#hwhbh!wilbur

[sunlitmcgee]

was about to make a post about how teenage Michael struggles to get much in the way of dating advice from his parents because. Yeah. and I was like "oh maybe he can talk to XD or Jordan or whoever" and then I remembered "Oh Yeah. This kid's uncle is Cee Wilbur Bisexual Soot. He's fine."

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

hi metaru i have work in like an hour but before i have to go I just think it's funny how you mentioned that your version of cDream is nicer than canon, when in my fics I always work to make him even Worse by leaning into the "sick fuck who takes joy in torturing a child" aspect of his character. Like in hwhbh, he's just a Grosser person. He's written as a smug, petty, vindicative manbaby who, as soon as he's robbed of his armor and weapons and put in that cell, all the Classy Mysterious Elegance he held himself with just Drops. He's ofc a guy in a hostile oppressive environment that's fucking with his already shit poor mental health, and once XD goes in and throws his brain into the God Blender Torture Matrix Palinko, he's literally a husk of who he was and can barely make sense of where he is half the time. But there's still the constant undercurrent of Tommy Tommy Tommy in his thoughts. he's a cDream's who fear-fueled hatred of the boy is what he wears on his sleeve, because when robbed of his capacity to cause harm, all that's left is a sad, pitiful little man who felt like his world was being threatened by a literally child and resorted to torture and barbaric cruelty about it.

I mean like to be fair once you get a literal god torturing you I think niceness goes out the window. And like fair for him what XD is doing is like. Not Okay? Don’t torture people. (And this isn’t a criticism of your work, I think it’s some really good characterisation of XD. We know he’s ruthless and cruel to people he dislikes, so it’d make sense for him to be so towards someone who hurt someone he deeply cares for).

The way I write c!Dream is that he's like, fully and completely genuine about his desires for a big happy family and friendship, because I think that’s an excellent thing to explore in my horror work. So he's entirely genuine when he’s being kind to c!Tommy. He is being manipulative intentionally, yes, but when he says he cares about c!Tommy and enjoys spending time with him it’s the whole truth. He'd happily spend all day playing games and chatting with c!Tommy as much as he'd happily torture and experiment on him because he genuinely sees c!Tommy as a brother. He adores him in the same way c!Wilbur does, the same way c!Tubbo does, yet it’s horribly twisted. The kindness is fully genuine, and so is the cruelty. I think c!Dream is a lot worse if he's incredibly kind… and still a gleeful torturer who views that torture as kindness. He’s painfully human and he thinks he’s a good person. He has so many virtues yet used in ways worse than any vice. He's the dark side to every light.

[ao3feed-crimeboys]

Forgiveness, Can You Imagine?

by SunlitStruggles

A man comes back from the dead after being left to rot in a special hell that was made for him by the universe. Upon being revived, he is checked in to an esteem mental wellness center where he will begin his recovery. All the while he mediates on the events that led up to his death, on grief, pain, fear, loneliness. Regret. This is a story about a main who rots in his regret Can this sorry mess of a man forgive himself enough to recover? Can a man who hated himself to the point of wanting to die learn to love himself? Can life-ruining actions be forgiven? Can he be good? Can he fix it?

Well, this story isn't about answer. It's more about the maybes. And maybe this sad sack will be okay when it's all over. Maybe. Here's to hoping.

-This fic is a fully canon spin-off to my work "Heal What Has Been Hurt", a canon divergent AU. While this fic can be read on its own, many aspects of its story will not make sense without context of the main story. It takes place immediately after the events of chapter 101 and follows hwhbh!Wilbur's perspective of events going from there.

Words: 2850, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Series: Part 9 of Heal What Has Been Hurt+ Connected Works

Fandoms: Dream SMP

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: Gen

Characters: Wilbur Soot, Ghostbur (Dream SMP), TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), DreamXD (Dream SMP)

Relationships: Wilbur Soot & TommyInnit, DreamXD (Dream SMP) & Wilbur Soot, Ghostbur (Dream SMP) & Wilbur Soot

Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Character Death, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Wilbur Soot and TommyInnit are Siblings, Traumatized Wilbur Soot, Mental Health Issues, Hallucinations, Blood and Gore, Recovery, Mentioned Phil Watson (Video Blogging RPF), Phil Watson is Wilbur Soot's Parent, Bad Parent Phil Watson (Video Blogging RPF), Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Author Is Not a Phil Watson Apologist (Video Blogging RPF), Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Sympathetic Wilbur Soot, Depression, Anxiety, Avian Wilbur Soot, Author is a TommyInnit Apologist (Video Blogging RPF), Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Wilbur Soot is Not Ghostbur, Original Character(s), Additional Warnings In Author's Note, Other Additional Tags to Be Added

[flamedoesart]

no but you need to understand, Flame. HWHBH!Wilbur is a man who was raised in a very(by our world's standards of culture/politics) conservative environment. He is not familiar with various labels and identities and what not outside of the sparse handful he's been able to learn about throughout his pre-SMP travels.

HWHBH!Wilbur is a whore. A professional whore. My man's knows sex, but he don't know much else.

Heal!Wil has ZERO CONCEPT of what a platonic/queerplatonic relationship is. He just...doesn't know, because the concept was never introduced to him.

My man's is gonna come out of Limbo on the ol' "I'M ALIVE, I'M REVIVED, I SURVIVED" high, see beeduo being smoft on tommy, watch some tall prissy enderian kid make ~moves TM~ on his baby brother, aaaaaaaand then I think the poor guy will need to lay down for like. 800 years. because like.......how the fuck do you process that?

the old elder queer whore man's white streak isn't from revival it's from the stress of worrying for his baby brother. oh the poor guy. the poor poor thing

dude is like "omg ppl love my brother" and then he passes tf away

[sunlitmcgee]

this is the last thing I'm goinna be able to write for the rest of the day because I don't think I can physically write more after That

and of course, the parents. the parents of the children who have to fight against this admin and his army because there's hardly any other adults around to help. we've got like 5 other people who know how to use a sword. he has to talk to the parents. of course. of course he has to turn and talk to the parents while their kids all play together outside and run around in their little uniforms. He has to talk to the Parents.

[sunlitmcgee]

they're talking about heal!tommy

[sunlitmcgee]

im writing like. chunks of this wedding chapter. just bits at a time to slot into place until I have the energy to actually write stuff out. and wilbur's Happy. he's happy and he's Proud of himself. he's proud at how well he's doing and at how far he's come since revival. it's the 16th, but it's a day of love and building something New this time instead of a day of tearing something down to the ground. his baby brother's gettng platonic gay married. im gonna cry actually

[sunlitmcgee]

hwhbh!XD and hwhbh!Wilbur have done terrible terrible things but they're so stubborn and scared that they refuse to fully face all the work that'll come from having to fix them.

the only difference is one is a god and the other is a little osprey man.

[sunlitmcgee]

I think of hwhbh!wilbur's personal road to recovery as a sort of self-inflicted vivisection. He's given the tools with which to cut his chest open so he can look inside and see exactly what's Wrong. It's not all unsalvageable. There's love in there. There's goodness inside of him. There's grace. But there's also plenty that's gone rotten, rancid flesh and open pores that he's got to put in the effort into sealing up, healing not concealing, if he really wants to stop the gradual decay. It's not pretty or soft or tender in the way he wants, but it's what he needs and he knows that. So fetch him the bone saw.

[sunlitmcgee]

yeah. all those people who were shit talking heal!wilbur because ghostbur was around with Shroud? Very young adults who grew up in L'manburg during and after the war. yeah. Yeah...

[sunlitmcgee]

Oh! BTW, in case anyone was wondering how it is in HWHBH that an osprey avian man and a salmon merfolk lady were able to make a humanoid fox hybrid, the answer is simple: HWHBH!Sally had a lot of fox hybrids in her family tree on her mom's side.

It's just funky hybrid race genetics being funky.

[sunlitmcgee]

This, ladies and gents and variations thereof, is what happens when the universe is a Petty Little Cunt and an Asshole who doesn't know how shitty it is to hurl abuses towards a severely traumatized man. and if they do know, they're a cunt and do not Care

^^^XD is not correct or right in saying this. they are being A Motherfucker. Plwase d not girlboss god dad in tis situtaion....thank u

heal Wilbur is gonna be getting yelled at a bunch in this chapter but i prommy you all tis not Me yelling at him nor is it meant to be taken as Good Yelling okay. XD is being a stupid and a shithead. we love them but they are being uite awful

[sunlitmcgee]

i think i'm finally over my fear of cwilburians calling me ableist for writing cwilbur as yknow. kind of a dick. to properly explore hwhbh wilbur again

[sunlitmcgee]

hwhbh!wilbur is gonna have a sit down with a universe that hates him(and is scared of him) and he's gonna tell this tired old universe "Hating me isn't gonna help Tommy" and the universe, oh, well they're just tired and bitter and angry. So they'll say something like "I know. But at least it'll ensure you never forget what you did to him."

and then this little man will ask it "Do you think I can ever forget with the way he looks at me like he's always about to cry?"

and then they'll sit and stay together in the growing silence. It will be a beautiful autumn day, just a short while down the road. Promise.

[sunlitmcgee]

the thing about hwhbh tubbo is that he's very angry at everyone who has failed him in some way and that includes wilbur but he doesn't even know WHY he's angry at wilbur and so he's making his anger all about tommy and ignoring himself completely when upset

[sunlitmcgee]

@flamedoesart said that hwhbh!XD has a haterboner for Wilbur while we were watching puss in boots the last wish