#hyera smut

[urmomspersonalwhore]

Boring Parties Make Exciting People

MINORS DNI

-Hyera/Reader, NSFW, Fingering, cunnilingus, taking of virginity, Orgasm denial, etc…

“Wet already? I see your eager, hm.”

Your fingers tapped the table, a hand holding your head as you were a bit bored of the part.

You had been invited to your friend's birthday party, though no one spoke to you. And you certainly didn't want to force a conversation.

All you did was eat the food and have some drinks, which is all you really needed to stay there.

At least it was worth something.

The loud music making your heart pound along the beat, it wasn't even good music to be honest.

Sounded like they took a playlist from a random market.

Your Small 'peace' was interrupted by a pink haired lady, she was pretty you must admit.

Very pretty.

There were two drinks in her hand, and she offered you one.

"Care for a drink? You seem lonely." The stranger teased with a captivating smile.

You give back a smile as you nod,

"Sure." you took the alcohol from her hand.

It was a margarita.

Raising the glass to your lips you took a small gulp. After, you smiled before you spoke.

“Mm, it's nice.” she laughed, a hand covering her mouth.

“Sounds like you don't like it.”

You shook your head, a small chuckle coming out of you as you tried to explain the misunderstanding,

“No no, it's really good!”

The Lady supported her head with a hand.

“Sorry for not introducing myself earlier, it's Oh Hyera.” The pretty woman who has now been revealed as Hyera presented.

“It's fine, I'm [Name]” she grinned, placing her hand on top of yours.

“Such a pretty name for a pretty girl, which reminds me, what're you doing here all alone?”

You shrugged in response, taking a sip before answering.

“Don't know, just relaxing I guess.”

She raised a brow with a grin,

“Why don't we go to a… more private area? Just you know, talk.”

Her hand extended out, ready to take yours.

You thought about it first and then accepted the offer. Both of you walk away from the crowd as you occasionally bump into strangers.

She brought you into a secluded bedroom,

Breaking away the hold on your hand as she sat on the bed. Hyera patted on the mattress, indicating for you to sit next to her.

You fixed your skirt as you say next to her. She shuffled closer to you, tilting her head as she smiled. Her pretty pink locks fell a bit off her shoulder from the position of her head.

A hand snaked up your thigh and your body tensed from the touch.

“Oh? A little stiff.” She teased with a smirk.

You averted your gaze,

“I've never done anything like this..like uh- sex.” You revealed and her smile grew.

“Awe, well I'll make sure to teach you. Yea? You want that?”

A shy nod came from your head, even a soft squeal as she pinned you against the mattress.

Her hands reached to unbutton your shirt, pulling it off of you. The pink-haired ‘goddess’ instantly attacked her mouth to your neck, already making purple bruises around your body to your chest. Which she unclipped the bra, latching her lips around your nipples.

Swirling her tongue as her long fingers pulled and massaged the other breast.

She took turns with them, trailing kisses to the other side.

Making the same movements.

The only noise you made were whimpers as gasps. Her hands moved but her mouth stayed in place when she pulled the hem of your skirt down. Taking it off you, throwing it some random place around the room. She smirked at the sight of the dark patch between your underwear after she separated your thighs.

“Wet already? I see you're eager, hm.”

Placing them at her sides, leaning down to rip them off you.

Her tongue flattened when it touched your dripping cunt. Soon after licking strides on it, even sucking on your clit for a bit. Her tongue soon thrust in you, a thumb playing with your bundle of nerves.

Your whimpers turned into soft moans, latching your hand onto her soft and long hair.

It was the most euphoric feeling you have ever experienced.

Her muscles were skilled, keeping up with a rhythm as they slipped in and out of your pussy. Squelches and moans are being heard around the room, even a bit of awe dripping off your forehead. Her other hand moved to follow your tongue, pounding into you.

Your thighs clenched around her head, you were near your orgasm. She chuckled, sending vibrations that caused a loud mewl.

“Feel..weird!” you gasped, and a whine followed after when she pulled away from you.

“Not yet~” Hyera teased, just like her fingers when they went back to your sensitive core. Instead of starting at a slow pace for you, they immediately went rough, she kissed you.

Tongue instead exploring your mouth and you can taste yourself. Her kissing muffled your moans, especially since your denied release made it easier to get you to cum. Her fingers started to work faster when she felt your walls tighten even more on her, so the woman’s kiss deepened. She pulled away from your mouth, leaving a connected string of saliva. Hyera wanted to hear you, and you gave her just that.

A loud moan erupted from your vocals, back arching from the bed as your arms clung to her. Both left a bit sweaty with heavy breaths. She giggled, hand moving to prod at your lips. Making you suck them as she spoke,

“Ready for another?”

Note

Told you guys I was gonna make one

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[whorestease]

Boring Parties Make Exciting People

-Hyera/Reader, NSFW, Fingering, cunnilingus, taking of virginity, etc… TEASER

“Wet already? I see you're eager, hm.”

Your fingers tapped the table, a hand holding your head as you were a bit bored of the part.

You had been invited to your friend’s birthday party, though no one spoke to you. And you certainly didn't want to force a conversation.

All you did was eat the food and have some drinks, which is all you really needed to stay there. At least it was worth something.

The loud music making your heart pound along the beat, it wasn't even good music to be honest. Sounded like they took a playlist from a random market.

Your Small ‘peace’ was interrupted by a pink haired lady, she was pretty you must admit.

Very pretty.

There were two drinks in her hand, and she offered you one.

“Care for a drink? You seem lonely.” The stranger teased with a captivating smile.

You give back a smile as you nod,

“Sure.” you took the alcohol from her hand.

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[gosminhas]

finished reading btd lmaoooooooooooooooooooooo

[darkdoverpseeker]

( 22F ) 🕊 Hi! I'm looking for anyone with some knowledge on the manhwa Bad Thinking Diary to do a role play with. The character I'm wanting to write as is Kang Yuna, and I'd most like to pair her with either Hyera or Minjae. You don't have to be fully up to date with the manhwa, just a general grasp on the personalities/dynamics of the characters will suffice! Looking to do something a little canon divergent with a 30/70 plot to smut ratio. Looking for something messy with potential dub con undertones and partying/drugs setting. I want toxic x toxic and dominant x dominant especially if it's Hyera x Yuna. My writing style is multi-para with myself usually doing 3-4 paragraphs per reply, in third person speech only please. Please like if interested and I will message you!

like if interested !

[namhyera]

𝕀ℕ𝕋ℝ𝕆𝔻𝕌ℂ𝕋𝕀𝕆ℕ

Hello!~☆

I'm basically new here and I'm gonna have a short introducion and a few things abt me :D!

Name(online): Nam Hyera

Hobbies: Reading(sometimes, but I do read bl manhwa), drawing, painting, anything abt art tbh, being creative, writing(when only I have motivation :p), sleeping, play videogames, play instruments

Likes: Games, k-drama, music, sweets, cats, ribbons, cute clothing

Dislikes: Pointing out insecurities, vegetables(a bit), dogs(some of 'em)

Fandoms Im in rn:

Pjsk, Love and Deepspace, Litc

Things I will write:

♡Fluff

♡Angst

♡Smut(only LaDS)

Things I will NOT write:

Problematic things

Grape

Non-consentual sex

Pjsk and litc smut (they r MINORS)

I would also like some requests!

I'm also finding moots here :)!!

Well thats all!! Bye!!♡

[thinkyoureholy]

Dissonants [12]

[@baekyeolbeom   💕]

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Pairing : Byun Baekhyun / Reader

Genre : Angst, Violence, Mature Language, Fluff, Smut, Gang! AU

Words : 3.7k

Pt 1. Pt 2. Pt 3. Pt 4. Pt 5. Pt 6. Pt 7. Pt 8. Pt 9. Pt 10. Pt 11. Pt 12. Pt 13. Pt 14.

-Y/N’s P.O.V-

I pushed at his chest roughly, shoving his reaching hands away. I could see the hurt flash in his eyes as he watched the endless tears stream down my face. I knew all he wanted to do was comfort me, to take all the pain away but my grief stricken heart didn’t allow him to. I stumbled back, my knees feeling like they’d give out any second as the feeling in my heart got to be too much. I sunk to my knees, curling in on myself a heart wrenching sob leaving my mouth. I felt him immediately wrap his arms around me and like before I pushed him away. I weaved my fingers through my hair as I held my head in my hands, my whole body starting to shake as another sob escaped.

“Y/N…”

“Don’t fucking touch me.” I said in a grave voice when I felt his hand on my shoulder.

I looked up at him, giving him a look with with hate and contempt, “If you--if you had just let me to go him….I could’ve saved him! This is all your fault! Why’d you have to get in the way?! Why?!”

I knew deep down that this was complete and utter bullshit but I was too far gone to care. Haise was dead the moment he hit the ground but I didn’t want to accept it. I didn’t want to believe that he died right in front of me. I refused to accept that fact that there was nothing I could do so I did the only thing I could, I blamed someone else. Baekhyun just had the misfortune of being that person.

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I kept my head down as I heard their cries, closing my eyes as I balled my hands into fists at my side. Their cries were mixed with questions, ones I couldn’t answer without breaking down myself. When they got no answer they got angry, their words cutting deep but I still said nothing. I took all of their words, knowing I deserved it. Next came the violence. I expected Urie and Saiko to lash out but Hye? Hye compared to the others was always so docile, only becoming violent when her life or any of ours was put at risk. I felt my already broken heart crumble as she pushed at my shoulders roughly.

“Where the hell were you? Why did you leave him alone? Why weren’t you by his side?!” She shouted through her tears, steadying herself on her crutches so she wouldn’t collapse.

“I-”

“He only went to look after you yet you’re the one that abandoned him?! You left him to rot! He should've been the one to come back instead of you!” She yelled out, her voice breaking but the hate in her tone was all too clear.

“Hyera!” I heard Junmyeon yell out roughly, feeling as if she stepped over the line.

But she was absolutely right. Haise should’ve been the one to come back, he should be the one standing here and not me. But even though I knew that I couldn’t help but feel my knees go weak as her words sunk in. Before I knew it I had fallen to my knees. I rested my hands on my thighs as I kept my head down, my shoulders shaking as I hung my head low. And on my knees I did the only thing I could do, beg for forgiveness. The endless apologies fell from my lips, soon those apologies became a jumbled mess of words as the sobs started to come. In my crying I heard the door open and slam roughly. I curled in on myself as I realized that they all abandoned me, that this was their last straw. I don’t know how long I was on the floor for but I must’ve been too engulfed in my own sorrow to hear the door open and close. As soon as I felt a hand on my back I knew exactly who it was but unlike before I didn’t push him away.

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-Baekhyun's P.O.V-

I stood outside, leaning against the wall across the hall from the door. I stared at it with a deep frown on my face, my eyes sad. I could hear her muffled cries, my heart breaking at hearing her in so much pain. She hadn't come out of that room since the night it happened, not even when we recovered Haise's body did she come out. We brought him back so she and the rest of her team could say goodbye one last time before we gave him a proper burial. I'll have to admit seeing his cold dead body affected me as well. We weren't the best of friends but he kept me in check, no matter how much I wanted to deny it. It was heart wrenching to bury him. If I felt like this I could only imagine how she felt. I'll admit I felt sorry for basically dragging her away from the scene but I don't regret it one bit. If I had let her go after Jongdae she probably would've gotten herself killed as she was fueled and blinded by her grief.

I sighed heavily, pushing myself off the wall as I took the step I needed to be directly in front of the door. My hand wrapped around the doorknob tightly, my teeth biting into my lower lip as I heard her start to throw things around. She had these random bursts of anger, angry that he was gone before going back to sobbing heavily. Just as I was about to open the door to stop her from possibly hurting herself I felt a hand on my shoulder. I followed the arm the hand belonged to before my eyes met Chanyeol's. He took a moment to glance at the door before looking at me again, nodding with his head to another room down the hall. I turned back to stare at the door, frowning deeply and letting my hand fall to my side with a heavy sigh. Without a word I followed Chanyeol back to the room, seeing the rest of the guys gathered there too.

“What is it?” I asked, my voice sounding completely drained.

“I think we found him.” Minseok spoke up, passing over his phone so I could see the picture of an old warehouse.

“You tracked him down?”

“It wasn't easy but we managed to finally pinpoint his location. They had to call me in when it was taking longer than they wanted.” Yixing said, his arms crossed over his chest.

I looked around at all their faces. I knew how close they were to Jongdae so this couldn't have been easy. To say I felt bad for putting them in this situation was an understatement.

“I'm sorry I dragged you guys into this. I gotta remember he was our friend and brother before any of this started…”

Junmyeon shook his head, pushing himself off the wall he was leaning against before taking a few steps closer to me, “He made his choice the moment he walked out that door. Besides Hye is suffering because of him right now so he's not my favorite person at the moment.”

“Yeah...Saiko's having a tough time too…” Minseok added under his breath, his gaze on the floor as he frowned.

“Still…”

“We know how much Y/N means to you, it's only right for us to help. Besides if Jongdae gets to her you're most likely to be his next target.” Sehun spoke up, a crooked smile on his face but the smile didn't reach his eyes.

I sighed heavily, running my hand through my hair before looking over at Yixing, “You sure this is the right place?”

“About 99% sure.”

“We'll make sure it's 100% when we decide to go after him.” Chanyeol said, reminding me that he was behind me.

I sighed once more before nodding, “Send this to my phone. And make sure none of Y/N's team finds out about this. I don't want them or her going on some ludicrous revenge mission, we don't know what Jongdae has hidden up his sleeve yet.”

With that I left the room and started walking back over to Y/N. As I made my way down the hall I noticed the noise I heard, or lack thereof. I immediately became more alarmed, running over to the room Y/N was in. I let out a breath of relief as soon as I opened the door, seeing Y/N sitting against the wall. She was rolling a pen like charm between her fingers, her tears almost non-existent as she stared at the charm with a blank look on her face. My relief soon vanished as I noticed the faraway look in her eyes, concern washing over me.

“Love…?” I spoke with some hesitance, taking slow steps towards her.

She didn't budge, as if not hearing me so I spoke again, this time a little bit louder but not too loud. It took her a few seconds to respond, her movement sluggish as she finally raised her head. The moment her eyes meet mine I felt my heart crawl up my throat at the vacant and dead look that greeted me. I frowned as I crouched down in front of her, reaching out to grab her hands in mine. I was taken aback by how cold her hands felt in mine, my hands immediately trying to warm them up. I gave her a tight lipped smile before reaching out to cup her cheek in own of my hands.

“Are you alright?” I asked softly, noticing how her eyes seemed unfocused.

She said nothing for a few seconds simply staring into my eyes before she gave me the saddest smile I've ever seen on a person. Ever so slowly she shook her head, my heart sinking to the bottom of my stomach as I immediately brought her into a hug. I squeezed her in my hold tightly, feeling her arms wrap around my waist weakly.

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-Y/N's P.O.V-

I turned in his hold, smiling softly at seeing his calm sleeping face. I reached over to trace the features of his face ever so softly. The tip of my finger trailed all the way down from his eyebrow to the corner of her eye then over to his cheek before coming down to brush softly against his lips. His face twitched a bit with the feeling of my finger but thankfully he didn't wake up. I frowned as I thought of what I was about to do, the light of his phone lighting up the room slightly. The quickly wiped the frown from my face as I leaned over to plant a small and gentle kiss on his lips before rolling out of the bed quietly.

I pulled on a fresh pair of jeans and an old hoodie that was lying around before slipping on my boots as quietly as I could. I spared him one last glance, before looking down at my wrists. Without hesitation I took my bracelets off, placing them on the nightstand and without looking back I headed towards the door. I quietly shut the door behind me, careful to take small and quiet steps down the hall and down the stairs. As soon as I got to the bottom of the stairs I jumped at coming face to face with Sehun. He looked completely disheveled, his eyes barely open as he looking at me in confusion.

“Where are you going?” He asked, his words slurring together as the sleep lingered.

I quickly put on a reassuring smile, placing a hand on his shoulder, “Just out for a walk. I need some fresh air to clear my head.”

He thought about it for a second before nodding, mumbling something about me making sure to come back soon before he headed back to his room. I sighed in relief, glad he didn't question me as I quickly made my way out of the house before he or anyone else tried to stop me. I jogged over to my car, putting it in neutral and letting it roll forward for about half a block. Once I was sure the sound of the engine turning on wouldn't wake anyone I turned it on and drove off. My hands clutched the steering wheel tightly, my knuckles turning white as I felt the anger rising within me.

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I pulled up to the warehouse, narrowing my eyes as I looked around. I could see the end of a car just barely poking out of the bushes letting me know that he was definitely inside, the question is where exactly was he. Just as I was scanning the windows I saw a light shining dimly inside on the second story and that was all the confirmation I needed. I got out of the car as quietly as possible, patting myself down to make sure my gun and knife were in place. I looked around my surroundings one last time before pulling the hood of my sweater over my head and quietly but quickly making my way over to the warehouse.

I peeped in through the window, seeing the dim source of light towards the end of the second story. With a deep breathe I opened the door as quietly as I could. To be quite frank I wasn't all too worried about not being about to sneak up on him. I wanted him to know I was here, I wanted him to put up a fight so I could inflict as much pain as I wanted to so that's just what I did. Even though I opened the door quietly I made sure to slam it shut, alerting him of my presence. I looked around to place, noticing that the source of light was put out immediately. I smirked at that, seeing a shadow moving up there.

“I see roaches like to gather in the same place. Your buddie Kyungsoo lured me out to one of these, I would've killed him there too but he was a quick one, managed to slip through my fingers,” I said as my eyes continued to scan the second floor, “It was okay though, I got to kill him in his little fantasy home he wanted to shared with that traitor of mine.”

I heard his footsteps off to my right, my ears picking up on the sound quickly but to not let him know I was aware of it I kept my eyes on to the left. I could just barely hear the sound of something sliding against fabric, my guess being that he pulled out a knife.

“I should've killed you when I had the chance, you and Jongin both. Actually dying would've been a hell of a lot better, he was actually begging for us to kill him by the end of it.” I continued, trying to get him to strike first and it worked like a charm.

My reflexes kicked in as soon as I heard him running on the second floor before seeing him jump off. I stayed in place, letting him think he got me by surprise before reaching out at the last second and grabbing onto his shirt. We fell back onto the floor harshly, rolling around a few times but I got the upper hand as I landed on top. I wasted no time in landing a blow to his face, going to land a second one but he managed to bring his legs up and kick at my stomach. I stumbled back, wincing at the slight pain coming from my stomach before it vanished. He got up fairly quickly, running towards me as he tackled me to the ground. He managed to land a punch to my jaw but before he could throw another punch I punched at his ribs. In his split second of pain I took advantage of his loosened hold on me and hooked an arm around his throat, somehow maneuvering the two of us so I was behind him as I put him in a choke hold. He clawed at my arms but I just applied more pressure. As the seconds ticked by I could feel the strength leaving him. Just as I thought he was going to pass out he managed to turn the two of us around so he was face down on the floor. I tightened my hold as much as I could but he seemed unfazed as he used his arms to push himself off the floor. I wrapped my legs around his waist and squeezed, alarmed that it again had no effect to him. I was starting to panic as he stumbled back. My hold on him loosened as he slammed me up against the wall but not enough for me to let go completely what really did it was the second one. He took two steps forward before slamming me up against the wall again, this time I felt something pierce my side from behind. I immediately unwound my legs and arms, looking down to see the blood already start to stain my sweater.

“You're one tough bitch I'll give you that.” He said through pants, coughing slightly as he rubbed at his throat, “Too bad I could say the same for that dog that followed you around everywhere.”

I ground my teeth together at hearing him mention Haise. I balled my hands into fist as I pushed myself off the wall, a small groan of pain leaving my lips. I pressed a hand to my side, trying to stop the blood from spewing out as I pulled out a knife with my other hand. Jongdae smirk at seeing my knife, pulling out a dagger of his own. He said nothing as he wiped away the blood at the corner of his mouth before motioning with his hands for me to go at him.

I gathered up all my strength and ran at him, ducking out of the way as he swung at me with the dagger. Much like what I did back at the field I sliced at his stomach but this time I wasn't fast enough to move out of the way. He brought his knife down, managing to knick the side of my arm pretty badly. I dodged out of the way again as he tried to kick my legs out from under me. With one of his legs still up in the air I managed to sweep my own leg from under him, making fall to the floor. On his way down I brought my knife down into his bicep, this led him let go of his own dagger completely. I kicked it away from him as he tried to reach for it again. I stood over him as I watched him try to removed the knife from his arm, kicking at his side roughly. He groaned at in pain but before he could fight back I kicked my leg out once more, the toe of my boot making contact with his jaw.

“None of this would be happening if you just disappeared like we thought you did. If only you had vanished then I wouldn't be here to kill you,” I said in a low voice before kicking at his ribs again, “If you had a score to settle you should've settled it with me. Haise had nothing to do with it!”

As I went to kick him again he caught my leg, his hold on my ankle tightening by the second, “He had everything to do with it. I knew losing him would hurt you more than anything, probably more than losing Baekhyun but he managed to escape with you before I had the chance to take the bastard out. I wanted to make you suffer, feel what it's like to lose someone close to you, someone you loved.”

I managed to break free of his hold but he managed to knock me over. I landed on my back with a thud, the wind being knocked out of me. He stood over me as he pulled the knife out of his arm, groaning loudly. While he was busy with that I tried to bring my gun out of the waistband of my jeans with one hand while sneakily reaching for his discarded dagger with the other. He must've seen me reach for my gun as he smirked before he reached down, grabbing my collar in his hand tightly and landing blow after blow. Once he saw that I had had enough and wasn't going to fight back he slammed me back down onto the ground, reached down to grab the gun from my hand. I saw him straighten out before pointing the gun at me.

“Say hello to your lover boy for me.” He said and just as he was about to pull the trigger the door burst open.

Baekhyun ran in, heavily pants leaving his lips. It took him a few seconds to assess the situation but once he did I could see the pure anger that flashed in his eyes. He tried to take a step towards us but stopped as Jongdae pointed the gun at his head. At seeing that I reached out, my hand weakly clawing at his ankle, my other hand wrapping tightly around the dagger.. I could see him look down at me with a malicious grin.

“You've seen one lover die, two won't hurt will it?”

And before I could think to say anything he fired, the sound of the gun going off draining the color from my face. I looked over in horror to see Baekhyun on the floor, a pool of blood already forming around him. I went on autopilot, my body feeling as if it wasn't my own as I quickly stuck the dagger into his chest, twisting it and watching his body fall to the floor. As soon as that small adrenaline rush left my system I crumbled to the floor, my eyes glued on Baekhyun's body. I didn't know what to do, my body starting to shut down; physically, mentally, and emotionally.

[thinkyoureholy]

Dissonants [10]

[@baekyeolbeom 😔✊💕]

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Pairing : Byun Baekhyun / Reader

Genre : Angst, Violence, Future Fluff, Future Smut, Gang! AU

Words : 4k

Pt 1. Pt 2. Pt 3. Pt 4. Pt 5. Pt 6. Pt 7. Pt 8. Pt 9. Pt 10. Pt 11. Pt 12. Pt 13. Pt 14.

-Baekhyun’s P.O.V-

I smiled softly as I noticed her eyes begin to flutter open. A blush rose to her cheek when she noticed me staring at her from my bed. She sat up quickly, trying to hide the yawn that threatened to come out but ultimately failed. I smiled fondly at that, but it quickly fell at the look in her eyes. I frowned at seeing that her eyes were glued to the side of my stomach, the side she shot a bullet through. This made my frown grow as I reached out to grab her hand. She probably thought I was here because of what she did to me but she has no idea that it actually has nothing to do with that. She’s blaming herself for doing this to me and that’s something I won’t stand for.

“I’m fine. It has nothing to do with this…” I trailed off, placing a hand over my stitches, “Please don’t blame yourself for this.”

She said nothing, avoiding my gaze for a few seconds before her eyes met mine, “Then why are you here? Yixing told me you were all better…”

“And I am.” Was all I said, not wanting her to know the real reason as to why I was back in the room we used for medical purposes.

Not only did I not want to add to what she was going through but I couldn’t physically bring myself to tell her about my past. I didn’t want her to look at me any differently. I had absolutely hated the look the guys gave me the moment I came back. I hated it because I could still see that look every so often, knowing that that pitiful look would never go away completely. And to have her look at me like that...I don’t think I’d be able to handle it. So instead I put on a smile, telling her that I was perfectly fine and hiding those memories away so they’d never resurface again.

Before she could press the matter any further there was a knock on the door, Haise walking into the room. He didn’t acknowledge me at first, keeping his eyes on Y/N. I didn’t let it bother me as much, remembering what today and what he had asked me about a few days ago. I simply squeezed Y/N’s hand in mine before letting go and standing up.

“There’s someone downstairs that wants to see you Y/N.” He said softly, Y/N looking at him confused.

Before she could ask who we heard a female voice yell out her name from downstairs. As soon as she recognized the voice she bolted, slightly pushing Haise out of the way. He chuckled softly, watching her run downstairs. I walked over to the door slowly, able to see what was happening downstairs perfectly. Y/N had wrapped her arms tightly around Hyera’s shoulders while Hyera tried her best to hug her back while keeping herself upright on her crutches. I noticed Junmyeon hanging off to the side, watching over Hyera silently like he used to before all this shit started.

I went to join them but was stopped by Haise grabbing my forearm. I looked at him with an eyebrow raised, wondering why he was touching me. Don’t get me wrong I didn’t hate the guy as much as I used to, you can say he grew on me but that doesn’t mean I necessarily liked the guy. He knew this as the feeling was mutual, we were simply enduring each other’s presence for the time being. Haise saw the look on my face before rolled his eyes and dropped his hand. He motioned with his head to the room, silently telling me he wanted to talk. I took a moment, looking back down to the others one last time before following him back into the room.

“This better not be a waste of time, Sasaki.” I said in a bored tone of voice, keeping my back to him as I walked towards the window.

I could practically feel his glare on the back of my head before hearing him sigh heavily, “Any time spent with you is a waste, Byun.”

I couldn’t help but let the corners of my lips curl upwards slightly at the jab as heard him walk over to me before I felt a nudge on my arm. I looked down to see him offering me a cigarette, already seeing one in his mouth. I shook my head, remembering how Minseok threatened to kill me himself if he caught me smoking again. Haise shrugged, pocketing the box of cigarettes before lighting the one in his mouth.

“What did you want to talk about?” I asked, opening the window to let the smoke out.

“Y/N.”

I turned to him at his serious tone, seeing how he didn’t even bother to look my way as he kept his gaze on the view outside. I noticed how calm he looked but he also seemed a bit dejected, by what I wouldn’t know.

“What about her? If you’re telling me to give her up then you’re in for a rude awakening.”

He chuckled at this, the smile not reaching his eyes as he finally turned to look at me, “I’m not telling you to give her up...because I already have.”

I looked at him in surprise and confusion, not understanding what he was trying to say. Haise simply smiled and like before the smile didn’t reach his eyes, “I’m not an idiot Baekhyun. I see the way she looks at you, hell everyone in this house sees it but it seems like the only one that doesn’t is your dumb ass.”

“The way she looks at you...what I would give for her to look at me like that.” He paused to take a drag of his cigarette, casting his gaze down to the floor, “I don’t know how you did it but consider yourself lucky you bastard, she opened her heart to you in a whole different way than how she opened her heart for me.”

“Haise...I think you’re seeing things. I still have a long way to go.”

“And that’s where you’re wrong, Byun. She already let you in. She might be denying it to herself but you’re already in there...wanna know how I know?” He paused, a far away look in his eye before he frowned, “When I woke up she was by your side, not mine. She hadn’t left your bedside since it happened, even when she was having one of her episodes she refused to be too far away from you. That’s when I knew I had lost.”

I was speechless, I mean what could I possibly say to that? He was basically telling me he was backing off and go after Y/N, as if he was giving me his blessing. I mean this just makes it a whole lot easier to get her to open up to me completely and let me in without having to worry about him sabotaging everything. But I couldn’t stop thinking about how wrong he was. No matter how much of her heart I had a big portion of it still belonged to Hyunsoo. I couldn’t help but think back to what happened just this morning. I frowned at the memory, bringing my gaze down to my feet.

“Just cause you’re out of the way doesn’t mean it’ll get any easier. Not only did I have to compete with you but with a dead man too? How the hell am I supposed to-”

“You’re not. She’ll never forget about Hyunsoo and don’t ever try to force her to either. I’m gonna be honest with you, Hyunsoo will always be apart of her whether you like it or not. But she loves you Baekhyun, she loves you for you. She’s not comparing the two of you, the love she has for you and the love she had for Hyunsoo are similar but completely different all at the same time.” He cut me off, his gaze never meeting mine as he looked out the window.

“And before you start with the whole ‘if YOU love her why let her go this easily’ bullshit don’t. I’m letting her go because I love her. Her happiness means more to me than my own and if she’s happy with you then...I’ll just have to live with that.” He added, throwing his cigarette on the floor before putting it out with his foot.

He bent down to pick it back up before giving me his deadliest glare, “But let me tell you this, just cause I’m stepping away doesn’t mean I’m going to disappear completely. You even so much as think about hurting her and I’ll be the one to kill you, understand?”

I couldn’t help but smirk at his remark, “That is if she doesn’t kill me first.”

-

I was sitting in my office as I went through some paperwork I’ve been letting pile up over the last week. My sellers have been on my back about supplying them with new goods but since I was so busy with the Kyungsoo issue I haven’t been able to do much. I had almost forgotten to give them their monthly share until I got a phone call a few minutes ago, wiring them the money as soon as the call ended. I was in the middle of trying to see how much money we had left after paying everyone off when Y/N stormed into the room. I looked up at her in confusion, wondering what has her so riled up.

“Why the hell is Jongin tied up in your fucking basement?!”

My face went pale, immediately wondering how she found out. I went to answer her question, failing to come up with a lie that would be enough to calm her down. This only set to anger her more as she could tell immediately what was going on in my head.

“Dammit Baekhyun! Why the hell-”

“Because he probably knows what Jongdae’s up to! Hell he was the one spying for Kyungsoo I couldn’t have him start reporting back to Jongdae! I need to find Dae before he thinks to come after you!” I yelled, cutting her off as my emotions took over.

“You really think he’d tell you?! From what I’ve heard you’ve had him locked up for two weeks and he still hasn’t said anything? Have you ever thought that I don’t know, he doesn’t know anything?”

“Then I’ll kill him, plain and simple.”

“I’m done with all the killing!” She yelled, her voice raw with emotion, “I’m tired, Baek. I’m done. I don’t want to kill anymore, I don’t want to hurt anyone anymore. If Jongdae’s going to come after me then let him come.”

“How the hell do you expect me to just let him come after you?”

“This isn’t about you anymore Baekhyun!”

“No, its about you and that’s why I’m being like this! Can’t you see I’m doing this for you!” I yelled out, my breathing starting to get heavier the longer this argument continued.

She stayed silent, her chest also heaving up and down. I closed my eyes and exhaled deeply, weaving my fingers through my hair before looked up to see her eyes already looking down to her feet.

“I never asked you to…”

“You really have no idea why do you…?” I asked, smiling a small lopsided smile as I started walking towards her, “It’s because I love you.”

I could see her shoulders tense as soon as those three little words left my mouth. As I reached her I reached out to grab her hand but was shocked to see her take a step away from me. I let my hand fall back to my side, knowing the hurt on my face was as clear as day, maybe that’s why she kept her gaze on the floor.

“Y/N, I’m doing this to protect you, to keep you safe...”

She said nothing for awhile, worrying me and making me think I had said something wrong. She shook her head slowly before abruptly turning on her heel and started walking away from me. In sort of a panic I reached out quickly, grabbing her wrist in my hand, stopping her from leaving. She kept her back to me as she yanked her wrist out of my grip, leaving me standing there in the middle of the room like an idiot. In a moment of frustration I spun on my heels and swiped my arm across my desk, throwing everything to the ground roughly. I put my hands down onto the desk to help me stand upright as I hung my head forward, this whole situation having spiraled out of control and I didn’t even know the reason why.

……

It’s been a few days and still nothing new on Jongin’s part. I was starting to get frustrated with his lack of sharing, the talk I had with Y/N adding to my frustration. I sat back in my chair, running my hands over my face roughly before weaving my fingers through my hair. I started thinking about what I was going to do, knowing Jongdae wasn’t just going to vanish without at least doing something.

“Baek?”

I was so engrossed in my own thoughts I hadn’t heard Junmyeon enter my office. I looked up at the sound of his voice, seeing him already standing directly in front of my desk. I looked up at him expectantly, waiting for him to start speaking and when he didn’t I took the opportunity to talk instead.

“Is there something you needed?”

He stayed silent for another few seconds before speaking. He mumbled out his sentence so I wasn’t able to hear him properly. As seeing that I didn’t give any type of reaction to what he said he took a deep breath before repeating what he said.

“Jongin...he uh...escaped.”

As soon as his words processed in my mind a wave of anger washed through me as I brought my fist down onto the desk harshly. I closed my eyes before taking in a deep breathe.

“He what?” I asked through gritted teeth, opening my eyes to look at Junmyeon with a dangerous glint in my eye.

“He escaped…”

“How?”

“Well, Sehun had taken over for me and-”

“And who the fuck let Sehun take over for you?! Who gave you permission to just up and leave your job?!” I asked in anger, cutting him off.

I could see he was getting annoyed by my anger at him as he set his jaw, “With Hyera here I thought-”

“Well whatever the hell you thought you thought wrong.” I said as I cut him off again, getting up from my seat and walking out of my office.

I made my way downstairs, ignoring the other in the livingroom and heading straight down to the basement. Once there I went straight for Sehun, Chanyeol blocking my way as soon as he saw the anger on my face. I tried going around him but he just moved in front of me every time.

“Move.”

“Baek hear him out first before you even try and beat him.” Chanyeol tried to argue, not knowing that his words only set to anger me more.

“Why would I hear him out, unless he let him go and that can’t be right...right?”

Chanyeol hesitated to answer causing my anger to flair up as I pushed at his chest roughly, “If you know he’s done something to receive a beating then don't try and fucking stop me.”

With that I went straight for Sehun, pulling out my gun when I felt Chanyeol place a hand on my shoulder. I knew I was letting my anger make all my decisions for me. Not only was I angry about Jongin escaping but I was angry with the fact Y/N was able to walk away from me so easily three days ago. Even though I knew this I didn’t care as I pointed it straight at him, glaring at him through my haze of anger. A flash of hurt crossed his eyes at seeing the barrel of the gun aimed straight at his chest.

“I’m not letting you hurt any more of our members.” He said, his voice dropping down several octaves.

I couldn’t help but chuckle at his statement, “You’re not going to let me? And who the hell are you?”

“You’re willing to beat someone half to death to get the information you want, even if it’s one of your own, for Y/N?”

“Yes.” I answered without hesitation, watching his face fall slightly at seeing I meant it, “I’d kill any of you for her if I had to.”

“Tell me what the fuck happened because I know Jongin was too weak to just get up and leave on his own. There is no fucking way he overpowered you and escaped.” I said harshly, pointing my gun at Sehun now.

Besides Jongdae and Kyungsoo Sehun was one of the only other members that was really close with Jongin. A short while after I brought those three in it didn’t take Sehun long to befriend Jongin, the two of them becoming inseparable. This is the reason why I kept him out of the loop about having Jongin down here. I knew he was going to either try and talk to me about letting Jongin go or just flat out break him out instead. I knew the moment Junmyeon told me about Jongin escaping I knew Sehun had something to do with it.

“Now tell me, why the hell did you let him go?” I asked again, taking a step closer to him.

“He didn’t know anything! Jongdae ran from him the moment Y/N left him to Jongin. If I had let him stay here and continue to get tortured he would’ve died!” Sehun yelled out, his own face riddled with anger.

I couldn’t help but laugh at how absurd this whole thing was, “And since when have any of you been able to make the decisions here? This isn’t a fucking democracy, this is a dictatorship and you all better realize that soon.”

“Tell me everything he told you before you let him go and I mean everything.”

-

-Y/N’s P.O.V-

I watched from my seat on the couch as Junmyeon followed Baekhyun down the stairs with a frown on his face. Baekhyun completely ignored the rest of us that were in the living room as he headed straight for the basement. I frowned at seeing how angry he looked, wanting nothing but to comfort him but I knew I couldn’t, not after how I left him the other day. I could practically feel how much it hurt him to have me walk away from him as he would walk around the house with his shoulders hunched forward in dejection and avoided me at all costs. I would be lying if I said it didn’t hurt but this was my fault to begin with and the only one that could fix it was me.

I got up from the couch in a hurry, reaching out to grab Junmyeon’s arms as he passed by. He looked at me in what looked like exasperation but his face softened when he noticed the look in my eyes. He sighed heavily before casting one last glance to the door that led to the basement before turning his attention to me.

“Is...everything okay?” I asked hesitantly.

He sighed once more before rubbing his hands over his face momentarily, “Jongin escaped…”

I said nothing, casting my gaze down to my feet as I tried to hide the secret I promised I’d keep for Sehun. Junmyeon must’ve noticed, a groan leaving his lips.

“Y/N what the hell? Why-”

“Because he’s suffered enough Junmyeon, don’t you think? I mean he wasn’t the only one suffering, Sehun was having a hard time too and I don’t know that little bugger has wormed his way into my heart and now I can’t find it in me to say no to him.” I rambled on, trying to say anything to lesson the scolding he would give me.

The scolding never came, the only thing I got was silence. I looked up to see what kind of expression he had on his face, surprised to see the tiniest of smiles playing at his lips.

“Thank you.” He said softly.

Before I could say anything else we were cut off by Hye’s laughter filling the room. She and the other were completely oblivious to what was happening and I intended to keep it that way. As soon as her laugh hit our ears I could see the smile on Junmyeon’s face grow considerably, a certain look clouding his eyes as he moved his gaze over to look at her. That look in his eyes seemed familiar but I couldn’t remember exactly where I’ve seen it. Junmyeon must’ve sensed my gaze on his as he quickly looked towards me, a blush rising to his cheeks at the knowing look on my face.

“So...anything you have to say for yourself?” I asked, changing the subject to a lighter one.

He said nothing as he rubbed the back of his neck nervously, “No…”

“Uh-huh...Chanyeol told me everything.”

Junmyeon smiled sheepishly, “I just want to keep her safe.”

I softened up at the that, “If you can please...get her out of here. She’s still young and…,”I trailed off before giving him a small smile, “I don’t want this to be the only life she knows.”

“You know this isn’t the only life for you either right? Baekhyun-”

“Baekhyun is too good for me. I’m damaged goods Junmyeon, I don’t want him to see me when I break down again. After--after that first time I just can’t bare for him to see me like that again.” I cut him off, keeping my gaze on the other in the living room.

“If you think I feel a certain way about Hyera...then think about how Baekhyun feels about you. It definitely stronger, I know it is and he doesn’t care how broken you are because he’s there to fix you even if you don’t want to be fixed, there’s no getting rid of him.”

I said nothing as I simply kept my gaze on the others. I knew exactly how Baekhyun felt because that’s how I feel about him but there’s something holding me back, something stopping me from being with him.

“Go with him to this party he’s going to next week, it’s not like a regular party it’s more for business. If any of us goes with him we’d stick out like a sore thumb but if you went...it’d help everything go smoothly and you could take the chance to talk everything out.” He suggested, his attention quickly turning to Baekhyun who briskly walked through the basement door.

I frowned as I noticed the cut on his cheek and the blood on his knuckles. I knew he was angry, the anger radiating off of him. I sighed heavily, keeping my eyes on him as he made his way back up the stairs.

“I’ll think about it.” I said, my frown deepening at hearing him slam the door of his office harshly, wincing slightly.

[thinkyoureholy]

Dissonants [7]

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[WARNING : Heavy mentions of blood and lots of violence. If at any time you feel uncomfortable please stop reading.]

Pairing : Byun Baekhyun / Reader

Genre : Angst, Violence, Mature Language, Future Fluff, Future Smut, Gang!AU

Word : 4.1k 

Pt 1. Pt 2. Pt 3. Pt 4. Pt 5. Pt 6. Pt 7. Pt 8. Pt 9. Pt 10. Pt 11. Pt 12. Pt 13. Pt 14.

-Y/N’s P.O.V-

I looked down at the charms on my wrists, smiling fondly at them. I had a charm for every member of the group, current and past members included. On one there was a book for Haise who loved to read, a pen for Hyera who loved to write, a pair of safety goggles for Saiko who loved playing around with chemicals, a small gun for Urie who spent the majority of his time at the shooting range, and finally a pair of headphones for Ji who loved his music more than anything. I felt my eyes well up with tears as I delicately rolled the miniature set of headphones between my fingers. As I rolled the small charm between my fingers I was suddenly bombarded by memories, knowing there was nothing I could do to get him back. Anything I did from this point on wouldn’t change the fact that he was gone and I think that’s what hurt the most. The one time he needed me I wasn’t there, I was powerless.

“What are you thinking about?”

I raised my head to see Baekhyun walk into the room, the smile that he had on his face immediately falling at seeing the tears in my eyes. I quickly looked away from him, wiping at the few tears that managed to escape. I let out a small chuckle, embarrassed to have him see me like this.

“Nothing.” I told him with a small smile.

He didn’t looked convinced, sitting down in the chair across from me. In the past few days we’ve gotten more and more comfortable around each other. Of course neither of us brought up the kiss, partially because we were too busy planning the mission.

“I always wanted to ask you what those charms were for…” He said, breaking me out of my thoughts as he looked down at my wrists.

I looked down at my bracelets as well, lifting my wrists slightly before letting them fall back down to my lap, “They’re for my members.”

“But there’s ten charms…”

“I started out with ten members, including myself there were eleven of us total.” I told him, a tight lipped smile on my face, “Even though those other five betrayed me or sold me out...they were still family.”

“But you still got rid of them…”

“I had to. The moment they chose to betray me they became a threat to the rest of my people. If I had to get my hands dirty and kill off the ones that posed a threat to the others then so be it. I would do it again if I had to.” I said, my voice firm, “But it doesn’t mean it hurts any less.”

Baekhyun stayed quiet for a moment, the things I told him sinking in. Maybe with this new information he’d see I wasn’t the cold hearted bitch everyone thought I was. For some odd reason I didn’t want Baekhyun to see me that way. And for the most part he’s given me the benefit of the doubt, something I’m grateful for. If you were to tell me that I’d be having a nice chat with the jerk that kept getting in my way all those months ago I’d laugh in your face.

I could tell he wanted to say something but he was holding back. I waved my hand, redirecting his gaze that seemed glued to the ring on my finger up to my face. He blinked a couple times before lifting up his gaze to look me in the eyes. He had this soft look in his eyes, a look that set my insides ablaze.

“L.H.S.” Was all he said, reading out the initials on my ring.

I snapped out of the trace he had me in, looking down at my ring with a sad smile on my lips, “Lee Hyun Soo.”

I’m sure Baekhyun could hear the sadness in my voice, my voice dropping down to a whisper at saying his name. I was thankful that he decided not to question me any further. This was a story I haven’t been able to tell anyone yet, not even Haise. It’d been years but the pain I felt that day was still very much there and no matter how hard I tried to forget I was never able to. I didn’t want to forget him completely, I will forever cherish the moments we had together but that one terrible memory always seemed to overshadow the others. That day still haunted my dreams, though I was better at hiding it as time went by. My heart never fully recovered.

I was snapped out of my thoughts when I felt him slide his hand into mine, his fingers intertwining with my own. Soon enough I felt his hand cup the side of my face, his thumb wiping away at any stray tears. I said nothing as I watched the look in his eyes intensify. His gaze flickered from my eyes to my lips as he leaned in ever so slightly. I stayed still, my heart racing as I held my breath, waiting to see what he would do even though I had an idea. The closer he got the fast my heart rate got, his lips now only mere centimeters away from mine. Just as he was about to place a kiss on my lips someone knocked on the door before opening it, causing the two of us to pull away from each other.

I looked over to see Haise and Chanyeol walk in. Chanyeol had a smug smirk on his face as his gaze flickered between Baekhyun and I. Haise on the other hand was looking at a folder that was in his hands, only just looking up. His eyes immediately hardened at seeing Baekhyun in the room but as soon as his gaze landed on me that hardness vanished almost as if it wasn’t there.

“This better be good.” Baekhyun said firmly, Chanyeol snickering at his irritation.

Haise set his jaw before speaking to me, giving his back to Baekhyun, “Urie found him.”

At that I sat up quickly, giving Haise my full attention. I signalled for him to continue, my plan changing slightly because of his location. Urie found out Kyungsoo was hiding out in an old abandoned house a few miles out of the city. It was hard for him to find it since he was looking for building in Kyungsoo’s name but would always come up empty, that is until he used Heejin’s name. With the location now being an old two story house it'd be a little more that difficult to get all of them in there without Kyungsoo knowing about it. If it was a warehouse then it would've easier for them to sneak in undetected.

“This means I really do have to go in alone.” I said to myself, forgetting that they were in the room.

“Like hell you are.” Both Haise and Baekhyun let out in protest.

I sighed heavily, “I’m not having anyone die for me.”

“And who said anything about anyone dying?” Baekhyun countered, his eyes letting me now he wasn’t going to take no for an answer.

“If you can come up with an idea to get all our people in there without Kyungsoo knowing then fine, we do it your way. But if you can’t and Kyungsoo has his men lined up waiting for us then I’m going in alone. I can keep him busy long enough for you to fight your way in.”

“And if you die?” Baekhyun asked.

“Then I die and-”

“And that's it, huh? I’m not letting you do this fucking suicide mission on your own.” Haise said sternly, cutting me off, “If we do this we’re doing this together.”

“What the hell did I tell you about disobeying my orders? It is my life and you will follow my orders. You swore you would-”

“I didn’t sign up to watch you kill yourself!”

“I’m doing this to protect you! All of you!” I shouted, getting up abruptly, “I won't--I won’t have any more of you die, I can’t. I’ve lost too many to lose you too.”

“Just like you lost Hyunsoo?! You lost him because of the same mistake your about to do now. You thought you were the only one sacrificing yourself to save someone? What the hell do you think Hyunsoo did?!” He shot back.

My jaw went slack at hearing Hyunsoo’s name come out of Haise’s mouth. Haise must’ve seen how taken aback I was, his gaze softening a bit.

“Who do you think sent me to you? You really thought I just randomly found you? I promised Hyun that I would protect you-”

“Get out.” I said harshly, cutting him off as a dangerous glint appeared in my eyes, “Sasaki Haise, I swear if you’re not out of my sight within the next five seconds you’ll regret everything that just came out of that fucking mouth of yours.”

He set his jaw at my words, knowing they weren’t just hollow threats. He’s known me long enough to know that I was a woman of my word. He said nothing as he turned on his heel and walked out of the room, slamming the door roughly behind him.

“Do you have anything else to add?” I asked Baekhyun through gritted teeth as I turned around to face him.

Baekhyun only smiled softly before speaking, “Nope. Now tell me more about this plan of yours, after all you are the one in charge here.”

-

“Everyone fan out, surround the house. Kill anyone that gets in your way.” I told them, Haise and Baekhyun having gone on ahead to scout the area.

This left me in charge of the others. I knew Saiko, Urie, Junmyeon, and Chanyeol would give me no problems but the others? I’m not sure if they’d follow so easily. Surprisingly they gave little resistance to my orders as they nodded in agreement before taking off into their designated groups. I had Urie with me while Saiko went off with Chanyeol. I could see the different groups through the tree, letting me know we were in the right formation to strike perfectly. Once through the clearing however, I could tell just how outnumbered we really were. I could see the one I remembered to be called Jongdae standing at the front. At seeing him I pulled out my knives and ran straight towards him. I was only a few feet away from him when I brought my ringed finger up to my lips before swinging at him.

He was quick, managing to jump out of the way of my attack. He dug his heel into the dirt before pivoting out of the way when I ran at him again. This time he managed to get behind me, his leg kicking out at my own leg and causing me to stumble. My knee wobbled slightly, causing me to kneel suddenly as my knee gave out. I could see Urie running over to help me but I brought a hand up to stop him, silently telling him that Jongdae was mine.

“Oh? I see why everyone’s weary of you.” Jongdae said, a smirk worming its way onto his face, “You have no fear. An admirable trait but a stupid one as well.”

With that he swung his leg out once more. I let a smirk of my own spread across my face at seeing him do so. In the split second that his leg was in the air I flipped my knives so the blades were facing my body instead of the other way around. I swung my arm up, slicing at his calf before rolling away from him. I let a shit eating grin spread across my face at the look of pain and surprise in his eyes. I could see the blood from his newly opened wound start to pool at his feet as he leaned on his right leg, his left becoming useless. He cursed under his breath as he pulled out a knife of his own. Since his left leg was taken out of the equation this made him slower, becoming an easier target for me.

He wasted no time in swinging his own knife at me, managing to knick my arm slightly. I ground my teeth together as I weaved out of the way of his second swing, successfully slicing at his abdomen with both my knives. This led him to immediately kneel, giving me the chance to slice at his back as I spun around him. I heard his knife fall to the floor as I stood behind him breathless. He was giving me more trouble than I expected but I wasn’t going to let him keep at it for long.

I turned on my heel slowly and faced him, my chest heaving up and down from the exertion. He had his head hanging limply forward, it was a mystery how he even kept himself upright. I panted heavily as I reached forward and grabbed a fistful of his hair, lifting his head. I could hear him let out a few curse words under his breath. I leaned down, my lips mere inches from his ear.

“On any other occasion I would’ve loved to spar with you.” I let out softly, slowly bringing up my knife to his throat, “But today I can’t afford going easy on anyone.”

I held onto the knife tightly, and just as I was about to slice at his throat someone yelled out for me to stop. I froze at hearing the desperation in his voice, my head snapping up to meet the eyes of Kim Jongin. I ground my teeth together before I dug the tip of the knife into Jongdae’s neck, stopping once more at hearing him yell out for me to stop.

“Please...you--you don’t have to kill him. Please, just this once...let him go.”

I could feel my heart reach out to Jongin, the pleading tone in his voice causing me to let go of Jongdae. Jongdae fell forward, hitting the floor with a thud, Jongin giving me a grateful smile. I didn’t have time for this, turning on my heel and heading straight for the house. As I was running I was made aware of the fact that I haven’t seen Haise or Baekhyun around, wondering if they were off fighting on the other side of the house. My questions were answered the second I opened the door to the house, Haise and Baekhyun both tied up to chairs as Kyungsoo stood in between them.

As soon as those two laid eyes on me they started struggling against their restraints, their yells muffled by the gags in their mouths. Before I could even curse at Kyungsoo I felt as if there were other people besides them in the house and I was right. Kyungsoo had two people hiding behind the walls as they attacked as soon as he gave them the signal. I barely managed to dodge a punch from one of them but the other was able to kick my feet out from under me. I could feel the air leave my lungs at the impact, the man not giving me enough time to recover as he kicked at my side. When he pulled his leg back for another kick, this time I did manage to roll out of the way. The woman that kicked my legs out from under me reached down and grabbed me by the collar of my shirt, lifting me off the ground. I brought my arms up and broke out of her grasp, slicing at her torso with my knives rapidly, too fast for her to react. I felt the man reach out to grab at my shoulder. I planted my heel firmly into the ground before spinning out of his grip, facing him. Before he had the chance to do anything I brought my knife up, stabbing him through his chin upwards, twisting it when I felt it was lodged up his head far enough. I let his lifeless body fall to the floor, turning quickly to stab the woman as she came running at me. And like the man before I twisted the blade in her stomach, knowing she wasn’t going to survive the damage. I pushed her away from me, leaving the knife embedded in her stomach.

I crumbled to my knees, exhausted from the fighting. I brought my hand up to my side, seeing it come away with blood. One of them must’ve had a knife on them, I thought to myself as I raised my gaze up to glare at Kyungsoo. He had a wicked smirk on his face as he suddenly started to clap slowly. At seeing the look on his face I ground my teeth back and forth, pulling out a gun and rising to my feet.

“Kyungsoo you deranged bastard. You’ve had your fun now let them go. Its me you want.” I said as I pointed my gun straight at him.

He didn’t even flinch, the smirk still on his face, “And that’s where you’re wrong. You took what was most precious to me, now I’m going to take away what’s most precious to you.”

With that he brought out a knife, bringing it down into Haise’s thigh before I even had the chance to blink. Haise bit his tongue, the only thing letting me know how much pain he was in was the way his leg shook and how tightly he held onto the armchair. I cocked my gun, giving Kyungsoo one last warning. Kyungsoo simply grinned.

“What do you think? Should I cut into Haise like I did with Ji? Or should I break Baekhyun here mentally before giving him a few broken bones just like I did with Hye?” He asked, a mischievous glint in his eyes, “You care about them don’t you? Question is which one do you care about more?”

As soon as he finished I couldn’t help but let out a laugh, something in me snapping. I doubled over, clutching my stomach as I was thrown into a violent fit of laughter. I leaned against the wall, wiping at the tears coming out of my eyes due to how hard I was laughing. I had to place my hands over my knees to try and regain my breath, straightening out to see Kyungsoo looking at me with what I could only describe as terror in his eyes.

“You really think I want to save them...because I care about them?” I let out, trying to hold back another fit of laughter threatening to come out, “Now that’s rich.”

And before he could say anything I raised my gun up but instead of pointing it at him I pointed it at Haise. Without wasting another second I fired, the bullet from my gun lodging itself into Haise’s side. He let out a loud groan, his grip on the chair tightening significantly. It didn’t take long for him to pass out, the pain and blood loss getting to him. I gave Kyungsoo a devious grin, watching him stumble back.

Baekhyun somehow managed to free himself, running over to me, “Y/N, snap out of it!”

I said nothing as I pushed him away from me, bringing my arm up and shooting a bullet into his leg. I watched him crumbled to the floor, clutching his leg. I kicked my foot out harshly, hearing something crack but that didn’t stop me. I leant down and grabbed the collar of his shirt, pulling my arm back. For a moment there I froze, something flashing in Baekhyun’s eyes causing me to stop. I shook my head before bringing my arm down, hitting him harshly in the face with the hard metal of the gun. I repeated this over and over and over again, until his face was completely covered in blood. Surprisingly enough he was still conscious so I let him go before standing over him again. And like Haise I aimed the gun at his stomach before firing.

I stood over Baekhyun’s motionless body, panting heavily before a crazed laugh fell from my lips. I brought the hand I had the gun in to rest against my head, swaying on my feet. I pointed the gun at Kyungsoo lazily, watching him look at me with pure and utter terror in his eyes.

“You really thought...I cared about them? Just how soft do you think I am?” I asked with a chuckle, “Let me tell you something. The only reason I wanted to save them...is because I didn’t want their blood on my hands. But now look at what you’ve made me do…”

I sighed heavily, raising my arms in exasperation, gesturing to the blood filled room before letting them fall back to my side. Kyungsoo took a step back when I took one towards him.

“Now who’s gonna clean up this mess?”

“You’re insane.” He let out under his breath, slowly reaching for something behind him.

I sighed once again at seeing him do so. Quickly and without warning I fired off two shots, one at each knee. He crumbled to the floor in a heap, a string of curse words coming out of his mouth. I walked over to him slowly, stopping when I was standing directly over him. I placed my foot on his chest, his gaze piercing holes into my eyes.

“You should’ve acted like I never existed. If you weren’t so damn hell bent on revenge-”

“You killed my girlfriend!”

“I killed her because you were stupid enough to keep sending her back to me! What the hell else did you think I would do to her when I found out, huh?! Did you think I would let her go on her merry way?!” I yelled out as I crouched down to be closer to him.

I didn’t give him a chance to say anything as I wrapped my hands around his throat, “You think I’m a monster, huh? Well guess who the hell made me this way.”

I loosened my grip in his throat, pulled my arm back before bringing it back down and punching him square in the face. I don't know how long I was sat on top of him as I just kept hitting him. The more I hit him the more he stopped struggling in my grip. I felt the skin on my knuckles begin to rip open the longer I hit him, the blood from my knuckles mixing with his own blood. Kyungsoo lay motionless underneath me, his breathing shallow as his face was almost unrecognizable. Still, even after all that he managed to smirk, the way his lips curled angering me.

In anger and frustration I picked up the gun that I had laid on the floor before resting the barrel against his forehead, “This is for Jinho and Hyera.”

And with that I fired, seeing the blood immediately start to pool around his head. I stood up on trembling legs, looking around at the scene I had created. Once the haze finally cleared from my mind I crumbled to the floor. I looked down at my hands and clothes, seeing them covered in blood. There was so much blood I didn’t even know who it belonged to. I brought my knees up to my chest, covering my ears with my hands as I heard the others run into the house at that moment.

“Y/N...what--what did you do?” I heard Urie ask, his voice low.

I shook my head, keeping my hands over my ears but I was forced to look at him when he grabbed my wrists in his hands forcefully. I couldn’t look him in the eye for long but he wasn’t having it, shaking me roughly and forcing me to look at him. I shook my head vigorously, managing to removing my wrists from his grip. I pulled my knees in closer to my body as I felt myself start to tremble quite violently. I started rocking myself back and forth as I weaved my shaking hands through my hair, pulling at the roots roughly.

“I t-told him it was a bad idea. I-I didn’t want to do it but he--he made me. I-I’m sorry.” I whispered out.

I kept repeating apologies over and over again as I hid my face behind my hands, feeling the tears start to come out. Before I knew it sobs were all that was heard coming out of my mouth, the guilt already start to set in and eat away at me. I could hear the others yelling but I clamped my hands over my ears, wanting to just claw away at them so I wouldn’t have to hear anything. But no matter how hard I tried keeping their words out there was one sentence that echoed and bounced off the walls of my head

“What the hell did you do?!”