#i HATE having three classes im going to fucking kill myself i swear to fuck

[villalunae]

aside from the fact that im probably gonna flunk this math quiz on monday because my boss died and ive been working every other day effectively taking me out of commission for the next due to crippling anxiety and the fact that i fucking hate math and the dress ive made is slightly too big and im gonna get points off because my mom insisted on cutting it to the largest size even tho we BOTH know im a size zero on a bad day my week has been goin great wbu 

[peaches-writes]

a hundred days of seo - of all places (pt. 1)

member: changbin but this part is dedicated to besties hyunlix bc i said so  wc: 1.2k genre: fluff, angst, enemies to lovers au, roommates to lovers au, childhood friends to lovers au, neighbor au, college au, eventual friends to lovers au, slow burn, some besties seunghyunlix action hehe chapter warnings: explicit language, mentions of alcohol note: anon! the roommates part comes later pinky promise!

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“If you guys really love me—” You groan exaggeratedly with furrowed brows, climbing up your wonkiest living room chair with a broom in your hand and violently tapping the ceiling with its handle end. In front of you, your two best friends are quick to approach closer with their hands outstretched in your direction in surprise and worry—Hyunjin, in particular, going as far as letting out a dramatic cry for you to come down which you simply ignore in your annoyance. “If you idiots care about my well-being, you wouldn’t go to this stupid party or, better yet, you would’ve made him take it somewhere else in the first place!” 

“But it’s Changbin’s birthday! As much as you’re our friend, he’s also our friend.” Felix pouts, cautiously taking two more steps closer to you and placing his hands around the chair’s head rest to steady you. “And it’s not that wild this time, just close friends!”

You fiercely glare down at the younger boy, making him gulp and flinch. Gesturing up to your ceiling and the muffled rock music, you then ask, “This is ‘just close friends’? Whatever, I don’t care! I need to study in peace and this isn’t helping me at all!” You protest, hitting the ceiling a few more times for good measure before jumping down the chair. Felix jumps as well and tightens his grip on the chair, scolding you under his breath for being reckless while Hyunjin finally beelines closer to your side and asks you if you’re okay. “Ya, Hwang Hyunjin, don’t you need to study too? We’re in the same Lit class!” 

“We’ve been studying the whole day, dumbass. We’ve literally studied the whole syllabus down for today! Tsk. Chill...” He points out, dusting off the imaginary dirt off of your pajamas in between warning you not to jump off chairs again. “Anyway, why don’t you just go with us? I saw the invite on your DMs! Just swipe a drink and go or something. You look like you need it—“

You redirect your glare at him who doesn’t waver, clearly your longer friend between him and Felix. “I have other things to do and we’re not friends. That jerk and I, I mean.” You grit stubbornly between your teeth. “He’s just stuck to me like a leech because of you two and Seungmin.”

“What’s worse is that he’s my neighbor starting this semester,” You quickly add before Hyunjin could argue back with another one of his bratty remarks. “I’ve seriously had enough of this guy. I’m definitely not giving myself more headache to go on his stupid birthday party!”

“But it’s free drinks?” Felix tries this time with a raised brow, making you slap a hand to your forehead.

“No. I already told you: the drinks aren’t worth it if it’s him offering.” You shake your head firmly, groaning and rolling your eyes when the muffled music intensifies above your heads as if in dramatic cue. 

“Why aren’t you even friends in the first place?” Hyunjin huffs, crossing his arms as if challenging you. “Seungmin won’t say anything, Changbin always changes the subject, and you’re always mad whenever we do as much as inhale to say Changbin’s name.”

The question sets you off even more, making you groan. “Just because! I really don’t like him, that’s all you need to know!” Sighing in defeat, you then push the two away from you and towards the direction of your door. “Ugh, I guess you three have chosen to be traitors to me tonight. Say hi to Seungmin for me if he turns up, I guess. He hasn’t dropped by so he’s probably gonna be late from tutoring or something. Damn it...” 

“Y/N!!!” The two pout at the same time, not even making efforts to stop you from pushing them across the floor and out of your mini communal area.

“Don’t be mad, please.” Felix adds with his best puppy eyes.

“We’ll tell Changbin to turn it down, then, swear!” Hyunjin adds after, nodding along with Felix in agreement. “And we’ll be civil tonight! Less drinks for us and no drunk stopovers here later, promise—“

“You said that a month ago at Changbin’s housewarming part 1 then two weeks ago at Changbin’s housewarming part 2. Not to mention when you stupidly stopped by my house drunk off your ass both ti—“

“Yeah, yeah, but that’s why Felix’s gonna remind me this time! Geez, Y/N.” Hyunjin frowns, flicking your forehead before pushing himself off of you and walking to the entrance on his own. “But swear, it’ll be as quiet as the campus library in a moment! We’ll really tell Changbin!”

“I wouldn’t even count on it at this point.” You sigh, directing Felix down to your apartment entrance to retrieve his shoes. “Just go, get out of my house. Happy birthday, Changbin or whatever.”

“You want us to pass that along?” Felix’s eyes immediately brighten optimistically while yours blow comically wild in disagreement. As you open your mouth to protest against it, the boy then wears his shoes back on and makes a run for your door. “Okay, Y/N, I’ll text you later what he’ll say!”

“Felix, no!” You call out for him helplessly, approaching Hyunjin who follows along haphazardly. “Ya! Ya! You fucking traitors!”

The music surprisingly quiets down when you hear Hyunjin’s loud voice upstairs three minutes later. 

The soft ping of your phone over an hour later reminds you of the pain seeping up your neck from looking down on your notes, making you reposition yourself in front of your work desk as more follow in quick succession. Picking up your phone, you immediately hold it away from your lamp as the screen brightens with each message from your best friend. 

seungmo: how’s the party? 

seungmo: running v late! 

seungmo: im walking to ur place now tho !!!

seungmo: soojin gave me a headache today w her homework 😭😭

seungmo: but yeah u & changbin aren’t killing each other yet right? 

seungmo: pls don’t

Sighing, you quickly cap your pen in your other hand and type in a quick reply. 

y/n: i didn’t go

y/n: i actually feel even better now that i didn’t seeing as you still aren’t there

seungmo: why not? 

seungmo: i thought you were coming???

seungmo: that’s why i’m coming? 

seungmo: dude we talked abt this 

seungmo: ur like neighbors now it’s rude if u don’t greet him at least once

seungmo: & u opened the DM from jisung too so???

y/n: y would i go? i hate changbin

y/n: doesn’t mean we’re neighbors now means that i have to greet him we can just co-exist until he gets kicked out or something

When Seungmin uncharacteristically doesn’t lecture you over text about being civil and polite right after, you set your phone down with a scoff on the quick conclusion that he’s probably caught up with crossing the street or the lack of cell service on your building elevator. Sinking in your chair, you look up to the ceiling once, threatening to shake with the heavy bass reverberating from its other side, and heave a long sigh. 

Of all places, you think to yourself in frustration as you then proceed to close your books and notebooks with a sudden migraine creeping up from the back of your head. Of all places, he just had to move here! 

You look over your phone once more as you then stand up from your seat and finish clearing your desk, frowning when no more messages pop up. 

The intercom across the hall, however, decides ping after. 

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[love-amihan]

FIRST IMPRESSIONS // MIMI'S FAVES

amihan's note: this is just self-indulge i can't get enough of them 😭 i got this random idea wherein i showed my mom + friends the following pictures of my faves and what are their first impressions. i may also include some first meeting w/ my mom scenarios and more of what i think they will interpret them as. modern au of course, happy reading!

lil side note: my friend questioned me after sending all these pics, she was like "mimi u do realize these r lines" but ma'am u don't understand they r attractive lines!

info; aunt is what u call ur close friend's mother. mano is a sign of respect/greeting to elderly wherein you take their hand and bring it to your forehead i honestly don't know how to explain it

✨ jjk masterlist ✨

self insert, it's mimi x her faves!

-gojo satoru

mom said he reminds her of someone from slam dunk because of the art style, kinda brings back memories for her

most likely to be part of a cult

++ will invite u to join (i swear my friends r something)

yandere vibes

as i quote from my friend "cross my fingers, hope to die"

he will get along with my group of friends i swear

ngl, i'm 100% sure that gojo flirted with one of my friend before

gojo and mimi are gonna meet her group of friends for the first time, "shit" he curses under his breath, mimi turns her head to him and slightly tilted her head to the side "what?" gojo takes a deep breath before saying it in one breath "i may or may not have flirted with one of your friends before"

mimi was about to ask him to repeat again when she heard her friend "satoru?!" gojo gave a sheepish smile "heyyyy" he slowly distances himself with mimi afraid of her "oh let me guess, you're one of the victims?" mimi excitedly pipes in while laughing, her friend laughs along with her while shrugging "you think im surprised anymore you hoe?" mimi teased patting gojo's arm

he's the type to join in on our pamper night, i just see it clearly. also my mom tolerating his childishness

mimi and her mom are having one of their pamper night after having a long week, mimi was applying the mask on her face carefully while humming a tune. gojo who just got in their house saw the bond between the two "auntieee~ i want one too!" he whined while pointing at the masks.

"come here sato" mimi's mom coos at him, clearly babying the man. mimi crosses her arms finished with her mask looking at her so-called man with a smile adoring her lips "you know i wonder sometimes if i got myself a man or a child" gojo let out a dramatic gasp "auntie she's bullying me" mimi's mom played along and playfully glare at her, mimi giggles at this "also shut up you love me~" gojo added.

-okkotsu yuta

that guy who laughs at uncertain situations (if u only know what he's really like ✋)

class clown

softboi (yes he is ma'am!)

happy go lucky

lowkey yandere vibes

i feel like my friends already loves him because they were the one who introduced him

mimi and her friends are hanging out at their usual bench chatting away until one of them noticed the small group of guys passing by. "hey!" one of her friend shouted waving her hand before gesturing for them to come over.

they soon arrived where mimi and her friends are, a young boy with a sweet smile caught mimi's eyes. she gulps looking back to her friend who's introducing the group, "and he's yuta" she finishes with her arm around yuta her other hand giving his chest little pats. mimi nod to herself trying not to forget his name.

definitely met my mom before, helping her with her grocery or something. mom took a liking of him because he's kind and polite

yuta knocks on the door nervously chewing his bottom lip, mimi opened the door and smiles at him, the raven head returning it with shaky breath "come in" yuta politely comes in and to his surprise saw a familiar face "oh you're that sweet boy" mimi's mom exclaimed softly smiling as yuta gave his greeting taking her hand bringing it towards his forehead.

"you met before?" mimi chimes in looking at the two "i helped her carry her things since she's having some trouble" yuta explained his nervousness slowly fading away, mimi's mother turns to her daughter "i love him already! you're definitely marrying him" mimi's mother then welcomes yuta to their home with open arms "mom!" mimi shouted in embarrassment. yuta lets out a chuckle, relieved that he was welcomed right away.

-fushiguro megumi

cold type

major daddy vibes (all i can say is megumi's their type-)

cool aura

doesn't give a fuck type of guy

my friends probably heard of him because of me

mimi was walking around the campus together with a friend of hers, they were talking about usual school stuffs. sharing all the stress and pressure they're feeling having to be the leader of their own respective group.

mimi came to a stop when she noticed the quiet preserve guy who's walking towards the elevator hands on his pocket. after pushing the button, he cracks his neck side to side his hand soothing the crook of his neck. "let's go use the elevator" was all she said before dragging her friend.

the three walks inside the elevator without a word, mimi and her friend stayed behind as megumi stands in front of them pushing the button of his classroom's floor. mimi's friend can't help but snicker, mimi pinches her side telling her to stop.

megumi turns and gesture at the floor buttons "which floor?" his low voice making mimi's knees weak in the knees, mimi's friend was having fun seeing her friend malfunction in front of a hot guy. she giggles not wanting to embarrass her more than she did "oh we're in the same floor, it's all good"

mom likes him when i showed his pic! *cough* one of her fave *cough*

got nervous with meeting mom for the first time but soon relaxed with mom's calming and friendly nature, all in all mom still likes him

-inumaki toge

crazy type of guy

gives off the always sleeping guy

playful type

"oh wow its hot in here" seductively lowers his collars

daddy- (i- ma'am-)

bad boy!!

serious

mom said rock 'n roll but let's forget that

i'm gonna be honest, i feel like he's gonna be part of my friends, my "kapag tropa lang tropa lang rule" (basically translates to: if u're friend just stay as friends rule) will be broken just for him;

toge and mimi was known to be touchy with each other in their group of friends. toge trusts mimi more than the others, he shows this by doing simple things such as leaving his id with her if ever he goes somewhere or do something.

their friends mostly find them leaning in each other's shoulder whenever they are given a break or during their little talks. "you know i saw this new.." their friend started explaining, all of them listening. toge gets into a more comfortable spot leaning his head on mimi's shoulder busy with scrolling on his phone. once in a while showing mimi something funny or interesting.

mom will likely take time to warm up to him. toge will do his best to get on her good side, shows his charms. once he gets mom's approval there's no turning back. he gets treated like he was her own son.

toge smiles at mimi's mother sweetly, "what's your name?" as toge took her hand making mano with her (stop i dunno how to phrase it) "inumaki toge, auntie" mimi's mother let out a soft gasp, "the inumaki toge?" toge looks at the direction where mimi disappeared, a little confused by what's happening. he looks back at mimi's mother about to ask why she knows him.

"mimi won't stop talking about you!" mimi's mother informed as toge's mouth left agape, mimi who happen to get back at the right moment grumble "mom why did you tell him?!" she said through gritted teeth. mimi's mom have a sweet smile on her face faking a surprise.

"oh i wasn't suppose to? oops?" mimi grumbles more standing beside toge who now have a smug look on his face, "you talk about me huh?" he began, mimi gave him a playful shove "shut up."

-ryomen sukuna

DADDY!!

most likely to kill me

intimidating

unique looking

mom really likes him!

thinks his tattoos and aura is cool

if my friends saw a picture of him they will immediately question me

he's a snitch, i hate his snitch ass ugh

mimi's mom did not like sukuna from the picture at all, she doesn't have any problem with people who have tattoo but he got it all over him. we can say that mimi's mom is kinda looking out for the both of them because their relatives are just too traditional and doesn't like the looks of tattoos.

however, sukuna soon got her approval! how you ask? well the mf snitched without knowing. sukuna nudges mimi's side lightly, trying to start conversation "how's the piercing?" mimi's eyes widen looking at sukuna hissing, "kuna no!" mimi whisper yell at him. mimi then felt her mother's glare, "is that why you've been wearing your hair down often?"

sukuna got confused then looks at mimi's mom "care to explain?" he took this as a chance to get on her good side "yeah mimi, care to explain?" mimi looks at her significant other not believing what's happening, mimi looks back and forth between the two 'this mf a snitch' mimi thought.

mimi then explained herself blaming sukuna since he's the one who pushed to get her cartilage piercing "don't blame sukuna, you should have told me" mom defended him, mimi gasp as she looks at sukuna who's smirking at her with the 'i won' face that mimi wanna punch off his face.

a lil bg; i already told my mom b4 that i want cartilage piercing but then she got wary with the news of someone got in a coma after getting it so in the end sadly, she only allowed me to get the lobe piercings.

cover: one piece's baby 5

[disaster-bay-leaf]

Ok so these were the cutest~ (ㆁωㆁ)

4, 6, 7, 9, 12, 19, 22, 23, 28, 33, 34, 46, 47, 52, 59, 60, 63, 66, 83, 87, 88, 93, 99

I kno I listed like....all of them lmao but feel free to answer whichever you want and ofc you can ask me in return Baybe ( ◜‿◝ )♡

uHUHUHUHU much content for me to answer, im happy bebe 💜💜💜✨

4 - how do you take your coffee/tea?

hm coffee either Very Black No Sugar (for the sleep deprived me) or iced latte three sugars and theres no in between

and as for tea its All Black Teas That Exist, cinnamon-flavoured especially (but basically all teas that come to mind when u think “autumn”), and rooibos!!! okay basically the only oke i dont like is any type of green tea (which is sad because they look cool but my tastebuds said ✨no✨)

6 - do you keep plants?

honestly id l o v e too because i love plants but,,, im kinda horrible at taking care of them though still way better than the majority of my family (research helps) so the only plant i own is kinda a small-palm-tree-looking thing in a bigass glass jar that i saved from my mother’s plant-destructing hands and its mostly doing well (the ends of its leaves are starting to be yellow tho and im worried:((( )

7 - do you name your plants?

yes!!! though the current one was named by my sister and its called “pickett” after fantastic beasts shsjjsj

9 - do you like singing/humming to yourself?

oh god oh dude you have n o idea

i have absolutely n o singing voice but its something i do constantly to give my brain the right amount of stimuli so basically i listen to music 24/7 and hum to myself 99% of that time

12 - whats your favourite planet?

oh i actually didnt think about this for so long but either pluto (hes a planet screw nasa) or saturn (RINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) or venus (girls,,,and libra,,,)

19 - do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw in it?

okay im gonna be completely honest with yall and say that my every single try at keeping a journal failed spectacularly and i lost motivation after like a few months so my only journals rn are my fancy fake-leather-bound calendar to note tests and assessments into, a kinda roughed up notebook that i uses for noting down poems or scribbling or passing notes in class, and a kinda fancy bullet journal notebook that i used as a book of shadows for a while but since my fountain pen died i didnt touch it

22 - are you a morning person?

n o

i am so not a morning person but i wish i could be because honestly dawns are beautiful

but as it is rn im either sleep deprived all the time and loathe every second of being in an awake state or (if i have a few days of schoolbreak) my biological clock moves forward a few hours and i sleep 2am-10am

23 - whats your favourite thing to do on lazy days with zero obligations?

except for the fact that i dont remember the last time it happened, i would probably spend it drawing outside, watching anime with my sister and riding a bike around the forest

28 - sunrise or sunset?

i love sunrises because its so peaceful and everyone is asleep but also i subconsciously immediately correlate them with waiting for a train to take me to school (because thats basically the only time i see them) so its a bittersweet love especially with my fucked up biological clock

but sunsets are really really pretty too and i see them more often so i cant choose

33 - whats your fave pastry?

and isnt that a millior-dollar question dhsjjsjsj

either cinnamon rolls (i absolutely adore them) or that one specific type of cupcake-shaped-thing made out of shortcrust/bread/whatever its called and filled with vanilla pudding

34 - tell us about a stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

awwww this is cute

okay so basically my two favourite stuffed animals (i still have them, they sit in my wardrobe) were two teddy bears (like maybe 20cm high each of them) and one was pure brown and the other was silver-brown and they had stereotypical polish male names “Waldek” (read. Valdek) and Stefan (i think tho im not sure if i remember correctly, my memory is a feeble thing sometimes

46 - tell us the worst pun you can think of

what dog would never bite you? a hot dog *badumtss*

47 - what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

huh a year ago id say pineapple pizza but i guess i dont hate pineapples that much anymore (tho putting them on pizza is still an abomination) but i think that if id ever want to get rid of anything it would be parsley, i hate that freakin herb (does it count as food tho)

52 - what are your favourite memes of the year so far?

the ever given for sure shsjshjsjsjsjjsj

but bullying tramp stamps is gold and pure tumblr energy too

as for fandom memes: im in love with all keeping-up-with-the-todorokis variations and the fact that the entire bsd fandom looked at fukuchi and said “biTCH” and thats one of the only things we’re unanimous about

59 - whats your favourite myth?

i always liked the kora/persephone myth (though demeter is an overbearing parent to the nth power), loki and thor crossdressing at a party to get mjolnir back, atalanta because shes a queen and id politely ask her to kick my ass, and cassandra because she deserved better, and theres a l o t more because alas i was a mythology nerd but this post is long enough for me not to make this section 20 times longer sjjsjsjsjsjks

but there are a lot of slavic myths that are very cool too, though we dont know that much about them as about the greeks for example

60 - do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

o o o o h yeah i do like poetry because to create such a beautifully sounding thing with only words someone has to be a genius

some of my favs are: some works of nakahara chuuya (thank u bsd for introducing me to this man’s beautiful imagery in his works i swear to god the descriptions do it for me) (also his poem about having hangovers is a mood like i feel you buddy), the raven by ea poe (i know everyone likes it but hOLY DAMN THE INTER/INTRAVERSE RHYMES ARE LIKE,,, BREATHTAKING) (and aso im a slut for gothic horror), and many more but also That One Poem From Welcome To Nightvale about reaching the island in the west,,, only perfect vibes from it

63 - are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organised or kinda leave them be?

okay heres the thing. for anyone else both my playlist library and my bookshelf would be considered pure chaos of a mad man b u t they actually have a highly focused system which means that i sort them based on their vibes, lovability and (in case of books) their age and whether or not theyre a part of a series so i would say my bookshelf is rather organised (when a quarter of it isnt occupying my desk that is) and my music is more organised than not but sometimes it gets out of control and i have to sort it entirely again

66 - what would your ideal flower crown look like?

either entirely constructed of simple white daisies, entirely constructed of only white roses, or something that probably would win a “how many different coloured flowers can one fit in a flower crown” competition

or something purple (maybe not belladonna)

83 - whats some of your favourite album art?

god i dont know if it counts but hozier’s wasteland baby is probably one of my absolute favourites and no one shall beat that

“thrifted youth” (dalynn) and “standard deviation” (danny schmidt) have very aesthetic covers too

also the iconic p!atd too weird to live, too rare to die! album cover,,, its just iconic what can i say

and last but not least matt meason’s pink-and-black album covers (though bank on the funeral is really pretty too but like,,, “who killed matt meason” d o e s it for me and so does the 2017 tribulation single)

87 - what are some movies that you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

this is such a hard question because im not a really cinematography-oriented gal but i suppose that (at the risk of not going deep enough into the cinema world):

- the princess bride

- inception

- night at the museum

- SPIRITED AWAY

- forrest gump

- truman show

- E.T. (i cried okay)

- the lord of the rings (because damn me if this isnt one impressive adaptation)

- parasite

and one more personal recommendation: “ready or not” with samara weaving because goddamn i dont usually watch this genre but holy s h i t is it good

93 - whats the hairstyle you wear the most?

honestly just plain hair down (because having curly hair is a menace), split in the middle when i have longer hair and split on one side when its short

also low ponytails or half-up-half-down when im exercising, or double french braids when my hair doesnt cooperate enough to look presentable in any other form

99 - list some songs that resonate with your soul whenever you hear them

this is difficult because my music taste is a goddamn rollercoaster on a good day, but heres some:

- me and the sky from “come from away” musical (this is sort of a test song for my mental stability, if i cry i aint stable)

- dancing after death by matt meason (okay most songs by matt meason except for like,,, hallucinogenics maybe)

- tears and rain by james blunt

- i will follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie

- almost home by mxmtoon

- anything by hozier really but shrike especially

- payphone, the cover by alex g (i cried to this song so many times)

- burning pile by mother mother (can i roast all my problems please)

- long way from home and cleopatra by the lumineers

- autoclave by the mountain goats

oooh that was c o o o o o o o l as fuck thank you sm so much bebe (and sorry for the long post @everyone else)

[holycalum]

vice (c.h.) part TWO

part one part 3 part 4

summary- post meltdown at party, cal and (y/n) get into it ya that’s it

word count- 1.9k+

warnings?- swearing, some almost smut, 

a/n- im hoping this is better than the first part i hope u like it that is all for now calum and i made time to see each other after that. we miraculously had a few free hours that overlapped, so we sat in the library friday afternoon, deciding to knock out some homework from our shared class together as i delved into the cluster-fuck of my life 

calum pushed his books to the side, and laid on his arms, looking at up me. his brown eyes were wide and puppy like, a gaze that looked foreign on him.

“yes?” i laughed, resting my cheeks in my hands, i tried to keep my voice from shaking while i talked to him. despite him looking like he could choke me out with his pinky, he was oddly gentle around me. that didn’t stop my nerves at all in the slightest, he was hot and scary; a dangerous combination i had only seen in ashton, the years prior.

“we came here to talk about your very secretive situation,” he stated, rasing his eyebrows. “and you’ve hardly said anything.”

“sorry,” i mumbled, a blush creeping up my neck. “where do you want me to start.”

he shook his head and laughed, “i’m not really sure, just go at it i guess?”

“ok so, two married couples are friends, happen to both have babies at the same time,” i start, clasping my hands together, “couples are wealthy, figure that if they married into each other, they could be double wealthy, kids grow up, parents kinda force it.”

“ok weird,” calum says,

“hey,” i defended, grinning sheepishly.

“but nothing i didn’t expect,” he sat back up, leaning in his chair. the look he gave me almost had me melting on to the floor. “continue.”

“so, david, that guy, he’s like a family friend. it’s kinda all i’ve ever known, i guess i kinda had a crush on him in the beginning, because he was the only boy to give me attention. we dated through high school, and i ended up not really liking him much at all.” i rambled, biting my thumb nail. “but, my parents have been so adamant on me just marrying him. like, i told them i didn’t want to, and they went off, and told me that it was a privilege because it meant i never really had to think for myself, i’d always be taken care of. my whole life i’ve been spoiled and taken care of by my parents, they’ve basically programmed me to have to rely on david to live.” calum’s face dropped,

he opened his mouth before speaking, “so, you’re whole life you’ve just been with him?”

“pretty much,” i flipped my pencil around, focusing my eyes on the wooden pattern on the table instead of calum’s intense eye contact. “i tried dating people in college, after we broke up after high school, really only because we’d be apart. but, it doesn’t even matter, it’s not worth being in a relationship because i’m just gonna be with him anyways.” i let out a long breath, “i don’t even know why i’ve killed myself these last three years in college, if it doesn’t even matter.” i mumbled, tears stinging my eyes. i found myself spilling more than i usually did to people, it was like calum broke the dam inside of me and the words were pouring out of my mouth involuntarily.

“maybe it’s an opportunity to get out?” calum searched for solutions in the worst place to look. my heart ached.

“it’s just,” i breathed, forcing hot tears back into my eyes, “i don’t even know if i could, that’s my family, all i’ve ever known, and not marrying him would mean i fuck up their whole thing.”

“it’s not worth it…” he spoke for me, running tattooed fingers through his curls.

“yeah,” i agreed, “i mean i’ve accepted it, i’m just not happy with it.”

“what would it take to…yanno, save you?” he asked, gesturing at me with his hands.

i laughed, “i don’t know, fall in love with someone richer by the end of the year or piss them off so much they give in.” i closed my eyes for a second, “both are un-fucking-likely.”

“maybe not.” he grinned at me, brown eyes staring into mine.

my overbearing home life often caused me to be impulsive.

one moment, calum and i were having normal small talk outside my building, and then the next we were kissing and making a b-line to his place opposed to mine.

“holy shit,” calum breathed, tanned, tattooed fingers grazing my burning skin and he lit a fire within me i haven’t felt in a long time, if ever. “fucking gorgeous.” he mumbled against my throat, fingers gripping my hips.

“hmm?” i could feel my voice vibrate against his roaming lips and a shiver went down my spine. he disconnected his plump lips from the column of my throat, giving me a chance to leave a lingering kiss on his neck instead. he groaned and threw his head back against his headboard.

“you’re dangerous, pretty girl.” he spoke, voice broken. “for both of us.” “jesus christ, (y/n).” samantha scolded me, later that night. “hanging out with calum hood? i swear you do things in spite of your parents.” i squinted at her.

“what?” i could feel my hands get clammy, 

“you’ve seen him right? your parents would absolutely flip.” she grumbled, brushing her wet hair.

“when’d you even see me?” i asked, sitting on my bed. my heart was pounding loudly in my chest, threatening to jump out and land on samantha. then she’d definitely know i’m not innocent. 

“i was at the library,” she said, running her fingers through her now knot free hair. “oh my god, your dad would burn a city down if he saw you with him.”

“he was nice to talk to…” i trailed off, blushing at the events that took place, after we spoke.

“you sure that’s why you had a good time? because he’s nice to talk to?” she asked, each question jabbing me like a knife, “or because it would piss mommy and daddy off-is that a fucking hickey?”

“why are you being so mean about it?” i questioned, avoiding her accusation of my obviously bruised neck, and i glanced at her instead of my phone for a second, slapping a hand over the mark.

“listen, (y/n).” she sighed, turning around to face me. “calum’s not the greatest guy ever, you might get hurt and i don’t even think you’re doing this for the right reasons.”

“i would’ve done this with anyone!” i argued, “you sound like you’re making excuses, you’ve never been like this.”

“anyone you found attractive,” she remarked, “don’t think you would’ve fucked just any-“

“so, i’m just supposed to end up with david. that’s it?” i cut her off, my voice faded out, cracking a bit.

she let out another breath, “well, that’s what you always say anyways. cutting it kinda close…”

“what if i don’t fucking want to,” i rolled my eyes, “you’ve been all ‘fuck david’ since you’ve met me, and now suddenly when i’m trying to get out of this…you don’t even wanna support me.”

“that was before it was all real, (y/n).” samantha spat, “unfortunately for you, you don’t have anything but david. what else are you gonna do? marry calum?”

“who knows!” i yelled,

“i thought you would’ve accepted it by now,” samantha growled, “you’ve grown up a spoiled little girl and now you don’t want it.”

i let out a grunt and threw my phone onto my bed, and buried my face into my pillow. i heard a faint ringing and i groaned, rolling over and answering my phone. “hello?” i didn’t check to see who it was.

“hey, sweetheart!” my mom’s voice chirped from the other line, it was odd to hear from her.

“hi mom,” i said, my heart racing, “what’s up?”

“so…” she started, and it only caused my body to go cold. “we think you should just..come home. now.”

“you want me to what?” i stammered, fully sitting up and staring at the floor in disbelief. they wanted me to do what?

“come home, we think you should come home.”

i sputtered gibberish, not believing what i was hearing, “and why do we think this? who is we? what?”

“well david said-“

“oh so it’s david, you’re just gonna listen to whatever david says? i’m almost done! what the hell was the point of sending me if you’re gonna try and pull me out the second david says-“

“he just mentioned you weren’t doing well,” she said softly, but i’m fuming. “he thought it might be a good idea.”

“what does david know!” i yelled, my face hot. “he’s not even done with college! is he worried i’m tainted now, that our children won’t be perfect. god.” i couldn’t stop myself from raising my voice.

“calm down, (y/n).” my mom coos, i almost gag at her tone; it was condescending and i hated it. “i’m sure you can think about it and make a decision after midterms, right?”

“whatever,” i grumbled, and hung up. one of the many nights after that, i laid beside calum, blissfully fucked out. being around him was addicting, and i couldn’t get enough of him.

i closed my eyes sleepily, “wish i could just stay here,” i murmured, my head nodding to the side to look up at calum. he had his arm underneath my head, allowing us to touch and cool off at the same time.

“what was that?” he said, a cocky smile plastered on his face.

“wish i could just stay here.” i repeated, louder this time. the grin on his face exploded into a full smile. he pulled me closer to him, making me roll over halfway on top of him. i giggled and wrapped an arm around his waist. “i have to go home in a couple weeks…”

his grip on my arm tightened, “and see him.” he gritted his teeth, and i could feel his body tense up.

“i’m scared,” i whispered into the tattoo on his collar bone.

“why’s that, pretty girl.” he asked, posture softening at my tone. “wait-hold on.” he wiggled from my grip, leaving me laying face down on the bed. he returned a few moments later, wearing a pair of sweatpants and holding a shirt and boxers. he held them out for me.

i cocked an eyebrow at him, “so we don’t have to have a conversation naked,” he clarified, and i smiled taking the clothes from him. i shimmied then on, basking in his scent all around me. he climbed back into his bed, pulling the sheets back over us.

“why are you scared?” he asked again, comforter up to his chin, eyes wide and puppy like. i almost forgot why i was sad. it was easy to talk to calum about what was happening, after the day in the library he opened up a bit, softening around me, which was not what i had expected at all. i often filled him in, figuring updating him would be a release for me, but it only wove him into my life more.

i sighed, “i’m scared he’s gone propose to me.” i looked down at calum, and i wished i could keep the moment with me forever. he was right, this was dangerous, but i couldn’t stop myself.

“what would you say?” he whispered, reaching out for my hand to pull me to lay down with him again. my heart swelled at the sight of his messy hair and golden skin.

“i guess…” i squeezed my eyes shut, and laid back down. he pulled me close to him, “i guess i’d have to say yes.” i tried to focus on calum’s skin on mine and his smell instead of the knotting in my stomach and tears burning my eyes. instead of saying anything else, he squeezed me against his chest, and pressed a kiss to my forehead, leaving his mouth there.  

a/n- hi heres some slight angst. feedback is always appreciated. love u thank u goodbye until part 3

[tenseoyong]

This is for the salt session of tomorrow and I thought I would send it to you bc I can't bc I'm going to explode. The thing is that I have this toxic friend who I want to distance myself from but I can't bc she knows WAY too much and I'm scared that she will speak to someone abt what she knows. I don't know what to do😓😓😓 Another thing is that I got a punishment for skipping class and the worse thing is that we did it unintentionally! And our teacher said that there wasn't going to (1/♥️)

Be a punishment but there was and I’m mad bc my parents are going to get mad and I lost my locker key and my USB with my fucking lab report and now I’m fucked pls help I’m unhappy lately and I know your problems are bigger than mine but I still feel like shit bc (this is going to sound bad?) I’m not a bad person and I feel like I don’t deserve all this bullshit! I just want to be happy dudeeee is that so hard? Oml I feel like shitty shit (2/♥️)

Do you have advice? What should I do, pls help (4/♥️)

i think you just numbered #4 wrong, and it was just these three, i hope tumblr didn’t eat anything. if i’m missing a part im so sorry!

okay first off, you are under no obligation to keep harmful people in your life. from what it sounds like, your friend is a right fucking bitch. it’s a might vs a will. you will continue to suffer if you keep being around her, while you might suffer if she’s out of your life. you can’t know what will happen, but the most important thing is you’re away from her. unless you like…secretly killed someone ad confided in her about it, i can promise you whatever she knows, IF she says anything, no one will hate you like you think they will. it might be embarrassing things, but a risk of that getting out vs being around someone not good for you, it completely outweighed. if you don’t want to talk to her anymore, don’t. don’t reply to her. don’t hang out with her. block her if you feel it necessary. you deserve to be safe and happy with your life, and keeping toxic people in your life isn’t something anyone needs. 

about your schooling, did you explain it was an accident? i’ve 100% had to tell my old teachers i didn’t think school started back until tomorrow…not my proudest moment but hey, they understood. it’s really a normal thing, some times you just miss school on accident, it happens. your usb, easily explained too. you literally lost it. what can they be upset for? they’ll probably give you a little bit of an extended time to redo it(that is unless you’re already in trouble for it??). again, had happened to me. when i had a cat that liked to steal things, usbs were always lost. can’t you get another key? or is it one of those padlocks, because i swear to god i had to have mine cut off every other week because i kept forgetting the code. it’s just a lock, don’t sweat it baby.

all in all, get away from your friend, and mistakes happen. you shouldn’t feel that bad about them, and you definitely shouldn’t be punished hard for them(if at all, i don’t think you should but that’s just my opinion). it’s completely okay to be upset, you’re allowed to.

i love you and i hope it works out well, keep me updated~

[shleezaemour]

Mine!!-a Soangelo smut fic

This is rated R and is very graphic. If you don't like reading things like that I suggest you skip this particular fic!! Will had been working in the infirmary for 12 days straight. I hadn't seen him except for mornings lunch and bedtime. I would make him breakfast and let him sleep as much as he could only to find him exhausted by the end of the day. Even falling asleep at the dinner table twice. I felt so bad for him. I also felt bad for me because Will being exhausted meant no alone time for us and I was getting a little frustrated. Will had a new class of healers in and since he was head healer he was teaching them all the last two weeks. Apollo apparently slowed down having kids so a few of them were not his siblings. He had 3 new apollos 1 Aphrodite 2 Demeter and 3 Hecate kids. It was a full class and each of these training sessions seemed to be twelve hours each. So needless to say I was bored. Even my fighting classes in the arena weren't twelve hours long. Usually they only took up four and only an hour was me actually teaching the rest is people trying it out and me correcting stances and lunges. After my morning class I decided to surprise Will with some lunch only to find him in the infirmary trying to teach kids how to make scrape paste which is this awful smelling teal paste that is imbued with Apollo hymns and nectar. Heals scraps and abrasions in less than 10 minutes. "Dr. Solace could you help me I have a pain" I dramatically fell against the wall with my wrist to my forehead doing my best impression of a southern bell. "Oh darlin I'll help you with any pain you can throw at me" he kissed me chastely grabbing the paper bag out of my hand. "I hope you like it?" "Is.. is that chili I smell?" "Yup with cornbread included I kinda...(whispering in ear) traveled to Austin to that place you told me you liked as a kid.." "You didn't!" "I did" "Oh baby you are way to good to me.. how will I ever repay you?" "Oh I can think of a few ways..." His eyes darkened as he leaned into me. Melting into him I heard a cough behind him. "Hey Will? I have a scrape here on my hip could you show me how the paste you showed us how to make should be applied?" The girl was about 17 years old and an obvious Aphrodite girl. She was about 4 inches shorter than Will (I was almost a whole foot shorter) she had this shiny ruby red hair and matching lips that were perfect in shape. Curvy yet delicate. Eyes so green they rivaled Percy's.. I instantly hated her. Pulling her scrub pants down way to low... like pube line low she showed us this tiny little scrape. Looks like she did it herself scratching. A low growl escaped my throat surprising even me. Will shot me a look of "dude what the hell was that?!" I shrugged. Getting the paste he kneeled down taking a wooden tongue depressor spreading the paste on the scrape. She had the audacity to moan as he put it on. Then she shot me a wink. Oh fuck this bitch!! "Oh it's cold. Thank you Will your so gentle" then she reached to kiss him on the cheek while squeezing his arm. "Uh yeah ok well go sit down for ten minutes and have Lisa the Demeter girl wipe it off for you" "Is there a special way to take it off? Maybe you should show me?" She whined. "No it's just normal paste Lisa can do it" Flashing him a greedy smile she sauntered off flipping her hair giving me one last bitchy wink. "Oh we need to have a talk outside like now!" "What?!" "Now!" Pulling him outside I could hear that bitch chuckle. "Babe what's wrong?" "What's wrong! Who the Fuck is that!" "That's Desi she's pipers new sister she arrived a month ago. She has a healing voice actually she can sing and make people better that's why she joined the infirmary. Like the healing power of love type thing I guess. She's the best in the class actually. She can spot relationships too it's actually really cool." "Cool? It's cool? Is it cool when she's bending over infront of you asking you to touch her and..." "Wait! Are you jealous?" "Jealous no I'm not.. Will that's stupid it just she's obviously not here just to learn how to heal!" "Nico your being unreasonable just because she is attractive and a Aphrodite girl doesn't mean she's hitting on me" "What are you blind! She just winked at me twice!" "Really cause that sounds like she's hitting on you!" "No she winked at me because she knows watching you touch her bothers me!" "So you are jealous!" "I'm.. I'm not.. oh fuck you Will. Enjoy your chili!" I stomped off leaving him staring after me. How could he not see what's going on! How could he not see her fawning over him. Men I swear pathetic! Well maybe not cause I'm a man but still. I needed to kill something. Hit something. Scream! I ran toward the arena snatching up my Stygian iron sword. Percy saw me heading in and came up next to me. "You look pissed!" "I am pissed!" "Wanna talk about it?" "No!" "Wanna spar about it?" "Only if you feel like bleeding" "Oh I feel like bleeding!" "Fine let's go ocean spray!" "You got it deathboy!" I spent the next few hours exhausting my body slashing and lunging at Percy. Trudging into my cabin my sister was lounging on my bed listening to one of my records. "Oh my gods Nico what have you been doing?" "Sparring with Percy." "Yeah well you need a shower. Throw your clothes out the door and I'll put them in the wash with mine cause you can't leave those laying around with me here this weekend." "Ok I got it I smell sis! I'm a dude I sweat it happens." "Yeah well im serious" I started taking off my clothes just to make her freak out. Covering her eyes screaming at me I threw my stuff at her and walked to the bathroom. The shower felt good. The hot water was washing the stink of jealously off of me but I couldn't get that feeling in the bottom of my stomach to untie itself. I heard Hazel walk on the bathroom to set my PJs on the toilet for me. "I have fresh towels for you too." "Thanks Haze... hey can you stay I wanna talk to you about something" "Can't this wait til your out of the shower?" "I'm not going to lie the minute I get out of this shower I'm not going to have the nerve to ask you" "Ok shoot" I heard her sit on the closed toilet. To some this would be weird even for a brother and sister but Hazel and I grew up in a time where you were closer to your siblings than now. Plus she couldn't see anything anyway with the shower curtain. I couldn't look her in the face and ask these questions. "What do you know about that new girl Desi?" "Other than that she's a boyfriend stealer? Nothing" "Boyfriend stealer?" "Yeah she likes the game of flirting and hooking up with girls boyfriends just to split them up for fun because she never dates the guys afterwards. She gets far enough with them to break the couple up than she bolts." "How do you know this?" "Piper told me and she had already tried to hit on Jason and Percy and got shot down pretty quick. Why do you ask?" "Cause she's flirting with Will. Like hitting herself so he has to touch her and feeling him up infront of me" "It's like she's bound and determined to break up atleast one of the big three" "If that's the case why didn't she just try to go after me?" "Because your gay. She had no chance with you where with Will she has a chance because he's bisexual" "You don't think... you don't think he would.. do you" "Will? No Nico he loves you and he's the monogamous type." "I hate to admit it but I'm jealous. I'm also afraid Will might give in to her advances" "Why would you think that Neeks! " "Cause she's a girl and she has things that I can't give him!" "Of you don't think Will is smart enough to see right through her your dumber than I thought!" "Hazel you know what I mean!" "Will loves you he won't give in I'm sure of it." "What makes you so sure" "Cause instead of going to the bonfire tonight he's asleep on your bed right now. Like out cold!" "Wait he's here?" "Yeah he fell in your bed and died" "Poor thing. Probably swallowed his dinner without even tasting t and passed out." "Pretty much. I took his shoes off for him" "You think I have anything to worry about?" "No atleast not on his end. Her end well she will try Neeks but she will fail" "Thanks sis" "No problem. Make sure you strip him before you go to bed you know how hot he gets at night." "How do you know that?!" "Because I do both of your laundry. This PJs are always soaked in the morning when I stay here" "Yeah well..." "Yeah I know he probably sleeps naked when I'm not here right?" "Correct" "Yeah we'll leave his underpants on please and no funny business while I'm here!" "Gods just go!" She left laughing. Like her and Frank don't fool around! After my shower and nightly routine I padded my way toward the bed. Will was still on jeans and scrubs. Hair pulled back in a pony tail drooling on his pillow on his side of the bed. Turning his heavy ass over I undid his pants and pulled them off. Lifting him up I took off the scrub shirt which already was pretty sweat soaked from the short time he was asleep. Unlike me he didn't stink as much as have this manly musk scent. I loved it. Crawling in bed next to him I spooned him from behind kissing his neck as he clasped my hand entwining our fingers. I maybe smaller but I liked being the big spoon. The next morning I stirred sleepily as he kissed me awake. "Baby I got to go to work" "No baby stay" I whined in a croaky voice. Attaching myself like an octopus. "Baby I really got to go but why don't you stop by later ok?" "Fine" "Good. I love you" "Love you too dork" Kissing me chastely he got up from the bed and I watched him stroll out the door. Away from me.. toward her... * I'm sitting on my bed waiting to go see Will. He told me he would be free around 6 tonight cutting class short so we could have some alone time. The lights were off in my room and I was trying my best not to snoop. If I wanted to I knew there was always a dark corner in the from left corner of the infirmary.. I could peek into the shadows and see what's going on. I trust him I do trust him and it's only an hour before I see him but the not knowing is killing me. I cave. Swirling the shadows infront of me I open a window in the darkness seeing into the infirmary and watch the scene play out in front of me. Will was dismissing the kids and cleaning up the supply for the day. No jnjuries today since the lava wall is in the fritz and campers have greek classes with annabeth and arts and crafts. Low and behold little miss paste waist is still lingering "helping" Will clean up. Every time she came close to him she would find a reason to touch him. Rubbing different body parts on him. Her ass. Her chest. A innocent hand or brush of an arm. How did he not realize what she's doing! She's shamelessly throwing herself at him! "So Will your bi right?" "Uh yeah." "So that means you like girls too right?" "I'm attracted to girls as well as boys yes" "But your dating the Emo kid right?" "Nico isn't Emo he's just.. nico" "How long have you two been dating?" "Almost two years in October" "So do you date girls too?" "No I'm dating Nico" "But if your bisexual..." "I'm faithful to Nico Desi." "But wouldn't you prefer both?" "Some people do that and that's ok but I can only date one person at a time" "Oh well what kind of girls do you like?" "I don't know I've never had a crush on one really. Not like Nico." "So you love him?" "Of course I do what's not to love?" "Well isn't he depressing and hateful? That's what everyone else says about him. Creepy too. He can raise zombies and are you not freaked out that he pretty much has the aura of death around him all the time? I just think you deserve better" she said placing her hands on his shoulders snaking them around his neck. "I don't know who you have been talking to but that's not what being around nico is like. The thing about being a healer is understanding and excepting the idea that you can't save everyone. Some times death is unavoidable. Nico taught me that. Plus Nico for me is forever." "But arnt you curious? Just a little.. about being with a girl..." "Even if I was it wouldn't be you Desi." He said calmly and brushed her hands off his shoulders. "Why not? I won't tell.. you can have me and no one has to know..." she leaned in about to kiss Will. I jumped through the shadow landing in the corner just to see her place her lips on him. Before I could jump in and scratch the bitches eyes out he pushed her away.. harshly. "Desi I think you should leave and I think you should rethink your job here in the infirmary!" "But.. but Will I.. I.. " "Keep your buts to yourself! Gods Nico was right about you! I don't want to see you in here again unless your sick or hurt and don't bother asking for me. Kayla or Austin can help you just fine!" Stomping her foot she turned and saw me. Smiling she licked her lips. "Atleast I got to taste him once." Wink. "Bitch when I'm done with you Bryce Lawrence will look like a dream!" Will grabbed me as she skipped out the door. I broke free heading to the door. Will followed me thinking I was going after her. Once at the door I locked it and turned around. Grabbing Will by the front of his shirt I slammed him against the door. "Don't you ever. Let. Anyone. Touch. You. But. Me!" I shouted in a staccato rhythm. Placing my lips harshly against his. I tangled my fingers in his hair raking them painfully over his scalp. Biting and pulling at his lower lip I growled deep in my chest "MINE!" In a wild tongue play we stumbled across the infirmary dancing past cots and supplies til we toppled over onto one. I straddled his lap roaming my hands under his shirt feeling his strong corded muscle under my rough hands memorizing his topography. Moving his hands under my shirt grazing my sides with his finger tips lightly I could feel his heart hammering under my palms. A sheen of sweat broke out over my skin as I undid his fly pulling at his pants. Crawling off of him he removed his shirt as I pulled his length out of his shorts. On my knees infront of him I placed opened mouth kisses at the base of him squeezing his crown with thin fingers. Locking eyes he knew better than to take them off of me. I was going to remind him that he was mine. Give him a memory he could recall anytime anyone tried to challenge his love for me. Licking him from base to tip feeling he shudder that ran through his body. Swallowing him in my mouth I could taste him leak little spurts of pre cum onto my tongue causing my mouth to salivate. Panting above me he gripped my shoulders kneading his fingers into my shoulders and down my back. Reaching one of his hands over he grabbed a tube of lubricant. Placing it next to him I made quick use of it applying it to my fingers. I put my fingers inside of him two at a time. He deserved a little pain being stupid enough to think that girl wasn't into him. Crying out he excepted my harsh intrusion as I took him further and further down my throat. Trying to take control he placed one hand in my hair only for me to snatch it and hold his wrists at his sides. Nope sir you are not the one in charge here! Using the flat part of my tongue I ran it up the underside hitting the main vein so slowly that I thought he might just die from the heavy breathing and the panting it was inducing. Crooking my fingers upward a high pitched sound that didn't usually escape Will flew from his lips. Looks like I found his good spot. Three fingers now... Will was mess. Trying to hold himself together at my mercy. Stripping him completely naked I began to strip my own clothes off making it a bit of a show. Slowly peeling fabric off of my pale skin letting him take in every inch of my body. Reaching for his dick I smacked his hand away. "No touching! That's my job Doctor Solace and you will not have me employed so soon" Reaching down to my skinny jeans I looped my thumbs in the waist playing with it. Leaving him exposed vulnerable and wanting. Licking his lips as I played with my sharp hip bones I dragged the waist band down hooking my thumb in my briefs exposing my base. Biting his lower lip at the sight of me I could feel the impatience wafting off of him just waiting hard and leaking for me. Taking my time I slid my pants off along with my briefs feeling sexier than I ever have. Something about his undivided attention was really doing it for me. Straddling the cot I lifted his legs to rest on either side of my thighs pulling him to me. A little bit of fear was laced in his eyes. I had never taken Will. This would be his first time on bottom.. I didn't ask him. I was telling him. Obviously he expect me to straddle him not the cot itself. To bad doctor Solace your going to have to deal with this. I nudged my member infront of his entrance teasing it. A faint glow broke out across his face as his freckles took alight at the impending situation. Stroking up and down him I pulled and teased at his pubic hair causing his dick to twitch betraying his excitement. Pushing in slowly... well I wasn't pushing I was pulling myself into him by his thighs. A low groan filled the room much louder than I think even he expected. Hot wet heat surrounded me and I began to distract myself by bringing my hand to his face. Pressing my thumb against his lips tracing their outline the tip of his tongue snuck out to taste my skin. Pressing my thumb on the pad of his tongue I could feel him begin to suck. Short shallow strokes into him turned into long hard ones. Pulling him up by his hips I surprised him with my strength angling us differently so I could find his prostate. I prodded until I saw the sweat on his brow form and his eyes close at the sudden sensation he was feeling. You could read all of them on his face. Each and every feeling. The stretch he was feeling the euphoria of the sweet spot. The lack of control he wasn't used to having. Arms flying trying to grip onto something that wasn't there trying to give himself a little bit of grounding. I wasn't having that. I liked him like this. Overwhelmed....Submissive.....Desperate. My hand snaked around his throat squeezing just hard enough for him to know I was there but not enough to cut off his breathing entirely. "Ni..nico..p..please can I.. I need.. please" "Oh do you want to cum Will?" "Yes!!!" He wailed hoping I could grant him release. "Nope not yet. You haven't learned your lesson yet" "But.. b..but... I can't.. almost.." "Oh no you don't!" I pulled out harshly leaving him whining at the loss. Feeling empty and so so close. "Hands and knees. Now!" I ordered. Turning at lightning speed he flipped and spread far enough that I could reach him. Getting on my knees I clawed at his backside trailing and digging my nails into his flesh almost to the point of drawing blood. I sheathed myself in him with a jolt to his body excepting the foreign feeling. "Please!! Oh my gods please Nico I.. I can't hold.." "Can't hold what Will tell me!" "I'm going to.. I need to.." "I still don't hear the words Will" "Nico I need to come please can I cum please please please!!" His desperate cries set me off inside him. "Will oh..ahh..cum baby cum!" I could feel him shudder his orgasm onto the cot below as I twitched and pulsed inside him riding us both through. Grabbing a blanket from the side of the cot he laid it on the white substance and turned over pulling me to him. Sprawling on top of him we basked in our after glow breathing heavy not touching or talking other than just me being on top of him. "Well.. wow.. that happened.." "Yeah.. I think that's the first time we defiled the infirmary." "Well then.. looks like we will be doing that more often" "Oh.. yeah..often.."

[dbtrilogy2]

Kids(1)

Stanley Deleting the text message I block yet another number. Why can’t he take the hint and just leave me alone. Parents are suppose to be loving and caring which is not even close to my birth father. He stopped coming around completely then randomly started trying to come back two years ago. You’d think hearing his daughter tell him she doesn’t want him around anymore give out a clear sign. Looks like I’ll have to change my number yet again. Taking a deep breath I calm myself down. I can already feel my heart beating faster than it should I go on getting myself ready for school.

Letting the last curl fall off my wand I sigh fluffing my hair. I always keep things simple over the top just isn’t for me. The clock on my phone read 6:30 meaning I should be eating right now. Grabbing my bag, new iPhone 7 custom earbuds I walk out my room.

“Get that kid!” Maurice yelled from down the hall.

Maliki was trying so hard to run from him slipping because of his socks. I caught him just as he was about to pass my door. Maurice tackled him making them both go flying.“What are yall doing running around this early?”

“Stanley!”

“Give me my phone you toad! Don’t know why you thought you’d get away from me so easy.” He snatched it out his small hands.

Laughing I pull Maurice from on top of him. “You two got some serious problems to work out. Come on let’s go have breakfast.”

“Your not always gonna be around to save him Stanley. Imma get you when I get back from school.” He playfully pushed his head.

In the kitchen dad was reading something on his laptop mom was at the stove. The twins were in their high chairs snacking away on their Cheerios.

“Morning everyone!” They both looked over with smiles.

“Morning baby girl. Where this ugly kid come from?” He kisses my head then takes Maliki tossing him around.

“He looks just like you Chris if he’s ugly so are you.” Mom laughed setting a plate in front of me and kissing my head. “Mona lets go Julian will be here any minute and if you late I’m kicking yo ass!”

“Can I please get myself together without being interrupted!?” She yelled back followed by her door slamming.

“Did she just-Imma kill her.”

“No no I’ll go get her.” I put on my winning smile stopping mom from charging.

“Thank you Stanley lord knows if she goes to jail we all fucked up cause I can’t take care of all yall lil trouble makers.”

Jogging back up the stairs heading to the room across from mine I knock. The music was sorta loud so I knocked again.

“Uh what oh good Stanley come help me pick one an outfit and two a song.” She pulled me in.

“Uh ok I guess but you know mom was about to come up here and rip your head off right?” Laughing I sit on her bed.

“Yeah I didn’t meant to yell its just I’m so fucking stressed right now I wanna pull my hair out!”

“Your fourteen what could you possibly be stressing about?”

“Have you forgotten what today is!?” She shook my shoulders.

“Friday?”

“Uh no we’re trying out for the cheer team today remember. This is the highlight of my high school life!”

Rolling my eyes I go to walk out. “Hurry up Julian is on his way.”

“Yeah yeah I just hope you remember our cheer!”

Getting back down to the kitchen Julian was now here and playing with Maliki. Seeing me he smiled coming over. “Wassup LeLe.”

“Hey Mona should be down soon.” I sit back at my seat.

“Cool. You know the fair is in town?”

“Oh yeah it was lit last week you trynna go this weekend?” Maurice asked mouth full.

“Swallow it boy don’t talk with your mouth full.” Mom slapped his head.

“Dang it momma you messing up my hair.” He glared getting another slap but from dad.

“Shut up and do what she said. Mona five seconds or I’m coming up there!”

A door slammed and she came running down. “Morning everyone.”

“Mmhm hurry up and eat before yall are late.” Mom said sliding a plate her way as I take mine to the sink.

Julian Grabbing another hand full of grapes aunt Cam started swatting me. “Boy get out my kitchen!”

“Love you to aunt cammy!” I kiss her cheeks. She squirmed only making me laugh more. “Let’s go hoodlums!”

“Are max and your mom coming over for dinner tonight?” She asked picking out my curls.

“I don’t know probably but I’m trynna hit up the fair tonight can I bring your kids?”

“Yes take all of them!” Uncle Chris came in putting a mug in the sink. “And tell Isabel and max not to come.”

“For what?”

“Im taking my wife to dinner then coming home for dessert so they spending the night at your place.” He wrapped his arms around her.

“All of them like Mona Maurice Maliki the twins and Stanley?” My heart started pumping faster.

“Well the first three the others going with Cam parents. I’ll even give them all money.”

“Cool with me but y'all gotta let mom and Max know.”

“That ain’t even a problem but y'all need to be going. Niggas out my house!” He called out.

One by one we walked out the house and to my car. Maurice and Mona fought for the front seat like always. Stanley had ear buds in just walking to the car. I jumped in front of her watching her jump.

“You scared me don’t do that.” She laughed hitting my arm. I open the door for her making her blush. “Thank you.” I held her hand as she got in.

“No problem. Stop fighting over the damn seat and get in the car!”

“Tell mush mouth to get in the back and we can be gone!” Mona yelled pushing Maurice face.

“No tell super forehead to get in the back!” He pulled off her glasses. “Now what four eyes!?”

“I swear Imma stop taking y'all to school y'all can take the bus for all this shit making me late.” I clench my jaw starting up the car. “Either one of you move or y'all lapping up I gotta go!”

“You guys come on just-”

“Nah here’s how this goin.” I get out looking at my watch real quick.

Going over to the front seat I yank them both out then open Stanley door gently pulling her out. I let her sit up front. Mona and Maurice started yelling. Paying them no mind I go back to the driver side getting in.

I dropped off Maurice first being sure to let him know he catching the bus home then head to our school. “So uh Stanley did you wanna go to the fair tonight?”

“Why didn’t you ask me if I wanted to go?” Mona moved up.

“Because I just asked her first and sit back. Y'all staying at my place tonight anyway I was just seeing if she wanted to go then I would ask you.”

She smacked her teeth sitting back. “We had already made plans to go with Sam and Ian.”

“What!? Who’s Ian?” I swerve into a spot.

“Stanley new boo.” Mona gushed getting out. “Come on before the bell rings.”

“Wait since when you got a boo?” I catch up to them after locking up my car.

“He’s not my anything Mona just wants us to be together because in her mind it’ll be cute. Ian is Sam friend.” She rolled her eyes putting her ear buds in her bag.

“Ay Julian over here!” Some of my friends called for me.

“Mona!” Their friend called out.

Stanley was at her locker getting books while Mona was talking. I wonder what that’s about. I went over leaning on the locker next hers. Seeing me she smiled. “What?”

“Why you not over there with Mona and them girls?”

She looked back at them and shrugged. “Their more her friends than mine plus I have to get my things together for class which will be starting soon.”

Looking over her I lick my lips. “True so about this Ian nigga.” She laughed making my heart skip a beat. “You feeling him or something?”

“No…what’s it to you?” She closed her locker smirking up at me.

“Well your my favorite of all these fools so I’m just looking out for you. I’m not gonna let no nigga play you.” I stood a little closer seeing her still blushing. “I wouldn’t let that happen with Mona either but know you.”

“O-ok well uh t-thanks for looking out for me.”

“No problem LeLe. We gone have fun tonight then come back maybe we can watch some scary movies or something.”

“Yeah but we have to have popcorn or something Mona and I hate watching any kind of movie without snacks.”

I was kinda hoping for just us two but Mona being there is cool to…I guess. “Well just get some shit on the way back.” Just then the bell rang. “I’ll see you at lunch?”

“Yup bye Juli.” She smiled and walked off.

A few feet away and she looks back at me. I winked and chuckle as she covers her mouth with her books.

“Ay come on what you doing?” My friends came over pulling me. “What you doing talking to the youngin ain’t she your cousin?”

“Nope.”

So I guess you can already tell I have a little thing for Stanley. I’ve honestly had these feelings for years now. I wanna tell her but afraid she’ll turn me down because she’s my cousin adopted sister and she might consider us cousins to…I don’t.

Mona Almost lunch time just this last class and I can finally eat something. I should be fat as hell honestly with the way I eat but I’ve been blessed. Clare and I were walking arms linked with Stanley in front of us.

“Hey baby!” Ian ran up arms out to her. She ducked him and kept on walking. “Man stop playing me!” He ran after her.

Sam smirked taking me from Clare wrapping his arms around my waist kissing my neck. “I missed you.”

Giggling I kiss his cheek. “I missed you to. We still going to the fair together right?”

“Yup.” He squeezed me making me giggle again.

“Ay watch all that.” Julian pulled him off me pushing him in a different direction.

“Uh really Julian?”

“Yeah better hope I don’t tell uncle Chris on yo fast ass get to class.” He pushed me a little.

“Hi Julian.” Clare waved twirling her hair. “Did you get my uh text?”

“I blocked your number since me telling you stop texting and calling me didn’t get through your head….anyway like I said Mona get to class.” He walked off with his friends.

“Your cousin is so sexy!”

“Uh ew.”

Walking into our classroom Clare and I just laughed all the way to our seats. “I swear my body leaks for that boy I just wanna do so many unholy and possibly illegal things to him.”

“Excuse you miss freak of the week that’s my cousin I don’t wanna hear that shit. Shame on you!” We walk towards our desk and I see Stanley face in her book. “Hey don’t forget about cheer tryouts it’s after school.”

“I know Mona I’ve only gotten at lease five messages about it from you.” I took my seat on her right side. “Hey Clare nice shoes.” She waved with a smile.

“Mmhm thanks. Anyway Mona I’m super excited for you to be on the team since there’s no way you could possibly not get on.” She squealed.

“Yeah yeah me and Stanley have been practicing our asses off for this-”

The teacher gave us a warning. We both just rolled out eyes and wait until she’s not pay us any attention again.

“Wait so Stanley is trying out to?” She turned up her face. “Why that’s not her thing…..I did hear that the chess club is looking for some new nerds for the cult.” She laughed flipping her hair.

“What the hell are you saying?”

“Mona and Clare not gonna warn you again.”

“Ok ok go on.” I looked at Clare then back up front. What is she trying to say? Whatever it is if it’s bad and about my sister she bold as hell.

Stanley may only be my adopted sister but were closer than any blood sisters could actually be. Yeah we are complete opposites but that’s nothing. Nobody can talk about her like that. We held off talking mostly on my part cause I’m low key pissed off about whatever Clare is hinting at. While I’m working she tapped me.

“All I was trying to say is…she doesn’t fit with us I mean look at her. The teacher is teaching….everyone else is paying no attention well most of everyone and then there’s her taking notes and listening.”

“Yeah because she’s not a dumbass like everyone else she’s really smart. Friends or not your not gonna talk about my sister like that.”

“But she’s not your sister. She’s a poor kid who got lucky befriending the right people.”

“Is that what you really think about her?” My foot started bouncing and I clench then unclench my fist.

“Well yeah because it’s true.”

“You got some serious balls to be talking about my family like that and to my face.”

I quickly raise my hand and ask to be excused using the reasoning of cramps. With the way I’m thinking and feeling Clare might not make it home and I will get expelled. When I got a yes I gather all my things.

“Mona what’s wrong?”

“I’m just leaving before I hurt Clare.” I say standing.

“What did you do to my sister?” I heard her voice making me turn back.

“Nothing you don’t have a sister.” Clare shrugged talking all loud making everyone look back.

“Who are you tell me who my family is? You don’t know anything about us.”

“Oh but I know enough. Befriend a wealthy family and get adopted by them making you set for life. I’m sure this was all just some plan made by your drugged up whore mother.”

“Clare your really pushing some buttons you don’t even want to be near.” Stanley walked up in her face. “You clearly only follow what you hear from blogs and nobodies like some lost puppy. If you’d spend more of your time invested in books and learning instead of what I’ve been through maybe things also your grades could be a little brighter.”

Clare balled up her fist standing and that’s when I dropped my things and start putting up my hair. If anything pop off I’m ready!

“I have much more important things to do other than worry about your sorry life.”

“Clearly that’s untrue. So what now your gonna try to beat me up to make yourself feel better? I’ll just go ahead and tell you now I’m not fighting you.” Stanley stood arms crossed.

“Oh what you gonna do call up your bodyguards or something? If it wasn’t for Mona family you’d probably be on your back with eagle legs getting that dope money for momma.” She smirked getting a few chuckles from other kids. I looked at them and they all stopped.

“What did you do Google me I’m not that important like honestly I’m not.”

“No duh.”

“Then why are you so invested in her life? You sound like some psycho.” I chuckled standing close behind Stanley.

“Because she’s a fake and shouldn’t be here. The kids who go here earned their way here unlike this unloved dope child.”

“Where is here Clare? Living a healthy life with a family who actually cares and loves me? Why are you so pressed about that….are you jealous?”

“Of what I got everything you do plus some and all because it’s rightfully mine.”

“Oh you’ve been working for that house those cars for how long now? Your clearly just jealous of our life and want to be her. No one likes a bitter bitch Clare trust me.” I laughed shaking my head getting some laughs. This bitch is crazy.

“Sorry your life sucks but don’t take it out on me that’s just petty and pathetic but then again look at you parents who leave for months without you….being this way is all you know especially since you don’t pay attention is class. Your a lonely soul just wanting love and when you see it in me how I’ve been saved and blessed with someone like Mona and her family it makes you think….who’s gonna save me?”

I swear I love this smartass sister of mine. She is reading this girl like her favorite book!

“I don’t need saving I have everything anyone could wish for!” Clare got closer and so did I. I’m telling you I am ready!

“It’s ok to cry for help but bullying is not the best way to do it that only makes things worst.” Stanley shrugged with a smile. The bell just rang but no one moved. She got her things together smiling at me.

I hugged her tight. “I’m glad we saved you.” Looking back at Clare she still wore her sad pathetic look of defeat. “Talk about my sister again….and I’ll make you cry more than every time your parents leave you. Don’t play with me bitch.”

[acorpseontheground-blog]

hi let me answer 400 fucking questions

1. Name: Jace 2. Nickname(s): i dont have any 3. Birthday: June 1 4. That makes you (age): im almost 15 5. Where were you born (city): Vancouver 6. Location right now (planet ): in my house 7. Shoe size: uh like 8 womens 8. How many piercings?: two, almost pierced my septum 9. Tattoos?: no 10. When you wake up you're: tired and sad 11. When you're about to sleep you're: tired and sad 12. Zodiac sign: gemini 13. Chinese sign: monkey i think 14. Righty or Lefty: righty 15. Innie or Outie: innie 16. School: no Section Two: Looks 17. Nationality: im really white 18. Hair colour: like dirty blonde 20. Weight: idk like 140lbs 21. Height: 5′10 i think 22. Braces? no 23. Glasses? no Section Three: Private Life 24. Do you have a boy/girlfriend?: yeah 25. If so, who?: uh someone who was not interested in me at all for 7 months  26. If not, do you have a crush on someone?: i mean 27. Who has a crush on you?: i mean  28. Ever cheated on your bf/gf?: no that shit is disgusting dont talk to me if you do that  29. Who was your first kiss: someone that i no longer talk to. dont regret it being them though 30. Who was your last kiss: my bf  31. Are you a virgin?: uh  32. Ever had a threesome before?: no  33. NQ- Every been swarmed by ladybugs?: no whattheufkc 34. Have you ever been in love?: yes  35. Broken any hearts?: most likely  36. Got your heart broken?: well i broke up with someone idk if that counts as having my heart broken but i was devastated but i had to do it sooo idk   37. Ever liked a friend? yes ive only really liked 2 people and theyve been my friends because i cant trust people 38. What happened? they have liked me back at some point Section Four: Past Relationships 39. How many relationships have you been in?: two 40. How many were serious enough to count: two? 41. Who were those serious ones: first kiss, my bf 42. NQ- Who used to be your best friend: uhhhhh ig first kiss 43. What made them different: i really liked their personality and the way they presented/ i was head over heels for them for like idk 3 years 44. What happened: i wasnt mature enough to handle myself 45. Best boy/girlfriend: my fucking GIRLS taylor and claire 46. Worst boy/girlfriend: someone i recently cut off contact with  47. Ever been kissed: yes 48. Who do you want back: uhgdjgkjdfhgkjd goodbye 49. Who do you regret: no one, i think all experiences are good and if i regret someone i would hace never gotten those Experience Points 50. Why?: n/a Section Five: Favourites 51. Song: shit uhhhh like or like like by miniature tigers?? or falling for you by mxmtoom and peachy?? or cherub rock by the smashing pumpkins idk my taste is wack 52. Movie: as you are but i shared it with the person i recently cut off contact with so uh 53. Food: bro. pickles. i even drink the pickle juice when im done with the pickles. 54. Drink: orange crush man 55. Store: shopping stresses me out 56. Television show: uh black mirror? 57. Holiday: hallo fucking ween 58. Book: words on bathroom walls i think 59. Ice cream: cookie dough 60. Sweets: m&m’s 61. Crisps:  wjat 62. Type of music: i listen to a lot? i listen to electronic, indie, alternative, rock, those sad boy hour songs really whatever i have like three different playlists for my tastes 63. Artist: really into teen suicide rn 64. Word: uh 65. Time of day: 1 am outside watching the stars 66. Dressing: like. salad dressing or clothes 67. Alcoholic drink:  i dont drink anymore tryna stay away from that so i dont revert 68. Colour(s): i love blue 69. Piece of clothing: my fidlar hoodie that concert was wild i got punched in the head 70. Character: DELSIN ROWE  71. Smell: campfire 72. Shampoo: idk i use whatever is in the shower 73. Soap: i use whatever 74. Smiley:  idk 75. Board game: definitely monopoly i live out the fantasy of being rich 76. Sport: i dont care 77. Number: i still dont care 78. Quote: idk  79. Animal: still a wolf shut up meanies >::((((( 80. Actor: idc 82. Vegetable: broccoli ofc 83. Fruit: oranges  84. Place to be: on the hill 85. Thing in your room: my guitar and my ukulele my fuckibng babies dont touch them 86. Gum: uh 87. Shape: uh> 88. Country: uh? 89. Mall: i hate malls 90. Car: idc wow im boring 91. Boy's name: br idk  92. Girl's name: idk 93. Family member: my sister sh 94. Restaurant: pepper lunch is kind of the shit 95. Movie place: we literally only have one movie theatre 96. Person to go to the movies with: my friends 97. Noise: idk 98. Brand of shoe: vans theyre comfy 99. Brand of clothing: idk 100. Body part of a chicken: the gobble part the fuck is that called 101. Swear word: uh? fuck? 102. Month: october 103. Possession: ukulele and guitar again 104. Team: ? 105. Season: winter it’s cold and people can’t bully me for being pale 106. Radio station: who listens to the radio 107. Magazine: who reads magazines 108. Favourite grade: none they were all stressful 109. Least favourite grade: grade 1 110. Teacher: mme martin 111. Least favourite teacher: mme leclerc 112. Subject: band 113. Subject to talk about: music Section Six: Family 114. Who's your mum?: my mom 115. Who's your dad?: my dad 116. Any step-parents?: no 117. Any brothers?: yes 118. Any Sisters?: yes 120. Coolest: brother/sister 121. Loudest: my parents fuck 122. Best relative: uh 123. Worse relative: someone who hit on my sister 124. Do you get along with your parents? sometimes 125. With your siblings? yes 126. Does anyone understand you? lmao ugh no one understands me;((((( 127. Do you have any pets?:  yes 128. If so, what kind and name? dog, cat, rosie, thea 129. If not, what do you want as a pet?: i want a snake so bad Section Seven: School 131. Are you still in school? yes 132. Did you drop out?: yes 133. Your current GPA: idk what that is 134. Do you buy or bring lunch?: both, sometimes we cant afford anything so like i just dont eat 135. ABC's?: what 136. Favorite class: band 137. Play any sports at school?: no 138. Are you popular? HAHA no 139. Favourite memory: uh when i failed three classes i loved that :) 140. Most humiliating moment: idk 141. Most funniest moment: bro idk 142. Most scared moment: when i thought my school was gonna be shot up lmfao Section Eight: What do you think of when you hear 145. Chicken: bacawk 146. Dog: bark 147. Christina Aguilera: oUOouIA 148. Ricky Martin: who 149. 50 cent: bottle full of bub 150. Poop: uh 151. Beach: woosh 152. Desert: the sound of sand? 153. Water: woosh 154. Osama: oh  155. Love: the sound of when you are holding your breath and then you exhale because they left but you didnt realize you were holding your breath 156. Your little brother: i  157. Butt: what 158. Clowns: get that shit away 159. Wonder: wahtr 16o. Brown: brrpoqn 161. Banana: peeling noise 162. Sex: moaning?? 163. Parents: yelling 164. Homosexuals: what 165. God: nothing Section Nine: Do you believe in 166. God: idk not really 167. Heaven: idk 168. Devil: idk 169. Hell: idk 170: Boogy man: no 171. Closet Monsters: no but im always paranoid someone is in my closet 172. Fortune tellings: no 173. Magic:  idk 174. Love at first sight: idk 175. Ghosts: yes 176. Voo-doo dolls: no? 177. Reincarnation: maybe 178. Yourself: no Section Ten: Do you 179. Smoke: not cigs, i’ll vape but i dont have one of my own, and if you got weed and want me to smoke it with you sure 180. Do drugs: weed? 181. Drink alcohol: not anymore 182. Cuss: yeah 183. Sing in the shower: yeah 184. Like school: no 185. Want to get married: yeah 186. Type with all of your fingers: on the computer not really only my middle and index finger 187. Think you're attractive: not really 188. Drink and drive: no ive had some horrible experiences 189. Snore: i dont think so 190. Sleep walk: used to 191. Like watching sunrises and sunsets: yes omg  Section Eleven: Have you ever 192. Flashed someone: no 193. Gotten so drunk til you threw up everywhere: haha yeah 194. Told that person how you felt: yeah 195. Been arrested: n o 196. Gone to jail or juve: no 197. Skateboarded: yes im so fucking bad at it though 198. Skinny dipped: no 199. Rock climbed: yes 200. Killed someone: no 201. Watched porn: yes 202. Gone on a road trip: yes 203. Went out of the country: yes 204. Talked back to an adult: yes 205. Broken a law: yes 206. Got pulled over: no i cant drive 208: Cried to get out of trouble: no 209. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: yeah  210. Kissed a brother's or sister's friend: no 211. Kissed a friend's brother or sister: no 212. Dropped something on the floor and let someone eat it anyways: yeah 213. Moon someone: no 214. Shop-lifted: no 215. Worked at McDonald's: no 216. Eaten a dog: no 217. Give money to a homeless person: yeah 218. Glued your hand to yourself:  no 219. Kissed someone of the same sex: yeah 220. Had a one night stand: no 221. Smoked: not cigs 222. Done drugs: weed 223. Lose a friend because of your ex: i dont think so? 224. Slap someone for being stupid: lightly 225. Had cyber sex: no 226. Wish you were the opposite sex: at one point in my life i wanted to die because of it 227. Caught someone doing something: yeah 228. Played a game that removes clothing: no 229. Cried during a movie: yeah 230. Cried over someone: yeah 231. Wanted to hook up with a friend: no 232. Hooked up with someone you barely met: no 233. Ran away from home: yeah 234. Cheated on a test: yeah Section Twelve: Would you 235. Bungee jump: yes pls 236. Sky dive: yes 237. Swim with dolphins: yes 238. Steal a friend's bf or gf: no 239. Try to be the opposite sex: oh 240. Lie to the police: no 241. Run from the police: idk depends on the situation probably not 242. Lie to your parents:yeah 243. Backstab a friend for your own well being: no ew 244. Be an exotic dancer: no 245. NQ- Kill the president: dont have a president Section Thirteen: Are you 246. Shy: not shy 247. Loud: no 248. Nice: i think? im also kind of an asshole 249: Outgoing: not outgoing 250: Quiet: kind of 251. Mean: sometimes 252. Emotional: yeah? 253. Sensitive: no 254. Gay: no 255. Strong: uh idk 256. Weak: not physically 257. Caring: yes 258. Dangerous: no 259. Crazy: no 260. Spontaneous: no? 261. Funny: ive been told 262. Sweet: idk 263. Sharing: yeah 264. Responsible: yeah 265. Trustworthy: yeah 266. Open-minded: yeah 267. Creative: i guess 268. Cute: uh no 269. Slick: idk 270. Smart: no 271. Dumb: no 272. Evil: no 273. Ghetto: no 274. Classy:  no 275. Photogenic: sometimes 276. Dependable: yeah ive made some mistakes though 277. Greedy: no 278. Ugly: no? 279. Messy: kinda 280. Neat: kinda 281. Perverted: uh well im not asexual 282. Silly: what 283. A B****: sure 284. A Good Listener: yeah 285. A Fighter: yeah 286. A Party Animal: no 287. A Game Freak: i like games 288. A Computer Freak: no Section Fourteen: Future 289. Dream job: musician 290. Dream house: fuck idk 291. Husband/Wife: someone i love 292. Kids: like 2 293. Names: , 294. Pets: doberman pls 295. Car: idk 296. Age you would want to get married: like 30 297. Best Man/Bride's Maid: idk 298. Honeymoon: idk Section Fifteen: Your friends 299. Best friends: taylor, claire 300. Known the longest: taylor 301. Craziest: taylor 302. Loudest: claire 303. Shyest: taylor 304. Best hair: i love them all 305. Best eyes: taylor has like multicoloured eyes 306. Best body: bro no 307. Most Athletic: claire 308. Hot-Tempered: both 309. Most impatient: idk 310. Shortest: taylor 311. Tallest: claire 312. Skinniest: uh skinnier is taylor shes smaller in general 313. Best singer: idk neither of them sing 314. Funniest: both 315. Can always make you laugh: both 316. Wish you talked to more: i have like 3 friends so keira 317. Wish you saw more: keira 318. Who drives you insane after a while: claire 319. Who you can stay around forever and never get sick of: taylor 320. Ever lose a friend because you took it to the 'next level': no 321. Whose always been there when you need them: taylor and claire 322. Who is like your family: taylor and claire 323. How many friends do you have?: 4 324. How many are really close? 2 Section Sixteen: The last 325. Thing you ate: burger 326. Thing you drank: water 327. Thing you wore: im in shorts and a hoodie right now? 328. Thing you did:  dog walk 329. Place you went: dog park 330. Thing you got pierced or tattooed: my ears 331. Person you saw: my mom 332. Person you hugged: my mom  333. Person you kissed: my bf 334. NQ- Person you beat to a juicy pulp: idk but id like to beat some people to a juicy pulp 335. Person you talked to online: this bitch thunder that is annoying we dont talk anymore shut the fuck up bro 336. Person you talked to on the phone: my call log says my mom 337. Song you heard: beach walk by whitewoods 338. Show you saw: like concert? fidlar 339. Time you fought with your parents: idk like today 340. Time you fought with a friend: idk 341. Words you said: “yeah”  Section Seventeen: Now 343. What are you eating: burger 344. What are you drinking: water 345. What are you thinking: miss 346. What are you wearing: shorts and a hoodie 347. What are you doing: writing this 349. Hair: messy? im sick 350. Mood: gross 351. Listening to:  nothing 352. Talking to anyone: no 353. Watching anything: mr nightmare Section Eighteen: Yes or No 354. Are you a vegetarian: no 355. Are you a carnivore: no 356. Are you heterosexual: no 357. Do you like penguins: yes 358. Do you write poetry: sometimes? i dont share it 359. Do you see stupid people: yes 360. You + Me: uh 361. Do you like the Osbournes: never really watched it 362. Can you see flying pigs: egrhf 363. Do you sleep with stuffed animals on your bed: no 364. Are you from Afghanistan: no 365. Is Christina Aguilera ugly: no  366. Are you a zombie: no 367. Am i annoying you: yes 368. Do you bite your nails: yes 369. Can you cross your eyes: yes 370. Do you make your bed in the morning: no 371. Have you touched someone's private part: yes why would you word it like private part Section Nineteen: This or That 372. Winter or Summer: winter 373. Spring or Autumn: autumn im quirky hahahahahahha 374. Shakira or Britney: neither 375. MTV or VH1: neither 376. Black or White: mix of both is good 377. Yellow or Pink: pink 378. Football or Basketball: basketball 379. Mobile Phone or Pager: mobile phone 380. Pen or Pencil: pencil i feel safer 381. Cold or Hot: cold it’s easier to warm up than to cool down 382. Tattoos or Piercings: piercings but i want a small tattoo 383. Inside or Outside: uh both 384. Weed or Alcohol: weed 385. Coke or Pepsi: coke 386. Tape or Glue: tape 387. McDonald's or In-n-Out: mcdonalds Section Twenty: Opinions 388. What do you think about classical music: love it! 389. About boy bands: sure! 390. About suicide: i dont think people understand that someone who is suicidal, their perception is collapsed. even though they subconsciously know they have other options, they believe with every bit of them that is their one and only choice.  391. About people who try to force their opinions on you: choke  392. About teen pregnancy: make sure you can handle the child and have support. if not, get an abortion or put it up for adoption. seriously. only keep it if it’s something you want, not because you were being shamed. 393. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years: on hastings shooting up heroin idk  394. Who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: taylor 395. About gay men: love yall Section Twenty-One: 396. Do you have a website: no 397. Current weather right now: uh cloudy 398. Current time:  8:15 pm 399. Any shout outs: no one follows me 400. Last thoughts: fuck, 

[ambz1234321-blog]

New year, new post

I remember the first time I realized I was more sad than I’d ever been before

It wasn’t the kind of sad when your heart gets broken and it just aches, it wasn’t the kind of sad when you lose someone close to your heart, it wasn’t the kind of sad when your feelings get hurt over something silly but you take it to heart. It was this awful, gun wrenching kind of sad that was a mixture of every other kind of sad possible. Where you were so sad it turned into a mind out of body experience where I was so lost in the sadness that it didnt seem like there was anything else in existence for a while.

I was 15. You’d think after being deathly sick 9 months prior that I’d be on a kick of loving life and appreciating another chance. It was the exact opposite, however. I went through my cloud nine moment after getting healthy again, I had soo many friends and the cool, older, hot boyfriend who helped me make soo many more friends. I was cool, skinny, pretty. I had it really good for a 15 year old girl. But 15 is a sticky age. A lot of people have a hard time for different reasons but it’s definitely an age where you broaden your horizons, some people more than others, and it isn’t always easy. Peer pressure and the pressure of high school wasn’t really what my issue was. My issue was that I reached this age where I started to realize. Realize how much of my life had been sugar coated, how i really knew nothing about anything, how the only thing that made me so cool and so popular was the fact that me, and everyone else around me, knew nothing. So when I started to realize and learn things about myself that to this day, people still don’t know i know, I realized that I wasn’t anything special, that if people knew me and where I came from, my background, they’d be a lot quicker to judge.

The first time I ever remember thinking why my family was “different” was in 7th grade when a girl asked me if it was true that i was a “test tube baby” since I didnt know my dad. I didnt know what she meant then but i was quick to tell her no.

It was weird. I always knew that I knew my dads name, that i used to see him, that he lived near Eden Drive. There was just these things I knew. Never verified for most my life, but I just knew. People asked me if I was black, spanish, why i looked nothing like my mom. I never knew the right answers but I also never cared because people always loved my tan skin and curly hair. I never cared because I was Queen Bee. I had so many friends that i couldn’t keep up. I was never alone, I was never bored. Which for an only child, I was lucky I had so many good friends around. I remember watching so many friends go through their first heartbreaks. The ones that made them think they were gonna die, never “fall in love” again. The ones that made people hurt themselves because they were so convinced that at 15, it was the end of the fucking world. Out of the blue, I found my end of the fucking world. And holy shit do i wish it was over some stupid fucking boy.

I hate to say this  is where it started but I think it did start because of a boy and a supposed “best friend”. I was the cool girl, with the hot boyfriend, and all the friends. I thought nobody would dare to betray me or backstab me. But they did. My boyfriend and best friend hooked up, he dumped me like a piece of garbage before college because what college boy dates a high school right?? I’m embarrassed that thats where it started but I also, 5/6 years later, have accepted that there’s a lot of things that contribute to why I feel the way I do. No matter how stupid or small. I spent the summer after my sophomore year in my bedroom. I was in and out of the hospital multiple times that summer. I was “dehydrated” or had a "stomach bug” twice a month. I feel stupid for lying but I was “dehydrated” because I’ve always eaten in my room so I’d throw away my food or hide it until I could throw it away. Id lay in the sun for hours without water until I felt nauseous. And then take 16 advil to make me feel better. I tried to be as discreet as possible which was stupid. But nobody caught on so I guess I did fine. I still can’t take the blue advil PM’s to this day because the first time I attempted to OD was with those because they had the most out of all the pill bottles in the cabinet. I puked for 12 hours straight and laid in my bed & on the bathroom floor in a basically acomatose state for 3 days.

I remember slowly falling asleep after taking those advil and having the song Super Rich Kids be on repeat for probably 14 hours till I started puking. I can remember that song faintly playing again and again, for what felt like years. Sometimes it would fade away and I’d swear I was dying. Other times it was blaring.

It still sends chills down my spine every time I hear it.

I tried so hard that summer. I’m still depressed and I hate that after so long I still haven’t gotten better. But then I think about all the things I never would’ve done if I had taken my life that summer.

It became a normal thing for a few months, if i wasn’t taking a bunch of pills to fall asleep, I was cutting myself anywhere I could hide it. I had a playlist on my iPhone 4s called “ill kill myself to one of these.”

The first time someone noticed the cuts on my wrist was a kid in my PreCalc and Trig class. He was friends with a lot of people I was friends with but we never really talked. He saw one day and asked if I was okay. Of course I said I was fine and he grabbed my hand and told me he was always there if I ever needed someone.

If I had a chicken nugget for every time someone has told me they were there if I needed them, Id be 700 pounds and probably happy at that point. But the one thing that was different about him, was someone noticed me for something more than the popular girl, with the big butt, and all the friends. He didn’t care about any of that and was one of the most genuine people I’ve known to this day.

Once school started up again, I felt much better. Always partying, always with friends. But there was still just something driving me crazy deep down. One friday in october, I was home for once on a weekend. And checked my Facebook to find a message from what I thought said, “Alex Lamonaco.” I froze, and looked again to see I was wrong.. It said Alexis Lamanaco. I was so damn confused and wanted to just block this person cause I thought they were fucking with me. But I decided to accept the message. Which was the click that changed so much for me.

I did not think for one second that accepting that message was gonna be opening a door to a whole new world that had been kept a secret from me for a reason.

I wasn’t an only child. (From my dads side). Not only did I find out I had a sister, but a niece on the way. I was in fact half puerto rican. My dad was a piece of shit. My dad was in jail. My dad was in jail for molesting my older sister who’s mom wasn’t as strong as mine to fight for sole custody and she told me she was happy it was her and not me.

We’ve talked on and off ever since. Ive blown her off every time I was supposed to meet her. But she has always been understanding.

My niece is 5 now. My sister is a really good single mom, she reminds me a lot of my own.

Im 19 years old and my mom still denies that she somehow made me with another man who’s half puerto rican. It drives me so crazy that she can’t tell me about our life but after what I’ve learned.. I can’t blame her one bit. I can’t blame her for drinking excessively my life. I can’t blame her for being sad most the time. I can’t blame her for anything. Especially because I’m at the age she was when she had me and I can’t even imagine having to deal with the things that woman did.

I can remember the second time I tried to kill myself like it was yesterday. It was exactly a year and three days ago, in my apartment in Laramie, Wyoming. But I am getting too drunk and crying too much to write about it so ill save that one for another time.

i write this with complete confidence and as good as it fucking feels to write this all out and look at the bigger picture, I’m bawling cause of how far I’ve let this come. I can remember exactly where this sadness started. I can’t remember every thing Ive been sad about because as this disease has taken over me, I’ve began to get sad at everything. No matter how good or bad. I’ve met so many people along the way who claim to be depressed, suicidal, or anxiety ridden. I can now see maybe why people never took me(still don’t take me) seriously about it. I was so good at faking it. I swear I can look at a person and be able to look straight through their fake happiness. But I also would never want to make that assumption because people who feel this awful, will go to such extremes to hide it and make sure nobody can see that side of them. I keep finding excuses for myself. I feel this way cause of this and cause of that.. blah, blah fucking blah. But the only real reason, is come of myself. Ive proved to myself over a handful of times that theres nobody out there who can fix this or help me fix this. But i still can’t find it within myself to help myself when I am the ONLY person who has the ability to do so. So… with that. Im gonna sleep on it.. for the almost 2000th day in a  row. night night.

[belt-on]

Lmao im addicted to these things even tho no one cares 1 Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? If im tired enough they stay open, they usually stay closed 2 Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? No bc I'm too poor for hotels 3 Have you ever stolen a street sign before? Ahaha no 4 Do you always smile for pictures? I don't like to smile but if I have to its some half hearted attempt and I look like im in pain 5 Do you ever count your steps when you walk? Ye ye 6 What is your Song of the week? Oh jesus. All Star ahahahshsshdndnfm 7 What do you drink with dinner? Milk, usually 8 What is your favorite food? Chickennn 9 Which movie could you watch over and over and still love? Uhhh, probably Spirit orrrr any HP movies 10 Last person you kissed/kissed you? My ex like four years ago ahahahaha 11 Were you ever a boy/girl scout? Nope 12 Can you cry on command? No not usually, I have to be an emotional mess already 13 Are you loyal? Uh, I guess? 14 When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? Uhhh technically three years ago but I typed it on the computer after bc my writing is shit 15 Favorite kind of sandwich? Salami w. Djon Mustard mmmmm 16 Best thing to eat for breakfast? Pancakes duhh 17 What is your usual bedtime? Aby time after 12AM 18 Are you lazy? Very 19 How many languages can you speak? One ahaha 20 Are you stubborn?: Not reallt I try but then get anxious and flustered and stop 21 Are you afraid of heights? Sort of but Iclike roller coasters for that reason 22 Do you sing in the shower? Nope I hate singing and being caught 23 Do you think musicals are cheesy? No but I don't watch them 24 Is Christmas stressful? Meh, I hate dealing with people who are my "family" but aren't blood related 25 Ever eat a pierogi? Ye ye not a huge fan 26 Favorite type of fruit pie? Appleeee, does pumpkin count as a fruit? It has seeds so thats likely...in that case it would be pumpkin 27 Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Equine Veterinarian 28 What do you wear to bed? Clothes? Pyjama pants and a shirt idk 29 Who would you like to see in concert? My cold dead soul. Jk MCR if they were alive and Gerard wasn't Geesus rn 30 What was the last concert you saw? Uhhhh, I thinkkkk it was The Used, may have been Warped tour and some random band idk 31 Tea or coffee Tea. Coffee is gross as shit 32 Do you want to get married? Ahahaha no 33 Do you want kids? God no ew 34 What’s your favorite part about today so far? Uh. I'm actually tired and I can't wait to sleep? I also ate buffalo chicken today mmmm 35 What are you doing tomorrow? Sleeping bc I have work on Sunday 36 What are you doing next week? School lolololol 37 Have you ever tried sushi? (Did you like it?) Nah haven't tried it. I don't eat fish anymore anyways soooo 38 How do you like your steak cooked? Not on my plate or anywhere in the vicinity 39 What do you like least about yourself? /Everything/ 40 Who’s your best / closest friend? @itsanimenotcartoon ahahahah 41 Who do you trust with your secrets? Idk I don't really tell anyone my deepest darkest secrets bc they aren't relevant? 42 Which friend would you go to in an emergency? Go to 40 again aye 43 What was the last text you sent? "We're walking to the store" 44 Does anyone hate you? Probably hah 45 How did you meet your spouse / girlfriend / boyfriend? Excuse you? 46 Would you rather live in the countryside or in the city? Country for sure mmmmm as far away as possible so I can see rhe stars and the galaxy ughhh 47 Ever had a detention? Sort of? I yelled in music class in grade 6 bc they wouldn't shut up for rhe music teaxher and she had no back bone to shut them up so I did it. She told me to stay behind so I did. Idk. 48 Which swear word do you use the most? Uhhh, Fuck or Cunt? Idk 49 Ever cried at school? Ahahahahahahahahahahahahdjfmfdlslszocododjxbxb yea 50 Who is the most intelligent person you know? Lol all my friends are like Einstein compared to me I'm so stupid bye killing myself. No seriously I'll likely die before 30 bc of suicide bc I hate myself so much and feel so worthless

[noahhernandez]

original (April 3rd, 2013)

3 year difference (April 3rd, 2016

Difference ? (Feb 10, 2017)

3 year difference lol

1. Is this the best year of your life? tbh this year has sucked so far lol!!!!!

it is april and i have not turned up like expected

Only Feb. Things are going okay

2. What was the first thing you did when you woke up? turn on the TV and see what was on netflix

Laid in bed and contemplate whether or not to make coffee.. i did

Struggled getting out of bed for work

3. The person you like is? nobody.

my co-worker Darrell.

Kenny.

4. Is anything bothering you? The fact that my room is a disaster, my grade in Algebra 2 is a 68, and that i am not famous

The fact that my room is still a disaster and that i am dropping my biology course because it was too hard for me.

The Fact that my room remains a disaster, and that I’m constantly stressed out about school, and I’m really trying with Kenny but I’m probably too invested

5. Does anyone annoy you? A lot of people do, white people

A lot of people still annoy me

White People

6. Would you like things to go ‘back to normal’ with a certain someone? no

Angelica, Natasha, and Coby because things really were cool but it doesnt matter anymore

No.

7. What was the las,t thing you did before you went to bed last night? I was in my mom’s room with like 3 kids and some guy and i was just chillin out with them

I was laying in bed watching Family Guy

Filmed a speech for my public speaking class, finished it, submitted it, walked in on my roommates fckin on the couch, went to sleep, they fought til 530am

8. Is life good? its decent

I’m content, I have my own place, I go to school full time, I work full time, I’ve got great friends, money, a car.

Still have all those things, I’m just tired at this point

9. Do you remember who you liked on New Years? nobody.

Nobody probably wait just kidding Harry

I think I was starting to like Kenny

10. Do you still like them? nobody

No

I like him now

11. Do you still speak to them? nobody

No

Yes

12. Told your parents you were going somewhere but went somewhere else? my dad, but my mom and i have a good relationship and i can tell her i am snorting cocaine tonight and she will be like ’ ok be careful xo’

Does not matter anymore

i’m an adult now

13. Are you dating the last person you kissed on the lips? haha, no.

No I am not

Nope

14. Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? my cousin no she snorts cocaine

My manager no she is my favorite

I think it was Angel, and she is like one of my best friends

15. Would you go out with someone right now if they asked? what do you mean like out like lets get together or like hey im hungry wanna come with me to get wings

It really all depends on who the person is

not desperate, really depends on who the person would be

16. Three days from now will you be in a relationship? i hope not

No lol

Probably not 

17. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? they do tell me sorry fellas youre kinda ugly

Yes

Yes

18. Have you kissed anyone in the last month? no

No

Yes

19. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for? my back.

My back

Have not been to the doctor since.

20. Do you like being home alone or does it freak you out? i liked it but then everyone left for me a week and i thought i was going to go insane

It does not matter I am always locked in my room.

I don’t talk to anyone at home anyways

21. Would you ever kiss anyone you texted today? i havent texted anyone today

Hm yes, my co-worker Kevin, but only because he is the best looking person I have texted today

Hm maybe like 2 people ? haha

22. Do you have any bruises on you? no thank god

Cuts and burns from work

I cut myself at work today

23. How was 2011 for you? 2011 was great actually, i ended jr. high really well, and started high school really well too making friends and stuff

Same

lol

24. How late did you stay up last night and why? like 1230, and no reason

230? because after work me and my coworkers went to IHOP and then just chilled out, and I watched like TV til i fell asleep

About 530 because my roommates were fighting and I could not sleep

25. Do you ever get good morning texts from anyone? no

No

Kind of

26. Do you regret anything you’ve done lately? i regret um nothing

I regret nothing still

Nothing

27. What woke you up today? this sound of little Einsteins singing

My brothers gf was talking really loud for like 2 seconds

My brother waking me up and my 30 alarms

28. What makes you happy? coffee and snickers and boys

Coffee, cigarettes, friends

Coffee, boys, and friends

29. Ever kissed on a boat?

No

Still a no

30. Have you ever been told that you are amazing? yes

Plenty of times

I honestly dont think so tbh wait JK yes

31. Finish this sentence: The last person I kissed is… ugly?

A good guy. sorry lol

the person I currently like

32. This time last year, can you remember who you liked?let me think no

It is April, prom season for me… you know I think I was chillin’

Wowza, Darrell my co-worker at the time, he recently just moved to Ohio

33. Do you like when people play with your hair? yes

yes

ya

34. Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? nOPE GOT SCHOOL LOL

Nope, I still got school

Nope, this time I got work

35. Waiting for something? for someone to come up and be like hello u wana be famous and rich

To get my degree, then someone come up to me and ask me if I wanna be famous and rich

To become board certified and open a private practice and someone ask me if I wanna be rich adn famous

36. Was last night terrible? nah

No, it was a good night tbh, lots of laughing with all my coworkers

Sure

37. Did you lose friends when you started dating someone? no

no, i would not let that happen

I would never let that happen

38. Are you the type of person to make people laugh?  yes i am i am the class bitch ass motherfucker but they think im joking

yes

Sure

39. Don’t tell me lies, so is the last person you texted attractive? i last texted angelica and she is pretty if she tries which is rare

yes

yes

40. Is tomorrow going to be a good day? it better be mrs honings better have passes me

no, i have school and then work right after

Work til 5. Maybe something with my friends after, but I doubt it

41. Are you missing someone?no

no

sure

42. Has anyone ever tried to ruin a relationship you were in?no

no lol

no haha

43. Do you believe in karma? eh

not at all

Maybe a little bit now

44. Do you sleep with a fan on? omg i have too

yeah the ceiling fan and then a standing fan

Same still

45. You think anyone’s thinking about you right now? of course yes

i wonder

Probably not.

46. Is there anyone you wish you were spending time with right now? not really

no

yes

47. Do you go to school? imma sophomore

freshmen in college

4th semester in college.

48. Is the person you last texted single? yes

yes

technically yeS?

49. Who was driving the last time you were in a car? omg?? my mom i think

me

I was driving, brother in passenger seat

50. Have you ever used the word ‘rawr’ in an actual conversation?OMG NEVER IF ANYONE CAUGHT ME SAYING THAT I’D KILL MYSELF

lol no

jokingly now every once in awhile

51. Are the blinds on your window open or closed? closed

closed

Closed

52. Did you leave milk and cookies for Santa when you were little? still do lol

jewish

No i live alone now, so thats a waste of money

53. What were you doing at 11 last night? in my mom’s room with those people i stated above plus my brother

at work goofing off

Getting ready to get off work

54. What could you eat any day of the week & never get tired of? wingstop wings

sushi

Coffee

55. Is there someone you wouldn’t mind kissing right now? justin bieber???

a lot of ppl including celebrities

Shawn Mendes!!!

56. Someone knocks on your window at 5 am, what do you say? wat the fuck do u want im sleepig

or

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOMH

how did u get up here i live on the third floor

No i dont have a quarter

57. Would you change yourself for the person you love?no

no

Yes maybe ??

58. Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex? wow u guesssed completely wrong

yes

um i gonna guess sure

59. What are you supposed to be doing right now? cleaning

getting ready for work

Getting ready for bed

60. Would you have sex with the 5th person on your contacts?no

im not even going to look

It is my ex, lmao, yes  I would sure

61. To who did you last give the finger to? i cant remember

my coworker Jesse

My manager, Ware

62. Did your last kiss take place on a bed? on someone elses

uh no

No.

63. Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around? brianna sam angelica michelle and others yes

the majority of my coworkers and all of my friends i still have

Angel, Brianna, Brit, and like Michelle

64. Do you talk in your sleep? no

i do not

depends on the situation

65. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? yes they buy me stuff and i am forced to like them

i dont talk to either of them that much

Haven’t seen my mom in months

66. What time did you wake up today? 7:45

1

8:30

67. What were you doing at midnight last night? IN MY MOMS ROOM

At work fixing to leave

Leaving work

68. What song are you listening to? some chris brown song

Team by Iggy

Betty Who- Somebody Loves You

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days? like a hug

No

Yes

70. How do you feel about chocolate-covered strawberries? mmmmm

mmmmm

mmmmm

71. Do you have nice eyes? they’re dark brown

no

lolno

72. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? not really

yes finally

Barely, the tips are brown from when I died them 7 months ago

73. Are you texting anybody? no

no

Told everyone I went to bed

74. Do you swear in front of your parents? god no

no

No

75. Concert tickets or NFL game tickets? concert tickets

concert tickets!!!!!

CONCERT

76. Are you addicted to cigarettes? not yet hehhe!:)

yes, I wish i could stop smoking.

LMFAO “Not Yet” I’m on a process of quitting right now. Very difficult

77. Do you tell your parents everything? no

no

hell no

78. Do you have any tattoos? not yet

i have 4 tattoos.

still only fucking 4

79. If something was wrong, who is the first girl you would go to? idk

Brianna

80. Do you have any nicknames? bitch

Noahita