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"something ive been thinking about today for sure" and then you leave us in SUSPENSE
Hahah I usually don't put my thoughts here as soon as they appear cos I don't want to make any statements in the heat of the moment since I know people on tumblr tend to grasp onto everything they read and take it as facts. BUT nevertheless here are my thoughts on Max pushing Charles off every time they start on the front row. This is gonna be a mess.
(I do not know how to write a short response)
I like everyone else was slightly surprised that Charles was so easy to forgive Max after he apologized in Vegas. I genuinely thought this time he would at least.. discuss it in a more heated manner (I'm thinking max and checo in Austria after the sprint). I wasn't sure about the state of their relationship after and I know it would not be austria 2019 but I did not expect charles to brush it off the way he did.
Thinking about it now after the race is over I kinda understand why he did brush it off. It did not affect his race that much, he was able to retake the lead, he was gunning for a win anyway, Max got the penalty, it was all fine. The safety car was the bigger issue so of course he's gonna focus on that instead of put his already new and fragile relationship with max in jeopardy over this.
That being said, I do not condone Max acting like this every time. It says something that when the race started before t1 even happened I was expecting Charles to be pushed. I think Max was genuinely scared in Austin but when Charles brushed that one off he is now more relaxed in trying riskier moves with Charles. And the thing is, Charles doesn't care now. He's car is shit, he rarely has a chance to win when Max does this so it's easy for Charles to say "it's okay this Max and Race Max are different, I want to maintain this friendship so I will forgive" now that he's p7 and essentially not fighting for anything in the championship.
But would Charles feel the same way if they were fighting for a championship? I don't think so. And it worries me because by that point they will be closer as friends probably and Max will try riskier moves and all of them will be brushed off by Charles but at one point I think it is bound to snap. And I'm scared that the more it goes on and the more times it happens its gonna be more serious on Charles' side. As in he's gonna be more hurt by it but also the strain in the relationship would be bigger.
I may be wrong and I may be reading them completely wrong. They may surprise me again and have a clean championship battle with no drama and there is nothing I would love more than that. And so far all I've been doing is praying for a championship battle and not thinking what that Entails but now that this has happened multiple times and now that Max has the impression that he can do what he wants on track as long as he says sorry and bats his eyelashes after, I think Max is not suddenly gonna start clean racing. He's gonna play even more dirty if they're fighting for a championship. I'm not saying Charles won't, I'm saying they both will but seeing this I do not think anymore that it's gonna be a clean battle. I'm still gonna enjoy and pray for it but with a hint of caution bc like I said what im seeing now (as cute as it is from a shipper perspective) worries me a little.
Hope this manages to paint a picture of my thoughts a little. Cos they're mostly just jumbled together pieces of "what if this happens what if that happens". But this is the general direction I'm going in. What if Max continues doing this when the stakes are higher and what if Charles doesn't take it as well as he is now when he is actually fighting for something? That's a lot of what ifs 😂 but yeah..
#lestappen#charles leclerc#max verstappen#hope i managed to explain it well#nothing against max obv#for those who dont know im a max girl and i will not stand for max hate in my inbox#i am dicussing the state of the friendship od my 2 fav drivers here#f1#f1 discussions by me
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max and i are closing in on launching [redacted sports rpf charity fest] and i am once again pondering how do i write "experience with writing form emails and manipulating google forms in ways no one has dreamed of" in a cover letter without saying "i did it for the rpf grind"...like there's no way unless everyone in this microsoft teams meeting gets really cool about a bunch of stuff really quickly. you know
#IT LITERALLY CAME UP WHILE I WAS WRITING A COVER LETTER A COUPLE WEEKS AGO#AND IT WAS SUCH A BAD COVER LETTER BC IT WAS LIKE. I CAN DO THIS. I CAN BE A VIRTUAL PROGRAMMING MANAGER#I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW I CAME BY THESE SKILLS!!!!#i did not get an interview lmao. but we stay silly#like how do u frame ''community organizer'' when you're organizing. people on the internet to create rpf fanworks. for charity#lmaooooo oh well#me and max locking down our timeline last night and i'm like 😶 the thing i have wanted to do for years is finally happening#the universe tried to smite us multiple times in multiple ways. but we persisted. and it is happening!!!#last night i had to go to the grocery store at 9pm wearing short-shorts and an oversized t-shirt bc i was really like#if i don't get a coke in me right the fuck now i am going to end it all#procured coca-cola. drank it in the parking lot. recovered instantly. got on here and started posting#went to monday night service. last one bc after this week it'll be too late at night in est :(#it was such a nice global community to be apart of. people in 5 countries on four continents showed up almost every week!#not to be christian on main. but i love working with ecumenical organizations because i meet people all over the world#who have different ways of doing church and different interpretations of scripture and different takes on faith#and i always learn so much from people! good and bad lol sometimes it's like wow i will NOT be integrating that into my worldview#yo just under one week until i move 😵💫 i decided i am packing one (1) more box and then saying fuck it we ball#whatever i forgot has to go in the car. i cannot let myself be owned by cardboard boxes any longer#and soon. freedom. new start. new beginnings. someone said ''i hope you look at this as a time of new growth and unfolding'' to me#and i went man. i think i am#like the pine trees that reseed after a forest fire#fresno oilers.txt
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I have officially started painting the walls in the living room.
well, I've mixed/adjusted the paint and painted some swatches and put up masking tape and all that stuff. I'll be painting tomorrow. I'm so excited (to get started, but mostly that I'll finally be all done with evvvverything*)
*until I think of the next thing I want to do, and the next one after that, and -
#I'm just so damn happy I actually managed to get everything else done today!! the living room was a mess before#well it's even worse right now but that's because all the furniture is in the middle of the room lol#but yeah I finished unpacking almost everything (there's still a few boxes with like old memory stuff etc. in the storage room but that#doesn't count because we don't use or need that stuff)#and I cleaned and I did the laundry and I put away (some) clean laundry and I blocked most of the bunting for the birthday garland I'm#making and I tidied everything and I fixed a bunch of things and#okay I think that's all#but hey that's kind of a lot?#idk but it definitely is for me#I think I sat down for maaaybe an hour or two the entire day?? that's. actually concerning and it explains the pain in my feet oh no#sometimes when I'm walking (not standing) I don't notice the pain until it's too late...#well shit I hope I'll be able to actually paint tomorrow lol. guess I'll have to sit down for some of it but I did that last time too and it#was alright#personal
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me trying to hype myself up to posting online again despite The Horror
#so turned out taking a break was both needed and the worst thing I could have done#having Anything to do day to day was the one thing keeping my brain from engaging nuclear meltdown lol#was trying to tell myself if the election went well maybe there'd be a chance for someone like me and it'd be worth trying again#but uhh no need to explain the flaws in that logic lmao#still stuck in the same place with no where else to go#and like#the more I learn about the scale of history the more I understand that relief won't really come until long after I've died#not at a scale needing to overcome the sheer ocean of grief and blood my country is built on and continues to feed year by year#have to live with it now somehow#its not liberating to acknowledge#but there's no such thing as miracles so I guess I'll stop hoping for better#that kind of thing has to be built by hand#really feelin that pingu rn#anyway time to stop whining I gotta start planning to post art or something#might need a second blog for my other non-nature-y artwork#trying to figure out how to make things manageable#maybe will make something silly just to break the ice#rompopolo calls
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What's your opinion about District 4 as Career District?
Why is there a difference between District 4 and other Career Districts (1&2) in supporting the rebellion?
From all known victors from 4, who do you think the first to support it?
(If you have/know any fics which explore this, please let us know).
Thank you :)
@curiousnonny
hi!
I think that district 4 was a career district!
I haven’t done a re-read in a while but i think I always just assumed that the proximity (not geographical, I mean like the fact that they had close ties) of D1&2 to the Capitol probably has a lot to do with their lack of support in the rebellion.
like we know that D1&2 are viewed very favourably by the Capitol and get more food and resources from them etc so it makes sense that they'd be more loyal. however, i don't remember the same being the case for D4 (someone correct me if I'm wrong though). D4 has always felt more like D7, D10, D11 to me based on vibes alone.
In terms of supporting the rebellion, I feel like the first could have been Mags honestly. Or at least, I feel like she would have known about what was happening.
I can definitely see her being contacted by Plutarch and being asked about how likely the other D4 victors would have been to join. like,, mags was the first D4 victor and i assume she will have done a lot of the mentoring in the years to come. she would have been a great starting point for the rebellion. who else would have known/understood her districts victors personalities better than her? and also the fact that she's been around for so long would mean that she could also provide a lot of insight into victors from other districts and the workings of the games themselves etc
and yeah, i feel like mags might have needed a bit of convincing at first. we know that canonically she's half-raised finnick (and probably other D4 victors too, esp if they were careers) so i could see her initially being cautious about promises of rebellion and change. she's old enough to have been alive before the first games, (maybe not old enough to remember what life was like but she probably would have had some idea from like idk - her parents talking about it or something) and so i can see her being weary of the idea of putting the other victors in more danger on the hope of something better.
but we also know that mags is kind and selfless and caring and i think she also would have wanted her 'kids' to have a chance at living in a better world. so yeah! i think mags would have been the first D4 victor told about the rebellion and i think finnick would have come soon after.
i don't think ive read fics that specifically discuss this, but most of @finnicksannie (TheWalkingGrimes on ao3)'s thg fics are about D4 and it's victors so those fics are all a brilliant place to start! also i know @the-sun-and-the-sea also has lots of d4 centric fics on ao3!
#i hope some of this at least makes a bit of sense#i have so many thoughts about d4 and odesta but I've seen so many different interpretations and headcanons that always seem so cool#and so i'm always a bit shy about sharing mine bc i never feel like i manage to explain myself well#anyway!#rosa shut up challenge#rosa talks ❁#finnick odair#odesta#annie cresta#❀ rosa replies
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follow up question to that last post: would gale ever be ok with being tied up?
Good question! This is interesting, because Gale cannot get into subspace while tied up but he’s okay with light bondage. He will just stay in his normal headspace throughout the whole thing. Fun, but not subbing. He keeps a playful tone with Bucky and the whole thing is pretty much still in his control. Unlike in subspace.
Gale is a very good sub with 0 brattiness but he has specific needs that don’t go well with traditional forms of dominance.
One might think that Bucky has it easy with him because of the lack of resistance but absolutely not, because he’s pulled out of subspace if Bucky misjudges something. And trust me, that happened before. It doesn’t mean that they stop having sex right there, it just means that Gale will revert back to his normal self and the complete catharsis he probably craved when they started doesn’t happen. It's still good sex, just not what he wanted the most in the moment.
It was a total coincidence, an alignment of the stars, that he ended up with someone who brought the submissive side out of him. It might not have been discovered at all with another partner.
#i hope i managed to explain my hc well enough 😅#buck x bucky#clegan#gale in subspace#bedroom headcanons#anon
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Hi, uhm, autism person here, what is a fictive? Don't ask if I live under a rock, I only learned what kinning is a few days ago-
hello hello, no worries as fellow autismer I get it. Also, just a warning beforehand that I am not diagnosed, am a newer discovered sys and my definition may not be 100% accurate!
So, have you heard of systems? People with DID / OSDD etc, with fragmented identities, aka “multiple personalities” (although we don’t call it that anymore). They form due to trauma, (which I will NOT be going into here because I’m not telling the shit that happened to me to strangers, so NOBODY reading this post is going to ask.), and usually in a system, each different part / person is called an “alter” or “headmate”.
An alter / headmate forms during a time of intense stress for a system, and sometimes, this new person is entirely new. Like every human on this planet, with their own name, face, personality, etc. but sometimes, particularly with autistic systems, when creating an alter, your brain will take aspects of someone else and add them into the mix. This can be a real person or fake, or doesn’t have to be a person at all. It varies how much is taken, but usually, when the brain takes a lot, or almost everything from this source material, they’re called a introject.
A fictive is an introject of a fictional character, while a factive is an introject of a real person
Fictives are alters like everyone else, except they take a lot from their source, and some identify with their source. So let’s take my case- with Rouxls Kaard, for instance. (I’m actually the fusion of three different sources, but I’ll make it easier by only explaining one)
When I was being created from the stress of the situation, my brain understood the comfort that came from Rouxls Kaard, the fictional character, and took the things that made him comforting (which was almost everything) and put them into me. In my inner world, sometimes I’ll look like Rouxls Kaard, I act like him, and I am essentially him. But at the same time, I’m my own person and I am NOT the same person as Rouxls- just because I was inspired by him, doesn’t mean people can treat me how they would the fictional character, or that I’m not as real as anyone else.
So, I guess you could *sort* of compare it to kinning, like how in both scenarios you “ARE that character”, but it’s not the same, and shouldn’t be treated as such. It’s hard to explain
This is VERY summarised and missing a lot of KEY information, so I HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY recommend doing more reading on this in your own time!! I hope I explained it well, but I am NOT a professional so while you CAN ask me for more clarification / details, I do also recommend reading more up yourself!
The post below is a good, more in depth & scientific explanation!!
Hoped this helped, and thanks for asking ^^/gen
#Answered#Hoping I managed to explain it well#but FEEL ABSOLUTELY FREE TO ASK MORE IF YOU WANT CLARIFICATION! /gen
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hey my loves, sorry i died out of nowhere lol. i actually invested in a brand new laptop recently and it’s the most beautiful thing ever buuuuuut it’s a macbook and i haven’t yet transferred all my files from my pc including icons and things. also i don’t have photoshop anymore since i can’t find any free versions that actually work for mac sooooo that’s been an issue when it comes to graphics and making new icons 😭
i’m hoping to figure something out soon but i’ve had other priorities in life and just haven’t gotten around to it yet. i’m not abandoning kak tho!! even if i can’t make any new icons, i at least have my old ones so if worse comes to worst i can just exhaust those lol
#/ tbd#i feel like a broken record coming back just to explain why i’ve been gone lol#but i hope u all have been well!!#i’ve been focusing mostly on school & spending what little free time i have on twitter & watching hour long video essays and true crime lol#but i have otherwise been well!! i think about kak a lot but i’m also still lowkey in my dragon ball hyperfixation#perhaps at the age of 28 my brain is finally figuring out how to manage multiple interests lmfao
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#i have no idea how to respond to the whole qsmp situation right now#i mean. i dont watch it or interact with qsmp ITSELF#only the fans around it#I have made fanart for it but not really because i have any particular attachment to specific characters but just because#its a very good springboard for character design and inspiration#Im very involved with the fanbase though as the QSMPnews discord is one of my main discords#and I mainly use the fandom space as a way of practicing/getting into foreign languages#although i dont watch qsmp it still has impacted my life massively in the last year#this clusterfuck of project management is difficult to unravel and know what to do with#and its difficult to know exactly where to turn your attention#or who to blame#since theres so many levels of miscommunication that hasnt been helped by the sharing of it online#i think. even if QSMP doesn't survive#it would be ludicrous to state it as an inherently harmful server#since there has been an evident change in the minecraft gaming space because of it in multiculturalism.#heck IM direct proof of that as someone who does not reguarly engage with the server itself via streams#the fact that as a result of a 21 year old kid deciding to start a sever I can end up with a group of spanish speakers trying to explain#various concepts to me in my language while i respond in theirs is. insane#so do i think that the qsmp will survive?#um. look i dont see how it can.#I've never thought that it could#but i dont think that im going to demonise fans or avoid content relating to it#considering how integral the fanspaces around it are to me and my personal quest for language proficiency#however I will attempt to keep qsmp posts on my french/spanish blogs#well that was. long-winded#idk this is a very self-centred look into the qsmp and this whole situation#obviously I hope that the staff get paid but. I really have no idea where Quackity Studios might get that money from or how the#server should either end or continue
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if anybody’s mad at me today I am going to start crying and I’ll cry so much that my tears will fill the whole room and we’ll both die
#nobody scold me for silly things please….#like the other day I got scolded by a manager because a customer was complaining about our customer service phone line thing#and I was trying to be sympathetic while moving her along like ‘oh I’m really sorry that happened! I’m glad you were able to come in for#this return and I hope everything goes well’ sort of thing#and my manager yelled at me for ‘talking bad about our coworkers’#like. girl..#and I explained exactly what happened and she just wouldn’t believe me. she just kept on telling me the same thing#and then two nights ago I did everything correctly to close the store and another manager scolded me#for taking too long and basically told me that he expected that I did something incorrectly#I just gave him a lot of loud thank yous. kill him with kindness and all#the thing is I’ll be traveling south after the summer for uni so like what’s even the point of finding another job for a month and a half#:/ for real..#whimsical.txt
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hope yall are enjoying how much my brain switches between past and present tense btw
#delete later#if im rambling i aint proofreading you git what you git!!!!!!!!!#that being said i migh thave to leave the rest for tomorrow i am so sleepy......................#i have started karma and fluff's but good lord it will probably be so long. but i dont know how to separate it well#maybe i'll like start with them together and then focus on fluff for when they get separated first#and then the next part is karma because i have to actually explain the evil slime man in his part anyway#managed to avoid it with russ but. well i do not think i can send karma to the void without talking about the slime man#maybe i'll also give extremely vague details about the future guys too..................idk!!!!!#that being said dont get your hopes up too high for detailed ebony or sludge lore lol. they are still secrets!!!
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wish me luck that i'll manage to fit 12 different examples into my analysis
#i have about 3k words left (3.5k if i can keep my conclusion at 500 words)#it COULD be manageable if i don't need more than 333 words per examples#which CAN be doable like for my first example i needed 300 words and for my 2nd example i needed even less only 276 words#however for my 3rd example i used 809 words so...#then again that was a super long and complex one that has many linguistic things going on so that ones staying#(yes it's bad buddy my beloved <333)#the other examples that i have collected don't have THAT much going on and are between 1-5 lines#(bbs ep2 has 11 lines in comparison!!)#sooo chances are good#the double savage and the atots one are longer as well#but only the dialogue like. linguistically it should be easier to explain bc there's only like 2 things#meanwhile the bbs example had like 4-5 things going on#i'm hopeful i'm hopeful#i can also free up some words by deleting all the thai writing and putting that in only in the appendix#airenyah plappert#airenyah vs her ba thesis
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im so tired how many more arabs muslims or those who aint either but taken as such are gonna b killed or hatecrimed in america bc of all this bullshit. peace and mercy be upon the families of the victims
and im so tired every time an american goes on about ohhHhh the middle east them barbarians who cant stop going to wars and ohhHhh the terrorists i just wanna smack them you god damned dumbass no care that america has toppled world governments repeatedly has been a terrorist state and currently is and is involved through money in so many damn wars and extremist groups
#-_- the ones you can actually talk to i somehow manage to keep my cool and start w#well what about the time when america did#x y z ? what about america giving massive amounts of money to saudi arabia??? what about x y z example of american involvement in all this#ey???? . every once in awhile you see the gears start turning in their heads and im like..... fuck. maybe just maybe my keeping#cool and trying to explain is worth it and this person is starting to wake up#some are just beyond hope tho
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i am really looking forward to this trip so that i can stop thinking about how unbelievably stressful work has been recently, but there is still so much i have to do before i can reach the point of being "on vacation" that i am just too burned out and overwhelmed to actually take care of
my mother keeps asking questions that i cannot think far ahead enough to answer, asking me to make lists and plans of things to do during the trip when i can barely handle the process of finishing packing before we leave tomorrow morning
i've had to tell her so many times that i am genuinely incapable of so many things right now, but she doesn't understand because 'normally' all of this is 'so easy' for me
#and i'm feeling like a terrible manager to my classroom aid because i won't be here for the NAEYC accredidation visit#and i held out hope until the last minute that they would come while i was still here to do it so the pressure can all be on me#i can bullshit my way through all their questions and explain the rationale behind the decisions i make in my classroom#but her job description doesn't include the curriculum and developmental screenings and all that stuff. that's on me.#even though i won't be there she shouldn't be expected to suddenly have to learn all of that just for this one day visit.#it just all comes back to the fact that they expect us to magically meet all these expectations while having none of the necessary support#and idfk what to do about it and that pisses me off because i and my staff and my kids deserve better.#i have put every single bain cell i have access to into trying to prepare for this but it feels like it'll never be enough.#and even while i'm gone there's no way i won't still be thinking about work. they're my kids. i want to know they're doing well. my center#aid is my friend and i want her to be supported and successful to the best of her ability#not gunna make it through the day without crying multiple times at this rate#stochastic ramblings
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I'm rlly curious, if I could ask, is there a difference in emphasis between te quiero and te amo that makes it hard to translate? Or, more like a cultural quirk thing
it's mainly in the way its used!
quiero is mainly for like. when you like something. when you love something but as friends, as a hobby, etc. ? if that explains it. like you could say te quiero to a friend and rhats that you love them, but it doesnt have the same meaning as amo. its kinda like a lighter love
amo is more of a full love sorta thing . ..like. when you reallly lvoe something. when you love your family or a partner etcetcetc . it hits harder than quiero. its like..intimate yknow?
#of course you can use both of them like in both contexts like#saying te quiero and te amo to a friend is awesome cool#but it does have like a different weight to it!#hope i managed to explain it kinda well lol
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The misunderstanding I meant was related to the fact that his last name was Cervantes, which translates to servant in Spanish and doesn't sound that different in English. I guess I was overthinking.
OH yeah that makes a lot more sense! Though I don't think any misunderstandings would occur.
This translation spell isn't literally translating everything Alvaro says or hears. If that was the case, then names like Deuce Spade or Epel Felmier would be getting translated literally as "Two Spade" or "Apple Farmer". In turn, people would have thought Alvaro's name was actually "Guardian", since that's what Alvaro technically means.
I guess the best way to put it is intent? The translation spell may not be perfect, but it isn't so bad as to automatically attempt translating everything without attempting to distinguish what's a name and what's not.
#twisted wonderland#answered#anonymous#Avoiding Twists and Turns#it is a good question tho! i hope i managed to explain myself well enough slfjdskj
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