comes to his origin story. We never get any implications or mentions of it in the entire gotg franchise (outside of a mention of Planet X in the nova police lineup scene in vol.1). The closest we get is an idea James Gunn had planned for a short film about how Groot and Rocket met and a few very brief mentions about it in interviews. In the tweet about the short film idea, James explains Groot was caged up at an intergalactic zoo housing exotic alien creatures and was treated like an animal. Until a worker at the zoo, a robot/cyborg named Tibus Lark, became attached to Groot and helped him escape, becoming his closest friend. Until they found themselves in a hole/prison where Lark and groot would meet Rocket. Being mortally injured, Tibus would explain his and Groot’s story to Rocket before entrusting Groot with Rocket and dying. Rocket would then use the robotic parts of Lark’s body to build his big gun seen in the first gotg and break out of the pit with Groot. Beginning their criminal partnership and (dysfunctional) friendship.

Gotg Disney XD cartoon season 1

In the Disney XD cartoon, Groot grew up on an idyllic and serene Planet X ruled by his father(?), both coming from a long line of flora colossus spanning billions of years who, along with all life on Planet X, all grew from an object known as the world pod. A source of power that exists within groot. Shortly after a day of battle training with his father, the Kree and their leader Ronan invade the planet to mine it of its resources. Dispute the protest of its natives, the planet is burnt to ashes, leaving groot the lone survivor. He’s then taken by the kree and experimented on, along with other kidnapped Earth animals. This is where he meets a newly anthro-ified Rocket, and the two break out together and eventually join the guardians.

Gotg Telltale Game

Like the MCU version, we unfortunately don’t get a look into his backstory, but what we do know from the alternate story path where Rocket stays with Quill and Groot goes with Mantis when the team break up is he is the last of his kind and empathises with mantis greatly because of it.

Gotg Eidos Game

Through conversations with Groot (with Rocket, and later in the game Mantis, translating for Quill), and a few parts of rocket’s conversations, we learn that Groot’s father was the king of Taluhnia (the original native name of Planet X) as well as the other branch worlds. Groot himself wanted to be a forest caretaker so he could care for the plants of Taluhina. In contrast, his father and the arbor masters were corrupt and favoured the needs of the few over the many, and enslaved the sapient animals on Taluhnia. With some saplings even hurting these mammals for fun. Groot however, preferred thier company over the others of his kind due to how nice and smart they were, comparing them to rocket in his convo with Quill and Mantis.

Unfortunately, however, they along with the rest of Taluhnia, would perish after the Chitari would test an experimental doomsday device on the planet. After the planets destruction, the other branch worlds would mobilise an attack, but they were no match for the Chitari and were destroyed as well. Fortunately, groot was able to regrow himself into a smaller sapling form. Making him, as far as he knows, the only survivor. In his smaller form, he would eventually be sold to the collector, but would later be stolen by rocket who raided the whole place while drunk. It’s kind of a mix of the maintenance mammal stuff from the gotg issue 14 story and the general flora Collossus are corrupt stuff from that and groot issue 6, with the alien race wipe out the flora colossus part from the cartoon (though swapping out the Kree for the Chitari this time).

…And that’s it for the most famous Groot origins! Again, this doesn’t include every incarnation of Groot ever, but I think I covered my bases with the most notable continuities. Maybe I’ll have a go at writing my own take on the origin at some point, but for now, I just hope you all enjoyed learning about Groot’s different pasts as much as I did researching them…

Also let me know if there are other, more obscure versions of Groot and his backstory I missed here. I’m always down to learning more Groot lore.

[blainesebastian]

away (ccg universe)

words: 3,539 ship: austin butler x reader summary: combination of two requests. anon requested: “first time austin leaves for work after him and ccg had luci” and @karamelcoveredolicity requested: “austin teaching his little one to make a PB&J sandwich for the first time”  warnings: none notes: thanks for the requests :)  tag list: @killerqueenfan, @karamelcoveredolicity, @elizabethrosecresswell, @gigisworldsstuff, @stylespresleyhearted

You knew having Luci meant that there were going to be changes—that probably seems fairly obvious. Yet it feels different to think about it, to consider scenarios, than actually living them out.

Both you and Austin thought about having a baby for what felt like such a long time, planning it out, doing your research, preparing in all the ways for expectations that would probably be a million times different than you thought. And that, you realize, has been the truest part. No amount of planning, learning, or anticipating wins out over experience. It’s good to have these thoughts and considerations on the backburner, but that’s all they are. Living with Luci, watching her grow up, has changed so many various parts of you and Austin that you practically feel like you’ve got different DNA.  But to be clear, that’s not something you’d trade for the world.

You know how lucky you are, even when you hit bumps in the road you never saw coming.

This feels like one of them no matter how many times you’ve discussed it with your husband, attempting to plan ahead.

When Luci was born, it was a shared strategy that both you and Austin would take some time off from acting and everything that came with it to build your little family. Not completely stepping away but acclimating, figuring out how to operate with a new normal, seeing what the other needed in order to feel stable. It didn’t take too long, you both had plans for returning to work—Austin, picking up a film his agent had been filling him in on for a little over a year and for you, maybe writing another script. Possibilities were really endless, especially since neither of you were willing to trade one passion for another. You both believed that you could have successful careers and be great parents.

And it’s worked out for the most part, there have been no regrets. Luci is a bit older, two years old, and blossoming in the world around her as she figures out how everything connects. She’s been less self-aware when Austin has had work trips in the past and you feel like you’re on pins and needles as he packs his suitcase because…

It’s been difficult for you when Austin is gone, how much you miss him, how you count down the days until he’s home, and you’re a grown adult that understands the entire process. Luci? Who is definitely a daddy’s girl and so accustomed to having Austin at home? Is not going to understand why he has to leave and be away for so long, no matter how many different ways you try to explain it.

Ugh. You hate this.

You lean back against the headboard and smile a little as Luci wobbles around on the ground, running back and forth between the closet and Austin’s suitcase as she tries to help him pack. They’ve told her he’s going for a work trip, just two weeks for a table reading—it’ll be much longer next time, but you don’t think it’s really sunk in yet. She doesn’t get it…you don’t think she will until she sees Austin walk out the door.

Later that evening, in bed, you face Austin in that familiar darkness. He’s got his arm wrapped around your waist, keeping you close, legs laced together. You almost want to memorize how his body feels against your own, the scent of his skin mixed with cologne, the warmth of his breath as he presses kisses to your jawline and neck.

Only two weeks and yet it feels ten times longer already.

“I think Luci put sixteen pairs of mismatched socks into your suitcase.”

Austin smirks softly, “Yeah, think I saw her fold her stuffed dino in there too for safe keeping. Gonna have to take that out before I leave tomorrow.”

You rest your hand on his chest, playing with the fabric of his t-shirt between your fingers. There’s traffic driving by outside, tires on slick streets, thunder rumbling in the distance.

“I think it’s a good idea that we’re gonna do the first big goodbye here and not the airport,” You shake your head, thinking as you speak, “She’s gonna be crushed and that’s definitely going to lead to crying.” Possibly a tantrum.

You can feel Austin wince rather than see him do it, “Hate seein’ either of you upset.”

A small smile tugs the corner of your mouth, “I know, I’ll just keep having to do all of her favorite things to make her forget about you,” You start, your tone teasing, “You know—chocolate chip pancakes, cupcakes baked all the time—”

“Why you gotta start baking cupcakes after I leave?” He tries to interrupt.

“Blanket forts in the living room, copious trips to the park, even when it’s raining—”

“I’d be careful to distract her with that,” Austin laughs, “Knowin’ her, she’ll love it and then you’ll be goin’ while it’s raining all the time.”

“—sleepovers with Aunt Jillian, the works.” You grin, “Maybe I’ll even become the favorite parent while you’re gone.”

“Stop,” Austin huffs out an amused sound, rolling his body quickly to hover over top of yours. You can just barely make out the outlines of some parts of his face in the dark—the curve of his lips, the lines of his jaw and cheekbones. You reach a hand up and cup his cheek, running your thumb along the bone.

“You know she adores you.”

You hum, dipping your hand a bit to run your thumb along his lower lip, “Not as much as she adores you.” And…while it’s taken you a while to kinda get used to that, you can’t really blame her for how much she loves Austin. Definitely relatable. Besides, it’s totally normal for her to choose favorites, she’s learning boundaries and really figuring out each parent separate from the other.

Sometimes on bad days it stings for sure but on good days you know how much Luci loves you and that’s more than enough. A warm sound leaves your lips as Austin leans down to kiss you, nuzzling your noses before resting his body along yours, your legs opening a bit to accommodate him. It’s got nothing to do with sex but intimacy, the feeling of your bodies connecting, heated comfort.

“You gonna miss me?” He asks against your lips.

“Hmm—” You pretend to think about it, crinkling your nose even though he can’t see it. “I dunno.”

He laughs a little, his one hand moving to tickle your side where he knows you’re sensitive, right along your ribs. You squirm instantly, attempting to move but the weight of his body makes it difficult.

“Austin!”

“So you’re not gonna miss me?”

You laugh and force his hand away, tugging him down into a kiss instead.  

Miss him? More than you can possibly put into words.

--

You kinda take several breaths in once Austin puts his suitcase by the front door. There’s still a small amount of running around this morning—breakfast being made, showers taken, dressing Luci to go to the park, packing a small snack bag for her of fruit and goldfish, juice boxes…and then it starts. Luci goes to put a particular snack in for Austin, because he loves these little yogurt granola bites and you gently take her hand and squeeze it.

“Daddy’s not coming to the park with us today, remember? He’s gotta go to work.”

“Go to work,” She repeats and her eyebrows draw together, “But later?”

Austin comes into the kitchen to put his coffee mug in the sink, turning a little to look at both of you once he overhears the conversation. He chews on the inside of his cheek, his eyes fluttering to yours as he moves towards his daughter,

“I gotta go to work for a while, bug. Remember you helped pack my suitcase last night? For the airplane?” He gently tugs one of her space buns that you put into her hair this morning, waiting for her to connect the dots.

“Bye-byes?” She asks and you can hear the strain in her voice.

Austin swallows before nodding and you can see the same emotion in the blue of his eyes, that not wanting to leave her—either of you. “Just for a little while. You and mama are gonna have so much fun when I’m gone though, okay? The park and maybe the aquarium—blanket forts, cookies.”

But Luci hears none of that, all she hears is part of her world crumbling as Austin confirms he’s going ‘bye-byes’. It’s like a slow drip, it starts with her eyes widening and her lower lip wobbling and then she kinda just bursts like a dam. You’d find it startling, and yet, you’re the same way. When something overwhelms you, you try and keep it together until you just can’t. Luci’s wait time is a lot shorter, she doesn’t understand how the world works yet or why Austin’s leaving so long for work, or why he can’t just come back sooner and go to the park with them.

“Hey,” Austin says gently and that one word springboards the wailing. Luci starts crying in earnest, big fat tears rolling down her cheeks, “Hey, hey,” He picks her up into his arms, attempting to soothe her the best he can by rubbing a hand down her back.

You feel a lump form in your throat, hate seeing either of them upset. Your hand gently moves to rest along Austin’s lower back, knowing that it must kill him to see Luci crying, especially since he’s the cause, regardless of how much it’s not his fault.

“It’s okay,” You murmur, brushing some of the strands sticking out of her buns back, pressing a kiss to her cheek.

“S’okay baby,” Austin whispers, gently bouncing her before closing his eyes a moment.

You press a kiss to his cheek too—this isn’t easy for either of you to witness, especially since neither of you really know what to do to soothe her. Not only is this difficult for her, as someone who doesn’t understand, both of you and Austin know the gravity of being away for work. Though it’s one thing to consider and think about it ahead of time, to try and plan make the best possible choices, it’s nothing in comparison to actually doing it. Which is what this is, seeing what happens when you decide to go through with something.

It'll get easier, with more practice and getting Luci into a routine, but that doesn’t make this one time any less difficult.

His phone pings and you know before he even looks at it that it’s his driver, ready to take him to the airport. Austin sighs, running a hand through the wide curls in the front part of his hair, “I gotta go.”

“I’ll take her,” You offer and he passes her over, having to untangle her small fists from his shirt.

You follow him to the door and Luci’s still crying, not as hard as before, but definitely still upset. She’s watching him these wide eyes and you hold onto one of her hands, pressing a kiss to it.

“I love you both so much,” Austin says as he pulls his coat on, moving to kiss you. He cups your cheek, running his thumb along your cheekbone.

“I love you too,” Humming lightly, you look over at Luci, “Wanna say bye? ‘I love you daddy’.” You try but she can’t get the words out. Probably best given how much she’s crying—if Austin had to hear that with tears wrapped around every syllable, he might not leave.

There’s comfort in the fact that it won’t be this way forever—not only will Luci eventually get distracted that her dad isn’t home, but also that in time this will become a part of her life. Maybe even when she gets older, she can travel with. But for now? Just a very bumpy spot in the road.

It takes Austin about another five minutes to leave, off and on running through his mental checklist to make sure he has everything but also pausing every so often to talk to Luci or press a kiss to her cheek. Finally, he plants one final one your cheek before heading out the door, closing it behind him.

--

It takes Luci ten minutes to calm down completely and by the time you set her back onto the floor, she decides she’s gonna be angry and pouty instead, which…valid. For some reason if there was any doubt that this is your daughter? Certainly wouldn’t be any more after that kind of behavior. The funny thing is, when Luci gets like this, she doesn’t throw tantrums. Instead, you and Austin have taught her to reply ‘no thank you’ to things and she adopts that phrase when she’s mad.

She’ll have this adorable grumpy pout on her face and just ‘no thank you’ to absolutely everything—doesn’t matter what you say to her.

Taking her to the park melts the ice a little, but she’s still confused when she comes home and Austin isn’t back. You remind her he’s at work, and she seems to accept that, but after a few days pass she doesn’t understand why he’s not walking through the front door. Her routines keep her distracted but you kinda get the same question often: ‘dad coming home now?’

Facetime and phone calls definitely help but it’s never going to substitute for the real thing—you know that better than anyone.

Getting the tub ready for a bath, you sit on the closed toilet seat and move your phone from one ear to another, testing the water with the inside of your wrist to make sure it’s not too hot.

“And it’s been going well for you?”

“Yeah,” Austin replies and he sounds tired but all of his texts about the table reads have been good, so you know he’s excited about the project, “Gettin’ along with everyone, think that’s all you can ask for sometimes.”

“And your co-star?” You pick up a bottle of rose-scented bubble bath, spilling a bit into the water and watching the suds start.

“She’s new so she’s a bit nervous but her first read-through went well. Lookin’ forward to seein’ what else she’s got.”

You smile a little because that’s good—in your opinion that’d definitely be a buzzkill. How can you really develop a plot or your own character if you’re delt a bad hand with casting? Especially if it’s a coin toss of someone new but, how else are you gonna know someone has something to bring to the table unless you give them a chance?

“How’s Luc doin’?”

You run a hand through your hair, pulling a basket out from underneath the sink that has all of Luci’s bath toys in it so she can pick and choose what she’d like to play with.

“Good, less pouty,” She smirks, “Still asking about you and we’ve been sleeping in our bed so she can be on your pillow.” But all and all? Not too bad given how rough it was when Austin first left. You’ll take that progress.

“And you?”

You draw in a soft sigh, “Been writing a bit but it all sounds like crap.”

You can hear the soft smile in Austin’s voice as he speaks, “Don’t say that—you’ve been distracted, just let it sit with you a bit.”

You stick your tongue out a little, shifting to turn the water off in the tub. You know he’s right, despite wanting to just delete everything as soon as you’ve typed it. You’ve been busy and it definitely impacts your creative mind but you might be able to salvage something out of it if you save things as you go.

“Ten out of ten on the husband pep talks,” You tease and he lets out a soft laugh, “Let me call in the gremlin, she’s about to get a bath.” You pull the phone away from your ear, “Luci! C’mon, bath time! Daddy’s on the phone!”

You tap your phone on speaker, listening to the patter of feet running towards the bathroom. Luci runs straight in and throws herself onto your leg, a small oof leaving her lips. You chuckle, running your hand through her wild hair from a day of playing at the park.

“Say hi.”

“Hi daddy!” She sing-songs out, sitting down onto the floor and going through her bath basket.

“Hey lil dino,” Austin says in such a fond way that it makes you miss him even more than you already do. “Wanna tell me about your day?”

And she does. She dives into an entire ten minute dissertation about everything you and her have explored today, including a new part of the park that has a pond where you can feed the ducks.

“She’s named some of them,” You tell Austin as you help Luci into the tub, “Though not as good as the names you’ve given to the pigeons outside our apartment.”

“Hidden talent,” He grins, you can hear it in his voice, which makes your stomach flutter, “What can I say?”

The conversation continues while Luci’s in the bath, mostly just you and Austin catching up, but when it’s time to hang up the call, your daughter kind of whispers her goodbye—this small bye daddy that clenches up inside your chest.

It reminds you to count down time and hold that promise close; there’s only two more full days until Austin comes home.

--

Austin is insisting that someone can pick him up from the airport so that you don’t have to, but at this point you’re bursting at the seams to see him that anyone else is just not gonna happen. You know he’s trying to do you a favor since you’re looking after Luci, but you can manage it. Carrying her through an entrance and lingering towards the appropriate baggage claim, you check your watch—Austin should have landed already, it’s a waiting game.

You have no idea why it feels like you’re about to see him for the first time, your stomach flipping in circles and your heart pounding in your chest. You keep a sharp eye, only setting Luci on the ground once you see him collect his bag from the assembly line and begin looking for you.

“Look,” You smile at Luci, kissing her cheek as you crouch down, “There’s daddy.”

Luci’s head turns quickly and she definitely squeals out a loud ‘daddy!’ that instantly gets Austin’s attention. When he sees her, that’s when you let her go, chuckling lightly as she takes off at a run to him. Austin drops his bag, leaning down to scoop her right into his arms as you walk towards him.

Luci squeezes him around his neck and he chuckles, his one hand rubbing up and down her back while pressing a kiss to her head, “Think you’ve gotten bigger.”

“Total possibility,” You laugh, “She’s growing like a weed.”

Austin looks over at you and smiles, something genuine and warm, an expression you’ve only ever seen given to you. He moves to wrap an arm around your shoulders, drawing you close and into his chest. You let out a soft sigh of relief as your face finds the crook of his neck, breathing him in, your one arm sliding up and underneath his coat to hold onto his body.

Home is definitely a person.

--

Waking up naturally the next morning, you reach your arm out across the sheets in search of Austin’s body…and come up empty. Frowning, you lift your head, squinting. But no, the bed is definitely bare next to you and the covers are cold. Letting out a soft huff, you pull yourself from bed, tugging on one of Austin’s sweatshirts and a pair of leggings. Wandering down the hall, you hear soft voices in the kitchen, the clattering of silverware and cupboard doors closing.

“Yeah, just like that.” Austin says. “Hold on,” He chuckles, “We need a layer of jelly.”

“More!” Luci exclaims, very insistent and when you come to lean against the kitchen doorway, a soft smile tugs the corners of your mouth.

Austin is at the kitchen table, hair still unkempt from being slept on…and yet he’s still so handsome it’s kind of unfair. Luci is standing on a chair, helping him at the counter make peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. She’s got a butter knife in her hand and she’s spreading the peanut butter (very haphazardly) onto the bread.

But she’s so happy—Austin’s got this amused, proud smile on his face as he watches her, his eyes fluttering over towards you when he senses you’re there.

You smirk, “Breakfast?” You come over to the counter, leaning against it after Austin presses a kiss to your temple.

“Hope you like peanut butter.” Austin smirks because at this point it’s a peanut butter sandwich with some bread and jelly.

Chuckling, you reach out to swipe a bit of jelly off Luci’s cheek. Honestly, you can’t think of a better way to have it.

[nikkistradlinhemmings]

Dream girl// Izzy stradlin Part two <3

-female y/n-

(Part one- https://www.tumblr.com/nikkistradlinhemmings/737898698973069312/dream-girl-izzy-stradlin-smut-part-one )

(Sorry if there are any mistakes, I have not yet properly proofread)

Warnings: P & V sex, losing virginity, oral sex, fingering, submissive, dirty talk, smoking, swearing, alcohol, partying, etc….

Summary: Izzy had a really realistic dream of a fellow famous rockstar daughter. He tried to find her and bumps into her at her house party.

…Despite the sudden realization, there was one question still lingering in the back of his head... did she actually exist? Where did this dream come from? A part of him can't help but be extremely curious about her. The desire to meet her again lingers deeply within him. His mind starts to wonder more and more... could she actually exist? He knows it was just a dream, but something about her felt so real. Her beauty and personality were a unique combination, not something you could find everywhere. This dream made him feel something he hasn't felt in a long time; genuine desire. His curiosity is now at the highest point it's ever been, he feels an overwhelming feeling to actually be with her… to have her in his life.

Just the thought of her being the daughter of a famous rockstar intrigues him. After all, she did carry many of the same characteristics of a famous rockstar herself - her beauty, her personality, her toughness. It's clear that her father's fame had given her a unique mindset. That alone was intriguing to him. But it also made him curious, who exactly is the famous rockstar? Who is her father?

At this point, Izzy's mind is set. He's finally got a hint to the identity of the beautiful, blonde woman in his dream. Her father is a famous rockstar, that is all that matters at this moment. But in order to find out who he is, Izzy has to do some serious research. He starts searching for any hints that could point him in the right direction.

Izzy looks through a bunch of magazines and newspapers he found in his room. After 10 minutes of looking. Izzy freezes as he's reading the article on Steven Tyler's daughter. He looks at a photo of her and immediately recognizes her. His dream wasn't just a dream, he was really looking at images of the real girl he saw in his dream. whose name, y/n, is even one of the most unique names he'd ever heard. So this is who she was?!

“DUDEEE!!!” Slash screams as he rams into Izzy’s room. “you gotta come to this party tonight, at Steven Tyler’s daughters house it’s gonna be sick” slash spoke again being all excited. “Have you met y/n?” Slash talked so fast Izzy couldn’t get a words or a reaction in. Izzy was so dumbfounded when slash mentioned y/n the girl form his dreams, his dream girl… did slash know her?

Izzy's eyes widen in surprise.

"Um, no dude, I haven't met her. But something about her just seems so special, like she's different in a good way. And, I mean, just look at her. Her beauty and her toughness, she's the type of girl you want at your side in a long-term relationship. Have you met her? Do you know her?"

“I’ve met her once, she as on tour the same time we here on, we stayed in the same hotel together, you where sleeping the whole time cos you were drug fucked, but yeah, axl, duff and Steven and I have all met her she is a pretty cool girl to hang with, she is not a hoe like other girls we know, axl tried to hit on her and she slapped him… it was funny…. Well get ready so we can go!!”

Izzy smiles as Slash leaves his room. He couldn't believe what he had just heard, it felt almost too good to be true. If they are going to the party tonight, then he will finally have a chance to meet his dream girl again.

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It's now later in the night, and Izzy and the guys have finally arrived at the party. As they get out of the car, Izzy is extremely nervous. He's excited to see her again, but now he has to actually make a decision on how he will approach her.

he saw erini walking with Tom keifer, Izzy remembered that every rockstar likes to hit on y/n. He's going to have to find a way to be different than all the other guys in order to make a good impression with her. Izzy can't help but be irritated by how close they seem to be. And now here's his dream girl, just laughing and joking with another celebrity as if it's the most natural thing ever.

He watched as she sat at a table with vixens, and warrant, and poison and bon jovi, Cinderella, Tommy and nikki, ratt, Hanoi rocks. This is really not helping his mood. His dream girl is sitting at a table full of celebrities, almost like she's one of them. It's pretty clear that she's not the type of girl who is impressed by fame or popularity, but that just makes her more appealing to Izzy. He can't help but be jealous of the guys that are surrounding her. He would have loved to be in that circle, it must feel special.

Y/n looks up at Izzy and notices him, she looks at him like she knows him, she told her friend she will be right back and walks up to izzy

Izzy's eyes widen when he sees her come up to him. If it was her that walked up to him, than that meant he stood out more than anyone else that was at the party. That feeling inside him instantly gives him a boost of confidence. He couldn't believe he was actually talking to the girl he was dreaming about just a few hours ago. He felt an overwhelming sense of desire for her, but he could not let that interfere with his judgement.

“You had the dream too?” She asked being face to face with him.

Izzy's mind was suddenly going a million miles a minute. What did she mean, did she have a similar dream as him?!

"You mean, you had a dream about me too?"

“I did We where at a table in the rainbow, I remember we where talking and I pulled you over the table and kisses you”

*Izzy's eyes widened at this point. But he couldn't help but smile at this point

"Y/n, this is crazy. Not only were our dreams were the same, but it's almost like we were meant to meet. I feel this connection with you."

“Wait… Hold that thought Izzy”

Izzy was taken aback by this sudden pause in the conversation. He wasn't sure what she would say next, and was hoping that she wasn't going to break away from this moment.

Y/n grabs him the same way in their dream by the shirt but this time they where Standing so she pulls him down to her hight and kisses him feeling the same passion and desire in the dream.

Izzy's body reacts on pure instinct as she pulls him in to kiss him. He's experiencing the same passionate and intense feeling that he felt in his dreams. Now that he's experiencing this in real life, the feeling is all the more sweet and memorable. This connection was like an unseen force pulling them together, it was such an euphoric feeling.

the kiss got more passionate, y/ns tongue started to explore Izzy’s mouth, she tastes like whisky, like in the dream she said whisky was her favourite drink.

Suddenly y/n breaks the kiss, which makes Izzy nervous.

“I’ve never felt like this before Izzy, wtf, what’s this feeling” A sense of relief washes over Izzy when she asks this question. She really did feel the same way that he did in their dream. This feeling really was real. He couldn't remember the last time he'd felt something so intense as this, and now he's starting to realize that he didn't want it to go away.

"I'm not quite sure either. I felt this same connection with you, and I wanted to feel it in real life too. It's as if this feeling is an unseen force, it just pulls us together with such desire."

“Fuck Izzy I feel addicted to you… I’m not joking… fuck it I don’t care”

Izzy felt her fingers wrap around his hair, and that instantly triggered all of his emotions at once. He felt his heart start to pound. He felt the desire, the passion, he felt every emotion he had ever felt for her coming through in this one moment. When she pulled him down for another kiss, his body instantly reacted the same way by leaning in to kiss her back. His hands wrapped around her waist and pulled her close as he let the intense rush of emotions take over his body. They remained locked in the kiss, all of the same feelings from the dream flooding in, except this time it was real. They didn't care who was watching this time, all that mattered was that they were together, having this intense relationship that they both felt was more than just a dream. It was like their physical connections could be felt beyond the mere touch of their bodies, it was as if they could feel the unseen force connecting them both, it was all flowing smoothly through their bodies.

Their kisses began to get more intense, more passionate than before. All that mattered now was the feeling of being with each other. These kisses were more than just passionate, they were like a rush of emotions taking over them. Their bodies were being consumed by the intense heat between them, a heat that was only getting stronger by the second.

“Uhh Izzy? Do you wanna go? Up stairs to my uh room?”

He didn't even need to respond with words, he just smiled and nodded his head in a very enthusiastic yes. This girl was definitely different than all the rest. She didn't want to take things slow. All she wanted to do was to express herself fully with him, no reservations.

As they walk upstairs hand in hand the desire grew bigger and bigger finally making through y/n bedroom door way, he grabs her and pick her up, while closing the door with his foot, then lightly slamming her against the wall.

“Please be my first Izzy” she whispered seductively, He was so tempted but he also felt guilty at the same time. She was a virgin, this was her first time. Was it wrong to just take it for himself? That thought was still there but was slowly starting to become a small thought in the background now. His desire over his guilt was becoming even stronger. His body started leaning in even closer now.

“Izzy I can tell you feel guilty and don’t I know you want it… fuck I want it too, I want you and only you… and I’ll give you head”

Her words sent another wave of desire coursing through Izzy's body. This was really happening, it was finally happening.

She practically jumps out of his arms and pulls him by his shirt to the end of her bed, sitting him down, on the edge, she starts to unzip his pants, he lets out a loud low groan, he throws his head back and she sits on the ground in between his legs and takes out his member, it was that hard and huge it slapped against his stomach, the desire he felt for her was more then ever before, she holds his cock with two hands, licks the tip, slightly teasing him,

“Fuckkk y/nnn, just put ur pretty little mouth around I can’t wait anymore!!” He groans pretty loudly, lucky there was a party going on so on one could hear a thing,

Y/n did so, she lightly and slowly put her mouth around his tip, Izzy’s moans got louder as the seconds go by, his hand goes in her hair, slightly pulling her more down on his cock making her gag and, “ohh fuck y/n” his moans echoed in her bedroom. He pushed her head up and down his cock, every time he hit the back of her throat making her gag, tears began to run down her face from the pain of his huge cock fitting into her mouth, “o-o-oh ur a dirty little slut for me huh?” He couldn’t barely speak from the pleasure that he was feeling from her deep throating him, before Izzy’s moans got even louder he pulled her off his dick, and kissed her mouth, passionately making out with y/n, and taking her clothes off, “I’ll go easy on you at first.. understand my little whore?” He wants her so bad the desire has him in a choke hold, she has him a choke hold, “y-yes”

He flips her on her back, and his hands run along her naked body “oh my dear” he admires her body, his hands stop at her hips and he pulls her more tightly, “have you have anything done to you? Or are you like a proper virgin?”

“I-l’ve never had someone do anything to me besides kissing”

“Oh such a good girl” he said rubbing her clit, she gasped as he teased her with his hands, one rubbing her clit and the other had his index finger teasing her folds.

He puts one finger in her tight virgin pussy, she was already wet, it was easy making virgins wet. “Oh baby we gotta stretch this tight little pussy out before I shove my cock so deep you will be drooling my cum” he said as he started to pump slowly into her hole, they felt like the only people in the world, all that mattered was each other, Izzy didn’t want to hurt her, he wants to first time to be amazing, he feels like he is already being to rough with her but she seems to like it.

He added his middle finger and started to stretch out her pussy, but he didn’t want to go that hard he didn’t want her to cum just yet, her naked body, her reaction to his fingers, they way she throws her head back in pleasure makes him want to do some really naughty things to her,

He slowly removed his fingers and placed him in her mouth and started to finger her mouth, as he lines up his huge dick to her entrance.”are you sure about this?” He asked wanting for her to respond, she nodded and looked at him with beginning eyes as his fingers wheee still in her mouth.

He started to tease her cunt with his tip, slapping it against her clit, teasing her entrance with it, with out warning he slowly pushes it in, they both could feel her walls slowly stretching, tearing her open practically, tears running down her face, he looks up at her and whips her tears away, “it’s okay you will adjust to it very soon” he made it all the way in, she could feel him in her stomach, he gave her a couple of seconds with out moving her to adjust.

he started to thrust deep into her already hitting her g spot instantly, they both moan each others names pretty loudly, he grips her waist pretty tight, well her nails clawed into his back, “f-f-fuck Izzy I’m going to cum!” She practically screams in pleasure…

“Be a good girl and cum for me, can you do that? Cum for me y/n” as he spoke to her with a very dominant tone, her organism came straight away, she was pure euphoric, her and Izzy where the only people on plant earth, all she could think about was him and this moment, her walls tightened around his cock, which made him moan, she came all over Izzy dick.

10 seconds after she came Izzy thrusted one more time and came in her, he was right, she felt like she could taste him, he loved this moment with her, he never wants it to end, he has never came for any girl like this so fast, he want her. She wants him. “Oh shit imma need more plan b” y/n said kinda laughing, Izzy laughed along with her. “But first let’s get you cleaned up okay?” He said in a caring tone, nodded and Izzy helped her to the bathroom, she could barely walk, she ripped her open, he felt bad that he has hurt her like this but happy that he spent this moment with her.

After Izzy helped her clean up, he helped her back into bed and laid down next to her, and wraps his arms around her body and pulls her close,

“I never want to let you go…”

“Then don’t”

[ennissg]

If nobody else asked them yet 3 and 8 for the asks?

I got the exact 3 and 8 ask for A’mos but since you didn’t specify which durge I’m gonna ramble about Dr. Vrach this time if that’s ok, I just think about both of them a lot🙏

Based on this ask. (also ty for creating it! And additionaly thank you for making it not romance specific!) While this is technically durgetash I wanna specify that it is strictly platonic between these two. Tho, I’d argue this doesn’t make their bond less unhinged. It might make it worse actually?

3. What did Durge think of the little wannabe Tyrant at the beginning? Someone competent or someone who tries really quite hard?

For this I hc they met way before Gortash even became a banite, before he was sold to Raphael even. Dr. Vrach never forgets a face, just like he never forgot the face of a certain lower city cobbler’s kid who tried to pickpocket him once but got away bc he couldn’t snatch a child in broad daylight with multiple witnesses, nor could he be bothered, when he wants to keep appearances as a well-meaning doctor. 

He is getting into his 120s when they meet a second time, both being a wizard and a demigod he was able to extend his lifespan way above what an average human has and he has full intent on going as long as he needs to bring his father’s rule and achieve lichdom himself. So, when he sees Gortash again, 10-15 years later, having successfully resurrected the cult of Bane in Baldur’s Gate and strolling over to the living(for now) flesh and blood of Bhaal for an alliance? Oh, he was intrigued to say the least. A man forged in the hells, fostered by tyranny, with an unstoppable drive for progress and absolutely no limits as to what is ethical  - what a terrifying combination for a human to have. What an amazing opportunity to observe this brilliant mind, he would’ve dissected his brain if it didn’t kill him instantly, too. He saw so much potential in Gortash, potential he could help him realize. Dr. Vrach instantly became invested in his work, he wanted to become his mentor, to teach him how much more death he can bring into this realm if he only had more knowledge.

And Gortash, finally getting that older nurturing figure in his life? Finally getting his talents not only recognised but encouraged and cultivated? Yeah, he didn't get an assassin for hire, he got a free uncle who's always elbow deep in gore and likes to call ghouls his "colleagues".

8. Both Gortash and Durge are sadistic little gremlins, so when it comes down to it, who's better at torture? And did they make a competition out of it?

Absolute torture olympics at the Iron Throne all day every day for these two. And, unfortunately, no judge survived to keep the score but it is definitely in Dr. Vrach’s favour. He is always up for “research” and there is no end to lucky participants in his very ethical humanoid trials™ as well as his lifetime experience as a necromancer and a self proclaimed medical professional. Sometimes he’d like to see how many organs a person really needs to stay alive, sometimes he’d try to turn someone’s skin inside out all in the name of curiosity of course. It's edutainment to him. Magic certainly helps to keep them alive longer, he’s not interested in seeing the limit of an average person, he wants to see the limit. Period. How much can one’s body endure before its soul is released to the Gods? How far can you go past organic matter? It was a regular Unit 731 when they got together. 

There isn’t much of a difference between Dr. Vrach’s research and torture though, so it’s hard to tell at times.

[themadknightuniverse]

Nacho Varga's outfit analysis and symbolism

Okay uh I just saw a gif set of the scene where Nacho gets rescued by the twins, and I had a revelation but I have no idea if this has been pointed out before. I gave myself like 1 hour of research through tags to see if it was and I didn't find anything. But if it has been, sorry! Anyway here is another very long post about BCS because I have no self control anymore.

! TW blood and heavy spoilers !

So the thing is after all that time spent looking for Nacho and Lalo's outfits yesterday combined to the gif set, I just got hit by the fact that in the scene he's shot and found by the cousins, Nacho is wearing the same kind of shirt as in the very first time we see him.

I even thought at first it was the same shirt, but they are different. And it's a very interesting choice to make considering the scene. It would have been awesome if it was the exact same shirt. Why? Because Nacho gets badly hurt in this scene, right after being caught up by all his choices. He takes a bullet in the shoulder and in the side, which can be compared to many christian representations. @seraphtrevs already did a splendid analysis of Nacho being a Christlike figure, so I wont be too long on that parallel, you can check out her post about it here . So here Nacho is left to die in the desert, covered in blood, and between all the blood and the shirt pattern itself he looks like he's been torn apart by hell hounds and he just came back from the Purgatory. He's caught up by his actions, his choices, he's suffering for it.

It even goes further than just him being badly hurt in this outfit tho. The shirt even gets shredded by the hands of the cousins, the previous version of himself symbolically destroyed by the hands of a Salamanca. And when Leonel removes it with the help of the vet, it even looks hard to get rid of it, like the second skin of a snake if I push the comparison to an extreme.

And of course we have Marco giving him the Salamanca blood afterward, which is still an insane thing in terms of symbolism, I can't believe it happened. It's just plain "you've been torn apart, stripped of a part of you, and now we fill the emptiness of it with a part of us". Wild.

But still, why is it so interesting that Nacho has the same kind of outfit? Because this exact scene happens when his traitorous side is revealed to one of the character that has a lot of power, Fring, and he's now to serve as a double agent. And so, putting him in a look alike outfit from the first apparence tells us that the Nacho we knew before has been killed. There is no way back. There is no healing from this. It's a permanent change. A permanent consequence to his actions. And after all this, Nacho's desire for power and money starts to disappear (and he's been going down this road for a while once his dad is threatened, but this whole situation seals it I believe). So Nacho doesn't wear the exact same shirt. It would have been great for the blatant symbolism of it all, BUT the fact that it's slightly different gives us the opportunity to actually see something more. We have 3 scenes with Nacho that happens in the desert and that kind of echoes each other with their similarities (multiple people gathered, all there to solve a problem, and there is at least one Salamanca in each one). And if we take a look at his outfits in the 3 scenes, that's where it becomes even more interesting than just the first comparison. So let's take a look at the 3 outfits during those 3 key scenes.

We have the first scene we meet Nacho. The pattern is blotchy, black and white (or maybe blue/green/grey something like that, it depends of the light). It's messy, a bit wild looking. It fits Nacho's personality at the beginning of the series. He's got more wit to him, he makes reckless decisions/have reckless ideas (Selling his own stuff on a cartel territory with the pills, terrible planning of a robbery, plotting Tuco's death, hiding his illegal activities to his dad, planning Hector's death, etc) Also black and white suits his personality and his double agent role pretty well. Nacho is stubborn, he has a strong personality. The heavy contrast of black and white fits the way he's capable to strike with his words as well as his fists. He's a sharp thing. He's also in a grey place when it comes to morals, like most of the characters in the show.

Then we have the scene where he's shot and found by the cousins. Like we said we still have a shirt that have some similarities with the first one. It's still a heavy black and white pattern, blotchy, it's irregular BUT there is more structure to it already. We can discern horizontal and vertical lines creating something like a grid pattern. Compared to the first shirt we could assume it represent his change of direction in life. At this moment he got scared of Hector killing his dad, so he acted to get rid of this menace. Nacho isn't looking for more money and power. He's trying to survive and keep his dad safe. He can't be as reckless as before, he has to think things through. So, more planification for survival, more restrain, more care into what he does.

But then, we get to his last scene. The pattern isn't blotchy at all anymore. Still black and white. We have the horizontal and vertical lines still present from the precedent shirt, and of course they look like crosses. But there is still a bit of wildness/irregularity to this pattern, with the way the lines doesn't all connect, it isn't just crosses all over it. Nacho has drastically changed. He's still himself deep down, but there is all the things that changed in him too. At this point he went through everything, and finds himself in a dead-end. He's been obeying orders but also staying alert to not fall into another manipulation, he's more sharp than ever in his perception, still playing his last cards thoughtfully. He's been stripped of so much, all his hopes for a new life, no more desire for power and money at all, he's even sick of all this cartel thing. There is almost no more wildness to him, he was forced to become more calculating and cold in order to survive and protect. And his last moments are spent to surviving long enough to make sure his dad will be safe, to punish the Salamanca once more by revealing what he did to Hector (and there we can see his wild side exploding, it's raw but controlled), and keeping the choice to take his own life instead of letting others have that power over him.

To me, these 3 shirts, using them for desert scenes, it just screams morphing patterns, and so his mind morphing too.

[shpadoinkle-day]

hi again!! its 1st time cannibal the musical watcher again- i might start signing my asks or somethin cus i keep wanting to talk but like you're always sharing such obscure random stuff.. DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE THING YOU'VE DISCOVERED OR FOUND?? specific quote of an interview or a particular photo you've found ???

hiii anon lovely to see you back! feel free to tag yourself if you prefer that way, but either way you're much appreciated 🥰

I have so much stuff I found (I'd say it more like... was lucky to run into while researching 😵‍💫) that I love, but to name a few...

"My lovely wife Matt Stone" aka Trey's BOM speech from Feb 25 2013 at the first west end preview. How I found this: So, sometimes when I'm bored I'll pick a random mattrey blog that's been active for a long time, open an old post from their archive, see if there's old inactive mattrey blogs in the notes, and look through their archive to see if there's any posts I could make resurface that had stopped circulating, right? The funny thing is I'll go on reblog sprees, so I actually hadn't listened to the audio when I reblogged it. I was only informed of what it said when I saw others freak out about it.

Daily Show with Craig Kilborn. Why it's my fav? Well, aside from being adorable and iconic, it landed my youtube channel in the lost media wiki! How I found it is actually quite easy, when you look up fansites on the web archive you can do specific search for the files the web archive has saved from it. Turns out sometimes quicktime files work! Four parts were in canniballovers and one in dtisfu if I remember correctly, I just edited them together and posted it. Still wish someone could find it in better quality though. 😔

I'm gonna list a bunch of pictures now... because there's many. 😭 But my absolute N1 is probably the Halloween Robert Smith Trey picture. How I found it is simple, just looking up random words on facebook. Probably "trey parker", nothing special. This and this from the Ron Jeremy website on the web archive, though I think maybe the second one had already been circulating I'm not exactly sure. Showgirl Halloween Trey. The kiss pictures. Pink haired Trey!! This NATPE (?) picture. These older Trey pics where he's serving absolute cunt. This Lapdance/Sundance (?) pic. And these too. This reverse cap one altho this was from twitter I don't think I was the first to come across it tbh. These three from the "A Million Laughs" fb page... Bowl hat... Trey with the blue umbrella full pic... tho I wouldn't say I "found it" only that I got to it first the day it was posted... Trey in the matching christmas pajama from 2018... I'm gonna stop but my heart is pretty big and I like all pics...

These measly 7 secs of SDCC footage only because of the first mattrey pic included because that pose from Trey is everythinggg.

This oscars clip because Trey does such a graceful hair flip 😭

Le Petit Package pics though all I did was waltz into the lost media thread and see they had been posted...

The forbidden mattrey slides which we may never see... these were all from worthpoint, which is just a website that archives past ebay bids.

Annual Diversity Awards for the Trey serve ofc.

And finally, I'm very partial to "Matt's a cock".

As to how I come across anything... it's lots of free time. Like I'm talking hours daily just picking a random lead and following it. It may be a website you think hasn't been thoroughly searched (I've tried fb, ig, twitter, worthpoint, ebay, wordpress, tripod, weebly, various fansites on webarchive, footage.net, bilibili/baidu, vimeo, dailymotion, flickr, a load of sketchy other websites I don't remember anymore... basically trey parker has brought me to places I wouldn't go with a gun...) a combination of words, a new search engine that may give u different results (I've tried the ones listed in the lost media wiki guide, my favorite is startpage). Using targeted searching like "word" or site:x "word" or "word combo" before:year, basically trying to make google your bitch. I also use gettyimages like a visual wiki of events Trey's been to+the date, it's quite useful... ik you didn't ask the "how" part but aaaa I like talking about it 😭 I have a lot of fun. Even though sometimes I just come up empty handed even after hours of research. More often than not tbh. Also I'm an obsessed weirdo who checks the words "trey parker" daily on twitter, tumblr, ig, fb, yt, web archive and ebay. 🫠

And also the concept of finding is weird because it has happened to me that I thought I had found something and then it actually had been circulating already, so I tried really hard to answer you by only listing stuff I was fairly sure hadn't been circulating before I got to it, but I mean... it doesn't really matter! I'm here to serve, I just like sharing whatever stuff I run into, it'll happen that it's new to me but it really isn't. 😵‍💫 I try...

I like this too also but I didn't find it, it was pretty available already fjdkg you know Jack Shih was at that dodgeball event?

Favorite funfact that I haven't had a chance to share yet, so now you know!

[wisteriainslumber]

Seeing is Believing - Breakdown

Welcome alll!! I am starting a new series for my fics, where I basically throw in some trivia, reveal a few of my reoccurring writing themes/motifs, and walk through my fics!

I'll only be going through a few specific scenes at my leisure or upon request, so this post will be the first and last time we walk through an entire fic together. Now, let's get started wooo

This contains spoilers and all tags applicable to seeing is believing!

*Note: the original fic is still very open to interpretation. this post plucks out hints that may assist in your interpretation of it

Names

The presence of names are so important in my fics. The importance of the names lies less in the meaning but more in their appearance. Names gives someone an identity, and being named hints at someone's reappearance or their significance in the plot!

Ortho regards BeBe and Pabby with importance, treating them like they are alive. Later on, Ortho's attachment to them serves as a pivotal point in the climax of the plot.

And who can forget Moirai, the Fates, Idia's favourite idol group? Their name appearance is a subtle foreshadow, as Atropos is the Fate that cuts the thread of life ^^

(This exchange right at the start with the headmaster hints about why Atropos is Idia's 'bias'. Get it? cause he wants to di-)

Here's another appearance of a name! 'Persie' is the name of a cat Cater & Idia own in another work of mine. Remember when Idia and Mal talked about multiple universes? Readers who recognize this cameo can catch that it is from a different universe! But readers who do not can think of it as 'Persie' being named off 'Persephone', the Lady who now lives between the over and underworlds.

The second paragraph also details another work of mine, untitled and unreleased as of now, but the appearance of both of these paragraphs supports that the magical collision of both Malleus and Idia combined managed to tear its way into new universes (or, Idia got hit hard enough he saw through the multiple universes the two talked about earlier!)

And if the appearance of names marks someone's significance, then the lack of a name marks.. well :)

A brief intermission for an interesting fact :D Remember when Idia brushed off BeBe and Pabby as stiches and fabric?

Later on, Ortho echoes his words. It is due to a bunch of reasons, with a prominent one being that Idia unintentionally programmed his own thought process into Ortho.

Idia's relationship with Malleus

Malleus is constantly belittling or treating Idia like a toddler, which reflects in Idia's internal monologue, a 'conscience' that was fed to him. He'll find a way to reassure himself, saying that things were because of iron deficiency, or eye strain, and barely questions why he can't see anything clearly anymore.

When Idia is revealing the hidden messages in his room, there is a mention that a 'Marionette brings false hope' along with an onimous message to 'Believe in One'

We know these messages were fed to him via Malleus because they refer to Ortho as a doll/puppet (and is basically puppeteering everyone). Mal likes to play God™, and there's a conversation that follows where Malleus tells Idia,

Idia is on constant surveillance from Malleus, since Ortho is not asleep at all, Malleus doesn't know how to portray the Ortho Idia knows! So Malleus always chatting to Idia, prying information from him.

From Mal's POV, they're only doing research in order to provide Idia the sweetest of dreams, and that Idia's rebellion is trivial or a phase.

They even get on a nickname basis later, a sign of 'close friends', in order for Idia to let down his guard. The way that Idia immediately dials up Malleus' number hints to how many times it has been done :)

There is a constant mention of birthdays for a reason! There are themes of rebirth and death, and it may assist you in cracking these codes :)

This is left open in the narrative, but the way everything is so messy and cryptic is actually because Malleus is seriously monitoring everything! These fragments of writing that Idia doesn't remember are his own way of helping himself, because he'd (and Ortho) could possibly be the only ones to understand!

These bold dialogue choices are Mal's overblot voice showing, a break in Idia's reality if you will.

get it bc this is what a parent would do

We know the Ortho that Idia speaks to on the phone is an illusion, but Malleus spies on Idia through Ortho. A few slips ups being that he recalls memories differently and even encourages Idia to put on a lullaby.

+ this is the second mention of comets in the fic!

And at the end, we do eventually find out Ortho was being puppeteered by the blot/Malleus all along. rip to those sweet dreams

Stars, Time, and Death(?)

I use the star dividers to indicate a new dream cycle or timeline. Idia will constantly mix up dates, if it was the start of the semester, someone's birthday, etc. He also mixes up technical language and personal language when referring to Ortho. It goes to show how many times the universe had to be reset because of Idia 'waking up' or questioning his faith in Malleus haha

Comets appear whenever Idia thinks of Ortho. We are led to believe that it is because Idia recalls the Starsending event, even Idia directly comparing Ortho to a shooting star in the narrative. However, in our fourth mention of the comets they are referred to in a negative connotation.

Comets are notoriously bad luck because when people first saw them they thought the world was ending LMAOOO. So, now it is revealed that the comets were a 'bad sign', and who else would be trying to send a bad signs coincidentally when Ortho is mentioned.. hmmm..

A few working titles for this fic was 'samsara' and 'comet sighting', but were scrapped because I liked how the final title was a fun nod to the Orpheus and Eurydice story as well as how Idia never actually does see Ortho (Remember, Malleus is the only one Idia sees clearly). A new branch or loop begins when Idia recognizes Ortho.

The hand in the mirror, the horses that pull the carriage, and of course, the students being 'reborn' from a coffin are some nods to how Yuu was transported to Night Raven College.

Before the Yuu emerges from the coffin, they hear horses (presumably taking them to the school). So basically we end with hearing the horses and the story basically starts again with Idia coming out from the coffin. Time loop!! (or he's dead, who knows).

This story was always meant to be read multiple times! The first for the shock factor, the second to digest, and the other times to analyze or enjoy it however you'd like. These texts support the death/rebirth motif of the game as well as the circumstances of this fic!

And that's the end, thanks for reading! I hope you found this a little bit interesting and if you'd like to see more then let me know! Maybe some time in the future, I'll reveal some of my favourite drafts and deleted scenes.

[teaveetamer]

Gotta say, I follow BWIIDT and I've read her critiques but I don't recall her ever having done what raxis had done. She never linked to the fic or even outright named it? And she certainly never linked directly to the author. So I still have never seen caps fic , have no idea what the fic is called , and I still don't know who "captain" is.

But if she did the same shit Raxis did and explicitly linked people to the fic and to their social media I would definitely know who they were .

Just want to point out the difference.

Like if I want to know who cap is and read the fic myself I can probably put in the effort and ask or go out of my way to look for it. But that requires actual effort. you need to make a choice and go out of your way to even DO that.

But raxis pasting links and listing names left and right ? that is literally just a mindless click away and the entire fandom knows how aggressive edelstans are , so it's a literal invitation to harassment.

Raxis is basically giving an angry mob the identity and address of a random author he dissgrees with and he's Pikachu face surprised that his MakeAdrestiaGreatAgain buddies stormed over there (literally 1 click away) to attack the author on his behalf? Nah, Raxis has done this for years. he knows.

Combining these two

Thanks, so from what I'm hearing I was right about BWIIDT never providing links or naming the fic?

I initially wasn't following the fic critique. I knew it was going on but I was kind of just not interested in it cuz I didn't really see the point of critiquing the fic at first. Then I started seeing it get recc'd everywhere and shortly after I saw what I believe was BWIIDT's breakdown of Dedue's treatment and I was like. Oh wait this is actually way worse than I thought it was. I thought it was just gonna be some guy's silly little wish fulfillment fic I didn't realize it was gonna be that bad.

But like yeah here's the thing. Sure, people could go figure out Cap's fic from BWIIDT's posts. However, if there's one universal truth about people it's that people are fucking lazy and 99.99% of people are not going to put in the effort to go find the thing.

And also, in forcing people to actually go looking for the thing you greatly increase the chances of someone stopping and saying "wait, what am I doing do I really need to be doing this? Because it just takes longer to find something, and that gives you time to cool down and think about what you're about to do.

I can't tell you how many times I've been pissed off about something and gone to do some research, and in the process of doing the research I've had a second to cool down and suddenly I'm not as riled up or inclined to do anything with the info I've found.

Not related to fanfic but in the same spirit, just as a real example of what I'm talking about. I've been running fandom tournaments and I have spreadsheets for those where I calculate out everyone's total number of votes and rankings. I debated organizing everyone by votes and then posting it midway through the qualifying rounds so people could know who was in the lead, who was behind, who they might wanna focus votes on if they wanted to boost someone into the bracket, etc.

Ultimately I decided against it because I didn't want any potential messiness of someone, say, looking at that frankly presented data and doing some kind of vote manipulation or something. A lot of the characters lower down on the bracket were within only a couple of votes of each other so it would have been really easy to boost someone up with just one or two alt accounts.

Sure technically all of that info is public right on the tournament blog. I've shared the methodology for how I pick the brackets in the past. You could very easily go through the polls and calculate it out yourself to know who is going to be cut. Thing is, most people aren't going to bother to do that, even if they would be willing to try vote manipulating if they just saw the data laid out for them. And it takes like an hour for me to go through and update the spreadsheets and reorganize everything, plenty of time for someone to start trying to calculate everything out and realize that vote manipulating a dumb tumblr poll is, well, dumb.

The point I'm trying to make is, it absolutely matters how easy you made it for people to go find something. Because that will actually make a huge difference in how many people go on to harass an author. And again, that is honestly self-evident at this point? Everyone knows if you link a fic and/or name the fic and the author people are going to be a LOT more likely to go harass them.

[thouartachoochootrain]

Okay so... Face Care.

Skin care in general. So @gaphic has more and better thoughts but I saw a post from a gay porn blog that got me thinking so.

There are A Lot of skin care products out there, just like.... So Fucking Many. There are toners, serums, exfoliators, scrubs, soaps, oils, supplements, creams, vitamins, masks, combos of all these and more. However MOST are nonsense, completely useless.

This is collagen

It is Very Large, as proteins go. It Cannot Fit In Pores. Unless they are injecting it directly into your skin collagen does Nothing, zip zilch Nada. If you consume it, the collagen is broken down like any other protein and is not reconstituted back into the same amount of collagen. It may be used partially to create some collagen, but it is the same amount your body normally produces. Your body is producing collagen and maintaining collagen, it does this using food you eat. Eating collagen is not going to trick your body into making more.

Vitamin serums, these can be beneficial depending on the person, more often than not though it is an Oil and the benefit is the fact you are applying Oil to your skin because Your Skin is Leather.

So there are differences between your skin and the skin of an animal in laboratory settings where medical research is done. But when used as leather human skin is Very Similar to any other animal skin. This means that it has similar Needs. You don't clean leather with Water you apply Oils.

Fats and Oils are Lipids.

These are essential as shown above in cell protection. Allowing only a specific amount of liquids in, it is essential that cells do not have too much or too little water in them. When we wash our hands we break down this lipid layer of Hopefully harmful pathogens, corona virus for one. This is why handwashing is essential in medical settings and for lower disease transmission. But, that is because your hands touch EVERYTHING. They have a specific set of rules that apply to them for that reason, you aren't going to rub your eye with your knee (if you do weird flex but okay).

So with all this being said what actually does something for your skin. Let's look at what our skin does first. It grows, it sheds by flaking off slowly, it has pores that release oils and sweat, and has layers. As skin cells age they start drying out and flake off. These are pressed off by the new skin being produced underneath, like a tree producing bark. Dead skin cells and dirt and any other contaminants are prevented from harming your skin by a layer of oil. This is commonly where white heads come from, dead skin and dirt and bacteria aren't carried away and congeal in this oil and block a pore. So skin needs to have this top layer of dead skin and oil removed while leaving the oil in our skin and not harming the new skin.

Soap. Soap breaks down oil, it breaks it down really really well. Thats great for dishes and hands and messes all over the house. For your Whole Body it is ATROCIOUS. You wash off oil and dry your skin to then apply moisturizer aka replacement OIL. Your skin uses OIL to protect against bacteria and contaminants.

Your skin cannot absorb all that water from the shower, if you use soap all over that strips the oil that retain said water and dries out the cells, which you then need to drink water and apply oils again so they can start refilling.

What we will instead do is assist this massive organ in what it already does really really well.

First, exfoliating. Exfoliating just means removing dead skin and the oil that has already done it's work and now has bacteria, skin, and dirt just waiting to be whisked away. Warm water will warm up this oil and fats and your hands or a cloth can remove it. Your hands are rather abrasive so for more sensitive skin or daily washing hands work well and you can wash them after. I use those scrubby gloves they feel Great, I have well oiled skin so the extra scruff just drags away dead skin. I also Highly recommend micellar water for your face. On bad days you can look at the cotton swab and see it become skin colored, just whisks away dirt, makeup, dead skin. Just a cotton swab with some micellar water while in the shower. That's it btw, no lathering needed. You can use soap for spot cleaning or if I work on a car I'll literally have black grease on me and only soap gets that off. Also, I use soap on my ass but I'm gay so there are additional needs being met.

Second, toner. Toner is something I did not think did anything. It does, a good toner will help rebalance the pH of your skin after it getting fucked by a bunch of water, presumably heavily chlorinated water. A good toner will also help reduce bacterial growth in your really sweaty areas like between your legs and pits, reducing harsh smells. I use diluted apple cider vinegar, works great and the smell of the apple cider vinegar when applied to skin goes away in a few minutes. Salt water is also a form of toner in this sense, the salt is antimicrobial and helps stabilize your pH.

Third, oil. Oil is your friend. Oil will change your skin for the better. I use jojoba, it is very similar in consistency to the oil your skin naturally produces. Apply this everywhere, you want it everywhere and it will lock in moisture and assist in protecting your skin throughout the day. I apply a moisturizer before the oil, you really don't have to but I think it feels nice. Most moisturizes will do the trick, just get what you like and is cheap, much like wine.

Fourth, sunscreen. Yeah, listen sunscreen does work. It is real and genuine and you will honestly probably notice a reduction in acne and skin problems once you start. The sun is a deadly lazer. Australian made sunscreen works Really well they have strict standards for efficacy. Don't trust those 150 SPF that's an insane factor that isn't really achievable, they are fibbing usually.

I barely use soap now and my skin is amazing, it feels good. I of course use soap where needed, I work in healthcare so I wash my hands like a fanatic. I have never smelt better, I have never felt cleaner, I save so much money by just not succumbing to this cavalcade of tinctures and potions and snake oils... (Actually snake oil sounds nice) it's hard to describe fully but my skin feels Better.

It feels like this. Moisturized, full, warm, clean. Thats another thing I'm Warmer since I started doing this, my skin feels warmer and keeps me warmer when I'm well oiled. I don't flake skin like crazy and I itch rarely. I oil my scalp and my hair is thick and luscious and my dandruff went away. I can buy most of these things in bulk, I also don't have a twelve step thirty minute long morning and night routine. I know we hear over and over and over again "omg you don't scrub every inch of your body with soap every day???????? Thats so grooooosssssss thats unhygienic!!!!!!!!" But there just isn't evidence to support that. Yes if you literally do not wash yourself that is unhygienic. You are not making yourself less covered in bacteria by scrubbing with soap. You Are Mostly Bacteria By Volume. You are COVERED in living things, you are ALIVE that is just how it is. The conditions to render something sterile are the conditions required to kill All Living Things. Boiling water, extreme heat, radiation, or a series of some of the harshest chemicals we have. You are not benefitting yourself or others by committing a mass slaughter of your non pathogenic microbiome. You are just gonna be itchy.

[naylor]

It is absolutely valid to blame Taylor for not turning off dynamic pricing, no excuse for that

sigh. how many more times do i have to say there was NO dynamic pricing at use during the sale of this tour before you guys just stop lying about it? here's some other asks i've already answered where i explain why dynamic wasn't used: one, two, three

i'm trying to remain as gracious and patient as possible but at this point it's clear you guys are just parroting things you saw on twitter and tiktok without knowing what those words mean or how they're applied in practice once you're actually buying a ticket

had dynamic pricing be at play, everyone would have been seeing price fluctuations and inflations, and the cheap nosebleeds would have risen to the hundreds while the lower bowl ones would have probably skyrocketed closer to the thousands of dollars because (as far as i've been able to research) dynamic isn't applied to VIP so the remaining standard tickets would be shooting up in prices as demand grew which didn't happen to anyone because there was no dynamic used

as i've explained before and i apparently am gonna be explaining until the day i fucking die because you guys refuse to read, it's more likely than what people are claiming as "dynamic pricing" was just a combination of unclear division between standard tickets and VIP bundles in the same section, and prices being more expensive than people expected.

there were sections, mostly on the lower bowl, where you could have two seats next to each other and one was standard and the other VIP (which is NOT the same as a "premium" dynamic ticket) and when people tried to select the standard only for TM to tell them someone beat them to it, they came back to the same section and now selected a VIP which comes with a price increase. they most likely only saw the price increase without noticing the difference in ticket category and cried wolf.

i've talked about the pricing for this show at large and you're welcome to scroll down my blog to see those posts but the pricing was a fair as it could be all considered, and i'm really sorry it was more expensive than people anticipated and that made them upset, but it takes ten minutes and zero dollars to research how dynamic pricing looks like in use and why it wasn't being used for this tour.

[m1ckeyb3rry]

Pause if Rin is Nanami does that make Nanase yuji….like their personalities kinda match up now that I think about it?? Also BAROU TODO WAIT I SEE THE VISION LMAOO something about buff giant men who have brains and are unexpectedly good companions (both platonic and romantic)

I almost forgot you’re a bonafide researcher LMAOO I forgot to mention that when you mentioned Yayoi I immediately thought of the artist

LINKEDIN goodbye. That was the last site I was expecting LMAOO

Also yup screenshots look good!! It’s funny because for fun I just started typing their names into my keyboard to see what popped up and I already like pocketed in my brain some of the same kanji that are in the pics LOL

聖子 I saw this character and immediately slapped the second character on because it does essentially mean sacred child but sometimes the sei is associated with like…saints if im remembering correctly? Like im pretty sure that if you add the typical word for like a person/profession after it it literally becomes saint so it’d be funny (dramatic irony yk) since she beat up kids HAHA

Another one I immediately thought of was 正心, second word means heart and is another way I’ve seen ko be used in some names! First kanji does mean exact and precise but it’s also used in a lot of words to mean like truth of sorts? It’s used in words like justice, genuine, authentic, etc. Thought it was kinda fitting for her vibes!

As for yayoi I also did see the first one mention pop up first when I typed it out LOL to be honest I think this one has less options that would be fitting because most of the ya kanji I guess aren’t as deep? Like there’s 8 as you saw and some kinda “filler”esque phonetics LOL I think that’s really interesting is off the bat the first substitution she suggests for the second element (yoi/oi) is most typically read as Ka if I’m not mistaken, so it just shows the versatility of the kanji and the different pronunciations that exist! I think especially with yayoi because there aren’t as many kanji that are really read by itself as yoi (usually just oi or yo as op mentioned) that it kinda gives more liberty with the name in a way? Where sometimes you get more unique readings of the character that match the pronunciation of yoi in the end. One that I had in mind immediately was 宵 which is actually fully read out as yoi, meaning evening. And what’s even MORE interesting is this kanji 鵺. It’s typically used and read as “nue” BUT there is an alternate reading of it pronounced “ya”! And guess what. This kanji with the generic bird kanji combine to make the word thrush (THE BIRD). I lost my mind when I found that out like look at the bird agenda?? But anyways those are just my thoughts and what I’ve gathered!! I’ve always found name research really interesting (excuse the nerd session but a good example of this is Bachira’s name! The ra in its most generic form I guess is rooted in the meaning to relax, so think carefree, enjoying your life, etc. Very on brand for energetic do things that pump me up Bachira. But I’ve seen that same character be read as Raku and sasa in two different names so it’s very interesting!! Honestly also really convenient for naming characters so you have more pronunciation options while retaining a certain meaning!)

Sorry that was a really long ramble LMAOO I cross referenced it with some blog, dictionaries, and even the quora equivalent, but if you happen to find anything off lmk HAHA

Ok gradually as I thought LMAO I was about to be like oh wait if we’re jumping straight to 20 that’d be a lot shorter but now that k reread what you said that option doesn’t really make sense either oops

Wait actually I was sure they were going to have the wildcard scene in there but I just remembered that on their official site they have a listing of the cast voice actors and Kunigami’s is nowhere to be found?? I can’t imagine them waiting THAT long to animate it though so maybe they’ll just credit him in the one episode he appears on??? But definitely it seems like they were kinda clumping people based off their team..? Still they did not need to show igaguri

Yuki fr needs to catch a BREAK someone give him a relaxing slice of life shoujo moment (but yk what’s even funnier is he literally had to opportunity to live a shoujo life as a model and would easily find a love interest but he said I DONT WANT THAT gimme balls and the streets!! /j

LMFAOOOOOO I just love all the color changing ideas we have but wait that also makes sense in terms of humans like once you get old your hair turns white but I mean the majority of his hair IS white so only the green strip really gets effective and as it gets like, salt and peppered (??? More like salt and chived ig) it gradually looks lighter because of the white invading or like the fading pigment (like transition from black to grey to white) When he’s elderly he loses all the green and just has your average npc white hair LMAO

HZJSHS SAME GOES FOR YOU!!! We’re n not hear to relive Yuki’s LN /j i took a break from Barou’s to type this out LMAO

Also unrelated but the BFB tag was randomly blue for a moment…? Clicked on it and then hit the back button and it’s back to the normal grey but I have no idea what that’s supposed to mean LOL

-Karasu anon

went from chronically fast to crazy slow in responding today 😩 but omg NANASE AS YUJI I SEE THE VISION LMAOO i think my first bllk post after watching the first season i call barou an evil version of todo and i stand by that (he’s evil in a cunty way though)

TRUST i will be researching 👆🏻 the last thing i want to do is try to name a character from a culture i’m not in and be either super stereotypical or straight up wrong 😭 LMAOO linkedin is good at showing people that are around and actually exist as adults?? google searches and all can turn up fictional characters and celebrities but as we all know those names are not necessarily actual names that regular people would have

YAYOI HAVING A BIRD CONNECTION REAL AND TRUE the karasus cannot escape the allegations…omg the dedication i love when people have niche interests that they like to ramble abt!! for me it’s symbolism of like plants and animals and shit HAHA like if i ever name a plant in a story of mine there’s a 99.9% chance it was researched and put there to signify smth

i feel like i could’ve done smth similar to peregrine where it alternated between childhood and adulthood but then i was like “nah” and didn’t do that LMAOO hopefully karasu nation is okay w reading their man as a stupid baby for however many words that part lasts for

ooh maybe it’s like a pay thing?? if he was listed as a cast member they’d have to pay him more vs if he just guest starred in one ep + he would only be needed for that scene…or they might show it as a flashback with reo narrating the whole thing as it happens so they don’t have to get another va at all 🤔 i feel like they’d have to show it though because it sets up shidou as a character yk?? but we’ll see ig (agreed there’s no excuse for igaguri to be there i’ll be so mad if he makes it onto the final roster for u20 wc over like zantetsu or nanase or someone)

yuki had a glimpse of the shoujo life and rejected it full stop 😰 honestly i have to respect the grind…like his shoujo era will be his retirement ig HAHAH just let my man win the world cup and then go back and relax and model and plant cherry blossom trees

SALT AND CHIVE HELP MEEE JFFJKSMS okay but imagine the streak ends up being a diff shade of white than the rest of the white hair so he just looks like the printer ran out of ink on that part 😭

oh that’s odd maybe you just accidentally selected it or smth?? tumblr mobile stays tweaking out for no reason lowkey i never know wtf is going on w the app

make sure to get some rest bae you are beloved on here 💖

[art-appreciation-blog]

Virtual Sketchbook 1

First Artworks

My image was #6. Michelangelo 1499 Pieta. Marble.

Five Facts:

This piece depicts Jesus and the Virgin Mary after the Crucifixion.

Michelangelo carved it out of a solid block of Carrara Marble. 

Michelangelo was 23 when he carved this piece. 

It is currently housed in St. Peter's Basilica, Vatican City.

The title of this work, The Pieta, means “The pity”.

When I first saw this work I initially thought that it was just a woman holding a man. Then I thought about how much larger the woman was, so maybe the man is actually a boy. Then I thought that maybe this woman is a mother or some kind of nurturing person trying to care for this fragile male figure. After I did some research I quickly found out the true story behind this piece, which mostly has to do with my Fact #1. I don’t know much about religion, so finding out my fact #1 didn’t really explain much to me. I hope that this class can help me gain some of that information.

2. Art and Writing

The piece that I will be discussing here isn't one that any of you would know. My dad created this piece many years ago when I was a little girl. He used pastels and a white foam board. It hangs over my bed and serves as a reminder to me that art can be created by anyone. This coy fish is probably one of my favorite things he has ever created, and I think it is absolutely stunning. This piece just has a simplistic flow that exudes calm.

3. Writing a Self-Portrait

I am an 18 year old female. I was born in Virginia, but have lived in Florida the majority of my life. I am a variety of things that classify me as white; Italian, Polish, along with some Puerto Rican is all I know from my moms side. I enjoy cooking and surfing. If I find some inspiration and motivation I'll do some random art project. I am not a member of any organized groups. I work at Slim Chicken's, a restaurant that sells mostly chicken. What makes me uniquely me is my DNA. I don't really know how else to answer that because I am positive that there are at least a few people very similar to me, whether it's their interests, hobbies, or their actions. I guess I could say the combination of all those things put together is what makes me "uniquely me", but I am sure there is at least one other person like me out there, and the only thing that makes us different is our DNA.

4. Art Project (Self-Portrait)