#how do i hint to people my n is agender

[superk1ss]

EPISODE 8 SPOILERS

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[nonbelievcr]

[ RORY CULKIN, AGENDER, THEY / HE  ] right, here are the files we have on THE CERBERUS  ——— FLETCHER, FRANCIS. 28 years old, CHOSEN MEMBER. current employment looks like a RECRUITER. current residence is a TRAILER in BELLA VISTA for the past 5 YEARS. current views have been noted as NUMBLY INDIFFERENT TOWARDS THE COTC. current risk level has been listed as MEDIUM. 

TW: INCARCERATION, DRUG USE, MENTAL ILLNESS

hi it’s cee again n this is my second goblin francis ! u may call them frankie unless they are in trouble in which case,, let it Rip. as per usual u can find all the necessary info below :-]

AESTHETICS

calloused hands, fingertips moving over a flame, cloying rotted autumn leaves, clothes worn to the point of becoming threadbare, hollow footsteps, purple beneath the eyes, crooked smiles, nineties pop punk roaring from a battered stereo, twice-used cigarettes.

BACKGROUND

a foster child hailing from Laramie with little expectations to rest on. raised on baptist values that never stuck, Francis knew by the time they graduated high school that their parents would never expect them to find success, no matter how much sickly sweet kindness was spoon fed.

academics were never Francis’ strong suit. it didn’t help that other classmates found them strange, withdrawn -  collateral for being the odd one out wherever they went. often preferring to work with their hands, they found solace working part-time at a local garage. never mind the smell of grease and the dark stains they’d come home with on a perfectly ironed school uniform, at least they were doing something.

Francis dropped out of high school in their junior year, spending some time at the garage and most of the time staring at their scuffed tennis shoes while sitting listless on the couch. twenty and eventually with a GED, they took up vocational training. anything to kill time, really.

after a six-month stint in prison for drug possession (a little weed they got careless about hiding), Francis was estranged from the family at twenty-three. it’s difficult to burn out the look of disappointment from their younger sister’s eyes when they stepped out the front door for good, paler and thinner than the family had last seen them. 

eden county’s nothing special, but at least it’s not laramie. Francis agreed to join the Chosen from an older Recruiter who promised a better life than the one they currently lived - bent over a glass of shitty whiskey at the bar of Exotic Jerry’s to the soundtrack of a gruff fight nearby.

the meadows sucked. they opted to become a Recruiter, if not to hold their stead in Bella Vista and to distance themselves from the weirdness of the truly devoted. it gave Francis a good excuse to continue to isolate themselves, just how they like it. 

they’re not sure about staying or defecting to the Resistance. it’s more about the perks that come with it (free food and a snazzy outfit) than their own livelihood.

PERSONALITY & QUIRKS

dumbass first, gremlin second, empty void in general

king of the bella vista trailer park. feels at home and a part of the community there but won’t admit it out loud

nonplussed when it comes to pronouns. francis has never been fully confident in sharing their identity with others, so if someone uses he it’s little more than a second-best option. if they’re feeling less generous, they’ll quickly drop a hint to use they / them

hardly bothers to take their prescribed prozac

proud of having a grand total of like three friends

will sit and watch bar fights at exotic jerry’s with the same emotional investment of going to a football game. usually makes bets on them too

thinks formal wear is a band tee that doesn’t have any holes in it

often calm and friendly. it’s worked out well for francis in trying to get people to join the Chosen, although they tend to keep the demeanour when bringing someone in by force

francis rarely used to fret over the morality of the Chosen, although it’s begun to take a hold on them more often in recent months

individually names the cockroaches that scuttle around their trailer

a generous person, although francis has little to give by way of money

WANTED CONNECTIONS

francis just needs decent friends. please

in more detail:

friends outside of the chosen: townies, resistance trying to work a little information from them

fellow gremlins: someone they’ve met at Exotic Jerry’s (and maybe bet on a bar fight with), people who’ll indulge them and smoke with

listen i love a cliche good influence

someone trying to get them to defect to the resistance

[teebster]

Terbish Uyagir/Moks

The Basics ––– –

Age: Seemingly anywhere between late twenties to mid thirties.

Race: Au Ra - Xaela

Gender: Agender - They/Them pronouns

Sexuality: Grey Asexual

Marital Status: Single but not looking to mingle

Server: Mateus - Crystal

Physical Appearance ––– –

Hair: While carefully cut short and kept even, there’s little care for fixing a slightly tousled look from any wind or sudden movements. No products, and possibly not even a comb to guide these bright white locks.

Eyes: Deep grey, with white rings

Height: as tall as the game would allow the fem au ra model...

Build: Slender, somewhat spindly, with the hint of muscle tone to suggest athletics

Distinguishing Marks: Scars. Terbish’s torso, front and back, in particular is the main focus of their scars, except they don’t seem to be from battle or anything of the sort. They weave, intertwine, form circles and runes. While the focus of these scars is their torso, they do extend just a touch on to their upper arms and legs, which with their tendency to leave their arms bare, could offer a peek. Their scales also seem to be a bit more intensely dark than the standard Xaela, getting closer to a void with an absence of any light than simply ‘black’.

Common Accessories: Often seen sporting some kind of mask, normally bone, but sometimes a simple blind fold or carved wood. Fingerless gloves or hand wraps of some sort with their fingers exposed.

Personal ––– –

Profession: Slight wanderer sometimes known to hunt voidsent with additional whispering of having an odd talent handling cursed or otherwise tainted objects. They tend to have a preference for deserts and going underground. Currently they are employed by the Siren’s Bounty, helping to handle regular bounties as well as anything their personal talents might be of use with.

Hobbies: Whittling/carving small pieces of wood and skeletal reconstruction of small dead birds and rodents, using wood to replace missing pieces and mend cracks and wire to string them up together. Also the general collection of bones. Late night walks. People watching. Eating things they shouldn’t. 

Residence: The Mist since being hired, but their room remains fairly bare

Birthplace: The Steppe

Religion: The philosophical and existential wondering of the meaning of it all

Patron Deity: Nope

Fears: Intimacy, love, genuine acceptance, settling, loss of control, group speaking, vulnerability, forgetting(or worse, remembering)... Mostly social and emotional issues in abundance.

Relationships ––– -

Spouse: Negative

Children: N/A

Parents: We all come from somewhere.

Siblings: No

Other Relatives: Nope

Pets: Unnamed Dodo

Traits ––– -

Extroverted / In Between / Introverted

Disorganized / In Between / Organized

Close Minded / In Between / Open Minded

Calm / In Between / Anxious (You may say pick one, but I assure it’s both)

Disagreeable / In Between / Agreeable

Cautious / In Between / Reckless

Patient / In Between / Impatient

Outspoken / In Between / Reserved

Leader / In Between / Follower

Empathetic / In Between / Apathetic

Optimistic / In Between / Pessimistic

Traditional / In Between / Modern

Hard-working / In Between / Lazy

Cultured / In Between / Uncultured

Loyal / In Between / Disloyal

Faithful / In Between / Unfaithful

Additional information ––– –

Themes and more: I try to be very forward and blatant about the fact that this character comes with body horror and isn’t very shy about anxiety and depression being key factors for them. I try not to go into big details however as I don’t want to cause strong discomfort for other players, but want enough information present for appropriate reactions from other characters. This ranges from opening their mouth all too big like a snake, to moving their limbs in unnatural ways. They also can deal with some other basic spooky shadow horror as well. Additionally, Terbish has some memory issues. This does not mean they will simply forget meeting people or anything current, their memory gaps are almost entirely from their time on the Steppe. It’s a large part of their relationships section being bare, and not having a set age listed above. They don’t remember.

What I’m Looking For: Friend shaped beings. People who are interested in building nonromantic relationships. Terbish isn’t a character that is going to vent their insecurities openly and can be a bit of a slow boil to figure out without some emotional leverage to give them reason to be more open. This isn’t to say I’m against romance or romantic tones, but if it happens it’ll happen naturally and with communication. I’m also not looking for pure angst and edge, while I can appreciate some emotional difficulties and darker tones, this character can often be more about working through them to try and remember what feeling normal is like, but that does still mean they have a solid place with this character. Go on adventures, build up friendships, have weird late night talks, be horrified and somewhat endeared by your local cryptid secretly having a heart and many complex emotions.

RP Hooks ––– –

Monster Hunter: Hunting some voidsent? Livestock mysteriously gone missing? Local cryptid spotted? Terbish just might be at the end of that particular search. Is it a complete misunderstanding, or are they genuinely the culprit? Only one way to find out. Alternatively, Terbish has a bit of a knack for finding voidsent themselves. Or maybe they find Terbish. Mysterious Death: Back before Terbish left the Steppe, they used to help map out the caves the Uyagir call home, but as a Moks had some other motives as well. However, their disappearance came with a sudden collapse of part of the tunnels and no one returning from it. As far as anyone from the Steppe that had contact with the Uyagir or Moks may be concerned, Terbish Uyagir/Moks is dead, so what’s up with this ghost walking around so far from home? Worse yet, while they might respond to the right name, recognition seems to be lost beyond that. Weird Aether, Odd Soul: To any perceptive to such things, there’s something decidedly off about Terbish’s essence. It’s not easy to place, but there’s definitely a bit of Void without the whole thing simply being corrupt. Perhaps it would be better to say that anyone looking beyond the flesh would find they seem marbled, like two different things mixed together without fully setting. Very similar to voidsent. Cursed Cuisine: Rumor has it there’s an odd person out there who eats crystals, materia, or even cursed artifacts. Perhaps it’s metaphorical, but either way, it would be a sight, a curiosity, or for some desperate about some form of curse, maybe an answer.

Contact Information/About the player ––– –

My name is Speedie. I can be contacted here on tumblr, as well as in game as Terbish Moks on mateus. I have discord, but I’d rather be asked directly for that information than post it straight to tumblr. I can keep odd hours sometimes, insomnia is a hell of a drug. But I also have my own anxieties, clear communication is really important to me, as much as I love some mystery in roleplay and having answers to figure out, I don’t want to not know how my rp partners are feeling about what is going on and so on. I can also be a bit of a recluse sometimes, but I promise that doesn’t mean I’m not around or interested, I’m just not always the best at reaching out because of it.

[bi-dazai]

Thread on Peter Coffin

So I talked about contrapoints/Natalie Wynn before and I briefly mentioned Peter coffin (who basically worships the ground Natalie walks on) said some wack shit. Peter Coffin has been known to say a lot of wack shit, but it's coming through even more to the point that I'm making this post to, in the words of Some More News, "cancel Peter coffin or don't whatever".

Before I start I'm going to clarify that Peter is agender themself and prefers he/they pronouns. However this just makes their bootlicking towards Natalie's nbphobic comments even worse because it's like....bootlickingx2.

Basically the thing Peter coffin said in defense of Natalie was this:

Peter has a habit of using big words and phrases that sound based in leftist theory and are partially but actually make no fucking sense and end up losing themselves when you attempt to explain whatever the hell Peter could possibly mean. This is why they tend not to explain themself and instead says "read [insert theorist here]". I could mention how many theorists wrote in academic style which is extremely hard for many people to understand, especially non-academically-inclined folks. This is an issue of classism and ignorance that both Peter and Natalie have and as an academic leftist from a lower class background it makes me absolutely furious. That's more of a leftist intra discourse though, and I won't touch more on it apart from the fact that Peter's "read book" is in extremely poor academic and leftist taste.

Peter also went on a slew of tweets in the last few days which are just...a mess. The most offensive and concerning one is this one:

I want to point out that it is very suspicious and not normal at all to be thinking about what to do in the case of being accused of sexual assault. Even if this is a case of an intrusive thought (I get really fucked up ones sometimes - it's a mental illness) it isn't normal to TWEET that shit out. Furthermore, the fact that it's heavily hinted that they DID sexually assault someone, which is terrifying, and that if that person were to come out about it that Peter "would not care". Their excuse is that they had "ignorant attitudes" towards women (I have some misogynist male friends but they know sexual assault is bad, so the bar is really that low and Peter is doing the limbo). Peter implies that ending up being trans totally explains possibly sexually assaulting women. It doesn't, and as a trans person myself and as someone who listens to a lot of amab trans issues (especially the predatory amab trans woman/femme nb stereotype) let me say that not only is this not an excuse at all, it's also Peter possibly using an extremely dangerous and transphobic stereotype not just to "explain" possible sexual assault but to excuse it as well. This entire tweet is fucked up beyond measure and it baffles me why anyone, especially any leftist and any trans person, would tweet this out. The implication that there is someone out there who was sexually assaulted by Peter and if they came forward that he wouldn't care and possibly wouldn't even apologise because he's a different person now and it doesn't count or whatever the fuck this tweet means....like this is grade a level red flag shit.

This is another big contender for "biggest Peter coffin red flag". This is on the same level as Natalie Wynn associating with buck angel. No, she hasn't changed her politics nor apologised for pretty much any of the various awful racist shit she's said and done. I don't know but even if she apologised to Peter personally it goes to show that Peter would prioritise "moving on" or whatever over standing in solidarity with black folks and, you know, NOT being friends with someone who called Leslie Jones an ape and hangs out with white nationalists.

Personal friendships with persons who aren't media personalities or celebrities etc, sure, you have a right to keep them private. But associating with someone who has made a career off being virulently and extremely racist on the internet when you yourself are an internet personality who has also made a career out of politics...well, actually, Peter, that's when it DOES become our business. It's called professionalism and accountability. And it's also a red flag.

This is a more recent tweet from Peter. This is basically him making fun of the "white genocide" white nationalist myth. Firstly, Peter is white and has no right to say this. Secondly, this joke is awful and tasteless from absolutely any perspective. Thirdly, considering his shoeonhead tweet, he has even less right to make fun of this because he's associated with someone who hangs out with actual n@zis who have parroted the myth.

This is the last one I have. Basically it comes off kinda like a trans thing but the truth is that feminism is extremely diverse (as diverse as leftism!) and many feminists today are intersectional and decry the transphobia of the movement in the past. Furthermore due to the diversity of feminism there are so many different types of feminism to align with and base your perspective and analysis on that saying you "aren't a feminist" because some of the (white) founders of the movement (in the west) were transphobic is so stupid I actually want to bang my head against a wall.

Put it this way - imagine if because tankies are shitty (they are) I just up and said "I'm not a leftist because tankies exist". It's ignorant and stupid and dumb, and clearly shows I have no clue what I'm talking about. That's this tweet.

Anyway that's all I have for now, but yeah, Peter coffin is a goddamn idiot and also a letdown to the entire nb community

[ambersky-ocs]

I really don't wanna draw some more but my kids are on my mind so OC Rambles

Also since whenever I mention I wanna ramble about Cinomed Chronicles y'all usually say/have said in the past you'd be glad to listen I hope you don't mind me tagging you in this: @surohsopsisofclouds @a-soul-among-the-stars

I mentioned recently Dani doesn't like mouth on mouth kisses

Taylor and Jeremiah take advantage of this and kiss him everywhere else and see which spots make him blush more

So far it's been his nose, his knuckles/palm, and the space between his wings

Dani is actually so much lighter than Jeremiah even though Jeremiah is t i n y

Most Dali are actually really lighter than Jeremiah, weighing between 60-80lbs

Also whenever I talk about my OCs as groups they go by these names usually : Angelic Trio = Taylor, Dani, Jeremiah ; OG Trio = Evanna, Marie, Leona

Taylor and Dani are around equal height but Taylor's much stronger than him

Taylor and Jeremiah do have powers but they need these special bracelets Jeremiah helps make that's infused with some magic from some Dali in order to actually use it

Their powers also all correlate with all of Angel's abilities. Angel's abilities encompass the most common abilities that Dali have(Weapon summoning, Barrier, and Healing)

Taylor = Barrier ; Jeremiah = Healing ; Dani = Weapon summoning

When the Angelic Trio met, Taylor and Jeremiah got along fine. But they really didn't like Dani and Dani really didn't like them

Dali don't trust humans all that much. Humans in this story are really fucking annoying sometimes

Taylor loves history, especially the history of Fahndali it's just,,,, retaining that info is what she really doesn't like doing cause it just won't stay in her head

So she has many notebooks stuffed under her bed in Tongyi that are crammed with as much info as she feels is necessary

Jeremiah loves the ocean and it's the only geographic thing he'll learn about

Dani is a huge nerd when it comes to mythology/folklore and loves how some/most stories incorporate history

He's very happy when Taylor and Jeremiah give him Greek, Norse, and Irish mythology books for his birthday one year and he talked about all he read to anyone who would listen

Everyone in the Angelic Trio loves cuddling but sometimes being around each other is too much, so they all have separate rooms in the castle

The first time Dani visits Earth, it's mid-winter in Arizona and he learns that he despises the cold

Taylor teases him for weeks after he was still complaining with a bunch of layers on

Leona is very small. She's probably a few inches taller than Jeremiah

She is also very very strong.

Leona and Taylor both really don't like wearing dresses

Dani honestly doesn't mind wearing dresses, he finds them really pretty and the looks on Taylor and Jeremiah's faces are amazing whenever he chooses to wear one

They need a moment to let their minds start working again

Jeremiah has nicknames for them b o t h and it makes Taylor and Dani, who are both terrible at romance, just melt

Taylor once dated a cannibal; the rest of the Sydney family still teases her all the time about it

His name was Vic and in all honesty he wasn't the worst guy Taylor's gone out with

He's actually useful to the plot later in the story too, and has a girlfriend and kid. Taylor and Vic act like they usually did when they meet for the first time in y e a r s

Evanna has been proposed to by 11 different people throughout her life and rejected them all cause no one could get it into their heads that she wasn't interested in getting hitched to anyone

Before Erin got married, everyone in Tongyi honestly thought that he and Evanna would get together. Or that he'd at least be her consort so she'd have an heir

So much shock when that didn't happen

I really love Erin and Evanna's friendship, they can act like an old married couple or like newly weds when it comes to their banter and affection but they both know the other will never feel romantic feelings with the other

Also Erin's wife finds it really cute whenever she sees Erin kiss Evanna's forehead or cheek cause that's just What He Does

Kord, Marie's older brother, was a homophobic ass for awhile

But then he found out his wife was Pan and started to actually get educated on LGBTQ+ stuff and then apologized profusely to his sister for almost a year bc of how he acted

Also he was ready to kill a bitch once he found out Leona tried to kill Marie on multiple occasions

Leona does protect his daughter in the end tho so he reconsiders his opinion on Leona

Kord might be one of the only straight OCs I have

Vic considers himself Queer, Erin is Pan, Aki is Aro/Ace, Angel is Agender and Bi, Evanna is Aro/Ace, Serranidae is Lesbian, Leona's Lesbian, Marie is Bi, etc.

There might be one other straight girl(I don't have a name for her though) but she also might not be straight, still deciding

Oh, the elderly ladies of the Sydney family approve greatly of Dani and Jeremiah when they meet them. They keep hinting that they should all tie the knot

It also might be because if Taylor married Dani then it means she becomes part of the royal family but they don't actually say that

Aki is the only Cinomed that's gonna receive a redemption arc. He's gonna be the only one that lives

Really the only thing that changes about him is he stops performing experiments on humans, Dali, Werewolves, and dragons

I have only one OC whom I truly despise, and his name is Gideon Hayes and he's the exact type of human being that I would gladly punch and watch die a slow painful death

Actually wait there's two- Keegan Francis is the other for very similar but also very different reasons

Evanna and Leona both have very similar secrets- Leona's is a lot more dark and Evanna's is really really important towards the end of Cinomed Chronicles

I used to really hate Deathstriker, but looking at most of my antagonists she's really not the worst one

Don't get me wrong, she's still a shitty shitty human but Rikki, Gideon, Keegan, and Serranidae are all far worse. She's just a bit higher than Aki level of awful

I think I've mentioned this before but I don't remember- the Mays royal family(Evanna's family) is the only family of Dali to have red hair, so when Dani comes to rule Tongyi it's weird for everyone to see a member of the Mays family have brown hair

(Members not related by blood don't usually end up ruling unless they're the only family member left, however that means that their child has died and so has never really happened in the past)

Everyone just kinda accepts that Evanna adopted instead of having a blood heir, and they just have to accept that the Mays bloodline is coming to an end(or so they think) even though the family name will still remain in the family

Neva Sydney is actually part Dali, but no one is sure to what extent. Her soul-seeing ability seems to stem from that heritage

Human/Dali hybrids are crazy powerful and no one knows why, not even Aki when he tests on Neva(with permission)

Neva has a QPR with Nezu and a boy named Tyler when they're older

Taylor at one point in the story has 2 and 1/3 souls in her body, and it's bloody torture and she punches Aki when it's all over

Despite Aki being the main source of a lot of Taylor's problems she's the first to trust him and forgive him

Cinomeds are usually much taller than the average Dali(Dali are usually around 6.5 feet, Cinomeds being 7.5-9 feet) but Aki is actually pretty short, standing around 6 feet

[kangaroo-r00]

IMPORTANT

Haha, yes, I just came out in letter form to my followers over on Quotev/Ao3/family. Who knows when mom will see this mess, so I’ll subtly hint at checking my profile to her until then.

To whom it may concern,

This mainly goes out to family and friends, but if you're a follower of mine (or even someone who enjoys the content I create) then this concerns you as well. I have something I need to get off my chest that I've only explicitly told a few people and I don't really know how to bring it up IRL, so here's this in letter form.

My name's not Margaret. I'm Roux and I'm not a girl.

Betcha you weren't expecting that. Or maybe you were. (Ha ha Tumblr folks already know this shit.) Yeah, that's right, I'm coming out in a letter via writing websites and social media. But here's the part that may confuse some of my family, friends, and followers.

I'm enby. Don't know what that means? That's fine. I'll explain. Enby is nonbinary. That means I don't identify as a girl or a boy. I use they/them pronouns. But not everyone is comfortable with being referred to as "enby," so you should ask before calling them that, but I digress.

How, you may ask, are you not a girl or a boy? Simple.

It feels wrong. You can't call a bird a cat. You can't call a bird a dog either. You can't call me a girl or a boy because it's not true. I'm not either. Let me explain in further detail.

A couple of months ago I started questioning whether I really was a girl or not. Somewhere in summer break. Just passing thoughts.

"Oh, my name sounds too feminine."

"I don't like having big breasts."

"Calling myself a girl feels weird."

"Why was I happy being called a boy?"

"I never want to give birth/I want to get my tubes tied."

"Maybe if I started binding then people wouldn't know I was a girl?"

"Why do I get uncomfortable when people call me feminine nicknames/titles?"

"They could tell I was a girl right off the bat? Do I really look that feminine?"

Mainly these questions would crop up when I was on walks, changing, in front of mirrors, talking to people, or writing. Then small things started happening.

1. I grew to despise my name even more. 

2. I've grown so uncomfortable being referred to as a girl that it dampens my mood for a long time. Possibly the rest of my day and the feeling lingers. I'm still thinking about that time on Halloween where a woman knew right off the bat I was a girl with my short hair slicked back and a mask on. Or the times where the teachers at school say "ladies" or "girls" or "young women."

3. I started referring to myself as they/them in my writing. She/her didn't feel right to me and they/them did. 

4. I didn't refer to myself as Margaret. I was always choosing new nicknames and monikers for myself.

5. I daydreamed about choosing new names or appearing completely gender neutral and binding my chest.

I was wondering if I was agender or nonbinary but I shoved those thoughts back. Thought I should find out more before labeling myself. Recently I finally came to the conclusion I'm nonbinary. I came out to my oldest sister (who said she and my other older sister had been suspecting this), my three best friends, and my followers on Tumblr. Nobody else. (Well, and my therapist. She and I talked about some stuff Tuesday.) And since I know my mom knows and checks my Quotev profile, I'm posting this. I'm thinking about printing this letter out and sending it to the rest of my family as well.

What can you all do?

Use my correct pronouns please. And call me Star or Roux or whatever. Not Margaret. Don't ever call me that.

For my family who probably won't understand this: ask me about it. I'm still confused right now but I probably know more about it than you do. If you don't respect me and my identity then we're gonna have some problems. Like "I won't trust you ever, you make me very uncomfortable, and I won't want and won't try to visit you" problems. But this is mainly directed towards my family on my dad's side and my grandparents on mom's side. And dad (if he ever visits and finds out lmao but I'd rather him never know because he doesn't seem tolerant of that).

We cool? We good? Great. Happy Thanksgiving y'all.

(Mom when you see this, talk to me about it. Don't fucking out me to your parents when I'm not ready. I know you tell them everything. D o n ' t .)

TLDR: Not a girl, not a boy. I'm enby and my name is Roux. If you don't respect me and my identity, block me/don't talk to me/disown me. :)

[that-one-viet-writer]

They were different (F)

Genere: Fluff

WC: 2334

Muse: Chunji of Teen Top

TW: Agender-phobia

A/N: Bold is English and not bold is Korean (?) Thanks, guys!!

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They were different

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My heart raced. I was going to finally meet my idols. As I drew closer, the more my heart pounded in my chest, and the more my nerves grew,

‘What if they don’t like me?’ I thought to myself. ‘What if they think I’m weird or they won’t accept me for who I am?’

“Next!” I heard one of the workers shout. I kneeled down and came face to face with CAP, the leader.

“Hi! I’m CAP, nice to meet you. Please support Teen Top and treat us well.” He kindly smiles. The translator behind him repeating after him in my language.

“Hi! Please accept this gift, and I hope you and the members keep on being happy and healthy! Please continue to lead Teen Top as you normally would.” CAP smiled at what the translator was telling him.

“Who do you like the most of all of us?” He asked. I scratched the back of my head.

“What a weird question.” I saw him laugh.

“I’m just curious on which one of us is lucky enough to be loved by such a beautiful girl.” I blushed at the words.

“A-actually I’m not a girl, nor a boy.”

“Are you agender? Sorry, I’m talking out of order, but I explain to him so that he understands.” The translator asked me. I nodded my head. She explained my situation to him.

“Ah, I’m so sorry. It’s my mistake. What member is lucky enough to have a beautiful and kind person stan them?”

“If I tell you, you will be sad.”

“I promise that I won’t be sad since I know your love will be in good hands, some more than others.” He joked.

“Then, it’s Chunji.” He looked down to the end of the line of his members, to only glance at the man at the very end laughing with a fan.

“Ah, of course. No one can resist his charms. HE is a very good person to entrust your heart with.”

“Thank you, CAP.” He nodded and I moved onto the next person. “Hi, Niel!”

“Hello!” He gave me the biggest and kindest greeting.

“Ah~, how are you so cute and manly at the same time?” He blushed when his translator finished.

“I’m not cute. I’m manly, and will protect the heart I stole from you!” He winked. I laughed.

“Anyways, please accept this gift!” I handed him the stuff that I had brought for him.

“Ah~ this is so cute and thoughtful! Thank you!” He smiled. “I must be your favorite, huh?” He teased. I looked at the translator. Even she felt embarrassed.

“Actually, no, you’re not my favorite member. I’m sorry Niel.”

“What? How?”

“My heart lies with another member.”

“May I ask who?”

“Chunji.”

“Ah, yes. He is quite the charmer, I’m jealous. So what’s your name? I heard from earlier that you’re not a boy or a girl.”

“Ah, my name is Jae.”

“I think that fits you quite well. Did you choose it?” I nodded. “You did a very good job on choosing your name.”

“Thank you.”

“Unfortunately, our time has been cut short, but let me write you this.” He took out a sticky note, and wrote something, with the help of the translator He gave the note to me and said goodbye. I looked at the note he gave me whilst waiting for Changjo to finish up.

‘Don’t ever worry. Also, I came up with a shape name for you and Chunji, Chae.I hope you like it! Chae fighting!

-Niel’

I internally died at it. Niel was so sweet that I might actually get a sugar high. Changjo then motioned for me to come over to him.

“Hello!” He smiled.

“Hi, Changjo!”

“How are you? Did you have to wait long?”

“No, I’m fine. That wasn’t the longest I’ve ever waited.”

“Really? I guess that’s okay, but I hope you are well.”

“I am, I promise Please accept this gift. I worked really hard to make it.” I handed him the CD. It was a compilation of all of his favorite songs, and some that he’d enjoy.

“Whoah, this is so cool! I must be your favorite for you to put this much time and effort into a gift!”

“You’re not my favorite member, but you are my favorite son.”

“If I’m you’re favorite son, then who’s the father?”

“Mmm, I’ll give you a hint. He’s in this group, he’s my ultimate bias, and arguably had it the worst in ‘Supa Luv’.”

“Chunji?” I nodded. “Wow, I’m really good. Is there anyone else who’s your son in this band?”

“Ricky.”

“Ah, of course, the fake maknae. But why did Chanhee have to be our dad?” I shrugged. “Well, our time has ended. I’ll listen to this well.” He lightly shook the disk in his hand. “Thank you for the disk, and take care, Mom.” I blushed and hid my face in my hands. I heard him laugh, as someone softly touched my hands, slowly opening them.

“Don’t be shy, it’s just me.” Ricky smiled.

“Yo, fake maknae, stop flirting with our mom!” Changjo butted in.

“Mom?” Changjo explained the whole thing to him. “Ah, so Chunji is our dad!”

“What?” Chunji looked over at us. I immediately turned red and hid my face in my hands.

“Nothing.” He smiled. Chunji turned away. “Wow, Mom, you get really flustered easily. Like, every time I turn to see you, you’re hiding in your hands! You’re really red this time! Is it because of Chunji? Wow, you must really like him! I hope I’ll get a girlfriend who likes me as much as you like Chunji, or who’s as cute as you. I have a really cute mom!”

“S-stop, I-I’m not cute.”

“Mom, you’re totally cute!”

“N-no, anyway, I brought you something. Please accept it and use it well.” I have him a stuffed boo dog and a bunch of face masks.

“Wow~! Thank you, mom! How did you know that I needed face masks?”

“In your live stream a few days ago you said that you would get some soon, but I hope these will do.”

“No, these are perfect. Thanks! These will last me a long time! Thank you, I will use them well!”

“I hope you like them.”

“I love them!” Ricky exclaimed. I smiled. Ricky saw Chunji wave goodbye to a fan and looked at the crowd. “Go to him, Mom.”

“Goodbye, my son.”

“Bye Mom.” We laughed as I tried to scoot over to face the man that has been encouraging me to keep going for who knows how long.

“Hi!” He greeted me.

“H-hello.” I shyly say. My whole face was going red.

“No need to be shy!” He laughed. I smiled not making eye contact. He took both of my hands into his I actually thought that I was about to pass out. Until the translator cleared her throat. I quickly retracted my hands.

“Uh, p-please accept this gift.” I stuttered.

“Wow~! Thank you so much! Why is it heavy though?” He asked, and opened the bag I gave him. His eyes widen at all the stuff inside. “Snacks?  Facemask? Everything I need in one bag!”

“Chunji, with that many face masks, you won’t need to buy any for a whole year or so!” Ricky commented. “You must be really lucky to have them as a fan.”

“I am, this is way too much, I can’t take all of this.”

“No, take it. My family is in the beauty business so I can get a lot of this for the manufactured price.” I reassured him. He looked at me.

“What can I do to repay you?”

“Well, can you possibly write something encouraging? I’ve been going through a rough time lately.”

“Of course! What’s your name?”

“Jae.”

“Ah, that’s a nice name, did your parents pick it out?”

“No, I did.”

“Wow, that’s cool. Why did you change your name, if you don’t mind me asking.”

“Not at all,” I took a deep breath. “I’m agender, meaning that I don’t identify as a girl or a boy. I changed my name because I wasn’t comfortable with my old name. I named myself after Jae from Day6 because I Iook up to him a lot as a musician.” The translator looked at me with a horrified expression on her face.

“Your kind isn’t welcomed here you freak. Get out.” The translator said with so much venom dripping from each letter, that a snake would be jealous.

Though, it was enough to put me in tears as I got up and ran out of the building. On my way out, I heard chairs scraping, yelling, and harsh footsteps. I didn’t care though. My only thought was to get as far as my lungs and legs would allow; which wasn’t far. I collapsed on the grass of a park, gasping for air, convenient, huh?

The park was only about a mile from the convention center. I crawled and propped myself against a tree. I was trying to calm myself from a probable asthma attack. I saw a group of people approach me. I thought they were going to pass me, but they stood there, until one of them crouched down next to me, consoling me.

“It’s okay, your fellow angels are here for you.” One of them said. I looked up. Three other angels were there, not including the one next to me. They all smiled at me.

“We wanted to make sure you were okay, so we followed you out.”

“T-thanks guys. It probably looked weird when I ran out all of a sudden.” I sniffled but tried to lighten the mood.

“No, it’s fine. You’re a pretty good at run though, do you track or something?” One of the other girls asked.

“No, I actually have asthma.” I shook my head. They all looked at me.

“You then, have a talent.” I smiled. I was glad to have such a great fanbase to be a part of.

“So what happened?” I explained what happened. They all looked at me.

“Dude! That was totally rude and uncalled for!” The smallest one spoke up. I laughed.

“Yeah, but what can you do?” It’s not my fault people are like that.”

“Don’t worry though! Us angels are here for you!” They all exclaimed. I laughed.

“Thanks, guys.”

“Uhm, excuse me. I-is Jae here?” We all turned to see no other than Teen Top’s shining visual, and powerhouse vocal, followed by the rest of his members. The girls parted the way, and there he was with nothing but the concern in his eyes. “Uh, y-you ok-okay?” He asked. I nodded.

“I’m fine, just didn’t need those bad vibes,” I say. Chunji looked and muttered to his members. I couldn’t understand them. I looked over at the other angles. They had no clue on what they were talking about either. All I could pick up was ‘call’ and ‘Byunghyun’. Chunji then fished out his phone. His eyes darted around before pressing his cell to his ear. Again, I couldn’t exactly pick up anything since we were hearing one side of a conversation that was more likely than not, entirely in Korean. However, judging by the look on their faces, it seems that things were going well. Then, he took the phone away from his ear and hit the speaker button. He said something, then an all too familiar voice came up.

“Hello?” I heard the voice come up. Chunji crouched down, held the phone close to me and motioned for me to talk. “Uhm, hi. It’s me, Byunghyun. I’m sure you remember me?”

“Y-Yes, of course. You were the only one who could even make me reconsider changing biases.”

“Ah, really? Well, I guess that won’t be happening anymore.” He nervously laughed. “Well, I’m going to be a substitute translator, so I’m sorry in advance if my English isn’t that great.”

“No, you’re doing great.” He said something in Korean to Chunji before he replied and I was back with him.

“Chunji says he’s really sorry for what happened earlier. They took care of the girl and are thinking of what to do with her.”

“It’s fine, I did what I needed to do and I got a good, well, almost good, reaction.” Chunji leaned into the phone, and soon it was my turn again.

“He asked if there’s anything you need or if you want to press charges.”

“Nope, I’m completely fine.”

“Well, in that case, I’ll take my leave. Bye!”  But before he could leave, Chunji kept him on the line a little longer. Then he returned later, and he handed me a note, along with his Instagram search open. I read the note:

‘Don’t worry Jae,

it’s going to be okae ^u^

-Chunji’

I smiled and looked up at him.

“C-could you,” he pointed at me, “type your name?” He pointed to his phone. I nodded and smiled before typing it in. I handed his phone back to him before he gestured all of the other angels to type it in. Soon, all current and ex-members of Teen Top followed me. I accepted their requests and smiled. “We go now. M-manager, looking for us.” I smiled and gestured for them to go.

“By the way, I speak Japanese too,” I said before going back to the group of girls to get their contacts.

And that’s how this crazy story started.

[whatwouldfrogsdo]

would you be able to tell us what your headcanons are for each character? (from the pride icons) i don't know all the flags off the top of my head! thanks :)

anonymous said:

what are the flags behind nursey in your pride icon?

anonymous said:

What are the flags you used for nursey and ransom in your pride icons?

Pride flags used:

Rainbow Flag (Bitty, Dex, George, Kent)

Bi (Holster, Ransom, Whiskey, Tango, Ford, Tater)

Pan (Jack, Lardo, Nursey)

Ace (Shitty)

Trans (Chowder, Whiskey)

Genderqueer (Tango)

Grey-A (Nursey)

Polyamory (Ransom)

From this post and this one. I’ll put my headcanons and a bit of chatter about them under a read more because it got pretty long.

Nursey: Panromantic (Pan flag in the heart) + Grey-Ace

(it was a while ago that I did his icon and only after I posted it and someone else asked what it was that I realized that this actually isn’t a universal flag, it was one someone made up a couple of years ago and hasn’t been normalized in the community, but it seems like the only one that has been is the Asexual one and honestly I think Nursey would love to have one that wasn’t the mainstream one and was a bit more specific to him. I do actually also headcanon Nursey as not really knowing where he stands on his own gender and thinking gender labels and the binary are complete bullshit but eventually just telling himself to chill over it constantly and not quite getting around to questioning if he is genderqueer/agender/what exactly. And because I had already started on the icons and would have to make their faces a lot smaller to be able to fit a third layer of flags on, I didn’t try, I simply went for 2)

Ransom: Bi + Polyamorous (Blue, Red and Black stripes with the pi sign)

I will go down with Poly!Ransom honestly. I know I’ve hinted at this in fics before, about him, March and April being together all three of them (somehow Bitty got the wrong end of the stick because March is more open about PDA and more likely to be at Samwell on weekends after volleyball season’s ended because she’s from CA and April is from MA and you never assume your bro is dating two girls at once). At that point (at Samwell) his relationship with Holster was bordering on queerplatonic, not that they labelled it as such, but then he moves to Boston with Holster and they’re both busy and suddenly getting down to Samwell at a time when March and April are free becomes difficult and- well he talks about that a bit in this fic (though bear in mind it was written before N crushed our dreams of NHL!Holster). I’m still not sure how I headcanon his endgame with Holster being, but Ransom probably finds someone else as well.

Holster: Bi

For the record in my fic Fresh (more about that later) when he says that he knows of 4 members of the SMH who are LGBTQIA+ he is one of those 4, and so is Ransom. Bros don’t keep their sexuality from each other, bro (but also, like, no need to tell the rest of the team, bro. Love them and all, but they don’t need to know this right now). He takes a long time to train himself out of the sports culture mindset of always only ever attempting to wheel girls, even after accepting with himself that he is into guys as well.

Jack and Lardo: Pan

I don’t have much explanation for Jack except for how I read it from canon, particularly the time he was telling Bitty about his past experiences. Lardo, also, I don’t have much explanation for except that’s just how I see her.

Shitty: Ace

Again this is one I don’t have much explanation for? But I see it anyway. One time he and Lardo had sex because they’re such close bros that if Shitty’s gonna feel comfortable with that with anyone when his libido is pretty high it would be Lardo, but afterwards they agreed that was the weirdest thing they’d ever done and went back to being queerplatonic bros.

Chowder: Trans

For more on this headcanon go and read Fresh. It’s still a WIP but it’s a lot easier to direct you over here than write out the millions of headcanons I have about how Chowder is trans.

Bitty, Dex, George and Kent: Gay

Obviously Bitty’s sexuality is canon (shout out to the one person who tagged their reblog of my icons with how pleasantly surprised they were at his until they remembered it was canon), and the other three are prominent enough in fanon as being gay that I probably don’t have to give this much explanation. George as a lesbian means a lot to me because with the ratio male:female in omgcp it’s so easy to end up shipping the few girls with have with guys in the comic (I mean. I’ve done that with Ford. And I do love any and all people in the fandom creating content where she is a wlw and having relationships with women) and especially when you throw canon relationships into the mix it leaves very little scope for having a lesbian character but George is there and she obviously has a wife? Isn’t that canon now? (It’s probably just fanon but still)

Tater: Bi

Tater going to America because of homophobia in Russia, and then finding his sanctuary with the Falconers with their Lesbian Assistant GM and even though he’s still not going to be out in the NHL, he just feels a lot safer and happier in general, and he wants Jack to know that they’ll have his back. But he’s still going to say that he doesn’t have a girlfriend, rather than a partner (gender neutral) because he is bi, he would date women, and he doesn’t want the media getting suspicious.

The Taddies: All bi; trans!Whiskey, Genderqueer!Tango

If it weren’t for the gender headcanons and aforementioned struggle with getting three flags onto the icons I might have put the polyamory flag on these three too because PolyTaddies or whatever they’re called in fandom are my jam. Which is also why they’re all bi (and nobody gonna try and tell me my girl Ford isn’t sapphic even if she’s in a relationship with a trans man and an enby). Tango’s pronouns change a lot, and the whole thing is more confusing for him than for anyone else in all honesty. (W: just stick to things that you can remember to respond to. T: People can use nouns as pronouns??? English is so cool. F: English is your mother tongue. T: But not my grandmother tongue?? Is that Spanish or Tagalog? I have two grandmothers. W: *facepalms*)