#hoping thats not an optical illusion

[p-redux]

NEW fan Pic of Sam Heughan all hot and sweaty, seemingly biking in Crieff, Scotland! Lucky lasses! And TMGD also seemingly making a BIG appearance. 😊

His brother bikes a lot, so he's probably with him. Let's see if I get more info.

Aside from Sam being all hot and sweaty and looking adorable, what my eyes went to IMMEDIATELY was something BIG, dare I say, HUGE. Um, are you seeing what I'm seeing? 🍆🤗 👇

How about now? 😉👇

I mean, if that's an optical illusion, I don't want better eyesight hahaha. 🧐 😂

Imma just pretend that IS TMGD making an appearance to brighten our Monday.

For those who are new, TMGD is short for The Magical Golden Dirk aka Sam's Magical Golden Dirk. 😜 And it's been known to make grown women lose their dang minds...some, more than once.

PS. If you find my post offensive, you're on the wrong blog. Here, I celebrate ALL of Sam Heughan from top to bottom, with some LONG stays in the mid lowlands. Have a problem with that? Then, shoo.😘 Don't have a problem with that, then stay and SWOON with me.

[terriblethoughtterminal]

Listen, I understand that alot of inocent palistinans are suffering right now. and netanyaho and his extremist goverment are only making life worse for the lebenise, palistinians and even israilies.

I want peace

But

My main problem with pro-palistinian movments is that they seem incapable of using good optics and rhetoricall divices. Yes its important! why do you protest if not to change peoples opinions?

I hope the "from the river to the sea slogan was retired" because it is hypocritical (altho not as bad as the retired israily slogan "two banks of the jordan river")

I see people waving palistinan flags over burning american flags and I think: what message is that supposed to send? to whom? It only serves to reinforce the opposition that will say "those muslims hate america" and it will at best give those who already agree with you a satisfied smirk. the "all publicityis good publicity" shtick is a fascist tactic that only works to radicalise.

I saw a youtube video criticising a cnn article for humanising an idf soldier. a soldier that commited suicide due to PTSD. and I think that he is (or was) a human. somone so scarred by the horrors of war that he kills himself is not a genocidal maniac. in the begining of the war israily media interviewed a few captured terrorists (or whatever you want to call them) who talked about how Hamas decived them and promised imposible things to convice them to participate in that horrible day and I think its important to humanise the other side regardless of how horible they are to understand their motives so we can stop further conflict, and also because

we are all human

I saw people discribing the october 7 attack as a "minor retaliation" or somthing along those lines and thats just dumb. A retaliation should make your situation better. no one should cheer for the 7th of october because its the day a war started the killed thousands on both sides. vengeance is an illusion that drags us into a cycle of violence. Israelies should morn the death of a palistinan child more then the palistinans because the death of that child will inspire an idiot to kill 10 israelies. palistinians should morn the death of an israely child more then isralies do because that death will fund a bomb that will kill a hundred palistinans. It dosn't matter who was lived in there first, it dosen't matter who started it, it dosn't matter who's the bigger victim, it dosn't matter who's white and who's democratic and who's just acting in self defence

it needs to stop

Pro-palistinian shouldent be anti israeli, thats counter productive. BOTH sides should do the brave thing and put the gun down.

[klonpa]

i,ve decided to stop giving a shit abour what people think is meaningful or impactful to them. like if its that deep to someone thats their perception it doesnt matter if the depth is more of an optical illusion or if its truly that deep. if someone else sees itfor what it is and has no reason to try and find any depth in it then thats fine too it can literally also be shallow as fuck. the thing im deciding to not care about is people being affected by that percieved depth 👍 attempting to be less of a hater because we all have incredibly wildly different experiences and art affects us in massively varied ways especially depending on the point in our lives we are in hope this helps

[psychoetheric]

i keep thinking abt this but one of the bigger things of pure-o ocd is essentially just like not believing your own perceptions of reality. whenever i have to make a turn in traffic im like well it LOOKS like there isnt a car there but what if its actually squished up and perfectly hidden behind the pole like an optical illusion? 🤨 and then im like fuck thats so stupid i hope i get t-boned. and wouldnt you know it, i execute the turn without issue and continue to live.

[guarionexjr]

Love your portraits!! It's very inspiring for me. ✨ I have a couple of technical questions :) What lights do you use in the studio? And how do you scan your film, any particular scanner that you prefer? Are there any behind the scenes photos or videos of your work? Favourite lenses on the RZ67? Too many questions...

Hey Anon,

Really appreciate the kind words. 💖💖💖

I split my lighting between constant lights, available light, and strobe. Usually just controlling the light through exposure to get the right depth of color in the photos. At the moment I scan most of my film digitally on an epson V850 scanner. Don't have a favorite lens but because i love creating optical illusions, i like to use a longer lens instead of a wider lens.

Hope that answers any curious technical questions. But would love to add that all these techniques came from curiosity and playfulness. In the past I tried to recreate my own photos over and over again just to practice getting the same results but ended up with new results every time. Then in time I understood which technique worked best for me. I encourage to use your imagination and be open for any errors because thats usually when the magic starts to happen.

-Guarionex

[actualbird]

omg can we talk about the R cards they give you in the event for a second?

What are Vyn and Artem wearinggggg

like Luke and Marius look so good as always, Luke blushing is the cutest thing ever <3

but with the other two. I’m too distracted by their… weirdly asymmetrical outfits. Not that asymmetrical outfits are bad in general but. It sure is Something™…

omg yes we CAN talk about the R cards i love these R cards so much hhhh and jhvjVKJHV AGREE ON UR OPINIONS,,,,actually i wanna go thru all of em one by one (particularly only the first evolutions cuz i find those much more endearing than the second) for fun

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precious blushy treasures, casual and looks GREAT

im biased, im Obviously biased, but luke is my fave. theres no misses here whatsoever. nor for marius, imo.

also why are yall in matching color schemes, did u guys plan this. im not complaining cuz the plan execution came out great, i like these outfits

both their expressions r SO CUTE, SO ADORABLY NERVOUS, I WANNA SQUISH them

but whats getting me the most here is that luke---notorious for wearing for certain perplexing outfits that are so confounding that even if it doesnt happen all the time, it's still really frigging hard to forget---is wearing something fantastic. it's simple but it WORKS and that already is a FEAT IN ITSELF

my favorite thing about both outfits is the little chain attached to the belt loop cuz idk why but thats ridiculously attractive to me???? what does that chain do? i dont know. i dont care. it looks GOOD

i do have to admit that the see-through pocket of his denim jacket is funny to me. it looks nice but also luke, i hope ur not putting like, ur credit card in there absentmindedly

black jeans. enough said

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[said lovingly] what r u guys wearing?

jus so it's outta the way: no complaints about their expressions, theyre both also very cute. vyn stifling his laughter and artem looking away, badly concealing the box gift....theyre cute :((

and now onto the cruz of the matter: the outfits

i can see that theres a matching theme going on. the younger boys get the light blue/dark colors casual matchy theme and the older ones get a more sophisticated and primarily black deal

and also asymmetrical designs. which, as u said, theres nothing wrong with that! i even like asymmetrical designs a lot! but these ones have me tilting my head JHVSKJDHKF

artem is the lesser evil here. his shirt isnt bad, per se, it just takes me a second glance to understand whats going on cuz the pattern acts a bit like an optical illusion at first

but vyn....

okay, the one half of the shirt being untucked is something i maybe couldve gotten used to. eventually

but having just a Single Suspender is making me go nuts omfg. additionally, there seems to be a second strap coming out of the longer portion of his shirt? is that the other unused suspender?? or is it something else altogether? i have No idea what it does but unlike the chain in belt loops for marius and luke, my confusion trumps the an aesthetic merit i'd end up seeing JHKJSDHFKSD

i must say tho that i like the gold detailing on vyn's shirt, thats pretty :DDD

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full verdict: luke finally gets his moment to shine with an R card outfit that makes sense. vyn has had too many wins in the past with awesome outfits, so for the sake of equality, it is Him who gets the confounding piece of apparel this time

[cablestwisted]

im going to alton towers for my birthday in march and will be spending moat of my time in x sector, is there anything i should look for lore wise??

OOOH have fun!! I really hope you have a fantastic day out!

Something I always tell people to look out for is the vents - there are vents all over X-Sector, indicating the underground facility - the main thing, though, which I always tell people to check out is the door round the back of Oblivion's drop! There's a large door which is quite little known but a very fun addition. I talk about this more here!

There's plenty of themed signage, too, thats quite commonly overlooked - the majority of signage in the area is very themed, even the signs for the toilets, and the phone charging station in X-Cite. It's always fun to keep an eye out for anything new to do with that. Also, don't forget to read the signage at the entrance to X-Sector - it was damaged last year with one of them actually being cracked by someone likely jumping up and grabbing the top of it, so we may see new signage there this season!

If you take the main queues for rides - keep an eye out in the queuelines. There's a lot of very interesting things in the queues, including the various optical illusions in Smiler's queueline, the cables going into the floor on the Marmaliser which are implied to be actually going into the underground facility, and the machinery in Oblivion's queueline. Check out the screens in the area, and listen closely - there's various ambience played around X-Sector and especially around Oblivion that's easy to miss, but obvious once you realise it's not part of the soundtracks!

Also one of the warning lights in Oblivion's queueline spins faster than the others <3 speedy light my beloved. One day we will meet again. If ever I take the main queue. Which has not happened in 2 years as I'm a RAP pass user for various reasons, but you never know!!

You can find the remnants of old signage in various places, and Submission's queueline is still in place - iirc, it was used for Mixtape last year, though I don't know how much of it was used!

Enterprise uses the old music for the Black Hole, which is just, my favourite thing. Enterprise has a bunch of interesting stuff around it and I've no doubt there's stuff in the queue, but, again, I don't take main queue for any rides anymore and have never actually used the main queue for Enterprise, even before I was a RAP pass holder. So if you get a moment to check out Enterprise and you're using the main queue... Please lemme know if there's anything cool in there XD

Also, keep an eye out for anything to do with the Festival of Thrills - any set pieces or general preparation for that etc. The event begins on the 4th of April so you may see some ads for it or the beginning of stage construction in late March.

The shows on the lawn often have elements of lore to them - Sir Algernon's Time Travelling Starship last year was an excellent example of this, being the precursor for the 2021 Fireworks.

[squidshadow]

2, 4, 11, 12, 13?

this got long bc i hate myself, here

2) what work of yours, if any, are you the most embarrassed about existing?

patchwork, hands down. what a shitshow lmao

4) favorite character you’ve written

mmmm even though patchwork Bad, boko and sunlight were two of my favs for very similar reasons. theyre fun to write imo. outside of the pw realm, maybe dana? or… dana as she appears in eight adapts, is a better way to say it. (patchwork Bad)

11) what aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you started writing?

i guess grammar… maybe pacing? and characterization, to a lesser degree. 

12) your weaknesses as an author

i feel like my word choice is often kind of odd? not odd in a quirky cool way but odd in the way that optical illusion of obama is where his eyes are flipped upside down and you cant quite figure out whats wrong with it. i also notice my stuff is often incredibly dialogue-heavy and im bad at dealing with especially heavy scenes. or… i can write my way into a heavy scene but im emotional constipation squared so im really bad at digging my way out of it. again with word choice, its bland and i find myself reusing the same actions over and over again. im trying to fix that but…

im scared im also just recycling the same plotthreads over and over again, if that makes sense? or just reusing the same personality for all characters, leading to them seeming especially 1d. im sure they already seem one-dimensional but i doubt the lack of variety is really helping much.

im bad at thinking of beginnings and endings to a chapter due to my writing style of Chunks.  i think in a chapter those are my two weakest parts

im sure the plots of chapters ive written seem kinda flimsy or “saved by an ungodly amount of coincidence!” which again isnt great. anyone with more critical thinking skills than a box of crayons can probably tear apart works ive made to shreds in seconds.

and i think that my plots are sort of recycled a lot as well, only within the story. a character will develop and then cycle back to square one all over again.

i fear im not creative either and that im simply just stealing from more successful people. eight adapts is really just a glorified op24 knockoff tbqh, im surprised at the reception its gotten. i think its sort of undeserved.

grammar is another thing i struggle with despite being a native english speaker and a monolingual one at that. my grammar is good enough to get by but there are mistakes there that i shouldnt be making if i ever want to actually go anywhere with writing which, again, i doubt i will. you really just have to be the best at something to make it anywhere in an art field, you know? its a silly dream for me. ive never taken a writing class and i cant meet deadlines worth shit (which you all know). everything ive learned is just self-taught since i can count the amount of friends i have on my nipples and i dont want to annoy them more than i really do. its a hobby and a way for me to just fantasize and vent really.

OH ACTUALLY THAT LEADS ME TO A NEW POINT w similar chars. i just project super hard onto them. im sure they seem immature because of that. it doesnt matter how mature i THINK i am, im really still 16 and i dont know much about the world at all. another thing to add on the “horrible at dealing with emotions” list i guess. you should write off experience, i guess, which i do, kind of. but all of the romantic happy bits are just hopeless fantasy. i dont see them getting any better nor do i see myself ever dating anyone. im kind of a mess you see but at least ill have more time to write barely decent fics about homosexual squids.

i dont know. i dont think im a bad writer, but im nowhere near good. im just decent. thats all.

13) your strengths as an author

im scared of really saying anything here because no matter what i think im good at theres going to be someone better than me, you know? theres no point in claiming youre good at something unless youre the best, otherwise youll just be getting peoples hopes up.

if i had to choose, i think dialogue, but only about 55% of it. humor to a much lesser degree since im not really that funny but its one of the few parts of my writing i can sort of tolerate.

[superemeralds]

I don't really understand why everyone is waiting for a sonic adventure sequel. The adventure series has ended years ago and it's perfectly normal for SEGA to prioritize new original games like Sonic Forces. I'd rather wait for a new fresh, creative game than a sequel they would have a huge chance of messing up (like they pretty much did with Sonic 06, but i still like the game tho). But what if they made a one (officially)? What would be a good new sonic adventure game for you? (i'm curious xp)

for the last time they didnt mess up with 06 !!!!!!!!!!! they didnt do anything wrong!!!!!!!1 it was just lots of events that couldnt be stopped inconveniencing the production and in the end they just didnt have the time and resources to flesh the game out; if they did have time and help they could’ve totally made this game revolutionary :(

content:

what i hoped/theorized forces would be

why forces looks like an adventure game, but isnt an adventure game

what i want in a new sonic adventure game (doesnt need adventure in the title)

lemme just sum up why i think forces is lacking and what i thought it would be when the first trailer dropped

I thoguht we’d get a 3 story game again. where each character shows us a different perspective of the same story.

I thoguht sonic story was about sonic fighting the eggman empire and infinite, perhaps being trapped in infinites illusions and breaking out after noticing that things are VERY wrong when infinites clones of his friends start acting weird

the avatar is on their way to protect their city and about to give up until they see sonic and they decide to be a hero themselves to help others and therefore go on their own journey to confront infinite (back then i theorized that infinite was their childhood friend)

and classic story (as much as i hate it) would be about classic dimension warping and perhaps overhearing eggmans plan abt the ruby (bc like. he came with the ruby from mania but like. okay.) and through him being a lil spy we get to know more about the origin of infinite until he eventually joins with the main cast becuase a final story where all 3 fight eggman together was inevitable.

however story perspective is not necessary considering unleashed’s placement

ofc multiple gameplay styles and/or multiple playable characters are THE mandatory thing for an adventure game BUT forces gameplay didn’t have a very varying feel to it. the controls were a little tweaked for classic and avatar had the wispons, but essentially it was the same as sonic but with Gimmicks/Tweaks.

also the spirit of the game’s story didn’t have this strong adventure vibe. It preached the power of friendship, yet it was so….. hollow and empty. due to the avatar being a passive character their friendship with sonic was just so….. fake.

“power of friendship” was just hollow words in this game.

personally i also think the ost was lacking, theme of infinite is the most iconic song to come from it , and the only memorable song next to it was fist bump. which is sad (mainly bc it wasnt even the final boss theme)

also remixes and reuses arent a taboo in adventure games (sa2 did it too) but i think it’s different if character themes and maybe… one or two level themes are reused. there should be plenty more original content.

some ppl say crush40 is mandatory, but I don’t think so. the crush40 version of his world IS NOT the main theme for 06, and unleashed also didnt have c40 (jun did do the guitars tho)

i already debunked chao garden so like. not necessary

on the topic of original content i also want to say that the levels in forces were lacking variety. the environment was different, yea, but the way you get throguh the levels didnt really change much despite more 2d sections in eggman base levels and like. more spikes in urban areas and more slides and 3d in the “jungle” level. it wasnt even really a jungle it was jsut ruins… and green hill… AGAIN….. was not really anything special or new either

what i mean is that even when the optical stuff of the levels is different there was zero change of atmosphere or feel. no change in stradegy to get through. it was all just……. the same.

sonic forces was…………..boring.

there i said it. it was boring.

the most exciting part was the customization and i bet kids loved it. ppl who dont know much about game design and just are in to pass time and have some fun probably loved this game. but like. the game doesnt entertain anymore after its beat for the first time. replaying is a real drag, the fun was literally just…. in the story and getting enough customize stuff to make ur dream avatar.

if anyone feels different, as said, thats valid, but from a design point this is terrible.

WHAT I WANT IN A NEW SONIC (adventure) GAME

i do have a game concept for a silver game lying around (with gameplay, controls, story, levels and some dialogue) that would be an adventure-esque game but i cant leak that yet its too unfinished still

let’s start at the bare minimum: no ooc sonic anymore. writers take notes and be serious for once. sonic knows when its time to joke, and in case yall dont know the answer is NOT 24/7

also maybe more than just sonic playable OR have other characters be relevant beyond a bunch of jokes and random voice lines. (preferably both)

the story should be engaging and have a deeper meaning and a strong vibe for justice and/or freedom; the characters have to undergo development and learn from their mistakes. also the story CAN be dark/more serious while still being suitable for children.

we need a minimum of ONE plot twist.

gameplay styles should be varied and not just sonic, and sonic but with a gun

there NEEDS to be some kind of open world/exploration element in the game. be it a hug world or ingrained in the levels themselves. (things can be open world and still linear just saying)

iconic music!!! vocal theme!!! character themes should be representing the characters personality again!!!!11

story perspectives arent mandatory, but definitely a plus!!!!

minor puzzles in the levels please…. make it challenging to get through !!!1

100 rings=+1life

i cant stress this enough ok

the game also needs something innovative and new. (which is most probably the new gameplay style due to new character or something but ykno) adventure games have always introduced something new and it was AWESOME and fun and refresing!

and my mind just cant focus anymore akjshfkjshfakj i might revisit this some time but for now this is all i can say

man i wish i was neurotypical

[sadpretty-blog-blog]

11/8/22

everything is so boring and i am so boring and i have no hobbies. all i do when im not working is laying in bed or cleaning my room or watching videos online of other people my age enjoying their lives. idk what i’m doing wrong or what i need to do. there’s nothing that feels compelling or interesting to me besides going shopping or eating or obsessing over how i look. i should go to the gym or take walks or something but even that would only fill a portion of my day. i feel like a shell of a human and i’ve felt this way for so long like i’m so empty like my body is just a vessel and my brain is a void and it’s not just missing something it’s missing everything. i used to feel like this much less often. i used to have times where i felt so excited about life and so hopeful for the future but i haven’t genuinely felt like that since i was a teenager and now i’m about to be 22 and my life is so dull. i used to dream about this when i was younger and i imagined all the freedom that comes with your 20s as being so fun and amazing and liberating with so many possibilities but now its here and i just feel empty and numb and like i’ve wasted so much of my life. i feel like i’m wasting my life. for so many years i’ve told myself things will get better soon and i’ll change soon and i’ll be the person i want to be soon but it hasn’t happened yet. i really think that a lot of it is because i’m single and when i was a teenager i always had a boyfriend or a crush or some guy i was flirting with to make me feel important or whole or like there were things about me that were worthy of figuring out or i dont know what. and now i don’t have anyone who i feel that way about or who makes me feel like i’m special i’m just alone with myself and my thoughts about myself which are increasingly darker each day. and dull. i see myself as so dull and kind of dark and like i’m just a black hole that does nothing but exists and works and wastes time and money. i add nothing to any conversation. i add nothing to any friendship or any group event. i have nothing valuable to contribute to any situation. i’m just here wasting away and observing other people living their lives. i don’t know how to live my life. i don’t know how to do things that will bring me joy. everything is so depressing and my already low expectations of life somehow seem to be lowered each day. my family is so stressful and nobody likes each other. i know my family has always been stressful and dysfunctional and thats okay i don’t think anyone’s family is perfect. but i miss being a kid and at least being naive enough to believe that we all genuinely loved each other and enjoyed spending time with each other. nowadays its so rare for my whole family to be in the same place at the same time. but i get it my cousins are older and have families and lives of their own and my mother doesn’t have any siblings so without that part of the family it’s just us living in this house so nothing feels special anymore. i miss being little and going to zia marias house and seeing everyone together and feeling like nothing could ever change that because we were a family who loved each other and we all had a bond which i never thought could be broken. i guess everyone still loves each other but it doesn’t really feel like everyone likes each other anymore. i also miss being a teenager and always having something going on to share with them, like stuff in school with orchestra or field trips or college applications or my first job or other things which felt so important at the time. now i have nothing new to share besides “yeah work is really good i like my job” .... i feel like i am nothing but a human with a job and a bedroom. nothing more. no interests no hobbies nothing that makes me the person i am. i’m just flesh and a skull holding a brain as smooth as a grape. i miss having things to look forward to. a light at the end of the tunnel. an optical illusion in my mind that really really made me believe i would only suffer for so much longer. i do have some things to look forward to now, and i have some goals, but i lost a lot of my optimism because against my will i have given up on the idea that good things happen to me. my friends and i are going on a weekend trip next month. and i was really excited for it. but then jenna said she can’t afford it so she isn’t coming and now i already have so much anxiety about going because she’s kind of an emotional support person for me because i know her and i are almost always on the same level energetically and emotionally and she helps me keep from feeling drained or like i’m not doing enough because we’re usually in it together on the same page. and i don’t really know some of the girls going but my brain has decided that they’re prettier than me and cooler than me and have nicer bodies and more money to spend and less anxiety and less weight on their shoulders and it’ll be so easy for them to have a good time but i’ll be second guessing my every movement because i’ll be spending a weekend with girls i’m not comfortable around and i have no fucking idea how to make connections with new people without feeling like a nuisance or like people can see right through me and they can feel how hard i have to try to fit in. so i’m nervous to go and the excitement has worn off and it’s happening in 3 weeks but now i can’t wait for it to be over. i haven’t even thought about my birthday, which is in a week from tomorrow, because i have nothing planned for it and i dont even want to plan anything because it’ll require my brain to form expectations for the day and i don’t want to be let down on my birthday. it’s not a special one it’s just 22. i think after 21 there’s not many important birthdays and the “important” ones just mean you’re getting really fucking old. so yeah i’m not excited for my birthday i don’t want any attention (which is rare) i don’t want to ask for any gifts i don’t want to plan anything i don’t even want to go out to eat i don’t even mind if i work i don’t even wanna think about it. and then after all these things comes christmas and ever since covid christmas has been so fucking depressing because we don’t go to zia marias anymore and laying in my bed alone on christmas eve has made me cry the past few years and i’m not looking forward to it. and christmas day at my house is just so uncomfortable and i don’t dislike al’s family but they still don’t really feel like my family i feel like i don’t belong with them. and my moms birth family is kind of annoying and i also don’t feel like i belong with them but i don’t really care if i fit in with them i just don’t like their presence because i have to act like i care that they’re in my house and it’s a holiday. last christmas i drank an entire bottle of prosecco and got so drunk i cried and threw up and my ex boyfriend who i really fucking miss had to help me. new years since covid has sucked just as bad, if not worse. 2021 i got kicked out of my house. 2022 i spent it crying in bed because vic didn’t want to see anyone (for good reason but still couldn’t help but cry because i wished things happened differently). then there’s valentines day. valentines day has been good the past 2 years because i had vic. but now i don’t and i wonder how i’ll feel about our situation once february is here. i wonder if i’ll spend the day crying over him like i’ve been doing almost every day the past week or so. i think even if i’ve accepted the situation more by then it’s still gonna hurt a lot and it’s literally november right now but i’m thinking about how much february is gonna hurt me and i’m sad about it. but then soon after february ends spring will come and maybe then i’ll start to feel better and the sun will set later in the day and i won’t be wearing a jacket and i’ll start shopping for new bikinis and i’ll love my body because i’m currently forcing an eating disorder on myself to get my old body back. so i guess that’s something to look forward to.

another thing that used to bring me a lot of emotion was the idea of getting an apartment one day and thinking i’d have moved out by now. but that was before i worked full time and realized that even with my 40 hours a week i can’t afford a studio anywhere within a decent range on long island. everything i should be looking forward to has a dark cloud over it and i can’t find anything to bring me any type of joy. i feel ugly all the time i have nobody at all who makes me feel okay and the important things in my life are things i just want to end so i don’t have to think about them anymore. 

[zeynepartukmac]

“La Maison ensorcelée” with sound

Hi again! This week we were assigned to re-create a silent movie by using music and sound. Obviously my love for strange entities and horror showed itself once again and I chose a film by Segundo De Chomon, a spanish cinematographer, the only person in 1907 who managed to create such horrific films without sound. One thing about Chomon that allows him to create and give the effect of horror so good is his skills with optical illusions and outstanding camera tricks. Even without sound I felt really uncomfortable while watching his film “La Maison ensorcelée” (The Haunted House) Thats why I decided to use it in my assignment. The scene I chose is a tea party where the tea is served on its own and the cake is cut by haunted spirits. Therefore while creating the sound I used plates, bottles, knifes, teacups and all the other materials you can think of when it comes to a tea party. Honestly it wasn’t easy and took many...many...many hours to complete. Thankfully last year I took a sound design course which was really helpful with this assignment. I watched videos of successful foley artists and tried their techniques at some parts. I had some trouble especially with the scene where the bread is sliced because the bread I had at home was not crunchy enough so the sound didn’t fit. Then I tried biting celery stalk as a way to create the crunch sound of the bread and surprisingly it worked! Even though it was tiring I had a lot of fun doing it.

Here’s a link for you to watch, I hope you enjoy! 

https://youtu.be/nEyXW2xD8HE

[marvel-lously]

Hi! Congratulations on 300 followers, thats amazing! I would like a (male) ship please! I am 5’6, I have curly brown hair, brown eyes, pale skin, and freckles. I love to read, listen to music, work out, and I am a swimmer. I’m also a huge science nerd! I hope this is a good enough description. Once again, congratulations on hitting 300 followers!

I ship you with Bruce!

You two meet when you come to visit Tony’s lab. He’s doing some research on how stress affects his cells and the science nerd you are you can’t help but give comments on his work like “okay so with normal humans, stress can alter the genetic material and it looks like with you the effects of gama-rays are making this change in genetic material all the more extreme, so maybe you should try and find a thing that can protect your genes, so the effects of stress won’t be so extreme instead of trying to find a substance that will stop the transformation?”. He’s surprised that you know so much about this and is immediately intrigued by you.

For your first date he takes you to the museum of illusions. You have so much fun, exploring the optic illusions, and taking funny pictures of you two in the process. He loves how you’re such a science nerd, he finally found the girl he isn’t afraid to be nerdy with and who shares his enthusiasm for new science experiments.💛💛

However your favorite moment with him isn’t when you two work together in a lab, you like it even more when he takes time off to go swimming with you, which after an hour or so ends up with under water kisses💗😘

P.S. Sorry for the late response and thank you so much for being patient with me💛💛🌼I hope you like your ship!

[pearlyswirls13]

ok so i just wanna preface this real quick: i get weirdly vivid dreams when i drink also im a super lightweight and its finals week

here i am at this mall next to this stoner/skater kid from high school (danny???) who i had a few classes with and we’re people watching. and we make up dumb little stories about the people at the mall. i think were in the macys department store area?? anyways were talking about these two little kids who look like theyre middle school and then suddenly they reappear behind us all creepy like. u know how kids in scary movies always have that creepy grin and the pigtails? yeah that

so they ask us what were doing and then invite us to their house like thats normal. anyways we go to their house which turns out to be this giant mansion type thing in a suburb area. the inside of the house is huge but everything is beigey-white. and the stairs are weird, like that optical illusion staircase. so the kids want us to meet their dad and we go along wit it. 

as we go up this illusion staircase i feel something funny in my mouth. you know when you chip a tooth and you get little tooth chip in your mouth? my mouth fills up with tooth (teeth?) chips just as we meet the dad who looks a lot like my lab pi who i just asked for a job from (hes this very large and imposing intimidating indian guy. super terrifying and scary when he gets mad)

anywho i excuse myself to the restroom in hopes of getting rid of all the tooth/teeth chips but as im rinsing my mouth out i feel the rest of my teeth coming loose. like when you have a loose tooth and you can feel the gums kinda squishing and that little tug. also im coughing up coffee grounds and then i wake up

TLDR: im very stressed and i had a dream about my teeth falling out while meeting with my lab pi

[designationpinknoise]

Can I please get Drift,Rodimus,Brainstorm,Megatron and whirl. with an organic SO who has eye powers like in Kagerou daze?

Okay! I love the Kagerou daze series! my fav character is Ene, hope you don’t mind them being female? I’m used to writing for girls.●◆●◆●◆●◆●◆●◆●◆

Drift: stealing eyes/mind-reading.

Drift was very curious about his girlfriend, even before asking her out. from her love for exploring, to her upbeat attitude and smile was addictive, And nothing ever seemed to bring (Y/n) down!

Or so Drift thought, as he wandered passed Ten who seemed with someone, the swordsmech thought nothing of it, until he saw (Y/n) leaning against the wall, eyes glowing red as Ten continued chatting with her.

“I never seen them live, are they any good?”

“Ten…”

“Really? I might consider it, ever hear of Trocadero?”

“Ten?”

“Oh yeah, they’re awesome!”

Drift hummed and continued on his way to Swerve’s then stopped glowing red eyes?! he immediately back tracked; and froze, when he saw his girlfriend’s eyes glowing like two red rubies! instead of their normal (y/e) color! She noticed Drift staring and blinked her eyes went back to normal color.

She looked horror-stricken and took off running with Drift in hot pursuit which is pretty dumb of her; considering her boyfriend can turn into a sports car. he caught up to  her, and drove to his hab-suite for answers... needless to say Drift was disturbed when he learned about the Medusa ritual, he avoids (Y/n) for a little bit.

then comes back because he missed her. and realized if the other person hadn’t sacrificed themselves, then Y/n wouldn’t be with him and he would be alone.

…That and, now that Drift knows she can read minds. he can tease her, with all naughty thoughts he wants.~ and no one would-be the wiser.■■■■■■■■■■■■■■

Rodimus: concealing eyes

Rodimus was stumped with his human, one minute she standing in front of him staring having a staring contest.Next thing he knew she disappears! well to his optics anyways,

his thermals scanner could see her along with some weird bubble thing.was she using some sort of cloaking field generator?

He shook his helm no, humans don’t have that sort of tech! He pouted and slowly reached over and tapped the “bubble” like it’s soapy counterpart; it popped and he could see (y/n) clearly along with her glowing red eyes, instead of the usual (Y/c).

“now, I’m no expert on humans. but, I know they don’t have red eyes…or turn invisible”

“I’m a ghost.”

“Yeah, and I’m the princess of Canada.”

“I’m serious! sort of…if only I hadn’t jumped.”

Rodimus was still skeptical as his girlfriend explained her story, her family was abusive and ignored as she was the result of her fathers cheating and one day Y/n had enough.

she just wanted to go away to disappear. so, she went to the highest place in town and jumped.

But, she wasn’t alone an old man. a complete stranger followed after her, he saved her that day. but, at the cost his own life…

“Then I woke up on bench in park nearby. I didn’t go home that night or the next” (y/n) frowned as Rodimus stared at her with a frown “So, you really think you’re a ghost?” Y/n went to yell at him.

only for a pair surprisingly warm metal lips suddenly pull her into a heated kiss before pulling away “you taste and feel pretty alive to me.” The (y/hc) face turned bright red, matching her eyes before disappearing again

Rodimus snickered and made mental note to ask if her little trick can make bots invisible too?■▲■▲■▲■▲■▲■▲■▲

Brainstorm x mute reader: Deceiving eyes

Brainstorm thought he was going crazy! he swore up and down that he saw Magnus’s and Nautica’s Holo-avatar walk passed him in the last half hour but, he just got of the comm with Nautica.

The femme swore she was with Magnus at Swerve’s, and they weren’t using their avatars! So,then who the hell was?…it was probably the twentieth time he’d seen them pass when he finally got a look at these phantoms.

Brainstorm then noticed the difference in details..The hair, was (y/c) the clothing was same, but had (y/fc) hoodie tied around their waist and their eyes were glowing red!

His first thought was a Decepticon snuck aboard! But, the more he kept looking, the more familiar this mystery person was to him.

“Y/n?” the Nautica double froze as Brainstorm curiously approached them “That is you isn’t it?” the scientist asked curiosity rousing inside him. the girl shook her head “I know it’s you, there’s only one organic on this ship.” He stated she would’ve got him but, if it weren’t for the red eyes and hair!, Now how she got her hands on an avatar projector Brainstorm would like to know!

The illusion disappeared as he scanned her body only for the blue and white mech found no projection tech on (Y/n)! Brainstorm blinked as she grinned turned into Whirl’s avatar. stuck her tongue out at him and ran with Brainstorm running hot on her heels.

When he finally caught up to (Y/n) it took Brainstorm a few seconds, to realize his girlfriend was feeling lonely and wanted his attention. Maybe after a little loving he’ll ask about her abilities later. ⇒⇔⇒⇔⇒⇔⇒⇔⇒⇔⇒⇔⇒⇔⇒

Whirl: Immortality eyes

Whirl was actually happy for once why? because (Y/n) The cute A.I. chick living in that earth crummy earth computer, finally accepted to be his girlfriend! He even had Perceptor work on this hovering orb projector so she wasn’t just stuck in the computer anymore!

She can form a holo-avatar and roam around the ship when she wants, though there was a downside; she couldn’t form her legs, they sort of faded into shiny shimmery pixels past her.

…uh what did Ratchet call it? Timbits!…no, Tibia that’s it! so she just sort of floated around instead walking.

Not that it bothered Whirl though the others were a little weirded out by it.sometimes for shits and giggles she’d hover up behind them, Her red eyes glowed gleefully. just to see how long it would take before they realized the digitized girl was behind them.

The copter bot and his girlfriend had a good laugh hearing Rodimus scream like a little femmeling as he shouted.

“where did you come from?!” and in an instant Whirl stopped laughing and paused that was good question…

Where did (Y/n) come from? sure, he heard that earth had AIs. but, not as advanced or “alive” as his girlfriend, there was always something he couldn’t shake off about her. So, one night he asked.

that’s how he learned about the Medusa legend, her and her classmates murder the lost of her body and waking up in this one. “So, you’re like me?” his claw gestured to his body his yellow optic dimmed as she thought it over.

“I suppose…”

“Do you ever miss it?”

“My body or earth?”

“Both…I guess.”

“Earth? I’m gonna have to say no, humans are douchebags! And My memory is a little fuzzy. but. I recall having some sort of terminal illness. caused me to blackout a lot. So, not like I had all the time in the world.”

(Y/n) said with a shrug

That was first time in a longtime,that Whirl felt something other then anger

Empathy.

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Megatron: Petrify eyes the half Medusa girl.

Megatron was stunned when he walked into the medbay and saw the stowaway Skids had found in the vents. The woman looked up at him equally surprised

“(Y/n)That’s not possib-I… How are you still?” his optics scanned her face from the odd scale like patterns on her cheeks, Red eyes and long hair . First-aid looked between them “You know her?”

The ex-warlord nodded he explained that the two of you met on earth, when she was just child no older then 13 that was over 50 years ago! Rodimus jumped in on this; staring her directly in the eyes as the human looked up at him fearful.

“she definitely looks good for a sixty year old granny! are you sur-…”

“Yes! I am sure she…Rodimus?”

“_”

“Rodimus stop playing around!”

Megatron grabbed his shoulder and the flame colored bot, fell to the floor stiff like a statue still in his leaning position First-aid quickly scanned him.

Megatron looked on concerned when suddenly! Rodimus jumped to his feet confused and horrified before looking at the woman.

“m-monster.” and ran out of the medbay “she put him in stasis!"First-aid said showing Megatron the results; the two bots looks at the woman berth staring forlornly at the direction Rodimus ran to.

her hair wiggled in agitation before glancing at them, then averted her eyes as both mechs cautiously approached her, as Megatron spoke up.

"Why did you do that to Rodimus?”

“I didn’t mean to! he called me names and he got to close! …and.”“You were scared, hmm. How did you do it? you have no weaponry or tech that would’ve.”

“I just looked at him! my…eyes they’re special like my mothers and grandmother…I’m not a monster!”

The following weeks were rough, Rung and Magnus had come to see the so called “Monster.” only to deem her non-threatening; all she did was put Rodimus is stasis, it’s not like she did it on purpose!

Besides that ability could come in handy with their more rowdy crewmates. though, that went over like a lead balloon with Megatron.

who was obviously fond of the little Medusa, she had explained her heritage and ancestors curse to the ex-warlord, It definitely explained why she hadn’t age much is 50 years “How old are you by the way?” he asked while the sat in his Hab-suite reading.

“196, I age one year every ten years.”

“Well that’s good to know.”

“Why’s that?”

“Because now I can court you without "robbing the cradle” as you earthlings say.“

Y/n eyes widened a looked Megatron straight in the eye accidentally freezing him "Nath ah amaig!” she heard Rodimus scream and saw him frozen mid-step holding a data pad “oops.”

[hgfstreamchats]

The Room

Welcome to the 'highglossfinish' room. Jalaperilo: Hello! Knock Out: Hello, Jalaperilo human! Jalaperilo: *squints* Jalaperilo: what the hell? Knock Out: I have no clue. Jalaperilo: haha Jalaperilo: who made you do this? Knock Out: Excellent question. Jalaperilo: somehow, this isn't worst than The Room? Knock Out: Oh, that's encouraging. Jalaperilo: Oh doc, you're in for a treat Knock Out: I can't wait.

Jalaperilo: the first time I watched this was also on a random stream i found. it was also the stream where I found the epic horror that is Re-Animator Knock Out: Which we also need to stream someday. Knock Out: Are...are they all interfacing with each other? Jalaperilo: please dont judge human interfacing on this film Knock Out: No promises. Knock Out: Dear Unicron, get on with it. Jalaperilo: im dying Knock Out: Gah! Jalaperilo: i have my head in my hands Knock Out: That was completely relevant and necessary. Jalaperilo: just like this movie Jalaperilo: cause hes terrible in bed Knock Out: What, humans don't like spastic little hip twitches? Jalaperilo: that arent in the vicinity of where they should actually be thrusting? Knock Out: He tried. Sort of. Jalaperilo: does he get a gold star with 'you tried' on it? Knock Out: He gets one of the lopsided ones. Matches his technique. Jalaperilo: hahah! Knock Out: Gladly. Jalaperilo: hehe Jalaperilo: oh no. please dont. he's my friend *DOES NOTHING TO RESIST SLEEPING WITH HER* Knock Out: Way to stick to your guns there, human we just met. Jalaperilo: he has the breaking strain of a kit kat Knock Out: Hah! Knock Out: What actually is he supposed to be penetrating? Knock Out: *exactly Jalaperilo: unless she has some weird random holes in her, i dont know what theyre stabbing at Knock Out: That's the plot twist. Jalaperilo: thats she's actually a sponge Knock Out: Or in possession of some kind of prehensile protein sleeve. Jalaperilo: erg Knock Out: Go back to the fat pug. Jalaperilo: this kid is creepy Knock Out: He grew up to be one of the sex offender shufflers. Jalaperilo: hahah! Jalaperilo: she ordwered the worst pizza Knock Out: Isn't that supposed to be one of those human foods you can't ruin? Knock Out: And yet, somehow, she did? Jalaperilo: please dont maake love again Knock Out: Oh, please, no. Not again. Knock Out: Have mercy. Jalaperilo: you cant get away ko Jalaperilo: we both have to live with this Knock Out: We have to live with his sloppy twitches. thenightetc: ...What did I walk in on Jalaperilo: get out while you can Jalaperilo: hello btw Knock Out: Run, and live well. Knock Out: And hello. thenightetc: (Lost track of time and tumblr decided not to alert me that there were new posts!  :') ) Jalaperilo: blah blah blah btw i have cancer. anyway.... thenightetc: the acting is really... something. Jalaperilo: have you never seen this before either? Jalaperilo: you're in for as right treat thenightetc: I have not.  I've just heard it's notoriously terrible thenightetc: It's the... Wisseau thing right? Knock Out: It is indeed. Jalaperilo: yes Knock Out: Who's this unfortunate soul? thenightetc: :( Jalaperilo: urgh thenightetc: I was 80% sure that was leading up to murder thenightetc: Just felt like one of those scenes, y'know? Jalaperilo: probably would have done the plot a favour with a murder or two Knock Out: That makes it worse! Cardinal: Hello, hello! Knock Out: Cardinal! How good to see you! Jalaperilo: hello! Knock Out: But how tragic you're here. thenightetc: So, ah, what all did I miss in terms of plot? thenightetc: ...Oh?  Murder time NOW? Jalaperilo: tommy is the best ever, lisa hates him one minute and loves him the next Jalaperilo: you also missed2 bad sex scenes Jalaperilo: there is no cohearent plot Cardinal: I see what you mean by tragic. thenightetc: He was JUST yelling about money, it's obvious "what he wants" Jalaperilo: how does one accidentally buy drugs lol thenightetc: Where did that guy come from Knock Out: They obviously care deeply for the 36 year old man they adopted. Jalaperilo: haha thenightetc: oh no Jalaperilo: stop making aliens think humans are terrible at sex! thenightetc: Please tell me they're not going to phone sex now Starscreamapillar: Good, I have not missed out on too much madness. Knock Out: No, just several abysmal fragging scenes. Knock Out: Welcome to the disaster, by the way. Cardinal: Oh, did I miss the stair sex? Cardinal: ha ha ha what a story mark Starscreamapillar: I am not at all displeased to have missed out on those. Jalaperilo: lucky you cardinal thenightetc: Yes count your blessings Knock Out: What a charmer. Jalaperilo: thanks for dissing my gender thenightetc: I wish they'd both fall off the roof. Starscreamapillar: This human learned how to speak from the Internet, didn't he. Knock Out: Shuut Cardinal: *gun fingers* shuut thenightetc: What is he implying here Jalaperilo: there is a big theory on the net that tommy wiseau isnt actually human Cardinal: hahn? Knock Out: That's...actually quite plausible? thenightetc: It's not nice to mock whatever speech impediment or accent or whatever he has, guys. Starscreamapillar: Are conversations normally carried out at a recline like that? thenightetc: Why is her friend all shocked that she doesn't want to marry the guy who hit her thenightetc: Terrible friend Jalaperilo: this is how humans emote yes? Starscreamapillar: Apparently. FeralDog: goonai lisa Starscreamapillar: Ah yes. They are in the totally real alley. Cardinal: Of course! FeralDog: this looks so.... buffy the vampire slayer knockoff FeralDog: I keep expecting the undead to strike thenightetc: I keep hoping for the undead to strike. FeralDog: you know... Knock Out: This movie is like a victim of head trauma, dazed and wandering through a field somewhere. FeralDog: there supposedly was a vampire subplot that Wiseau nixed? Jalaperilo: hyoomans throw football as bonding yes? Cardinal: ((Apparently Tommy Wiseau did originally want to enter onto the roof on a flying car Cardinal: ((and--yeah, the vampire reveal)) thenightetc: Oh boy!  Is he dying Cardinal: ((But he didn't nix it, he wanted it Cardinal: ((they talked him out of it Starscreamapillar: And then he ate that younger man. Jalaperilo: he ends up eating somethign alright thenightetc: ...well, that's not alarming Jalaperilo: the only plot this film has is everyone is terrible except tommy who is perfect Starscreamapillar: Somehow I get the feeling even watching this from the beginning wouldn't have it make any more sense. FeralDog: he's not even looking at the psych Starscreamapillar: I doubt that man's credentials. FeralDog: he says dejectedly Jalaperilo: time to tell us how *** women are? FeralDog: yep Cardinal: oh no the psychologist knows thenightetc: Johnny does sort of look like he's halfheartedly dressing up as a vampire Cardinal: "Can I meet the married woman you're boinking?" thenightetc: Totally normal question to ask Knock Out: I feel like I've blown a neural circuit. Jalaperilo: you made love twivce in this film already FeralDog: You keep playing psychologist with us! now let me ask you questions a psychologist should answer! Cardinal: Shh, shhhh.  Let the words eat away at your processor.  The pain will recede soon. Jalaperilo: cheep cheep cheep thenightetc: oh god Starscreamapillar: .... Cardinal: cheep cheep cheep thenightetc: is he going to--No, I guess not Cardinal: I NEVER ATE SO MUCH FeralDog: the only sane comment Jalaperilo: *wink* FeralDog: this sounds like he's making it up as  he goes and the music is not helping thenightetc: ...I don't think that's how checks work Jalaperilo: just ndissing the *** outta you lisa Starscreamapillar: I don't think any of this is how it works. Cardinal: Denny why are you sitting on the floor Starscreamapillar: Sit on the floor, with the front door open. Jalaperilo: denny asked her for a kiss earlier thenightetc: Do iiiiiiit FeralDog: i almost feel like the vampire subplot would make this make sense. in a he's hypnotized too many people and now can't keep control of the illusions so the wor;d's gone mad around him,,,,,, Jalaperilo: is knock out still with us or did he actually fry his processor? Starscreamapillar: I envy him if he did brown out. This is painful. Knock Out: Theoretically, I'm still here. Jalaperilo: sorry i tried to throw you off a building? Jalaperilo: good. was worried you'd left us to suffer on our own FeralDog: yeah, man it's totally fine. happens all the time Cardinal: He already knows your secret. Cardinal: I'm so depressed bro Jalaperilo: aint we all? Starscreamapillar: That small door. thenightetc: The roof bothers me more.  Looks so fake. Jalaperilo: none of these suits fit even slightly Cardinal: *ominous music*  He shaaaved Starscreamapillar: They found the suits in a box in their fake alley. FeralDog: wwwwwwwwwhat Cardinal: . . . . . Jalaperilo: lol Cardinal: well Cardinal: I wish Trogdor were here to see this. Cardinal: Maybe he could make sense of it. Jalaperilo: is tommy trogdor's holoavatar? Knock Out: Fact! Starscreamapillar: Did they have a reason to be wearing tuxedos earlier? thenightetc: Maybe they were trying them on to make sure they fit? Cardinal: . . . nice segue. Starscreamapillar: No one paid for those drinks. Starscreamapillar: Drat. Now I must suffer through this. Jalaperilo: god Knock Out: For the love of Unicron, no. Cardinal: Shield your optics! Jalaperilo: can unicron come eat us? Starscreamapillar: I think exploding again would be less painful than this. FeralDog: do we really need to see the ENTIRE sex scene FeralDog: a fadeout would be appreciated Starscreamapillar: How is this still going on?! Jalaperilo: in all 4? sex scenes, no one seems to have thrust anywhere near her vagine Knock Out: What I tell you? Protein sleeve. Jalaperilo: oh year lol Jalaperilo: *yeah FeralDog: more football based bonding Starscreamapillar: I feel as though you could replace these actors with golden retreivers and lose nothing. Jalaperilo: 'i saw a hyooman program with this so all hyoomans do this bonding' Knock Out: Please, no. Cardinal: AGAIN? thenightetc: Again?! Knock Out: Not again. No more. Cardinal: *weeps quietly* thenightetc: Please let something burst in and eat them Knock Out: Oh, thank you! Cardinal: Wow, Lisa. Jalaperilo: was there anything like this on cybertron? thenightetc: Some of the audio seems a little... desynched or something thenightetc: Is this... dubbed? Starscreamapillar: If there was, I certainly didn't watch it. Knock Out: I think this might be one of those "once in a universe" things. Jalaperilo: *** Jalaperilo: we really are the worst species Cardinal: Well, you are the spawn of Unicron. Knock Out: Take a bow. thenightetc: Excuse me, I'm not taking the blame for this movie. thenightetc: How dare. Jalaperilo: us all watching this now are now linked in a shared, horrific experience Starscreamapillar: As if I didn't already have enough horrifying experiences in my life. Jalaperilo: i like being the spawn of another species' devil thenightetc: ...Yikes thenightetc: What the *** Starscreamapillar: The film's writer clearly had some unresolved issues. thenightetc: You think? Jalaperilo: would you believe that tommy wiseau wrote ANd sirected AND acted in this? Jalaperilo: *directed Cardinal: Yes. Knock Out: And funded it, and apparently no one knows how. Starscreamapillar: Yes. Yes I would. Jalaperilo: alien money Cardinal: Deal with Unicron. Jalaperilo: probably traded a load of shanix with a skuxxoid Starscreamapillar: Are you certain he didn't kidnap these people, and force them to be in his film? thenightetc: Oh god, they're going to sneak off for another sex scene, aren't thy Starscreamapillar: 'Sneak'? thenightetc: Well. Cardinal: As Shockwave would say, "illogical." Jalaperilo: shockwave would shutdown at this film Cardinal: . . . Cardinal: I'm going to show it to him. Cardinal: Whoa, someone did the impossible and came BACK into the house. Knock Out: Sensitive with genuine human emotions. Cardinal: Leave your STUPID comments in your pocket! thenightetc: That's where I keep all *my* stupid comments. Cardinal: Good thinking!  Inviting my friends! Cardinal: What are they doing outside? Cardinal: I just? Cardinal: Alternate, help. Jalaperilo: cardinal is crashing lol thenightetc: Oh god. Knock Out: I can't help you. I'm so very, very sorry. Knock Out: I'm lost. I'm gone. Cardinal: *whimpers* thenightetc: *facepalm* Starscreamapillar: Surely he won't be able to count to nine months from now. Jalaperilo: haha thenightetc: That guy does look sort of like Xander Knock Out: Who *are* you? Jalaperilo: i think they swapped out an actor Starscreamapillar: No one will notice this loud conversation in public about her cheating. Knock Out: Doesn't matter, had cake. Jalaperilo: haha! thenightetc: They're hardly subtle about it.  Maybe everyone already knows. Cardinal: What do you mean, look at this subterfuge Cardinal: What do you mean, look at this subterfuge Jalaperilo: what planet IS he from? thenightetc: What do you mean, I always slow dance with my platonic friends Knock Out: I've spent the last hour pondering that same question. Starscreamapillar: He is fed up with this world. Knock Out: Most alien species that can mimic other species tend to be good at it. thenightetc: Hey, you know what would be funny after this? Knock Out: What? Jalaperilo: icepick lobotomy> Jalaperilo: ? Cardinal: "And I DEFINITELY have breast cancer." thenightetc: Just look for "arrested development chicken dance" on youtube Knock Out: Consider it done. thenightetc: I'm sure there are a BUNCH of clips caffienatedglitter: henlo Starscreamapillar: Someone had better end up murdered at the end of this. Knock Out: I hope it's me. thenightetc: For some reason I'd gotten the impression this was a horror movie Jalaperilo: you may just get your wish tonight screamy Starscreamapillar: The horror is in sitting through it. caffienatedglitter: oh god caffienatedglitter: EWWWW Starscreamapillar: Do Not call me that. thenightetc: :( Knock Out: I think we can agree we've all lost something precious tonight. caffienatedglitter: what did i walk in on Jalaperilo: you are the lucky one, to only suffer the end of this caffienatedglitter: how is the audio from the other end of the phone line so clear thenightetc: ...He already knew they were cheating together though? caffienatedglitter: what is his accent thenightetc: https://www.reddit.com/r/linguistics/comments/1gs6ol/what_the_heck_is_going_on_with_tommy_wiseaus_voice/ caffienatedglitter: he angery thenightetc: Not sure if there's an actual answer there, per se caffienatedglitter: he screm Thebes: Oh man, I appear to have been late to the worst movie thenightetc: You are correct caffienatedglitter: KNOCKING THINGS OVER IS THE ONLY WAY A MOVIE CHARACTER CAN EXPRESS ANGER thenightetc: Chew that scenery!  CHEW thenightetc: Aren't they just upstairs from him?  Can't they hear this going on? Thebes: How delicately he moves those bedsheets Starscreamapillar: I am disappointed at the lack of murder spree. Jalaperilo: this is more acting than the rest of the film thenightetc: Uh caffienatedglitter: ewwwww thenightetc: Why this Jalaperilo: i forgot that bit! Cardinal: . . . caffienatedglitter: ewvwwhw wnvjhwvg' Thebes: I think this is ... supposed to be pathos? caffienatedglitter: oh god caffienatedglitter: dude stop Cardinal: I've been asking myself the same thing. caffienatedglitter: holy Knock Out: FRAG. caffienatedglitter: he's dead Thebes: yes. yes he is. thenightetc: dramatic slow-mo caffienatedglitter: ... caffienatedglitter: YAAAAAAAAAAAY Jalaperilo: well at least he got his daily amount of iron? caffienatedglitter: no, he's sleeping Starscreamapillar: Yes, just put your hand right in that. thenightetc: Yeah, get his blood all over your hands caffienatedglitter: so many diseases Jalaperilo: bet you werent expecting that Doc thenightetc: Disturb the scene a little more Thebes: PATHOS caffienatedglitter: seriously pathogens love to travel through blood Knock Out: I can honestly say I wasn't. caffienatedglitter: what do you mean you lost him YOU DUMPED HIM caffienatedglitter: ALSO MARK DIDNT YOU WANT TO SEX HER BEFORE Thebes: YES. YES HE DID Cardinal: LEAVE US thenightetc: Wow Knock Out: Don't leave that one alone with the body! Jalaperilo: this whole film is about tommy's messiah complex caffienatedglitter: CALL THE COPS caffienatedglitter: CALL THE COIPS YOU IDIOTS Jalaperilo: knock out! haha thenightetc: No, no, they'll want to handle the gun a bit first too thenightetc: Get their fingerprints all over it caffienatedglitter: i tyhought he saids he didnt have any friends now everyones sobbin over his body caffienatedglitter: piugblswk caffienatedglitter: ive only been here for TEWO MINUTES Thebes: WAIT Cardinal: Amazing. Thebes: HE WAS GRABBING HER HAIR caffienatedglitter: WHY Starscreamapillar: Well, that was about as bad as having my head blown off again. caffienatedglitter: WHAT IS THIS MUSIC caffienatedglitter: INAPROPRIATE MUCH Jalaperilo: sexytimes on the corpse music FeralDog: good god Thebes: There's appropriate anything in this movie? Knock Out: Denny is there also. caffienatedglitter: "assistant to mr. wiseau"???? five people??? FeralDog: I feel like I just survived a deadly fever caffienatedglitter: those poor performers Jalaperilo: they were the five humans that taught him how to act like one of us Thebes: oh, man, there's abook about the weird, troubled production of this movie. It's so out there it's getting made into its own movie caffienatedglitter: i wish i'd gotten here earlier thenightetc: You shouldn't. caffienatedglitter: you misunderstand caffienatedglitter: i am a masochist caffienatedglitter: more assisstants jesus caffienatedglitter: welp caffienatedglitter: is that it Knock Out: The assistants were there to keep the Wiseau human from poking himself. caffienatedglitter: oh dear Thebes: yeah you missed the bit about Denny being into drugs and the bizarre casual cancer subplot caffienatedglitter: the room is a meme, i know the basic plot caffienatedglitter: wait caffienatedglitter: cancer caffienatedglitter: WHEN DID CANCER GET INVOLVED thenightetc: Yeah, there was cancer Jalaperilo: the mum is all i'm dying, its deffo cancer, andyway, marry tommy FeralDog: This lady casually announced that she had breast cancer caffienatedglitter: ooooh right caffienatedglitter: what Knock Out: I just take the suggestions, I don't question them. caffienatedglitter: at least it isn't the cheeeep cheep cheep thenightetc: They ALL have one caffienatedglitter: cheeep chepchepcheepcheep Starscreamapillar: . . . . caffienatedglitter: wait caffienatedglitter: frag for a second i thought his voice was robin williams Knock Out: ... Knock Out: ... Knock Out: ...Well, this has been an enlightening evening. Starscreamapillar: I think that's misrepresentative. Jalaperilo: well. its 3am here. i hope you appreciate my sacrifice to watch that film Jalaperilo: goodnight all! Knock Out: I do. caffienatedglitter: it's only 10:00 here Knock Out: Goodnight! FeralDog: 7:00 here FeralDog: https://xkcd.com/1400/ thenightetc: Awwww, the chicken dance bit is great though.  Even if that was a little poorly edited together. FeralDog: ^relelvant! Thebes: ikr? caffienatedglitter: my god Knock Out: Makes sense to me. thenightetc: Huh. Thebes: ... there's a trailer for a movie where someone is paid to act as Tommy Wiseau FeralDog: oh dear god thenightetc: ...Not sure if I want to see that or not. caffienatedglitter: that or he's the devil made flesg Knock Out: You can't replicate what's going on with this human (?). And no one ever should. thenightetc: That would explain why he looks slightly uncanny Thebes: they get weirdly close. The Disaster Artist trailer, if you want to see for yourself caffienatedglitter: he looks like he's a collage of body parts cut froma magazine caffienatedglitter: but 3d Knock Out: My credits are still on "alien." caffienatedglitter: and also a pervet thenightetc: I read that as "flaming disaster" Starscreamapillar: I think he is a mimic of some kind. Starscreamapillar: And the football is there. Of course. Thebes: it kinda was? Like it's based off the book The Disaster Artist, which is entirely about trying to get this weird alien sock puppet to act thenightetc: Oh god, I didn't notice. caffienatedglitter: is that actually him caffienatedglitter: does he actually think people like this unironically FeralDog: maybe he's one of the fair folk. But he's bad at it. Thebes: maybe he's a bunch of groundhogs trying to pilot a human Knock Out: I like the news scrolling by. caffienatedglitter: they're trying Knock Out: "Also, some humans died or something." thenightetc: "Like us on Facebook!" Thebes: yeah, kinda. Underscores this. caffienatedglitter: it's a special kind of *** caffienatedglitter: jesus he's like caffienatedglitter: idk thenightetc: Yeah, sports references, that's what I look for in a movie Thebes: how is he keeping a straight face Starscreamapillar: His sunglasses are unsettling. Knock Out: He's hiding something behind there. I'm not certain I want to know what. thenightetc: Soundwave's visor. caffienatedglitter: he's hiding madness, and not very well Knock Out: Tommy Wiseau confirmed for Soundwave. caffienatedglitter: YOU STUDIED PSYCHOLOGY caffienatedglitter: NO caffienatedglitter: BULL caffienatedglitter: what is this thenightetc: We've all been where now? Starscreamapillar: His insane word-salad rambling. caffienatedglitter: is he a human???? caffienatedglitter: knock out please advise thenightetc: The other guy looks so embarassed Knock Out: No advice. He landed on your planet, he's your problem. Starscreamapillar: The other guy is likely concerned if he upsets Wiseau that he wil be consumed. Thebes: I would be thenightetc: Yeah, he does look like he could just unhinge his jaw and, y'know... caffienatedglitter: ubigowj caffienatedglitter: but he's scary caffienatedglitter: he talks like he's got marbled in his mouth Knock Out: If you have to ask, the answer is probably "Tommy Wiseau can most definitely unhinge his jaw and kill some people." caffienatedglitter: HES A SNAKE Starscreamapillar: Snakes do not talk so much. thenightetc: Lime green shirt with matching lime green tie :( Thebes: it's like he agressively doesn't care. caffienatedglitter: this is not a man of earthly cares caffienatedglitter: oh god what'sthis Starscreamapillar: He only cares for how many souls he can harvest, and how much flesh he can consume. thenightetc: SOUNDS LEGIT thenightetc: Is that a hearse Starscreamapillar: Yes. caffienatedglitter: "family kidnapped by ninjas" yeah totally believable caffienatedglitter: ew caffienatedglitter: what\ caffienatedglitter: EWWWWWWWWW thenightetc: What the *** Knock Out: Alright, enough of that. caffienatedglitter: HE IS THE EATER OF FLESH Thebes: what was THAT caffienatedglitter: I NEED TO KNOW HOW IT ENDS Knock Out: Tommy Wiseau is clearly a dangerous entity. Starscreamapillar: I feel the pressing need to awaken Unicron, so he can shake off the Earth and ensure Wiseau's destruction. thenightetc: Er caffienatedglitter: how well did that work out for you last time Knock Out: There we go. Much better. Starscreamapillar: Just because it didn't work out for my alternates does not mean it may not work out for me. caffienatedglitter: oh right caffienatedglitter: alternate universes caffienatedglitter: still though caffienatedglitter: starscreams are universally jinxed thenightetc: This actually looks familiar.  Huh Starscreamapillar: I know. caffienatedglitter: Is this car porn Starscreamapillar: But I strive to escape whatever unpleasant fate is in store for me. caffienatedglitter: car porn is pretty chill caffienatedglitter: lol jk Smokescreen: woojit woojit no thenightetc: Nice and relaxing, except when they jerk the camera around. Smokescreen: dont watch the room Knock Out: I just needed to end the night on something other than the question of how many pounds of human flesh Tommy Wiseau can fit in his hollow abdomen. Knock Out: Too late. Smokescreen: .... wait did i miss thenightetc: Too late!  We saw the whole thing! caffienatedglitter: o hai smokescreen Smokescreen: ARGHHGHG Smokescreen: did you like it Smokescreen: Hey! caffienatedglitter: it's the room thenightetc: I don't think it's really something you "like" caffienatedglitter: exactly Smokescreen: Was it... Was it an experience? caffienatedglitter: technically caffienatedglitter: yes Starscreamapillar: It was an experience in madness. thenightetc: Everything is an experience. Smokescreen: it sure was a movie, right? caffienatedglitter: no caffienatedglitter: not particularly Starscreamapillar: It being a movie is debatable. thenightetc: In the broadest possible sense. Smokescreen: a film? caffienatedglitter: it was a venture intop insanity Knock Out: It was a whole lot of something. Thebes: it was filmed. I would hesitate to call it a film Smokescreen: someone sure recorded it on a camera! Thebes: technically Smokescreen: hey woojit have you ever been in a sauna before Knock Out: I think so? Smokescreen: How was it? caffienatedglitter: why are you asking? caffienatedglitter: sorry im curious\ Smokescreen: I've got one, and I wasn't sure what to do with it! caffienatedglitter: nvm Knock Out: You sit, you turn up the heat, you cycle special smoke meant to clean out your vents. There are other things I'd rather spend credits on at the bath houses, but it was nice enough. caffienatedglitter: wait whjat caffienatedglitter: lol jk Smokescreen: woojit woojit no thenightetc: Nice and relaxing, except when they jerk the camera around. Smokescreen: dont watch the room Knock Out: I just needed to end the night on something other than the question of how many pounds of human flesh Tommy Wiseau can fit in his hollow abdomen. Knock Out: Too late. Smokescreen: .... wait did i miss thenightetc: Too late!  We saw the whole thing! caffienatedglitter: o hai smokescreen Smokescreen: ARGHHGHG Smokescreen: did you like it Smokescreen: Hey! caffienatedglitter: it's the room thenightetc: I don't think it's really something you "like" caffienatedglitter: exactly Smokescreen: Was it... Was it an experience? caffienatedglitter: technically caffienatedglitter: yes Starscreamapillar: It was an experience in madness. thenightetc: Everything is an experience. Smokescreen: it sure was a movie, right? caffienatedglitter: no caffienatedglitter: not particularly Starscreamapillar: It being a movie is debatable. thenightetc: In the broadest possible sense. Smokescreen: a film? caffienatedglitter: it was a venture intop insanity Knock Out: It was a whole lot of something. Thebes: it was filmed. I would hesitate to call it a film Smokescreen: someone sure recorded it on a camera! Thebes: technically Smokescreen: hey woojit have you ever been in a sauna before Knock Out: I think so? Smokescreen: How was it? caffienatedglitter: why are you asking? caffienatedglitter: sorry im curious\ Smokescreen: I've got one, and I wasn't sure what to do with it! caffienatedglitter: nvm Knock Out: You sit, you turn up the heat, you cycle special smoke meant to clean out your vents. There are other things I'd rather spend credits on at the bath houses, but it was nice enough. caffienatedglitter: wait whjat caffienatedglitter: WHERE DID YOU GET A SAUNA Smokescreen: also if woojit wants to use this sauna I was gifted caffienatedglitter: WHERE DID YOU GET A GIANT SAUNA Smokescreen: I don't know! It was a gift! I'm kinda suspicious which is also why I'm offering Woojit a whirl in it! Knock Out: Suspicious bath house? I'm sold. thenightetc: Gosh, hope it's not cursed or something. caffienatedglitter: DUDE caffienatedglitter: THERE'S PROBABLY A CAMERA IN IT OR A BOMB Starscreamapillar: Why would a camera matter? Knock Out: Lucky camera. Smokescreen: Awesome! I'll promise to fix you up if it goes horribly wrong but hopefully it won't Smokescreen: wouldn't the lens get covered in steam? Knock Out: Excellent! caffienatedglitter: oh right caffienatedglitter: giant robots caffienatedglitter: nudity isnt a thing Starscreamapillar: Not really, no. caffienatedglitter: eh Smokescreen: woojit i found this anime also i've been meaning to watch and i need thosughts Knock Out: Yes? Smokescreen: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dVPnaHRgNb8 caffienatedglitter: ooooh knockout you should stream death parade thenightetc: Oh, I love that show!  In a way. caffienatedglitter: oh my god thenightetc: ^Initial D thenightetc: Haven't seen Death Parade caffienatedglitter: it's amazing Knock Out: Yes. Knock Out: Whatever this is, yes. caffienatedglitter: it's only a few episodes long, so Thebes: Initial D is awesome, caffienatedglitter: what is this thenightetc: But you have to not mind the animation. caffienatedglitter: HIS FACE Smokescreen: the humans look dead inside thenightetc: Yeah they do a lot of that thenightetc: You get used ot it Smokescreen: ... are they actually humans or just holo-matter avatars? Smokescreen: i've seen avatars with faces like that Knock Out: Who cares? Smokescreen: true caffienatedglitter: technically they are anime caffienatedglitter: not hoomans Smokescreen: am i anime caffienatedglitter: no you're american animaation Smokescreen: what Smokescreen: i'm not american Smokescreen: i'm praxian caffienatedglitter: your show isn't Smokescreen: WOOJIT HIGHER VOLUMNE Smokescreen: RAISE THE VOLUME thenightetc: And they're proud of that terrible animation, too, lots of closeups of misshapen dead-eyed faces Thebes: all the humans are in love with their cars and will go to absurd lengths to show it Smokescreen: thank you woojit Smokescreen: good Smokescreen: they should love their cars caffienatedglitter: um Starscreamapillar: Is it uncomfortable to squeal your tires like that? caffienatedglitter: smokescreen splease rephrase Smokescreen: it feels good to me! caffienatedglitter: unfortuinate implications Smokescreen: Uhhh- they should adore their cars? caffienatedglitter: smokescreen Smokescreen: what Smokescreen: I don't see the problem! Knock Out: It's not comfortable, but worth it for the sake of drifting. thenightetc: Oh believe me there is drifting in this show :) Thebes: and for wiping a smug smirk off someone's face? Thebes: because there's lots of that too Smokescreen: woojit woojit what if: we raced and played this kinda music at top volume to recreate this stuff caffienatedglitter: NO Smokescreen: but caffienatedglitter: BAD IDEA caffienatedglitter: RECREATING ANIME ONLY BRINGS PAIN Smokescreen: but Smokescreen: :( Knock Out: I'm not hearing a downside! Thebes: This anime is basically nothing but car appreciation and winning races in a way that's petty and satisfying Knock Out: Let's do it! thenightetc: It totally is. caffienatedglitter: knockout you have doomed yoursel Smokescreen: I probably won't be able to do it now, but sometime soon, we gotta! Knock Out: It's a date! thenightetc: Haha, have fun! caffienatedglitter: you fools you will invite them into our world, they will consume reality Smokescreen: I'll look for places with turns like these, too Knock Out: Perfect! Knock Out: That seems a marvelous place to pack it in for tonight. caffienatedglitter: lovely caffienatedglitter: goodnight Knock Out: Goodnight, everyone! Smokescreen: Sounds good. Night, everyone! Knock Out: Thank you for enduring this with me. caffienatedglitter: try not to turn the multiverse into a singularity thenightetc: This was good fun; thanks for the stream. :) Starscreamapillar: I am not sure I should thank you for exposing me to the horror of the Room. Starscreamapillar: Goodnight, and may I be able to atend again in the future. thenightetc: Goodnight! Knock Out: Here's hoping! Smokescreen: Hopefully, I can get here on time one day! Thebes: nighy!

[ladytutus]

Conflicted

I've never met someone so in the way. You only want me when I'm doing me. I fell back in lust with you because you're familiar... but even then its not enough to keep me captivated... I know you're a temporary person in my life and it sucks that I've known it for a while but never had the guts to be upfront with myself... I lost all of me trying to love you, I lost my independence, my free will, my opinion, my voice.... With you, your personality was so strong it took over mine... You left me no room to be me that I found myself in silence to frequently... Holding my tongue because you didn't like my witty comments. Staying focused on whatever task I'm doing simply because being aware of my surroundings was to alert for you... I found my past being constantly brought up, my every mistake , my every flaw, my every hope and dream spat back in my face along with a clever insult. I became so filled with rage I became the person I am now who is filled with regret and anger... Regret because I regret not putting my foot down, regret because I told myself I'd never let anyone change me, I told myself I'd never let a person have the power to control how I viewed myself, I told myself I'd never let me hurt again.... And I let myself down... I let myself become so constumed with my surroundings and personal misery I stopped fighting... I stopped fighting for me... I gave up and settled.... I never wanted to be the girl who forgot about her hopes and dreams because the opticals were to hard... I never wanted to be the girl who let harsh words get to me... I never wanted to give up and for years I did... for years I let myself become so self observed It swallowed all of me.. I never wanted to become this person... I'm angry I didn't love myself harder, I'm angry I didn't put myself first... I'm angry I put myself in a position to lose.... I deserved so much more than what I settled for.... So now I've come to terms with the fact that this is my fault... I've finally hit a point where I want to rebuild myself, grow from a toxic situation and pull myself from the depths of this ocean inside me that I'm drowing in.... I'm finally ready to go through the weird feelings , I'm finally ready to push myself to the limit again... to strive and be this strong independent person I know I can be, I am.... I am ready to grow... because I've out grew the old me... theres no where to go but up.... I catch myself supressing my feelings by falling back into old habits because it's familiar.... I guess thats why I find myself telling myself that you've changed or that I've changed instead of accepting the fact that you and I have so much history and so many unhealed wounds that we fall into the same old routines because its hard to live with eachother yet its hard to act like we're not use to one another.... I guess thats why we only miss eachother when we're apart... Because we both know we can't go 20 minutes without bickering... We're 2 different types of people.... But we have history... history is the only thing in the way of moving forward... History because when you look at the time spent together we could look at one another and say damn... but we've come so far, there has got to be light at the end of the tunnel... I'll read some cliché quote and tell myself that it's all okay because "nothing worth while comes easy" ... If you died I'd cry, I'd cry because you've grown on me... you changed my life.... weather you enjoy me as much as I enjoy you... a part of me loves the fact that you and I have 3 ties to one another.. The other half of me feels troubled and sad that this could never end on a clean break... the same half that tells myself you never cared from the beginning because if you did things wouldn't of ended up the way it did... But it takes 2, it takes 2 to tango just like it takes 2 to make us work... I fell short on a lot of things... I lost the tinkle in my eye... I lost the love I once had... I let past events replay in my mind like broken records to remind myself that I was holding grudges or that it would never forgive.. The same way I feed my confused mind the illusion that you never cared.... I'm stuck between 2 worlds and so many thoughts that I can't focus... Coming off you is like coming off the hardest drug.. I'm an addict for you attention, for your approval, for your lust and for your love... Idk if I'll ever recover off you... but like an addict I've quit you 1000 times... yet I've never truly escaped you... because we always come back to one another.... I'm lost in my head... and I probably went in circles... but this is the type of thoughts that cloud my mind, the cold truths and battles between my heart and my mind....