#how did it take me so long to figure out I’m trans lmfao
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Things in my childhood that should’ve tipped me off that I was not actually a straight girl:
The fictional crushes…. Jesse and commander Saturn from Pokémon specifically there is no straight explanation for that
Reading an Charley Parkhurst and lowkey wanting to run away and live as a man too
Telling my mom AT CHURCH that I wished I was born a boy
Constantly feeling like I was really bad at being a girl
Convinced that in my previous life I was a gay surfer dude (I can still kinda see that being the reason why I’m terrified of the ocean, maybe that’s how I died 🤔)
Always picking the boy character in Pokémon (and other games too) bc I thought he “looked cooler”
Avid Chopin enjoyer when I played classical piano (still enjoy Chopin honestly and when I get back into piano I’m going ham)
#i’m sure there’s more#this is all I can think of rn#gay trans man#trans pride#trans man#lgbt+#childhood#I always been like this hehe#how did it take me so long to figure out I’m trans lmfao#my favorite artists and musicians in history typically were gay asf 🤭
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I’m nee in the fandom but I am absolutely living the idea of copia being trans. When did it all begin anyway?
OH MAN WASSUP AND WELCOME!! IT'S NICE TO HAVE YOU HERE!! I HOPE THE FANDOM'S BEEN GOOD TO YOU SO FAR
AND IT'S ..
IT'S A LONG STORY LMFAO
I'm by no means the origin of trans!Copia, but I definitely helped accidentally popularize it.
For me personally, it started bc a friend of mine made the off-handed joke that Copia was way too hot to be cis, so therefore he simply wasn't. It was 4 am, neither of us were sober, and in the sleep-deprived state I was, I told him that was possibly the truest thing I'd ever heard. I didn't think much about it after we hung up the call, but his comment had begun to nourish a seed of self discovery that was already growing in the back of my mind.
After eight-ish months of chewing on a lot of things, I realized that imagining Copia as a trans guy gave me the space I needed to explore my own gender identity, and I've continued to celebrate that by giving my headcanon as much content as I can. This entire experience also helped me figure out that I was nblm, but that's another story lmfao.
As cringy as all that is, I'm definitely not the only transmasc Ghost fan who's had that experience. Idk if it's the mustache or the horrible dad jokes, but something about Copia is resonating with a lot of us, and so this idea has continued to grow. And not for nothing, but it's pretty dang cash money that the record label also agrees.
Anyways, that's how it went for me! We've all got different twists and takes on this concept and there's always room for more!
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Yandere BNHA Boys pt 2
Okay, this is a continuation of the first yandere ones I did because I wrote that in basically a night and was too tired to do more, I'm probably gonna post some after for the pro heroes and villains if I have time, I might finish those on the weekend then post it.
This is just a bunch of headcanons I have about the boys in BNHA and what they’d be like as yanderes. Only the really fluffy or good things about them listed here. Neither of these works are a good depictions of a real yandere and make sure to be careful to identify yandere traits in real people around you. It’s a very dangerous world and stay safe!
sorry if you were waiting for me to come out with these and I literally took forever lol, link to the first one is here. It's basically just me comforting myself with the sweet things that I think they would do as yanderes.
Warnings: Brainwashing, blood, gore, death, trans headcanons, body dysmorphia, nonbinary they/he Sero, they/them pronouns + nonbinary headcanons for Tokoyami, he/they nonbinary headcanons with Shinsou, a little NSFW because if I don't specify then they are aged up (around 20-25 is where I imagine the timeline that they actually captured you and have a hero carrier going for them already), manipulation, regular yandere things, kinda just turns into dumbass horknee headcanons at some point after Shinsou (sorry lmfao), objectification
Sero Hanata
so basically the first time they saw you they immediately wanted to come up to you
they love to give you back hugs because once you stop trying to fight them he's gonna be so honored you finally trust him
Big time slut [non-derogetory] for you
Likes to have an apartment that's high up, probably a secured penthouse with lots of windows
If you're afraid of heights they will get a ground bed for you two, they would also vibe with a low hanging hammock if you allow it
they really really like just putting you on a custom made leash, not inherently in a sexual way just in general likes to have it look like that with their tape on you at all times
they really really like it when you come to them for hugs and comfort
If you're a trans reader, if you want a binder he will get you one as soon as you ask, cried when you told him about it.
they cried way more than you though...
Was very accepting as an nb person as well
they custom made you a tape binder of his
Kinda as a joke but high key felt like they were gonna combust at the thought of you wearing that for them
Takes you to pride but you cannot speak
only takes you to pride after they are 1000% sure that you're not gonna speak to anyone but them
Takes you to it as a part of their float because they'd been invited onto the Hero Float
You are in a costume that's exactly like his, helmet and everything, you aren't allowed to be looked at
After that though, it's gonna be your choice to go or not to go
they trust you a little more after you run away from some assholes though and after that sometimes lets you take your helmet off during pride, you have to give them a lot of kisses though
When/if you ever consider any type of surgery he is 110% on board
they demand that you have to have it performed by someone who has done this a million times before, trusts no one else
If there's a way for you to go through it without the surgery they're excited but he's more excited if there is surgery because they love the idea of you being so cuddly and clinging to them for their comfort
Tokoyami Fumikage
haha they're in love with you
like, intensely in love with you the moment they first meet you
Dark shadow thinks you're adorable but says nothing more about their obsession with you
when you met them before UA they absolutely cannot handle being around you in a 10-foot radius
Eventually, though they do try and become a friend of yours
After that, it's a hop on the manipulation train, my dude
they basically make you see them as your savior from a mean uncaring world
they love talking to you about things that make you happy and loving you in little ways
hugs, hand holding, a lot of time it's just a little peck (haha) on the cheek
they love living with you though, like really love it
they like baking and making dinner for you
but especially baking
like really, baking
the manipulation they use makes it seem like everything is okay when you only talk to them so that's what you do and to you, it seems so much better than anything you could do
they haven't come out to you by the time you come out to them so your trans journey really helps them figure things like that out as well
The first time you explain that gender is a made-up construct they're like "yeah......isn't that how everyone feels? Like, not a gender????" we love this for them
you both kind of heal each other through this process
they like seeing you when you're most comfortable so they get you as many binders as you need
also gets you a custom binder like Sero but with feather designs, not like stupid printable patterns but something that is soft and the softness isn't feathers it's regular fluffy cloth
idk I'm not a designer that's why I gave up and became a writer lmao
they also get you a compression corset because they're emo
if there is surgery it takes a lot of time to convince them
they don't ever want you to regret anything they helped you with so it takes a lot of long-winded conversations about it
there was a lot of nervousness on their part because (this is just my headcanon) they were almost convinced to get surgery to construct their face to look human-like
they had a lot of their family tell them that, because of the way they looked, they had less of a chance to become a hero, they were immensely traumatized by this and thus wants to make absolutely sure you were okay with this
but when they finally find themself comforted by you about it it happens quickly and in the safest way you could possibly imagine
Shinso Hitoshi
Shinsou didn't want to approach you at all, he was so scared you'd run away or tell him he's a villain
they always thought that they weren't good enough for you
he loved you but you needed to say hi first
and you did
so he whisked you away
they like to just brainwash you into tasting certain types of food when you're craving them instead of just getting you food
he likes to talk to you in a voice like he would talk to a kitten, not like husky or anything sexy, but something cute and adorable
especially when you're brainwashed and can't say anything to him
He likes to give you lots of soft stuff like I'm talking pillows upon pillows and squishmallows
once he gets his own house they get it in a place that's more comforting in the dark than in the light
they really like the dark and outdoorsy vibe anyway so if they choose a place somewhere in the forest to keep you what's the added bonus if no one can hear you scream?
a little bit of spice; he has this whole a/b/o fantasy (idk it's his vibes that he'd read that fanfic and stuff lmao) and kinda treats you like you were an omega
sometimes if you guys do have sex they'll brainwash you to act like an omega or once he's more experienced with bodily manipulation involving their quirk they'll make you do all of the......omega things
when you come out to them, if you're trans, they're definitely gonna not care
like if you need comfort and stuff about it they will not make a big deal about it
he legit is like "okay .....can I still fuck you or?????"
HE JUST GIVES OFF REALLY HORKNEE VIBES OKAY?????
definitely brainwashes you into not feeling dysphoric anymore though
like loves it when you come up all sad to him and uncomfy just to ask them to brainwash you
he melts over you cuddling them after those times though
if you want surgery they're gonna make sure that it's between him and the doctors that y'all are there
like no one knows you're there, completely off radius, in and out like nothing (he's basically a cryptid in the woods by the time you guys have the surgery, so they wanna make sure no one questions it)
Monoma Neito
bold of you to assume that man can express literally anything when he wants to just sit you on his lap and look at your pretty face
love at first sight taken literally but not in a shallow way
he loves just having you around him
kinda treats you as an accessory at times, talks like you're a purse or something and people don't really comment but it's really freaking them out sometimes when you don't speak up on it
likes to say he's the only one to understand you cause he's afraid you'd leave him
a hardcore fan of collars though
definitely has lots of jewelry that represents him even though you don't go out he still loves the idea of it
big time cook
loves providing for you, never lets you do a damn thing other than watching pre-approved cartoons and hobbies
absolute fucking disaster about hugging you
always has to be touching you
he thinks you're so fucking gorgeous and body worships you even out of the bedroom
if you're trans he will definitely be weird about it at first
he's just diet transphobic
he's not denying it but sometimes he's like "Are you sure???" and stuff
he clears this up with the help of you being pissed enough to not eat or talk to him until he apologizes
he then educates himself on it and comes to the conclusion that he was in fact being an asshole
talks to you about binders and stuff like that
doesn't really believe in surgery, he would never allow you to do that just because it would be too painful for him to see you go through
he instead literally searches the whole fucking globe for a person with a body-altering quirk to make sure you don't get hurt
he seeks out homophobes, transphobes, and other dumbasses on the regular just to kill them like literally it just started out for your approval but now it's just for fun
Anyway, the villain one (if I do it) will probably become just horknee brain rot cause I am a slut. Request some stuff and I'll try to put up some works if y'all want ig.
#yandere bnha#yandere#bnha#bnha fanfiction#BNha x gnreader#gn reader#nb tokoyami hc#nb sero hc#nb shinsou hc#sero hanata#hanata sero#Sero#tokoyami fumigake#fumikage tokoyami#tokoyami x reader#tokoyami#shinsou hitoshi#hitoshi shinsou#shinsou#shinsou x reader#sero x reader#monoma neito#neito monoma#monoma#monoma x reader#bnha trans reader#x trans reader
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can you do a oneshot with peip spy paul and secret ccrp boss melissa? (yeah this is cause of the stuff sent to hatchetfieldtheories so what lmfao)
Um hell yeah I will! I have read the original theory, but you're also going to get my take on it because I got ideas just by reading the prompt lol. Apparently @hatchetfieldtheories and I are now getting lumped together and I am perfectly okay with that.
Genre: Action/ Thriller kinda?
Words: 2727 (once again... perfect)
TL;DR: Paul's cover as a PEIP agent is blown, and he finally gets to meet exactly who he's fighting against.
TW: Swearing, Guns, Violence, Murder, Blood.
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Paul sighed, reading over his report before he sent it in. Was the report work related? No. Well... yes and no. Not for his job at CCRP technical. But as an agent of PEIP? It held information that could be absolutely crucial to the work they were doing. So it kind of had to be perfect. One mistype, a spelling mistake, could change the entire context of how it was read and how his superiors reacted. Perfection was key. Especially with what he had found. God, had he found out a lot.
Paul hadn't originally worked for PEIP. No. No, it was a bit of a long story. But... to sum it up, Paul had been caught dead in the centre of a world-ending event. An attack from what had looked like aliens at first but was actually an entity named Pokotho- or Pokey. Paul had very nearly died. He'd almost caused the end of the world. He had almost thrown a grenade dead into the centre of the meteor that was playing host to Pokey and his hivemind formula- which would have simply spread the spores. Luckily, one PEIP field agent- a Xander Lee- had managed to keep himself safe while his unit was infected, and he was able to stop Paul before he made a world-ending mistake.
Xander, through a lot of science Paul did *not* understand, was able to send Pokey back into his own dimension. The world was saved. It still kind of felt like a sci-fi fever dream. Most days, it still didn't feel real. The Hive had healed those it had destroyed, so... most people came back. Not Charlotte or Sam, because they weren't technically killed by the Hive. But Ted, Bill, Alice, Deb, Emma, and even Hidgens were back completely unscathed. Paul and Emma had actually gotten a chance to go to that movie. They were dating now. For three months, to the day. Paul had a bouquet of roses ready to surprise her with after work. He knew she wasn't usually big on the sappy romance stuff, but... he kinda was.
It was about a week after what was now widely known as the 'apotheosis' had passed when Paul got an email from Xander asking a favour. A very classified favour. Since Paul knew about PEIP and what it stood for. Apparently, they'd been picking up suspicious activity from CCRP for months, and they'd been trying to figure out which of their agents to send undercover. But every alias they'd made up had been rejected for an interview. So Xander got the idea that since Paul worked there, maybe he could keep an eye out for them. And as dangerous as it seemed... Paul said yes. The work PEIP did was too important to risk delaying. He was briefed through text, and he learned his job online in a matter of days. Ever since, he had been PEIP's agent in CCRP. And PEIP was more than right to be concerned.
Paul hummed, satisfied with his report. It was concise, precise, and detailed everything he'd seen. Which was a lot. This week... this week, he'd finally made his breakthrough. He was able to sneak to a higher level. Sylvia's level. She was talking on the phone about temporal breaches, trans-dimensional fluctuations, and lots of other jargon he didn't even come close to understanding. He'd bugged her office with a microphone PEIP had sent him so that they would understand more clearly. And when he'd snuck to the lower level, he was finally able to get past that second level of security. And what he'd found there was... eerie. He hadn't gone in. He just looked through the window. But it appeared there were hundreds, if not thousands, of... himself. Just standing there. He'd left a camera. Needless to say the report was more than full of information.
Paul heard the click of heels behind him and he quickly pressed send, closing the tab. He faked looking through his analytics before the clicking stopped. Paul could practically feel the presence looming behind him. At first, he just kept working as if he didn't notice. But... then it started to bug him. Because whoever the heeled coworker was who had stopped behind him was, they hadn't moved yet. He slowly turned, trying not to show any nerves. But he was a terrible liar, so he had a feeling that wasn't working. In front of him stood... oh good, Melissa. He sighed in relief.
"Hey Melissa. How's it going?" Paul asked.
"I need to see you for a moment... in Mr. Davidson's office." Melissa told him shyly.
"You need to see me?" Paul asked, still getting up nonetheless. This was Melissa. She was a sweetheart. She probably had a computer problem.
"Yeah... don't worry, it won't take of your much time." Melissa bit her lip, walking away. Paul followed.
"Did Davidson's computer crash because of that solitaire again?" Paul guessed.
"Um... no. No, this isn't about Mr. Davidson's computer." Melissa chuckled nervously.
"Uh oh... Paul's getting called to the principal's office!" Ted taunted teasingly.
"Shut up, Ted!" Bill groaned. "I'm trying to finish my report! Can I not have peace for five minutes?"
"You can... if you move to another department." Ted smirked. Paul only knew he was smirking because Ted had popped his head over the cubicle to watch him go by.
"I'm not in any trouble." Paul rolled his eyes. "Go back to what you were doing."
"Alright, alright!" Ted snickered, raising his hands defensively and lowering back into the cubicle.
"Sorry about him." Paul sighed, seeing the way Melissa blushed. "I swear he's not as much of an asshole as he seems most of the time."
"Oh, it's fine." Melissa shrugged. She walked into Davidson's office. Suddenly, her demeanor completely switched. "Ken, I'm going to need this office for a minute."
"What?" Paul blinked, his heart immediately sinking to his stomach. There was a pit in his stomach, and it was growing by the minute.
"Sure thing, Mel." Mr. Davidson nodded, getting up and walking out of the office.
"What's going on?" Paul asked, though there was no one specifically he was speaking to. He was just very confused.
"Why don't we sit?" Melissa offered, confidence oozing off of her as she took Davidson's seat behind the desk.
"Um... okay." Paul nodded warily, taking a seat. "Melissa..."
"Let me do the talking for now, Paul." Melissa sighed, leaning forward on the desk.
"Alright." Paul blushed, already intimidated. Yeah, he was totally agent material.
"You probably think you've been pretty slick, don't you?" Melissa chuckled lowly, looking at the cowering bundle of nerves before her. "Slipping bugs all over the facilities, sending your little reports while you're supposed to be writing reports for us... quite the secret agent, aren't you?"
"I... don't know what you're talking about." Paul lied.
"Paul, you're not that bright." Melissa scoffed. "In all your stealth and espionage, you seem to have forgotten that we have security cameras."
"On those floors?" Paul blinked. "I... didn't see any feed from them when I checked."
"Well we're not going to stream it to where anyone can see it!" Melissa rolled her eyes. "And you know exactly why."
"Yeah... yeah, I probably shouldn't have just assumed..." Paul sighed.
"So you admit it then? You're a spy?" Melissa checked.
"Well... yeah. Yeah I am." Paul sighed.
"For PEIP?" Melissa clarified.
"Who?" Paul tried to lie again.
"Paul, you used our network to send your files." Melissa rolled her eyes.
"Yeah, but I followed their..." Paul muttered.
"Which we're well aware of here, and well aware of how to overrule." Melissa sighed. "Really, Paul... you're sloppy."
"I'm not trained." Paul blushed.
"I figured as much." Melissa scoffed. "So they pulled you over to the dark side?"
"They saved my life during the apotheosis..." Paul shrugged. "When they told me something might be up here, I knew I had to help. And they were right, Melissa. Stuff is going on here."
"I know." Melissa smirked. "I oversee it all."
"You?" Paul raised his brows, a bit taken aback.
"Me." Melissa smirked. "You're probably thinking it's a bit weird... me, being in charge, choosing to take on the role of a secretary."
"I'm honestly just trying to wrap my head around you being in charge in general." Paul muttered.
"You want to know why?" Melissa asked. It was, of course, rhetorical. "It's actually pretty simple. The CCRP Technical department had some good cloning candidates. I wanted to be close to the action. Hand-pick who we used. And who would ever suspect anything of the shy, sweet secretary? You certainly didn't."
"So you hand-picked me?" Paul blinked in shock. He was doing a lot of that.
"You're a good size, amiable personality... smart enough, though evidently no genius." Melissa reasoned. "You, in mass, would make a great crew of workers for the Moon Project."
"Moon Project?" Paul asked.
"Oh, you've barely scratched the surface on what we're doing here, Paul." Melissa chuckled darkly. "But you won't be getting any further."
"What are you going to do to me?" Paul shrugged, a faux confidence in his tone. "There are people out there who know me. If I just go missing, they're going to get suspicious."
"Oh... Paul, you think I would tell you?" Melissa started to laugh. "You're so sweet! No. No, we won't be doing anything to you right now. But... let's just say PEIP won't be getting any reports from you in the near future."
"You brought me here just to tell me that?" Paul asked apprehensively. "To gloat?"
"Just to let you know that we knew, yes." Melissa sighed, she pulled out a cellphone, diverting most of her attention to it. "I like to deal with things myself. Handle things face-to-face."
"What are you doing?" Paul asked, a pit growing in his stomach as he watched the way she tapped at the screen.
"Wouldn't you like to know..." Melissa mumbled. "Go home, Paul. Take the rest of the night off. Go to your girlfriend's coffee shop. Bring her the flowers. Happy three months, by the way."
"I want to know what you're doing." Paul stated firmly. Melissa looked up at him before starting to laugh.
"Well isn't that just too fucking bad!" Melissa snickered. "Go. Before I call Ken back in and make you go."
"Okay..." Paul relented, getting up. He looked her dead in the eyes. "If PEIP is concerned about the work here, so am I. This isn't over."
"Yes it is, Paul." Melissa sighed. "Have a nice life."
"Life?" Paul blinked, freezing in the doorway.
"Sorry, did I say life?" Melissa chuckled. "I meant night."
"Right..." Paul bit his lip, admittedly uneasy. He tried to walk silently back to his cubicle... but with Ted Spankoffski around, there was no way he was getting out of this unscathed.
"So, did you get fired?" Ted popped up.
"Nope. Everything is fine. Davidson just needed a bit of help with his computer." Paul lied.
"Shit, he told me I'd be able to fix it next time!" Ted grumbled. "Is he giving you a bonus for it?"
"Nope. It was just a favour." Paul sighed.
"Damn... you fucking pushover." Ted snickered.
"Yeah, I get it, I let people walk all over me." Paul rolled his eyes. He picked up the bouquet of flowers from his cubicle, continuing to walk for the door.
"Hey, where are you going?" Ted furrowed his brows.
"As a thank you, he's letting me off early. So I can surprise Emma." Paul smirked. "We've been dating for three months to the day."
"Yeah you have... give her butt an extra squeeze for me, horndog." Ted teased. Paul blushed.
"Fuck you!" He called back, making his way out the door.
Paul felt something off the minute he stepped outside the CCRP building. Something deep in his bones. He physically shuddered under the weight of it, but... what could he do but keep walking. Yeah... yeah, it was probably just him feeling uneasy after the conversation he'd just had, right? Right... he was okay. Everything was okay. They were probably just gonna put a block on his communications with PEIP. No biggie. He'd survive it. He'd figure out another way to spy, and to get his findings to Xander. Everything was going to be just fine. He was going to be just fine.
He rounded a corner, walking across the street to Beanies. Just as he was about to reach for the door handle he felt a hand cover his mouth and another wrap around his waist, pulling him back. He tried shouting and screaming, but it was muffled. He resisted as much as he possibly could, but this person was stronger than him. Finally, they stopped in an alley, and the hand was removed from his mouth. Paul took a few deep breaths, setting the flowers down and raising his hands in surrender. At about the same time, he felt cool metal pressed to his temple. What a time to be mugged.
"I don't have anything on me to give to you. I used all my cash at lunch. All that's in my wallet is my driver's license." Paul stated levelly. "Believe me. You've got the wrong guy."
"No, Paul... I haven't." An almost identical voice sighed behind him. Paul blinked in confusion. He made a very, very stupid move and turned in the man's arms while his grip was a bit looser. He found himself staring dead in the eyes at... himself. His eyes widened. "You have everything I've ever wanted."
"You..." Paul breathed, before becoming suddenly very aware of the metal on his head. He took a sideways glance, seeing that it was a gun. He had thought it was, just... best to be sure. "Please. Please, you don't have to do this."
"Yes I do. It's either this or the moon, and... I don't want to go to the moon." The other Paul told him, voice shaky. He moved his finger to the trigger, hesitating. "Thank you. For the memories. For giving me the life I'm about to live."
Bang! There was smoke, and then a thud. Paul- the original one- fell to the ground, limp and lifeless. The death was almost instant, just as Paul 23 had predicted that it would be. He'd let go at the right time... and he hadn't gotten any blood on himself. It really had been his day! His cell malfunctioned and opened for him. Then he found the gun just... hanging there on the rack. He was free and armed, and ready to carry out everything he had fantasized about since he was made! It was like the stars had aligned for him! And as a cherry on top... Paul had even brought flowers. If the memories planted in his head were any indication, it was his and Emma's three-month-iversary. These would be absolutely perfect!
He stepped over his lifeless counterpart, rushing to get to the flowers before the puddle of blood forming by Paul's head got to them. he picked up the flowers tenderly, grinning. He took a look one final time at the original Paul, the the flowers. He set the flowers down, picking up Paul and propping him on a dumpster. He pulled out a small chip, slipping it in the appropriate place under his tongue. The finishing touch to his plan. Now... they would think this Paul was him. That he'd managed to erase his tattoo. He tossed the Paul in a CCRP marked dumpster, sighing.
He picked the flowers back up, walking out of the alley. God, this was great! He was about to finally step into the life that was rightly his. His brothers, the other clones, would kill to be him. But of course he wasn't actually going to let them kill him. No, unlike the real Paul, he knew to always be on the lookout. He knew he would never be safe. But for now... was it ever going to be worth it. He walked up to the door at Beanies, walking in. He saw Emma at the counter, and... he couldn't hide his excitement. He beamed, grinning widely. Like a small child. He walked up to her, holding the flowers out for the love of his life.
"Hey, Emma... Happy Three Months!"
#tw: death#tw: murder#tw: guns#tw: gun violence#tw: swearing#tw: blood#hatchetverse#hatchetfield#tgwdlm#paul matthews#paul 23#melissa tgwdlm#ted spankoffski#bill woodward#mr. davidson#ccrp#ccrp technical#nightmare time#one shot#oneshot#fanfiction#please send more#this was fun#sad but fun
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First things First: introductions!
HOWDY HEY THERE!!!
My name is Koda and I’m a 19 year old trans man who hyperfixates on my little pony a concerning amount.
my pronouns are he/him, they/them, or ix/ix.
If you want a semblance of normal art, and not drawings of two ponies who have never interacted once in canon being gay, then check out my art blog, @kodartarang
If you like the idea of seeing funky, weird, niche art for the warriors fandom, I also run the blog @warrior-cat-furby teehee. It’s a warrior cats design blog where I draw warrior cat characters but as furbies (specifically, the way I imagine they would look if they were real creatures. My designs for furbies are not at all canon to the toy line lmfao, especially since a lot of my furby designs are based on odd-bodies).
You can also follow my main blog, @kodangaroo , but there is no organization to what I reblog on that one. So like. You may experience something similar to what happened recently, where I reblogged nothing but Scolipede posts for at least half an hour and terrorized my followers’ dashboards with bug horse.
Now onto the blog!
I got the idea one fair evening when I was scrolling through @/msponies (not tagging her bc I’m not sure if she'd want to be tagged in a post like this !). She had posted a crack-ship fan-child design post that featured Zephyr Breeze and Prince Blueblood.
My initial response was "hoho! This idea is obsurd! Heehee! How funny! I will imagine them being gay for only a moment, to make myself laugh! haha! heehee! hoho!" But then I actually imagined it for real and whoopsies, I couldn't stop thinking about the idea for a while!
What got me intrigued first was how these two characters would very much exhibit an "opposites attract" nature. And like many others, I am a SUCKER for common relationship tropes in LGBTQ+ pairings.
Prince Blueblood, like many ponies of course, lives up to his name. He is snooty, upper-class, uptight, and holds himself to a very high standard. Zephyr Breeze, on the other hoof hand is aloof. He may be prideful like Blueblood, but in an entirely different way. He holds his appearance in a different way (the messy hair, the facial hair shadow), rather than the prim and proper way Blueblood holds his appearance.
I imagine that the way their relationship progresses, it would be very similar to "Rivals-to-Friends-to-Lovers" (yet another trope I'm a sucker for lmfao). In the beginning, after they first meet, Blueblood is very judgemental of Zephyr. The two butt heads a lot. Zephyr constantly teases Blueblood ("Weeell hello there, your highness, your coat is as perfectly and pretentiously groomed as ever I see!"), an Blueblood absolutely abhors it. But somehow they just keep running into each other, despite their desperate attempts to do otherwise. Eventually... The teasing and jabs become less rude and insulting and more... Friendly. At some point, the two of them don't really mind the incidental run-ins as much.
Zephyr Breeze invites Blueblood to a get-together in ponyville with his sister and a few friends. Blueblood, of course, over-dresses for the occasion and is a little bit surprised to see everybody dressed very casually, telling jokes, and laughing loudly.
He's not sure why, but... he kind of enjoyed it. All the social gatherings Blueblood had been to before were uptight and everybody expected him to have the highest of manners. It was nice to let loose.
Blueblood doesn't really know how to express his appreciation for being included, so he does the only thing he can think of; he invites Zephyr to a high-class social gathering at the castle. Zephyr has never been to one, but he appreciates the invite and decides to go. If Blueblood could let loose for a couple hours and take part in a casual hangout between friends in ponyville, then surely Zephyr could manage to fit in with the upper class for a few measely minutes at least. Unfortunately it doesn't go very well; he didn't have any outfits that lived up to the standards of the other attendees, and he ended up being mocked by everyone. Plus, he ate too many of the h'ourderves (how the FUCK do you spell that) and everybody looked at him weirdly, and every time he tried to crack a joke to the crowd they didn't exactly appreciate it. He ended up leaving early, whispering some excuse to Blueblood ("yeaaaaaahhhh... family matters, it's uh. A family emergency yeah, and you know how mom and dad can't get by in these things without me. You know how it is."), and escapes to a nearby bakery where he's the only customer in at the moment.
To his surprise, the door opens to reveal... Prince Blueblood.. Blueblood reveals that he figured Zephyr would be there, and decided to come and check on him ("One must guaruntee that their... acquaintence... will not cause any trouble, of course.")
After a long silence, Blueblood apologizes. "I should have known that a social gathering such as that one would not be a very comfortable place for you."
"Did you just... apologize?"
As the two grow closer, they both learn how to better themselves. Zephyr already had the help of his sister to learn how to push through, get things done, and actually take care of himself, but now he has Blueblood to help him keep track of some of the things he says that may be a bit... "uncouth". And Blueblood learns how to let loose, treat others equally, and just... how to be someone people enjoy talking to. And he learns how to have fun! He didn't know how to do that before.
They don't really say it outright-- they're still working on that-- but there's no denying that there's something there. They move in together. They laugh together. They help each other. They become better, together.
#My Little Pony#Introductions#Zephyr Breeze#Writing#Prince Blueblood#I'm not sure if there's an official ship name for this so I'm going to make one up myself :)#Either#Cobalt Breezes#like my blog name#or#ZephyrBlood#maybe#someone give me suggestions#Anyway hi I have not been able to stop thinking about this for like. A day#My third eye opened#I don't expect anybody to really be interested in this blog but that's okay I just wanna make content for this niche idea#that literally nobody else thinks about <3
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Tachibana, Kiryu, and Majima for the character ask!
Take 2, from my laptop this time, here’s hoping Tumblr doesn’t eat it again
TACHIBANA
Sexuality Headcanon: Gay but he doesn’t really know it, he figured out he wasn’t straight when he was like 10 said to himself “we have more important things to do”, and went about his day with it tucked into the back of his mind except he never did anything about it lmao. Like he knows on some level he’s gay, but by god does he just also never remember until he’s confronted with it Gender Headcanon: same as above in a way, he’s not fully comfortable being seen as 100% A Man but doesn’t do anything about it because he thinks he’s to busy to bother exploring his other options, if he’d had the time to explore I think he’d land on agender or no gender left man. A ship I have with said character: TO BE embarrassingly honest I haven’t thought about any romantic or sexual ships with any in universe characters for him. Yes this is me saying “me” lmfao A BROTP I have with said character: Oda, up until The Reveal; but also Kiryu A NOTP I have with said character: Oda, after he confesses to Kiryu what his plans were A random headcanon: He’s really REALLY bad at casual conversation unless he has a script or agenda, when he does he’s really good at steering conversations and getting what he wants, when he DOESN’T he sort of flounders and says too much and regrets it *thinks about that one scene where he picks up Kiryu in the car and they’re talking in the parking space, cries* General Opinion over said character: I love him I love him so fucking much, he shouldn’t have died ! It was literally a mistake that he even did because SOMEONE can’t keep their men in check, I just wish he had had more opportunities to be the person he could have been without the pressure of being a hunted man
KIRYU
Sexuality Headcanon: Bi and INCREDIBLY awkward around every single person he’s ever developed even the slightest crush on
Gender Headcanon: Cis, honestly?
A ship I have with said character: Majima! I’ve only seen Yakuza 0 you have to give me a break I don’t know 99% of the series characters askdjfklasjf, but I think him and Majima is really cute honestly? Kiryu is >:-| bcus that’s just his face and Majima is next to him like >8-3c
A BROTP I have with said character: Nishikiyama because I’m going to ignore the like hour I saw of Yakuza Kawami 1, I do not see it I do not know it they are bros for life
A NOTP I have with said character: I can’t really think of any ship I’d be 1000% opposed to if it was written well but like as a general, no one under 20 and no one over 30
A random headcanon: He absolutely hates getting tattoos, he hates being still for too long, ESPECIALLY on his stomach and has to be negged into even doing it once it comes to getting the colours done he just doesn’t WANT TO. When he first got the lines done Nishikiyama was there as moral support but he almost got kicked out for goofing off and trying to make Kiryu laugh
General Opinion over said character: He’s an adorable loyal man who constantly looks pissed off.... what’s there not to love!!!!!!! He’s honestly the only character I haven’t thought for hours about settling down with so he’s the least solid in my mind but like omg I love him still.
MAJIMA
Sexuality Headcanon: Bi with a preference for men
Gender Headcanon: Trans male
A ship I have with said character: HM..... honestly other than Kiryu and me? Sort of Nishitani? It would either not last very long and go down in a flaming hot mess, or they’d settle down for life with one another being the only person they’re comfortable around being 100% themselves, whether that means sobbing for 2 hours and than eating dinner and ignoring that it happened or going to a park and selling tickets to a fight where it ends with Nishitani being like “JUST MAKE OUT WITH ME ALREADY” with Majima pinning him down; there’s no questions asked about why or how they just understand each other and navigate their issues in a way that leaves them both healthier for it.
A BROTP I have with said character: IF NOT ROMANTIC NISHITANI LIKE 100%!? Or Lee if he had lived! Like imagine the CHAOS of Nishitani and Majima as bros just WREAKING SHOP and vanishing for 2 months like “what are you gonna do? send us to jail? HAH. I have to laugh!” and Lee with unhinged!Majima like Lee is a tank and Majima is dps lmfao. But also they have the connecting bond of keeping Makoto safe and sane and healthy and so they see each other vulnerable a lot unwillingly and end up bonding
A NOTP I have with said character: Makoto honestly. I think she would want to be happy with him but I don’t think it would end well because he would be too focused on keeping her safe and being distant for her to end up anything but frustrated and angry about being with him; she seems like a really strong willed woman but I don’t think Majima would be able to be himself around her and it would just sort of crash and burn
A random headcanon: lemme see that butthole tattoo boy when he’s with someone he feels safe with and they're being intimate he has to take breaks to take deep breaths because he’s not used to feeling like this (safe) while also being so open, he’ll take moments to just lean against their leg or shoulder and just absorb the moment into himself.
General Opinion over said character: let me paint a word picture with this screenshot lmao
#mvp.txt#yakuza 0#ask game#ask meme#these boys need therapy ffs#the mortifying ordeal of admitting i fantasize for literal hours about being mushy with my fav charas#fucksladjfklsdj#Anonymous
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It’s really funny and interesting the discrepancies of Flare’s acceptance and how her baseline determined the our conflicting self issues we would have later on in life.
It’s a really big and fundamental thing and the differences between the acceptance that helped us and the lack of acceptance that is inhibiting our happiness are easy to see.
We have a few big things that’s causing core issues. And the one thing that went absolutely perfect.
Mental shit aside (even though gender is and also went beyond existing as a construct, I’m not gonna include it as merely a social construct), the big fundamental thing that went wrong is gender identity/self-expression. The one big thing that went perfect is actually funnily enough sexuality.
The thing that lyke all us gays struggle with is sexuality, managed to be the one and ONE and only thing that me and Flare just accepted and moved on with.
Flare is pan (pan) and very grey ace. I am panrom and (geyyyyy) (shit I been saying gay so much I’m blanking out on the actual term)
Gynosexual. Sorry had a giant brain blank.
And Flare is okay. With all of those. Oh yeah and I’m of course Allo. You just talk to either of us about sex and the difference is clear.
Anyway it’s been two youtubers that I really like that came out as not straight (well one was out publically as transbinary lyke publically with the whole she-bang. Transitioned on camera all throughout the years goddamn Contrapoints you was out like now it’s everyone’s business. Kudos though hot fucking damn).
What was I on about. Oh right. It wasn’t until she and Ollie each came out as not straight-
Okay. Kinda like Thomas Sanders, Contrapoints was lyke always implying here and there (according to my memory) that she was some flavor of bi. Apparently that wasn’t lyke the truth in her brain. But anyway anyway.
I just assumed I guess if you gonna check mark one lgbtq letter, you’re gonna be gucci with being all the other letters. Now I realize that’s not even true for us.
Anyway anyway going back to the point. Both these awesome cute-ass people were lyke describing this giant struggle with their sexuality. And only now I realize that we’re (Me and Flare) weird in that we barely struggled with sexuality. Of all the different ways of being gay, we found the gay aspect the easiest to deal with lmfao.
And I’m not saying anyone who struggles with gay thoughts is a weakling pansy. I’m just saying we’re unusually cool with gay thoughts way more than most people?
This is a strength on our (actually Flare’s, I’ll get to that) part. Not a weakness on others’.
Okay I lost my point. So Flare’s hears lyke someone say once something that basically meant “finding girls hot isn’t the worst thing in the world and honestly if you don’t think girls are hot you are missing out big time dem girls like HOT DAMN.”
That’s how I would say it lmfao. But basically Flare started out as lyke “I hate boys and girls equally stop doing this sex shit at me all the time” and then someone was lyke “hey if you have ever felt like doing the sexy sex with a boy and you have the same feeling towards a girl then you are pan and it’s okay.”
Flare was lyke “I have felt like doing the sexy sex with a boy once (1). And I have felt a similar feeling towards girls but I never really thought it was a thing.” And then she thought about it. (As much as her greyace ass thinks about sex which is lyke .1 times maybe when a blue moon is out. Or her boy’s moon is out if you know what I’m saying lmfao girl gets lyke the hots so easily for her boy she just loves him so much okay back on topic.)
And she’s lyke “so if the feeling is the same, and being pan is okay, then I am pan and it’s okay.” Anyway I realize I’m definitely not into dat gross boy dick so I got to Flare and I”m lyke “Hey fam I’m not 100% into the d like you” and Flare said “okay that’s cool.”
So now. In Flare’s world, being pan is okay. Being gay is okay. Lyke it was easy. Just like that. I said no, Flare said ok and we were cool. Just because she was raised and influenced in a such an order of experiences that someone told her it was okay to be pan before someone told her it wasn’t okay to be gay.
I mean being gay is kinda like being pan-lite.
*offended* Bitch. Did you just try to swing your dick at me?
Bitch, I ain’t gonna not but don’t be mad if I beat your ass.
Okay anyway. I don’t wanna give anyone the impression that I”m playing gay olympics.
If you are though, I win hands down.
Then I win the trans olympics!
(Why would you want to win something like that?)
Oh here we go guys. Exhibit A. It’s 110% okay to be gay according to Flare. But if you’re trans....
Not that she’s not doing her best. We’re all still figuring things out.
But being trans is less okay. She didn’t want to tell her boy that I was trans. And she refused for a long time to use the pronouns I’m trying out (kinda having second thoughts about the it pronouns but like I said WE’RE ALL FIGURING SHIT OUT). Anyway she is so hesitant with trans thoughts and me being trans that it actually led to her misgendering me for long enough for it to hurt.
:( Sorry.
It’s okay. (I get it. I love you.)
So I guess I don’t even know what happened but it was just that the fact that if you look like a girl, you use she/her pronouns was so instilled in Flare and no one was there to say that if you look like a girl, but you use other pronouns that it’s okay and it’s cool and it’s a free country man.
I guess that if anything we’re just lyke very easily convinced by peer pressure?
We kinda fell into the whole “being gay is okay” side of the internet but-
And I say fell because the first time the subject of non-straightness ever came to our attention was because of a random discussion on a vlogger’s youtube channel.
But no one was there to specifically say “if you look like a girl and sound like a girl but you kinda don’t want to be a girl or a boy or use any of those pronouns, that it’s cool.” So I have to spend years and mental energy to fight Flare for my need to express myself as anything different than a perfectly normal girl.
I guess. The moral of the story is. Go to kids and just say. It’s okay if you like girls. It’s okay if you like boys. It’s okay if you don’t like either or both. And it’s okay if you don’t like being a girl or being a boy or being called she or he. And either way it’s okay.
And for kids who just hear that simple concept and accept it, they’re not gonna have this lyke tearful years-long struggle with being any flavor gay or any flavor of trans or any flavor of ace.
It took us literally one thought to be okay with being gay. It’s taking us literally years to be okay with me being trans.
I don’t mean any hate on Flare btw no hard feelings. Trauma made it impossible for her to deal with being “not normal” but somehow liking girls kinds slipped past it? Idk man. Girl’s traumatized, give her a break.
~Four
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frost!
sick tyvm
frost - if you could give some advice to your younger self, what would you say?
i think for a lot of lgbtqueues it’s like, you’d like to provide some insight on that knowledge which was already there but not really sorted out or given the right context, but you also know that it’s a process and you can’t just tell yourself “hey, @ my younger self, btw you’re ___” and all and just skip that process, but at the same time it’s like, giving that process a boost / kickstart is nice, and providing some reassurance and all.......but as for “let’s straightup skip ahead a little too” i think it would’ve been fun to just go ahead and let myself know my name b/c i would’ve hated my name forever even if i wasn’t trans and it just never like, felt like my name, so i don’t even consider it a Deadname cuz that implies it was ever alive lol.........and i’d tell myself not to bother / feel obligated to try to come out to my parents, and to not feel like it’s an inconvenience to come out to friends as trans / insist on your name and pronouns.
i’d also tell myself not to be so worried about trying to stay in line and not to feel like i’m only the person who other ppl see me as (i.e. i was like “oh this is what ppl expect of me / tell me i am, that’s what i’m really most fundamentally like i guess! these are my interests!”) and that i’m not overly self-inhibiting b/c that’s what i want, but b/c that’s what i feel like i have to do to be safe, like, no you’re actually social and wanna do more than just read all the time but you also feel like you have to keep your head down and not rock the very small boat you’re in, but in 2013 you’ll be sneaking out to a kesha concert and taking your brother to visit the gay agenda protestors in front of the supreme court (separate occasions lol) so get used to That as being who you actually are, you’re not just the quiet good-grades-getter okay, which makes sense considering that you hate school. idk i my identity a lot on what was like, hey you have cptsd your home life is awful your parents don’t really know you and the treatment there isn’t your own fault or deserved! like, that took a surprisingly long time to figure out and it would’ve been better to at least be told like, this actually isn’t how it is for everyone and it shouldn’t be like this, and it’s not on you or anything. like, a great way to sum it up would just be like, don’t worry as much about trying to Stay Out Of Trouble b/c it’s not going to happen and it’s going to be better for you to just actually do some of what you want and be who you are and not worry about staying on the straight and narrow b/c that shit is Arbitrary as hell. on a related note, your politics are radical left and even though you figure that out easily enough here’s some reading or smthing so you can know more basic shit than you do now. cut your hair as short as you want b/c yeah you want short hair i promise
oh and also that i never thought i was allowed to be mad or stand up for myself or anything. like, don’t worry about being nice all the time. be meaner. don’t bite your tongue all the time. still working on that unfortunately!! all my regrets are “i wish i had been meaner to this person!! i wish i had spoken my mind more rudely!!” lmao just earlier today i was remembering this time my brother was a real #ally b/c we were at an Amusement Park (i love that term lmfao like. so fucking quaint. this roller coaster is so diverting!) and i was texting furiously on my flip phone coz i just so happened to be real fed up with someone and was telling them off and he just stood behind me and steered me through people while we walked. and i STILL was not rude enough to that person!!! they even showed up again a year or two later, giving me another chance to tell them off, but then effed off again a couple months later and i was like fucking...whatever get out of here, but i wish i could’ve told you off a little more. regrets
also the fun fact of like “take the fact that you like sneaking in a way to Perform (and getting points!!) by being in the church choir and singing too loud, and the fact that you enjoy the other way of performing of ballet productions, and your shoulder-brushes with regular theatrical / stage performances being supremely fun for you, and know that you’re actually a theatre gay. btw....for one weekend in nyc in february 2011 there will be a student production of a musical called bat boy and you MUST GO” lol like i would’ve been uhhh ssss only almost 17 then? maaaybe i could’ve pulled it off but idk, nyc in the middle of the semester.....a definite maybe lol. nah but yknow. just a fun tip. i mean i never even tried theatre b/c a) i’m not even sure my middle school had a theatre dept and b) due to skipping high school i was at college like “why am i here, i’m sure i’ll flunk out asap” and not bold enough to try any extracurriculars anyhow and Def not bold enough to audition for stuff when i had No experience and c) my older sister did plays in her high school (and eventually my brother did too) and so middle sibling style i was like “well then i should be the one Not doing that”.......it’s not vital i’m sure but it’s A Thing About Me that shouldn’t’ve been so hard to figure out, and also which like, idk, maybe i Would’ve found some chance somewhere to try something out for myself. who kneauxes
tldr just stuff like be meaner, be more inconvenient, you’re queer you’re here and here’s some details on that, [definition of nonbinary], get whatever haircuts you want, fight your parents whenever And feel less like you’re in charge of someone else’s unreasonable whims of Being Terrible cuz that’s on them actually, explore more of what you actually like just cuz you want to, idk, Hang In There, believe it or not knock on would you make it out of the ‘10s alive! idk do your thing you gay bastard lol. try to have a little more fun along the way if you can?
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gender? who is she? (they???)
chapter one: what’s my name again? link to prologue
summary: [18:00] ???: LUNA [18:00] ???: WHAT IF [??? (SumayaPotter) changed their name to harry?] [18:00] harry?: !!!!!! word count: 1,573 warnings: n/a a/n: we’re getting into it!!! hope u enjoy
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[FRIDAY; 10.12.18]
the golden trio™ [POTter (SumayaPotter), grangerstranger (HermioneGranger), DieselWeasel (RonWeasley)]
[16:45] POTter: @everyone
[17:34] grangerstranger: What’s a mood [17:34] grangerstranger: Sorry [17:34] grangerstranger: What’s up
[17:36] DieselWeasel: how do you accidentally type whats a mood
[17:36] grangerstranger: Magic [17:36] grangerstranger: And a conversation going on next to me
[17:37] DieselWeasel: okay [17:37] DieselWeasel: sounds fake but . okay [17:37] DieselWeasel: a n y w a y [17:37] DieselWeasel: @POTter whats up
[17:40] POTter: oH [17:40] POTter: yh sry [17:40] POTter: if yall were th opp sex wht wld ur names b ?
[17:41] grangerstranger: Sorry just [17:41] grangerstranger: Give me a minute to decipher that
[17:41] DieselWeasel: #rekt
[17:41] POTter: r00d
[17:42] grangerstranger: Wait Maya
[17:42] POTter: ye
[17:42] grangerstranger: As in what our parents would've named us or what we'd want our names to be if we were the opposite sex
[17:42] POTter: idc both
[17:43] grangerstranger: William
[17:43] POTter: y
[17:43] grangerstranger: Well [17:43] grangerstranger: I don’t know what my parents were thinking when they named me [17:44] grangerstranger: But the name Hermione is from the winter’s tale by Shakespeare [17:44] grangerstranger: I'm not the hugest fan of Shakespeare but I'd still like to have an older name [17:44] grangerstranger: Plus his first name was William so it's still a nod to my parents
[17:44] POTter: damn out here w tht Knowledge [17:45] POTter: ron????
[17:46] DieselWeasel: uhhhhhhh [17:46] DieselWeasel: i mean if i had been born a girl it wouldve been ginerva bc yall KNOW ma and dad have been holding onto that for ages [17:46] DieselWeasel: but . harper maybe? i like that name
[17:46] POTter: huh [17:46] POTter: harperd fit u
[17:47] DieselWeasel: what about you
[17:50] POTter: idk [17:50] POTter: what do u think
[17:50] grangerstranger: Alex [17:50] grangerstranger: ?
[17:51] DieselWeasel: i mean ? would you want like [17:51] DieselWeasel: an ethnic name ? [17:53] DieselWeasel: imagine quotes on that lol
[17:53] POTter: ehhhhhhh [17:53] POTter: i wldnt b opposed but ? [17:54] POTter: idk rly i guess itd be cool either way [17:54] POTter: also @grangerstranger alex is nice
[17:54] DieselWeasel: mkay [17:56] DieselWeasel: what about harry [17:56] DieselWeasel: hari ? harry ? who knows
[17:56] POTter: OH [17:56] POTter: y e s [17:56] POTter: thank
[17:59] DieselWeasel: uh ? [17:59] DieselWeasel: no problem lol [17:59] DieselWeasel: :)
??? (SumayaPotter), luna! (LunaLovegood)
[18:00] ???: LUNA [18:00] ???: WHAT IF
[??? (SumayaPotter) changed their name to hari?]
[18:00] hari?: !!!!!! [18:00] hari?: wait wait wait
[hari? (SumayaPotter) changed their name to harry?]
[18:01] harry?: i like this better i think [18:01] harry?: idk im still trying 2 figure it out
[18:04] luna!: oh! that's a lovely name. congratulations harry! i'm glad you've found something that suits you. :D
[18:04] harry?: :D
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[SATURDAY; 10.13.18]
everyone except sumaya [granger (HermioneGranger), weasley_1 (RonWeasley), weasley_2 (GinnyWeasley), malfoy (DracoMalfoy), longbottom (NevilleLongbottom)…]
[13:35] granger: I just want all of you to know I still disagree with the name of this chat
[14:57] malfoy: Yes, yes, we know. [14:57] malfoy: You’ve been saying that since the creation of this groupchat.
[15:15] weasley_1: #rekt
[15:28] granger: Shut up malfoy
[15:28] weasley_1: #rekt
[16:01] longbottom: ok but we haven’t had to use this chat for a couple weeks now? what’s up hermione?
[16:01] weasley_1: sus acting weird
[16:01] longbottom: okay but she’s always acting weird, what’s different about this time?
[16:02] weasley_1: we had an entire conversation about what our names would be if we were the opposite sex
[16:02] longbottom: oh. [16:02] longbottom: yeah okay that’s a bit weird. [16:02] longbottom: what did she say her’s would be?
[16:02] granger: That's the thing though [16:03] granger: She didn’t [16:03] granger: She asked us what we thought it should be
[16:03] weasley_1: here gimme a sec
[weasley_1 (RonWeasley) sent a screenshot.] [weasley_1 (RonWeasley) sent a screenshot.]
[16:05] parkinson: im dead her name is my MOOD
[16:05] longbottom: damn. okay. [16:05] longbottom: what do you think it means?
[16:06] weasley_1: i dunno why does it have to mean anything
[16:06] longbottom: well, obviously you think it means something - you wouldn’t have posted it here if you didn’t?
[16:06] weasley_1: damn youre right [16:07] weasley_1: i dunno? it just feels like kind of an odd thing to ask about ? [16:07] weasley_1: especially because its not like we were talking about names today or anything [16:07] weasley_1: it just seemed like an out of the blue subject thats all
[16:09] lovegood: if i may interject? i find it very likely that sumaya is simply settling into their personality, and part of that may include an exploration of the different facets of themself! [16:09] lovegood: her*, whoops!
[16:09] weasley_1: ? [16:09] weasley_1: oh okay
[16:09] longbottom: you’re so right, luna!
[16:09] weasley_1: huh yeah that makes sense lol
#girlsforluna (GinnyWeasley), #boysforluna (NevilleLongbottom)
[16:10] #girlsforluna: gay
[16:11] #boysforluna: :’) [16:11] #boysforluna: i can’t help it! she’s so [16:11] #boysforluna: wait.
everyone except sumaya [weasley_1 (RonWeasley), longbottom (NevilleLongbottom), lovegood (LunaLovegood), granger (HermioneGranger), malfoy (DracoMalfoy)…]
[16:12] longbottom: hey, @lovegood?
[16:13] lovegood: yes! hi neville!
[16:13] longbottom: hey! what pronouns are you using right now?
[16:13] lovegood: he/him for now! :)
[16:13] longbottom: okay! thanks so much.
[16:14] weasley_2: neville you fucking nerd i cant,,,,,,
#girlsforluna (GinnyWeasley), #boysforluna (NevilleLongbottom)
[16:12] #girlsforluna: you okay??? [16:13] #girlsforluna: oh my god lmfao
[16:14] #boysforluna: okay, i got it. [16:14] #boysforluna: he’s just so cute! and smart! and kind! and! ugh my god i love him so much.
[16:14] #girlsforluna: youre so fucking cute i wanna die [16:14] #girlsforluna: you really just paused an online conversation to get pronouns i love you oh my god [16:14] #girlsforluna: also. i feel you so hard he’s such a lovely person??? hhhh [16:14] #girlsforluna: anyway :)
[16:14] #boysforluna: :)
everyone except sumaya [weasley_2 (GinnyWeasley), longbottom (NevilleLongbottom), lovegood (LunaLovegood), weasley_1 (RonWeasley), granger (HermioneGranger)…]
[16:15] lovegood: is everything okay, neville?
[16:16] weasley_2: oh yeah totally i just had the sudden and urgent realization that neville’s a fucking nerd
[16:16] longbottom: shut the hell up n stop ghosting u hoe
[16:17] parkinson: damn son okay [16:17] parkinson: i dont know if im more surprised tht u cursed or tht u didnt use Perfect Punctuation ???? either way im lowkey impressed good job
[16:17] longbottom: :)
mione (HermioneGranger), nevs (NevilleLongbottom)
[16:46] mione: Hey neville
[17:09] nevs: yeah, what’s up?
[17:11] mione: Do you think sue might be [17:11] mione: Trans or something?
[17:11] nevs: huh. [17:11] nevs: i guess i’d never thought of it but. [17:11] nevs: i suppose it’s entirely possible? [17:12] nevs: especially because she’s been wearing her hijab more often.
[17:12] mione: Yeah [17:12] mione: Wait but why would that mean shes trans?
[17:13] nevs: well, she has really long hair, and when she’s not wearing a hijab she usually has it in a braid because it’s easier to manage, right?
[17:13] mione: Yeah I know what hou mean [17:13] mione: You
[17:13] nevs: but it’s also a constant reminder that she has hair. [17:13] nevs: i mean, i was talking to luna the other day? [17:14] nevs: and he mentioned that on his masculine days he like to put his hair up, but only when he’s feeling really dysphoric. [17:14] granger: so now that i think about it in that light, it makes a lot of sense - [17:15] nevs: her hair goes into a bun when she puts it up, and it’s tight so she doesn’t have to think about it so much.
[17:15] mione: Oh [17:15] mione: Yeah that makes sense [17:16] mione: Thanks Neville
[17:16] nevs: no problem! [17:16] nevs: i probably wouldn’t go around sharing this with everyone, though. [17:16] nevs: especially because we don’t really know if it’s true or not.
[17:17] mione: Yeah of course
hermyownknee (HermioneGranger), ronniekins (RonWeasley)
[17:20] hermyownknee: Hey Ron
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ron (RonWeasley), luna (LunaLovegood)
[17:34] ron: hey luna
[17:38] luna: hello, ron! is everything okay?
[17:38] ron: um . i think so?
[17:38] luna: okay! [17:40] luna: what did you want to talk to me about? [17:40] luna: i assume you contacted me for a reason? :)
[17:40] ron: haha yeah [17:40] ron: um [17:40] ron: dont take this the wrong way [17:41] ron: i know sometimes sumaya tells you stuff that she doesn’t tell me or hermione [17:41] ron: and that’s fine [17:41] ron: obviously shes allowed to make those kinds of decisions for herself [17:41] ron: but uh
[17:41] luna: she’s fine, i promise. [17:42] luna: i would tell you if she told me anything that i found concerning.
[17:44] ron: okay [17:44] ron: thanks
[17:50] luna: of course, ron.
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Questions For LGBT Ladies #LGBTask
Here are some random questions pertaining to LGBT Ladies. Have others ask you or simply answer them yourself. Please reblog!
((I’m just going to answer them all because I’m bored and very vain))
1. How do you define your sexuality? I identify with the label of bisexual, but my friends tell me i’m probably more pan
2. At what age did you first realize that you like girls? when I was 12 i freaked out because i noticed that girls in my grade were getting boobs and that made me feel things lmao, but i didn’t hardcore fall for someone till i was 17
3. At what age did you first come out? 17 to all of my friends, coworkers, and one of my cousins, 25 to my (mormon) biological family
4. Who was the first person you came out to? How did they take it? my cousin, who was gay and obviously very supportive... they’re now living a full life as a married transgender woman and inspire me every day!
5. How out are you? completely! flaming bi!
6. Has coming out lost you any friends? it did in high school, because most of my friends were mormon, but pretty much all of them came around
7. What is your current relationship status? single, trying to get over my ex fiance? type person
8. How many LGBT friends do you have? lol, um i’m blanking on all of them but i know at least 7 that i talk to frequently
9. Do you have any LGBT relatives? yep! one transgender/poly/pan cousin from my dad’s side... and i’m the gay cousin for my mom’s side lmao
10. Have you ever cut your hair super short? in elementary school my mom gave me the shortest pixie cut ever and everyone thought i was a boy... since then I’ve cut it semi short but never shorter than beside my ears
11. How often do you wear flannel? surprisingly not that often, i only have two flannel shirts
12. How much do you like cats? like at least 60% depending on the cat
13. Do you wear skirts and dresses? If so, how often? i freaking love wearing dresses, but i hate skirts... dresses are like the least maintenance clothing ever
14. Do you wear high heels? If so, how often? um no, they’re not my thing
15. Do you have any tattoos? If so, what of and where? yep, a cactus on my ankle
16. How accurate is your gaydar? 90%
17. Have you ever been to a gay bar or a gay club? yes!!
18. How do you feel when platonic female friends refer to each other as girlfriends? fucking annoyed tbh
19. Have you ever had a crush on a straight girl? hasn’t everyone??
20. Ellen or Portia? Portia for sure, although i love my girl Ellen
21. Is your nose pierced? nah
22 Would you ever want to get married, if not already? i’m a hopeless romantic
23. Will you wear a dress for your wedding?�� oooh yes and hopefully my wife will too
24. Would you ever want to give birth? oh i would love to but i can’t physically
25. Have you ever watched The L Word? lmfao yes i’m a good bi
26. Have you ever dated a guy? yep, and regretted it 7/10 times
27. How do you feel when someone uses the word gay to mean stupid, dumb, or boring? obviously annoyed
28. How many rainbow items do you own? umm at least one flag
29. Have you ever been to a pride festival? yes, i even got to walk in it!
30. Have you ever celebrated National Coming Out Day (October 11)? yes
31. Have you ever participated in the National Day of Silence? yes
32. Have you ever worn a woman’s suit? hell yeah in middle school lmao
33. Have you ever worn any men’s clothing? um i mean “men’s clothing” is a subjective term, but like I’ve worn men’s boxers and shit...?
34. Do you eat meat? i love meat
35. Do you consider yourself a feminist? yep!
36. Who is your favorite LGBT celebrity? ahhh, um... probably Ellen? Although Adam Rippon is starting to sway me lmao
37. Are you religious at all? not particularly, although sort of neobuddhist/wiccan
38. How often do you find yourself trying to sneak a peak or staring at a cute female? 15/10 times
39. What is your ideal first date? like, just any date where i’m with a girl tbh
40. Are you comfortable with terms such as lezzie, lesbo, dyke, or tranny? sort of okay with lesbo, but the rest are offensive to me
41. How outdoorsy are you? i fucking love camping and mountains
42. In general, has being open about your sexuality affected your relationships with other females? yes, some lesbians i’ve dated were super biphobic
43. How much makeup do you typically wear? in public, plenty. at home, none
44. Have you ever attended a gay or lesbian wedding? yep!
45. Are you more feminine or more masculine? i’m genderfluid, but slightly more masculine
46. How long is the longest relationship you’ve been in? Are you still with that person? 5 years, and no
47. Have you and a girlfriend ever been mistaken for sisters? nope
48. Do you think it is possible for someone to truly be a 50/50 bisexual, or is the percentage always skewed in favor of one gender? ugh this is literally the fucking worst question. bisexuality is valid no matter the percentage of any gender attraction you bitch muffin
49. Have you ever wished you were completely straight? no tbh
50. Do you watch any LGBT YouTubers? Rose and Rosie
51. Do you wear any combat boots, Doc Martins, or Timberlands? combat boots
52. Have you ever been hit on by another female? yes it’s an electrifying experience
53. How athletic are you? i stand up sometimes
54. What are your views on gender identity and bathroom use? free bathrooms
55. What is your opinion of septum/bull nose piercings? not my thing
56. What does equality mean to you? that everyone has an equal chance to achieve the same goal
57. If you are not a lesbian, about what percentage of the time do you find yourself attracted to other females? 99.9%
58. Have you ever shared clothes with a girlfriend? lol yes it’s the best
59. Have you ever liked or dated a girl with the same name as you? nah
60. How flirty are you? pretty flirty, i’m a libra
61. Are you a virgin? virginity is a construct, but no
62. Do you listen to any LGBT musicians (i.e. Tegan & Sara, Melissa Ehteridge, Chely Wright, Elton John, Sam Smith, George Michael, Adam Lambert)? in highschool me and my exgf would rock to emo tegan & sara
63. Have you ever been told that you are too pretty to be gay? yep
64. Have you ever been discriminated against because of your sexuality or gender identity? If so, please explain. all the fucking time... i don’t want a threesome, i’m not going to cheat because i’m bi, etc etc
65. Have you ever driven an SUV, Jeep, or a pickup truck? nah
66. Are you or have you ever been a tomboy? oooh boy, let me tell you. yes
67. Agree or disagree: Everyone is at least a little bit gay. ummm, 90%?
68. What personality trait are you most attracted to? intelligence
69. Boobs or butts? boobs
70. Beer or wine? hard liquor
71. Do you have a favorite lesbian movie? ... it’s still Imagine Me & You... the leads are so god-tier beautiful
72. From 1-10, how attractive are muscular women? 9
73. From 1-10, how attractive are women who wear glasses? this is dumb
74. From 1-10, how attractive are women who are covered with tattoos? 8
75. From 1-10, how attractive are curvy/plus-size women? 9
76. From 1-10, how attractive are women with short hair? 6
77. From 1-10, how attractive are masculine butch women? 4
78. From 1-10, how attractive are highly intelligent women? 10
79. From 1-10, how attractive are tall women (i.e. around 6 feet or taller)? 7
80. Have you ever been on your period the same time as a girlfriend? lol yes
81. Has a girl ever dumped you for a guy? Have you? i dumped a girl who was cheating on me with a guy
82. Do you carry a purse? yes?
83. Do you wear any hats such as snapbacks or beanies? yes
84. Have you ever pretended to be completely straight? nope
85. Would you ever date a trans girl? yes!
86. How well do you think LGBT women are portrayed on television? not extremely well, but it’s getting better
87. Have you ever had a crush on a woman who’s much older than you? Sandra Bullock..
88. Do you have any celebrity crushes? fucking Gal Gadot man
89. Do you have any opinions on LGBT people in the military? keep them safe and start regulating sexual assault of all military members
90. Do you believe in love at first sight? no
91. Have you ever been told that you look gay (i.e. like a lesbian)? occasionally, depending on what i’m wearing
92. Where do you think is the best place to meet a potential lover? fuck if i know
93. Is there such a thing as “good” lesbian porn? yes... if it’s made by lesbians
94. Have you ever had a one night stand? lol yes, but not with girls
95. How often do you wear a bra? 91% of the time
96. Have you ever been part of a softball team? lol no
97. If you could live your life all over again, would you still be attracted to other women? honestly i’d rather be attracted to only women instead of being bi
98. What stereotype about LGBT women do you disagree with the most? that bi women don’t belong
99. What advice would you give a girl who is struggling to figure out her sexuality? watch Imagine Me & You
100. What advice would you give a girl who is struggling to come out? it takes time... just let it happen and know that the time will come naturally
@caiterprince and @angryfinnstan who I know are wlw, you should answer some of these if you want because i love you and want to get to know more!!!
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12/16/19 9:24am - post emo karaoke, journey of a day alone talking to myself
I fucking love emo karaoke
I love going out and getting compliments and being called pretty. I love my bartender who cuts a few drinks off my tab because I sit outside and smoke cigs and talk with him. I love people who ask if I’m in a band. I got invited to be in this couple’s band last night. Hope something happens with it lol. I love getting girls numbers even though I don’t really plan on hitting them up. I love boys complimenting my hair.
Last night was sweet. I keep not getting a full head to toe picture of my outfit which is annoying, but I have been getting filmed doing my songs every time. Maybe if I put enough on the internet someone will see me and think I deserve to be a singer like justin bieber lmfao. (shrug) I’m vain enough that I love watching myself.
Got to hang with peter and his new gf susie. Hadn’t seen him in forever, that was sweet. Tried to bounce to Ruby afterward to make out with some non binary girl like last time I did emo karaoke but alas it was deader than dead. So I came back to the end of the emo show and ended up getting a ride home from some friends who gave me like 5 bags of milanos. fucking sweet.
I also flirted with the host of the event last night and asked her out and got her number but she’s emotionally unavailable unfortunately. And it seems like she’s very busy. But still gotta shoot that shot lmfao.
This is my attempt to be productive. I’m sitting in bed naked. Well in a robe and slippers. Not watching the end of my anime though I might take a break soon. Trying to do as much productive shit as possible because I finally have a day to myself. It feels kinda nice, tbh. When you’re with someone all the time you don’t have a lot of time to just... sit. Kinda digging this idea of getting some space from jill a little more.
I’m gonna do a dumb arts and crafts project where I want to put some velour or fuzzy material on some socker boppers for bdsm cooldown I don’t know why but it’ll be funny.
Also I’m trying to research if silicone lube or oil based lube is better for long term butt plug wear but it’s hard to find the results I need.
Hm. Research is going well. Not on anything I ought to be looking into like my UXR but in general lol. Maybe I’ll check in later
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9:58am
fuck I wish I still had that fabri tac. I don’t want to buy a new $10 bottle just for one project that seems excessive. Found a good alternative for pretty cheap though, hopefully that’ll work. Socker boppers project is go lol.
accidentally unplugged my laptop and started working on some flogging skills for a bit. Can’t figure out the hand pattern for florentine though, this calls for some youtube videos.
Also I realized I should totally just ask my gay buddies and pet play buddies at slosh tonight what kind of lube I should try out next. duh. Of course they’ll know better than some dumb website trying to push a product.
Gotta tumble dry some laundry real quick to fold these pants up. laundry is neverending blegh. Maybe I should do this week’s just to get ahead of it before the holidays? meh.
I wonder if I’ll look back on this and be like “wow it’s really neat seeing some nice stream of consciousness writing. I like being able to put myself back in that state of mind and really remember what my life was like” or if I’ll be like “wow this is the pedantic scribblings of a narcissistic bore” lmfao. I guess only time will tell. Maybe I’ll get killed by Trump 2020 neonazis for being a polyamorous pansexual democrat and they’ll go back and read this like it was the diary of anne frank and this will all just be part of the precursor like how they included some of anne’s boy stories. Are diaries really of any literary merit other than documenting something of historical significance? loliunno
hm. I wanted to improve my eye makeup but there’s really not all that much that I found you could do with just eyeliner. I kinda wanna get some pretty eye shadows but I’m not sure if I should do that in person or not. I still wanna look like that pretty trans girl in Euphoria sometime.
Decided I’d throw away these Nori Maki snacks that I have from hawaii still. They were best by like october but they’re like sealed and they’re just rice crackers lol. But mmm seaweed wrapped rice crackers coated in this soy sauce shit? Soy sauce is just one of the best flavors on the planet I think. Does soy sauce compete with like pesto and hoisin as one of my favorite sauces? You don’t really think of it as a contender but yknow when you have some GOOOD soy sauce and it slaps a little bit? Idk how they make it or if they even do make it but they have this stuff in a little container at grand asia market and it tastes so much better than kikkoman. Like it’s richer or something. Yum.
Maybe I’m just hungry lol. Getting the diet back on track is like 50-50. On one hand I took a nice fast day on saturday just ate some nuts and stuff, got some brie and salami to take to work to go for some super light and non-expensive days. But on the other hand last night I got sick of salami and cheese cuz i was drunk and ate a cookout burger and fries. I ordered fries for myself for the first time in months, blegh.
Okay too much nori maki this has gotta go lol kinda makes my stomach feel weird. But good idea for a vehicle for soy sauce flavor lol. I kinda want like... soy sauce gum right now.
Lol that’s enough about soy sauce.
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Damn. My new cheetah ears came in. but they’re not really cheetah ears. They’ve got that yellow with the dots, but they’re way too long and pointy. Kinda would make for a nice fennec outfit or something I suppose, but definitely not for my kitty needs. I think I might have gone too hard on my 2nd+3rd tail+ears, and now everything is just gonna look shitty in comparison. The curse of balling out is you’ve gotta keep up the lifestyle 😹 But no matter. People call my leopard print cheetah all the time anyway, it looks close enough. Plus snow leopards and cheetahs both have rounded ears anyway. Which is something most people on etsy don’t seem to get lol everyone just makes triangles all the damn time.
So that’s a bust. I’m so happy I can just throw money at stupid shit and not care about it like this. I wonder how crazy I’m gonna go if I DO end up working at google. Me? With ACTUAL amounts of disposable income? OwO Damn maybe I should start actually working. Nahhh not yet.
Gotta play with some magic the gathering shit really quick lmao.
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1:27pm
uhhhh I just played a lot of magic the gathering. I got 15 wins so cool? got up to gold? Idk if I have the determination to go all the way to mythic this month. Or any month. I wonder if I’m fundamentally winning less games or if I’m just not as excited? My win rate couldn’t have been THAT sick, could it? I guess there was the streaks of playing RDW and mono green where I would win 7-0 in a half hour. Those were good days lol.
Hrm. I’m gonna procrastinate by moisturizing my hands now. Watching this guy play a cool dimir control deck, I could get behind playing something like that.
I guess it’s like I’m not a pleb for magic anymore, so I don’t feel motivated to unlock the cards. But I’m not rich anymore either, and I can’t just play every single deck I want because I got lazy with it. I gotta just maintain and try to unlock all the cards next set and get ahead of the game again. 👌🏻👌🏻
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hey ayhan can u answer all the questrions on here im trying to sus you out boi princelymlm tumblr com post /167651440077/gay-ask-game-for-gays-only
This ask is cursed but I so rarely get ask game responses so I’ll do this . All 30 questions are down below :
1. describe your idea of a perfect date
T r i p i n t o a m o r g u e . Okay but honestly ? Fucken uhh stargazing , or a trip to the art gallery , or museum , or whatever . I’m not all that fussed because honestly ? I’m just happy to spend time with a crush / date / significant other and as long as we’re not on our phones the entire time , I’m content .
2. whats your “type”
Men who won’t hurt me lmfao
Okay idk ? I don’t really have a “type” , but arts / literature / theatre gays are greatly appreciated .
3. do you want kids?
Yeah , one day I think .
4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?
Adopt or foster – even if I didn’t have dysphoria , I’ve got a pretty strong belief that there are plenty of kids in government care looking for love and safety and a home , so there’s no real reason for me to have a biological child .
5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been on
I’ve never been out on a date because I’m fundamentally unlovable and a country homosexual :/
6. TW for sexual assault below in this question : describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)
My first time was sexual assault with an adult , so To Be Fair , it could have gone better .
7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?
Night time gay . Mornings are for cuddling and sleepy sex.
8. opinion on nap dates?
Never heard of them but sounds like good shit
9. opinion on brown eyes?
Brown eyes are beautiful and I will be damned if any of y’all forget how wonderful brown eyes are
10. dog gay or cat gay?
D O G G AY
11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?
Fuck yeah I would
12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someone
Aggressiveness and anger ? And Bad Politics .
13. what is a misconception you had about lgb people before you realized you were one?
MOGAI tumblr fucked me up pretty bad lmao
14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger self
You’re not fucking asexual or aromantic and you sure as shit ain’t “homosexual biromantic” – please just fucking love yourself .
15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?
I’m still working this out but currently I’m 99% sure I’m a gay homosexual man-person-thing who is suffering from internalised homophobia irt my attraction to women . So no , I have no types
16. who is an ex you regret?
All of them , I have not had a single healthy or loving relationship
17. night club gay or cafe gay?
Cafe – I love dancing and hook-ups but I’m also an autistic with a low tolerance for loud noises
18. who is one person you would “go straight” for
Any woman in fiction because Eowyn and Uhura and Janway aND FUCKIONG TASHA YAR and listen , I want a Klingon woman to raw me :/
19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?
Book gay
20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)
Uhhhhhhhhhhh Kirk/Spock , Kirk/McCoy , Kirk/McCoy/Spock – listen I don’t care but just give me my Star Trek gays
21. favourite gay youtuber
I don’t think there’s a single one that doesn’t annoy the living shit out of me lmfao
22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?
Nah , I might crush on straight boys but I’m not That Stupid
23. have you ever been in love?
There is A Boy at my LGBT group who I’m currently in Adoration with , but otherwise ? I’ve had a long history of falling head-over-heels in love with guys
24. have you ever been heartbroken?
Yeah
25. how do you determine if you want to be themor be with someone
My mind will usually tell me lmfao
26. favourite lgb musician/band
The Kinks .
vsachgsdds I’m KIDDING but Pansy Division , Bikini Kill , idk even The Smiths ~~technically~~ . MIKA is the shit and I would die for him , Queen , and that’s it ?? There’s probably plenty more LGB(T) bands I’m forgetting right now
27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gays
If you’re a child or a young teenager and you’re not interested in sex , that doesn’t make you asexual because libido / sexual attraction takes a while to kick in so you’ll probably find out who gets you going at like 16 / 17 because you won’t be a literal child then .
Dysphoria and trans / gender shit can make sexuality super hard to figure out , esp if you’re nonbinary in any way , so like ?? Just experiment with labels because the easiest way of figuring out your sexuality is to just call yourself the thing and work out if it fits . And shit , it may take some tries , and that’s okay . You’re young and this stuff is confusing for adults
You’re not dirty or disgusting or an evil allo or whatever for wanting to fuck boys or wanting to fuck girls . Like , holding hands and feeding each other strawberries is nice and cute and all , but you’re allowed to want to be rawed by someone as well and it isn’t gross or shameful
28. are you out? if so how did you come out
Yeah , and I came out by just telling everyone and being as obnoxiously homosexual as possible
29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have
Trying to explain to my mother that no , me liking boys doesn’t mean I’m straight because I’m not a girl
That or vaguely calling myself “gay” to the pastor at our Anglican church because again , I didn’t want a repeat of above
30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexuality
One day you’re gonna find a family and people who will love and accept you no matter what , and one day , eventually , you will find a home and a safe space where you won’t ever have to fear being yourself wholly and apologetically .
And even if it takes a while for you to find that , know that I love you and I care about you , and I’m proud of you , and you will find people who’re much closer to you who’ll share those same sentiments .
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for the ask meme: all of them, but if thats too much maybe just the last 10?
Sorry for the long post aaaa1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? [I bought lottery tickets bc I was in texas and they’re not legal where I live and the cashier at the gas station didn’t even ask for my id. I tried to show him and he just shook his head and let me go???? He didnt even care wtf]2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? [Nah]3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? [Yea a little bit. I mean if it was just occasionally that’s probably fine? But a lot of my family has fucked up their entire lives with drugs so anything like that is iffy for me. It depends on how often they smoke ultimately]4: Do you find it easy to trust others? [I’d say yeah, probably. As long as you don’t fuck me over or guilt me within the first few weeks of knowing me id probably feel comfortable messaging you if I needed someone to talk to]5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? [Scrolling Tumblr]6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? [Probably my irl bffs lindy and raven!]7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? [Dump them. Adios fucker. I hope they’re happy with whoever they cheated on me with]8: Are you close with your dad? [Yeah I’d say so? I love him and he usually let’s me do my thing]9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? [Nah]10: What are you listening to? [Run by hozier]11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? [Sweet tea!!!! I’m from the south baby]12: Do you like hickeys? [Never has one so I don’t know!]13: What time do you go to bed? [Uhhhhhh 5am?]14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? [My siblings.]15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? [Nope I fuck up spelling a lot and have to go back and fix it no matter how many hands I’m typing with]16: Do you always answer your texts? [I try!! Unless I’m emotionally tired or forget]17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? [No. She’s my best friend now, actually]18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? [LIKE 3 MINUTES AGO I was complaining about how long it car ride home is]19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? [My irlbest friends, the cars discord chat I’m in, and a lot of my wk friends]20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? [I was writing ducktales fanfiction in my head]21: Is anyone else in the room with you? [I’m in a car with my mom for the next uhhh 7 hours?]22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? [Karmas a bitch]23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? [I was visiting family in Indiana, so yea probably? Tho I am pretty happy now too]24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? [Sometimes, with my old pal cat. She did some bad things so I stopped talking to her, but sometimes I want to catch up and see how she’s doing.]25: In the past week, have you cried? [YEAH over a darkwing duck episode]26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? [Grey. It has Mickey mouse on it!]27: Do people ever call you by your last name? [Noooope]28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? [I wouldn’t know]29: Do you have a best friend? [YEAH everyone in the cars discord and raven and lindy]30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? [No it was my great grandma lol]31: Who was your last call/text message from? [Call: red cross asking for my blood. Text: raven saying “dang”]32: Are you mad at anyone? [Not really? I don’t get angry very easily at all]33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? [When I was a freshman I was dating a junior]34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? [My great grandma! 88 I think]35: How many more days until your birthday? [LIKE a whole entire year. August 2nd]36: Do you have any summer plans yet? [Help my friend after her spine surgery p much. Visit family around the 4th of july]37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? [I have tons of girl friends!! All my best friends are girls (except em but they’re a good friend still!!!)]38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? [Lindy doesn’t know I’m trans]39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? [Uhhhhhhhhhhh next question]40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? [I try not to regret things like that]41: Do you think age matters in relationships? [UH YEAH?? An adult dating a minor ain’t my deallll]42: Are you available? [Lmfao yeah but don’t hold your breath I’m awful at relationships]43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? [My ex and bff dksdkdiajsai kill Me. I’ve had small crushes but I don’t rly let them grow too much if I realize they’re poppin up]44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? [Septum]45: Do you believe exes can be friends? [Yeah!!!!! I just reconnected with my ex from freshmen year and he’s cool]46: Do you regret anything? [Times where my mouth moved before my head could think and I hurt someone I cared about. Times where I didn’t listen. Times where I hesitated. But the past is a different country, and I try not to waste the present lamenting what I could’ve done.]47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? [Home. And the mistakes I’ve made.]48: Did you ever lose a best friend? [Yeah. She moved away and we just… talked less, and less, and less.]49: Was your last kiss a mistake? [Nah it was my great grandma]50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? [They have a bf and also dont like me plus im unlovable and bad at relationships and feelings *shrug emoji* the other person I’m interested in lives too far away and also doesn’t like me like that]51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? [Twas my gg and probably when I was a baby]52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? [All these last kiss ones are so angsty and sad and it was literally my grandma 5 hours ago I’m laughing]53: What was the last thing you ate? [McDonald’s French fries!!!!!]54: Did you get any compliments today? [Nah I’m in my road trip attire so I look like a mess]55: Where are you going on your next vacation? [New Orleans in October for voodoo fest!! Gonna see the foo fighters B)]56: Do you own anything from other countries?[I think I have Canadian money somewhere…]57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?[girls!!]58: Where have you lived most of your life?[Sweet Home Alabama]59: When was the last time you took a long drive?[DOING IT RN!!!!! 13 HOURS]60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?[yea but it was like, mashed up with truth or dare. Instead of kissing we asked them truth or dare]61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?[nah I’m pretty mild]62: Who do you text the most?[raven probably? Or max]63: What was the last movie you saw?[spirited away I think??? First time I ever saw it]64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?[I’m single, don’t remind me :P]65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?[I was 12 and right smack dab in the middle of my ugly awkward phase (thays still going on today!) So I had none lmao]66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?[nah]67: Do you curse around your parents?[GOOD LORD NO]68: Are you happy with where you live?[I? Hate Alabama. My city is okay but I want to move somewhere nicer]69: Picture of yourself? [I have a selfie tag. I would upload but I’m lazy. Maybe if I find a pic I like later I will]70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?[polyamory All the wayy!!!!! But monogamy is cool too]71: Have you ever been dumped?[probably in elementary school but I don’t remember? I usually am the one to end it bc I get freaked out and skittish around people genuinely caring about me so I break it up before they’re disappointed]72: What do you most like about making out?[being comfortable and close enough with someone to do it.]73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?[yup!]74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?[depends? I’ve asked to kiss someone and I’ve been asked equal amounts.]75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?[eyes? Idk there’s a lot that goes into finding someone attractive it’s hard to narrow it down]76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?[my mom]77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?[virgin]78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?[virgin]79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?[Any cartoon character I’m currently hyperfixated on]80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?[yes. But i would go slow and I wouldn’t want to meet their child until we were both sure this was something we wanted long term.]81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?[no its usually me? Wait i take that back!! One girl did while I was in hs but I’m pretty sure she only did it bc she just figured out her sexuality and I was queer and there.]82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?[nope I bottle that shit up!!!! But if it’s a long standing crush I’ll tell a few people eventually]83: Do you miss your last sweetie?[No.]84: Last time you slow danced with someone?[my friend Franklin at prom. We pretended to be spies on a mission forced to act casual as we scoped out potential enemies]85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?[??? Don’t like the skeptical quote marks. I’ve been in long distance relationships before, yes.]86: How can I win your heart?[just like…… be nice to me, ever, and I’m into it. Talk about things you like, ask me about things I like, try and get into/understand my interests and I’ll do the same?? Don’t make fun of me and don’t belittle my interests. The bar is low]87: What is your astrological sign?[leo]88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?[sleeping]89: Do you cook?[pasta!!!!!!!]90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?[yeah!!! 3 years of no talking and I reconnected with max recently]91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?[uh it’s complicated. Yes but idk if I’m in a good place for a relationship. I haven’t even begun to transition at all.]92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?[you say that like I could get multiple people to date me]93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?[nice dress style?? Glasses are good too. Idk questions like this are hard augh]94: Name four things that you wish you had![money, a job, plush darkwing duck toy, a car]95: Are you a player?[no]96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?[nooooope]97: Are you a tease?[hahahahaha no]98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?[nope!!! Not yet]99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?[maybe. But I don’t think you can love someone too deeply who doesn’t love you back]100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?[sure, plenty]101: Hugs or Kisses?[both??? Both is good]102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?[It’s Not shyness, it’s rejection I have a problem with]103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?[girls are pretty]104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?[Yeah I guess]105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?[If it was an open relationship and everyone knew the situation, then yea prob?? If not, then no.]106: Do you flirt a lot?[not really]107: Your last kiss?[my grandmaaaaa]108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?[not in a romantic way]109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?[not in a romantic way]110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?[next question]111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?[nope!! It’s a hopefully nice surprise for future me]112: Does someone like you currently?[probably not lol but ive got no idea!!]113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?[sure]114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?[I want to fall in love.]115: Ever made out with just a friend?[yeah]116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?[in a relationship I think?]117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.[just send me an ask and ill answer it]
This got a bit of self hatred dashed in there whoops sorry!!!
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