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carefulfears · 2 years ago
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Do you think mulder ever stops blaming himself for scully’s cancer?
no…i don’t think so. it’s really sad to think about, honestly.
but i think about nothing lasts forever:
if only you had fled earlier. do you know how many times i’ve envisioned that scenario? where you left that basement office before i even needed glasses? you’d have your health, your dog, your sister. you’d be kersh’s boss at the FBI. you’d be married to some brain surgeon…and have a bunch of kids you wouldn’t have to give up.
man blames himself for that alligator eating her DOG like TWENTY-FIVE YEARS ago!!
the first time they chased a monster together, he told her she'd be head of bureau by the next time tooms came out of his lair, and 25 years later he tells her it's his fantasy that she was.
and the first thing on the list of loss that he laments is her health.
it's similar to requiem, 18 years earlier:
knowing everything that's been taken away from you...a chance for motherhood and your health and that baby. i think that...i don't know, maybe they're right...it's the personal costs that are too high. there's so much more you need to do with your life. there's so much more than this.
lying on that motel bed, he tells her to go home. to leave him in bellefleur where they started, that the cost is too high. that time, her health was second on the list.
now, this is just my personal interpretation, but in both of these scenes, scully had been relatively healthy since her remission. any little spells she had (such as collapsing in requiem or the bridge in the red and the black) were attributed to her chip, which is a byproduct of her illness.
so, to me, he's referencing her cancer and resulting near-death.
i think in requiem he was the closest he's ever been to moving forward. it was post-closure and acceptance about samantha, and he doesn't directly blame himself in that scene when he tells her to leave. i think he would have gone with her.
but then that list just kept getting longer. he went back to bellefleur. he didn't come home. he had 48 hours with their son. that’s all. she was alone, in the end. she lost everything to live in that haunted house behind that gate. he couldn’t make it livable, couldn’t keep her from leaving, can’t blame her that she did.
i hate to say it guys but this is the ouroboros of his character! this is walking into the same room every day! there are a lot of things that could've made it different. i think getting to raise that baby and the natural conclusion of this never-ending sisyphean quest would've gone a long way to making things different.
but things weren't different, things stayed lost children and missing time and it all being his fault. so no, i don't think that cancer ever got taken off the list.
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ismelinor · 1 year ago
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A Dustland Fairytale (9/12)
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Chapter 9: The Light Behind Your Eyes
Scully found a certain enjoyment in the grand feasts at Camelot, even after four years of pouring wine at them. She got to spend most of her time leaning against the wall, observing Camelot’s finest as they got progressively drunker and stupider. Each time she leaned over Mulder’s shoulder to clear a plate, they’d exchange pleasantries under their breath: his personal favourite was ‘kill me now, Scully’, and then she would point out an indiscretion taking place in the shadows to entertain him, or he would do his impression of Skinner sighing and rubbing his eyes and they’d both look over at the court physician and giggle. Skinner loved that.
Even better, Scully had recently learnt a spell that allowed her to switch two objects in physical space, which Mulder found endlessly entertaining. The trick was to wait until Mulder’s hand was obscured under the table, and then she could switch out one of his rings with whatever she could find: a goblet, peas from the plate she was supposed to be clearing – last week, she’d managed a whole bowl of sweetmeats. Then she got to watch as Mulder smothered a laugh, trying to figure out what the object could be without raising it above the table, before she switched it back. Skinner, of course, disapproved of such frivolous use of her magic, but after six years of these feasts, they had to make their own entertainment.
It was fun – usually.
Tonight was not shaping up to be a fun one. The king had made it very clear that Mulder was on the thinnest of thin ice: he’d missed training with the knights that morning (because the two of them had been bargaining with a man who was trying to rob the vaults of Camelot and his wife, who insisted that they were living the same day over and over and it always ended in disaster – it was a long story). Samantha had tried to cover for them, telling the king that Mulder was unwell in the apothecary – only Skinner had told a different story, saying that he needed a herb from the perilous lands and the prince had escorted Scully there to ensure it was returned safely. The result was that Spender was furious with everyone, Mulder most of all, and the lords and ladies were too frightened even to get drunk.
It was the most tense Scully had felt at a banquet, and she’d drunk poison at one of them (another long story). Spender sat flanked by his advisors, Kersh and Strughold, and they reminded Scully of a snarling three-headed dog she’d once fought off with Mulder (wow, Scully didn’t realise how many long stories she had in her). Mulder, for once, seemed to be taking the danger seriously – perhaps because this time Spender had threatened Scully’s job – and was picking at his food in sullen silence, hands remaining steadfastly above the surface of the table.
When the doors flung open, lords, ladies and servants alike looked up eagerly, hoping for some alleviation of the funereal air hanging dank in the banquet hall. It was a pair of knights, dragging something small and limp behind them. Scully first thought it was a puppet, so pale and lifeless did it seem, but no – it was her little girl. It was Emily.
Mulder was the first on his feet, leaping clear over the banquet table to get to Emily. She was just starting to wake up and gave a little laugh when she saw Mulder’s panic face. Even in the midst of the wordless, paralysing terror gripping her, the sound warmed Scully’s heart.
The knights were addressing the king and she tried to pay attention, though she couldn’t take her eyes off Emily – still so small, and battered and bruised all over.
“-found her in the forest, conjuring berries out of thin air. She didn’t deny using magic, sire, so we thought we’d best bring her to you right away.”
The king didn’t hesitate. “She will be executed.”
It felt like the air had been sucked from the room. Scully gripped onto the wall to steady herself. There were men who Scully had seen cheering at executions with horrified expressions on their faces. No child had ever been executed for magic, as long as Scully had lived in Camelot; in Mulder’s father’s time, she knew, even teenagers were pardoned on charges of sorcery. In the ensuing silence, several pale-faced ladies filed out of the room.
“She’s just a child. An innocent,” Mulder cried. Spender turned his eyes on the prince and twisted his mouth into his usual half-smile.
“There is no innocence in magic, boy. You’re too soft. You will kill her.” He unsheathed his dagger and held it out to Mulder.
Mulder stared at him incredulously. “I would sooner kill myself,” he said steadily.
The king narrowed his eyes. “I had hoped I’d taught you better than this. You will kill the child, or you will be tried as a sympathiser to magic.”
The queen averted her eyes, but she said nothing. Scully stepped forward but Mulder caught her eye and shook his head. Before he could say anything, Emily spoke, with her chin pushed out proudly.
“I am a high priestess. No mortal blade will harm me.” If Scully hadn’t figured out that was a bad thing to reveal, the colour draining from Skinner’s face would have told her.
Strughold whispered something to the king, who nodded. The royal advisor left the room hastily.
The king looked around the room. “You are all dismissed for the evening. Rest assured that no threat to Camelot will go unvanquished under my reign. We will forge a kingdom that is safe, peaceful, and prosperous.”
Scully did not move. Nor did Melissa. Strughold pushed his way back into the room through the tide of silent nobles flooding out. He handed a vial of something dark and viscous to the king, who coated his dagger in the liquid.
He made his way over to Emily, who was clinging onto Mulder’s hand and half-hidden behind him.
“Do you know what this is?” Spender asked her, holding up the dagger.
Emily said nothing, but she looked over at Scully with eyes filled with terror. It was wrong, seeing this strange little girl, this oracular figure from her dreams, shaking with fear. It was easy to forget that, despite her gifts of prophesy and magic, Emily was, above all else, a child.
“This is a dagger coated in the venom of a serket. Serkets, like you, are abominations, but their venom is remarkably useful. It can be used to kill any creature: even a high priestess.”
Emily’s bottom lip wobbled.
“I won’t let you touch her,” growled Mulder, pulling the girl behind him.
Spender waved his hand and three of the knights leapt on Mulder. He was putting up a fight, kicking and punching with all his might, but he was no match for three well-armed and well-trained men, and they had him on the ground in no time.
Standing in the centre of the banquet hall, almost comically mismatched, Spender and Emily stared at one another. She did not try to run, even as the king raised the dagger.
“If you kill me, you damn Camelot to ruin. Your legacy will die with you, and the only time your name will be spoken is when your children are cursing your name.” Emily spoke matter-of-factly, in a tone that was entirely at odds with her position, shaking like a leaf at the point of a dagger.
And then Emily turned to smile at Scully.
~~~
As soon as she met Emily’s eye, Scully knew what was going to happen. It was inevitable, she could see. Yes, it was always going to end this way, wasn’t it? That was what all the tests were for, all this talk of destiny; four years leading to this moment. Her life, to change the future of Camelot.
She looked at Mulder pinned to the ground but still shouting at the king, at Skinner hastily clearing the last of the onlookers from the room (Strughold, bloodthirsty as ever, was the last to leave), at Samantha and Missy, both surreptitiously reaching for carving knives on the banquet table.
She made her way to Samantha’s side as quietly as possible and grabbed her wrist to get her attention. “Samantha,” she whispered urgently, “I’m sorry, but I need you to do something for me. When I give the signal, I need you to grab Emily, and I need you to run with her, as fast as you can. Get to the forest. Take her to the druids; she’ll know which way to go. They’ll protect you until Camelot is safe.”
Scully could see from the sadness in Samantha’s eyes that she understood. “What’s the signal?” she asked.
Scully smiled. “You won’t miss it. I love you both,” she said, reaching out to squeeze Missy’s arm. “Tell Mulder…tell him I’m sorry, alright?”
She took a deep breath, summoned her magic to the surface, and waited for her moment. Spender took hold of Emily by the neck, raised the knife, and started to swing: now! Scully squeezed her eyes shut and muttered the switching spell – just in time to feel the dagger piercing her chest, she’d done it. She stood where Emily had, Spender’s hand tightening around her neck – and, yes, she looked over: Samantha had Emily in her arms and was running from the room. And then there was nothing but a pain so blinding it eclipsed her every sense.
Mulder had her in his arms before she hit the floor – he really did have remarkable reaction times. That was Scully’s last coherent thought before she was subsumed by the chaos.
~~~
When she awoke, she was, to her surprise, in her own bed. It couldn’t have all been a dream – the excruciating pain in her side told her that. The question, then, was how she was still alive.
She tried to sit up and the resulting grunt of pain summoned Mulder to her side. He didn’t look too well himself.
“How are you feeling?” he asked.
“Not as bad as I ought. What the hell happened?”
“You got stabbed, Scully. With a blade dipped in serket venom.”
“Yes, I remember that part, Mulder. What happened after that? How am I still alive?”
“How are you still-?” Mulder choke and turned his head. “How can you say that like it’s nothing? It’s-it’s everything. Don’t you understand?”
Scully was speechless. She took hold of Mulder’s hand and felt it trembling. He looked down at her, eyes shining with tears. “Skinner says that the serket venom works by draining a being of magic. You’re powerful, so it’s taking longer than it usually does. The king let him take you here instead of the cells because he said you’ll be dead within the week anyway.”
Scully tried to swallow that thought – the idea that she would cease to be in a few short days. When she had offered her life for Emily’s, she hadn’t done it blindly. She knew that she would take Emily’s place, quite literally, in one of the most painful deaths known to man. She took that from Emily gladly, not because Emily was important to the future of Albion (though Scully knew she was), and not because it was written in the stars (though perhaps it was), but because she was only a little girl and she had so much life left to live.
But in making that decision, Scully had assumed that her death would at least be quick – like pulling a dagger from a wound, which Scully, unfortunately, had experience with. This slow draining of her life force was not what she had expected.
“I’m sorry, Mulder.” It was all she could think of to say.
“You’re not going to die. We’ll find a solution – don’t we always find a solution, Scully? Melissa and Skinner are looking over the books right now. You won’t die, Scully.” He sounded like he was pleading with her.
Scully could only shake her head. “You can’t mess with this kind of magic, Mulder. Haven’t I always told you that magic requires balance? A life for a life – I gave mine willingly for Emily’s. No one should be sacrificed for me, alright? There’s been enough blood shed.”
Mulder was crying now. She pulled his face to her shoulder and ran her fingers through his hair soothingly. There were things she knew she ought to say if she only had a limited time left – and not just to Mulder – but if she was going to face her death head-on, she figured she was owed a moment of weakness, and she stayed quiet.
When Mulder sat up, she found that she still hadn’t found the right words to say.
“Come on, Mulder, you were just fine before I came along and you’ll be fine without me.” She tried for a light tone, but it sounded flat even to her ears.
His eyes bored into hers, like he thought he could save her if he just looked at her hard enough.
“I wasn’t,” he said, finally. “And I won’t.”
~~~
Scully had been strictly forbidden from leaving the apothecary. Skinner was worried that if Spender saw her walking around, he’d have her executed on the spot. What no one was saying was that, since she was going to die anyway, it didn’t really matter. It might have been kinder, in fact, than this painful, drawn-out death.
After a few days, it didn’t matter anyway – Scully couldn’t have left the apothecary if she’d wanted to. It was too painful to move more than a few paces, and then it was too painful to get out of bed, and then it was too painful to even sit up.
She had visitors: every time she woke, someone was there – Skinner, Melissa, even Pendrell, though he didn’t know exactly what had happened. They all put on straight faces and brought her the latest court gossip or fruit pilfered from the kitchens or books to read, but Scully could see the sadness in their eyes. She watched, day by day, as the hope drained from her friends, and it became more and more of an effort to pretend they didn’t know what was coming.
~~~
It had been about ten days since she’d been stabbed – longer than Scully had thought she’d get – when she woke up and knew with absolute certainty that this was the day she was going to die. She couldn’t even summon enough magic to light the candle by her bed, something she’d mastered at four years old.
Mulder leaned over and lit it for her. She hadn’t seen him in days, and she understood why. He, most of all of their friends, could not face this reality. Every time she saw his face, she was more sorry for what she’d done, and more scared for what it would do to him. She’d begged Missy to take care of him, and of course she would do her best, but Scully understood that their souls were tied in a way that could not be severed, even in death. If it were the other way around – if she were losing Mulder – she was sure she would be half anchored to the grave for the rest of her life. She only hoped that he would fare better.
“Come here, Mulder,” she whispered, because it hurt to speak.
He nodded and crawled onto the bed with her. There was something different in his eyes today – something more settled than the sad, searching way he’d been looking at her since she’d damned herself. She hoped that meant that he’d accepted her fate, but she knew him well enough to doubt it.
She couldn’t think of anything to say to him, knowing that they might be her last words. That seemed like a great deal of pressure. She didn’t remember the last thing her father had said to her before he died – goodbye, most likely, given that she was fleeing Ealdor. Mulder’s father’s last words, about dragons and betrayal, had haunted him for fifteen years. What if she said the wrong thing? What if Mulder forgot them – or worse, what if he could never forget them? It was too late, now, anyway. She gasped and pressed her face into his chest when the pain became overwhelming, resigned to a silent departure.
Scully fell asleep with Mulder’s lips pressed to her forehead – not even a kiss; his lips were open and he was mouthing something onto her skin through stifled sobs. She supposed she’d never know what he was trying to say, but she had a good idea, at least.
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melforbes · 8 years ago
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cold, ocean, phonebook
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What she needed was a local dive, some seedy diner with busted red vinyl booths and laminated menus featuring blue plate specials and eggs any way you would like them. As dusk settled over the Californian sea beyond her, she flipped through a phonebook, thought of keywords for what she wanted: milkshakes, family-owned, titled as Chuck’s Place or Beverly’s Diner or even The Greasy Spoon. Biting her lip in concentration, she counted the waves beyond her little payphone, measured time with them as she looked over all of the listed restaurants from here to San Francisco. Loleta was an odd combination of seaside and rustic, rich and unpopulated; if she wanted a diner, she would have to drive, and after that day, she didn’t want to be stuck behind a wheel any longer than was absolutely necessary.
And Kersh had been called, and their asses were on the line, and their return flight to D.C. would be filled with her last moments of reprieve before an inevitable hailstorm of paperwork, liability, and unfortunately both metaphorical and literal manure rained down upon her desk, but somehow, she had the inkling that a good plate of corned beef hash at a checkered palace where neon lights claimed open twenty-four hours and where blonde waitresses scooted around on roller-skates would at least take Mulder’s mind off of exploding eardrums and the fragility of human life. Of course, the inkling was hardly backed up by solid scientific fact, and just last week, she’d told him that he needed to better his diet for the sake of his heart’s health, but nonetheless, she needed to find him respite, a place where he felt most in his element. First, a diner came to mind even though Loleta seemed void of any diners.
Back in her second year working with him, they’d been stranded in a snowstorm in Burlington, the roads closed and all of the native Vermonters snuggled beneath flannel sheets while she’d phoned her mother to say why she couldn’t make mass on Sunday. That night, they’d holed up in one of the few bed-and-breakfasts that had power, the lake effect wind rustling the shutters on her window, the television’s rabbit ears barely picking up a signal, and at two in the morning, when she’d somehow still been awake, he’d knocked heavily at her door, shouted to her, “I’m starving. Want to get dinner?”
And then, they were in a Ford Taurus - rented, of course - barreling over snowdrifts while plows on all kinds of cars - most commonly trucks but also Jeeps and Yukons and even the occasional S.U.V. - cleared what they could, silent and fat flakes of snow still falling well into the night. From the reckless turns Mulder made, and from the crunchy way the brake pedal on that car had felt even before the snowstorm, she clenched her fists on her lap for the whole ride, her mind repeating I cannot die in a snowstorm with this man, for that’ll be the most tragic way for me to go. While Mulder sought out a diner, they both realized that, apparently, there was a culture surrounding the idea of a diner and that so-called diner culture didn’t exist in Vermont, where shops closed at five in the afternoon and dared not reopen until morning. Stomachs empty, they made it back to the motel, where they managed two candy bars out of a vending machine and where they sat together on his bed, her boots left at the door while his were kicked off haphazardly in the middle of the room, and watched local programming on the fuzzy television. Unsurprisingly, Vermont news was tame to the point of hilarity; over processed chocolates, they laughed at how Mrs. Roberts’ grandson’s visit was the breaking story of the night, and when Scully fell asleep alongside Mulder, he was polite enough not to wake her until morning.
And now, she once again found that, when they needed a diner most, one would never appear.
Stepping over to where she stood at the little payphone off of the side of the road, he looked over her shoulder, asked, “Why don’t we just find a place to stay for the night?”
She took a deep, quiet breath, her eyes cast down at the Yellow Pages.
“We need dinner,” she said coolly.
“There’s a burger shack two miles up the road,” he commented; she wondered how he knew that while she’d been left oblivious. “Let’s just go there.”
She sucked her lips into a near-smile, went to nod when he quipped, “Unless that’s not up to your standards for my diet.”
But his little smile fell flat, held solemnness beneath it, and suddenly, her mind blanked, then centered on one thought: it was absolutely up to her to protect this man, to comfort him, for she was the only person in the world who could, yet she couldn’t even find him dinner when prompted to do so.
“It’s fine,” she managed, then set the phonebook back down, headed for the driver’s side of their rental car.
At the passenger’s side, he climbed in, and with the radio off, she pulled away from the ocean in silence.
They were lucky for the summer weather, for the lack of youngsters mulling about the shack’s picnic tables, for the fact that the place was still open even though the sun was beginning to set. Benji’s Burgers, a hand-painted sign on top of the place indicated, and the menu was simple, just five separate burger titles and their ingredients listed on a propped-up chalkboard. Two teenagers worked the place, and when Mulder asked if either of them was Benji, he received shrugs and the excuse that Benji was out of town on business.
“Burger business?” Mulder asked incredulously as they later sat alongside each other at a picnic table, plastic baskets of burgers and fries in front of them. “What kind of burger business do you have to go out of town for?”
In between bites, she commented, “Maybe this is just his side business.”
The sky formed a shade of bright orange, remarkable and vast above them; cars would occasionally buzz past the roadside shack, but mostly, the only sounds were the summer insects around them and the transistor radio that the two teens had set up in the shack. Currently, some staticky Spencer Davis song played, and she kicked off her heels beneath the table, let her feet rest bare against the earth beneath them.
“Benji’s Burgers,” Mulder enunciated, hovering his burger in front of his mouth, “a front for Benji’s Blow and Dope. This, of course, is just a side business. Doesn’t make nearly as much money.”
For his sake, she quirked a lip at that even though her face felt heavy with woe, her eyes tired, her uncertainty making her hands shaky as she went to take a bite of her own burger. Extra mustard, hold the pickles. He’d ordered for her.
“Do you think at all about dying nowadays?”
The question left her gagging on her bite, one of her hands coming to her mouth while she forced herself to chew, swallow, find words. Before she could speak, he smiled to himself at her response, admitted, “I didn’t mean to make you choke.”
Embarrassed, she defended, “It was an abrupt change of subject.”
“We can’t lie as though it wasn’t on our minds.”
She took a deep breath, said, “No, we can’t.”
“With the cancer and all, it must’ve been hard not to think about it,” he said, “but do you ever thinking about it now?”
“About dying?”
He nodded softly, honestly, so she shrugged, offered, “Sometimes, I guess. When we thought Crump-”
“Mister Crump,” Mulder corrected, then took another bite of his burger, Benji’s so-called special sauce leaving a red stain alongside his lips.
“Well, when we though that Mister Crump had been infected with something bacterial,” she repeated, “I thought about dying.”
“How did it feel?” he asked. “The concept, I mean. The thought of it all.”
She weighed her words, gave, “Horrifying. Uncomfortable. But in the end, your only option is acceptance.”
“It’s not your only option,” he said. “You could be kicking and screaming until the very end, right until that profound plug is pulled. You’d don’t need to accept a thing.”
“You need to accept it if you want peace of mind.”
“Who cares about peace of mind?” he asked. “If you’re going to be dead, then why does it matter?”
And to that, she had no response, so she stared down at her lap, the fries in her basket going cold, a sedan driving past at a speed that deserved a ticket. Uncomfortably, he shifted his weight, finished off his meal, kept his eyes down.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “I’m being an ass.”
“You had a rough day.”
“He didn’t deserve to die, Scully.”
“Does anyone?”
Humorlessly, he laughed.
“You don’t want to know my answer to that,” he admitted, meeting her eyes.
She stuck a cold, unsatisfying fry into her mouth and wondered where they would stay tonight as she chewed.
“I just think that today’s injustices were avoidable,” he said, unbuttoning two buttons on his shirt and ruffling his - dirty, she might add - hands through his hair. “You said that everyone in that home area was dead. There’s no way a government can rationalize that.”
“A government can rationalize anything,” she mumbled as he chose not to listen.
“How many more people have to die, Scully?” he asked. “How many more innocent civilians have to get in the way before someone, anyone, realizes that this is unjust?”
“You’re assuming they don’t already realize that this is unjust.”
“I can’t keep doing this anymore, talking to rednecks about their beets and pretending I’m making a difference,” he said softly. “There’s so much more out there, so much more I could be doing.”
“We’ll find our way back to cases like this,” she assured, bringing her palm to rest on his leg. “We’ll solve x-files again. We’ll be able to help again.”
“But what have the x-files done for either of us?” he asked, his tone stark. “They caused your abduction, your cancer. They’ve attacked our families, and for what, Scully? For next to nothing. If we do something, people die. If we don’t do something, people die. There’s no way out of this.”
As Jim Croce crooned hazily through the teens’ radio, she folded her hands on her lap, swallowed hard. Though she wanted to offer something, to say that everything would be fine and that no one would ever die again and that the world, though he had never been able to see it in such a way, was, at its depths, a good place, she couldn’t offer any of that without knowing her statements would be lies. Breathing in, she closed her eyes, felt the soft touch of a breeze, could smell the sweat and grime heavy on his skin; when she thought of their flight home in the morning, of the inevitable meeting with Kersh, her heart began to race, so she pushed those thoughts away, forced herself to find something that would comfort him. Her search for a greasy spoon had failed; her consolation efforts were nonexistent; though she thought she knew him better than anyone else did, she still couldn’t find words to take his mind from the injustices of the universe. The injustices of men, she corrected herself. The injustices of the world were mauled animal corpses left to rot in the savannah; the injustices of men were a slew of deceased bodies as a product of government experiments.
Opening her eyes, she reached out, took his sticky hand in hers, entwined her little fingers between his thick, calloused ones. The sky was fading to darker tones, and by now, she knew he needed somewhere to rest and wash, but she still searched for something to say, some little compliment or inside joke or anything else that would bloom a smile of his, but her search continued to be fruitless.
“You’re pensive,” he said with a dry laugh, but she could hear a hint of nervousness in his voice.
Softly, he curled his fingers against hers, so she sucked her lips into a smile, spoke the first words that came to mind.
“Some of my best memories are with you,” she said, the compliment absent-minded and unrelated, but as she looked up, she saw the stunned look on his face, the deep blue-grey of his eyes, the way he looked at her as though everything else had momentarily faded away, leaving only her dry and freckled face in its wake. With sauce still on his cheek, he was messy and unshowered and himself, and she wanted to curl her arms around him and reassure herself that, even though death seemed to follow them wherever they went, it had yet to touch them and that that was a good thing.
Glancing down and breaking their eye contact, he smiled toward his shoes, said, “Let’s go find a hotel, Scully.”
Exhaling, she nodded, said, “Somewhere nice.”
“On the bureau card?
She gave him a look, said, “We’ll call it repayment for the talking-to Kersh’ll give us in Washington.”
Smiling, he stood, pulled her up as well. She picked up her heels and dangled them from her open hand while he led her back toward the car, but before he could go around to the passenger’s side, before he let go of her hand, he added, “Scully?”
She hummed a response, looked up at him with new perspective; she so rarely stood next to him flat-footed, so the positioning reminded her of the moment when he’d held her in the hospital after Penny Northern had died, of how warm and alive he’d felt alongside her dying body. Absently, she wondered how his arms would feel now, California nighttime surrounding them, unrighteous death behind them and personal anger ahead.
Looking down, he admitted, “Most of my best memories are with you too.”
Then, he ducked over to his side of the car, and as she opened her own car door, as she slid her shoes back on, she didn’t realize that she’d begun to smile.
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skullchicken · 4 years ago
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Part 2 - The Hug of Death
(again, this is me recounting my shadowrun-character Alberich's adventures. it is very self-indulgent, though of course I hope I'm making it entertaining.)
Part 1
One thing you should know about Alberich is that he is a people person. And, having left the Allied German States, he in turn has become... a bit lonely on the new continent. There is one friend he has, however and that is another Troll mage called Lohan, who owns a magic shop. And it is said friend that nets the group their next mission:
There is a compound that Lohan would like to purchase - but said compound is only sold by a mage who dislikes him. It is up to the group to buy it for him. But of course it doesn't turn out that easy. It's never that easy.
Dr. Kersh and his trusty spirit (when we meet them, they are debating whether Friends or Frasier was the better sitcom) don't simply sell the compound - they exchange it against services. There was this other shaman who had been interested in the compound, but a) she turned out to be a toxic shaman - with a thing for taking over people's identities to boot and b) she was too chickenshit to do the service. What is the service? Oh, just mosey on over into the crater in Chicago where the hoop used to be, past 100.000 insect spirits and place a a device there for like half an hour. But it's all good - they're throwing in some hazmat suits and Dr. Kersh will heal your radioactive poisoning at a discount!
So we move our way down the crater and past a herd of insect sprits like we`re the needles in the board game "operation" until we finally, finally make it and place the device.
I had been informed by the Game Master, that the area has, like, reaaally bad mojo and that as a magic user, Alberich is being plagued by headaches. It's because of this that he doesn't notice at first when the radioactive spirit children turn up. Now, by this point, we'd gotten a new team mate, Shere Khan, a physical adept. The most important thing to know about him in this context is that he does not like kids. And that while he's a very intimidating person otherwise, him trying to intimidate them into staying away only makes the little girl cry - which in turn agitates her brother.
The GM later told us that he was pretty sure we wouldn't have been able to take them - so it was a good thing Alberich finally snapped out of it to hurry on over there and console the crying spirits.
They turned out to be... weirdly normal for what they were. Mostly they just seemed bored, so Alberich tried his best to befriend them and play games - without having to touch them. So, word games, I spy with my little eye (many insect spirits in that one) and stuff like that. It worked out. Mostly.
"When you leave, the spirit children can't help but sneak in a hug, even though you told me you'd rather not", the GM said.
"Awww :)"
"You now have 7 kinds of cancer."
"... awww :("
Back at the prof's place, we arrive just in time to witness an assault by the Swamp Thangs - a notorious street gang. While that sure threw a wrench into our mission, at least it resulted into a fucking cool scene, where Shere Khan jumped out of the moving van to drop-kick a ganger in the head.
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A Thing of Beauty.
Oh yeah, here might be a good a place as any to mention that the other notable thing about Shere Khan is that while he's usually frowning, while fighting he adopts a manic grin.
This might also be a good point to mention that I did not build Alberich to be a fighter. As a troll shaman in 5e you have a really hard time building a decent character since shamans are charisma and smarts-based and Trolls are... not that. On the other hand you get those sweet, sweet 5 body (constitution) and 5 strenght. Which don't really help you if you don't go into close combat as a mage... but I'd digress. During this fight I mostly made sure that Elf_Queen doesn't slip out of the van while she was hacking...
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... and buffing the fighters. You see, I made him into a support/utility mage, which is why when I picked my spells, I picked supportive and useful ones.
I swear, I looked at "Acid Stream" and thought "oh, I could dissolve metal with that, that might come in handy!". So in absence of any combat spells, I kinda... started using that as a go-to spell once everyone was properly buffed? And the group wouldn't stop giving me shit about it. But I mean, how is this any different than slicing people up with a Katana or kicking their chin in, really? And also, at least I'm not the one smiling happily at the bloodbath while fighting...
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Personally I think they were just jelly because they couldn't melt people.
I any case: The Swamp Thangs stole the fucking compound.
Time to get it tf back.
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monikafilefan · 5 years ago
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Accidental Admission
Since it’s Mulder’s birthday, and I literally cannot remember nor find if I ever posted this on here, I’m sharing a fic I wrote last year to celebrate 1013!
tagging @today-in-fic
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FBI Bullpen
10-13-1999
3:06 PM
“Ready, Scully?” Mulder asks, already half out the door. He whirls his jacket around his shoulder, sliding his arms through in haste.
She’s running late for the meeting. They both are. Yet, for once it’s her fault since she’s purposely stalling.
“Yep,” she tosses out over her shoulder, pushing the chair out with the backs of her knees. Knowing she can’t leave just yet, her heels stay perfectly planted to the bullpens floor.
Mulder turns and eyes her from the entryway, just waiting to stake his usual claim on her lower back.
“Oh!” She looks away from his gaze and pretends to gather their paperwork. “Go ahead without me. I forgot to print out the final autopsy results,” she lies, and feels his pending debate burgeon. “I’ll be right behind you, Mulder,” assuring him softly, knowing that he will leave but will take his sweet time doing so.
“Uh, alright. I’ll wait for you there.” He sounds confused as one, two, three seconds pass while Scully pretends to click through her files on the computer.
Finally, she hears his shoes move through the hallway, so she quickly grabs the card and pen she’d hidden under the files and starts writing feverishly.
Scully has always hidden Mulder’s birthday card somewhere in the office for him to use his investigative skills to find. He’d returned the favor after her cancer remission and it’s been an annual game between them—a tradition of sorts ever since. However, that’s not possible this year, so she decided last night to make due with their current situation and surprise him at the end of the day today.
To anyone else a simple card with a few rushed out thoughts scrawled out may seem minuscule. But to them, it’s the little things that mean the most.
After glancing up at the bullpen clock and noticing that nearly five minutes have passed, she hears Mulder’s distinct footfalls heading her way, so she hastily finishes the fluid motion of her pen without much thought.
“Crap!” She moves over and props the card up on Mulder’s keyboard.
She snags the files and beats him to the doorway. “Sorry, Mulder, I’m ready,” she mumbles, breezing past him while avoiding his questioning stare.
Twenty-four grueling minutes of not so subtle ass chewing later, Mulder and Scully walk back to their desks and Mulder groans at the new pile of unfinished background checks waiting for him.
“This day just keeps getting better and better,” he grumbles while cracking his neck.
Scully can’t help but laugh as she says, “Don’t worry, Mulder, I won’t let you suffer alone today.”
Mulder looks over to see her gesturing to the card in front of him and he smiles.
Feigning shock that she yet again had remembered his birthday, he opens the generically labeled Hallmark birthday card and reads attentively.
Scully watches his smiling green eyes flick across her words while she leans against the side of his desk. Watching Mulder read is secretly one of her favorite things to do, so when she catches his eyes narrow abruptly and stop moving, she thinks she must have made a rare spelling error. It wouldn’t surprise her with how fast she had written out her thoughts to him. She hadn’t even attempted a re-read before she stuck the card next to his lime green alien cup and hurried out to the meeting.
But as she studies his expression, she can tell he’s scrutinizing something over and over. Something that isn’t just a misplaced letter. That impossibly cute smirk he’d worn since he picked up the card is now being replaced with an all out grin. Her brow arches as she searches her memory for what that something could be.
She remembers writing her usual birthday wishes to him, explaining her plans to bring him dinner, and adding in her special words of affection for her friend at the end like she always has.
The last comments, ‘You’re my best friend, and even though you call me at all hours of the night, I’m still happy to see you in the morning,’ flash in her mind. Then each time, without fail, she would sign his cards with a ‘Love, S.’
Just as she’s about to question whether he is profiling her by analyzing her sloppy penmanship, Mulder proudly lays the card open on his desktop for the world to see and steps into her, just a breath away. He leans his face into Scully’s, pressing a warm and gentle lingering kiss directly on her mouth, engulfing hers with his own. His soft, plump lips caress hers for the briefest of moments while “more” is the only thing that enters her mind.
She gasps as he slowly pulls away, grinning in glee. Her eyes widen at his blatant actions of affection at work and barely comprehends that he’s speaking.
“Oh, Scully, me too. Me too,” he murmurs just inches from her mouth with his face aglow. Ignoring her stunned expression, Mulder brushes around her hip and grabs their hotel receipt. “Gotta run this to Kersh’s secretary so we’re not chewed out again. Be right back.”
At that, he walks out and leaves a shocked, confused, and now aroused Scully in his wake.
She snaps to attention, wildly searching the room for witnesses, and reaches over to examine the card when she sees none. Her eyes move rapidly along each word and as she makes it to the very bottom, she now reads what he did. Her jaw drops and heart pounds even harder than when his lips covered hers.
“Oh, my God,” she whispers while re-reading the phrase again and again. Scully worries the card between her fingers, then folds it up, and lays it back on his desk.
She cannot believe she’d written down her actual hidden feelings rather than her thoughts. Instead of the familiar signature of ‘Love, S,’ she had written, ‘I love you. Love your S.’
She’s completely embarrassed as her stomach tumbles somewhere near her knees, and feels her cheeks flush with instant heat. She walks to her own desk and slowly sits while she nervously taps her manicured nail along her freshly kissed lip. She can still taste him and can’t help but crave more.
She quickly runs through the scenario of what will happen when she faces him again.
Mulder could think she just meant that she loves him like a best friend would love him. Yet she instantly rejects that notion, since she’s never written nor said those particular words to him in all the six years and seven months that they’ve been best friends.
So, she decides that the most appropriate response to her fast and furious writing will be a tight hug followed by a, “Happy Birthday, Mulder.”
But because he knows her so well, and because she doesn’t want to ignore it anymore, she’ll just smile his way, gaze into his knowing eyes, and lick her lips to savor the taste of her accidental admission.
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scullydubois · 5 years ago
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thoughts on The Truth (9x19/20)
Written by Chris Carter     Directed by Kim Manners
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WOOHOO LETS GO
Gasp...Mulder
Where they at
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Up to his old clowny ways again
Do you think Scully emailed him and was like, yeah, so I put the baby up for adoption
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Krycek? I thought you were dead boy
Nice one
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Dun dun dun
“About my son...and his mother” looks like that email went to spam
He’s a guilty man….he failed in every respect
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Ladies...ladies…
Who dafuq are Dana and Walter, who’s he talking to
This is some A+ brainwashing
Krycek wyd
Is Kersh actually being helpful
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I’m having some thoughts…
UM
Is that allowed?
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That went on for like...a long time
It IS a party, Mulder’s right
They got Knowle’s body? WTF
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Alright so...I’m not actually mentally capable for handling this
Gillian is doing some A+ acting
This whole ‘our son’ thing...detrimental to my health
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Let it be known that I’m having a straight up bad time
Her laugh after he said he was out looking for the truth...please kill me
“I can’t tell you” you’re really gonna do this...now..GTFO
“That doesn’t make sense” correct
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They needed to give Skinner a reasonable part in the ep so he’s gonna be Mulder’s lawyer...I have to laugh
Mulder’s gonna lose…
They’re really throwing flashbacks in here...I don’t know if I like that or not
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Hey Spender
Lol...so it’s not that Mulder isn’t guilty, it’s that a government conspiracy justifies his actions
The sheer amount of summarizing here makes me uncomfortable...I know it was probably good for those who watched the show over a span of 9 years, but I watched all of this in the past 6 months...I know
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GIBSON COME THROUGH
Scully’s snapping on Mulder...thank you god
“I’d rather die, Scully” you’re literally dumb, Mulder
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TBH it seems like Mulder as a character grew out of his whole “the truth before everything” mindset seasons ago, why are we reverting him back to it
This is actually infuriating
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“It’s you and me, that’s what I’m fighting for, Mulder. You and me.” Deadass!
His face...he knows he done fucked up
Thanks, I hate it (it being that scene)
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Mr. X???
How did this Native American kid get Doggett’s address
I mean...good but
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Marita however you spell her last name?? Where the fuck did she go after season 7
I feel like she’s one of the most irrelevant recurring characters
Mulder! Stop being dumb!
This isn’t even clowny anymore...this is just straight up dumbass
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Gibson is spilling the tea! He literally pointed to this guy and called him out for being a super soldier...zero fucks! He’s never let me down!
Mulder is fired up!
If a boy who could read minds couldn’t help, how are Doggett and Reyes?
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Alright Reyes is going off...I love her
GOD...all of this would be solved if William hadn’t been put up for adoption...they literally COULD have a demonstration...he is their physical proof of the truth they’ve been searching for!! In more ways than one!!!!
So far in this episode...Reyes>>>Mulder
Lucky break that Doggett got the corpse sent to Quantico
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Literally zero way of physically identifying that as Knowle!
Skinner’s like…’so this case is irrelevant because the victim isn’t dead, so jot that down’
Sorry but...I can’t take Scully seriously here...I wish I could...but he went “You’re in contempt” and she did that kid argument thing of going “No, YOU”RE in contempt!”
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This is the saddest excuse of a trial I have ever seen
Verdict time!!
Guilty of first degree murder...imagine watching the pilot episode and finding out that Mulder gets convicted of murder in the final episode..WTF
This is such an L...for everyone involved (both fictionally and in reality)
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Mulder’s really making a speech after being convicted for murder...PLEASE
His crime is in daring to believe!
Did y’all know that the truth is out there
This is so dramatic LMAO
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Scully’s about to pick up the phone and they’re gonna be like ‘death penalty!’
OH MY FUCKING GOD THAT WAS A JOKE WHAT IN THE ACTUAL HELL
This is so fucking terrible but I’m actually laughing hysterically because I did not expect that, I was literally joking
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They waited until there was a verdict to break him out, when they actually could have just done it the whole time
Like...if y’all were just gonna break him out the whole time, why did I have to watch the stupid summing up of the show via the trial
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Alright...maybe Kersh has some rights
Canada sounds like a good idea
Or not, do whatever the fuck you want I guess, you’re already on the run for murder
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BITCH why am I seeing an empty X-Files office...not allowed in any circumstances
Super soldier guy, fuck off
The Lone Gunmen deserved better
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You already know I love a desert episode
Sometimes i wish Mulder would just chill
Doggett and Reyes are really out here in a helicopter
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THIS IS LITERALLY THE FUNNIEST THING EVER I-
I’m sorry but I cannot take this seriously...I cannot cannot
Mulder just spill it
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“You’re afraid to speak the truth.” You know what? CSM is right and he should say it
Always about magnetite
Welp, there’s Knowle 
She wants to hear it Mulder!!
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THE TRUTH IS THAT ALIENS ARE GOING TO INVADE IN 2012????? LMAOOOOOOO
No wonder I actually didn’t have this part spoiled for me ahead of time
This did not age well, not one bit
We got multiple helicopters out here now
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And magnetite takes care of another one
Run run run
How exactly did the helicopters lose them
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BYE
What kind of dramatic ass shot...that’s the worse thing I’ve ever seen
Hold on...I’m shifting into tenderness mode
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The parallel with the pilot...please excuse me while I shed some tears
I have zero fucking clue what they’re talking about though
“Chasing after monsters with a butterfly net”...I have to cry
Okay but what the hell was Mulder gonna do?? Not tell her that aliens are invading for the next decade??
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This shit’s kinda breathtaking though
Truly unfortunate that she would do it all over again though...I wouldn't
“Then we believe the same thing” WE WON LADIES
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You really had to just grab onto that fucking cross huh...okay
Oh yeah????
Alright I can die now
Jk there’s still another movie and 16 more episodes
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Consensus: Kinda a hot mess. Definitely didn’t need to be as long as it was. Had some interesting parts and some extremely laughable parts. I’m glad there’s more now.
3.5 out of 5 stars
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gingerstorm101 · 6 years ago
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A Picture of You
The beeping the of the machine was enough to drive him insane. He only wishes he can turn it off, but his partner has slapped his hand far too many times over the years. So for the first since he joined the FBI, he keeps the tubs and wires in without a fuss. Cancer. He has cancer. He couldn’t believe it, he thought he was done with that mass in his brain. But this time, it wasn’t there. He is sick of cancer, it’s plagued him far too long.
Now at age 64, almost ready to retire from his job as an active agent, he’s pressured into leaving the FBI for good. His health was too risky for them, they won’t take him anymore. Kersh, who has started to warm up to him as he started to slow down, has already called home to explain what was going on, and he was thankful for that. It aches him to have to tell his family that he was dying.
“And how are you doing, Mr. Mulder?” A perky middle aged nurse asks him, coming to check his vitals.
He doesn’t give her a smile, maybe a lift of his lip, but not a smile. “Good, I guess. Just wish my wife was here to help me get through it.” He pauses, playing with his hands. “She was always the strong one between the two of us. Fought cancer herself, beat it right into remission too.” He smiles for real this time.
The nurse smiles fondly back at him. “She did? How long ago was that?” She asks, making sure to check the bag of fluids.
“27 years ago.” He looks up to her. “She was so brave back then, I wish I had her bravery now.” He pauses again, careful of the needles and wires as he shifts in his bed. “I’m scared shitless. I have a 7 year old waiting for me to come home, and a 24 year old who doesn’t know how to raise a little kid.” He lifts his hand to run his fingers through his hair, wincing as the needle in his hand pinches him.
The woman beside him stands there in shock. “And your wife?” She aks, almost scared to know the answer.
“Recurrence.” He says, his throat feeling like it’s closing as he speaks those words and he feels tears swelling up in his eyes. “Two years ago, right here in this hospital.”
The room goes quiet for a long time, he figures the nurse doesn’t know what to say to him. He can’t believe he’s even telling the nurse this, but someone has to listen to him. He can’t tell his kids that he’s had this on his mind, he doesn’t want to scare his little girl.
“Do yo-” He swallows hard. “Do you want to see her?” A tear rolling down his cheek.
The woman smiles kindly at him. “I’d love to.” He points to the bag he has sitting on the chair in the room a little ways off from his bed. She gets up and grabs the entire backpack, handing it to him. He takes a moment to dig through his bag before he pulls out his wallet, inside was his target.
A picture of her.
He runs a finger over the curve of her face before showing the middle aged woman his prize possession of his wife laughing along with him as he took a picture of her on the front porch of their house. “Time goes by so fast, it’s hard to believe that it’s been 19 years since I took that photo.”
“She’s beautiful.” The women comments, a smile in her gaze, looking down at the small picture. He digs into his bag again, quickly pulling out a large book; a photo album. “You’re not the first person I’ve met who brings albums with them.”
“The mem- the memories, of her, our family, are all in here. Anything we could get from working together in the 90s is in here, all the way up until the last time I got our photos printed a couple months ago. The moment I knew I had cancer, I had to go back to her, to Dana, and cherish the memories I had with her once again.” He is babbling, and he knows it, but he has to let it all out, or else he’ll be crying the moment he sees his kids, and he won’t do that to him. “It’s not fair, you know. That our little girl has to lose both her parents to the same thing in such little time.”
The nurse sits on the end of the bed, listening to him as he pours his heart out, watching as the tears pour down his face.
“I don’t want to do this to Sammie, but I can’t fight anymore.” His lip quivers. “I don’t want to leave my family, but I miss her everyday, I miss the times we had together.”
He feels the woman grab his hand, holding it in both of hers. “It’s ok dear, just let it all out. You’re okay here.” He holds the album to his chest, his tears soaking his neck. “You’re not alone.”
There is a knock on the door.
His head shoots up, eyes wide. “Just a minute!” The nurse calls to the people on the other side of the door. She hands him back the photo of his wife and he dries his eye quickly. She waits until he’s ready for company before she makes her way to the door and slowly opens it.
“Excuse me,” He hears a small familiar voice. “Is my Daddy here?” He wants to start crying again, ashamed at thinking of leaving the little girl behind.
“And who might your Daddy be, sweetheart? We have a lot of Daddy’s in the hospital today.”
“Mulder.” Says another familiar voice, deeper this time.
His kids.
“It’s alright, Danielle, you can let them in.” The woman steps to the side to let the two in, greeting him with the excited face of his baby girl, and the somber expression of his son. The nurse leaves the three of them alone. “Hey kiddo,” He smiles to his youngest, careful is helping her onto the bed. “How was school?”
The child goes into animated version of her day, he does his best to listen, but the pained look on his son’s face when he gives him a one-over in concerning.
“Daddy, are you dying?” He was quickly brought his attention back to his daughter at her choice of words.
Wha-what?”
“Daddy. Are. You. Dying?” She spells out for him.
He clears his throat. “What makes you say that, sweetheart?”
She gives him the look, the one his wife use to give him all the time when she had enough of his bullshit. “You have Mama’s photo album. She had it too right before she died.” Oh. He had nearly forgotten about that, the growing book that has years of photos in it was also her way of feeling connected to the children when his wife was dying too.
“Please don’t lie to us Mulder.” His son comments from the seat his bag was sitting earlier. “We can handle it.”
He looks between his two kids, still shocked at the age gap between the two. “Yes.” He whispers. “I am dying. I was diagnosed with cancer this morning.” He doesn’t meet the eyes of the two.
“Cancer?” The little girl whimpers. “Like Mama?” He nods weakly, wanting to forget the memories that came flooding back from that terrible day. “But who will take care of me?”
The younger man in the room switches his gaze from the oldest to the youngest. “I have it… that… Jackson will take care of you.” The little girl looks over to her brother, who nods. “I don’t know how long I’ll last, but I’ll try to be there the best I can.”
“Before you join Mama in heaven?”
His heart shatters. “Yeah, before I join her.” He feels his lip start to quiver and his throat tighten again.
“Hey Sammie, how about we go get you some dinner from the cafeteria before you wither away to nothing.” The young men says standing up from his seat.
The little girl frowns. “Okay.” She leans forward to pull her dad into hug. “I love you Daddy.”
“I love you too, Pumpkin.”
With the room now empty, he was free to look through the photo album. The few pictures they had of the just the two of them in the early days of the X-Files were few are far between, but even less of her smiling. Flipping through the book, he lands on a photo of the two of them together, dancing, her looking back at him from their days after she was in remission.
The time has gone by so fast, that when it’s gone it doesn’t come back. And he wishes he could bring back the early days, tell her that he loved her way back then. But if he could leave this world with just one memory, it’s be a picture of her looking back at him.
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Did you cry? I cried while writing this. It was suppose to be a happy fluffy fic, but somehow turned into this. I didn’t mean it, it just happened! A big thanks to @dana-katherine-sculder for attempting to edit it, but backed out when character death came up... Sorry hun! I promise a fluffy fic will be coming your way soon!
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templedragon · 5 years ago
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Yeah, I wondered why Lena wasn't hopping around after using her tactical heel. Then I figured she's a Goddess who just walks around on her tiptoes anyway, giving her stunning leg definition.
We have to bring over the SG element of everyone talking about everyone's real or imagined romantic life. We are super lesbian on this show (I'm AroAce, and I know SG is not the show for aromantic representation, but I'm here for SuperCorp endgame because of the chemistry) so Alex gets to have and keep a girlfriend, too! So, do we give her Maggie or Kelly? Do we swap out Lucy as Doggett for Maggie, because they both do cop work? (Currently loving the idea of Maggie rolling her eyes as Alex and Nia go and buy even more gemstones while she shoots targets at the range.) Kelly is relatively new to us, but XF did have counselling sessions so she can fill that role.
How about Col Hayley as AD Kersh? The person who's by the book, because she's had to go by the book to get to where she is, but does eventaully see government corruption.
As much as I'm cringing to type this, are we going to mention Diana Fowley? Because her function in XF was to make Mulder subdued into his pursuit of aliens by agreeing with him but not pushing him. While Scully gave him something to defy, which we know Lena responds to. But, Diana as an ex-lover made Scully question how much (and in what ways) she wanted Mulder, whereas Kara and Lena at this point will 1) both know Kara's an alien and living proof, and 2) be unofficially raising a kid together so are committed. So unless Diana/Jack Spheer comes much earlier in the timeline just to prove that Lena's moved on to better things, the character has no purpose as such.
I love your D&D tales! It's not D&D unless it's Spelling Bee ;) Please tell me your friend said, "I'm going to throw the book at you" at least once. I played a Cleric in my first campaign, which is a religious healing class. I've just become a Reiki Master/Teacher so I definitely played myself.
Mama Eliza and Mama Scully both have that soft, homely, I wish you were everyone's mom vibe. Totally accepting of whatever their kids so with their life, providing its not harming anyone or themselves. The Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners canon to both shows are going to be huge.
In terms of Kara telling Lena about herself, I think she'd try and do it in the first part of season two. Because Lena is pretty devestated by the basement being closed down, and Kara wants to tell her the truth as her friend so give her strength again (aahh, getting msr feels about the "you were my friend and you told me the truth). But, the Syndicate catch wind of this and abduct Kara before she gets a chance. But when she gets back, she tells Lena. Kara is also frightened about who in the government knows about her identity, why she was kidnapped, that it's possible for her to be overpowered and subdued for a prolonged period. Kara feels physically vulnerable for the first time in her life. I think Kara does need the abduction arc, as it makes the conspiracy personal to her the way it's personal to Lena. It gives us the kryptonite poisoning/cancer arc, and Ruby.
I love your idea of Kara studying medicine to understand humans. On a pragmatic level, she needs to know how to draw blood from Alex so she can fake annual medical check ups. Scully and Kara probably have the same drive to join the FBI/government - to help stop crime on the front line in a very personal way. For Lena, I think Mulder was given free rein of the FBI because of his genius intellect, which is how he discovered the basement and was allowed to indulge it with the free time he had. So we can still blend Lena the CEO of CatCo who can waft around getting to know everyone and solve problems like lightning because it's what she does, who then goes to L Corp/the basement to obsess over her projects.
How about the Syndicate being the Children of Liberty, and Ben Lockwood being CSM? Because both groups want to harness alien abilities for their own gain, while simultaneously denying the existence of aliens (either at all, or oppressing their rights respectively). Or should we have Non as CSM because he's older, meaning we could have Kal/Clark as Jeffery Spender to keep the family ties? This would keep the dynamic of Samantha/Jeffery and Lex/Clark knowing each other as kids. Maybe Astra can lead the resistance against colonisation on the Bounty Hunter front.
When are we going to set this? Because both shows ran/run in contemporary real time with added supernatural elements. I think it's better in the 1990s when the Internet wasn't widely available. Current technology like a smartphone with the Internet and video recording technology just means you can find or record the evidence of alien life instantly. You can even livestream stuff now, which doesn't suit the gradual lifting of the veil of global secrecy of the X-Files by drudging through paperwork locked away in mountain vaults.
After the identity reveal, I still expect Lena to tell Kara to fly up to photograph the spaceship, but Kara politely points out that no-one will believe it because they'll analyse the angle and realise it's not taken from the ground. And when Lena asks her to fly to Area 51 to photograph or just steal stuff, she's like nope, I don't have a death wish.
Wardrobe wise, Lena is totally buying Kara expensive trenchcoats and turtleneck sweaters (a Look that both Kara and Scully definitely pull off). Scully's wardrobe and hair evolution was extraordinary, and Lena's going to give Kara more expensive options both for her home and work aesthetic. Oh my goodness, if we do set it in the 1990s, we can legitimately have everyone in chequered shirts without it being lesbian coding. Everyone wore plaid shirts in the 1990s!
We can legitimately explain the darkness of the show by Kara's X-ray vision. She's like, of course I can see in the dark; I can see through walls! Lena is more concerned with the cleaning bill for her expensive attire in the delightful scenarios the truth leads her to, so her flashlight is slightly bigger. If a situation does require no light, Lena is happy to link arms with Kara to guide her safely through.
For Pusher, if it's post identity reveal, then we make it high stakes for the audience with kryptonite bullets as well as normal ones. Or we fret over Lena shooting herself but once that's over, the joke's on Modell. After the relief of Lena surviving her shot at herself, Kara twitches a smile. "No matter what," Kara begins, "we are always on the same side." Lena shoots, Kara catches the bullet because she can hear it click into place before it fires. Modell is stunned at what's happened so can't control Lena. Lena whips him with the gun repeatedly in the throat so he can never speak again.
supercorp x files au!!!
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