OC regrets / thoughts / dark moments below cut ~
Vizerxa is an Omen Of Death.
The Grim Reaper herself. A living shadow, and the bringer of disaster. She brought the downfall of her kingdom, caused her best friend's death, and if it wasn't for her, Lucidi (her older sister) wouldn't have erased herself from everyone's memories and vanished. Vizerxa hates herself because of it.
The Gods themselves abandoned her.
All her life, she'd looked up to the Ancients, worshipping them like every Pantheon. Her Kingdom follows Nocte, Ancient Deity of Darkness, and she gave all of her faith to the Pantheon. In return, they caused Fractal (mother)'s neglect and hatred of her, and openly & directly abandoned her because of something that didn't even happen yet, and wouldn't have happened if they didn't desert her.
She could have stopped it all.
Clara, her best friend, died a painful death because she was the only thing keeping Vizerxa from joining Light Song. Clara was her guardian angel, her guiding light, and she died for Vizerxa without even knowing it. Vizerxa could have stopped the Genesis Experiments, and saved the child she knew was suffering, but she had to keep her alliance to Light Song to gain power. She could have just avoided Light Song entirely, and she wouldn't be dead. Amist Memoriam wouldn't have fallen. Lucidi and Videns would be happy. She knows that her want for power ruined everything, and now that she has it... she can never unsee the blood on her hands.
Star Seer knows when everyone he loves will die.
Every day, at all times, he has to watch the sand slowly drip through the hourglasses, powerless to save or even comfort them. Forever helplessly watching everyone slip away, again and again. every new cycle of the Pantheons, every replacement, they're never the same to him. He sees his old friends in new faces, in the mannerisms of them all, and he hates it with every fiber of his being.
He knows the answers and solutions, but no one Listens.
He's accurately predicted major events, changes, and even Light Song's fall, but no one listens. What's the point of being the God of Prophecy if no one will follow his advice? They could save themselves if they just tried. In his eyes, the blood stains his hands. He warned them, and yet he still failed.
Amatus just wants Light Song back.
He doesn't care that Light Song was a tyrant, he wants her back. He follows Vizerxa out of obligation and hides it perfectly, but he misses her dearly. Vizerxa's vision of peace ruins everything for Amatus. He may be fiercely loyal, but Light Song always was and always will be his idol.
He lost everything in the Final Battle.
In all honesty, Amatus loved Light Song. He wanted to be by her side and take over Salha, plunging the world into chaos and emerging victorious. They would have succeeded, if Vizerxa didn't weaken her and kill her, ending the battle with the Celestial Pantheon. He lost all of his reasons to live when she took over the Fallen, bringing peace. Now, he stays only because there's nowhere else to go, and he's sure the Bringer of Death will end up causing something even worse... she's Vizerxa, after all...
Aella wants her freedom back.
She lost everything when Light Song beat her. Her crew's dead, she lost an eye, and worst of all... She's tied to the land again, far away from the ocean she NEEDS to explore to thrive. She feels lost and broken when she's on land, and hates being high up on the cliff the Bright Palace is on. She wants the sea back. the dangerous water that stretches on forever. her crew that she loved and lead happily. Her voice echoing for miles, drawing in unsuspecting ships...
She misses her 'family'.
Her crew may have only followed her because the only other option was death, but... she held them very highly. They were family to her. She was the Queen of the Seas, and they were her followers. Light Song took everything from her. She may have re-met a blood-related family member, but... it's not the same. She hates every gradual rotation of her Crew, having to replace members as they die from old age considering how long she's been on the sea, but somehow... losing all of them at once is worse.
Videns doesn't, and will never, care.
Videns doesn't understand empathy or sympathy. she doesn't understand good or evil. And honestly? She doesn't give a shit. Her cruelty is learned from the Fallen, and to her it's completely normal. she's never physically harmed anyone, anyway, and her mental torture is easily reversible. Why does everyone care so much about it?
All she cares about is her family being safe.
She wants Lucidi back. She wants her blood related parents back again. She wants to meet her father for real, and get along with her half-siblings. she knows Genesis is her sister from their shared father's side, and she knows her biological mother, but... the Ventuses refuse to acknowledge her as blood family, and her mother wants nothing to do with her. Vizerxa is all she has.
Genesis is in constant agony.
She was the youngest at death, having lost her life at 8 years old due to Light Song perfecting Deathclaw Acid. The Genesis Experiments were a major thing that made many doubt Light Song. The acid still runs through her veins hundreds of years later, eating her away and putting her constantly on the verge of death. She has to syphon power from her surroundings just to stay alive, and keep her regeneration fast enough to undo further damage. it's a living hell at all times.
She wants her family back together.
Her father vanished when she was young, Praelia (mother) died for her and Nox, Clara vanished for hundreds of years, Nox left the Fallen... Genesis lost everything in her life, and she just wants a chance at the happy family she never got. The Family she never gets in any timeline, considering she was supposed to die even sooner than she did.
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olive dearest! I listened to your skz recommendations (the ones you dropped in your last ask, I will tackle your playlist later) and can I just say I love them!!! I really love ice.cream's chill vibes, even though it had the affront of reminding me I can't whistle and i am Deeply Embarrassed By It :( they for sure make very catchy songs and I'm gonna be deep diving into their discography sooner or later <3 at the very least to understand all the CELESTIAL lore, asjbfjqsbfj
my mutual 🥺🥺🥺 liked the song recs???? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 the k-pop song recs????? love for the mutual! love for a thousand years!!!
lol, no, but also yes <3. i'm soooo glad you liked them, clara, and because you said such nice things,,,,, let me really quick make a playlist for you <3 because my skz playlist is quite literally 79 songs long, and while you are a kind and dedicated person, i cannot possibly expect you to really Do All That.
so here's a short little playlist for you. i'll name it something catchy and give it a nice cover picture soon <3 i kinda chose these songs at random but they are verifiable bops and also i tried to include most of their more like,,, ballad stuff. because while i know you could rock out to charmer, i went with a more ~ice.cream~ inspired theme.
also, i made this in literally 2 minutes, don't question why i chose the songs i did, i have no answer for such behavior.
and bestie, i can't whistle either but i am Not embarrassed about it and instead legitimately weep over songs that have whistling in them. there's just something so,,,,, powerful about the mournful whistle in a song (side eyes my love for tokyo by rm).
and you want to understand CELESTIAL lore, bestie???? what would you do if i told you that i made a skz powerpoint for my cousin that you could totally look at if you wanted to???
asdfghjhgfdsdfghj not to make PowerPoints my thing once again (you don't realize, clara, that when i was in junior high and early high school i made powerpoint layouts in the summer. for fun. instead of going to hang out with friends like a normal teenager. as a hobby. i cannot stress my nerd status enough. i also can never get the skills i once had back,,,,, what happened to the vision i once carried 😫) but if you ever need an introduction to a k-pop group,,,,,,,, i can make you a powerpoint <3
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