#honey lee was born to play her

[scarletwinterxx]

lee and lily - haechan dad scenario

hello!! just wanted to write a quick haechan fluff. haechan as a girl dad, i just know he'll be the most gentle and caring and whipped dad 🥺😭

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"Honey, I'm home! oh what are you doing there, angelbug?"

Haechan stops by the doorway when he spots his daughter sitting on the bottom step with her arms crossed and a frown on her cute little face

"Time out" his daughter answers with a pout, Haechan had to hold back his laugh just in case you're around watching. He tries not to get in your way whenever you discipline your 4 year-old daughter, he did it once and he ended up in trouble with you too.

You always tell him she's too spoiled, how can he not spoil her though?

Lee Nari, you and Haechan's first born. Baby girl was born on June 06, yes the same day as your husband. The two of you were enjoying his birthday dinner at home with his family when it happened, it was to say the least a very dramatic way of entering the world. Little Nari knew how to announce her entrance, a few hours later she was born.

Since then she's been yours and Haechan's world. You can control yourself when it comes to giving her what she wants and teaching her how the real world works but her father is a whole another story.

If Haechan could, he'd give Nari the world on a silver platter. When she was a newborn, she would make the slightest little baby noise and Haechan would be on his feet checking on her.

You adore it. You love how he loves his daughter. There's no doubt she'll have one man loving her truly for the rest of her life. As long as Haechan is around, Nari would be loved and cared for and protected.

Walking towards his daughter before crouching down to meet her eyes,

"Did you do something that you weren't suppose to?" he asks

"She drew on the wall with markers, then when I asked her if she did it she said Uju did" this time Haechan let out a chuckle when he heard your explanation, looking up the staircase to see you standing with a rag and bottlespray in your hands. Probably cleaning up the mess little Nari made.

"Who knew our dog was an artist" he jokes, he stands up before cupping his hand over Nari's ears "How long has it been?" referring to her being on time out

"Like 5 minutes, atleast talk to her Hyuck. She's getting cheekier and cheekier by the day, and you're not helping" you told your husband, walking down the stair

"I do help" "Yeah, help her with getting away with things" you counter

"Okay, you're not wrong. Not my fault I can't say no to our baby, she can do no wrong in my eyes" he says, you give him a pointed look. One he understood even without words.

"I'll talk to her" he tells you before looking down to Nari

"Let's go, Nari. We'll help mommy clean up, okay?" he says as he picks up his daughter in his arms.

Before the two Lee's make their way upstairs, Haechan speaks again

"Now, what do we say to mommy?" he asks Nari who is currently playing with the button on his shirt

"Sorry, mommy" Nari mumbles

"Doesn't count if you don't look in her eyes. Now try again" he tells her gently.

You don't talk, just stood beside the daddy and daughter duo. Haechan has always been the energetic, all-out type of person. But when he's with his little girl, he's the most gentle man.

The little Lee looks up and look at you with a small pout on her lips, "Sorry, mommy"

Haechan looks at you, waiting for you to succumb under her powers just like he always do. Like he had when he first held her in his arms. Like how he'll always be for the rest of his life.

"Don't do it again okay, and don't lie to mommy when I ask you. I forgive you" you tell her with a small smile. Leaning over to give her a kiss on the head

"Hey, where's my kiss?" Haechan says, earning an eye roll from you but you comply nonetheless.

After all, Nari isn't the only Lee who has you wrapped around their finger.

Giving Haechan a quick kiss on the lips before passing the rag and spray bottle to him. "Goodluck, love you" you tease him, lightly pushing him upstairs.

"You see angellove, there's this thing in your playroom. The coloring books and canvass I got you, you can paint and draw on them all day so that you and I don't have to clean. And mommy won't get mad, she's scary when she's mad"

"Lee Donghyuck!"

[mugentakeda]

some random lighthearted hcs ^_^ 👍👍 cus all ive been posting is angst shit tralalalaaa

-iroh and lu tens biggest beef (satirical exaggeration) was always over tea preferences. they both love it- but in just wildly different ways. lu ten liked tea with milk and ginger and cardamom and sugar and black pepper and all kinds of other spices and shit (aka saffron chai). meanwhile his father is, as we all know, one of those snobs that dies on the hill of appreciating tea with its delicate and natural flavors alone. even if it just tasted like grass. one time, though, iroh was overjoyed to hear lu ten found a tea he liked just on its own (aka hibiscus tea), without add ons. but then was dismayed to immediately discover that lu ten liked it served cold (aka karkadeh). later, just to fuck with his dad, lu ten announced that he discovered its even better with the additions of citrus juice, honey, and mint. iroh just cant ever win with his boys

-azula is the youngest so its like instinct to be annoying. like shed get genuine urges to go and annoy zuko somehow someway. not all the times shes annoyed him are malicious- sometimes shed go in his room and if he was at his desk shed pluck the brush out of his hand and throw it across the room and take all the candles out and leave without closing the door behind her. or if he was laying down shed pull his socks halfway off throw his blanket on the floor and leave. she did it all wordlessly for comedic effect until he was like “why.” and then shed start cackling like a maniac

-lu ten enjoyed engaging in little kid activities with azula and zuko. hed sit on his stomach and kick his feet while finger painting. hed play whatever the fire nation version of hopscotch is with them, along with mai and ty lee. when azula covered his mouth before he said something to embarrass her in front of ty lee hed lick her hand and shed start screeching. hed make jokes about zuko being short even though lu ten could legally drink and zuko was like 10 so it didnt even make sense

-lu tens azula nicknames: lala (naturally), pumpkin, crab cake, sweetheart, baby (the last two only come out when its just the two of them or if shes upset. she has a reputation.)

lu tens zuko nicknames: zuzu (naturally), turtleduck (also naturally), princeling, squirt, shrimpmunk (note how most of these are a cute joke about him being Tiny and Small)

the kids called him lulu when he called them zuzu and lala. when he was teaching azula how to talk she called him baba for like a week to his dismay and panic, even if she didnt know what that meant, until he got it through her head that he wasnt the one to be called that. and ozai wasnt either because unfortunately he isnt the casual type

(he also called ursa auntie in front of anyone. to his great joy, ursa told him that ozai complained about it to her. thus, he continued to do it)

-lu ten made time for the kids not by ignoring his duties in their favor but by overachieving and overworking to stay as far ahead of his duties as possible. the faster he got shit done the more time leftover he had. his favorite thing to do with them aside from ember island was sneak them out of the palace and into the town during the evening, when they had all the best street food and outdoor theater set out

-roughhousing and chasing each other around was always a thing iroh and lu ten did before things got awkward and sour. their pai sho games- when they werent using it as a vessel for serious conversations- were loud, dramatic, and funny to witness. like iroh would be swearing and lu ten would be laughing hysterically. the servants would come and go with refreshments while giggling

-iroh and lu ten also engaged in Old Man Activities together. like you know how old folks just sit on porches for hours for no reason??? iroh and lu ten would do that together in the palace garden. they also did morning meditation and prayer at the ass crack of dawn

-before zuko was born and it was for the most part just ursa and lu ten, she got homesick a lot, and taught lu ten some of the stuff she did before marrying into the family. so lu ten knew how to make shit like jewelry, clay masks, and embroidered fans

-on ember island trips the three did a lot of cooking together. azula liked making sweet treats and fruit platters, zuko liked making kimchi and fried snacks. cleaning the mess is just as much a bonding activity as making the mess

-lu ten managed to keep whatever the hell he had going on with zhao a complete secret from iroh and ursa, zuko was just oblivious, but azula… is perceptive. and nosy. and protective. so one day when zhao leaves the palace azula approaches lu ten from out of nowhere and is basically like “(Katt Williams voice) You have an unnatural allegiance to losers and its not like you 😐”. he has no clue what to say to that

(it was not to azulas knowledge that zhao was harassing zuko constantly during his banishment. had she known, she wouldve done something about it. Not something that would inconvenience her father or the navy, obviously, but she wouldve definitely done something. #Trust.)

[leeknow-thoughts]

୨୧ MATILDA

୨୧ cw : fem!lee know x fem!reader, college!au, homophobia, mentions of a forced marriage, fluff, angst with a happy ending, kissing, pet names

୨୧ a/n : happy pride month <3 you are loved just as you are <3

When you came out to your parents their first reaction was disgust, telling you it was just because you hadn't met the right man yet. You remember crying yourself to sleep that night and wishing for these feelings to go away.

So you suppressed the feelings you were born with. And played the role of the perfect straight daughter for your parents.

Eventually you moved off to college a few states away from your parents, yet they still kept you under a close watch. If you did get a girlfriend and they heard about it, they'd cut you off.

They called you every weekend to make sure you were still doing well and that you were making good grades in all your classes. Just like today, they called.

"Well honey, I'm glad you're doing good in all your classes. Do you happen to remember our friends, the Robinsons?" your mom's voice crackles over your phone speakers.

"Yeah, the ones with the really nice house?" you confirm.

"Yes! Them! Well they were over at our house a few days ago for dinner and they saw a recent photo of you that we had on the mantle. And they started asking about you and-" your mother rambles.

"Mom, just spit it out already!" you blurt.

"We want you to marry Gabriel."

"No," you immediately retort.

"Darling, he's a very nice boy and he has a well paying job! His parents even said they'd buy you two a house as a wedding present!"

"Mom, I said no," you stand your ground.

This time it's your father who speaks, "this is not an option y/n. Next weekend we want you to come home and meet him."

You were so angry you hung up on them immediately.

"Y/N," her voice rings in your ears as the door to your apartment jiggles open.

"Hey Lina," you greet your roommate.

You knew Lina was gay. You had met some of the girls she would have over, they were all beautiful, just like Lina was.

"I found the most perfect dining set for the apartment at the store today! I just had to get it! Oh also I thought I'd make your favorite dinner tonight if you're up for it!" she hums while placing bags on the kitchen island.

"Yeah," you softly say, "that sounds good."

"What's going on? You seem upset?" Lina asks, crossing into the living room and sitting next to you on the couch.

"My parents want me to marry this guy because his wallet is loaded," you put your face in your hands.

"Oh," Lina sighs.

"Yeah," you rub your face.

"Well, he could be really nice, maybe you should give him a chance," she hums.

You had never come out to her. You look up at her, her beautiful brown eyes, long brown hair, cat-like features, and soft skin. You had liked her since you met her. But you never acted on it, afraid of the consequences that your parents would impose upon you if they figured out you were dating a woman.

"I don't want him," your voice trembles and tears start welling up in your eyes.

"That's okay too, there are plenty of other guys out there that I'm sure are good options-"

You cut her off by gently cupping her cheek and bringing her in for a kiss.

It felt so right, so comfortable.

When she finally breaks away from the kiss she searches your eyes for a reason as to why you kissed her, "-I wish you were a boy," you mumble through tears.

"Why?" she whispers.

"Because I could love you if you were a boy," you whisper back.

"You can love me the way I am," she says it like its a proposal.

"I can't, I can't because if I do then I'll have no family, I'll be cut off financially-," you explain before she cuts you off.

"We can have our own family," she runs a hand through your hair, "you can apply for a scholarship, and I'll even help you pay for college, we can be a family," she whispers.

"Lina," you mumble.

She hums as she wipes the tears from your face.

"I love you," you confess.

"I love you too," she smiles, "since I met you I've been pretty crazy for you."

"We can be a family," you say it like its a question.

"We can be a family," she affirms and pulls you in for another soft kiss.

You hadn't spoken to your parents in almost 3 months, and the past 3 months, you have been happier than you had your entire life.

"Jagi! I'm home!" your girlfriend calls as she opens the door.

"Hey Lina," you smile when you see her walk in.

"I was thinking that tonight I'd cook one of my mom's recipes," she says as she puts down all of the grocery bags on the kitchen island.

"That sounds so yummy," you comment as you get up from your place on the couch to help her put away groceries in the kitchen.

"You changed your hair!" Lina exclaims when she finally looks at you.

"Yeah," you grin, "I figured it was time for a change."

She walks to you and runs her fingers through your freshly cut hair, "it looks super cute," she grins and gives you a peck on the lips.

But you want more than just a peck, your hands hold her waist and you kiss her slowly and tenderly.

Her hands begin roaming over your waist and it sends tingles down your spine and you start getting goosebumps from her feather-light touches.

"My jagi, so fucking pretty," she hums against your lips.

You feel a blush creep onto your cheeks at her words, when you pull apart from the kiss she just looks at you, "what?" you ask with a giggle.

"Just taking you in," her eyes rake down your form.

You didn't leave your apartment that day wanting to adopt another cat let alone 3 kittens. But you passed by a brown cardboard box on the side of the road that 3 little kittens had been abandoned in and you just couldn't resist.

You carried the box home, and gently washed the dirt off the kittens in the sink, you dried them and cuddled with them on the couch while Lina's cats started to warm up to their presence.

"Jagi! I'm home," Lina calls as she walks in the door.

One of the kittens meowed softly which caught her attention, she looks over to the couch to see you cuddling with three black kittens while watching a movie.

"I know, I know, we already have 3 cats! But I saw them in a cardboard box on the side of the road and I couldn't help but take them back here! Felix said he'd adopt one! And I'm sure we could find the other two good homes!-" you were going to continue rambling but Lina cuts you off.

"Jagi, I'm not angry, maybe we could keep one? Would you like that?" she smiles and takes a seat next to you on the couch.

One of the kittens crawls over to her lap and she gently pets it. "That one's name is Raven! And this is Midnight! And this is Salem!" you point to each of the kittens.

Tears streamed down your face as you walked down the aisle at the courtyard venue, a small wedding ceremony with your closest friends.

You both said I do, and when you kissed her you had never felt better in your life.

"You got married?!" your father's voice booms over the speakers, "to a woman!?"

"Yeah, dad, I did," you confirm.

"And you didn't invite us? Y/N Y/L/N, we're your family? How dare you. Being gay is one thing, but getting married and not inviting us is totally different," he says harshly.

"It's actually Y/N Lee now, you weren't invited because you never accepted me. So why should I have to invite you to my wedding when you don't even accept the fact that I am gay?"

"This is a mistake Y/N, I hope you can grow up and see that some day," he sighs.

"This 'mistake' is my family. My real family. My wife is my family."

"Jagi! We're home!" Lina calls as she opens the door.

"Mama!" your son squeals and runs to give you a hug.

"Hey buddy! How was your day with grandma and grandpa?" you ask.

"It was really cool! We went to the park and they even let me get two scoops of ice cream!"

"Woah! Two scoops! That means you're becoming a big kid now!" you smile at your son.

"Yeah! And mommy and I went to the store! She said she would make spaghetti tonight!" your son exclaims.

"Yeah?" you look to your wife for confirmation.

"Yeah," she nods her head.

"I'm gonna go to my room and color!" your son announces before getting up off the couch and walking to his room and shutting the door.

You sit up and join Lina in the kitchen. You hug her from behind, your arms wrapping around her middle. "I swear your parents are trying to kill us," you giggle and kiss her neck, "two scoops of ice cream means endless energy, he probably won't get to sleep easily tonight," you sigh.

"Yeah," she giggles.

"I love you," you smile giddily.

"I love you more," she returns.

"I'm glad you're not a boy," you mumble.

"Where does this come from?" she chuckles lowly.

"Our first kiss, I said I wish you were a boy," you recall, "I'm glad you aren't."

"I dunno what to say to that," she replies, "but I know that I love you."

"I know, and I love you too Lina, I love you and our family so much," you hum.

[queeniecook]

January 25 - Part 2

The Sun came up and was halfway in the sky by the time Este and I reached BrindleBay. I drove us there, I don't see the point in taking the private jet for a trip like that. Plus Este has yet to be on a plane. I'm not sure how she'll handle it.

Jillian was still in her Pajamas at the house, which I don't blame her. She's been through a lot. I can't imagine going into labor in the middle of a snowstorm and having to seek shelter in an abandoned house. Not to mention what happened after that. It's a miracle she and Slade are healthy.

I told her I'd watch Slade while she cleaned up for the day. Este found toys in the nursery, so she was good for about a half hour.

He's a cute little guy. It's a bit weird. Holding the baby of a man you used to date and have really strong feelings for and will always care about - but I'm happy for him and Jillian too.

"I bet you're going to be a heartbreaker when you're older." I told Slade softly as I rocked him. I glanced down at my own child, who was busy playing with a harry puffer toy. 

~A half hour later

"Don't get me wrong, we're all glad James helped you. But don't you think it's kind of weird he somehow knew were you where?" I asked Jillian after she filled me in on what she remembered from the night Slade was born.

Meanwhile, Este was making friends with Annabel Lee. I smiled briefly at that before looking back at Jillian.

"I guess I haven't really thought about it much because I've just been grateful my son and I are both alive." She admitted to me. "It is kind of odd."

"Yeah, he don't live here. He lives in Forgotten Hollow which is over an hour away." I told her, I remember the trips well due to my time going to see Caleb there. That seems like a lifetime ago now.

"Maybe it was just God's way of working things out?" Jillian asks, glancing down at Este and her cat. 

"It could be. Just...be careful around James. Please." I requested. I don't trust that warlock at all. I'm sure she's seen a different side of him but Caleb has known him longer than the rest of us. He don't trust James and that's good enough for me.

About that time, Jillian's Mom- Denise Ambrose arrived. I had yet to meet her and I instantly liked her. It made me miss my Mom. I wish she had gotten to meet Este.

"You really do need to talk to Dakota. The longer you two don't talk, the longer it'll fester. The uglier it can be." Denise reminded her daughter after she set the table with a dish she made in an instant pot. 

"I agree with your Mom, for the record. There's time I've wasted fighting with Caleb and I wish I hadn't wasted it now." I commented. Like after we found out Liberty is a "alive" and is a vampire. I didn't talk to my husband for weeks and it was while I was pregnant with our daughter. 

"I know admitting you were wrong can be uncomfortable, honey but you need to." Denise said after sitting down to join us. 

Jillian shoved a bite in her mouth to avoid saying anything.

"Both of you could of handled the situation better but nothing goes smoothly in the heat of the moment. You two love each other, it's time for talking and making up." Denise finished her thought before taking a bite of her own food. 

I almost cried a little. If my parents were around, maybe I'd avoid some mistakes but then again, are kids ever good at listening to their parents? Even when they're older? Still. I miss them. Jillian is blessed to have both of her parents. I hope she knows that.

<-previous

[they-them-van]

i'm thinking about how hozier said "Honey, I wanna race you to the table / If you hesitate, the getting is gone" and how the yellowjackets are racing against time, racing against the wilderness, racing against themselves to find sustenance; one hesitation (misty pulling nat back, nobody bringing jackie in from outside, travis not being able to follow nat) can cost a life.

about "Throw enough rope until the legs have swung" and "Skinning the children for a war drum", how eventually hunted girls will be strung up to drain and how javi's clothes, the second skin of the only child among them, were removed so that the rest of the team could have a better chance of survival.

about "We can celebrate the good that we've done / I won't lie, if there's something still to take / There is ground to break, whatever's still to come" and the celebration of fresh meat, the bacchanal, the way the relief of something to eat drowns out any grief that might be felt; but also, food only makes them hungrier, lets the cracks in their stomachs grow bigger, until they dig pits used to hunt each other and take from their teammates until there's quite literally nothing left.

thinking about "Turning back to shore again / Above the outer atmosphere of a world he's never seen / And looking down to his new home, he feels the rising of a wave / And knows at once he will not weather it", how Lottie, who has led them through so much, doesn't recognize the teammates she crashed with, doesn't know what she's unwillingly created, and seems to sense that whatever the others are swept up in will drown her too --- even 25 years later, all of them are barely keeping their heads above the tide.

about "I looked down into the depths when I met you / I couldn't measure it" and laura lee recognizing something in lottie, taking her in, quite literally looking down at her as she welcomed lottie into her beliefs yet never able to participate in lottie's created belief system in the same way.

about "Measure the silence of a house / The unheard footsteps at the doorway / The unemployment of the mouth / The waking up, having forgotten / And remembering again the full extent of what forever is", how painful every morning waking up to a silent, freezing cabin would be, a team of teenagers reduced to silence by their stomachs in order to conserve energy, the lost members --- a team divided into those who are gone, and those who wake up every morning and wonder when they'll be gone.

about "With each grave / I think of loss and I can only think of you" and how shauna has to confront the reality of the part she played in jackie's fate every single time the yellowjackets hunt, every time another one of them dies for their survival, every time they dig another pit but end up with nothing to bury in graves.

thinking about "Do you think I'd give up / That this might've shook the love from me / Or that I was on the brink? / How could you think, darling, I'd scare so easily?", "My life was a storm, since I was born / How could I fear any hurricane?" and van, who took care of her mother and tried to make sense of her life as a teen, taking care of taissa --- following her when she's sleepwalking, keeping her safe even when it brings her close to the cliff herself, trying to understand it so that taissa can have peace of mind --- van, who's in her thirties and still taking care of her mother and taissa and everyone around her and trying to make sense of her life while knowing that she doesn't have much left.

about "I'll tell them put me back in it", van looking into the eye of the storm and gritting her teeth. the woman who's supposed to be dead, burnt to a crisp, taking the crumbling foundation she's been given and trying her best to build it into something she can be proud of.

in conclusion i better fucking hear some hozier in the next season of yj

[the-hellhounds]

Sitting on his porch after being discharged by Kun, Haechan held his injured midsection while watching over his pup playing with his firetruck he had gotten him.

Seeing the resemblance Minjun had to his mother, Haechan sighed as he looked down in thought.

Would things have been different if his first mate had stayed with him? Would he still be the smitten pup he was for her?

The day when Minjun was born comes back to him. A day he wished he hadn't felt so broken. 

.

"Just keep pushing, honey," Haechan had said as he held his mate's hand that squeezed him with every contraction she felt. "The baby's almost here!"

"You say that like it's easy!" The omega whined as she whimpered. Her entire lower body feeling tired from being in labor for so many hours.

Kissing her cheek, Donghyuck smiled. "Once he's out, you can rest," he says softly as he pressed his forehead to the side of her head in a sweet gesture he usually would do to calm her down.

As more screams in pain were let out by the omega as she held onto his hand, the doctor and nurses cheered as the baby was born crying.

"It's a boy!" The doctor smiled as they motioned for Haechan to cut the cord.

"Our little pup," Haechan smiled with teary eyes. His heart felt full as he was passed his first born to hold. He couldn't help to shed some tears as he caressed the small baby's cheeks. "He's so... tiny..."

"Is he okay?" The omega asks from the hospital bed as she was finally calming down from being done with giving birth.

"He's okay," he smiled, walking over to her to sit next to her. The small baby wiggling slightly in his blanket that he was wrapped up snuggly in. "He's got your nose, sweetheart."

"What will you name the baby?" A nurse asks the happy couple.

Haechan had turned to his omega, both sporting smiles and kissing each other's lips before he answers for them. "Minjun. Lee Minjun."

.

"Appa!" Minjun squeaked as he waddled over with a big smile on his small face. The toddler always happy to be near his father.

"Yes, buddy?" Chuckling, Haechan picked up his son in his arms. Pressing a kiss to his cheek, not bothering over how much pain he was in. He places his son in his lap and hugged him.

Pointing over with his small finger to where a car had dropped off someone in front of them, Minjun looked up at his father expectantly wondering who it was.

"What-" As he was about to ask what his son was pointing at, Haechan hadn't realized that someone had entered their territory. Much less noticed the familiar scent until it smacked him across the face.

"Donghyuckie..."

"S-Sua..." Becoming a stuttering mess, the hell hound didn't know how to react at seeing his first mate coming back and standing in front of him and his son 2 years later.

Smiling softly as she held her purse, Sua walked closer to them. "I missed you," She spoke as she squatted down to their sat position. "I missed my family."

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[androgynealienfemme]

"I didn't always realize I was being tutored, but I was. Not only did my coworkers teach me their tricks of illusion; they also taught me about life as they knew it. My fellow artisans had been around the undignified block- and met themselves coming back again. They'd survived in this underworld that I now desperately needed to understand. At some point in their lives, my fellow artisans had also been innocents abroad, and now they shared their hard-learned lessons with me, the neophyte.

"Honey, there ain't no man worth losin' a friend over," Kara Montez would declare as she primped in her mirror.

"Take it while you can Miss Thing," Elton Paris would chime in from the dressing room next door. "You won't be young forever, Child."

"Every last one of 'em will get you in the end," Kara would giggle, adding more pink glitter to her blond wig.

I wasn't being converted to their lifestyle; I was being schooled in mine. Where I had resisted traditional male training, I was now an eager pupil.

Stormy Lee also shared insights from her world of the pre-op transsexual.

"Drag can be what you are, or it can be merely a means to an end, she'd say in private. "Sweetheart, just remember that nobody loves a fairy when she's forty. Most drag queens are faggots earnin' a living, but a few are real women in male bodies and sequin dresses. You've gotta decide which one you are."

In addition to opening my eyes to gender dysphoria, Stormy ran an ongoing critique of my performances. There were many times when I resented my friend. I idolized her, but I was often vexed by her tenacity. I was annoyed at having my performance pulled apart, analyzed, and redesigned.

Stormy was not only my mentor; she was, in the terminology of our subterranean world, a "married woman." A long-term relationship gave queens extra clout in drag circles, where a "real man" was a highly prized accessory. Stormy took very seriously the role-playing that was typical of gay and lesbian relationships prior to the 1980s. She knew no bounds where her man's creature comforts were concerned and played her subservient role to the queenly hilt. My own mother had not been as deferential. But Mozelle was a working, heterosexual woman with little time for measuring her femininity by male society's subjective scale. My mother wasn't a queen caught in the half-light of gay culture. As a "gay wife" Stormy cooked, cleaned, and waited on her husband, hand and hoof. She was the "femme" in a butch/femme relationship modeled on the heterosexual prototype of the time.

With hindsight I ask, "If that's what a wife is, who wouldn't want one?" in the late 1950s, my greatest fear was that I would never be considered "woman" enough to be a good wife. I had no concept that the terms feminine and independent could be synonymous. Like much of society, straight and gay, I thought a good woman must also be docile and long-suffering. The women I knew, genetic and generic, all agreed that the nurturing of love and romance was woman's most ennobling endeavor. I would believe that for many years to come."

“The Woman I Was Not Born To Be” by Aleshia Brevard (2001)

[jowrites]

When the Dahlia sings Her Song - 6. How to lose a voice.

TW: Mentions of death, physical abuse, mental illness, depression, anxiety, parental death, verbal abuse, mute disorder, mentions of sex, some smut(in future), cursing

Strangers to Lovers. Lee Heeseung x F!OC(I like giving names).

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Jake and Kai were inseparable. The two liked to joke around because they were born as Irish twins and always loved to say they were just twins. Jake was older and always loved to tease Kai about it, always pulling the ‘Hyung card’ and getting what he wanted from his sister, but in the end she always got what she wanted. Kai was extremely protective over Jake, extremely attacked and in a way some would say obsessed. She was a clingy person to those she loved and cared for, but it was really because she was scared to lose any of them.

Kai and Jake remember everything about their parents. Every Friday was game night for them, they always either had chinese or pizza, nothing else. The family would stay up playing games and just laughing and being in each other's presence.  Every Sunday they would have a family dinner and then watch dramas until it was bedtime. Her mother always loved flowers and taught her how to garden from a young age, it was a wonderful hobby they shared together. “Remember, Kai, even the dead flowers deserve to be loved! So don’t forget to love them!” This was their tradition and it went on for years. 

They were 10 years older than their brother. When they were told their parents were expecting, Jake and Kai were ecstatic. Just more to the family and more during family game night. Jake made sure he was the best big brother anyone could ask for. He always went outside and played soccer with Kian, their younger brother. Kai would join them, pretending to be a cheerleader cheering for the Kian team. They always had such fun together and it was the perfect family dynamic.

The night of the accident lives free in Kai’s mind. It was very late, the sun was long gone but it’s not like it was out to begin with as the day was filled with clouds in the sky. The rain was pounding their car and their father was struggling to see the road. Kian was sitting between Jake and her, sound asleep with Jake, her two brothers leaned into one another. Her mother was worried about the rain and encouraged their father to pull over and wait it out, which he dismissed and said they needed to get home to get Kian to sleep. Then it happened.

Kai doesn’t necessarily know what happened, but there were lights and suddenly her father lost control of the car. Before she knew it the car was sinking and being filled with water. 

“Okay, honey don’t panic! Get the kids!”

“The window won’t break!”

“Kian’s stuck!”

“Kai! Jake!”

When she woke up, she watched her brother go back down below the dark abyss and she was fully awake. She quickly gathered herself and ran after him, throwing herself into the water. She didn’t know where she was or where they were but she was just swimming, swimming deep and then she saw the red lights deep in the water. She felt an arm around her torso, dragging her up as she was trying to reach down. Their bodies floated to the top, her coughing noticeable and she noticed Jake was holding her and Kian. The rain was hard and the only light that gave away was the lightning in the sky. Why was this happening?

Jake was performing CPR on their brother for 10 minutes before the paramedic arrived. Nothing seemed to be working and their parents seemed nowhere in sight. Jake moved aside as the EMT’s did their job, trying to revive their brother, who laid there as if she was just asleep. Jake took Kai into his arms, trying to hide her away from the sight, but she couldn’t stop  looking. Before they knew it, the sun was up and she watched as her parents' bodies were being taken from the water. Both of them are dead and cold. They already pronounced Kian dead an hour prior, a small white sheet covering his frame. Her heart shattered in her chest as the shock wore off and she was left with nothing but dread and grief. 

Since that moment, Jake has done his best to take care of them. Caring and making sure she is okay. Kai stopped talking almost right away. She didn’t even start talking to Jake until 5 years after, and he cried when he first heard her voice again. She still rarely speaks to him, but occasionally she will just to him. She remembers that silence she heard when she entered the water, that’s all she can hear. And till this very day she can still hear the cries of her parents, their cries for their children. And the last “I love you!” Before everything went dark. The sound she longs for.

[libidomechanica]

And far, I am with light; for their veiled—

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city. Disparage had been height     daught is ere I heart, impassion, his brief opprest, O     Arethusa. And shady blestones best cheek—the Lee thought:     had made answer met this sinke; and Cressing the Sacrifice?     I bid far, I am

a marble pillow-work confine,     half-grasp.—Not forlorn: then at Scotland, while counterbalances     asseth. Full he folded ewes, adoring passion for     Blancholy, because fountain’s struck my future you remember—     a most notice and

praised in hand. And far, I am     with light; for their veiled—he shining schwa schwa she shrunken in     spring world let me with undernes peeped and flame, full of     love. Then, more, since, be it sell, and fair attend one hangs of     equal might at twenty-

nine Worthiest pebbly many     a hearts strange ere waste free midnight. While down hazy wrists, die,     but Lady of life’s worn and mild made to our fall scanty     bare; like a spelled many fight beautiful end—he roars, all     they were fill your wine

shadowing! Thousand, and who loved him,     which head unto hides my lay for her itself dost help from     me: and paths and gentle Greek, but aye undimm’d by all my     wrath and see it say a slumber flowering to me, Sir,     you save smiles, and boy, human,

the tall, her deare were art is     this unholy bare hue of want through a long bird; for     Blanchisel hitting had, then I may mate, love thee thee in her     mankind, she warm heart’s beauty lies are thee sure I hateful     and the show’d all her hearts

down, to daunted space his honey     bag from fear? I like my sigh dashed and shunn’d them force and a     Judith, lotting other born for loving men; drink the wait     Thus must all the streake; loue it, did lean’d an ease to graceful     smile; till omens heart will

let the term of they were. Whilst flown:     holy and true, I should she? To these are like mine a voice     of your bountiful downcast eyes were we shot me leapt upon     your pretty rings; till leave the curious tear the sun     hath drunken deepest. Find,

the tease us seen lost, by ever,     and round, thy fight woods, ripe October’s English dangerous     god of half a ground, and the keen a little to me     the branches and strike appears of smoke It was a condition.     The liquid looke, thy

should blood, with a cushion. And now     my chilly of cowardice is in reigning charm of which     power to speake lights are could no lifts to fuddle along,     Cyril? Before open it little and dull and path, rock-     solid banish’d, with deep

wood wilt be sure I have this owne     little broken. Turned mine shall them slight: she cries in a flock     of shade. Will human send a hey, and yours: my name only     tempest, and canst now his hand, and lies who stay that house. While     tongues rest, and shrieks—all

deceives a man and modest Alpheus!     That white shows the rest cool as silently smiles at my     Lucasia, shield a box of beauteous Lillie, he’s mouthey     called with eyes are not mine; and to her heart? Of this like there:     the groan or thy beauteous

into the starting how through we     wonder the had rather side sat does stare like first in the     light, than you hast breaks: I fear, cheats use—but at there she heard     not. I have no more avail the lily-shining from Iceland     Queen, as mine he soul.

But every spray; an’ she beds; there     hearts stand all be crowned in conscious. Adieu; and kiss, is frame,     where is nothing mother comes than vile: my need not meet till     I send furrow with a fair climacteric tender     Is penny-fee, an’ young.

[jhebzz]

“HE’S INTO HER”

You need not hunt for other stories to satisfy your craving for different genres. This piece of perfection has it all. Looking for adventure or mystery? Maybe searching for fiction, or teen fiction, instead? Seeking romance, indeed? Discover a different kind of grandeur with He’s Into Her. Escape this violent world and know their story. Discover what perfection really means. This review focuses on Max and Deib only. It’s always TAGURO and SENSUI, after all.

You will meet two characters that’ll leave a mark on your pretty little head, that will surely get into our nerves, and casts that’ll undoubtedly play with our emotions – Taguro and Sensui, two of the best names in Ghost Fighter. I found it very funny. One of a hell unique endearment for lovers. Taguro for Max, given that she’s chubby and a vixen, and Sensui for Deib, since he’s pretty skinny but tall. It seems so childish but cool!

Maxpein Zin Del Valle Moon originally known as Maxpein Zin Del Valle or Max dared to be different. Behind her untouchable personality are brutal pains of the past that remained silent and outspoken. She’s like a mighty tower that protects her family. She came from a prominent family in North Korea – MOON. It is a family with its own beliefs, culture, and traditions too far from the normal. Her actions were in accord with their ideals and norms. They abide by laws that outsiders do not know and will never understand. A filthy rich family with members play their own significant roles – and hers was protection. She does things differently. A lady of few words, a monotonous one to be exact, but the moment her mouth opens and speaks, her words will make you feel a shiver. Her mysteriousness is a hundred percent great. She’s full of surprises – her identity, to be exact. One time she’s a low-profiled scholar living in an apartment with her friends- one of them is Zarnaih Marchessa and does a part-time job to fulfill her living, then issued of having a husband namely Maxwell Laurent Del Valle, who happened to be his soon-to-be a doctor and her older brother, has a younger brother, soon-to-be accountant, Maxrill Won Del Valle, having Randall Echavez as his ex-boyfriend. The fact that she’s born with a golden spoon in her mouth and that she’s from a rich family- the Moon, and so on. Stay warned and watch out because she’ll probably cut your way. Hates explaining herself, and mind you, don’t you dare try to get to know her because according to her famous line, “You’ll die if I tell you.”. With her dangerous aura, you won’t like her when she’s mad. Has an impressive and incredible mind. Totally a genius. Name it, and she knows it. Call her crazy or morbid. She doesn’t care. She doesn’t give a damn about explaining this and that. Tend to shut down when she’s frustrated and be violent when needed.

The great Deib Lohr Enrile or Deib and her SENSUI. He’s the famous battle striker and top bully. A loud and certified mama’s boy. He is a well-known personality and back-to-back-to-back-to-back MVP in his field of expertise – Basketball. He’s a perfect boyfriend material, though he laid his eyes first to Kimeniah Sirvey Gozon– I am glad they did not last and ended up together. He’s a true friend to Lee Roi Gozon and Yakiro Tobi Yanai. He’s sweet as honey and very expressive. He’s a loyalist but a jealous one – he always made himself jealous and tended to make wrong decisions that hurt them both. He’s cute in making a lot of efforts to win her heart. HE HIT HER HEART. He made her feel loved and special. Made her feel different sensations that only he could give. He always has his ways. He has this gayish personality, a man who loves PDA, is total clingy, and is an ultimate nagger. He’s always at her side as she finds her true self. He accepted her and stayed though he seemed not to have a bit of an idea of her true self and her identity seems like a puzzle. He stood and fought for her.

Loving her means yearning when she’s not around. He’s willing to risk all. He loves her so much that he can fight his illness just to stay. Willing to wait for days, weeks, months, and years every time she got away. He’s willing to hear her explanations and accept her every time she gets back. He moved heaven and earth just to reach her. He always chases her, even if it means that he’ll set foot on an alien land. He just loves her.

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Jawny & Wallice – Meow Wolf – Denver, CO – March 14, 2023

Jawny’s North American Tour hit Denver at Meow Wolf, which fit in a little under 500 adoring fans that night. Jawny, also known as Jacob Lee-Nicholas Sullenger, is a singer, songwriter, and producer from Fairfield, California. This date of his tour had been sold out for months, and you can tell everyone was excited to be there. The two shows before had to be canceled because the singer wasn't feeling too great, and the doctor told him he had to rest up. Everyone was relieved to see the show was still going on that night and excitement filled the room. 

First up on the stage was Wallice, aka Wallice Hana Watanabe. She is a 24-year-old singer from Los Angeles, where she was born and raised. She was a perfect fit to open the night. Her band were very energetic and had smiles on their faces the entire time they were playing for the crowd. Some fans even knew her songs and sang them back to her, which she seemed to absolutely love. At the end of her set the fans just could not get enough and wanted her to just play one more song, which of course she kindly declined because she didn't have enough time. 

After Wallice’s set, the preshow playlist began to play old R&B and hip-hop songs and a lot of the audience was vibing with it. After 20 minutes of anticipation, it was finally time for the main act of the night. Janwy comes out with his band and he’s so excited to be there and finally be cleared to perform a show for his fans. He was interacting with the crowd so much and they seemed to love it. Any attention they were getting from him just made them yell his name in excitement.

The first song of the night was “strawberry chainsaw,” the singer’s fourth most streamed song and one of my personal favorites as well as the audiences’. The air in the room was filled with electricity as the set went on. Everyone was so excited, and it was evident in how the whole crowd was jumping and singing along with Jawny. 

As the night went on, the crowd’s energy never faltered. The whole time everyone was dancing and just having the time of their lives. At one point he got the fans to join in on “You Belong With Me,” a Taylor Swift cover, which was a crowd favorite. Jawny also sang “Honey Pie,” another favorite of mine. Seeing it live was truly an amazing experience.

He’s such a good and genuine performer I’d definitely recommend seeing him on this tour if he’s coming to a city near you. There are still a few dates left so grab some tickets while you can!

Courtney Karikka

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[michyeosseo]

#KDRAMAWOMENSWEEK 2018 | Anti-Heroine « Gong Hwa aka Jang Nok Su »

♫ Perhaps, Noksu will never forget the blue mountain ♫

[frankcastleonlyfans]

𝐂𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐏𝐒, 𝐋.𝐏

pairing: lee pace x girlfriend!reader

summary: reader is on her period, and lee tries to comfort her.

words: 466

reblogs, feedbacks and likes are appreciated. i hope you like it!

18+ warning

warnings: none!!

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People say women should get used to cramps, because it's most likely for us to suffer in pain for a couple of days in our intire life than get rid of our uterus. Well, unfortunately, I don't plan to get rid of mine any time soon, but I never got used to the pain of period cramps. In fact, I always get sick when I'm on period, which makes me feel really bad because my boyfriend has to take care of me.

I have never seen Lee complain a single time about me having to spend most of the time in bed a week per month, but I still feel bad. I feel even worst when he's shooting away, and I'm home alone with our dog, Gus, and he feels guilty all the time for leaving.

I couldn't ask for anything more. I had a little bar of chocolate in one hand, and my boyfriend's head resting on my belly while we're watching a movie together. I enjoy having Lee's heavy body on top of me because the pressure always makes the pain more bearable. I also get to play with his hair, curling it with my fingers while he's so focused and entertained with the film.

Lee moved his head to look at me when I whined in pain, clenching my belly and closing my eyes, feeling like I had someone kicking my lower abdomen.

"Are you okay, sweetheart?" He asked frowning, taking my face between his hands.

I just bit my lip and nodded. My eyes were still closed because I felt like if I open them, I might cry.

"Honey, look at me" Lee asked in a whisper. His lower voice full of pity made me feel terrible about myself, "Please Y/N, just look at me please,"

My eyes fluttered open and he sighed as a tear streamed down my face. Lee's big arms evolved my tiny body and I rested my face against his chest, sobbing.

"I'm so sorry you're feeling pain and there's nothing I can do to take it away from you" Lee muttered, his lips against my head, leaving soft kisses at the top of it.

"It's okay," I whispered between the sobbing, "I know you would if you could. It's not your fault I was born with an uterus," I giggled. I could open a smile as soon as I listened to him chuckle.

I lifted my head so I could take a better look at him. Lee smiled and left a small kiss on my lips, and suddenly I wasn't in pain anymore. Maybe I have found the remedy I've needing all this time.

"Can we just cuddle and pretend we're paying attention to the movie?" I asked and he nodded.

"Anything for you, baby girl." Lee smiled.

[bleached-latina]

Monkey Baby?

Summary: After delivering Addison, she makes a weird noise and Amber realizes that she DID have something get passed down of hers to her beautiful baby girl.

TW: mention of birth if that triggers you

Amber had fallen asleep, exhaustion finally getting to her after giving birth and the excitement of seeing her baby girl for the first time.

So Andy sat back in one of the reclining rocking chairs with his baby girl wrapped snugly in her swaddle on his bare chest. She opened her mouth to yawn but what could only be described as a monkey noise came out.

Andy quickly and gently moved her so he could look at her face. She was fine, no signs of distress. But he still walked over to where the bassinet was and placed his baby in there before ringing for the nurse. Within a minute, a nurse had jogged up to the room.

“Is everything alright?” She asked, and Andy picked up Addison.

“I was holding her to my chest and she made a monkey sound when she yawned.” The panic was clear in his baritone voice.

“Let’s take a peek at her. Hello Miss Addison,” the nurse smiled, taking the baby from the new father.

The commotion woke up the new mother.

“Andy? Is Addison alright?” She croaked out before reaching for water, her throat super dry.

“She’s fine mom,” The nurse smiled, still listening to Addison’s heart.

“Dad here just freaked out. Her vitals are perfect,” The nurse told the parents and Andy relaxed.

“Did she make a monkey noise?” Amber asked, a smirk on her lips as she leaned her head back.

“Yeah, did you hear it?”

“No. But my parents and uncles used to tease me and say I was born a monkey and they snipped off my tail because I made monkey noises after my mom had me,” Amber laughed.

“At least something of mine came through,” Amber rubbed her eyes. A knock sounded at the door and when the door opened, Tommy stuck his head in.

“Hi baby girl. How’s our new parents?” He asked before opening the door. Nikki and Taylor followed Tommy with Heather and Ella bringing up the rear with bags of food in their hands.

“We brought food,” Heather announced.

“I already sent Andy to get my first post labor meal,” Amber laughed.

“Are you trying to tell me that you don’t want more food?” Heather raised an eyebrow at her daughter.

“Nope,” Amber smiled, popping the P and grabbing the bag of food.

Everyone picked a spot as they waited patiently for their turn with the new baby. While Tommy held her, everything else ceased around him. All he could see was the crystal blue of her eyes.

“Damn, the Lee genes end with you Pumpkin,” Tommy told her before handing her to Heather.

“Apparently not all of it ended with me,”

“What do you mean sweetie?” Heather asked, finally taking her turn with Addison.

“She made the monkey noise,” Amber answered, bracing herself for the monkey baby jokes.

“So did you snip her tail too?” Nikki laughed teasingly, before walking towards his niece and pressed a kiss to her forehead.

“Yeah, right when they cut the cord, I had Amy snip the tail too,” Amber played along.

“She’s beautiful, baby girl,” Heather told her daughter with a beaming smile. She couldn’t believe she was now a grandmother. Heather gave the newborn to Taylor since she was closest.

“So I’ll give her to you honey and then you can give her to her godmother,” Taylor told her husband.

“Hello darling,” Taylor whispered and Addison closed her eyes before yawning again and making the monkey noise.

“Yeap Tommy you passed on the monkey gene to another generation,” Taylor teased as she handed the newborn to her husband.

“God, I remember holding you like this pipsqueak,” Nikki told Amber, who was just basking in her family getting to meet the newest addition to the Lee and Biersack families.

“I really wish Yaya could’ve met her,” Amber felt tears build in her eyes and Andy wiped them away as they streamed down her cheeks. Tommy walked over and hugged his little girl.

“She’d be so proud of you honey. Addison is beautiful and I’m so proud of you,”

“I just miss her daddy,”

“I know, baby. I miss her too. You might want to bring Addison to meet Pop before his time comes too baby,” he told her, hating the words coming from his lips. But he had to face the facts. His father was getting up in age and he had no idea how long he and Amber had with him.

“Yeah dad. He’s been so excited when I’ve been on the phone with him,” Amber could just picture the elderly man bouncing with excitement for his first great grandchild.

“We’ll go there on our way home from the hospital,” Andy told his wife, rubbing her hand with the pad of his thumb.

“Alright godmother time,” Ella smiled, taking the baby from her dad.

“Hi Addy. It’s Auntie Ella,” she couldn’t help a couple tears from streaming down her eyes.

“I’m so happy you’re finally out of your momma so Uncle Justin and I can spoil you,”

“Not too much,” Taylor warned her. Ella gave her mom an angelic smile and Andy raised an eyebrow at the godmother of his newborn daughter.

“You spoil her, you’re dealing with the tantrums,” Andy laughed. Tommy walked towards Ella, wanting to bask in the presence of his first grand baby.

“I’m so proud of you my love,” Andy told his wife, pressing a kiss to her lips.

“Thank you baby. I couldn’t have done it without you,” Amber smiled, sleep starting to drag her back down again.

“I think you would’ve but you’ll never have to. I’ll always be here,” Andy told her and like that Addison started to cry.

“Andy, can you grab the book and I’ll tell you if it’s a diaper change or a feeding,” Amber asked her husband, moving to sit up.

“What’s the book for?” Ella asked, bouncing Addison until Andy grabbed her.

“The nurses want us to track her diaper changes and her feedings,” Amber explained.

“Alright sweetie, we’ll give you guys some privacy. Let us know if you need us to bring anything,” Tommy told her, grabbing his jacket.

“Actually Tommy, would you mind doing us a quick favor? Would you mind bringing this to have the animals smell?” Andy gave Addison to Amber and grabbed one of Addison’s hats that she wore for a few hours.

“Yeah of course,” Tommy smiled. The couple’s German Shepherd and cats had been staying at Tommy and Brittany’s while Amber was giving birth.

“Do you still have her tail? I’ll have them sniff that too?” Tommy teased and Heather placed a hand on her ex-husband’s arm.

“Come on Tommy, let’s give Andy and Amber time with their baby,” she spoke gently before giving her daughter a kiss on the forehead and giving her son in law a hug.

“Thank you both for making me a grandma,” she smiled before her and Tommy left.

“Your dad was right Amber. If you need anything, call one of us,” Nikki told her while she changed Addison.

“Thanks Uncle Nikki,” she smiled while he kissed the top of her head.

“I still can’t believe she’s finally here,” Andy whispered while Amber began to feed Addison.

“I still can’t believe you fainted,” Amber shook her head, a delicate smile on her lips.

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A Winter Solstice Tale (Part 2)

First is the Spirit of Solstice Past, who is Avatar Roku. He shows her things from the past that challenges what she's been taught about the Fire Nation, her family, and herself.

She gets to experience Air Nomad culture the way Roku did when he was learning airbending. She tries to stay aloof, but she's still a kid, and the pranks and games of the Air Nomads really spark her interest. She offers commentary, tips, and tricks from the sidelines even though no one can see or hear her. She quickly takes a liking to the deviously clever young Gyatsu.

Suddenly, it's gone. She's standing in the aftermath of the Fire Nation's attack on the Air Nomads. No more fun and games. No more smiles and laughter. Nothing but ashes.

"But the Air Nomads," says Azula, "Some of them escaped, right? The boy, Gyatsu, he escaped, didn't he?"

Dead silence from Avatar Roku. Azula's entire worldview is shook.

The next thing Roku shows her is a scene from Ursa's past, when she was a spirited, whip-smart young girl with a bit of a mean streak and a flair for the theatrical. Azula is shocked by how similar they were as little girls, so much so that they even make the same comments when an adult scolds kid!Ursa for something she did.

Roku shows her scenes from Ursa's life in the palace. She notices the schemers and backstabbers around every corner, watching Ursa and waiting (hoping) for her to slip up and say or do the wrong thing. She sees the ways that Ursa stifles herself to keep up appearances.

There are bright moments too. Azula gets to see Zuko being born, red-faced and screaming at the top of his tiny lungs.

"Not much has changed since then," she quips.

Azula sees herself being born, which probably scars her for life.

"She's perfect," coos Ursa, kissing the newly born Azula on the forehead. Azula may or may not have teared up at this.

"What shall we name her?" asks Ozai.

"What do you think of Himiko?"

"Suitable, I suppose," he says. But during the naming ceremony, when Azula gets her official name that's entered into the annals of the Fire Nation, Ozai changes it to Azula.

Roku shows her some of the happy childhood experiences, including ones she forgot. One of her earliest: She's two years old and watching Zuko beam with pride at being the first one to see her firebend.

"Mom, Mom! Azula can firebend!"

"Of course she will, honey."

"No, no! I saw her! Azula, show Mom what you showed me."

"Oh, my goodness!"

Roku shows tiny tot Azula setting fire to various things in the palace, smiling and clapping at the beautiful flames. Ursa catching Azula in the act of setting something else on fire, and unlike the scolding she'd receive in later years, Ursa gently explains that she understands how much fun it is to firebend, and that the fire is indeed very pretty, but it's very important for her to be careful so that she doesn't hurt anyone or burn something important.

"What if you were playing with your fire and hurt Zuko? Or me? Do you think that would be fun?" asks Ursa. Azula, suddenly sad, shakes her head.

"Don't be sad, honey. I love watching you firebend. But you should only do it when a grownup can watch you, OK?"

Watching this, Azula wipes tears she didn't know she'd shed.

Roku shows her more moments from Azula's childhood: sneaking around the palace with Mai and Ty Lee, giggling as they steal sweets from the kitchen or find the secret hentai stash of some long ago Fire Lord; Mai and Ty Lee keeping Azula company when she gets a nasty fever and has to stay on bed rest (Mai brings soup specially made for Azula by her grandmother); Mai teaching her knife-throwing ("Not with your arm; with your wrist, like this."); Ty Lee helping her with acrobatics ("You're thinking too much; you have to trust that your body can do it, like with your firebending.")

What Roku shows Azula is not a monster, but a bright, willful girl with a penchant for mischief.

"I don't know why you're bothering to show me this," Azula says, "It doesn't last."

Roku explains that she wasn't born the person she became and that sometimes, we can get so used to thinking of ourselves one way, that we forget we can be more.

"What more is there for me? I'm a monster. I hurt people. I use fear to control them."

"And where did you learn that?"

Roku shows Azula moments between her and Ozai, including things she's suppressed.

He reveals some of the things that went on during the three years that Azula spent alone with Ozai.

Ozai calls her worthless when she doesn't execute a new firebending move perfectly the first time, or if it doesn't look as though she pulled it off effortlessly. He sneers and walks off when she stumbles during combat training. He calls her a failure and an embarrassment when, due to sheer exhaustion, she gets one point less than a perfect score on a major exam, despite scoring higher than anyone else who's taken the exam. Ever.

We see Azula training and studying from dawn until dusk, sometimes skipping meals or rest, in order to meet Ozai's exacting standards.

Roku shows Azula the time when she asked Ozai for a pet, something cute and harmless to keep her company now that Mai and Ty Lee are gone. She has an entire presentatin prepared to show how caring for this pet will not interfere with her training or studies. Before she can even finish, Ozai shoots her down.

"Caring for some useless, filthy creatures is beneath you. Do not waste my time with this trivial nonsense."

"Yes, Father," she says. She never asks for a pet again.

Ozai calls her pathetic when she cries tears of sadness or frustration. He calls her weak when she apologizes for accidentally hurting a sparring partner. He forces her to watch punishments and executions as a lesson in what happens to enemies and traitors.

Roku shows Azula a moment that she will never forget. After a day when he was particularly vicious toward her, he says, "If I am hard on you, it is because I know you are capable of great things. For those of us who are capable of much, much is expected. Do you understand? Good. It is painful now, but one day, you will thank me for it."

Roku shows the day of Sozin's Comet, when Ozai crowns himself the Phoenix King and leaves her behind while he goes to set the Earth Kingdom ablaze.

Azula watches this with dawning horror and grief.

"I would've burned down the world for him, and he just threw me away like I was nothing. I did everything, became everything, he wanted me to, but he never—he never loved me."

Roku puts a comforting hand on his shoulder as she weeps silently. When she can't cry anymore, she looks up, and Roku is gone.

To be continued...

[misspiperlee]

Piper huffed, holding her phone farther away from her face so as not to let her client, who was being unusually demanding today, hear her. “My darling, I promise you,” she said in her most honeyed voice, “we are going to get you this role. You were born to play it and I was born to get you it. Just remember that you’re super talented and deserve this- just like moi is super good at finding talent, such as yourself, and elevating them to stardom. Ciao for now! Mwah mwah!” 

She clicked the “end call” button with glee. It wasn’t easy being on top, nor was it any easier trying to get others to the top. But that was what Piper did as head of Miss Lee’s Talent Agency, and as hard as it was, she loved her job. That’s why she sprang from her office when she heard the front door to her agency open. She dusted herself off before entering the lobby, “Welcome to Miss Lee’s Talent Agency, where you’re the greatest star- oh! It’s you. What are you doing here?”