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the kook's girl [rafe cameron]
pairing - rafe cameron x kook reader
summary - being the only girl in the kook friend group, you were always taken care of. especially since you and rafe started dating four months ago. safe to say, everyone on the island knew not to mess with you if they valued their life at all. so, when the tourons came to town in the summer, the kook boys always got their bit of fun.
warnings - swearing, fighting, just our fav protective!rafe
"Sarah, it's our song!" She slurred, grabbing onto her best friend's hand, pulling her onto the dance floor.
Rafe and Sarah are never on good terms, but Rafe knows no matter how much he hates his sister, she'll always be his girl's best friend. He's grateful for it sometimes, as annoying as it can be, it's just one more person who cares about her and is always looking out for her when Rafe can't be.
But tonight, as both kook girls are drunk off their asses, Rafe keeps a close eye. He spots John B doing the same from across the club as he sits next to Kiara, still keeping a close eye on his girl, Sarah.
Rafe sits in a booth at the club, nursing a glass of whiskey in his palm. Topper and Kelce sit next to him, talking about things he could not care less about at the moment. For example, the girls on the dance floor they want to take home, golf, etc.
No, Rafe's attention is solely on the girl who lights up the dance floor in her sparkly pink dress which Rafe bought for her just three days prior. Her gold necklace with the letter 'R' hanging from her neck shines brightly as the club lights hit it. Her baby pink kitten heels travel her elegantly across the floor as her arm remains tightly latched onto Sarah's as they dance in tune.
He barely even notices the slight smile etched onto his lips in affection as he takes a slow sip from his glass.
"Yo!"
Rafe's attention is abruptly moved from his girl to his dumbass friends as Topper pulls on his white half-way unbuttoned shirt.
"What?" Rafe spits, rolling his eyes at their antics.
"Tourons, 12 o'clock." Topper warns.
"What the fuck? I think they're looking at Y/n and Sarah, man." Kelce points out, suddenly sitting up straighter as they both snap out of their previous conversations to keep an eye on the situation.
This catches his attention as he clocks the three sun burnt tourists waltzing in wearing khaki shorts, polos, and flip flops. Idiots. He notices one of them point in Y/n's direction as the other's snicker, laughing as they spoke to each other.
Rafeâs eyes dart back to Y/n, oblivious as ever, in her own little world.
"I've almost been waiting to pick a fight," He confesses. "Just wait till they get too close."
The three morons make their way in the direction of Y/n. One particular guy, wearing a blue tropical button up, comes up behind Y/n, tapping her shoulder. Rafe is just close enough to overhear the conversation.
âHey, Iâm Ethan,â he smirks, hungry eyes looking her up and down.
She turns around, her smile slightly fading at his stare. âUm, hi.â She spins back around, grabbing onto Sarah.
âYou two are pretty little things, out here by yourselves.â He chuckles, his hand moving to her shoulder.
âYou gonna go out there man?â Topper asks, getting anxious for the girls.
âNo, just wait. I want a real excuse to kill emâ.â Rafe responds, his fists clenching.
Ethanâs grimy hands near Y/nâs neck, his index finger latching onto her gold âRâ necklace. âWhatâs your name, hm? RâŠ?â
âYouâre gonna regret that,â Y/n whispers, her eyes meeting Rafe.
Rafe stands, marching over to Ethan. Rafeâs fist latches onto the back of his collar, pulling him back as Y/nâs necklace slips from his grasp. Rafe turns him around, knocking a punch to his jaw, blood spurting from his lips onto Rafeâs face.
Rafe lets go aggressively, the boy falling to the ground forcefully. Rafe smirks, his ringed hand coming up to wipe Ethanâs blood from his jaw. âThe âRâ stands for Rafe. Her boyfriend.â He states before knocking one more punch to the boyâs cheek.
âI-Iâm sorry,â He pathetically whimpers, begging for mercy.
âShe clearly had zero fucking interest in you, yet you continued,â He chuckles. Rafe leans down, pulling Ethanâs neck up by his collar. âYou better hope your flight out of here is tomorrow morning. If not, watch your back man.â
Topper and Kelce come into view, peering at the man below Rafe, only inciting more fear into the poor tourist. Ethanâs two friends quickly pull him up, scattering out of the club as fast as they can.
Rafe turns to Y/n, his demeanor immediately turning soft, a side of himself only she gets to see. âYou okay, baby?â He asks, his eyes scanning over her face for any discomfort.
âIâm okay, just some asshole tourist.â She rolls her eyes, manicured fingers grasping onto her necklace.
His eyes flick down to her hand, she only fidgets with her necklace when sheâs uncomfortable or nervous. He feels more rage and anger boil up inside him thinking about how that guy ruined her night of fun with Sarah.
âWanna go home, baby?â Rafe whispers softly, fingers pushing her hair behind her ears.
She bites her lip in debate, turning toward her friend Sarah. Sarah nods her head, âItâs okay, Iâm gonna have John B take me back to his place too, itâs getting late anyway.â
âYeah, okay, letâs go home. Iâll text you Sarah, we can hang out tomorrow, yeah?â Y/n feels guilty, her and Sarah havenât gotten to spend as much time together ever since she started dating John B and hanging out with his friends more.
Y/n had nothing against the pogues, she thought the rivalry was stupid and childish. She actually found them quite nice, but she spends every minute with her best friends, Rafe, Topper, and Kelce.
Rafe slings his arm around her shoulder after giving his goodbyes to Topper and Kelce, walking you to his truck. He opens the door for you without a word, buckling you in and shutting the door.
When he gets in on his side, starting the truck, he looks over at his girl at her sad eyes. âWhatâs wrong, angel?â
She sniffles, âI just miss Sarah. Wanted to hang out with her tonight but those guys ruined it.â
Rafeâs hand slips around her thigh, patting it lovingly. âI know, hon. Iâm sorry. Iâll make sure Sarah gets her ass off the cut tomorrow to hang out with you, okay?â
She smiles, her hand finding comfort atop Rafeâs. âI love you.â
âI love you more,â he leans over, pressing a gentle kiss to her cheek.
#rafe cameron imagines#rafe cameron#outerbanks rafe#outer banks#obx fic#rafe obx#rafe cameron fluff#protective rafe#rafe x reader
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Chasing Cars | ch 10 (jjk)
âsummary: when your brother goes to study on a semester abroad, your life collides with his best friend Jeon Jungkook, who's coincidentally your roommate. Will you survive the collision, or will you crumble into dust?
âpairings: brother's best friend!Jungkook x younger sister!female reader, Yoongi x Hoseok
ârating: 18+ (minors DNI, this chapter contains mature content)
âgenre: forbidden love?au, college!au, slice of life!au, smut, angst (as usual a lot of it), fluff
âwarnings: side character breakup, jungkook is still a little jealous lmao, alcohol, curses, they both are anxious to lose each other tbh, explicit content: hickey, breast play, oral sex (male receiving), jerking off, fingering, protected sex
âword count: 10.1k
âa/n: fun fact, this is the chapter that made me choose the title for this fic!! and this is also where the angst starts :') I hope you still enjoy reading <3 and thank you to @moonleeai for beta-ing, you're the best <3
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If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol
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Monday, March 25thÂ
You hate college. More specifically, you hate having to turn in multiple lab reports every week. Thereâs just something about building a lab report that irks you.
You donât know how researchers do it. You think youâd go insane if you had to write report after report after report butâŠ
Youâre already going insane after all.
You sigh, rubbing a hand on your forehead as you look at the tables youâve been trying to make for half an hour. Yoongi, sitting across from you, raises his head from his laptop, an eyebrow cocked. You offer him a tight-lipped smile, going back to your report as he doesnât pry, focusing back on his own work.
As much as he spoke to you at the party last week, Yoongi has been a lot more silent today. You reckon you might know why - Hoseok said in the group chat that heâd come to study too, and heâs yet to show up. Itâs evening now, and you have a feeling heâs just not going to come.Â
You donât know if you can entirely blame him - itâs Spring Break after all, and most people are trying to forget about college for the week.Â
But you canât, because youâve got that lab report to work on and a final to study for.
You blink a few times, trying to bring your laptop back in focus, and then you go back to work. You spend another thirty minutes fixing the tables, not caring that the titles clearly could be better. Nabi said sheâd go over everything youâve done, and you know sheâs much better with titles anyway.
Youâre lucky sheâs your lab partner.Â
âAre you hungry?â Yoongi asks all of a sudden, and you startle, looking up at him.
Right in time, your stomach grumbles, and you let out a small laugh. âYeah, a little.â
âWant to order burritos?â Yoongi suggests.
You nod enthusiastically, and he chuckles, picking up his phone. The smile that was on his lips dies almost immediately, and he deeply sighs. You furrow your brows questioningly, glancing outside of your study rooms.
Jungkook isnât working today, yet you find yourself looking for him all the same.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â you ask Yoongi, pushing Jungkook away from your thoughts.
Even though every thought of him makes you warm inside, giddy like a teenager with a crush.
âHobi,â Yoongi simply replies.
You purse your lips, picking up your water bottle to take a long sip as you search for something to say. You settle on, âYou guys talked after the party?â
Yoongi nods. âYeah.â He pauses, sighing deeply again before handing you his phone. âJust choose which burrito you want.â
You grab his phone, quickly choosing what you want to eat as he remains silent, typing away on his laptop. Youâre aware heâs avoiding the question, but you have a feeling he needs to talk. Itâs in the way he worries at some dry skin on his bottom lip, an anxious tell you recognize all too well for having it too.
âHow did the conversation go?â you ask as he finishes up the order, putting his phone back down on the table.
âIt went okay,â he admits, yet he looks defeated. You understand why when he adds, âHe told me he doesnât want to be with me anymore.â
You widen your gaze. âOh.â
âYeah.â Yoongi laughs bitterly, slightly shaking his head. âI feel blindsided. We were all happy before the party and nowâŠâ He shrugs vaguely, letting out a choked sound that almost passes as a chuckle. âIt just came out of nowhere.â
âIâm really sorryâŠâ
He shrugs again. âWhat can you do? I really just jumped in too fast without realizing that he was reluctant. I was stupid.â
âI donât think you were stupid,â you say, trying to sound reassuring. âYouâve had feelings for him for a long time, and it felt like you were finally getting something in return. Anyone would have been blindsided.â
âI should have known when he insisted we take it slow and not share a room though,â Yoongi insists. âAnd though the sex was great there was a lot of stuff he was uncomfortable with. Not that I ever did anything without him wanting to do it butâŠâ He wets his lips, glances your way before setting his gaze on his keyboard again. âI was his first guy.â
âYeah, he told me,â you admit.
Pink dusts Yoongiâs cheeks, and you can tell heâs embarrassed by the turn of the conversation. So this time you donât pry, letting him figure out what he wants to say next.
âI think he realized that heâs not into guys all that much,â Yoongi eventually says. âLike⊠he wanted to try it out and turns out itâs not as nice as he thought itâd be kinda thing, you know?â
You nod. âIt sucks that it had to be with you though. You didnât deserve that.â
Another shrug, like itâs all Yoongi knows to do right now. âYeah, I guess.â He chuckles, a sad sound that makes you want to get up and hug him, though you know Yoongiâs not big on physical touch. âI donât know if I should be mad or sad,â he admits a few seconds later.
âYouâre allowed to be both.â He cocks an eyebrow as if not convinced. âIâm serious,â you insist. âYou like him. Obviously, itâs going to hurt if he decides he doesnât want to be with a guy. And obviously, youâre allowed to be mad too, because to you it can feel like he was leading you on.â
Yoongi meets your gaze. âHave you ever thought about becoming a therapist?â
His statement surprises you, and you laugh, scrunching up your nose. âNo?â
âI think youâd be good,â Yoongi says. He sighs deeply again, picking up his phone. âFoodâs on its way.â
Youâre technically not allowed to eat at the library, so you end up eating on the steps outside when the food arrives, the fresh evening air welcoming after being stuck in a small, stuffy room for a couple of hours. Yoongi keeps pouring his heart out to you all along, as if heâd been holding everything in for too long, and the dam finally burst.
Youâre happy to be there for him. Even though most of it is the same thing as at the party last week, youâre happy heâs comfortable enough to confide in you, and you try to cheer him up.Â
âIf you want,â you say after a time. âI could try to speak to Hobi. See what he really thinks about this all.â
Yoongi holds your gaze for a few seconds before looking away, his eyes shifting to the cloudy sky. âNah, I donât think itâs a good idea,â he says. âIâll just have to move on.â
You donât know what to say to that, so you just nod. âYour choice. Iâll be here for you.â
He smiles, sighing. âI know. Thank you.â
On that note you return to your study room and to the lab report awaiting you. Yoongi busies himself with his composition as you work, and you finally finish taking care of the text for the results about half an hour later. Nabi said sheâd do the discussion, so you send her the link, asking her to tell you if she wants you to fix anything, and then you close your laptop, folding your arms on top of it.
âDone?â Yoongi says, pushing his headset down so that it rests around his neck.
You nod, dropping your face on your arms. âAnd Iâm dead.â
âWhen do finals start for you?â he asks.
âNext Tuesday,â you admit.
âIsnât that early?â Yoongi asks, gaze widened in surprise.
It might be. You only have one then though, and you still have two weeks of classes in your other courses before the rest of your finals. Youâll still take it - it means one less final during the true final week.
You tell so to Yoongi, who admits he doesnât have finals, instead having projects in three classes. It leads to a conversation where you compare biology to his music major, and another fifteen minutes go by in comfortable silence when the conversation dies of its own volition, as you scroll on your phone and Yoongi keeps on working on his music composition.
You startle when someone knocks on the door of the study room. You glance that way, eyes widening when you notice Jungkook on the other side. Yoongi lets out a small laugh at your expense, and you get up, opening the door for Jungkook.Â
âWhat are you doing here?â you ask as he walks in, two coffees in hands.Â
âThought you might need this,â he says, offering you one.
You take it with an eyebrow cocked quizzically, and then you watch him as he drops in one of the empty chairs at the table. Heâs got a backpack with him, and he pulls out a laptop and a notebook from it while you and Yoongi are just stunned silent.
âWhat are you doing?â you ask again as you sit back in your chair.Â
âFigured Iâd come study here with you guys,â he explains simply.
You glance at Yoongi, who shrugs.
âOh?â you let out, settling your gaze back on Jungkook.
âUnless you guys donât want me to?â
Yoongi saves you by replying, âNo, youâre all good man. I was leaving anyway.â
He clearly wasnât, as youâre the one who finished writing your report and he was still in the middle of his composition, yet he still gets up, closing his laptop and putting it in his backpack.
âText me if thereâs anything,â you tell him as heâs sliding one of the straps of his backpack on his shoulder.
His Adam's apple bobs as he swallows, and he nods curtly. âWill do. Thanks for everything.â
You offer him a small smile, and then heâs walking out, not once looking back.Â
âDid you really have to come here?â you ask Jungkook, and it sounds far more accusing than you meant it to be.
âWhat?â he lets out. âJust wanted to see what the hype is all about when it comes to the library.â
You offer him a no-bullshit look. âWere you jealous because I was studying alone with Yoongi?â
Jungkook frowns, a crease appearing between his eyebrows. His lips jut out in the hint of a pout, and something melts inside of you, like it always does when it comes to him.
âHeâs the one that left the second I got here,â Jungkook points out.
âBecause heâs going through a hard time, dumbass,â you say, punching Jungkook in the shoulder.Â
He rubs at the spot, his pout intensifying, if thatâs possible. âHe still could have stayed, I wouldnât have minded.â
Jungkook isnât wrong, and though you really want to be there for Yoongi, you know heâs the kind of person that needs space a lot. Or at least thatâs the impression heâs given you in general, and you really hope he didnât leave because Jungkook showed up.
âI was done though,â you admit, patting your closed laptop. âI was thinking about heading home.â
Jungkook flicks your nose, taking you by surprise, and you sit back in your chair as you shriek. It earns you one of his bunny grins, and you truly are melting like snow in the sun. âWell then youâre going to have to stay with me for a little longer, mmh?â
You tilt your head to the side, though you canât help the smile that tickles the corners of your lips. âAnd do what?â
âStudy?â he sarcastically lets out. âDo whatever it is that you bio majors do.â
You end up doing so, rereading your notes for your first final. Itâs boring, and you donât think itâs really productive when Jeon Jungkook is sitting next to you, stealing quick glances in your direction.Â
You catch him for what feels like the tenth time, and you roll your eyes. âStop looking at me.â
âWhy?â
âBecause,â you offer as an explanation. âWe should go home.â
He narrows his gaze at you. âWhy?â
âPeople could see us here.â And go and tell Taehyung about it.
âIâll handle Tae if he gets upset, donât worry,â Jungkook tries to reassure you, but it does the opposite.
Indeed, a drop of lead forms in your stomach because, what if Taehyung learns?
You donât want him to know. Itâd complicate everything, ruin everything.Â
âBesides,â Jungkook adds, âIâll have to handle him in April anyway.â
You frown, a confused crease streaking across your brow. âWhy?â
Jungkook meets your gaze. âIâm going to Paris with Jimin to see your brother at the end of the semester.â
Your heart starts racing in your chest, anxiety flooding your blood. âOh?â
Jungkook toys with his piercings, scanning your features carefully. âYeah. Itâs been planned for a while.â
âYou didnât tell me.â Youâre aware you once again sound accusing, but you canât help it.
Not when you see the expiration date of your relationship with Jungkook flashing in your mind.
âSorry,â he apologizes. âI just didnât think to tell you? I thought I mentioned it when we Facetimed Tae the other day.â
You canât blame him for not explicitly telling you - the trip has likely been planned for a while, and itâs not like you speak about your brother a lot. Though you mention him once in a while, youâve both been good at avoiding talking about him. Now that heâs mentioned the Facetime call though, you do recall, and itâs like a hand is squeezing around your heart some more.
âNo worries,â you say, and you offer him what you hope is a reassuring smile. âWhen do you leave?â
âApril 29th, I think? Iâll check.â
You nod, and you look away from Jungkook to stare at your laptop instead, though your gaze loses its focus as your brother invades your thoughts. You think about what heâd say - you know heâll be furious, and heâll likely kick Jungkook out of your apartment.Â
Jungkook will never be able to handle Taehyung. Not when heâs being an overbearing asshole like only he knows to do.
âPeach,â Jungkook says in a small voice that almost sounds whiny. âWhy do you look so upset?â
âYou canât handle Tae,â you say. You worry at your bottom lip and then take a deep breath. âItâs really better if he doesnât know.â
Jungkook remains silent for a few seconds, though he nods his head. âOkay.â He nods again, offering you a tight-lipped smile. âDo you want to head home then?â
âYeah,â you answer without a beat of silence. âYeah, I think we should go home.â
Jungkookâs gaze drops to his laptop, and you feel bad. You truly do - he looks defeated, much like Yoongi looked like earlier.
âCan we watch something when we get home though?â you quickly ask.
You canât help it. You canât stand the sight of Jungkook upset - itâs just wrong to you.
He immediately brightens, a small curving his lips upwards. âYeah?âÂ
You nod. âYeah, definitely. Should get some cuddles in too.â
His smile widens, and he meets your gaze, the usual mischievous twinkle back in the depths of his eyes. âSounds like a plan.â
And it really is. You think, you donât need more with Jungkook. You donât need the relationship to change, donât need anyone to know. Because itâs simple right now, and thereâs beauty in its simplicity.Â
Wednesday, March 27th
âDonât!â you shriek, but Jungkook ignores you, stealing the TV remote from your hands.
âWeâre not watching your reality TV show,â he says as he plops down on the couch into a lying position.
You glare at him, frowning as you fold your arms on your chest. âYou like it.â
âSometimes.â He flashes you a bunny grin that makes you gulp around a sudden lump in your throat. âBut right now, Iâm in the mood for a movie.â
You look up to the ceiling, searching for salvation yet finding none. âWhat movie?â
âJust come here,â he says, opening his arms for you.
You canât resist. His gravity is too strong, and he pulls you in, like heâs the sun and youâre the comet.Â
Though you might come from the Kuiper Belt, you know youâre bound to crash into him anyway.
Once youâre nestled in his arms, Jungkook resumes his scrolling on Netflix.Â
âWhat about this?â he asks.
âExtraction?â you say as you eye the movie he stops on. âIâm not in the mood for action.â
âThen a romantic comedy it is.â
You chuckle against him, pecking the mole on his neck. He chooses the movie Always Be My Maybe, and then tightens his grip around you.
âI like that movie,â you say.
âYouâve seen it already?â
You reach for his hand before heâs able to change it. âYeah, but I donât mind,â you reassure him.Â
He nods, and thatâs how you end up watching the movie, slowly dozing off on his chest. Youâre in and out of sleep, watching the bright screen whenever you wake up, and when the credits roll in, Jungkook yawns over you.
âWere you sleeping?â you ask, faking offence.
âYou were,â Jungkook points out, flicking your nose as you raise your head to look at him.Â
You move your face away, resting your head on the couch. âBarely.â
Jungkook cocks an eyebrow, and then you both burst out laughing.Â
You like this. You like the intimacy of being with Jungkook in your own home, like that in between these walls you get to call him yours. Itâs treacherous, but oh so inebriating, like heâs summer wine youâve become addicted to.
Instead of watching another movie, Jungkook goes to his room to retrieve his speaker, and he puts a random playlist on while you fetch a rosĂ© bottle from the fridge, where youâve left it before watching the movie. Youâd decided to spend the evening in despite both your friends and his friends asking to hang out, and so youâd gotten a bottle earlier today.
That, and the board game Ticket to Ride, your favourite board game.
âThatâs not how it works,â you complain a while later, when youâre one glass in and Jungkook grabs a locomotive and wagon card from the five on the side.
âWhat?â he lets out.
âIf you take a locomotive you can only take one card,â you remind him.
Itâs his first time playing, and though the game is fairly simple, youâve noticed Jungkook has a tendency to try and cheat his way to the win. Youâre tempted to let him keep the two cards when he offers you puppy eyes, yet you stand your ground, holding your hand out.
âGive me the wagon back.â
âTake it from me,â he teases, lips stretching in a smirk.
âOh, you want to play this way?â you reply in the same teasing tone, and Jungkook toys on his piercings.
âMaybe?â
You get up from where youâve been sitting on the floor, walking to the other side of the coffee table. Jungkook watches you, an apprehensive yet excited look in his eyes, and he laughs the second you drop behind him, hands aiming for his sides.
He leans against you, his large frame almost enough to make you crumple to the floor, and you wrap your arms around him, holding him close.
âGive me the wagon,â you repeat.
âOr what?â
âOr Iâm not playing the game anymore.â
He looks over his shoulder at you, a pout on his pink lips. âOkay then, take your wagon back.â
He gives it to you, and you smile victoriously before pecking his cheek. âThank you.â
You walk back to your side of the table, though you stop halfway, eyes brightening.
âI love this song!âÂ
Jungkook leans back on his hands, tilting his head to the side as Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol starts playing.
It was your favourite song growing up. You used to listen to a different version of it youâd heard on Greyâs Anatomy, and youâd listen to it whenever you felt sad. Whenever you needed to feel like you werenât alone in the universe, like someone was waiting for you, somewhere.
And as you look down at Jungkook while the lyrics start, you know someone was waiting all along.
âSing it for me,â Jungkook says, smiling softly.
You canât help the blush that creeps on your cheeks. âI donât know how to sing. But you do!â
He chuckles, yet immediately starts singing as you offer him a hand to pull him up to his feet. He obliges, and he rests his large hands on your waist as you wrap your arms around his neck, holding him close. He sways you to the music as he softly sings, cheeks dusted in pink, and you pull him even closer, resting your head on his chest.
Simple intimacy. That is what you and Jeon Jungkook are made of, and you think, if heâd ask you to lay here, in this moment, youâd lie with him until eternity took you in its hold. Until youâd be nothing more than dust between the stars - remembrance of what was once great.Â
But April is looming closer, a giant towering over the both of you, one step away from crushing you under its boot.
âYou know,â Jungkook says while the song continues in the background.
âMmh?â you let out, looking up to meet his gaze.
His eyes are heavy with emotions, and you swim in them, bathe in them. You feel complete, cherished, and you hope he knows you feel the same way.
You hope he knows youâve been falling in love with him despite the odds.
âIâve never been like this with anyone before,â he admits, his voice gentle. âIâve had situationships, I guess, but nothing like us.â
You smile softly, your heart racing in your chest. âMe neither. Youâre the first.â
Itâs true. Though youâve sort of dated Sam Hwang for a few weeks during the summer, it was nothing like it is with Jungkook.
Sam Hwang never looked at you the way that Jungkook looks at you.
Jungkook leans forward, resting his forehead against yours as he keeps on swaying you both to the music, the song nearing its last chorus. Your eyes flutter shut from the proximity, and your breaths mingle as you fall silent for a few seconds.
âI love having firsts with you,â he whispers.
You almost reply that you love him. The moment calls for it - the atmosphere is that of romance, the music is close to your soul, and he⊠Heâs the blood in your veins and the oxygen in your lungs. Yet you canât say it - youâve never told anyone you loved them before. And youâre not even sure you truly love him. Yes, you have feelings, but everything is overshadowed by the knowledge that youâre bound to end.
You donât want to tell him you love him and make it too real only to have him slip from your fingers the second Taehyung learns.
âMe too,â you instead reply. âI love spending time with you.â
Itâs as close to the truth as youâll get, and he allows it, pressing a soft kiss on your lips. Itâs slow, patient, like the whole universe will pause for you two. He pulls away when the song ends, bending to grab his phone on the table.Â
He restarts the song, and the second his phone is back on the table again, you pull him back in, tiptoeing to kiss him again. He wraps his arm around your waist, holding you tight against him, and you sigh at the pillowy softness of his mouth, at the way his piercings feel just right pressing indents in your lip. His free hand cups your cheek, holding you in place as he deepens the kiss, tilting his head to the side.
His tongue swipes at your bottom lip, almost hesitantly, but you open up for him immediately, tasting the rosĂ© in his mouth as he kisses you deeply, languidly. The kiss never accelerates, yet itâs infinitely passionate.
Much like that first kiss youâd exchange, during the power outage on Valentineâs Day.
You think you knew then - heâd kissed you so softly, like you were fragile, just a flower petal a second from being blown away. Even then, heâd cared for you, and itâd scared you.
But thereâs nothing scary about this. Thereâs nothing scary about the way he gently hikes your shirt up to slide his hand underneath it, his fingers tracing idle patterns on your back, leaving goosebumps in their wake. Thereâs nothing scary about the way he sighs when you run your hands through his hair, gently tugging at the soft strands. Thereâs nothing scary about the way he backs you towards the couch, spinning around at the last second so that he can sit down.
Thereâs nothing scary about him pulling you in, always, so that you straddle his lap, connecting your mouths again a second later. No, itâs only natural. Heâs the wind and you the leaves. Heâs the sun that shines on you, his moon.
You were always meant to collide after all, and though the aftermath might be terrifying, all you can do right now is enjoy it while it lasts.
Jungkook tentatively grinds up, his arousal evident as he presses against your clothed self. You let out a breathy sound that makes him push his tongue in your mouth, and you suck on it, earning a grunt from him as his hands drop to your hips to drag you on him again. You grab at the hem of his shirt, disconnecting your mouths just long enough to pull the fabric off him, and then youâre kissing him again, crashing your lips on his hard enough that you think you taste blood, though you donât care.
You just want him. Need him, so viscerally you think youâll combust.
âPeach,â Jungkook lets out as you move to his neck.Â
Unable to resist, you suck a hickey on him, a bright purple mark on the spot where his shoulder connects with his neck. He groans, leaning his head back against the couch to give you better access as you lick at the spot, soothing the sting.
When you straighten, Jungkook meets your gaze, his chest quickly going up and down. Youâre just as out of breath as him, and when he reaches for the hem of your shirt, you let him take it off you, leaving you in only your black lace bralette. He looks at your breasts, cupping them in his large hands as he sighs appreciatively.
âEvery time itâs like you get more beautiful,â he murmurs, and he looks up at you then, his eyes crinkled at the corners in what you can only call adoration.Â
âKookâŠâ
His hands return to your waist, and he wets his lips, playing with his piercings. You grind against him, and his eyes immediately flutter shut.
âYou think we can fuck out here?â you tease, rolling your hips.
âOn the couch that your brother bought,â he replies, and thereâs something so sinful about the thought that you know youâll do it.
Itâs not like Taehyung is around and will know.
So you bend forward, capturing Jungkookâs mouth in another languid kiss while you unbutton his pants. When the button comes undone, you straighten, standing between his legs so that you can pull the jeans down his legs. You leave the boxers on, eyeing his length as you kneel, hands resting on his thighs.
âCan I suck your dick?â you ask.
He chuckles. âYes. But please be quick, I want to be buried inside of you.â
You narrow your gaze at him, but let out a laugh despite yourself.Â
You focus on his dick again then, on the wet spot at the top where his purple underwear has turned darker. You bend forward, littering small kisses along his shaft, and you tentatively lick at the wet spot, the taste of his precum filling your mouth. And though youâd planned to tease him, to be the brat you know he likes, you give in right away, pulling his boxers down just enough so that you can lick at his slit.
He lets out a breathy sound that has you bite your lip as you look up at him through your lashes. Heâs got his head thrown back, eyes closed, and from this angle, all you can see is his sharp jaw.
You pull his boxers down more, and he helps you by raising his ass for a few seconds. His dick springs free, already rock hard, and you immediately grab the base to hold it up as you finish taking off his boxers, letting them tangle around his ankles. Youâre quick to lick a long stripe from between his balls up to the tip of his cock, and then you take him in your mouth, hollowing your cheeks around him.
He bucks his hips, fucking up into your mouth, and you moan when he hits the back, your eyes immediately watering.Â
He lets you lead after that, hands lost in your hair as you bob your head up and down, working him closer to his high. You love the feel of him in your mouth, love the way he grunts and praises you under his breath, and you think youâd be able to come from just hearing him, pleasuring him.Â
It doesnât get to that though. When Jungkook truly nears his high, he pulls you away from his dick, and you meet his gaze to see his pupils are blown wide, filled with so much lust all you can do is obey when he says, âGo get a condom in my room, mmh?â
You nod, and you get up to walk towards his room, feeling his gaze burning on you as you pass the threshold and head to the night table. You pull a condom out, and you walk back to the living room to find Jungkook jerking himself off, his grip on his dick tight enough you know it has to hurt a little.
âPut it on for me,â he says, and he stops jerking off, holding his dick up for you.Â
You sit next to him, pulling the condom out of the tinfoil package, and then you roll it on his dick. He hisses as you do so, but the second itâs on he pushes you back until youâre lying on the couch and heâs hovering over you.Â
His hair falls in his eyes, and you quickly push the strands back. He leans in, pressing his lips on yours for a kiss far softer than what you expected, and you smile against him.
He grins when he pulls away, eyes shining with lust and adoration again, and then heâs taking off your pants, taking his sweet time. Kissing every inch of skin revealed, from your inner thigh to a spot below your knee. He stops after that, instead eyeing the wet spot on your underwear, and then he pulls at his piercings, sending you a dark look that makes you go molten.
âI want to fuck you in this,â he says as he finishes taking off your pants, his free hand going to your hip where he traces your underwear. âWant to ruin your panties.â
âDo it,â you challenge him.
He doesnât need to hear more before heâs returning over you, and his hand pushes your panties to the side so that he can run a finger between your folds, and then circle your clit. You grind your hips, seeking more friction, but Jungkook doesnât oblige, instead pulling his finger away from your pussy.
âBe patient,â he whispers, and then he kisses you again.
The kiss is feathersoft, gentle, and you lose yourself in the very essence of him. You donât care - you just want this moment, forever. A scene constantly replaying, away from the atrocity of the world, with your favourite song as the background music.
âPlease,â you beg in a soft murmur when he pulls away from your lips, and this time he obliges, returning his hand to your pussy. This time, he pushes in, and you sigh against him as your walls clench around his digit.
âYouâre already so wet,â he says, and then heâs kissing you again, his tongue lapping at yours.Â
You moan in his mouth, hands lightly scratching his back as he adds a second finger. You can hear squelching sounds between your legs, and youâd be embarrassed if it didnât feel so good that you canât form a single coherent thought.
âFuck,â you curse, and Jungkook chuckles, pecking your cheek.
âYou take my fingers so well, peach,â he praises. âWill you take my cock just as well?â
You moan again, and you nod your head yes. âYeah. Please.â
He smirks, pulling his fingers out of you. You both eye them - theyâre covered in your juices, and itâs decadent, sinful.
Even more so when Jungkook puts them in his mouth to clean them thoroughly, drinking in your juices.Â
âSo sweet,â he whispers after, and then he shifts, straightening between your legs so that he can align his dick with your entrance, your panties still pushed to the side. He meets your gaze, his own dark with lust. âHow do you want me tonight?â he asks, rubbing his dick on you slowly.
âJust fuck me, but come near,â you say, pulling on one of his wrists so that he leans over you again.Â
He smiles, infinitely soft despite what youâre doing, and then he pushes in, ever so slowly. Inch after inch, Jungkook spears you with his dick until he bottoms out. He stills there, and you wrap your legs around his dainty waist to keep him as close as possible. He obliges, stealing a deep kiss on your lips, and he slowly pulls out before slamming to the hilt again, and you moan in his mouth.
The rhythm he establishes is slow and steady. Deep, in a way that makes you see stars in his gaze. Or maybe thatâs just the way the light reflects in his eyes, or the emotions still swirling in the depths of him. You donât know. All that you know is that youâre falling and falling, with no chance to ever stop now.
Youâve crossed too many lines to ever be able to stop. So youâll enjoy it while it lasts. Chase all the cars around his head until you canât anymore, until the last nail is in the coffin and you have to say goodbye to this, to him.
But for now, you enjoy. And you enjoy as best as you can, eyes fluttering shut as he slightly picks up the pace, whispering sweet nothings in your ear. You hold him close, arms and legs tight around him, and you moan as he makes love to you.
At least thatâs what this feels like. And you wouldnât want it any other way. You just want the warm proximity of his body on yours, of his lips kissing your mouth. Jungkook gives you all, and you hope he knows youâre giving all to him in return.
Everything. Youâll give him everything until you have nothing left to give, if he so takes it.
âFuck, peach,â he whispers. He slows down his rhythm, meets your gaze. âIâm really in love with this pussy of yours.â
You know why he says it that way. Know exactly what he truly means but canât say, and you take that too, keep it locked up in a safe corner of your heart.
âI know,â you whisper, cupping his cheek, and he rests his forehead on yours again.
âIâll fuck you like this every day,â he says, and it sounds like a promise.
A promise that maybe youâll make it past your brotherâs return.
âPlease do,â you beg, and then youâre kissing again, and heâs pounding into you harder, seeking completion for the both of you.
You come before him. Nails digging in his back while you arch yours, walls pulsing around him. Thatâs what sends him over the edge, and Jungkook climaxes, his head falling in the crook of your neck as he comes and comes.
Heâd paint you white if it wasnât for the condom, and the thought makes you grind your hips instinctively. He kisses your neck in retaliation, and you moan softly, tilting your head to give him better access.
When youâve come down from the high, you glance towards the coffee table and your abandoned game of Ticket to Ride. The sight makes you laugh, and you press a soft kiss on the mole on Jungkookâs neck as he asks, âWhatâs got you laughing?â
âWe never finished the game,â you remind him.
He lifts his head just enough to look at the coffee table. âDamn,â he lets out. âI totally forgot about that.â
You canât blame him. When youâre together, you forget about everything, too - he becomes the center of your universe. And you wouldnât want it any other way.
âShould we finish it?â you ask.
He meets your gaze, pecks your forehead once. âShower first?â
You canât say no to those big doe eyes, so you follow him to the bathroom.
And while he washes your back, you hear the clock ticking, your expiration date looming closer with every second that passes.
Saturday, April 13th
The movie theatre is packed.Â
Youâre waiting in line for popcorn with Nabi, Namjoon and Ria, while Seokjin, Hoseok and Yoongi go to the bathroom. The hall of the movie theatre is loud, and youâve been standing in silence with your friends as you wait for your turn, though youâve been eyeing the menu as youâre trying to decide what to order.
You settle on a medium-sized bag of popcorn to share with Yoongi, and Namjoon and Ria grab different candies and chocolate bars for themselves and your other friends. Youâre walking towards your movie room when you notice an all-too recognizable tattooed boy, who stands taller than the group that surrounds him.
His eyes light up when he sees you, and he grins broadly as he waves at you.
Four pairs of eyes turn to look at you - Jimin, Sera, Lisa and Eunwoo - and you smile at them, though your gaze quickly shifts back to Jungkook.
Youâd told him you were coming to the movies with your friends before going out for drinks. Youâre not surprised heâs decided to pull up - despite everything youâve told him, heâs jealous of your friendship with Yoongi. Which you reckon is funny - Yoongi is trying to fix things with Hoseok, and all youâve been doing is offer help to him when he needs it.
You donât think the relationship is fixable, but you havenât had the strength to break it to Yoongi yet. Not when they had a moment last week, and heâs been far too happy about it since then.
You walk over to where Jungkookâs standing, your friends in tow. Itâs hard to stop yourself from hugging him, but you manage to do it, instead greeting everyone and smiling at Jimin as he asks what movie youâre going to see. Â
âDune 2,â you reply.Â
Jimin snorts, saying, âThought so.â
It sounds ominous, and you slightly furrow your brows, glancing towards Jungkook. He only shrugs his shoulders as he purses his lips.
And thatâs how you end up mixing friend groups for the movie. Youâre not surprised when Jungkook manages to sit on your left - heâs clearly been scheming for this all along. Yoongi, entirely oblivious, sits on your right.
âI havenât even seen the first movie,â Yoongi says as he leans towards you. He quickly glances further down the row, where Hoseok sat with Namjoon and Nabi.
Jungkook mirrors Yoongi, and heâs so close you catch a whiff of the detergent he uses to wash his clothes. âIt was practically a walking simulator in the desert. Not much to miss.â
Yoongi nods, sitting back in his seat. He offers you a knowing look, and then turns towards Seokjin and Ria on his other side, joining whatever conversation theyâre having. You purse your lips, before sliding your gaze back to Jungkook.
âWhat are you doing here?â you ask through gritted teeth.
âMy friends wanted to see the movie,â he says, shrugging his shoulders. âThought we could go at the same time.â
You look up to the ceiling, though a smile is playing at the corners of your lips. âWhat a coincidence.â
He grins. âWhat a coincidence indeed.â
It makes you chuckle, and before you can say anything else, the light of the movie theatre dims, leaving you in only the glow of the screen as it comes to life.
You eat your popcorn as many movie trailers pass on the screen, Yoongi taking some once in a while. The movie starts when youâre halfway done with the bag, and soon youâre lost in the scenes, too focused to eat.
Thatâs when Jungkook strikes, stealing a handful of popcorn from your bag.
âHey!â you whisper-shout, and he winks at you as he eats a mouthful of the snack.Â
âWhat?â he whispers back once heâs swallowed.
âThatâs mine.â
He flicks your nose, leaning closer to say directly in your ear, âWhatâs yours is mine, and whatâs mine is yours, peach.â
You narrow your gaze. âYou havenât even bought any snacks.â
He shrugs. âI knew Iâd steal yours.â
You roll your eyes, slightly shaking your head as you look back towards the screen, and he chuckles softly. Scenes flash in front of your eyes, and you get lost in the action. It might be an hour later, or just a few minutes, when Jungkook pokes your knee, attracting your attention.
You glance at him, but heâs focusing on the screen, his skin looking honey-like in the light. You furrow your brows in question, but when he doesnât say anything, you shrug, looking back at the screen.
He does it again thirty seconds later, and this time heâs stifling a laugh when you glance at him.
âWhat do you want?â you whisper as you lean closer to him.
âYou,â he replies simply, his eyes darkening as he meets your gaze.
You gulp. âWeâre in the middle of a movie theatre with all of our friends.â
âI know,â he says, shrugging. âIâve just been thinking of how you feel around myâŠâ
You punch his shoulder before he can finish his sentence, and Lisa throws you a look that makes you sit back in your seat, folding your arms on your chest.
âJust focus on the movie, Kook,â you mumble.
He chuckles again, but before he can say anything else, Lisa nudges him. He glances at her, leaning closer when she whispers something you canât quite hear.Â
His whole demeanour changes after that, and he sits back in his chair, a slight pout on his lips. Gone is the playfulness, but you think itâs safer that way. Heâs way too obvious when youâre in public, and though Taehyung still hasnât said a thing, you know itâs bound to explode in your face soon.
Jungkook is leaving for Paris in just a few weeks after all.Â
It douses you, and you finish watching the movie with a lump in your throat, one that doesnât disappear even when youâre at the bar later, your friend group mixing with Jungkookâs far too easily. Of course, Jungkook notices, and he sits next to you, nudging you.
You glance at him, noticing the concern in his eyes.
âIs something wrong?â he asks.
âNo,â you lie, but he sees through it immediately.
âIs it your cramps?â
Youâre on your period. Obviously, he knows, and heâs been sweet about it, buying you snacks and putting his hands, always warm, on your lower stomach while you cuddle.Â
You purse your lips, shaking your head. The concern doesnât disappear from his features though, and you feel bad. Enough so that you say, âIâm justâŠâ
You trail off as Lisa appears, sitting on the other side of Jungkook with two beers in hand. She gives one to Jungkook, who thanks her quickly before setting his gaze on you again. Yet she lingers, and you find yourself unable to speak, shrugging your shoulders.
âIf thereâs anything, just let me know,â Jungkook says, and he offers you a small smile that does nothing to tame the worry in his gaze. âI donât mind heading home earlier.â
You nod once, and the conversation dies as Hoseok appears on the other side of the table, cheeks red with the shots heâs already downed.
âNot drinking tonight?â he asks you.
You shrug. âNot really in the mood.â
Hoseok narrows his gaze in his suspicion. âIâve never seen you not in the mood to drink.â
You chuckle. âWell, now you have.â
Youâre relieved when he lets it go, especially as you sensed Jungkook tensing by your side, an indication that he was going to intervene if Hoseok didnât drop it. Thereâs a short silence, during which you notice Hoseok looking at Yoongi where heâs drinking with Namjoon and Seokjin, a few tables over.
You glance at Jungkook, motioning towards Hoseok. Jungkook frowns, not understanding, and you quickly pull out your phone to text him.
[10:37 pm] You: i want to talk to hobi about yoongi but not in front of you guys
Jungkook pulls out his phone to read your message. He doesnât reply, yet he nods, turning towards Lisa. âWhere are Sera and Jimin?â
âOrdering something at the bar,â Lisa replies, entirely unaware. âWhy?â
âWant shots?â
Lisa beams under Jungkookâs gaze, and you taste bile in your mouth as they get up and walk away together, Jungkook shooting you a quick glance over his shoulder.
You can complain all you want about Jungkook being jealous of Yoongi, but youâre just as jealous of Lisa after all.
âWhatâs up with you and Yoongi?â you ask when theyâre out of earshot, gaining Hoseokâs attention.
âManâŠâ he trails off. âI donât know. I donât know how I feel.â
âIs that why youâve decided to switch universities?âÂ
Youâve been asking yourself that question for weeks, but Hoseok has been good at avoiding you, clearly realizing that youâve grown closer to Yoongi.
Hoseok widens his gaze, and the blush on his cheeks deepens. âNo? I said itâs because Iâm following a professor.â
âWhat professor?â you ask, cocking an eyebrow.
Hoseok shrugs, his eyes dropping to a knot in the wood of the table. âWhy do you care?â
âYouâre my friend,â you remind him. âNo matter the history that we have. Iâd be sad to see you go.â
He chuckles, and itâs a lot more bitter than you ever expected to hear him. âListen, I donât really want to be questioned. Is Yoongi the one that asked you to ask me this?â
âNo,â you say. âNot at all. Iâm just worried about you.â
âAbout me?â he repeats. âIâm all good, Y/n.â
He doesnât sound convincing at all, so you say, âJust make sure you donât do something youâll regret.â
âI already did,â he admits, and his glance towards Yoongi is far too telling. âIâm not into him like that. I donât even know if Iâm into men like that.â
âHave you told him?âÂ
He shrugs. âHere and there. I think he knows.â
You think so too, as Yoongi had mentioned it when youâd studied together a few weeks ago.Â
âJust make sure youâre honest with him, and honest with yourself,â you say after a few beats of silence.
Hoseok purses his lips, nodding once. âWill do.â
The air turns awkward as Hoseok just keeps on staring at the knot in the wood. You feel bad - you used to be a lot closer to him, and in just a few weeks, your relationship shifted. But you think it might be for the better - you canât imagine how Jungkook would feel if you were close to someone you used to sleep with, considering heâs jealous of a friend youâve never done anything with.
Not that that would stop you from being friends with someone. Especially not when April 29th is coming soon, and with it, your situationship - youâre not sure you can call it a relationship - will end.Â
âWhere are you moving?â you ask.
âSan Diego,â he replies quickly, and a shy smile appears on his lips, like the thought excites him. âI canât wait to not have to deal with winter anymore.â
âI can imagine,â you say, chuckling. âThough winter wasnât too bad this year.â
âIf there was an inch of snow then it was bad.â He says it wisely, and this time you laugh as he breaks into a smile.
The conversation is easier after that. Still heavy, because you both know the friendship likely wonât survive the distance, but you still manage to have fun as you speak about classes, about life, and about what heâll do once heâs in California. Half an hour passes like that, and then you move to the bar, agreeing to grab a single drink.
You settle on an Amaretto Sour, and Ria and Nabi join you at the bar. You end up doing Lychee bombs with them, and then you follow them all back to the table where the rest of your friends are, along with Jimin, Sera and Jungkook.
Youâre relieved to see Lisa isnât there. Not that sheâs not nice. She always is, despite her obvious attraction towards Jungkook. And though she clearly senses that somethingâs happening between you and Jungkook, sheâs never said anything, and you respect her for it.
You sit between Nabi and Ria, and Nabi quickly melts against Namjoon next to her. You snort at the sight, turning to say it to Ria, who seems to be in a staring contest with Seokjin across the table.
You donât really know whatâs happening between the two. Ria mentioned that sheâs not interested in him, saying heâs just gotten out of a relatively long relationship, and youâre not close enough to Seokjin to know his opinion.
Youâre just observant, and you know just how much the air fills with electricity when these two are concerned. Lightning is bound to strike at some point, and you just hope it does so without hurting anyone.
You wonder, is that how the people around you perceive you and Jungkook?
The evening unfolds, calmer than your usual outings - you find yourself going home just a little after midnight. Jungkookâs with you, and he unlocks the door as you slowly walk up the stairs, shooting you a glance.
âYou sure everythingâs okay?â he asks as you finally reach the top.
You purse your lips, meeting his gaze. The streetlight down the stairs reflects in his gaze, and he looks angelic, innocent like this.
âYeah, Iâm justâŠâ you trail off. âYouâre leaving soon.â
His features soften, and he opens the door for you to walk in, following behind you. âI know,â he says once heâs shut the door.
You turn the lights on, meeting his gaze. Unable to help yourself, you cup his cheek, thumb swiping at his skin. âWant to share a bed tonight?â you ask.
As if you havenât been sharing a bed for weeks already.
âYes, of course,â he immediately agrees, and he covers your hand with his own, tugging you closer. âIf you kiss me first.â
That makes you smile, like only he knows to do, and you tiptoe, pressing your lips on his in a featherlike peck.
âThat doesnât count,â he complains, lips jutting out in a small pout.
âThen kiss me,â you challenge. âKiss me stupid.â
You donât need to ask twice - he closes the distance between your mouths, lips ravaging yours, and you lose your hands in his hair.
Later, after youâve sucked his dick in the shower - you donât like having sex on your period, but you still wanted to make him feel good - you lie down in your bed, the fairy lights making the atmosphere far gentler than it should be.
Itâs treacherous, and you lie with your head on Jungkookâs chest, listening to his steady heartbeat. Chasing Cars is playing on his speaker, and you hold him tighter, putting all of your love in the act. He kisses the top of your head, mouth lingering against you.
âIâm happy you came tonight,â you admit. Indeed, despite the anxiety of Taehyung learning, you like hanging out with Jungkook. Like spending as much time as possible with him right now - the clock is ticking after all, and the sound resembles that of a bomb about to go off.
âMe too,â he whispers.Â
You lift your head, meeting his gaze. âHave you talked to Taehyung recently?âÂ
The question takes him aback, and his eyebrows knit together. âI speak to him almost every day, why?â
Because youâve been avoiding your brother like the plague. Because you know the second you speak to Taehyung, youâll blurt out the truth, and youâre not ready to face his reaction yet.
You doubt youâll ever be ready.
âHow is he and the girl doing?â you ask. âAriane?â
âGood,â Jungkook answers. âTheyâre pretty much official now.â
Your lips stretch in a thin line, and you rest your head on his chest again.Â
You donât want him to see the jealousy in your gaze.
âGood for him.â It sounds just as flat as you feel - like a tire pierced with a nail, emptied of all air.
Jungkook must feel it too, because his grip around you tightens, like heâs trying to fuse your bodies together. As if itâd save you from the looming heartbreak.
âWeâll figure it out,â Jungkook whispers a while later, when you thought he was asleep.Â
You hope he doesnât take your silence personal - you just donât think you can figure it out.
Taehyung would never let it happen. So silence is what you offer Jungkook, and you wonder if the beat his heart skips is an indication that heâs breaking, much like you are breaking too.
Sunday, April 28thÂ
Time goes by fast. Sometimes, you think itâs even faster when youâre trying to hold on to something - like sand slipping through the fingers of a fist held tight, time has been slipping away.
The end is near.Â
Youâre sitting on Jungkookâs bed, watching him as he packs his suitcase. Heâs been lazy, stopping often so that he can kiss you, hold you. Heâs been clingy lately, much like youâve been.
Like youâve been trying to fit a whole relationship in just a few weeks.Â
Jungkook lifts his head from his sock drawer, meeting your gaze. He smiles, but thereâs sadness behind his pupils, lurking in the depths of his eyes. You want to take it away, but all you manage to do is smile a weak smile.
âI wonder if theyâll want to go to the Catacombs,â Jungkook says.
Heâs been saying random stuff once in a while as he packs, grasping for a conversation you havenât been able to join in. But you try, you always try, and you know heâs not mad at you for it.
Jungkook could never be mad at you.Â
Itâs strange how he changed in the last four months. You think back on the Incident, that dreaded Incident you had believed to be the most embarrassing thing in your life. Today, you know it wasnât. It was the start of something great, something you wish never had an expiration date.
But nothing gold can stay, or so they say.
âI bet theyâre creepy,â you answer. âNot sure Iâd go if I were you.â
âI assume youâre the kind of person who gets scared while watching horror movies too, huh?â Jungkook teases, and he walks towards you, hands full of socks.
He drops them in the suitcase at your feet as you slightly shake your head, a teasing smirk growing on your lips. You doubt it meets your eyes, but itâs the best you can do.
âSays you, who prefers watching romance over action,â you tease.
Indeed, the first few times youâve watched movies together, heâs suggested going for action first. But he never once appeared disappointed when you chose a romance movie, instead beaming at you as he nodded enthusiastically. It was adorable, endearing, like everything is when it comes to Jungkook.
You can hardly believe he used to sleep around, used to be the most renowned fuckboy in your college. Nowadays, Jungkook appears more like a hopeless romantic, and itâs easy to figure out why.
As someone who never received love from his family, heâs been craving it his whole life. At least you think so, and youâve been giving it to him, pouring it to him, by actions rather than words.
âNothing beats romance,â he declares, and you chuckle as he plops down on the bed next to you.
You turn your head towards him as he lies down, one hand on his chest.
âIs that why you cry in every movie?â
He frowns, a pout adorning his lips. âI donât.â
You cock an eyebrow, because obviously he does, and you both burst out laughing at the same time.Â
No matter how dreaded the circumstances are, the chemistry between you and Jeon Jungkook is undeniable. And as you look at him, you wonder if thereâs a universe out there where youâre allowed to be with him. Where older brothers arenât a thing, and where you get to call him yours, to scream it from the rooftops.
It douses your enthusiasm, and your smile falls as you look away.Â
Jungkook sits up, cupping your cheek to force you to look at him again. He scans your features for a few seconds, and you stare at his eyebrow piercing, as if that will keep you from crumbling.
âYou knowâŠâ he lets out. He sucks on his lower lip piercings, pulling at them so hard you think it has to hurt. âIâve been thinking.â
âYeah?â
He nods. âI really want to make us work.â
His simple sentence empties everything in your head, in your soul, until thereâs just him left.Â
âBut how?â
âIâll speak to Taehyung,â he says, for what has to be the thousandth time. Indeed, youâve had that conversation before, but you never once agreed. âIâll speak to him in Paris, and then when I come back this doesnât have to be over.â
âThis?â you repeat.
âUs.â
You sigh, and you look between his eyes. Hope lights his gaze, and you think there has to be a museum out there to exhibit such beauty.Â
Jungkook is breathtaking in every way that matters.
âTae will kill you,â you say, and the hope slowly withers like flowers in the fall. âTry to have a nice trip instead.â
âThen we can talk to him when I come back,â Jungkook suggests. âTogether. I can use you as a human shield if he tries to kill me.â
You snort, and the hope reignites in his gaze. âWhat if it doesnât work?â
âThen heâll be mad,â Jungkook simply states. âI donât want to lose you, peach.â
Fuck. Youâre in love, and youâre in love deep.
âYou might lose his friendship,â you say, but your resolve is melting away far quicker than you expected. Because heâs offering you a silver lining, a life vest in the storm thatâs been raging inside your head for weeks.
âI honestly donât care,â Jungkook says, but you see it in his eyes: he cares, and heâd be hurt. âIâm sure heâll get over it.â
You highly doubt so but⊠what if he does? What if he forgives Jungkook, forgives you?
Then you wouldnât need to travel to another universe. Youâd have this one, and youâd have Jungkook.
Maybe you should try.
âAre you sure?â you ask, voice smaller than the atoms holding your body together.
He nods vehemently. âI am. 100%. I donât want to lose you when weâve barely just started.â
âKookâŠâ
He kisses you then, as if he needs to show you with action instead of words. You end up tangled in his bed, your bodies connected on a level deeper than the physical, yet you wouldnât dare say it. And he doesnât either, not even when you inevitably go to bed later that evening.Â
Youâre nestled in his embrace, a few minutes after heâs turned his LED lights off, when you say, âKook?â
âMmh?â
âDonât talk to Tae in Paris,â you say. âWeâll wait for you to come back. And weâll talk to him together.â
âOkay,â he whispers. âOkay. If thatâs your wish, then I can do it.â Heâd said so earlier after all.
You nod. âI think itâs better if it comes from us both instead of just you.â
âMakes sense.â Jungkook kisses your forehead, and a soft smile spreads on your lips. âAnd peach?â
âYeah?â you murmur.
âIf you miss me too much, feel free to sleep in my bed and wear my clothes, okay?â
âOkay.â
He kisses your forehead again, and despite the words exchanged, you fear it might mean goodbye.
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no but why did I forget how sad this chapter was? Help, they are so afraid to lose each other :') anywayyys what did you guys think about this chapter? Did you like it?? Please let me know:)
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Reader has a small child and they need to step out for a while so they ask Blacksmith to babysit??
(It's Reader's niece, but that's close enough to a child of their own)
Dressing yourself for work, a car pulls up outside your house as you slip on your shoes, heading for the front door. That's funny- You didn't ask anyone for a ride...
"Oh, crap!"
Lights flicker and walls quake as thunderous footsteps channel through your living room. You scramble to catch a snow globe gifted to you by your boss as a shadow appears in the doorway.
"My lord? I ask of your forgiveness for disobeying your direct order to stay inside your bedroom- You sound troubled which left me no choice but to disobey. Shall I take care of the threat for you?"
You fling yourself in front of the front door as the Blacksmith marches towards it, hand firmly latched to the dagger strapped to their belt.
"NO!..." Sucking air through your teeth, you reiterate. "No, it's nothing like that. I forgot I'm supposed to babysit my niece today... Do you think you can watch her? I can't miss another day of work...
"Since the child needs supervision I assume they are a little one, correct?" The Blacksmith runs the tips of its fingers down the length of his iron mask. "I would move mountains for you, My Lord, however I must express my concerns with my...appearance. I would hate to frighten a child. Especially one close to you."
Unlocking the front door, you wave off their insecurities. "Nah, she'll love you! That girl's braver than me sometimes. You should've seen her on her first Halloween. Just wait here and I'll go grab her."
Stepping outside, the high pitched squeals of your niece are the first sounds to greet you as you walk over to your siblings car. She squirms in her car seat, making grabs for you as you chat with your siblings before turning your attention to her - unbuckling the straps of her seat.
"There's somebody I'd like you to meet today. Keep this a secret between us, okay?"
Your niece giggles as you pick her up, waving goodbye to her parent as you carry her back inside your house.
"Blacksmith, this is my niece. She already has breakfast so she shouldn't get hungry before I get back, but if she does there's some snacks in the pantry."
The instance your niece lays eyes on your housemate you're suddenly no longer her favorite person. The Blacksmith looks to you, eyes glimmering with unease through the slits of his mask as the child reaches out for them.
"Go on. She's harmless."
The Blacksmith, is not, yet they approach the child with the same delicate nature one might have when aiding a small kitten. The combination of the innocence of youth and this child being a member of your bloodline sanctifies her place as royalty in his eyes.
The two gaze at each other for what feels like eons, the jiggle of your house keys breaking the unusual moment of silence.
"See? You guys are getting along already! I'll be back before you know it- Oh, and Blacksmith? Keep my niece away from all the medieval torture devices and weapons you have shoved in my closet."
The Blacksmith feigns ignorance as he takes one of your niece's tiny hands in theirs. "I haven't the slightest idea what they are talking about. Since I am forbidden from giving you a dagger of your own, what say we get you some of those "snacks" your relative spoke of?"
Your niece seems to agree with that idea greatly- clapping along as the Blacksmith turns towards the kitchen.
"Well... Aren't you just a ray of sunshine? It would be a blessing to have a little one like you around permanently. I wonder if my lord would be open to the thought of us having a few."
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hii could you please write a young coriolanus x reader arranged marriage trope thank you
⌠plinth legacy (Coriolanus Snow) âŒ
warnings;Â swearing, death mention, blood mention, some grief.
wc;Â 7.7k
notes; made the reader sejanus's sister for angst reasons :)
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Coriolanus Snow.
A name, much less a person, you had never thought would constantly be on your mind. He wasnât before. In fact, most days you wouldnât glance his way twice, unless you had to. He was just another face at the Academy, a friend of your brother, Sejanus. Which, by association, made him a friend of yours. Or, at the very least, acquaintances.
It wasnât that you didnât like him, or that he was unbearable to have a conversation with. Actually, his presence was nice, on the occasions that you were around him for longer than a few minutes at a time. He was polite, and always seemed genuinely interested in what you had to say, even if heâd heard it all before from Sejanus.
You started to see more of Coriolanus when they became mentors for the tributes in the districts. You werenât eligible to participate, and it wasnât due to grades, but because youâre a year younger than your brother. This didnât stop him from pulling you to see the tributes in the zoo when the opportunity first struck.
Ma had warned you two to be careful, after what she had seen happen with Coriolanus getting stuck inside. Still, she happily made the sandwiches when Sejanus requested it, and even made extra after he told her what his plan was. He wanted to give them to the tributes inside of the cage, he had a feeling they were hungry, and he was right.
Sejanus couldnât get them to approach the bars, no matter what he said, or how hard he tried. A few times, youâd tried yourself, attention focused on one person in particular, who was on the far side of the cage, refusing to look your guysâ way.Â
Your fingers curled around the cold steel, leaning into it. âMarcus.â You breathed, a smile on your face. âPlease, we want to help.â His eyes found you, standing above where Sejanus was crouched. âItâs just a sandwich.â
He didnât budge, of course. Sejanus took a glance behind the two of you, getting to his feet. The sandwich lowering in one hand, as he waved someone over with the other. When you looked, you found Coriolanus coming through the crowd, blonde curls bouncing with each step.Â
When he caught your eye, he gave you a smile. âTrouble?â
âNone of them trust us. And why should they?â Sejanus asked.
âUs?â Coriolanus echoed.
âIâve been trying, too. But not as broadly.â You shook your head.
A girl had marched up next to the three of you to point to a sign on a pillar next to the enclosure. âIt says, âPlease donât feed the animals.ââÂ
âTheyâre not animals, though,â Sejanus told her. âTheyâre kids, like you and me.â
âTheyâre not like me! Theyâre district. Thatâs why they belong in a cage!â She shouted.
Sejanus sighed. âOnce again, like me.â He then looked at Coriolanus. âCoriolanus, do you think you could get your tribute to come over? If she does, the others might. They have to be starving.â
He hesitated, looking through the bars to find his tribute. He took a moment to think, debate whether or not he should. All he needed was a little push to convince him, so you leaned forward, over Sejanus, to place a hand on his arm.
âPlease?â The word was sweet, more than you had intended it to be. His eyes moved to you, instead. âDo you have any ideas?â
He took in a breath, âI canât just treat her like itâs feeding time at the zoo,â He was shaking his head. âNot mine. But I could offer her dinner. Maybe theyâll join after that.â
Sejanus nodded, you removed your hand, giving him a smile. Your brother opened up the backpack for Coriolanus to see the amount of sandwiches and fresh plums that were inside, waiting. âTake whatever. Ma made extra. Please.â
Coriolanus took two sandwiches and two plums, and then moved away to a more private spot, where he sat down on a flat rock. His tribute went up to him to join, and they spoke briefly. She took a bite out of one of the sandwiches, a smile appearing on her face.Â
The other tributes had moved forward, seemingly gauging her reaction to make sure that it was good. When she swallowed her bite, she turned her head to them. âYou all should get one. Theyâre real good!â She waved her district friend forward. âGo on, Jessup!â
Jessup took his time approaching the fence, black hair sticking to his forehead from the heat. Sejanus wordlessly handed him a sandwich, and a healthy plum. As soon as Jessup had returned to where heâd been before, the other tributes rushed forward.
You stole a sandwich and a plum, holding them to your chest, eyes on Marcus, as he refused to come forward. A dozen hands stuck themselves through the bars, and your brother struggled to fill them quickly. Within the minute, the food was gone, everyone had gotten one.Â
Except for Marcus.Â
He had his arms crossed over his chest, face hard. Sejanus pulled a sandwich out of the very bottom of the bag, unaware that the food you were holding was for Marcus, and not for yourself.
âMarcus, this is for you. Take it. Please.â Sejanus said, leaning out as far as he could. âPlease, Marcus.â He pleaded. âYou must be starving.â
You watched with a sinking heart as Marcus looked Sejanus up and down, and then turned his back to the both of you. One of the other, smaller, boy tributes took the opportunity and ran forward to claim the sandwich, snatching it from Sejanusâs hand.Â
The news crew showed up after that, pushing a camera into his face. Your brother wasnât having it, slinging the empty backpack over his shoulder. He held his elbow out for you, so he could escort you through the crowd better.
âIâm going to talk to Marcus.â You told him. âI donât want him to go hungry.â
âMa will be upset that I left you here.â Sejanus said, âShe told me to watch you.â
âYou wouldnât be leaving me. I have Coryo.â You motioned to Coriolanus, who was in his own world with his tribute. You cleared your throat, getting his attention. âSejanus is going to leave, you wouldnât mind keeping an eye on me, would you?â
Coriolanus nodded, smiling, âOf course not, whyâd you even ask?â
Sejanus was satisfied, lowering his elbow. âIâll see you at home.â
âTell Ma I wonât be too late.â You said, watching him weave through the crowd to leave.
And then you turned back to the cage, eyes on Marcus in the corner. He was stiff, unmoving in the corner for another few long minutes. Which was probably done to ensure that you two had left.Â
When he decided that enough time had passed, he took his time turning around. The first place he looked was in your direction to confirm the coast was clear.
You were certain he was going to shut you out at the sight of you, but he didnât. He stayed where he was, and so did you. You waited for him to relax, even if it was a little bit, before you bothered to hold up the sandwich and the plum youâd been holding to your chest. The food that youâd been protecting for him.
His face twisted, you stared, drawing in a breath. âMa made it. I donât want you to go hungry, Marcus.â
Marcus deliberated, eyes wandering from yours, and then heâd pushed himself off of the wall. You crouched, so that he wouldnât have to come up the dry moat if he didnât want to. He took his time, drawing attention to himself.Â
If he had any respect from the other tributes for abstaining, it had crumbled like his resolve.Â
Marcus stopped at the bottom of the moat, you held out the sandwich and the plum for him. âWeâre so sorry youâre here, Marcus. We never couldâve imagined itâd come to this.â He didnât move, watching you.Â
And then all of a sudden he did.
His hands closed around your wrists, yanking you forward. You barely turned your head in time to keep your nose from slamming into the bars, eyes wide, trying to pull back. He had a tight grip on you, squeezing hard enough for you to feel the blood beginning to build in your fingers.
âYou arenât.â He said, voice hard.
âMarcusâŠâ You wiggled, âMarcus, youâre hurting me.â
He tried to pull you in closer, forcing you to press into the bars of the enclosure. âThis is what you get, (Y/n). This is what happens when you treat people like animals.â
âBut this isnât my fault!â You shouted, panic settling in. âLet go of me!â
âYouâre the one that moved to the Capitol. You didnât stay in District Two. Youâre just as bad as they are.â
âLet go!â You cried, tears in your eyes.
âGet off of her.â A hard voice demanded, a hand shot in front of you to make a grab at Marcus.
Coriolanus was angry, an emotion that you hadnât seen him wear before. He was always so cool and collected, there wasnât a lot that could get him riled up. If it did, he would excuse himself, to keep from tarnishing his perfect reputation.
A stern crease was between his eyebrows as he got his hand around one of Marcusâs forearms, bringing him forward with one solid pull.Â
âI said, get off of her.â His voice was low.
âOr what?â Marcus asked.
âOr Iâll make you wish you never met her.âÂ
Marcus listened, never taking his eyes off of Coriolanus, as if he could jump through the narrow bars to strangle him. His hands released, and you let go of the sandwich and the plum in the process. You caught yourself on the bars before you could fall completely, standing up swiftly, brushing dust off your skirt.
Coriolanus reached for you, and you held onto the red sleeve of his Academy uniform, breathing heavily. You shook your head at Marcus, heart beating in your chest. âJust because weâre here now, doesnât mean weâve changed, unlike you.â
The evening was ruined, but the zoo was closing anyway. Coriolanus let you hang onto his elbow, as he began to lead you out while blocking the cameras from bombarding you. You didnât make it very far before you saw Sejanus, sitting behind a boulder. And even though you couldâve let go of Coriolanus, you didnât.
You were upset, for multiple reasons. Your intentions were completely different from what Marcus assumed. You werenât there to save face with District Two, you were there to help him. And even worse, you were mad at Sejanus for dragging you along in the first place.
It was the last time you went to see Marcus with Sejanus, but it was the first time Coriolanus kept you up at night. It was the way he had stepped in, how he reached for you first, instead of waiting to see if you wanted his comfort. It stuck out in your mind, and then it didnât.
When your mom saw the bruises on your wrists the following day, she told you that you were done. Sejanus would have to do the mentoring on his own. This doesnât mean that you heard about it any less. You probably heard about it more, getting every detail without ever having to ask, because Sejanus offered it up.
You didnât see Coriolanus for a few days after that, despite the fact that you wanted to thank him. You were too invested in schoolwork, while also trying to come up with ideas for Sejanus to use with Marcus, because he wanted to make things right between them.
When you did see him next, it was the day of Arachne Craneâs funeral. The whole school had gathered on the front steps of the Academy. The groups were divided neatly and alphabetically by class, but Coriolanus wasnât. He was in the front row, sitting alongside important individuals, namely President Ravenstill.
You had no idea why, until the Academy clock struck nine, and the entire crowd fell silent. Thatâs when he rose from his seat and walked to the podium, where he sang the anthem. The president then gave a speech about Arachne, how her life didnât deserve to be taken when all the Capitol is doing is striving for peace.
You bit your tongue, hard. If they wanted peace, they should treat those in the districts together. Youâd heard about what happened to Arachne, what she did to her tribute. She was teasing a starving girl, and while you donât agree that taking a life is the right form of payback, you canât blame the tribute.
The funeral procession came around the corner, following the drumming. At first, it was all peacekeepers from the honor guard. The crane was next, attached to a flatbed. And dangling from the hook, with bullets in her dead body, was the district girl. Below, shackled to the truck bed, were the twenty-three other tributes, filthy with their heads down.
You were sick, struggling to breathe, as you imagined the amount of pain they had to be in. As you pictured yourself hanging from that hook, or chained to a truck that you couldnât even stand on. The rest of the funeral was a blur, as the truck disappeared.
Still, you went to find Coriolanus, ignoring your own brother to do so. He was standing near the podium, talking to Dean Highbottom, but as soon as he left, you slid in.
âYou sounded amazing.â You said, Coriolanus turned to you with raised eyebrows. When he saw your face, he gave you a smile. âI wish I sounded half as good.â
âIâm sure you do.â He said, hand on your shoulder. âI havenât seen you in a couple of days, is everything okay?â
âMa told me Iâm not allowed to help anymore, she saw the bruises.â You said, âIâm fine, though.â
âHe left bruises?â That crease between his eyebrows returned.
âHe was mad. I would be too.â You muttered. âThey got dumped into a zoo, literally. You were there. How did it feel?â
His face contorted, âWrong, but that doesnât excuse his behavior.â
âYouâre right.â You sighed. âI never got to properly thank you for stepping in. I think he wouldâve let go eventually, butââ
âYou donât need to thank me, (Y/n).â He interrupted, watching as you reached into your backpack.
âI do, actually.â You pulled out a neat plate of bread pudding that had been sitting flat on the bottom of your bag. When you looked up, you saw his parted lips. âYou canât ask how I know, but I heard that you really like bread pudding. I made enough for you and Tigris, or even if you wanted to share it with Lucy Gray.â
âYou bake.â He said.
âOn occasion. If you have any requests, Iâll be more than happy to make it for you.â You nodded.
He gave you a smile. âThank you, (Y/n), but I donât think I could ever ask that of you.â
âPlease, donât hesitate.â You told him. âIâll see you around.â
Youâd expected to see Coriolanus in the hallways next in passing, not the hospital later that evening. The mentors had gone to the arena with the tributes to do televised interviews, when rebels set off several bombs, killing multiple people. Both of the tributes from Six were killed, as well as the Ring twinsâDiana and Apollo. While three mentors had been injured, that being Coriolanus, Androcles Anderson and Gauis Breen. The latter one lost both of his legs.
And of course, with the exit being wide open, four tributes went running for it. The tributes from One were dead before they stepped foot out the door, while the girl from Two had made it to the river. She made it over the wall, but died in the fall. While Marcus⊠he disappeared completely.
Sejanus was, thankfully, uninjured. The Academy canceled classes, so he came straight home. He didnât really speak until the following day, when he suggested for the two of you to visit Coryo in the hospital. Youâd agreed, because leaving your brother alone while he was that upset didnât seem right.
Ma made more meat loaf sandwiches, because Coriolanus seemed to like them so much. When you visited him, he sat up in the hospital bed. Sejanus set Coryoâs book bag down on a table, while you took a seat. Together, the three of you enjoyed the sandwiches, while talking about anything but Marcus.
When you were done, you wished for him to get well soon. It would be the second time that heâd stay on your mind, this time lasting longer. You didnât like that he was hurt, especially when he didnât deserve to be. The war was between the districts and the government, not the people in-between that were being forced to help.
It didnât seem to bother Coriolanus, though. He kept fighting for his tribute, and you tried to pry him from your mind. It was easier to do when the Games did finally come around, especially that first day. When the cameras started with a wide shot of the arena as a whole, and the fourteen tributes that stood in a circle around the center.
Then the camera changed, as it slowly zoomed in on twin steel poles, twenty feet high with a crossbeam. And at the center, Marcus hung from shackles at his wrists, beaten bloody, face swollen. When he moved his lips, it showed his broken teeth.
You raised to your feet the same time that Sejanus had. He was standing a few feet in front of you, next to Coriolanus, who was watching him carefully. The only reason why you were allowed to be in the hall was because you were there to support your brother, and you quickly understood why.
Sejanus rushed forward, grabbed an empty chair, and hurled it at the screen, where Marcusâs mangled face was. âMonsters!â He screamed. âYouâre all monsters here!â
You watched in silence as he left the hall, leaving you there. No one had moved after him, and you were too stunned for a minute to chase after him. Coriolanus turned in his chair, where he saw you grabbing at your wrists, where the bruises were just healing.
â(Y/n)--â He was worried, shaking his head.
âHeâs right.â You breathed, backing up toward the door. âWhat have we done?â
âMiss Plinth,â A hand had grabbed you.
You jerked away, eyes wild, lips parted. It was Dean Highbottom, and there was a warning on his face, telling you not to cause a scene. You didnât want to be like your brother. Except, it was too late for him to step in, because the two of you were already too similar. Born from the same tree branch that split into two.
âGet away from me.â The words were harsh, âDonât touch me.â
He let you go, as you followed after Sejanus. He wasnât too far, just down the hall, where he was heaving heavy breaths, hands in fists at his sides. The look he gave you couldâve killed anyone, but his expression softened when he realized it was you.
You hugged him, standing there for what felt like forever. Marcus ended up dying later that afternoon by another tribute, presumably a mercy killing. Sejanus encouraged you to go home, telling you that heâd be right behind you in a few hours. You listened, told Ma that Sejanus was upset and that was it.
Well, thatâs what you thought, at least. He didnât come home that night, and as it got later, Ma was getting more worried. She asked you if you had any ideas where he couldâve gone, and you told her no. All you could do was suggest Coriolanus, because they were close, and Coryo seemed to care.
Ma took you to the Snow penthouse, where Tigris opened the door, dressed in a nice lavender dress. With Ma in hysterics, you explained the situation, and she invited you inside to sit in the living room. Tigris made tea, while her grandmother took a seat in a chair nearby. On the television was the arena, but it was too dark to see anything, even with the moonlight.
Tigris poured jasmine tea into cups on the table, while your mom tried to clean herself up with the handkerchief. âYouâre such nice people. Iâm so sorry to have dropped in on you like this.â
âAny friend of Coriolanus is a friend of us all.â His grandmother said. âPlinch, did you say?â
Your eyebrows twitched, Ma didnât skip a beat. âPlinth. Itâs Plinth.â
âYou know, Grandmâam, she sent the lovely casserole when Coriolanus was injured.â Tigris said to remind her.
âIâm sorry. Itâs too late.â Ma sniffed.
âPlease donât apologize. You did exactly the right thing.â Tigris patted her shoulder, looking up. Her eyebrows raised suddenly. âOh, hereâs my cousin now! Perhaps he knows something.â
You turned, finding Coriolanus gently shutting the door behind him. He gave you a gentle smile, but when you didnât reciprocate, it dropped slightly. âMrs. Plinth, (Y/n), what an unexpected pleasure. Is everything all right?â He asked, coming closer.
âOh, Coriolanus. It isnât. Not at all. Sejanus hasnât come home. (Y/n) said he left the Academy this morning, and I havenât seen him since. Iâm so worried." She said. âWhere can he be? I know Marcus being like that hit himââ She placed a hand on your knee, hand squeezing. âThem hard. Do you know? Do you know where he could be?â
âHe was upset, maâam. BUt I donât know that itâs any cause for worry. He probably just needed to blow off some steam. Took a long walk or something. Iâd do the same thing myself.â He tried to ease her.
âBut itâs so late. It isnât like him to up and disappear, not without letting his ma know.â
âIs there anywhere you can think of he might go? Or somebody he might visit?â Tigris asked.
Ma shook her head. âNo. No. Your cousinâs his only friend.â
Coriolanus looked at you, where you hand your palms on your lap. âYou know, if heâd wanted company, I think heâd have come to me first. You can see how he might have needed some time alone to⊠to make sense of all this. Iâm sure heâs all right. Otherwise youâd have heard of it.â
âDid you check with the Peacekeepers?â Tigris asked.
Ma nodded. âNo sign of him.â
âYou see?â Coriolanus asked. âThereâs been no trouble. Maybe heâs even home by now.â
âPerhaps you should go and check.â Their grandmother suggested.
Tigris gave her a look. âOr you could just call.â
Ma shook her head. âNo. Your grandmaâs right. Home is the place we should be. And I should let you all get to bed.â
âCoriolanus will walk you.â Tigris said.
âOf course.â Coriolanus nodded, you got to your feet.
âMy carâs waiting down the block.â Ma told them, getting up as well. She smoothed down her hair. âThank you. Youâve all been so kind. Thank you.â She reached back to grab her handbag, you looked away from Coriolanus to the television, where you stopped.
There, on the screen, a shadowy figure came out the barricade. The moonlight catering the side of his face, the features eerily familiar. He was carrying something in his hands, as he crossed the arena to Marcusâs corpse, where he stopped. Above laid a sleeping girl, the tribute that had killed your friend to keep him from suffering.Â
âShall I walk you to your car?â Coriolanus asked, Ma had begun toward him. âI bet youâll find Sejanus in bed.â
âNo.â The word was a whisper out of your mouth. âNo, Coryo.â Heâd turned his attention to you, mouth opening to speak, when you did it first. âSejanus is in there.â
Coriolanus came closer, passing Ma. You reached out to grab him, hand on his shoulder. Sejanus knelt down, and tried his best to arrange Marcus in an appropriate manner. He rolled Marcus on his back, straightened his legs and tried to fold his arms over his chest. And then he stood up and held his hand out over Marcusâs body.
You couldnât help the tears that sprung into your eyes.
âThatâs your son in there? Whatâs he doing?â Asked their grandmother.
âHeâs putting bread crumbs on the body.â You murmured, lips trembling. âSo Marcus has food on his journey.â
âHis journey where? Heâs dead!â
âBack to wherever he came from.â Ma told them. âItâs what we do, back home. When someone dies.â
You swallowed thickly, a tear running down your face. A handkerchief materialized out of Coriolanusâs pocket, he passed it to you. âThank you, Coryo.â
The phone rang a moment later. âIs the whole city up?â Their grandmother sighed.
âExcuse me.â Coriolanus said, holding your gaze for a moment, as he walked away. He turned his body away to speak.
You wiped your eyes with the handkerchief, and then folded it neatly to place back on the coffee table. You needed to leave, to go to Sejanus. Why hadnât he mentioned this to you? Was it because he knew it was a stupid idea?
When Coriolanus came away from the phone, he sighed. âThat was the Head Gamemaker. Sheâd like you to meet her at the arena to collect Sejanus, and Iâm to accompany the both of you.â
âIs he in trouble?â Ma asked, eyes wide. âWith the Capitol?â
âOh, no. Theyâre just concerned with his well-being. Shouldnât be long, but donât wait up.â He told his family.Â
The three of you shuffled out of the apartment after that, going down the elevator and through the lobby. Your parentsâ car rolled up silently, and the three of you got inside, with Coriolanus requesting the arena. The Avox nodded, nad began to drive down the streets in a hurry.
âFirst time we saw the Capitol, it was night, like this.â Ma spoke quietly.
âOh, yes?â Coriolanus asked, looking at you.
âSejanus sat right where you are, saying, âItâll be all right, Ma. Itâll be okay.â Trying to calm me down. When we all knew it was a disaster,â Ma looked out the window. âBut he was so brave. So good. Only thinking of his ma.â
âHm. Must have been a big change.â Coriolanus said.
âFamily and friends cut us off.â You told him, adjusting in your seat.
âNo new ones to be made here. Straboâtheir pa, that isâstill thinks it was the right thing to do. No kind of future in Two. His way of protecting us. His way of keeping Sejanus and (Y/n) from the Games.â
âIronic, really. Given the circumstances.â Coriolanus said. âNow, I donât know what Dr. Gaul has in mind, but I imagine she wants your help getting him out of there.â
âI donât know if I can. Him so upset and all. I can try, but heâll have to think itâs the right thing to do.â She said, glancing at you. âI canât let you go inside. You two have always been close, but I donât want you in there.â
âI donât want her to go inside, either.â Coriolanus chimed in. âMaybe there will be a different way.â
When you got to the arena, there were people already waiting outside of the doors. A dozen Peacekeepers, a good handful of Gamemakers, including Dr. Gaul. You approached tentatively, unsure about her presence. She didnât always come off stable, thatâs why you tried to keep your distance.Â
Coriolanus noticed this, choosing to stand between you two.
âAt least youâre punctual.â Dr. Gaul said. âMrs. Plinth, I presume? And little (Y/n).â
You pressed your lips together. Ma nodded, âYes, yes. Iâm sorry if Sejanus has caused any inconvenience. Heâs a good boy, really, Itâs just he takes things so to heart.â
âNo one could accuse him of being indifferent.â She agreed, looking at Coriolanus. âAny idea how we might rescue your best friend, Mr. Snow?â
âWhatâs he doing?â Coriolanus asked, ignoring the comment.
âJust kneeling there, looks like.â Dean Highbottom said, eyeing you. âPossibly in some kind of shock.â
âHe appears calm. Perhaps you could send the Peacekeepers in now without startling him?â Coriolanus suggested.
âToo risky.â Dr. Gaul shot it down.
âWhat about putting his mother on a speaker, or a bullhorn?â He asked. âIf you can darken the screen, surely you can manipulate the audio as well.â
âOn the broadcast. But in the arena, weâd alert every tribute to the fact that thereâs an unarmed Capitol boy in their midst.â Dean Highbottom said.
Coriolanus didnât speak for a second. âWhat do you propose?â
âWe think someone he knows needs to slip in as unobtrusively as possible and coax him out.â Dr. Gaul looked directly at you. âNamely, her.â
âNo.â Coriolanus said immediately, shaking his head so hard that his blonde curls started to bounce. âShe canât go in there. I will.â
âOh, no!â Ma cried. âIt canât be Coriolanus. The last thing we need is to put another child in danger. Iâll do it.â
âWhat we need is someone who can make a run for it, if necessary. If your daughter wonât, then Mr. Snow is the man for the job.â Dr. Gaul motioned to the Peacekeepers, who came over at her motion to dress him in body armor. âThis vest should protect your vital organs. Hereâs your pepper spray and a flash unit that will temporarily blind your enemies, should you make any.â
Coriolanus looked down at the bottle of pepper spray. âWhat about a gun? Or at least a knife?â
âSince youâre not trained, this seems safer. Remember, youâre not in there to do damage; youâre in there to bring your friend out as quickly and quietly as possible.â Dr. Gaul told him.
You started to shake your head, âCoryo, I canât ask you to do this.â
âYou arenât asking.â He looked at you. âIâm volunteering.â
âHeâs just a boy. Let me call my husband.â Ma begged.
Dean Highbottom gave Coriolanus a small smile. âHeâll be all right. It takes a lot to kill a Snow.â
You watched as Coriolanusâs face dropped, he sighed. And then he looked at you. âIâll bring Sejanus out. Donât worry.â
âBe careful.â You told him.
The Peacekeepers took him to the arena, where he disappeared inside. Your attention shifted to the news truck with the live feed of the tributes. It was dark though, too dark. You could barely make out anything, meaning you might as well had not been looking at all.
You were able to make out their figures, as Coriolanus slowly approached Sejanus to not scare him. They stood there, the minutes dragging on for what felt like forever, until they finally made the movement to leave, but not without Marcusâs body. They picked it up, made it a good deal across the arena before the other tributes came up to them. Less than a minute later, they came out.
And you were there in an instant, because you refused to leave without seeing either of the boys, while Ma went home. You had to push past the Peacekeepers to see Coriolanus and Sejanus, sitting on the tile. You crouched in front of them, hands on your knees.
âThat was stupid of you, Sejanus.â You told your brother, looking at the blood pooling on the ground. âBut you did what I couldnât do.â
And then you looked at Coriolanus, who had his eyes on you already. You could see the scrapes on his face, his chin mostly, and the blood on his forehead. You reached out, he winced, but let you touch the area around the wounds.
âThank you, Coryo.â You whispered.
His eyebrows furrowed. âOf course, (Y/n).â
From then on, seeing Coriolanus for longer than a few minutes at a time was rare. You looked forward to it each time. You saw him when Sejanus announced the Plinth prize, the sparkle in his eye at the mention of it.
He stopped by a couple days later, after Sejanus had gone to bed and Ma was cooking in the kitchen. You think he wanted to talk to Sejanus, possibly about the whole ordeal in the arena, but he had taken his sleeping medication. With the dosage he was on, there was no waking him.
You were sitting at the kitchen counter, swiveling side to side on the stool, talking to Ma as she baked her pies. You were about to go to bed, dressed in your pajamas, the only reason why you hadnât was because you were waiting for her to put the peach pie in the oven first. At the sight of Coriolanus, the cuts on his face, and the smile on his lips, youâd clammed up.
âI was just heading off to bed.â You said to him, sliding from the chair.
âAre you sure you donât want to stay for a piece of pie, (Y/n)?â Ma asked you, worry on her face.
âIâll have a piece tomorrow.â You told her. âBesides, I think Coryo will have a piece big enough for the both of us, isnât that right?â You smiled.
He nodded. âSure.â
âGoodnight.â You murmured, pausing long enough to let Ma kiss your forehead. You waved to Coriolanus, and then disappeared around the corner, where curiosity stopped you.Â
Except, what they talked about while he enjoyed the blackberry pie wasnât important, just about Sejanus and how the university would be better when he graduated. The real talk came after, when Pa wanted to see him. And Coriolanus went inside, closing the door behind him, which you then pressed your ear to.
âYou look just like your father.â
âI hear that a lot,â Coriolanus said. âDid you know him?â
âOur business overlapped at times.â Pa said. âItâs striking, the resemblance. But youâre nothing like him, really.â He paused for a moment. âNothing at all. Or youâd never have gone into that arena after my son. Impossible to imagine Crassus Snow risking his life for me. I keep asking myself why you did it.â
âI couldnât let (Y/n) go inside. And heâs my friend.â
âNo matter how many times I hear that, itâs difficult to believe. But even from the beginning, Sejanus singled you out. Maybe you take after your mother, huh? She was always gracious to me when I came here on business before the war. Despite my background. The very definition of a lady. Never forget it.â Pa said, there was another pause. âAre you like your mother?â
Coriolanus didnât speak right away. âIâd like to think I am, in some respects.â
âIn what respects?â
âWell, we shared a fondness for music.â
âMusic, huh?â
âAnd I do think we both believed that good fortune was⊠something to be repaid⊠on a daily basis. Not taken for granted.â Coriolanus said.
âIâd agree with that.â
âOh, good. Yes, well, so⊠Sejanus.â
âSejanus. Thank you, by the way, for saving his life.â
âNo thanks necessary. As I said, heâs my friend.â
âAnd (Y/n), is she your friend too?â Pa asked.
âYes, she is.â
âShe tells me that youâve done a lot for her lately.â Pa said slowly. âYou helped her at the zoo?â
âThat was nothing.â
âI wouldnât consider it so. She couldâve gotten seriously hurt if you hadnât stepped in. You saw the bruises.â He said. âYouâve checked up with her since. And volunteered to keep her safe when Dr. Gaul suggested that she should go inside of the arena.â
âWellââ
âCoriolanus, in District Two, there are traditions we have for families like ours.â Pa said, your eyebrows drew together. âWealthy families, I mean. Iâm not sure if the Capitol has the same beliefs.â
âIâm sorry, Iâm not following.â Coriolanus said.
âArranged marriage.âÂ
You felt your blood run cold, but at the same time, the heat flamed in your face, licking your cheeks. You pulled your ear away for a second, thinking that you shouldnât be listening in on this conversation.
âIâve heard of families coming together in the Capitol, but itâs not very common.â
âItâs for more than just wealth, itâs to combine names as well.â Pa told him. âSnow is a grand name, donât you think?â
âAs is Plinth.â Coriolanus agreed.
âSo, you understand what Iâm implying then? What would your grandmother think?â
âI think that she wouldnât agree to doing it so soon.â
âOf course not, it would happen after graduation, before university.â Pa said, âWill you give me your home phone? Iâd like to discuss this with your grandmother.â
After that point, seeing Coriolanus would be painful⊠except, you didnât see him the following day. In fact, you didnât see him again at all. The next time his name was brought up in your house was with Sejanusâs, which was tied in with the words District Twelve and Peacekeepers.
âWhat?â You asked, coming around the hallway corner. Maâs eyes widened. âSejanus is where?â
âOh, darling, you werenât supposed to hear that. We wanted to tell you tonight.â
You shook your head. âSejanus and Coryo went to District Twelve? Why?â
âI believe Coriolanus Snow signed himself up.â Pa told you. âAs for Sejanus, it was the best we could do. He wonât be there long.â
âAnd what about Coriolanus?â
Pa made a face, tilted his head, âTwenty years, is what I was hearing.â
Your mouth dropped open, a reaction that you couldnât stop in time. âIs that the same for Sejanus?â
âYes.â
The only option you were given to keep in touch was letters. You could write to either of them whenever you wanted. Ma even told you that she was going to pack them food to send, stuff that theyâd never be able to get in the districts, let alone Twelve.
With it being summer, you had plenty of time on your hands to write, but every time you picked up the pencil, the words escaped you. Everything that youâd been bottling to save for Sejanus seemed meaningless. So, you mostly replied to what Sejanus said, which could be a lot. He carried the conversations mostly, and you told him that you missed him. And youâd continue to miss him until he finally came back.
Which would never happen, not that you knew that at the time. It was a quiet day when the news reached your parents about what happened. That your brother had got caught up in rebel activities, which was treason. He was hanged without a trial, without a single letter sent home. For once, your familyâs money couldnât buy his way out of this one.
A black hole appeared in your chest, sucking in everyoneâs words, their emotions. Ma couldnât help you, even though she tried. She spent more time with you, trying to get you to speak, but all you wanted was to forget. Or to go back in time and tell Sejanus he needed to stop, that his actions would cost him his life.
Sejanus.
The boy you grew up with, the one you trusted with every secret, the one that kept you safe. Who youâd play with as a child when no one else would, who would help you with your homework when you fell behind. His sweetness, his hopefulness, his personality. Heâs gone. Heâs gone and you never got to say goodbye.Â
All you gave him was half-assed letters. If youâd known that it would be the last time you talked to him, you wouldâve done more. You wouldâve said so much more.Â
It was like almost every piece of him was gone, until the next wave of news came. While Sejanus would never get to leave District Twelve, Coriolanus had been honorably discharged. He was coming home to the Capitol. And with it being weeks after Sejanusâs death, it opened up a conversation that you thought was done for good.
The Snowâs were falling. Youâd heard the news about Tigris and their grandmother almost immediately after Coriolanus had left. They had to sell their apartment, the nice penthouse you went to visit once. They couldnât afford to keep it, so they downgraded, but the apartment lay empty.
Pa had decided that it was time to revisit the topic of an arranged marriage when he heard that Coriolanus was coming back. Ma really liked Coryo, because he was such a good friend to Sejanus. With your brother being gone, their attention had shifted a little, split between you and Coryo. Why keep it that way when there was a solution?
His grandmother agreed to it. It took a little bit of convincing, but at the mention of Pa buying the penthouse back as a gift, it made her cave. A letter was promptly sent to Coriolanus, who wasnât to leave Twelve for another few days while they settled his paperwork.Â
And his reply? âIt would be my pleasure.â
As you straighten out the dress again, you look at the time on the clock that the train station has on display. Coriolanus should be arriving at any minute. It was requested that he were to be picked up by a Peacekeeper truck to take him to the Citadel, but Pa pulled strings, as he always does. He wanted your face to be the first thing that Coriolanus saw when he stepped off.Â
You didnât agree to this. You wanted to put this off for as long as possible. Sejanus chose to go to District Twelve to follow Coriolanus. They were close. He was the last one to have a conversation with your brother when he was alive. Besides, youâre set to marry him in a few short weeks. His suit measurements take place in two days.
A horn sounds, you look up from your polished shoes, the one scuf you managed to get this morning on the walk here. It was too late to turn around and change the shoes. Besides, theyâre the only pair that matches this dress. A whole new outfit bought for Coriolanus, and he wonât even realize it.
The train pulls in the station, blowing cool air into your face. You take in a deep breath, trying to correct your posture. This will be the first time youâve seen Coriolanus in months. Does he even know that youâre here to greet him?
It doesnât matter. Once the doors open, you take a few steps toward them, trying to be casual. Itâs hard to, with the hammering in your chest. You press your lips together, regripping the handbag, coming to a stop in front of the doors. The first few people that file out look like regular Capitol workers.
Youâre too busy looking for Coriolanusâs blonde curls, that you almost miss him stepping out of the doors. His eyes flicker up for a moment, likely to collect his bearings, glancing over you.
You must register in his mind the next second, because he looks directly at you again, stepping off the train. You swallow, eyes stuck on his hair. Or rather, the lack of it. His headâs been shaved.
â(Y/n).â He smiles, âI wish I wouldâve known youâd be here, I wouldâve had something for you.â
âYour curlsâŠâ You murmur, face beginning to contort. If they got rid of his hair when he was enlisted, was the same done to Sejanus?
Coriolanus closes the distance between the two of you, pulling you into a tight hug. You press your forehead to his chest, hands gripping the clothes heâs wearing as you fight off the tears that threaten you. You donât want to cry, youâve spent so much of your time doing exactly that. For once, you want to be in control.
âIâm so sorry, (Y/n).â He says, âI canât imagine how difficult itâs been.â
âI miss him.â The words are strained, you pull your head back, looking at Coriolanus. âI wish he wouldâve told me what he was planning.â
âHeâd never put you in danger.âÂ
âI know.â You back away from the hug. Coriolanus holds out his elbow for you to take, you begin to lead him to the car. âI trust youâve learned a lot these past few months. Did you get to see Lucy Gray, at least?â
His face smooths out, this was not the right question to ask. He lets out a sigh, shaking his head. âI did, but her lifestyle is much different from mine.â
You nod. âYouâre not district.â
âIâm not covey.â He corrects, a smile hinting at the corners of his lips.
âOh, so she had you singing?â
âI wouldnât say that.â He looks away, at someone passing by.
Itâs quiet between the two of you for a moment. There was so much you wanted to say to him, but much like the letters to your brother, the words have left you. You chew on the inside of your cheek.
âYou have something on your mind.â Coriolanus says, itâs not a question.
You sniff. âItâs um⊠Itâs about Sejanus, just one thing I have to know before I can stop thinking about him.â
âHe wouldnât want you to do that.â
âItâs to put my mind at ease.â You stop outside of the car. âI know itâs not your tradition, Coriolanus, but were you able toâŠâ
He nods. âI was.â
You meet his eyes. âThe bread crumbs? They let you see his body?â
âHe has food on his journey.â He tells you.
You breathe out a sigh. âOh, good. Ma will be happy to hear that.â
Neither of you move for the car door, standing there, staring at each other. He eventually starts to shake his head. â(Y/n), I wonât do anything you donât want me to.â
âItâs too late for that.â You tell him. âWe can talk about it more later on, in a few days.â
Coriolanus reaches for the car door, motioning for you to go inside first. âIâll be here when youâre ready.â
You donât move to get inside. âThank you for being such a good friend to my brother.â
He tilts his head. âYou donât have to thank me.â
âYouâre the only piece of him I have left.â You shift on your feet, âI have to thank you.â
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this was part of my 3k celebration!!
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Wicked Games 12
Warnings: non/dubcon, cheating, and other dark elements. My username actually says you never asked for any of this.
My warnings are not exhaustive but be aware this is a dark fic and may include potentially triggering topics. Please use your common sense when consuming content. I am not responsible for your decisions.
Character: Steve Rogers
Summary:Â you had a one night stand. Or did you?
As usual, I would appreciate any and all feedback. Iâm happy to once more go on this adventure with all of you! Thank you in advance for your comments and for reblogging â€ïž
You open the cupboard and rummage through the contents. Rice crackers, no. Protein powder, please. You scoff and find what looks to be chocolate but as you rip the wrapper open and bite into it, the bitterness nearly gags you. You rush to the sink and spit it out.Â
âGlad to see you making yourself at home,â Steve muses from the doorway.Â
You look to him and fold the wrapper back around the bar. You scowl and go to put it back. You shake your head.Â
âIâm starving,â you say. âSo hungry it hurts.âÂ
You rub your stomach as a wave of dizziness bobbles your head. Between waves of nausea and fatigue, the ravenous need consumes you. You search around, forgetting him for the pang in your stomach. You pull open the fridge and pull out the yogurt. You peel the lid off and grab the sugar dish and pour it into the container.Â
âWoah, woah, thatâs not good for the baby,â Steve rushes forward.Â
âDonât,â you warn as you slide open drawers in search of a spoon, âdo you have pickles?âÂ
âPickles? With yogurt?âÂ
âIâm fucking hungry!â You growl, a surge of rage searing through your veins as you grab a spoon. âIf I have to be here, let me eat, at least.âÂ
âI donât mind you eating, but you gotta be careful--âÂ
âPickles,â you remind him.Â
âDonât got any, sorry. But I can go grab some, I guess. If you make a list--âÂ
He gets closer and you recoil. You wave your hand at him and plug your nose, âdonât come any closer.âÂ
âExcuse me?â He grimaces.Â
âYour cologne or something. Itâs setting me--âÂ
You spin and hold the spoon behind you as you puke into the sink. Your body lurches with each violent wretch. The bile does little to deter your appetite. You simply rinse out your mouth and the sink and go back to the hunt for satiation.Â
âThey said the symptoms will probably be worse than usual,â he leans on the counter and watches you. âNausea, hunger, hormones...âÂ
âGoddamn? Ice cream? Do you have ice cream?â You snarl down at the freezer drawer.Â
âIâm not much of a sweets guy.âÂ
âNo pickles, no ice cream. Baking chocolate and sour yogurt.â You rant.Â
âI told you, Iâll go get you some stuff-âÂ
âThen go.â You snap.Â
âHey, watch it.âÂ
âOr what?â You face him defiantly. âIâm carrying your baby, Steve Rogers, so you canât do shit.âÂ
âI can do whatever needs to be done. You might require bedrest.âÂ
âBedrest? Iâm fine.â You insist and turn your back to him.Â
âYouâre tearing apart my kitchen and slathering like a dog,â he reproaches.Â
âSlathering like a dog? Tell me again about how in love you are.â You snip, âJeez.âÂ
âI didnât meanâhoney, sweetheart, Iâm just trying to help you settle. We both gotta learn to live with each other. We only got seven months or so to do so.â He crosses his arms as you pull out the loaf of bread and load the toaster.Â
âHmm, you know what will help me settle in? Peanut butter and jelly. Oh and cream cheese. Mmph, yes,â you march around the kitchen and grab the butter. âAlso, oreos--bagels!âÂ
âOkay, Iâll head out,â he sniffs and shifts flat on his feet.Â
âGreat,â you go back to the toaster as the scent of the browning bread drives you wild.Â
He approaches you from behind and you do your best to ignore him. You bounce on your heels impatiently and tap your fingers. You stiffen as he rests his hands on your hips. You have nowhere to go.Â
âA kiss before I go?â He asks.Â
You hold back a heave, âI just puked.âÂ
âI donât care,â he squeezes, âplease. Itâs been a while since that night. Iâm a bit... neglected.âÂ
You lock your jaw and stare at the tiled wall. You force the tension out and steel yourself. You turn to him and your insides coil uncomfortably.Â
âFine,â you croak.Â
He leans in and presses his lips to yours. You hold back an eruption of disgust. Objectively, heâs handsome. He is the great golden Captain America but youâve seen the real him. Youâve seen his callousness, his cruelty. You have witnessed his delusion. You wonder if the serum did that too.Â
The toast pops and you tear away just as his tongue pokes out. You grab the butter knife and take the lid off the container. You slide out a hot slice and spread the dairy across it. He sighs and looms close.Â
âAnything else I can get?â He asks.Â
âJust food. Lots of food,â you say as you shove a piece of toast in your mouth. âMmm, ohmagrddddd.âÂ
âAlright, Iâll be back. Call me if you need anything.âÂ
âSure,â you munch loudly.
Maybe that will keep him away. If you can make yourself as gross as possible, you wonât have to worry about him begging for kisses and touches. Right now, you donât want anyone near you.Â
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Younger survivors
Pairing: Five Hargreeves x Reader
Summary: In your thirteen year old bodies, you try to navigate your first day in 2019. Thankfully, the Hargreeves siblings are ready to help your little family.
Warnings: Viktor referred to as Vanya and she/her pronouns, non-sexual nudity
Word count: 3k
A/n: This time I genuinely debated whether or not just write Viktor as Viktor, instead of delivering his full story through the rest of the series. If this ends up being the last chapter, I will come back and actually change the pronouns and the name, but for now I stayed with Vanya.
The shock of being in your 13 year old body didnât hit until Penny started crying. At first you werenât sure what made her cry. She just stopped a moment ago, so the fear now faded. And then, dread pooling in your stomach, you realized that you just started feeding Penny when you jumped. She was undoubtedly still hungry.
âI-â you started, Fiveâs siblings still staring at you, shocked by your sudden entrance. âFive-â you looked at your husband. âCould we go in?â
âY-yeahâ Five nodded, picking up Max into his arms.
âFive!â the woman with the beautiful curly hair called out to him. Allison, if you remembered correctly about Fiveâs description of his siblings. âDonât you think you have some explaining to do?â
âYeah, but my children are more important right nowâ Five sighed. âInside. Iâll tell you everything.â
He gently took your hand, and you walked into the building. He showed you the kitchen.
âFiveâ you whispered. âPenny is hungry.â
âDo you need a private-â then he realized what you already had when Penny started crying. You didnât produce milk anymore. âOh⊠shit.â
You sat down on a chair, bouncing baby Penny in your arms. Five sat Max down next to you. Max still looked frightened. You could only imagine just how much. Previously he could express all his thoughts and now, caused by his much younger bodyâs not yet fully developed muscles, he was confined to his thoughts and some words.
âMamaâ he said, looking at you and you could see all his fears in his eyes.
âI know, darlingâ you reached out with your free hand, caressing his face. âEverything will be okay.â
Max leaned into your side, reaching up to hold Pennyâs little leg in a comforting manner.
Through this conversation, Five blinked out, then back in, his arms full of different formulas.
âIâŠâ he put the bottles down. âI didnât know whichâŠâ
âItâs okayâ you sighed, reaching for his hand. âThis is still better than what we had with Max. Neither of us couldâve known which one is rightâ you said, trying to calm his racing mind. âThank you, darling.â
There was a cough from the side, which made you look at the Hargreeves siblings. They crowded in the doorway to the kitchen, watching you with different expressions. In a momentâs time though, Allison stepped forward, grabbing one of the formula bottles and went to the sink. Without a word, she started preparing the formula, and even produced a bottle. You could only watch in astonishment.
âFiveâ the big guy, Luther, called out to him. âExplain, please.â
Five looked toward him and nodded. He looked around, while gathering his thoughts, looking for something. He grabbed some bread, a jar of peanut butter and a bag of⊠marshmallows?
âFirst: a question. Whatâs todayâs date?â he looked up at the group and started on a sandwich.
âThe 24th of Marchâ Vanya answered.
âGoodâ Five sighed and put the peanut butter on both breads. He spread it carefully while he started to talk. âThe truth is, while for you Iâve only been gone for seventeen years, I actually spent about thirty-five years away.â
âAway where?â Luther asked.
âIn a place thatâs worse than hell. Part of the future.â
Allison finished the formula and turned, presenting it to you.
âThank you so muchâ you looked up at her, grateful.
âI know what itâs like to struggle with breastmilkâ she smiled gently, then turned to Five. âIs this what youâve done in those thirty-five years?â
âIâve done a lot moreâ he gritted his teeth, his short temper getting the better of him. How dare Allison demean you and his family? But then he noticed you, squinting your eyes at him in warning. You started feeding Penny, who eagerly latched onto the bottle. âYeahâŠâ he sighed finally, sprinkling marshmallows on the peanut butter and putting it together, he placed the sandwich in front of Max. âThis is my little family. Y/n, my wifeâ you smiled at the group, âMax, my sonâ he gently ran his fingers through his hair. âAnd my daughter, Penny.â
âItâs nice to meet you allâ you nodded to them. âFive told me a lot about you.â
Allison, Vanya and Klaus all smiled back, while Diego and Luther still watched Five, confused.
âOkay, soâŠâ Diego started. âWhat? Youâre forty-eight?â
âNo, my consciousness is forty-eightâ he looked down at himself. âMy body is apparently thirteen.â
âHow did you even come back?â Vanya asked.
âWell⊠in the end I had to project our consciousness forward into a suspended quantum state version of ourselves that exists across every possible instance of timeâ he explained.
âThat makes no senseâ Diego scoffed.
âIt would if you were smarterâ Five replied immediately.
âIn englishâ you put down the now empty bottle on the table and lifted Penny to your shoulder to burp her. âHe grabbed a timeless version of us and transported that body here.â
âHow are you thirteen then?â Klaus asked, looking at you, curious, ignoring Diego who was ready to fight with Five.
âA slip in the calculationâ you hummed, and touched Fiveâs hand, who looked at you very guiltily. âNot ideal, but at least weâre here.â
âAt the very leastâ Five whispered and took your hand in his own to kiss your knuckles, right on the ring that was now loose on your finger.
âWell, arenât you two cutiesâ Klaus grinned.
âDadaâ Maxâs voice was thin, looking at Five. âIâm hungry.â
âAre you sure, little crumb? Your stomach isnât as big as it was an hour agoâ he said gently.
âI want moreâ Max nodded.
âWell, alrightâ Five sighed and started on the second sandwich. âY/n?â
âYeah, I could eatâ you nodded. âDonât forget to make yourself one as well.â
âYeah, yeahâŠâ
âCanâŠâ Klaus suddenly spoke up. âCan I hold my niece?â
âI donât think thatâs a-â Allison started, but you stood up and went over to Klaus.
âI trust himâ you looked toward Allison for a second before looking at Klaus. âYou see how Iâm holding her? Try to copy it. Though she can hold her own head up now, we should be careful.â
âKlaus nodded and tried to copy your arm placement. After he somewhat got it, you placed Penny gently in his arms, making sure that she was held tightly.
âGoodâ you smiled gently.
âOh my god, she is tiny!â Klaus breathed.
âYeah. But Max was smaller.â
âShe is beautifulâ he awed at her sleeping form. âHer little nose is yours. But those lips, theyâre Fiveâs through and through.â
âHer eyes are Fiveâs as well. Both children were lucky to get his beautiful green eyes.â
âYour eyes are plenty beautiful, my loveâ he looked at you seriously.
âI know. But your eyes, my loveâ you said, mockingly serious, âare magical.â
âShut upâ Five rolled his eyes, a fond smile on his face.
âShe truly is beautifulâ Allison said finally. âThey both are.â
âThank youâ you smiled.
âHow old were they?â Vanya asked suddenly.
âThirteenâ Max said, with a lisp. He immediately frowned, annoyed that his ârâ didnât roll.
âYeah, he was thirteen and Penny was twoâ you confirmed, taking the sandwich that Five offered you with a grateful smile.
âThatâs quite a big changeâ Luther marveled.
âAbout as big as the change from forty-eight to thirteenâ Five commented.
âThis is stupidâ Diego finally stood up and left the room.
The rest of the Hargreeves sighed, used to Diegoâs almost permanently annoyed state, but you just looked at the door, where he left, confused.
âWhatâs his problem?â you asked.
âHe is⊠wellâ Luther tried to explain. âHe isnât really happy that the family is back together.â
âNo, he isnât really happy that you accused us of Dadâs murderâ Allison looked at him, annoyed as well.
âAgain, I didnât-â Luther raised his voice slightly.
âShut up!â Klaus looked at him. âYouâll wake up Penny.â
âSorryâŠâ Luther quieted down.
âWe should get some fresh clothesâ Five put his hand on your shoulder.
âIâll helpâ Allison stood up. âIâll grab some childrenâs clothes.â
Five nodded gratefully and reached out for Max to take his hand. âCome on, little crumb. Weâll take a shower.â
âOkay dadaâ Max nodded, smiling.
You took Penny from Klausâs hands, smiling at the man, then followed your husband out of the kitchen. He lead you to a room that had a kidâs bed and cute wallpaper on the walls.
âWas this your room?â you marveled at your surroundings.
âYeahâ he nodded.
But along with the awe of finally seeing your husbandâs old room, you also feel a deep rooted sadness. He was so young when he disappeared. He was young and scared shitless. Sure, so were you, but seeing this⊠it made your heart hurt all the more. You turned to him and watched as he opened the closet and looked at the clothes, frowning.
âFiveâŠâ you called out to him gently. He turned to you questioningly. âAre you okay?â
He looked away for a moment, thinking. Was he? He finally had everything he worked for. He finally got back to his siblings, who he loved endlessly. He could finally save them.
But in the process of everything, he managed to get himself and his family stuck in their younger bodies. He now looked thirteen, his wife also. If he didnât know it was you, who traveled with him, he probably wouldnât have recognized you. After all, he didnât know you from the beginning of his time in the apocalypse.
âIâm managingâ he said simply. âItâs not easy, but Iâm glad youâre here.â
âOkayâ you nodded and leaned closer to press a kiss to his lips. âIâll be here. Always.â
âThank you, my loveâ he smiled thankfully, then turned back and took two uniforms out of the closet. âHere you go, this should be good for you as well.â
âSo⊠weâll be matching?â you smirked.
âYeahâ he nodded, a smile tugging at the corner of his lips.
âAh, true couple goalsâ you sighed, which earned a laugh from Five.
He pressed a kiss to your temple, pulling you close. âYouâre so dumbâ he said fondly.
Allison finally arrived with a bag of clothes for Max and Penny separately. She helped pick out an outfit for the two of them, so Max and Five could finally head off for a shower. From the door, Five looked back.
âThank youâ he said, looking at Allison.
âFrom one parent to another, this is nothingâ she smiled.
âHer name is Claire, right?â he asked and Allison nodded with slightly wider eyes. She didnât think Five knew about her daughter. âI canât wait to meet her.â
With that they left the room. You finally sat down on Fiveâs bed and sighed. This was already a long day and you were tired. Thankfully, Penny was still sleeping in your arms. You were blessed by her deep sleeping habits on many occasions. One being this time.
âCan I hold her?â Allison asked suddenly.
âOh, uh, sureâ you snapped out of your thoughts. She gently took your daughter from your arms and sat down next to you. âItâs so weirdâŠâ
She turned to you, curious what you were thinking about.
âWell⊠Iâm now thirteen. Barely ten years older than my son and barely twelve years older than my daughterâ you explained your thoughts. âI never really worried about what people thought of me. But nowâŠâ
âWell⊠some of us live really private livesâ Allison tried to soothe you.
âNot you thoughâ you smiled. âI heard youâre an actress.â
âYeahâ she laughed gently.
âI wonder how my life wouldâve turned out ifâŠâ you sighed, not having the heart to finish it. âWhen I was a kid, I wouldâve loved to become an actor or singerâ you reminisced. âThough on the flip side, I wouldâve loved to be a spy, a doctor, an astronaut, a teacher and a bunch of other things as wellâ you laughed.
âThe dreams of kidsâŠâ Allison commented, a gentle smile resting on her face. âInstead you became a mother. Itâs kind of the best job in the world.â
âIt really isâ you looked at your daughter and caressed her chubby cheeks gently.
âDid you have a dream job? One that stayed your dream no matter what else was there?â she asked.
âHmâ you hummed. âIâm not really sure. Itâs been a long while. Why?â
âWell⊠you got a second chance at achieving that dreamâ she explained. âNot many people get thatâ she furrowed her brows. âActually, no one really gets that.â
âThatâs trueâ you nodded, thinking about it.
âHell, you could even have a full football team of kidsâ she snorted and it also made you laugh. You really could. Though you didnât know if that was really something youâd want.
âYeah, maybe.â
You sat in silence for a few seconds, Allison gently rocking Penny. You could see on her face how much she loved kids. And she was really good with them. With Penny. It made sense with her having a daughter as well.
âHow old is she?â you asked.
âClaire?â she looked at you and you nodded. âFive. She is five.â
âThose are the golden yearsâ you sighed. âFrom the age of three to six. Everything just gets harder after that.â
âYeahâ Allison nodded, looking thoughtful and⊠sad.
The next moment Max came running in, his underwear and shirt on, but he was missing his pants. As he rounded the corner, his socks slipped on the floor and he fell on his side.
âMax!â you jumped up and hurried over to him. âSon, what did we say about running in your socks!â
You helped him up, looking his body over to see if he injured himself anywhere.
âSorry Mamaâ he looked at you sadly.
âWhy were you even running?â you asked him, taking his hands in your own. You noticed that the skin of his palms were scraped.
âWill you heal it?â Max asked, ignoring your question.
âYou caused this yourself, why should I?â you looked at him seriously. âYou know our rule. If the injury is small, like a scrape, plus you inflicted it upon yourself because you didnât listen to dad or me, then you have to suffer the consequences.â
âBut Ma!â he whined. âPlease, for the funeral!â
âMaxâ you narrowed your eyes. âThatâs the rule.â
âPleaseâ he stomped his feet, looking at you with puppy eyes.
âMax.â
âYou heal?â Allison suddenly asked. âYou have a superpower?â
âYeah. I can heal any injuriesâ you nodded, looking back at her. âIt takes time and energy though.â
âThatâs⊠awesomeâ she hummed.
You looked back at Max. âPut your pants on. You can have a plaster, but thatâs it.â
âBut-â
âNo butsâ you put your finger up and stood up. âAllison,â you looked at her. âCould I ask you to watch Max and Penny for a bit? Iâll go shower quickly.â
âYeahâ she nodded.
âThank you so muchâ you said gratefully and grabbed the uniform Five gave you.
When you were going up to Fiveâs room, he pointed out one of the bathrooms, that was closest to his room. Thatâs where you were headed, hoping to find your husband still there. Everything was so hard to process and you needed comfort from him if only for a short while. And you knew he needed some as well.
The shower was running when you reached the door and you knocked on it.
âFive, darling?â you called out to him.
âIâm hereâ he yelled over the rushing water.
âIâm coming in, okay?â
You didnât hear a reply, but opened the door and quickly slid in. He was currently showering, his dirty clothes on a chair close by. His ring on the sink, safe from falling down the drain.
âEverything okay?â he asked, looking at you.
âYeahâ you sighed and put your fresh clothes next to his. You made quick work of your clothes and placed your ring next to his. He helped you into the tub, his hands going to your waist immediately. âYeah, now I am.â
You pulled him in for a hug, your feelings washing over you along with the water. It was warm, perfectly so. His arms held you tight, and though you knew this was your husband and his hug still felt the same in terms of feelings shared, it was also⊠off. Like this body that held you close wasnât the same.
You squeezed your eyes shut, trying to forget about it.
âIâm sorryâ Five suddenly whispered. âIâm so sorry.â
It broke you. It wasnât Fiveâs fault. Time travel was messy to begin with, he couldnât have known. You will never blame him for it. You were at least safe, you could help his family.
You felt him start to shake. A rare moment of complete vulnerability that he had trouble showing even around you. And it broke your heart so much that you couldnât really do anything to help him. You just hugged him close, caressing his bare back. You also felt the tears in your own throat, but tried to keep them in.
âItâs going to be okayâ you whispered into his neck. âItâs all going to be okay.â
He squeezed harder at that, his shoulders shaking with the force of his silent sobs. You couldnât help it anymore, your own tears slipped loose. You didnât know⊠how could you help him? There wasnât anything⊠you were helpless.
You put one of your hand into his hair, massaging his roots, while you tried to keep your own sobs down.
âIâm hereâ you whispered. âWeâre here.â
His right hand gripped the back of your neck, trying to pull himself back to the ground. Though this is what he wanted, to be here with his siblings, he also couldnât help but wish his life back. His body. Not this small one. He even wished for the small height difference that you had before.
âWeâll be okayâ you sighed, your own emotions finally back in order.
âWeâll be okayâ he repeated, swallowing his sobs. He breathed deeply, smelling your familiar scent. At least that was the same.
âI love youâ you said, massaging his head. âNo matter the body, the age, Iâll always love you.â
âI love you tooâ he sighed, calming down. âI love you too.â
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Stranger | Chapter 4
Chapter Links: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5]
TW: Mentions of Cannibalism, Choking
Tags: Feyd-Rautha Harkonnen x Atreides!Reader, Arranged Marriage, Eventual Smut, POV Second Person, No use of y/n, Original Characters, Canon What Canon
Word Count: 1.4k
A/N: Ok, so clearly I'm a big fat liar. I'm sorry this chapter also took ages. I think I'm just a slow writer lmao. Anyway, it was fun writing this so I hope you guys enjoy it. As always, thanks for all the lovely comments I appreciate them a lot. Take care and have a good one!
"Where is he?" you snarl as you march through the halls gripping Iassa's choker. "Where is the na-Baron?" Your voice a threat.
"He is doing his morning drills, my lady," Zora, your new servant chases after you, growing increasingly panicked, "he trains with the Warmaster."
You pick up your pace, "Take me to him." When Zora hesitates, you yell, "Now!"
When you arrive, Feyd-Rautha is sparring with who you assume to be the Harkonnen Warmaster in a shallow recessed pit in the center of the training room.
"Where is she?" you call from the doorway, your voice filled with vitriol.
Your unexpected presence catches Feyd-Rautha off-guard and his sparring partner manages to cut his right abdomen through his shield. He growls at the Warmaster and snaps his head to you, "I am preoccupied at the moment, my lady."
"Where is Iassa?" your glare pierces through him.
"Who?" he asks genuinely confused.
Your grip on the choker tightens, "Don't pretend. The servant girl assigned to me. You left this in my room, didn't you?" The realization he had snuck into your quarters while you were asleep quietly creeps on you. "What have you done with her."
"Ah," he tilts his head, ignoring his bleeding wound, "I thought about just cutting her tongue out." A smirk grows on his lips, "but my darlings were hungry."
It was only then you noticed his concubines in the room, lounging in a corner of pillows. Their sharp-toothed grins only stoked your fury.
You scoff in anger, "because she revealed your farce? Are you so insecure?"
Is cocky expression evolves into a glare. "Leave us," he orders, eyes staying on yours. Servants flood out of the room asking with the Warmaster but it seems his pets were exempt from this command. "Why do you cry for a girl you knew less than two days?"
He was right. Why do you care so much? You were hardly 'close' with Iassa. You've had servants on Caladan and you were never particular with any of them. Would you anger for them the same way? Why must you suddenly be a paragon of justice? And at the risk of the Harkonnens' contempt?
When you remain speechless, the na-Baron continues, "You may not be familiar with slaves but here, their death is inconsequentialâsave for the economics of it all."
"Is that so?" You look at his pets then back at him. Your breath is dragon-like and your tone hardens, "then relieve your concubines."
"What?" Feyd-Rautha's low voice echoes through the room. His concubines hiss at you from their raised platform.
You stand taller, shoulders back, still clutching Iassa's choker in your hand, "If I am to be your wife, I demand you take no other women."
He takes a moment to determine how serious you are being, then decides it doesn't matter. He walks up the steps surrounding the pit and you aren't given time to react before he has your neck in his grip. "You are in no place to demand such things, Atreides." His black gritted teeth at the last word match the darkness of his voice.
Your hands fly to claw at his wrist, "How dare you lay a hand on me." You struggle against his unrelenting grip, "Let go of me!"
He leans down to your ear, "You're a feisty one, aren't you, little hawk?" You feel his hold continue to tighten and panic rises in your chest. Before you can be rendered speechless, you make a decision.
"UNHAND ME."
The Voice echos from your mouth seizing Feyd-Rautha's mind and his hand releases your throat. As you gasp desperately for air, he attempts to recover from the haze of the mental intrusion. When he finds his bearings, you see the thrill in his dark eyes. Witch, you can almost hear him say.
"Aren't you just full of surprises," he smirks.
"And I will have many more," you say bitterly. Straightening your dress, you regain your self-assured stance and meet his eyes with a cold stare, "Be rid of your harpies before we are wed or I will kill them myself."
You don't spare his concubines a glance as you turn to leave. You don't see the way Feyd-Rautha looks at you, head tilted, as you storm off.
You dismiss Zora and lock yourself in your chambers. Sprawled out on your bed, you stare up at the dark gray ceiling and question what could have possibly possessed you to challenge Feyd-Rautha the way you did. You go back and forth on whether or not it was an overreaction but eventually chalk it up to the Atreides' fiery defiance. Certainly, it wasn't the brightest decision but you sense that your father and brother would not have condemned it. Your heart is still pounding from the encounter. And the flicker in Fey-Rautha's eyesâyou dismiss the idea that he might have enjoyed it.
You had hoped to hide your mother's training for longer. She had trained you and Paul in The Voice and Prana-Bindu. As a high-born lady, you could have been sent to a Bene Gesserit School in your formative years, but it was decided against due to Baron Vladimir's thinly veiled aversion to The Sisterhood. So, Lady Jessica resolved to teach you in secret. You were grateful for it anyway as you didn't have to be separated from your family. You think about how your mother would be able to continue to train Paul without you. You had always been more adept at The Voice than him. Now, he has the opportunity to surpass you. The thought triggers your competitiveness against your sibling but the feeling quickly melts into melancholy. You miss him. You miss all of them.
Is this to be your life? Married to a twisted psycho who feeds his concubines human flesh and kills people you care about? You sit up and place Iassa's choker carefully in the drawer of your nightstand. You hoped she didn't fear you as she did the Harkonnens.
Your thoughts are interrupted by a knock at the door. You had really hoped no one would bother you for the rest of the day but then you feel the emptiness in your stomach. You had skipped breakfast that day to confront the na-Baron. When you open the door, Zora is holding a covered tray which you assumed, and hoped, to be lunch.
"Would my lady like to eat in solitude?" she asks after she sets your meal at the small table in your quarters. Your heart sinks. She is so young.
"Ah no, I would like you to stay if that's alright." You sit at your table and cut into your food while Zora stands politely to the side. "I'm sorry for yelling at you earlier. The na-Baronâmy fiancĂ©âhe has caused me some aggravation."
"It is quite alright, my lady," she says, her head bowed low.
After your meal, you ask Zora to fetch you various projections on the planet of Giedi Prime from the Harkonnen archives. You were hesitant to make the request considering the fate of your last servant but you hoped you managed to convince Feyd-Rautha you were not to be trifled with. Besides, what harm could you do by learning about flora and fauna.
You spent the rest of the day watching informative holograms about your new home's ecology and biodiversity. Apparently, one of the planet's greatest exports is wood from the Pilingitam tree which is prized for its pliability when freshly cut but sturdy hardness once aged and dried. It was also anti-fungal and naturally fire-resistant. It was a surprise you didn't see much of it. Everything in the fortress was cold stone and concrete. You wonder how beautiful furniture made out of Pilingitam must be when carved by a skilled artist.
That night, you make sure to lock your door and fall asleep to images of sprawling landscapes.
The following day was similarly spent, watching projections about Giedi Prime's geographical features. You were left undisturbed save for Zora's quiet knocks on your door to serve your meals. Your life as a baroness is days away so you might as well educate yourself. Although, you suppose you should probably focus on politics and history more than the planet's Obsidian Planes but you weren't really in the mood to learn of the Harkonnens' gruesome past right now. You would cross that bridge when you got there.
Come evening, you hear an unfamiliar knock at your door. Zora had already brought you dinner earlier so you are wary as you crack open the door.
"Hello, little hawk." Feyd-Rautha's tall figure looms past the doorway.
You stare him down, making no move to let him in.
He tilts his head slightly, "Would you really kill my darlings?"
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Sidekick / tour guide ! Reader in Star Rail
You know how Paimon is travellerâs guide/emergency food/sidekick/spokesperson/just their bestie? imagine if HST has their own Paimon too!
Reader is their Paimon without her appearance but they still float and behave like Paimon. They make snarky comments, dissing people that is rude to mc, making nicknames for their close friends, and so on.
Reader that follow after mc and is overly friendly to them only. And the other characters just watch in utter envy as the two talk for hours while trash diving.
Reader has weakness when it comes to food. So many characters use it to lure them away into their arms or just bribe them to spend time with them without mc around.
Jing Yuan âaccidentallyâ dropping snack while he walks away. Lmao like anyone would believe him when he made a trail from tasty snacks so reader would follow him.
Reader is a bit an airhead when theyâre hungry, okay? Cut them some slack.
Gepard always having little candy on his pocket just incase he runs into the trio+his crush. Him always having to fight the attention of his beloved with his own sister because big sis is đ„” and heâs worried about his future love life if reader chose big sis.
Blade getting the nickname something along the line of âmean jerk guyâ because reader canât swear for the life of them.
But he secretly likes the stupid nickname, only because itâs from reader and he would always hide his smile with a smirk every time reader called him a nickname.
Okay married couple. Get a roomđ
Dan Heng is tired of reader. But only because they support the trash diving behavior of mc instead of stopping them. Like??? Stop the trailblazer pls???đ€š
You know that one scene where Dan Heng was about to kissâ ehem, give MC CPR? Yeah?
Dang Heng and March 8th kiss reader atleast once each before they decide to help mc and reader to wake up fr.
Reader maybe getting hit on and suddenly mc has personal problem with this person.
Mc being the self proclaimed designated bodyguard for their own guide. Like what?? Such a lame excuse to get close to reader. But sure. Whatever you say, simp.
Sampo being absolute menace and reader dissing him under their breath and only the trio could hear them.
Welt being absolute softy and weak when it comes to reader pouty faces whenever they ask for allowance. The trio doesnât even get daily allowance from him??? The favoritismđȘ
I love Paimon, pls write about thisđ„ș iâam on my knees and iâm begging.
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Restless
Warnings: unprotected sex in the Twinkie, making out, playful banter, angst
It had been so long since youâd had an orgasm you didnât give yourself that you were becoming increasingly unpleasant to be around. Even your dreams were filled with multiple scenarios of someone railing the attitude out of your system.
The slightest thing that made your heart beat a little faster, had your core clenching with anticipation. Like fighting. Thatâs all you seemed to be doing with the guy you hated. Like actually hated. He was arrogant and reckless and annoyingly cocky. He was the only person youâd ever wanted to punch in the face.
âDo you ever shut the fuck up?â You called over the music as JJ smirked around his cup, tipping it back and draining the beer.
âDo you?â JJ countered, grabbing the nozzle from your hand and filling up his drink again.
âYouâre so annoying.â You grumble, lifting your cup to your lips only for him to flick it, making the liquid poor down your chin and down the front of your bikini top. You squealed, dropping the cup as cold liquid raced down your front and JJ howled with laughter. You growled, snatching his cup from his hand and throwing it in his face. JJâs laughter cut off as he glared at you, his nostrils flared as beer dripped from his nose and eyelashes, even his hair was sticking to his forehead now.
âCanât take a joke?â JJ snaps, lifting his shirt to reveal toned abs as he wipes his face. You suddenly picture yourself licking the beer off his stomach when he drops the shirt again.
âJokes are funny. Yours wasnât.â You counter, licking your dry lips, the cool liquid running down your stomach almost forgotten about.
âMaybe you need another way to cool off.â JJ says in a low warning voice making you lose all train of thought. Your gaze lowers to his lips -thin lips but still kissable lips - as you try to think about anything but his mouth on you. His lips tips up in a cocky smirk when suddenly he lunges, ducking down to throw you over his shoulder.
âPut me down!â You scream, literally kicking and slapping as he marches down the beach and into the water while laughing.
âWait! Wait! My phone!â JJ stops, his hands tight on the backs of your thighs before slipping up to your shorts pocket and retrieving the device.
âAny last words, cupcake?â JJ taunts, letting his free hand rest on your ass as you stare down at his. Your heart was racing and fire was burning in your core just from the close proximity. His hands on your body made you feel overwhelmed with need. He was right about you needing to cool down.
âPlease donât! Iâll.. let you take me for a ride on your bike!â You cry, clinging to the back of his shirt for dear life. JJ chuckles, running his hand up and down the back of your thigh like heâs in deep thought.
âI can take anyone on a ride. What else?â
âUgh, what do you want then?â
JJs hand stops, his back straightening before taking a few steps further into the water, the waves crashing against his knees now and making him unsteady. You cry out in frustration, digging your nails into his back and making him hiss.
âI want you to apologize.â JJ finally says, bouncing from one foot to the other to keep his balance.
âFine! Iâm sorry!â
âNope. Let me finish.â He taunts, pulling you off his shoulder to cradle you in his arms. You instantly wrap your arms around his neck, drawing yourself as close to him as you can get and away from the water.
You glare at him as he nibbles that bottom lip of his, a wicked grin forming as the waves continue to rock him on his feet.
âI want you to apologizeâ,â He leans in, his lips suddenly brushing your ear, ââon your knees while you suck my cock.â You eyes widen and your pussy pulsing, suddenly hungry with everything he could offer. But you didnât want him to know how desperately you needed to be fucked or how your mouth watered at the thought of tasting him.
âAnd whatâs in it for me?â You whisper back, barely containing your excitement. JJ grins, his arms tightening around you as he leans closer to flick his tongue across your lips.
âIâll get you wet in the way that you want. The way that has you moaning my name and ripping at my hair and soaking my sheets with cum.â Your entire body shudders in his arms as you find yourself leaning in to kiss those lips. His tongue darts out again, flicking your top and bottom lip when someone calls his name from behind him.
âYo, JJ!â Someone yells again, making JJ growl against your lips before slowly lowering you to your feet.
âWe arenât done.â JJ whispers before turning to face whoever is trying to get his attention. You quickly stepped away from him, making your way up the bank and back to the party. The throbbing between your thighs was intense. You couldnât believe you were ready to mount him right there in the water. It was JJ Maybank of all people.
You groan before snatching a bottle from an empty lawn chair and downing as much as you can stand. Surely alcohol would calm your pussy down.
âYou look like youâre trying to forget.â A sexy voice says off to your right, making you turn to fine the source. Itâs Topper, looking fine as ever with his blonde hair a mess and wearing nothing but swim trunks. He was delicious.
âI am.â You smirk, reaching out to offer him the bottle of liquor.
âI donât know you.â Topper points out, keeping his eyes on you as he takes a long gulp of the liquor.
âDo you want to?â You ask innocently, moving closer until your legs brush his.
âHey, Top!â JJ drawls, stumbling forward and dropping a beer bottle, a goofy grin on his face. Topper shoots him a glare and you step back, the mood soured.
âWhat do you want, Pogue?â Topper snaps.
âIs that your blue Jeep? I think i just saw someone hooking up in it.â JJ gasps, mocking fake surprise. Topper falls for it, jumping from his chair and making a beeline for his Jeep.
âYou motherfucker.â You hiss, JJâs drunk ruse dropping and a satisfied grin forming on his face.
âTime to pay up. Letâs go.â JJ takes your arm and leads you into the darkness covered by trees and tall grass.
âI wouldnât suck your dick even if you paid me.â You snarl, not pulling your hand from his even as he leads you to his bike parked on the side of the road. He throws his leg over the bike and motions for you to get on the back.
âCome on or we can do it here.â You pause, noting the smirk on his face.
âOr I can just bend you over my bike and give you what you really want.â JJ counters, biting his bottom lip as his eyes rake down your body.
âWhat makes you think Iâd fuck you?â You snap only to jump back when JJ swings back off his bike and advances on you like a hungry lion. You stumble, your back meeting a tree as JJ cages you in, his rigid body against yours.
âBecause.. your pupils are dilated and you clench your thighs together every time I talk. When you do look at me, your eyes canât decide where to look. My mouth. My body. My dick.â JJâs hand comes up to cup the back of your head, clutching your hair and forcing you look up at him.
âYouâd do whatever I told you to if it meant you got to cum.â JJ whispers, ghosting his lips over your own. You shudder against him, your mouth dry, and your core aching to be filled.
âIf you donât stop biting this lip, Iâm going to bite it for you.â JJ snarls, prying your trapped lip free with his thumb. You lean into him, tracing the feel of his skin against yours.
âCome with me.â JJ snatches your wrist, leading you down the road where John Bâs van sits.
âJJ.â You scoff, as he opens the sliding door and forces you inside. He climbs in behind you before slamming the door shut behind. When he turns to face you, his eyes are almost black with need and his erection strains almost painfully in his shorts.
âIâve had it with your smart fucking mouth.â His hand cups the back of your neck and yanks you forward, smashing his mouth to yours. All your restraint dissolved and your hunger seized your body. You fisted the front of his shirt, kissing him back with such fever that your teeth clanked and your tongues collided. JJ yanked you onto his lap, digging his fingers into the swells of your ass as he grinds you on his cock.
You pull his shirt off. He unties your top and tosses it behind the seat. You tear at the button of his shorts and he cups your pussy over yours. It begins a competition of who can get there first. Your hand wraps around his thick length, making you falter for only a moment while he grinds his palm against your clit.
âJesus, youâre big.â You admit, making him grin against your lips between puffs of breath as you began to stroke him.
âTake your shorts off.â He demands, lifting you to your feet for only a moment and yanking the material down your legs before pulling you back on top of him. Moans and pants fill the air as you touch each other, drinking each other in until youâre dizzy with lust. JJâs fingers slide between your thighs, his palms against your clit causing you to jerk.
âDonât tease. Just fuck me. Fill me up.â You plead, not caring how desperate you sound.
âSay please.â You bare your teeth as he lines himself up with your entrance then nudges your clit, sending sparks through your limbs.
âSay, Iâm sorry for being a pain now please fuck me JJ.â JJ instructs, his grip not letting you sink down. You were so wet and desperate you didnât care anymore.
âIâm sorry for being a pain now please fuck me.â You pleaded, digging your nails into his shoulders just as he slipped inside.
#smutwarning#outer banks smut#jj maybank smut#jj maybank fic#obx2#jj maybank imagine#rudy pankow#jj maybank fluff#jj maybank x you#jj obx
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Dear Future Self
(steddie | 14.5k | explicit | tags: Time Travel, threesome (two Eddies and Steve), self-cest, pwp, double penetration, smut and fluff, POV switches | AO3)
Special Shoutout to @legitcookie with whom I started writing this AGES ago but never managed get very far. I still remember us having so much fun with this idea. I hope you like where I took it đ
This whole fic is inspired by one of my favorite artists: https://twitter.com/ShinyDirtyCoin/status/1642688399348727808
Summary:
After the events of March '86, Eddie pines for his new friend, the former king of Hawkins High. Too scared to make a move, he has resigned himself to a life as Steve's friend and nothing more. That is, until one hot summer day, a naked guy appears out of nowhere in Steve's bedroom. The naked guy is him from the future, and he says he's here to help Eddie pull his head out of his ass. It turns out that he and Steve are a happy couple in the future. And as if that wasn't enough, he also offers to teach Eddie how to properly fulfill Stevie's needs. Sexy shenanigans ensue.
Spicy snippet under the cut
Then he looks back at Future Eddie. "Okay, then tell us, what is something that you and your Steve have always wanted to try but haven't yet?"
It's clearly the right question, because Future Eddie's eyes go wide, the warm chocolate brown darkening with desire.
"Oh, Stevie. You keep surprising me. You really wanna know?" That last part is clearly directed at Eddie, who's been suspiciously quiet.
Eddie shifts behind him and Steve gasps in surprise as he feels his hard length against the small of his back. He had no idea how turned on Eddie was just by talking about it.
"Yeah." It's just a word, said softly, but Steve can hear the desire in Eddie's rough voice and it makes him shiver with anticipation.
"Good." With that, Future Eddie turns to rummage through Steve's nightstand. The blanket slips from his form, revealing miles of lean muscle and scared, tattooed skin to Steve's hungry gaze.
When Future Eddie turns back to them, he's holding Steve's pink dildo.
"One of the best things that ever happened was when I came home early one day when we first started dating and I found you in my room using this on yourself."
"Oh my God," Eddie and Steve say again in unison. Steve hides his face in his hands, white-hot embarrassment flooding his body. Eddie, on the other hand, wraps himself around him even tighter, his breath hot against Steve's ear.
"Don't. This is the hottest thing I've ever heard. Please, promise to let me watch you someday. Please, Stevie, sweetheart."
Eddie sounds almost desperate for it and it helps a lot to make Steve less embarrassed.
It's Future Eddie who pulls his hands away from his face. "He's right. To this day, I get hard just thinking about it. You're always gorgeous, baby, but watching you give yourself over to your own pleasure is the closest thing to heaven I'll ever get."
"But that's not what I was getting at. After I saw you with your little toy and assured you how fucking hot it was, we decided to play with it together from time to time. Using it on each other, sometimes with our tongues or fingers joining the party. God, Stevie, the first time I added a finger to the dildo in your ass, you went crazy. You came all over yourself with nothing on your cock. Had me almost following you just because it was so hot to watch."
Steve wants to be embarrassed again, feels the blush deepen in his cheeks. But the way Eddie's grinding against his back, his breath coming in the form of quickening pants, the hot breath puffing against his sweaty neck, it's easy to push the feeling down. It helps that he's already hard and aching, and part of him wishes Eddie would stop grinding against his back and just push into him. If he were a girl he would be wet and dripping, ready for Eddie's length to fill him. Ready for Eddie to take him, to use him, to make Steve his.
Future Eddie looks at him, looks at both of them, as if he can read every filthy thought going through their minds. And he probably can. After all, he knows them. He knows them better than they know themselves in that respect.
Future Eddie leans in, his voice dropping to a husky whisper. "One of the hottest things we ever tried? It was the first time we used that pink dildo while I was fucking you. I had you on your hands and knees, both of us a sweaty mess, and I pushed it in while I kissed down your spine. Had you stretched out with my fingers, three of them inside you next to my cock. You were so fucking full baby, rim stretched so wide to make room for me. And the way you moaned my name, Stevie... I've never heard anything like it."
Steve can feel Eddie's breath hitching behind him, the heat from his body almost unbearable. He knows Eddie is picturing it, just like he is, and the thought makes his pulse quicken. Future Eddie's words hang in the air, a tantalizing promise of what's to come.
"We talked about this later. How much you loved being so full, stretched almost to the limit. You said the only thing missing was the feeling of having two real cocks inside you. The fake feeling of the dildo replaced by the real deal. Hot, pulsating flesh. Two loads dripping out of you."
Someone moans brokenly and he's not sure if it's him or Eddie.
"But you may have noticed," Future Eddie gives his past self an amused look, "but I'm not good at sharing. Especially not you. So inviting a stranger was always out of the question."
His gaze becomes pointed, eyes roaming over their tangled bodies, and Steve feels another shiver run through his body. He thinks he knows whatâs coming.
"So," Eddie surprisingly fills the ensuing silence, his mouth pressed to Steve's ear. "You want us both to fill you up? Is that it? Two dicks stuffing your hole?"
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Cherry lips
Pairings: San x Y/N
Genre/tags: idol dating, au, establish relationship
Warning: đ a little smut, cursing, sensual touching, making out, pet name, fluff too
~~~~[lmk if i miss anything]
Words: 1.3k
Disclaimer:
- this story is just made up
- english is not my first language, please be nice đ
Note: just random drabble again. I made these a few days ago or probably a week ago.. but just posted now coz i forgot..? đ
Also side note.....Adulting life is hard đ„Č hehe
Struggggling hahah anyways Have a nice day and night to everyone.
Brb.
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San messaged you, saying he's not feeling well today. So after finishing your work, you hurriedly commuted to get to his dorm so you could check on him and see if he needs anything.
"Huh? Y/N, what are you doing here on a friday?" Seonghwa asks, surprised to see you standing at their front door.
"How's Sannie?" You ask
"Ahhh...." he chuckles. "He's in his room... acting like a baby." He moves yo the side, gesturing you to come in. "He already ate. Mingi cooked him a soup dish to make him feel a bit better."
"Does he have a fever?"
Seonghwa shakes his head, "He's a lot much better now. He has been deligent taking his medicines, drinking water and eating well."
You sigh a big relief. "Thank goodness..."
"He just finished showering and going back to bed to watch a movie... he is basically okay now actually.. so I'm not sure why he asked you to come?" Seonghwa says scratching his head.
"What else? San probably wants some cuddles from Y/N...and get babied even more." Mingi says as he comes out of his room. "He even asked for a hug from me yesterday when I gave him his food..." he chuckles remembering how San acts.
"Probably..." you agree.
"If you two get hungry... There is food in the fridge. I cooked something for lunch earlier... just heat it up." Mingi says as he ties his shoes. "Imma go to the studio... so..."
"Be safe... you and manager." Seonghwa says
"Bye!" You wave to Mingi.
And as soon as Mingi is out
"I'll be in my room and watch a kdrama... I'll put my speaker on... and if I do get out I'll put my headset."
You title your head to the side. "Why? What for?"
Laughing softly, "We all know how San is... when he asks for you..."
You suddenly felt your cheeks heat up from what Seonghwa just said. "Oh dear!" You cover your face.
"Don't worry... We don't judge... it's part of human nature and..."
"Does that mean... you guys could hear... oh dear!" You panic
"Yah... don't worry about it... we don't really hear it all out.. probably just once time... and we learned from it."
"Oh God!" Your cheeks and ears are totally red now.
Seonghwa pats you at the back. "Sorry... I should've not said anything..."
Shyly looking at Seonghwa. "No it's fine... if ever... hmmm... we.... well... I'll try to tell him to be more quiet... and.. me too..."
"Cute." Seonghwa pinches your cheek.
Caressing your cheek after Hwa pinches you. "I'll go and check on Sannie..." you say
"Okay... I'll go and make myself busy now." He scoffs before turning his back.
You waited for Seonghwa to totally shut his door before you march towards the opposite direction, where San's room is.
"San?" You call as you knock lightly.
No answer. It's quiet.
"Sannie...?" You twist the doorknob and slowly push it open. "Sannie??" You whisper while your head is slightly tilted to take a peek if he's there. "Hmm... maybe he's asleep..."
You slide one foot first and then the rest follows. You are very cautious, trying your very best to not make any loud noise that could wake your boyfriend.
Scanning the whole room, you see that the room looks okay, nothing to clean so far. The TV is on but with a very low volumn that you barely hear it.
'He must've forgot to turn it off or probably fell asleep without him noticing' you say to yourself as you carefully walk further more in and look for the remote to turn it off.
"What are you doing?"
You screach a bit loud the second you hear someone talk just as you turned off the TV, making the room completely dark.
"I've missed you."
It's San.
"Fuck! You scared me!" You're heart is beating out of your chest.
"I can feel it..." he sounds amused by you getting scared. "You're heart is beating so fast..." he have you in his embrace from your back. "Sorry if I scared you... I was just waiting for you to get close..." he sniffs you by the neck. "I didn't thought that you'll turn off the TV..."
"Well... me too...I didn't noticed that your mini light weren't open... now it's completely dark."
"Just turn on the TV again so we can see..." he snuggles onto you more while he wrap his arm around your torse. "You're wearing a blouse?" He asks as he let his hands feel your top.
"I came straight from work..." you say. "I was so worried about you when I read your message..."
"Sorry if I got you worried..." his slides two of his fingers between the gap of your buttoned up blouse. "Mingi and Seonghwa took care of me well... but the reason why I did texted you still is because.. I miss you..." his fingers gently touches your breast. "I miss you so bad." He breathes in your scent from your nape
"I miss you too..." you take his other free hand and kisses his knuckle. "You're schedule have been hectic and I got bit busy too..."
"I'm free tomorrow and on sunday..." he hums, brushing his lips all over your exposed neck. "Stay with me..." he breathe the words as he turns your head towards him so he could kiss you. "Your lipgloss... taste like cherry..." you could hear him smile as he pulls away from the kiss
"Sannie... I need light... I want to see you..."
"You do?" He suddenly lets you go
"Hey!" You try to catch on and grab him as he moves away but you lost balance and fell off the bed. "Aw!!" Your knee hit the frame of the bed.
"Baby!" San panics and hurriesly switches on the soft light from the side of his bed.
You are wearing a black skirt with a slit on the side. And the expose knee hit the edge of the bed real hard.
"Does it hurt?"
"Yeah..." you are holding on to your knee. "It will be fine... though I'm sure I'll get a bruise..."
"Baby... I'm sorry." San grabs your face and kisses you on the lips and then on both cheeks.
"Hey... I hurt my knee...not my lips..." you chuckle.
A smile spreads across his lips and his cute dimple showing. "Please... stay..." Then he goes to kiss you again making you smile.
"Okay... But..." you raise your index finger and taps the tip of his nose. "No sex..."
"What? Why???" He pouts
"Well... unless we're not alone." You sit down and suddenly remember how embarassed you felt earlier. "Just... I don't want them to hear us..."
"But they already did..."
"You know?!?"
"Baby, how can they not? We are loud... what do you expect?"
"Fuck!" You fall down on his bed, face down. "No! I didn't want them to hear." You mumble over his duvet.
"Baby..."
You suddenly got up. "No... control yourself okay? No sex... until we are completely alone."
"You're saying that but your face shows you are not happy with what you're trying to implement." San burts to a laugh looking at your troubled expression
"Fuck! I miss you too and of course... I nee-- no... I wan--- no..." you are trying to breathe in and breathe out. "No... I'm here to cuddle and take care of you. We can play games and watch movies... to divert ourselve."
"Whatever you say, baby." San leans in and kisses you on the lips again. "I'll do whatever you say..." he hums those words like he's testing if you will break seconds into your pep talk.
"Don't lure me, Sannie. You already opened my blouse... yes... but no..." you smile into the kiss...
"I can try again later." He then pinches your cheek as he pulls away from the kiss. "I love you."
#yuyu1024#ateez imagines#ateez x reader#ateez x y/n#ateez fanfiction#ateez fanfic#atz x reader#ateez smut#ateez x female reader#kpop fanfic#san x you#san imagines#choi san#san x reader#ateez san#ateez fluff#san smut#san fluff#kpop imagines#kpop au#kpop x y/n#kpop x reader
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â„đđ§ If you let me
đŠčWarnings: fem!reader, p in v sex, smoking, mentions of sex work, pet names (ex. Baby) , Dom!Yami x sub!Reader
đŠčWord Count: 1.4k
đ«§: Hope everyone had a good new yearđ«¶đŸsorry for the late post and any errors
Summaryá Captain Yami walks in on the crews biggest prude trying to please herselfâŠ
âA bit scandalous, no?â you muttered.
Your eyes fixed on the figure in the mirror. A pink long sleeved shirt, that happened to be snug enough to accentuate your large breasts, wrapped your torso. Below, a white and pink plaid flounce skirt stopped inches above the knee.
âScandalous my ass!â Vanessa shouted, âyouâre a black bull not some fuckin child librarian itâs okay to show some skin. Live a little.â
Turning your back to the mirror you gasped quietly. Heat rushed to your face and just as swiftly your hands covered your ass that poked out too much.
âAbsolutely not!â, you pressed your back to the mirror checking that none of the guys were around, âthis is far to risquĂ©! I need a cardigan better yet Iâll just put on my usual attire.â
Noelle scoffed with her arms folded tight, âthe dark corduroys that make you look like an old hag not happening. You need to loosen up and stop being so modest.â
âMânot,â you said more to yourself.
âReally? You had us wait almost an hour when we took a trip to the beach last month because you didnât want to put on a bikini,â Magna spat entering the room with Yami. His eyes roamed your body as he listened to his junior. By then your face nearly stung from the heat. You held onto your shoulders as if shielding your exposed breast from his hungry eyes. More self aware and self conscious than before.
âWhat Miss Vanessa had to offer was no more than a mere pile of jumbled up string and cloth patches not swim wear.â You spat through gritted teeth, âI would have stayed with the novels in my chamber if I knew this was what I was walking into.â Putting out an old cigarette the captain pushed the burning side into a black ashtray that had the logo. You stopped mid march back to your part of the hideout at his assertive tone. His words smashing bits of your heart.
âYou could use an upgrade. You walk around here lookin like a grandma who gave up on herself. The least you could do is change your wardrobe.â Yami grunted with a chuckle. The whites in your eyes blackened as they narrowed in on him. With that he knew to drop the banter. Knowing there would be no financial benefit in having yet another âaccident.â
âThe hell do you know old man,â your voice was like venom.
The heavy door slammed behind you locking automatically. Your knees hit the floor of the bedside as a sob ripped through your body. Cries muffled as your face shoved into the mattress and your hands caressed the cotton sheets. Aching echoed in your chest as it always did when he made those snide remarks. Those stupid fucking jokes.
Too sensitive, too rule abiding, too by the book, too much of a goody two shoes to even notice
You were so sick of hearing it all but you couldnât go back to the way you were. Before the Black Bulls. Before the grimoire. He knew what you were. The things you did to survive yet he still sang those hurtful words. At one point you were convinced he actually forgot about your past and why he really recruited you.
Tap tap tap
âScrew off!â
Yami was the only person to use his fingertips instead of knocking like any normal person would.
âWhy do you always take shit so personal?â He sighed.
Silence.
âI know youâre in there, don't ignore me.â
Again there was nothing from your end.
âSpeak or Iâm coming in, that's an order,â he hand tightened around the door knob.
âLeave me alone captain,â you said hardly above a whisper. You didnât bother lifting your head from the initial spot.
âIâm sorry.â A genuine apology. His footsteps echoed from your door down the hall until they disappeared behind his. It felt like hours passed by at lightning speed. The sun that once sat in a blue sky left it in a variety of pinks and orange. You dared to peek over your arm to adjust your vision to the lights in the bright room. The clothes you wore were cautiously peeled off.
Eyes gawked at the sight in the mirror. Wearing the borderline non-existent undergarments the girls gifted for your birthday. Cranberry red thongs made of pure silk with a matching push up bro that covered no more than the tip of your areola. There was only one way you knew how to drown the pain.
With pleasure.
Toys of different varieties, sizes and uses dropped on a pillow. Choosing two you lubed up the flame printed butt plug and inserted it. A low hum vibrated in your throat. Something you received from your favorite client. The sweet stretch reminding you of the first time Fuegoleonâs thick cock barreled its way into you. How he introduced you to anal play.
âFuck,â you swore plopping down atop the clear dildo. Trying to remember how sex with another human felt. Imagining that it was Yamiâs pretty cockhead you were screwing yourself on and not some stupid piece of silicone. Alas it didnât work. Not this time nor last time or the time before that. Masterbation was a skill set you never mastered. As someone who used to get railed for money you relied on others to give you orgasms.
A growl of irritation rumbled in the room as the back of your head sunk in the pillow. Legs still spread wide open.
Why was it always so hard to please yourself?
You plunged the toy back in your pussy thinking of him, the captain's name spilling from your mouth repeatedly as the excitement pulled to your core. So close, your walls fluttered around the thing.
âReady to talk-â Yami stood in the door frame wide eyed. His cigarette fell to the floor from between his lips. The door automatically shut behind him from any other onlookers. âIs this whyâŠI heard you calling for me..â
Pure humiliation. Thatâs the only way to put it.
âYami,â you searched your brain for words, âplease.â He knew what you meant. Knew youâd been avoiding sex like it was the plague. Avoiding any man who showed you the slightest bit of interest. Knew you felt dirty for wanting to be touched.
âI canât do it alone,â you whispered, âbut I, Captain..â
âYou did what you had to,â his fingertips trailed up your legs stopping between your thighs making you shudder, âit doesnât make you a bad person.â
His fingers replaced the dildo and you swore for a minute you saw stars. Moans found their way out. âWhen I found you all bloody in that alleyway I knew I had to take you in,â his fingers made contact with that spot that had your eyes rolling back. And when his thumb rubbed circles on your clit, âI had to protect you.â
Your release was beyond shattering. Causing you to clench around his fingers, loosen up and clench once more.
âYou deserve to be loved too,â his lips met yours as he climbed over you, âloved on.â He said lowly nipping at your ear.
âYami..please,â was all you could muster. Hands unbuttoning his tented pants. His cock sprung to his belly button upon release. âNeed you now.â
âI know baby I know,â he fixed himself between your legs thrusting inside you. Just sex you told yourself. He just wanted sex.
He didnât.
It was always you he wanted. Got himself off too. Pictured bearing his offspring. Even if you did have an awful sense of style to blanket your promiscuous past.
He pulled back excruciatingly slow driving his hips back into you. âYou feel so good,â he kissed your neck, âlook so pretty.â He fucked into you harder and the sounds of your cries only confirmed he had you getting closer to cumming.
Yami threw your legs over his shoulders thrusting uncontrollably. Only slowing down when you tightened around his cock leaving your cream at the base of it. Rocking his body into yours until he pulled out sliding between your thighs as he nutted on your stomach.
His thumb grazed over your bottom lip. Blush pouring over his face and chest. You watched his lips move as he mumbled your name and your heart skipped a beat at what he said after.
âYes.â You answered with a smile creeping across your mouth.
#black clover x black reader#black clover x poc reader#black reader#Yami x black reader#Yami x poc reader#yami x reader#black women#brown skin#dark skin#light skin#poc reader#black clover#captain yami
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Boba Fett w gun play? I feel like heâd definitely appreciate a reader who knows his way around a blaster haha.
Boba Fett x male reader
headcanons
I can imagine Boba likes a partner who knows their way around any weapon. This is bounty hunter Boba, before he ends up in the sarlacc. I just think Boba being so turned on by his partner being dangerous is so Mandalorian.
You were a fellow bounty hunter, your specialty was force users and the highly skilled. This didnât mean you just hunted Jedi, but all force users, and by God were you good at it.
You and Boba met when put on the same bounty, some extremely skilled warlord that ruled an entire cluster of planets. Working together you guys were able to take him down, and Boba got the first glance of how skilled you were with a blaster.
After that you two became allies, then friends, and then lovers. It was a slow process, as bounty hunters donât trust easy, especially other bounty hunters. But Boba was younger at the time, and cockier than he is in the future, so he doesnât give up.
Even before you guys started dating, seeing you fight always left him feeling heated and hot blooded, his codpiece fitting uncomfortably with how hard it made him to see you flip your blaster in and out of its holster and switch to a different weapon.
He knew he was head over heels when you pointed a blaster in one of the gaps in his armor, digging it into his flightsuit and leaving a mark, threatening to kill him right then and there. And instead of fear, he felt like he was gonna burst inside his flightsuit.
It was better than any adult entertainment for Boba to see you cleaning your blasters. To see you take them apart piece by piece, clean them up, and click it back together again, always had him panting to himself.
It takes a bit for you to realize just what kind of effect you have on Boba. Because of his cockier attitude and just being younger than he is in the Mandalorian series, hes got a higher drive and is more grabby.
Itâs not unusual for Boba to come up behind you and squeeze your hips and ass, or for him to say all kinds of dirty things over comms during bounties. But he is especially twitchy and antsy when you show off.
It hits you just how much he likes it when he walks into your shared room to see you sitting there in nothing but your boxers, trying to fix a jam in one of your blasters, and he turns right on his heel to march into the fresher to get off.
Even when he comes back out of the fresher without his armor, he still stares a little too intensely when you finally fix the blaster. If he hadnât just gotten off, Boba would probably have popped a stiffy again.
From then on you start to show off on purpose, using a blaster when you donât actually need too, or maybe handling your weapons a little more lewdly.
Like, theres no reason for you to lick one of your knives, or use spit to clean up a spot on your blaster, but you do it anyways, just to see Boba start shuffling around, trying to be subtle about how hard it makes him.
Boba would realize you had him figured out pretty damn fast, because you make a habit out of staring him in the eyes when you are cleaning up the barrel of your blasters with a rag, making sure it gets real clean and shiny.
Neither of you really say anything, and maybe thatâs a problem that comes with you both being younger adrenaline hungry bounty hunters, as you guys donât discuss kink a whole lot either.
One day when you guys are getting steamy, nothing too extreme, just Boba pressed up against the wall, his codpiece off, and flight suit opened, one of your hands twisting and jerking his length, you put your blaster into the mix.
With your other hand, you press the cold barrel of the blaster against his cock, making Bobaâs eyes shoot open and immediately look down, his noises growing louder and hungrier, his hips twitching, and pupils blown huge.
He ends up cumming all over your blaster, which you just tsk about and complain about, but you both know its just all for show.
Sometimes to make Boba more desperate, you donât even have to use the blaster in any way. It just being visible on your belt as him awake and aware, you pretty much pavlov him to get a stiffy when you walk around in little clothes and your blaster on you.
One of Bobaâs favorite things you do, is when you make him hold your blaster in his mouth. The safety is always on of course, and its never actually turned on, but it always has his eyes rolling and his cock dripping.
You probably end up with a blaster just for this, since you canât let Boba slobber all over your actually good blasters, since it could ruin the technology. It is pretty hot to see him flatting his tongue around the barrel like heâs sucking you off though, so sometimes youâll use your favorite blaster on him.
When heâs older, after the sarlacc, he still has a thing for blasters, and just weapons in general. If you end up allowed to use a garderffii stick by the Tuskens, it gets him as hot and bothered as your blasters used to do in your younger years.
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Same as it ever was 9
Warnings: this fic will include dark content such as neglect, bullying, manipulation, cheating, and possible untagged elements. My warnings are not exhaustive, enter at your own risk.
This is a dark!fic and explicit. 18+ only. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.
Summary:Â Between your home life and work, you just canât catch a break. Especially after you draw the ire of your boss.
Characters:Â Lloyd Hansen ft. Pete Brenner
Note: was thinking of this one all night.
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Youâre left breathless in the echoes of pleasure. You lost count but that hardly matters. A foggy daze falls over you, stars in your eyes that make the world a little brighter despite the dimming evening. You heave and brace the back of the leather seat as Hansen pushes himself straight, looming just outside the open door.
âCome on,â he demands as he tugs your panties free from your ankle, âwe got places to be, kitty cat.â
You murmur and sit up, your thighs and cunt exposed to the chilly air. You could sleep right then and there. As the afterglow fades, the days, weeks, years of exhaustion set in. You slide to the edge and struggle to pull your skirt down as you stand, stepping into the shoes thatâd fallen forgotten to asphalt.
Hansen holds up your panties, white and puffy like a parachute. Youâre embarrassed at the sight of the cheap bargain store briefs. You try to snatch them but he keeps them out of your grasp. He tuts and points his index in your face, keeping you at a distance.
âThe next time Iâm done there, youâre not wearing these,â he crumples them and throws them into the gravel, âpreferably none, but if you insist, I like lace. Or crotchless.â
âMr. Hansenââ
âThis isnât a conversation,â he snaps his fingers and pushes back his sleeve to check his watch. âThat was fucking tasty but Iâm starving,â he drops his arm and reaches to snap shut the back door behind you, âletâs go.â
âUh, sir whereââ
âNumber one,â he holds up a finger as he marches around the car, âno fucking questions. I say, you do. Number two, I donât like to repeat myself. Dinner.â
âI thoughtâŠâ you let the statement fizzle out. He doesnât care what you think and it doesnât matter. You wonât lie and say youâre not hungry.
You clamp your mouth shut and get in the passenger seat. As you lower yourself down, you sit on something unexpected, realizing what it is as Hansen squeezes your ass from below. You look at him and he snickers, dragging his hand out slowly.
âYou know, I donât mind the extra luggage you got in the trunk,â he taunts, âor the thighs. Keeps my ears warmââ
You grimace. Heâs so disgusting, yet what about you? Even as his words repulse you, you feel that twinge in your core. You can feel the tingle of his tongue on your cunt at only the suggestion. Youâre trying to remember the last time Pete made you cum like that. Or at all. You canât.
âAlso, dresses. Something just below the ass with a good view of the tatas,â he turns the engine, his eyes over the wheel as he steers with one hand, âIâm sure you can dig something up that makes my balls tight.â
You shake your head and look out the window, âyes, sir.â
âKeep that up too. I just twitched.â
You repress an âughâ. For a man who gives such good head, he compensates a bit too much. He could shut up and be a perfectly charming guy. Maybe shave too.
âDonât fucking mope,â he warns, âI served you dessert before dinner. You should be fucking bouncing⊠in more ways than one.â
You swallow and turn your head straight, pushing your shoulders back. You mutter another acquiescence. Reality sinks back in. You left your family for this. To cheat.
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The restaurant is nice enough to make you want to disappear. You donât belong here. You havenât been to a place in the last twelves years that didnât have colouring mats or booster seats. Even before you had kids, even before you married, you couldnât say youâd been anywhere as refined as this.
The hostess doesnât seem to notice your displacement. Her beaming smile is warm and welcoming and her tone is almost soothing. You wait for your boss to follow her first but he gestures you ahead of him. You precede him at the heels of the tall brunette, her slim figure moving as if on a catwalk.
You barely hold in a squeak as Hansen gropes your ass suddenly. You flinch but keep from stumbling. You expect him to be distracted by the statuesque young thing in front of you. Heâs probably just teasing you. Making a point that isnât as flattering as it seems. He could have her instead so take it.
The brunette introduces herself as Lilianna and seats you at a booth. She proclaims a server will be with you shortly and sets back to her station at the door. You sidle onto the bench as Hansen slides in on the other side. He crowded you as his cologne wafts towards, that and another scent you donât want to think about.
âWine,â he picks up the smaller leather folio, âyou look like you need it.â
You donât say a word as you glance over. The brands are unknown to you, the types a bunch of nonsense to your uncultured self, and no prices suggest a number youâd rather not know. You glance around as he hems and haws over the cabernet.
You see pretty young women and men in finely tailored suits. Their voices babble in the low din as glasses clink. Your eyes flick up the small chandelier that hangs over your table. This isnât a favour, this isnât romantic, this is him showing you all he has and all you donât. Itâs a statement. He has everything in the palm of your hand, including you and your livelihood.
You shift on the seat and he leans back, stretching his arm up and over before bringing it down behind you. He forces it between you and the leather cushion and rests it at the top of your ass. He pulls you close.
âRelax,â he sneers, âdonât be thinking about your fucking family. You think about me.â
You nod and rest your hands on the edge of the table. He doesnât realise thatâs exactly what youâre fighting to do. You donât want to think about your kids having cheap chicken nuggets that your husband burnt at home. You donât want to think about the man you married at all. Not because you feel guilty, which you do to your bones, but because it hurts. This is what youâve become; no better than him.
âLook, Iâm making you a good deal,â Hansen cackles, âall you gotta do is play with it on the way home.â He pauses and looks down dragging his hand across his lap. The bulge beneath the fabric is all too obvious, âyou know Iâm not a patient man, sugar cakes, but Iâll fucking wait.â
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Hansen groans as you pump your hand over his lap. Your knuckles brush his zipper each time you descend. You strain awkwardly between the sets, shoulder aching from the tortured angle. He huffs and puffs as he grips the wheel, swerving carelessly around other cars.
âFuck,â he snarls, âthatâs good.â
You shudder and focus on your task. You figure itâs easier to frame it like that. Just an extension of your work. You do your work, get it over with, and get to go home.
âWith hands like yours, I bet that cunt is heaven,â he purrs as he pushes himself back in the seat, arms straight as he rocks his hip into your touch.
You stay silent as you play with him. Heâs as easy to toy with as any man. Maybe itâs just a skill. Itâs always easier to just get Pete off as quickly as you can so you can go to sleep. Much preferable to his nagging and sulking. Wow, it shouldnât have taken an affair to realise how unhappy you truly are.
âPeachy keen,â he peels a hand away from the wheel and grasps your shoulder, âput your mouth on me.â He slides his hand behind your head, urging you down, âI donât want a mess so you swallow it up.â
You canât protest. You donât even bother. You bend over the space between the seats and go into a trance. You donât think as you bob your head in time with your hand. You try not to feel as your core thrums at your own degrading actions. You are both disgusted and thrilled by your pathetic deference to this man.
âThatâs it,â he strokes the back of your neck, âfuckâŠâ
The car jerks and you nearly gag as he slips a bit too far down your throat. As he keeps his foot on the brake and cars speed past with angry honking, he pushes you down. You move your head as much as you can as you urge him through his climax.Â
It explodes from his tip, drowning you as you struggle to gulp it down. As you puff through your nostrils, you can smell his cum. You suck him clean as he quakes and lets his hand slip away from your head. He slackens and pants as he leans against the seat.
You pull off of him and wipe your mouth with the back of your hand. Your palm is slimy and cools quickly. You stir around in your purse until you find a used tissue, trying to clean yourself off as best as you can.
âMy fucking god,â he exclaims, âyou really donât look like you can suck a dick but damn was I wrong.â
You roll your eyes, your irritation hidden in the evening hue. He sighs and claps his hands on his chest. He wiggles his hips.
âDo me up,â he demands like a spoiled child.
You hold in a sigh as you obey. You tuck him away and zip up his fly, hooking the button before buckling his belt back across his waist. He chuckles as you sit back.
âWhen you get in tomorrow, I want you to go straight to my office,â he instructs, âget naked and wait under the desk. Iâd like some of that with my morning coffee.â
You cringe as you cross your arms, âyes, sir.â
âYou should be flattered,â he tuts as he shifts back into gear, âI donât keep girls around much longer than it takes their spit to dry on my dick.â
You shudder and look out the window. Your insides curdle at more than his gross statement. At least the kids will be asleep by the time you get home. You wonât have to lie to their faces.
âDonât forget your leftovers,â he chortles as he pulls back into traffic, âsure the hubby wonât complain for a nice sirloin.â
You sniff and bend to gather your purse and to-go container off the floor. You sit up stiffly and flick the edge of the cardboard container with your thumb. You hope Pete is asleep too but youâre not counting on that. Maybe the steak will be a good treat to assuage his suspicions.
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The house is quiet as you enter. You do your best to maintain the lull. You move slowly, leaving your shoes and purse with your coat at the door.Â
You tiptoe into the kitchen and place the leftovers on the counter. A hint of Hansenâs cologne roils off of your blouse. The scent makes you sick. It also makes you tingle.
You wade through the silence, through the front room and into the main bath. You need to wash the night off. Wash him off.
You undress in front of the mirror but refuse to acknowledge your reflection. You leave the clothes in a heap on the tile and try to stretch out the tension in your back. You twist the faucet and flip on the shower head. You wait until steam rises before you step under the downpour.
You sigh out some of the stiffness in your shoulders. You roll them back and close your eyes, tilting your head up to let the hot flow slake over you. That rare moment of peace canât last. You know it wonât.
You wash yourself with your hand. Your scrubbie is still in the upstairs bathroom. You wash away the scented soap and with a clean hand, try to rinse away the remnants of the night from between your legs. Youâre still tender and wet. Fuck.
You stretch your fingers wide and drag your hands down your face, turning away from the shower head to let it patter onto your back. You groan but choke on the noise as a shadow passes on the other side of your eyelids. As you flick your lashes up, you nearly scream.
Pete steps past the curtain, naked, as he smirks at you. What the hell is he doing?
âYouâre home,â he purrs as he reaches for you. The space is so cramped you have no choice but to let him grab your hips, âIâve been waitingââ
âWhat do you want?â You put your hands on his wrists.
âBabe,â he whines, âI wanna make it up to you,â his eyes drift down your body, âyouâre still fucking gorgeous, you know thatââ
âGet off,â you grumble as you push on his arms. He doesnât falter. Heâs stronger than you. You let yourself look at him; heâs still in shape, he has the time to fuck off to the gym with that girl. âHow many times do I have to tell youââ
âIt was a mistake. It was nothing, please. I love you so much. Iâm stupid, you know that.â
âPete, stopââ
âCome on. You go off all night and Iâm not mad, babe. I babysatââ
âBabysatâ youâre their father, Pete. You did your job,â you slap your hands against his chest and for a moment, you hesitate. You remember the days when you longed for this. For him. You shake your head and shove him again, âlet me go. Iâm tired.â
âPlease,â he steps closer, wrapping you up in his arms, trapping you, âplease, babe, let me show you how much I love you.â He pleads as he tries you kiss you, âpleaseâŠâ
You turn your head back and forth as his mouth smears across your cheeks. You wriggle and squirm, trying to break free from him. Your skin crawls, not only at his embrace but at yourself. It isnât just your own deceit, itâs your very body. Feeling your soft loose flesh against his firm muscle sickens you.
âLet me go,â you hiss as the shower head pelts your back and shoulders, âPete, itâs late and I want to go toââ you push your elbows into him, âbed.â
âPleaseââ he begs again.
You pinch him and he cries out. He lets you go suddenly and your feet slip on the porcelain. You cry out as you flail trying to catch yourself. He rubs his stomach where you pinched him as you fall, the faucet smashing into your back as you whimper. Your ass hits the shower floor just as hard and you reach to rub your tailbone.
âHoney, are you okayââ
âI told you to leave me alone!â You holler up at him, âget out! Go!â
He stammers, staring down at you. He has the nerve to be rock hard. You try to ignore that as he looms over you.
âI hate you,â you snarls into a sob as pain radiates up your flesh, âgo away.â
You keep your head down as you move gingerly around to your knees. You turn off the water and wait. The shower curtain rings against the metal bar and his wet feet slap the tile. He huffs as he stomps out. You shake as you sit back and whine again.
You donât know what hurts more; the bruises that will rise to the surface by morning or your husbandâs lack of culpability. He can do whatever he wants but you, you have to suffer the consequences.
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Prompt: âHey, hey, shhhh. Shhhh. Youâre okay.â
Pairing: CrozBrady
TW: disordered eating, vomiting, recovery from starvation
The doctors tell them it's going to take a while for them to tolerate food like they used to.
Itâs almost a given, especially after watching Hambone choke down more canned meat than heâd had in two years and then puke it up into the snow whilst they marched, but itâs still more difficult than Brady anticipated to adjust to eating regularly when they get back to England. He manages to not make himself sick, but itâs a near thing a few times, and his stomach protests at the unfairness of food finally being available but being denied. Then comes the other side of the coin, the fact that he doesnât actually even realize when heâs hungry anymore, or when heâs full. Eating becomes something between a gamble and a science.Â
He weathers it well, though, because thatâs what theyâre all doing, slowly readjusting with the idea that theyâre fine, theyâre not hurting, that the Stalag was just a bad dream or a big adventure. They cling to the idea that theyâre returning heroes, and not suffering, broken, shells of the men they were.
Which all leads to John Brady staring at the bag of oranges on his bed like theyâre a mirage.
He had breakfast this morning, toast and juice and even a little bit of bacon, but that was hours ago. He might be hungry now. He should be hungry now. He can manage an orange. He wants to manage an orange, and can feel his mouth salivating despite the lack of hunger signals just at the sight of the fresh fruit. The first orange heâs seen since leaving the states. As a child he had loved oranges, would bite through the thick skin with his teeth before ripping them open with his thumbs. Heâd spit the pips out as he went, competing with himself for how far he could get them.
The need to be that child again, just for a moment, makes the decision for him, and he takes one of the oranges.
Itâs sweet and tart and perfect. The flesh tastes like summer and home and joy, and Bradyâs pretty sure he moans a little as he swallows. There are barely any pips to stop and spit out, the ones he does collecting by his thigh, and soon the whole orange is devoured.
This is where he should stop, pause like the doctors told him to try and read his body, but his mouth is still stinging with juice and desire, so he snatches another like the bag is about to be ripped from him. It disappears just as fast, and so does the third. Heâs on his way through his fourth when his throat seizes, his stomach cramps, and he forces himself very, very still. Heâs panting, he realizes, has been between bites like some kind of feral animal. There are dark spots dancing in his vision.
His stomach cramps again, tight and warning, and the saliva gathering at the back of his mouth is definitely no longer a sign of hunger.Â
He makes it to the waste bin just in time.
Brady heaves into it on his knees until thereâs just bile coming up. It burns the back of his throat, leaves him feeling shaky as a newborn kitten, and he slumps on the floor with his forehead on the rim of the trashcan. The door to the barracks opens, and Brady cringes at being found like this by anyone, even the guys who had been in the Stalag and had seen much worse.
âShit, John, is that you?â
Fuck.
Brady doesnât have the strength to look up as Croz rushes over to kneel beside him. A gentle hand lands on his back.
âAre you okay? What happened? Should I get the doc?â
The questions all come out in a rush, and Brady feels himself get so overwhelmed he retches again. More bile. More shaking. When it passes he realizes heâs not only trembling, but crying, tears rolling down his face as he thinks about the fact that heâll probably never be able to eat another orange without thinking about this, about being folded over in the barracks with the sour smell of vomit in his nose because he canât eat a few pieces of fruit without consequences anymore.Â
Itâs stupid, itâs so stupid, he tells himself, but it feels so deeply unfair to have another thing stolen from him, and he just canât seem to stop crying-
âI gotcha, I gotcha,â Croz says, gently tucking an arm around him and maneuvering him upright to rest against his chest. Heâs rubbing soothing little circles along his spine that just seem to make Brady cry harder. His chin tucks over Crozâs shoulder, and he turns his face into his neck like he can hide there. âHey, hey, shhhh. Shhhh. Youâre okay. Itâs alright. Youâre gonna be alright, John.â
âFucking oranges,â Brady manages to hiss, his sobbing losing force as it saps the last of his energy.
Croz makes a soothing noise, then an upset one. He keeps rubbing Bradyâs back.
âShit, Iâm sorry. Was meant to be a present, I didnât know youâd get sick.â
How sad Croz sounds, how guilty, breaks his heart. Sniffling, he pushes himself back, wiping his face with the back of his hand until Croz passes him a handkerchief.
âNot your fault,â Brady mutters. âWas me not having any goddamn self-control-â
Laughter from Croz cuts him off, and he scrapes together enough energy to glare at the navigator. Thereâs a wet patch on his shoulder that Brady quickly looks away from.
âI donât think anybodyâs expecting you to have self-control right now, John.â
Bradyâs pride prickles at that, but Croz is watching him so softly, so warmly, that the fight goes out of him instantly.
âThanks for the oranges,â he says instead, so he doesnât have to hear Croz talk more about how he should cut himself some slack. âIâm sorry I threw most of them up.â
Croz laughs him off again and gets to his feet, holding out a hand to help Brady off of the floor. His knees wobble treacherously, but Croz steadies him with an arm around his waist. It brings them hip to hip, nose to nose, and Croz presses a kiss to Bradyâs cheek even though he knows he has to reek of vomit.
âDonât sweat it. Christ knows youâve dealt with me throwing up more than enough.â
#thank you for sending this prompt i hope you enjoy <3#i think im definitely muddling some timelines here so im sorry but still!#masters of the air#nathan writes#bradycroz#mota#fic#harry crosby#john brady
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