#hs: the late late show 2017

[madsworld15]

Letter to Gavin Creel

Dear Gavin,

I was in the middle of a major website project at work on Monday when I heard that you had passed away. For the first time in my life, I actually sobbed hysterically at the death of someone famous. When I say sobbed hysterically, I mean unable to focus on anything because my eyes were too wet and my chest was too tight. I hadn’t cried like this since the day my grandmother died four years ago.

You see, I don't usually get this visibly upset when people in the public sphere pass away. Sure, I was sad when people like Sondheim, Betty White, and Robin Williams died. But I've never been so upset that I couldn't function. That is just your impact on the world, for me and so many others.

The last time I saw you in person was in 2017 at the stage door of She Loves Me. Despite it having been years since then, I believe that if we’d met at a stage door or other event today, you’d still recognize me. Because that is the type of person you are. I guess were, now that you’ve passed, but I can’t find it in myself to talk of you in the past tense. It just doesn’t seem real that someone so full of life and immortal is no longer here with us, dancing through this thing called life.

You don’t know this, but I got to see you perform in my favorite musical, Into the Woods, when the tour came to Philadelphia in April of last year. It was a last-minute decision that fell on a weeknight, so I couldn’t stay late afterward to stage door. Of course, I thought to myself that I’d have plenty more opportunities to see you work your craft. Now that you’ve passed, I wish I had said “fuck it” to having to be at work the next day and stayed to chat with you.

Like so many of those who looked up to and admired you, I first discovered you when I was in HS watching Eloise at the Plaza. As a child, I had adored the Eloise books, so naturally, I was excited to see a film made about the precocious girl. Back then I had no idea who you were, just that your name was attached to the character of Bill. I adored Bill and his silly, over-the-top theatrics and became obsessed with watching the movie just for him – though Eloise was great, too.

Then, as a freshman in college, I started talking to this person from New York City through a mutual fan group on Facebook. She encouraged my very limited knowledge of musical theatre and introduced me to so many new things. One of them was a bootleg recording of Hair from 2009. The energy you exuded on stage was palpable, even from the grainy 2000s video.

At that point in my life, I was sure I would never get out of Kansas. I knew I was different and didn't fit in with the other people in my small-town Kansas community. By the time I left and moved to NY in 2013, I still wasn't sure what my identity was, but I was certain I belonged to the queer community. Upon arriving in New York, I quickly found myself immersed in the musical theatre community there.

One of the first shows I saw was The Book of Mormon. I would visit the theatre at least once a week, sometimes even twice. I didn't really have the finances to do that, but my mental health demanded comfort, and that show was where I found it. So, once or twice a week, I would play the lottery or do standing room.

By the time you moved from The Book of Mormon on the West End to Broadway, I was ready for you but also hesitant to love you because your predecessor, Nic Rouleau, had had such a profound impact on my mental health and self-worth. From the moment I met you, though, I knew I could never have any feelings other than love for you.

Sure, I already knew I loved you as a performer from the years of watching bootlegs of your performances, listening to your EPs, and loving you in Eloise. However, my connection and attachment to The Book of Mormon was so great that each time the leads switched, I had a hard time adjusting.

It was different with you, though. You immediately took me under your wing and made me know I was important to you. That first night, you forced me to hand over my phone for our photo, and you scrolled through filters until you found the one you wanted. Then you insisted we do silly faces, that serious faces weren't needed. It was as if you knew I needed comfort more than a professional stage door selfie.

Over the course of the year you were part of the Broadway company, we interacted many times. Every time you saw me, your face would light up, you'd insist on a silly photo, and then you'd ask me if I was doing okay and how work was going. You genuinely wanted to know. It was something that got me through those extremely dark days of working a job I hated but not knowing any other path I could go on.

I didn't ever tell you this, but those moments kept my suicidal thoughts during that time at bay. Knowing I could swing by the stage door at any time, whether I'd seen the show or not, and talk to you was what got me through. We never talked about anything profound or world-changing, but you asking me about my day and encouraging me to find my passion changed my whole life.

After you left Mormon, I didn't see you again until the final days of She Loves Me. I fully expected you to not remember who I was, but you did. Once again, your smile grew at the sight of me, and you made a joke while wiggling your face to emphasize the mustache on your face. I wish I'd taken more time to tell you about my life that day. To connect more with you, but I didn't.

I had no way of knowing that would be the last time I would see you perform for many years. Not long after that, my finances took a major hit, and I moved to NJ, making trips to Broadway a bit harder to accomplish. So, I wasn't able to see you in Waitress or Hello, Dolly. But, man, did I want to. I did have the chance to watch clips of you in these shows and bask in the glory of your singing voice and stage presence, even if it was from afar.

I started to understand myself more clearly and made friends who helped me find an identity that made sense to me. Then, 2020 hit, and I suffered quite a few losses in my family. I struggled to keep my head above water, but my queer friends reminded me that there were things worth living for. Through these friendships, I started to find my way out of the mess I was in and found joy in musical theatre again. I started to listening to your personal music and the cast albums of your shows. It wasn't the only music I listened to, but it helped me get through the most.

Then, Into the Woods happened. By this time, I had started to be a co-leader in a local Tri-State Queer group. We would all get together and talk about TV, Broadway, Music, and Movies. It was so rejuvenating. A group of us got tickets to see Into the Woods on Broadway, but I couldn't be part of that due to finances. However, my best friend works for Ticket Philadelphia, so he promised that I could go with him when it came to Philadelphia on tour.

And that brings us to the close of this letter. I got to see you exude that joy all over the stage one last time in Into the Woods on Tour. It was one of the best nights of my life. Your performance of Agony will live on in my memories forever. As will your performance of I Believe in The Book of Mormon.

I never got around to telling you this in person, so I will say it now: Thank you so much for all the moments in my life that your presence or your voice got me through. Your passion for life and love was always awe-inspiring, and it's what I will carry with me through the years. We all deserved to see you do so much more in the world of Broadway, musical theatre, and beyond. Life truly is unfair, but I'm grateful for what I was able to experience with you.

Rest easy, dance often, and spread your sunshine from the beyond.

Mads

[foxes-that-run]

Haylor dates by month

Timelines: 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, 2019, 2020, 2021, 2022, 2023 and 2024.

January

1- 2013 - Arrive in Virgin Islands

1- 2014 - Say don't go written

1- 2016 - Yacghtgate, OOTW Video

1- 2021 - Treat people with kindness Music Video

1- 2024 - 17 HS leaks, Guess I'm Alright, One and Only

3 - 2013 - Taylors hair pinned up in a Virgin Islands Restaurant

4 - 2013 - Blue dress on a boat

5 - 2017 - Lately Leak recorded

6 - 2015 - Taylor Clear Blue water post, possible break up

6 - 2016 - Harry Rain on window post

6 - 2024 - HS Lately Leaked

9 - 2021 - Treat People with Kindness single released

11 - 2018 - End Game Released

11 - 2021 - No Body No Crime released

13 - 2017 - DWOHT written

13 - 2018 - Fine Line written these 2 weeks

15 - 2013 - 1D trip to Ghana

15 - 2015 - Seen together at Lily Aldridge's birthday, Serendipity

15 - 2024 - Too Much Sauce leaks

17 - 2015 - Taylor posts Temper Trap Lyrics on stove

18 - 2016 - Out of the Woods released as single

18 - 2021 - Coney Island released as Single

19- 2014 - Harry Silver Spoon and Bible tattoo, Things I can't covered.

20 - 2015 - Taylor Hawaii with Haim Sisters

21 - 2012 - Taylor 'Holidays' in London, 1D UK dates

21 - 2014 - I know places written.

22 - 2013 - Harry's Butterfly and Handshake Tattoos

23 - 2016 - New Romantics released as Single

25 - 2011 - One Directions first trip to Los Angeles

26 - 2013 - both at NRG awards, Cannes Sunset situation.

26 - 2023 - Little Freak added to LOT Tour set

27 -2012 - 1D and Taylor fly from London to LA separately

27 - 2020 - The Man

27 - 2023 - Satellite MV concert filmed, Lavender Haze MV

29 - 2023 - Medicine played LOT first time since 2018

31 - 2020 - Miss Americana Released

February

1 - 2012 - One direction and Taylor seen in LA, neither seen for a week after.

1 - 2013 - Harry messy £5k tab party, Taylor in London not there.

1 - 2015 - Harry's 21st Birthday, Taylor in Nashville

1 - 2016 - Harry's feeling 22 tweet

1- 2017 - Taylor posted IDWLF lipsync and Rose ring maybe seen

9 - 2014 - Clean written

9 - 2015 - Style released

13 - 2015 - Style Music Video

14 - 2014 - Taylor posted "there's nothing like real love"

14 - 2015 - Two Ghosts written this week

14- 2020 - Harry - Radio 2 Two Ghosts, first since 2018

14 - 2023 - Lover Live in Paris Vinyl re-release

15- 2015 - Shake it off written

19 - 2015 - Style written

20 - 2016 - Harry in Studio, maybe Sweet Creature recorded

23 - 2016 - New Romantics released

24 - 2015 - Harry's anatomical heart tattoo first seen

27 - 2015 - Overgrown winding wheel

27 - 2020 - The Man Released

28 - 2016 - Taylor at Vanity Fair Oscar party, Harry tweets shake apple off tree and posted colour photo of Scrabble board to IG.

28 - 2020 - Falling Music Video

March

2- 2020 - Harry's last pre pandemic show at Bowery Ballroom

7 - 2020 - Falling Single

12 - 2012- 22

12 - 2018 - Delicate

17 - 2011 - Taylor Speak Now in Paris played Soul Sister Mashup HS MIA break

17 - 2012 - TS Eyes Open surprise song

17 - 2023 - TS Eyes Open, safe n sound, if this was a movie re-record and To all the girls you loved before

27 - 2010 Harry auditions for xfactor

31 - 2012 - First Seen together at Kids Choice Awards

31 - 2023 - Taylor replaced Invisible String with The One Eras

April

1- 2022 - As it Was

7 - 2017 - Sign of the Times

12 - 2023 - Taylor wears Gucci Lion Ring Electric Lady

13 - 2017 - Taylor releases September cover with 28th lyric change and Delicate vertical video

13 - 2023 - Treacherous surprise Song

17 - 2022 - Harry debuts Boyfriends Coachella and has Shiana Twain on stage

19 - 2022 - Joe pound coins quote, drake post

19 - 2023 - great unfollowing

19 - 2024 - TTPD

20 - 2018 - babe released as single

20 - 2022 - Trouble, hunger, Already home leak

21 - 2012 - H kisses girl in NZ

21 - 2017 - H on Graham Norton, wrote Spanish girl backstage.

22- 2016 - Not the ribbons in your hair' tweet

22 - 2021 - H Gucci Beloved campaign

22 - 2022 - H Cochella To BFs everywhere FU

22 - 2023 - Long Pond Limited Edition Vinyl

23- 2012 - Taylor Screaming Infidelities post (Re:H kiss in NZ)

23 - 2013 - Harry arrives in LA, MIA

23- 2018 - Taylor has Robbie Williams on Rep and plays Angel

23- 2019 - Taylor Time 100 - setlist Style, Delicate, NYD.

23- 2022 - Taylor The Lakes 7-inch ltd Ed.

23 - 2023 - Begin Again surprise Song

23 - 2023 - Harry invites Lizzo on stage at Coachella

24 - 2013 - Peace Ring first seen

25 - 2014 Fern Tattoos first seen covering 'might as well'

26 - 2019 - Me!

29 - 2016 - Date mentioned in High Infidelity, H & T in LA

29 - 2017 - Harry wears the St Laurent shirt CH copied in Ole

29 -2023 - High Infidelity and Gorgeous Surprise Songs

May

2- 2017 - Sweet Creature

3- 2023 - Satellite

12- 2017 - Harry Styles Debut Album

13 - 2017 - Harry's first solo live show

15 - 2019 - Harry in studio, Adore you written

18 - 2020 - Watermelon Sugar

18 - 2022 - Taylor NYC Doctorate

19 - 2019 - Taylor releases City of Lover Heart Vinyl

20 - 2012 - Everything Has Changed Anniversary

20 - 2013 - Taylor posts Roses with Gatsby quote

20 - 2015 - Taylor clean speech about where should have been

20 - 2017 - Debut one night only concert

20 - 2022 - Harry's House

20 - 2023 - Taylor said her life finally makes sense

21 - 2019 - H Gucci Swan Campaign

21 - 2022 - Harrys House One night only concert

22 - 2015 - Taylor played Wonderland

25 - 2020 - Too much sauce recorded

27 - 2023 - Karma MV

June

5- 2018 - Gucci Tailoring campaign

6- 2013 - Everything has changed MV

6 - 2015 - Taylor plays Wonderland

7 - 2017 - Another Man Cover

13 - 2012 - Harry never gonna dance tattoo

14 - 2019 - You need to calm down

15 - 2011 - Taylor has Temper Trap arm lyrics

15 - 2012 - Harry gets Temper Trap lyric tattoo

17 - 2011 - Lover journal, blissfully happy

17 - 2023 - Harry played Sweet Creature first since 2018

17 - 2023 - Taylor played Seven, Aaron hug, emotional speeches

18 - 2013 - Olivia adopted

20 - 2015 - Last time Wonderland played

21 - 2015 - Taylor letter to apple

22- 2015 -both in europe with days off - H posts colour scrabble board and "I have missed you" to Sweden

22 - 2018 - T has Niall on stage in Wembley, H emotional in NYC and plays Still the One.

24 - 2013 - Red Single

27 - 2015 - Taylor has models out in London show.

30 - 2015 - Holy Ground Surprise Song, Clean speech haunting.

30 - 2019 - Taylors masters sold

July

1 - 2013 - Harry Cross Tattoo seen

2 - 2021 - Renegade released

7 - 2023 - Speak Now TV

13 - 2012 - Taylor plays random London show with 7 songs (13+7)

13 - 2022 - Late Night Talking MV

14 - 2013 - Everything has Changed Single

15 - 2011 - One direction film WMTB in LAy

19 - 2023 - Daylight MV

21 - 2022 - Late Night Talking Single

23 - 2010 - one direction formed on xfactor

24 - 2020 - Folklore and Cardigan MV

27 - 2013 - I can't change and birdcage tattoos

27 - 2020 - Cardigan Single

31 - 2018 - Harry and Camille Breakup

August

1 - 2019 - Gucci Campaign Film HS

3 - 2020 Exile

7 - 2017 - Two Ghosts Single

13 - 2012 We are never getting back together

16 - 2019 Lover single

17 - 2020 Betty

19 - 2014 Shake it Off

20 - 2022 - HS MSG Residency started

23 - 2019 Lover Album & MV

24 - 2017 Look at what you made me do & MV

30 -2012 WANGBT MV

31 - 2015 Wildest Dreams

September

4 - First Love on Tour (part 1) show (2021)

6 - 2013 - VMAs

7 - Getaway Car (2018)

9 - 2013 - Birdcage, Drama mask, SMCL Tattoo

9 - 2019 - City of Lover recorded

17 - ...Ready for it? (2017)

18 - Gucci Cruise Campaign (2018)

19 - Live on Tour first show (2017)

21 - MSG Residency end (2022)

24 - Harry heart tattoo (2012)

25 - Begin again Itunes (2012)

27 - Spotify Singles -Two Ghosts and Girl Crush (2017)

28 - 2011 - Gotta be you filmed in NY

28 - 2012 - Taylor filmed Begin Again Paris, Harry MIA

28 - 2013 - Harry tweet no piece of paper

28 - 2017 - HS Spotify EP Two Ghosts and Girl Crush, in April TS changed September lyric to 28

28 - 2021 - HS Nashville Satin outfit and TBSL

29 - 2016 - HS Another Man Mixtape

29 - 2017 - TS Spotify "Taylor Loves" playlist of 70 songs

29 - 2018 - TS wonderland surprise song

October

1 - Begin again (2012)

3 - Music for a Sushi Restaurant (2022)

10 - Lights up MV (2019)

11 - Lights up (2019)

12- 2013 - Harry Heart Tattoo instagram and Things I can/can't tattos

21 - Midnights and Anti-Hero (2022)

22 - Red (2012)

25 - Bejeweled and MV (2022)

23 - Golden (2020)

26 - Golden MV (2020)

26 - ….Ready for it? MV (2017)

27 - 1989 (2014), 1989 TV (2023), Slut! (2023)

27 - Music for a Sushi Restaurant MV (2022)

31 - 2015 - last 1D concert

31 - Kiwi (2017)

31 - Is it over now? (2023)

November

4 - Gucci Ha ha ha campaign (2022)

4 - The last time (2013)

8 - Kiwi MV (2017)

10 - Blank Space & MV (2014), Reputation (2017)

12 - Red TV (2021), All Too Well Short Film (2021)

13 - 2014 - Mermaid Tattoo

13 - Love on Tour announced (2019)

14 - End Game (2017)

15 - 2014 - Band Aid, Harry may have raised break

15 - Launch of pleasing (2021) (annual photo)

15 - I bet you think about me (2021)

16 - Message in a Bottle (2021)

21 - 2018 - Last Reputation show in Tokyo

22 - 2018 - first day Taylor is with republic

25 - Long Pond Sessions on Disney+ and recordings

27 - I knew you were trouble (2012), New Years Day (2017)

29 - Lavender Haze (2022)

December

3 - 2013 - Dancing with no shows after MSG show

6 - Adore You & Adore you MV (2019)

10 - 2017 - I don't wanna live forever

12 - Fine Line One Night Only at the Forum

12 - 2013 - Lakes district

13 - Fine Line (2019)

14 - End Game (2017)

18 - 2013 - Ship Tattoo

21 - 2013 - Snow mobile accident

30 - 2015 - Harry covers Things I can with Eagle Tattoo

31 - 2013 NYE Kiss

[indagonightmare]

I've been listening to this band a lot recently:

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And I've been obsessed with this band since like 2017 but they basically have no music :( (they have a band camp as well if you're interested but yheres not much there either)

Shatterproof

This guy has also been a favourite of mine since high school, I've linked his first ep here but he also has a full album that came out a couple years ago that's REALLY good

Lincoln

Here's another band I've been really into since hs that once again has basically no music

Artwork

I saw this band live awhile ago and they were SO cool

Vampires Everywhere

I've also been into this band lately, I think they're really cool

Voice Of Baceprot

This band is cool too and when I saw them in concert the lead singer played a didgeridoo on and off throughout the show, it was really really neat

Like A Storm

I just got a vinyl from this band, they're cool

Cloak

I dont know ANYTHING about this band, I found their CD which is this ep super cheap at a random flea market awhile back but I think they sound cool

Guede

I also like this band a lot

Forced Happiness

I saw this band awhile ago too and they had great energy

Satin Black

I also love this guy but I only listen to him from time to time

Jesse Welles

I've also been pretty into this band lately, and the lead singer is a trans woman!

Against Me!

And this guy is cool too, and he's a trans guy!

Dopamine

I can give you about a million other recommendations if you like, I listen to a lot of music. Although I mostly listen to rock/alt/punk/emo/metal stuff so if you want something not that I won't have a ton of recommendations

getting bored of my own music taste can yall give me band recs pleeeeeeeaseee pretty please with a cherry on top

[stylinsongifs]

[stylesdrction-blog]

[beststyles]

GET HIM A COFFEE

[stylesmanips]

Harry Styles // Aria Awards 2017

[lsanchor]

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[itsnothesameasitwas]

ABEJAS & BBG - MASTERPOST

ENGLISH VERSION

Creo que estaba algo emocionada cuando escribí esto, originalmente iba a ser una explicación breve pero me extendí un poquito jeje… así que añadí un índice

Buzzing Entrevista

Tatuaje de la Abeja

Ejército de Abejas

Abeja Reina

El tatuaje de H tiene que ver con el bbg?

Timeline

Conclusión

Todo empezó en 2015 cuando el bbg entró al ring (bbg mps aquí)... el 4 de Agosto de 2015 ellos tuvieron una entrevista en GMA (Good Morning America) donde hicieron una pequeña presentación incluyendo DMD (*silencio de flashbacks de guerra*) y este día específicamente fue la 1ra vez que le preguntaron a L abiertamente sobre bbg… (x)

(2:39 - 3:09) Lo que dijeron fue…

*aires de incomodidad*

INT 1: Louis de un padre a otro padre quiero felicitarte porque próximamente serás uno, si… así que ¿cómo te sientes?  L: Gracias, sí… ammm obviamente es es un momento muy emocionante así que ammm estoy buzzing (zumbando) gracias. INT 1: ¡Felicidades nuevamente, sí!

*la otra entrevistadora a Harry* 

INT 2: Harry… hoy estás muy callado H: Ammm Noo  INT 1: No, Harry está disfrutando, el esta dejando a los demás hablar H: ...Estoy aquí teniendo un buen momento INT 2: ¿Lo estás ? H: si… 

*fin de los aires de incomodidad*  

Okay así que cuando el entrevistador le pregunta a L cómo se siente acerca de convertirse en padre él responde diciendo que está buzzing (zumbando) de la manera menos entusiasta posible. 

Buzzing (zumbando) - es un slang, una manera de decir que estás muy emocionada por algo. (zumbando de alegría)

Así que aquí (en tumblr) muchos de nosotros empezamos a hablar sobre como L no se veía como su estuviera buzzing (zumbado) acerca de ser padre y entonces una blogger tuvo la idea de hacerse un tatuaje de abeja cuando el bbg acabe. (x)

Este punto es básicamente de donde viene el buzzing y el tatuaje de la abeja en el fandom. 

Tatuaje de la Abeja 

El tatuaje de la abeja, puedo decir que es algo importante para nosotros… la idea salió de una blogger (x) (se volvió houie) tuvo la idea de hacerse una tatuaje de abeja al término del bbg y entonces un buen de larries estuvieron de acuerdo pero el final no se veía cerca (casi 6 años y seguimos esperando, lol) así que algunxs comenzaron a hacerse sus tatuajes (x) (x) (x) (x) … 

El ejército de Abejas

De regreso en 2017 (ese año algunxs de nosotros empezamos a hacernos el tatuaje) al inicio del año a la mitad de la promo de JHO (Just Hold On), Louis y Steve tuvieron una entrevista donde hablaron sobre como ‘adoptamos’ a Steve en el fandom (x)

(0:30 - 0:34) Steve dijo…

“Ellxs son la definición de lo que es un fan. Ellxs se unen, realmente van a la canción, van a lo que importa, y ponen estas canciones enfrente de la gente. Ponen estas canciones frente a los jueces, frente a otros fans, tu sabes, la radio. Es como, ellxs realmente son un ejército de abejas, yendo alrededor y haciendo un trabajo asombroso que pienso cualquier artista sueña con tener para  impulsar una canción” 

(Mi querido Steve, estoy de acuerdo contigo hombre!... en mi opinión y también en la de L somos INCREÍBLES)

y L también señaló que el está al tanto sobre la plática del fandom (*momento para gritar*) (sí… L, yo sé que tú siempre tienes un ojo sobre nosotros)... y adivina qué pasó unos meses después de esto!!!

Alguien proclamó quién es la ABEJA REINA…

Estoy muy segura de que sabes sobre quién estoy hablando… sip! SIR. HARRY STYLES!!! 

Necesitamos regresar al 2015 por un momento, para que puedas entender esto… la misma blogger que tuvo la idea del tatuaje estuvo bromeando con un anon sobre la posibilidad de HL haciendose el tatuaje de la abeja (x)

En ese punto creo que todos nosotros pensamos que el hecho de que uno de ellos se hiciera el tatuaje de la abeja era 100% IMPOSIBLE…

Y de vuelta en 2017… específicamente en Marzo 25 en la promo de su 1er álbum (HS - Harry Styles) Harry se puso bajo el reflector con un maldito tatuaje de abeja!!! en su muñeca. 

y ese es el cómo él fue el 1ro en hacerse el tatuaje de la abeja y también fue coronado como la ABEJA REINA; no sé si tengo que aclarar esto pero en ese tiempo muchas personas estaban (siguen) especulando sobre si ellos estaban juntos entonces el hecho de que él se hiciera una abeja siendo capaz de hacerse algo completamente diferente fue un tipo de confirmación de que siguen fuertes. 

Y claro que lxs antis empezaron a intentar desacreditar el tatuaje de H (como siempre) pero no pudieron... 

No estoy segura sobre cuantos argumentos tuvieron pero creo que la mayoría recordamos estos dos. 

Lo primero que dijeron fue que nosotrxs (lxs larries) no sabemos como se ve un tatuaje de abeja pero la cosa es que en el universo existen millones de diseños para un tatuaje de abeja, la abejas NO son todas iguales y así su argumento fue desechado.

Y su segundo argumento era que él se hizo el tatuaje por el atentado en Manchester pero esto no es viable porque... 

él fue visto con el tatuaje en Marzo 

el atentado en Manchester fue en Mayo 

y el tatuaje de la abeja de Manchester es una abeja específica, así que no puede ser el mismo tatuaje. 

*Aquí podemos comparar la abeja de Manchester y la abeja de Harry*

Pero por si aún tienes dudas de que es una abeja o no, aquí una comparación de una abeja y su tatuaje.

¡Pero espera! tu sabes… amamos hacer bromas sobre todo y claro que hicimos algunas bromas sobre los argumentos de lxs antis (lmao) y algunxs bloggers dijeron que se hizo el tatuaje porque ama los juegos de palabras… 

Arm-bee = Army of bees (haciendo referencia a que el tatuaje está en su brazo)

*de vuelta a la seriedad*

De cualquier forma… lo que todos se están preguntado sobre el tatuaje de abeja de H 

¿ESTÁ RELACIONADO CON BBG? 

¿Cuál era la posibilidad de él haciéndose un tatuaje de abeja... seriamente? 

Se hizo el tatuaje a mitad de la discusión sobre empezar a hacernos el tatuaje de la abeja… las personas se cansaron de estar esperando el final así que iniciaron a hablar sobre eso otra vez, después tuvimos la JHO entrevista donde Steve dijo que somos un Ejército de Abejas y L señaló que él era consciente sobre nuestra plática (él sabía sobre las abejas y su relación con el bbg) y además la gente estaba (sigue) preguntándose sobre si HL están juntos y en ese momento bbg seguía muy presente en la carrera de L (o sea más que ahora)  

En serio… cuál era la posibilidad de H haciéndose un maldito tatuaje de abeja????? pudo haberse hecho un pastel, una cabra, una rana, un perro, una flor, cualquier cosa pero NO!!! SE HIZO UNA ABEJA!!!

En mi opinión… sí! está relacionado con el bbg y no puedes hacer que cambie de opinión :)

Timeline

Agosto 4, 2015 - Buzzing entrevista; fue la 1ra vez que alguien le preguntó abiertamente a L sobre bbg.(x)

Noviembre 20, 2015 - Tatuaje de la Abeja, una blogger tuvo la idea de hacerse un tatuaje de abeja cuando el bbg terminara por la Buzzing entrevista. (x)

Noviembre 21, 2015 - La misma blogger bromeó con un anon sobre HL haciéndose el tatuaje. (x)

Noviembre 23, 2015 - El Bee Army empezó a planear hacerse el tatuaje. (x)

Bee Army - todxs lxs larries que se unieron a la idea del tatuaje

Diciembre 3, 2015 - H usó una playera con estampado de abejas en el Late Late Show. (x) para ese momento algunos amigos y los chicos ya habían usado algunas cosas de abejas.

Enero 27, 2017 - Army of Bees entrevista; Steve dijo que somos un Ejército de Abejas en una entrevista durante la promo de JHO y además L señalo que sabía sobre la conversación del fandom. (x)

Marzo 25, 2017 - H fue visto con el tatuaje de la abeja en su muñeca, él fué el 1ro en hacerse el tatuaje así que fue coronado como la ABEJA REINA.

Junio 18, 2017 - Lottie usó unos shorts con abejas bordadas. (x)

Julio 14, 2018 - 3er aniversario del bbg, Anne usó un pin de abeja y posteó una foto en su instagram. (x)

Diciembre 7, 2019 - H usó por 1ra vez la camiseta ‘Enjoy health, eat your honey’ para el backstage del Jingle Bell. (x)

February 26th, 2020 - H wears for the 2nd time the ‘Enjoy health, eat your honey’ t-shirt and the iconic cardigan by JW Anderson in a rehearsal. (x)

Julio 14, 2020 - 5to aniversario del bbg, H usó por 3ra vez la camiseta ‘Enjoy health, eat your honey’ y su chaqueta náutica de Bode.

En Conclusión…

La abeja es la mascota del bgg, porque L dijo que estaba ‘buzzing / zumbando’ sobre él siendo padre, los tatuajes son algo feos porque son un símbolo de una época oscura y también la celebración del término de esa época al mismo tiempo. 

H es la abeja reina (#ChooseSomeoneSupportive) y todxs nosotrxs (larries) somos el Ejército de Abejas, siempre vamos a apoyar a L y a seguir esperando que terminen este horrible circo.

y ahora un pequeño diagrama de todo esto solo para resumir :)

Confirmación del bbg -> Buzzing entrevista -> memes de abejas (sip inició como una broma) -> idea del tatuaje de abeja -> Larries uniéndose a la idea -> Bee Army -> Army of Bees entrevista -> Bee Army hablando sobre hacerse el tatuaje otra vez -> Queen Bee -> el apoyo continua...

Bueno, eso es todo… espero que esto te haya ayudado a enteder todo esto sobre las abejas pero si sigues teniendo dudas puedes enviarme un ask o dm :)

Be(e) happy!!! (se feliz) 

juego de palabras…

bee -> abeja be -> se  happy -> feliz

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like or reblog; give credits on twitter “payneironic”  ♥

[sabraeal]

Music Tag Game! I was tagged by @dei-hime

Rules: You can usually tell a lot about a person by the music they listen to! Put your music library on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people.

Tagging: @bubblesthemonsterartist, @infinitelystrangemachinex, @eveluboi, @gbeebs26

1. Havana - KHS & Rebecca black cover

Oh, man, okay, so this is from when kiddo was young-- he couldn’t fall asleep during naptime unless we watched music videos, and the KHS covers were his favorites. I also found that they were good background music while I was writing; easy to listen to but not so...uh...interesting as to be intrusive.

2. Dear Home Town - Great Big Sea

Oh wow, one of the very few GBS songs I don’t play on repeat. It’s a good one, but I rather their shanty covers over most of their contemporary ones (no, lies, I do love a LOT of their contemporary ones, but mostly they are new ones)

3. Blood - The Dear Hunter

God, this whole album is a gift. I very rarely listen to an album all the way through multiple times, but this one is a MUST. It’s all a complete story that weaves together, and god this song, “I’M A KILLER. I’M A KILLER. But I’ve been killing myself all along/defining the right from the wrong.” Quintessential Obi writing album for me. So much of my 2017 pieces are written listening to this.

4. DOA - Foo Fighters

I was a high school freshman in 2000, I’m not gonna sit here and try to tell you that the Foo Fighters were not a formative influence on my alternative music tastes okay. I’m not going to lie to you like that. DOA wasn’t my favorite as a teen, but it was definitely up there

5. Dance of Death - Andrew Bird

This was a piece recommended by....Hymn I think?? Way back when we were talking about instrumentals. There is something very immediate and dire about this piece, and it’s tends to be one of the songs on the list when I’m trying to throw together something with understated intensity

[More under the cut because tumblr doesn’t like all these videos]

6. Don’t Believe You - Thief

Link here because tumblr says no more videos :((

Man, I don’t remember exactly where I got this one. This might have been a spotify recommendation? Or maybe someone in the fandom?? In any case, it’s been a good presence when I do a modern au mix, because it definitely is a Obi smolder song.

7. In Another Life - Vienna Teng

Link here

Oh man, I’m so glad some Vienna Teng showed up. I found her through a friend back when she only had two albums, and quickly memorized the song after every one. I believe this is off volume 4, which is one where she played with POV; this song is from a soul being reincarnated, talking to its soulmate, recounting all the times they didn’t meet. It’s so jazzy and upbeat, and dissonant with the actual topic...it wasn’t a favorite when I first listened to it, but it grew on me.

8. The Phoenix - Fall Out Boy

Link here

Okay, here is my confession: I didn’t care for Fall Out Boy when I was a teenager. They were new when I was in...high school, I think? And by the time I was in college they were so big and their fans were SO OBNOXIOUS that I just had no interest in listening to them. And then in my late 20s/early 30s they had a resurgence and I realized that oh, I actually like them. So this is from that 🤣 (Okay, I’ll admit about 70% of my annoyance came from my friend who I tried to introduce Guster to in HS and she was too cool for suddenly having them as her FAVORITE BAND in college and like, had I ever heard them?? Also how about Fall Out Boy that’s her fav band too I should get into them. IT’S PETTY BUT I NEVER PRETENDED I WASN’T)

9. Nothing Without You - Vienna Teng

Link here

Another Vienne Teng! This is off her 3rd album, which is my favorite, but I originally didn’t care for this song. But there’s this thing where I may not click with her melodies at first, but after a few listens, I’ll be hooked on the lyrics-- and that’s what happened with this one. I watched a live performance where she talked about how this song was about being in a foreign country and not being able to speak the language, and how intense the feeling is when you find ONE PERSON who can, even if it’s only your name.

10. Night Terror - Laura Marling

Link here

I’m pretty sure this was a spotify find (but it could also be a fandom one, don’t quote me). I just love the very witchy sound of this one; this ends up on a lot of my lists that need that whole “five girls in black singing in the forest in the dead of night” vibe

[fandomfriend]

“The heck!?” along with assorted midnight thoughts.

I have 2 whole followers now? A day after creating my account? I expected the first one, as they are a person I know IRL, but uh, hi to the other person who apparently enjoyed my first post!

In other news, Physics class sucks! I just spent approximately 8 hours doing only 20 math problems. Why must I suffer.

At least I can be cheered up by the fact that several ao3 fics I enjoy updated today! I was especially pleased that a homestuck story, called “the run and go” by deserts updated, after nearly a year of radio silence. Also, “There’s still magic” by RosesCry, which is a fairly good undertale one.

I really freaking love undertale and homestuck. I, unfortunately arrived really late to both fandoms. I found undertale in 2016 or 2017, but only played the game in late 2019. I found homestuck in around the same time. 

Can I say, if you don’t focus on the weird toxic parts that every fandom seems to have (exept the sanders sides fanbase, they’re wholesome), the undertale and HS comunnities are actually super unique and inspiring! 

Undertale fans loved the game so much that they remade the story again and again, coming up with unique alternate universes that became so popular within the fanbase that the nicknames given to au characters are easily recognizable. 

Homestuck is cool just for how widespread and simultaneously mainstream yet niche it is. By that I mean, I have seen people joke about how there are no homestucks in their town (myself included), yet when I wore my black hoodie with a teal libra symbol embroidered on it, a teenaged looking girl actually came up and asked if it was a reference!  Heck, my love of HS is actually part of what inspired my username. To be exact, I modelled it after pesterchum handles. 

As for why it’s “fandomfriend” in particular, I just, really love talking about the sheer power of how a book, movie, show, comic, or game can bring strangers together. I adore meta commentary, and I’m pretty sure I would squeal with joy if someone wanted to discuss fanfiction tropes (I have even made a podcast episode on fandom psychology for a school project). It doesn’t particularly matter which fandom, as I think they are all pretty great, hence the nonspecific name and pfp, see?

I should probably cut it there, both for the sake of my sleeping schedule, and for whatever poor sap tries to read my sleep deprived rambling. XD

[foxes-that-run]

Two Ghosts

In 5 - 7 minutes of Behind the Album there is footage of Harry working on the melody, lyrics and recording two ghosts in Jamaica in late 2016. He goes on to moving from 1D where his personal life was overexposed and wanting to write music that was successful without people knowing about his personal life. He has made a similar comment to Rolling Stone “I don’t know much about Van Morrison’s life, but I know how he felt about this girl, because he put it in a song. So I like working the same way.”

When was it written

On it's release in May 2017 Harry said it was written “almost 4 years ago now”. in Summer 2013, Midnight Memories had his first writing credits, Happily and Something Great, Style was not written then. While possible, Two Ghosts is more mature. I think he thought he “wrote too many songs about” her and changed the time.

By 2019 he'd moved on and he told Rolling Stone it was written for Made in the AM. (Summer, 2015.) That places it with Walking on the wind, if I could fly, Olivia and Perfect, which also refer to 1989. FTDT and Woman are the same period, but don’t have lyrics that ID them like two ghosts.

To me, Two Ghosts is about reflecting on a lost love. The premise os the song reflects the Style MV which has Harry and Taylor shot in a ghostly way. The Style MV was released Valentines Day 2015, the anniversary of them getting together in 2014.

It has only been played live once since 2018, on Valentines Day 2020, further indicated it may have been written on Valentines Day 2015. Harry choose it over Golden when promoting Fine Line on Radio 2's Valentines Show in 2020, (16 mins), the only time it's been played in 4 years now. Harry also played Joni Mitchell’s yellow taxi which Joni tweeted about the anniversary of.

1D was in Australia, HS was flat. Style was #6, named after him and with footage is intentionally reminiscent. Even more interesting that we never saw the Two Ghosts MV, though Taylor referenced it in Me!'s.

On holding it back to be Solo

From Rolling Stone: "Sometimes if you’re, like, telling a really personal story, then the voice changes every few lines; it doesn’t quite do the same thing. As the songs got more personal, I think I just became more aware that at some point there might be a moment where I would want to sing it myself.”

"A turning point was “Two Ghosts,” a ballad from his solo debut. “’Two Ghosts’ I wrote for the band, for Made in the A.M. But the story was just a bit too personal. As I started opening up to write my more personal stuff, I just became aware of a piece of me going, ‘I want to sing the whole thing.’ Now I look at a track list and these are all my little babies. So every time I’m playing a song, I can remember writing it, and exactly where we were and exactly what happened in my life when I wrote it."

Questions on who it’s about

Nick Grimshaw asked Harry (at 4:38) if it was about Taylor. Media trained, 5 year seasoned TS question dodger, Harry had an adorable reaction. He and Nick are friends, he’s being coy and laughing, answering “I think it’s pretty self explanatory” adding “I think it’s about, sometimes things change, and you can do all the same things, and sometimes it’s just different, you know? 2017, Philosopher, London, England.” Then he laughs and dances around.

Lyrics

Same lips red, same eyes blue Same white shirt, couple more tattoos But it's not you and it's not me Tastes so sweet, looks so real Sounds like something that I used to feel But I can't touch what I see

The song clearly references Style, the music video for which was filmed in November 2014 while they were together and released in February 2015 after they broke up while he was in Australia.

The video is meant to be something he used to feel, that looks real but he can’t touch. It shows Taylor and Harry-stand-in with projections, playing with light and it’s interspersed with home video footage. The footage is thought to be shot in part by Harry, or at least wearing outfits she was pictured with him in.

We're not who we used to be We're not who we used to be We're just two ghosts standing in the place of you and me Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat

In the chorus moves from the reminder of the Video to the memory. Reflecting on looking at an idealised version of his relationship that’s now broken up and he’s grieving.

Taylor had referred to Harry as a ghost in How You Get The Girl “Stand there like a ghost shaking from the rain”

The fridge light washes this room white Moon dances over your good side And this was all we used to need Tongue-tied like we've never known Telling those stories we already told 'Cause we don't say what we really mean

In the second verse Harry reflects on their downfall, a lack of communication.

Taylor refers to herself as tongue-tied in Message in a bottle on Red “and I became hypnotised/ by freckles and bright eyes, tongue tied”

Harry later refers to being still tongue-tied in Sunflower Vol 6. Taylor also sang about not saying what the mean in Wish you Would: “You think I'm gonna hate you now / ‘Cause you still don't know what I never said”

We're just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat

This may refer to being emotionally depleted, as in Ever Since New York: "Brooklyn saw me, empty at the news / There's no water inside this swimming pool"

Or it could refer to being in an ever shrinking microscope, Taylor later used a Snowglobe and Fishbowl in the Lover Video to represent being on display together.

[cheylouwho]

Mind giving a brief summary of all of them, I'm just curious. (Wasn't here [for the fandom] until late 2017, but did catch some history for about half of these)

Ok so fandom/stream memes in that post plus a couple of extras i just remembered this morning:

Butters speedy run: I think it was s18 but there was two or three times during the season that butters would run TOP SPEED and slam cartman into the bathroom to yell at him and it was so goddamn funny a bunch of people made memes of it

Craigs knife: s20 craig brought a fucking knife in the scene when they destroy cartmans electronics, it was so funny bc everyone else had like bats and stuff but no he had a Knife ready to Kill. Lots of “et tu brute” memes in stream chat when he stabs cartman’s laptop

"Clyde is dead": pre s18, after SOT- Clyde falls off the castle tower at the end of sot and when he didnt show up in s18′s first couple of episodes everyone joked he was dead. A couple other notable “___ is dead” memes were s19 butters when he threw himself out the window and s17 world war zimmerman (i wasnt there for that but i joined fandom shortly after so i saw the residual memes) with token after cartman shot him

(NSFW) the word "tentadick" in relation to any character specifically Craig: 2014 fandom had a thriving nsfw community and we may have taken a page from the homestuck fandom’s book. (many artists were also hs fans so that made sense)

[Urinating]: Stream meme from s21 (or 22? i forget), closed captioning said [urinating] during the scene when sharon was peeing in the bathroom so we would just repeat it every week much to stream host’s dismay. Honorable mention is Spice22 which was the code that this sextoy shop ad would use as the promo code that we saw like every fucking stream night

Craigs on tumblr: s18 craig’s mom’s bush craig can be seen through the window with the drone on a computer looking at a blue website. Everyone then joked craig was on tumblr. I might have taken the joke too far and made an IC craig blog that some people thought was canon or run by the sp team oop

Cregg: craig egg

Yandere clyde: 2014 trend, lots of people were into yandere and its victim was clyde. like 3 separate askblogs with the premise it was wild but also very good

Long leg craig: my abomination after pointing out craig had long legs and tweek had long arms on his model. Memes ensued and it got out of hand. I have a whole tag dedicated to it

Quoting the I hate randy song, specifically the "stupid moustache man" line: someone wrote this beautiful song and everyone would rb it/quote it when randy did something fucking stupid 

Set em up knock em down: This post, sorry i misquoted it in my original post

Pc Carnival Conspiracy: oh my fucking god this was a mess and it needs to go here. s19, naughty ninjas episode original synopsis had a thing about there being a “PC Carnival” in town that everyone needed to stop the boys from ruining. Original synopsis is probably still on the official forums. Anyway, 4chan (yes why we listened to 4chan i dont know) had someone talk about how the removal of it was this big conspiracy and how it was actually going to come into play later and it was fucking WILD bc s19 had the most batshit theorizing sp fandom has ever had but it was super fun

Mpreg stan anon: Not to be confused with ric who currently goes around and asks for adult stan and wendy and their son (ric is also kinda a shitty person so best to ignore and block him), mpreg stan anon was an HONOR to receive. Like in a haha funny sort of way if you got asked to draw stan marsh 9 months pregnant you knew you had MADE IT in the fandom, and most people drew it ironically but it was still a funny little art meme and mpreg anon if youre still out there i love you

[onetoomanyaddictions]

Just a little Harry to brighten your day.

[beststyles]

It’s like I always say… “We’re never gonna survive unless we get a little crazy.”