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When a humble bard Graced a ride along With Lae'zel of K'liir Along came this song
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#tav#tiefling#lae'zel#calliope#my art#i finished it and romanced lae'zel and can die a hapyp dyke#i LOVE HER!!! BEST GILR!!!#now the trouble is gonig to be. romancing anyone else. because i love her
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what if maddie didn't turn out to be evil? what if after cait was pushing her away and shutting her out throughout their relationship, being cold and distanced to her, after cheating on her and never officially breaking up with her, what if after all this maddie had protected cait in the last battle at the cost of her own life and cait would have been left to watch life slowly leave her and think about all the ways she had hurt this naive and maybe a bit stupid but truly in love with her girl who, despite all the unfair treatment to her, still always remained there, continued to try to support cait and hoped that one day she could become someone important to the one who lets her in her bed and does not end it
what if, after going through all this, cait realized that sometimes she throws people away and hurts them and that she should do her best to prevent this from happening with vi any further than she already did?
cause as for now it feels like cait gets to brush away all her wrongdoings when it comes to maddie cause she was evil anyway, so the fact that cait used her, while being cruel to her in the process and quite likely cheated on her - it's all forgiven just by the reasoning of "maddie don't deserve an apollogy now" so cait doesn't have to learn anything from it all, doesn't have to revaluate her behavior and change anything about her internally
and i think it's a really missed opportunity to do something meaningfull with characters instead of just shocking viewers for the sake of shocking them
i'm this 🤏 close to going with that from now on and adding maddie's treachery to the list of things i completely ignore in canon right beside silco knowing and being friends with gilrs' mother
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Galactik football S1 ep3 review - (2/3)
Mei is consulting her mom about what to wear for her upcoming interview.
Mei's mom : Pick the dress that makes you look BEST!
Mice : You would look beautiful in blue it suit. your eyes perfectly.
Mei : In case you haven't noticed this is a gilr's room
Mice : yeah, yeah, I noticed. trust me on that one.
Mei : Well that's exactly it. I don't Trust you.
> Comment: I love May's firm attitude! And Clamp needs to strengthen the security of girls' rooms more.
> Comment: The reporter interviews the new team. Sinedd and Mei are the only ones wearing new clothes. (It's cute that Sinedd took out new clothes. Did he want to make a good impression in the interview?)
> Comment: Rocket wants to join the Football team. Norata's PTSD looks pretty serious. He seems to be prone to overprotecting Rocket from getting something like that.
Adim : That's Funny Artego. It almost seems You're AFRAID to face Aarch.
Artego : What are you talking about! I'm afrsid of nothing and no one certainly not aarch. I'm better coach than he.
> Comment: Artego was very angry, and he hit the trophy exactly in the face of Aarch.
There is HEADCANON that Adim was also a Team Akillian player in the past. That's why they seem to be close. However, no matter how close they are, what if they break Adim's things? Adim should claim damages from him.
If you look at GF official novels, you can see how wrong Aarch was. He shouldn't have left his friends, family, and colleagues like that.
Rocket eventually sneaks out of the house at night and heads to Aarch's academy. He then sneaks into the trainer alone and proceeds with the Football Test.
Aarch finds out that his nephew secretly conducted a test. And he learns that Rocket has an amazing talent.
Rocket is a good passer, a man who can shoot precisely. > Comment: In the official GF novel, Rocket's midfielder test score was 160/160. He was the only Snowkids to get a perfect test score.
(What I looked like before I went to work)
Hard training!
> Comment: I don't know why Sinedd keeps bothering MICE. This is training!! You don't have to be this bad!
> Comment: I think Mice and Tia got a little close! Thran seems to be mad at Sinedd for hurting his friend, and Mei doesn't seem to understand Sinedd for making such a bad tackle.
Clamp : What POWER! 120 kilometers an hour
Aarch : I'd prefer it if the ball went slower but into the goal.
> Comment: D'jok takes it back if someone bothers his friend. D'jok didn't mean to score a goal. He just meant to get revenge on Sinedd.
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That Time When Obi Fakes His Death & Anakin is Rightly Upset
HONESTLY, WHAT IS EVERYONE'S DEAL HERE? ON BOTH LIGHT SIDE AND THE DARK SIDE...THIS IS JUST...HILARIOUSLY UNNECESSARY
S4 Episode 15: Deception
All warfare is based on deception.
Obi-Wan: I’m going after him
Gosh I wish I could yeet myself up ontop of buildings like they do
Obi-Wan takes a moment to pray to the Force then gets shot
Anakin: *cries out Obi-Wan as he gets shot and falls*
Ahsoka is holding him with tears in her eyes 😭
OMG NOOOOOOOO
AHSOKA TO PLO: I’m worried about Anakin. He hasn’t said a word since it happened
“I killed Obi-Wan Kenobi!” he cheered
Yoda still isn’t sure this is a good idea 🤨
Obi-Wan: so, how was my funeral? 😏
Vitals suppressor...interesting that the Jedi Council has THAT
Gosh Obi-Wan looks so weird without his hair 😳
Mace Windu: you can go to sleep now
Obi-Wan: so how does this work?
Windu: well, you swallow it
Obi-Wan: I was afraid you’d say that 🤣
Anakin and Ahsoka are on the hunt…
Ahsoka: is he dead?
Anakin: he’s about to be…get up you filth 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
Hey Fox!
“This food tastes terrible…maybe you’d taste better…” Damn, Kenobi
Eval has great influence here…of course…
CAD BANE!
Cad Bane: “You want my respect? You do it face to face” ✊
Kenobi: “Who says I want your respect?” 🤨
“This is Ben…” Aw, he uses Ben as an alias 🥺❤️
BOBA
“Kill the guards!” Nooooooo
Eval: what do we do?
Bane: part of my plan. Paid the kid off to create a diversion 😎
“Turn your weapons off stun. Kill the prisoners if you have to”
Clone at the Morgue: I’m tellin ya, it’s gonna be a long night 😒
THE CREMATION CENTER???? 😱
Who’s the clone with the sandwich lol 🤣🙌
Obi-Wan hesitates as they’re being shot he can’t do it! 🥺
FILONIIIIIIIII
Episode 16: Friends and Enemies
Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer.
Lol Obi-Wan taking a page out of Anakin’s book and crashing the ship…on purpose 🤣🤣🤣🤣
Bane: "We’ll have a bounty on our heads. And I don’t like to stand out”
Bane: now all I’ll need is a new hat 😒
Eval: “Is this business or personal?” 🤨
Bane flicks his toothpick: both 😎
Bane: here’s your reward, I’m not killing you 😎
Eval working with Dooku SHOCKING 😒
Bane: I want my money 🤬
Chancellor: you look troubled, Anakin… 🥺
It is possible they do not trust you to control your feelings 🤣 THIS SHOW I SWEAR
Anakin: Ardeen killed…my best friend! 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Chancelor tells him they’re going to Nal Hutta 🤨
Anakin: thank-you Chancellor, you won’t regret this
Palpatine smiles evilly: no I won’t 😎
Obi-Wan: “A 50/50 split sounds fair to me”
Bane: over my dead corpse 🤬 GOSH I LOVE BANE
Obi-Wan: don’t tempt me 😏
Anakin: if you want to find a low-life
Ahsoka: you start at the saloon
REX!: sir, he is unavailable
Rex: I can’t say sir
REX MY BELOVED, YOU CAN'T LIE YOUR WAY OUT OF A PAPER BAG 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Windu: you can���t, or you won’t 🤨
Chancellor saves Rex’s butt 🤣
Rex escorts the Chancelor home I WONDER WHAT THAT CONVERSATION MUST'VE BEEN LIKE:
REX: THANK-YOU, SIR, FOR SAVING MY ASS BACK THERE
PALPATINE: *SMILES EVILLY*
🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Yoda: overdue, the truth is NO SHIT, SHERLOCK
Bane: the way I see it, you keep paying everybody off but me 🤬
Ahsoka: look it’s Cad Bane
Anakin: are you sure? 🤨
Ahsoka: ugh, who else wears a hat like that? 🤣
Anakin: good point
Obi-Wan: I’ll take care of him
Bane: no, it’s my turn to kill a Jedi 🤬
Cad Bane is so badass 🙌
Obi-Wan crashes the ship again…lol 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Ahsoka is so agile go gilr! 🔥
Obi-Wan: Anakin, don’t follow me
Cad Bane: you’re lucky we’re in a hurry little lady…we’ll have to dance another time 😎
Ahsoka: master, are you all right?
Anakin: that’s why I felt a connection…Obi-Wan is still alive 😱
FILONIIIIIIII
Epidose 17: The Box
The strong survive, the noble overcome
Ah, Dooku…
Bane: enough talk, I want my money 🤬
Yoda tells Anakin…FINALLY
Bane: nice hat, where’d you get it shoots what are you looking at? It’s a nice hat 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Dooku introduces his Hunger Games…The Box 😱DUNDUNDUN
Only five will be allowed to survive…
“What if he’s wrong?”
Bane: you got a better idea?
Dooku: I sense something different about that one NO SHIT SHERLOCK
Damn, Obi-Wan’s a good shot 🔥
Cad Bane saved Obi-Wan
Eval: how dare you 🤬
Bane: if you’re gonna kill him, do it like a man 🙌
Ok but Dooku doesn’t know his Master is the Chancellor?! 🤣🤣
I KNOW THIS HAS BEEN DISCUSSED ON HERE, BUT STILL LMAO
Cad bane is the leader heack yeah 😎
Filoniiiiii
Episode 18: Crisis on Naboo
Trust is the greatest of gifts but it must be earned
Cad Bane: Well, hello there…😎
Dooku: there’s something about him I do not trust 🤣🤣
Padme: welcome home, Chancellor [how cliché lol I knew she’d say that]
Ahsoka: at your service, my lady
847 years since Naboo joined the Republic 😱
[rocket pack whooshes] I'M SORRY, I'M OBSESSED WITH THESE
Bane: so long, Jedi 😎
WHY DIDN’T THEY TELL ANAKIN? NO WONDER HE’S PISSED
ANAKIN: HOW MANY OTHER LIES HAVE I BEEN TOLD BY THE COUNCIL AND HOW DO YOU EVEN KNOW THE WHOLE TRUTH PREACH IT, HON! PREACH! 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
Obi-Wan: something Anakin said still had me worried…do we know the whole truth? 🤨
Obi-Wan: Dooku was listening, he knew all along
Chancellor: I was under the impression the Jedi always worked as a team 😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏
Dooku: welcome, Chancellor 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Chancellor: unhand me! 🤣 I AM YOUR MASTER
Chancellor looks on to their fight evilly
Ok but what was going to happen if Dooku succeeded…would the Chancellor have revealed himself??????????
Dooku: well done Master Kenobi, you are a worthy adversary…I cannot say the same about your apprentice 🤣
Anakin: as long as I live, no harm will ever come to you, your excellency 🤣
Chancellor: hmm…well, here’s to a long and prosperous life, Anakin. One shudders to think where the galaxy would be withOUT the Jedi
AGAIN, THIS WHOLE THIS IS A DISASTER LIKE WHAT EVEN WOULD'VE HAPPENED?????
FILONIIIIIIII
#ao3#fanfic#fanfiction#star wars#clone wars#palpatine#sidious#dooku#obi wan kenobi#anakin skywalker#ahsoka tano#rex#captain rex#lies#deceit#not the Jedi way#palpatine smiles evilly#everyone needs to communicate a little better
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Maybe pregnant hcs for Todoroki, Iida, Shinsou and Amajiki???💓💓💓💓💓
-Ohoho!!!! This right here just melts my hurt. Even thinking about it makes me weak.Plus a little heads up, everyone is having daughters cause I’m weak to the knees with the thought of these four and their babygirls so be prepared. Hope I don’t disappoint.💖💖💖
*All characters are aged up so around the ages of 20-25 and up*
Todoroki Shouto
-You and Shouto have been together since your second year in UA.
-You got married when you both got well acquainted with the hero life and now live a happy , yet busy, life in an apartment near his mom’s house.
-We know that this boy would want his family to be close to him and the fact that you get along with everyone fills his heart with so much love.
-You two never really talked about children.
-Maybe a few suggestions of having a child in the future but nothing serious.
-Que the morning sickness.
-Shouto was really worried about you, I mean look at you.
-You’re emptying your guts in the toilet every single morning.
-You can’t eat most foods that you used to like and have a weird craving for tuna yogurt?!
-He doesn’t want to leave the house, he even convinced you to take some days off and try to relax.
-Give your body rest.
-He promised to get some days off himself to take care of you.
-You had your suspicions, tbh.
-You just didn’t tell him.
-Whether that was to not get his hopes up or to post pone the heartbreak you didn’t really know.
-So what if you were mildly panicking over the fact that the 5 pregnancy tests you just took were all positive.
-It was the first day of your mini ‘vacation’ and thankfully Shouto had been called in today.
-Because you’re panicking and legit losing your shit over this, you call....Rei.
-Okay maybe it wasn’t the best course of action considering you were on the verge of cardiac arrest, but what can you do.
-You asked her if she was home and if you could stop by.
-Of course she said yes, delighted to see you and mentioned that Fuyumi was also going to stop by in around an hour.
-You made your way to her house, arriving just as Fuyumi was pulling into the drive way.
-After greeting each other and going inside, you took your seats in the living room and waited for Rei to make some tea.
-Fuyumi was going on and on about what the kids at the kindergarten were doing and how cute some of them were being.
-Neither of the Todoroki women had missed your puffy eyes or how your smile would constantly waver, but they decided to let you tell them on your own accord.
-Once Rei joined you in the living room, they both turned to you.
- “So how have you been Y/n, dear?” Rei said watching you really closely.
-You looked down, feeling hot tears starting to form in your eyes and your throat tightening painfully.
-Fuyumi moved closer to you while Rei draped an arm around your shoulders which were shacking at the moment.
- “I-I’m p-pregnant.” it was barely a whisper, but they heard it alright.
-Mom mode activated 2x.
-They reassured you that everything was going to be fine and how lucky you are.
-They repeatedly said how excited Shouto will be and what of a push over of a dad he would become.
-After 4 long hours of baby talk, you returned home, collapsing on the sofa before passing out for a good 3 hour nap.
-When you woke up, Shouto was home and sitting next to you weaving his fingers absentmindedly through your hair.
- “Hey there sleepyhead.”
-How could his voice be so soft!?!?
-You buried your face into the blanket, which really confused him, I mean...what did he do?
- “We have a problem...” pause....awkward silence.... “I’m pregnant.”
-*Windows noises*
-After the mild stroke, he lifted you up so you were looking at him and just stared at you.
-Those seconds that he just looked at you felt like eternity.
-The torture ended however, when he lowered his head to your stomach and lifting your shirt, placed a small kiss right under your belly button.
- “Hey there, snowflake. Nice to meet you.”
-And with that, 9 exhausting months started full of mood swings, weird cravings, back rubs and a never ending list of baby names.
-You two learned you were having twins on your fifth appointment, but you decided to keep the gender a surprise.
-On a cold January night your two girls were brought into the world and it was one of the few times you had seen Endeavour and Natsuo in the same room bawling their eyes out.
-Your white haired baby was named Rei *after her grandmother* while your mixed red and h/c babygirl Ren.
-When Shouto held them for the first time, you thought he was going to have a mental breakdown.
-He’s a total push over and your girls are daddy’s girls to the core.
-He’s the best dad they could ask for.
Iida Tenya
-You and Tenya have been married for 6 years now and have been trying endlessly for a baby.
-You both agreed that you were ready for the responsibility and that having a little Tenya running around the house sounded like a great idea.
-Saying that you were exhausted form the attempts was an understatement.
-Tenya had incredible stamina and even more libido, so you can safely assume that during the week long process of baby making you couldn’t walk straight.
-However, your little shenanigans stopped when your doctor delivered you the news.
-You had been hit by a blood related quirk while dealing with a villain and had to get a check up afterwards.
-You were given a scolding the moment you saw your doctor because why aren’t you in desk duty you RASCAL!?
-You were confused beyond belief and it was written all over your face.
- “You don’t know do you?”
-Le sigh.
- “Mrs. Iida I’m happy to announce you that you’re expecting, so that means you are to be put in desk duty for the next 4 months or else I’m making sure you don’t leave the house for a good 9 months.”
-You. Were. Ecstatic.
-You ran to Tenya’s agency, bringing down the damned door to his office giving the man a heart attack.
- “Y/n what’s-”
- “I’M PREGNANT!”
-Que ecstatic air chopping.
-Tenya went into full dad mode during those 9 months.
-Buttt he’s also kinda nervous.
-Nervous like Tamaki in a crowd level nervous.
-You get the image.
-You have anything you want whenever you want it.
-The nursery is done the moment you find out you are having a gilr.
-Unlike Todoroki he isn’t patient enough to keep the gender a secret.
-When the day arrives, you’re just chilling outside with him when you nonchalantly blurt out ‘my waters broke’.
-....oh...oH.....OHSHIIIIIIIT.
- “WHY ARE YOU SO CALM?! GET UP! ARE YOU IN PAIN? CAN YOU WALK!?”
-This goes on until you are screaming and crushing his hand in the delivery room.
-Your little girl is born and she’s a carbon copy of Tenya.
-Same colored hair and eyes.
-The face structure looks like you.
-She has your nose and mouth, along with your eyebrows but apart from that she’s a mini genderbend Tenya.
-Because she was born early in the morning you decided to change her name and so little Asami Tenya was officially a part of this world.
-Tenya cried.
-You cried.
-Asami cried.
-You were one happy crying family.
Shinsou Hitoshi
-You and Hitoshi have been together for two years now, but you haven’t put a ring on it.
-Sure you live together and act like a married couple already but you’re not Mrs.Shinsou.....yet.
-You have been feeling strange for days now and your period was late which never happens.
-You are panicking but unlike Shouto you two aren’t married.
-He can leave with almost no complications.
-You were his girlfriend not his wife.
-The pregnancy tests you had taken were mocking you from the bathroom sink and your poor hormone ridden mind couldn’t handle the stress.
-You cried a river until you heard keys jiggling and HItoshi’s iconic ‘Kitten, I’m home!’
-You couldn’t face him like this.
-In a haste you shoved the tests into the laundry basket along with their packages and covered them with some sheets.
-Fixing your hair and washing your face, you straightened and walked out the door.
-After greeting Hitoshi with a kiss you calmly told him to go get ready while you made him something to eat.
-Your mind was running laps thinking how you could tell him or how you could solve your little problem as quietly as possible.
-That is until he walked in holding what seemed to be a box.
-A pregnancy test box.
-HOW CAN YOU BE BLIND?
- “Y/n, what’s this?”pause “Are you..?”
-Anddd more crying.
-You sobbed about how sorry you were and how you couldn’t explain how it happened.
-Both of you were so careful, how did this happen???
-After a good 15 minutes of you bawling your eyes out on the kitchen floor while Hitoshi was trying to calm you down, you finally stopped at the sound of his chuckle.
- “Well, damn kitten, your surprise definitely beat mine.”
-Then he pulled a small velvet box from his pocket and watched you closely.
-Now you are Mrs.Shinsou.
-These 9 months weren’t as bad as you would expect.
-Hitoshi was really good at giving you everything you wanted and during the whole pregnancy you didn’t lift a finger.
-One October night your waters broke and you found yourself in a long procedure of bringing your child into the world.
-Hitoshi was a wreck and had called Aizawa for emotional support who called Hizashi who called Midnight.
-Once you were finished, Hitoshi rushed into your room and found you utterly exhausted.
-He was the first to hold your baby and you have never seen him cry this much in your life.
- “Hello my little Kei.”
-Kei Shinsou was a happy little girl with an amazing father by her side.
Amajiki Tamaki
-Ah love.
-Something Tamaki found during high school and held onto it ever since.
-Now a well known pro hero, Suneater was more than happy with his life with you.
-He always wanted a little something more but never expressed it.
-He loved the idea of having a mini you running around the living room or waking him up in the morning with little squeals and kisses.
-He loved you to the moon and back, more than life itself but having a kid with you sparked a whole new sensation in him.
-So he tried to be sly about it.
-Forgetting the condoms or to pull out.
-You not being able to find your pills.
-A whole lot of fun.
-You were newly weds and your libidos were high af and with the prospect of children on the table Tamaki became 10x more driven and horny.
-So you weren’t all that surprised when your doctor gave you the news.
-You had gone for a plain old check up when he came into the room with a bright smile on his face and congratulations falling like a waterfall from his mouth.
-Once back home you put your plan in motion.
-You had a feeling Tamaki was trying to knock you up for some time now.
-He couldn’t forget to pull out every time like come on.
-But you were fine with it since you too wanted a kid with him.
-You just would’ve liked a little heads up first.
-You made your little bun and put it in the oven.
-And waited.
-And waited.
-And waited.
-Until finally Tamaki walked through the door, a smile gracing his features as he made his way to you.
- “Hey bunny.”
-Giving him a quick peck you told him to check the oven real quick to make sure the food was all good.
-He obliged, walking to the kitchen and seeing the sole bun sitting in the oven.
-He was beyond confused on why you would only make one bun in the oven and not more, I mean you are two peop- ohhhh.
-OH.
-He did it.
-He let the news settle in before going back to you.
- “Are you sure?” nod “100% sure?” another nod.
-At that he fell to his knees in front of you, attacking your stomach with kisses and I love yous.
-To whom they were directed you couldn’t actually tell but you were happy either way.
-Calls the baby butterfly.
-Makes the whole nursery along with Mirio who is ecstatic.
-Butterfly themed baby room.
-Expect many back and belly rubs along with Tamaki coming home early because Fatgum cannot allow him to stay at work when he’s preparing for a baby.
-When your waters break you are buying some onesies with small octopuses on them.
-You have never been taken to the hospital so fast in your whole hero career.
-After many painful and stressful hours, your baby girl is born and she’s stunning.
-She has Tama’s ears and hair but your eyes and nose.
-She’s a perfect mix.
-The Big 3 cry as a team.
-When she’s given to him, Tamaki just cry laughs at how gorgeous she’s.
-Many thank yous are exchanged.
- Cho Amajiki.
-Tamaki cannot stop repeating the name even after they have taken her away.
-He curls on the chair next to you, holding your hand the whole night, falling into a deep sleep, imaging his new life with his little butterfly.
#tamaki x reader#amajiki tamaki imagine#domestic todoroki#domestic iida#domestic shinsou#domestic tamaki#bnha iida#iida tenya#my hero academia iida#iida tenya x reader#iida x reader#todoroki shoto x reader#mha todoroki#todoroki x reader#todoroki shouto#shinsou x y/n#shinsou x you#my hero academia shinsou#shinsou fluff#shinsou x reader
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BESTIE THE LATEST CHAPTER AAAAAAAAAAAAA REINER CHEERING HER UP AND PUSHING HER TO NOT GIVE UP SDHKGFDFJKHSKDDFHJK KINDA SAD FOR REINER ABT HIM KNOWING SHE HAS JEAN BUT SDKHGFDFGKJDSF PLUS KINDA TEARED UP WHEN CHERRY WAS ABT TO WRITE A LETTER TO LEVI AND NOT JEAN COS SHE DIDNT KEEP HER PROMISE BUT SHE DIDDDDD COS SHE'S STILL FIGHTING CHERRY OUR STRONG GILR I LOVER HER SM I CASN'T WAIT WHAT HAPPENS NEXT YOU'RE ALWAYS SO AMAZING I LOVE HOW YOU BUILD EVERYTHING UP TO THIS POINT MWA MWA MWA
AHHHHHH!!!!! 😆😆😆
Reiner just loves her that’s why, even if they’re meant to be enemies!! But she did write that letter to Levi, it wasn’t a lot since she changed her mind and didn’t want to give up, but she wrote, “Dear Levi, thank you for taking me in all those years ago. Thank you for taking care of me and being the best you could to me. I love you. Love, Cherry”, she just wrote it just to be sure and throw Reiner off lmao.
Thank you for the lovely comment I love it!!! Thank you so much, I hope you like what’s to come 😁❤️❤️❤️
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Doughnut of lies (Katakuri x reader)
Summary: So I couldn't help myself, Katakuri caught my attention. Bad thing is I'm not even there yet in the show but oh well. He is probably going to be OOC but I will do my best. He is younger, this story takes place a whole 20 years before the show. If there are any suggestions or anything let me know please! Hope you enjoy and this doesn't horribly suck.
The day had been going well, no problems with his mother or siblings, no trespassers, nothing. Making his way to his designated break room he grabbed hold of the door knob and sighed, pushing it open and securing it close behind him. Pulling off his scarf he turned to walk over to the couch when he stopped dead in his tracks at the empty basket and tea cups. His blood boiled and he grit his teeth, the veins in his forehead sticking out. Letting out a loud roar he went to throw open the door when something caught his eye. Walking over to the basket that had a few sprinkles and crumbs in it he saw a folded piece of paper with is name written on it. Crouching down he lifted it up and quickly flipped it open.
'Better hurry up and find me before I eat them all Kit-Kat!'
His murderous intent faded as he read over the last word, the childhood nickname that only one person had the honor of calling him making a smile come to his face. She was back, and up to her old tricks! Yanking up his scarf he dropped the note and ran from the mochi house in search of the female.
Laying back against the tree with one leg crossed over the other you let out a long sigh and took another bite of the strawberry glazed doughnut. Tapping your foot you hummed to yourself and looked out over the water. Swallowing the food in your mouth you went to take another bite when you were knocked to the ground, a strong arm wrapping around you and holding you from moving. While anyone else would be frozen with fear by the two sharp crimson eyes staring down at them you turned your face and gave a large smile at the alpha male. "Took you long enough."
"Welcome home." he said with a small grin.
Now back securely in his mochi house he relaxed, eating his doughnuts and drinking his tea with the company of his best friend. It had been almost two years since he had last seen her, since they had spent time together. Sure he had spoken to her over the den den a few times but that was only for a second. Only a quick 'I'm alive, I'm safe.' Nothing more, couldn't risk the government tapping their call. She hadn't changed much, her blond hair was longer, now coming down to her mid back. She wore a pair of tight fitting dark brown almost black suede pants that laced all the way up the side of her leg from ankle to thigh, giving the smallest glimpse of her skin. A thin long sleeved white tunic adorned her upper half with a loosened vest corset over top that matched her pants. No shoes adorned her feet, per usual, she had never cared for them. He did notice however that her toenails were painted a black color. Looking back up at her he grinned softly, she looked good, a little skinnier than when she had left but good.
Choosing to sit cross legged on the floor beside where Katakuri now laid you went on telling him about your adventure. "... then this huge sea king came out of no where, you should have seen it, had the face of a bear and the body of a shark... it was so cool." you told him with a smile.
Smiling he washed down his food with a drink of tea. "So did you find anything?" he asked and saw her smile fall a little.
"No, it was a dead end." you sighed, picking up your small piece of doughnut and popping it in your mouth. "I don't know Kata, just seems like every time I think I'm close it, every time I think I'm on some kind of trail it disappears.... starting to wonder if it's worth it..." you mumbled, looking down into your own tea.
Furrowing his brows the tiniest amount at the sadness in her voice he sat up and placed his finger under her chin, lifting her sapphire eyes to his red ones. "Don't give up, it's not you."
Swallowing hard at the intensity of his eyes, the warmth from his finger seeping into your skin you felt your heart hammer in your chest and quickly gave him a nod and smile. Needing some kind of distraction you raised your brows, "Oh yea, I got you something..." you told him.
Dropping his hand from her chin he grinned softly and watched as she leaned back to pull something from her pants pocket. Once she got whatever it was out he saw it looked to be a folded envelope. Taking it when she held it out for him he tilted his head and flipped open the flap before grabbing whatever was inside...black braided leather? Holding it up he saw it was a necklace, the cord as he thought, tightly braided black leather with a blackish stone hanging from it. Looking it over he saw dark purples and greens and even pinks shine off the raw crystal.
"It's a tourmaline crystal... they are said to offer protection to the wearer." you said, biting your lip when you started to become embarrassed the longer he stayed silent. Stupid, you knew you shouldn't have gotten it, you knew he wouldn't like it. Looking down you gave a small smile and rubbed the back of your head, trying to play off the whole thing, "If you don't like it just toss it in a drawer or something when you get home."
She had gotten him a gift, a necklace. Smiling he loosened the slip knot and moved to put it on. "I like it." he told her but saw her raise a brow in doubt. "I really do y/n, thank you." he said in a sincere voice and saw her give him that soft smile he loved. Going to put down the envelope he saw her reach for it and pull out a piece of paper. "What's that?" he asked.
"A recipe, thought you might let me borrow your kitchen one day." you answered.
"For?"
Smiling you looked up at him, "Maple. Bacon. Doughnuts." you told him and saw his eyes go wide, a childlike smile coming over his handsome face.
Standing quickly he grabbed her hand. "Let's go..."
Laughing you let him tug you along, "I'm not making them now... you just had doughnuts..."
"But not those."
"Fine..." you sighed with a giggle. "But you will have to take blame for me missing lunch with Bru."
"Deal." he told her firmly. "Ride?" he asked and saw her nod. Holding out his hand he saw her jump into the air, her body shrinking down to her smallest size of only six inches mid air and landing in the palm of his hand. He couldn't help but grin at her tiny 'fairy' form as he called it. Lifting his hand up he felt her perch on his shoulder, her hand holding onto his scarf as he pulled it up over his face. Making sure she was situated and safely on him he opened the door and headed to grab the things she needed to make his special doughnuts.
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It came as no surprise to either of you when Big mom wanted to have a tea party to celebrate your return, the woman loving any excuse to throw one of her favorite events. Walking into the grand room with Katakuri beside you you casually talked about this and that when you tensed at your name being called by the emperor herself.
"MAMAMAMA! There she is! Welcome back Y/n!"
Grinning you made your way over to her with Kata right by your side. "Hello mama, it is good to be back." you told her kindly, giving a polite bow of our head.
"HAAAHAHAHA! That I am sure of!" she said before trailing off and going back to stuffing her face.
As soon as you went to turn around to speak to Katakuri you let out a 'ooff' as you were tackled to the ground. Looking up you saw the little faces of the twins smiling down at you.
"Y/n!!" they yelled in unison.
"Hey there gilrs... look at you both, you are getting so big. Say either of you want to go dunk you big brother later?" you smiled and heard the nine years old laugh.
"Alright you two, get off of her." He said and saw them quickly do as he said. Holding out his hand he helped her up off the floor.
Dusting off your clothes you smiled up at him, "And you wondered why I chose to go big?" you smiled.
Chuckling he nodded, while he preferred her natural size of around five feet he had to admit her devil fruit power came in handy around his family. She was no where near as tall as his own sixteen and a half feet, at her biggest, her ten foot stature did keep her from getting squished. Looking down at her softly he closed his eyes and let out a sigh when he sensed who was coming their way.
"Well if it isn't the wild y/n." Oven chuckled deeply, throwing his massive arm over the female's shoulders.
"Thought you had forgotten about all of us." Daifuku added in, adding his arm on top of his brother's.
Raising your brows you looked from one male to the other, "Forget you two assholes? Never." you grinned.
Chuckling at the small woman's words he looked to his older triplet and saw his eyes holding a small glare. Understanding perfectly he removed his arm, giving Daifuku's arm a small tap in warning.
Raising his chin when his brothers stopped touching y/n he glanced down at her and placed his hand on her back. "Come on, let's go sit down."
Nodding you gave both men a kind grin, "See you both later."
You had sat with Katakuri and Brulee for the tea party, your two favorite out of all the Charlotee children. It wasn't long however until one of the youngest children started easing her way closer and closer to you. Grinning you peaked around Katakuri, who's chair she was hiding behind. "Well hello there." you said softly causing both Katakuri and Brulee to look towards the little girl.
"Joconde what are you doing?" he asked, looking down at his three year old sister. When she pointed towards y/n and tilted her head he understood. "That's y/n, she is a family friend."
"Joconde huh? When I left you were only just starting to walk." you smiled softly. When the girl still looked hesitant of you you looked over her dress, "I like your dress, it's pretty." Seeing the girl smile this time you grinned.
Watching y/n play with his little sister he couldn't help the warm feeling that grew in his chest. She had always been good with children, so good in fact one would think she was an omega. In no time at all Joconde had climbed up into y/n's lap and started playing with the female's hair while they went back to talking.
As the night drew on you felt the toddler fall asleep on you and grinned when Katakuri tilted his head. Standing you held her to you and looked down to Brulee. "Lunch tomorrow?" you asked.
"Promise not to ditch me again." she grinned.
"I told you it was his fault not mine, he took me hostage and made me cook doughnuts." you giggled.
"I did sister, I apologize." he said.
"It's alright, yes tomorrow is fine. Girls only though." she said.
Nodding you told her goodnight and followed Katakuri out of the room and to what you guessed to be Wafer's room. Laying the little girl in bed you pulled the covers over her and then left her to sleep.
Walking her to her usual room he kept his pace slow, enjoying her company. For the two years she had been gone he hadn't had anyone to really talk to. He loved his siblings and Brulee was always there for him but y/n was different, she always had been. Getting to her room he sighed. "I am happy you are home y/n, I missed you."
Happy for the dimly lit halls to hide your blush you smiled up at him. "I missed you too Kit-Kat."
Bringing his hand up to the necklace under his scarf he grinned, "Thank you for this... and the doughnuts. They are definitely my new favorite flavor."
Humming you nodded. "I'm glad you liked them, both of them."
Looking to her lips he cleared his throat. "Well I will see you tomorrow. Goodnight."
Nodding you tried to hide you disappointment with a grin, "Yea, Goodnight." you told him and watched him walk back down the hallway. Opening the door to your old room you looked inside to see not much had changed, not that you ever had much anyway. Still that massive bed was calling your name. Letting you body shrink back down to normal you went to take a much needed shower before calling it a night.
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Sitting in Brulee's home you ate your second bowl of stew as the two of you caught up. Telling her about everything that had happened in your travels you saw her smile when you mentioned the necklace you had gotten her older brother.
"He missed you terribly you know, I swear when you aren't here he becomes even more serious and grumpier than usual." she said making the woman in front of her chuckle.
"I missed him too Bru... and you of course." you quickly added.
Humming she looked across the table and bit the inside of her lip. "Y/n I really think you should just tell him the truth..." she started but saw her shake her head.
"You know I can't do that Bru." you said quietly.
"But why, I know he feels the same way..."
"And what if he doesn't, what if he just thinks we are really good friends? If I tell him the truth it will change everything... I ... even if I told him what I was it wouldn't mean anything and you know it... I have nothing to offer him, I can't give him what he deserves." you sighed, feeling your heart sink.
Looking down Brulee furrowed her brows and look back across at the omega, "You don't know that for sure, just because that self proclaimed medic told you that when we were children doesn't mean it is true, you could have healed perfectly and..."
"And if I didn't, if it was true then I would be taking away one of his dreams, I can't do that Bru... I won't." you told her firmly.
"Alright I won't push the subject anymore." she sighed. Thinking of something she snapped her eyes back up "WAIT! How come Katakuri got a gift and I didn't?!"
Smiling you reached into your pocket and pulled out the bracelet you had gotten your friend. "Did you honestly think I would forget you?" you giggled.
Clapping her hands she looked over the beautiful bracelet and smiled, "Oh it's so pretty. Thank you!"
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Being home was nice, being able to see Katakuri everyday was even nicer. Walking down the street with him you both walked in a comfortable silence. All day you had been helping him with his job, just enjoying each other's company.
Glancing down at her he blinked slowly and then swallowed hard. "What are you doing about dinner tonight?" he asked, trying to sound casual.
Looking up at him you shrugged. "I don't know, was thinking about just hitting up one of the cafe's." you told him.
Reaching up to rub the back of his head he took a needed breath, "We could cook something... back at my house."
Smiling you nodded, "Okay, sounds good. What do you want to make?" you asked him.
"Anything you want." he said in a deep voice.
Quickly grabbing what you needed you headed back to Kata's mansion. Setting everything out on the counter you grabbed a pan, pot and all the other things you needed to make fresh pizza. Seeing the man of the house come walking in with his scarf and vest now gone you figured he had dismissed all of the staff that normally helped keep up his home and cater to his every need.
"What do you need me to do?" he asked, coming up beside her.
Not many people... well probably just you and Brulee knew that the great Katakuri, the man that was feared by all, enjoyed cooking. Smiling you bit your lip, "Would you like to make the dough or the sauce?" you asked.
"Well considering I am the minister of flour I will make the dough." he said with a grin and heard her giggle. Damn how he had missed that sound.
"Fine but no using your devil fruit powers, you make it the ol' fashion way." you smiled.
Nodding he grinned, "Very well but if I can't use mine you can't use yours."
"That's not fair. How will I reach the counter?" you asked him.
Grabbing her hips he lifted her up and sat her on the high counter made to reach him. Giving her a look he watched her shrink back down to her normal size and grinned. While he enjoyed having her closer to his size, her smaller, more petite look made something inside of him stir, this strange feeling like his inner alpha coming out.
"Gonna take forever.." you grumbled but he only chuckled and placed his huge hand on your head to give a few pats. "I used to be taller than you..."
"Yes, when we were five." he huffed lightly, rolling his eyes as he started making the pizza dough.
"Then you hit a growth spurt and never got the memo to stop." you joked and heard him laugh. "Ate all my vegetables for nothin'."
Shaking his head he smiled, he missed this.
A while later the two of you sat on floor of his living room in the pile of pillows and as you ate your pizzas. Seeing him look towards your little one with slices of avocado on it and make a face you grinned and got an idea. "Try one."
"No."
Picking one off your pizza you moved towards him. "Do it." you pushed.
"No they smell gross."
Crawling on top of him you held the avocado to his mouth. "Come on, just one bite." you giggled.
Leaning his head back he kept one hand around her waist to keep her from falling while the other grabbed her wrist.
Wrapping your leg around his arm you held the green veggie to his mouth. "Open up you big baby." you teased.
Growling he easily held her still but when she gave him a pout and he looked into those beautiful blue eyes he knew he could never deny her and opened his mouth enough for her to pop the disgusting green thing inside.
Smiling you quickly moved your hands to cover his mouth as best you could even though you knew he could open it wide enough to eat you if he so wanted. You could feel his sharp teeth but they had never disgusted you, you actually found them cool. Seeing him make a face you laughed and held your hands firm to keep him from spitting it out. "Swallow it."
Grumbling around her hands he did as she said and forced it down his throat. As soon as he did she pulled his hands away and he held out his tongue at the horrible taste. Glaring at her he saw her smiling but still on top of him so he couldn't really be mad. "That was horrible."
"You know you can put them in doughnuts..." you said.
"You put those things in a doughnut and I will lock you in the dungeon for a night." he told her and heard her laugh. Looking up at her he felt that warming in his chest again. His eyes couldn't help but flicker to her lips for a moment.
Now realizing you were still sitting on his chest you blushed scarlet and moved off of him. Taking a sip of your drink you saw him follow and looked towards the clock. "Damn it's already eleven? I need to head back to..."
"Stay here." he said before he could stop himself. When she looked to him with furrowed brows he sat up more and raised his chin. "It's already so late and you have had a few glasses of sake so just stay here." she was blushing he could see it and it wasn't the alcohol but he couldn't say much since he could feel the heat on his own cheeks as well.
"Kata I.... I don't want to impose or..."
"You aren't imposing." he quickly interrupted. "It's just for tonight." he added.
Taking a deep breath you nodded. After cleaning up for dinner you followed Kata to the guest bedroom that was a little down the hall from his own room. Wishing him a goodnight you closed the door softly and made your way to the attached bathroom. Removing your clothes you placed them on the vanity for tomorrow and turned on the shower. Removing the necklace around your neck you glanced back to the closed door and bit your lip as you sat it on the counter by your clothes. Feeling the weight lift from you as it slipped form your fingers you took a deep breath. Glancing again back towards the door you grabbed your clothes and stuffed them under the small crack at the bottom, better safe than sorry. With that being done you stepped into the shower to wash up before bed.
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"Aren't the two of you just adorable.... playing house." Perospero said in a mocking voice as he walked closely by his younger brother.
Growling he glared towards his older brother.
"Would you like me to steal some of our little sisters dolls for you both?" he teased.
"That's enough Peros." he growled through gritted teeth.
"Oh I am only joking little brother. I think it's cute. I do think you should really just ask her to be yours..."
"You know I can't do that." he sighed.
"And why not? Beta or no the two of you are meant to be..."
"You know mother will not allow it." Katakuri said in a low voice.
"You could always ask, we are already going therefor a meeting anyway. Plus y/n's been with us so long she might as well be family and Mama likes her, that a rare find." Perospero said with a shrug and smile.
Taking a deep breath he thought on what his brother said, he had a point, it wouldn't hurt to ask, although he wouldn't know what to do if she said no. "Do you have a clue as to what she called us for anyway?" he asked.
"Not the slightest... probably about those pirates that tried coming into out territory last week." he said simply.
Humming he opened the doors and heard his mother taking with someone. Looking into the throne room he saw others there, a man and two women.
"Ah there he is. Katakuri this is Nebula, she is going to be your wife."
He felt his breath instantly catch in his throat.
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Welcome to the Glade
Part two
Throughout the night, the girl lays in her Hammock, her mind wide awake with questions and possible theory’s as to why she ended up in this strange place.
The sounds around her also kept her awake.
The wind blowing the trees, forcing the leaves to dance in all directions on the branches they hung from.
She heard too, the heave sounds of metal and Concrete clonking together, the sound coming from the big moss converted walls that kept them in, or, kept something out.
With all this happening in her mind, she did try and think of her name, or of anything for that matter.
She couldn’t remember her birthday, if she had one.
She didn’t remember her family, any brothers or sisters... if she had any.
What she did know, however, that the only feeling she feels right now, is fear. She didn’t know what else to feel.
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When the sky woke up, and the sun shined over the glade, the girl decided to get up. Her movements were slow and sluggish as she wondered through the small forest area where she was supposed to be slept.
As she walks, she looks around; trying to find the exit of this place and find the blond boy named Newt.
Instead, a voice from behind her makes her halt and turn around, coming face to face with another blond she’s only ever seen once since she’s gotten here.
“Need help?” They ask.
Nodding, the girl shyly follows him, seeing as he walks past the trees like he’s done it a thousand times before, well, he probably has depended on how long he’s been her himself.
“So, you remember your name yet?” Gally asks
The girl thinks, her mind drawing a blank, except, one letter keeps repeating at the back of her mind like an echo.
‘C’ it says.
The girl blinks, “I think it starts with a C...”. She admits
“Oh, well, I’m sure you’ll get the rest soon.” He said encouragingly.
The two then come to an opening, the shacks and tower visable as she looked in front of her.
The sun seemed brighter as they walk further into the filed.
“I’ll bring you to Newt, he’ll give you the tour.” Gally said. He looked at the gilr, her brunett hair was out of place, her tired eyes showed she probably didn’t sleep last night. Her soft looking skin made him wish he could touch it, just once.
The girls night was perfect too. She reached just below his chin, he imagined a hug from her, her arms wrapped around his waist as his chin rested at the top of her head while she buried her face in his chest.
The girl was beautiful too. Her face symmetrical and perfect.
He wanted the girl to be his.
But how could anyone love someone like him?
while he though of things he probably shouldn’t, they eventually made it to Newt. The gardener stood, leaning up against a wooden piller that had vines climbing it to the top.
“Ah, good morning; Greenie. Remember anything?” He says
His accent he had, the gilr found it soothing, helping her be a bit more calm than she probably should be in this situation. She’s sure anyone else would be making a run for it once they came out of a scary moving box up to a even scarier place where you didn’t remember anything.
“She thinks her name starts with a C.” Gally answers for her.
Newt gives Gally a pressed look, one telling him to pipe it and let the girl talk for herself.
But honestly, the girl didn’t mind.
“Can anyone tell me why Were all here, and why I seem to be the only girl?” She asks, getting straight to the point.
Gally smiles, the girl seemed to be straight forward, right to the point.
“It’s a long story.” A boy said coming up to the three.
She turned, the darker boy who seemed to be the leader as she guessed the first time she saw him walked with a purpose.
“Will you tell it?” She asks crossing her arms.
She was tired of beating around the bush act. She wanted answers and she wanted them now.
“It is time for your tour. My names Alby, by the way. Piece by piece you’ll start to remember things.” He says, he held out his hand, the girl hesitated but then eventually reached out and shook it.
“But why are we here, what is this place?” She asks
Alby lets out a deep laugh, the others around them do as well. Gally nudged her arm playfully, the girl turned to him and gave him a eye roll back.
She looked back to Alby, waiting for an answer.
“This place it called the Glade. It’s where we eat, it’s where we sleep—we call ourselves the Gladers.” Alby explains
“But who sent us here, why?”
The girl feels like she’s repeating her questions.
“Just, stop asking questions. I’ll show you around, okay?” Newt said, trying to calm the girl.
Though it sort of worked, the girl took a breath, “alright. Fine. But eventually your going to have to tell me who the hell sent us here, and why I can’t remember my name.” The girl orders
Gally laughs, the small girl telling the “leaders” what to do, she was definitely going to be a handful.
“Good that. Come on, we’ll start with Frypan.” Newt says and points his hands in the direction of the small hut where smoke comes out of.
Nodding, the girl turns her head, “see ya latter, Gally.” She says
Stunned, Gally blinks, “Uh, see you later, C.” He said
Newt squinted at Gally, he could see the tintied reddish cheeks from where he stood.
Had the misunderstood boy developed a liking for the greenie girl?
Newt then shifted his eyes, the girl two had tinted cheeks,
Was a relationship blooming, or was it something else?
Leading the greenie, Newt watched as the girl looked back one more time as they made their way to start the tour.
“So, who’s Frypan?” The girl asks once she turned her head back to the British blond.
“Uh, he’s probably the best cook around, maybe he made bacon today; hopefully you’ll get to try some.” Newt says
“Great. I’m starving.” She said
When they reached the hut, the smell attacked her nose and she breathed in, letting out a satisfying sigh, she looked to the guy who stood behind a counter.
He was chopping up something and something was frying up behind him.
“Hey, Fry, this is the greenbean.” Newt introduces
The cook looked up, stopping his actions.
“It’s a girl.” Is all he says as he wipes his hands on the apron around his waist.
Said girl nodded. “I’m Charlotte.” She says, her voice caught her off by surprise, her name was Charlotte, she remembered her name!
Newt looked over to her happily, “see, told ya you’d remember eventually.” He says
Frypan smiles too, holding out his hands he says, “well, nice to meet you, Charlotte. I’m Frypan. Would you like some bacon?”
Charlotte nodded. A wave of calmness washed over her.
If she remembered her name, she was sure going to remember other things...
Maybe this place wasn’t so bad after all.
Sitting down at a table, Frypan places a few strips of bacon in front of her.
Lifting up a pice, she takes a bite.
Letting out a delightful mone, she wasn’t sure if it was because she was hungry, or if Frypan was just a god cook, but she swears it’s the best thing she’s ever eaten.
However, all she could think about, besides how good it was, was how excited she was to tell Gally her name.
Thanks for reading!
Hi! I hope you all liked this second part!
Just wanted to say, that Charlotte has in fact shown up before Chuck and Thomas do, so the next part, part three (which will be up probably within a day or two) is going to start right at that point.
If that made sense.
Anyway, this is also a Gally X oc story because, well, why not?
So, again, thanks for reading and thanks for all the likes on the first part, it really pushed me to make the second one!
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1x18 Much I do about nothing
So, here it is the final recap for S1. Once again this one took way too long, but long story short I have limited access to a laptop I’m basically only able to do this on mobile, which is not the best.
I normally do the recaps in one sitting, which takes me quite a while and it’s hard for me to find the time to do it. So going forward I’m going to try to do it a bit differently and watch the epsiode in parts, I’m hoping that will help to have the recaps out there faster.
Anyway, here’s the recap.
Thoughts I had while watching the episode
Serena calling after Dan all night... he isnt’t worthy of that but she loves him so there’s that
Rufus and Lily finally got their sexy time. Too bad is the morning of Lily’s wedding. Talk about akward.
This is one of my fave scenes of Chuck and Blair, there’s cuteness, there’s flirty banter and feisty Blair, what’s not to love.
I still want to know the story about him not removing that scarf. Just for entertaining purposes.
Nate and his dad running is a nice little call back to the early episodes of S1, which feels like ages ago.
And here we are with Dan and Georgina and Serena finally exposing her as a manipulative evil mastermind
Thanks Serena for reminding that Lily & Rufus can’t coexist with Dan and Serena 😪
That scene between Bart and Lily is actually good, he’s obviously making a point and letting her know she must make a choice, the good old days when Bart was actually a character and not a cartoon villian.
I remember thinking on my first watch while Dan and Blair are scheming, the show should make them snarky friends that would be fun. 😪
Seriously Dan and ‘Sarah’ have known each other for how long and they already have “their spot” guys are the worst
“Humphrey you’re a born liar” you don’t even know the half of it Blair
As much as I love Blair and this iconic line “haven’t you heard, I’m the crazy bitch around here” I still can’t believe that aftet plotting the whole night with Chuck their plan was just ratting her out to her parents.
Sorry Jenny but that dress Vanessa is wearing is awful. Actually I’m not a fan of Blair’s dress either. Anyway everything is a tad better with ‘Time to pretend’ playing in the background, overplayed as it was I still love it.
Also Blair and Chuck again with the flirty bantering, reminiscing a bit about that first time and Chuck getting kicked. Quality content all around.
I don’t know about Serena but luckily for Blair twenty years in the future she won’t be on her fourth husband
I always hated that “I didn’t sleep with Georgina, but I may as well have” like first of all what does that even mean. Second it’s so frustating because it feels like the show went through great lengths to keep Dan as the “good guy” on this particular situation, and that wasn’t fair to Serena.
Even though I know this is only the end of S1 and there’s more to come I’ll forever be bitter about Rufus and Lily not being together. I do like the bittersweet note of this particular moment though.
Rufly aside I have such a soft spot for the Van der Basses. Sure it was far from perfect but still.
That earlier bit between Nate and Chuck with the captain pointing out that whoever the girl they’re fighting about ain’t worth it and Chuck agreeing and Nate saying that’s the problem may seem like another of Chuck douchbag smarmy moments, but I actually like how it sort of makes sense later in the episode, because is only when Chuck admits the truth to Nate about how he felt about Blair, that Nate not only finally listens to him about the captain, but is also willing to have his friend back.
Poor Nate, always being let down by his father, at least he got to make his point, even if he had to punch his dad (again) to do it.
Even though Blair is on full bitch mode towards Vanessa, she ain’t actually wrong about Nate: endless family drama and never getting over Serena.
Nate and Chuck’s friendship isn’t as larger than life as Blair and Serenas, but is one I still love, and finally is back on. Also Nate’s amused and surprised smile about Chuck’s feelings for Blair is priceless. Chuck’s reaction too, how con someone be smug and shy at the same time?
Dan makes me want to scream like what bullshit is thid “i got seduced by a girl who was pretending to someone else and you knew” so somehow that’s Serenad fault? “I am the most understanding person in the world” Excuse me!!! In what universe, like honestly Dan just shut up.
The fact that this show actually has Serena saying “we are exactly we were at the Bass brunch when we started dating I wasn’t the person you thought I was and you can’t forgive that” and then Dan just sidetracks and claims a lot has happen... and we’re only on season one
Beside the fact that I love the scene of Chuck’s speech while he’s looking at Blair, this line is so spot on “in the face of true love you don’t give up, even if the object of your affection is begging you to” the whole speech is basically the abreviated version of the Chuck and Blair story.
Serena’s is in her own cloud of missery and yet she still makes a face when she sees Chuck and Blair are kissing 😂
Chuck Bass is a romantic, and that’s all that matters 😉.
As much as I’m not sad about Dan and Serena breaking up, it is kind of sad watching them have a last dance with ‘the ice’s getting thinner” playing in the background (such a good song btw)
I had honestly forgot about Jenny for a bit here.
I feel so robbed because they just skip a week and we didn’t got to see any of it, like Chuck being a complete gentlemen? C’mon! Anyway Blair’s traveling outfit is almos customy, nevermind I still love it, it also helps how fears about helicopters aside, she’s excited she’s about the Tuscany trip,
I remember the first time I was like so that’s the end of Nate and Vanessa? How swift. Not that I mind because that scene between Nate and Serena was so promising about summer and the Hamptons... but that’s a rant for S2
The way Bart can’t help but messing up Chuck’s head, even if he doesn’t try to, though whith Bart one never knows. Fun fact: the first time I watched this episode when Chuck goes after Amelia I literally screamed to the screen: “NO!!!’ You idiot”.
So that’s a wrap on Season 1! It was such a fun ride and I’m going to miss it. This last episode was really packed, it also felt quite long for some reason. It also ends with every major ship on the outs, which sucks a bit but it’s also a great set up for season 2.
First there’s Dan and Serena, who call it quits because for the last few episodes their relationship has been a constance struggle of secret and lies. One could make the point that their relationship was always dishonest by Dan’s secret identity as gossip girl, god knows I’ve been ranting about that the whole season particularly the last episode, because in principle is very hypocrital of Dan to be so mad about Serena’s lies when he’s keeping the biggest secret of all. But since she doesn’t know this the whole discussion is centered about her mistakes... Serena makes the very valid (and true) point that Dan can’t forgive her for not being who he thought she was, and this is something that’s going to keep being an issue for them the whole show, but for this particular break up the other big issue is lack of trust
Trust is the key point in a relationship and how can Dan trust Serena if she lies and hides stuff, they can’t have a relationship that way, even if she has come clean about her past who’s not to say if they come across another issue Serena will be honest this time and not hide and try to handle it on her own, truth is she most likely will, (she does act this way in future seasons) but what I would like to point out is that as much as Dan can’t trust her now, Serena actually never trusted him, not in the sense that he would spill her secrets but rather that she didn’t trust him not to judge her and she also didn’t trust that he would still love her if he knew everything about her. And in her mind he proves her right that’s why she points out they’re having the same argument they had at the Bass brunch and even so (sadly) Serena still wants to work through this and Dan is the one that says no, let’s break up. I don’t disagree with him is better for them to be separated but I ‘m petty and so I kind of hate he’s the one in his high horse breaking up with her, when he almost cheated on her with Georgina and even has the nerve to be like “i only did that because you cheated on me and you’re a liar and you let me get involved with a psycho” and it’s just hell no Dan! First of all no one force you to do anything, and also how long did he knew this girl Sarah and they already have “their spot” like that’s on you, and I’m not even mentioning how this argument of the psycho pretty much destroys itself when one remember he’s gossip girl so... who’s the most twisted manipulative one there. I would have issues with Dan and Serena even if he wasn’t Gossip Gilr, but the fact that he is... seriously he’s one devious guy.
Also not a fan of the show going out of their way to keep Dan’s nice guy image, they keep teasing his night with Georgina and then they decide to be light, well he didn’t actually slept with her, the intention was there, but he didn’t because he’s good Dan and sex is meaningful for him, so it’s a big deal for him, but still he was nice and faithful. Sorry but no, have him cheat, everyone else in this show makes questionable decisions and surely the UES changes Dan, so I would like for the show to embrace, they eventualy show it, but they had the space to start to show it much earlier, also just for the record sex with Dan was meaningful for Serena, it wasn’t something she had really experienced before, and it was pointed out earlier in the season, so sex it’s not only meaningful for Dan.
Other two relationships have a quick death this episode: Rufly & Nate and Vanessa. The later gets set aside almost like and afterthought which was dissapointing because it was like why bother then in the first place? Also I actually like their interactions and Vanessa while still judgemental makes and effort for Nate to be more understanding and in turn allows her to show different sides of her character and that’s nice. Then we have that scene between Nate and serena and it’s iluminatinhg, because at list at this point it looke like the show wanted to set something up there and it’s like finally! let’s unravel this (and then...😪 but that’s a rant for the next recap). Rufly on the other hand I like how it went, it felt natural and yet sad because basically they don’t take their chance because they feel that boat sailed a long time ago, it’s been 20 years, and they could have stolen moments, but more than that is just not possible, doesn’t seem like it could work at this stage of their lifes, and while it’s exciting to take the plunge I totally get why they didn’t here.
Finally there’s Chuck and Blair, and me screaming into infinity. Don’t get me wrong I love this episode and even when I still was like No Chuck you idiot! In some ways it needed to happen. Or at least some version of it, but I’m getting ahead of myself. What I love about this episode is all their flirty banter, their chemistry shines through every single scene they have, and they truly make me think of much ado about nothing, i like the back and forth and the obvious subtext of how much they truly like each other, and one can also tell how this is exciting for them, these thing between it’s a first for both of them for him it’s the first time he wanted more from a girl, he yearns for her in a way he never has feel before, he feels, he’s in love, and to her is quite a heady experience to be so openly wanted by someone, she doesn’t even have to try, to force it like she did Nate whose eyes were always following her best friend, Chuck’s eyes follow her and no else. For a minute there they take the plunge, armed with having his best friend back and getting a family Chuck’s goes for it via a best man speech and an apology. He’s a romantic at heart and he wants her to know, and she can’t resist it and goes for it to.
We’re robbed from that week they’re together after that night and is such a shame because while I feel internally each of them have acknowledged they’re in love with each other, there’s a difference between falling in love with someone and actually loving someone, and I feel this is the time that while they obviously don’t speak about it, I don’t even think they fully realized then but they truly fell for each other to the point where it was never the same again. It’s a scary thought, and it’s Bart who brings those fears to the front of Chuck’s mind, the guy is scared to death, is not only because the change of going from womanizing playboy to boyfriend seems monumental for a guy like him but more importantly Chuck’s someone who believes the worst of himself, and it wasn’t a big deal for him, because to eyes of the person whose opinion matters the most to him he’s alreayd a failure and that’s not got to change, but Blair is his second thoughest critic, what she thinks matters and unlike Bart she actually believes he has it in him, to be whatever he wants to and Bart’s words make him think of the expectations Blair may have of him now, and the thought of proving her wrong, he doesn’t want her to see that, and sure he’s going to fail and she’ll hate him for it... and that would be it. So better to end it now, on his terms while he’s the one in control of the situation and put a stop to it.
Bottom line he ain’t ready for it at all, he actually won’t be for a long time, and because of this is going to take Blair a lot of time too to be ready for it. Is what I like about Chuck’s best man speech at first glance is his way to tell Blair he feels something for her and he wants her to give him, them the chance to be something. It’s a plight at heart. It also works perfectly as a summary of what their relationship will be for a while. That no matter what, they love each other, theirs is true love and even if it’s hard almost impossible at times, they can’t give up, and that when one of them wants to throw the towel there’s the other one to remind them of why is worth it in the end.
The game between them is really about to start, here we go S2.
Random bits I’ve noticed:
Chuck lightly squeezing his dad’s arm when Lily’s almost at the end of the altar warmed my heart.
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i finally got the yellow frame less sunglasses i’ve always dreamt of and they’re so PRETTY!! when i stood in line at the pharmacy for my meds (it’s the yellow ones which are hard as fuck to swallow so i need to drink a lot of water during and after .... :((((((( . ... no fair )a lady who had the next number where upset that she had waited too long, like gilr u’ve waited 2 mins MAX more than me, i dn’t think you’re gonna die from waiting like 1 min more .... when i get old i’ll dye my hair blue and wear a lot of eyeliner ... i think i wanna look more unapproachable as possible than i already do, like jessica chastain in mama, all dark eyes and eyes like lisbeth salander, whoomst is still my biggest idol ever ..... like she’s the best the motherfucking true beast i’m so in awe with my queeeeeennnnnnnnnnn i love her so much and i need to reread the books like ive done every summer since i was 12 ...
i have this plant on my nightstand but i have no idea what kinda plant it’s, the long like “branches” it gets with like new plants on them at the end, reminds me of soft palm trees. it’s pretty, but my fig is almost dead ...... my pothos plants are my crown juvels and i hope i can get my lily back to life as well, i like plants, and dogs.
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Moon Girl and Devil Dinosaur #38 Review
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It’s the beginning of a whole new arc as Moon G and Devil D embark on an adventure that finds them in the mysterious realm of the Dream Dimension. From the likely sleep-deprived creative team of Brandon Montclare, Natacha Bustos and Tamra Bonvillain. Quick recap and review following the jump.
Lunella Lafayette has been having the worst time sleeping of late… and she’s not the only one. Her nights have been fitful, filled with anxiety dreams and nightmares, all leaving her waking up completely unrested. And it would appear as though most of her classmates are additionally plagued by troubled sleep, struggling with their own bad dreams… the teachers too. It’s almost as if all of Public School #20 has been infected by some sort of syndrome of bad sleep and troubling dreams.
After taking one two many hits in dodgeball during gym class, Lunella has had enough and she sneaks through the maze of nebulous air-duct tunnels that lead to her secret laboratory under the school. There she finds Devil Dinosaur, snoring away. She joins him, snuggling up for some much needed sleep.
Whatever hopes Lunella had for getting the rest she needs are quickly dashed as she finds herself once more engulfed in another vibrant dream. Yet this one seems different, more real and elaborate. A voice informs her that she has entered the ‘dream dimension,’ a preternatural realm outside of reality.
The voice emanates from a slight figure perched atop a giant purple mushroom. He introduces himself as ‘Bad Dream’ the wonder warlock, the baddest dream demon of them all.
Lunella is less than impressed. She’s gone up against likes of the Omnipotis, The Kingpin and Mr. Sinister… some kid in a halloween costume isn’t going to scare her.
Little kid or not, it does seem as though this Bad Dream fellow has been the one responsible for ruining everyone’s sleep and filling their heads with nightmares. Bad Dream doesn’t seem to think of the matter as all that big a deal. He feels those who live in the waking world have got it made. Whereas it looks as though Bad Dream may be stuck in the Dream Dimension, with only his Cloud Chimera for companionship.
This Cloud Chimera is this long, translucent, jellyfish-looking creature whom Bad Dream states protects him. Together they’re a team… not altogether unlike Lunella and Devil D.
Rather suddenly, Bad Dream decides that it is very important that Lunella leave. It isn’t clear whether or not the little guy has grown bored of Lunella’s company or (more likely) he feels it no longer safe for her to be there. He demands she leave, but Lunella isn’t budging… not until Bad Dream promise to stop his funny business and let people start getting better sleep.
Bad Dream ups his demand that Lunella shove off, chasing her off atop his Cloud Chimera. Outmatched, Lunella has no choice other than to wish herself awake. Suddenly, she finds herself back in her lab… once again thoroughly unrested.
But she and Devil Dinosaur are not alone! Somehow the Cloud Chimera has transcended through the dream dimension into the real world. At first Lunella imagines she must still be dreaming, but this is no dream. She’s in real danger. The Chimera swoops and circles about the lab, chasing Lunella until Devil D finally catches it with a devastating chomp. And with this the Chimera dissipates into a fog, returning to the dream dimension.
It all leaves Lunella quite aware that something serious is afoot… and all of this is not going to go away by merely hiding under the covers. Moon Gilr and Devil Dinosaur are going to have to do something about this… but how? Dreams and alternate dimensions, creatures made of clouds… this is not the realm of science; this is something more. This is magic. And Lunella hates magic! Fortunately she knows just the right guy ideal to help her out. And the preview art for the next issue shows exactly who that is. So gear up for another Moon Girl and Doctor Strange team-up adventure! Nice!!!
A great first issue of the arc, one that has me very exciting for the next installment.
With Lunella being as smart as she is, it is often necessary to pose her against dilemmas where she cannot easily use her intellect to devise a solution. And the mystical realm of the dream dimension with all of the weird denizens therein fits the bill perfectly.
Lunella’s interactions with Dr. Strange back during the World’s Smartest arc were an absolute riot and I cannot wait to see more of it; the two of them are so fun and funny together, I’m quite pleased that they’re getting another adventure alongside one another.
Dreams, the psyche and the unconscious have all remained rather vexing to the world of science. Science has discovered and figured out so much about so many things, yet the inner workings of the human brain remains highly mysterious, all but impenetrable to the conventional tools of scientific study. Sure we know what happens in the brain when we dream, what regions are active and the functional utility of dreaming, but the meaning behind those dreams, the places they take us and the way they can make us feel remains subjective, nebulous, utterly confounding. It’s the kind of psychological quagmire that raw intelligence is ill equipped to contend with. A wonderful foil for out Lunella.
Bad Dream is a curious new character. At first I figured he prove to be the son of the demonic villain and Dr. Strange foe known as Nightmare. And this may still be the case, yet it’s looking more like he is just some normal little boy who has somehow found himself stuck in the dream dimension unable to return to the real world. Whatever the case, I’m definitely looking forward to finding out more. Plus I just love his costume.
Artists Natacha Bustos and Tamra Bonvillain really get to stretch their creative muscles in depicting the dream dimension and it’s all just a delight to behold. They get a really neat slash page of Lunella’s being pulled into the dream realm and definitely make the best of it.
Following the Save Our School arc, which took place entirely in the real world confines of the Lower West Side, it’s really neat to see Bustos and Bonvillain illustrate a more fantasy-oriented setting. Ms. Bustos offers up a wonderful landscape of floating orbs, giant mushrooms and living clouds. And Ms. Bonvillain enlivens it all with darkened pastels, neat shades of pink and purple that makes the realm seem both dark and mysterious while also vibrant and uncanny. Much like a dream. Steve Ditko would surely approve.
And so do it. Not to be missed. A great beginning to what looks to be a very fun arc. Four and a half out of five Lockjaws!
#Moon Girl and Devil Dinosaur#Brandon Montclare#Natacha Bustos#Tamra Bonvillain#spoilers#Inhumans#review
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Shrek x reader x donkey x puss (i am fucking warning yall i made this like this on purpose)
Ah yes high school.
much pain.
But shrek was very hot and shrexy, his sausage was very long and he was the penultimate leng man.
Donkey was very pretty, with his long eyelashes and his nice donkey like arse, and his wonderful, wonderful voice, so hoarse and deep. It was very much of the hot.
And puss, puss was the best, the spanish vibe around him was so tomato like you could see it from a mile off.
Shrek approached you and you squeaked as he pushed you against your locker.
"Somebody once told me the world was gonna roll me, that you ain't the sharpest tool in the shed." He said in his Scottish brogue.
You squealed, your senpai was finally talking to you!!!!!!!
Shrek went on in that shrexy voice of his "Oi love you." And then he snogged you hard and fast before hurrying off, green face burning red now, making him look a bit brown.
You hurried off to your next class, which just si happened to be spanish and your partner was señor Puss in his wonderful kinky boots.
"Ah, you're looking muy Bueno,"
That was the first weird thing he said and then as time went in he kept saying random things to you but you were so entrapped that you listened anyway while he was talking a bout the failing spanish economy with dreamy eyes.
" Are you capiche?"
You sigh dreamily "Yes darling~"
"Darling?" He says amused, "So I am your darling now?"
Spanish music started to play and you kissed him right there in the middle off the classroom. Donket who was also sitting there was heartbroken.
"n..not her!"
he cried and shitted very loudly.
loudly enough infact that he managed to grab the attention of the snogging couple, then shrek entered the chat and yelled "WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH MY GILR OWO SHREXY VERY MAD SHREXY EAT CAT AAAAAAAAAA!!!"
Then everything blew up.
the end
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top 5 magical girls
how dare,,, DARE you make me choose anon… im having a mental crisis rn but ill TRY
IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER BC I LOVE THEM ALL EQUALLY OK (im also gonna link their transformation sequences so pls look at em if you like ok thanks!!1!)
1.) Creamy Mami
usually i hate kid oriented shows but,,, creamy mami is just so,,, hnnnggg i love her. it just has such a certain sound/feel?? v good to watch when ur sick or dont feel good. ((also her yellow outfit is so so much better than her pink one and yall can fight me on this ill never lose))
2.) Sailor Chibi Moon
ok well,,, i never got far enough in sailor moon to ever see chibiusa but,,, SHES JUST TOO CUTE OK i love her so much
3.) Nemurin (she doesnt have a transformation since she was only a side chara so take this wEHHH)
how could i not include HER?? worlds sleepiest magical girl? beautiful design? iconic silhouette? shes got it all folks
4.) Cure Whip
i literally could NOT make it past the first ep of kira kira bc i thought it was so boring but,,, cure whip really has the best design in all of precure,,, thats just facts HUNNY i want a figure of her so bad im gonna cry
5.) Cure Custard
ok,,, i may hate kira kira but,,, they really got some GOOD ASS CHARACTER DESIGNS!!! shes got it all,,,, baby bangs,, childish personality,,, squirrel,,,, shes so perf
ALSO ARGUABLY THE BEST TRANSFORMATION SEQUENCE ON THIS WHOLE POST!!!! its really top tier…..
i literally have so many more i would include,,,,, dear baby,,, oyashiro rika/trap satoko,, nijimin,,, this girl that idk wtf is from but is insanely cute,,, but,,, i will hold myself back,,, for the people,, for myself
tysm for coming to my ted talk once again and letting me rant abt shit no one cares abt lmao
also pls watch their transformation vids if u wanna cry in awe along w me thanks i love u
also reminder that i have a magical gilr blog at @mahou-mei an its hella aesthetic and thanks bye love u
#Anonymous#chirp chirp#cure custard.... i love her....#shes high key number one...#just LOOK AT HER#perf in every way...#hhhhhhhngg#omfg i didnt realize but#i went in orer from oldest to newest#WILD!!!
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I know you just made this blog but I would love to hear you talk about how colorism affects Penny and her family!
THE PROUD FAMILY & HOW COLORISM AFFECTS THEM
First lets discuss , LPDZ , an all girl group that was purely made out of fun. They were just a bunch of high school gilrs that loved to sing and dance. When a record company got wind of them ? It started off great , the focus was just about best friends. Fame growing higher , the girls were performing at Wiz Studio , they were lined up , not placed in a spot that set one girl from the rest but director or producer in charge of the studio focused on her. Claiming Penny was a star and that’s how media took a play in colorism, Her skin tone had an affect on her popularity. Now , while the other girls did get attention ? Penny was the sole focus. Zoey to the media would be just another Taylor Swift , Dijonay wasn’t favored because of her dark skin color , and Laci ? Who knows why she wasn’t picked. All that’s certain is that Penny was going to become another pop star. Which isn’t a coincidence if you look at Mariah Carey , Beyonce , and Nicki MInaj. All three women are light skinned and played on pop radio stations. With Oscar and Trudy , her father faces more complaints than his loving wife. Yes, it might have to do with the fact that when you look at Trudy , people might automatically trust her because of the color of her skin. She’s attractive , successful , and overall a smart and intelligent women. Oscar ? On the other hand gets into arguments , here’s complaints about his snacks , and the business he does is always with Laci’s father, Felix. Why doesn’t he have any other investors ? Why do people argue or complain so much about his snacks ? If it was someone else , just maybe they’d have no problem with it. He receives a much harsher reaction from his peers than Trudy would.Suga Mama , Cece and Bebe ? I can’t say for sure how affected they are currently. Maybe between Cece and Bebe , the twins will face colorism , even as young. Cece has lighter skin and we all know , there’s going to be questions about them being twins because Bebe is darker. With Suga Mama , I’m not sure but there’s something about how she’s treated between her and her sister. Sista Spice was mention beautiful and she had mental powers. Now was beauty referring to the color of her skin or overall ? how she looked. I have no clue about their youth but Suga Mama’s parents treated her as if she wasn’t there. So it’s likely that Sista Spice has lighter skin growing up.
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idek what to wrote so im shit posting but i have a lot of feelings rn thst are difficult to navigate like i like this girl shes my best fried. i have a history of liking ppl but their infatuations not genuine and i, this iscommon but it makes me feel like a bad personso i got caught up in thinking am ia bad person for liking her? also she was straight so i jever consideredit and them she stopped being straight and my crush developed and thne i told some friends abt it and i was excited to likeher and whatever then the whole infwtuation thing? and i was like no its not an infatuation bc i rlly just wanna soend time w her. for background i also dont ever confesscuzi did once and super embarrassing and im prideful but also like what if i destroy our current relationship over something thatll never come to be but then also like its not fairof me to sayitll necerr cometo be, ik its unfair of me to do this bc im essentially just making myself feel like shit inthis sick peeudo masterbatory fself flagellating thungwhere i like someone and its oure then my brain attacksitself and sshames itself for having deelings and makes it thinkits doing somethjng wrong and i never just tell the person and give them agency over their feelings bc pf two things: a) i like to suffer in the disappointment of the unknown? like ill sit here and beat myself up saying theyll never kike me bci suck and im fat and ugly and horrible and bad personality or whatever but essentially im weaponizing my crush against myself as a formof self harm and also bc b) very genuinely i dont wanna get rejected and chanheour relationship bc i doe uinely love this person. which cotnradicts all the ugly things in part a but bc of my gross oldy heart and crippled ego and sense of self worth and literally cant let myself feel anything wholesome without casting it in some dark light and lying to myself and telling me i am swxretly evil when im not?? but i also am scared bc what if i am?? and i just cant tell???? so the. i just keep floating in limbo hating myself over and over but quietly so as to not indulge in it (bc i rlly am trying to be kinder to myself but its hard) until one day ilook up and everything has passed me by andim not the same person nd neither are they and im wasting my time and i dont simply dont wanna feel like that anymore and 8 simply dont want to feel anymore so i turn off my feelings, hsving sampled the woes of unrequited love and deciding its notthe life i wanna live right now,maybe my time will come (god i hope i wish i dream my time for love and peace and happiness will come) but until then im gonna vibe out and sneer at men and just keep doing that but also i fear i will grow old and bitter and alone and ugly and hateful. bc i. ery well could. and honestly im a piece of shit most of the time so its probably what i deserve (even if its jsut what i deserve flr not having faith i wont be happy lol) to live my life like that. idk. depression i weird bc udont feel alive but i know im gonna keep living. i usually have some hope that eventually i wont feel sad anymore but every once in a while i wonder, what if this never stops and i always feel empty and create drsma internally sp i can beat myself up over my insufficiency just to feel something until i go numb again. and that paralyzes me like i cant imagine forever feeling like this. but time movesso fast im not gonna ahave to time dig myself out beforeive grown tookld to recover and that makes me wanna die sometimes. idk how i got here from ranting sbt my crush but wild how u spiral soemtimes 🤪🤪🤪 but theres also an important part of me where my feelings arent invalid. i gaslight myself a lot and tell myself i talked myself into this crush to hurt my feelings but like no im not entirely corrupted i have feelings im a person a complex person aand im not alone in my dilemmas and im not a bad person but its hard to remember that sometimes when ur brain is set to self destruct. anyways. i do have a crush on her and she p much told me abt this other girl she was interested in and also abt a guy she
used to flirt with and has been subtweeting abt a gilr on twitter she likes and i just.
really wish she was talking ant me. i wish one day she would say hey ive geen meaning to say... i wish she would hold my hand and smile at me and feel butterfkies when she sees me and i wish i could play with her fingers and sit in her car and talk for hours. and its ok rthat we arent and probably wont and i will be thrilled for her whoever she ends up with ofc bc i love her v dearly. and i know she loves me very dearly and wishes the same thing for me. i just wish we were actually wishing for the same thing
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the musketeers for the "send me a fandom"?
Thank you Hana! Send me a fandom and I’ll tell you:
The character I loveI will go with Milady de Winter
The character I hateSylvie Rochefort ;)
The character I would call if I was in troubleThat’s hard XD I would call Athos but he might be drunk so let’s go with my badass Milady
The character who I’m in trouble withI might be in trouble with the queen? Maybe because I’m not a big fan of her. Or Sylvie again
The character I would trust to plan my birthday partyAramis! Or Porthos! It would be so wild! XD
The character I would share fries withConstance. We could gossip a bit
The character who would be my best friendMilady or Constance (Gilr power!)
The character I would hang out with on a rainy dayAthos because we’re both emo on rainy days Thank you for asking!
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