#how am i supposed to feel safe here anymore when anyone i meet could be this anon here? the answer is that i can’t)

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

Honestly, I never meant to you to feel this way. I just wanna say sorry for ever hurting you ♥️ (/genuine)

you’re a liar and i hate you

your comment about making me feel physically ill was sarcastic as fuck, you specifically keep evading my attempts to block you, and you have shown to be keeping track of this, as shown by your previous ask questioning me on if i am going to block every new follower i get

if you were sorry, i wouldn’t be responding to you again, and you would’ve fucked off after the first few asks

this is the last response i’m giving you

[pastlivesxpastlie]

Sigh. Bestfriend!Vessel my beloved… He just got back home from tour, you offer him some help to, ehm, „relax”, which turns into lazy couch sex that then turns into him confessing his love to you while cumming deep inside you… Sorry, I am that bitch unfortunately 💔 (also if you end up taking this request f!reader is preferable but gn is fine too :3 (<- or whichever you're most comfy with, I mean this is your writing after all lol))

Hello that bitch, I am too tbh. Not super lazy, but it's cozy

bff!vessel x f!reader ❣️

friends to lovers, smut with feelings, couch sex, love confessions

♡♡♡♡♡♡

With the tour at an end, most would think Vessel wanted to spend his first night back in his own home, but no. He wanted to be with his best friend. You couldn’t believe it when he knocked on your door completely unannounced, and he could have died when you jumped into his arms. 

“I hope it’s ok I’m here…” he murmurs.

“What?!” You brush his hair back a bit. “You’re always welcome here. You know that…never have to ask.”

He looks tired and jet lagged, you’re surprised he’s still awake. But he insists that he wants to stay up and watch something with you (and hopefully have a snack. Please PLEASE offer him a snack). Despite being worn out, Vessel still keeps his stick straight posture as he sits on the couch, his core engaged and hands stiffly in his lap. You nudge him, but he just nudges you back. Little shit. It becomes a little slap fight until he topples into your lap, calling you a wanker. But something stops you both from playing anymore. There’s a pause…barely a second of silence…and you feel like you’re about to kiss; it’s over as soon as it started. “Why did you nudge me?” Vessel whispers. You shake your head like you’re coming out of a daze.

“Oh, uhm, I was going to say you should stretch out. I can sit over there,” you nod to the chair, but Vessel shakes his head “no” without hesitation. And that’s how you ended up spooning on the couch, watching something inconsequential on TV. You feel safe in his arms…against his chest, the sound of his breathing and occasional chuckle comforting you. God, you missed him while he was gone, so much so that you found yourself jealous of everyone who got those parts of him while he was on the road. What was left for you when he got back? But that thought threatens to turn ugly—just be glad he’s here and makes time for you. You curl closer to him in an attempt to quell those thoughts when you feel him move behind you. Oh… was that… “Ves? Oh my god! Surely you got enough on the road,” you tease. 

He tries to squirm back. “I’M SORRY! IT’S A NATURAL REACTION,” he pleads. “And for your information, no I didn’t—“

“Oh you didn’t get enough? Pooooor you!” 

“NO! You cheeky thing. I was going to say before you interrupted me that I was too busy working to “get” anything. I’m a professional.”

You feel a little bad for saying that, hoping he didn’t think you thought poorly of him. “Sorry, Ves…I was kidding.”

“I know.” There’s that pause again. But it’s long this time. Is his grip tightening? And…there’s that thump against your lower back again. “Can’t just do that with anyone. Need to be…comfortable first.” He nuzzles into the back of your neck and groans softly…the epitome of “comfortable.”

“I…I get that. Comfortable or uhm…being comfortable first is really important…not just for me I mean everyone probably…” you feel that thump again but this time it’s pressed close to you. 

“Are you…comfortable,” Vessel asks 

You roll over to face him and take in that one final second before everything changes. “Quiet. And you?” A breath. Your lips meet so tenderly it’s almost painful, the only thing soothing the ache is Vessel’s wide hand cupping the side of your face. It’s not surprising that he’s a good kisser, but you just can’t believe how natural it feels to kiss him. Your hand wanders under his shirt and traces the ridges of his muscles. Ves pulls back and whimpers against your lips…how are you supposed to resist that?

“You feel so fucking good,” he rasps. Your blood runs hot as his kisses trail down your jaw to the crook of your neck. “You wearing the perfume I got you for your birthday?” It’s a rhetorical question. He knows it is because he imagined what you’d smell like wearing it and nothing else for him. The way your core clenches and aches for him when he breathes in your scent scares you a little because you never thought you’d act on these feelings…but here you are letting him lift up your shirt and explore wherever he wants with his mouth. His soft kisses make your back arch, which presses your tits into his face even more much to his pleasure. “So soft for me…” he whispers before taking your nipple in his mouth. You moan and clamp your thighs together, desperate for any kind of attention down there. Ves chuckles and moans as you squirm from his affection. “You like that?”

“Yes…yes…don’t stop.”

“This is all you want?” God he’s so gentle, even when he bites at the fullest part of your breast. “Just want me to play with these all night,” he teases, “I can do…so much for you.” Vessel’s hand cups your pussy through your shorts, his fingers tremble. “May I?” You nod softly and bite your lip, watching him sit up to take off his shirt. “Get undressed for me.” 

Now it’s Vessel’s turn to bite his lip and let his eyes go hazy. Watching you strip for him because you’re so comfy with him is the stuff of his naughty little fantasies. Oh how he’s longed for you even when you’re close enough to touch. He moves you to lay back on your side again and gently caresses your slit when you’re spread open for him. He’s already pulled off his sweats, and you’re trying to grind down towards him but the way he holds your leg aloft against his chest keeps you in place. Needy. Grinding nothing, begging for your best friend’s cock. Vessel sees this and chuckles softly.

“You good? Ready?” He whispers as he timidly presses the head of his cock against your entrance. 

“Fuck…please…” 

Ves plants a foot on the floor and presses into you. You both moan together. His whimpers and your gasps sound absolutely sinful as he pumps you. The feeling of fullness is so sweet but he doesn’t want to stop there. When Vessel bottoms out, he presses into you just the tiniest bit more, letting the weight and heat of us pubic bone rest against you. He breathes hard, looking down at you in awe, and starting fucking you. He growls and grabs at your thigh, your tummy. Any soft yummy part he can grab. Your back arches out of desperation. You want to move. To fuck him back. But his wide hands keep you still…his perfect doll. “Look at you…so perfect…split on my cock…taking it so good. So tight and pretty…aren’t you?” he pants. But you can only whimper in response, which makes him smile. A genuine, sweet smile…the one you fell in love with. His hand finds your chin and keeps you looking at him as he slows down. “Hey…do you know…what a sweetheart you are? My sweetheart.” He thrusts harder. “My only sweetheart.” He shudders and moans pathetically. He can’t go slow anymore. The only thing he can do is chase both of your climaxes with hard, steady thrusts. “I love you….fuck…d-do you know that? I love you.” he groans out as he cups your face. “Just you…it’s….ffffuuuuccccckkkk” he can hardly hang on… “it’s always you.”And then you whisper what he’s been dying to hear for years.. 

“Ves…mm…I love you…I love you so much.”

The way you pant between your words and give yourself over to him gives him a jolt. “Where may I cum? Please…please I just want to cum for you.” Your hands find his, one on your face, the other still propping up your thigh.”

“Cum in your sweetheart.”

[yuri-is-online]

Soap Operatic Symphony (A Fyuuture Kid AU ft. Scarabia, Pomefiore, Ignihyde, and Diasomnia)

While camping in the mountains during Camp Vargas, you encounter a monster exactly like the one you fought off with Ace and Deuce at the beginning of the year. While trying to fight it off again, a strange portal opens up in the mine and a person jumps out of it to your rescue. He says he doesn't remember much, but it's clear when you bring him to Crowley that this boy is also from your world, despite being a mage, and until the headmage can think of a better solution, he assigns "Yutu" to your dorm.

Something a certain someone has an opinion about.

notes: yeah I have nothing to say for myself, I have other stuff I am supposed to be writing but this wrote itself ok? ok. Anyway this is a future kid au where your son has come back in time to try and prevent the end of the world but mostly to make sure you don't die. You can see this ask for a detailed explanation of what's up with Yuu and my masterlist for other fic. Oh and the other dorms can be found here.

Scarabia

In general, Jamil is going to be torn between being deeply suspicious of the entire situation and feeling like it's none of his business while Kalim is excited to meet a potential new friend.  How they act on those feelings changes depending on who Yutu is trying to interact with.

Kalim- anyone trying to get close to Kalim has to be watched obsessively by Jamil, and Yutu is no exception.  If anything the surveillance is worse due to the strange way he showed up, and Kalim doesn't like it but he understands.  For Yutu's part he seems really receptive to Kalim's efforts to befriend him, which is the furthest Kalim is going to think about it for a while, but he also notices the strange nostalgia and grief Yutu seems to feel when interacting with you and he really wants to help.  He's sure if Yutu would just talk about it, he could give him some good advice.  They get along really well!  But Yutu seems really reluctant to give out personal information… which Jamil really doesn't like. Kalim's sure he doesn't mean anything by it because of how apologetic he is! But he does sort of wonder if he's done something to make Yutu not feel safe around him... it makes him sort of sad.

Jamil- Once he got a look at that portal, Jamil realized that he didn't actually know what it looked like when you arrived at NRC.  He certainly remembers the mess Grim made, but not much about you beyond how confused you looked.  He'll have to ask about it sometime but for now, he's got questions.  Number one: who the fuck is this guy really?  His name isn't Yutu, he sure as shit isn't from your world, otherwise he couldn't be a mage, and his attitude towards you is just suspicious.  He has got to want something, and Jamil is torn between protectiveness of you and his adamant refusal to give himself anymore work.  It doesn't help that Yutu seems very apologetic to him specifically, he swears the kid seems to be apologizing for his entire existence.  It's weird, and he tells him to knock it off because it's not like he's his dad.  For some reason that just makes it worse.

Pomefiore

Vil- Epel is the one to tell him about the monster attack, the portal, and the strange protectiveness Yutu has towards Yuu.  That last thing doesn't bother him as much as you might expect, as soon as he learns that you're from the same world he thinks it's perfectly natural.  Admirable even.  The fake name and desire for privacy doesn't bother him either, as an actor both things seem normal to him.  What worries him is the idea that something very wrong is happening in the background that he doesn't know about, which he makes very clear to Yutu after sending Rook to distract you.  Yutu seems hesitant to trust him, and only offers vague warnings about making sure Yuu stays safe and keeping an eye on Grim.  Well now, they can both agree on that, and wouldn't it be easier if Yutu cooperated with him?  He's not going to take no for an answer.

Rook- Oh?  Ramshackle Dorm has a new member?  What a charming surprise!  He's sure this will lead to many new beautiful experiences.  And he's right!  Yutu is very beautiful, but there's something oddly familiar and yet… wrong about him.  Like he doesn't quite belong here, and not in the same way that you don't belong here.  He looks haunted, his interactions with you scream that he possesses (or to be more accurate used to possess) a relationship that can only have been built over several years.  But you clearly don't remember him, and there's a painful aura of grief in his interactions with you.  He also notices, with a great deal of joy, that the same grief is present when the little one speaks to him.  Just what could that mean? The hunter is in no rush, he'll find out what that means in time, for now he'll keep dropping in unannounced to test Yutu's reflexes. 

Side note: I don't speak French so I don't know if this would be the correct way to say it, but I like the idea of Rook's nickname for Yutu being Monsieur Caneton (Monsieur Duckling), because of how he follows Yuu around. Floyd's nickname I reserve the right to change depending on who Yutu's father is.

Epel- He starts off a hater, I am not going to lie.  Protecting you is something Epel takes a great deal of pride in; he wants to be seen as manly, as the protector, as someone who you think of as cool and trusts to provide for you.  So for a giant portal to open in the sky and drop a new guy determined to protect you from the monsters?  He hates it, he really does, and that's BEFORE Yutu starts living in Ramshackle Dorm.  He's determined to ignore him and not let him into the friend group, which proves impossible because of how Yutu follows you around so fine.  He can sit with you but ONLY IF he accepts that Epel was there first.  Something he's really surprised to see him do?  He should be more suspicious of why Yutu is constantly asking him for advice or acting like he's cool for being so possessive over you but well.  It's Epel he really wants to be seen as cool so he's just not going to think about it.

Ignihyde

Ortho- Ortho wasn't there to see the portal so he can't analyze it, but he can analyze Yutu!  And he immediately finds the Shroud family curse.  How curious, is this something he should tell his brother immediately?  Or should he skip the line and talk to their parents… decisions decisions but he doesn't have to wait for too long for an explanation.  Yutu explains himself pretty quickly when called out and Ortho is beyond excited to learn he's an uncle.  Less excited to learn about the impending apocalypse but he's sure they can fix it if they work together.  Now to double his efforts to get you and Idia together…

Idia- a second person has been isekaid to the NRC oh no.  Whatever will he do?  Well he intended to do nothing but Ortho isn't letting him.  For some reason he seems really determined to get him to hang out with you, almost like he knows about his crush he's been so good at hiding.  He can't complain too much, talking with you is weirdly soothing and much easier than he'd anticipated.  And Yutu's there too he guesses.  Sometimes they parallel play while Idia hangs out with you and that's nice.  It's sort of weird how in tune Yutu is with him though, sometimes he swears they could be related. A thought that Ortho is weirdly determined to encourage, and refuses to explain why... maybe he should be more worried about what anime little bro has been watching recently.

Diasomnia

Right so dragon biology is weird and our knowledge of half fae is very limited.  From how Sebek looks and how Malleus’s birth is discussed, I assume the eggs produced by love is exclusive to dragon fae and other species just get babies in the normal way.  All of that to say:

Malleus- Yutu is an oddity from the jump.  He looks very young, but insists he's around the same age as Yuu, and Malleus swears he feels his own magic is a part of him.  It's like a precious stone has grown some legs and started walking around and talking back to him.  He's a little bit in love, not the same way he's in love with Yuu, but much like a parent would think of a child… perhaps if they get closer he can offer him the night's blessing.  He does seem to be lacking it and that just won't do, something inside him says that needs to be fixed immediately.  Lilia questions him on whether or not he's jealous of how close the little one is to Yuu, which surprises him greatly.  Why would he be- well.  He does wish he could spend more time with Yuu but that sort of envy applies to everyone, not just Yutu.  And none of those guys are so unafraid of him to have made him a friendship bracelet so there. 

Lilia- a mage?  From Yuu's world?  How exciting!  He's very pleased to see how well he gets along with his boys and takes Sebek’s shouting in stride.  It's inspirational how quick he picks up on how gullible Sebek is and immediately starts telling-  well Lilia supposes he doesn't know they're outright lies but the scolding he gets from Yuu certainly suggests they are.  It's all very cute, and something he really wishes he could be a part of, but he knows his time is limited.  He'll just have to treasure these experiences while he's allowed them, something Yutu is very willing to help him do!  What a good kid, he'll have to tell him how proud his parents must be of him.

Silver- A portal, a monster, and a new mysterious person… it's concerning.  Something dangerous has got to be happening with how worried over you this new person is, his name is Yutu?  Weird but then his name is Silver so who is he to judge.  Anyway he introduces himself to Yutu and he asks why he came through the portal and… isn't really satisfied with his answers.  He doesn't think Yutu is a threat, not to Malleus anyway, but there's just something off about this whole thing and it's his task as a knight to make sure the people he loves are safe.  What's that?  Well of course you are one of those people.  You're very important and- why is Yutu looking at him like that.  He's telling the truth, what does he mean that makes it worse? Is it his face?

Sebek- Oh look another perfectly average human who is ok.  He guesses.  Not that he's thought extensively about you personally, only as a precaution to make sure you aren't disrespecting Lord Malleus, you get that right?  Him cornering Yutu with a strained look on his face and shouting at him about how to properly respect Lord Malleus is something he would do to anybody.  It has nothing to do with him assuming that if this person respects Lord Malleus they will be safe for "that human" to be around.  Unfortunately, Yutu is not just anybody and immediately starts yelling back accusing him of disrespecting you.  It's like there's two of them now, just with different biases, rip everyone's eardrums.

[heavyhitterheaux]

Meet Me At the Atlar Part 2

AN: The time has finally come!

Synopsis: You have to deal with the aftermath of learning that your fiancé has cheated on you with your older sister and has apparently gotten her pregnant

Pairing: Joe Burrow x Reader

Read Part 1 first

Joe Burrow Masterlist

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You felt as if you were in the Twilight Zone with what you had just heard Marlene say when there was a collective gasp that filled the room.

All you did was turn around to look at her to see her staring right back at you and not backing down. Both of your parents looked at the two of you in confusion.

"You are literally nothing but a two faced bitch and I hope that nothing good comes to you for the rest of your life." You softly said while shaking your head in disbelief.

"Well it's not my fault he wanted me!" She shrugged and you could tell that she didn't really care about your feelings. She got what she wanted and that was to your surprise your fiancé and a baby.

"You're an adult and you are just as responsible for your actions as he is. So do me a favor, never speak to me again in your life. And as for you…" You started to say as you turned around to face Joe and simply shook your head in disbelief as all of the guests had their eyes on the two of you but not for the reason that you wanted.

You slipped off your engagement ring and played with it in your hands.

"I'm just going to pawn this seeing as there will be absolutely no reason for me to wear it again. Consider this over."

"Y/N, wait a minute! I can explain!" Joe exclaimed while trying to grab your hand, but you quickly snatched it away from him.

"God forgive me. I am in the lord's house about to curse again but HOW CAN YOU EXPLAIN FUCKING MY OLDER SISTER AND GETTING HER PREGNANT AT THE SAME TIME AS ME? HOW?! HOW DOES THAT WORK? PLEASE EXPLAIN THAT TO ME SO THAT I UNDERSTAND."

"I-...."

"Exactly."

All you did was shake your head as you picked up your dress to make a run for it back down the aisle as Camille, Alex, and Raina ran behind you leaving everyone else standing there.

You could hear Joe yelling for you as well as both of your parents, but you just couldn't bring yourself to speak to any of them.

Once you were outside, you were trying to catch your breath in between the tears that began to roll down your face. Camille along with Alex and Raina stood there comforting you as all three of them brought you into a hug.

"I know, let it out." Alex said as she soothingly rubbed your back as you let out a hiccup.

"But come on, I don't want anyone to see you like this." Raina suggested as she already knew that Joe was more than likely making his way outside to find you.

All three of them led you to the limo that was supposed to take you and Joe to the reception and simply told the driver to take all of you back to the hotel. Camille crawled in behind you but before she did, she threw your bouquet on the ground seeing as you didn't need it anymore.

All of you simply rode around in silence before anyone said anything.

"What do you need us to do? What are you thinking right now?" Raina asked as she played with the hem of her dress.

"That I need to get the fuck out of here." You answered as you started to massage your temples.

"Well where do you want to go?"

"A place where I can lay low for the rest of my pregnancy because I want nothing to do with him and nothing to do with her either."

"Oh, I have an idea. My parents vacation house in Denver. No one will look for you there." Camille piped up and said.

"Will they be okay with me staying there?"

"Girl, considering the circumstances without a doubt. They love you and will probably want to kill him when they find out about this because you already know people can't keep their mouths shut."

"I need to go to the hotel and get out of this dress and grab clothes."

"And then we're going to the airport."

"But…"

"We need to at least make sure you get there safely. We'll stay with you for a few weeks and then come back home. There is no way in hell we are letting you out of our sight in the emotional state that you're in. When we get there we'll find an OB/GYN that takes your insurance and get you set up with everything that you need. Your kid is going to be just fine because they have you for a mother. And I will make sure he doesn't find you, so we'll start by getting you a new phone when we get there. And I'm blocking him because I know for a fact he's going to ask me where you are."

"I just… Marlene. I looked up to her and wanted to be just like her all for her to go behind my back when I get a little bit of happiness. I always supported her through every single break up, when she dropped out of college, totaling our father's car, and that's not even half of it. As far as I'm concerned, I don't have a sister anymore."

"Yes you do have a sister. You have us. And we're going to support you through this. You don't need him and truth be told you never did. You've always been amazing in your own right."

Once back at the hotel, you got up to your room and slipped off your dress with the tears still cascading down your face. The clothes that you packed were not appropriate for Denver's weather, but all that could be resolved once you got there and you simply slipped on a Bengals hoodie with one of your black shirts underneath along with some sweatpants before sliding on your shoes.

When you were finished packing up all of your things, your wedding dress was still laid out on the bed and you simply stared at it.

The two of you were supposed to be having your first dance as a married couple at the reception right now, but instead you were about to disappear and pray and hope that he didn't find you.

You took one last look at it before deciding to leave it there on the bed.

You walked to Camille's room and knocked on the door and she answered it having all of her bags in tow too.

"You ready? Where's your dress?"

"I'm ready and I left it on the bed. I want nothing to do with him and besides he's the one who paid for it."

Camille stifled a laugh as she reached over to take your hand and tightly squeezed it.

"Come on, let's go. Hopefully there's a direct flight and we won't have to worry about layovers."

Luck was on your side because as soon as you got to the airport, there were a few direct flights to Denver that would be taking off in two hours or less.

Once settled with your tickets and going through TSA, all of you decided to find a Starbucks since you had been craving a caramel ribbon crunch with extra caramel. This entire time your phone had been going off and not once did you look at it knowing that it was probably Joe along with your parents and the rest of your family. You doubted that Marlene was one of them and you were praying and hoping that she wasn't.

When all of you got to your gate and were waiting to board, you pulled out your phone to find a string of messages and calls and most of them being from Joe which you weren't surprised by. However, there was one from Marlene and you quickly opened it.

Mar- I would tell you that I'm sorry, but the bottom line is that I'm not. He should be with me and not you. So go run along and cry in a corner like you always do when you don't get your way. That's all it seems like you're good for anyway. Can't wait to start my family with Joe and I'll send you pictures of the baby.

"That stupid ass bitch has some absolute nerve." You muttered and Camille quickly took your phone to see what you had been talking about.

"No the fuck she didn't." She said as she grabbed your phone and also showed Raina and Alex.

"Karma is a bitch and I can't wait until it comes for her. How dare she hurt her little sister like that? And you would do absolutely anything for her. I don't know how many times you've bent over backwards for her." Alex piped up and said while sipping on her chai latte.

"I'm just so happy and thankful that I have you three. I just…. I really thought he was the one."

"Well he didn't give you any reason not to think that he was! We were rooting for him! Insert Tyra Banks meme. Like you two are or were perfect for each other. Ever since he kept making eye contact with you at the game we all went to, I knew it was a done deal. We all knew it was just a matter of time before the two of you walked down the aisle. I'm so sorry that he didn't realize what he had in front of him."

"And he's never going to be able to get me back. I don't care what he does, my answer is always going to be no." You quietly said while trying not to cry. You were still so in shock about what just happened, and you did cry earlier but you had a feeling that tonight would be ten times worse and it would hit you like a ton of bricks.

After you had taken off back down the aisle with your bridesmaids following you, all eyes were then on Joe and Marlene.

Both of Joe's older brothers looked at him confused, but your mom was the first to speak.

"I…. Marlene…. How? How in the world did you think that this was okay? And Joseph, don't even get me started on you."

Your father was giving Joe the death glare and had to be held back by your uncles as he was heading straight towards Joe.

"You broke my youngest daughter's heart by going for my oldest? You asked for my permission to marry her and go and pull this shit? And Marlene, why am I not surprised? You can't see anyone be happy except for yourself."

"I…." Joe started to say but was immediately cut off by your dad.

"No explanation is about to save you because there is literally no excuse for this."

"I'm not apologizing because he wanted me instead. It was only a matter of time before he left her for me anyway."

"I was NEVER going to leave her for you and I don't know how many times I have to tell you that. Besides, I don't even know if that kid is mine! I know that Y/N's is!" Joe piped up while running a hand through his hair.

"I mean does it even matter at this point?" Jamie asked while looking at his younger brother.

"But…"

"I mean on the plus side Marlene is pregnant." Your Aunt Diandra said and your mother immediately rolled her eyes.

"You cannot be serious."

"I'm happy for her in that regard!"

"Do me a favor." Your father said as he approached Joe who could admit to himself how intimidated he was at the moment since your father was an ex-NFL player himself.

"Stay away from Y/N and you better consider yourself lucky if I even let you near my grandchild that she's carrying. And as for you Marlene, I taught you better and since you decided to break up what would have been a happy marriage, you can get out of my house until you can learn to show respect to your sister."

You had been in Denver for about three weeks and was settling in as best as you could. It didn't take long for you to find your own place, but it wouldn't be ready until the end of the month so you were still staying at Camille's parents house.

Your daughter was growing at a normal rate and you couldn't have been more excited for her to get here. However, there was one major problem.

Her father.

Headlines broke the next day about what happened between you and Joe and you had gone ghost. You had gotten a new phone and you only had a few numbers. Since you changed your number also, the only people that had your number were your parents, Camille, Alex, Raina, and both of Joe's brothers. You figured that you would at least give them updates to let them know that you were okay, but Joe didn't deserve that.

You were at the point where you didn't want him in the delivery room and quite frankly you didn't want him near you for the rest of your pregnancy. The last thing you needed was for her to sense that something was wrong with her mother and be under stress. You wanted for him to stay far away from you and her for that matter. However, you wanted your daughter to have a good relationship with him, despite what he had done to you.

She deserved to know him and have him in her life even if you didn't want him in yours. When it got closer to your due date, you had to make a decision if you actually wanted him there with you. If course one side of you is saying fuck him, while the other still has a soft spot and want to share that important moment with him.

Camille had just gotten back to Ohio the day before after making sure that you were okay even though she knew you weren't. Her heart broke every time the two of you talked and she could see it in your eyes how much of a struggle this was for you and for good reason.

She had been waiting for her Chinese take out order when she suddenly heard her doorbell ring. She quickly got up to answer it and immediately rolled her eyes when she saw who it was.

"You aren't my Chinese take out." She said while staring blankly at Joe.

"I…. Camille. I need to talk to her."

"Hmm, talk to who? Your fiancé that you betrayed? Do I have that right? What makes you think that you deserve to be anywhere near her?"

"Come on Camille, I know you know where she is."

"What makes you think that Burrow?"

"Because you're one of her best friends! Just… I need to talk to her! She's pregnant!"

"What you need to do is leave her the fuck alone. You weren’t concerned that she was pregnant when you were going around sticking your dick in places that it doesn't belong. You and Marlene can go fuck yourselves. I know exactly where she is and I'm not fucking telling you so get the hell off my doorstep."

"Just… is she safe?"

"What is it to you? She's good. That's all you need to know and as of right now you aren't allowed in the delivery room. Have a good night." Camille finished speaking as she slammed her front door in his face.

Once the door was closed, she immediately sent you a text.

Cami- Your baby daddy is looking for you

You- 🖕🏽🖕🏽🖕🏽

Cami- Lmaoooo he showed up on my doorstep and I promptly told him to fuck off

You- And that's why we're best friends. I love you for this so thank you.

Cami- You absolutely never have to thank me for protecting you. I got you for life, you know this 💕

You- Look at Baby Burrow's Godmother coming through!

Cami- Are you still giving her his last name? 👀

You- I'm on the fence about it to be honest

Cami- Well whatever you decide I'll support you 100%

You- 🥹

After another month and a half and a whole lot of delays, you were finally settled into your condo and currently folding up clothes in the nursery. Just the week before, your parents along with your best friends threw you a baby shower and loaded you up with anything and everything that you might need for her first year of life.

However, you also felt some type of way when you looked on instagram to see that your extended family threw Marlene a baby shower as well despite what she did to you. From the time that you could remember, you were always in her shadow and you never quite felt that you were good enough. They put Marlene on a pedestal no matter how many times that she might mess up while they acted as if you didn't exist. But Marlene used to never let that slide until she decided to be a backstabbing bitch.

But you knew that she was going to get hers in due time, and you couldn’t wait to see it unfold right before your eyes. If you had done your math right, you knew that her due date was coming up soon and wanted nothing to do with her or the baby.

Almost a week later, Marlene was trying to do anything and everything to get into contact with you as tears were streaming down her face as her newborn son cried hysterically in the background.

She messed up and she messed up big time.

She hurt the one person in the world that she knew would have her back through anything and had a feeling that you would never forgive her for the rest of both of your lives and for good reason.

She kept calling your new number that she had gotten from your mother's phone and it was steadily going to voice-mail.

It was the sixth time when she decided to finally leave you a message hoping that you would answer her.

"Y/N, baby girl. I am so so sorry. Please call me back so we can talk. I know I hurt you and I feel terrible about it. I hurt the one person that has always been there for me. I… I'm calling because I got the DNA results. Joe wouldn't take no for an answer to getting them and….. I get it as to why. Um, I said all that to say that the baby isn't his."

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WITH YOU I SERVE, WITH YOU I FALL [1.2k | spec fic | eddie pov] {ao3} part one

a/n: well, i did not expect this to happen..but here we are, please enjoy but you dream of some epiphany from eddie's perspective, aka what the real world looks like. title from epiphany by taylor swift. enjoy!

There are moments in life when things slow down. When you can know what’s going to happen as you watch in slow motion. Sometimes it’s happening to you. and sometimes to others. The nature of being a firefighter is you see those moments a lot. Both versions. Eddie had his fair share of them. 

One moment he’s on the ground watching Buck doing what he does best. And then he’s watching as the outline of his body flails, and then hangs, suspended in the air. 

“Buck!” he hears his own voice clamor through the rain. He can’t take his eyes off Buck's body, dangling, limbs limp. It reminds him of a stained glass in his childhood church. 

“Cap, we gotta get him down. Please. How do we get him down?” his mind is finally catching up with what just happened as each fact rolls over him. They have ten minutes. The ladder is electrified. They have ten minutes. And nobody is moving. He's still up there. 40 feet away. Harness tight around his thighs, bearing all his weight. With blood nowhere to go. 

“I'll go up,” he offers blindly. 

“What? So I can have both of you in the hospital electrocuted?” Bobby fixes him with a look, “We’ll get him down.” 

“Bobby, we are running out of time, he could d—,” there’s acid at the back of his throat, “You don’t think he’s already—?” 

“Eddie, no one thinks he’s dead. but we have to do this safely. I am not losing anyone tonight, okay?” 

He nods. And his eyes go back to Buck. He can’t move anymore. 

He’s not entirely sure how they do it. How they get him back to the ground. But he still can’t move as Hen and Chimney wrap a c-collar around his neck and work to get his heart back into rhythm, get him breathing. He’s not breathing. 

Still all he can do is stand and watch. Praying for the first time in years. 

You spared me, spare him too. 

“I have a steady rhythm.” 

“Let's move guys.” 

He’s pulled into the ambulance, Bobby meeting his eyes as he closes the doors and slams them shut. 

His eyes land on Buck’s hands, carefully placed one on top of the other, pale from a lack of oxygen, wet cold. 

His hand hovers, tracking the line of his body until it lands on his still face. Cheeks waned, brow perfectly neutral. 

Chimney looks up at him, laryngoscope poised. 

“Do it.” is all he can say. Chimney never asked, and he doesn’t have the authority really but he knows the question. It's better this time. It'll work this time. 

You didn’t spare her. Spare him for our sake. 

He finally wraps a hand around Buck's and continues his silent prayer. 

He’s not sure how he lets go. How he watches them take him beyond the doors. 

He’s inside, Bobby's hand on his elbow. 

“Eddie, why don’t we go to the chapel together.” 

It’s not actually a question, so he follows. 

They sit. Bobby prays. He prays in all the ways that he remembers.

Spare him. For our sake. Spare him.

“Wh-what happens now?” he finally asks. Because this part he’s never done before. 

“You go home.” 

He looks up dumbfounded. 

“You go home, and wait because waiting here is the same. And you tell Chris. And find comfort in each other. Because Buck is Chris’ person besides you. He’s your person.” 

Eddie swallows, “I've— I've never had someone like him. I don’t— I don’t know what I would—I thought I knew with her,” he swallows again, “but this feels—“ 

“It’s okay not to know it all right now.  Just remember how important he is to you. Whatever that may mean.”

The rain continues to pelt against the stained glass, artificial light streaming in, covering the altar in dappled colors. 

It feels strange, leaving the building without him. 

--

“Hey dad, where’s Buck?” 

Because it’s Friday night. Buck was supposed to be here. Sitting on the couch, bringing a beer to his lips while they playfully argue over pizza toppings and movies. 

“Hi bud,” Chris looks up, his eyes wide with that knowing look that no kid his age should have. He sits on the bed. He doesn’t know how Buck did this. 

“Chris, there was an accident while we were at work, and Buck. Buck got hurt. He's in the hospital right now. And he’s going to be alright. He just— has to sleep for a while, so his body can recover.” 

“Like you did?” 

“Yeah, a little bit like that. But— Chris, it could be longer. We don’t know. But you know Buck, right? He doesn’t give up.” 

Chris nods and leans into him. And that’s how they stay until eventually Chris nods off. and Eddie lifts him and tucks him into bed. 

He makes his way to his room. The one now indelibly filled with Buck, his touch entombed in the walls. The throw pillows and the plant that he had encouraged Eddie to buy, never forcing him but telling him it would look nice and it would fit in the new room that they repaired together. 

They built this home together. In more ways than one. 

The next few days are a weird routine. Eddie goes to the hospital, he takes Chris Saturday morning. 

Sunday afternoon he walks up the path from the parking lot and finds Maddie standing with a cup of coffee staring after a car with Pennsylvania plates. 

“Maddie?” 

“They— they wouldn’t even come inside. It's been three days, and— I really thought that maybe this time. After— he’s only ever tried to make them see him. But they aren’t going to change.” 

He takes one of her hands and runs a soothing thumb over her knuckles. “He doesn't need them. He has us.” 

“I'm really glad he has you and Chris.” 

“Well, thank you. We wouldn’t have him if it weren’t for you.” 

There’s a hint of a watery smile as she tilts her head toward the doors and they head inside. 

He’s not even sure how many hours later it is. Maddie went home squeezing his shoulder as she left. He can stay, Chris spending the night with Hen and Karen. So he stays. 

His eyes wander over Buck’s body, perfectly still. His brow is still neutral. Pale. 

“I don’t know if you can hear me. If you were awake you would probably rattle off the statistics. But nevertheless, I need you to come home. Please.” He lets his finger wander to the Lichtenberg figure that has begun to spread further below the sleeve of his hospital gown. He had heard about them before. How they were created within billionths of a second or over years. How one thing can change your body down the line. How one decision is the linchpin. 

He thanks the God that he’s been praying to that he made all the right ones that lead him here. Despite every struggle. That he gets to be here, in this life, with Buck by his side. Whatever that may mean.  The hand around his grabs tight, and it’s a shock to his system. Buck looks terrified as tears pool in his eyes. 

“Hey, you’re okay,” and it feels warm in his chest as he takes a breath with Buck. Wiping a tear from his cheek. 

He barely remembers hitting the call button, but soon they’re not alone. Just Buck’s eyes fixed to his across the room among the chaos. 

Whatever that may mean.  Home. 

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Heeyyyy idk if ur still doing the sentence prompts but like… am i supposed to just let you go?… but with Dream and Nightmare would be 😩👌 just saying 👀🥺👉👈

That's a very good pairing, I agree.

And if we twist it around a bit to make it Dream talking to a ghost/hallucination of Passive Nightmare...well, we'll just have to see how that plays out, won't we?

The only real warning here is Dream living in a state of denial. But we already knew he did that, really, so is it really a warning? But if I missed any other things I should've warned about, please let me know!

Happy reading!! Prompt is italicized.

~oOo~

Dream doesn't tend to pay too much attention to him anymore. He used to, back at the beginning, when he was still in freefall and catching up. Before everyone gave them the looks and made him feel guilty of something. Doing something shameful, something embarrassing. He used to cling and whimper and try to hug him and try to get anyone else to see him. They would all give him these pitying eyes and gently coax him into switching topics.

It made him feel crazy. It made him feel broken. Maybe he was.

But whether real or just a figment of his imagination, after finding that hundreds of years have passed and your brother now hates you and wishes you dead, after finding your friends and being thrust upon yet another pedestal--if all of this happened and you had a ghost lingering over your shoulder that looked like your brother back when he was yours and yours alone, wouldn't you want to cling to him, too? Wouldn't you do everything possible to somehow make this ghost real and tangible?

Nighty always vanished when Nightmare was around, anyway. It wasn't hard to separate the two. There was his brother, his Nighty, who was always with him, just as he should be and then there was Nightmare, a painful reflection that sounded like his brother, but acted so differently and glared at him with too many negative emotions. When he was doubting himself and what he believed, he closed his eyes and reminded himself of this, how this was proof that Nightmare was not his brother and Nighty was they needed saving and only he could save them because only he knew of Nighty's existence.

Why else would he even exist? Why else would he sleep with a shadow above him? Why would Nighty comfort him during thunderstorms while Nightmare was off safe and sound back at his base? Why else would Dream be here, now, if not for the sole purpose of fixing things?

And he would fix this. He has to.

"You're doing it again."

Dream opens his eyes, giving up on feigning sleep. Rolling over, he finds Nighty sitting next to him, transparent hand hovering over his head. Upon their eyes meeting, his brother retracts it.

"Getting lost," Nighty clarifies, even though he didn't need to bother. He always said this. "I told you to stop. It isn't healthy."

Dream hums. People said that about talking to Nighty in the first place. But if he didn't, he wouldn't have had the strength to be here now. It gives him a purpose, something to fight for. Without Nighty, who was he?

"Dream," Nighty says, sounding stern. "Stop."

"I'm not doing anything."

"You're making things harder."

"People said that about you." Dream says, letting himself fall on his back to stare at the ceiling. It was easier to avoid feeling vulnerable this way. "Remember? They said you were--are, I guess--a hallucination my mind conjured after being traumatized. I couldn't bear to let you go, so I created you as company. They wanted me to forget you."

Nighty is silent for a moment. "Maybe they were right."

He's brought this up before. It felt like betrayal, the first time his brother hesitated and suggested everyone else was right. It's eased over the years, but it still stung. Dream closes his eyes. "Please. Don't do this again."

"I have to try. You won't listen to anyone else."

"Because they're wrong."

"Because you don't want them to be right."

"Same thing."

"You don't want me to not be real. You don't want to be hurt by the past. You don't want to accept that things have changed, your brother has changed."

Dream opens his eyes and looks back at Nighty. "Do you not want to be real?" He doesn't acknowledge the rest of what his brother said.

Nighty smiles sadly. "It doesn't matter what I want."

"So, what?" Dream says, closing his eyes again against the burn of tears. "Am I just supposed to let you go? You're not some hallucination, Nighty. You're real. You're real." It sounded like he was trying to convince himself instead of Nighty.

"You could...talk to him." Nighty offers, saying the words carefully.

Him. Nightmare.

Dream makes himself scoff. "No thanks. Nightmare isn't you."

"How do you know that?"

How does he, indeed?

Because Nighty is kind and good and comforting. He gets lost in libraries whenever Dream helps around in one, rambling about books and getting excited over new ones. He has read so many books because his brother has begged him to get them. Nighty is his brother, just as funny and smart as he always was.

Nightmare, on the other hand, is cruel and a killer and mean. He is mocking and insulting and just wrong. It doesn't matter that he always keeps an eye on his boys, turning back at the first sight of one of them being hurt. It doesn't matter that, despite saying he hates him and claiming he wants him dead, he has never fatally wounded Dream, not yet. It doesn't matter that he's seen Nightmare out of fights, when his brother hasn't noticed him, and he's buying new books and laughing and is just--just...happy.

It doesn't matter because it's not real. Nightmare is a facade, something to hide that his brother is lost and scared and in need of help. In need of saving. Nighty is a ghost, yes, but he's...

He's here. Nighty is here, right beside him.

That's all the proof Dream wants.

Dream swallows, turning away. He pulls the blanket up around his chin. "I'm going to sleep now. Goodnight."

Luckily, Nighty doesn't say anything else. Only sighs. "Goodnight, Dream. Sweet dreams." And then he falls silent, ready to wait until he wakes up. He always waits.

Usually, anyway.

Sometimes, when they have talks like this, Nighty is gone when he wakes up. But he always comes back. Because he's Nighty, not Nightmare. He's his brother. He'll always come back for him. He has to. He has to.

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Dear Zelda,

I'm writing this letter to give to you once I see you again. I thought it would be nice to keep a record.

I still can't believe it– I'm on the Surface! I wish you could be here with me, though. It's not nearly as great having to look for you as it would have been if I was with you.

I can't carry much paper with me, so I'll have to keep these letters short.

Link

---

Dear Zelda, 

It's been a month since you've fallen. They held a funeral for you today; no one believes me when I tell them you're still alive. Headmaster Gaepora said that it would be better this way, that it would all be alright once I brought you back and that it would give everyone else closure in the meantime.

Fi says that we're getting closer. There's barely any unexplored areas on my map left, so I should see you again soon! I told you about Gorko in my last letter, right? Well, he said that there's a temple near here. I'm going to check that out first.

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

Why weren't you there? You were supposed to be there. 

I should've been faster. This is my fault. 

---

Dear Zelda, 

Eldin is really hot. Fi says that the red stuff is melted rock, can you believe it? 

I met these strange creatures called the mogma– they were pretty nice! Not very helpful, though, but one of them said he saw a person in black– is that you? I don't know why you would be wearing black, though.

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

…She was right. I was too late. I couldn't save you. I can't save you. I was so scared that Ghirahim had gotten you when I saw the chains, but she protected you while I– while I did what? What was I doing that I could've avoided to reach you faster?

I hope you're okay, wherever you are.

Link

---

Dear Zelda, 

The desert is hot and dry during the day. It's cold during the night. There's sand in my boots and my bag and everywhere else. I don't like it here.

I thought about flying my beetle over the wall, just to see if you were alright, but– I realized that since you collapsed it, then you didn't want to see me.

It's okay. I understand. I'm not a very good hero after all, am I?

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

I don't talk much anymore. No one on Skyloft believes me, and I learned that it's better to just shut up. I don't think I've spoken to anyone but Fi in months. Maybe that's for the best. I never have anything that's worth saying, anyway.

Link

---

Dear Zelda, 

Where are you? Fi said she can't sense you, and that you're in a different world now. 

You didn't have to flee, I could've protected you! I know I'm not the best, or the strongest, or the fastest, but I'm enough! I'd do anything to protect you because I love you

…It doesn't matter, I guess. You're gone already. I hope you're safe.

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

…I don't know what to say anymore. Everything feels so different, like– like I'm changing, and you're changing, and when we meet again we won't recognize each other. 

I'm scared of that. You're really all I have left, you know? My only real friend anymore. You were the only one who reached out to me after my parents died, and… I just don't want to lose you.

…I don't know why I brought that up. It's not important.

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

This is taking too long. I asked Fi why I couldn't just learn the song, but she said that I would need to learn more later, and it would be easier this way. I don't see how. I've already wasted a month learning how to play this stupid harp. It doesn't help that Groose is still stuck down here because the statues only work for me.

Din's fire, my fingers hurt. How were you not constantly complaining when you were learning?

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

What the hell was that? What the hell was that thing?

I… I can't do this. Am I supposed to kill that thing? Is that what the goddess wants me to do?

She's wrong. She messed up. I'm not– brave, or courageous, or whatever else the old woman calls me. I'm not a hero, I'm just a scared boy and I don't know what to do because they're all wrong and they're looking at me to help them but I can't! 

It was… terrifying. Every step it took made the ground shake, and it had so many teeth. Its scales were sharp, and every time I touched one it cut through my skin like it was paper. I could feel its power from the top of the pit, and… gods, I really thought it would kill me. 

The old woman– Grannie, that’s what Groose calls her– said that it would probably break out again. I don't know how I'm supposed to face it again.

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

I’ve got the first flame. Groose is still stuck on the Surface.

He's been weirdly quiet ever since he saw me fight off the Imprisoned. Or maybe it's just because he saw me stitching myself up, and my scars are too ugly even for him. 

I'm surprised he hasn't started calling me crazy yet. Everyone else does, when they think I can't hear them. I always hear them I know I'm not. I can't be. I feel like I'm going mad sometimes but I'm not. 

Link (why am I even signing these?)

---

Dear Zelda,

I've always known that the robots were broken down, and would probably never be able to come back to life, but it never really sunk in until now.

I met one named Skipper. He's used to guard the flame, and he's helping me find his ship. We had to stop at his home to get a map, and I saw his family. They were broken, of course.

I'd never really thought of them as people until now, but there were pictures on the wall, and a letter from his kid– and I guess robots can have kids, and spouses. I wish there had been some way I could bring them down– but he knew there wasn't. He just looked at me, clearly sad even if his face didn't change. 

I don't know why it's bothering me so much. They've been dead for hundreds, maybe even thousands of years. 

Maybe it's better that I couldn't bring them down. It would just make it worse, right? There's no way to fix them, and they would've just been stuck on the boat like Skipper is. It doesn't stop me from feeling useless, though, and like I could've done more. 

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

It's been one year since you've fallen. Everyone thinks I'm crazy. They pull their kids away when they see me.

I don't blame them. My hair's grown out and I haven't brushed it in months. I carry a bunch of strange weapons. I don't remember the last time I bathed that wasn't in a river, and it's been even longer since I used soap. I'm covered in bloody bandages most of the time, and my clothes are more patches than they are the original fabric. I don’t even talk anymore; it’s like I’m some sort of– wild thing.

I looked in a mirror yesterday. I don't think you'll recognize me. My eyes looked wild and I'm covered in scars. Fi says they'll fade, but I don't believe her. Sometimes I wonder if I'm still Hylian, or if I'm just a breaking sword.

Would you still love me? I don't think so

Link

---

Dear Zelda, 

I’ve got the final flame. Ghirahim– he knows about the second Gate. I’m worried he’ll make it into the temple one day, and find you. If I’d been faster, maybe he never would’ve found it, and you’d be safe.

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

It has arms now. The Imprisoned– it broke out again. The seal is getting weaker. 

It was just as terrifying as the last time– and even more powerful. And it was faster, too. I barely managed to defeat it before it reached the temple. 

Groose built this catapult, to throw bombs. He's smarter than we ever gave him credit for. I don't think I would've been able to stop it without his help. I was scared he was going to die, though; the bombs he was handling were huge, and the ground was shaking constantly– it wouldn't have been hard for something to happen.

I haven't let him out of my sight since then. I'm– I'm so scared that I'm going to lose one of the only people I have left. He doesn’t even care that I barely talk to him anymore.

Would you– would Hylia take him from me? Because you think he's a distraction from what I'm supposed to be doing? 

Goddesses, my hands are still shaking.

Link

---

Did I ever really know you? Was it all just a lie? Did you– did you kill my parents, so that I had to be close to you? Were you just laughing at me the entire time, at this stupid boy that actually thought he had a friend?

I don't know what to think. I loved you. I still do. I should be angrier but I'm not and it's all just not right and I wish we could go back to how it used to be, even if it was just a lie.

---

Dear Zelda, 

I hurt Crimson today. He got hit when we were fighting Levias's parasite. 

It's my fault. It was shooting these… things at me and I was hitting them back with my sword and I missed and I hit Crimson and it's my fault. 

We're stuck on this island until he heals. It's probably going to be a couple of days, since no one is going to come look for me. Everyone is more surprised when I'm there than when I'm gone.

It should've been me that got hit

He's not mad at me, but he should be. I always mess things up.

Goddesses, I hope he's okay. I… don't know what I would do without him. I know most people can survive the death of their loftwing, but… I don't think I would be able to. I already feel like I'm losing more of myself everyday, I can't lose half of my soul like that.

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

Groose is a lot nicer than he used to be. He even helped patch me up without calling me a loser. His face was all red when I took my shirt off, though. I think he's getting sick. I'll have to tell Granny about it.

It's… nice to have someone that knows. Fi knows everything, of course, but it's just not the same. Even if we never really liked each other… goddess, I'm just glad that someone from Skyloft believes me. He's even becoming a friend, I think. 

We fought the Imprisoned again today. It was just as terrifying as before– even more so. It started flying, and Groose barely managed to shoot it down in time. One time, he even had to shoot me at it. It feels like it’s breaking out faster and faster every time– are you weakening because I’m taking too long?

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

I can't do this anymore 

I'm tired

Why me why did it have to be me

I talked to Faron today. She's split the song up into these things called tadtones. I need to collect them before she'll teach me her part.  

It's going to take a while. They're all over the forest. She flooded it too, so I'll have to do all of it underwater. 

Link

---

Dear Zelda, 

I lost Fi. 

It was stupid. I came down right when the volcano erupted, and– I’m not sure what happened, exactly, but I got knocked out and captured by bokoblins. They took all of my stuff, including Fi– and I was terrified. There was smoke everywhere, and they had watchtowers set up, and I never realized how much I relied on her until she was gone.

Eldin was polite– or at least, he didn’t threaten to eat me like Faron does. All that’s left is one more part.

Link

---

Dear Zelda, 

I think this is going to kill me

---

Dear Zelda,

The desert is still awful, but at least there’s nothing going wrong here. I don’t know how much you can hear, but I went through the Gate again. Lanayru was dying, and he needed me to get him a cure. Maybe that counts as something going wrong, but it doesn’t feel like it; Faron’s trial and losing Fi was much worse. 

He said that he could help me relive my memories, some of the battles I’ve gone through, and if I do enough of them, he’ll give me an “absurdly sturdy shield”. I don’t really know if I can do it because some of it still terrifies me, but I need to get stronger, and this is a good way to do it.

Link

---

Dear Zelda, 

I got the final part of the song from Levias today. I'm opening the last Silent Realm tomorrow.

I'm scared. I'm tired of the guardians killing me. It hurts so much. Why did you make it hurt so much

You'll be home soon.

Link

---

Dear Zelda, 

It's been two years since you've fallen. It’s the first time I’ve stayed on Skyloft for more than a few days, and everyone is giving me strange looks. Maybe they think I've given up, that I've come to my senses, and I'll stop acting so crazy.

I'm not crazy. I'm not. If it was all in my head then I wouldn't have so many scars and I wouldn't hurt all the time and I wouldn't be so tired.

I was going to tell you I loved you, before you were taken. I was going to ask if you wanted to go on a date with me. 

I still do. But it's been too long. Both of us have changed too much. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been such a coward.

I've found two pieces of the Triforce. All that's left is a room full of enemies, and I'm just waiting to get more arrows. Rupin hasn’t asked what I’m doing with them all– I don’t know if he just doesn’t care, or if something about me scares him too much to ask.

Link

---

Dear Zelda,

I'm sitting next to you right now. You've barely changed, but I look so different. My hands are calloused and shake when I write. Yours are still soft. 

I'm just waiting for the potions to start working, and then I'm going to leave. I don't think I'll survive, but I hope I'll injure him enough that you can kill him. 

I love you. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you in person. There are more letters for you, in my room on Skyloft. There's blood on some of them; I hope it's not too hard to read. I would have rewritten them, but I've been spending all of my rupees on potions. I'm not really sure why I kept wasting money on paper, because I never really intended to give them to you after the first few, but you might as well have them now.

I hope you can forgive me for being a failure. Maybe it'll be better this way. I barely feel like a person anymore.

If you need a friend, talk to Groose. He's… a pretty okay guy, now. You can depend on him.

Link

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Dear Zelda and Groose, 

I hope you're both doing well. Pipit's little messenger birds are getting faster– my letter should reach you just in time.

How are you doing? Zelda, I hope you're not overworking yourself again. Groose, try not to stay up all night working on your inventions. Both of you, take care of yourselves. My scars have been doing better, lately. I think it just storms too much in Faron (really, did we have to build the settlement there?). In an unrelated note, do any of your goddess powers involve controlling the weather?

Skipper is doing good! We just got the crystal set up, so now his family can move back home. I think if robots could cry, they all would be. I know I was a little teary. I'm glad they can finally go home. I think Fi would’ve really liked this– she always seemed a bit sad whenever we had to talk to one of the robots.

This is my last piece of paper, so I'll have to end it here. Send some more when you reply, okay? (Just don’t make your letters too long– that poor little bird looked like it was about to collapse when it found me.)

Love, 

Link

P.S. Which one of you keeps taking my hat out of my bag? I need that!

@zelinkcommunity

[amberlynnmurdock]

New Love, New Haven

CHAPTER TWO: My Older Brother’s Best Friend 

Pairing: Ben Tallmadge x Original Female Character 

Chapter Summary: Sadie meets Nathan’s friends at the tavern. 

Author’s Note: Too long! But in brief, I had so much fun writing this chapter. I hope you enjoy it! 

Archive of Our Own Link

September 1772

Sadie woke up right at the crack of dawn to read the notes Nathan had given her. She was far too tired to stay up by candlelight last night, and since tonight would be another late night (perhaps even later) she knew that morning would be the best time to get some studying in.

Her room had a perfect view of Yale University. In the tavern downstairs, Sadie could only get a peek at the front of the building. From her room that resided above, she could see the top of the building—the building’s bell tower. She thought that an early morning like this was when Yale looked its most beautiful—a soft, golden glow coming up on the front of the gothic architecture.

The other side of her room had her wooden desk, paper, and quill. She wrapped a blanket around her cold shoulders and tiptoed on the hardwood floors. She lit a candle and pulled out Nathan’s notes on John Locke.

Two hours passed, and the sun was finally completely out. Sadie immersed herself in Nathan’s notes, reading about Locke’s origin and how he became one of the philosophers of the Enlightenment. A lot of his sentiments echoed, or at least resembled, what she’d sometimes hear her brother say in private, about things in this new world. Things like property, taxes, freedom… it was no wonder Nathan was getting a bit more passionate when he spoke, and it’s because of material like this, that was inspiring him. Inspiring her.

☆☆☆☆

By evening, Sadie was preparing the bar for closure, or so her father thought. She pretended to be stacking glasses away, when really, she was saving about five of them for herself, Nathan, and his friends.

“Sadie, what’s takin’ ya so long, stackin’ em…oh, never mind,” Richard’s words slurred as he brought a basket of bread to the back. Sadie suppressed the smile she had and tucked a strand of her brown hair behind her ear.

“What was that, Pa?” Sadie asked, mustering the most innocent voice she could.

Richard waved his hand, “oh…I don’t know, I think I am feeling a bit logy, I suppose…” his voice trailed off as he leaned on the bar counter. “Sadie, dear, there’s not much people left,” Richard began, eyes half closed, putting a hand to his forehead. Sadie glanced at the floor—there was absolutely no one left in the tavern. Seems the chamomile worked fast.

“Do ya—do ya mind closing up and cleanin’ up for me? I’ll letcha off for the night tomorrow I just—your Pa’s not young anymore.” Sadie, stifling a giggle, walked to her father’s side and placed a hand on his shoulder.

“Of course, Pa. Go get some sleep, I’ll lock up and be fine down here,” Sadie urged her father, anxious for him to be in bed. She didn’t expect him to offer her the next night off, which was a pleasant surprise. She’d worry about what she could do with her free night later.

Richard walked sluggishly up the steps. Sadie watched from around the corner of the staircase as her father ascended into his room. Once she heard the door shut, she waited about another five minutes, before she herself quietly crept up the stairs. As soon as she heard a loud, rattling snore from inside his room, Sadie knew it was safe to continue downstairs.

Sadie made sure there was more than enough ale in the barrel and prepped a few tin cans to be used. The bread basket her father left out on the table, Sadie figured the boys would be hungry after God knows what goes on in a drama club. Smiling to herself, Sadie put the bread basket at the front of the bar, for anyone to grab from.

As she walked across the floor to secure the lock on the door, Sadie caught a glimpse of herself on an old, dainty mirror that hung on the wall. She paused—and momentarily panicked. She didn’t normally care about how she looked, since she only ever saw her father and Nathan. Her hair was in a simple braid that fell down the back of her neck, reaching right between her shoulder blades. A few pieces in the front were tucked out, framing her face beautifully. Sadie ran her fingers through them, brushing them out. There, that should do. It didn’t matter to her if she looked nice—she was there to be entertained, not to impress anyone.

Reaching the door, Sadie grabbed the latch but paused when she heard a commotion outside.

“Fill me a bowl, a mighty bowl,” a group of young men shout-sang in the street. Their voices became louder the closer they got, “large as my capacious soul!”

The group of young men all had their arms around each other’s shoulders, surely drunk already and trying not to let the other step out of bounds. Sadie giggled, realizing it was Nathan and his friends. She watched from a distance as they kept skipping down the cobblestone road, their singing starting to slur and go off-key.

Sadie saw that one of his friends had a glass bottle in his hands. He was swinging it about, rather carelessly, and on the last swing, the bottle slipped from his hands, up onto and into a window, shattering glass everywhere.

The boys froze in their steps, mouths agape at the sight of their friend’s destruction.

“Oh, nice goin’, Benny,” one of them teased. The four of them burst out laughing, but their laughs quickly fizzled out when an angry old man came running to the window atop.

“You imbecile children, you’ll pay for that—stay right there!” An old man, with a white mustache, yelled from the broken window.

“RUN!” Nathan shouted at the top of his lungs, "follow me!”

Just as the old man turned away, presumably to follow them outside, Nathan and his three friends booked it for the tavern. Sadie held the door open and ushered the young men inside, quickly latching the door shut and locking it. Nathan and his friends crouched under the windows as Sadie kept watch for the old man.

She watched as the disgruntled old man ran outside his building, in nothing but a robe and loafers, looking around the street, scratching his head. Sadie did feel bad for the old man, and would definitely make her older brother pay for the damages. The old man walked back inside to her relief.

Suddenly, strong arms grab Sadie around her waist and she yelps in surprise, as the person spins her around and gently drops her to her feet. When Sadie realizes it’s her older brother, Enoch, she squeals in surprise.

“Enny!” Sadie calls, giving her oldest brother a hug. “You’re back from York City!” Sadie didn’t even see her brother when they all walked in—she must’ve been too focused on getting them out of sight.

“Indeed I am,” Enoch replies, with a big smile. His fluffy brown hair bounced as he shimmied his coat off, and dropped it on a wooden table. Sadie, looking at her brothers now suspiciously, and then their two friends, squinted her eyes.

“Quite an entrance comin’ back, from you,” Sadie raised an eyebrow, “and are you the one who carelessly threw the bottle at that poor man’s window?”

“That would be me,” one of their friends, sheepishly admitted and raised a hand. Sadie immediately noted the young man’s tall stature—tall, but fell just a bit shorter than Nathan. He had golden brown hair, tied back a little carelessly (probably wound undone from all their drinking), he had a straight nose and chiseled cheekbones…and even in the dim lighting of the tavern, Sadie could see how blue the young man’s eyes were. To put it simply, Sadie was shocked he didn’t notice him before. She was honestly more shocked Nathan had such an attractive friend. The young man caught her eyes and smiled a bit shyly, and Sadie, blushing (but hoping the dim lighting of the tavern hid it) looked away to meet Nathan instead.

“Oh, Benny, don’t be bashful, we’ve all done it before,” Nathan laughed, patting a hand on ‘Benny’s’ shoulder. “I’ll introduce ya to my sister,” Nathan, obviously buzzed, walked his two friends over to Sadie to introduce them to her. Sadie, trying her best to not meet ‘Benny’s’ eyes, focused on her brother.

“Sadie, these are my two absolute scoundrel friends, Mr. Asher Wright and Mr. Benjamin Tallmadge,” Nathan announced as if he were a speaker at a conference. Sadie laughed at her brother and looked at his friends.

“Very nice to meet you, Ms. Sadie Hale,” the one named Asher introduced himself. Asher was just as blonde as Nathan and close in height. She does remember Nathan telling her about his close childhood friend, but never got a chance to meet him, until now. Sadie nodded and smiled.

“Pleasure to meet you Ms. Hale, and I apologize for causing a ruckus outside,” Benjamin stated, grabbing Sadie’s attention by the pleasant softness of his voice, although his words did slur a bit, which made Sadie laugh—second by second she was growing more comfortable around these strange men. But if they were friends with Nathan, she knew they had to be good people, anyway.

Sadie nodded curtly, not wanting to just be seen as the younger Hale sister. And she certainly didn’t want to be seen as submissive.

“Well then, since you so graciously admitted to the crime of that poor man’s window, I’ll see it fit to send you the bill in the morning,” Sadie quipped, placing her hands on her hips. Benjamin, a little startled at Sadie’s forwardness, stuttered to Nathan’s amusement.

“Well, uh—yes, I do suppose that is what is fair and right—“ Benjamin raised his eyebrows and nodded, not knowing if Sadie was being serious or not.

“‘Though she be but little, she is fierce,’” Nathan quoted Shakespeare as he nudged Benjamin in the ribs. Benjamin smiled, returning the nudge to Nathan. Realizing that these were the Hales he was dealing with, Benjamin broke his serious response and squinted his eyes at Sadie.

“I know you lot are jus’ takin the mick at me,” Benjamin realized. Sadie laughed, also breaking her serious nature, and both she and Nathan gave each other a knowing look. “I can’t take you Hales, you’re entirely too much.”

“Well, if you can’t handle us, Benjamin, then the door is right over there. More ale for us then, huh?” Sadie quipped as she began to walk to the bar. Nathan, Asher and Enoch made their way to the bar stools while Benjamin still stood, shocked at the young lady’s quick answers.

Sadie grabbed five glasses and lined them up on the bar. Benjamin slowly walked over, a little intimidated by the three Hales now. He chose his seat at the end on the far right, next to Asher.

“So, are you going to tell me about this drama club of yours now?” Sadie inquired as she began pouring the ale into each glass. Nathan took his glass and swiveled it so the liquid would bubble.

Sadie passed each class to the young men. When she passed a glass to Benjamin, he caught her eyes again, and gave a small smile of thank you—none of the others had thanked her. Sadie gave a slight nod in return, quickly making her way back to the middle.  

“Well, ya know, we just sort of… lollygag, if you will,” Asher explains as Nathan and Enoch hold their glasses to their lips and suppress a laugh. Sadie was amused but she was getting tired of their beating around the bush. She had to know, dammit!

“C’mon,” Sadie pleaded, raising her own glass to her lips and sipping the ale.

“If you must know, dear young, Ace of Sades,” Nathan put on another fake presenter voice, “we practice the art of theater, of course, and tonight we decided to do a rendition of the famous tragedy, Cato,” Nathan raised his glass and the others mirrored his action. They all took a swig of the ale as Sadie remained curious about the choice of play.

“But you are all in such high spirits, why would you choose such a tragedy?” Sadie asked them.

“Because, Sadie, it is our rendition of the play that makes it fun. Of course, we pay our respects to the original, it is a phenomenal piece of work, but tonight, well…” Enoch trailed off, reaching for a piece of bread from the bowl Sadie took from her father.

“Hmm,” Sadie mused, “sounds like it started like serious work until someone brought out some alcohol.”

“That someone would be Ben,” Asher revealed, causing everyone to look at Benjamin. Sadie grinned as she saw Benjamin get flustered by the attention—was he always this flustered, or was it the alcohol?

“Nemo saltat sobrius,” Sadie accidentally slipped out, looking at Benjamin. She didn’t know how Nathan’s friends would react to her knowing about his studies, and she’s been waiting to find the perfect moment to use a common Latin phrase. Sadie blushed and quickly sipped her ale to hide her reaction.

Benjamin, looking taken aback, was impressed at Sadie’s use of the language.

“You know Latin?” Benjamin genuinely inquired. He didn’t know one woman around him that spoke Latin.

“Not the whole language—just what I can remember,” Sadie humbly replied.

“My little—“ Nathan began until Enoch nudged him in the chest.

“Our,” Enoch corrected. Sadie laughed.

“Our little sister is a very bright young lady. I think she studies my notes more than I do,” Nathan chided, bragging about Sadie. It was nice to feel supported by her older brothers in her wanting to pursue education when it felt like the world was against her. She was lucky to have them; she can’t say if anyone else’s brothers would be that supportive of a young woman wanting to learn.

“Not only that but she also secretly fed our father a little too much chamomile, causing him to turn in early so we could have the tavern to ourselves,” Nathan stated. Sadie looked at him in shock that he would reveal such a thing. She didn’t want his friends to think she was some sort of witch!

“Nathan! Gosh—please don’t be alarmed, my father is fine, chamomile is very calming and healthy,” Sadie quickly clarified. Benjamin and Asher laughed, which caused Sadie’s worst fears to quickly wash away.

“Should we be concerned about what’s in this ale, then?” Benjamin examined his glass and looked at Sadie teasingly. Sadie, stupefied at Benjamin’s return for the quick wit, didn’t know how to respond—and she was not sure if it was because of the look he was giving her, or that he really did get her back. His blue eyes danced with mischief and she pursed her lips, letting him win.

☆☆☆☆

The rest of the night consisted of more ale being poured, and more stories of their drama club shenanigans. Sadie found a seat at the bar, next to Benjamin. Maybe it was the ale, but she found herself gravitating toward his presence. She wasn’t afraid to make herself known among Nathan and Enoch’s friends. Benjamin wasn’t an exception.

He gladly welcomed her presence as well. It was casual enough since their attention was now focused at the front of the tavern, watching Enoch and Nathan recite lines from another Shakespeare play.

“And, this is when Ben put on a wig to play Titania, Queen of the Fairies,” Nathan could barely get any word out from laughing too hard—this was clearly a moment that one had to witness, Sadie thought, but she laughed along nonetheless. Benjamin laughed too, unfazed by the fact his embarrassing moments were being revealed.

“It was quite a nice wig,” Benjamin argued, taking another sip from his glass.

“It was a horrendous wig,” Enoch retorted.

“I guess it’s all subjective, then,” Benjamin replied. Nathan and Enoch went on about something else, and Asher joined in the conversation, but Sadie’s attention now fell on the young man that sat beside her.

She felt a strange inkling that one of them was waiting for the other to speak, and she didn’t know why. This was her older brother’s best friend, for God’s sake! She was half uncomfortable that she kept questioning herself around him, but the other half was so curious about him, genuinely, because she had never really conversed with the opposite sex about education, except her brothers, but Benjamin piqued her curiosity from the moment she laid eyes on him.

“So, Benjamin,” Sadie spoke her thoughts aloud. When she said his name, her heart jumped, wondering if she shouldn't have started a conversation at all, and then she realized he kept his gaze on his friends. Perhaps he didn’t hear me?

Anxiously, Sadie spoke again, “Benjamin,” she said a bit louder.

Benjamin instantly brought his attention to her, startled by the young woman’s calling.

“I apologize, Sadie—I’m afraid this ale gets the better of my senses,” Benjamin held the glass up and swiveled the liquid. Sadie smiled in return.

“It’s all right, I understand,” Sadie replied awkwardly.

“You can call me Ben, by the way,” Ben told her. Sadie nodded.

“Okay, Ben,” she said, “what are you studying at Yale?”

Ben turned in his seat to face her more, and Sadie shifted, accidentally causing their knees to touch. Sadie felt a jolt in her chest at the contact, sitting a little back. Ben seemed to notice the contact as well, but he carried on.

“Well, there are plenty of subjects that are being taught currently,” Ben explained, placing the glass on the bar. Sadie sat up straight as Ben leaned over a bit, interlacing his fingers together as he thought aloud. Sadie saw a strand of his hair fall a little looser now. He looked at the ground as he spoke.

“We’ve got Latin—which you are quite well-versed in—also Greek and Hebrew. Really, it depends on the season of school. We’ve learned geometry, which I am not quite a fan of, but this season it is astronomy,” Ben met her eyes and looked so deeply into hers. Breaking the contact quickly, Sadie sipped from her almost empty glass.

“Astronomy?!” Sadie repeated excitedly. Ben smiled softly and nodded. “I don’t think Nathan’s brought those notes to me yet. But that sounds quite fascinating,” Sadie remarked, sighing a bit.

Ben noticed the change in her posture and sat quietly for a moment. As she looked away to watch her brothers and Asher fool around, Ben studied her for a moment, as if in trance. She was young, but she was beautiful—not to mention his best friend’s little sister—but he didn’t see anything wrong with a friendship. And Ben couldn’t deny he was struck by her first impression just earlier in the night. Perhaps he may have underestimated when Nathan told him his younger sister would be hanging with them that night—he didn't expect her to have such a presence, and he felt slightly guilty for making that judgment prematurely.

“I’d be happy to bring you some of my astronomy notes,” Ben offered to Sadie, sitting up a bit more straight now. Sadie’s attention was pulled back to Ben again, her eyes widening in surprise.

“Really? I mean, are you sure? I would hate for you to not have them in time for an exam,” Sadie reasoned, but this was the only time a thought like that came into her mind—she never minded it when she stole Nathan’s notes.

Ben shrugged and leaned in a bit closer to Sadie. “To be honest, it’s not anythin’ I haven’t learned before, so I would be glad to give them to someone who may find them more useful.”

“Okay,” Sadie replied, not being able to contain her excitement. Ben smiled at her enthusiasm. “How will you get them to me?”

That was a good question, Ben thought. He could have Nathan bring them to her, but for some reason, that made him uncomfortable. Ben could come to the tavern himself, but then Nathan might see him—and now Ben was wondering why this had to be hidden at all.

“How would you like me to get them to you?” Ben asked instead.

Sadie looked around thoughtfully, when her eyes landed on Nathan, still laughing and drinking. She, too, for some reason, didn’t want Nathan to be the bearer of the notes.

“I don’t mind if you drop them off here, or if we meet somewhere in town…”

“Okay,” Ben agreed, “We can meet at Chapel Street, as soon as my last class is over, at about four o’clock.”

“Alright,” Sadie smiled, “Thank you, Ben. I truly appreciate it.”

☆☆☆☆

The night was starting to come to an end, at around one in the morning. Nathan helped Sadie flip the barstools on top of the bar. Enoch rinsed the glasses out. Asher and Ben waited at the door with their coats.

The Hale siblings made their way to the front to say goodbyes. Enoch picked up Sadie once more and spun her around, causing her to laugh.

“I am glad you are back safe from York City, Enny,” Sadie said.

Nathan gave Sadie a salute, something he always did to his little sister, and thanked her again for keeping the tavern open.

“Sweet dreams, Ace of Sades, and until next time,” Nathan stated.

Asher waved goodbye, and Ben tipped his tricorn, locking his eyes with Sadie a bit longer.

“Pleasure to meet you, Ms. Hale,” Ben softly declared.

“Perhaps I’ll see you—all—again,” Sadie replied, catching herself. Ben grinned, and only Sadie saw it.

The four of them began to trickle out, with Ben being the last of them to leave. Just as he saw his three friends slightly ahead of him, Ben stopped in his tracks and looked at Sadie.

“Ben, did you forget something?” Sadie asked.

“Nitimur in vetitum,” Ben whispered, his blue eyes bright in the moonlight. The moonlight cast a shadow on half of his face, accentuating his chiseled features.

Sadie squinted her eyes when she translated what he said. And before she could reply, he was already off with his friends. She couldn’t help but ponder his use of the phrase—her yearning for education when it wasn’t allowed, or something else entirely.

We strive for the forbidden.

[authortobenamedlater]

@ladyknightskye tagged me.

Your name: Around here I go by AuthorToBeNamedLater or ATBNL.

Your first fandom(s): In terms of interest, Star Trek TNG. In terms of fandom engagement, seaQuest DSV.

Your current fandom(s): I measure “current fandom” in terms of “currently writing fic,” so Halo and The Mandalorian. Fandoms I love and post about here in rotation: Star Trek, Star Wars, MCU, Babylon 5, NCIS.

How did you first get into fandom? I honestly don’t remember a time when I wasn’t “into fandom” in some way? I suppose I really jumped in when I found FFN.

How long have you been engaging in fandom spaces?: Before you were born 😂 I found FFN very shortly after its launch in 1998.

How often do you read fanfics?: More often than I should LOL.

Top three characters from your current fandom(s): Is this three from each fandom or three altogether? I’ll go with the latter.

Cortana + John, Roland + Lasky (AIs and their humans are a package deal in my world), Kai.

Mando, Bo-Katan, Cara Dune because Cara is still in my Mandalore’s Reluctant Royals AU and if I ever get past the mental block of losing all my WIPs, she has a very important role to play.

Have you ever written fic for a fandom?: Only close to 100 between my FFN and AO3. Not counting the little snippets and micro fics I’ve shared only on Tumblr.

Have you ever drawn fanart for a fandom?: Aside from the Shadow vessel sponge painting I did in eighth grade art class, no. I’d like to change that though, because some of my off the wall AUs could do with visual content.

Share a personal headcanon that you feel very strongly about: Captain Shaw is married with kids and is a Chicago deep-dish pizza snob.

Tim McGee had an FFN account and probably has an AO3.

Thel ‘Vadam mixes up his English idioms Ziva David-style.

You’re trying to convince a friend to get into your current fandom(s) with you. what episode, clip, or scene are you showing them?: I am not showing ANYONE Halo, unless you come to me saying you want to watch it. And then I’m going to give you a bunch of caveats about how I’m obsessed with it but it’s really not that great except for when it is and you shouldn’t take it too seriously. Buckle up and grab your adult beverage of choice.

For game-verse Halo I’d show Johnson’s speech about the tank in Halo 2 because that’s what Mr showed me to rope me in.

Mandalorian, the first episode.

Babylon 5, I would start with the pilot movie if I could find it and then not let up until you’d watched five seasons of emotional roller coaster. I’d tell you what JMS said in the commentaries for Shattered Dreams and Sleeping in Light and Deconstruction of Falling Stars and how many of the actors died too young. After War Without End I would show you the video where JMS drops the bomb about why Michael O’Hare left the show. By the end of it you’d love the show but you might not love me anymore. 🤣

And finally, what does fandom mean to you?: A place where I can explore the highs and lows of the human experience in a safe environment. Sometimes I can put a little broken piece of myself into a fanfic or headcanon and not feel so broken anymore. I can “talk” about things in fiction that I can’t in real life.

A place where I can meet cool people whose paths I never would have crossed had we not been abnormal about a certain show or character. ❤️

Tagging all who see this!

[safetycar-restart]

Past experiences au with Pierre— how did you meet and how long did it take him to tell you he wanted to try a d/s relationship with you? Since he’d turned away from the community before he met you

Absolutely we can talk about this. We haven't spoken about this in AU in a while but it's so good and I'm very glad to bring it back! (Also reminder that I am a simp because I got embarrassingly excited at my sub sending me an ask)

Since we haven't spoken about this AU in a while, here's a brief summary of the premise of this AU for anyone new or anyone who. needs a reminder: in this AU, the driver mentioned has been in the BDSM scene before and had at least one dom before, but had been completely mistreated/had very bad experiences and the reader is the first dom to make them feel really safe and loved.

So with that out the way, let's talk about Pierre in the past experiences AU.

I think that Pierre would have dived head first into the BDSM community before you. He knew what he wanted and he just went for it.

That was the problem though. He immediately attracted a dominant who saw him as an easy target. Every in personal experience had with the BDSM community was controlled and orchestrated by this dom, everything he learnt and every opinion he had was shaped by this dom.

So when the dom told him that subs are supposed to listen to their Doms, that good subs never talk back or safeword, that the Doms pleasure is always more important, that subs dont get to have a say in the planning of the scene, etc. he just believed it. Because everything he learnt was from this dom and because he was so afraid of losing his only connection to the community.

But eventually it got too much for him. Eventually he couldn't stand the scenes or the relationship any longer, couldn't stand how he felt like he wasn't even a person anymore.

Except because of how the dominant had shaped him, he thought that the problem was that he just wasn't someone who could live the BDSM lifestyle, not that his old dominant was abusive and controlling.

So he moves away from the community and vows to never submit again, completely puts it all behind him and tries to act like everything is fine.

This means that when he met you and started dating you, he told you that he had no experience with kink and had no inclination to experiment with it. Which, fine. You just nod and move on.

Except that more and more, pierre's actions seem submissive to you?? He looks to you for guidance and gets relaxed when you offer him direction, he loves being manhandled during sex, always asking you what you want him to do and getting nervous when you expect him to take control.

But every time you ask him about it, he gets super defensive and very upset. That's what makes you think that he might actually have experience in the BDSM community and that the experience might have been very negative.

In the end I think that you have to be the one to bring it up, because I dont think that Pierre ever would. You sit Pierre down and tell Pierre that you're a dominant, that youre perfectly fine with the vanilla relationship you have now but that you want him to know that you have experience being a dom and would love to dom him if he was open to it.

Pierre panics, telling you that he refuses to go back there and that he can't do it again. You're confused and ask what he's talking about and that's when he tells you what happened.

Your heart just breaks for him, because that's not at all what a good d/s relationship should be.

And when you describe to him the way you work, he just... he wants its so badly?

[dragonmasterhiccup]

‘You think this isn’t some kind of shock for me too?! Hiccup, I am old, I have seen a lot in my time, but I have never, ever seen anything like this.’ Lips parting momentarily, she shook her head, looking back up to Hiccup. ‘I apologize, I shouldn’t have been so harsh. I do believe you, Hiccup, and I believe you have that girls best interests at heart. You get her back home, okay?’

“I know that, m’ not stupid.” She was just surprised that he was actually following those rules; at home, people didn’t care about all that. “But does it have to be her? I don’t like her, she’s scary, she doesn’t talk, and it hurt really bad when she put that stuff on it…”

“It doesn’t? That’s what I always thought… that’s what people at home told me…” She nodded, squeezing his hand. “I know. Thank you Hiccup, no one has ever helped me like this before…”

“How soon? I don’t wanna wait that long… It would’ve felt better right now if she didn’t put that stuff on it or touch it…”

“I- Really? You don’t have t’ do that anymore… you’re probably upset ‘cause I made you carry me back and I got scared of Toothless…”

She gave a small sigh, but reluctantly picked up the fork and took a bite.

That made her uncomfortable, and she shifted awkwardly in her seat, avoiding Hiccups gaze. “I’m not supposed to tell anyone,” she replied, a small bit of shame shining through in her voice.

Hiccup looked down, knowing Gothi was right, it was unheard of, what was going on with Danny, however this switch was made.

"Thank you, Gothi. I'm sorry, too, I should've brought her here right away. I'll get her home, keep her safe."

Hiccup shook his head. "Stupid? You're far from it, actually... And, no, Gothi gave me instructions for either Astrid or my mom to change your bandaging once a day, whoever you're more comfortable with. Now, I know you're not ready to meet my mom yet, so will you be alright with Astrid?"

Hiccup shook his head again, speaking gently. "No, not with something that severe." His expression fell, hearing no one had ever helped her that way before. She was only seven. How heartless were these hunters, to not administer medical help to children? "I'm sorry to hear that, you should have received more help, long before now, but...I'm glad I can help."

"The sooner you drink that tea," he said, pointing to the steaming mug in front of her, "the faster you'll feel better. The salves and creams she put on your back will help those burns to heal faster, so I know they hurt, but the other applications shouldn't as much, since it'll be doing its job."

"What? Why would I be upset?" Actually, if he wasn't so worried about her health, he'd have enjoyed it. He couldn't wait to walk around, carrying Zephyr on his back through the village. "I readily offered to carry you, and I should've eased you more into meeting Toothless, went a little slower. Your reaction was understandable. Danny, you have no need to apologize."

Oh. He should've realized... She could get in a lot of trouble if she told him, and he didn't want that.

"Hm. Okay, how about this? Is... whatever caused this, something that has been taken care of, where it won't happen to you again, or...or is it a normal occurrence?"

[marikos-diary]

I got not one but two ash trays! The exact make and model I had before. I got one black one and one white one. The white obe is the one I really want, but it won’t be here until November. And black one can be here on Monday. So I just have to get through the weekend of smoking either out back or in my car.

I just got back from going out, too! I was very anxious on the walk to my car and the way to the place and I felt like I was going to throw up. But I made it there safely, had a smoke in the parking lot, and then went through the drive through and got two sodas how I like. The ladies at the place I go every day are so nice to me so it wasn’t too bad. I did have a smoke on the way back since I still felt very anxious about driving in general.

There’s many things I would like to do today. I would like to open the windows once it hits 58-60 outside because I enjoy the fresh air. I would like to use my bath wipes and change my underwear. I would like to stay inside except for smoking. I don’t want to go anywhere else today. Further, I would like to vacuum and wipe down my counters and table surfaces. Friday is usually my cleaning day but I was far too upset to take care of anything then. If I can’t get all the surfaces done, then maybe just my end table. It always ends up getting some coffee or soda splatter on it. I wipe it off with a tissue but it would be good to wipe it down. I also want to make my bed, which I was able to do yesterday. It just feels so much cozier to climb into a made bed.

I’d also like to do something fun today. Maybe watch an episode of a show, or read a book. My books are still all packed up, so that second one is kind of tricky. And I reschedule my bookshelf delivery because I didn’t know when I would be waking up today. They were supposed to arrive sometime today but dealing with the buzzer and buzzing someone in and having people in here sounded too stressful so I moved it out another week. Again.

Speaking of buzzers, I think I am going to change my grocery and food delivery instructions to say that I will meet them at the front door. I don’t want to hear that buzzer anymore. It is too stressful for me. I’ve also decided that unless it is an emergency I am no longer calling maintenance. They were in here multiple times a week fixing things the first two months of living here because the complex never did a walkthrough I guess. They were here all the time. I’m not doing that anymore. I don’t want anyone in my apartment. I want it to be my safe space. No one else allowed. That sounds nice to me. My old therapist would have something shitty to say about it about me needing to rejoin society but he didn’t know me or what I’ve been through. I think it is very reasonable to not want people in my apartment. Not even mom for a while. Maybe for the doctor who Christmas special though. I will think about that one. So, to summarize, unless I absolutely need to I will not be calling maintenance. They knock on the doors too loud and they are loud and I don’t want them here. I know at some point there will be a mandatory inspection. I can talk about that in therapy and work on being okay with letting them in. But hopefully that isn’t for many many months. And maybe I’ll get lucky and I will be « invited to leave the community » by then. That is seriously what I am hoping for.

As an update on the door locking saga, I made an honest one star review under my name on Google reviews. It detailed all of the issues I have been having with this building and how management doesn’t care about safety and security and just ignores you when you email them about legitimate concerns. So, I posted that on Tuesday. On Wednesday the company responded and said some bullshit. Later that same day the guy in the office who has bbeen ignoring me called me. I let it go to voicemail and emailed him to let him know that I would need everything in writing. He emailed back that pest control was on site and asked if they could enter my apartment. lol. I said no but I am home. Pest control showed up, sprayed for fruit flies, didn’t even mention the ants I see every week and the roach I saw when I moved on. What a joke. I emailed Tyler and CCed his boss Charlotte to express my disappointment that my pest problems were not resolved. Didn’t get anything in return. Started researching pest companies I could just pay on my own. That was Wednesday.

Thursday afternoon I got an email on their official letterhead from Charlotte stating that pest control had been scheduled to come deal with the infestations on a weekly basis until I choose to cancel it. I do not think this is good enough, because they should have taken care of it before the unit was leased. Charlotte also told me that my neighbors had received a notice not to tamper with the building door or prop it open and that maintenance would check the doors every weekday morning and afternoon. This still did not feel good enough but it was progress in the right direction. It wasn’t good enough to make me feel safe.

So, they did that on Friday. I assume they removed some objects because I saw them laying in the hall as litter right inside the door on my way out around 4pm. Whatever. I have a security system now. It was armed. Anyway, I came home at 8:30pm and found the building lock had once more been tampered with. As if that’s a surprise. The lock had cardboard jammed into it abd taped over with blue painters tape. I sent a pretty angry email to Charlotte and Tyler to inform them that this solution of theirs was not adequate and detailed for them how unsafe I felt as a single disabled woman. I told them in no uncertain terms that stress from this issue is complicating my disabilities and interfering with my ability to function. I asked them what they would do to permanently solve the issue.

I expect that I will hear nothing in return. I truly do not think they care. So, I am resolved to leave the apartment as little as possible until my lease ends. Only to get smokes and sodas, or go to the door to pick up delivery orders. Because if I stay here, then the chain is on the door and it can’t be forced open as easily. They’d have to rip the chain out of the wall. Which is like? Possible, but unlikely. And even if they did, my alarm system would go off and the police would be called. So I feel comfortable enough as long as I am physically home. Therefore, I will not be leaving very much at all. I have to protect the cats, you know?

So that’s the update on that. It’s a whole thing and I am so stressed about it that I am having chest pain and throwing up from anxiety. My mom thinks I am wasting my breath emailing them and that we should have a lawyer draft a letter to them. I’m inclined to agree. That would make me feel better. But that takes time. This last email was probably my last email to the complex about it. I’ll save them and give them to the lawyer when it’s time for that.

In other news, I am cutting down on the notifications I get on my phone. I use a task reminder list but it is very shouty at me and overwhelming so I am trying to find a way to keep using it because it is helpful without it being so loud. I don’t know. I’ll figure it out.

Also I have yet to text my mom today. I worry the notification when she texts me back will be upsetting. I’m crying already just thinking about it. So no good morning text for mom.

And I’m not texting Charlie because I am upset at her. I begged and pleaded with her for help and advice and she didn’t respond. I get that she is having troubles because of her mental health and texting is hard, but like really? That’s super not okay to me. I feel abandoned and I don’t think she even cares. I’ve tried to be patient and understanding but I am in crisis and needed her and made that known and she couldn’t respond to even that or react to the message to let me know it had been read and I wasn’t alone. I don’t know. I am very upset about that. I am kind of angry but mostly I feel abandoned which is a massive trigger. I haven’t SHed over it yet but I am holding back tears as I type this.

I feel like I’m going to throw up and I am very tense. Ugh. I probably won’t be able to get any cleaning stuff done today.

And now I am crying a bunch because all I want is to have a friend who responds. But I don’t have any friends that respond. I have no one. And if even Charlie can’t respond, how am I able to trust other people and make friends? I am completely alone and I want to die. I am miserable. All I have are my cats. I am completely alone.

Alone.

[benjaminalphabet]

it’s so frustrating. i just want to feel normal and consistent within myself again. i feel like there are so many long conversations i need to have, there’s so much closure i never got with so many people. i’ve had so many epiphanies lately. i feel pathetic and empowered at the same time. i have so many multitudes and inconsistencies inside me, i think i could make even DeGrasse Tyson’s head roll. sometimes i feel like i never escape anyone, even when i’m the one who leaves.

my body has gone through war in april, i barely survived. i’m so proud of myself for surviving what i have, all i want is to talk about it, to write about it - but this void is so vast. i have lost so much that i thought was permanent, and trying to organize these new priorities is just so much pressure. i am not sure if the loneliness is user error, or a side effect of being in your 20’s, or if i’m just changing naturally and there’s nothing even interesting or unique about how i feel.

maybe i’m just on a lot of meds from the hospital still and i need to wait to come back to earth. all i know is that Richard Siken is wrong about so much. grief must romanticized, nihilism is nothing to be proud of. my poetry and prose may not rival Wordsworth or Coleridge but i know it is worth writing. i want a good life. i want to be content, i want wholesome things. i don’t see the enchantment in danger and dysphoria anymore. i love everyone i meet so overwhelmingly, i have so many dreams and i feel like they’re all starting to materialize in front of me. it’s exciting, it’s exhilarating, it’s rebirth. but. i am so scared my new life will cost me my old one.

i wish so many people would come back. i’m losing connections with people i used to think were made of nebulas. i have always known that all stars die, but the one’s i picked out to keep for myself were supposed to outlive me. i know it is selfish of me to stake claim on the sky, but my prayers were never answered. something had to be mine, even if it was only pretend. i know it isn’t a helpful narrative but i wish someone would do the work for me. i wish someone would send me the message of reconnection, i have written so many letters. i have never sent a single one. i have written so many soliloquies about faith and devotion, and i have been empty of religion for years. i wish someone would see the light i have worked so hard to cultivate- even though i know i cultivated it for myself. i know that i love myself, and i have worked so hard to get here. i know that my friends love me, and that i have done a good job. i know that these things should not matter, but even ladybugs huddle together for warmth in the winter. i have seen it, my house was invaded last fall. i know i have good intentions, i just wish they were enough. i wish i did not have to carry them alone.

i wish genocide would end. i wish war was nonexistent. i wish we could abandon violence. i wish clementines were always in season, and i wish someone would help me peel them because i always struggle with it. i wish i could fall in love, i wish i could be in a relationship worth being in. i wish my ex didn’t hurt me so bad, and one day i hope i’ll actually be over it. i wish everyone could be safe. i wish i wasn’t still in love with everyone i have ever lost. i wish my father was a real father, or at least i wish he would have tried to be. i wish i had a different last name. i wish someone would miss me when i left the room and ask where i went. i wish i could go back to that bar because it used to be my favorite place in this city. i wish i loved this city like i used to, but lately all i want is to leave it.

i wish astrology and god were both real at the same time. i wish we could invent cosmic energy and i wish dandelion seed wishes came true, and i wish coin flips were prayers and they always told the truth. i wish i had someone to talk to who would understand me and not just assign me the manic dream pixie narratives. i wish i could have sex with someone and not feel like a doll. i wish men would stop choking me, i wish someone would kiss me. i wish someone would have good intentions with my body. i wish i made better decisions. i wish i was a real person, but i think i might just be a character. i wish anyone would actually try to look beneath the surface, i really have never hidden that much. i am not a secretive person, but everyone has assumed me to be so callous. i don’t know why everyone thinks i am tough, i just want to be gentle.

[ducknotinarow]

[07 Summer Von :))))))))))))]

"Hey Sweetpea," Yvonne smiles, kind and knowing, her form a silhouette in the bedroom doorway as she waits for acknowledgement, "Do you mind if I have a small talk with you?"

When she's allowed, Yvonne walks into her room, careful of the various piles of organised chaos as she takes a seat on the bed,

"So, Casey told me about your boyfriend."

Wasn't so much that she was told, more like she had to deal with the idiots complaining about their baby not being a baby anymore, before Casey poorly hinted Yvonne goes and talks to Summer about all of this. Supposes it makes sense, she does end up having to give all sorts of talks to, well, of them,

"Congratulations, I'll need to meet this Aspen boy some day," She brushes passed it, "Now, I'm not here to lecture you about having a boyfriend, girlfriend, or anything else, you're a young lady and part of that is finding out what you like or don't like in a partner, or even if you like having one at all," Yvonne reassures, "What I am here to do though, is to tell you the best ways to remain safe while exploring all these new feelings and sensations."

Clasping all four hands together, she looks to Summer, still smiling as she asks,

"Now, so I know what I'm working with, I do need to ask Summer - how much do you already know about sex?"

Before Yvonne even got an answer, she already knew she was in for a very long afternoon.

| muse interaction

Summer had her stuffed hockey bear held to her chest as she just looked up at the wall. She felt restless to put it best. Everything was just such a mess. Part of her wonders if she should count her hockey pucks lucky however seeing how this compared to most others things was maybe tame at best. But sadly as with anything it meant she had to map out her emotions and thoughts over the matter neither she was all that great about and unfortunately despite her willingness to get into any scrap that came up. She also? Ran from anything to big to handle. Being stuff on an emotional level.

"Hey Sweetpea,"

Summers attetion shifted towards her doorway. Honestly anyone that wasn't one of her dad's right now. Moving to sit up now as she offer a faint sound of aknowldegment. A sort of grunt more than anything else. Summer had pick up some habits from her dad's and one of them was caveman talk.

"Do you mind if I have a small talk with you?"

Again another grunt was given for a response to her aunt. As she shifted to make space for them to claim a spot to rest, thinking about it her aunt was pretty helpful when it came to the whole 'Hey the guy that runs the purple dragons is your father and he's a fucking waste of a human bean and thanks to him you fucking exists and in a curl spin on the wheel of Karma. Casey the guys he'd tried to kill many times over took in the dragons spaw of a child.'

Summer may still be working through all that as well. She needed a pause button on life just to allpw.her a moment to think. She's not sure if a pause button should be allowed for years though.

"So, Casey told me about your boyfriend."

She takes it back she wants and needs thar pause button...maybe uncle.Donnie could make her one. Summer drops her fave into the plus of her hockey bear. "He ain't my boyfriend" Summer mummbles under her breath aginst the plush 'fur'.of her bear.

"Congratulations, I'll need to meet this Aspen boy some day,"

And clearly she didn't say that loud enough.

"Now, I'm not here to lecture you about having a boyfriend, girlfriend, or anything else, you're a young lady and part of that is finding out what you like or don't like in a partner, or even if you like having one at all," Yvonne reassures, "What I am here to do though, is to tell you the best ways to remain safe while exploring all these new feelings and sensations."

Summer suddenly lofted her head up at the mention of exploring here feelings. It was really the only part she kind of listened to a bit at the start as well but Summer couldn't even tell you if she was attracted to someone based on gender alone. Summer could really only tell you she liked hockey and if someone else like hockey they could talk about it. Better if they played. And Aspen did it was why they hung out so often. Even if she hates him at first we'll he was her rival for the captian spot so hate was a string word. But still.

Thus might be fine in the end then! She really had no idea how to explain well any of the mess she had suddenly found herself to be part of. Auntie Von was always a good person to turn to this was her saving grace, staring at her aunt as if the light from heaven was glowing around her even. Watching how her aunt took hold of all four of her own hands before getting that one look on her face. It was a bad look but it was a very 'on to bussniess' express if anything sort of like when your teacher knows they gotta get on to the lesson.

"Now, so I know what I'm working with, I do need to ask Summer - how much do you already know about sex?"

That hevaely glow was quick to dim as Summer pulled an expression at the question. "Ew gross why!" Was her mature response right now. She groned and fell back on to her bed pulling her bear in close to her chest. Taking back any spread of hope she had with her. Causing herself for thinking! This is what happens when you think!! No wonder Dad didn't do it.

"I already know 'bout the egg and Phillipino tubes!" Summer at least offers.

Jeez why did adults always jump to the sex talk! Summer wasn't thinking about sex!! She wasn't even sure how she felt about everything going on but everyone around her kept being werid before she even had a chance to try. Her dad's right away assuming she was dating Aspen and thinking him some gang punk member. Ariel was being werid in general. And now her aunt?! Summer groaned this fucking sucked. But she knows based of the misuse of the word philpeino. She and her aunt were in for a long talk. That Summer was going to hate every second of.

This was great.

[slautertm]

though from a young age she was taught the importance of conversations, it does not make the serious shit any easier. it's part of traveling with anyone and it's part of the reason why normally steph despised it. be it around a campfire or they are now, talking as they move onto another town. talking on the past, on open shit doesn't feel safe, but she supposed she should be glad that he is not mad at her for lying... but even so, the half-elf is far from expecting the words that leave his mouth.

“ you should be on the throne. ” @sleazeballtm says, and steph very quickly turns to him with raised brow and an chuckle leaving her mouth but it’s one that is far from amused, in fact there’s almost this sadness to it but steph does not address such, instead looking out, as far as she can from the man. she doesn’t dare meet his eyes as her mind roams in thought.

a time shortly after she would have said some cocky line on how the world would not be ready for her reign, or a smirk followed by a snarky all in time but she can’t lie to ted. she did not even anticipate telling anyone her own truth. so much has changed though very little is different. now she’s tense, trying to swallow down the emotion that brushes and presses against her throat to very little success. she sighed and tilted her head before she shrugged.

“ i am not certain that thus is my destined path anymore. for several reasons. ” and that, in her opinion, was putting it lightly. “ i am far from leader material, always have been, minor crimes i’ve committed or not. even when i was back there, ridiculously heavy dresses and jewelry and all i knew that, as did my people. ” she joked, looking at him at last before she exhaled, tearing her eyes out to the open land before them. “ and i like to see things, to be out here-" or was that not some sort of excuse of sorts? " …even so, if none of that is the case, i’m a deserter in a way, aren’t i? worse, i left them in their greatest hour of need. ” but she does not want to linger on that, instead raising an idea that has been lingering in her head. " when-" if, it lingers on her tongue, but even with a lack of hope, she is far to prideful to say it outloud. "- i get the chance to return, to kick my father and the fucking thing out... i have been trying to think on who could take over." or find who could, because she certainly had not done just that. all the same, it's a sad confession, and it's clear in the way she stares out at the open road. a much softer question comes out of her mouth after, though trusting, trying to play along with the vulnerable air.

" ... do you really think i could? "

[eclipse-phoenix-2]

[For anyone who wants to know what all this said but don't want to translate a bunch of shit, here's everything in English.]

{Eclipse flies into your room, landing on your desk. She has a book in her beak. The book looks very old, it has to be hundreds of years old, if not closer to a thousand years old.}

〔Where did Eclipse even find this book?〕

{Do you read it?}

{The book is worn with time, but it's surprisingly very well kept up. the first page shows a name, a date, and a title, 「Sunil Johann Lee 4/14/1124 "The Creature that Lurks."」 Do you continue?}

{The second page is blank, but on the third page, there's a sketch. With the book's age, it's hard to tell what exactly it's supposed to be, But it kind of looks like Min. Will you continue?}

{Page 4 is blank. 「Page 5」 「As I was walking through the forest, I felt as if someone was watching me. There was no one around so I started to think I had finally lost my mind.」 Mmmm. That's not a language you recognize. Maybe you can translate it. But there is some Malay on this page that you can make out. 「But you are not out of your mind. you are watched from afar.」 Even though these are two different languages, you can still tell that they are two different handwritings. Will you continue?}

[The first language is Yoruba. I already have all of this shit written down. The book will switch between Yoruba and Malay. Yoruba will always be up first, then the Malay will follow it. Only the very last bit will be completely in Malay.]

{「Page 7」 「It had been a couple of days since I had wandered in the forest, but that feeling was still there. Then, I saw it. The creature walked up to me, looming closer. What do you want? Do you want my blood, do you want me dead?」 「I don't want your blood, I don't want you dead. But I want to know you.」 Will you continue?}

{「Page 8」 「What are you? Are you a demon from Hell, here to drag me away?」 「Not at all. I am a shadow creature, and I want to help. My name is Min.」 Will you continue?}

{「Page 9」 「Min? And how do I know I can trust you, Min?」 「Trust has to be earned. So let me get yours.」 Will you continue?}

{Pages 10 through 14 are missing. 「Page 15」 「Min has definitely shown themselves. Their unique abilities have certainly proved to be very useful in these tough times.」 「I am glad to have your trust. But you helped me, just as I helped you.」 Will you continue?}

{Pages 16 through 18 are missing. 「Page 19」 「Every fight makes things harder. It's not even safe to go outside anymore. I fear the end is near.」「Don't worry, Sunil. I will make sure you are safe. You have my word.」 Will you continue?}

{Pages 20 through 26 are missing. 「Page 27」 「He kept his word. They protected me, they fought by my side for many years. My life is coming to an end, just like everyone else's. I want to thank you for being by my side for all these years. Thank you for sticking with me through these dark times. Thanks for being my friend, Min.」 「You don't have to thank me. It was a pleasure to meet you, and I am glad that I could spend this time with you, Sunil.」 Will you continue?}

{Pages 28 through 31 are blank. 「Page 32」 「It seems like yesterday that we were here and writing in this book. Now it's just me here. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for always being by my side even when I am different. Thank you for being my friend, Sunil Johann Lee.」 This is the end of the book, there are no more pages to read. But on the inside of the back cover of the book, two signatures can be made out. One belongs to Sunil, and one belongs to Min. Eclipse has definitely brought you rare and unique find.}

{Eclipse flies into your room, landing on your desk. She has a book in her beak. The book looks very old, it has to be hundreds of years old, if not closer to a thousand years old.}

〔Where did Eclipse even find this book?〕

{Do you read it?}

- @eclipse-phoenix-2

*Yi looks up, rubbing her eyes for a moment before reaching out for the book*

"What you've got there, Eclipse? Where did you find that?"