#hyunjin erasure

[changsbin]

i’m not a huge fan of just inserting characters into shows n retelling the story w the same plot but UGH skz x alice in borderland au 😩 (minho is arisu, changbin and chan r karube and chota inspired [rip], yn is usagi, jisung is chishiya, seungmin is ann inspired …)

[luckyhyuki]

Erasure

ERASURE BY Mazauric

SITE: AO3

PAIRING: HWANG HYUNJIN X YANG JEONGIN

RATING: EXPLICIT

WORD COUNT: 127.7K+

WARNINGS: GRAPHIC DEPICTIONS OF VIOLENCE

“Thank you for choosing to study at Winter University - the only university in the country that encourages the healthy integration of students of all subgenders.

  Up until he went to university, Yang Jeongin was very sure of who he was. Beta, eldest son of three, hails from a family of proud betas.

But when he enters university he finds himself caught up in a wave of wolves, alphas, omegas, murders, gangs, drugs, alcohol and Hwang Hyunjin.”

[duskyskz]

- Erasure - 1

Hwang Hyunjin x Female Reader

With washed out, dyed pastel hair, sea salt and acrylic clinging to his jeans, Hwang Hyunjin expected to find himself many places that night. A jail holding cell. Under the abandoned train station bridge. Maybe even his own bedroom.

Your living room wasn't on the list.

Warnings - Some angst in later chapters, suggestive/smut, minor character death mentions, Hyunjin is an eboy and a little angsty, Changbin is doing his best as a big brother, slow burn (?)

A/N - Finally! Sorry for the delays, my head just hasn’t been with me this week;; I hope you enjoy this series as much as I am excited to write it. 

***

The steady buzzing of your speakers fills the living room as you watched Changbin scroll through the Netflix home page. Both of you settle deep into the sofa, balancing a bowl of popcorn and chocolate between your knees. 

“Endgame? Homecoming, Nightmare on Elm Street?” Binnie flicks through the suggestions, and you shake your head in distaste. “I'm not watching that octopus documentary again!”

“You only hated it because you cried at the end.”

“She died! He had to look after her little babies! Your heart is too cold, too far gone for that level of compassion.” The last part of your brother's grumbles are cut off when you throw a burnt kernel at his forehead, barely missing his ear. 

There’s nobody else home. Nobody else ever comes home, either. It's been just you and Changbin for a while, and it's not all that terrible. He’s a few years older than you, having graduated last summer and now undertaking an apprenticeship at the village police station. It doesn't pay a stellar amount, but Changbin reassures you once he passes the trainee exams he’ll treat you to a new pair of winter boots and you can finally quit the ice cream parlour to focus on college. You tell him that even if he wins the lottery tomorrow, you'll work your own job. For all the support your elder brother gives you, you like having your own thing. It makes you feel a little more involved, a little more even than jsit washing the dishes and doing his laundry on days he’s too tired to move. 

The Thursday evening is reserved for you both, to catch up on the hours together you miss during the week when Changbin doesn't get back till you're fast asleep and you don't have the chance to say good morning. 

He’s been doing that a lot more recently. 

Sighing into his coffee, shaking his head at nobody in particular. It's easy to notice the signs of stress and overwork in his face, sunken and tired even on the weekends when he finishes early. 

“Do you wanna finish Teen Wolf?” The softness in his voice when he addresses you is the same, though. “We have three episodes left of this season, if you wanna binge.”

“Sure.” You want to ask him about the circles under his eyes. What’s got him coming home later and later because nothing ever happens in this town. “I'm still waiting on Derek’s redemption arc.”

You're twenty minutes into the episode when a vibration from your coffee table catches your attention. You glance at Changbin, but he ignores his ringtone, flipping it to silent.

It rings again, no music, but harsh vibrations drumming against the polished wood. 

And again.

Knowing he’s not picking up to make a point of it, you pause the show, nodding at the mobile he’s avoiding glancing at. “Go on. Pick up, it might be an emergency.”

“If it's an emergency they don't need an intern there.” Despite his words, Changbin shifts his position and you know he’s growing hesitant. 

“If it's an emergency all the more reason for you to be there and learn.” You state with more force behind your tone. “Why have your grades been dropping? You're coming home so late but your exams keep getting delayed -”

“My grades are fine!” Changbin never snaps at you, but the frustration in his voice is evident. “I'm fine. There's just - Just one case we're working on and I'm nearly there, I just need time.”

You shut your mouth, letting him speak.

“There’s this kid who keeps tagging the beach houses on Dawning Lane, and that shit  was expensive to put up last year. Some stupid, bored child that thinks a few cans of spraypaint and lung cancer are a good excuse for your adolescence. He’s not even that good… Just scribbles.”

His lips pout in a frustrated whine at the last phrase, and you know he’s more frustrated at the situation than he is at you or himself.

A beat of silence, interrupted by another ringtone - you almost reach for it yourself to check the caller ID and force him to pick up, before Changbin’s arm shoots out past you to snatch the device, slinking out the door and into the hallway. 

You aren't surprised when a few moments later, your brother’s head pokes nervously out the door frame - He's already got his coat on, waving his phone at you as an awkward goodbye. 

“I’ll see you in the morning, y/n.”

“Yeah, see ya.” You salute back, smiling to ease the tension in his shoulders, and it works a minimum. You won’t see him till the late evening at best.

The door clicks shut as soon as he turns around, leaving you surrounded by popcorn and empty space. You really aren't surprised - but it'd be pointless to deny you weren't hurt by another night alone with Teen Wolf playing idly through your TV speakers. Cold popcorn only did so much to soothe your heart, and the distance wedging itself recently between your sibling bond was hard to brush over, between missed calls and texts too often left unanswered. 

You just really miss your big brother.

 You commit yourself to Stiles Stilinsky instead, sighing into the blanket around your shoulders. Autumn rolls in quick by the seaside, making your calves prickle with goosebumps. It's nearing 11pm, you realise, picking up the -

Thump!

Your fingers freeze, hovering over the TV remote. Changbin wouldn’t be back yet, he never comes home the same night he leaves. 

“Bin?” You try it anyway, calling tentatively into the hallway. It’s still entirely black, void of disruption.

Clang!

That definitely came from your kitchen.

Armed with a half empty popcorn bowl and nerves of steel, you tiptoe into the other room. There’s a lump of something or someone crouched behind the dining table, and your grip around the glass dish tightens marginally despite the quivering of your knees, fumbling for the lightswitch without taking your eyes off the rising dark mass as it straightens its back. 

“S-Stay down! I have corn and I know how to use it!” You don’t have a fully formed plan yet, but you’re sure the sharp kernels will be of some importance. Fluorescent white light floods the kitchen, momentarily blinding both you and the intruder who now stands at full height. A steady 12 inches above you. 

“Ouch! Calm down, I’m not going to rob you!” He says, sounding almost exasperated at your defense of your own property. He still has his hands raised in defense, keeping the table between himself and you, and you’re grateful he hasn’t tried to knock your legs out from under you, yet. “I’m not here to steal your stuff.”

“What are you here for, then?” You lower the popcorn bowl, but don’t let it fall out of your grasp. He doesn’t seem dangerous - He doesn’t seem like he could manage clambering through the window you always leave ajar either, but here he clearly is. There’s something sticky and pink in his blonde hair, stains following down his shoulder blades all the way down the cuffs of his jeans. If anything, he looks...a little lost.

“It’s the address on the post-it note.” Your confusion must have been plainly obvious, because the boy elaborates, pulling a crumpled neon-green paper from his jacket. “The post-it note that man gave me. That’s what Changbin gave me.”

Perhaps you lack self preservation instincts, but there’s an uncertain vibration in his voice that makes you give up your weapon and attitude. 

“You know my brother?” 

“He told me if I really need to go somewhere, I can come here.” You watch slim fingers tug at the sleeves of his jacket as he measures with a weight akin to a glare. “He didn’t tell me it was his house, or that somebody else was living here.” 

Bold of him to accuse you of ruining his night plans. 

It really did only click in your head when you looked closer at his tangled hair, dried paint clumping it together at the ends of bleached blonde strands. The  artistic menace haunting your sea-side town was standing right on your tiled kitchen floor, and he looked downright miserable. 

And Changbin had invited him. 

Biting down the discomfort at realising how little Changbin had been telling you recently,  you set the popcorn down on the table, you take in the threat currently three feet before you. A tall, lanky boy, with odd shoelaces and a sharpie sticking out of his trouser pocket. His hair hasn’t been cut in a while, and probably brushed either - it’d be generous to say he ran more than a stressed hand through it anytime recently. Though chapped, his full lips and wide eyes made him look far too innocent for his own good, and you blamed your soft heart for finding the boy kinda cute. 

He did have a leaf stuck above his ear, though. 

You almost reached up to remove it.

“Do you wanna watch Teen Wolf?”  You break the quiet that settled, already shuffling your feet out into the living room. You sincerely hoped he’d follow. You weren’t sure what you could do apart from leaving him standing on cold tile, and he already looked freezing from the night chill. 

Luckily for you, with a hesitant step, your impromptu companion takes after you to the couch where your Netflix and remove still await instruction. Changbin might grumble at you tomorrow at finishing the season without him, but you needed something to lure the boy into comfort. 

“I’m y/n, by the way.” You mention. The boy sits stiffly, clasping his hands in his lap with parted lips, avoiding the decorative pillows. 

“Hyunjin.” Now that he’s actually inside your house, Hyunjin’s confidence seems to have evaporated. The thrill of the break-in, if you can even call is that, has worn off, giving way to the nerves. He’s suddenly too conscious of the paint on his clothes, of sandy shoes still on his feet, of the smudges still on his cheeks. Should he take his jacket off? Or wipe his shoes? 

You press resume, watching him relax after a few minutes as his brain finally has something else to focus on to let his worries ease. Hyunjin doesn't seem to mind you already being halfway through the episode, and you let yourself admit it’s nice having someone around this late at night. 

“How do you know Changbin?” You ask while the topic is still fresh.

“I don’t.” Hyunjin bumps his knees together, fiddling with a loose string on his jeans as he shrugs. “I don’t really know him, he just...saw me around a few times, and I guess he figured I could use a place to crash. So he gave me your address.”

“You’re the mystery kid painting the beach houses, right? On Dawning Lane.” 

At the accusation, Hyunjin’s lips part, flipping to face you with wide, blinking eyes., knowing he’s in no place to try and deny it. You blink back, observing his reactions, in case he suddenly changes his mind about staying. “Are you gonna turn me in?...” 

“No.” You shake your head after a moment of thought, and he visibly untenses. “For whatever reason Changbin didn’t, so I won’t either. If he trusts you then I do too.” 

You’ll never know if it was the murmurs of the TV, or if Hyunjin did whisper a thank you, and you won’t ask. There’s a lot of things you do want to ask, but a tug in your heart tells you now is not the time. Hyunjin looks exhausted, eyes drooping with every slow blink as he does his best to focus on the screen, hands previously tugging at his jeans now still and flat on his lap, slouched forward as if any moment he’ll drift off sitting on your pillows. Flurries of fluorescent light flicker on his cheeks, over barely scrubbed paint smudges and faint cuts from running too fast, you guess. In the delicate, dimmed light of your floor lamp, it’s hard to imagine Hyunjin as a bad kid. Prickly, maybe. On edge is a better word for it, tension clinging to his shoulders like stubborn dust bunnies. Curse your naive little heart, you tell yourself, building up your courage to speak.

“Hyunjin?” He hums in response, straightening his back. “Do you want to sleep here tonight?”

All you’ve been taught in life sent alarm bells through your skull when you asked a complete stranger (who just two hours ago, broke in through your kitchen window) to sleep in your living room overnight, but Hyunjin didn’t feel  like a stranger. Changbin trusted him enough to lead him right to your house, so that must count for something, right? And no matter how much you tried to keep your guard up around the boy, watching him struggle to stay upright instead of letting his tall, lanky body fall backward and rest comfortably only made you worry a little about him, not the other way around. 

Well, he did say he’s not going to rob you. 

“You can sleep on the couch if you want, I’ll bring you some blankets.” You prompt him again when he doesn’t respond. “Changbin won’t be back for a while still.” 

“Are you sure you’re okay with that?” There’s a lilt of doubt in his voice, but he sincerely hopes you’re serious. This couch is warmer than anything he’s slept on in months and he really doesn’t want to crawl outside again with the rain pattering against your roof. 

“Sure, you haven’t tried to stab me yet.” You shrug, getting up to fetch a duvet and looking him over.

“Ah, you probably want to wash your hair from all...that,” Hyunjin’s hand flies to his hair, patting out the tangles as if it’s the first time he’s noticed them. “You can use the bathroom upstairs, there’s towels by the shower already.”

He nods, following your directions with a ‘thank you’. Once his footsteps disappear up the landing, you set about pulling out the couch into a flatbed, rearranging the pillows at its base. Lugging the duvet down from Changbin’s room had been a feat, but you’re determined to make the space welcoming. Satisfied with the cushioned bundle you created, you run back upstairs. 

You invade your brother’s room for the second time that day, tugging open his drawers in search for something acceptably pijama-like. 

“Hyunjin?” You knock tentatively on the bathroom door as the shower head turns off and the shuffling ceases. “I’m leaving some clothes for you to change into outside, okay? Come downstairs when you’re ready.”

You scroll through your timeline as you wait, catching up on the last few hours’ events from your friends until a shuffling to your left prompts you to raise your head. 

Your brother’s sweats hang a little loosely around Hyunjin’s hips, ending just above his ankles, bare feet sliding over the wooden floor of your living room, sinking into the rug as he steps closer to where you sit. His own clothing cradled in his arms close to his chest, you can’t stop your thoughts drifting momentarily to the damp mess of sunshine coloured hair. With his jacket on earlier, it was hard to make out his build under layers of fabric, but now it’s proving a challenge to not focus on the lines of his arms or the curves of his large hands gripping his clothes. Luckily for your dignity, your nerves of steel allow you to drag your gaze away from the collarbones peeking out from under thin white cotton higher to meet his eyes instead and find your voice again.

“I brought down some pillows for you, these are a bit too hard to sleep on.” You note, pointing to the decorative cushions you moved onto the lounge chair. “My room is right opposite the bathroom if you need anything, I’m a light sleeper.” 

“M’okay.” Hyunjin towers above you, yet you’ve never seen a boy so dainty. There really is no other way to describe the delicate line of his nose bridge or the rosy tint of his lips when his tongue pokes out to lick them as he mulls over your words, settling down on the makeshift bed. 

The proximity now feels different than the air between you when Teen Wolf still blared through your speakers, warm quiet heavy on your tongue with dim golden glow tumbling over his cheekbones that’s too much for your heart to take unprepared.

“Goodnight then!” You bounce up from the couch waving Hyunjin a quick goodbye, but a soft hand wrapping around your wrist pauses you. 

“Wait,” Hyunjin brushes his thumb over your palm softly, and you hope he doesn't notice the goosebumps on your skin at the contact. “Thanks for not kicking me out...or calling the police. Y’know, as most people would for a break in.” 

The smile he flashes you is almost teasing, but you can tell he means the words sincerely. You lay your other hand on top of his, patting in what you hope is a reassuring motion.

“Sure, Jinnie. It’s okay.”

[taesyeon]

bRUH i think ur like literally the only person that knows domino game,, ur taste is,, exquisite,, the flavour.....

KSJDNKJSA domino game…..she ran so others could walk

[sungie]

hi i’m disowning my friend who’s not into kpop she said hwang hyunjin wasn’t cute i’m sorry but we gotta get u some prescription glasses cause honey u blind

[crispy-chan]

-- tag game ✨

recommend 5 or more of your own works that you would rec to someone asking what they should read first & explain a little bit about the work. these can be the most popular, the ones you think are underrated, or your own favorites! then tag five other writers!

tagged by @decembermoonskz and @yyxgin (i think 😭) tysm <3

awaken {jisung x gn!reader; ghost!au, fluff, angst | 14.5k} my most popular (and probably favorite) work! idk i just tend to write in present tense and gn with jisung and ig it does something lol. very melancholic, lots of imagery and worplays and builds up nicely imo. definitely one of my favorites!

a song of ice and fire {prince!minho x princess!readr; royal!au, ice and fire bending, arranged marriage, e2l, fluff, angst | 35k} my longest one-shot. imho the writing isn't terrible (it grew on me) and i got very poetic with this one. slow burn af but like the nice and spicy kind hehe. i really came to love the relationship that blossomed between mc and minho and i think it is a nice mixture of everything - e2l phase, romance *wink wonk*, broken hearts and suspense. if you have the time, please do check it out!

in another lifetime {changbin x fem!reader; college au, reincarnation au(?) towards the end, coffee shop au, bad boy au, hurt/comfort, fluff, angst | 21.7k} very self-indulgent. changbin is the mfkn bad boy of my dreams who rides a motorcycle but comforts mc when she needs it. just in love with his character, ngl. brought me lots of comfort to write!

maze of memories (series) {bang chan x fem!reader (ft. felix); hunger games au, angst, fluff, action | 76.9k} career chan. that's it lol. but jk lots of plot twists, hurt and comfort and the good shit. from what i've been told it's rather good (?) and it's pretty engaging lol. my most interacted with work + basically my first work (carriwitchet doesn't count!!). tons of time went into this series too! it's basically my "write it you can't find it" piece, cause i decided to write it once i couldn't find skz hunger games aus lol.

neverending story {hyunjin x fem!reader; high school au, memory erasure, kinda dystopia, fluff, angst | 23k} every year, all your memories are erased so love feels pointless, doesn't it? well not if hyunjin has anything to say about it... my first proper one shot and surprisingly, i'd say it still holds up pretty much okay. i've been wanting to expand on this universe for as long as i can remember...

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pheew, this was actually really rewarding to list out! reminded me that i should be proud of what i've written, even if it's not perfect <3

tagging: @cosmic-railwayxo @hyunnows @seung-scrittore @minilinooo @chaninfused

[kim-seungmine]

moonlit

title: moonlit

characters: fem!reader x lee minho (lee know) of stray kids feat. bang chan, kim seungmin, hwang hyunjin, kid!yang jeongin

genres: exes to lovers au, romance, angst, based on eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, chan’s one sided love if you squint real hard, bff!seungjin.

warnings: cursing, mentions of drinking and food, mentions of insecurity/emptiness, minho is lowkey a flirt (and smooth af), this one is WORDY, sometimes nonlinear (flashbacks marked in italics, phase 2 completely happens in the past), lots of inner conflicts, watch me repeat the same words again and again.

word count: 14k

synopsis: after a nasty breakup, you have lee minho clinically erased from your mind... only to be reminded that while memories can be erased and forgotten, feelings will always demand to be felt.  

Phase 1: Awakening

You clamp your shaking legs together, desperately trying to look like you’ve got it all together. The carton box on your lap feels heavier with each passing second as you wait for your name to be called. When the receptionist finally tells you to enter the consulting room, your head is full of him. His laugh, his voice, his touches, his smile, his empty promises, his lies, his last words…

This is why you’re doing this. You want him gone.

“Miss Y/N, please have a seat.” The doctor, Seo Changbin, motions at you to sit at the back of the room. A nurse places a tripod in front of you, setting the camera so it will capture your whole body. “Your sessions will be recorded, and we will keep all the recordings as archive. These recordings are confidential unless they’re needed for national security purposes. And, of course, if you wish to get your memories back in the future.”

Dr. Seo smiles, the calming tone in his voice doesn’t match the weight of his words. “You… you can restore the memories back?”

“I can’t,” he answers. “Patients are usually able to remember some past memories when triggered. And at least you will be reminded of why you want to do the erasure procedure in the first place. There are a lot of patients who regret doing this, and the last thing we want is to get sued because people make the wrong choices for themselves. I’m sure you have already read that part on the consent form.”

Great, you’re going to stop him from messing with your head by letting strangers literally damaging your brain.

“I won’t sue you. Let’s get this over with.”

“Sure.” Dr. Seo points at the camera. “Now, tell us everything, starting with who you want to erase.”

You grip your box tighter, as if to check if all the things inside still cause you pain no matter how many times you’ve seen them. You could have done this the normal way—crying, cutting your hair, even turning to God for help.

The thing is, one of these days the pain is going to swallow you up, and then you’ll be left with nothing. Nothing but an empty shell.

You should have been able to do this the normal way, but you’re too weak. Can’t you be weak for once? You can, right?

Clearing your throat, you stare at the lens. “Lee Minho.”

“Lee Minho,” you repeat. Louder. Clearer. “I’d like to erase Lee Minho.”

Chan finishes his beer in one gulp while you’re still struggling to open yours. It’s a shame, really—you drink almost every week, he drinks twice a year. He tosses the now empty can to the trashcan before opening another with ease, handing it to you. Mumbling a quiet thank you, you take a sip and watch him tear a pack of dried squids open.

“You’ll never go to those parties again,” he says. “I didn’t know my parents invited you because of that.”

You shake your head. “It’s fine. They meant well.”

He pulls his hair in frustration. “I can’t believe they said that in front of everyone! You must’ve been so shocked. I’m sorry.”

You grimace, the unwanted attention was indeed quite embarrassing. Enough to make you politely reject the next time Chan’s parents invite you to another gala. Mr. and Mrs. Bang have always been supportive of their eldest son, letting Chan started his own business instead of taking over the family business. Chan’s mother had called you a few days prior, asking you to accompany her son since it would be a good opportunity to “build connection and expand your business.”

You and Chan did exactly that, so it wasn’t like they were lying. But Chan’s parents also used the opportunity to try to convince the two of you that you’re match made in heaven.  

“Can we drop this?” You glance at your watch, stretching your limbs before rising from your seat. The traffic light turns red and you signal at your best friend to walk faster. “I keep getting flashbacks of CEO Kang’s son laughing at us.

Chan follows suit, placing his hand at the small of your back before crossing the street. You let out a relieved sigh when you reach the warm subway station. “Kang Younghyun has more embarrassing incidents than ours combined,” he scoffs. “This is nothing compared high school. No worries.”

“You sure you don’t want me to take you home?” he asks as you train is arriving. “I should’ve brought the car instead of letting my parents drive us to the party.”

You click your tongue at him. “Then you’ll miss the last train.”

“I can take a cab home. You always fall sleep on the train it’s giving me headache!”

“Bang Chan.”

The train stops and opens its doors. “Fine,” he mumbles. “Just don’t fall asleep.”

“No promises!” you tease, stepping into the train a second before it closes. You wave at Chan until he disappears into a small dot before choosing the seat beside the door. The train is almost empty; standing near the door is a high school student listening to an online lecture and sitting across you is…. the most attractive man you’ve ever seen in your life. He meets your eyes for a second before shifting his attention back to his phone again, leaving you slightly disappointed.

You despise socializing at parties but you want the Hottest Man Alive to talk to you? Y/N you’re so pathetic.

The sight of a bundle of name cards inside your purse is what gives you a reality check, various names and faces are popping up in your mind. Only now you feel how exhausted you are, parties and talking to a bunch of strangers have never been your thing. You take your platform heels off just as the train makes its stop, one of them almost hitting Hottest Man Alive as a result.

Apparently God has decided to make you the embarrassment icon of the day.

“I’m so sorry!” you panic, about to reach your flying heel when he stands up and picks it up. He silently places it in front of you before pulling out a card out of his pocket.

“It’s okay, just check out our café when you have time.” Hottest Man Alive slips the card into your palm, rendering you speechless with his bashful smile.

Oh, you’re not going to fall asleep at all tonight.

You run your eyes over the black embossed letters once more, trying to calm your erratic heartbeat as you mentally convince yourself that he does want you to pay his café a visit. Your whole life has always been normal, so alarmingly calm and peaceful it makes you question your whole existence. Sometimes it feels like you’re living in someone else’s dream, foreign and temporary. Uncertain and insecure.

Last night was… weird, to say the least. You’ve never felt that attracted to someone before, not even your ex-boyfriends. In that moment, you felt unstoppable, carefree, happy… everything that wasn’t you.

Sadly, that moment didn’t last long and now you’re back to your overthinking self. What if he was just playing with you? Will he find you desperate or, God forbid, easy if you actually show up at his café? But what café owners don’t want a new customer? Besides, you’re bringing Chan, so Hottest Man Alive (or Lee Minho, according to his name card) is getting two new customers. If anything, he will be thanking you and hoping you will come again, just like any normal business owner.

“Hey,” Chan calls out to you, knocking on the car window. “We’re here, daydreamer.”

You shove the card back into your wallet, met with Chan’s confused eyes when you finally open the door. “You okay?” He cocks an eyebrow. “You look so out of it.”

Chan knows nothing about your encounter with Hottest Man Alive; he would’ve freaked out if he knew you wanted to visit a café because a random (handsome) stranger told you so. “Just thirsty. It’s so hot,” you mumble.

Eat Here Café gives off the homey atmosphere that immediately calms your nerves. You quickly scan the whole building, looking for any sign of Hottest Man Alive. You feel lighter yet bummed that he’s not there, except for some photos of him with a group of children pinned on the wall.

You choose a table near the cashier. “I’ll order. What do you want?”

Chan shrugs. “Any kind of cake.”

The puppy-like part timer greets you with a smile when you reach the counter. “Good afternoon, what would you like to order?”

“Injeolmi bingsu and Coke, please. Oh, and a vanilla cake!”

He repeats your order politely and you decide that you like the boy, taking a glance at his nametag that says Kim Seungmin. You never really pay attention to part timers before, but this one is remarkably efficient, polite, and very very cute (in a “I’d like to adopt him!” way).

You drop some cash into the tipping jar, the twinkle in Seungmin’s eyes feels so rewarding that you’re ready to put it into your “little things that made my day” on your journal later. He hands you the buzzer with a bright smile. “Please wait for your order!”

“Your stingy ass never gives such a generous tip. Did he flirt with you or something?” Chan marvels—loud enough to get Seungmin’s attention—when you return to your table. There are times when you regret being Chan’s business partner, but you realize that you’ve invested so much of your time and energy into building the company. That, and Chan is actually a dependable friend when he’s not trying to ruin your image.

Chan gets your order after the buzzer vibrates, digging into his cake right away. “Whoa this is good!” he exclaims. “How did you find this place?”

“…Instagram.”

“Do you think they hired a branding consultant already?”

You shake your head. “They post pretty regularly but I don’t think so.”

Chan’s eyes sparkle. “Do you think we should ask to meet the owner or something?”

“Hey Seungmin, iced Americano please! And remind me to pay your bonus later.”

The faintly familiar voice stops you from answering, your eyes wildly searching for the source. And there he is… the one you’ve been dreading to meet and also the one you’ve been yearning to meet. Lee Minho saunters into the café with his charming bunny smile and soft eyes, earning everyone’s attention except for Seungmin who’s still taking orders.

Seungmin only replies with a short hum, not taking his eyes off the cash register. You glance at Minho, mentally surprised by the way he doesn’t seem to be bothered with how Seungmin treats him.

“Quit staring before you start embarrassing yourself,” Chan warns you in the most boring tone. “I think he’s the owner.”

You almost spit out your drink. “I’m not staring!”

Minho exchanges some words with Seungmin before focusing his attention to all the customers. Your bingsu is melting, but you still follow his every move through your peripheral vision, not knowing whether you want him to recognize you.

“You really came!”

Chan points at himself, then at you. “Us?”

Minho shifts his gaze to Chan like he didn’t even notice the dimpled man was there whole time.

“Ah… y-yes,” you stutter. “This is very a nice café.”

One look at Chan and you know there’s no way for you to hide anymore. “He invited me!” you quip. “I mean, us.”

“Do you have anyone handling your social media accounts? Planning the digital marketing? Creating ads?” You have bombarded Minho with questions before Chan says anything, skipping the whole small talk step in “how to smoothly intrigue clients” manual.

Seungmin arrives with Minho’s iced Americano, putting the tall glass in front of him with no words before smiling at you and Chan. “Does any of you want anything else?”

“Yes, please,” Minho interrupts before you can refuse. “Please order whatever you want, it’s on the house.”

“Pulling the boss card, huh?” Chan jokes. “Then I’ll have orange juice.”

“Y/N?”

You didn’t have a chance to try the vanilla cake Chan ordered because he inhales food instead of digesting them, but the chocolate ice cream looks beyond tempting—

Minho chuckles. “How about our vanilla and chocolate ice cream?”

“Did I say that out loud?” you mumble to yourself, but proceed to thank Minho for his suggestions and tell Seungmin you’d like to have those. Minho flashes you a soft smile, almost making you melt on the spot if it weren’t for Chan’s leg kicking yours.

The conversation continues without any embarrassing incident. Chan lets you do all the talking, only adding further details when necessary while Minho asks you challenging but intriguing questions you answer passionately.

The so-called meeting ends with Minho promising to sign the contract by next week and Chan shaking your hand under the table, both confused and impressed.

“Is that why your employees are so relaxed around you? Because you just want everyone to eat and live well? I swear Seungmin didn’t even try to curse discreetly when you told him to wipe the counter for the 5th time,” you ask.

Minho laughs as the said boy exits his station, backpack slung across his shoulder. “Yes I’ll transfer your money after our guests leave. Don’t you dare remind me again!” the former yells playfully before the part timer opens his mouth. Seungmin bows to you and Chan before scowling at his boss. “You’re the one who told me to—nevermind. See you tomorrow, hyung.”

“I really like that boy,” you coo when Seungmin closes the door.

“I treat them as my friends,” Minho says. “I decided to do this because I just want to help everyone, including my employees. I don’t want Eat Here to be one of those expensive, pretentious cafes. I just want everyone to eat what they want, that’s why we have all sorts of things here. Combination of Eastern and Western, stuff like that. But this is still business, I have to do things to keep it running, right?”

You’ve met a lot of people with beautiful visions, but you’ve never met someone who wants something so simple yet complicated like Minho. It’s been quite a long time since you’re genuinely excited for a project, and now you know why Chan didn’t freak out upon knowing that you met Minho on the train.

“You guys can do whatever you want,” Minho adds, waving to a pair of part timers clocking in. “Are you going back to the office?”

Chan stretches his limbs. “Yeah,” he groans. “Gotta make sure our intern doesn’t jam the printer again.”

Your phone rings the moment Chan finishes his sentence. ”You jinxed it! Hyunjin is calling.”

“Whatever it is, wait until we’re back!” you whisper-yell at your intern.

“But noona, the printer—”

You give Hyunjin no chance to blabber about one specific printer and end the call. Minho giggles at your antiques, and you don’t have the energy to stop yourself from admiring his pretty features in the most obvious ways possible.

Chan pats your back before grabbing his phone and stands up. “I guess that’s our cue to leave.”

“Take these.” Minho writes your name on one of the paper bags, handing them to you with a big smile. “For everyone at your office. Thanks for reaching out to us.”

You peek inside the bag that has your name scribbled on it, not surprised to see both vanilla and chocolate ice cream inside—it’s the clear bottle that you’re curious about.

“Bye! I’ll send you the gym’s contact later!” Your best friend slash business partner waves at your new client slash crush from the driver’s seat. You take out the bottle, it’s filled with sikhye.

Your favorite drink, but Minho isn’t supposed to know that.

“Everyone deserves a fresh start. Don’t let anyone from your past haunt you. Start Erasure now.”

Minho mutes the television, heaving a sigh as he recounts his fateful meeting with you yesterday. The world has always been rather weird, he would say, but nothing defeats meeting his ex-girlfriend—his first love—who has no recollection of your time together. He heard from his former classmates that you sent them a message a few years ago, informing them that you would undergo the erasure procedure. According to his friends, you specifically told them to “never ever mention Lee Minho’s name or ask you about the procedure.”

You’re back in his life now, happy as ever, and the last thing Minho wants is breaking your heart all over again. He no longer owns that special spot in your heart, you owe him nothing. He left you insecure, disappointed and soulless, and now it’s his turn to be haunted by all the questions and what ifs in his mind.

His phone vibrates as soon as he flips the signage open, your name flashing on his screen. “Hey Y/N what’s up?”

“Minho I can’t multitask so please give me quick and accurate answer. I’m at the traffic light in front of Lotte now—”

“You need to turn left.”

“Okay… didn’t know my non-existent sense of direction is that obvious — damn, let me change lanes.”

Minho suppresses a chuckle. You’ve always been bad with directions.

“Turn left once more, and you’ll find us. We’re right across the first G25 store on the street.”

He steps out the café to welcome you when he spots a white Kia arriving. In contrast to his horrifying memories of teaching you to drive, you manage to parallel-park your car smoothly in 10 seconds, stopping Minho from offering to help you park your car.

“Sorry,” you grimace. “I suck at directions. Last week was the first time I went here and Chan was the one driving so I wasn’t really paying attention… and before you ask, no I can’t use GPS while driving. I barely managed to dial your number.”

Minho lifts his hands. “I was just going to say hello.”

“Oh, good! People always judge me for that!”

You don’t let him respond as you point at the photos on the wall. “Tell me about them!” you request. “Our photographer Hyunjin is going to be here any minute, and we’ll give this corner a special attention. Your customers need to know this.”

Minho scratches his head bashfully, the glint of admiration in your eyes is making him a bit dizzy. It’s been a long time since you looked at him like that. “Uhh, okay. These are the kids I’m supporting, they live in Africa,” he starts. “I hope I can visit them someday, but they’ve been sending me letters, saying thank you... telling me about their days and all.”

“Wow!” you marvel. “How does it feel? To receive such lovely letters?”

“Honestly, it kinda makes me feel like a parent,” he replies. “It feels wonderful.”

Moving onto the next set of photos, his smile grows wider. “I teach these kids dancing, sometimes taekwondo. They’re all very sweet, especially the maknae, Yang Jeongin.” Minho points at a boy with contagious smile. “He can be a brat sometimes, but everyone loves him.”

“Is this an orphanage? Can I meet them?” you blurt out.

“Of course! You’ll love them to bits.”

“You have to come back with Y/N noona!”

A few weeks later, Minho took you to the orphanage. You played with the kids all day and watched him teach them dance. You thought the kids wouldn’t like you as much, but now they’re trying to persuade you to stay the night.

“Aww, of course I’ll come back. Be a good boy, and we’ll be back sooner than you thought!”

Yang Jeongin, the youngest boy in the orphanage, has done everything to make you stay. If it weren’t for your “adult responsibilities,” you would have caved in because nothing could beat his puppy eyes and hopeful smile.

“Alright, go back inside, everyone. All of you need to sleep.”

The kids grumble at Minho’s command, slowly walking back to the main hall. After making sure no one sneaks out to follow you, the two of you make a stop at a nearby park that Minho claims to be the perfect place to admire the moon.

“Okay, you’re not lying. The moon does look pretty from here.”

The man sitting beside you smirks in satisfaction. “I never stay too long but I always like spending time here. Now that I think about it, you kinda resemble the moonlight.”

The switch of the mood has you cackling. “Aren’t everything about the moon associated with werewolves and murders? You’re expecting me to fall for such a lame pickup line?”

“That’s not how I see it.” Minho disagrees. “I think you’re radiant, bright but not blinding. Take it as a compliment.”

The word radiant strikes you light a lightning, forces you to face the harsh reality that you’re doing a really good job in hiding the hollowness inside—all the lingering questions and uneasiness. You’re far from being the light Minho admires.

“Trust me, I’m not radiant whatsoever.”

Minho stiffens, observing you carefully until you feel brave enough to look at him. At first, you see pity in his eyes, but it morphs into something that feels too good to be true. You find tranquil in his gaze, so serene that you nearly let your tears fall.

He reaches for your hand, interlocking your fingers together before pulling you up from your seat. “I’ll tell you whenever you’re being the moonlight that you are,” he promises, his voice is a perfect mix between sincerity and mischief. “Prepared to get sick of me because I’ll remind you everyday.”

Just because most people often cross the line doesn’t mean that being able to exert self-control when needed is something to be proud about, but Minho has always thought of it as his positive trait.

He’s going to cross it out of the list today.

His hand is still holding yours tightly, chatting away with a lopsided smile on his face. And yours. This wasn’t what he intended to do, but life loves to play God and tests him the moment he thinks he knows what he’s doing. Giving you his name card on the train has spiraled into taking you home hand-in-hand, peppering kisses on your temple when you become too cute to handle (which is almost all the damn time) and falling in love with you all over again. What happened in the subway impulsive and dumb, but he couldn’t control himself. He wanted to see you again, he longed to talk to you.

Minho just wanted a second chance to be good to you, but will things ever be enough? How will he make things right again? Providing you free coffee and say thank you for your visit? It was a selfish wish he shouldn’t have acted upon.

“We must’ve crossed paths somehow. There’s no way that we’ve never met before!” you say, swinging your intertwined hands happily.

It’s too late. History repeats itself, but Minho’s too far gone to stop. He’s trying to feel it, the need to exert self-control—he can’t.

“I didn’t come home often,” he lies, every word feels like knife stabbing his heart. You hum in response, a yawn escaping from your mouth as both of you are nearing your unit. Minho watches you enter the door password, mouthing the numbers silently, 2 3 0 9. Your grandma’s birthday. It’s always been your password for everything—phone, laptop, even Minho’s old apartment since you were the one who set it for him. It stays with him until this very day although he no longer lives in the same apartment.

You tug at his sleeve. “Come on in.”

Your stuffs are pretty much the same, if not exactly the same as a few years ago. The only things missing were those related to him. Polaroid photos of you together, the umbrella he left at your place, the mug he…. wait.

The purple mug Minho bought for you is sitting on the kitchen counter, causing him to nearly trip over his own feet. Did you forget to get rid of it before the procedure?

“Let me go change first,” you tell him. “Feel free to grab any snack. There’s cold water and beer in the fridge.”

He can barely answer as you disappear into your room. Memories start flooding his mind, it feels as if he finally finds all the folders with your name on them that he tried so hard to bury, stashed in the deepest part of his heart.

Those memories were so painfully beautiful he has to bite his lip to prevent his tears from falling.

“Oh that’s my favorite mug!”

You’re back, dressed in the black loose T-shirt you always wear during summers. Minho’s eyes automatically dart to your left shoulder, spotting the hole on the shirt that exposes a part of your shoulder.

Another thing that hasn’t changed. Another thing that makes you the you he knew. Another thing that diminishes his self-control into nothing because you have no idea how much he loved to—

“Minho?”

You cradle this face softly, wiping the tears he didn’t know he shed. Confusion and panic reflected in your irises. “Is everything okay?”

“Huh?” He touches his cheek before attempting to laugh. “Something probably went into my eyes...”

“Let me see.” Before he refuses, you’ve taken a step closer, gently blowing into his eyes. “Better? Want some eye drop?”

Minho shakes his head, removing your hands from his face and plants a kiss on your forehead. Another mistake that feels so right. “I guess I’m just tired. Is it okay if we chat some other time?”

You mumble an okay, following him to the front door. When he turns the door knob, you reach for his hand. “Hey,” you murmur, slowly examining his face. Minho tries to read yours in return, sensing your hesitation. He waits for a good minute patiently, letting you form words in your head.

“What are we? These things we’ve been doing… what do they mean to you? Does this mean we’re…”

You let out a frustrated sigh, more directed to yourself than him, and Minho understands what you’re talking about. He tightens his grip on the knob, desperately begging himself to stop all of this. You don’t deserve another heartbreak when you’ve done everything to continue living.

You’re a whole new person, yet you remain the one he adored. How can you be so different yet familiar? How can you be so… dearly you?

“Minho, does this mean that we’re—”

Minho throws his arms around you, burying his head into the crook your neck before slowly trailing his lips towards the exposed part of your shoulder. You have no idea how much he loves leaving kisses there, on that particular spot. As strange as it sounds, it gives him the strength and hope he needs. Minho never told you this; you’ll never be able to imagine how happy and relieved he currently feels when he plants one, two, three, countless kisses that set his whole being on fire.

“We are,” he whispers, dropping one last kiss before pulling you even closer, enveloping your body in his embrace.

There’s only one thing in Minho’s head now: love. He can only think about loving you better than before, and in this moment nothing can stop him from doing so because whether he likes the old you or the new you doesn’t matter anymore.

Minho just loves you, and he doesn’t want to think about anything else. Not even his selfishness. And especially not your future heartbreak.

“You’re so precious, Y/N. You’re so precious to me.”

Hyunjin is the only one at the office when you arrive. He’s busy with his camera, changing its setting every now and then before capturing random things on his desk. You and Chan were on the fence about hiring him at first since you’re just a small company and he’s a student with high expectations. However, Hyunjin turns out to be the one of the most eager apprentices ever, and you’re going to bawl your eyes out when his internship ends next month.

“What are you doing?” you ask him, only earning a distracted “Huh?” as an answer.

“Hyunjin, don’t forget to go over the photoshoot details with me before we leave later, okay?”

He lifts his head a little this time. “Okay. Let me just finish trying out this new technique Seungmin taught me.”

You chuckle, snapping a photo of your intern yelling at his camera when he messes up. Sending it to Chan, you write, “We should give him a raise.”

Your phone rings a few seconds later, frowning when Chan’s urgent voice greets you. “I’m inside my car. Can we talk?”

“Whoa, relax. What happened?”

“Y/N, please. Just come out for a sec.”

No one wants to start a fight with Chan when he’s talking in that tone, so you inform Hyunjin you’re stepping out for a bit. Chan’s sedan is parked right in front of the building, his conflicted face prompts you to enter the car right away.

“You told me there’s something weird about Minho but now you’re dating him? And you’re hiding it from me?” he deadpans without waiting for you to close the door.

“I didn’t mean to hide it from you,” you murmur. “I just don’t know how to explain it.”

Chan sighs in exasperation. “Why do you think you owe me an explanation?  I’m your best friend, not your mother. How is Minho different from any other guy you’ve dated that you really tried to keep it a secret from me?”

You gulp. “Things between Minho and I… it’s different. I thought I knew what liking someone felt like, but after meeting him I realized I knew nothing about it. Everything feels so overwhelmingly wonderful and insanely intense I think I may fall apart if I start talking about it.”

Your best friend gives you a knowing look, but says nothing as he stares at a random stranger walking down the street. “And I know you’re not really fond of him so I was trying to look for the perfect timing to tell you. Sorry.”

“I just want to keep you safe. This guy knows small details about you that even I didn’t know. Are you sure you never met him before?”

He pauses, taking a deep breath before adding, “Did you do that erasure procedure?”

“How am I supposed to know?” you snap. “Isn’t forgetting about the whole thing the point of the procedure?”

“You love him, don’t you?” Chan’s voice is soft this time, but his words hit you right in the gut you have to stop yourself from flinching. Hearing someone say that they love you is scary, admitting that you are in love is a hundred times scarier.

Taking your silence as a yes, Chan turns on the engine. “Look, the last thing I want is seeing you sad. It breaks me, more than you know. So please consider trying to find out the truth. How are you going to love him if you don’t trust him? How is he going to love you if he keeps you in the dark?”

You lean your head against the window, watching your best friend dialing Hyunjin’s number to tell him that both of you will be back after lunch.

“We better be quick,” Chan says. “Hyunjin’s terrified he will have to answer Mr. Song’s call again.”

“We should definitely give him a raise.”

“Oh we will,” he snickers. “If he survives Mr. Song’s call.”

“You’re cruel.”

For the first time in your life, you feel like a ruling queen inside your island instead of a trapped princess. You know every nook, every secret passage, every hidden treasure that nobody else has ever explored. Everything feels real for once, you’re in control and you want to stay here forever.

Eat Here has gained more regular customers since you and Chan started handling its social media accounts, and the face-splitting grin on Minho’s face whenever a new customer pushes the door open makes you feel proud and giddy at the same time.

You weren’t able to witness your Hottest Man Alive greeting his customers happily today, but you promised to pay him a visit at the café. It’s a few minutes past 10, meaning the café has closed for the day, so you were prepared to see everyone cleaning up. To you surprise, there’s nobody inside when you arrive.

“Minho?”

Your boyfriend waves from inside the pantry. “Coming!”

Moments later, he comes out with a tray of food. Gesturing at you to take a seat, he places a bowl of potato salad, a pot of kimchi jjigae and some side dishes. “Wait, let me get some more.”

You recall your phone conversation 2 hours ago, vaguely remembering telling Minho that you haven’t had dinner. When he serves the last batch of side dishes and a bottle of sikhye, you tease him for being so sweet.

“I’m not being sweet though?” He pulls out a chair for himself, watching you eat with content eyes. “You said you were starving, so I prepared you some food.”

You shrug, letting him pour sikhye into your glass. “I just never expected that you’re someone who…”

“… cooks?” he finishes for you. “I just did the bare minimum. Do you really want to see me being sweet?”

“Is that a challenge?”

Minho clears his throat, the way he stares at you makes you fidget in your seat. Only God knows what’s inside this man’s mind. One second he’s nonchalant and cool, then he’s Mr. Flirty and makes you all swoony.

Patting his thigh, he smiles at you. “Come here baby.”

You shake your head in fear of completely losing your sanity. “No. What are you trying to do?”

“Being the most romantic boyfriend ever. Come on.”

Minho tries his best to suppress his laugh as you finally settle yourself on his lap, not sure whether you should rest your head on his shoulder or peck his lips or marvel at how firm his thighs are... damn it Y/N, what are you? 17?

Although you’re just sitting there like a log, Minho looks unbothered and reaches for the chocolate cake. He slices it into smaller bites, taking a piece of it with the fork before telling you to open your mouth. “If you still want ice cream then we can get some on the way home.”

“I’ve had enough ice cream for today. I went to this cute ice cream parlor with Chan.”

You take the plate from him, stuffing yourself with the rest of the cake. Minho’s soft pats on your shoulder and the sweet taste of chocolate seem to flush all the initial awkwardness from your system.

Another hour passes with you curling up on Minho’s lap, the latter listening to your little speech about how grateful you are for vending machines as if you’re talking about world peace. Your back hurts and his thighs ache but the way your head nestles in the crook of his neck and the way he pecks your cheek every few minutes are enough of a spell to trap both of you in this exact moment, where lies, doubts and regrets cease to exist.

You wake up with a jolt, reaching for your water bottle on the bedside table. It’s surreal for a dream to feel that real—it almost felt like a memory, something distant but present nonetheless. You’re sure that was the younger Minho you saw in the dream instead of the one you know, and before you come to a realization that it’s currently 2AM, you’re already dialing his number.

He picks up on the fifth ring. “Hmmm my moonlight, missed me?”

His sleepy voice causes you to blush, definitely not seeing that coming. “Nothing.” You wince at your parched voice. “I just had a dream.”

Minho lets out a low laugh, you can hear him sitting up on his bed. “About me?”

“Well… yeah.”

“Tell me about it.”

You sink into your bed, heaving a sigh you forget to hide. “It’s complicated.”

“Was it a bad dream?” Minho’s voice is firm but oh so calming that you start recounting every detail you can remember. He listens to you attentively, humming once in a while, and your muscles are all relaxed now. Minho is here, listening to your bullshit in the wee hours of the morning. Minho is here, calling you his moonlight with the most caring tone ever.

“I miss you,” he declares the moment you finish talking. “Can I come over?”

“All of sudden? Minho, it’s 2AM.” You glance at the clock. “Wait, it’s 2:18 now.”

“Then I’ll be there at 3AM.”

“But—”

He hangs up, and you just sit there until Minho enters your room at 3AM sharp, taking in your dumfounded state before plopping himself onto the bed and pulling you close. “I’m here,” he sweetly says and you can only nod, eyes boring into his as he runs his thumbs along your cheekbones. “I like you, exactly the way you like me. I like you more.”

You shake your head, burying your head in the crook of his neck to hide your red cheeks. “It was just a dream,” he adds, enunciating each word like a mantra. Closing your eyes, you repeat his words again and again inside your head, traces of pain from the dream still crawling up your skin as Minho’s sweet praises lull you to sleep.

“I’m sorry but that’s classified information. We cannot mention anything about our patients.”

“But she did the procedure because of me! I’m the one she erased!”

“That only gives us more reasons to forbid you from obtaining any information. It’s our policy to protect our patients, especially after the procedure is done.”

Minho wonders how this sullen kid managed to land the job, but bites his tongue before he really gets kicked out. He takes one deep breath before pleading at so-called receptionist (his name is Kim Seungmin but he could care less) once again. “May I at least know whether she was in so much pain?”

Seungmin fixes his glasses. “People her age mostly spend their money on traveling or whatever cool things they want to do, but she chose to have her memories manipulated so she wouldn’t have to remember you. I think that’s enough of an explanation.”

It’s no big deal, Minho tells himself. It’s normal for people to have the Erasure procedure thesedays. In fact, it’s become so normal that no one bothers to talk about it anymore. Erasure is simply another way to move on, just like Love Alarm is another way to detect love. If you decided that your memories together weren’t precious enough to keep in your heart, so be it. If he hurt you that much but you chose to erase him instead of confronting him, then it’s your loss.

Exactly. Was he that bad? Did he hurt you that much?

“Excuse me, Sir?” Seungmin is already standing by the door. “I think it’s better for you to leave.”

“Alright.” Minho lifts his hands in defeat, starting to feel bad for the poor boy who’s just trying to keep his job. “Hang in there, kid.”

“Congratulations, you just earned a VIP pass to Hell.”

Eat Here is doing well, the kids he’s supporting are starting school soon and he finally gets to return the feelings of the girl he loves the most but yes, Seungmin is right. The gates of Hell are open for Minho.

“Right,” he scoffs. “As if you didn’t greet people with a smile and convinced them that erasure was the best solution for all their problems.”

Seungmin grits his teeth; talks about Dr. Seo Changbin’s Erasure Centre are never easy for both of them. For Seungmin, it reminds him of all the pain, rage and guilt he thought he was used to seeing. For Minho, it reminds him of his selfishness and failure to make you happy.

“The erasure did help a lot of people though,” the puppy-eyed boy trails off. “It’s been years yet I’m still torn between wanting the procedure to perish and thanking it for saving lives.”

“Maybe it does save people. But then there’s Y/N.”

“And you,” Seungmin adds.

Minho chuckles. “And you.”

“Are you just gonna wait until she realizes that those dreams actually happened?”

A long silence looms over them until Seungmin slides a clear CD case along the counter. “I guess it’s time to reveal how I risked my life for you the day I quit my job there.”

A label with your name is plastered on it along with the logo of the centre. It’s the answer to all his questions when he first met Seungmin. The sole proof that everything between the two of you happened.

“I can get sued anytime,” the part-timer warns jokingly. “So use it well, and don’t cry. She said some hurtful things, but you deserved it anyways.”

“Do you think it could last another hour?”

Hyunjin snaps one last photo and tells the models to get a 5-minute break. “Do you want an honest answer or an intern-can-make-anything-happen answer?” he whispers at you while checking his shots.

You’re currently at a photoshoot in Gyeongju with a client you desperately need to impress, but your clumsiness just had to choose today to get in action. Chan was almost furious when you told him you left all the cameras’ charging cables at Minho’s apartment.

“So we’re fucked up,” you conclude. “How many outfits are left?”

“Including this one… three.”

“We’re so fucked up,” you correct yourself, approaching Chan to relay the expected bad news when a familiar car arrives at the villa. You barely hear Hyunjin muttering, “God is a male… for today…” before rushing to take the black duffel bag from Minho’s hand. He only smiles when you tell him he’s getting all the hugs and kisses later.

The photoshoot continues smoothly; allowing you, Chan and Hyunjin actually breathe after 5 hours trying to make the cameras’ batteries last as long as possible.

“I’m so sorry Chan,” you sigh.

He lets out a weak chuckle. “It’s fine. The problem’s solved anyways.”

“No thanks to me.”

“Thanks to you.” Chan glances at your boyfriend who’s leaning on his car, watching you from afar. “Minho brought the chargers, but you were the one who made him drive all the way here. You need to stop underestimating his feelings for you.”

You let Chan’s words sink in, eyes meeting Minho’s in the process. For a split second you forget about everything’s that’s been bugging you, wanting nothing but to lose yourself in his affection for you.

“Do you trust Minho now?”

Chan puts his hand inside his pocket, exhaling softly. “I know he’s crazy for you Y/N, I’m not dense. But does that mean he’s being honest with you?”

Hyunjin snaps one last photo that marks the end of the shoot, giving you a reason not to respond to Chan, jogging towards the models instead. “Thank you, everyone!” You bow to them. “There are some snacks left inside so please eat before you go, or you may take them home.”

You can still feel Minho’s eyes on you, following you wherever you run with the sweetest kind of fondness that makes it hard for you to question him. He’s like a prince who comes from another kingdom after crossing the long bridge and fighting in the wild forest. He stands there in front of your castle, waiting for you to deem him worthy of your love, of you.

How do you say no to that?

But how do you know if he sees you the way you feel he does?

After that night, you’ve had other dreams—the ones you never told him—each dream etched itself into your mind, filling in the empty spaces slowly but surely. They become a part of you so naturally that you’re convinced you somehow lived them.

“What are you thinking about?”

Minho has just finished loading the last box of props into Chan’s car trunk, now waiting for you to break your train of thoughts with an amused smile. You barely hear Chan and Hyunjin saying goodbye before they enter the car, leaving the two of you alone.

“Y/N?”

“Yeah?”

Minho’s smile is long gone, his expression mirroring yours: confused, lost, a bit scared. “Are you okay?”

Even your 18 year-old self knew what to do then. A bit late, but she did it. The thought of embracing her as a part of you is making you nauseous, the acknowledgement of having a past you don’t remember is disturbingly scary.

“Those dreams... they were real, right? Those are my memories.”

Your stomach churns when Minho nods, surprisingly calmer than you expected. He pulls out a CD out of his bag, carefully slipping it into your hand. The thin plastic feels heavy in your hold, the world as you know it crumbling at the realization that this Lee Minho was the same boy who had your heart in his palm and broke it.

“I tried to picture this situation in my head every single day, but never had the courage to actually tell you. I’m so sorry Y/N. For everything, then and now.”

Lee Minho, the one who sees you as his moonlight, was also the one whose heart could never be yours.

“I’m Lee Minho. We’re both from Gimpo, and we met at high school. We were best friends, then sometime during 11th grade we started dating. You were this amazing, lovely girl who wore your heart on your sleeves, and I was the asshole who failed to realize how blessed I was to have you.”

Minho pauses to look into your eyes, the sorrow in his orbs triggers the tears you refuse to shed. “I became your boyfriend because I didn’t want to lose you,” he continues. “I was stupid, wasn’t I? Stupid and inconsiderate. All I had to do was tell you how I felt…”

"B-but why?” you sob. “Y-you l-lied to me, Minho. Again.”

“I did. Fuck. I did,” he admits. “You have every right to never ever forgive me. But Y/N, I never meant to play with your feelings. I was too late, but I loved you then. I love you now, and I don’t think I’ll be able to love anyone else even if I try.”

Phase 2: Forgotten Days

“A mug?”

Minho hums as an answer while copying your English homework in a speed of light, failing to answer your questions about why, out of all things he could buy in Japan, he decided to gift you a mug. You let out a huff when he leaves your next question hang in the air (“How did you know that I needed a new mug?”), but lets him be since the bell will ring in 15 minutes.

The purple mug is quite heavy and somehow that makes your heart flutter. Minho gave all the other classmates green tea Kit Kats and keychains, but he was willing to fit the bulky mug into his tiny suitcase for you.

You don’t know what’s going on inside his head most of the time, for all you know he could’ve bought the mug because he forgot to buy something for you and decided to grab the first thing in sight. It’s just a little gift, something you should just appreciate without thinking too much about it, but you can’t help but wonder. Sometimes you feel sorry for yourself for overanalyzing Minho’s every little gesture, trying to guess how much he likes you.

“I’m done!” Minho exclaims, returning your book before grabbing his wallet. He finally looks into your eyes, smiling at you as he ruffles your hair. “Gotta grab some snacks. You want anything? Strawberry milk? Chips?”

When he comes back with both although you told him you only wanted chips, Minho argues that he knows you’ll get hungry in the middle of lessons. Again, it shouldn’t feel so special, but he’s looking at you now, you and no one else. Lee Minho is like an enigma, but at times like this, you bask in his bright smile and everything is forgotten.

Summer is the enemy you’ve managed to beat every single year, but combine the scorching heat with excruciating cramps and you don’t stand a chance. You peek into the practice room once again, but Minho is still practicing his dance routines, his phone laid neglected at the corner of the room. The supposed-to-be 30 minutes practice turns into an hour, and you decide to just wait outside since you don’t have energy to go home on your own.

The door opens when you’re on the verge of passing out, luckily someone has caught you before you collapse on the floor. “Y/N,” Minho’s voice forces you to open your eyes. “What happened?”

“… cramps…”

He lifts you and dashes to the infirmary without saying anything else, yelling at some other students to “fucking move!” while trying not to trip over his undone shoelaces. You try to tell him that you’re alright, just a little tired from enduring the pain but he gives you no chance to talk.

Minho finally stays still after kicking the infirmary’s door to no avail. He makes no other attempt to open the door, slowly making eye contact with your drowsy eyes. You love seeing fire in Minho’s eyes, especially when he dances or plays with his friends. This is the first time Minho sees you with such intensity, but this is not the passionate flame you’ve been craving to see. This fire is destructive, painful. It breaks your heart that he’s looking at you like this, like you’re the source of all unfortunate events that happens in his life.

You feel like you’re the unfortunate event in his life, and the thought is enough to make you break free from his bruising grip, pushing the door open yourself.

“Go back to practice,” you tell him, sitting on one of the beds. “I’ll lie down for a bit then go home.”

Minho rummages through the medicine cupboard, taking a painkiller pill and fills an empty glass with warm water. “Drink this, I’ll take you home.”

“I’m fine, Minho…”

He shakes his head. “You’re sick and I’m taking you home.”

Too weak to argue, you swallow the pill and let him walk you home. Minho keeps his hand around your shoulder the whole time, not even bothering to check his ringing phone. He doesn’t talk to you either, and at this rate the silence is more concerning than your cramps.

“Can you go up on your own?” he murmurs when you reach your apartment building. “I have to go back to school, but I’ll stop by later.”

You only nod, about to wave him goodbye when he reaches for your arm. “Wait.”

Minho cups your face, pressing his lips on yours and stealing your breath away. Soon, he starts kissing you harder, but his lips still feel cold against yours and he still feels so faraway even when he’s gripping your waist like his life depends on it.

“Minho,” you manage to rasp, cradling his face to stop him from planting another kiss on your lips. He opens his eyes, staring at you with those beautiful eyes that, sadly, never really shine for you. “Your friends are waiting.”

Still panting, Minho gives you a nod before pulling away. The fire you saw in his eyes earlier has died out.

As you watch him walk away, you finally realize that you’ve been asking yourself the wrong question. It’s not about how much Minho likes you, it’s about whether he likes you at all.

If Minho could choose only one person to be with for the rest of his life, he would choose you. He enjoyed watching movies with you, he loved sending his silly selfies to you, he always wanted to end a tiring day by talking to you all night long.

He can still do that, you’re still his friend. The only difference is that he can hug and kiss you and tell other people that he’s yours. Minho doesn’t know why he lets the words “boyfriend and girlfriend” change the dynamics between the two of you, but it’s too late to undo everything.

“Can we just be friends again?” he repeats the question in his head over and over, yet he can never voice it out. The look in your eyes will be too devastating for him to bear, and he will you lose you forever.

“I’m outside,” he tells you over the phone, trying not to flinch at your excited “Oh!” 

A few minutes later, you step out of the elevator, walking towards him with big steps.

“Feeling better?” he asks, noting the way your eyes light up at the question.

“Hmm. I took a short nap and it’s gone.”

Minho sighs. “Don’t wait for me next time. If I take too long, you can just go home. I’m sorry that I let you wait around like that.”

The last sentence causes you to lower your gaze, seemingly self-conscious with the fact that he forgot you were waiting for him. “Bought you some ice cream,” Minho says, trying to distract you from your thoughts. “Chocolate, vanilla, mint choco, it’s all there.”

“As an apology?” you half-tease, the tinge of sadness in your voice causes Minho’s heart to clench a little.

He quickly pulls you into his arms, resting his chin on the top of your head. “Yes and no,” he murmurs into your hair. Part of him is relieved when you don’t question his answer, only humming against his chest before wrapping your arms around him. It’s so easy to make you happy and it angers him. You’re too kind. Too patient. Too loyal. You’re too in love with him, and it hurts not being able to feel the same.

But as the warmth of your body starts to comfort his senses, Minho realizes this is where he wants to be. He wants to be with you, no matter what the labels are. “If you miss the last bus you’re gonna have to walk all the way home,” you remind him, voice muffled since neither of you wants to let go.

“One more minute,” he replies, fingers playing with the hole on your shirt. He places one feathery kiss there, a silent promise that he’s going to try his best loving you. The one promise that could have made you stay, but it remained unsaid until the day you left him.

“Surprise!”

Minho lets out a yelp, coughing up confetti that you pop right in front of face. His parents, standing a few steps behind you, are giggling at their son’s reaction. “I thought you had to go somewhere with your mom!” he exclaims, the surprise in his eyes is now replaced by confusion and… annoyance?

You quietly step aside, letting him shake off the confetti as you’re trying to find your voice. Minho’s parents don’t seem to notice the tension, laughing and explaining that they invited you over for the family birthday dinner.

His mother ushers both of you to the dining room where the feast awaits. “After all this time you still haven’t introduced Y/N to Soonie!” she protests jokingly while the said cat is purring at you. Coming over to Minho’s house without his knowledge sounded like a terrible idea right from the start, but now you really wish you had turned the offer down. The birthday boy only pats you on the back before telling you to sit down, and you spend the rest of the dinner conversing without ever looking at each other in the eyes. That’s no surprise, what surprises you is the fact that you don’t even bother trying to get him look at you.

After 2 years, you’re finally tired of waiting for Minho to love you.

“Soonie doesn’t usually like strangers,” Minho says as you’re walking to the bus stop. “But he really likes you.”

“Do you?”

“What?”

“Like me. Do you like me?”

Minho chuckles. “What kind of question is that?”

Words are bubbling inside your head, all emotions threatening to spill out you have to literally swallow them down. It feels like the world has come to a stop—the realization that your world has been revolving around Minho all this time makes you feel queasy.

“Y/N?”

You want to explode. You wish you can explode. There’s nothing you want more than taking out every piece of your broken heart, count all of them and show him how much you’ve been hurting. You thought your love was enough for both of you, but the bigger your love grew, the farther the distance between the two of you became.

Minho keeps his gaze on you as you’re mustering up courage to ask the most heartbreaking question. “Why?” you quiver. “Why do you pretend that you like me? Why do you bother doing that for 2 years?”

“I-I like you. So much,” he stutters. “Just not in the same way you like me…”

Blinking your tears away, you return his tormented gaze. “Then why did you let me like you alone? Every fucking day you let me wonder how much you like me, if I mean anything to you… I wait for you, convincing myself that you must’ve liked me if you chose to be my boyfriend. But it’s just a game to you, isn’t it?”

Lee Minho has always had his own way to love. You’ve seen him showering those around him with love in ways that seem so ordinary that people often take it for granted. But you see and feel everything, including hints that your feelings have always been one sided. You bury all those hints, telling yourself that he only needs time.

That time never comes, and you have run out of lies and excuses and hope to cover up for both of you.

Phase 3: Chasing Moonlight

The Queen lived under a spell all this time, believing that the foreign kingdom was her whole world while she didn’t even have a home to begin with.

But the ruins of her castle—the only thing that’s left of the kingdom she tried to understand her whole life—will become one. She’s going to build herself a new kingdom, one that she knows by heart, and call it home.

“Noona!!! I’m going home!!! Don’t stay there too long!!! You’ll get sick!!!”

You tear your gaze from the cloudy sky as Hyunjin shouts at you from the ground. You dismiss him with a little wave, forcing a small smile so that the boy will leave instead of going back to the rooftop.

“He’s right,” Chan adds. “You’ve been here for hours.”

After showing up at work with puffy eyes and hoarse voice, Chan attempted to send you home, but you insisted to complete some of your tasks before breaking down during lunch after Hyunjin accidentally revealed that he would meet Seungmin at Eat Here.

So here you are, finally sated after crying all the tears you had left at the rooftop during the remaining working hours.

“I’m fine,” you croak, cringing at your own voice. “You can leave.”

“And let you stay here until you’re all stiff and frozen?”

“Just let me be pathetic for one more day.”

He furrows his brows. “You’re not being pathetic. After what he’s done to you, weeping is the least you should do.”

You let out your first laugh of the day. “I surely wept.”

Looking incredibly relieved that you haven’t lost the ability to feel other emotions than sadness, Chan continues, “Wanna talk about it?”

“Do you know what hurts the most?”

He takes the longest time to think, but shakes his head at the end.

“The fact that I’ll probably never see him again.”

“That’s supposed to be a good thing, but go on.”

“Should I give him one last chance? Or should I just hate him until I die? What’s the right thing to do? What should I do to heal? What should he do to heal? All these questions are driving me insane.”

Those questions are the easiest to answer, so you expect Chan to sigh and tell you to snap out of it, but he just smiles at you. “What do you want to do?”

“Huh?”

“Have you tried answering your own questions? What you want to do is what you’re supposed to do. It’s easy, my dear friend.”

“I want to…”

Your mind wanders to last night, recalling that agony on Minho’s face that mirrors your own. A small part of you wants him to suffer for the rest of his life, consumed by guilt and the sheer horror of being erased from someone else’s memories.

“I want to curse him out.”

Chan playfully smacks your head. “You didn’t do that?”

“My mind went blank, then I started crying. That wasn’t cool at all, I know,” you huff. “I should’ve told him to go to hell or something.”

“After that? What do you want to do?”

You bury your face into your palms, ignoring the teasing tone in Chan’s questions. “The last time we talked, you were Lee Minho’s #1 hater. What happened?”

“I just wanted him to be honest with you. I never hated him,” he tells you softly. “Do you?”

You may never get all of your memories back, but the ones you can remember are enough to know that being with Minho used to be a silent torture. He was a thorny rose, beautiful yet unattainable. You wanted him so much you refused to look down and see your bloody fingers. The thorns were stuck there for the longest time, eventually infecting your soul until you were too weak to heal yourself.

But he’s not that boy anymore. He’s just Minho who listens to all of your rambles and actually keeps all those details in his mind. He gives you the warmest hugs and the most sincere kisses. He stays by your side, and you will always want him to stay.

When you finally lift your head to answer Chan, he gives you his reassuring smile that never fails to make you feel better. It’s the first time he’s talking about Minho without a frown, and you hope it’s a good sign. “Like I said,” he sing-songs. “Do what you want to do.”

The sound of footsteps approaching prompts you to curl yourself into a ball, trying to make yourself as invisible as possible under the dining the table. Jeongin manages to push the heavy door open after a few tries, mumbling that you’re not going to take the “king of hide and seek” title from him. You can’t help but giggle at his determination, waiting for him to find you while he’s scanning the whole room.

“Minho hyung!”

You stay still, not wanting to fall into the 5 year-old’s tricks so easily… until you hear Minho’s voice calling the little boy’s name. “What are you guys playing? Where’s Y/N?”

“We’re playing hide and seek,” Jeongin answers, his eyes still as sharp as a hawk. “I’ve found everyone, only Y/N noona is left!”

Minho hums. “Want me to help you find her?”

You don’t hear Jeongin responding, but the next thing you see is a pair of pretty eyes staring into yours. “Found her,” Minho murmurs.

Jeongin pulls you out with a huge grin on his face. “I knew you were there! Thanks for helping me, hyung.”

Minho ruffles the boy’s head before gazing back at you. “If you’re thankful, can I borrow her for a second? We just need to talk, then she’s all yours.”

You can’t find the strength to say no, hoping Jeongin will somehow be clingy this time. “Are you guys fighting?” he asks instead.

“Do you think we’re fighting?”

Jeongin nods, his sparkly eyes turn gloomy. “If I let you talk, will you make up?”

Minho glances at you. “I don’t know… I made a huge mistake.”

“Did you make her cry?”

“Yeah,” Minho confirms, voice thick with remorse and you’re not sure how long you can pretend to be okay in front of Jeongin.“I’m a bad person, aren’t I?”

You crouch down, pinching the boy’s pout with an endearing smile. “I promise nothing bad will happen. Can we go outside now? I’m sure everyone is waiting for you.”

Still a bit sullen, he links his hand with yours and lets you lead him out, Minho trailing behind the two of you. Once you’re back at the garden, Jeongin whispers into your ear, “I’ll always be your friend, noona. I won’t hurt you.”

“Of course you won’t,” you laugh. “I’ll join you soon, okay?”

Minho turns to you as soon as Jeongin goes back to his friends, studying your expressions carefully. You want to tell him so many things, yet the only words you can produce are, “Fuck you, Lee Minho.”

You feel slightly lighter when Minho says nothing to defend himself, sitting on the grass before gesturing at you to do the same. It fuels your need to let out the pain you previously sealed inside your heart, ironically basking in his comforting presence as you do so.

“The whole time I felt like something was missing. You knew that, then went on hiding the rest of the puzzle pieces and left me there, incomplete. Just like that.”

This isn’t your first time baring your heart to Minho, the last time you did it you were left with such immeasurable pain that erasing a part of your brain—your soul—sounded like a better choice. You wait for the sadness and rage to take over your mind, but the storm never comes. You wonder what makes it different until Minho shifts to look at you in the eye.

Minho is looking at you with those pretty eyes like you’re the only one he can see. It’s not just a sweet dream you tried to dream of every night when you were 17. You’re no longer the only one who’s wearing your heart on your sleeves.

“Am I doing this because I feel guilty or because I genuinely want to be with you?” he begins. “Believe me Y/N, I spent months trying to find the answer and justify what I did, but I guess you can never exactly separate those two feelings.”

His confession is bittersweet; you know it won’t end all your personal battles. You still have to fight them, help yourself to understand why you are thinking and acting the way you are. The gaps have been filled, and now you have to be the one who define yourself.

“I thought I could just treat you better for the rest of our lives. I was sure my love would be enough to heal you. That was very stupid and selfish of me, and I’m sorry. You’re free to hate me, push me away, ruin my life… the decision is yours. But I don’t wanna hide how I feel anymore. Not from you.”

You’re still pondering his words when Jeongin comes to check on you, making sure Minho isn’t making you cry again.

“No, Jeongin, I’m fine. Look? I’m not crying!” you reassure the pouty kid.

He beams at you with his toothy smile. “Really?! Did you make up? Friends have to forgive each other!”

“I know, sweetheart,” you coo. “And yes, we made up. Friends forgive each other.”

Minho shoots you a surprised look, but you ignore him until you convince Jeongin that he can continue playing. “I don’t know whether we can go back to what we were,” you tell him, gazing at the clear sky. “I still need time to process everything, but I was afraid that I wouldn’t ever see you again. So we can be friends, if you want.”

He chuckles, eyes sparkling and hopeful. “Hi. I’m Lee Minho.”

“I’m Y/N,” you reply. “Anyways, Lee Minho my new friend, how did you know that I’m here?”

“Your scary friend Bang Chan told me you’d be here.”

“So you think Chan is scary.”

Minho does something that’s between a shrug and a shudder. “He’s always shooting daggers at me how do you not notice?!”

As you and Minho spend the rest of the day laughing and enjoying the sun, you rediscover the magic of following your heart.

It’s heavenly.

To Minho, there are only okay days and good days. Bad days almost never happen, but today is a bad day. Everything started from Eat Here’s fruit supplier sending them the wrong strawberries, then Seungmin called in sick minutes before his shift started, and now he has to deal with a couple whose order hasn’t been processed since 40 minutes ago.

“I apologize for the inconvenience. We’re processing your order now and it will be on us. Jisung, we need another 2 glasses of lemonade—”

“We need our food, not—”

Minho’s lips stretch into a thin smile, the kind of smile he hates because you once said you could sense that he was faking it. His business smile is the only that can save him now, so he ignores the fact that you’re watching the whole chaos and says, “It will be on us. You’re going to need more drinks while waiting.”

After making sure that he’s appeased the angry customers, Minho goes back to the small table at the corner where you’re waiting for him. He can no longer mask his fatigue and annoyance when you lay your eyes on him, all he wants now is to hold you in his arms and sleep everything away. He knows he can’t ask you for more, he’s already getting more than he deserves since you agreed to be friends with him again.

He’s undeniably the luckiest man in the whole galaxy, but it’s human instincts to always want more. There are days when his longing for you is too much to handle, and today is one of those days.

His train of thoughts is interrupted when a cold glass is pressed against his cheek. “Minho?”

“Huh?”

Your eyes crinkle knowingly when he focuses his eyes on you again. “I want to listen to you ranting but I really need to go now. Chan needs me back at the office.”

“Okay,” he answers rather brashly. “Thanks for stopping by.”

Minho almost pouts the way Jeongin does (that pout always gets him) whenever the two of you are going home, luckily he stops himself just in time, opting to wonder what will happen if he tells you that he wants you to stay just a minute longer instead.

You make your way to the door, but not without stopping to give him one last advice, “You better not complain that everything is annoying every 5 seconds if you want that new guy to last more than a day. He’s been looking like a lost quokka!”

Your “warning” came out a bit too loud than you expected. Of course, it reaches Han “that new guy” Jisung’s ears and Minho hopes he remembers to give the poor kid a slice of cheesecake for free after his shift ends. You flash him an apologetic smile, turning to Jisung to convince him that his boss isn’t as bad as he seems before your phone rings.

“He’s harmless, Jisung, just make him iced Americano everyday, praise his cats, and you’re good. Okay, I have to go now or I’ll be jobless in an hour! Byeee!”

Minho’s mouth has curled into a lovesick smile at your antics, waving at you until you close the door of your car. The way you naturally calm him down surprises him everytime, it’s like you’re unaware of how much power you have over him.

God, you really own every inch of his heart, don’t you?

Second chances are overrated.

People change, but once you pay attention to them a just a liiiitle more, you realize that they’re still the same. Lee Minho believes he doesn’t deserve any second chance from you, yet he finds himself seeking forgiveness the moment he looked into your eyes again. As selfish as it sounds, Minho wants your love. Nobody else’s, just yours.

He tried to fill in the empty space you left with other people, but none of them fit. It was always too much or too little, punching him right in his gut for ever thinking that what you two had was too much, that you were too much.

Seeing you fast asleep in his living room with Soonie, Doongie and Dori is another reminder that you were never too much.

You were, and still are, his everything.

Dori opens her eyes before jumping out of your arms, making you stir. Minho quietly strokes your hair to lull you back to sleep, but soon your eyes flutter open as well. “Hmmm look who’s here… the hottest man alive,” you mumble.

Minho points at himself. “Not that I’m surprised, but thank you.”

Your sleepy smile and the breathy chuckle that comes after make his stomach flip. It’s just a simple reaction, something you probably didn’t realize doing, but it feels breathtakingly intimate and loving to Minho. A small part of you that only him can see, something that will cross his mind sometime during work, making him wish time to pass quickly so he can rush back home. To you.

Damn, he promised himself not to let him picture a life with you as the love of his life, but look at his defense crumbling right in front of you because of a mere smile.

You seem to notice his dilemma, lips forming another smile. Opening your arms, you whisper, “Come here.”

The voices in his head are drowned by your request, it’s echoing inside his head like a deathly spell. You have him in your embrace nanoseconds later, curling your hands around his neck as he completely succumbs to his longing.

Minho’s head buzzes with the need to tell you that he loves you, wants you, and misses you to the point that he almost asks you to please please please please forgive him and take him back.

“Okay.”

He lifts his head from the crook of your neck, eyes flickering to yours. You chuckle at his reaction, cupping his cheeks with your warm hands. “Say that again.”

“Say… what again?”

Minho blinks up at you, tiny groans of regret escaping his lips when he realizes that he just spilled everything out loud. “I’m sorry,” he sighs. “I wasn’t supposed to say that. I know this isn’t about me, but—”

“Did you mean it, though?”

“Of course I did,” Minho says. “But I want to go according to your pace.”

“If I didn’t want the same thing I wouldn’t be here, Minho.” Your voice is as sweet as honey, hypnotizing him into dropping his hopeless pretense. “I’ve built a new home that truly feels like home. It’s probably just a small house, filled with everything that makes me me. But it feels like a beautiful kingdom, and it’s not complete without you in it.”

You don’t have to say it; the way you hold his gaze with such a raw, pure sincerity and the way you asked him to be with you as if he’s the best person in the whole world are enough to let Minho know that he’s all forgiven.

Feeling a tug at his shirt, he meets your expectant eyes once again. “Are you going to continue staring at me like that until we fall asleep?”

The last traces his fear for disappointing you melts away as you start stroking his hair. “I love you,” he rasps, unconsciously leaning in until his lips brush over yours. “My precious moonlight, I’ll do my best so you won’t ever have to erase me again. I love you, Y/N, please don’t leave me.”

You barely manage to nod before Minho finally crashes his lips against yours, not giving you any chance to steal a breath as he lets his feelings overtake himself. He explores every part of your lips like a madman and you accept whatever he gives you, trying to keep up with his feverish kisses and letting him know that he doesn’t need to hold back.

The sudden urge to see you encourages him to pull away. Minho says nothing for a while, only looking into your eyes with silent adoration. Still breathless, you prop yourself up to reward him with a chaste kiss on the tip of his nose, the sweet gesture causing Minho to attack you with a series of playful smooches.

“How long do you think this will last?” you ask in between kisses, giggling when Minho switches your positions, you’re now lying on top of him.

“This?”

You pinch his cheek. “I gotta admit it feels kinda nice to hear you saying please so many times.”

Minho arches an eyebrow at your cheeky remark. “Is that so? Wait until you find out how much I like hearing you beg.”

“Minho!” you exclaim, dropping your head on his chest to hide your flushed cheeks. He wraps his arms around you, ready to make you even more flustered before accidentally locking eyes with his cats. You lift your head when you feel his body stills, following his gaze.

“Oh no,” you murmur. “The kids saw that, didn’t they?”

He smiles sheepishly at each of them, somehow feeling like he’s gotten caught by his parents. “This kind of thing happens when you love someone,” he attempts to joke. “So get used to it, okay kiddos?”

You nudge his chest with your chin. “God, you’re shameless.”

“They’re cats!”

“Then why are your ears so red?!”

Minho tuts. “That’s it. We need to do this more often so they’ll get used to it.”

As he silences you with another searing kiss, Minho almost malfunctions at how addicting and comforting it is to have you as his again. It’s impossible to fathom all of his feelings for you into words, yet he still hopes you’ll feel every single one of them.

And you do, because Minho is yours. Entirely yours.

“How did you pass your driving test? Did you bribe them or something?”

Hyunjin doesn’t bother to answer Seungmin’s accusation, eyes glued to the road.

“Watch it,” Minho warns monotonously while you’re gripping his hand, too scared to witness the younger trying to drive. Seungmin shrieks in horror when Hyunjin hits the break almost too late. He glares at the passenger seats where you and Minho are seated. “Hyung can you just take over? Or at least switch seats with me?”

“I can’t.” He points at you. “Y/N is scared as hell and I’m not gonna let you hold her hand.”

Hyunjin curses under his breath when several other cars pass him. “Give me a break! This is my first time driving at the highway,” he argues. “And I was supposed to borrow Chan hyung’s car! Driving your car makes it even ten times scarier!”

“Hey, what’s wrong with my car?!” your boyfriend protests.

The three men continue talking over each other, causing you to roar, “SHUT UP!! Hwang Hyunjin, if you take your hands off the wheels you’re gonna die before you even scratch the car!”

Twenty painful minutes later, Hyunjin succeeds in parallel parking the car with the help of a very frustrated Seungmin. The two boys are heading to the orphanage right away, leaving you and Minho alone for your little date.

Minho opens the trunk, setting it up quickly before pulling you to sit beside him, handing you one of the toasts he packed this morning. “Whoa, the moony park is even more beautiful during the day,” you muse, leaning your head on his shoulder.

“Yeah,” Minho agrees. “Should we come here more often at this hour?”

“It doesn’t matter, as long as you’re with me.”

Minho snorts at your cheesy answer, but you still sense his wary from the way he keeps glancing at you from time to time. “Is this about the erasure recording you found in my room yesterday? Is that why you took me here?”

“I’m just wondering why you’re still keeping it. I thought we agreed to destroy it,” he says, doing his best to conceal his uneasiness. You initially thought it was a great idea to forget it ever happened, but no, you’re not running away. You want to accept all the consequences of the decisions you have made, especially this one.

“We did, but then I realized I didn’t want to. I don’t want to erase anything anymore, Minho. I want to live life as it is. It’s a memento from the most important period of my life, and while it hurts, it’s a part of me.” You throw your arms around him, squeezing his body until he turns to you and return your hug. “It’s also a reminder that what we have is stronger than anything, don’t you think? I erased you and I still fell in love with you again. Like an idiot.”

Relief washes over you when Minho chuckles, carefree and amused. “You’re not an idiot,” he teases. “You just have an exceptional taste, and I’m way too irresistible. Let’s face it, you were already crazy for me even before I gave you my card.”

“No I wasn’t! I just thought you were attractive!”

“I am the hottest man alive.”

You sigh. “You’ll never let me live it down.”

“No,” he affirms. “Because you’re right. It’s time to stop trying to forget our past. I’ll never forget the fact that you’re calling me the hottest man alive, just like I’ll never forget how much I’ve hurt you. And how much I’ll always try to make it up to you.”

You laugh at his comparison. “I honestly can’t tell whether we’re having a serious conversation or just trolling each other.”

“It’s my talent, baby. Life is always fun with me.”

Although the park has become more crowded and your boyfriend is never big on PDA, you have no choice but giving him a kiss on his cheek. “You don’t have to do anything for me,” you whisper. “Just love me.”

“Hmm.” His lips stretch into a loving smile, the one smile reserved for your eyes only. “That I do.”

Minho isn’t a prince charming who sweeps you off your feet. He is your wandering prince and you’re his moonlight, illuminating his gloomy world. You show him that he doesn’t have to wander for the rest of his life, that he can call you home and stay.

And Minho will always be with you, showering you with the love you deserve. He’ll be the one who fight the demons for you and with you, he’ll be the one who reminds you over and over again how strong and precious you are whenever you lose faith in yourself. Together, you are moonlit. Together, you are complete.

[pufflix]

unless you do

pairing: hero!liu yangyang x gn hero!reader feat. nct and stray kids’ 00’ line

wc: 4,2k

genre: action, humor, fluff, angst, my hero academia au, friends to enemies au (f2e), enemies to lovers au (e2l)

summary: yangyang and you were friends and fought villain together until he failed to control your quirk. what will he do to make you forgive him?

tw: guns, fights, mild language, broken nose, blood, burn marks, mention of a snake (quirk), teasers, fire, wounds, choking, near death experience, reader gets called a b*tch

quirks because it’s not always explicitly said:

STAY agency: y/n: hydra / hyunjin: telepath (italic) / jisung: zero gravity / felix: cremation / seungmin: erasure

NCT hero office: yangyang: copy / renjun: good ear / jeno: anivoice / jaemin: metal manipulation / hyuck: creation / shotaro: permeation

notes: terrible summary but we get used to it. part of the collab hosted by the lovely @badwithten ! i finally finished it !! feedback’s always appreciated. enjoy the ride <3

networks: @ficscafe @neocult-net @multifandomnet

Kids were scared of you at school. They didn’t bother you because they were afraid you’d break them in half after seeing your quirk manifest at three years old, the very first day of preschool. Even if you were friendly, people just wouldn’t approach you. You’ve spent your early school years alone, until you entered middle school and made friends with other kids with powerful quirks like yours. That was where you met Felix, your first friend.

It was a sunny day in July. A man entered a grocery store, looked around nervously and pointed his gun at the cashier. The latter instinctively put her hands up, stepping back.

“Give me your money,” the man menacingly said. He wasn’t confident. Either he had been told to do this, or he was desperate. Could be both.

The cashier did as told, while you were in the back of the store, occupied with choosing lunch for your teammates and yourself.

When you went to pay, your arms full of food, you saw Lia put the money from the cash register into a bag, in front of a trembling man with a gun. Once you carefully put your soon-to-be purchase on a nearby shelf, you stepped in.

“It’s okay Lia, you can put the cash where it’s supposed to be now,” you said with a smile, before turning to the man.

She stopped her movements, looking somewhat relieved. Nonetheless, she kept an eye on the man who turned to you with widened eyes like he was certain the store was empty five seconds ago.

“Sir, I’m going to ask you to leave.”

His surprise soon turned to anger and indignation. “Stay out of this, you bitch!”

“Well, thank you but no. Please leave,” you calmly repeated, “before someone gets hurt. I mean you.”

You guessed he didn’t understand you, because he stayed there, burning holes into your skin. After what felt like an hour, he slowly put his gun in his pocket.

You were about to question him when his hands turned into sharp stakes. He growled and ran to you, his arms held up your way. After quickly glancing at the outside to see if the sidewalk was clear, a sea snake-like creature emitting from your back took the man in its jaw before he could touch you and harshly pushed him out of the grocery store, breaking the sliding doors in the process.

While the villain was maintained on the concrete, you paid for the food and reassured Lia.

“Sorry about the doors. You can send the bill to the STAY agency.” She thanked you and you quietly called out your creature as you grabbed the villain.

“What are you doing?” Of course, he had to be here right now.

“Apparently your job, Yangyang. Hyuck,” you greeted the cinnamon haired man. “He tried to rob this store. I’ll go now, you’re welcome.”

You pushed the villain against Yangyang, and Donghyuck materialized handcuffs from his body to put on him. “Thanks, I was starting to get bored.”

Yangyang tried to stop you as you were already leaving. “Wait,” he softly blurted out, shifting to grip your wrist but stopped mid way, “how...?”

You turned to face him with a frown, abruptly moving your arm away before he could even brush it. “What?”

He wanted to apologize some more, ask how you were and if you’d ever forgive him, but he found the words stuck in his throat. He coughed. “How’s Lia?”

“Why don’t you go ask her yourself?” You huffed and walked away, leaving a demoralized Yangyang behind.

“Y/N might need more time. It has only been a month since the incident.” Donghyuck patted his friend’s shoulder.

Yangyang let out a frustrated sigh. “And I’ve been hating myself for it ever since.” He groaned. “I was so stupid.”

“Yeah, sure you were. But you couldn’t control it, so—”

“I shouldn’t have done it in the first place. I should’ve stuck with your quirk, Felix’s or Shotaro’s.”

“If you did, you both would’ve been hurt. It’s not your fault.”

“Sure feels like it is.” Yangyang sighed as he watched your retreating figure with sad eyes.

╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

“You’re late,” Seungmin stated the second you entered your agency’s lunchroom.

Your teammates were already at the table, Felix and Hyunjin on their phone, Jisung removing the gravity on his own phone, letting it take height and grabbing it when it fell —basically playing with his quirk—, and Seungmin, arms crossed, using his erasure quirk on Jisung from time to time, making him drop his phone when he least expected it.

“Sorry, I was too busy saving Jisung’s best friend’s ass,” you retorted, sticking your tongue out.

Jisung’s head perked up. “Lia?? What happened?? Let me call her real quick.” He grabbed his phone mid air and left the room before anyone could add anything.

“Are you and Lia okay?” asked Seungmin as he took the egg fried rice you put on the table along with the rest of your purchase of the day.

Sitting next to him, you relaxed on the comfortable chair. “Of course we are, she was brave and catching the villain was as easy as walking. There might he a bill coming though, but I’ll let Chan know later.”

“Good to hear. I heard it’s Yangyang’s patrol today. Have you seen him?” You raised a brow at Felix. He was looking uninterested, focusing on his phone, but the shifty eyes of the other guys were enough to convince you it wasn’t a trivial question. Nonetheless, instead of being on the defensive, you opted for a casual demeanor.

“I did. Why do you care?”

“Oh, I don’t. Unless you do...” He sounded suspicious but you wanted to stop thinking about him.

“I don’t. Eat up, I bought y’all’s favorite.”

“You were on lunch duty today because we knew Yangyang was on patrol and we thought it was a good idea for you both to meet,” you heard Hyunjin in your head.

“Thanks for the honesty, but I got this, guys.”

“Hyunjin!” Seungmin and Felix called out at the same time.

Jisung came back right after. “Lia’s okay. Did y’all tell Y/N about Yangyang?”

You’ve known Yangyang for a few years now, you met him at school. You weren’t in the same class and weren’t close, and at that time, Yangyang couldn’t copy living emitter quirks. He tried on some of his classmates, but he never succeeded. That’s what you thought, at least until the incident.

THREE WEEKS AGO

Three villains were ravaging Incheon. They were so out of control, the STAY agency and the NCT hero office were called. Jisung, Jeno and Renjun were helping the heroes already here to rescue the civilians and bring them to safety before the emergency unit would arrive and Hyunjin, Felix, Seungmin, Jaemin, Donghyuck, Shotaro, Yangyang and you were fighting the villains. Donghyuck materialized three handcuffs and gave one to each team. Yangyang touched Shotaro, Felix and Donghyuck before splitting into teams.

Seungmin and Felix went to attack one villain situated on a market place, Hyunjin and Shotaro handled the second one on a park nearby and Donghyuck, Yangyang and you dealt with the third one on an adjacent street. Jaemin stayed around to chain the enemies once down, and to protect some civilians that would be too bold —or foolish— to come close to the fights.

The villain looked like a monstrous beast-man. Yangyang didn’t think much before charging him.

“Be careful, Yang!” you shouted from behind him.

He burned the beast at a good distance, disappearing under the floor when he attacked, coming back behind him and burning him some more. All the while Donghyuck was materializing a giant steel net, with you by his side.

“Polyamide wouldn’t last long with his claws.”

“Do you need help?”

“If this doesn’t work, I will.”

You summoned your snake and made it attack the villain, making Yangyang’s job easier. He used Felix’s cremation quirk to burn the beast-man’s head again but not to the point of killing him. Donghyuck finished the net after a few minutes and gave it to you. You approached the villain, keeping him down with your snake, then gave a part of the net to Yangyang.

“The second I release the grip, we throw it on him, alright?”

“Got it.”

The beast was raging, burn marks evident on his skin, where fur once was. You could feel him breathe heavily through your snake.

The second you released him, he tried to jump on you. Instinctively, you both threw the net on him, maintaining it on the concrete on each of his sides.

“We need Jaemin, Hyuck!” you screamed, not sure how close your friend was anymore.

Your snake came putting weight on the beast but it didn’t seem to be enough. You were visibly struggling. “I think this is the moment when I use my quirk.”

“Will you even be able to make it out?”

“I have to try, we don’t have much time.” As if on cue, the villain almost got loose. “Do you trust me?”

You sighed. “I better not regret this, Yang.”

“Agreed.” He reached over the beast’s head and you joined him halfway. “Here goes nothing.”

You felt relieved and somewhat proud when you saw the snake being summoned. It joined yours in keeping the beast down, which seemed to be effective.

Jaemin arrived shortly after —Donghyuck on his heels— and tightened the net against the villain. He turned back into his more humane apparence and Jaemin kept tightening the net until he couldn’t move anymore.

You high fived Yangyang with a big smile on your face.

“See? Didn’t regret it, right?”

Blame the heat of the moment, but he suddenly had the urge to kiss you. Before he could move, though, his snake’s head came in contact with your face, making you fly a few meters farther.

Yangyang called the snake back after being shocked for several seconds and ran to you, profusely apologizing. Hyuck, Jaemin and Seungmin were pretty startled, while you were sitting up with difficulty. Keeping your eyes closed, you touched your face to feel the damage. Your nose was swollen and hurt a bit, but other than that, you felt fine. Well, if you didn’t count the soreness on your back from when you hit the ground.

“I’m so sorry, Y/N. I didn’t mean to. Are you okay?”

“Don’t... talk to me.” You tried to push him away, faintly wiping the air next to him.

“Y/N, please, don’t shut me out. I’m sorry.”

“Come on man, let’s go,” you heard Jaemin call.

Seungmin helped you get up while Jaemin dragged Yangyang out of the scene.

“Your nose is bleeding and turning blue, it’s probably broken,” your teammate said as he carefully put your arm over his head to help you walk.

“Let me just…” Hyuck began, materializing a gauze and an ice pack, “here, take these.”

Seungmin took the stuff for you after noticing you couldn’t see straight, while you thanked the cinnamon hair boy.

PRESENT DAY

Since that day, you’ve been avoiding Yangyang. It was safe to say that, because of your own teammates, the task was compromised pretty often.

You were persuaded he couldn’t control your quirk, so as much as you wanted to see him, you had to stay away. Yangyang felt the same. He still couldn’t understand how the snake could have attacked you like that, when it was the last thing he’d ever want to do to you. He really did screw up, he believed.

That being said, he was persuaded he had to apologize again.

So, the next day, Yangyang found himself waiting in front of the huge glass door of the STAY agency entrance. He just finished his day's work. On his way there, he bought your favorite snack for you in Lia’s store —the sliding doors had already been repaired, by the way. It was Hyunjin who saw him first, you being right behind him.

“Copy boy at 12.” Your head shot up, you didn’t expect to see him right now. It was tiring enough to act cold around him, but after the day you just had… let’s say you were too exhausted already.

Yangyang offered you a hopeful smile as soon as he caught sight of your figure.

“Please, talk to him. I see he’s really trying.” You sighed, timidly nodding when Hyunjin turned to look at your reaction. “Hi, Yangyang,” he greeted, “good evening to you both.”

He waved goodbye to your general direction then left with a smile. You didn’t get to see, eyes glued to your old friend. Well, at least his frame.

“Here,” he offered you the snack with both hands.

Careful not to touch him while taking it, you thanked him. “What brings you here?” Your voice was stern, but not as much as the past month.

“I wanted to apologize again. I’m still not sure how it happened but I want to let you know it was never my intention to hurt you. And I miss you. I miss everything—”

“Stop. Please,” you cut him off, bringing a hand up. Avoiding his gaze, you stared at the number ‘24’ written on his white shirt. “You’re reckless and childish and I can’t trust you anymore. I forgive you, Yangyang, but I can’t let you near me. If only for our own safety.”

Running away was never the solution, you knew that, but here you were, running to your house without looking back.

You knew you were being too harsh on him, but you were just trying to protect yourself. At least, that was what you were convinced of.

Your quirk being linked to your mind, it always did what you thought about.

It didn’t come to your or Yangyang’s mind that he, in fact, did have control over the snake.

Once home, you took a few deep breaths and sat on the couch. Staring at your favorite snack in your hands, you found yourself smiling at the memories.

ONE YEAR AGO

You had been a pro hero for three years now. You were out with your teammates for a well deserved break. Jisung had proposed to buy drinks and snacks, but eventually everyone bought something. Then you went to the park to decompress and enjoy the good weather. Sunny and warm with a cool breeze.

There, Seungmin spotted NCT hero office’s 00’ line and waved at them to join you all. “I know them, they’re cool. And we have too much food anyway,” he had said.

That’s when you met Yangyang, Donghyuck and the others again after school.

After the introductions, Hyunjin told everyone to dig in. Yangyang and you reached for the same snack, and, believe it or not, that was where your friendship began. Through common likes. You talked a lot, and even if you had to join forces to fight a villain that day for the first time, you had a pretty good time. Yangyang stuck to his friends’ quirks because he wasn’t familiar with your agency’s. And, later on, he never got the occasion to use yours.

PRESENT DAY

You felt bad.

You missed him too much. Regret was practically eating you alive.

It was decided.

You’d apologize and stop being so awkward around him. Hopefully your friendship will go back to the way it was almost four weeks ago.

You didn’t see Yangyang for a whole week, though. Not that you were specifically looking for him, of course.

“Lix, did you see any hero on your way to buy lunch?” you asked him when he put his purchase on the table.

“Jeno and Jaemin, yeah. Why? You want to know if Yangyang’s fine, don’t you?” he suspiciously raised an eyebrow.

Stammering a little, you blushed. “N—no, I was just asking to make conversation.”

“Does this kind of excuse usually work?” Seungmin laughed.

“Whatever, bon appétit,” you muttered as you took the closest plate from you, a pout never leaving your face.

“Why don’t you go see him after work?” Jisung proposed.

“Right, he’ll probably be finished too,” Hyunjin chimed in.

You nodded at them with a small smile, Felix tapping your back reassuringly.

╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

You were two blocks away from Yangyang’s house when you heard a crash nearby. Not waiting any second, you ran to the loud noise to see what was happening. It wasn’t pretty.

At least forty people in all black were sacking a mall, civilians running in every direction. In the middle of the chaos was a man visibly enjoying it all.

Rapidly texting your teammates, you used your quirk to stop a few minions. Apparently, Shotaro wasn’t far from the place because he was the first by your side, even though you didn’t call for him. His permeation quirk made him use close combat on the foes while you were at a reasonable distance from them.

Something didn’t make sense. After a few minutes, Shotaro came to you.

“They’re being weird,” he breathed. “Their eyes are milky white, but then I hit them and they’re looking at me like they just woke up from a deep slumber.”

“Effectively, there’s a lot less minions destroying the property. Perhaps the man is controlling them.”

He was on the first floor, looking disgruntled. Then he spoke to a few civilians that were running near him. Your eyes widened when you saw the civilians joining the grunts.

“So what’s happening here?” you heard Jisung say behind you. “Wow, okay, nevermind. What are we waiting for?”

“Don’t tell me you’re scared? We’ve fought worse enemies before,” added Hyunjin.

“I was looking forward to resting,” whined Donghyuck.

“Don’t hurt them too much, Y/N and I think they’re being manipulated by the man upstairs,” Shotaro explained.

The five of you tried your best to wake them up from their dazed state before attacking the man behind it all. Although it seemed he didn’t want to stop so soon.

“Excuse me, will you let me have my fun?” you heard the man ask.

“Are you kidding me?” Hyunjin answered, and a second later he was standing there, looking completely spaced out, eyes turning milky white.

He attacked Jisung, who was the closest to him, and Jisung was so startled by the sudden change in character, he was out before he could protect himself.

Next, Hyunjin attacked Donghyuck who had created teasers. Hopefully, he saw him come and teased him before he could be punched. Your teammate came back to his senses, widened his eyes, turned around and ran to Jisung.

Yangyang arrived with Renjun and Jeno. They helped the victims to evacuate safely while Yangyang approached the fight.

“What’s happening?” he asked Donghyuck, but the man answered first.

“A masterpiece. You see, I had an Awakening. I can control multiple people at the same time, I don’t have to voice my intentions anymore, and I can even make them use their quirks. I wanted to try it out. Isn’t that amazing?”

“So basically another psycho?” Before he could add what you were sure was a sassy remark, his eyes turned milky white and he put his hand on Donghyuck’s throat.

“You heroes don’t have quirks or what?” he huffed, disappointed.

Donghyuck tried to stop his friend, but seemed weaker. He looked at you and in a silent acknowledgment, you pushed Yangyang with your snake. He stumbled upon a bench and his eyes seemed to go back to normal.

“Everyone, don’t answer him!” Shotaro shouted.

“Oh, you already discovered how my quirk works? You’re a clever one.”

“Once the last victim is stopped and safe, you go for him,” Hyunjin mentally said to all heroes. Jisung was getting up.

“I’m not done, though. Hey, you,” he looked at you. “How does it feel to see your friends fighting and getting their hands dirty while all you do is agitate that snake of yours? Don’t you know how to fight? Or do you enjoy seeing them hurting? You even attacked one of them and I didn’t even make you do it.”

Your lips were quivering, your body shaking with rage. How dare he?! You wanted to yell that you didn’t choose your quirk nor did you ever want to hurt Yangyang.

“Y/N, please, look at me,” Yangyang’s soft voice reached your ears and you glanced in his direction. He was up, walking to you. “You did what you had to do. I’m okay.”

A tear escaped your eye. “I’m sorry,” you whispered.

Even if you didn’t speak to the man, his quirk seemed to take effect anyway. The feeling was unpleasant, it was like your brain was full of fog and you were caged in your own body. You were helplessly watching your snake violently attack Yangyang, then Hyunjin, Jisung, Shotaro and Donghyuck. You wanted to scream, avenge them and hurt the man so bad. But all you could do was watch. Jeno and Renjun were nowhere to be seen.

Where was Seungmin when you needed him?!

As if on cue, you saw him, Felix and Jaemin arrive from the corner of your eye. Your snake went straight to Seungmin but he used his quirk on you just in time, then on the man and you felt your limbs again. One look at your friends and Yangyang’s bloody body on the debris, your rage and devastation were so strong they clouded your surroundings and best judgment.

You saw fear in the man’s eyes when they locked into yours. Your snake took him in its jaw and made him bite the dust a few times. It was more violent than Hulk making Loki “fly” in the Avengers’ tower. The man was badly hurt when Seungmin stopped you.

“Y/N, it’s enough.”

As your snake disappeared, you turned around, startling him with your murderous glare but eventually, your eyes landed on Yangyang and you ran to him. You put a hand on his face, gently caressing his cheek with your thumb. “I’m so sorry, Yang. I didn’t want this to happen.” You started sobbing, laying your head on his torso, clutching his shirt. “I love you, please don’t leave me.”

The others were helping the guys you unwillingly attacked, and soon they realized Yangyang was thrown against a beam unlike his teammates, Hyunjin and Jisung.

“Y/N,” Felix tried, “can you let me see his wound?”

You refused to move. You couldn’t leave him. Felix sat down next to you and stroked your back. He felt his pulse and sighed, relieved.

“Y/N, I can save him.”

At those words, you straightened up and moved away a bit, but had Yangyang’s hand in yours. Felix used his quirk to cauterize the wound on the back of his head.

An ambulance arrived shortly after, and it was safe to say you stayed with Yangyang until he woke up in his hospital room, 36 hours later. You were sleeping on the chair next to his bed, his hand in yours still.

“Y/N?” he softly called.

No answer. He stared down at his hand, a warm feeling enveloping him. He caressed your skin with his thumb, a dumb smile on his face.

“You’re awake.” You cleared your throat, looking anywhere but at him. “How are you feeling?”

“Good now that you’re here with me.” You felt your cheeks burn a bit. “What happened?”

“I did something terrible but Felix saved your life by cauterizing your wound.”

“It wasn’t your fault, Y/N. Please don’t hate yourself for it. It was all this vile man’s doing.”

“I know, but…”

“If anything, consider it payback for when I hurt you,” he smiled.

You hardly let out a rictus. It was a pouty one. “I’m just so sorry, Yang.”

“You called me by my nickname,” he beamed. “Does that mean we can be friends again?”

The hope he held in his eyes was enough for you to accept. Not that it was needed, you had missed him too, after all.

“I’d like that,” you softly said as you pressed gently on his hand.

“You know, I’ve realized something. Your quirk does what you think about, right?”

“Yeah…?”

“Then I believe I know why the snake attacked you all these weeks ago.” He marked a pause, rubbing the back of his neck, and you watched his ears turning bright red. “I wanted to kiss you.”

“You what?” You were more confused than anything, looking at him like he told you a nonsensical story.

“It was in the heat of the moment. I don’t really like you like that,” he rapidly added.

“Oh.”

“Unless you do? And in that case…” He was nervous, playing with the hem of the sheet with the hand that wasn’t in yours.

“Why don’t you tell me clearly how you feel?”

“Because I just got you back and I don’t want to lose you again because of some unrequited feelings.”

“Yang, sweetie,” you mused as you covered his hand with your other one, caressing it softly, “who said they were unrequited?”

Yangyang gulped, looking at you in the eye. “Are you for real?”

“Of course, don’t tell me it’s too hard to believe.”

“Y/N… Thank you.”

Raising an eyebrow, you tilted your head. “What for?”

“Everything. But most importantly, for liking me too.”

Frowning —but definitely cooing inside—, you reached for his hair with your free hand, ruffling it a bit. “Silly. You don’t need to thank me.”

His boxy smile appeared in your sight, and you took him in your arms to hide in his neck.

“I’m so glad you’re okay.”

Yangyang didn’t say anything, he just hugged you tightly, like you would leave him if he let go.

You wouldn’t. Never again.

[whitestopper]

LOONA Timeline Theory: LOOPD AU

Timeline:

Quick key:

Bold- 1/3 world, Italics- OEC world, Underlined- yyxy world,

Striked- alternate world/unknown, [in these brackets]- dream state

Highlighted- points of erasure

(Also, I wasn’t really sure which workd to place some in but chronologically they’re more or less in the right order. Additionally I have written down titles multiple times as I feel like different plot points have spacing between them. Eg: Love&Live’s two plot points have some time passing between them.)

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Okay, so LOONA seem to have put lots of emphasis on looping in their discography:

ViVi, Kim Lip, Yves and Olivia Hye have casette tapes in their MV

Girl Front shows the girls experience looping properties

Jinsoul’s rap mentions ‘the endless cycle’

And then I thought, if only ViVi’s memories weren’t erased, then the timeline would probably be clearer.

Then it hit me: what if everyone’s memories were being erased, keeping the timeline in its loop?

This could be why the LOONAVERSE is referred to as a Mobius Strip- a constant but unstable loop, as no one is allowed to develop.

So let’s walk through the timeline:

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STAGE 1 (SCL - E):

We start off with Everyday I Need You, where ViVi, an android, comes across Jinsoul near the beginning of Sweet Crazy Love and ‘releases her from her basement’ (making ViVi the one who took out Jinsoul’s earphone), which causes the release of Jinsoul’s rain (in Singing In The Rain) to make the memories of 1/3 (Heejin, Hyunjin, Haseul, ViVi) be erased (in Rain 51db). Meanwhile, Chuu and Go Won, clueless and in OEC world, give Hyunjin a bracelet; just as one side goes up while the other goes down on a SeeSaw, Hyunjin falls from OEC world to Earth while Chuu and Go Won return to Eden.

Hyunjin, while happy to have helped Chuu and Go Won, mourns her removal from OEC world in Around You. However the bracelet is actually a bakoneko in disguise (shout out to @pinksrs, who inspired this detail), and as the animal’s influence grows stronger, Heejin and Hyunjin find each other. Later, they can’t get the other out of their mind, and they share a dream (I’ll Be There).

After some time, Heejin discovers her power to bring out colours in ViVid, allowing Jinsoul to awaken her ODD eye; as atonement for erasing her memory, she gives ViVi her own ODD eye to help her navigate the world. As Hyunjin, a primary colour, is absent, Kim Lip’s red and Jinsoul’s blue combine to make Choerry, the purple girl, to fill in her place. Kim Lip goes off to work on her own powers in Eclipse.

STAGE 2 (LCM - L&L):

Choerry is just hanging out with her friends, Haseul and Yeojin; while her colour has been added to her, she is still on Earth. Jinsoul travels there to leave a cherry, and when Choerry eats it, she is transported to OEC’S world, where an alternate version of herself teaches her how to use her powers over the events of Love Cherry Motion.

Meanwhile in New, Yves has doubt about being in Eden. She creates an apple by combining the attributes of two girls: Yeojin and Kim Lip. However in doing this, she traps Yeojin, seperating her from 1/3, and causes antagonism between her and Kim Lip.

At this point, 1/3 are in a pretty bad mood; Heejin’s power makes her feel isolated, Hyunjin is cut off from her home, Haseul has just lost Yeojin and Choerry, and ViVi’s android status leaves her practically apathetic. Thankfully, as they contemplate on the past events in Sonatine, they are close enough together that Heejin releases their colours, which ViVi’s ODD eye senses. Later that night, they share a dream through Everyday I Love You; Yeojin, who is trapped elsewhere but is granted the power to join their dream, attempts to make contact with them. This dream, actually a memory of ViVi buried deep down, is set off by Yves’ arrival onto Earth, as she has eaten her apple.

After seeing each other in the dream, 1/3 are drawn together and come up with the idea to start a track team. Some time passes in Love&Live, during which Heejin discovers that ViVi is an android, until ViVi has a realisation when she sees Hyunjin, the former OEC girl now in 1/3, with her colour while running; she unplugs herself, willing to lose her ODD eye, and runs until it runs out of energy; she loses it and becomes human again, in time to come across Yves.

STAGE 3 (GF - HA):

As ViVi and Yves spend time together (cough fall in love cough) in New, they travel to Eden to spend more time together. Meanwhile Girl Front starts to happen; Kim Lip and Jinsoul look for the new OEC girl, while Choerry looks for all 12 of LOONA. On her way, she finds the locations of a few, including Hyunjin and Yeojin, and she throws a map for Haseul to find in Let Me In. Haseul discovers that she has the power to save Yeojin (as Haseul and Yeojin’s signature animals are a bird and a frog respectively, I based this bit on this piece of Taiwanese folklore).

In The Carol, Heejin manages to combine the attributes of Haseul’s animal and Hyunjin’s colour to create the yellow bird necessary for Yeojin’s escape (the gift she holds in the MV which appears later). Meanwhile, the OEC girls unite, but as they look for the others, Yves (and ViVi) pass by, and Choerry follows Yves to yyxy world (as seen in Starlight) where ViRryVes spend The Carol 2.0 together; during this, Yves convinces Choerry to help the other yyxy girls fall to Earth, in exchange for allowing Choerry to also return; missing Haseul and Yeojin, Choerry agrees.

This increases Kim Lip’s dislike of Yves, and now she also fears losing another OEC girl. In order to preserve OEC, during the end of Girl Front, she tries to go back in time to reverse the events which led to Choerry meeting ViVi and Yves; however she doesn’t realise that she does not erase the events but only the memories of those events from herself- in fact she erases all of her memories up to and including Sweet Crazy Love, so she loses knowledge of her ODD eye.

Using her (love cherry) magic, Choerry takes the properties from the apple Yves gave her (as fruits from the Rosacae family allow one to fall from Eden) and give them to Go Won’s pineapple. However, Choerry comes across Yeojin, trapped in yyxy’s world. Choerry manages to come across Hyunjin, who gives her the present (briefly seen in Kiss Later) to free Yeojin; however, still angry at Yves for trapping Yeojin, she causes Yves’ original apple to be ‘corrupted’- as soon as Kim Lip and Yeojin are ‘reset’, Yves will be brought back to Eden. As soon as she has given the fruit to Go Won in One&Only, Choerry returns herself to Earth, inadvertently erasing her memory as she does so, and also losing her own ODD eye.

During Love4Eva, Yves only has three fruits with her, so she prepares to leave Eden with Go Won and Chuu, believing that Olivia Hye does not want to join them and not wanting to waste the fruits.

STAGE 4 (E - E):

In Egoist, Olivia is distraught by this betrayal; in Kiss Later, Yeojin senses this and empathises, having also been hurt by Yves. She refuses to eat the fruit that will let her escape until Jinsoul provides more cherries for Yeojin to eat in order to allow Olivia Hye to have her blood plum. However, ViVi still remains in Eden; in anger, Olivia Hye transforms ViVi into an android, removing her from Eden in the process.

Meanwhile, Chuu and Go Won land in OEC world, memories both wiped; Chuu is woken up by the presence of Haseul’s bird returning from Eden with Yeojin and Jinsoul. Chuu sets off to look for another yyxy member. As Yeojin is returned to Earth, Yves is taken back to Eden. My Melody shows Haseul celebrating Yeojin’s return, while My Sunday features Heejin and Hyunjin together (cough on a date). Meanwhile, Jinsoul tries to convince Olivia Hye to let go, but in her anger, Olivia Hye erases Jinsoul’s memories of having an ODD eye, keeping the ability locked away and plunging the world into black and white. As Egoist ends, Olivia Hye is found by Heejin, who consoles her and helps her return to Eden at the cost of her memories. Before she returns however, Olivia Hye offers Heejin a colour buried deep inside of her: bright pink.

And the cycle begins again: OEC look for their colours, ViVi tries to become human, 1/3 finds their place in the world, Yves feels weary of Olivia Hye, and yyxy feels the urge to leave Eden.

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So how does LOONA unite?

Well, they unite by breaking free from the loop, so eventually memories don’t get erased.

In the Hi High (1/3) version (where Hi High takes place within OEC), Egoist doesn’t happen because before Olivia Hye goes on her rampage, Jinsoul (and the rest of OEC) give her a way to Earth, where Yves is surprised but gladly welcomes her. ViVi stays human and keeps the knowledge of how to go beyond. My Melody changes to take place during Hi High, where Haseul and Yeojin retain what they learnt in Let Me In and Eden respectively. Chuu and Go Won thank Hyunjin by offering her their yellow (since orange and green contain that colour) to her, letting her find and rejoin OEC. Kim Lip finds Heejin by sensing her colour, and together LOONA soar into the sky.

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Hope you all like (and can access, iaifhejkskv) this version! I ended up not including Butterfly because lore. Anyway, as always, please like, reblog, and comment if you want to discuss!

[seungminsmile]

hyunjin said seungmin erasure

[thekihyun]

ur mullet post: this is hyunjin from stray kids erasure bc his mullet was :') yes.. also I hated baek's mullet but that's just me

awwww, it is a “puppy mullet” super cute! 

Baekhyun’s mullet is a matter of debate, some love, some hate... i understand that, but no one can deny he’s pulled that off like a boss, “bitch i may have a chicken on my head but i still look amazing” type of boss jkasdhkashdkasdad

[crispy-chan]

✿ STRAY KIDS MASTERLIST

✎ - ongoing  ✓ - completed   ↳ - sequel 

♡ - fluff  ♤ - angst  ♢ - action  ♧ - fantasy 

 f/s/e2l - friends/strangers/enemies to lovers  

✎﹏ot8/mini mlists

a fairytale that lasts m.list ♡♤♢♧ | ✎  → ot8 prince!au, fairytale!au (coming soon)

— ❛❛ In which you embark on eight different journeys set in eight different fairytales with eight different princes. ❜❜

stray kids as brooklyn 99 quotes

reaction to you being scared of heights

how would stray kids tickle you

stray kids as jobs they’d be doing if they weren’t in a band

 ✎﹏ bang chan

✿ SERIES — 

maze of memories ♤♢ | ✓ → hunger games, career!chan; ft. felix︙76.9k  

— in which you try to survive the games with your district partner felix, but you catch the attention of the career from district two.

christmas evel: the heist ♡♢ | ✓ → heist!au, dystopian!au, humor, ft. ot8︙19.5k

— you’ve always had a strange affinity for the outlawed holiday. your boyfriend never understood your dangerous fascination with something so incredibly illegal. now, when you’ve decided to hold a christmas party that could very likely get you killed, will he and his friends help you? successfully pulling off this insanely risky heist will mean you get to host the party of the century. but if one thing goes wrong, the government will come for you all… 

(part of the hoi ficmas event)

✿ ONESHOTS —

misjudged  ♡♤♧   → red riding hood au/retelling ︙ 7k

— when you try to figure out the reason why the boy was shunned, many secrets from the past are revealed. it all seems to be rooted back to the fateful day, almost a decade ago, when his mother saved a young man's life.

arcade. ♡♢ → gang!au, highschool!au︙ 6.9k

— he loved you...ever since you two were little kids. but he learned that loving you is a losing game

yellow wood ♡♤♢  → the darkest minds!au, runaway!au, dystopian, superpowers ︙ 29k

— after a horrible disease had spread across the world, killing most children, the ones that survived were left with special powers. not long after, the government began rounding up all of the remaining children, sending them to camps in hopes of “treating” them. but you all know the truth… they were never worried about the kids that might die. they were afraid of you - the ones who lived…

✿ DRABBLES —

forget  ♤︙ 0.5k

 ✎﹏lee minho

✿ ONESHOTS —

clandestine ♡♢ → cop!au ︙8.3k

— where despite the odds, you end up sleeping over at the house of an officer, who offered you shelter. 

a song of ice and fire  ♡♤♢♧ → royalty!au, arranged marriage!au, historical romance, drama, love triangle, ft.guard!jisung︙35k

 — when you agreed to marry the prince of the crimson clan in order to sign a peace treaty, it feels like your entire life is crumbling down in front of your eyes. forced to move to another kingdom, you’re afraid of being shackled in a loveless marriage. minho’s reputation precedes him, and the stories you’ve heard aren’t exactly great. yet the seemingly perfect kingdom has many secrets, along with a dark history that goes beyond anything you would’ve imagined…

✎﹏seo changbin

✿ ONESHOTS —

in another lifetime ♡♤  → coffee shop!au, reincarnation!au, greek gods!au, bad boy!au, s2l, f2l︙ 21.7k

— after a painful breakup with your ex, you find yourself spiralling into an abyss of self-doubt. but when changbin, a new (and insanely attractive) customer starts frequenting your cafe, you realize that there's more to life than what you previously thought. there's an air of familiarity around him, and you feel this unexplainable pull towards him—almost as if the two of you were meant to be from the start...

✿ DRABBLES —

starless: xr - 0325  ♡︙0.6k

✎﹏hwang hyunjin

✿ ONESHOTS —

neverending story  ♡♤  →  high school!au, memory erasure!au, s2f2l ︙23k

— while your memories are erased at the end of each year, hyunjin won't let it stop you from experiencing love. 

✎﹏han jisung

✿ ONESHOTS —

a story rewritten ♡♤♢ →  ft. hyunjin, high school!au, zombie apocalypse!au︙6.7k

— if waking up in an entirely new world where you can't see anyone's face isn't bad enough, hyunjin—the only person whose face isn't blurred in this twisted world—turning into a zombie surely is.

awaken ♤♡ → ghost!au, college!au, mystery︙14.5k 

— ten days ago, you heard someone knocking on your apartment window. seven days ago, you saw a bloody fingerprint on your table. today, you found a stranger lying on your couch. wait a second, is that blood on his hands?!

heat waves ♡ →  established relationship!au, suggestive︙1.8k

— jisung's favorite past time is kissing you.

happier ♡♤ → college!au, comfort, romance︙20k 

— after volunteering to become a subject for jisung's psychology final, you assume your monotonous life will simply go on. but suddenly, there's a lot more drama in your life and you feel yourself plummeting. but there's hope - especially when jisung vows to change that, taking you on fun 'dates' in order to restore your faith in happiness and show you why life is truly worth living.

✿ ONESHOTS —

slip n slide  ♡ val. day︙1k

 ✎﹏lee felix

✿ ONESHOTS —

felix navidad ♡ → royal!au, baker!au, s2l; prince!felix︙5k 

— when the crown prince asks you, a lowly baker, to help him win the annual baking competition, you can't resist the sweet deal he proposes. during the course of 14 days, lee felix learns that there are as many ways to mix batter as there are ways to fall in love with you.

✿ DRABBLES —

happy skrrrtday ♡ bday blurb┆0.8k

✎﹏kim seungmin

✿ ONESHOTS —

astronaut  ♤ ♡ →  astronaut!seungmin, high school!au︙6.3k

— in which your genius childhood best friend chooses space over you.

↳ serendipitous [ alternate ending ] 2.6k 

✎﹏yang jeongin

✿ ONESHOTS —

pushover  ♡  → f2l, high school!au︙13.4k

— despite everyone and their mother knowing that you and jeongin have a thing for each other, it will take a lot for you both to realize that.

burning sunflower  ♡♤ → hanahaki!au, high school!au︙6.8k

— watching him play soccer did many things to you, and falling in love may just be one of them.

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MTL likely to have a breeding kink

With Friends - 3Racha 

21:34

21:36

09:47

Front Seat

11:46

19:25 - DanceRacha

15:48

16:34

08:16

16:37

18:23

Calm You Down

The bed curtain one

50/50 - Ongoing

After the final straw in your patience and self confidence leads you to moving in with your neighbour, you spend months unlearning bad habits and opening doors you shut yourself out from in your last relationship.

1 - 2 - 3

18:27

17:47

22:28

Good Puppy 

21:38

16:55

Dressing Room

23:49

Erasure - Ongoing

It was, most times, great luck to have a brother working as deputy apprentice at your local police station. Free rides in the sheriff jeep, a level of respect from your peers and the muffins you received from indebted grannies whenever Changbin saved somebody's cat.

Hwang Hyunjin expected to find himself many places that night. A jail holding cell. Under the abandoned train station bridge. Maybe even his own bedroom. Your living room wasn’t on the list.

1 

Blueberry Claws - Halloween Oneshot

Teasing

03:18

21:38

14:09

04:28

Mascara Smudge

Bite Me

[necromancersupreme]

YEEEEEEEEEE YAY SUPER EXCITES FOR WHAT'S TO COME!!! 🤩🤩🤩🥰

- Erasure - 1

Hwang Hyunjin x Female Reader

With washed out, dyed pastel hair, sea salt and acrylic clinging to his jeans, Hwang Hyunjin expected to find himself many places that night. A jail holding cell. Under the abandoned train station bridge. Maybe even his own bedroom.

Your living room wasn’t on the list.

Warnings - Some angst in later chapters, suggestive/smut, minor character death mentions, Hyunjin is an eboy and a little angsty, Changbin is doing his best as a big brother, slow burn (?)

A/N - Finally! Sorry for the delays, my head just hasn’t been with me this week;; I hope you enjoy this series as much as I am excited to write it. 

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The steady buzzing of your speakers fills the living room as you watched Changbin scroll through the Netflix home page. Both of you settle deep into the sofa, balancing a bowl of popcorn and chocolate between your knees. 

“Endgame? Homecoming, Nightmare on Elm Street?” Binnie flicks through the suggestions, and you shake your head in distaste. “I’m not watching that octopus documentary again!”

“You only hated it because you cried at the end.”

“She died! He had to look after her little babies! Your heart is too cold, too far gone for that level of compassion.” The last part of your brother’s grumbles are cut off when you throw a burnt kernel at his forehead, barely missing his ear. 

There’s nobody else home. Nobody else ever comes home, either. It’s been just you and Changbin for a while, and it’s not all that terrible. He’s a few years older than you, having graduated last summer and now undertaking an apprenticeship at the village police station. It doesn’t pay a stellar amount, but Changbin reassures you once he passes the trainee exams he’ll treat you to a new pair of winter boots and you can finally quit the ice cream parlour to focus on college. You tell him that even if he wins the lottery tomorrow, you’ll work your own job. For all the support your elder brother gives you, you like having your own thing. It makes you feel a little more involved, a little more even than jsit washing the dishes and doing his laundry on days he’s too tired to move. 

The Thursday evening is reserved for you both, to catch up on the hours together you miss during the week when Changbin doesn’t get back till you’re fast asleep and you don’t have the chance to say good morning. 

He’s been doing that a lot more recently. 

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