#hope all 5 adlerbell enjoyers here like this one or whatever
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up late bc i keep thinking ab adlerbell and how bell is this vehicle of and for adler’s pain…….. like literally in the sense that all of bell’s memories and trauma of vietnam is imprinted onto them by adler, but also based on adler’s own memories of vietnam, how bell’s trauma and pain isn’t only theirs but adler’s too- that the two are not bound by the false camaraderie bell believes they share but instead bound by suffering, borne of adler’s. bell’s pain IS HIS pain.
and like,, does he know what bell dreams about when they wake screaming in the middle of the night?? does he share those same dreams too?? does he ever listen to bell talk about vietnam and feel, in a way nobody else possibly can, understood?? or does he feel angry, that they carry his trauma and his pain as though it were their own?? or envious, that the pain they feel isn’t even real, and that they were, for a time, spared of the horrors he endured?? or does he feel some sick satisfaction in knowing that the pain they feel is his?? that his enemy feels what he feels?? that they are bound and locked together, nearly sanctified in joint suffering??
does he care?? does he care????? i need to sit down,,,,,
#canon: he doesn’t care#headcanon: if he feels nice he might cradle bell to sleep the way he wished he was when the night terrors came#and maybe ask bell to recount the dream both as a covert memory exercise#but also to validate some traumatised part of himself he refuses to acknowledge#played bo6 twice and yet cw adlerbell still rotates in my mind#the ship ever actually#i also have more thoughts ab lamb to the slaughter bell but i need to sleep#sighs#hope all 5 adlerbell enjoyers here like this one or whatever#someone pls brainrot w me before i implode#adlerbell#adler x bell#russell adler x bell#cod bell#cod cw bell#cod#cod cw#cod cold war#call of duty cold war#cod bocw#call of duty black ops#call of duty black ops cold war#adbell#thoughts
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