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leapdayowo · 2 months ago

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oh I really love this so much :OO The beginning is really effective setting up how Welsknight thinks in good vs evil

And the cloak oh noooooo! DD:

Okay OKAY THIS PART??:

“{Subjectively, it felt very, very bad when someone stared up at you with blind panic, and, in a snap decision, figured out they would rather drop to their potential doom than be caught by you. Which was exactly what Tanguish did.}”

SO GOOD I’m amazed how much is packed into this short paragraph! We are told what is happening but I just love how it’s told while also describing how Wels feels about it! And the word choice here is just so precise and visceral! Like DAMN. We’re getting Wels’ mounting guilt (he’s also calling Tanguish by his name👀 it’s harder to try to kill a demon when you call him by his name) and Tanguish’s terror

It’s a small thing, but I like the mention of the monsters when they enter the cave so that when they become relevant again it doesn’t feel like it comes out of nowhere (I’m also eyeing that part where Wels makes the connection he’s no better than a monster right now… and conveniently stunts down that train of thought. It’s that or he realizes Tanguish is not behaving like a typical monster. Or both)

Tanguish is the little beast (derogatory) and the little pest (affectionate) :3

poor tanguish is just so miserable and terrified! Utterly pathetic to look at. I love Wels grappling with his guilt over trying to kill someone who refuses to fight back like hk would

I’ll keep saying it, but Silver I just love how you write action and emotions <3 they blend together at times and I’ve noticed how much I enjoy you writing how a POV character interprets the emotions on another character’s face :3 I just feel so immersed with your writing and invested!

tanguish might enjoy flying (something I believe Tamgo had made a comment about), but to not be able to find joy because it with Wels, one of the people actively hostile towards him :( also got us thinking about the sky and sun here so it can get brought up later👀

and there’s Tanguish being so smart?? Refusing to heal until he gets confirmation of his safety . I really like seeing that shift from scared to cunning form another perspective and how uncomfortable it makes Wels :3

the end really breaks down helsknight’s and tanguish’s relationship and to see tanguish break it down just hits really well (especially because he’s explaining it to Wels. I like when the hermits are faced with the realities of hels as a place and what the helsmets go through). Also Wels not being immune to the protect Tanguish instinct when Tanguish starts picking at his knuckles :3 love that

also ya know what, I will bring up how I adore this bit:

“‘When we found each other, I was a bright living thing that wanted to die, and he was a defeated, dying thing that wanted to live. We were not good or kind. Not in any way either of us could recognize.’” So so effective and powerful this is, I love it <3 and the part about being puzzle pieces to each other after time of going through things together <3

“Everyone deserved the sun.” I love that line <3

Enemy caretaker, but Wels helping Tanguish this time!

Maybe something along the lines of, Wels getting Tanguish to tell him what he sees in Helsknight in exchange for the help, if you’d like a slightly more specific prompt ^^

When it comes to the whole Hermits vs helsmets thing, Welsknight can, nine times out of ten, say with confidence, he's the good guy. The Hermits are all, barring a few hiccups from time to time, objectively good people. Helmets are the opposites of Hermits. Ergo, helsmets are evil. And if he didn't have logic to prove this, he had Helsknight. Helsknight who, as soon as he had the wits to start making his own identity, immediately started orbiting Welsknight like the most destructive, malicious moon might tear up the atmosphere of a nearby planet. He was mean, vindictive, cruel, heartless, brutal, and worst of all, perfect. Perfect form with the sword, with his knightly duties and tenets, hels, even when their fights were more philosophical, he always seemed to have the perfect argument. There was something uniquely insufferable about fighting a perfect enemy. Grinding.

{This wasn't about Helsknight.}

Anyway. Helsmets. Everything their Hermits aren't. And if the Hermits are objectively good, well, it follows they're all pretty evil. And a good person fighting an evil person -- the good person is in the right. That's what good is all about, generally speaking.

So, chasing Tanguish through a strip mine: Objectively Good. He is Fighting Evil. Sure, that evil is terrified of him, and keeps scrambling away like he thinks Welsknight is the devil incarnate, but... Objectively, Welsknight is doing the right thing, the good thing. Fighting evil. Fighting Evil Is Good.

{Subjectively, Welsknight admits to himself, begrudgingly, it doesn't feel good.}

They ran into each other by accident. Welsknight was mining. He wasn't wearing his good armor -- just some old chain beneath his tunic, so nothing would maul him. He'd been digging away mindlessly and broke through a wall into the bottom of someone else's strip mine -- probably Tango's. He came out of the wall right beside a pile of chests, and right beside the little helsmet sneak thief pilfering from those chests.

Welsknight and Tanguish made eye contact. Welsknight drew his sword in the time it took either of them to blink, and swung it. Tanguish dodged. The vertical slash that would have pretty neatly bisected the little helsmet missed by less than a fraction of a hair's breadth. It was so close, in fact, that it cut through the chain chord that fastened his cloak to his shoulders, so when Welsknight lunged forward and grabbed that cloak in his fist, the pins tore free, and Welsknight was left standing with a bundle of cloth while the helsmet escaped down the hall. Welsknight sheathed his sword and sprinted after him.

It was a long, dark, relentless run. They didn't shout at each other. There was no epic chase music playing. There was only the pounding of feet, the wind in their lungs, and the echo of their movements bouncing off the tunnel walls. Tanguish turned a corner, and so did Welsknight. Tanguish leaped down a drop, Welsknight followed. The little creature was nimble and quick, but he had no idea where he was going, and all Wels had to do was follow. They burst out of strip mines into a mine shaft, splintering the depths of some cave somewhere. The sound of feet on stone turned abruptly to the hollow thrum of old, rotting wood. The place was only half-lit, and the glittering red eyes of spiders high in the ceiling glinted with watchful malice. Far below them, amidst the old beams at a bruising drop, the clattering bones of skeletons started pulling themselves together, warned awake by breath and sound.

Tanguish did a snap turn on the wood, a quick dart off a side path -- or what would have been, if his claws hadn't slipped. The caves were humid, and the ground stayed just the barest amount of slick. Momentum caught him in its fist and he tumbled, only saving himself from rolling off the edge by digging in with long claws. Welsknight slowed his sprint, pulling to a stop before he could make the same mistake. He and Tanguish made eye contact again.

{Subjectively, it felt very, very bad when someone stared up at you with blind panic, and, in a snap decision, figured out they would rather drop to their potential doom than be caught by you. Which was exactly what Tanguish did.}

The little helsmet gasped, bright yellow eyes flashing fearfully. He let go of the wood, plummeting off the mine shaft's boardwalk to the hard stone below. It wasn't a killing fall. Welsknight knew that because, when the helsmet hit the ground, he let out a cry of pain. Welsknight stepped up to the edge, paused long enough to make sure he wasn't leaping into a hazard, and then stepped over the side himself. He landed safely, his momentum dampened by the splay of his elytra, and the feather falling enchantment that sparked off his boots when they touched the ground.

Tanguish was curled up on the ground not far from him, hands grasping at his ankle, a painful grimace on his face. When Welsknight landed, Tanguish snapped his gaze to him, breath coming sharp in his chest.

Welsknight swallowed hard, steeled himself, and drew his sword.

For every one of his steps forward, Tanguish scrabbled back away from him. He didn't stand -- maybe his ankle was broken. He kicked away with his good leg, and pulled himself with his claws and elbows until he backed himself against a stalagmite. Welsknight continued forward. He reminded himself to be relentless. He reminded himself to be steadfast. He reminded himself that this would not be the first time he killed a disarmed enemy, someone completely at his mercy. He had done it to Helsknight a few times before, and Hels had done it... several times to him.

{But Helsknight didn't show fear. Helsknight didn't cry out. He growled. He snarled. He spat. He did grandstanding. He spoke quiet, seething oaths. He vowed to do awful things, threatened, and made good on those threats sometimes. Helsknight didn't show fear. He did the thing that monsters did: when he felt pain, he made himself dangerous.}

Tanguish did not make himself dangerous. He didn't make himself monstrous.

Tanguish pressed himself against the stalagmite like he thought, if he leaned hard enough against it, he might fall through it into safety. He didn't watch Welsknight. He watched Welsknight's sword like it was a snake, waiting for that fatal strike, as though, if he could only see it coming, he might be able to better prepare for it. He shook, shivers that gripped him so violently they made even his breaths shudder. He would probably cry, if he weren't too scared at the moment to remember what tears were.

And then, as though all of that weren't bad enough, he begged.

Welsknight closed the final distance between them, heart hardened as much as he was able. He drew up his sword, laying his free hand across the blade to better steady it. He was going to do this right. One swift, well-placed stab, somewhere the little thing wouldn't suffer.

"Please. P-please. Please--" Tanguish hiccuped a terrified breath and stammered with every exhale, over and over, like a prayer. "P-p-p-please."

Welsknight felt something cold wash down his spine. His determined scowl twitched.

{Just be done with it.}

Welsknight drew his sword back an inch more, tilted his shoulders--

"P-please don't," Tanguish gasped louder. Quicker. Words tumbling out of him like a flood. "Please d-don't--! Don't--! Please don't--!"

By the time Welsknight had moved into his lunge, Tanguish was screaming, his voice echoing loud and terrified off every wall in the cave.

"--d-don't kill me! Please don't--! Please--!"

His shriek cut off abruptly against the ringing crash of steel on stone. Tanguish choked, peering at Welsknight wide-eyed through his crossed, shaking arms he'd thrown up to shield himself. He was crying openly, hiccuping gasps that shook his whole body. Very slowly, he glanced to his side, to the gouge in the stone where Welsknight's sword lanced against the stalagmite at the level of his neck. Welsknight could see in the helsmet's eyes the fatal arithmetic of where that sword would have gone if it hadn't twitched to the side.

Tanguish lurched for Welsknight's sword. It was a motion that seemed almost as surprising to Wels as it was for Tanguish. Welsknight managed to draw the blade back before he could grab it. He cursed himself for his moment of weakness, pulled the sword high over his shoulder to bring it down on the treacherous little creature--

"Wait wait wait!!" Tanguish shouted, curling up small, arms over his head protectively. "I'll-ll-l l-leave! M-my ref-flection I'll--" he looked up at Welsknight beseechingly, begging with every inch of his terrified posture. "Y-you d-don't have t-to kill m-me I'll g-go. Please. I d-don't-- I don't-- I d-don't--"

Tanguish hiccuped, and swallowed, and bowed his head. It was by far the most miserable, defeated thing Welsknight had ever seen a person do. Tanguish curled up on the ground, face buried in his arms to save himself the view of the sword, and shaking and crying, he whispered. "I don't want to die."

{There is nothing, objectively, subjectively, abstractly good about killing someone begging desperately for mercy. Even if that someone is Evil. There is nothing good about bringing someone so much terror, they sob at your feet, would rather fall to some terrible end then meet whatever justice you have in store.}

{And, on that note, there is nothing just about relentlessly pursuing and killing someone for... what? Rifling through some chests?}

{Well, it was more than the chests. It was the fact that he was a helsmet. But the chests had kicked this whole thing off and... Well... It just seemed a bit stupid.}

With Tanguish cringing at his feet, Welsknight felt uniquely ridiculous. It was all very dramatic and harrowing, and surreal. Wasn't this thing, effectively, a demon? Wasn't this thing evil? Why then, did he feel like such a monster doing what was supposed to be right? Why wasn't right easier to do?

Somewhere further in the cavern, some mobs groaned. Welsknight was almost relieved to hear it. Zombies and skeletons and creepers were simple, straightforward evils. So simple and straightforward, they were almost benign. They hurt, so he killed them before they could hurt him. They were merciless, because they had no reason not to be. There wasn't enough sentience or thought in them to be any way else. They did not cry or run or beg. They didn't look at him like he was...

... A monster.

Welsknight had lowered his sword at some point. He didn't know when. Probably around the same time Tanguish had buried his face in his arms and stopped begging, resigning to his fate. Welsknight sighed. He suddenly felt very, very tired.

An arrow fired from a skeleton in the dark sailed wide and rattled off some rocks somewhere.

"Can you stand?"

Tanguish flinched at the sound of Welsknight's voice, but didn't answer.

"I said, can you stand?"

Tanguish cracked an eye open and looked up at him hopelessly. He sniffed, and swallowed, and rasped, "N-no." His gaze flicked to his ankle. "It's-- it's broken."

Welsknight sighed and sheathed his sword. The barest flicker of something like hope sparked in Tanguish's eyes. It was a look that nearly guttered out when Welsknight shoved his hand forward. Tanguish flinched away from him again, and then watched his outstretched hand like he feared it would suddenly lunge forward and strangle him.

"Well, come on," Welsknight snapped impatiently. That look, distrustful and scared, angered him. He didn't know why, other than it galled him to know someone thought he was more likely to harm than to help.

Hesitantly, Tanguish reached out and took Welsknight's hand.

Welsknight forced himself to be gentle, to not rip the infuriating helsmet to his feet. He pretended he was a squire again, and there was a knight over his shoulder telling him gentle when you take a lady's hand for a bow, you don't want to hurt her. Tanguish was not a fair lady at court {quite the opposite, in fact}, but he had the fragility of someone whose wrist might break if Welsknight squeezed too hard by accident. He tried not to be too bitter knowing he'd inspired that, made the helsmet breakable with terror.

Tanguish had to lean on him heavily to stand. He refused to look at Welsknight, an expression of misery etched into every line of his face, a wounded animal forced to take shelter by a starving wolf.

Welsknight decided abruptly that he'd never felt so guilty in his life.

{This is ridiculous. He's an enemy. He's evil. He should be scared of you.}

Welsknight stamped down the little voice in his head. He reached down and scooped up the helsmet's legs. Tanguish screwed his eyes shut and hugged himself, an action that made Welsknight scared he'd drop him. His elytra flared out behind him, splaying into a shape like eagle's wings. Welsknight leaped into the air, hovered briefly, long enough to figure out where he needed to go, and swooped off down into a nearby tunnel.

It was cramped. The wind whistled by his ears, and his wing-tips brushed the walls and floor when he flexed them. It was an act of immense concentration not to lose his balance and send them both hurtling into a wall. Yet somehow, he still managed to be disconcerted by the fact that Tanguish barely clung to him. He had one hand pressed against Welsknight's chest, almost restraining more than it held, like he anticipated needing to pitch himself from Welsknight's arms at any given moment. The other hand had found Welsknight's chainmail where it peaked out from beneath his sleeve, and the clawed fingers tangled in the links, like only the metal was safe to touch. His expression was grim death, someone offering trust not because they wanted to, but because they had no other choice. Someone who was convinced they weren't being saved, but were instead only prolonging the inevitable.

Guilt like nausea bubbled up in Welsknight's stomach, and he stubbornly told himself it was the motion of flight that made him feel so wretched.

At last, Welsknight burst from the winding tunnels and into the bright day. He soared skyward, reveling for a moment in the feeling of stretching his wings without fear of crashing. There was a brief moment where, high in the sky and warmed by the sun, Welsknight felt some relief from his guilt. He even dared to wonder if he might impress the helsmet he carried -- surely he'd never flown before, or if he had, never on Hermitcraft, where there was only sun and wind and endless horizon, and not the twisted, smothering red of hels. But when he looked down, Tanguish's eyes were closed, that same look of mournful patience on his face, waiting, perhaps, for Welsknight to make the fickle decision of dropping him to his death.

"The sky is beautiful today," Welsknight said before he could stop himself. A peace offering. Look. See. I'm not a monster. A monster could never admire the sun. The sun, something of Light and Good. The sun, which burns away the darkness. The sun, which seemed to glare down at him like a great, judgemental eye, and make stark the deep, creasing lines of fear and strain on Tanguish's face. The helsmet didn't respond, besides a very quiet and appeasing whimper of agreement.

Whatever you say, if it means I'll live.

There was a very nasty, vindictive anger in Welsknight that wanted to drop the little beast. Expect the worst of me? Fine! Have it then!

The much louder voice of his guilt replayed for Welsknight the image of Tanguish curled up on the floor begging for his life, with a sword aimed at his throat.

Welsknight swallowed another sigh. He angled towards the earth in slow, gentle circles, spiraling to a landing outside of his tiny castle home on its distant shore away from all the other hermits. He carried Tanguish to the door, then stood in front of it awkwardly, trying to remember if he'd locked it. Tanguish cracked an eye open, glanced between Welsknight and the closed door, and then slowly, like he was scared Welsknight were under a spell that sudden movements might break, he reached forward and turned the door handle for him.

Welsknight awkwardly bundled them both inside. He dropped Tanguish as gently as he could manage onto his couch, and meandered to his brewing stand. He set to work on a healing potion, moving with practiced ease throughout the different barrels and boxes. Behind him, he could feel Tanguish's eyes boring into his back. He did not move from the couch. He didn't even move from the position Welsknight had dropped him in, except to curl his tail protectively around his injured ankle.

Finally, Welsknight's guilt and irritation got the better of him and he snapped. "Calm down, jeeze! If I was going to kill you, I would've done it in the cave."

Tanguish didn't move. He whispered a very obvious lie, in a voice that, rather valiantly, only just barely shook. "I'm calm."

"Then stop staring at me like that."

"When you change your mind," Tanguish whispered again, "I think I would... Rather see it coming."

"Change my mind?" Welsknight turned to face him, scowling. "What in hels is that supposed to mean?"

Tanguish didn't answer. He only watched Welsknight with that lamplight stare. It was deeply distrustful, and deeply unsettling. For a long moment, neither of them moved, or made any sound. Only the birdsong outside and the rolling bubble of the brewing stand reminded them that, while they both froze and watched, the world kept moving. Welsknight had to force himself not to fidget.

Eventually, Welsknight had to give up... Whatever weird little battle of wills they were doing. The imp was clearly better at his terror-stricken statue impression than Welsknight was at abiding it. He turned to his brewing stand, now finished, and quietly corked a bottle. He tossed it -- it was a bad throw -- and far nimbler than Welsknight expected, Tanguish caught it out of the air. He clutched the little vial to his chest, but didn't drink it.

Welsknight gave a scornful snort. "You know what a health potion is, I assume?"

Slowly, Tanguish nodded.

Agitation bolted through Welsknight like the liquid heat of a redstone charge. "Then take it."

Tanguish looked down at the potion in his hands. His eyes narrowed at it just slightly, the very first hint since this whole escapade started that the helsmet was calculating something.

"It's not poison," Welsknight said. "You watched me brew it. You'd know."

Tanguish glanced up at him again, cunning glinting in his gaze somewhere. It was striking. Glimpsing it sent a titter of unease through Welsknight. All the pathetic groveling had made him underestimate what he was dealing with, apparently. Tanguish was still a helsmet, after all. Though Welsknight couldn't imagine just what anyone would plot with a health potion of all things. He straightened slowly from where he leaned against the counter.

"What?" Welsknight demanded, when the silence grew long and uncomfortable, and the little beast still didn't move.

Tanguish watched him for another long second, braced himself, and said, "I am trying to figure out what happens when I drink this."

Welsknight frowned, pure, untarnished confusion pulling a snort from him. "Your ankle heals. It's a health potion."

"Then what?"

{... Then what?}

"Then you go home." Welsknight sniffed. "Wasn't that what all your dramatics were about?"

Tanguish, for the briefest of moments, managed to look insulted. But he was evidently still too scared of Welsknight to argue about whether those were just 'dramatics' or real fear for his life. Welsknight was quietly thankful for that. He didn't need to be convinced the panic was genuine. That look on the little beast's face would... Probably stick with him for awhile.

"Give me your word," Tanguish said very quietly, apologetically breaking the silence, "that when I drink this, you won't find a reason to kill me."

"I don't need to find a reason."

Tanguish's expression got just a little bit tenser around the eyes. He leaned over the side of the couch and gently deposited the health potion on the floor. Welsknight felt another flicker of irritation.

"Are you serious right now?"

Tanguish blinked at him.

"Just take the stupid potion, and scamper back to hels," Welsknight snapped in explanation, when all Tanguish did was stare.

"Not until I have your word," Tanguish insisted, not looking at him.

"Why do you need my word? If I was going to kill you I would've done it by now!"

"You stayed your hand out of guilt and pity," Tanguish murmured. Welsknight had to marvel at how well his voice made space for itself when it stayed so small and contained. "If I'm healed, there's nothing stopping you from deciding I'm a threat that needs dealing with again."

"Coward."

"Obviously."

That took Welsknight off guard, set his mind a little off-balance. He wanted to argue about that, needle at the comment and make the little pest angry. You admit it so easily. And then he had to remind himself that Tanguish was a helsmet, but, again, he wasn't Helsknight.

"I am not a knight," Tanguish murmured, apparently doing his best impression of a mind reader. "I'm allowed to fear for my life."

Welsknight tried a different tactic.

"You would seriously rather sit there with a broken ankle?"

"I can survive a broken ankle," Tanguish informed him. "I c-can't survive a knight."

"You survived Helsknight just fine." It wasn't supposed to be an accusation. It definitely, definitely sounded like one.

Tanguish squinted at him and said with equal, accusatory venom, "You're not Helsknight."

"You're right," Welsknight snapped indignantly. "Helsknight would've killed you. And probably told you all the reasons you deserved it while he did."

"He would have spared me," Tanguish said with a galling amount of conviction.

"No he wouldn't," Welsknight snapped. "If the tables were turned, and it were one of us Hermits caught wandering around hels--"

"He would have spared me then, too," Tanguish stated, with all the faith of someone dedicating themselves to a god. "He wouldn't have liked it. I'm sure he would get big and loud, and pace like an angry tiger, but he would find a line and would not cross it. He would make sure I knew he wouldn't hurt me. If I was truly lost and scared in hels, he would even try to help me. If I was being attacked, he would intervene. And he-- he d-definitely wouldn't come s-so close to killing me, that only his l-last m-minute guilt made him flinch. And I wouldn't have t-to cry and b-beg for that mercy. He-- h-he would g-give it f-freely."

As Tanguish spoke, his eyes narrowed and his frown tightened. His hunched shoulders squared themselves into something a little stronger. It was the look of someone committing to some great bravery. Someone who knew what they said or stood for might get them killed, but who believed it so whole-heartedly, they accepted whatever grim consequence came from it. It was a startling difference from the cringing helsmet on the floor of the cave, shaking and begging. So different, Wels was half convinced it had all been an act, that he'd been made a fool of, his emotions manipulated for some unforseen end.

{The other half of him looked on that conviction, that ride-or-die belief, and felt no small amount of envy. Welsknight wouldn't fool himself into thinking he was friendless. Even on his darkest days, he knew he was loved. But he didn't think any of his friends, when faced with what they believed to be imminent, unpleasant death or torture, would speak about him with such obvious adoration and conviction. He had no doubt, if he drew his sword right now and aimed it at Tanguish's throat like he had in the cave, and demanded the little devil take what he said back, Tanguish, cowering and crying the whole while, would stubbornly refuse.}

{That kind of faith and belief in anyone was awe-inspiring. That kind of faith and belief in Helsknight specifically was unthinkable. Helsknight, the most perfectly black-hearted knight Welsknight had ever met. He almost couldn't believe they were talking about the same person, if he hadn't seen the two helmets together before.}

When Welsknight finally managed to puzzle through the mire of his own thoughts, he said, "You have so much faith in him."

The helmet moved minutely, folding his hands in his lap. One of those dagger-sharp claws dug into his knuckle, drawing blood.

"I do."

"Why?"

It had not been the question Welsknight intended to ask. In fact, he hadn't intended to ask anything. But the question slipped past his teeth unbidden, driven by envy and curiosity, and the surrealness of the situation.

Tanguish blinked at him, that mask of grin determination slipping off into something markedly more nervous. The claw he had sank into his knuckle removed itself, found a spot slightly above the knuckle, and started scratching at an old scab. He did it without flinching -- nearly unconsciously. Welsknight had to wonder how Tanguish didn't spend his days finding inventive ways to get bloody fingerprints out of everything he touched.

"If it's because of some misguided sense of duty, don't bother," Welsknight prompted coldly, fishing for more of that conviction. Tanguish watched him warily, stiffening just slightly. "He was made to be a perfect knight. If he's protected you, it's because he has to. If it's because he's risked his life for you, he has no choice. He can't even swear he'll die for you -- he'll die for anyone his tenets demand he make a sacrifice for. It's how we-- it's how knights are."

Tanguish frowned at him as he spoke, the kind of grimace that implied he'd eaten something bitter. His claw made quick work of the scab, and he glanced down at his hands long enough to find a new scab on another finger to pick. Tanguish sat like that for a long time, studying Welsknight, bloodying his knuckles, lost in meditative self-harm, thinking. Watching him turned Welsknight's stomach. He wanted nothing more than to cross to the other side of the room and grab his wrists, force him to stop hurting himself. Maybe he could find some oven mitts to tie on the helsmet's hands to discourage the habit.

{Gloves. He would benefit from a very thick pair of gloves. The kind Keralis wore when he gardened maybe, with the rubber pads on the fingertips.}

"Do you love the sun?" Tanguish asked.

Welsknight blinked, perplexed. "What?"

"If the sun disappeared today," Tanguish said, "blinked out for no reason. No other consequences. The grass still grew. The seasons still changed. You could still see. But the day and night cycle, the sun on your skin. That bit stopped. Would you be sad?"

"That's a stupid question."

"You're probably right," Tanguish hummed thoughtfully. "Something less important to you then." Tanguish looked around the room. His gaze settled on a picture frame hanging on the wall, a sketch BDubs had made of all the hermits together near the end of the last season. "Have any of your friends ever died for you?"

Welsknight scowled. He didn't like the implication that he had more emotional attachment to the sun than his friends. He answered regardless. "No."

"Do you want them to?"

"No."

"When you first made friends with them, did they imply they would only like you if you were willing to die for them?"

"I would be."

"But would they ask you to?" Tanguish pressed, fixing him with a severe sort of glare.

Welsknight hesitated. "I don't know."

"Would you ask them to."

"No."

"You're certain?"

"I get it."

Tanguish had the audacity to raise an eyebrow at him.

"I get your point."

"You don't."

"You're making a stupid point about how obligation and duty don't matter--"

"Have you ever wanted to die?"

Welsknight stiffened. His stomach did a complicated cartwheel, something that knocked uncomfortably at the bottom of his ribs and asked his heart if it was home. Asked if it was listening.

"That might be hard for you to answer," Tanguish admitted for him, his gaze sliding back to the picture on the wall. "Or maybe, you don't want to answer it in front of me. I'm. Uhm. A helsmet, after all. I might use it against you. Right? But. Humor me." Tanguish started picking at his knuckle again, bloodying a new spot away from any other scabs. "Hels is... a hard place to live. I don't expect you to understand why. Uhm. S-suffice it to say that, a lot of people living under the shadow of greatness, all striking out at each other to prove their existence is worth the space it takes up in the universe... it is very, very hard. Between hels, and, between people like you, who think we are only obstacles to overcome... finding a single bright spot is... so, so important. You know, there are helsmets who can't leave hels? There are people alive out there who, outside of a very lucky, almost unattainable set of circumstances, can never see the sun?"

Tanguish swallowed. His voice was getting hoarse, a symptom of someone, normally quiet, forced to speak too long.

"You make your own light in hels. You try to do it without m-making anyone else's life worse. Or, most people do. Some people don't care, as long as they can capture some light but. But. You have to have something. The universe hates us too much. Without it, living is..."

Tanguish's brow creased, the kind of inward scowl that involved picking apart complex emotions, attempting to lay them to order in the most succinct and useful way.

"When I found Helsknight, I was in a very dark place. I was lonely. My world was becoming dark, and isolated, and cruel. I was cut off from light and heat and warmth. I thought I had lost everything. I thought, if I could die to set things right, I would. And I knew the universe wouldn't let me."

"Death is a temporary inconvenience," Welsknight said quietly.

Tanguish's expression twitched, something like irony.

"When Helsknight found me, I think he was defeated. He had given up on a lot of things that made him... him. He was holding onto the only thing he had left, spitefully, and angrily, and violently. And yes. He was terrifying. And yes. He was hard to like."

Tanguish swallowed.

"When we found each other, I was a bright living thing that wanted to die, and he was a defeated, dying thing that wanted to live. We were not good or kind. Not in any way either of us could recognize. I thought he was dragging me around hels, forcing me to solve my problems. He thought I was a coward wasting precious time. Time I should be grateful to have. We were incompatible. We hurt each other. But we needed each other. The spaces we carved for ourselves into each other's skin, we fit into like puzzle pieces."

Tanguish's claw felt along his knuckle, found a sore spot he'd already worried, and only then did he wince. He looked down at his hands. When he refolded them in his lap again, his hands were balled into fists, an attempt to keep the bitter habit at bay.

"You're right. Helsknight probably doesn't have a choice about who he dies for. He's a knight. You get weird and stupid and noble about things like that. I hate it. I've grown... fond of the space he takes up. I would be incomplete if he left -- all open wounds. And I do not want to know if, or how, they would heal." Tanguish took a breath. Then another. "But when I was at my darkest and most desperate, I hurt him as hard as I could, and still, he helped me. And when he was at his darkest, and he hurt me back, he remade himself to be more harmless. Let him have his duty. Let him be a perfect, insufferable knight. But I think, if his every tenet demanded sacrifice, and I stood in front of him and demanded he live instead... I think he would."

Tanguish offered Welsknight a thin smile. "And what is faith, if it isn't first trust, and trial and error?"

They sat in silence for a moment.

Eventually, Tanguish shrugged. "I don't know. The sun is a lot of things. It burns. It brings life. But I think, most importantly, it has yet to suffer a sunset, and refused to rise again."

Welsknight's chest was a complicated tangle. It occurred to him he should say something. Argue. Maybe point out Helsknight's many flaws. He found he didn't have the heart to. There was something withering about that much faith. He found himself wanting to believe, for the briefest moment, that Tanguish was right. That Welsknight's terrible other half was worth something -- worth living for, for someone at least. He thought, on a fundamental level that had nothing to do with Good or Evil, or his own grudges, that everyone deserved that.

Everyone deserved the sun.

Not knowing what to say or do, Welsknight found himself moving. Tanguish tensed on the couch, convinced, for a moment, he might be moving to violence. Welsknight made sure to keep his hand far away from his sword as he passed.

"Heal yourself," Welsknight said, "and be gone by the time I get back."

He left.

#OHOHOHOHO👀👀👀#BRUH #this is so so good :3333 omg :3 #Really enjoyed this one (all the ficlets have been really good and interesting!)#Also very good prompt👍#Love to see Tanguish’s faith in helsknight <3 #redstone and skulk #I’m not going to edit this hopefully it makes sense and I am going to bed now #I will not apologize for rambling praises because I love rns and how you write Silver

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petruchio · 6 months ago

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I love love love your Finnick/Annie series!! I was reading the last chapter wondering how you could end it and it was so well done.

I’m kinda wondering on what your thoughts are on what happens to Annie after? Cause you touched on the idea of the capitol kind of exaggerating the whole “mad girl” persona for her so it would be so eye opening to find out that (pre-mockingjay of course) she wasn’t as crazy as everyone thought and they kept up that persona to keep her away from the capitol. But I could also see where as worse things were happening, especially when you get to the hunger games and catching fire, that would be tough and kind of lead to a downfall there? And then she would eventually get to how we meet her in the series.

Hopefully this makes sense! Basically I’m just fathoming the connection between what you wrote and the series we know and love. I just think Annie is such an interesting character that isn’t talked about a lot other than the fact that Finnick loved her.

yeah good question!! and ahhhh im so happy you liked it!! 🤍

i kind of think two things — so first, in terms of playing up the mad girl persona, i absolutely subscribe to that belief lol. in my story what i kind of alluded to is that i think finnick plays a role in playing up the mad girl thing to protect/save her from going through what he went through. and it works obviously which is why peeta buys into it in catching fire.

and then second, i really combed over the books for any annie moments and i think it’s significant that we actually only meet her AFTER she’s rescued from the capitol. so like, we truly meet her at her absolute lowest, and EVEN SO the only thing katniss says is that she’s, like, kind of odd and laughs in strange places in conversations. so all that is to say my interpretation is that she’s not actually all that “mad” — she’s traumatized of course but when we do finally actually meet her she’s dealing w the horror of whatever happened in the capitol, so i imagined a pre-capitol annie as being even less “mad” than her couple of lines in the books.

so i guess thats a long winded way of saying i kind of wrote it (and imagine it) to be both that they play up the mad girl persona to protect her from getting the finnick/johanna/haymitch treatment and ALSO that whatever happens to her in the capitol sends her into an even worse place that gives us the person we meet in mockingjay.

but that’s just me!!!! and ofc that’s also kind of specific to the one story i chose to tell — i can imagine a thousand other backstories and other paths for her. i think that’s why i found this to be such an interesting story to write, bc her and finnick have much less clearly defined stories as opposed to katniss and peeta, so there was a lot more to play around with and invent there.

thanks again for your sweet words <3333 im so happy you liked the story and thanks so much for reading!!

#answered #anonymous #and thanks for letting me dump more Thoughts about what i wrote lol #you guys know i LOVE talking about my writing process or what i imagine #so thanks for asking!! LOL!

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linguenuvolose · 8 months ago

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2024 goals - March progress

I can't claim I focussed on my goals at all this month... Idk I don't really see them as goals either they're just kinda.. things I keep some track of. I know I said this last month but I think April will be more productive because this month for sure spring will feel like it's here (we're still waiting for the trees to turn green, it snowed A Lot last week, just to give you an idea of the situation).

Anyway love and light below are some reflections on my specific goals :)

Get back into a reading routine

I've kept on reading Orlando by Virginia Woolf and I only have 35 pages left. I'm still not consistent at all with it, I read a bit about once a week. I find it so hard to reach for the book instead of my phone, it's annoying because I really do enjoy the book.

Meet friends at least once a month

I've had some good hangouts this month, mostly others that have been reaching out. I'm happy because one of my friends came to my boyfriend's show and was so excited about it and I'm happy they are bonding! In April I have plans to go visit a friend who lives in another city (one of my closest friends who will also meet my boyfriend for the first time) and I'm also planning to reach out to another friend!

Do the damn exercises for my back :(

I did them like.... 2,5 times :( not good at all. And my salsa classes stopped in the middle of the month and I've decided to not continue so it's not looking perfect. Hopefully with the extra light we get now I can have more energy to do them in the evening.

Get better at Portuguese

I signed up for the Portuguese course at uni <3333 Hopefully I'll get in and I'll be able to do that in the fall. I studied in some way 11 days of the month which isn't nothing!! Started doing Clozemaster and I really like it, especially on the writing mode (let's be honest, all my knowledge in Romance languages makes the "choose from these four options" a walk in the park for me). It's super annoying that the free plan only allows you 30 words a day. What I really should do is produce more, write little texts and stuff.

Get my license

We're still waiting for the permit to be able to practice driving with my boyfriend but it's taking a while... I've had 2 lessons though (was supposed to have 3 but one got cancelled). I don't know that I feel that I'm getting any better but I do really have to start studying the theory. It would be nice to talk to my instructor also and ask him what he thinks a reasonable time frame would be for me. In my head I'm seeing myself getting the license during the summer but who knows.

Get back into the habit of going on walks

I have been on some walks this month but more in the sense of I am somewhere and walk a bit instead of taking the closest subway. But I mean now with the change of the hour and the warmer weather I for sure am seeing myself going on more walks!

Go to the theatre more (youth discount my beloved) and also to some museums!

I went to the Maurizio Cattelan exposition at the Modern art museum because my friend had a free entrance with her job. I actually really liked it! Unfortunately I was in a bit of a hurry so I didn't have time to meander or look at the other expositions but I would love to go back! They do the free entry on Friday evenings so I think I might go!

Improve my sleeping schedule

I actually compiled my statistics for this this month (yay!). Slept an average of 7h15 but if we just look at work nights it's 6h20. Not great... It's not something I've paid particular attention to this month but I think I should. I think a goal could be maybe sleep before 1 more often (this month it was 3 times hihihi ma come siamo messi raga).

#snicksnack #2024 goals

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honeekyuu · 3 months ago

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Hello! I have returned!!!! Here to ramble at you again but what’s new? Since you said you love live reactions I am here to do that once again <3

I’m sorry I’m still dying at him calling us pretty girl. Like I will never get over it, twirling my hair and kicking my feet as I giggle. Honee I know you’re killing me. I can’t with all the nicknames. This will be the end of me (bakery anon has never been called sweet things like that-)

BAGAHA I’M LAUGHING AT HER DOING AN UNO REVERSE! NOT Y/N MAKING HIM GIGGLE AND KICK HIS FEET BY CALLING HIM CUTE AND SAYING SHE SMILES WHEN TALKING TO HIM. Honestly- same pookie…

Komori and Kita here to smack sense into Suna. Good job boys, knew I could count on you 🫡 I’m sorry he said “That’s my girl.” And my brain unhelpfully supplied me with Howl from Howl’s moving castle. I’m sorry for the person this fic is turning me into.

OKAY SO I AM MAD TOUCH STARVED BUT I DO IN FACT WANT CUDDLES. LIKE LET ME GO TO THE ART FAIR.

You’re feeding us good this week omg. WJFJJSJFJS “new favorite words.” PLEASE. HE’S SO DOWN BAD. GOOD JOB Y/N FOR OPENING UP. I’m so proud of her 😭😭😭 not to be dramatic but I would literally die for her.

AHHHHH HE WANTS TO SPOIL HER. YES. FIND ME A MAN LIKE HIM… like I would combust. JWJFJWJDJSJ TTM Y/N LET HIM LOVE YOU.

HONEE PLEASE THIS IS SO WJNFNSNDJSJ SCRUMPTIOUS. I’M SO EXCITED FOR THE NEXT CHAPTERS. No rush though, I saw that apparently some people 😒 were being not very cute, not very demure, not very mindful.

IGNORE THOSE PEOPLE. I WILL WAIT PATIENTLY FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER LIKE A CAT WAITING FOR YOU TO OUT FOOD IN IT’S BOWL.

Yapping Note Time: GUYS. I LOVE YOU!!!! YOU’RE ALL SO WORTHY OF LOVE AND I HOPE YOU HAVE AN AMAZING DAY BECAUSE YOU DESERVE IT!!!! You guys are all beautiful and even if all you did today was read and stay in bed. You still did something you enjoyed and I’m proud of you! If no one else tells you today allow me, I LOVE YOU!!!! <333

That goes for you too Honee! but also! Remember writing is fun, write for you not other people. I hope your writing fulfills you and that you can look back and get happy when you see us go absolutely feral over it. I love you Honee and thank you for yet another banger of a chapter <3333

-sincerely bakery anon 🍪

HI BAKERY ANON HOW ARE YOU TODAY??? HOPEFULLY WELL!!! im gonna live react your live reacts lmao

suna will NEVERRRR stop with the 'pretty girl'. he has yn saved as 'pretty girl' in his phone, with a black heart and the blushing-hiding-behind-hands emoji like a fucking LOSER. his phone wallpaper is also totally the charcoal drawing he did of 'yn in a pumpkin costume' because he was killing time waiting for suga to figure out how to draw ballerina slippers on his jellyfish

suna is a down bad SIMP, when she compliments him he gets so god damn blushy and nervous and he cant get enough

STOP NOT THE HOWL REFERENCE,,,, bro suna needed his ass handed to him and komori is secretly evil so

she really did open up to him after like 4 days they really took 'friendship progression' and BASS BOOSTED IT

IM SO EXCITED TO KEEP WRITING THIS IT'S LITERALLY MY FAVORITE THING EVER

#bakery anon #literally always the sweetest wtf

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slytherinshua · 5 months ago

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Hopefully they will get a bit of rest before the show! They definitely need it after the tour though, the schedule seemed brutal. I don't think I'd be able to cope if it was me lol. You'll have to let me know what they are like to watch live, I'm sure they'll be amazing!!

Play is such a comfort song! I have definitely cried listening to it as well haha, also haze. I really do love how they have a song for every mood lol.

I'm honestly so glad that I started to listen to them when I did. I found them at a time when I'm finally starting to think more positively about myself and seeing my own potential, like seeing that I can improve myself but also being kind to myself when I inevitably mess up. I think the messages in their songs are really comforting and make me feel seen. (Although I still remember the night when hug by seventeen absolutely broke me ahaha) Finding a talented violinist who plays music that I like has helped me want to become better in that sense too, although admittedly I have wanted to improve for a while, but Yechan has actually given me a goal which is nice. (I've started to try and learn boogie man and my respect for Yechan has went WAY up).

I have wanted to watch super and for ages!! I never knew where to find it though. I found out about it because I'd started to listen to Hoppipolla and then would watch compilation videos of clips from superband. It seems so fun! And the amount of talent would make me cry ahaha. I'll and Ha Hyunsang's voices in 1000x almost made me cry the first time I listened to it because they blended so beautifully. After getting into Lucy, I was kinda like, the bassist in the awesome cover of the Coldplay song (I can't remember what it's called lol) was Wonsang?! Yechan played viva la Vida?? With Ha Hyunsang?? That made me want to watch it more ahaha (although I don't know if I'll be emotionally prepared to see Sangyeop cry)

I'll let you know if I have any ideas haha, but definitely keep writing for Lucy! I really liked your style of writing and thought you wrote Sangyeop really well!

Enjoy the show!!!!

okay now that I’m back from the show lemme answer this 🥹🥹 I think they did get some rest beforehand they were rly energetic and excited :( moreso than me cause I was so sore it hurt to stand and I was struggling when sangyeop wanted us to jump sigh

You could rly just tell they went all out for their last show of the tour and it was just so special :( I was right by wonsang bcuz he’s my bias and I wanted to watch him up close so most of the videos I took are of him. Whenever I could see sangyeop or get noticed by sangyeop I would die internally idk smth abt him live is just way too attractive and charismatic and he needs to stop being so fucking fine istg??? But wonsang was so cute I was chilling standing by him <33

I swear I can cry to any lucy song cause even the happy ones have sad or relatable lyrics… the sad ones hit so fucking hard absolutely when I need to cry colourless is my go to…. Sangyeop ugh 👹👹👹👹 and when it’s a song like boogie man I just cry cause of how beautifully crafted it is cause I think abt how hard wonsang works on every song LMAO IM SO EMO KILL ME

I also feel like I found them at just the right time but like for the opposite reason. I was going through intense burnout and listening to stove while I worked on schoolwork was the only thing keeping me going :( (along w bambam ty husband <3)

I NEED TO REWATCH SUPERBAND IN FULL TBH CAUSE 😭😭 I went back to watch the lucy stages but I just need to experience the WHOLE thing again… anyway here’s the link to the google doc with the google drive eps for you <3333 AND YES ADVENTURE OF A LIFETIME COVER!!!! Absolutely adored it sm I remember how everyone thought wonsang was selfish and trying to make himself stand out by only picking guitarists while he was the only bassist but then he got all 5 votes cause his arrangement was so beautiful and chilling and ethereal and I love him sm I always call him my lil genius :(

Dropping some photos from the concert hehe

#﹒inbox　𓈃　ⵌ

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reluctanttrabbit · 8 months ago

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hi!! hopefully I don’t bother you with this question about your vanny playlists which I think are totally awesome. what exactly do you mean abt ‘songs that fit her thematically’ and ones you ‘associate with her’? Just curious, and hope the rest of your day goes well!

heyyyy not at all!! and tysm<3

by thematically, i mean songs that apply to her as a character, her role in the story, etc etc. for example 'me and the devil' , vanny could be seen as the singer and the devil would be glitchtrap if that makes sense ^^

and 'songs i associate with her' are just songs that i've heard in other playlists that dont exactly fit how i see her but i still associate them with her/songs that i think she would listen to. hope that helps :3333 you too!!

#vanny shenanigans #asks #hutchersboy

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jaegersmoon · 1 year ago

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hey aimz, i just wanted to say i admire you and you’re writing so much. you have really inspired me to continue writing and have the confidence to express my emotions and hard experiences i have had within it. you should be so extremely proud of yourself!

my boyfriend suffers a similar thing to jean with his hand and it was a crazy kind of coincidence and it really touched me. idk how to explain it but it made me feel so much more attached to how you write jean and it tugged on my heart strings in all the right ways. hopefully that makes sense 😭

thank you for your amazing story, it’s made me feel so many things. you’re amazing, keep being strong and thank you again ❤️

we love you.

😭😭😭😭 idk how much more of this i can take. i love and care for you more than you’ll ever know!! thank you for your sweet words and for taking the time out of your day to send them to me. i am so happy you are taking writing back up!! i wish you the best in your journey and in the rest of life as well!!! <3333 💛🪐💫

#aim’s affirmations

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darlingpwease · 2 years ago

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ah- true- asdfghjkl (keep writing the response here)

Yes!! Yes!!! He truly didn't mean anything bad in the beginning, he was so caught of guard, he was so lost, but after accidentally doing it for the third time, he finally caught on <33 He can't help but enjoy the way you look at him during those moments,, it's just so,, exhilarating? Even he isn't too sure what he's feeling, but he can't deny that he likes it <333 pretty boy pretty boy,, afkjskjahd Yay!! Tysmsm Dove, hopefully we can go from pencil to pen <3333

Ooo, ooo, what about after seeing a pattern of him trying to get a reaction out of you, you would keep talking to and teasing Toge in front of Yuuta, pretending to be indifferent to whenever Yuuta tries to get you jealous and acting bratty?? :00 Trying not to show anything, but usually not long after you mark him up all prettily??? :0000 maybebringingTogealongtoenjoytheshow??

"your only weapon" I don't even think there is one in the first place, if there is one, it's made out of cardboard and tape...... I can't even abuse it if I tried, those words will never not be surreal to me 😭😭 /pos /hsrs.... /3⁄4 srs WHAT- ur so meaAnNNN

Yes yes,,, it feels like an invitation at times honestly, all the time hkfjdsf

Ahh no need to thank me,, urs were so good so I'm happy you like these snippets <333 /gen All urs!! /slight t

1)YES!! He will admit, he was shaken at first,, who were you?? where was he?? You weren't going to hurt him, right? Pleasedon'thurthim- but he didn't expect for you to fawn over him right away, showering him in more praise and love than he expected, he was oddly.. flattered? Happy, even? Someone likes him this much?? You even proudly showed him your photo and video collection- and you added to it too, the face when he makes when he cums is so pretty, his voice, the way he twitches, his stomach full of you is so pretty, his body being marked by you is so so pretty, he'ssopretty- He even starts learning to cook to make you happy, you both need to lay off of takeout, definitely not because he wanted you to praise him again, definitely not-

2) AH AH Yuuta eventually so deep in his devotion to you that he truly believes that the church is for you, even when you come confessing "sins" how can someone as holy as you be impure?? he can only think that you're rewarding him for his devout worship and loyalty towards you, and only you. When he talks about you to other "followers", he praises you of all praises, so crazed in his prayers to you that when your name slips from his mouth as his Heavenly Being, that he doesn't even notice the way the others faces change. Maybe you don't even know that he worships you, completely unaware of his thoughts towards you,,, sure, you and him are, uh, closer compared to other priests and followers, but there's just this way he looks at you that makes you sink deeper into your sins. ah, but what about angel!reader who first came just to see how well humans worship the Lord Deity, laying your eyes upon Yuuta praying on his knees, feeling an unfamiliar tug in your chest.. Yuuta eventually seeing you as the Almighty Deity, and despite trying to correct him in the beginning, you eventually embrace it. Even when the Heaven's tear away your wings, scalding pain jabbing at you unbearably- falling from Heaven for Yuuta is worth it, both beautifully devoted to each others worship.

3) (genital mentions [penis, clit, womb] but in a "he can change them like you can change clothes" kinda way if that makes sense at the end) You feel like you've been doused in cold water, you don't understand how you didn't see it earlier, whenever you two would watch a movie and you'd fawn over the characters, Yuuta suddenly looking more like said characters than before,,, maybe even saying little details you like on others (maybe some freckles, or what about dark eyes? Fuller lips? A pretty waist?) And he'd suddenly get them,, how didn't you see it?? You should feel horrified, scared, you should run away- but the way he seemed to have crumpled like ash in front of you, tears falling as he desperately clings to you, the pure horror in his eyes at the thought of you leaving him,, you're not too sure anymore. How he begs you to stay, saying how he can be whatever you want him to be,, do you want him to have a pretty penis to play with, a sensitive clit?? Or a womb for you to fill, making sure to breed him so well?? Would you like him taller? Shorter? What about hair? Blond? Black? Brown? He can do pink too! He'll do anything, please?? Well,, you can't help but feel at least a little tempted... he's such a lovely lover, you may as well give him a proper chance,,

4) AADJADFJLKSN HIM MAKING CUTE LITTLE CHRIPS WHENEVER HE GETS HAPPY 😭🛐🛐🛐🛐 You even teasingly call him a duckling sometimes whenever he follows you. Him trotting behind you with such cute looks in his eyes, pure and utter trust and adoration towards you <333 He's very clingy to you, but you have no complaints. He hates whenever you have to go out, but he knows he can't leave home, so he waits for hours by the door, crashing into you and wrapping himself around you tightly when you finally come back. Him nuzzling his head against you, wanting you to shower him in affection,, hhhh hes so cute omgomg 😭😭

5) :OO I'm so glad merman!Yuuta is back!!! <333 Him becoming much more clingy to you the more times you have to head out, he's your mate, so please stay with him longer :(( He's ready to be bred by you again, making more eggs for you so you can't leave him, so you have to take care of him.. you love kissing his slit despite how desperate he can be, even when he's so pent up that he's shoving your face against it, rutting heavily against your face, he still cries out for you to fill him up. He's been good, right? He's still only yours, for now and forever, so please stuff him full, he deserves it,, right?? You coming back from a hunt that was months long to find Yuuta waiting for you at the settlements entrance along with the other mates of your fellow mermen, his head peaking from the crowd and lighting up when he sees you. You barely get a hug back before he is clinging to you, panting in your ear as he whines about how much he missed you and loves you, not seeming to mind the fact that there are others right next to you two,,, barely making it to a more secluded area before you mark him up again, filling him up a few times before rushing back home to keep going <//3333 or hunter!reader keeping Yuuta as their prized possession, keeping Yuuta for yourself, not letting anyone see him,, Yuuta has been smitten to you for months after you captured him. He was panicked at first, but he finds himself drowning (lol) in you, happily doing whatever you'd like, feeling so much joy in indulging you as his mate <33

I tried to keep these as short as possible so I won't take up much space from this ask, but I got carried away with some despite still writing little, im sorry!! _(´ཀ`」 ∠) _

If I knew you were going to try to bite other areas, I would've included it in out 'contract' along with the neck and cheeks </33 /t /hj so please let me at least think those earmuffs will do something <//333 you're the only blind Dove that even thinks those thoughts, so I'm saying it's your fault >:(( /t /nsrs MY THIGH NOW AS WELL??? HELP????

-panna cotta

"(keep writing the response here)" ajhsjshdjdgdhd well, if you insist... /t /j

jssgdhdh,,,, when your hands roughly fondle him, perhaps even slightly choking him or forcing him to lick your fingers, demanding that he repeat who he belongs to,,, when you squeeze his body, almost leaving marks, growling that you warned him about the consequences in case of disobedience, and if he decided to behave like a spoiled brat, you're going to show him what people like him get,,,,, when you squeeze his cheeks, saying you're not angry at all, of course not, you just have to follow the rules, you know? for example, fuck him to such a state that he will no longer even think of trying to act against you, crying and writhing from hyperstimulation</3333 I hope we will move on to the fact that we will start considering you absolutely not a suspect, but given your behavior, I doubt that my dream will come true ://// /t /j

Toge quickly understands what's going on, but seeing Yuuta as such a naughty mess, trying to get your attention and acting up to attract you, is actually even exciting,,, in sense, Yuuta is usually so calm and collected that to see him go crazy and start acting spoiled when you get too close to Toge, since he is used to being the center of your attention and that you always look only at him, but he still understands that you are teasing him on purpose, and this only further overexcites him and his behavior<//33 Toge didn't even realize that he might have a thing for a jealous Yuuta who is trying to cling to you and get you out of yourself so that you take out your discontent on him and stop looking at others, but seeing him like that is kind of even hot??? when you click and invite Toge to look at Yuuta, since he is so desperate for attention and wants others to know that you belong to each other, besides, it would be a good way for him to compensate for how he constantly interfered with your communication if you demonstrate Toge that you really regret his behavior and that what a naughty brat he is,,,, Yuuta's ruddy face when Toge really agrees,,,,,,,,,

at the same time, this same Panna Cotta continues to tease me... yu know, you know, I really want to pinch your nose, and it's a pity that I can't do it >:<<< I'm just warning you that I have some nice blogs that can be blocked if someone doesn't take my gifs seriously, huh :/// /t /j /nsrs

right??? he looks like,,, I constantly want to make him be kidnapped and tamed while he looks at you with adoration and does everything for you, I do not know, this aura around him just makes him the perfect material for this :(((

hehehe~ thank you for meal<33333

1) Yuuta who finds himself strangely charmed by your tenderness and adoration, even if this is not exactly the situation in which he should think about it — but you are so loving and caring, doing everything for him, which strangely resonates with his own nature, looking for this unconditional blind love in which we constantly shower him,,, when you respect and listen to his wishes, give him the best, worship him, and Yuuta has always been very puppy-like when he was taken care of (and so indifferent to himself), that your praise and almost prayer when you kiss his neck, stroking his hips, assuring him that you will give him the whole world, makes his heart beat stronger not at all out of fear,,,, you are so gentle, so loving, so adoring that Yuuta can't believe that this is all for him, and he can't help but try to give you all the same, even if at first he wanted to run away — over time he just gets so used to this home routine that doesn't want to go anywhere and even more so to leave you. the thought that you may prefer someone else and, moreover, get tired of him, constantly makes him nervous, thinking about how to leave you forever — but when he sees that he is the only one in your eyes, it becomes much easier... listen, but when you see that everyone is looking for him and for a moment you begin to doubt whether it was right, of course, you have him, your partner, your Yuuta, but he's not unhappy that he left everything for you, right? he doesn't mind, does he?? you wouldn't want him to be sad, especially because of you, you want him to always know how adorable and amazing he is, and that you are absolutely in love with him and will do everything for him,,, but he was a famous one and probably used to his hobby / job, so what can you do to so that he no longer thinks about the past and thinks only about you??? of course, he tells you that he thinks only of you, especially when he whines delightfully after another orgasm, begging you to let him also serve you when you tie his hands, capturing his desperate face when he almost cries, even more adorable than in life, but you can't constantly make love with him so his thoughts were only about you, right?,,,,, right?

2) you can't help but be inspired when he gets down on his knees in front of you to prove his loyalty, even if you're sure it's wrong, — but when you squeeze his hair without interrupting his desperate act of service, even if he can't help but be awkward, having never done anything like this before, you feel too unreal, seeing how your sweetheart, previously devoted only to the Deity and people, now goes to everything for you, almost worshipping, promising that he will never leave you and will not allow you to leave him, swearing that this is a promise in the face of the Deity, that he will follow you anywhere, and you really can't dismiss it when his eyes are so drunkenly shining; stealing your kisses while no one sees and greedily kissing you in the semi-darkness, shyly squeezing your hand with his wet one because of excitement, asking you in a trembling voice to follow him so that he can listen to you,,,, but Yuuta who simply does not believe that there can be something even more delightful and divine in the world than you, even if you know that such words are blasphemy — you cannot try to threaten him with punishment when he looks at you with such adoration that you cannot resist this temptation, demanding that he bow down before you, that you must be the only thing in his heart, and you will be expelled for it, but even knowing this, you cannot stop, desperately kissing his lips and pressing him closer, hugging him not at all like an angel should hug his ward, but rather like a spouse is hugged, and Yuuta can't help but blush because of this, but can't help but burn with this excitement and excitement, even if it's a sin,,,,, angel!Yuuta who comes to see the world, but meets you and gives up everything just to stay with you; maybe even uses his powers to convince you that he is an important messenger of the Deity and you should listen to him and accept his commandments, since he sees that you have a chance to become another angel, but instead you defile him by kidnapping and deciding to keep him for yourself, since you have never seen someone so amazing and something inside you demands that he stay with you forever, and you don't see the point in resisting this thirst, wanting him, and Yuuta can get out, — not that something mundane could stop him — but he even feels shamefully enthusiastic, encountering something like this for the first time and not wanting to harm you or resist,,,, you are so weak and gentle and full of adoration, even if your methods are outdated for this era and a little strange, but as long as you are willing to listen to him, he doesn't mind, you know? even if your way of getting him to be obedient is a little hasty — that's what only spouses should do, you know? — he shyly agrees, believing that he is doing everything for the sake of raising a new angel, even if he subconsciously understands that he has been indulging you for a long time and longs for you not at all because he wants you to leave him one day,,,,

3) mention of bottom!reader the way he starts to cry less, seeing that you don't look so scared and annoyed, even thinking in response to his suggestions, only to start smiling when you ask if he understands that you still can't forgive and accept him right away,,, when you cannot deny that you are becoming somewhat dependent on his ability, constantly using it to play with him, caressing his leaking precum dick, not letting him cum, asking him to tell you why you are punishing him, biting his sensitive neck, sliding lips over his pretty shoulders while he sobs, since he can't utter a word because of the gag;;; when you let him cum only after his red clit swells and becomes painfully sensitive due to constant denial, praising him that he is so pretty, maybe you will even think of riding his cock somehow, but instead you turn him over on stomach, resting his wet ruddy face in a pillow to stuff his cute throbbing womb, hungry for no less attention and squeezing you tightly even when it's full of you, trying not to let anything leak out, but even when you push a plug inside his pretty hole, it doesn't help</3333,,,,,, listen, but when you ask him to show you what he considers a real face and Yuuta is horrified, refusing, saying that almost all changelings have an ugly appearance and even if it is selfish, he would rather live with you with the appearance of another than show you his own, not wanting you to be disgusted with him, but as you ask him to change something in his appearance, he catches himself with guilty pleasure thinking that he is becoming like his real self, although you clearly have not seen his real appearance — you make him beautiful to your taste,,,, </33333

4) he builds a nest in your bed when you are away for a long time, as your smell soothes him from suffocating loneliness, even if soon you find nests everywhere in the apartment, especially in spring, when his life cycle says "it's time to get ready for eggs", only instead of eggs he drags you there,,, or when you wake up because your back is being scratched, only to realize that Yuuta is half asleep trying to clean your "wings" because he believes that his partner is next to him, but you only enjoy affectionate, gentle strokes, not considering it necessary to wake him up because of this, even if the next morning he says that he dreamed about cleaning your wings,,,, or when he thoughtfully cleans his wings and then you walk around the house with him to remove the fallen feathers, since he still forgets that he has to collect them and throw them away,,,,, when he gives you a gift of his feathers like a dream catcher,,,,,,,,, or when you sleep with him, but he's so hot that you get too warm, although he's still good to warm you if you understand me...

5) merman!Yuuta, who is getting acquainted with the concept of oral sex for the first time and becomes obsessive about it,,,, let you lick his slit? stick his head between your thighs? he could spend hours just to serve you and always so enthusiastically rubs against your face when you want to take care of his — how much he has become addicted to it is almost unreal</333 shark!Yuuta who thinks you're kind of fucking breathtaking and tries to shyly court you by bringing shiny things and fish just to get you closer to him, but you think he's trying to mate with you — but hey, you're okay with that, even if he seems shy when you find a more comfortable place to you are to mate with him, pressing him against a stone or wooden building to stuff him and make sure that his slit will swell by the time you are done with him, if only he would stop scaring the villagers, — only so that he will soon come back to you with gifts, shyly looking out from under the water, but when you try to understand why he came back, Yuuta first blushes and looks away, then squints and timidly slightly opens the slit, and you are even amazed at how lustful and greedy sharks are, not realizing that Yuuta decided that you probably find friends this way, and he really doesn't mind to mate with by you if it's a friendly thing for you,,,, as a rule, shark mating is rough and bloody, but you were so gentle and careful caressing him before you started rubbing that he can't understand if you are reacting to his courtship or you just think of him as a friend — maybe he's just not your type and you're not sure that his cubs will be strong? or do you need more time to start a relationship?? or is he thinking too deeply about it??? listen, but you know that some species of sharks can turn from males to females with age, right? listen, yuuta, whom you thought was your boyfriend, at some point explains to you that no, he's still a guy, it's just that now he has a pretty womb that you can stuff instead of a beautiful cock, but not that it changes anything, right? (wrong, you were in shock when you woke up and realized that something was... wrong... with your partner</333)

6) Yuuta, who turns out to be a victim of stalker!slime!reader, since he is so cute and good that you want to wrap yourself around him and make sure that he feels good, so you can't resist the temptation when he gets a wet dream — and are happy to help him just to find out that Yuuta is into monsters and doesn't mind a few appendages at all, even if at first he chokes and whines while you caress him everywhere, ready to lose consciousness from hyperstimulation<333

I'm rather dissatisfied — why so little??? why did I read all this so quickly??? huh huh huh🤨🤨🤨 disappointing, disappointing, try again :/// /hj /hj /neu don't apologize, sun, who doesn't like a lot of favorite text??? all the dissatisfied have long been removed or received an automatic readmore🙄😒

but you didn't know~ so well that you still underestimate me<33 no♡ have I ever deceived you? so how can I lie now? it's hopeless, dear<333 it's your fault, of course. don't you have such pretty ears??? If you didn't have them, I wouldn't bite you!!! after all, you seduce me with them, you know? first you tease and then you say that I can't even bite you in return!!! such a Mean, such an Evil panna cotta... :((((( /t /j I've been targeting them for a long time, glad to get the opportunity to finally bite!!!😋😋😋 CHOM—

#[📂] — voice from under the bed #❖.my jewelry #.spicy♡#✮.panna cotta <3 #🥮 — jujutsu kaisen #✉.yuuta okkotsu

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Hellaaaaaauuuur, I'm in Taiwan, but I'm going home soon :/

So CBX, I'm glad they won, but I'm also confused about the whole thing, it's awkward af to be working with people you sued ajgghshgajaasgsdgsd also I wouldn't trust SM, but I hope everything improves and works out well. Baek said to trust him, so there's nothing we can say since we don't know all the details

Omfg, have you seen Shinee in Thom Browne, I can't believe Minho and Jinki are the ones serving skirts??? makes me even sadder Jinki won't be promoting. But heeeeey Shinee variety shows!!!

Baek ILY you came with a whole ass Powerpoint presentation on Ateez's lack of good photos <3333 I feel like I'm nitpicking sometimes, but I genuinely care about the pictures especially if I'm buying albums. I bought so many from artists I don't stan because of the photobooks. TXT for example, I bought two of their albums before I even got into them, because WOW same with NCT. And they don't even need to try that hard, like I said before: some of the pics members post on SNS are much better, wtf??? Very true on the settings + clothes combo, sometimes the colours are so off it makes the photos look even more lacklustre... they rely on members' looks, but they still edit them to the point of the boys looking strange :( Like https://twitter.com/shinestarnation/status/1669978356861874176?t=MOHn2peZLBCxzCiWmfTMAA&s=19 and https://twitter.com/hwalilac/status/1669972664046469123?t=6JuN7g_tRmtkZ2jJofzqLA&s=19 - he looks hot, but come on. This https://twitter.com/pshsource/status/1670647944469696512?t=7ewg9ktCAqqyvfKprFNCBg&s=19 is better, and the lil ponytail is cool, but again it's because HWA IS A MODEL

Now onto the album, yeah it's like Movement and I feel the same about it, except Outlaw doesn't have Cyberpunk <3 each song has cool parts, but they blend together too much. Can't even tell which one is my fave honestly, I still cannot distinguish all of them based on the verses. I haven't listened to the album a ton, because I didn't have time also the album is kinda an assualt on my senses 😭. Coming from me - noise music lover, lmao. Bouncy grew on me, it's catchy, I'd rather if Ateez gave me something else, but it's the only track that's different

Bestie my bff/flatmate met Yuta in Paris and hopefully she meets TY too, but FUCK PARIS!!! This video lowkey reminds me of our meeting, so fucking random https://twitter.com/yutpeu/status/1670738437585108993?s=20

Anyways, you're right Yuta is a great actor, the difference between that movie he did and his current drama is soooooo 😂😂😂 and the fact so many people don't know his voice and claim he can't sing, but he can do this https://youtube.com/shorts/YcuQlxS3hjA?feature=share4 !? 127 has a lot of singers and not enough singing lines, their line up never made sense to me. Like Jaehyun is a good singer with nice vocal tone, not a fucking rapper, STOP IT. I think they'd benefit from having another proper rapper instead of so many vocalists. 2 Baddies is questionable, but Yuta's "fill up the tank pour gasoline on me rah"??? Okay rockstar!

Speaking of Jamal Jeong, this https://twitter.com/jaehyunpetals/status/1669874106874073088?s=20 video is so fucking funny I've been laughing at it for days and not Troye pulling him also?! Have you seen the vid where Troye tells him he was born in South Africa and Jaehyun literally has his "if you're from Africa then why are you white" moment, I CANNOT

Hoooooold ooooon the challenges, first Taeyong x Felix, now Taeyong with Woo and Yunho. The universe knew I'd die if it was Hwa, lol

Can we talk about Hwa's room??? He did not dissapoint me, the only one so far who has a room with some personality, not just b&w hotel look (soz WooSan) or a literal man cave (Yunho). His room is gamer nerd aesthetic x high fashion girlie DID YOU SEE THE YSL STUFF???? ANTHONY VACARELLO WHERE IS HIS SHOW INVITE THEN. The Folklore vinyl made me laugh, I won't comment, but it's a crime his room is so small :///

BODYGUARD ANNIVERSARY SOON WTF?!?!

And wdym HWA AND SAN WENT TO DINNER WITH KAI AND WE WEREN'T THERE

Wow, I'm so normal... https://twitter.com/MAS_43ver/status/1670391008151109632?s=20

He is so great and amazing and spectacular https://twitter.com/shinestarnation/status/1670014890969292804?s=20 - DV 💖

hello!!

Hellaaaaaauuuur, I'm in Taiwan, but I'm going home soon :/ /// So CBX, I'm glad they won, but I'm also confused about the whole thing, it's awkward af to be working with people you sued ajgghshgajaasgsdgsd also I wouldn't trust SM, but I hope everything improves and works out well. Baek said to trust him, so there's nothing we can say since we don't know all the details

HELLOOOO LMFAOOO BACK TO BRITAIN 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i think this is like the first time sm backed off??? no bc some ppl are not able to read,,, im vv glad they have an agreement and now will change things on their contracts, not only theirs but potentially everyone at sm will now have a chance to change those contract terms now,,, cbx really became sm’s character development??? im also hoping they weren’t threatened into this,, but as long as baekhyun says it’s fine then it must be, he’s the lawyer i just hope he isn’t be scrutinized and singled out 😭😭😭 AT LEAST WE ARE GETTING THE COME BACK??? ALL THE PRODUCERS ARE SO EXCITED AND ITS MAKING ME SCREAM BC ANON THIS????

do u hear this (put the volume up rly loud) that baekhyun siren call oMG???? ANON ALL THE BEST OLD SM PRODUCERS ARE COMING BACK??? THAT SIREN CALL??? the way im gonna buy this album the minute they drop the photos omg anon u will not hear the end of me talking about their voices ALL THE SM HIT MAKERS BMWDJWK

Omfg, have you seen Shinee in Thom Browne, I can't believe Minho and Jinki are the ones serving skirts??? makes me even sadder Jinki won't be promoting. But heeeeey Shinee variety shows!!!

 I DID AND IM SO PUMPED??) THE STYLING AND THE TEASER PHOTOS?? TAEMIN BACK TO SKUNK HAIR AND HIS FRECKLES??? OH LORD SM BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH THAT ART,,, see it’s so simple but the depth?? the filter?? wowzie BUT YES SHINEE SHOWS!!! im also quite upset about that but i hope kibum does a ending fairy w onew’s face in it 🤲🏻🤲🏻

NO BC I WAS SO FURIOUS I WANT BETTER PHOTOS 😭😭😭😭 right! like it really matters when a photobook is very pretty,, sometimes i don’t even like the songs but the photobook? im buying it. it’s like a magazine collection for me fbenjck nct’s resonance album was the definition of simple but it was so pretty to look at?? a whole magazine style,,, THE NCT SEOUL CITY ONE IS JUST TO BEAUTIFUL !!!! no bc they really do post better on social media,,, petition for booba to do their actual album’s photo books !! ur right, the clothes are like the same colour as the bland background which just fades them out plus the extra photoshop on their lips that DISAPPEAR???? idk if u saw but i was looking thru the deja vu san photos,,, i think they made his nose longer? i think it may just’ve been me but when i first saw it it’s all i could think off,, those photos with the wire have sO much potential like PUT SOME FILTERS LETS NOT MAKE IT BLAND, USE CYBER CORE LIKE ITS THE PERFECT TIME??? like zoom into some random part of their face,, like just show us art 😭😭

honestly that orange ones are so pretty, i wish they did something like that!! i made a another one that i wish was the aesthetic / theme for this comeback,,, cyber core ateez pls 😭😭

each song does have some pretty good parts,, i also cannot distinguish between them.. they seem very cohesive to each other in a sense if u finish one song u don’t even know u finished it bc the next one correlates to the one u just finished,, ASSAULT TO MY SENSES FBWMDBWMBDWKBDKWHDWKHDKWJDKW LMFAOOOO bouncy grew on me too bc i be doing that dance challenge every second <3

FUCK????? ARE U ALL HAVING A YUTA MEET UP WITHOUT ME???? FUCK ???? WHEN IS JT MY FUCKING TURN FBWKFHWKJDKS STOP U LIVED A WHOLE KDRAMA 😭😭😭

RIGHT!! the movie it fit him so well, like his sharp features just make it even better ??? sm get him into movies??? NOOO LITERALLY LIKE ME TOO I FORGOT HOW HE EVEN SOUNDS LIKE BC THEY DONT EVEN GIVE HIM LINES,,, that’s the problem w nct like u guys have some of the best vocalists in the industry but the songs are too small or the lines are just not being given fbwndbsn RIGHT HE IS HE IS !!! HE SINGS SOOOO PRETTILY PLS LEAVE THE RAPPER TO MARK 😭😭😭 the rAH GOT ME FBANBDKS

JAMAL 😭😭😭😭😭 LMFAOOOO I LOVE KPOP LIKE THIS FBEKFBKW saw a twt that said “how u whiter than a white guy” I SCREAMED FHWKFHWKDHWK

Hoooooold ooooon the challenges, first Taeyong x Felix, now Taeyong with Woo and Yunho. The universe knew I'd die if it was Hwa, lol /// Can we talk about Hwa's room??? He did not dissapoint me, the only one so far who has a room with some personality, not just b&w hotel look (soz WooSan) or a literal man cave (Yunho). His room is gamer nerd aesthetic x high fashion girlie DID YOU SEE THE YSL STUFF???? ANTHONY VACARELLO WHERE IS HIS SHOW INVITE THEN. The Folklore vinyl made me laugh, I won't comment, but it's a crime his room is so small :///

THESE CHALLENGES ATE !!!!! THE TAEYONG ONE FHWKHDKW SCREAMED we could’ve had a kai x hwa x san…..

HE DID NOT DISAPPOINT AT ALL HES SO COMMITTED TO THAT CLEAN GIRL GAMER FBWKDHSK I SAW THE YSL STUFF HE’S ALSO MANIFESTING IT AND SO ARE WE !!!! he’s a swiftie….oh he will go when she comes to sk

san is me in hwa’s room

BODYGUARD ANNIVERSARY SOON WTF?!?! //// And wdym HWA AND SAN WENT TO DINNER WITH KAI AND WE WEREN'T THERE

DONT REMIND ME I WILL DROP THE TEASER THIS WEEK AFTER MY MIDTERMS 🫡🫡 FBWMDBWMDBKW AND WE WERENT THERE??? HOW DARE THEM?? no bc what would they talk about like kai would not speak a word if not spoken too 😭😭😭 these introverts pls LIKE???

Wow, I'm so normal... https://twitter.com/MAS_43ver/status/1670391008151109632?s=20 /// He is so great and amazing and spectacular https://twitter.com/shinestarnation/status/1670014890969292804?s=20 - DV 💖

wow. i just did not let out a shrill.

AANDDD??? THIS LINKUP???

and this titanic thing??? WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND omf they must be mf terrified to be in their, in the dark alone in the water so deep like 😭😭 & like i did not know titanic was that close to canada like damn??? the submarine may have been imploded or flooded?? but they heard knocks from the ocean,,, like omg i hope they find them bc the oxygen is running out,, 40 hours of life support left i desperately hope they find them bc they 19yo kid in it got a whole life ahead omg 😭😭😭 ppl on twt saying titanic still taking lives 😭😭 i hope w some miracle they’re all alive ,,,, imagine them rn in that ocean thinking while we all just sit in our rooms seeing this,, it’s so unsettling my fear of the ocean skyrocketing <33

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😧😧 LMFAOOO

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