#hopefully this funk wont last too long

[bananafire11]

Hi tumblr,

I was slapped with some really big news today that'll be changing my schedule around a lot. This has to do with school and i'm definately gonna take a bit to get adjusted to a good routine. Im saying this because this'll effect how often i'll be posting art for a while

Just bare with me, basically. I'm figuring this shit out

[verngyu-moved]

hello !!! ive been too shy to send this till now but im thinking that ill be sending an extremely long message to you ! hopefully i won't reveal myself !!! i love you a lot like words can not express how thankful i am to you and to your posts and to your blog and hey it's okay. you don't have to do anything, your existence itself is enough and is good. you are loved greatly, and im so sorry i didn't say anything till now but i love you. greatly. extremely. more than mere words can describe (1/?)

or more than i, myself, can properly ever express ! i love you a lot and you are loved and cherished deeply and greatly. and whatever you decide, ill always support you. i believe that you can kick ass with your criminology course and i believe that you can shatter the very universe and reach the sky, and i firmly believe in this. you’re strong and i love you very much. thank you for your hard work and for making such beautiful content even when you don’t have time and is busy. it’s okay (2/?)even if you don’t make a lot of content nowadays, it’s okay to take a break. it’s okay to be in a funk. it’s okay to not want to do anything. it’s okay to give yourself some time and just let yourself go. it’s okay. your gifs may not do as well as before, but hey! think about this!! whenever i see your gifs on my dash, i immediately know it’s yours. i think your gifs are these pockets of joy and loveclouds and i genuinely mean this. they are always so pretty and so perfectly timed and (3/?)well-made. like seriously !! they always look so wonderful and idk how your hands can do it. like bless you ! i love you very much. thank you for your constant hard work really! i can not like commend you in ways i want to cause my words is lacking but i really just wanted to tell you that your blog is special. and that i absolutely love you here, but really, you should do what you want. what makes you the happiest. what gives you the most ease and comfort. please always put yourself (4/?)before others ! you deserve it !!! you really do!! anyhow i just wanted to tell you that i love and cherish your greatly and that thank you so much for all that you do. you’re doing well. you have been doing well. and i know that you will continue to do well, so give yourself a little more credit, and be kinder to yourself. you’re a lovely starbeam and i love you very much! thank you once again!! im sorry hah this is REALLY LONG! ill leave with a pickup line! are you French.. CAUSE MADAM! (5/5)

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well firstly, thank u for this very thoughtful and kind message. i did not expect something like this!!

i rly didnt make that post to guilt-trip anyone into messaging me, following me, sending an ask, etc., i just really dont think anyone cares about me or would miss me if i deactivated. friends, sure, but w/friends ive made on here i have added on other social media so i dont think they could really “miss” me bc they see my dumbass posting mingyu pics on my insta story because of this, i think about doing that a lot lately

i dont really even know why it bothers me so much (my posts underperforming); its just a site. and ive even held myself back from making gifs even though i tell myself “no one’s giffed it yet” and i want to gif it,, it’s bc my effort seems futile. it sounds sad but i feel like ““my time”” as a content creator here is up…you know? like trends. some people and things just arent it anymore, i guess. ive also really become tired of the internet dramas and inter-fandom dramas. drama is unavoidable online or not but i do find myself being stressed out by things that dont even directly involve me lol. and i’m still into seventeen/still love them btw, this isnt abt them

..maybe part of my change in perspective on this is due to being in college + doing commissions n stuff for spare cash here and there. so one downside to that (or upside depending on how you look at it) i dont really feel like doing loads of free work in exchange for no payment. its such a capricorn thing to say but i’ve found that i really like creating youtube videos, and since i can make a profit on those–bc my channel finally got approved for monetization :’’’)–maybe my brain likes the idea of that more lmao (………heres my channel btw)

its really nice to hear you like the things i make and thats its also recognizable. i try to make gifs “current” or whatever but also my own. i create because i have to. its bad for my mental health not to

my blog’s been mostly inactive for the last week and i did notice that i felt a lot better. this week was really good–in a lot of ways. i still want to make things. i unfollowed tags and stuff so i wont even check if somethings been giffed. i’ll just do it, i think. im hoping if i change things i can still be on here and enjoy it.

thank u for all the kind words, this is really encouraging + comforting. i hope this response was adequate..and i also hope you had a nice week. i still want to try because of people like u 💞ily 💞

[macaroni-rascal]

i'm terrible at prompts but will happily send one if it gets your writing going-always love what you share! if this strikes your interest, how about a sentence prompt of “oh sorry, were you sleeping?”

Oh I like this prompt – be prepared to see Ginny’s petty side. Also more of drunk/hungover Mike, cause why not?

(Also, I apparently have a thing with jealous/idiotic Mike doing dumb stuff, then Ginny getting angry – I love angst, what can I say?)

(cross posted on ao3)

Mike wakes up in the worst way possible.

Normally, he will awaken slowly and calmly holding Ginny in his arms. He can nuzzle into her and briefly forget about what he needs to do that day; maybe slide an arm down between her legs and start the day right.

Instead, he was sleeping blissfully in dream land when Uptown Funk started playing at a truly ear splitting level right next to his face. His eyes pop open and he sits up quickly like a jolt.

Immediately, his temples begin to pound out a rhythm that is both worse than the song and exacerbated by the it; he can’t think, he can’t do anything besides close his eyes and put his hands over his face, hoping his dream turned into a nightmare.

Blessedly, the music stops.

“Oh sorry, were you sleeping?”

Her voice rings out innocent and deceiving, the question is very obviously rhetorical because she is holding the portable speakers that are usually for the pool area in her hands. Not to mention the tight smile on her lips.

“Jesus, what gives, rookie?” He rubs his hands over his face and tries to orient himself, blink away the spots in front of his eyes and swallow away the horrible taste in his mouth.

“Do you remember anything from last night?”

Mike isn’t sure if this one is meant to be rhetorical, but in any case his brain is working at a slug. He’s having trouble thinking of anything besides advil and water.

He groans and flops down to the pillow, pulling the blanket over his face, hoping whatever is wrong will just go away if Ginny can’t see him. He’s fooling himself and he knows it, but he’s still going to give it his best college try.

“I’m going to take that as a no,” Ginny says, and the next thing he knows she’s ripping the blanket off of him and throwing it on the floor next to the bed. He whimpers a little, fully believing that he’s done nothing at all to deserve this, he just wants silence and darkness, more sleep, then food, then he’ll see about being a functional human being.

“Then please, allow me to remind you,” he squints and sees she has the remote for the TV in her hand. She turns, presses a button and a news story starts playing.

He’s cognizant enough to know he should definitely pay attention, hopefully this will illuminate why his usually sweet and loving girlfriend has transformed into an expert in torture.

Mike’s eyes focus on the TV, its blurry for a few seconds before it comes into focus and he blinks a few times again to orient himself.

What you’re watching here, folks, is San Diego Padres catcher Mike Lawson seemingly intoxicated, being forcefully removed from a night club after an altercation with another club go-er.

The voice-over explains this as he watches an unsteady camera video of himself, looking very drunk and quite belligerent, being dragged out of the club. Salvi on one side of him and Dusty on the other. Well, no wonder she’s pissed, he made a complete ass of himself.

But that’s not all folks.

Uh oh.

Indeed, the reason behind the altercation is what has everyone talking about the veteran catcher. According to multiple sources inside the club, Mike Lawson became enraged when another patron approached Ginny Baker. Sources say Lawson repeatedly yelled for the man to “leave his girlfriend alone”.

He goes stock still at the reporter’s account, the night rushing back to him like a bad flashback. Mike remembers the drunk idiot who wouldn’t stop leering at Ginny, yelling at her about how she was too beautiful to be playing baseball and that he could take care of her. He sees Ginny’s pinched face, hears her asking him to ignore him, feels her hand on his arm trying to pull him back when he started walking towards him.

Mike remembers only wanting to talk the guy down, despite his own drunk state, he knew not to get physical with the guy. Unfortunately, the asshole took Mike approaching him as a threat and tried to punch him. Mike remembers briefly thinking he thought his drunk bar brawl days were long over before he ended up putting the dude in a head lock; he recalls being dragged away and forced out of club. Everything after that gets hazy and even more embarrassing.

He groans and hangs his head, shame insulating every pore.

They’d agreed to keep it low profile until he retired in a few months for the sake of everyone. This is not good.

Representatives from both Ginny Baker and Mike Lawson have been contacted for a comment but are remaining cagey and declining to comment. It will certainly be an interesting game at Petco on Monday, that’s no doubt about that.

Ginny lifts the remote and turns the TV off, spins slowly to face him, her face hard and expectant.

He’s got nothing.

There is no explanation for his actions besides blind idiocy and lack of forethought. Mike cannot believe he’s fucked up this bad. Despite his pounding headache, he knows this will eventually blow over and thing will be okay, but he didn’t want to have the last stretch of his career go like this, he didn’t want to make Ginny’s life impossible, or distract the team from playing the best season they could.

“You remember now?” She prompts again, arching an eyebrow and tilting her head to the side.

When he doesn’t answer, she barrels on.

“I turned my phone off, yours too. They’ve been buzzing constantly since the first news cycle of the story. Everyone wants to know if its true, Amelia is probably going to be breaking down the door soon, and I don’t even want to know what colour Oscar’s face is turning,” she says all this in one breath, looking at him like she’s not expecting anything from him besides for him to sit there and be ranted at.

He gets it.

In all honesty, he wants to rant at himself, go back in time and tell himself to listen to Ginny when she asked him to leave it alone. He knew better, he knows better, but the mix of Ginny’s clear discomfort, the alcohol, and the asshole’s degrading comments just made something snap.

He’ll maintain he only got into it with the guy out of self-defense, but he did put himself in that position, so he knows it doesn’t mean much. Intentions don’t matter in situations like this, actions do, and he acted like a complete fucking idiot.

“I’m so sorry, Ginny, I–,” There’s nothing at all he can say that will make it better, he wants to apologize more, explain why he did what he did, explain that he wont do it again, not that it will carry much weight now.

Mike thinks Ginny is less angry and more scared judging by her posture and how her hands are shaking ever so slightly. Certainly, there is anger there but he reads fear more than anything.

“We are going to get through this, I refuse to let my idiocy effect your career, okay?” The pain in his head, while still pounding, has lessened some and he ignores his thirst for the time being; there are more pressings things to deal with, namely getting that look off of Ginny’s face.

Her posture doesn’t become any less stiff, if anything she curls more fully into herself and looks away from him.

That wont do.

“Hey, Baker, look at me,” he waits patiently until her eyes meet his, “this will blow over. You have every right to be worried, and pissed at me, but I swear things will be okay. I can say I was just really drunk and it was a big mistake if you want, or I can tell the whole world how much I love you. However you want to deal with this, that is what we will do,” Mike watches as she slowly unfurls, dropping her arms to her sides and hanging her head.

“You can play Uptown Funk directly into my ear again, if you want?” Thankfully, his meager attempt at lightening the mood works and Ginny snorts at him.

“No, I think you’ve had enough,” she smiles at him a little, its not full or bright, but its there and he takes it as a good sign.

She comes and sits by him on the bed, sniffing once before turning and burring her head into the nook between his shoulder and neck that was almost certainly made for her.

His gut tightens as she cries silently into him. Mike never, ever, wants to hurt her and he’s not going to forgive himself easily for this. He is also never going to drink tequila again.

“We’re going to be okay, right?” She asks, her voice muffled slightly from where she’s still nuzzled into him.

“Of course we’re gonna be okay, rook,” he wraps both arms around her as best he can, pulling her close, “that was never a question.”

She digs her fingers into his skin and holds on tight, letting out a tremulous breath. He heaves himself over the side of the bed to grab the blanket and wraps them up.

“Mike…,” she starts, trailing off.

He knows she’ll want to try and start to deal with the mess he made, but he has other ideas.

“C’mon, everyone who wants a comment can deal for a while, they don’t have any right to our business anyway. Let’s sleep, the world can wait.”

They snuggle into the blankets, but then Ginny sits up and reaches over to the bedside table and passes him a glass of water. He looks at it somewhat surprised before downing the whole thing.

“I knew you’d be thirsty. I was mad, but I wasn’t that mad,” she smiles at him, taking back the glass once its empty and placing it back on the table.

They are going to be just fine.

[twiwrite-flare]

Update #2 - The Adventures of Pom the Sheep

Hi there everyone.

This is my second update on my progress for The Adventures of Pom. I’m afraid that I’m not really much further along into the next post than I was about three weeks ago sadly.  Don’t worry, I have no intention of stopping on this anytime soon if I can help it, but I got really sick out of the blue there for about a week and a half and it REALLY took all the wind out of my sails.  I’m trying desperately to reignite my fire, but it’s just hard when you lose so much inertia at once.  I know that that really isn’t a very good excuse, but I’ve struggled with motivational issues for my whole life.  It is, quite frankly, my least favorite of all of my character traits.

Anyway, enough of the downer silliness.  I’m starting again today and hopefully can start chugging along back into my higher self that I was tasting a month or two ago. As for where I am currently, I mentioned last time that I had started on the line art and that that always took me the longest out of everything that is involved with drawing.  Like I said, I’m not too much further along into that than I was last time, but I HAVE been experimenting with some new story-boarding techniques that may aid this comic quite a bit in the long run.  Up to this point I’ve just been drawing six or so panels as individual shots to tell the over-all story; however, that was giving me quite a bit of trouble when I tried to put them together into any form of actual “page“.  They just didn’t look very good when viewed all together rather than one at a time (which seems to be the optimal way of viewing on tumbler).  For an understanding of what I’m talking about, here is a link to my DeviantArt showcasing my issue that I ran into on my last update: http://twiwrite-flare.deviantart.com/art/Act-I-01-02-Part-2-A-Pom-Champion-of-the-Meadow-666757272 I talk about it in the description more in depth I think if you’re interested.

So, I’ve decided to start story-boarding these in more traditional comic layouts and actual pages. Now, don’t worry, I still plan on posting each panel individually here on tumblr in that nice panel by panel style and each one will still be drawn at the same resolution as before, no matter what it’s size ends up being on the actual page.  However, this DOES mean that the style of each panel might be changing quite a bit.  Posting with full pages in mind will likely aid me in the story telling department if I am correct, but each individual panel my not have quite the punch that they once did (such as it was).  I may be completely wrong and it my end up being an improvement on EVERY front, but the idea is that I will be making full comic pages that can hopefully be greater than the sum of their parts for the best delivery and feel for the comic as a whole. I’ll be sure to start posting the full pages on here as a sister post as well; however, tumblr being as it is, they probably wont look as crisp and pretty as they will on DeviantArt.  I’ll just have to see once I’m done.  It’s rather irritating actually.  Tumblr is the better choice for posting each individual panel, but DeviantArt seems to be the best choice for posting the full pages.  Why is nothing ever easy ^_^

Anyway, that’s about it.  I’m finished re-story-boarding this next part and thankfully I don’t have to throw out anything that I already had done other than my previous story-board plans, so that’s great.  Personally, I think that the end product is going to look amazing when all is said and done; the sketch version looks fun at least ^_^

Alrighty, I’ve rambled for long enough.  Sorry I’m not as far along as I should be, but I promise that this is still the most important project I’ve got going on for the foreseeable future (other than possibly REALLY turning up the heat on finding a better, more satisfying job).  I just need to sit down and muscle through this silly post sickness funk I’ve put myself into.  I’ll try to have a much more interesting update for you guys and galls in the future.   Until next time, I’ll see you all later! Peace! --Twilus Write

[kickstarter-promotion]

Another Amazing Kickstarter (Taking Midnight Runners Graphic Novels next lvl!! by John Hanna —Kickstarter) has been published on http://crowdmonsters.com/new-kickstarters/taking-midnight-runners-graphic-novels-next-lvl-by-john-hanna-kickstarter/

A NEW KICKSTARTER IS LAUNCHED:

I’ve been drawing comics for a number of years now, just selling them to friends and family and in the local convention scene. As I make more stories and visit more cons, this begins to get expensive! And honestly, I dont want to be confined to just conventions forever. I want as many people as possible to read my stories and enjoy them! So I need the resources to keep me going and spread my stories out to the world!

MY PLAN!!

The goals I’m looking to achieve in this kickstarter are: 1) covering print production costs for a large run of my entire comics collection 2) distribution of comics by post to Literary Agents in Australia and overseas in order to find a Publisher 3) cover costs to visit the cons this year

FINDING A PUBLISHER

The main goal here is to find a Publisher. I’m not intending to be famous and rich or anything, I’m not concerned with that, and its unlikely to happen in the comic world. What I want is for as many people as possible to read my stories! The ultimate way for that to happen is to find a publisher who will make my work(s) commercially available to the country and the world. But you can’t just go up to a publisher and go ‘hey, publish this yo!’, theres way too many people who do that and they’re always swamped with a billion manuscripts, so it super unlikely that they would ever have the chance to see it. What you need is a Literary Agent!

A Literary Agent has contacts in the publishing world, and will petition for ones story to be taken on by a Publisher. It’s like having a go-between who vouches for you. Not only is a Literary Agent easier to find, but they will do all the heavy lifting for you once they decide to take you on. Getting an agent involves sending out copies of my comics to them all over the country/world and if just one of them likes one of my stories, I’m in! whoop whoop!

So basically, I’m gonna need a whole lotta copies of my comics so I can send them out all over the place! And that of course means $$$

Getting my convention on!

GOING TO CONVENTIONS

I tend to frequent as many conventions in NSW as I can, though I’d like to someday travel interstate, and eventually overseas. I often attend 6-8 conventions a year generally, selling my stuff and drawing on the spot commissions! As you can imagine, this can get expensive… Not all the cons are cheap to table at, and theres additional costs with travel expenses and accomodation if events are far away. It’s not like I make a million dollars doing these things so often I’m lucky if I break even. This can become a money pit which for most artists I know, is a struggle, and often can be the breaking point at which they continue drawing comics or give up. It happens too often and personally, I don’t want that to happen to me. So I need to make this sustainable.

This year will be a little more quiet than usual, as I have a lot going on in my personal life currently, but the cons I’m intending to attend this year are: * Wollongong Comic Gong – 13th May * Supanova – 16-18th June * Smash -19-20th August * Gamma Con – 5-6th August

Hopefully with your help I can reach a wider more broader audience and take my comics to the next level!

WHAT COMICS?

I currently have 5 stories which I’ve self published. I have many others, but these ones are the best and most polished at this time. They range from true stories to romance to action to sci-fi. Though I’ll admit most of them are romance stories lol and funny enough they’re all inspired by my personal life in some way…

JUST YOU AND ME – 1 volume – 300pgs

Just You & Me

One day about 10 years ago I was going through all my old stuff and found the diary I had kept in year 11, about this crazy love triangle I was involved in. Flicking through it I laughed, I cried, felt all fuzzy inside and I reminisced, thinking ‘damn this would make a great soap opera or something’ which is when I thought, ‘why don’t I draw a comic of it?’ First attempt at drawing a comic since I was 13yo. So 5 years and 300 pages later ‘Just You & Me’ was born.

300pgs of true high school experience

MY GIRLFRIEND THE SECRET AGENT – 3 volumes – 164pgs

My Girlfriend The Secret Agent

Internet dating and secret agents! One of my best stories to date, and its also one of the more polished. This is really where I perfected my art style, and stepped up my characters and story development. Exciting and heart-wrenching at the same time, this is one comic i’m most proud of!

All sorts of action goes on in love and war!

  SURVIVAL OF THE LOLEETEST – 3 volumes – 55pgs

Survival of the Loleetest

I was really poor for a number of years, and couldn’t afford to get my friend anything for her birthday, so what did I do? I drew a comic about her. Every birthday I would continue the story until a number of years ago when I reached its conclusion (i finally had a decent job by then). She’s a Lolita, and this is inspired by an interaction between her friends and some Bronies they encountered one day. This is truly a BRONIE vs LOLITA GRUDGEMATCH and it has one of the best conclusions in any of the my comics.

Though this is all about lolitas and bronies, this doesnt pull any punches!

MACHINE//HEART – 2 out of 3 volumes completed – 145pgs currently

Machine//Heart

This is a current sci-fi, 3 part series that I’m doing, of which vol 2. is almost complete. It tackles the ideas of identity and what makes you, you. Robots, mystery, multinational corporations, danger and death feature heavily here. Story and characters wise – this is the most ambitious story that i’ve attempted. Its actually not a romance (crazy, right?), and has turned out to be a con favourite, nearly selling out of my years worth print run in a single con! Will have an awesome and epic conclusion that unfortunately you’ll have to wait for!

Vol 1 is complete, Vol 2 is on the verge on completion, with Vol 3 in development due to be complete beginning of next year

  FUNK BUDDIES – 1 volume – 40pgs

Funk Buddies

Theres a funny story behind this one, which is too long to write here, but it’s my first attempt at a hentai (if you opt in on this one, i tell the story in the authors notes). It’s still in production but will be complete once this kickstarter has reached its end. Most of the book design is complete, with only a small number of finished art pages to be done, then screentones and typesetting. I HAVE to have a story and I HAVE to have characters, so it’s not just blatant pornography. This is my first attempt at this kind of material and actually something i’m very proud of! haha I’m certain that it will get anybody off 😉 Due to its erotic nature, I can’t really reveal much about it here tho, sorry :/

As you can see, Funk buddies is still in development, but will be ready once the kickstarter is complete

REWARDS

When choosing hard copies of any of the comics in the rewards, the ‘Hard copy of comic of your choice’ reward, you can choose any individual volumes of any of the stories (excluding Just You & Me). With the ‘Hard copy of any comic series of your choice’, these are the multi volumes stories and includes Just You & Me.

Obviously with the higher tier rewards where I illustrate a comic written by you, have your story ready to go so i can get it out to you as fast as possible. Possibly due to demand there could be a delay from the promised June deadline, but obviously I’ll be keepin you in the loop!

CONCLUSION

Any of these take your fancy? Back me and help make my dreams reality and score some sweet comics!!

Risks and challenges

I self-publish all my comics so the danger of success is always a thin line, as all the costs incurred are paid by myself. If I dont sell enough or my costs are too high, I’m the one who suffers. And if comics are not sustainable then all I’m doing is throwing money out the window. But so far… I’ve done alright! My first 2 years of doing cons, I ran a massive deficit and was almost ready to give up. But I persevered and cut costs and made it work, and the last number of years I’ve broke even! This alone is not enough to get ahead, which is why I’ve come to kickstarter.

I’m a graphic designer by trade, so I do everything (except printing and binding – which i used to do myself) from illustration, design and typesetting all myself. The person I need to rely on here is me. I’ve self published over 1000 pages of comics, so I’m more than qualified for the task of realising this project. I’m fast too, so getting out backer rewards within the June timeframe should easily achieveable, as long as life doesn’t get in the way, but being that you’ve trusted me enough with your pledge, I wont let anything get in the way!!

Other than my finished works, I have a bunch of stories which are still in development, but only two of which will be ready in time for this Kickstarter (being Machine//Heart vol 2, and Funk Buddies). They will be finished by the time this Kickstarter has been completed and are a part of the rewards available to backers. Machine//Heart Vol 3 is still in the writing phase, and will be available to the top tier backers once it’s completed at the beginning of next year (so please be patient with that one!)

If I don’t succeed here, my convention efforts this year will be severely crippled and my dreams of being published pushed back another year. So helping any way that you can will mean a great deal to me!

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