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therapythoughtstogether · 1 year ago

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Saturday morning that feels odd

I used to looove Saturday morning since I was little, for so many reasons...

I'm struggling a bit to see the bright side of things lately. I'm coming down with a cold, and I'm simply cold all the time. The wether is awful and things look...grim...

I should hopefully get my anxiety meds today. They are not a magic solution, but they will help me go through difficult times a bit more easily. I do have Generalised Anxiety Disorder (together with my BPD and stuff) so I have them prescribed for a reason. And my current situation is very anxiety-inducing.

I'm also looking forward to my therapy session next week. It will have to be online because this guy is my shadow and doesn't let me go anywhere.

I won't be able to talk about my current situation because I can't be sure he won't be trying to eavesdrop (or just accidentally overhear), but just being in contact with my therapist, seeing him and hearing his voice will help me a lot. And it's not that I don't have plenty of other trauma to go through anyway...

My host will go out for a while this morning (I won't have the key so I can't go anywhere myself) but I'll be happy to chill on my own for a little while and look for jibs without having to hide. Oh, and of course I have to cook and do chores, but that's another story.

#therapy thoughts #hoping for my anxiety meds today #I can't wait to hear my therapist's voice on videocall #even though I hate videocalls #his voice is soothing #gad #anxiety #depression #bpd #actually borderline #homelessness #job hunting #unemployment #tw abuse #one day I will stop using all the painful tags

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art-from-the-juice-box · 2 months ago

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sorry for the lighting but i feel like you can still tell what’s going on and it’s not like a portfolio picture so yay ya yay stuff from school now that it’s properly started :) we were doing self portraits inspired by books from the library and mine was a collection of sci fi movie posters which is something i’ve never done before :]

#obligatory personal stuff doesn’t get as much interaction but luckily i’m posting for ME!!! YIPPEEEEEE!!!!#artists on tumblr #sci fi art #and those will be my two tags for today :)#hoping to take a break from assignment and do a proper slimepompurin later today like i said i wanted to #not that i’ve ever been good at doing things ive said i want to do #cause i also want to print my ballot and do laundry #we did a little walk around look at other peoples work in their sketchbooks and write them sticky notes and i got six fucking sticky notes #everyone in the class had 3 each #like logically if everyone was at a sketchbook each time and didn’t double up the most you should get is three #i got six i was so overwhelmed but they were so nice #like i had to take anxiety meds but in a good way if u know what i mean #did wonders for my imposter syndrome i feel so much better #taking an illustration course btw!!! i’ve said that on my main but not here so if you look at my mess of tags you get that bit of lore #i’m an international student :) very scary but very excited i already feel good about it unless i forget to take meds in which case it feels #like i’m dying #medicated though!! i feel so excited i’ve always wanted to go to art school #and i did Not Like the US #so i’m in the Uk now and there aren’t guns everywhere and they know how to make stall doors properly thank god #more comfortable pissing here then i am in my home town #partially cause it’s illegal for me to do that in my home town

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kengi-bengi · 8 months ago

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turns out i never watched the last two episodes of lockwood and co [the series] and WOW I HATE NETFLIX EVEN MORE!!! THAT WAS THE BEST FUCKING SHIT IN THE WORLD AND THEY CANCLE IT

#lockwood and co #i hope to god it can be picked up by someone else #perferably with the same cast of the main crew at the VERY least ffs #i rewatched it while working on projects today just cuz i wanted to see and hear the acting of the main cast again so i can ingrain-#-it into my head so that when i continued reading id have their skrunklys in my mind #god they are so feral and so found family #i love them #so #fuckin much #it also helps im taking anxiety meds now so i can actuly have HEALTHY hyperfixations again that wont give me asthma attacks!#cuz fr the amount of adrenaline my anxiety would put into me was fuckin unhealthy #thats another reason why ive always stayed on the side of ocs cuz its one of the few things i can handle lolol #cuz im not foaming at the mouth about how clever certain aspects of the stories are lololol- why would i its my stories lolololol

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cetoddle · 1 month ago

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i’ve been meaning to get my eczema cream refilled for like a month now and i remembered you can request those through the little app. the future is amazing sometimes

#i don’t really have phone anxiety anymore #so it’s not that i mind making phone calls i just get lazy and then forget #but i started (more) new meds today and im really hoping they help 🥹#i am now on….4 psych meds hooray #technically 5 cause my antidepressant dose is so high they don’t make pills for it so i have to take a certain amount of one dose #and a smaller dose of the same thing at the same time #then i have my birth control so really im only on 5-6 medications depending g how you count it #idk why im sharing this uh anyways hi #snow.txt

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running-in-the-dark · 5 months ago

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I was pretty proud of myself for getting through this day so well (first time one of our cats had to have surgery), BUT it's 4am and it's really hitting me now 🙃

#feel like I would be sobbing if my anxiety meds didn't make that.. not harder exactly just. less likely #and I also remembered that I did take lorazepam before going to bed last night specifically because I knew I'd be a mess otherwise...#but yeaaah I just wanna cry now #it's been so hard. the cat is fine. but he's got 20 fewer teeth now and it feels bad #he's in pain and he's grumpy because he doesn't understand why we did that to him and also his brother wouldn't stop hissing at him all day #because he smells wrong and that's been stupidly hard on me #like. those are my babies. they can't be mad at each other??? it scares me. it's not the way it is. it's wrong and I don't like it #also... if I'm being honest I was also quite unsettled by how different he smells so I can understand that. I don't like it but I get it #that's still your brother though you big dumb guy 😭 be nice to him he has barely any teeth left 😭😭😭#I don't liiiike this #I hope they'll get along better again tomorrow bc seriously I can't take this. it's breaking my heart #well I wasn't a mess today but now I definitely am #AND I've got a fucking doctors appointment tomorrow 😭 so I can't even stay on the couch mindlessly watching YouTube all day #life is too hard and I am a big baby and I can't handle it #personal

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trans-xianxian · 6 months ago

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crazy that one of the symptoms of withdrawal from my medication can apparently be Seizures and no one thought hey maybe we should bump this pa to top priority until I started calling them about it every single day

#so angry that my script didn't go through a Month ago and nobody told me #so I didn't think I needed to call until I was already out #because I thought they'd come on time #because why wouldn't they!!!#genuinely so angry actually #and apparently the withdrawal will last longer since I've been on it so long #essentially I will keep feeling like this until I get my meds back #I'm hoping for monday #because today they said they finally did the pa and marked it as urgent #but that means I have three more days of dizziness tremors nausea sleep deprivation migranes and not being able to regulate my own body temp #not to mention the crushing anxiety #lovely.#ghost posts #text

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imwritesometimes · 11 months ago

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wouldn't it be funny if I could write again lollollol........

#got a very sweet comment on a fic today and I was like oh my god. oh my goddddddd. ppl *still* like my stuff.#ppl still like my silly little stupid little stuff that I had stupid silly fin working on & it's dumb and silly but I shared it!#and ppl like it!#and I'm like not pushing myself anymore. like before I was kinda trying to force shit to happen #like sitting in bed with an open notebook/laptop like CREATE BITCH!#and I'm not doing that anymore lol and being on my meds has really made me feel SO much better #but also like I just don't.... have any ideas anymore. can't rotate blorbo like a rotisserie chicken anymore #I lay down to go to sleep now and because my body is not operating under severe extreme toxic anxiety levels anymore #I just fckn fall asleep. like I'm OUT. good night. sleepin. snoozin. zonked. 7+ hours.#no more blorbo thoughts at the end of the day I'm TIRED and my brain FINALLY shuts off #I hope one day I'll write again. I had so much fun with it. I have had a couple Thoughts #since I have been on my meds #but they're nothing more than a few quick sentences scrawled in a notebook.#it's like I'm doing so much other stuff and having fun in other ways and SLEEPING FINLALLY SWEET GOD ALMIGHTY #there's just like zero processing left for original blorbo ideas #this doesn't make sense and I bet you were all relieved cause I haven't ranted in tags in like months but hahaha #🤡 I STAY HONKIN'!!!! 🤡#(I'm actually really in a really good place mentally rn I promise like the best I've felt in years I'm just ahhh!! tonight lol)#erin explains it all

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jedi-bird · 10 months ago

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I hit a point today where I gave up trying to get things done. I did manage to tidy the kitchen a bit more and I'll try to finish it tomorrow. I'm not going to bother with the living room since there's only bookshelves right now and no order furniture; the boxes aren't going to get unpacked by next week and frankly my friend won't care. I organized a bit more in the workroom and almost have the guest room set up. I burned off some anxiety by hanging more prints and nerdy pictures; once the new frames arrive I'll either work on the rest either tomorrow night or Friday. Trash truck finally came, so either I'll finish the litter boxes tonight after dinner or I'll try to get them done in the rain tomorrow. My very old and very sick cat is yelling at me lately if I'm even a minute late feeding her, so that's good; maybe she'll still be around longer if I'm lucky.

#birdy tries to be a good adult #vent post #anxiety is very high today #some of it is stress and some of it i figured out is hormone related #which sucks #i want to curl up and cry but my meds make crying hard to do #and my anxiety won't let me sit down for longer than a few minutes #hence why i worked on pictures today #I'm hoping i actually get some sleep tonight but it feels like i won't

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ruairy · 1 year ago

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#i love (Hate) it when my pharmacy sends diff brands of my meds bc they are always so wildly different from eachother #the pills i have now are bigger so im having trouble swallowing them and today it was in my mouth so long it turned to fucking dust #now im just like i sure hope it wasnt supposed to be slow release and i dont die of serotonin syndrome #unreasonable side effects of having anxiety and also not yet having sertraline in my system for the day lol #but also what if it is reasonable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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beesinspades · 2 years ago

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i would like to unsubscribe from anxiety-related tummy issues please and thank you

#did a gastroscopy and biopsy almost a month ago now #since i'd had issues since early december #and there was Nothing except a minor oesophagitis and light gastritis #otherwise all normal #i've been taking meds for it and feeling much better #BUT I HAD AN ANXIETY SPIKE THE OTHER DAY AND MY TUMMY'S BEEN HURTING EVER SINCE (FOR THE PAST FOUR DAYS)#it's a different kind of ache than the one I had before I started the meds too #i'm so sick of thiiiis #anyways i emailed my doctor yesterday for advice #like maybe lower the meds???#since they reduce acid production in the stomach and after a while the stomach doesn't like that haha #i felt a bit better today but then i took the med and it got bad again i just. ugh.#i don't fucking know #either way waiting for an answer #i hope this isn't my life now every time I have an anxiety spike #sobs #health cw #bee rants

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that-tall-queer-bassist · 2 years ago

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Good news!

The "new" medication I'm on dulls my anxiety!

Bad news!

I need that anxiety to have the pressure of Consequences!

#on that note #im skipping my class yet again because my headache is back and i am aching and tired and not in the mood for a 2 hour class #*with a loud teacher #that parts important #he's a good teacher.. im just soooo done with today. this week. this month. this year. maybe the decade idk #and i didn't do the reading and have to cancel a plan cause i mixed up the schedule and also i haven't finished my essay #except i don't have enough time or energy so it'll have to be late and i'll just cross my fingers and hope it all makes a passing grade #adhd #adhd meds #idk if i liiike these meds or not. Cause the other ones gave me anxiety.#these ones last forever and mellow my emotions almost too much.

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mrburnsnuclearpussy · 1 year ago

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Maybe I would play any of the sonic games if they had Carson in them but they don’t so….what do they expect lol. If you want me to play a game you have to put Carson in or I don’t care!!! God when will they fucking LEARN

#btw idk if I’ll be more normal about Carson soon ish coz they upped my meds to highest dose in hopes it might regulate my irrational thought #thoughts* and stuff etc etc so…we will see lol #not BECAUSE of Carson lol but just like everything in general #also I gotta take another test coz they’re like we can’t confirm a disorder but you definitely have autistic traits so that might be #interesting! coz I’ve been wondering for years and I learned that others have too #and bad emotional regulation or something like that?#plus anxiety and depression obvs. but im not complaining abt this coz im getting further to knowing answers of-#-what is wrong with me. which is what I’ve been craving since forever so it’s a huge step forward!#i can’t believe I am where I am now compared to just a year or so ago like it’s crazy #i had a lapse yesterday and was suicidal which was bad but I have an amazing supportive team and im so lucky to have them and they helped #-me a lot and I’m so glad I’ve got the recourse’s I do because if I didn’t im scared to think what I’d be like #so 🙏#sorry random life update ramblings #but im good today yay

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frmulcahy · 2 years ago

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#I got my adhd meds and it’s too late to take them today #but I can’t take them tomorrow because I have in person work tomorrow #and I was told that the first week or two adhd meds gives you tummy hurts disease #and I already have tummy hurts disease on in person work days because of agoraphobia #so that means I have to start Tuesday and hope I’m fine on Wednesday or wait all the way until Thursday #so that I have Thursday-Sunday to start adjusting #also I have a sinus cold rn so I really don’t want to be feeling more sick than I already do #but I would also Like To Function and see if these meds will help my brain fucking work #I’m just sooooo #at least it’s strattera and not a stimulant #because I feel like stimulants + panic and anxiety disorder = instant death

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kalashtars · 15 days ago

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first night on lexapro & I got told it makes ppl drowsy.... tell me why it's 4 am and I'm still up then 🧍‍♂️