#how tf you just gonna leave for paris girl

[themintsimmer]

📍paris, france. unexpected arrivals...   after adeline's decision to terminate her pregnancy, she impulsively packed a bag and left windenburg for a bit to clear her mind...thank goodness her sister's location is always on. a new episode of the westbrooks is out now on my channel.

[norrisainz33]

Best in Show || CS55 & CL16

☆ summary: charles’ sister is headed to the olympics and she’s ready to bring things to the next level with her fwb carlos

☆ pairing: carlos sainz & olympic!leclerc!reader

☆ f/c & warnings: none; slightly suggestive & terribly translated french

☆ requested: yes!! thanks for your request 🤍

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user3: i don’t understand how all of the leclerc’s are so perfect and talented

user1: the leclerc brothers are so 🤤

user2: princess of monaco about to eat up the competition at the olympics

user8: wait that’s insane only 6 athletes? the uk sent 327… y/n must be really good

user2: she is!! she’s been to the show jumping world cup AND she won the jumping international in monte carlo (both huge accomplishments especially at her age)

user4: their genes are strong and full of sporting talent huh

user24: they should’ve gotten carlos in on this interview. he loves talking about y/n

user18: no fr he very clearly has a crush on her

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ynleclerc: did someone say ,, olympics? get ready to watch your favorite duo (me and [horse’s name]) take on paris 😉

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user6: HI Y/N (louder than everyone else)

user7: she’s so unserious i love her

charlesleclerc: and why did you have to post the last photo

ynleclerc: because i love it frère [brother]

arthurleclerc: why didn’t i make the olympics announcement post

ynleclerc: bc you refused to put on the glasses bebe

user11: the royal family of monaco is so beautiful

juliaanalvarez: looking forward to seeing you in paris

ynleclerc: you better cheer me on julián

user88: ik carlos is shaking in his boots. he’s got competition it seems

user99: no y/n anyone but a soccer player

carlossainz55: congratulations on making it to the olympics y/n 😍

ynleclerc: thanks carly 🤭

user22: CARLY DNSKSJF

user18: i ship y/n and carlos so hard

use r23: day 124 of wondering why they aren’t together

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ynleclerc: don’t worry everyone - the party has arrived in paris and we already made it through the first round 🇲🇨

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user12: oh thank goodness (i wasn’t worried)! congratulations on an incredible first round

user13: what do i have to do to be that horse

landonorris: when are you gonna let me take a ride on ya?

charlesleclerc: mate that’s my sister

landonorris: i was talking abt the horse

ynleclerc: i hate you landonorris

landonorris: no you don’t ma cherry

ynleclerc: CHÉRIE

landonorris: 😘😘

user29: lando is so real for this

user24: impatiently waiting for carlos to get here

alexandrasaintmleux: the prettiest girl in all of paris. i am so proud of you 🤍

ynleclerc: please get your beautiful self here quicker 😫

carlossainz55: paris is looking real good these days 😍

ynleclerc: you should come find out just how good it looks 😏

user23: whoa get a room

arthurleclerc: please stop flirting

texts between you and carlos

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user77: my god you’re gorgeous

user99: now who … sent you those flowers ms y/n? was it charles? was it julian? was it carlos? i won’t spill the beans if u tell me i promise

user34: i’m rooting for you y/n!! you and [horses name] are going to crush it

landonorris: i know i didn’t send you flowers… so who did?

ynleclerc: wait… you didn’t send these?

landonorris: y/n/n don’t play with me. was it him?

ynleclerc: yes 🤭

landonorris: I KNEW IT. so you guys together or?

landonorris: DONT LEAVE ME ON READ TF

charlesleclerc: y/n/n - i only sent you the white ones… who are the others from?

ynleclerc: my adoring fans!

charlesleclerc: arrête! [stop it] we both know that is not the case

charlesleclerc: just tell me who they are from. i’ll be cool about it

ynleclerc: no you won’t charlie 🤍

arthurleclerc: charles sent me - tell me who those are from

ynleclerc: no! hope that helps bebe 😘

arthurleclerc: are they from a certain spanish driver or an argentinian footballer?

alexandrasaintmleux: your brothers are insufferable sometimes…. but don’t worry i didn’t tell them who sent those gorgeous flowers 😍🤭

ynleclerc: my girl 😘

user87: wagering a bet that those flowers are from carlos

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ynleclerc: obviously not the result i was hoping for. we tapped the last bar on the last jump as we were about to set the fastest time. i’m gutted but at the same time i am immensely proud of everything [horse’s name] and i have accomplished. we are bringing home monaco’s only medal from the entire olympic games and for that i am elated. i think i prefer silver anyway 🥈🤍

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user67: being the reason monaco is getting a medal is still an insane serve

user87: my favorite horse girl

landonorris: a medal is a medal - proud of you punk

ynleclerc: thank you bobby

juliaanalvarez: congratulations on a hard won medal!

ynleclerc: merci julian! glad we got to catch up 🤍

user57: back!! back i said 🤺

carlossainz55: y/n/n you gave it everything you had out there and you have so much to be proud of. i am in awe of you

ynleclerc: carlos 🥹

user55: this is so sweet i’m gonna throw up

user23: day 145 of wondering why they aren’t together

arthurleclerc: good job or whatever sis

ynleclerc: thanks loser

carmenmundt: you are an absolute inspiration! congratulations on following your dreams and making them come true 🤍

ynleclerc: i love you so much carmen

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charlesleclerc: we made it to paris in time to see y/n in the final event. ma petite sœur je suis si fière de toi. je suis pour toujours et à jamais ton plus grand soutien. [my little sister, i am so proud of you. i am forever and always your biggest supporter]

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scuderiaferrari: congrats y/n on a hard fought silver! we are so proud of you

user16: wake up ! hottest photo dump of the summer just dropped 😭😫😍

user37: wow arthur is eating charles up in the 4th slide

ynleclerc: merci charlie. je t'aime jusqu'à la lune et retour. merci d'être là [thank you charlie. I love you to the moon and back. thank you for being there]

charlesleclerc: je t'aime y/n/n. i wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else.

ynleclerc: btw who even invited pierre?

pierregasly: why can’t i turn up and support my favorite leclerc?

ynleclerc: i’m your favorite?

pierregasly: no , not even close

francisca.cgomes: i’m sorry y/n! he simply insisted upon tagging along 🙄

ynleclerc: i’ll let it slide because i got to see you my love 😍

user34: so special that they were all able to make it to paris

alexandrasaintmleux: my favorite girl in the whole world is an olympic medalist! monaco and all of us are so proud 🤍

ynleclerc: don’t make me cry 🥹

user76: monegasque royal family is my roman empire

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user55: I KNOW THATS MY MAN CARLOS

user87: you ain’t slick id recognize that hand and arm anywhere. that is mr carlos sainz jr

francisca.cgomes: your brother resorted to calling me to see if i knew who was in this post 🙄

ynleclerc: of course he did…. he’ll find out soon enough 🤭

charlesleclerc: anything you want to tell me? looks a lot like a teammate of mine

ynleclerc: nothing i want to tell you charlie :)

carlossainz55: had a wonderful evening with you mi amor. let’s do it again.. and again and again and again.

ynleclerc: i had an amazing time. i’m already looking forward to our next date!! you may as well just come back to my flat now idk why you even left in the first place

carlossainz55: didn’t want to come across too clingy

ynleclerc: good thing i like clingy! get back here 😏

carlossainz55: yes ma’am

user27: begging to know how much charles and arthur are stressing over this story

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ynleclerc: yes, you all guessed it! he’s mine 😘

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user13: someone check on the user who has been counting the days since they started flirting

user23: i’ve been summoned!! all i can say is thank god

landonorris: it’s about time

arthurleclerc: i called it

user99: old money carlos is perfect for our equestrian goddess

charlesleclerc: so this is how i find out?

ynleclerc: you did say you were one of my fans so… yes?

charlesleclerc: you are on my last nerve

carmenmundt: adorable 😍

carlossainz55: my gorgeous girl 😘

ynleclerc: my man my man my man

francisca.cgomes: time for a double date 🤍

pierregasly: charles says i’m not allowed

ynleclerc: who said you were invited pierre?

user47: vibes in the ferrari garage in zandvoort are gonna be wild

user98: carlosy/n truthers our time has come

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a/n: another installment of olympic reader wahooo! slowly but surely making my way through my requests. liked and reblogs are always appreciated

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[casually-slips-into-coma]

spoilers for iwtv s2e5!!!

initial thoughts throughout:

dubai armand in this ep specifically seems a lot happier than normal. very smiley and kind of excited? like more energy than usual. mans was ready to eat

this fucking turtleneck

loumand library dates

hypnotized security as one does

i like that armand likes to hunt his kills. thought it was a cool detail

made me think of when armand tells daniel to run in the book

daniel was there for gay sex the drugs were just a bonus

he barely registered the coffin. he was like ok ig

the zodiac killer lol

daniel struggling to get the tape out of the plastic lmao

some coke for the gums just in case

you were lonely louis (gagged him)

the extreme change in vibe from daniel shitting himself about louis being a vampire to him laughing along while louis complains about his ex

book quotes!!

daniel validating louis complaining about lestat. theyre just gossiping at this point

BIG time asshole

daniel making A Point and then going sorry and louis saying no,,,,,that🫵was astute🗣🗣

“can u do the fang thing again? i love that, man” hes just like me fr

dangerously unstable psyche ((clocked))

im kinda with her get off that bench brother😭 [about claudia leaving]

jacob the actor you are

ok this whole argument between louis and armand was insane and i replayed it like a million times

kinda love louis coked tf out

being called boring fucking hurts thats a wild argument

he called you a soft beige pillow suffocating him girl u gotta stand up

armand really locked on to the word fascinating

louis said lick my boots😝

gremlin sighting👀

“chop my hands off”👀👀👀👀

picking LINT❓❓off the sofa⁉️ ⁉️

armand mocking him “oh its so hard to be me, its so hard to kill humans, i can feel her feelings as i drain her, louis de point du lac, everyone i know wronged me!”

imitating each others accents

my vampire daddy groomed me into a little bitch holy fuck when they go low i go lower

THE NAME!! the name!! unuttered in our home for 23 years said over and over again until it was pounding in my brain like a hammer!!!!

assad deserves every award my man was actiiiinnggg

she didnt love you/i know

louis :(((

“can u hear her? shes calling me…” ok what if i kms

and then louis runs into the sunlight🙃

hello loml: practical effects

sidestep the big picture get the story straight first daniel said lets lock the fuck in rn we gotta focus

“you said the worst things youve ever said to me” hes just a sopping wet cat

hes fine youre fine this is fine youre all fine

finally seeing unhinged armand ive prayed for times like these

i stand by my cancelled wife btw

small detail of different memories: in louis’ version he apologizes to armand and armand says “meaningless word” and then moves on to talk about the slanted floor. in daniel’s version he remembers the dead guy and the same scene plays out except armand explains he killed the neighbor in between “meaningless word” and how the floor is slanted

vibrating eyes

LOVING how this episode is shot. all the different angles and the camerawork and the fucking MUSIC

canon that louis fucks guys and then kills them fic writers get to it

“128 boys hes brought here—“ “he said it was 5🥺”

daniel basically saying look man ill suck ur dick if u let me go

and then armand making him kneel

armand so unnerving <3

i know its kinda dumb to point out but i love small details of vamp power. specifically how armand picked up that table like it weighed nothing and when he picked up louis

love the idea of louis being like ok just put your feet in the rocks itll help

sopping wet cat armand!!!

but also he really let louis suffer for days instead of just giving him blood to ease the pain😬

lestats voice caught me off guard genuinely

interesting that armand knows where lestat is. i wonder how the show is gonna go about it. is he in the ground??

and refusing to pass along the i love you message……….theres layers here

u left me for death :((

have i atoned for my part of paris👀👀

the armand daniel bite was very do u know what it means to be loved by death

itty bitty armand fangs

need him alive as a testament to our companionship wtf are we even talking about anymore

arun/maitre😵‍💫

the fucking sunglasses im pissing😭😭

he got that shit on tho

welcome back trinity from the matrix

also just the fact that armand came back like yum i had so much fun on that hunt😁 anyway what are you two up to😇☺️

and louis and daniel just had a harrowing 2 hours trying to recover lost memories and coming to the realization that theyve been mega gaslit for decades

armand saying exactly what louis told daniel word for word

a hunch🫢

i love this show

im so excited for next weeks episode this story is unfolding so beautifully. im even more curious now about why and how this second interview is happening. ((also am very confused/curious about what looks like a protest in the promo??))

[chim-chim1310]

Thoughts on jk's house leaked video

This video is interesting and since there's no jimin content to talk about I'm gonna talk about latest tea.

Okay so.......I think there are chances that the video could be real. But it's the timing that's kinda off to me.

Right after 3D. This is like super weird.

This leak could lead to two conclusions :

1) that it was to sabotage the new song.

Okay makes sense. But i don't understand that jk being a celebrity, if he wanted to get cozy cozy with his gf why tf would he leave the curtains open, windows showing the whole view with lights full on?

Like it doesn't make sense. He even goes on live with curtains closed.

So to me it's super weird. Which leads me to the second conclusion.

2) it's a PR move.

Okay now I'm not saying that jk doesn't have a gf. The girl in the video could very well be his gf but that's not my point here.

I heard someone say that scooter and bangpd is using all the US PR strategies. Like the whole songs with f*'ckboy image, then smoking thing which was clearly intentional and now this whole gf thing.

I mean it could be a possibility that it is a PR move???

It's just the possibilities that I can think about.

Because this is so off.

If this is real then I must say that it's a highly f*cked up thing to record someone at their homes.

ANOTHER POINT

Okay so from the video the girl clearly looks prego??? (Correct me if I'm wrong)

I mean what??? Jk is a father now?? 🤣🤣

I think this point completely changes the whole narrative because it's so much different than taennie situation.

Taennie was pretty clear that they are dating. The Paris walk was clear too.

But here in jk's case...... The girl he's supposedly dating is prego. And now it's leaked. If this is really jk in the video then it's a huge f*cking deal.

The girl is pregnant, if we assume that it's jk in the video then it just got revealed that jk is a father. 🤯

It's a pretty big deal so is hybe not gonna address it?

I mean the girl is literally pregnant that's a whole different situation than taennie which is why the video is fishy.

If the girl was not pregnant I would for sure believe that it's jk in the video in an instant.

There's a whole ass pregnancy involved here which goes far beyond just dating or fooling around. And I think it's big deal enough for hybe to clear things up immediately.

I mean before seven jk looked like a single fratboy living in a shitty apartment looking very much free and just resting and drinking at home. But all this while he had a pregnant gf to take care of?! Lol I find it hard to believe because he doesn't shy away from showing his personal space and he honestly looked single to me.

But I could be wrong and maybe he's just very good at hiding his private life.

And this is why my theory of PR move doesn't fit right either because if it was a PR move then they for sure would've made him date a hot celebrity or show him fooling around with female celebrities left and right to you know go along with the f*ckboy image that they're going for.

But a whole ass pregnancy is just gonna affect him negatively which is why It's maybe not a PR move.

So yeah this whole video is fishy. And I'm quite not sure if I believe it or not.

Anyways....

What I noticed today is that some jikookers are oddly fine with the video. I mean since chapter 2 they were kinda moving like a cult like taekookers but they're surprisingly calm after this video and some even believe that the video might be true.

With the way they were going since seven release I thought they're gonna act like taekookers during taennie scandal. But surprisingly they are taking it well.

I mean I'm shocked but it's a god thing.

SInce I'm an ex-jikooker I'm still in jikook spaces just because I'm curious and want to know what they are talking about. And they seem cool with the video.

But I've never been in taekook spaces. I wonder how they are taking the whole news lol.

[itstherainbowstringsforme]

could someone maybe explain to me why taylor used a liam hemsworth lookalike in the 'wildest dreams' mv? and miley wildlife animals in her 'midnight sky' mv?

and why are they twinning like they are winning?

and why are karlie and miley working it out? or what tf are you working out?

and why is miley on karlies final countdown list?

and why is taylor timelining back to the hannah montanah movie?!

Taylor was 19 yo when the movie came out i don’t think i like it here very much

why did their love blackout start in like 2013 ost? the questions raised more questions and the more you say the less i know

mikey i do have questions a lot of questions but i’m not sure i want answers

🌋 if this was a movie, she’d be here by now … baby, what about the ending?? i think i’ve seen this film before. so i’m leaving out the side door !!!!!!!!!!!!! this doesn't sound like the happy ending i was hoping for -------- karlie didn't meet her man in 2012 - that's when they began again they met in 2008 ———- apparently filming hannah montanah began in April 2008 in Los Angeles, California and Columbia, Tennessee.

TENNESSSEEEEEE? TENNESSEEEEEEE?

fuck me

COLUMBIA?! NICE EVER HEARD OF THE COUNTRY CANADA? BRITISH COLUMBIA VANCOUVER Fri, Dec 6, 2024 Sat, Dec 7, 2024 Sun, Dec 8, 2024

there's a nice indie artist playing there - not super well known - so you might still be able to get tickets - it's always cool to say that you saw an artist perform before they were famous (that's actually true) but more because of the fact that concert venues are sometimes old churches - paradiso amsterdam - botanical gardens capetown-l'olympia les quais de Seine paris - sounds like reverse fun for an artist - i think miley can relate - cause girl i could feel the anxiety through the screen at that lollapalooza thing - wanted to come and drag u off thgat stage fuck that - looked like the longest panic attack in history - it should be used to show how unhealthy it is forcing young artists to go bigger and bigger fuck fame make art. pick your poison.

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taylor do paradiso on yr gaylor pride tour pls - that’s flippin’ the script. ask fletcher it's pretty cool. she was too. blew me away. --------------------- i thought i was reaching big time with the connecting dots between my superheros - came out of nowhere - voids concrete walls story of my life - tumblr is on shuffle - taylor is apparently stuck in some time loop - good times good times - julien baker - this song really?! really?!

belle and sebastian addendum

wait.. wait.. wait.. this is turning into a live blog 'filming started in LA and ended in columbia' as in the three of you got fucked big time by the system in LA and this shits how/truman/open cage/prison life will end in columbia? eeeehm... karlos karlie karl sunshine giraffe? are you going to be in vancouver? please go sit in the real nosebleeds this time - we know you've been to half of the eras shows anyways -just to fuck with 'em AND BE ON THE FUCKING STAGE DURING KARMA! (MILEY CAN LEND YOU A JACKET! AND GAAAY IT UP! NOT FOR US FOR YOU! BUT ALSO FOR US! just give us call if they mess with you we’ll be there in no-time (if your wife flies a jet over to come and get us) - we can be your bodyguards or security - i'd like to stand where these two were standing during dress - or wherever, just not too far from that angle

mikey be surprise song guest!!! come oooon i don’t think i’ll survive if this sh*t would really happen -😂😂😂-

a broken lesbian love affair is enough for 83 lifetimes don’t add the ruined nashville party to the mix please seriously please - didn’t choose this town still didn’t choose this town. must’ve been the salvia girl the f* salvia. or just bein' stoned the whole f’ day in general. good girls be good. let us be us then✌️

mikey really was her bodyguard.

and taytay mikey’s biggest fan.

------- FULL FUCKING CIRCLE

(or triangle 😒?) PEACE OUT BROS ✌️

it’s not real. it can’t be. hell yeah it is. maybe?! thinking a lot of thoughts - took me ✌️ minutes (a tiny bit longer maybe) - closet fears are real - feels like a party for one - good thing i got my comfy bf jeans on - i’m still missing fifteen years of this story - love blackout 1.0 - what tf happened after this ‘date’?!

i really wish i hated you?! i can fix him? cold blooded. it’s madness. unreleased songs like from the vault? august?! just wake me up when december ends. belief system reset.

🌋

i knew it, i know you the ‘greap’ escape

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i feel you taylor same here 😭

i’m also stuck in your timeloop

i keep going round and round on the same old circuit

🔄⤴️⤵️⤴️⤵️🔄

like carousel horses we’re set on our courses ———

my tumblr feels like it has been put on shuffle my brain too but what’s new 🫠

brb

PEACE OUT HOMIES ✌️

[finalgirlfae]

enchanté, chris sturniolo

ive had this idea for a while and i need to write it :)

summary: chris meets a girl at a cafe in paris

pairings: chris sturniolo x black! girl

literally all the sturniolo fics r made for white girls i cant take it anymore so here u go

blue text is translated !!

“you guys suck.” chris said, digging into his pocket for some euros.

“chris just go order the fucking coffee so we can go.”

chris rolled his eyes and pushed open the door to the cafe, walking in and immediately being greeted by the smell of coffee and flowers.

“bienvenu!” a dark skin girl in a green apron with brown hair called from behind the counter. she was absolutely stunning and just had this smile that was incredible. “que voudriez-vous?” she spoke in the cutest accent.

welcome, what can i get you

chris paused for a second to try and understand. he had picked up a few french phrases for the trip but as cute as her accent was it was very thick and she spoke fast. to add to it, she was definitely the prettiest girl he had ever seen- ever. she tilted her head at him and gave a weak smile, making him realize he had just been staring at her for a moment blankly.

“um.. can i have- puis-je avoir.. un café et un-”

“i speak english.” she smiled, rolling her lips together and looking at him. chris sighed in relief.

“oh thank god. can i have a small iced coffee with sugar, milk and a chocolate croissant?”

she nodded and began to ring him up. “your french is not terrible, you know. it’s the way you speak.”

“what do you mean?”

“un café et un croissant? the sentence was correct. but you aren’t confident in your french, no?”

chris nodded. “how did you know i was gonna get a croissant?”

“that’s what all american tourists order.” she laughed, reaching into the glass counter to get a croissant.

“salut.” another girl spoke as she came from the back, tying an apron around her waist. she looked up at chris and then to the girl behind the counter, smiling. “un garçon américain?” she asked, shifting her eyes back and forth. the girl nodded.

hey, an american boy?

“il est mignon.” the girl said to her coworker in a teasing voice

he’s cute

chris looked back to the girl at the counter with a confused expression and she only waved her hand to dismiss it. “ignore her.” she looked at her coworker and through gritted teeth said “š'en aller!”

leave!

the girl put her hands up defensively and disappeared into the back again leaving the two in the empty cafe, the sound of the espresso machine rumbling to fill the silence as she prepared his order.

“do you come here often?” chris asked, immediately realizing how fucking stupid the question sounded as soon as he asked it.

she didn’t seem to mind it though, in fact she laughed. “yes i find myself here all the time.. seeing as i own the cafe and all.” her tone was sarcastic but nice.

he ran a hand through his hair. “that’s not what i meant- your american accent is really good, kind of like you live there or something.”

she nodded. “thank you. i study in america.”

“really, where?”

she bagged the chocolate croissant and then slid it to him before stirring the coffee and poking a straw through the plastic lid.

“emerson, it’s in boston.”

chris smiled. “i live near boston!”

she smiled back at him, and it wasn’t a fake smile for a customer. it seemed genuine. “where do you live?”

“somerville,” he said, “i think emerson is like twenty minutes away.”

(might not be accurate but how tf would i know, i don’t have their address)

“how long are you in paris for?” placing her hands on the counter and tilting her head.

“a few more days, i’m traveling with my brothers.”

“any plans for tonight?”

he thought for a second. “no, not really.”

“well if you haven’t already you should check out bambina, it’s amazing and tourist friendly.”

“tourist friendly?” chris asked, taking his receipt and sipping the coffee.

she nodded. “uh most restaurants in paris will take advantage of you.. they think americans are.. how you say.. stupid?” she joked, fixing her hair over her shoulder.

chris laughed. “well maybe if we have a french girl at the table they won’t play us.”

she raised an eyebrow at him. “are you inviting me to dinner?”

“only if you wanna go.”

she nodded. “give me your phone.”

chris took his phone and unlocked it, handing it to the dark skin girl. she typed her number in before handing it back to him.

“it’s nice to meet you.. ivy.” he spoke, finally catching her name.

“nice to meet you too..”

“chris! chris sturniolo.”

he stuck his free hand out and she laughed and shook it. “ivy maüsee. enchanté.”

nice to meet you.

“well..i guess i’ll see you for dinner tonight.” chris slid his phone back into his pocket and looked at her for confirmation.

ivy nodded. “i guess you will. take care.”

“you too.”

as soon as he was out of the store he looked at matt and nick. “..what the fuck does enchanté mean?”

[jmblyajones]

Titans: Blackfire (3x4)

1. You should see my face with that bs opening. Jason could at least pick a guard who was gonna do real damage. But sure, lets all pretend he’s mad at Scarecrow for feeding tips to Dick and PD

2. Conner with the faded tattoos ok den! (wait is that dirt??😂)

Omg Conner did not just call himself a “fucked up half breed”….

I knew he was going to take this so hard but damn bby no one was thinking that, promise 🥴.

Also, Conner needs to realize no one was looking for him to fail. No one was looking to say I told you so. Of course I get this is all his insecurities but it makes you think if he was actually comfortable being apart of Titans. And coming at Gar who is just trying to be supportive… this team is a-crumblin’. I’m glad despite her grief, Dawn is doing her best to let Conner know that what happened to Hank is not all on him.

3. Wait Dawn is leaving?? Oh, I was NOT expecting that. She’s hanging it up for good? Woooooah, she’s offering for Dick to come with her?? Excuse me?? What does she think they’d do in Paris together??

Of course Barbara called. Boy is getting hit up by all his exs 💀

4. Kory… girl what are you doing sis? She done burnt tf out of Gar’s arm 😳. I gotta see Gar tackle Kory in slow motion because WOW. I don’t blame Gar for wanting Kory to keep her distance, this is like the second time Kory attacked him. 😂

5. This therapist is whipped like a motherf! But I’m glad Kory is reaching out to him. And the line about her being the one people turn to (like a mother *wink*) was gold bc it’s true. But learning about your parents death at the hands of your sister is a lot to process.

6. Of course Dick stole Scarecrow 🙄 Where the hell is he gonna keep him??

7. The isolation chamber is indestructible huh? Good grief my boy Gar is getting it from all angles 😭. They ain’t protecting him enough for my liking 😂 “common sense committee” lmaooo. I love them both truly

8. Dick you are screwing tf out of Barbara and not the kind that ends in an orgasm.

Let’s switch things up Dick! I would love to see you ride around in a toyota prius next time!

Also… how does Crow know that Hank and Dick are friends also knowing Dick is Nightwing ect? Ok welp, love Crow immediately exposing his business about working with Jason this episode! Dick also knew Crow getting “ambushed” in jail was bullshit! Thank goodness! Let’s finish this shit! See…. Jason has never been more of an annoying shit than in this moment with Crow repeating all Dick’s inside Titans business!

Jason keeps putting himself in situations that cause him to get extremely hurt or traumatized yet it’s everyone’s fault but his. Jason fell from a building because he went out looking for Deathstroke on his own. Jason gets “killed” by Joker because he went out looking for him on his own. I’m tired man. Then you cry into the arms of a villain?? This has to be the twilight zone because wtf?! Like I really felt Dick yelling at his ass at the end of the episode because this dumbass literally told Crow everything man 🤦🏾‍♀️

9. How did Blackfire even get caught??

So this containment unit gives the women no powers, chile. And how much does Kory know about this organization holding her sister? At least send her to another planet 💀. I can’t with the “even though I was the bad kid and grew up to be evil, I still want someone to stick by me and my horrible decisions”. Komand’r is throwing all her blame on Kory and it’s so…

11. Let move around because this whole Bruce is the real villain is getting old asf. And Crow trying to pray on all the bs Jason told him. Let’s pick a new story plsss.

12. The government would rather keep Komand’r in the cell before she’s proven to be any threat (aside from what we the audience and Kory’s team know)…. sounds just like the the US government to me.

13. Someone explain because i’m not seeing it and i’m on the edge of agitated and throwing my laptop across he room. Jason takes no responsibility for anything. Calling Dick Bruce? Didn’t we get through this s1?? It’s making all Jason’s scenes so hard to watch. Even Komand’r blaming all her actions on Kory. It’s too much bullshit.

[quillify-tries-to-talk]

I think I figured out the problems in Roshani Chokshi and Sandhya Menon's books (as much as I love them, their Indian rep doesn't resonate with me as much as I'd hoped).

DISCLAIMER: not hating. There are valid issues that PoC face in foreign countries and I'm not trying to invalidate them. This is just an opinion

A little background first. Contrary to what you're shown in Hollywood movies, south asian countries are not a wasteland of forests and slums, but the situation isn't great, either.

Majority of the population is somewhere in the middle class rungs that often comes with a plethora of issues starting from academic pressure to feelings of guilt and anxiety over spending money on yourself. And that is just the tip of the iceberg. (Colonial trauma is a bitchy, vicious cycle).

It is a privilege to leave the country, to have enough money to live an entire ocean away. Not all of us will ever be able to do that so we'll have to deal with whatever shit is thrown in our faces by the society and government (the CAA/NRC act, privatization of govt institutions, the farmer bills that aren't actually pro-farmer, covering up atrocities in the most outlandish ways, controlling media houses so actual news never reaches common people, catering to billionaires, mismanaging the pandemic and opening your eyes only when you see the ashes).

Not to mention a lot of Non-Resident Indians (NRIs) are wealthy, upper caste people, absolutely cloistered from the atrocities that occur everyday against marginalized communities.

So when I read books by Indian-American authors, my feelings are mixed. If they're set in historical times my anger is through the roof. Let's take an example.

Laila from The Gilded Wolves by Roshani Chokshi gave me immense joy at first for being beautiful, bold brown girl. But as I read further, my feelings started to grow more negative.

It's because of the way Chokshi did zero research on South Asian colonization of the British while waxing poetic about the tragic fates of her male characters. Laila is from Pondicherry, and the French colonized that place (we only get mentions of forests and magicians because apparently that's all there was in the 1800s, huh :))). We have no idea how she ended up in Paris, or how as an 18 year old brown girl she took up a job as a courtesan/sex worker (I don't have a problem with sex work, but I would like to know how she got that job and I would like to see her childhood and trauma explored. Okay, Severin gets pages of backstories about his fathers but his love interest doesn't?). She didn't have a surname first while everyone else did. And now, in the second book we move with the fact that we have zero ideas for her real name too. For a book that's about colonization, desi history gets ignored by the author, and instead Laila is sexualized af. I'd like to ask what's her role in the story beyond causing Severin angst, baking, reading objects for him, and being a generally sweet person? Chokshi keeps *telling* me that she isn't there for Severin and is her own person, but where's the proof? She has no backstory, no name, and no role beyond romance and smexy courtesan.

Like Wikipedia has a whole ass page. Wouldn't have taken much to just Google it all. And for an author of south asian ethnicity to ignore this, the way white historians do? Reeks of privilege.

Her MG series, The Pandava Quartet, is also set in America. A story.... about Hindu mythological legends... in America.... it was jarring to read, honestly. For once in my life I'd like to see something *not* being set in America. America is not the center of the world for crying out loud.

Same with Sandhya Menon's books. We'll leave out her twisted idea of feminism: gurls ruleeesss!! Boys droolzz. It was very obvious in When Dimple Met Rishi, with the way Dimple kept hitting and punching Rishi, and it was deemed as badass. All her boys have the same archetype: Love Interest Cameras.

Y'know, romance works with *two* characters, right? Two of them, each bringing something to the table for a healthy, balanced relationship that progresses slowly through various stages (because real life often isn't a Bollywood movie). Boys need to have good role models and a role beyond "hot, sexy love interest." Y'all have become the very thing you swore to destroy.

Wait, I derailed. Sorry.

Ahem. Back to the topic.

I shouldn't have been shocked, but I truly was while reading Menon's books. It just made me realize the privilege a lot of NRIs have and they don't even realize it.

Case in point: most of Menon's characters are all wealthy and loaded af, and that makes them extremely hard to relate to. They are disconnected from their culture, they don't speak any of the native languages, not even a little bit. The little mentions we got were so inaccurate, they made me grit my teeth and make a whole post about it. It feels as though she just slapped a south asian name on a white—I'm not even gonna call them characters—they're basically puppets for her romances (who tf kisses right into 3-4 chapters of a book, c'mon!).

I'd have expected such disconnect from a white author *side-eyes Cassandra Clare*, but not from someone of my own ethnicity. It was heartbreaking. I'm sorry if you don't agree but I had to get this off my chest

Again, BIPOC in foreign countries have issues that need to be examined, but we keep forgetting that most of them aren't in America. We're living in our countries, and there are a host of marginalized communities whose stories need to be heard, now more than ever.

[hastxiings]

Holy crap I’m scared, she looks terrified. Before these episodes start, i both apologise and thank my friends on our group chat. Yall are my emotional support during this.

KSJSJDJIEJSKS SHE HAS A CAT! THAT IS PEAK LESBIANISM 🥺💀 There’s someone in the apartment isn’t there? Maybe there isn’t? I’m worriedddddd! Unknown caller... that’s never good. Oh god. This isn’t going to end welllllll. Her outfits are superior 🥺 There’s a present at her door... please be careful. Spencer calling her to see if she wants to go watch a Russian movie with him 🥺 this is the cutest. Their friendship is something so personal to me. “Sorry handsome, gonna have to pass.” “Thank you.” “For what?” “For being you”. “Awe thanks, I don’t know how to be anyone else.” “That’s what I love about you.” 🥺 that huge box for one flower? OH NO NEVERMIND. SKJEKEJEJE her speaking French 🥺🦋 Wha? I’m so confused? They just took her? “They got her” WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY GOT HER. Wait was that Interpol? She’s leaving, girl I don’t blame you. Where’s she gonna stay tho? With Garcia?

Who tf is Doyle? Is he going to go after her? Is Lauren an alias? I have so many questions. “How’d she die?” “Car accident.” This really isn’t going to end well for her is it? The last time her past was brought up, it deadass shattered my heart. Where is she staying? Oh shit, Jeremy’s dead. Is he [Doyle] knocking them off one by one? Spencer knows somethings up... “see you soon.” Oh god, she’s next. Oh he’s coming for her... I’m scared.

The fact that she has to check her car so intensely before getting in breaks my heart. They were married? That’s so sad 🥺 idk who this Clyde dude is but I like him already ngl. “I don’t trust anyone anymore.” Stomp on my heart and shatter it, it would hurt less. He’s coming for them. I really like Clyde I’m ngl, he seems so cool lmao. Oh god please tell me that’s Clyde putting his hand on her back and not Doyle. Please tell me it’s not him. ITS HIM ARE YOU KIDDING ME. “what do you want?” “You!” Oh noooooo. I can’t put into words how much these episodes are stressing me out XD “I’ve got a flock levelled at your crotch, what’s to stop me taking out you and the little ones right now.” I love her lmao. HES WATCHING HER TEAM!! OH GOD! “Come near my team and I will end you.” She’s so protective of her family 🥺 leave her alone! “Your life.” Bish I think tf not.

Is she running away? I mean I don’t blame her. Please don’t fall asleep in the subway, that’s asking for trouble. Oh thank the lord, Clyde’s there. She won’t put her team at risk but at the same time, they can help her. You are one brave gal I’ll give you that Prentiss. I feel like Em snapping at Garcia just made Garcia realise that something is seriously wrong. I feel so bad that she had to see Tsia’s body but couldn’t react and cry. I’ve said it once I’ll say it a thousand times, Emily and Spencer’s friendship is the cutest thing. How much do you think it hurt her to know he was only trusting her with something when she can’t tell him what’s wrong with her. The way he knows when she’s starting with her anxious habits again 🥺. “Is it her?” “Yeah,” are they working for Doyle? Now they’re being shot at... brilliant. Of course it’s Doyle. The clover, oh god. Garcia knows somethings up. This is set but.. she’s saying her ‘goodbyes’ isn’t she.

So she left, the team know. “Lauren Reynolds is dead.” “Why run, we’re her family.” They’re I- I’m not okay. “Doyle’s killing families. She’s not married or close to relatives, he was ready to wipe us out. She ran, to protect us.” She just shot the guy, damn. I never thought about the fact that she’s a trained spy. The fact that JJ is the only member that knows the most about her past. That’s girlfriend material. Lauren Reynolds is a bby 🥺 Okay Garcia’s voice message has me sobbing. I just want to give her a hug and tell her it’ll all be okay. I hate seeing her cry. HE SHOT HER! Oh thank the lord she has a bulletproof vest. Honestly Morgan is kinda pissing me off, he has no idea what she’s been through. Papa Rossi defending her 🥺. “He’ll take his time.” I didn’t think of that oh no. The way she flinched and stifferend when he out his hands on her, I didn’t think a heart could break this much for a fictional character but here we are. HE HAS A SOLDERING IRON OH GOD. He actually just freaking branded her are you kidding? My heart hurts. IS HE GONNA FREAKING SHOOT ROSSI?! She’s so protective of them but she can’t do anything to protect them. She’s crying, istg these episodes are gonna leave me so freaking emotional. He has a gun, to her head. Okay but her with kids is the cutest thing in the entire world. She faked his death? I can’t, I can’t watch this, he’s literally beating her to a pulp. “I looked pretty good for a dead kid, didn’t I” EYE-💀 HE STABBED HR WITH A TABLE LEG NO! Morgan staying by her side, I’m sobbing. I swear if she dies. She never made it off the table. I’m. I, I have no words rn. This hurts. WAIT IS THAT HER! SHES ALIVE! OH THANK THE LORD I JUST SAT THERE FOR 10 MINUTES SOBBING. SHES NOT ACTUALLY DEAD? HOLY MOLEY! JJ visiting her in Paris to give her passports, what else happened 😏 (that’s lesbian activity)

[kyber-crystal]

So you don’t have to write this it’s an awful idea anyway, but I have a writing suggestion. So let me set the scene for you: It’s autumn and reader wants to go on a walk, Steve decides to join and they have a really good conversation. Then they come to this boardwalk thing and they talk on there for a bit, then after awhile Steve confesses that he loves the reader and they kiss and it’s all cute :) Sorry it’s a really bad idea, just a suggestion.

YES YES YES THIS IS SO FLUFFY OMG THIS ISNT BAD AT ALL. I LOVE FLUFFY STEVE SM

Steve knows you’re a huge nature lover & enthusiast

Even while on missions you like to point out the scenery around you and frankly, he finds this quite adorable

Fall in New York was one of your favorite times of year - with the vibrant colors of the trees, the perfect weather: not too cold but not too warm, either, and of course, cozy cable-knit sweaters and hot cocoa.

As a superhero, you were rarely ever granted breaks - so now that you had been given an opportunity to finally relax, you seized it right away

Although you and Steve weren’t officially a couple, you spent almost all of your free time with each other - cooking together, going on runs, sparring, and even playing piano together

You both found solace in talking walks downtown, admiring the hustle and bustle of your surroundings. Though your outings weren't always filled with chatter, his company was the only thing you really needed sometimes, and his as well

You'd taken to walk around Central Park together from time to time

Today, your schedules were both cleared of any events so you decided to head out a little farther than usual, taking the subway out closer to the coast. It was the crack of dawn and the skies were still pale and grey, so nobody was really around when you left

You gazed in awe at the leaves falling in gorgeous bursts of red, orange, and yellow, gently fluttering to the ground. Steve watched you stare and couldn’t help but smile - he loved seeing your face light up. It was a relieving contrast to your toughened-up facial expressions that he often saw on the battlefield - the look in your eyes you got before shooting your enemies dead with energy blasts. 

It was a softer side of you that he didn’t see very often, but was glad whenever it emerged

Now that you were outside, you were beginning to deeply regret underestimating the weather and not dressing properly - your sweater and jeans clearly was no match for October’s chilly winds - today was rather cold. 

"Oh god, it’s cold, I’m freezing," you muttered, shivering and rubbing your hands together in an attempt to stay warm, “I’m so stupid. I should’ve brought a jacket, at least...”

"Ha, that sucks," Steve was smirking at you, all bundled up in his thick jacket, with his fluffy scarf wrapped around his neck

"Oh. You're actually freezing," his eyes widened once he noticed your lips that were tinted slightly purple and your hands that were bright red. "Here." He took off his gloves, along with his jacket. You slid in each arm into the thick parka one at a time and buttoned it up before taking the gloves and slipping them onto your hands, thankful for the added warmth that it gave you

Steve wrapped an arm around your shoulders and pulled you close. You let out a small sigh of contentment - it really felt like you were being enveloped within a heater

“But you’re gonna get cold-”

“I’m wearing multiple layers, darling. And, I’m Captain America, I don’t get sick easily.”

“Thank you...” “Of course. Anything for my best girl.” You felt your face heat up at the name.

It was silent for another half hour or so before he spoke up again

“So...how’s your week been?”

“Uneventful. Not much going on...unless, if you call me almost melting the toaster with my bare hands this morning eventful.”

He laughed, head tilting back slightly as he did so. God, you could listen to him laugh forever--

“Really...how have you been holding up? You seemed pretty shaken after Paris.” (he was referring to you and the team being sent out to stop an arms trade happening in the midst of a gala at the Louvre. You slit a man’s throat with your trusty knife (he was about to shoot Natasha in the back), stabbed two others with tiny dessert forks, killed another four with your energy blasts (they were about to attack innocent partygoers at the bar) -- and were left traumatized after all the bloodshed)

“I’ve been better...but I’m okay.”

“You know I’m always here for you, right? If you ever need someone to vent to...or just talk with, you can come to me.”

The corners of your mouth turned up into a small grin. “Even if it’s at 3 a.m?”

“Even if it’s at 3 a.m,” he repeated, smiling down at you. 

“I don’t know what I did to deserve you...you’re the best.”

Steve felt his heart swell with pride. “I should be the one asking you that.”

“Nah. You’re really the best.”

“I still think that title belongs to you and you only, but think what you’d like, sweetheart.”

You arrived at a nice little boardwalk by the beach. By now the sun was just starting to rise - peeking above the horizon before bursting into flames in a colorful array of cotton candy pink, gold, and amber - it was a sight for sore eyes. 

He subconsciously slid an arm around your waist, tugging you close into his side. You allowed yourself to relax and lean against him, resting your head against his shoulder

"What are you looking at?" A small smile tugged at the edges of your lips when you met his gaze and realized he'd been staring at you for a while. "Is there something on my face?"

"No, it's nothing," he shook his head, tightening his grip around you, “...nothing at all."

“Are you sure...? Because your eyes...”

“My eyes?”

“They sparkled.” You let out a short giggle, and Steve swore he felt his heart stop at that moment. “Is it because I look good? I honestly think I look like a mess. I threw on the first thing I saw in my closet.”

“No,” he smiled softly, “you look beautiful, doll.”

and then your heart just goes WOASDLADKLSPSPJRKLJLKJFSKL

because STEVE ROGERS just called you ‘beautiful’ and ‘doll’

this is the best day of my life you told yourself

Then he takes you by surprise by tilting his chin downwards and pressing his lips to yours

the entire time you’re thinking HOLY SHIT I’M KISSING STEVE OH MY GOD OH MY GOD and HOOOLY SHIT I’M TOUCHING HIS BACK MUSCLES AAAAAAA but at the same time you’re also like chiLl tf out Y/N you’re an ADULT but then you’re also like ADDFDSFOSDF I’M KISSING STEVE WHAT THE FUCK

“That was-”

“Amazing,” you quickly finished his sentence. Steve’s face immediately broke into a wide grin. You smiled even wider as you took note of the pink tinge to his cheeks. “But what was that all about?”

“I’m in love with you and I didn’t know what else to do. It was either take Bucky’s advice of just ‘going for it’ or listening to Tony and have him set us up.”

You shuddered. “I’m glad you didn’t go to Stark for help. God knows what he would’ve done.”

“I’m glad, too.” He smiled again and pulled you in for another kiss.

“I love you,” he murmured against your lips. “I love you a lot, Y/N.”

“I know. I love you too.”

[moonlightjeno]

swashbuckle and islands

a/n : this boy will be the death of me i love him so much. excuse my horrible grammar. my fav gif, and has nothing to do with the story lol but enjoyyy

genre : angst + fluff

pairing : readerxjeno & readerxmark

word count : 2.6k

okay,

okie, be ready for this mess

and excuse any non spaced words my space bar isn’t working properly

cool so your from an island

which imma call Skye bc i can

now your mum is originally from Skye, and had like second cousins of a cousin or whatever to throne but she married you father who was from the mainland 

which is a big no no but at the time she didn’t care bc she was so in love

skip forward a couple of years and the father is a complete ass

doesn’t work or really do much except order your mum around

anyone who has a wonderful father or really good parents im sorry don’t attack me this is for the story

:)

so, mum has had you and your older brother, whom your brother continues to admire your father bc he really just wants love and is hella lost in this mess of a world

Moving on

you used to have a really good relationship with your father until he changed.

cheated on your mother, and would blame it on you mum

in response you really just tried to help you mum get through this mess

big big mess

your brother, at the beginning helped and tried to calm your father  

boy kinda gave up, hela understandable

and left to the mainland to study medicine

wooot go him

but you were devastated because you were now alone 

now bc your brother has left your father has really worsened and blocks your freedom more and more

The point where you were literally only allowed to like go to school, work in the fields and be a servant

sksksk 

now remember how your mum was like the second cousin or smth to the royal crown?

Twas was importanttt

that managed to get you a study abroad year in london, 

queue your best friend mark entering

this boy showed you what freedom was and felt like for the first time since your father went off rails

iss been like a good 13 years and you're like 16 ??

I digress

mark literally made you feel more yourself because of his natural outgoing and easy behavior

It really was pretty amazing

And then the hiding and going out late at night was over

It was back to no friends, working at the field

sad life tbh

I must note, that because mark lived in canada bc why tf not 

y’all couldn’t really communicate

this is set when pirates where a thing, think of pirates of the caribbean 

I love those movies 

okie, progress two years 

of you thanks to you mum’s second cousin related human lol

you became friends with the cousins friends daughter 

y’all really had known each other since they were smol 

but hadn’t really been friends, bc the girl was pretty quite and a beaut

even her own father treated her better than she treated her own daughter

smh, ik this is a cliche live with it

but overall she was a really good person and kinda managed to sneak you around the island when you weren't on “duty” for your father

though its not that you didn’t like working in the fields bc you loved helping out with the animals and occasionally give food to those who were less fortunate than you and really couldn’t afford it

being a trooper, that you are you often told your friend idk wanna give her a name so y’all could come up with one if it were up to me it would be lilith about what you would see around the island and how the country was pretty not doing a okay

she would listen and talk about her own problems and how she wished she could travel and paint everything 

Bonding over traveling yep yeo

one day, you were supposed to work in the fields as you tend to have to do to the cows, and sheep and horses, while picking up the apples? from the trees ??

Idk i don’t farm

either wayyyy

you had finished your tasks early, and had struggled, and i mean stRuGgLed to get away from your father

he was in one of his moods today, shouting at everyone and refusing to admit he needed help

it was a constant reminder of every bad thing every failure that could happen in your life every thing you didn’t want for yourself or your mum who had slowly been getting sick and y’all had some money that could have helped her but your father thought that she deserved the illness

and i quote he said “everything happens for a reason child, if your mother had treated me and had been a good person this wouldn’t have happened to her, but alas some people deserve what they get”

skskskks 

he continued to say how “i on the other hand, have been a good man all my life, have always helped others so i don’t get sick”

this man i swear to god this has actually happened help

being very much done with your father who you really wished would just disappear and leave you and your mom who no longer lived with you but now lived with lilith to be

you had thought of running away for a very long time, though never knew how to get off the island it seemed impossible

sure you knew how to fight, somewhat by watching the guards and the little training mark you had taught your two years ago. 

missing mark hours but it wouldn’t compare to the guards of the royals who would never aid you

and even if they had, you had never learned how to sail which was ironic as the island you lived in wasn’t very large. Your only method of transportation has been your legs and your families faithful horse lethian ?? who really was your favorite out of all the animals 

running away from the trapped life had always felt like a dream, one that you had lived for for the small year in london with mark

you thought about running away again, the idea of sneaking into a trading boat slowly forming in your mind

you could take her your mum and lilith and travel the world go to london again and paris and canada and re-unite with the friend you missed the most

a smile had formed on your previous grim face, the dream something you held onto until your eyes opened and smoke covered the sky

a ringing began in your ears and you tried to stop it, your hands covering your ears in an attempt to stop the noise but the ringing only got stronger

the sky was black, shots were heard were the village people yelled in panic

you looked out towards the sea and could see the outline of a ship

a very large ship

oh shit 

a pirate ship

the flag blew proudly in the boat and from where you stood the bone white skull that contrasted against the black around it was made visible everytime the wind blew 

you gasped, everything anyone had told you about pirates were that they weren’t to be trusted

they were ruthless and would do nothing to stop from getting what they wanted

the stories you'd heard all came to the same conclusion you see the flag you run in the other direction

you pace quickened and in small time you were running towards the blazing village now up in smokes fire and fog covering the bakery, and fields

the school that had taught you the basics of reading and writing until girls weren’t allowed to attend was a blaze royal guards their black and purple uniforms waved their hands around and pointed their too heavy too unbalanced swords not being of much use

mom 

she should be safe

safe with lilith you thought, looking back towards were the small castle stood its bold flag still flying proudly in the grey and black sky

safe , shes safe you keep telling yourself a constant buzz that you repeated over and over to yourself in order to continue moving towards the castle walls

you only lasted a solid five minutes before the guards were holding the civilians back

you sighed angry these idiots being more preoccupied with holding back the citizens who were trying to get to safety behind the castle walls than actually dealing with the threat at hand

who hired them really??

being the stubborn human you are you decided to head towards the back entrance as yuo saw a flash of blonde hair headin towards the back gate of the castle 

oh no was your immediate thought their gonna get to lilith and mum

all the guards had been directed out of castle except a few that had stayed inside to keep the royal fam safe the infirmary had been left unguarded

you looked around trying to look for a familiar face, a familiar guard who youd seen at a practice lilith had dragged you too she had said it was too “admire suitors” you had shaken your head and laughed 

you had no interest in tying yourself to a man that would treat you like something to throw around but you let her revel in her fantasies 

no familiar face was found so you turned and ran towards the blonde head you had seen walk towards the back entrance grabbing a sword from one of the dead guards 

your cursed the clothes women were given making it impossible to run in impossible to fight in 

the blonde boy turned around at your approach, he was young you noticed

probably your age, his grin was deviant and his eyes were mocking as she approached 

“please” you tried “don’t hurt hurt anyone else” 

the boy looked at you with a puzzled look at laughed, slashing away at the thorns and vines that encircled the back door to the castle as he found the lock and tried to break it open

you got closer, looking at the broken glass bottles that littered the floor and torches that lit up the fogged street 

the boy was too busy with the look to realize the girl that had come behind him and hit him in the back of the head with the swords dull pommel the boy let put a yelp before collapsing at your feet

your small victory lasted a small time and before you noticed the boy you had tied with the thorns and vines from the door, which continued to be locked 

your mum and lilith as far as you knew safe

began to stir and as his eyes opened another boy appeared at the end of the alley

his hair seemed to be part of the night sky, falling over his dark eyes. 

“mark!” the black haired boy cried, his hand at his scimitar pointed directed towards you his other hand had managed to slip a dagger out of god knows where and sliced mark’s binds

mark the name sent a shock through you and you took a closer look at the young boy whose eyes were now wide open no anger shown

 but instead amusement and the joyous spark you had once known

he looked so different 

the black haired boy still had a sword at your throat and you swallowed briefly 

“mark?” you gasped feeling the tip of the sword against your neck a small movement and it would nick your skin, blood would swell

‘Mark’ looked at you again and laughed, 

the black haired boy looked confused “let her go jeno” 

jeno was like ‘excuse me ? she knocked you unconscious no i'm not doing that’ he didn't say it but mark understood and laughed again this time it was more mischievous a feral grin adorned his features

“let her go, she’s coming with us” jeno and you were both like huh? has this boy gone mad?

probably letss be realll

“umm no im not” you snapped at the boy you once knew, you glared at jeno who had regrettably removed his sword away from your neck but had placed the dagger threateningly close to your back ashe forced you to move along

you didn’t get an answer from mark who still seemed very entertained by the whole situation

he had changed so much since you’d last seen him *sigh*

you three walked back towards the village and you hadn’t realized how the screams of pain and fear were no longer heard

more than a few guards littered the floors and you tried not to gasp as jeno forcefully continued to move you towards the sea its waters black 

the walk to the pirate boat seemed to last ages, the sun had begun to set in the sky casting dark purple and red shadows above the black water that didn’t reflect any light. It broke your heart to see the usually clear water be black, the animals that lived in the waters probably struggling to survive.

when you finally arrived, the panic began to settle in again. you didn’t know if your mum and lilith were safe, you didn’t know what would happen and the boy you knew two years ago had changed so much that you could no longer read what he was thinking 

the ship loomed in front of you, you hear the small buzz of chatter from the ship and laughter

why was there laughter in such a horrible place ??

“Come on” mark said, already walking getting onto the ship, not looking back at the mess they had left behind

You no longer felt the sharp prick of a dagger or sword at your back, but instead it had been replaced by a strong hand guiding you towards the ship

the contact startled you, and you straightened and continued to walk forward the ship only a few feet away, you still held onto the rock that you had hit mark with, your sword taken away by jeno

you forced your feet to stop moving, because one more step and you’d be on the pirate’s boat, and ducked, and made a weak attempt at attacking the black haired boy behind you hitting him with the small rock you had on the leg

you begin to move away from the boat. The victory lasted a solid second before jeno had his arms around you, pinning your hands behind your back. No longer smiling, or understanding in his dark eyes. you glared at him and then at mark who had finally turned around, a sort of sadness passed over his features before he spoke

“you can’t run away y/n” he said calmly. “remember in london? when you dream about running away, leaving this island and  exploring the world? away from your father?”

his words shocked you, but you didn’t want to leave your mum she had no one else 

“i can’t just leave mark !! my mum, she’s still there and i can’t just leave her with father” a look of recognition and understanding flitted through jeno’s face and reflected in mark

“i know, i know but if you stay here and go back” the boy shook his head, the dark of the night making his blonde hair a dull light in the fog, 

you knew, that in many ways he was right. if you did go back the villagers had seen you with the pirates, being taken by them as the village had burned down and you weren't scared. the worst scenario would be that if you did go back they would imprison you, ask you for information 

hurt mum, hurt lilith even is she was part of the royals

you felt the tears well up in your eyes, and refused to let them fall

“we aren’t all that bad” peeped jeno’s voice who had softened again, until you looked at him and his gaze hardened

you forced yourself a small smile, and placed your foot on the board of the boat 

“Let’s go swashbucklers” you said, 

after all, the stories you’d heard had come from your father, and all his stories were a lie.

a/n : i hope y’all enjoyed that. ik there wasn't much jeno lol but i’m planning on king this a series if you want? send me an ask, if you do! either way, 

peace out luvs,

stay safe

[starry-bi-sky]

Malevolent Au

It’s not complete, but on the Felinette Discord we made an au based off the song ‘Queen of Mean’!

@unmaskedagain idk if this’ll help you get ideas, since I found your fic after I made the au, but I hope you like it anyways!

Me - Black, Bee - Orange, Lefty - Blue

Okay but guys

A modified version of ‘Queen Of Mean’ as an akumanette

Idk if this has a bittersweet ending or a bad ending but either way it’s salty and not ending in the class’s favor

Her akuma item would probably be her ribbons because I don’t want that for tikki

I’m thinking that Akumanette has an outfit that looks like a suit but there’s a skirt-tail type thing that ends at her ankles. Idk how to explain it other than it’s fancy but practical

It’s black and red

There’s black paint on her face that serves as the mask and she has her hair in a braided ponytail and she has a circlet with black framing and a red gem in the center

She’s terrifying and one of the more fashionable akumas

I don’t have the story fully fleshed out but smth happens that Lila blames Marinette for and Alya, when she’s yelling at Marinette, calls her the ‘Queen of Mean’ and Marinette, tired of literally everything just says ‘if that’s what you think, then fine’ in this really cold tone before storming off

Maybe she goes to the theater room or something, she just goes to an empty classroom to rant

She’s too exhausted to fight back the akuma and maybe Tiki says ‘you deserve a break, it’s not healthy to keep all these emotions bottled up, I know you won’t do anything bad’ but just to be safe Marinette takes out the earring before the akuma gets close so it possesses the ribbons instead

Akumanette (who I will be calling Malevolent for the time being) manages to get CN’s ring and the other miraculi too, but instead of going to Hawkmoth she goes to her room to hide them before going on the hunt for Hawkmoth because she needs his miraculous too

I have no doubt that she toys with them, picking them off one by one

Then gets Hawkmoth in a big spectacular moment

Or maybe she's made copies of the miraculous for cosplay and goes to meet him with those, the old switcheroo and she takes him out while hes distracted

Could be interesting if, as part of her power, she could corrupt the miraculouses and give them to the people who upset/offended her. But instead of giving them powers, they were warped to instead punish the wearer in a way that fits the miraculous's original intent. Kinda a reversal on the way she gave out the miraculouses and granted powers before. Like, the Black Cat Miraculous, it causes the person to relive their most painful memories as the element of destruction, and the fox one forces the wearer to tell the truth no matter what, or traps them in an illusion or something.

And maybe how she goes to a new school. And meeting the others was maybe when shes revealed as the akuma she claims shes had enough of her classmates shit and exposes what they did to her live on tv and her parents transfer her because of all the stress they put her under. She's never become an akuma before. And just because of one lying little brat, their daughter has become one of the strongest akumas they've ever seen

And she gives the miraculi back to Fu apologizing out her butt for everything...but he just lets her keep the earrings, fearing that something grander may be at scale...but he refuses to give the ring back to Adrien because had he been by Mari's side, they wouldve been able to prevent the akuma and help Mari over come Lie-la.

And now Fu chooses a new Black Cat for Mari....

I would assume that the peacock is still lost....maybe Adri could find it amd becomes determined to get both his ring and. "His" lady back from that Fake Cat

And maybe before the ring gets taken Adrien has no idea who the akuma is because Marinette returns to class all normal if just closed off and even after he doesn’t know until it’s revealed to everyone. The whole of Paris is wondering where tf LB is everyone Malevolent shows her face

Or she could claim that she took the earrings before Ladybug even had a chance~

So the whole of Paris is rightly terrified

And the QK kids are slightly cautious but they see the nerd trip and get flustered then they just decide that she's totally fine to hang out with

Ooh why would they be cautious?

The QK would totally be the ones to find out Marinette’s the akuma first and they’re all really concerned for their friend because she’s been an akuma for MONTHS now and what happened that made her such a powerful akuma?

But if she just transformed back and went to the new school, wouldnt u be cautious too

Like

ThTS THE GIRL WHO BROUGHT PARIS TO ITS KNEES TO BEG FOR MERCY

and she chose mercy

Imagine...what it would take to bring her, the strongest akuma to kill all of Paris

(I should probably point out that I’m still going off the idea that Marinette is still Malevolent when she goes to her new school, feel free to ask for clarification if you’re still confused)

“Be wary of the quiet ones, the sweet ones, the kind ones, because they’re the ones with the saddest smiles, the darkest pasts. They’re the ones you watch out, for even demons run when good men go to war.”

Hawkmoth, once he realizes that Malevolent is on the prowl for him, tries to call back the akuma, but because of Marinette’s sheer stubborn will power and the help of Nooroo he can’t do it

So he’s basically useless as Malevolent numbers his days as a super villain

Maybe Malevolent only comes out at night. She has less chance of being seen, less chance of being caught

Except that just makes her 10x more terrifying because in the daylight she’s scary enough as it is, but at night the shadows highlight only half of her face and it makes her harder to see

Maybe Malevolent decides to torment her classmates first before picking off the heroes, so perhaps by the time she’s at her new school and prowling at night she’s picking off the heroes one by one

Maybe she does it slowly instead of night by night

And like the first half is her taking the heroes and Hawk down while the other half if her recovering and learning about the new villain and her new allies

She fucking stalks her classmates, planting incriminating evidence. Maybe for Lie-la she records the girl bragging about her lies and how much shes dragged Mari through the mud while shes at home, then the next morning a video is released on the Ladyblog....

The class is rightly scared out of their pants because there’s an akuma after them but they don’t know who and she hasn’t been caught yet

LB is gone and Malevolent, even in the daylight, is hard to see so other than the major bad luck and her first debut there’s almost no trace of her

Her debut was video taped so Paris knows that there’s an akuma on the loose but she’s so quiet that it leaves everyone on edge

Maybe while Malevolent is hunting Hawkmoth she stops other villains like low level (and high profile) criminals and outs corrupt politicians and the likes

And they've obviously taken poor Mari because Mari could never get akumatized! Shes too good!

Oooh!! Going back on the ‘Mari can change out of villain form’ maybe the only proof she’s Malevolent in her civilian form is that her ribbons are a darker red than they should

And poor Mari makes herself smaller and scared hah, as if. These idiots dont know whats gonna hit them.... she looks...terrified~

Her parents try and reassure her that the akuma will be caught and Mari feels bad for tricking them but at the same time she’s still angry so that anger outweighs the guilt

Marinette is paler than she was before akumatization and maybe her eyes are a bit more dull

Or perhaps just a smidge too bright

It’s not noticeable, but there’s just something.. off about her eyes

They look... almost brighter than they should be

Maybe too attentive

Too... analytical

But then the look is gone and perhaps you were just imagining it?

That seems likely

The QK, when they first meet Marinette, adopt her immediately because she’s so pale and small and she looks so tired

And at first Marinette is wary but after Claude trips and falls flat on his face trying to cheer her up she warms up to them

Then one day someone gets a clear full body shot of Malevolent and while QK are looking at it Marinette approaches them and they start noticing... similarities

Like how her ribbons are the same color as her circlet, or how her eyes hold the same wary attentiveness and are the same bright blue

And maybe they try to deny it

But it’s all there

I’m still trying to figure out how Marinette reveals herself as Malevolent

Perhaps a rude encounter with her classmates? Maybe someone tries attacking her friends (Hawkmoth has resorted to using the peacock miraculous at the point maybe) and she saves them??

When she transforms her ribbons wrap around her in a whirlwind

That’s all we got!! Maybe it’ll be continued on, maybe it won’t, but it was super fun to think up!

[hartsgf]

playtest : william nylander

summary: oh, the things that can happen through tinder.

warning(s): swearing.

word count: 1,301

a/n: i wanna turn this into a series, let me know if i should !! :) also, idk how tf to use tinder lmao i’m so unclutured. 

the app had been on his phone for a few weeks, but he hadn’t used it since the day it was downloaded. william wasn’t into dating or hook-up apps; but after finding out one of his teammates was on tinder; he just had to see it for himself.

he had no other intentions to actually use the app other than for a good laugh. that was until he found himself in paris, france, bored out of his mind.

truth be told, he only wanted someone to sit down at a local bar and have a drink with; which is why he had swiped right on the first twenty people he saw and used his free ‘super-like’ on a woman named (y/n).

they ended up matching shortly afterward and agreed to meet up at a bar, later that night. the date itself went nicely after she broke the ice by asking william what he was doing in france besides not signing his contract. in a strange way, william felt comfortable in his presence. the date didn’t feel like many of the other ones he had been on. he felt more at ease knowing he had a connection with someone in a country that was completely foreign to him.

maybe it’s because the date when well, or maybe it’s because the both of them had more than a few drinks, but will ended up going back to (y/n)’s apartment to...well...end the date.

the next morning, he woke at the feeling of his shoulder being shaken. slowly opening his eyes, he smiled once making eye contact with (y/n). “you’re still here,” she stated, smiling back at him. he yawned before stretching his arms out and rubbing his eyes. “did you want me to go?” he asked.

she shook her head, “no. i mean - you didn’t have to go; i just kinda assumed you would. but, i’m glad you’re still here.” she sat up in her bed, yet still sat on the edge of it.

“thanks for actually not kicking me out, by the way.” he chuckled, trying to make light conversation and earned a smile from her.

“so, uhm,” he scratched the back of his head, “is it okay if i use your bathroom?”

“no problem,” she replied, getting off of the bed, “your bag is in the corner if you need it.” (y/n) left the room quickly, not knowing if william was still unclothed from the night before and not wanting to find out. he made his way down the hall into the bathroom, taking note of how nicely the apartment itself was decorated. 

he was in the process of freshening up when he heard his name being called and opened up the door slightly. “do you prefer coffee or tea?” (y/n) asked from the other side of the apartment, and william told her tea would be fine. it was a few moments later when footsteps could be heard coming down the hall before stopping right in front of the bathroom door.

“are you decent?” she asked.

“yeah.”

she opened the door wider before stepping in, standing beside william at the sink while grabbing her toothbrush and toothpaste. “you never actually told me how you got into hockey. like, we spent like most of the night talking about it, but you still never told me how you get into it in the first place." she remembered when he had first asked that question once she asked what was taking him so long to sign the contract. she had brushed the question off previously and switched the conversation back to him. but, she knew there was no avoiding it now. "let's just say it runs through the family," (y/n) simply stated, screwing the cap off of the tube of toothpaste.

william fumbled with his backpack, looking for his own toothbrush, "care to elaborate?" he glanced at her once he'd asked this question, but quickly focused his attention back to his backpack.

she shrugged, "not really. but, my brother's pretty into it." she responded before applying the paste on her toothbrush and brushing her teeth.

"i'll take it," william mumbled. the next two minutes were silent as (y/n) finished freshening up and will waited for his turn with the sink. "what are your plans for today?" he asked, making light conversation once again. 

"my friend is having a birthday party next week, so i'm going out to buy him a gift today," she sat on the edge of the bathtub, crossing her legs as she did so. 

will nodded, "can i come?" this sudden interest in shopping caused (y/n) to raise a brow and she made eye contact with him through the bathroom mirror. "shopping or to the actual party?" she sat upright, suddenly feeling anxious."both if it's okay," will responded; his mouth full of foaming toothpaste. "i might be in france for a little while, might as well meet some new people while i'm here."

she studied his face in the mirror, trying to figure out if he was genuinely interested in meeting new people or if he was just tired of being alone. she'd only known william for a short amount of time, but something about him was different. she trusted him. "he did say plus ones are welcome, so...i mean...if you really want to..." she trailed off, hoping he understood what she was trying to say.

"cool," he spit the toothpaste into the sink, "i'm gonna get breakfast then head back to my hotel for a little bit, so you can text--"he was cut off mid-sentence by the sound of the apartment door opening and shutting before a set of keys fell on a wooden surface. "who's that?"

"i'm babysitting my friend's cat; she's probably just here to pick her up." (y/n) replied, unphased. william cleared his throat, "well, like i was saying, just text me what time you plan on going out and i'll meet you there." he turned on the faucet and splashed his face a few times.

 "hey," a man's voice rang from the kitchen, "who are you talking to?" william's heartbeat increased, he'd finally found a girl he could possibly see himself with all to find out she was already with someone. he then and there wanted to leave the apartment and not come back but instead decided to keep his cool.

"i thought you said your friend was a girl." he crossed his arms as he leaned against the sink, finally making eye-contact with (y/n) as he waited for a response."shit," she stood up immediately, "that's my brother." she jogged out of the bathroom into her kitchen, where her younger brother was searching through her fridge.

 "what the hell are you doing here?" she asked, obviously frustrated. he held his hands up in defense, "is it a crime to want to hang out with my sister?" he had a smirk on his face, knowing he had successfully annoyed his older sibling.

(y/n) raised a hand to her forehead, "pierre, i love you very much. and with that being said, you need to get out." she ushered pierre out of the door, hoping william would stay in the bathroom. pierre only laughed, "why are in such a rush to get me..." his eyes looked to the man who just entered the room; finally piecing together what was going on. his smile quickly faded as he looked between william and his sister.

he raised a finger to will, "what's he doing here?"

she didn't even want to see what william's face looked like, but turned to look at him anyway.

"you told me your brother was into hockey, but you didn't say he was number eighteen on the blue jackets."

[beccaboosthings]

1-65 for the odd asks💛

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

Idk if I’m just tired or what, but idk what this means lol

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

Maybe like a 2?

3. The person you would never want to meet?

Trump

4. What is your favorite word?

Idk about it being my favorite but my cousin reminded me that flabbergasted was a word today, so theres that

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

Mapel

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

“wow I look like shit”

7. What shirt are you wearing?

A 2016 Homecoming shirt my mom had to wear because she works at a school

8. What do you label yourself as?

Some weird Bi girl who knows more about fictional worlds then the real one

9. Bright room or dark room?

Dark

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

Watching Netflix wile and trying not to wake up my bff

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

I’m going to have to say maybe age 7? Life was just so much easier

12. Who told you they loved you last?

My gf :)

13. Your worst enemy?

Some bitch I used to be best friends with. I cant stand them

14. What is your current desktop picture?

This

15. Do you like someone?

yes

6. The last song you listened to?

High Hopes by P!ATD

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

Idk lol

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

The person I hate

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

I dont like the concept as an actual “slave” but ya know when you are little and you make your sibling do stuff for you, I would want that

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

My hair. People always complain if their hair is strait or if its curly and they like the other, but my hair does both depending on what i do with it after I wash it

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

I would look like Dan Howell probably, and idk what I would do haha.

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

I dont think I have any

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

Being buried alive

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

Idk, I dont really eat sandwiches, I guess just pb&j, because childhood, ya know?

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

Right now? probably christmas presents 

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

London

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

I have no clue haha. Sorry Im boring, I also might be like half asleep right now but shhh

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

Acceptance for all, no matter race, gender, sexuality, ect, everyone is welcome and anyone who disagrees can get the fuck out

29. What is your favorite expletive?

Fuck

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

My phone. It has all of my pictures on it and what not

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

Family drama shit

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

I would move to london, or maybe paris lol

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

As long as she would be 100% healthy, My sister.

34. What was your last dream about?

I’m pretty sure it was my gf

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

Idk what to put lol

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

Yes? I think? 

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

I did the other day. It was just a small one but it still counts

38. What is the color of your socks?

White and teal

39. What type of music do you like?

Pop, Pop punk, Rock, basically anything but rap and country

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

Sunsets

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

I dont really like milkshakes lol

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

I dont pay any attention to sports lol

43. Do you have any scars?

Yes, I have more then I can count, i scar EXTREMELY easily 

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

Idk. I want to do something that ha to do with art

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

My mental health

46. Are you reliable?

yes

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

does it get better?

48. Do you hold grudges?

nope

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

a bird and a fish. does it have to be in the water? does it fly? who tf knows

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

Me and my dad once had the conversation of would different dog breeds taste different if you were to eat them?

51. Are you a good liar?

Sometimes. If i am strait up lying, not really, but if i am bull shitting my way through i could do it for hours

52. How long could you go without talking?

a few hours maybe. I mean i dont speak when I sleep so maybe 12?

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

I dont think i have had any bad ones

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

I do all the time

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

I can do a british one pretty decently 

56. What do you like on your toast?

either butter or peanut butter

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

flowers

58. What would be you dream car?

I like punch buggies so i can go around and see people wack each other haha

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

I just think way too much when i shower, thats why they take me like an hour haha

60. Do you believe in aliens?

Yes

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

Never

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

I have never thought about this before haha. May be A? Idk lol

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

Dragons

64. What do you think about babies?

They are cute as long as they arent crying and i dont have to deal with them

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

Lol

[herestheteaig]

What should I do??

Hi, I don’t really know if anyone will see this but I'm gonna try, just incase. If you do choose to respond, you can be as brutally honest & unbiased as you’d like, I’m not easily offended.

I am f19, and have been in a relationship with m18 for almost 6 years. For the sake of his privacy lets call him Joe.

lets call me Mina.

Backstory:

- Joe & I have been together since we were 13, we went to the same secondary school & college (for Americans, same middle school & high school)

- we had been close friends since we were like 11, very visibly super close friends in school.

- when we started dating at the end of our second year, we spent the entire summer together.

- when we got back he just... pretended I didn't exist????

- like tf?

- anyway, we were still hanging out outside of school, but my school separate the year based on grades in third year, so I was placed in X and he was placed in Y, therefore we had 0 classes together

- though, in the corridors, at lunch, at break, etc, he’d pretend I didn't exist???

- he also told me not to tell anyone we were dating???

- this lasted maybe 2 years? until I got really mad and he started acknowledging me in our final year of secondary school & people knew we were dating.

- his mum ended up convincing me to apply to the same college as him, we did different courses so rarely saw each other, but occasionally took the train together on one of our mutual starting times.

- now, I go to university about 2 hours away from our hometown and live there, he doesn’t go to university at all.

the catfish:

- of course the initial: “don’t tell anyone we’re dating”

- when I was still 13, I did something SUPER childish, though no regrets and made a fake iMessage account so he’d think someone was texting him.

- I used Loren Gray’s picture because this boy had NO social medias, he was SO anti it.

- anyway, pretended I had gotten his number on Facebook, and that I had seen him at athletics (he’s an athlete) and I thought he was attractive and asked if he had a girlfriend

- then we went through this long “no I don't” “jk I do” back and forth bullshit. 

- oh he also didn't tell me about her until I said she had messaged me, but whatever idc but that's the first piece of info. 

Sabrina:

- next, I must've been 15?? idk exactly how old I am

- I do not and have NEVER cared who my boyfriend talks to, girl, boy, non-binary, whatever, I don't give a shit. 

- so I'm on his phone, taking snapchats to save to his memories and I kept seeing this girls name pop up. 

- let’s call her Sabrina.

- I had noticed he talks to her a LOT, but he never had mentioned her, but eh its whatever... probably just one of his friends, right?

- I used to just message his friends on his phone so I went onto her chat intending to be like “heyyyy bro, nice to meet you my name is Mina, do you wanna be friends?”

- but I'm seeing messages talking about: “what age would you have sex?”

- side note: he and I both lost our virginities when we were 15, later this year but at this point we had both been “handsy” down there??? 

- anyway she says “18″, he says “you know its legal at 16 tho right?

- “yeah, but still 18″

- “why not 16″

- whatever I don't remember the entire convo.

- so I was like hmm this is a bit sus and scrolled up to see their messages. 

- “do you have a girlfriend” “no” “actually yes” “im joking, no.”

- so im like wait what???

- anyway, I don't mention it for like 7 months? he denies it before saying what he said was innocent and he was just curious in a friendly way. 

- I let it go.

Kendall:

- I was probably 16 or almost 17 at this point 

- again, for privacy, we’ll call this girl Kendall.

- Kendall and I have a mutual friend, we’ll call her Tiana.

- Tiana and I were best friends.

- One day, Tiana messaged me and said hey, my friend Kendall was speaking to  Joe & realised wait isn't that Mina’s boyfriend and sent me these screenshots as soon as she realised.

- I had probably seen her name in his recent chats but didn't care enough to ask about it.

- anyway, the screenshots were just him being super flirty with emojis? like sounds childish but you know what I mean.

- and he was joking about “go to bed its past your bed time” and she was like “no why are you chatting, you’re up too”

- then. THEN. THIS BOI HAS THE AUDACITY.

- “shush and listen to your daddy”

- wHAT.

- I immediately confront him and he denies knowing anyone of that name at first, before saying oh I didn't mean it like that, it was like a mum/ dad joke we have

- so again, I let it go

Adrien:

- back in school, my maths teacher sent myself and this boy to the study area which is an open space in the school, visible from all levels.

- lets call him Adrien.

- note: adrien and I were both quite smart and in top set for most classes, our surnames are next to eachother on the register so were often seated beside each other. 

- we were very very close FRIENDS

- so we’re doing work, chatting a bit- whatever

- at some point, he jokingly pushes my head away, idk what I said, I do not remember. 

- note: the entire school is IN CLASS.

- a few seconds later, I feel my phone vibrate, sneak it out of my pocket to see a text from Joe: “why is Adrien touching your face?”

- I look around and no ones there, anyway he still gets mad about it now.

Other stuff:

- he used to threaten to kill himself if i broke up with him

- or if we were arguing he’d say he can do this anymore, imply suicide, the leave his phone for ages and get super mad if I contacted his sister or mum to find out if he was safe.

- sometimes i’d see him joking around on his sisters snapchat story when I'm panicking because he said he’d kill himself.

- I'm not materialistic, but the fact that he rarely would get me bday/xmas presents was kinda upsetting. (he has a lot of money, my family is broke but I make the BIGGEST deal out of xmas and his bday and everything)

- would work extra hours so he’d feel so so spoiled on xmas and his bday. 

- once he got me just a xmas themed toilet roll on Christmas, last year he gave me a small jar of vegan candies.

- I think he acknowledged valentines day twice in our relationship? 

- which was sad because pre-relationship, valentines was my fave day of the year & I'd hand out heart shaped chocolates to everyone at school.

- often blames his mental health on me.

- will cut me off and then act like I'm the one not listening to HIS problems. 

- if another guy has a crush on ME, then he gets mad at me?

- every boy in my college class admitted to having a crush on me at some point, awkward but my course was reliant on group projects so I couldn't just block them??? they all knew I had a bf

Extra:

- I have never orgasmed ONCE in my entire life... rip

- when I say he is ACTUALLY jealous, I mean like ACTUALLY jealous of me having a crush on like... cartoon characters?? (& also anime characters)

- has said sexist and transphobic things, that I DRAGGED him for.

- I think he's very manipulative and also immature. 

- hates that I'm smart

- HATES that my love language is acts of service. like HATES it.

- there's more but I won't bore you.

mini story:

- we went to Paris for my 18th birthday. 

- he tried to break up with me right before because “he feels like shit compared to other guys”

- I was crying down the phone (I never ever cry) begging him to reconsider

- we went to Paris, it was nice. 

- note: we also had sex there

- and then we get back and he says: “I hated you the entire time” and other stuff but I don't remember

this is according to him:

- I think I'm right all the time and think im little miss perfect

- I put in no effort

- I do not listen

- I just need to realise that all my male friends are only my friends because they want to fuck me.

- I do not care about anything

- I assume things 

- I compare him to other guys????

- I make him feel like shit 

(his words, though I disagree)

- we have been in a relationship for almost 6 years

- he’s my friend

- I love his family so much, I've watched his nephew grow up and I text his sister and I just love them.

- though he isn’t my type on paper, I do find him attractive 

- we have somewhat similar kinks

- my family seem to like him

- not gonna lie, we’d make cute babies.

- we both enjoy sports and also he sometimes plays video games with me (I'm an avid gamer, I twitch stream and play PC, PS4 & Switch, he sometimes will play fortnite or Mario kart with me)

- we have this cute cheerleader/ athlete thing which I like

- oh, right, pls don't judge this but its important to me to raise my children plant-based until they're old enough to decide for themselves- he isn't plant-based but is 100% onboard which is very important to me.

- has done cute things for me before like turn up at my house with my fave candy or buy an extra pack of gum/ drink for me.

- this sounds irrelevant, but I DO love to party/rave but I do not drink alcohol, I actually have a weird phobia of it, though I would 100% get high

- Joe and I both do not drink and although that's not something id look for in a s/o, it made me feel like I wasn't the only one lmao. 

- my first & only relationship

ANWYAY, we’ve been arguing for months, if you see this what do you think I should do? would it be overreacting to break up? I would still wanna be his friend because I care but I dunno what to do

[a-cup-of-polynectar]

Sublime & Silence

REBELDE AU

Word count: 5,3 k

Characters: Minah, Jane, Tara, Mark, Tyler, Daniel,

“Over the last couple of years, IMPULSE! has been making the headlines for quite stupid reasons. As the one-of-a-kind group they are, rumors run rampant about the members, their relationships and everything in between. They’ve been under the limelight, on the receiving end of so much love that is to be expected that they’re permanently subjected to the public scrutiny, with unfounded claims and hate being thrown at them left and right.”

In less than two weeks Minah Delacroix’s latest single, Sublime et silence, has become a chart-topping hit. Considering that the song is nothing like the signature sexy and upbeat tracks Minah’s fans have grown accustomed to, the hype around Sublime et Silence almost results ironic. Minah supposes she is meant to feel ecstatic about the success of her self-composed single, the praises she’s received from the critics and the positive reaction from the general public. Yet, it has almost become physically impossible for Minah to listen to her own song without feeling she’d collapse the very next second. It probably has a lot to do with the fact Minah almost met the same fate as Princess Diana when the car she was riding skidded off the road and crashed into a pillar at the entrance of the infamous Pont d’Alma or maybe it’s the guilt of having willfully ignored the problems surrounding her group and fleeing to Paris for a shopping spree with her cousin. Or maybe, —just maybe—, it is about Sungjae’s decision to leave the group that took the two of them, Tyler, Daniel, Jane and Tara to stardom on the very same day of the release of her song.

Minah is unsure if such a horrible streak of events is somewhat correlated at all, but she still avoids listening to Sublime et Silence as though the goddamned song was to blame for all the misfortunes in her life.

She’s been more or less fortunate enough to avoid hearing about it, but her luck seems to have finally worn off this morning as IMPULSE! (minus Sungjae) sit for breakfast at the kitchen counter in the girls’ apartment. The way the day begins is already prophetic. There’s no sunshine streaming through the window when Minah steps into the kitchen, causing her bandmates to immediately stop their conversation and look at her, eyes tainted with the slightest hint of concern. She brushes their unspoken concern off and distractedly repeats the weather report she heard on the TV before gathering the energy to get off the bed. It’s just a way to make conversation, to break the ice and divert the attention from any potentially hurtful news that will send her back to her room for the rest of the day, but if anything, her comment only seems to distress her groupmates even more if the way they all exchange furtive glances is anything to go by.

Breakfast is uneventful, although Minah thinks to herself that breakfast without Tyler and Daniel bickering or Jane throwing shady comments at Tyler is eventful on its own right. It’s only been two weeks, but Minah recalls the days where IMPULSE! couldn’t even sit at the same table without chaos escalating within minutes as though they happened in some sort of alternate universe that doesn’t exists anymore. Surprisingly, it’s become a new ritual for IMPULSE! to eat at least one of their meals together. No one has spoken about it and there’s ostensibly  no reason in particular for it to happen, but Minah knows It’s meant to be a silent way to support each other just like it is telling of how torn and broken each of them feels, holding onto a group that appears to be on the brink of disbandment.

Minah chooses to voluntarily shut down every thought about why they keep acting like if the leader of their group hadn’t just left —potentially for good— and instead nods her head eagerly when Tyler asks her if she wants a waffle covered by what he deems to be an unhealthy quantity of cream and chocolate syrup.

The bomb drops a few hours later while Minah reads a silly best seller lying on the carpeted floor of her room. She initially chooses to ignore the tweets, but her phone is flooded with notifications, and by the time she googles her group’s name and opens a trustful, serious, news outlet, the article about Sungjae’s departure from IMPULSE! has already reached a million hits. Minah skims the article with her heart racing and in the lamest attempt to control her reaction, she breaths in and out slowly allowing her lungs to fill and deflate.

If breathing techniques are truly effective to stop panic attacks, Minah must be doing it all wrong because if anything there are tears streaming down her face.

While Minah has a controlled meltdown in the privacy of her room, Daniel and Tyler find about the press release announcing Sungjae’s departure from IMPULSE! during an IG live. Tyler initially ignores the comments at the bottom of the screen thinking they’re some sort of ridiculous joke. Over time he’s learned to ignore the less than senseless questions his fans tend to ask or the lengths they’re willing to go to in order to “prank” them. However, once Tyler notices Daniel’s face dropping notoriously, he starts to believe there might be something else to this succession of messages asking them to elaborate on Sungjae’s withdrawal from IMPULSE!

A quick glance at the comment section explains Daniel’s reaction. The fans have gone from “Daniel visual king” and “Tyniel is the standard” to “You kicked Sungjae out of IMPULSE!” and “The five of you are trash” —translated to every language Tyler can identify and many others he doesn’t understand— in the blink of an eye. With his powerful self-preservation instinct Tyler is briefly tempted to cut the broadcast short although it’s only been a few minutes since Daniel and he went live. Of course, Tyler doesn’t. In its place, he reads a question out loud, smiling gleefully. Or at least pretending to.  

“What are some songs you’re listening to lately?” He repeats as he puts on a fake pensive expression and Daniel recomposes himself.

Faking for the cameras comes naturally now, so much that Tyler almost surprises himself when he goes on, looking absolutely unfazed by the news. In reality, though, there’s nothing to be surprised about. Over the last couple of years, IMPULSE! has been making the headlines for quite stupid reasons. As the one-of-a-kind group they are, rumors run rampant about the members, their relationships and everything in between. They’ve been under the limelight, on the receiving end of so much love that is to be expected that they’re permanently subjected to the public scrutiny, with unfounded claims and hate being thrown at them left and right.

Tyler himself is no stranger to scandal and controversy, he has lost count of the times the company had to do damage control on his behalf. All those times Tyler had been instructed to stay radio-silent until his fans and even the general public somewhat calmed down.  

He holds in a sigh reminding himself that he’s still broadcasting live.

‘This is not a first for Sungjae either’ The thought echoes in Tyler’s brain as he forces himself out of silence and goes on. “Well, there’s nothing really new… you know the usual-” he says as his eyes unintentionally divert to the comment section where a battle is unfolding. ‘Leave Tyniel out of this’, ‘If Sungjae left it’s probably his own decision’,  ‘he always does whatever tf he wants anyway’ fans write. “Minah’s song came out recently and we listen to it all the time,” Tyler speaks over his own increasingly jumbled out thoughts, pointing at Daniel and himself, which is a blatant lie because Daniel hates French language and Minah seems to hate her own song enough for her to go ballistic on him whenever he tries to play it.  “It is a beautiful song about-“

Tyler hasn’t figured out yet what the song is about because Minah, just like the French language is complicated and hard to understand.

He solves the dilemma by breaking into a rendition of Sublime et Silence that he encourages Daniel to join to with a wink. With the interaction displayed for the whole world to watch, there’s really no other option for Daniel than to join if he doesn’t want to wake up next morning to an article written on how he hates Minah and dissed her by refusing to sing her new hit.

And so Daniel sings along with gibberish French as he kicks Tyler on the shin under the table.

“Babe” a calm and self-assured voice calls out.

It takes Tara a second or two to realize she’s just dozed off while lounging on the blue velvet sofa of her boyfriend’s dorm and he’s currently standing in front of her looking gravely concerned.

“Your neck is gonna hurt later,” The young man says, the slightest bit of a disapproving grimace twisting his lips  “if you were this tired, you could’ve just told me and I would’ve dropped you home”  he adds as Tara’s face falls into a pout.

“Of course you would,” she says, eyebrows furrowing so deep, they leave a dent in the middle of her forehead even when she is done looking offended. “Just say you’d do anything to get rid off me” she adds, a somewhat bratty expression crossing her face. It makes her boyfriend chuckle as he flops onto the sofa, next to her.

“I was actually planning to ask you stay the night” He comments with a half-amused, half-serious, all-male grin. “Jaehyun and Yuta are gone, we have the apartment all for ourselves” the guy sneaks an arm around Tara’s waist, pulling her closer to press his lips on her cheek, leaving a trail of soft pecks until he’s leaving wet kisses on the back of her neck. Tara slowly pulls away, untangling his hands from her and turning to face him, eyebrows high.

“Seriously?” She huffs, much to her boyfriend’s bafflement. “Not now”

The man’s throat goes dry even before his eyes meet the severe glare Tara is throwing at him. The heavy makeup and glitter adorning her eyelids are a striking contrast from the swollen red eyes, rimmed with leftovers of eyeliner; but he has recollections of meeting the very same expression a few weeks ago when Tara burst into his room looking as though she could kill him with her own hands and claiming there was a high chance that she was pregnant with his child.

The guy has the bad sense to laugh lightly at the thought of it, but the smile fades as quickly as it appeared once his memory reminds him that Tara panicked and experienced a nervous breakdown of monumental proportions, causing Jaehyun and Yuta to flee downstairs, to hole up in Taeyong’s, Doyoung’s and Taeil’s apartment. It’s not a sight he wishes to see again. At least not anytime soon. Though he has to admit that the thought of a little girl with Tara’s pretty face and his eyes makes him feel inexplicably excited.

Tara seems to know exactly what’s on his mind because she frowns and shakes her head vigorously, slightly rolling eyes.

Yes, it’s probably too early to think about children’s names when they’ve barely figured out they want to be together. They’re still navigating through uncertainty and the unresolved issues regarding one of his bandmates, not to mention Tara’s concerns regarding her career and the future of her group. He knows that and he’s convinced that’s the reason why she’s currently frowning at him, but he still ignores those musings as he reaches to grab her hand.

“Just stay” he says with a sheepish smile “I promise I’ll beha-“ whatever the man is planning to say is interrupted by his phone going off, to which Tara reacts wearily, glaring at the device as though it had interrupted a particularly important moment.

The young man gently drops her hand on her lap and moves out the room to pick the call, looking visibly stressed and causing Tara’s expression to deflate.

There’s an egoistical thought invading her brain when she notices the way her boyfriend excuses himself and closes the door of his room behind him: not even the man she loves feels to belong to her. It almost seems that everything she “owns” could be stripped off her within a minute. Her boyfriend, her group, even her own career… anyone could reach out a hand and take everything away from her. Any time. At any moment.

Mark’s grave expression when he walks back into the room, holding out his phone to her, only proves Tara’s fears are anything but unfounded.

It’s lunchtime and Jane sits at her usual spot in M’s café. Despite the time slot, the place is surprisingly empty as the blonde woman stirs distractedly the glass of Irish coffee in front of her. Considering that as of recently the place has become a must-visit for hopeful and delusional IMPULSE! fans who expect to find their favorite artists sitting around and sipping coffee as though they weren’t on a tight schedule, it is almost ironic —as it is relieving— that they’re not around on this specific hour and day. Jane takes it as a sign to try and make a move on M, who’s obliviously placing crockery into the dishwasher as he hums along with the song playing in the background.

Not usually one to double think about her feelings, Jane follows M’s every move with something akin irritation. Since she got there, he’s barely spared her a glance. In fact, he seems far too worried about trivialities like the music playing as background to notice the new dress she’s picked exclusively to climb downstairs and pick coffee for Minah.

Some obscure part of her brain reminds Jane that she was supposed to be right back into her apartment, with Minah’s latte, nearly 30 minutes ago. It must have been the weight of her incoherent wanderings or the way she could distract herself looking at M’s wide back and toned arms for hours, but whatever the reason is, the realization makes Jane feel embarrassed of how utterly pathetic it is she’s spent so much time waiting for something, a cue maybe, from someone who usually looks this unaffected by her presence.

But perhaps that’s exactly what she likes about M.

Ever since her group skyrocketed to fame a few years back, all Jane ever receives are praises and the unwavering attention from the people around her. Although she has the good sense to tell apart hypocrite compliments from real appreciation, the love she receives sometimes blinds Jane judgement. The most recent example at hand being Jung Jaehyun and his ridiculously handsome face.

Jane can’t help but heave a sigh at the thought of her ex-boyfriend and the media frenzy that accompanied their breakup.

“You ok?” M asks over his shoulder, his eyes seem to purposely avoid Jane, but she still considers it a progress from flat-out ignoring her. “You don’t look particularly good today” he says, much to Jane’s dismay, though if she were to analyze his words further, she’d be overjoyed to find out he pays attention to her daily mood.

“What do you mean?” Jane says with the aplomb she’s gathered through the years of being a universally known public figure, eyebrows up as she straightens her back.

“I mean-“ M who’s now turned on his heel and is facing Jane hesitates before speaking again “I mean, you don’t look too happy” He says, clumsily touching his nape. “You look good, as always, don’t get me wrong, I’m just-“ His eyes widen as though he wasn’t supposed to say that, but he goes on anyhow “I mean, I was talking about your mood, you know, you look worried.” He adds so fast Jane’s brain can barely register his words.

“So I always look good?” She asks with a smirk crossing her lips. It’s almost comical how M’s mouth gapes automatically and his cheeks tint a light shade of pink. If Jane could read his mind, she’d understand the feeling of self-consciousness M is currently battling against because he can’t fathom that all she’s picked from what he said, is that specific one-liner.

“No. I mean- yes, but-“ The man lets out a soft sigh and leans over across the counter, so close that Jane can notice the blush on his cheeks and a tiny mole under his eyebrow she had not noticed before. “You’ve been staring at nothing for like 30 minutes. Your coffee must be frozen by now” he says pointing with the chin at the cup in front of her.

“I wasn’t staring at nothing” Jane fights back the exasperation. If the guy wasn’t as nearly oblivious as he is, he’d know she’s been checking him out and indulging in fantasies where he pushes her against that annoying counter separating them and kisses her until they’re both gasping for air. “I was looking at you”.

A soft gasp escapes past M’s lips while Jane mentally beats herself for admitting such an embarrassing detail and all that without the tiniest aid of alcohol because her Irish coffee remains untouched.

The first person to join Minah in the living room of the girls’ apartment is Tara. Unconditional as she is, she quietly sits beside her chewing on her lower lip and unable to pronounce a single word until her groupmate breaks the silence, looking away from her phone right into Tara’s eyes.

“I thought you were supposed to be on a date,” Minah says, purposely directing the conversation to a topic unrelated to the reason she’s currently clad in sweats and an oversized pair of glasses.

“Well, you see-“ Tara fixes the many bracelets adorning her wrists before shifting on the sofa to a more comfortable position. “Mark thought I’d rather be here” she admits shrugging, she’s about to add ‘with the group’, but the sunken look to Minah’s eyes stops her from adding another word “You see, it almost felt like he wanted to get rid of me, he picked a call and before I knew it he was calling a cab and well, here I am” Tara forces a bitter laugh and Minah reaches to pat her hand sympathetically, her eyes suddenly brimming with tears.

“You know, sometimes I wonder what would it be if we were just regular people” Minah confesses out of nowhere. “I like to think about it” as she forces a smile, a single tear rolls down her cheek, but she goes on “In an alternate world we’re all just normal people with normal people problems like making enough money to pay our students’ loans or maybe failing job interviews, but we are happy-”

Tara reaches to grab Minah’s hand, intertwining their fingers and offering the unspoken moral support she’s in need of.

“In an alternate world, Julien and I are the high school sweethearts that marry after finishing college and move to the suburbs.” Minah goes on, although it’s the very first time this scenario even comes to her mind. It’s another man who’s usually the protagonist of her fantasies in an alternate world where there are no other details than getting home daily to the man who truly owns her heart, the one who’s broken it way too many times as well. “He goes onto working at his grandparent’s company and I am one of those super pristine-looking women who dresses nicely and hosts charity events,” She says before adding “Jane’s there too, she’s the bohemian one who married Gabriel and gets drunk with white wine in all our family’s parties.” Minah makes a pause to chuckle and squeeze Tara’s hand reassuringly “You are there too” she says with a tiny smile “You’re the voice of reason” Tara is about to protest, but Minah goes on “Johnny is there too and…“ For the briefest moment Minah hesitates, but then she adds "you two are a match made in heaven, perfect for each other and the happiest of us all”.

“Minah-“ A flutter of panic makes Tara’s voice come off sharper than intended. She has no time to school her expression either because Minah goes on nonchalantly

“Apparently we’re meant to love the wrong people in this lifetime”

There is no sugarcoating and neither does Minah attempt to hide the intentions behind her words. It is evident that just like everybody else —Tara included—, she regards a possible reconciliation with Mark Yang as a massive mistake, to put it nicely. Tara is unsure if the events unfolding the previous days have something to do with Minah’s disapproval, but there’s something in equal parts comforting and painful in the way Minah offers a one-armed hug afterwards.

A second later the elevator doors slide open and half of IMPACT! spills out, chatting  —or arguing most likely— loudly. Minah lets go of Tara and shrinks in size,  pulling her legs up against her chest almost automatically and moving further from her bandmate, as though she were closing herself off to being comforted, as though she didn’t want the rest of her groupmates to notice the hoodie, the glasses or the puffy eyes.

It’s Tyler who spots the girls first and stops in his track, face softening before casting a glare at Daniel who just mentioned the dreaded S word in a sentence that didn’t make much sense to anybody else but had Jane nodding along energetically.

“Didn’t you have a recording session?” Tyler asks to his sister as they exchange knowing glances. “What are you even doing here?” he inquires, eyebrow slanting slightly upwards as his arms fold over his chest. It makes Tyler adopt a judgmental air.

Tara doesn’t roll eyes or dismisses her brother claims bored, like she does whenever her brother has something to say. Judging by the amount of staring and short silence that follow suit, it’s quite evident that the Lee siblings are having one of those silent conversations that usually end up with the pair leaving the room, with one of them —usually Tara—  looking quite reluctantly. Sometimes it’s hard for people to believe Tara and Tyler are related at all. Some other times —like this particular one— they almost seem to share a telepathic bond.

“I…hmmmm… I finished early” Tara shrugs, eyes diverting toward Jane and Daniel for a second.

“Or Mark did” Daniel grins quietly, earning himself a nasty glare from Tyler.

“You were not…” Tyler turns to look back at his sister with a frown, “right?” His lips morph into a disgusted pout,

“Of course not” Jane interrupts, stepping forward and pushing Tyler off her way. “Tara is a lot better than that” She says firmly as she sits next to the younger girl and places a coffee carrier in between them, eyeing Tara as though she could decipher her thoughts. “Yang and you are over for good, aren’t you?” Though Jane’s free spirited and easy going personality usually prevents her from snooping into her groupmates’ business, this time she looks frankly scandalized at the idea of Tara and Mark rekindling whatever it was they had, especially after the scare of the other day and how genuinely terrified Tara looked back then.

“That’s none of our business” Minah settles the conversation wrapping herself around Tara and petting her head as though she was still the little girl that could barely talk to them back when they started filming IMPULSE! and not the grown up woman she’s become over the years “And you better have an excuse for the hour long coffee pickup because the only plausible explanation now is that you were flirting with M and lost track of time” she says, accusation in her voice.

“Don’t remind me” Jane says huffing, the sound reveals that Minah’s theory is not entirely wrong. “To think I lost my time when I could’ve watched the season finale of Dix pour cent instead” Jane comments as she passes her best friend a cup of lukewarm chai latte.

“So Coffee Boy is still ignoring your advances?” Tyler chuckles as he sits on the coffee table, facing his sister and his other two bandmates.

“Don’t even mention that traitor” Jane’s words leave her mouth before she fully realizes she’s letting everybody know that M knew about Sungjae’s plans of leaving the group. She hurries to pick a cup and sip from it to stop more awkward words from tumbling out. However, judging by Tara and Minah’s expressions they’ve already figured out.

“Oh, please. Don’t punish the poor guy” Minah says, trying to force herself to sound casual, but failing “It’s not his fault Sungjae left” She adds with a shrug.

The silence that follows is deafening, but no one seems surprised that Minah is the one to bring up the reason they’re all sitting together, unnecessarily delaying the moment they finally acknowledge Sungjae is gone probably for good.

“I know, but he still could’ve given me a heads up, you know, out of loyalty to our…” Jane trails off, apparently unable to find a word to describe whatever it is the relationship she and the handsome barista have.

“And what would’ve you done? Tie him up so he didn’t leave?” Daniel scoffs, reminding everybody that he’s still standing there in the same spot.

“I know that’s been a fantasy of yours for years, but contrary to popular belief, you and I have completely differing taste and preferences” Jane replies, eyes rolling when she catches Tyler glaring at her. “But, no, I mean… we could’ve tried and talk some sense into him and if we failed I could’ve at least bid him goodbye with a punch in the face” She says with a wishful expression.

“Oh, please” Minah scoffs, exasperation dripping in her tone “We all know Sungjae. There was no use talking to him, he made a decision, he wanted to leave and he would’ve done it no matter the amount of talking.”  

The room falls quiet again, except for the vague sound of music playing from Minah’s room. No one really dares to break the silence right away so they sit avoiding each other’s eyes. Everybody shares the same unspoken questions, concerns, and unresolved feelings regarding Sungjae. It almost feels like yesterday Tyler, Daniel and Tara gathered to discuss his missing belongings and Jane panicked about what was she supposed to tell Minah once she’d returned from her press tour and noticed Sungjae was gone.

To this day nobody is even sure about what made him leave in the first place.

Of course, there was the little PR hell that Ashleigh’s supposed pregnancy caused, but it’s nothing they haven’t gone through before. The last 5 years have seen IMPACT  facing scandals with the poise and grace only a particularly gifted group of people could wield. It really makes no sense Sungjae has left a cause of it. It makes no sense he has left.

“Can you please stop? You’re making me anxious” Tara snaps at her brother out of the blue, pointing out how it is evident that Tyler is itching to say something, if his foot moving almost frantically is anything to go by.

“Well, I hate to be the one playing devil’s advocate, but do we even know if Sungjae left for real?” Tyler asks to the gaping faces of his bandmates who can’t seem to fathom Tyler Lee is not taking this opportunity to drag Sungjae through the mud.

“You have to be kidding, Lee” Jane scoffs, her confusion melting quickly into disbelief.

“Articles are everywhere” Minah reminds him wearily, as though she can’t quite believe she has to explain this to Tyler.

“He’s been gone nearly two weeks” Daniel adds logically, walking over to the group and flopping on the sofa next to Minah. “Hasn’t picked a single call either” Four pairs of eyes turn to look at Daniel at the same time, so he’s quick to add “I heard from Celeste” simply because he doesn’t want to admit that he’s been consistently calling Sungjae every day and leaving messages on his voicemail, just like everybody else. “The point is, we haven’t got any news from him.”

“But maybe he just needs a bit of time off? You know we’ve been traveling nonstop the last couple of months, he probably just wanted a break” Tara suggests, her voice impossibly hopeful even though she can notice Jane mouthing something that looked suspiciously like “oh, come on” accompanied by an eye roll.

“He could’ve called us, or you know, it literally takes a minute to send a message,” Daniel says with something that Tara believes is hurt in his voice, but no one else seems to notice.

“I hate that I agree with him,” Minah says nodding vigorously. “Can we all agree that Sungjae is leaving the group and now it’s just the five of us?” Her voice raises a bit as she says so and in the end, she blows out a deep breath that sounds in equal parts annoyed and regretful. “Or is any of you planning to leave next?” Minah lets out those words before she can even stop herself, but Jane is not surprised Minah is finally taking out all her frustrations on them.

“Seriously Minah, stop acting like we’re here because we love each other and want to be friends forever” if there’s a perfect moment for Daniel to remain silent, this is definitely the one, but he still chooses to speak “We’re not playing house, this is business,” He says crossing his arms over the chest “If Sungjae left, that’s definitely his problem to deal with. And just so you know I’ll leave whenever I want to.”

Tyler’s expression turns irritated on the spot. He chuckles bitterly “Oh, yes, of course you’d think that way because this team means nothing to you, doesn’t it?”

The way Daniel’s eyes turn practically murderous pushes Tara to step in before her brother ends up with a black eye or a broken nose that further add fuel to the rumors of IMPULSE!’s disbandment.

“Can we stop fighting, please? The last thing we need is to make this more complicated than it already is” She says, eyes blinking away the tears “I don’t know if you realize, but this is going to be a PR chaos and like it or not, we need to show a united front”

Minah doesn’t say anything, but her cheeks flush as she moves to look away and Jane mirrors her movements.

“For one thing should check with our agents if the company is preparing a statement or something” Tara goes on much to Daniel’s annoyance.

“I already talked to Chloe” Jane shrugs as she pronounces her sister’s name  “She’s been trying to talk to them since the bomb dropped, but they’re not picking her calls”

“And I talked to Celeste, but she knows nothing” Daniel chimes in “I think she was having a crisis when I called, so she said she’d call back” He says that with the faintest hint of a smile, as though the memory of Celeste going through PR panic was supposed to be a good one.

“I haven’t got news from Madame Moreau either” Tara adds, looking a bit glad everybody has stopped arguing.

“What about we wait till we hear from them then?” Tyler says.

“Ok”

“Ok”

“Fine then”

For a quick moment, they all exchange glances, facing each other awkwardly before looking away. Then their phones buzz and ping simultaneously announcing an incoming message.

The text is rudely brief and the instructions insufficient, but whether they acknowledge it or not Jane, Minah, Tyler, Daniel and Tara are all glad Sungjae’s withdrawal from IMPULSE! is nothing but some unconfirmed rumor started by a malicious gossip site that’s been after their neck since Tara and Sungjae called them out for writing lies about the group.

“Everybody” Minah suddenly exclaims from where she is curled on the sofa, she holds her phone up for everybody to see “How do we all feel about some damage control?”

The picture doesn’t make it to the group’s official account, but later that day when Minah goes to bed, eyes still puffed and clad in offensively unglamorous one-pice pjs, she looks fondly at the screen of her phone, where five faces smile back at her. She is convinced that whatever happens next she’ll never regret experiencing firsthand IMPULSE’s particular brand of chaos.

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