#huling sandali

[mademoisellebianx]

Part 2 / ?

Update to that comic I previously uploaded! I've tagged the first one as 'Huling Sandali' which will be my official tag for this :)

[his-saiko]

At sa bawat minutong, ako'y di natulog.

Ipikit man ang mata, ikaw pa rin ang kita ko!

Ikaw ang nas'aking isip anumang sandali.

Kasalanan na ng puso kong ika'y sigaw pa rin...

[starseungs]

a phoenix's ashes. ksm.

kim seungmin x gn!reader — from a love that burned bright to a love that fell like ashes. only a sincere wish from the heart would make a love twice as better rise from its remains.

genre/s — exes to lovers, second chance, angst with a happy ending, pianist!seungmin, violinist!reader • 1.5k words

warning/s — not much other than pain, lack of communication as a theme

note — another seungmin fic because i need to get over this man 🧍‍♀️ its messing with my brain chemistry... | song inspos are « i don't want to watch the world end with someone else - clinton kane » and « huling sandali - december avenue »

2024 ⓒ starseungs on tumblr. do not steal, repost, or edit.

In the windows of your sight, the view tints green.

They were a startling contrast to the bright white lights illuminating the stage ahead. It framed the picture of the scene well, you suppose. With the two performers seemingly glowing in the tints of yellow provided by the Brazilian maple flooring. You couldn’t help but be mesmerized by one of the two, who was donning a beautifully polished violin in her hands. The strings sang in delight as the woman delivered the intricately thought-out vibrations to all those who could hear. 

And those who did, listened. Down to every last sound.

To word it in the simplest way you could muster, it would have to be perfect. The type of playing every person who has learned the violin even once has dreamed of achieving. A small but content smile makes itself known on your face as desires and memories paint themselves in splashes. You were once like that; you hummed to no one in particular. Acknowledgement lost in the silence of muted praises. The green you were presented with made much more sense in the moment of awareness.

Envy. It was an emotion you've come to know, admittedly very well. Drips of resentment seeped through the river of flowing emotions that were overwhelming you. Despicable as it was, you let it be. After all, it was what kept you grounded. Only a fool would discard an anchor when heading into the chaotic sea. The precaution may not always apply—especially not in the depths of the darkest waters—but the thought is what keeps a lost sailor hopeful with the dreams of land.

A certain ring of a key brought you back to the moment at hand. In what seems like a flash, your eyes lost sight of the violinist you were dedicating your absolute attention to. Instead, your gaze shifted to her side, where a male was sitting in front of a sleek black grand piano. The furrowing of your eyebrows proved to be an unstoppable action as your mind connected the face to a name. One that you had refused to utter from the moment his figure stepped on stage. A dark, almost black, blue tie hung securely around his neck. It was in a shade that made you shudder with an awful interpretation.

Longing. You deciphered the tingle of desperation. Every piano key he pressed seemed to grow louder in your ears. It almost scared you to think that the pianist would overpower the strings of the violin you adored so much. A clawing feeling sank itself deeper into your skin, wishing to avoid memories of the time when the two sounds co-existed as a symphony. But it was eventually deemed unfruitful as the score ran to its end.

If only—oh, if only you could retrace your steps back to that time. Back when the music floated carelessly through the air. Without fear or judgement of those who were out of the equation. Back to when you loved with a passion. The days that let your heart skip in a melody resembling the piece being played. You let out a silent chuckle.

Maybe in another life. For now, the present will have to do. A soft smile graces your lips once again as you watch the pianist stand, plastering a content-looking smile at his splendid performance. 

You could only clap in respect.

Witnessing the last stage of the day brought an odd feeling. With the hall lights appearing to guide the audience away, the darkness being chased away was akin to multiple weights being lifted off your shoulder. That itself would have been the best way to end your afternoon. 

If only that didn’t mean having to walk under the dimming evening sky.

“You came,” a voice called out. The two words were short and concise. Straight to the point. A statement rather than a question. The frigid tone of someone who, in your memories, was always so warm made you exhale too shakily for your liking. It was humorous, as it was a great complement to the vibrant orange sunset amidst the chilly air of the incoming night.

The pavement crackled under your feet. “And you made it,” you stated back. His stare shot straight into yours from the minute you turned around. “Congratulations, Seungmin. You did well out there.”

“Even if it’s not the same?”

“What was there to be mourned about? The dynamics sounded heavenly in my ears,” you admitted. The moment of hesitation before your last sentence lingered in the air. You watched a lone leaf swing downward in the space between the two of you.

His next words were spoken through gritted teeth. “It could have been better.”

“Seungmin, you should know by now that I’m never going to be the mind reader you expect me to be.” You sighed in defeat. “I could know you, but I could never be you. So, tell me what you actually want to say.”

“That’s exactly what it is,” he spits out. “You knew me too well that I let myself take advantage of the security you gave me. But that didn’t mean you had to break what you’ve built for yourself just because of me! How much more selfless do you want to be, to the point that you become a selfish coward!”

A car rushed by the barren sidewalk the both of you stood on. The sun had long since been gone, replaced by the moon to be the sole spectator in the exchange between two old flames. Lines of streetlights resembled the lights on the stage you had abandoned, imitating previous performances you once shared with Seungmin. You clenched your fists at the flashes of memory.

“You can’t just hold on to the past like that, Seungmin—”

“Not if it was the present and future that I wanted!” He cries out. “You would never understand what I had to go through when you stepped off that stage for good. The endless nights that I thought to myself, how you could just make that decision like it was nothing. But in the end, it was just me refusing to acknowledge that you had given up. You gave up on me. On us.”

The spear that had lodged in your heart long ago started moving again. You had so much to tell him—that you couldn’t. Not when your conversations with the constellations had you blaming yourself the same way he did to his own. It was never about whatever thought Seungmin made into a conclusion on his own. 

It was the complaint-turned-advice that you failed to apply to yourself.

“Stand on stage again, Y/N.” You flinched at the emotional cracks in Seungmin’s voice. “Stand beside me again.”

In that moment, you proved him right once again. Exactly how long are you going to act selfless to shield your selfish cowardice? You claimed that you wanted to be the muse for Seungmin’s harmony. Yet the moment your skills were questioned, you let go of everything without even a second glance. Now, did you really have the right to dictate whether you were enough for Seungmin or not?

“The violin is no longer for me,” was what came out as a whisper. You watched as Seungmin’s eyes glistened to produce clear beads resembling diamonds. Fear that he might have caught on to the undertone of weariness you were trying to hide after a year of endless convincing. “I’ve left it behind me. It’s been a year.”

A storeowner nearby shuts the front doors of his shop.

“Even the person I fell in love with?” Seungmin asks. “The person you were at the beginning of what we used to call us? The person who shone brighter than the high-grade theater lights, no matter who else was beside them? The same person who could never compare to the stars in the night sky with how much they burned with passion? If so, then tell me right here and right now. That the one I loved has long been left behind by the year as well.”

Your hands twitch to grip an imaginary violin and bow.

“Seungmin.” 

“Please,” he pleads desperately. “Break what’s left of the man who loved that version of you. I refuse to let the fragments of what you were continue to be the reason I keep myself understanding of the pain you bring to me. This is my last wish to you, Y/N. Please let my heart hate you as well.”

Something wet fell in droplets right by your shoes.

“I can’t.”

There were streams flowing down your face.

“I haven’t left that version of me behind.”

A bubbling wail makes itself present in your throat.

“I never forgot how much I loved the violin.”

Slow footsteps echoed through the area.

“And especially not how I continued to love you even throughout that one year.”

Warmth. Like the yellow tint emitted from the Brazilian maple flooring when the overhead lights hit it during a performance. Like the heat of the moment when you reach the climax of a piece. You were back in Seungmin’s arms. In the stage where only you and him existed.

Just where you needed to be.

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[yuriririnnie]

Us, On the Last Month of the Year

A/N: Happy New Year! Finally, a fic for my bias. It's mostly rushed and IDK how I was able to not post this before the year ended but here it is anyway.

Also, of course, I wrote this on my phone within just 30 minutes because honestly this wasn't something I was planning on making. I have like 5 stories pending for TXT and Enha but oh well~

NP: Huling Sandali (Tayo sa Huling Buwan ng Taon) by December Avenue

PAIRING | Choi Soobin x Female Reader

WC | 983 words

GENRE | fluff; f2l (duh)

WARNINGS | None

SYNOPSIS | Maybe it was him all along and even if it was obvious for everyone else, it wasn't for you.

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"Happy birthday, Soob." you take his hand as you sat on the swing. It was exactly 12 midnight, December 5th, 2023.

Soobin smiled, circling his thumb on the back of your hand, around your knuckles, his eyes on yours sending a chill down your spine. It was an electrifying feeling, something you've felt before but haven't really acknowledged all these years.

It was the 10th birthday of his you've spent together and the familiarity of it all made you feel warm, a sense of security you only feel when you're with him. It was his birthday but it was you who felt like you were reborn, on this day, like something awakened in you, only now, just when he turned 23. He's been an adult for a while and you too. You spent an entire childhood together, witnessed each other's puberty, and went through the early stages of adulthood, but tonight was something new. You have memorized his every feature being so close to him countless of times though now was different. Physically, you've been closer before, sitting on the couch as you watched anime together, sometimes even chest to chest on the train during the rush hours, one time even nose to nose under your dining table hiding from your parents for when he was being asked to come home after spending an entire play day with you.

Soobin and you. Best friends forever you vowed on his 16th birthday. It has been years since that promise and you've kept it to this day. Now, hand in hand on the swing but at arm's length, you felt like this is the closest you've ever been with him. You looked at each other for a second, but it felt like eternities in his eyes.

Was he always this handsome? Did his eyes always glint this way when he talked about his favorite movies? Were his lips always this plump as he smiled, as he pouted? Did his nose always have that line in the middle that resembled a confused little rabbit? Was his skin always this smooth, and was he always this pale? Were his hands always this gigantic as it held yours? You knew he had dimples, but were they always this deep? Was he always this cute? Did he always have this effect on you?

You don't know at what point of the night and at which part in the midst of this friendship you crossed the thin line of being platonic to romantic. It was always just a tiptoe away, a teeny-tiny push from friends to lovers but never did you think of crossing it because the mere thought of losing him as a friend when you meet your inevitable break up (if you do decide to date at an early time) dreaded you like it was a life sentence. It was the curse you had to live with to keep him by your side.

"Thanks, Y/N." he said, still never letting go, still holding onto that grip you initiated when you plucked up the courage to jump; to painfully rip the friendship tape off of your chest that covered your undying, unplatonic love for him. He loved you, adored you, endured every relationship you guys ever had that wasn't with each other. All that for this very moment, the day you decided to finally break out of that shell and dive into the pool of love.

"I love you, Soobin." your breath was visible in the cold night air. You've said this to him before, but never in this way. And he immediately knew the difference.

The temperature was low but your adrenaline was high. You have never been this brave and you regret the days where you thought you were at your most courageous because Soobin was always your source of strength, the walking talking post of hope, and all-encompassing security blanket you needed when you were afraid. He supported you all your life but you knew this was something you had to confess on your own. It was to him, for him, after all.

His eyes widen in shock, and you were ready to take back your hand, run away, and never speak to him again. The creeping possibility of a rejection rang loud inside your head and it was all you could hear.

But instead of a rejection, you see a smile. You see the gorgeous smile you've always seen before but this time full of relief, affirmation, and happiness. Back then Soobin always showed you how happy he was but he couldn't hide the look of longingness in the way he saw you smile for another. However, tonight, his smile was perfect. He was perfect.

"I love you, Y/N." he chuckled, and you could have sworn you saw his eyes water. "I love you as a woman, as my anchor, a lover, and a best friend."

All these years of being so dense and oblivious to how you felt towards each other came crashing down with just one night, one confession, one hand to hold, and just weeks before the year, your 10th year together ended.

You couldn't believe he was finally yours, and he couldn't believe you were finally his. On the last month of the year, on his birthday, you share your first kiss with your one true love, your rock, your everything, your best friend.

[evietempura]

Blog #1: "Sana ako si Heather": Pagsusuri sa Heathers: the Musical ❤️💛💚💙

Marami sa mga midya ang gumagamit sa pangalan na “Heather”. Isa sa mga halimbawa nito ang kanta ni Conan Gray na “Heather”, na tungkol sa isang babae na perpekto sa mata ng lalaki na mahal ng kumakanta. Ngunit may isang pelikula, na ginawang musikal, na tungkol rin sa hindi isa, hindi dalawa, kundi tatlong Heathers. Pero, hindi gaanong perpekto ang nangyari sa kanila nung pumasok ang isang babae at lalaki na bagong lipat sa paaralan nila. Ano kaya ang nangyari? Alamin natin kung bakit ganito ang nangyari.

Ang “Heathers: The Musical” na idinerekta ni Andy Fickman at isinulat ni Kevin Murphy at Laurence O'Keefe (Heathers: The Musical (TV Movie 2022) ⭐ 7.6 | Comedy, Musical, 2022) isa itong adaptasyon ng pelikulang “Heathers” at sumusunod sa kwento ni Veronica Sawyer, isang senior year na estudyante sa Westerberg High, isang paaralan na nahahati ng matinding pamantayan ng lipunan. Ang tatlong Heathers—Heather Chandler, Heather Duke, at Heather McNamara—sila ang pinakasikat ng mga estudyanteng na may kapangyarihan at kontrol sa antas ng lipunan (Heathers the Musical (Musical) Plot & Characters, n.d.). Nang tinulungan ni Veronica si Heather Chandler sa isang sitwasyon, naging bahagi siya ng grupo at agad na tumaas ang kanyang katayuan sa paaralan. Sa kanta na "Beautiful," ipinapakita kung paano nagbabago ang kanyang buhay mula sa pagiging isang ordinaryong estudyante hanggang sa pagiging isa sa mga pinakakilalang tao sa paaralan.

Habang masaya si Veronica sa kanyang bagong katayuan, dumating sa paaralan si Jason Dean, o JD, isang transferee na may kakaibang pananaw sa lipunan. Hindi tulad ng iba, hindi sumusunod si JD sa mga panuntunan ng paaralan at pinapakita ang kanyang paghihimagsik sa sistema. Unang nakita ang kanyang pagsuway nang labanan niya ang dalawang jocks, na nagustuhan ni Veronica dahil sa kanyang tapang na hamunin ang elitistang pamantayan ng paaralan.

Mula sa kantang "Fight for Me":

"Hey, mister no-name kid So who might you be? And could you fight for me? And hey, could you face the crowd? Could you be seen with me and still act proud? Hey, could you hold my hand? And could you carry me through no man's land? It's fine, if you don't agree But I would fight for you If you would fight for me"

Lyrics (Spotify, n.d.)

Naging romantikong kasangkot ni Veronica si JD, at magkasama nilang hinarap ang mga Heathers at ang sistemang naghahari sa Westerberg High. Ngunit habang tumatagal, naging mas marahas ang mga pamamaraan ni JD. Nag-umpisa ito sa hindi sinasadyang pagpatay kay Heather Chandler sa pamamagitan ng lason, isang insidente na hindi inaasahan ni Veronica.

Sinundan ito ng sunod-sunod na patayan, kung saan ipinakilala ni JD ang kanyang mas madilim na plano—isang radikal na hakbang laban sa mga namamayaning sistema sa paaralan.

Habang lumalala ang sitwasyon, napagtanto ni Veronica ang tunay na panganib ng pagsama kay JD at ang kanyang anarkistang pananaw. Sa kabila ng kanyang damdamin para kay JD, nakitang dapat na itong tapusin upang maiwasan ang mas malaking sakuna. Nauwi ang kwento sa plano ni JD na bombahin ang paaralan upang tuluyan nang mawasak ang hierarchy nito at tanggalin ang lahat ng pamantayan sa lipunan. Tinangka ni Veronica na pigilan ang plano, at sa huling sandali, si JD mismo ang namatay sa pagsabog ng bomba.

Nagtapos ang kwento sa muling pagbuo ng mga relasyon, partikular na ang pagkakasundo ni Martha, isang dating binu-bully, at ni Veronica. Ito ay sumisimbolo sa pagtatapos ng diskriminasyon at pagbasag sa social hierarchy ng paaralan, ipinapakita ang posibilidad ng bagong simula at pagkakapantay-pantay sa Westerberg High.

Nagpapakita ang "Heathers: The Musical" ng mga isyung panlipunan na may kinalaman sa peer pressure, elitismo, at mga pananaw sa rebelyong anarkista. Ipinapakita nito ang umiiral na herarkiya sa kanilang paaralan, katulad ng kung paano ito umiiral sa lipunan, kung saan inilalayo ang mga sikat na estudyante sa mga itinuturing na outcasts. Ang tatlong Heathers, kasama ang mga macho na mga lalake o jocks, kumakatawan sila sa mga sikat o mga elitista sa lipunan. Sila ang may kapangyarihang baguhin ang sistema sa Westerberg High, katulad ng kung paano kayang baguhin ng mga elitista ang pag-uugali ng tao sa pamamagitan ng kanilang impluwensya sa lipunan. Samantala, ang mga tulad ni Martha Dunnstock ang kumakatawan sa mga outcasts, mga taong ginagawang mga alipin ng sistema, na lalong nagpapalala ng kanilang pag-uugali sa lipunan. Kadalasang iniiwasan ang mga outcasts dahil sa kanilang pagiging kakaiba at pagkakaiba sa lipunan. Sa kasamaang-palad, hindi sila umaabot sa mataas na pamantayan ng lipunan pagdating sa kung sino ang matagumpay at may impluwensya, at sino ang wala kundi biktima ng diskriminasyon batay sa antas. Kaugnay ito sa mga elitista na pinapatahimik ang mga taong nagsasalita tungkol sa kontrobersyal na mga paksa, ngunit agad itong harangan dahil sa di umano’y pagiging insensitibo. Ang diskriminasyon laban sa mga taong naiiba at itinuturing na mababa ay kitang-kita sa musikal na ito.

Ito ang dahilan kung bakit ang mga tulad ni JD ay matindi ang damdaming labanan ang mga pagkiling sa Westerberg High. Kinakatawan niya ang mga taong nagpoprotesta para makiisa sa mga outcasts. Bagama’t mali ang kanyang mga pamamaraan, buong-loob siyang lumalaban para kay Veronica, upang baguhin ang masamang sistema at gawing pantay-pantay ang pakikitungo ng mga tao sa isa’t isa sa loob ng paaralan. Ipinapakita nito ang mga outcasts na sumusuong laban sa sistema at tinatanggihan ang mga imposibleng pamantayang panlipunan na tanging iilan lang ang maaaring makamit. Sa pagkamatay ni JD, nabuo ang pagkakaisa nina Veronica at Martha sa kwento.

Bukod sa mga kantang “Beautiful” at “Fight for Me”, mayroon mga kanta na umiiral sa tema nito. Katulad lamang sa “Candy Store” na nagpapaliwanag sa pagpili kung sino ang pinaka-maimpluwensyang. Pinapili si Veronica kung saan siya upang makasama ang mga mas may impluwensya, at hindi sa mga outcasts.

[HEATHERS]

Woah! Woah! Woah!

Honey, whatchu waitin’ for? Welcome to my candy store

Time for you to prove

You’re not a loser anymore, then step into my candy store

[H. CHANDLER & H. MCNAMARA]

Guys fall

[H. DUKE]

At your feet, pay the check

[H. MCNAMARA]

Help you cheat

[HEATHERS]

All you have to do

[H. CHANDLER]

Say goodbye to Shamu

[HEATHERS]

That freak’s not your friend, I can tell in the end

[HEATHERS]

If she had your shot

She would leave you to rot!

Lyrics (Jessica Keenan Wynn, Alice Lee, & Elle McLemore – Candy Store, n.d.)

Maipapakita ang isyung panlipunan sa Heathers gaya sa nangyari sa mga politiko dito sa Pilipinas. Kahit demokrasya ang gobyerno, ang impluwensya sa mayayaman ang mas malakas, kaya hindi ito para sa taong-bayan. Ito ay maaaring ipaliwanag sa pamamagitan ng "Iron Law of Oligarchy". Ipinapaliwanag ng batas na palaging may maliit na bilang ng mga tao sa grupo na talagang gumagawa ng mga desisyon, kahit mayroong awtoridad na gumagawa sa lahat (California State University Northridge, n.d.). Sa musikal na Heathers, nauugnay ito dahil ang kanilang lipunan ay kontrolado ng ilang mga elitista, na nakakakuha ng higit na impluwensya hanggang sa katapusan ng kuwento.

Sa konklusyon, pinapag-usapan ang Heathers: the Musical na tungkol sa diskriminasyon sa mga tao sa lipunan, at mayroon silang mga antas nito. Pero, dapat nating isaisip na ang mga antas ay hindi mahalaga upang magpatuloy sa lipunan. Sa halip, dapat magkaroon ng pagkakaisa sa sistemang ito, at walang sinumang pamantayan ang dapat susundin sa lipunan, dahil ang lahat ay natatangi gaya mo. Sa mga salita ni Veronica, "We can change again", kaya huwag natin tingnan ang ating mga pagkakaiba, at tratuhin ang bawat isa bilang ka-pantay.

Mga Sanggunian:

California State University Northridge. (n.d.). Michels’s Iron Law of Oligarchy [Digital]. https://www.csun.edu/~hbsoc126/soc1/chapter%207%20supplement.pdf Heathers The Musical (Musical) Plot & Characters. (n.d.). StageAgent. https://stageagent.com/shows/musical/6658/heathers-the-musical Heathers: The Musical (TV Movie 2022) ⭐ 7.6 | Comedy, musical. (2022, September 16). IMDb. https://www.imdb.com/title/tt21435716/ Jessica Keenan Wynn, Alice Lee, & Elle McLemore – Candy Store. (n.d.). Genius. https://genius.com/Jessica-keenan-wynn-alice-lee-and-elle-mclemore-candy-store-lyrics Quarantine bootlegs. (2020, July 11). heathers but make it in HD [Video]. YouTube. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNU3LCtnH3c Silva, J. (2023, September 28). Heathers: The Musical: A Look into its Plot, Cast and Influence. The Alley Theater. https://thealleytheater.org/heathers-the-musical/ Spotify. (n.d.). https://open.spotify.com/track/0ChcE4uENOGTEthE5dGaXX?si=252399c62d5b4b62

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[peryodismo2425]

Bateryang Empatetiko: Ang Kawaning Ingat-Yaman ng PKA

Ni Maya Ozo | Nobyembre 9, 2024

Magtatatlong taon nang bahagi ng Pamunuan ng Kamag-Aral (PKA) si Jorge Angelo “Gelo” Parreño ng 10-Lauan sa UP Integrated School at nasa huli na niyang termino. Sa iilang taon niya sa pamumuno, napagtanto niya na sa kaniyang todong pagsisipag at paglilingkod sa iba, mas nawawalan siya ng lakas— parang baterya. 

  Isa si Gelo sa mga kasalukuyang miyembro ng PKA – at itinuturing niya itong pinakamahalagang gampanin niya. Kahit na taunang binabalikan ito ni Gelo, hindi ito nangangahulugang wala na siyang nararanasang paghihirap. Bilang baterya ng PKA, may mga oras na malaki ang ambag niya sa pagpapaandar ng organisasyon, ngunit may mga oras din na kinakailangan niyang magpalakas muli. 

Sa kasalukuyang termino, Assistant Treasurer si Gelo – isang posisyon na ibinalik ng Senior Council (SC) ngayong akademikong taon. Sa lahat ng posisyong pinasok niya, pinakamahirap ang naging lakbay niya sa posisyong ito. Bago pa inilunsad ang halalan, hindi nakapasok si Gelo bilang kandidato. Resulta ito ng kaniyang pagliban ng ilang linggo na sanhi ng mga isyung pangkalusugan. Pagbukas muli ng paaralan sa panibagong akademikong taon, hinirang siya ng SC sa naturang posisyon upang makumpleto ang organisasyon. Ika ni Gelo, mahalaga pa rin ang kaniyang papel sa PKA pagkat maraming ginagawa ang Treasurer. Ito raw ang isa sa mga posisyong hindi talagang makakapagpasa ng trabaho dahil sa kaban na hawak nito. Dahil sa kaniya, mas nasisigurado sila sa bawat desisyong-pinansyal. Bukod pa rito, binibigyang-halaga nila ang opinyon ng isa’t isa. 

Full Charge

Nagsimulang maging student-leader si Gelo noong unang tapak niya sa hayskul. Naging Public Relations Officer siya ng Freshman Association at naimbitahang maging PKA Marshall Boy ng partidong “Tanglaw” noong 2022. Ito ang kauna-unahang taon niya sa PKA, at itinuturing niyang pinakamalaking tagumpay sa UPIS ang pagkapanalo niya rito. Ika niya, “Nagsimula siya ng chain of events,” sa kaniyang pakikilahok sa PKA. Inihayag ni Gelo na nagustuhan niya ito bilang unang posisyon na nahawakan niya sa PKA dahil nagsilbi itong introduksyon sa kabuuang sistema ng organisasyon. 

Sa sumunod na taon, nagtagumpay naman siya sa pagiging Business Manager ng partidong “Hayo”. Ang posisyong ito ang naging paborito niya dahil sa malikhaing aspeto ng trabaho. Nagkaroon siya ng pagkakataong sanayin ang kaniyang kalayaan at pagkamalikhain sa iba’t ibang paraan para makapangalap ng pondo ang PKA. Ngunit, sinigurado niya na mainam pa rin para sa mga estudyante ang mga halaga  ng kaniyang pinagdedesisyunan.

Lowbat

“There’s a likely chance na…masayang lang ‘yung effort namin… although, part ‘yun ng job, nakakapanghina pa rin.”  

Ibinahagi ni Gelo na mula sa higit dalawang taon niyang karanasan, ang huling mga panahon ng pagpaplano at pagsasalang ng mga ideya ang bahagi ng trabaho na hindi niya gaanong nagugustuhan. Nagkakaroon din ng mga pagkakataong nahihirapan ang PKA na sumulong ng panibago at progresibong ideya dahil sa nakatatag na tradisyon sa paaralan. Dito niya naunawaan na bilang PKA, kahit nasa inyo ang responsibilidad at pamumuno, may mga oras talaga na mawawalan kayo ng lakas o kapangyarihan – kapangyarihan sa sariling trabaho at kapangyarihan sa sariling oras na inilaan na lang sa pagtatrabaho. 

       

Charging

“Kung ano ‘yung talagang makakabuti sa iba, kahit medyo nakakadulot ‘yun ng hirap sa akin, I do it.”

Sa halip na maging negatibo si Gelo sa lahat ng kaniyang pinagdaanan, isa sa mga pinakapinahalagahan niya ang pagkabigo. Itinuturing niya ang lahat ng kaniyang karanasan bilang oportunidad na matuto at lumago bilang lider-estudyante. Kahit na may mga sandali na nakakapanghina, dinadala niya ang bawat karanasan at pagkabigo at ginagamit ito upang mas mapabuti ang kaniyang trabaho sa hinaharap. 

Tumatakbo siya bawat taon dahil nais niyang makapag-ambag at magkaroon ng impluwensiya sa mga pagbabago sa UPIS. Naniniwala siya na pinakamahalagang aspeto ng pagiging PKA ang katunayang estudyante rin sila. Kaya nilang tugunan ang mga isyung sila mismo ang nakararanas.

Ang tanging araw kung kailan maipapakita ang lahat ng kanilang pinaghirapan at pinagplanuhan ang paboritong bahagi ni Gelo ng pagiging miyembro ng PKA. Dahil dito, makikita ng bawat estudyante ang lahat ng pinlano para sa kanila mismo, kaya may isang katuparan siya sa paglunsad ng bawat pagdiriwang. Ito naman daw ang tunay na layunin niya para sa komunidad ng UPIS– ang mabigyan ang mga mag-aaral ng kaligayahan at pagpapahinga sa kabila ng matrabahong akademikong taon. 

Ayon kay Gelo, “Nag-a-adapt kami with any situation. Kaya sana, mas ma-recognize iyon… Understand na lang din na mahirap mag-expect ng full-on perfect plan and execution, lalo na kung student din talaga kami.” Kaya naman, hinihiling niya na maunawaan ng buong komunidad na hindi sila perpekto at mas bigyang-halaga ang gawi ng organisasyon. Bukod pa rito, handa ang PKA na makinig sa anumang saloobin na mayroon ang mga estudyante. 

Recharged: Planong Kabuluhan Aaksyunan

Sa kabila ng lahat, naniniwala si Gelo na mayroong utak at puso ang bawat gawi niya. At, kung may pagkakataon, uulitin niya ang lahat ng naranasan niya dahil sa mga natutuhan niya mula dito. Bahagi na ito ng kaniyang identidad at nais hikayatin ang mga gustong sumabak sa pagiging lider-estudyante. 

Bilang huling termino niya sa PKA, tanging hangad niyang makita ang bagong henerasyon na makuha ang natutuhan mula sa kanila at bumuo ng sariling mga tangka para sa komunidad. Nais niyang makagawa ng sariling sistema at makita ang mga tagumpay ng mga sumusunod na termino dahil naniniwala siya sa kakayahan nila. 

Ika nga ni Gelo, “Although PKA is one whole unit, hindi dapat pare-pareho ‘yung mga PKA.”

Ang batang maliit na may malaking puso

Si Gelo ang nagmimistulang baterya ng PKA. Ang mindset niyang gawing masaya ang pagtatrabaho ang tanging nagpapakilos sa kaniya. Naniniwala siyang, “Everyone needs to get ‘high’ on something or someone.” Kung sa PKA, puro nasa katwiran ang kaniyang pag-iisip, sa panig ng sariling oras, tunay na namumuhay siya sa kaniyang emosyon at pagiging empatetiko. At, mataas ang pangarap niya para sa kaniyang kinabukasan– na siyang inspirasyon niya sa buhay. Ibig niyang gawing inspirasyon ang pagkakaroon ng mas maalam at mabuting buhay sa hinaharap at manatiling optimistiko. Si Gelo ang nagmimistulang baterya ng PKA– ang tunay na nagpapaliwanag at nagbibigay-halaga sa bawat sistema nito. Kahit minsan kinakailangan niya magpahinga at mag-recharge, patuloy pa rin siyang umuusad at nagtatrabaho para sa kabutihan ng lahat. 

[maya-chirps]

Huling Sayaw (ft. Kyla) Translation

by Kamikazee (En. Last Dance)

Third translation here and this one is extremely nostalgic! Huling Sayaw is part of Kamikazee's Romantico series and is part of a longer song series which includes their other songs Halik and Tagpuan. This was extremely popular during my junior high school and would often get most of the crowd singing and drumming along. I remember an indie band had come to perform in our school for an event and they did a cover of this song and some 600 students from our batch sang along. This is honestly the song for your doomed ships.

Last Dance

This is our final moment We won't make anymore mistakes Because there's no tomorrow, let's savor this[1], this is the end We might need to go home

Hold my hand before we separate We'll give our all, our all

Goodbye to our last dance Turns out heaven has an end That's why we'll let go at the same time In our last dance

Didn't notice that the night's gotten late (the night's gotten late) But I don't want to rush (don't you rush) How sweet, how good[2], but this is the last We might need to go home

Hold my hand before we separate We'll give our all, our all

Goodbye to our last dance Turns out heaven has an end That's why we'll let go at the same time In our last dance

Goodbye to our last dance (goodbye to our) Turns out heaven has an end (last dance) That's why we'll let go at the same time In our last dance

Goodbye to our last dance Turns out heaven has an end That's why we'll let go at the same time In our last dance

Alternate Translations and Additional Context

Let's make the most of this - This is the more literal translation of "sulitin natin" but it was too long for the lyric.

How delicious - this is the more literal translation of this lyric but it doesn't sound right. The meaning of the lyric is closer to what I used.

Original Lyrics

Ito na ang ating huling sandali 'Di na tayo magkakamali Kasi wala nang bukas, sulitin natin, ito na ang wakas Kailangan na yata nating umuwi

Hawakan mo aking kamay bago tayo maghiwalay Lahat-lahat ibibigay, lahat-lahat

Paalam sa 'ting huling sayaw May dulo pala ang langit Kaya't sabay tayong bibitaw Sa ating huling sayaw

'Di namalayan na malalim na ang gabi (malalim na ang gabi) Pero ayoko sanang magmadali (huwag kang magmadali) Kay tamis, kay sarap, ngunit ito na ang huli

Kailangan na yata nating umuwi

Hawakan mo aking kamay bago tayo maghiwalay Lahat-lahat ibibigay, lahat-lahat

Paalam sa 'ting huling sayaw May dulo pala ang langit Kaya't sabay tayong bibitaw Sa ating huling sayaw Paalam sa 'ting huling sayaw (paalam na sa 'ting) May dulo pala ang langit (huling sayaw) Kaya't sabay tayong bibitaw Sa ating huling sayaw Paalam sa 'ting huling sayaw May dulo pala ang langit Kaya't sabay tayong bibitaw Sa ating huling sayaw

[upismediacenter]

LITERARY: Huling Sulyap

Tumayo ako mula sa pagka-squat matapos kong ilagay ang aking mga gamit sa karton. Nilibot ko ng tingin ang paligid ng aking kwarto, tinitignan kung may naiwan pa ba akong gamit, nang mapatingin ako sa isang album doon sa istante. 

Pinuntahan ko iyon at kinuha. Binuklat ko ito at napangiti sa nakita. Bumungad sa akin ang larawan mula noong ako'y bata pa, karga-karga ng aking tatay sa kanyang balikat habang nasa tabi niya naman ang aking nanay. Puno ang album ng mga larawan ko mula noong ako’y sanggol pa hanggang sa ako ay nasa pitong taong gulang. Natawa ako nang makita ko ang litrato kung saan umiiyak ako habang nilalagyan ng Band-Aid ang aking sugat. 

Matapos kong tingnan ang mga larawan sa album ay inilagay ko rin iyon sa karton at dumiretso sa kabinet upang kumuha pa ng mga damit na aking dadalhin. Nagulat ako nang makita ko sa pinakadulo-duluhan ng mga damit ang uniporme ko noong elementarya kasama ang mga larawan ko noong nag-aaral pa ako dito. Nakakatuwang nandito pala ito. 

Naalala ko noon, hatid-sundo pa ako ng aking nanay. Nakita ko ang larawan namin na hanggang balikat niya lang ako. Natawa rin ako nang makita ko ang aking larawan na madungis; lagi kasi akong nakikipaglaro ng habulan sa aking mga kaklase pagkatapos ng klase noon kaya lagi akong pawis at marumi kapag sinusundo. Hay, kay sayang balikan ng aking pagkabata.

"Anak, tapos ka na bang magligpit dyan? Aalis na raw kayo," rinig kong sabi ng aking ina sabay katok sa pinto. 

"Sandali na lang ho, Ma," tugon ko at napatingin sa pinto. Maya-maya’y narinig ko ang mga yabag ng paa niyang paalis.

Nang masiguro kong wala na ang aking nanay ay ibinalik ko ang aking tingin sa mga larawan bago ko ilagay sa karton. Pagkatapos ay naghalungkat pa ako sa kabinet para tingnan kung may madadala pa akong gamit nang tumambad sa akin ang isang kahon. Binuksan ko ito at bumungad sa akin ang mga larawan ko noong ako’y tumuntong sa hayskul. Di kagaya noong elementarya, maayos at malinis na akong tignan. Naalala ko na hindi na rin ako hinahatid-sundo noon ng aking mga magulang dahil tiwala silang kaya ko na ang aking sarili. 

Kinilig naman ako nang makita ko ang larawan namin ni Aaron pati na rin ang mga liham pag-ibig na isinulat niya noong kami'y magkasintahan pa lamang. Patago pa ang relasyon namin noon dahil hindi ako pinapayagang magkaroon ng nobyo. Laking galit na lang ng aking mga magulang nang malaman nila at gusto nila kaming paghiwalayin sa kadahilanang baka ako ay masaktan lamang o ako’y mabuntis dala ng tindi ng damdamin. Nakakatawa dahil ngayon ay kinukulit na nila kami na gusto na raw nilang magkaroon ng apo. 

Nakita ko rin ang larawan ng graduation ko sa hayskul. Naalala ko na pagkatapos kong makatapos sa hayskul ay natakot ako sa mga darating na pagbabago sa aking buhay dulot ng pagpasok sa kolehiyo. Magkakahiwa-hiwalay kami ng aking mga kaibigan ng papasukang kolehiyo. Kung tatanungin ako noong panahon na iyon, ayoko na sanang may magbago. Komportable na kasi ako sa buhay na mayroon ako noong hayskul, at balita ko'y mahirap na daw sa kolehiyo. 

Pagkatapos kong magmuni-muni ay inilagay ko rin ang huling mga larawan sa karton at tinakpan ng tape matapos masigurong wala na akong naiwang gamit. Dinala ko ang karton at ako’y bumaba patungo sa sala. 

Habang naglalakad papunta sa sala ay nadaanan ko ang mesa kung saan nakalagay ang larawan ko noong ako'y magtapos sa kolehiyo. Napangiti ako nang maalala ko ang aking tuwa nang magbunga ang paghihirap ko sa kabila ng takot ko sa mga pagbabagong mangyayari sa aking buhay. Ibinaba ko muna ang dala kong karton sa sahig at hinawakan ang aking larawan. Ako’y nakatoga sa araw ng aking pagtatapos, at katabi ko ang aking mga magulang at si Aaron, na tanggap na ng mga magulang ko noong panahong iyon. 

Si Aaron talaga ang nagpakita sa mga magulang ko na siya’y mapagkakatiwalaan. Tuwing kami’y lalabas, lagi niyang sinisigurong ipaalam sa kanila ang aming mga plano. Ginawa niya ang lahat para makuha ang kanilang loob, dahil alam ko naman na ang takot lang nila ay ang masaktan ako. Sa huli, natutuhan din nilang tanggapin na ako’y nagiging independent na, at natuto na rin ako sa buhay. Alam nilang responsable na ako para magkaroon ng relasyon. Ngayon, buo na ang tiwala nila sa amin at lubos na ang kanilang suporta.

Habang patuloy kong pinagmamasdan ang larawan ay napuno ako ng emosyon. Sa gitna ng mga alaala at ng saya ng pagtatapos, naramdaman ko bigla ang mainit na yakap ng aking nanay at tatay sa aking tagiliran. Ibinaba ko ang larawan sa mesa at agad na niyakap silang dalawa.

“Ang laki na ng unica hija namin. Parang kailan lang, karga-karga lang kita sa bisig ko,” naluluhang sambit ng aking ina habang hawak ang aking kaliwang kamay at hinahaplos ang singsing sa aking palasingsingan.

“Parang kailan lang, ako lang ang lalaki sa buhay mo,” sabi naman ng aking tatay. 

“Ngayon, aalis ka na sa puder namin,” dagdag ng aking nanay habang kumukurba ang labi paibaba at sumisilip ang luha sa kaniyang mga mata. 

“Ma, Pa, wag ho kayong mag-alala sakin. Kaya ko na ang aking sarili. Strong girl kaya ako!” pagkalma ko sa aking mga magulang, kahit alam ko sa aking sarili na tinatraydor din ako ng aking emosyon. Nararamdaman ko na ang pagpaso ng init sa aking mga mata at ang mainit na bara sa aking lalamunan.

“Hay, sa bagay nga. Lagi mong tandaan na andito lang kami ng papa mo,” sabi ng nanay ko. 

“Basta tandaan mo ha, kapag nag-away kayo ng asawa mo, dito ka na lang tumira. Welcome ka lagi dito sa bahay,” biro ng tatay ko sabay kindat sa akin. Napatawa niya ako, kahit na may mga namumuong iyak na sa akin.

“Ma, Pa, aalis na po kami,” narinig kong sabi ni Aaron, na lumapit upang magmano sa aking mga magulang. 

“Tara na?” aya niya sa akin. Ngumiti naman ako at kinuha niya ang karton sa sahig at naglakad na kami palabas.

“Ingat kayo!” Pahabol ng aking mga magulang.

Pagkalabas ng geyt ay pinagmasdan ko muna ang bahay. Saksi itong tahanan na ito sa lagpas dalawang dekada ng masasaya at masasamang memorya at pangyayari sa aking buhay. Alam nito ang mga pagbabagong naranasan ko sa buhay. Ito ang naging comfort place ko, at hindi madaling umalis sa tahanang aking nakasanayan.

Pumasok ako sa kotse at doon bumuhos ang mga luhang kanina ko pang pinipigilan. Agad naman akong inalo ng aking asawa at niyakap. Nang kumalma na ako ay binitawan niya ako at hinawakan ang aking kamay. 

“I promise, bibisitahin natin sila.”

Gumaan ang aking pakiramdam sa kaniyang sinabi. Ngumiti ako bilang tugon. Binitawan niya ang aking kamay at hinawakan ang manibela ng kotse.

Ang hirap kapag nawala sa naging safe space mo at sa bagay na naranasan. Ang hirap magsimula ulit. Pero gaya nga ng sabi nila, “Change is constant.” Takot ba ako sa haharapin kong pagbabago sa buhay ko? Magsisinungaling ako kung sasabihin kong hindi. Pumapasok ang mga palaisipan na, paano kung hindi maging maayos ang pagsasama namin? Paano kung hindi na maging maayos ang aking buhay ngayong wala na ako sa puder ng aking mga magulang? Wala nang gagabay sa akin at wala nang maglalagay ng Band-aid sa akin kapag nasugatan ako. Paano kung magkamali ako?

Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat ng mga pag-aalinlangan at takot, naiisip ko rin ang mga alaala ng aking pagkabata at mga aral na natutuhan ko mula sa aking mga magulang. Saksi ang aking tahanan sa mga masasaya at mahirap na mga pagkakataon, at doon ko natutuhan ang halaga ng pamilya at suporta. Ang mga alaala ng mga yakap at mga salita ng pagtulong mula sa aking ina at ama ay nagbibigay sa akin ng lakas. Habang tinatanong ko ang aking sarili tungkol sa hinaharap, unti-unti kong natutuhan na kahit sa gitna ng pagbabago, dala ko ang mga aral na ito, at hindi ako nag-iisa sa paglalakbay na ito. Unti-unti, ang takot na nararamdaman ko kanina ay napapalitan ng kagalakan. Ang pagbabago ay bahagi ng ating buhay, at hindi natin ito maiiwasan. Ang maaari nating gawin ay maghanda at yakapin ang mga pagsubok habang dala ang mga aral na ating natutuhan. Alam kong may mga pagkakataon na maaaring magkamali ako at madapa, ngunit bahagi iyon ng proseso, hindi ba? Sa kabila ng mga bagay na hindi tiyak, handa na akong harapin ang mga bagong hamon at karanasan, kasama ang aking minamahal.

“Ready?” tanong ng aking asawa. Tumango naman ako bilang tugon at nagsimula nang umandar ang kotse.

Handa na ako sa panibagong yugto ng aking buhay.

Handa na ako sa aking bagong tahanan.

[raicazandrece]

Boses ng Kaligayahan: Paglalakbay sa Mundo ng Musika

Ang paglalakbay kasama ang mga kaibigan at girlfriend ko ay isa sa mga pinakamasarap na karanasan sa buhay ko. Noong nakaraang taon ng 2023 nagkaroon kami ng pagkakataong magpunta sa Clark,Pampanga kung saan nag-enjoy kami sa pagsasama-sama at pagkikinig sa mga favorite naming mga sikat na music artist. Sa aming paglalakbay tungo sa inaasam-asam na concert, hindi lamang basta paglalakbay ang nangyari kundi isang makabuluhan at kakaibang karanasan na nagsilbing hugis sa aming pagkakaibigan at pagkakaisa.

Bilang isang grupo ng mga kaibigan na matagal nang nagkakasama, ang pagtahak namin sa landas patungo sa venue ay puno ng tawanan, kwentuhan, at halakhak. Bawat hakbang na aming tinatahak ay nagbibigay inspirasyon sa isa't isa, nagpapakita ng kahalagahan ng samahan at pagtitiwala sa bawat isa.

Sa aming pagdating sa lugar, ang paligid ay umuusok sa kakaibang halo ng kasiyahan at excitement. Kasabay ng aming pagtungo sa loob, ang aming mga puso ay umaatungal sa sigaw ng kasiyahan, hindi makapaniwala na sa wakas, makikita na namin nang personal ang aming mga favorite at crush naming mga music artist.

Ang bawat sandali sa loob ng venue ay nagdala ng maraming emosyon at damdamin. Mula sa amoy ng popcorn na nagpapainit sa aming mga damdamin hanggang sa kakaibang sigaw ng mga kapwa tagahanga, ang bawat pangyayari ay nagpapalakas sa aming pagkakaibigan at pagkakaisa.

At nang simulan ang palabas, ang aming mga mata ay namangha sa kagandahan ng entablado at ang aming mga puso ay sumabay sa ritmo ng bawat tugtog at awit. Sa bawat kanta, tila ba ang oras ay huminto at ang mundo ay umiikot lamang sa entablado, sa bawat galaw at tinig ng mga musikero. Sa huling part BEN&BEN ang nag perform at dahil sila nga ang huli may pa fireworks silang eksena, btw sila talaga ang pinunta ko ron dahil fan na fan nila ako at sa pag kakaalala ko mangiyak-ngiyak ako nga kantahin na nila yung mga favorite songs ko huhu literal na top tier kayo ben&ben labyuu NWHSHAHAHAHAHA

Sa pagtatapos ng concert, ang aming mga ngiti ay hanggang tenga, at ang aming mga puso ay puno ng pasasalamat at kasiyahan. Ang paglalakbay na ito ay hindi lamang simpleng pagtahak sa isang lugar, kundi isang paglalakbay ng damdamin at karanasan, na nagbuklod sa aming mga puso at nagpalakas sa aming pagkakaibigan at pagkakaisa. ETO ANG HINDI KO MAKAKALIMUTAN NA ALALA SA PAMPANGA AT HANGGANG NGAYON AT BINABAON KO ANG LAHAT NG EXPERIENCE KO RITO.

[glorfindel-of-imladris]

✨️Put 5 songs you listen to, post it, then send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers :) 🎶

I was also tagged to this by @tamilhobbit. Thank you!

I hardly listen to any songs in English nowadays, so I'm not sure if anyone can understand or can relate to these songs. 🥲 But! Here they are, currently on my most repeated:

1. とって | Centimillimental

2. モラトリアム | Omoinotake

3. Liham | SB19

4. Huling Sandali | December Avenue

5. 四月 | 吳宇深 (my dog likes it—his name is Fin! 🤭🤫)

[mademoisellebianx]

Part 1 / ?

So this is the little something-something I've been working on for this past couple of days. It's set during the events of Queen of the Damned. Also, sorry for the grammar mistakes, English isn't my first language and I haven't been sharpening my writing skills for the past few months.

[karluhnoodles]

HULING HAKBANG

—

Isang hakbang papunta sa’yo,

Kakaibang kaba agad ang nararamdaman ko.

Ang mata mo’y hindi kailanman nawala’y sa’kin,

Labis ‘yon nang pagniningning at walang alanganin.

Dalawang hakbang, dinamdam ko ang aking sarili.

Maayos lang ba ako? Maayos lang ba ang aking ngiti?

Pusong napupunit, mga labing namumuti.

Siguro nga ay maayos lang, dahil ako ay makasarili.

Tatlong hakbang, mas bumigat pa ang aking damdamin.

Puso ko’y sinisigaw na ang aking mga lihim.

Ang malamig mong mga kamay ay sa akin na kumakapit.

Papunta sa harap ng pinto, papunta sa iyong aasawahin.

Huling hakbang, tinignan kita sa huling sandali.

Mata mo’y nakatuon lamang sa isang lalaking nakangiti.

Sawakas ay kinalas mo rin ang iyong kamay sa akin.

Naglalakad kana papalayo, patungo sa taong habang-buhay kang iibigin.

[astralcherrie]

this song screams vashwood I'm gonna sob

PUTSNG INA THGE MEANING AND THE LYRICD FUCJFK OH MY GAWRDDDUYHHH

[thirdworldearthling]

UltraelectromagneticHIGH

December 22, 2022. SMDC Festival Grounds. ERASERHEADS. Huling El Bimbo.

Bombarded by birthday greetings from family, friends, colleagues and insurance company 😂.

Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to...me? Haha!

Eraserheads will be playing their final (final?!?) reunion concert in PH. I was the happiest person in the entire universe when I learned that they're going to play on my birthday. No more questions asked, no buts and ifs, I will be there come hell or high water, even dead and cold hahaha!

Dizizit! Bzzzt bzzzt! I'm going to experience once more (or for the last time?) that euphoric feeling, nostalgic ecstacy - ultraelectromagnetichigh.

The Diegos started stepping on the gas at around 8:00 P.M. to fill our dehydrated souls with music that we, the heads generation, love to death.

The 90s kid in me started giggling and mumbling, with the occasional head bounce (cannot do the head bang now, vertigo will kill me 😵‍💫) and stomping, eyes closed, to entirely feel the moment. OPM Megahits from FrancisM, Yano, Wolfgang, Razorback, P.O.T., Pu3ska and even Gary V were included in their catalogue, combined with the famed 90s anthem from Nirvana, RATM, RHCP, Cypress Hill, Beck, Salt-N-Pepa, Naughty by Nature, Arrested Development, Mastaplann, Breeders, The Cardigans, Blur, Daft Punk, Chemical Brothers, Beastie Boys, Fatboy Slim and merry more. They capped off their set with Teeth's Laklak, which heightened our sentimental senses and rebellious teen spirit.

8:30 P.M. The whole festival grounds went black and silent (just for a few seconds). Then the jumbo LED screens flashed a montage of Eheads' journey counting down to this epic finale.

5. 4. 3. 2. 1. Wooooooooooooohhhhh!!!

Lights off. All of us are guessing the first song. My previous assumptions were Fruitcake (why not? it's christmas time!), Superproxy (coz of the main producer's bragging of the hologram tech that made the ticket prices soar high way up in the sky 🤣) & Pop Machine (this is my current favorite). And then baaaaam! We all went insane and in flames!

We were all screaming our hearts out. Although the audio and visuals were disappointing (we barely hear the solid sound of guitars/bass, the screen display at the Moshpit/VIP section was out of sync with the music), our energies were intensified more than ever. Sing. Scream. Jump. Bounce. Stomp. Repeat. Then Elmo, Arkin and Eon went down the main stage to perform with their respective dads, and the much-awaited hologram of the great Francis Magalona unfolded right before our fiery eyes. I must admit that I am not impressed with the 3-D moving figure (with that ticket price they could've done better), but the illusion of him performing was undeniably a feast.

Oh my God. They're going to shove the whole Cutterpillow album to our face! The album art at the back of their most successful album were flashed one by one in the screen. BTW, I love their all black outfit for the 1st set.

Upon hearing Raymund's familiar drum patterns, we screamed in unison again. Saan ka nagtungo, tumila na ang ambon, sana man lang naghintay kahit na konting sandali, weee weee weee!!! (takatakatakatak) Sorry for all the people near me recording that important moment of your lives, you'll definitely hear my voice singing along, that was unforgivably cringeworthy. 🤣You can still hear my voice and it gets more annoying as the night progresses.

When they played Overdrive, we were loaded with nitro boost during the whole song and we stand by near the end, not sure if we wanted to hear the monologue of Marcus (Pare 'di na magstart yan, buti pa kain na lang tayo) or let them proceed onto the next song.

Slo mo. They let Ely rest for a bit. Raymund on vocals! Also one of my favorites, I love every bit of this masterpiece (written by the 4 geniuses). My twitter username was inspired by this song.

Another trip down the memory lane - Huwag mo nang itanong - I was in 5th or 6th grade when this song was released. It made me laugh when I first heard the line, "ewan ko, hindi ko alam, pwede bang huwag na lang nating pag-usapaaaaan. Huwag mo nang itanong sa akin, 'di ko rin naman sasabihin", I thought, oh dear, that was sooooo me haha! I don't talk much when I was younger (until now?), that was a waste of time for me, I value my solitude more than the nonsense chitchats.

Next! First time to hear Paru-Parong Ningning live. Though Raymund & Ely were upbeat, I was unable to move because I'm having cramps hahaha (signs of aging). Standing still while enduring the agonizing pain, I didn't want to be pulled out of the concert grounds. I just need water and I'll be fine 😂

I'm still singing and dancing with the crowd (even with recurring cramps haha) and then Raymund strikes again! Yoko - A very fitting song for the current madness we have these days. "Tigilan na 'tong raket, raket ng gobyerno, 'di ko na kelangan ng pang-aabuso niyo" / "milyon-milyong pilipinong estudyante, tumiwalag, palayain ang sarili!"

Ely showcased his acoustic guitar prowess, singing along with the crowd, as Fill her ended the first set.

The 30-minute break started with Cutterpillow playing in the background of the countdown timer. I used to have a cat, who wouldn't ever wanna get fat! I kept singing while in a rush to buy water. Aaaaaaahhh my throat was dry and painful. But I don't care, I'm going to sing my heart and lungs out all night. Haha!

Opening song for the second set - Pop Machine! At last, wish granted! As I've said earlier, this song is my current fave. The beat, the rhythm and the lyrics were perfect. Kailan ba ako magkakapera? Yeah!

I was surprised to hear them play Sabado. They released this song back in 2014, along with 1995 (the song, not the year). The limited edition CD was included in the Esquire Magazine September 2014 issue. Buti na lang, I got my own copy hehe.

Of course they also played their very first single (Ligaya) that captured the entire nation. Who would've thought that a tshirt, isaw, tansan and thesis (I don't even know thesis at that time, I was only in 3rd grade playing jackstone & patintero when I heard it on the radio) will make them legendary rock icons.

Buddy introduced Maestro Mel Villena who helped them arrange Lightyears - my ultimate favorite song from Eraserheads. No words needed. Just listen. The orchestra almost made me cry.

Aside from the orchestra and the back-up singers from AHEB cast, they were assisted by their auxiliary band members: Audry Dionisio, Mikey Amistoso and Jazz Nicolas.

Surprised again upon hearing the back-up singers sang the lines: In a hostile takeover bid... Whoa! Saturn Return! One of the songs in my wishlist. I wanna see a showdown from Ely and Raymund. But it got a lot better! Backed by the orchestra, the rap parts of Rayms were performed superbly by Arkin Magalona and Eon Buendia. I think after the 2nd set, I saw Diane Ventura (Eon's mom) and told her that Eon was impressive, then she shouted loud and proud, "Galing ni Eon!". The kids are alright.

Got another one in my wishlist - Tama Ka. At long last, been wanting to hear this live. Buddy didn't disappoint. "Minsan nagtatanong kung saan, kailan, paano nasimulan, ang katapusang mahirap takasan, pero 'wag na, ibato mo na lang sa ulan."

After With a smile, the band continued to play Insomya, perfect timing to pump up the crowd. We were on fire again! SWWWWW

Amazed and delighted when I heard the intro of Christmas Party. Another fave from the Fruitcake album. Did not expect this song, I was more convinced that Fruitcake will make the cut. Gary V sang the parts originally sang by the late Francis M.

The Sticker Happy piano was used as a backdrop during Spoliarium and made it more melancholic and gloomy. Remember The Final Set concert 13 years ago? That very same piano was set on fire. We can also feel the show's about to end soon.

They ended the second set with Magasin. Short break.

Encore. During Pare Ko, Raymund walks around the stage recording the event while drinking haha! "Lalo lang madadagdagan ang sakit ng ulo at bilbil sa tiyan" 🤣

Alapaap's intro was playing and the crowd sing along. But that was a mistake, that's why Ely's opening spiel doesn't add up haha! Minsan was the correct song, followed by Alapaap and the final song, Ang Huling El Bimbo. One of the greatest songs ever written, it was really doing well on its own, but when backed up by the orchestra, it went more magical and breathtaking. They ended the night with the magnificent fireworks display and loads of confetti shower.

Huling El Bimbo setlist:

1ST SET

1. Superproxy 2. Back2me 3. Waiting for the bus 4. Fine time 5. Kamasupra 6. Overdrive 7. Slo Mo 8. Torpedo 9. Huwag mo nang itanong

10. Paru-Parong Ningning 11. Walang Nagbago

12. Poorman's grave 13. Yoko 14. Fill her

2ND SET

15. Pop Machine 16. Sembreak 17. Sabado

18. Ligaya 19. Lightyears 20. Saturn Return

21. Maling Akala 22. Tama Ka 23. With a smile

24. Insomya 25. Christmas Party 26. Spoliarium

27. Magasin

3RD SET (ENCORE)

28. Pare Ko 29. Minsan 30. Alapaap

31. Ang Huling El Bimbo

Only three songs on my wishlist weren't included in their awesome setlist: Fruitcake, Maselang Bahaghari & Balikbayan Box. But still, one for the books! Thank you for the best birthday ever!!!

From the 8 year old kid in 1993 who listened to your songs & stick (still kick!) until the end. Amen? AMEN!!!

[cocokrunchh]

Ano kaya kung ...

Magpakamatay na lang kaya ako.

Pagod na pagod na ko. Bawat araw na lang puro kalungkutan tong nararamdaman ko. May mga panahon na masaya ako at alam ko sa sarili ko na okay ako pero habang tumatagal nakakaramdam ako ng lungkot na para bang nilalamon yung mga masasayang araw na okay ako. Nawawalan ng saysay yung pagiging masaya ko. Dumadating din yung point na iiyak ako ng walang rason at idadaan na lang sa tulog at gigising na maraming iniisip na mga bagay bagay na wala naman saysay. Sa mga nakakaisip na kausapin ko dapat pamilya ko o kaibigan ko ishare ko yung nararamdaman ko. Hindi ganun kadali mag kwento kung may trust issue ka sa pamilya mo, sa mga kaibigan ko naman nanjan lang sila pag kailangan nila ako hindi naman ako nakahingi ng tulong sa kanila merong iba pero hindi naman nila naiintindihan at nakakalimot. Nagbabakasakali na may makaintindi sakin sa mga taong di ko kilala kaso habang tumatagal na nagbabahagi ako at nagkukwento di ko maiwasan na ma-attach sa taong yun at tatagal na mawawalan na sila ng interes sakin dahil na-share ko na sa kanila yung sino ako at mga pinagdadaanan ko at mas pipiliin ko na lang na hindi na magkuwento tuwing nararamdaman ko itong ganitong lungkot dahil ayaw ko maging pabigat sa kanila, ayaw kong makadagdag sa mga problema na mayroon sila. Nakakapagod yung paulit ulit na proseso na wala namang usad.

Pag namatay naman na ako wala nang iintindihin pamilya ko kase may insurance naman na ako. Di na nila po-problemahin ang gastusin sa libing ko at i-request na wala na lang magaganap na lamay diresto libing agad tutal wala naman nag e-effort na mga kaibigan ko na puntahan ako samin para kamustahin ako kumbaga wala talaga pupunta sa lamay ko kaya ilibing na lang diretso menos gastos pa.

Pero bago ko maisipan na ituloy to. Salamat na lang sa lahat, sa pamilya ko, sa mga kaibigan ko, sa mga kakilala ko, at sa'yo na nagbabasa nito dahil kahit sa huling sandali nakapag kuwento pa ako pero hindi mo na ako po-problemahin kase wala na ako.

[his-saiko]

Today has been one of those peculiar days where I'm actually happy to be in.

Got that elusive [not so much] time where me and my siblings are together.

I bought my siblings drinks [Green tea strawberry] [practising to be that rich relative in our family]

And of course, since we're all together, we act like we're on crack/drunk and actually bonding— singing, joking, talking.

The people we were with gave us the go signal to actually have a jam session

We sang Huling Sandali - December Avenue and Buwan - Juan Karlos.

Everyone around us was amazed [except for those who knew us because they're used to it lol].

Was given food