#honestly i could make another one of these just about what femme can mean to different folks

[moonlightsapphic]

I learned a lot today from Obviously Queer’s video essay “FEMME: Lesbian History, Identity, Politics and Invisibility” and femmebis’ “The “Lesbian-Only Term” Myth: A Comprehensive Historical Essay on ‘Butch’ and ‘Femme’ ”.

[jasminerva]

“does Nagumo have kinks and if so what are your favs for him 🎤”

So I was asked the above by Lao (@herringstrait)... And I thought I'd just list off a few off the top of my head, but in the end I had enough for a full post lmaooo (and then some - I added more and it just got away from me orz)

Welp... here ya go!

Nagumo x gn!Reader (w/ a few femme-gendered parts as indicated by ♀) Want more? Check out my SakaDays Masterlist! 🍑 Comments, reblogs, tags appeachiated~! 🍑

🎤🧐

mic check one-two (takes in a deep breath)

Nagumo x Reader NSFW headcanons

I feel like Nagumo would prefer to be in control even when he "relinquishes" it lol he wants to show you who's boss (it's you - if you really want you can even make him cry and drool and beg for it) he'll (learn to) crave it 😏 like a special once in a while treat. Honestly, he convinces himself he needs control because that's secure & safe to him. When he gives you control, that's basically saying he feels super safe with you! And if that ain't the sexiest thing ever, I don't know what is.

I personally don't feel like he's got any extravagant kinks like rope play or whips or wax / pain play (he'll try everything once, and he'll do stuff that you like for you)

Now, that doesn't mean he won't go crazy if you wrap yourself up like a present with your/his favourite-coloured ribbon! Or - better yet - let him wrap you up!

Food play for sure tho. One of the smut fics I have drafted up for Valentine's Day involves chocolate in lieu of clothing lmao

Nagumo likes little challenges cuz he's childish like that - throw him a bone every once in a while. Dare him to keep the cuffs on no matter what (god knows he can break outta anything). Let him get creative in stripping you and he'll surprise you (hint: it involves teeth).

I do think he'd like it a lot if you call him "good boy" - he likes praise. Nagumo will for sure reciprocate.

I think he really likes jiggly parts lol so he'd get mesmerized and purposely slam harder and maybe slap it a bit just to see it wiggle lmao (also them slapping sounds mmmph)

Mirror sex

Orgasm control lol but not too crazy he's a soft guy (for the most part). Mostly, he's a sappy romantic and he wants to cum isshoni together with you, so he'll do his darndest to get you off at the same time. In reality, you could probably control him better than he thinks he can control you.

He can be a little possessive but it's not to possess rather than the feelings behind it. If you time it well and tell him you're "his" he could very much cum prematurely 🤣 (he just wants you to know you're his and he's yours okay???)

I also have a smut that I don't know when it'll be released but… it involves an annual hunting excursion in the wilderness lmao (where YOU are the prey - so yeah) [Lao mentioned the face he made while threatening Yotsumura so I HAD TO INCLUDE IT]

(hack-coughs)

(takes in another breath)

Nagumo would be amazing at role play (dude is a master of disguise) but at the end of the day all he wants is to be himself / vulnerable and with you 🥹

I shared this before where Nagumo keeps his eyes open for everything lmaooo his FOMO is bad. You have to get used to when you accidentally peek while he's kissing or you're trying to cover your O face - nope, he will pry those hands off your face or lean very forward - he wants to see it ALL with them big boba eyes.

Just like his eyes are made for eyeing, his fingers are made for fingering. You can act all cocky and crack a joke about how his knuckle tattoos will wear out so much faster at the rate he's going, but he'll just tell you, "worth getting them retouched if I get to touch you like this" as he nearly sends you to heaven (showing off the real reason he has his gold assassin license).

On that note, he's not afraid to probe (literally and figuratively) you, even while you're already stuffed. "Y-Yoichi, t-too much... I don't think that'll fff—" "Shh... don't worry, baby, you can take it all."

[♀] For my womb-sisters, I can see him pressing down on your lower abdomen while he's thrusting into you, feeling you from the outside-in (inside-out?), driving you crazy. Hit that g(uaranteed good time)-spot-on accuracy.

He knows how to use his tongue too. You might even prefer it because it means he'll shut up for once, but ultimately you love his silver tongue-in-cheek as much as you love his other appendages. I think he still prefers leaving his mouth free for kisses and cracking wise.

[♀] Bonus food play, he will kill two birds with one stone by taking in some sugar-free candy or mint beforehand to eat you out. We know how much he loves his sweets after all~ ;) plus the minty tingle would keep things quite literally fresh. (warning: don't mix actual sugar with the vajayjay — not worth it)

Look up BJ blast pop rocks and tell me that won't be the best way to get back at him.

He loves it when you tangle your fingers in his hair, hold him close while he ravishes you. He keeps his hair messy for a reason (wants you stuck for as long as possible).

[♀] Just like he has the bobas, if you have the boobas, he loves to motorboat tease them and rest his face between them (even outside of R18 times). There's something about how nipples perk up that he feels real satisfied about.

[♀] Holding onto them while he's hitting that spot? The peaks between his tattooed fingers and feeling the jiggly movement under his palms? That's one of the rare times he has difficulty concentrating on your face.

Aftercare

This can be pre-/post-/in between, but he likes to trace your hip or stomach or other part with his fingers. Maybe solve some math puzzles like a nerd (scenario included below).

He'll clean you up really well. Maybe too well. Don't take up his offer to clean you up in the shower or bath if you're short on time.

I can see him as the big spoon, or even little spoon. Best would be the pillow-talk position, where he just holds you right against him, face-to-face, eye-to-boobage.

Whatever position, just picture him holding you with his fingers interlocked.

He'll tangle his legs with yours and lock you tf in. Need to go to the bathroom? Best of luck. Dude is a clingy Cancer.

He might wax poetic, saying something cheesy like "we fit together like puzzle pieces" or "you're a problem I'm still trying to solve" - feel free to bonk him. Then you'll have some mandarin oranges to share!

Nuzzles & cuddles & kisses, oh my!

He'll fall asleep with his chin resting on your head, or nuzzled against your chest. (omg Memi @toyboxterror shared this art by ivy_rt_ w/ me which is perfect)

Extra for those familiar with cloud8.

re: hunter-prey play - you don’t particularly like nature, but you’ll do it just to outlast him as long as possible (you can be stupid competitive and it reminds you of JCC times) - plus maybe you like the adrenaline spike haha. He makes a convincing predator.

re: orgasm control / rare dom time - you will get some use out of your kill heels after all (psst don’t tell Tenju).

If you’re into consensual somno - the perk is that you don’t have to do anything PLUS it makes Nagumo feel trusted and desired and that gets him off. WIN-WIN & WINK-WONK.

Nagumo may hate his stuffy work wear, but you've convinced him the necktie is a must. To tug on, motioning him to come hither, pulling him into a kiss, he'll pin you down between his arms and deepen it. It becomes ceremony after a long day's work. (thank you Memi for reminding me!!!)

Extra (forgot I had this drafted in Oct - figured I'd include it here)

SakaDays headcanon: Nagumo “I solve Sudoku puzzles in my downtime” Yoichi does rapid mental math in his head and most likely even uses his fingers (wink-wonk).

shared in the ch1 end notes of c o n t r a i l s (Nagumo x F!Reader ***nsfw smut*** fic). [tumblr post link if you wanted to like + reblog]

Probably traces Sudoku on your bare skin, too. The nerd. Here's a smol scenario of a time when you first noticed:

(You and Nagumo are snuggled up) Nagumo: (hand lingering on your hip, he starts tracing patterns on your skin) You: Are you playing tic-tac-toe or something? Nagumo: Hm? Nope. You: (after a few more movements, realizing) Seriously? Sudoku? Nagumo: Yeah, well, I left the book in my other coat, but may as well continue where I left off~ You: Wow. Is that where your mind immediately goes? Lucky me. Nagumo: (slowly moves mathematical ministrations towards your core, purring) Feeling lucky now~?

[butch-with-a-deep-voice]

Long-Distance date/bonding ideas I've learned while making it work with my femme

Streamed Movie Night: Discord has a function that let's you stream video and gaming alike! I'd recommend Nitro because otherwise stream quality is gonna SUCK (and you need to do some weird fiddling to get services like Netflix to work) but you can enjoy movie night with your boo

Tabletop Simulator: If you both have about $20, and a computer with even a low budget graphics processor, this program is invaluable. The base games are neat but the real trove is in the Steam Workshop. Mod makers upload hundreds of boardgames from Catan to Azul to outright heavy ones like D&D and Warhammer. My femme and I now have a weekly boardgame night (she actively challenges me at strategy games and it makes me so happy to have a partner that does 🥰)

Coffee shop dates: Go to a place where the shop has wifi (or you have a really good data plan with your phone), pop your headphones in, and just video call. I promise you, there will be more people there who find it sweet than those who find it weird.

Spotify Jam Sessions: I don't know about other music apps, but we both have spotify and it now has a function that let's you invite others to a shared listening session. Music is really important to both my femme and myself, and the ability for us to literally listen at the same time and talk about the music is truly quite lovely.

Parallel crafting time: Admittedly, I'm Neurodivergent as hell, and parallel play baseline is big for me. But pop on a videocall and make some crafts together. Bonus points if you get similar materials and share what you've made together

Call every night: no seriously, even if you both are busy the entire day and can't talk, call for at least a half hour or so to round your day off. That lack of certain forms of intimacy means you need to be really on top of other forms. On top of affirming love for one another. If you're trying to make long distance work long term, calling to just. Be with eachother is so important.

Schedule Time: As an extension of the above, just because you're calling every day, doesn't mean ensuring you have dedicated time for eachother isn't important. I'm talking like. An afternoon/evening once a week type thing. Be together for a long period of time while you can't be physically together.

Technology has honestly made what I always thought impossible for myself feel possible. The advent of videocalling my femme every day helps so much of the potential pitfalls that could have happened, and the best part is its more or less free (I pay for discord nitro but I digress). Don't get me wrong I'm having my hard days still. The inability to hold her when I want to take care of her is particularly bad. I show care and love through things like physical touch and food so much. But getting creative, and being consistent have really made this feel possible and sustainable until we get to the "next stages" bridge.

If you have ideas you found fun/helpful please toss em in the replies, tags, etc. Always open to more date ideas with my girl 💕

[vigilskeep]

Can we hear about the soap opera style second de riva?

oh sure

she’s the human mage daughter of the previous talon de riva and she’s also illario’s arranged married wife

viago killed her dad in order to replace him. she’s not angry abt this, actively. (she doubts anyone who had met her father could be angry about it.) but there IS underlying tension, how could there not be? viago could have killed her too, and instead has in some ways become like a brother to her. but in another world where he hadn’t gotten there first, house de riva might have been hers

illario did not want to marry her, she was picked out for him by caterina, to strengthen their house ties. to illario, it reads like an insult: she’s not a match meant for a future first talon, she was passed over and disinherited in her own house. she’s also a mage, which despite all caterina’s claims of it being a new era under the new divine and house dellamorte moving with the times, he suspects would be used against their branch of the family inheriting anything. he didn’t even want to get married in the first place, because he’s a chronic flirt here for a good time. and nobody is dragging lucanis back from tevinter to make him get married like he’s a pawn you can afford to sacrifice

his dissatisfaction means he continues to be a chronic flirt, with other people, after they’re married. she’s professionally humiliated, which is as good as personally humiliated for a crow; charm and beauty were skillsets of hers, she can’t even win over her own husband when it’s required to maintain the alliance in treviso, and everyone knows it? viago’s furious because it’s an insult to house de riva’s honour, too. (he’s being a protective big brother. which would be nice, if he could express it or indeed if he had acted on some of those instincts before agreeing to her being married off. read the contents of these brackets in teia’s voice.) all this is why she is still referred to as a de riva, because she kind of went back home to soothe tensions but without actually getting a divorce

she was obviously normal and rational about all of this, as she always is, a good, composed, collected crow, who has never lost her cool in training or on contracts or with her own father’s murdered body before her very eyes. she would like to clarify that the above events had no effect on her eventually lashing out at a certain antaam patrol and setting several things both metaphorically and very literally on fire. unrelated.

lucanis, on his return, immediately knows exactly what illario was like about it and is intensely mortified on behalf of his family, because he is a man with Romantic Standards. she thinks this is endearing and restrains herself from playing on his heartstrings about it too often. the deeply obvious thing to do here is have them fall in love for drama, that would be the maximum soap opera move, and to be clear i DO think it’s funny for illario to suddenly decide he does actually want his wife as soon as lucanis wants her, but honestly i just want lucanis to have one decent family relationship and this is how i can make that happen by force of will. and now not only is illario’s own wife siding with lucanis in the power struggle, but lucanis is replacing illario with her! we actually don’t need romance to make this deranged

thus i’m still debating the most amusing option on the veilguard team to sweep illario’s wife off her feet. i would love to see where almost any of them are going with this. emmrich, for example. and davrin with lucanis’ sister-in-law is obviously amazing (though i actually don’t think he’d go for a wealthy married human woman, i think he’s got more sense and/or self respect 😭). ultimately neve absolutely has a noir detective’s prerogative to win over a femme fatale with a rich husband who doesn’t treat her right so she would get dibs

[moonlight-tmd]

Hey, sorry if I'm bothering you or anything. But I am curious, like what would happen if Bumblebee is a femme (female), and what are his teammates and crushes reaction to that?

Well, that's interesting.

There could be two takes on that, either she is a femme by forging or some freak incident with the allspark shard happened and turned him genderbend.

In my mind Cybertronians are aliens so they don't really need to represent themselves as male/female. I'd say the population is about 2/3ds of them having binary pronouns and expressions while the rest just does their own thing. Of couse, while this is a fairly common thing, that doesn't mean where aren't bad things like sexism or xenophobia (mostly towards warframes cuz majority are Decepticons).

If you're in a bad part of town, you might stumble into these types of bots. Minibots aren't takes as seriously as a normal civil frame would, but the lower in morale you go you'll find that these shady folks often treat minis as lap pets.

If Bee was a femme by forging she'd have a hard time staying out of trouble considering most mechs tried to harass her over he frame. Even if she wasn't the most femme-looking and curvy it was quite obvious she was in fact a femme. Most often than not mechs would comment on her big chest kibble.

Wasp was one of those mechs, he'd constantly try and grope the fellow mini and try to intimidate her to be his sparkmate ut it never worked. He thought she was playing tough but in reality she just wanted away from this creep. Thankfully Bulkhead turned out to be different; the mech tried to approach her many times and she just thought he wanted to hit her up too. Took a while and a Bulkhead defending her from Wasp to realize he just wanted to befriend her.

In case of crushes, Bee had 3; Longarm from the times of boot camp. Prowl from their times on earth and Blitzwing who she inconveniently found attractive during their battles.

I don't think it would be much different form how Bee would be treated as a mech. I mean, Longarm was essentially a school buddy, they got along well, maybe something blossomed and it only became something serious once on earth.

Prowl is the exact same, he'll treat Bee the same way he'd treat him as a mech. But I can see few folks teasing him about having no sense of personal space when he and Bee are bickering. Who knows, maybe one day after a much heated fight between the two, Prowl will wake up and realize Bee has been on his mind all the time and is not as annoying as he makes himself believe.

Blitzwing- honestly, he'd be smitten the first time he sees her. He's been trying his luck in the Legion but everyone always turns him away, mostly due to his condition. But then he sees this tiny cute femme with sharp glossa and visible enjoyment for odd things and he's all over her. He'll flirt in the middle of the fight and pretend they're dancing and not trying to off one another. He'll bring her flowers and stolen objects he'd think she might like, Bee is so tired of this adorator but at the same time she really enjoys it. The others are just annoyed at his courting.

If Bee was somehow turned femme on Earth it would be pretty funny. I've actually had an idea a while back on this.

They were trying to reach the shard but it was one of the unstable ones; it caused everything around to go haywire and, as one of the weirdest things it did, it transformed various machinery into other things. Like forklifts shifted parts to become ice cream machines spurting oil, that sort of thing. They managed to get it but of course, Bee has been hit in the process. he woke up and only after the others saw him he realized what happened. He was a tad more curvy than his mech self, his subspace was now hanging from his hips and he has door wings. His horns were a bit thinner and longer and his peded gained heel struts much like Prowl had. Even his voice shifted to be on a higher note.

At first he was freaking out but over time he got used to it, maybe even like it. The others were sure surprised and had to adjust but there wasn't much issues. Well, except Optimus who seemed a tad uneasy at the sight whenever they spoke.

I would say Prowl was definitely surprised at the sudden change, more surprised when he caught himself being nicer towards Bee in general. They were working on a way to reverse this back since Bee seemed to want his old look back but overtime Prowl noticed Bee changing his demeanor when speaking on the topic. One time he approached the scout when he was sitting alone on the roof and asked what was wrong. Bee then asked him if how he'd feel if he stayed like this instead of going back to his old self.

Prowl didn't expect that but said that if he wants to stay like this he should do it. Bee confessed he has grown to enjoy being a femme, he was glad the one he cared about the most was supportive of it. Ratchet understood too, he just wished Bee would've told him sooner so he wouldn't have spend a good amount of their resources preparing for the frame upgrading. And so Bee officially became a femme and even switched his pronouns to be she/her. It was a short while before everyone got the hang of it and all was good. Well, except Sentinel who now not only harassed Bee cuz he hated him but also was being a creep. But except for that all was good.

Blitzwing's reaction would be when they are already dating and Bee shows up wearing a blanket, covering it up as him being cold. At some point Blitz accidentally rips the blanket off and sees Bee's frame. He wasn't sure why Bee was so nervous about it, those were great upgrades! Then he heard how he got those "upgrades" and it made sense. He still loved Bee and didn't care one bit about his new look- well, except the door wings, he couldn't get enough of them and knowing all the common sensitive spots for flight frames he had one hell of a fun time watching Bee be all flustered and fluttery when he touched them. When Bee showed up to another meeting with much more confident attitude he knew something was up. Bee told him about the plans to bring back his old look so he was quite surprised to hear that was scrapped and Bee was a she now. Of course he gave her extra loving that night and maybe they discovered a few new things about her anatomy. Blitz certainly enjoyed every bit of his new-old Bee.

Idk is Longarm/Shockwave would care much. Longarm is more on the mech expression, Shockwave has nb vibes with he/him pronouns. He'd support Bee during his journey of coping and discovery and he'd be happy when Bee finds his new self that he's happy with. i'm not really sure what to write here tbh.

And that's it. Hope you liked it!

[cerezasefimeras]

Busy Woman

WC: 2.2k words. FEM!RAN x f!reader , nsfw ⸺ You cannot keep allowing a woman to control your life, to mess up your plans last minute cause she has the desire to see you. You are a grown woman with your own life, boundaries, and things to get done. You cannot keep her from messing up your organisation and you when she fucks you- oh, she sent a message! CW: fem!reader, genderbend, this is ran haitani fem, wlw content, lesbian, reader is desperate for ran… like down bad, like BAD. Imspired of busy women by sabrina carpenter, lesbian sex, fingering, oral > fem receiving duh, "friends" with benefits to "lovers", ran is a slightly a mean dom, reader is a pillow princess, femme lesbian!ran, (implied) femme lesbian!reader, vulgar language, praise and degradation, a bit of angst, spanking, and ideas of tattoo branding, spitting. English is not my first language. cherri note: I LOVEEE how this one turn up, maybe ill turn femme lesbian!ran into a mini series.

You and your friends were having such a nice night, you guys were walking out of a restaurant after a nice dinner full of laughter and joy as you guys made your way to the club. To be honest, you needed to get out and allow your thoughts to leave the idea of a certain woman. Oh, she had occupied your mind rent-free in a way your life became outside down the second she became apparently so busy she couldn't be found anywhere.

It pains you, really, you needed her like you needed air. Meeting her was one of the best and worst things that could have ever happened to you… she knew where, how, and what to touch, whisper, lick, and squeeze to make you tremble and squirm under her. She knew how to call you to make you obedient, needy and eager for her. She was your everything, but lately, she has been so busy, so distant, and it was killing you.

You let out a sigh, trying to focus on the happy chatter your friends have going on, it's been a while since you went out with them… between work, personal lives and a certain tall woman in your bed you haven't seen them because she became a plague, a desire, a priority in your day to day life. Fuck, you need to stop thinking about her. 'So… I hope I can get a good fuck tonight,' you comment to your friends, and they laugh, encouraging you to achieve that, and even some saying they hoped for the same for themselves. 'You do need a proper fuck, y/n, you've been so weird lately…' one of them replied, and it make you realise you haven't been as cautious with your affair as you thought you were. You laugh it off and tell her your job is making you go insane.

The only thing making you go insane is that she is not asking you out yet.

I mean, it's not like you need her… It's just… it would be nice if she did ask you out, make you her girlfriend, then her wife, her partner forever… you know, it would be a nice gesture; that would be better than the idea that maybe she was with another woman right now. Oh my god. What if she was with another bitch and that's why she hasn't been seeing you?

'Girl, you're making that sour face again; what the fuck are you doing at your job?' Another one asks, and you giggle dramatically, saying, 'New bullshit that I need to do as teamwork, they're incompetent'. Okay, the only incompetent was you for not having the ovaries to tell that girl you wanted her bad. But whatever. It is fine. You don't need her and her chaotic life in your lot. Of course not.

As you guys get closer to the club, the chatters turn into past experiences, anecdotes and some fun recollections of the youth. And yet, somehow, your brain can make her fit those thoughts, although she was never a part of them. You cannot be this desperate.

Honestly, yes you could, and maybe even the universe was tired of you and your internal whining cause and soon you guys were on the line of the club, close together to feel some warmth, gossiping about some loud coworker one of your friends has the miss fortune to share so many days with… your phone rings, but its, not your usually tone its the one you specifically set-up for her, to know when she was calling you obviously to make her wait as she does with you… and not because you were tired of getting your hopes up when it rang or sent a notification, and it wasn't her.

A smile creeps out of you, and although you try to keep collected and sound casual not only to her but also to your friends, the most cheerful tone can be heard when you answer with a 'yeah, hello?' 'Ah, my princess, I've missed that lovely voice of yours. You free? Wanna see you.' You giggle as a reply, waving goodbye to your friends without explaining anything to them, not even with the strange look they're all giving you. You turn around and start walking back home in a hurry. 'Hi, Ran! So happy to hear from you… I'm actually just getting home from a night out, so yeah, all free for you. What a fucking liar you are. But you didn't care, not now that she was back in your life.

'Perfect, just so perfect, baby... I'll be there, yeah? Wait for me all doll up' Happiness just runs like a rush inside your body. You mute the phone call to giggle and act like a teenage girl in love, although you're in public, and once you're calmer, you unmute the call. 'Yes, of course… I've missed you, you know?' 'Missed you too. See you in a bit.'

And with that, you rush back home, putting your phone in your purse, feeling so excited. She was back, finally, she said she missed you, fuck. Fuck. You may faint right now from the excitement. You get home, stumble up the stairs of the apartment building and start making everything a little bit more pretty, more organised; you also get on some lilac lingerie and pretend you were obviously not expecting her to come back one day… yeah.

The bell rings, and soon after, a message from her arrives: 'Open, baby.' You scream in your empty apartment, absolutely delighted this is actually reality, and open the door. Waiting patiently for her to appear up the stairs, for her to open the door and see you half-naked, for simply to be able to breathe her same air.

'Ah, my beautiful girl' she says, first thing when she discovers you waiting eagerly for her, the tall woman closes the door to your apartment and walks towards you, the sound of her heels and the beat of your heart in sync as she gets closer and closer, until her tall model figure is towering over you and you almost forget how to breathe. She was breathtaking, the most incredible piece of artwork turned human, a goddess pretending to be one of us. She holds your chin up and softly kisses your lips. 'Did you miss me much, doll?'

Ran wasn't stupid; she knew you were desperate, needy, and eager for her like a puppy in heat, but she liked you that way. Oh yes, she adored you actually. She liked pretty and needy things, and you just so happened to meet the criteria perfectly. You nod repeatedly, and she giggles, kissing you again, but with more passion this time; her hands wander and touch your well-known curves, and she leads you both to your bedroom.

She carries you in her arms easily, not struggling at all, as she lays you down on the bed, her hand running down from your belly to your left thigh, squeezing it. 'Fuck. You look so fucking good in lilac princess. So pretty for me.' You moan in reply, spreading your legs o so slightly to allow her a perfect view of your - already - gleaming pussy over the thin, semitransparent fabric of the lingerie. 'What a slut, that's what I love about you', she praises taking a slight step back to get rid of her gorgeous attire made up from a fur jacket, and a black corset as a top that allowed a perfect view to her boobs and a tight mini skirt that became the perfect invitation to her tattooed thighs. Fuck, wasn't she perfect?

Once the outside pieces of clothing are all across your wooden floor, she reveals her underwear or lack thereof; wearing only a thong as a bra would have ruined the outfit's vibe.

She gets back into the bed, crawling sensually towards you, and you trail backwards, feeling like some sort of prey that is about to be devoured by its predator. She holds your cheeks harshly with one of her hands, pulling you closer to her face and licking your lips with a smirk on her face. 'Now, now... don't run away from me, lil mouse. What's the fun of that, huh, baby?'

Your words attempt to leave your lips, but you're so infatuated by her presence that you can only Sutter to her entrainment; her hand travels from your face to your hair, pulling it harshly and making you whine loudly as she takes advantage of your sudden distraction by have her other hand play with your nipples. Teasing them over the fabric and laughing, amazed when they get hard, poking up, desiring for more. 'You're always so reactive to me, no one else can fuck you properly, now can they?' She teases, and you nod to confirm her theory; there was no one like Ran, and no one was able to make you feel what she did.

Ran smiles at you, leaving wet kisses across your neck as she shifts you to have your chest lying down on the bed, your face pressed on the pillow, and your back arched to leave a perfect view of your ass. 'Don't worry baby, I'm here to fuck you as you need. Good little princesses de serve a proper fuck, right?' You nod again, feeling on edge, untouched; your eyes focus on the figure of Ran, and although she smiles at you, loud smack land in your ass, making you scream loudly enough for her smile to get bigger. 'Now, I know I have been a bit absent, but you haven't forgotten how I liked you? Right, bitch?' 'N-no, no mistress, I'm sorry' 'Atta girl. So, you do deserve a proper fuck, my slut?' 'Yes!, mistress, and I deserve it. I need it, I need it so bad, please.' As a reward for your begging, she kisses your forehead while the same hand that smacks you leaves a soft massage on your ass cheek.

She leaves your sight soon after, moving fully behind you and taking away the lovely lilac panties you wore for this occasion. Savouring her lips while watching the tiny thread of wetness connected directly to your heat. 'My, my... What a treat I have for tonight', she speaks before leaving kisses across your cunt, humming with the flavour of your juices. Ran starts from one extreme to the other, ending in your clitoris and performing the magic of spelling her name with her tongue, making you decide to hold on to the pillow, moaning loud enough for her to know you enjoyed every second of attention she was giving you.

'Mistress.' You squirm when she starts to slurp your clit as two of her fingers make an entrance into your wet and needy cunt, stretching you open. Her fingers began slow and soft; with the stimulation of your clit you couldn't ask for more; maybe it was because you were too into Ran to moan loud and dumb with anything she did. Minutes later, your hips start to bounce back on Ran's long, slim fingers, needing more from her, and once Ran realises that she knows she has you where she wants you. She inserts a third finger and starts to move them more rapidly, moving her mouth away from her clit and going between your thighs, leaving marks and bites; your sounds get louder by the second she gets to play with you.

'Fuck... it's dripping down your thighs, and you haven't even cum yet... you're so fucking perfect for me, lil slut', She licks clean the trail of juices from your thighs, giving you another loud smack and making your eyes roll back. 'Ran… mistress- mistress, I wanna cum' you ask, feeling your climax already building up and not wanting to have one ruined, at least not right now, you beg between moans and sobs, being able to hear how Ran's fingers fuck in and out of you due to how wet you were. 'Mmm... really, doll? So quickly... you're happy that I've missed your pretty cunt. If not, I would have be using you for longer.' 'Thanks for being so- oh!~ understanding mistress!' You squeeze the pillow between your hands, feeling your body tense up as your lover's fingers do magic inside of your and her other hand pinches your clit with the perfect amount of pain to make you let out a whinny loud moan cumming all over her hand and wrist, getting her soaked with juices that she licks happily watching your body have little twitches post orgasm.

'Ah... I do need to make you fully mine.' She teases, turning your body around again, holding your legs together while she observes your face with mockery. 'You're... the perfect bitch, you'll make a good wifey and a toy, don't you think?' You whimper a weak 'yes' that gets almost muffled by soft sobs; Ran gets closer to your face, licking your smeared mascara and tears before spitting it back right your check. 'Okay then, wifey, after I'm done fucking your pretty brains out tonight, maybe we can talk about how cute you'll look with a tattoo of my name on your thigh... and also how pretty you'll look in a leash... fuck, I should have bought one.'

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤcreds to: @cerezasefimeras

[katyspersonal]

Fandomry tips on hcs.

I've met another user that was afraid to share their cool Maria story ideas out of fear that they'll get shunned as "hating masculine lesbians", so, just a few things:

1) No matter how popular a headcanon is, it doesn't become canon. Fandoms do not abide by majority rule in which you could never have an unpopular idea.

2) With LGBT+ headcanons, the less you justify them - the better. The rude minority might think that Maria "has" to be a lesbian because her hunter outfit resembles male Knight garb and she cares about a female friend, and everyone who disagrees "lack media literacy" and "has bias". What is it trying to say? That bi or straight women could not look masculine? That the only reason a woman would ever dress masculine is to be the 'man' for her femme? Or that women could not care about other women deeply unless they're attracted to them? Even "historical accuracy" excuse is obsolete, because Bloodborne clearly doesn't abide by real world's history Victorian antics. Female vicars/doctors/hunters and people of color being equal to white people is a dead give-away to that.

It is even more confusing with Malenia, who doesn't even look masculine. Not feminine, either. She looks like 'just a person'. So what makes her "canonically a lesbian"? The fact that she is a strong fearsome warrior? Why? Because bi or straight women would not fight but instead latch onto some guy to protect them...?

You see what I mean. Justifications for why an interpretation HAS to be one thing and not the other only make things worse and push people into very narrow, at times outright offensive stereotypes. 'She is this because I think so' is a good enough reason - and that's where you can see that someone else's thoughts will be JUST as valid!

3) Headcanons and fandomry are not activism. No minority will be effected just because in some fandom people ship some character in some ship. EVER. These things are for FUN, lesbians aren't fairies within which one dies every time you say "I don't headcanon X character as a lesbian". What do you think will happen if many, or even majority of people like bi (or even straight) headcanon instead of lesbian? A life essence of a whole demographics will be dried out?

4) "It is not that hard" is not an argument. It is never anyone's business why someone would deny a very inviting opportunity for a headcanon. Freedom and autonomy is the VERY base of having fun in the fandom. In fact, very often, it is this same toxic attitude what makes average users NOT want to celebrate a strong female character as a lesbian. Because they feel like they had no choice! And many people possess contradictory spirit, that might make them choose something as affirmation that they won't be mocked into thinking a certain way.

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Honestly, it is NOT okay that here and there people have to feel afraid to do something as innocent as to share their ideas, and might just end up leaving an interesting character aside because loud and rude people scared them away. Do not let a character you like get "claimed" by some group just because they were the meanest, do not hide your awesome ideas but instead post them and TAG them. Fandoms are free spaces, not a middle school where the popular girls set the trends and decide who gets to be bullied.

And if some people can no longer enjoy a fandom or a character because other people got a different headcanon? Well, then they were not built to be in fandom spaces to begin with.

[floatingcatacombs]

More Yuri About Adults To Accompany Your Seasonal Festivities

12 Days of Aniblogging 2024, Day 12

Happy Christmas and Hanukkah!

Per usual, I will close out this year’s blogging by going over some yuri I read this year starring adults.

Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko!

It’s always surprised me how unpopular Sal Jiang is amongst yurigoers. This is a woman who knows exactly what she wants in her stories and executes on it every single time. The thing in question just happens to be masochism. The pain in her work exists on a spectrum from physical to emotional, and honestly the emotional side feels like even more of a punch to the gut than watching women punch each other in the gut.

That all said, Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko is the first time Jiang plays her shtick for laughs, and to great effect. Hiroko is comically self-torturing, the kind of work-closeted lesbian who has developed insane control issues because of this and freaks the hell out at the mere thought of PDA. So naturally, her work kouhai, Ayaka, is a silly little femme who is head-over-heels for her and really wants to show it. Unfortunately, Hiroko thinks Ayaka is straight, and just being overly familiar and close because straight women are like that sometimes. A comedy of errors ensues that leaves Hiroko in her own personal lesbian hell. It’s fifth-dimensional lesbian kriegspeil, and it’s great! The usual Sal Jiang emotional violence is played for slapstick, and she’s a natural at it. There's even honest-to-god dyke drama at a lesbian bar! The emotions depicted in this manga feel very real, even as exaggerated as it all is. We need so many more stories about punished lesbians who will sooner eat their own organs than make a move if there’s even a hint of ambiguity. It’s such a fun character type to poke at.

This manga actually got a TV drama adaptation earlier this year, which I’ll have to check out! I hope she got paid plenty for it.

Wicked Spot

That’s right, we’re double-dipping with Sal Jiang manga this year. Wicket Spot is a new series that's currently being published under a new LGBT imprint from Kadokawa. It’s worth it for the “Oh yeah, I’ve been getting into Wicked” jokes you could make alone. This one's another comedy series, and I’ve liked what I’ve read so far. There’s plenty you can do with the modern-day-witches premise, and we'll just have to see how far she's willing to go this time around. The character faces are incredibly dynamic, and I love how much she’s leaning into the cheesiness and camp with stuff like that.

Jiang noticeably draws black leather with a lot of love and consideration, and I just think that's neat.

The Dentist Won't Stop Teasing Me

Look, I don’t want to be mean, but all of the yuri manhua series that make it over to Dynasty-Scans have even goofier and more contrived premises than comparable Japanese lilyschlock. At the same time, I appreciate how quickly they tend to spell it all out. This may be pure pulp, but teeth are important.

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Sal Jiang has a Youtube channel where she'd upload ukelele songs, so I was going to link her cover of All I Want For Christmas Is You to cap things off here. Unfortunately, at some point she privated all of her videos! You'll just have to take my word that the gentleness with which she plays was hilarious given her work. So go check some of that out, or barring that, get in a sexually-charged fistfight with another woman. Mariah Carey would approve.

[transformerswoc]

The TFP "Airachnid" Problem

Like I said, I'm gonna make essays and discussions regarding women in transformers <3. The first person is tfp Airachnid.

TFP Airachhid is honestly, the litmus test for how I feel that Transformers fans can handle “mean” evil, women. Because the hate train that she received and the hate she still receives is massive, and it rounding up to “she killed cliffjumper” or “she’s mean to arcee and starscream” “she killed breakdown” just shows that this fandom wouldn’t really be ready for a female villain that was worse than her, or that just did not give a fuck.

And honestly, that is soo unforutante because we see male characters, like Starscream and even like Megatron, who are basically like Airachnid, if not worse, getting love and support for their actions.

She’s not supposed to be nice…she is a villain a straight up, in your face, villain and that is interesting. Yes, other Airachnids/Black Arachnias get love, but a lot of them are morally grey or complex.

A lot of them either turn good or ambiguous in the end, or aren't who we think they are, giving them a very empathetic past to almost excuse their actions.

Yet, when we have villainous, no morals Airachnid, which I find made her character far more intriguing, it seems that people just hated her, and would hate her for the things they loved with the male villains. She was the perfect mixture of Starscream and Knockout, with Megatron’s brutality, and she was just…hated for it.

And it made me realize that in terms of female villains, we haven’t ever had one like her. One that says ‘fuck you’ to morality and shit, because I just do not think the fandom could handle her. And I’m talking about in the TV Shows.

There are female villains in the live action, but that is another topic for another time.

Lastly, to me as a Black Woman, I cannot help but feel a lot of hatred toward Airachnid is people not checking their own racism and antiblackness. I think it’s easy for people to, not even realize it, but hold black women to higher moral standards than others. The point is that, Airachnid is voiced by a Black Woman and fandoms tend to be very critical toward Black women whether they be live action, voicing characters, etc. black women are either too much, or not enough.

Funnily enough, we are seeing this with ROTB with tons of people who aren’t black women, bashing the representation of Black women in ROTB and saying they aren’t doing enough or they’re pointless.

And this brings me back to Airachnid and how fandoms tend to, unknowingly be very heavy and critical toward black characters, but especially, Black women characters as well who are mean, or who do not fit to their standards. That is just my perspective from a black woman.

I’m not going to sit here and say that everyone who dislikes Airachnid is racist, but I will say separately that I think a lot of reasons for disliking Airachid are rooted in misogyny.

There has been no good reason for disliking Airachnid that I haven’t seen laced in some form of misogyny, because every reason she is hated, you can trace back to a male villain doing the same thing, if not worse.

Given fandom’s negative reaction toward Airachid, I wonder if we’ll actually ever see such a cold, heartless female villain like we did her. I think that only thing that makes things ‘acceptable’ is if a female villain has complexity, or has depth or will eventually be a ‘good’ guy again, or at most, morally ambiguous. That is what makes a female villain acceptable and frankly, that’s not fair but unfortunately I just feel…that’s how it is.

Another thing I noticed, which I will make in another essay, is how TFP tends to shame any form of ‘feminity’ especially in its women but also, in queer outwardly femme charaters, like Starscream.

The ‘tom boy’ or ‘one of the boys’ perosna is something that we tend to see with Arcee and Miko. And forms of femininity such as motherhood, or being outwardly femme like Airachnid or Starscream are seen as ‘bad’ by the narrative.

What I mean by this is that, June is shamed for being motherly toward Jack, by Arcee and by Miko and it is something that she is made to feel bad for, for wanting to care for Jack. Arcee and Miko are portrayed as I said, as being ‘one of the boys’ Arcee herself made a negative comment toward the idea of being PINK…which is ridiclous.

Airachnid and Starscream are both heavily femme and queer coded, but they are shamed by the narrative and the fandom. Starscream is brutalized on the daily, and Airachnid, who is outwardly femme tends to be seen as irredeemable by the fandom and also inexplcitly evil by the narrative.

TFP’s issue with femininity  is something is something I certainly want to talk about later on, but given this essay is just about Airachnid, I will stop here.

The last thing I'm also going to say is that I don't think that the writers knew, or understand how to write a female villain for a notoriously misogynstic fanbase. There are reasons why the other female characters are 'acceptable' and it's because they are for the most part, written in a way that is okay for a male audience. That doesn't mean they don't face their fair share of misogyny...they do. Especially Miko.

But an outwardly evil femme fatale who doesn't give a fuck about it...the fandom is just not ready for such a character. And while I don't think the writers needed to pacify her, i do 100% believe that when operating in a misogynstic fandom, you should learn how to write a female character in a way that will not get her dragged the way Airachnid has been dragged.

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jjk having queer-coded villains seems to be an intentional choice. what are your thoughts on this

Anon comin in hot today! I feel like this doesn't really need a spoiler warning though it does detail info about characters yet to be animated so read at your own risk.

To be honest, I wouldn't even say that it's coding, JJK has an assortment of characters with varied identities from our protagonists to our antagonists which includes:

Megumi - a lot of fans interpret his non-gendered answer to what his type is, focusing instead on personality, to mean that he's pansexual.

Mahito - genderless ✨ and/or physically lacking reproductive organs that would typically define gender binary

Tengen - presumably assigned female at birth, has since transcended gender or is more non-binary

Kenjaku - another character who's just.. lived so long that they're just kind of gender fluid? Though, considering their history, intersex may be more appropriate? We know that, as Noritoshi Kamo, he mixed his blood with what would become the cursed womb paintings but she actually consummated with Jin for some extra razzle dazzle

Uraume - canonically they/them

Kirara - assigned male at birth (though I believe canonically referred to as they/them) with an androgynous gender expression

Please note: I don't consider myself an expert on the matter as gender identity, expression and sexual orientation exist on spectrums. Subsequently, if you think any of the above characters belong elsewhere based on canon or headcanon, I get it. If, based on canon, I'm outright incorrect, feel free to drop a comment and I'll edit accordingly.

With the distribution of the above in mind, I don't think it's unilaterally something focused just among the antagonists. Though, ironically, some of my color coding is also debatable at this point, I suppose. I think the more interesting observation is that, with enough time, such labels aren't as binding or lack the need for definition. Like, Tengen has all the time in the world to be whatever they want to be and they simply become. In fact, unrelated but kinda related, you see a similar idea in Hell's Paradise with the mercurial gender fluidity of the Tensens, too. Honestly, that's another show to watch with a curious lens.

All that to say, I think the varied representation is more interesting due to the conversation around the mangaka's own identity. Gege Akutami's anonymity has been shielded by their pen name but, also, I don't believe they have confirmed pronouns. While people argue that they went to an all boys' school previously, they also, during a stint as an assistant on another manga, unveiled themselves with a femme presenting avatar. Seemingly to avoid being defined by visual perception (or to pre-emptively avoid recognition by devastated fans..), they appeared in a video interview dressed as Mechamaru. Couple that with the fact that there is a notable lack of romantic pairings within the story, especially those that would be typical of a shonen story. Arguably, that could leave a lot of Aro and/or Ace characters that I'm too obtuse to have picked up on. In fact, one could interpret Akutami's previous comments about Gojo accordingly.

Subsequently, I don't think the intention is to vilify queerness just because some of the antagonists fit the bill. I think, if anything, there's just representation that isn't necessarily cultivated around "othering" queer characters or using their diversity as a plot line, if that makes any sense? Which isn't just concentrated on the "bad guys". For the most part, these are just subtle realities of the characters... okay, Kenjaku's identity can definitely be charged to the plot though. 👀 Seemingly contrary to what I just said about diversity as a plot device, I'm now having mixed feelings specifically with Kenjaku because their identity does inform the plot but also intrinsically brings nuance to them as a character. The more I think about it, this diversity is actually what humanizes them which, connotatively, still seems like a positive thing. Hm. Maybe I'm a hypocrite? Not sure but I'm curious as to your thoughts so feel free to leave them below 👇🏾

[sapphire-weapon]

So like, I have a very different opinion about the new direction Ada may be taking. To clarify, I know it's RE and I should never expect masterfully skilled story telling and I also don't want to stir the Ada pot, lol. Just had something niggling at me and was wondering if anybody out there can see where I'm coming from or give their explanation as to WHY I'm wrong, because I absolutely could be, but disagree like a normal and rational adult (very uncommon RE fandom occurrence /j).

In a nutshell, her arc is just fucking stupid. Is it better than OG? Yes, because the original practically just doesn't have one *shrug*, but the new direction just makes her so incredibly unlikeable and a bit cringe worthy. The whole "well I didn't THINK about the massive consequences of my actions until now honestly" trope... dude she's like thirty years old. "Oh, this guy was kind over half a decade ago and planted a seed in my brain, despite the fact I'm already a grown woman". The comparison to Ashley and Leon and what could've been. Blah, blah.... it's still incredibly sexist. It just is. My problem isn't that "Ada's mean", it's the fact that they're writing her almost infantile with how she thinks. There are plenty of other women in RE who've been through shit, had their arcs and did their thing in a way that kept their own agency. That's the part that matters, but remake Ada still hasn't quite gotten there. I think, in the long term, they WANT to make her into something that resembles a human, but it just slightly misses the mark still. She's incredibly selfish, that's fine, but her reasoning for change and introspection is headache inducing and doesn't make much sense. "I'll actively partake in terrorism for profit because I'm just that gal, y'know? I was born a femme fatale baby... but... what do you mean I could've had a romance? People I KNOW might also be impacted? Nevermind, now I'll consider why this might be bad." Dude..... come on.....

My very, very unpopular take... if this is seriously the line of thought they want to keep for her, I would rather she be killed off, and I say that as someone who ironically actually likes her and WANTS a decent story. Better to have Leon experience some forgiveness arc bullshit or whatever than have to painfully sit through another entire story of a grown woman with the reasoning skills of a preteen.

Again, I know this'll probably garner vitriol, I'm just curious to hear why I may be just approaching this the wrong way. I will admit I have knee jerk reactions to sexism, so I could very much just have a clouded vision of the potential that IS there and misinterpreting what I'm seeing in the first place *shrug*. What are your thoughts? Can you at least make sense of why I feel the way I do about this particular aspect of the game?

Your analysis is flawed for one very specific reason:

You think Ada changed from RE2make.

She hasn't.

Ada's still only out for Ada. The only thing that Leon changed about her was that he taught her how to better take care of herself. He taught her that she can't isolate in her independence, because things that go wrong for other people can negatively impact her, too.

The person who actually softens Ada is Luis, not Leon. But even then, there's no reason to think that Ada changed. He softened her to the point where she felt compelled to honor his memory and fulfill his dying wish, but she's not a better person because of it. She's gained honor from her interactions with Luis, not kindness.

She's going to still do the Ada thing of working for bad guys and profiting from the black market, because it's not about "oh no people I like might get hurt ;_;" That's not what Remake did with her. She's still doing her Ada thing. She only decides against giving the Amber to Wesker because it's the final part of honoring Luis's memory. Luis died to save two people. To then kill billions after the fact using the research that he no longer wanted to have hurt anyone is dishonorable.

But once her time with Los Illuminados is done, her time honoring Luis's memory is done. Whatever happens in Africa or the ESR or Edonia or China following this has nothing to do with him, so she's going to go back to doing her thing.

The point of having Ada watch The Leon and Ashley Show is to solidify Leon's autonomy from her and to try to further showcase how selfish Ada is. Ada still looks at Leon as a thing -- he's something she wants, and she doesn't understand why she can't have him. Making her watch The Leon and Ashley Show is meant to try to get her to reflect on why.

But it doesn't work. Because Ada hasn't changed. And won't change. And possibly can't change.

Through Leon in RE2make, Ada has become better suited to be independent. And through Luis in RE4make, Ada has become someone who keeps her word. That's what the Remakes have changed about her. That's why her story is so much better. They're not trying to make her a good guy. They're not trying to have her rethink her life. They're not trying to have her show remorse.

They're giving honor to a dishonorable character, along with a consistently selfish mindset to continue the work that she does. That's all they're doing.

And not for nothing anon but the way you keep calling her stupid and infantile is way more sexist than anything the narrative did with her. This ask came off like you hated Ada first and then reached for some sort of explanation as to why you could be justified in hating her second. There are legitimate reasons to criticize Ada, but you've cited none of them. Instead of looking at what the character was actually doing, you just slapped "she's stupid" on her.

ETA: added this post to my meta directory, because it seems important here and I should probably have it on hand.

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary48

10/25-30/2023

wednesday - monday

i know i actually missed a bunch of days but i will try to put many thoughts about them here.

i figured since keeping my diary went so bad last time, i just wouldn't try w/ it this time because my gf would be really busy and we had someone else in the hotel with us this, time, her mom. her mom was kind of difficult for me to deal with, in the hotel at least. most of the time she was pretty pleasant or like, at least nice. the first day was good until we all went to bed and like, she started snoring. i figure i'll have the video uploaded to dropbox tomorrow off my phone and i'll be able to post that here, along w/ more selfies or whatever. anyways, the snoring was intolerable and i slept for maybe 2 hours that day. the next, i got maybe 3 hours, the day after i slept in like, these twenty minute spurts i think, three days, saturday was similar too, just miserable, weirdly coming in and out of dreams, awoken by nightmares and just incapable of dealing, feeling exhausted perpetually and tired, and so exhausted i couldn't even be grouchy or whatever, i was just like, i dunno, sapped. i guess i'm normally not grouchy when i'm tired, i just get really sensitive when someone starts being mean to me, which made all the people in arizona so much worse probably because i could tell they were staring and like, i know looks of ire/hate/whatever, and i dunno, maybe the people who look like they want to hatefuck me. they're rarer, i think most people there, honestly most, were pretty disturbed by me. not a surprise cuz that state hates anyone who has something strange happening with their gender. i guess i made it harder on myself, i could have just let myself look like how i was born but i don't like doing that and knowing i might have to makes me really unhappy. i just want to be myself but i guess everyone suffers consequences for being alive, getting stared at is maybe on the less bad end, well it definitely is, but it really fucks with you honestly, i think. like, what can you do, i stare back, usually they stop, arizona is the first place people really didn't look away. i remember a guy in the hotel lobby during free breakfast, he kept staring, i was standing still, looking at him while i threw my food away, he didn't quit it until at least 40 seconds of staring took place. it's like they think they let you win if they act polite. another instance, walking to get lunch with my gf, these 3 or 4 men at this table outside did not stop looking, i locked eyes with one directly facing me and nearest, and he just began muttering under his breath, and finally looked away out of some kind of total frustration. women were doing this too, from across the street, all that. families, children (which is more whatever, it only sucks when it feels like/seems like the parents think it's good that their kids stare so it dissuades anyone from being a freak (and also, exposing their kid to someone they think is bad so that way they know what bad people look like or whatever)). i spent a lot of the trip around college aged people, which would make you think this wasn't what happened most of the time, but really, these college people did it constantly, they also talked about doing drugs/drinking and teaching kids at church. a really weird/evil campus. two superchristians asked me some questions, and they weren't bad at all. that's still shocking to me. they obviously wanted me to convert and that probably comes with a stop being weird desire but they at least talked to me like they would anyone else.

me w/ a candy fag in my axes femme dress. i don't think i looked that ugly! i don't know. maybe i was super ugly outside of the very flattering/nice bathroom mirror. i really need a mirror like that in the apartment. i took a bunch of selfies in it so i can just have pix of my face in good lighting so i don't think too badly of myself.

not being able to work out fully sucked too, by the by.

also, first day, i realized how good my psp is as a mp3 player, and it also has a visualizer, which gave me the idea to use that for the album somehow, that'll be really exciting when i get that goinggg.

asu is one of the weirdest places i've ever been, i don't have many photos of it on my computer now, but the place felt super evil. for one, walking into some of the buildings, my gf and i saw all these vr headsets hooked up to a wall in this really menacing way, they hung as ghosts or skeletons in tombs, with that raytheon sheen to them, something really evil. it made me think of things james ferraro is into right now, and his video game, and the store ultimate electronic, ancient and lost to time certainly. beyond the bizarrely super tech-forward aspect of this campus (it is hugely a part of the culture there it seems, arizona i think wants to bring in startups to boost its local economy + they really would love to have that clout at asu (which they seem to be getting, proving themselves as great lapdogs for capital 10 years in a row now receiving #1 in many terms such as innovation, globlal impact, sustainability)), the place had like 7 churches attached to it. what else, i dunno, the architecture was nice and then very suddenly there were these hudson-yards esque growths, weird neoliberal light installations (raytheon sheen, smooth, rgb lightcycles, huge, inoffensive and basically pretty at some angles, recalling a jellyfish in the night, at others, bringing to mind yoga studio moodlighting as imagined by wal-mart led lightbulbs), and so on. the people on campus, even at night, as activity died, stared and were very weird. uptight stem people it feels like, mostly. on campus though i did see some very nice art, which i will probably get to post w/ names tomorrow. my gf's conference put these on at the school as well, so it was really not related to asu, which feels good i think. i like that stuff, and i'm glad that can stick with me, one woman's work (audrey robinovitz) i saw was some textile stuff she did, really lovely grading on the values in it, supposedly she's weird on twitter but i quite like her visual art (she also had a poem there which sucked but whateverrrr). and jessica tucker created these:

i love them, trapped in plastic, expressing and deformed, part of your communication becoming the ways you are failing to cross the gap, the way you're stuck in the uncanny forever sometimes, the way mania feels when you can't fully communicate with your body, all that kind of stuff. also looks like people stuck in their own reflections in water, not staring at themselves for pleasure but operating from way down there, that history of having been reflected all that instantiates them. whatever. you get it, i like it, i think it is communicating something to me. i'll try and say more about the other works i saw tomorrow when i post them, put thoughts to text as i think these things probably deserve.

i also took some rather sexual photos of these birch trees on the campus, hopefully i can use them but they struck me as reminiscent of hans bellmer and so it felt necessary to take these photos.

and here are some other eerie things i found/shot:

i also did go to one aquarium in a mall, a regular aquarium, and a zoo. i quite liked these, but my gf's mom spent much of these trips saying how she'd gone to better places, and i know she paid and stuff, but it honestly felt pretty rude, i dunno. i never got out a lot, the only really cool places like that i've been are the san diego zoo, which got cut short because i think i was being stupid as a kid, the monterey bay aquarium (i think one of the happiest moments of my life, which is very sad i suppose, but i really adored seeing all those fish just doing things) and the aquarium in chicago, the shed or whatever, i dunno its name, that one was really beautiful too, great creatures on display and a great view of the lake through a huge window. the zoo made me kind of sad, because we saw some animals who seemed pretty unhappy, the jungle cats, a leopard who was pacing as humans do when in stress, a very abnormal behavior, i think, and a sick cat. i didn't take many photos at these, just cuz i wanted to be in the moment for it, i like seeing them do things.

as far as special displays go, i did get to see some batfish, which i don't believe i've ever seen, and i also saw some flounder, a very crazy thing to see, their eyes really are so baffling and surreal, they should not be alive it feels like.

in the zoo, all the reptiles and snakes especially were kept up front and very visible, which was wild to me, i saw some of them moving their funny heads around, they really are such cute and strange creatures. it was also great seeing lizards, i love them, i recognized many from the wild but it was still very fun. also in the reptile enclosure, apparently a family i didn't see was staring at me more than the animals, very annoying! on the other end of that, we all got to see some prairie dogs just chilling, which was very cute/fun. my gf and her mom say they were the highlight of the trip when it comes to animals.

some pics of the 2 aquariums, i wonder if i'll find a way to use these:

and from the mall:

fun and old style of ornamentation in arizona mills.

as far as daytrip stuff, the last thing we really did was today, when we went to this pumpkin patch thing, it was cute, i felt like i was in the illbleed worm level so i felt pretty happy, the haunted and weird autumnal atmospheres really speak to me so when i got to experience that kind of thing in the corn maze/ the pumpkin patch that was full of rotting pumpkins that kids have kicked open, i really enjoyed myself. it feels like a deep thing in me, that's attracted to all that stuff. the carny/fairground stuff, the gentle abjection of it. we also saw some goats, that was cute. we also saw a really insane food truck that has the q anon shaman as a skeleton as its logo on it:

people here were of course very weird too, but not so bad, worse than vegas but not as bad as phoenix it felt like. but, one woman saw me holding a huge pumpkin and she said: you need two!! and held one of her smaller pumpkins up to her breast, and laughed, and i laughed, and she said: i've been looking all day for another! it's the perfect gag. and she went off still looking. she treated me like a human i think, so she is kind of a hero to me, sincerely, i hope she found her other pumpkin for her photo.

we also did some other stuff ofc, through the days, my gf's mom really wanted to go to this huge hunting store, we went to that, i played a shooting game in it and scored 970 points-ish, my gf got 350-ish. my gf's mom got disturbed that i looked at the guns a lot but it's really a fascinating place. these stores are where men go to waste money how they think their wives waste money on clothes, thousand dollar accessories, maybe biting the bullet on something way more expenisve (keeping the typo) , the displays and sale tactics are the same, and just as well, this is the american male fantasy, or at least one of them, the rural king of his land, and the way weapons are represented and which ones are sold, really can communicate a lot. overall it's crazy and fascinating, it's why i like looking in bass pro shops, at the people and the things they buy, and the things they deem fun diversions in their stores (for instance all the weird old candy they sell in these hunting superstores). anyways, as you expect, the base is hugely reactionary and everyone there found me kind of freakish except this grandma who just didn't realize, and when she did, she just smiled. here's a sticker i saw in the parking lot on a car there:

no pain, no gain, shut up and.

so anyways, one final anecdote:

my gf's mom loving bill maher made us watch him and it was so shocking how stupid he is and bad his show is that i started making jokes about it with my gf and she got so mad she just silently shut the tv off and watched the real housewives on her phone. because i said bill maher needs a guy to tell him when to piss over an earpiece.

soooooooooooo,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[hurlumerlu]

I can't say I fully understand what you had in mind with your thk posts, but honestly, "bound but one of them is a ratter" sounds like something that would be wild to write (this is for the wish fic in case it isn't clear)

RIGHT? but the question is, well, who would be the ratter.

My mind went to Corky first, because she - a tattoed crook who got caught - is the most obvious Kant analogue while Violet - the more fem (not that bison is fem exactly but you know what i mean, if we must ascribe gender roles to same gender couples then he is The Woman) and lethal of the two, trapped in a parody of familial/domestic bliss - could be put in the Bison role. So let's say Corky was offered a lighter sentence in exchange for working as a spy/informant, and initially the idea was "i've been hired to renovate the flat next door" but now there's this woman who's been Looking at her, and Corky could use that, it would be an easier in, not too mention Corky's been Looking too and she likes what she sees, and it has been a while... and then of course she catches feeling and she wants Violet safe and there's all this money they could both use for a fresh start and everything kinda snowballs in the same way it does in the movie. It works, I think, and would make a nice twist on Corky's initial insistence that Violet is untrustworthy, especially if we make Corky being an informant a (early) reveal rather than letting it be known from the start. In this version, either Violet would learn of Corky's real job very late in the game or she would learn early on but only let on that she knows near the end. No matter what, Corky's goal is to execute The Plan without ever having to come clean to her lover, and we get to see her sweat a lot at the idea of being found out. Violet, for her part, is mostly cool with the whole informant thing. A gal's gotta do what a gal's gotta do, and she's not one to judge.

So that was my first idea. But Corky's trust issues kept nagging at me, because THK does have a few characters with a chip on their shoulders regarding trust, and Kant isn't one of them. Bison however... it got me thinking of Corky in Bison's role (the rube) and Violet in Kant's role (the player). It lines up quite nicely with their courtship dynamic, too: while Bound, doesn't have as clear chaser/chased roles as THK, Violet is very forward while Corky, as mentioned, is afraid to trust, and that's pretty similar to the early KantBison's tango. (Corky plays it gruff while Bison plays it coy, but the rythm isn't that different... and actually that makes me think: they're both the somewhat non gender comforming one, so there's that angle to maybe explore too) Another point in favor of the "Violet in Kant's role" angle is the femme fatale archetype. In THK we see both Bison and Kant (all four leads, actually, this show is so fun) use their looks as a lure, and Bison is the actually fatal one - but Kant is the character the closest to the classic archetype, and of course Violet is an ode to femme fatales, so it's one of those things that just makes sense to me. (now, you could construct it as a point against, because Violet, though she has all the strappings of one, actually isn't a femme fatale. Not from Corky's, and therefore the movie's, point of view. One of the things Bound does is forcing you to see things from the so-called femme fatale side, and demystifying the archetype of the cold, ruthless, manipulative seductress, turning it into a woman trying to make the best of what she's got - it's the you know the difference between you and me? of it all - and we can argue wether it's a deconstruction or a reconstruction or what but!!! I'm getting away from myself and what I was trying to get at is that Kant is also just doing his best with what he's got, so there. Point still in favor.)

So yeah. Violet who was strong armed by the cops into getting sexually close to dangerous, powerful men to get intel on them. No one thought to wonder how she feels about that - getting sexually close to people, dangerous or not, is after all what a whore does - but she's more than tired of this life. She finally sees an out (2 millions dollars is more than enough for her to make a new life) but she'll never pull it off alone. The prickly ex-con next-door, however, could make an adequate partner in crime, and is lonely enough to be manipulated. She's sweet, too: this might just work out. In this version, Corky learns the truth at the worst possible moment and it almost get them both killed, especially since Violet is not apologetic at all. But of course lesbian love wins, and they drive toward the sunset with a fuckton of money.

I shed a tear.

The End.

[mejomonster]

just a rant about gender and dysphoria and happiness and frustrations i guess?

im gonna go on a few more tangents fuck it ToT so for one: while i love that binders exist (truly they're amazing), i personally hate wearing them because for me they feel just like a bra, and a bra makes me feel Not-Great, and i'd much rather wear layers and bigger clothes to hide my chest (while being pissed all genders cannot simply wear no shirt and no Nothing and be treated the same), because the simple thing of Some Constricting Thing on My Chest makes me feel more dysphoric ddkdkd

and then second: so when i was lets say a teenager to in college, i did a lot of varying with my self expression. high school saw me volley from very butch to lazy femme looking frequently. i chopped all my hair off, then got wigs so i could still do those high glam looks when i wanted. in college i tried out long bleached hair deep side part with undercut and cut off sleeve t-shirts (think Pat in Bad Buddy if he was a punk lesbian) and then 1 inch hair when i got fucking sick of long hair like i always do (and many a dad sweater). i got a tiny waist and big fucking hips. big shoulders. so im an hourglass i guess, when i wear anything that fits me. its pretty easy to read 'feminine' to a stranger, when all u gotta do is put on clothes that fit, 1 line of eyeliner, and there u go (and i'd learn later w a face like mine there was no need for the eyeliner... or the rest).

but for a while i just did not Want to Ever read feminine, unless i was on a date with a cute girl, so at work nonstop i wore loose pants to hide my waist size, baggy sweaters, binder, my hair was cut off, no makeup, my usual glasses. on paper i shoulda looked like a hipster guy i guess. in reality every fucking day some customer would say 'ma'am, miss, young lady' to get my attention. and lo and behold i find out i just wont really ever read as butch to a stranger. not with my face -3-)/ i mean yeah. maybe if i took testosterone, if it changes the shape of my face enough. i already have a mustache. i've grown it out, and bleached it, and shaved it, and even at it's longest strangers were like 'hi miss could u help me'. and that was i dunno. an interesting thing for me to realize. to realize that for every stranger i meet, generally, they're going to look at me and think 'marilyn monroe' no matter how i decide to present visually.

and well. i DO like some feminine presenting appearance things. i like lolita dresses, i like dying my hair every color i can get a hold of, i love eyeliner because that part of the teen emo phase never left me. i like bright colored eyeshadows, and drawing fun things with my eyeliner. i like dressing up as high femme as i can if i'm going on a date with a femme, because it's fun to dress up with someone else going to the nines. i like my waist, it's like Link! and Raiden! and Axel! And if they are guys, i can be a guy too (and honestly this is to all guys - you a guy? then you ARE a guy. you don't have to prove that to anyone, or meet some arbitrary standards, there's a wonderful rant Enterprise Incidents Podcast did about 'what is a man? a woman? anything they want' because humans come in infinite diversity and what is a man to one man is not the same as another, its just who that guy themselves IS.)

and well. i decided - if strangers are gonna misgender me no matter what, i might as well stop trying to change my looks to what 'strangers' might prefer from me, and instead just look the way i want to anyway. and of course, college was a good time in some ways. i found tumblr, i found other bisexual people and felt a hell of a lot less alone, i found trans people sharing their experiences, and realize Ayyyyy Dysphoria is what i felt all through high school now it all makes sense why i kept praying for god to turn me into a dude! I already AM a dude! feeling SO much like u are one... u probably ARE already one.

(y'all have no idea how uninformed my knowledge was of trans people in high school was... my school had zero out kids, most kids as naive and uninformed as me - some who would later realize they were trans like me, and the only info i had on trans people was the movie Boys Don't Cry which... that movie's got a host of issues. But what teen mejo took from it was: no one in the world would acknowledge me as a man unless i got surgery. And since i never heard of transgender before, i assumed that meant 'ur gender has to match ur body' hence the praying for years to just wake up a guy. jokes on me! i was already! wishes do come true dkdkdkd. Anyway. It wasn't until getting to college, finding educational resources online, and finding community on tumblr, that i realized Simply Already Feeling I Was a Guy internally... made me one.

And also the much broader, more healing realization for many people including cisgender people: YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT, whatever makes you HAPPY, you are the gender you feel you are and that's literally all it requires. You already ARE whatever you are, and your heart knows. Or your heart doesn't, and you explore. But my point is: cisgender men can wear makeup and love it and still be men. Cisgender women can shave their heads and grow lots of body hair and be 6 feet tall and love fishing. Your gender doesn't mean you can't like something or can't do something or can't be something, you can like/do/be WHATEVER YOU WANT. No matter who you are.

And being trans doesn't change that. Yes, there's additional factors: a trans woman who doesn't want big boobs and loves short hair is at risk of being misgendered by strangers more... but so are cis women. So are all women. That doesn't mean masculine hobbies or looks or likes makes you a man, it's just whatever. Strangers making judgements happens for so much bullshit, it doesn't mean they get to define you, strangers opinions do not Decide what you are. Only you do. Cis men and trans men can love makeup, can love baking, whatever the fuck! What makes you a man? Feeling you are a man. What makes you a woman (or anyone)? Feeling she is. Simple as that. What can you do/be/look like in this world? WHATEVER the fuck you WANT.

So yeah. I go through all those realizations in college. (and to get down in the weeds, I probably related to bigender the most as in line with my feelings, which i just label as nonbinary for strangers because... to be honest the number of people who even knew what Nonbinary was when i realized i felt nonbinary was miniscule, even less then the ppl who knew what bisexuality was. i mostly feel like a dude. i still connect with being a woman. maybe its because im nonbinary, but i feel like gender is so dumb in some ways. i'm so happy for y'all who feel gender euphoria, and i recognize a huge portion of people find solace and comfort in strongly feeling like their gender. but at the same time i feel like straight ppl could figure out how to only be attracted to the ppl they like now, even if gender didn't exist. knowing humans, we'd make up a new system to divide humans into classifications like a gender-equivalent construct based on nose shape or eyebrows idk. so its not like humans are about to stop caring about gender, and there'd still be some made up human way of splitting people apart they'd probably use to build inequality idk. humans already do that with a lot of other concepts they made up besides gender.)

the point i'm circling back to is: gender is great for many a person, and the only important thing to really remember is you can be whatever you want in this world, you're allowed. if you're a boy, if you're a girl, if you're nonbinary, if you're agender, whatever body you have, whatever hobbies or likes or talents or whatever. you do not have to be trapped in a box, you're allowed to be Fully You. Whoever that is. You're allowed to conform to expectations of A or B or whatever, you're allowed to do your own thing, you're a human being and whoever you are - is you. You are not broken just because YOU are a bit different than someone else.

and then a third tangent: i hope for cis people to internalize that fucking realization too. I dunno if it's people older than me, or younger, or in the same boat, but sometimes i am just hit Hard by the terror i'll be hearing cis people distraught about. i'll hear how horrified they, a cis woman, are to be 'masculine' or simply to be 'not interpreted by strangers as feminine Enough' (whatever the fuck the Enough Impossible-Standard is that society perpetuates to them - usually a white classist patriarchal conservative ideal, where an ideal woman is 1. white. 2. long haired. 3. wears full makeup. 4. is very skinny 5. is upper class and wears expensive things 6. has no body hair 7. is 'demure' and submissive and caretaking and sweet and innocent OR sexy and appealing to others etc).

So many cis women I see crying, full on horrified, because they're overweight. Dieting to dangerous degrees, because they're overweight (like most of the population in my country, their weight is perfectly average it's not like most other ppl aren't just like them), and overweight = ugly = poor = black = masculine = man in the fucked up mainstream ideals of beauty and white womanhood. So many cis women freaking out they have boxy bodies instead of curves, have hair on their face (newsflash all humans have at least this thin peach fuzz on their face - if you are not white and blonde then Yes, Sometimes that peach fuzz is darker colored or you get a mustache like me) and just shaving it isn't enough - they still feel they aren't inherently allowed to be a 'woman' because of it. SOOOOOOO many of these cis women would benefit greatly from the recognition of a woman as 'anything.' A woman IS anything. Any appearance, any hobbies, any likes.

So many cis men horrified they don't live up to a strict fucked up box of an ideal as well - terrified they don't make enough money to be a 'real' man. Terrified they aren't skinny enough, or aren't muscular enough, or aren't assertive enough, or can't provide Enough to others, or show Too Much emotion. (A lot of these limiting gender ideals coming from the same white patriarchal upper class ideal, so by design MOST men will probably never manage to reach such ideals - the ideals causing them to fight each other, to prove who's 'most alpha', the ideals causing them to abandon themselves - because to be a 'real man' is to not cry or show weakness or admit to struggling to live up to the ideal, the ideals causing them to lash out at others - and rewarding them for it, because if they harm others then they'll help perpetuate this fucked up system by hurting more people and putting the pressure on more people To Strive to Live Up to The Ideal in the hopes of finally gaining enough acceptance to avoid further attacks). Every incel in some degree is so internally distraught trying to live up to the Ideal Real Man, who 'gets bitches' and feels they'll never really be a 'real man' until they can too. Every dude sucked into the manosphere has heard so much awful stuff about what a man has to do in order to 'prove he's a man and Deserve to be treated as a man' that they've taken to heart. And now they're perpetuating that harm, hurting MORE guys and insisting even more other guys aren't REAL unless they conform as well (and hell - probably still don't deserve to be respected as Real Men unless they also get rich and successful).

How many of these cisgender people would be so much fucking happier, and hurt significantly less people (and stop hurting themselves) if they just realized, really fucking took to heart, that a person is their gender JUST BECAUSE they feel they are. My guy, do you think you're a guy? CONGRATS you're a real man and whatever kind of guy you are IS a real guy. Miss over there, you are desperate to prove you're a woman? You ALREADY are. You do not need to diet more to prove that, or change your hobbies or quit your fucking job.

It's frustrating to see that giant system hurting people on so many levels. Just everywhere.

[primevein]

The Prime of His Youth: Book III: Prometheus' Gift: Ch46: Just Lying Around

The Ion landed in the spaceport in Nevada's desert. The main airlock used it's atmospheric bypass, opening both sides and opening them up to the outside air. Japheth stepped out and paused, "I miss smelling."

"Really?" June asked from beside him.

"Honestly, this is the first time I noticed I don't have it." Japheth uttered. The ramp extended down to the ground and slowly stepped down. Arcelia stepped out beside him. "Everyone out!" June stepped out, followed by Amalthea, Sif, Thethys, Roxana, and Sundance. Sirenia and Arcee stood at the top of the ramp, looking down. "Everyone, Arcelia is my procurator, meaning she is doing the actual purchases. Roxana is collecting medical supplies. Sif anything we need for aquaponics. Tethys hydrology." He looked up the ramp, "Siren is getting food."

"And me?" June asked, and he shrugged.

"Help everyone?"

"Well, I suppose I can do that." June voiced.

"Before anyone leaves, anyone without a Terran vehicle form needs to get one." Japheth said, and looked at Arcelia, "Talk to everyone about what they want, and contact Fowler."

"Master." she proudly said.

Japheth looked up at Arcee, "Everyone means the Rust Maidens and Stormwright."

"On it." Arcee said, and disappeared.

"Knockout!" Japheth shouted, and Knockout stepped into the light, "You know what you are up to."

"Yes," an annoyed Knockout replied, "make me be the one to recruit all of your Humans. Of all the people here, I'm the one with the least experience with them." He looked at Japheth who gave him a bright and understanding look. A look that was so powerful that Knockout quickly buckled, "Fine, fine. I guess I am the most qualified." he proudly stated. "I don't suppose anyone is going to help me?"

"Anyone." Japheth stated.

"Anyone?" Knockout asked.

"Anyone." Japheth said, "Once they have Terra alt. forms."

"And you are going to be?.." Knockout asked.

"Getting them escorts for their alt. forms." Japheth replied. "And see if there's anything Sierra wants to do while she's here."

"I really don't want to get involved, but you probably shouldn't, you know?" Knockout asked.

Japheth rolled his eyes, "Thanks, but I'm not going to do it, myself." he replied.

"Then who is?" Knockout asked, until something occured to him, "There is only one bike who won't be busy?" he flavourfully asked, and Japheth looked with a shocked look on his face.

"Or," Arcelia stated, "I can drop her off at a bike rental place while everyone else is getting their alt forms?" she asked, and Japheth let out a sigh of relief. "I promise to remain distant."

"I mean?" Japheth asked, "You can be friends. Arcee just wouldn't handle it well if I was the one that carried her around." Roxana walked up to him, give him a deep, curious look. "Roxie?"

"Can you transform your seats?" she asked.

Japheth quickly transformed. He opened his side pannel and door, showing that all of the seats had been transformed away. Roxana transformed and then reverted to her dollform. She quickly climbed in. "Who else is joining me?!" she asked. The femmes quickly crowded around. They then looked to Arcelia and Sirenia.

"i'm a little bigger." Arcelia sighed, "If we want to see how many we can fit, we need slimmed down femmes."

"Amalthea?" Roxana asked, and transformed and reverted into dollform. She walked up and climbed in. "Sif, Tethys?" she asked. Sif transformed and reverted into her dollform. She stepped up and slowly climbed in. Tethys transformed into her sea-doo. Her keel had barely touched the sand before she reverted into her dollform. She stepped up, giving the area a curious look. "Come on, come on." Roxana stated. The other two pressed her into the corner, giving enough room for another femme to slip it. Tethys quickly did so.

"Think we could get another?" Amalthea asked.

"I doubt it." Thethys stated.

"Four is quite the accomplishment." Sif added.

Japheth closed the door and the flap, and just sat there. At first they did nothing, but over time they started to wonder what was going on.

"So?" Tethys asked, "Were you going to?.."

"You are the one I have to carry." Japheth stated.

Japheth noticed the crowd that had formed, with almost everyone here. He looked over at the ship, seeing Arcee and Carron standing there, with Sierra standing below them. "Arcee and Carron have the ship."

"If I kill the plants, it's not my fault." Arcee sardonically stated.

"It's automated." June simply stated. "So long as nothing breaks down." Arcee let out a sigh of relief.

* * *

Sierra rode on Arcelia's back, as the two quietly enjoyed the ride.

"I have to say it." Arcelia stated.

"Say what?" Sierra asked.

"Talking about you is kind of a taboo." Arcelia said.

"I'm what a what?" Sierra asked.

"The one thing that Arcee is truly afraid of." Arcelia added.

"How?.." Sierra voiced, "I mean, Arcee is... everything I wanted to be..."

"She's what?" Arcelia asked, "I have to ask, what happened between you?"

"Nothing..." Sierra uttered.

"It can't be?.." Arcelia asked.

"It might as well have been." Sierra painfully said. "I... didn't notice him..." She paused, but Arcelia said nothing to her. "He was just... there... in the background. Until he decided to show off. I didn't notice him until he was already riding on Arcee, so you can see how much of a threat I was. Maybe Arcee thought I was going to muscle in on her action, but that was years ago."

"Years don't pass as quickly for Cybertronians." Arcelia stated. "That is something that my master is coming to terms with."

"Is that how it works?" Sierra asked, "I'm a twinkle in the night?"

"Arcee said that every moment she spent with Jack was a treasure she could keep for the rest of her life. If he was like Jack, he would be terrifed at the moment."

"I don't know how I feel about that..." Sierra uttered.

"Stoicism is the most important thing he learned." Arcelia replied, "When we asked how the Elite Guard fights, his answer was with logistics." Arcelia said, and paused. "The local militias can fight well in their areas, but without proper logistics, they cannot fight with strength. The Elite Guard comes in, and creates that strong core. The boring, implaccable centre of the battle. That was the lesson he had to learn. By all accounts, he has always had exceptional talent, to the point they discovered him on the battlefield, winning against several Decepticons, moving just enough to avoid being hit. His trouble was instead working as a team. Taking everyone's thoughts and abilities into consideration."

"And... this mean?.." Sierra barely managed to voice.

"It's tearing him up inside. He's just putting on a strong face. He trusted Japheth would have space ready for Humans... which he did..."

"He just didn't realize the ship that was just captured hadn't been retrofitted yet." Sierra stated, "It was... sweet..."

"So?" Arcelia asked, "We covered how he thinks of life with you, but what do you think of life with him?"

Sierra lightly giggled, "I've never felt anything like it. Every moment I spend with him, is... I don't know how to describe it..."

"That's exactly how Arcee described it with Jack." Arcelia said with glee and pride. "And gives me something to ask Smokey."

* * *

Japheth stood on the ramp, looking down on all the new Terran alt. forms.

* * *

Knockout drove in with a couple of military trucks behind him. He transformed as the trucks turned around and backed in. A number of people in exosuits started to jump off, bringing foot lockers with them.

"How did you do that so quickly?" Japheth asked him.

"It turns out you have WAY too many astronauts." Knockout replied, "So many that many will never see space. So, they are as qualified as any Human can be, and extremely eager to actually get out in space."

"I really hate that I agree with that." Japheth sighed. "Everyone transform and move in!" All of the femmes with new Terran forms quickly moved in around the trucks. Japheth stepped down the ramp, "If you are are all astronauts, then form up when ready."

Slowly the bags started to get stacked up and the astronauts started to form up. In the end they had two dozen, in 3 rows. "I - am Japheth Prime! My goal is to lead a mission to find Cybertron's lost colonies. These might take time considered absurd for Humans. We might be gone for years! We have two ships, this, the Ion, along with the Phthia. The Phthia is on Caminus to be refit for Human habitation. The Phthia is the primary warship, while the Ion is more..."

"Diplomatic?" Arcelia asked.

"Let's go with that." Japheth stated. "Considering you are astronauts, you can learn and take part of the ship's navigation, along with everything else. The Ion will not depart until the Phthia arrives, and you can choose which ship you would like to crew. Any questions?"

"Can we take it for a quick spin?" one of the astronauts asked.

Japheth sighed and developed a bright smile, "We haven't started provisioning, yet. In the mean time, you can move in, and get used to the ship's systems. Including it's aquaculture and life support. Everyone else will be under 4 days notice to move."

"I don't suppose you have parking on board?" another astronaut asked.

"No, but if you talk to the girls, they'll probably be willing to give you a ride."

"Is that an order?" Amalthea asked.

"Rust Maidens, yes." Japheth stated, "Everyone else, what you feel like. I understand you three will have your work ahead of you, trying to copy all of Human history. Siren can help." Sirenia slowly stepped up behind him. Japheth turned to the Astronauts, and then up the ramp to June. She quickly walked down as Japheth looked back to the Astronauts, "This is June, Matron of the ship."

"The second in command." Pyra Magna stated.

"Unless we get attacked." June shyly stated.

"Pyra Magna is the leader of the Rust Maidens." Japheth stated.

"The Rage of the Prime." Sirenia said from behind him.

"Arcelia, here, is my procurator. If you need to talk to me, and I'm busy, go through her." Japheth stated, "Amalthea is the chief archivist. Sif is in charge of the hydroponics. Tethys is the hydrologist. There will be plenty of time later, so dismissed." The parade turned to the right and stepped to the side, walking off.

- - -

Amalthea: Honda CB Unicorn 160

Lostlight: Honda Rebel 1100 Touring

Scorched Earth: Honda SLC 500

Sif: Peugeot Metropolise 400

Tethys: Sea-Doo Wake Pro 230

Stormwright: Heinkel Lerche

Pyra Magna: Fabrique Nationale AS 24 (up-armoued with a flame thrower / bolter)

Jumpstream: MTT Y2K Turbine Superbike

Dust Up: MTT Y2K Turbine Superbike

Stormclash: AH-56 Cheyenne

Skyburst: AH-56 Cheyenne

Rust Dust: Vespa 150 TAP

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2022 Selina Kyle is SOFT and characterized with traditionally feminine traits in stark contrast to Batman and the Riddler and it’s bumming me out how many fanworks vaguely or not-so-vaguely erase that. I’ve read fics that basically copy-and-paste Bruce’s toxic masculinity and difficulty being vulnerable with someone onto Selina as a way to give her some angsty inner conflict and just...Did we see the same movie??

These are two people whose backgrounds are basically as far apart as they could possibly be, it makes sense that their very similar traumas would not affect them the same way. It’s kind of an important thing in the movie how Bruce, Selina, and Edward all responded in different ways to being orphaned and alone most of their lives, you know. And it seems clear based on her characterization that while Bruce has in large part chosen his isolation, Selina’s trauma hasn’t made her reluctant to connect with people in quite the same way.

Yes, Selina’s chosen to pursue some payback against her father at the expense of having other things in her present life. In some ways she has more of a double life than Bruce is living at this point. All this is isolating and hasn’t exactly brought her into contact with a lot of trustworthy people. At the same time, ordinary people outside of the criminal underworld are not typically going to be the kind she can fully be herself with either. Even getting close to Annika was probably partly to get information from her, and must have required some compartmentalizing, as much as she genuinely cared about her. And that relationship seems to show she is used to being the one to take care of other people.

But almost as soon as she and Batman are thrown together and she feels a real kinship with him, and this man treats her like she herself is worth protecting, she is able to pretty readily open her heart to another person. All things considered, Selina is clearly much less messed up than Bruce when it comes to relationships. If she had the support of someone like Alfred in her life, she surely wouldn’t have kept them at arm’s length most of her life as Bruce has done with him.

I mean, it’s all there in the way she takes in all these stray cats, and also obviously identifies with the strays. She chose the cat theme for her alter-ego for a reason. It comes naturally to her to be kind to others she identifies with because she has always felt alone herself. She’s survived on her own for so long, and it means so much to her to feel cared for that way for the first time in so long when Batman physically protects her and thinks of her feelings (even in small ways, like when he locks eyes with her with concern while listening to the recording of Annika’s murder, making the connection to how her mom died and knowing how horrible this must feel...I cry). Selina is the one who makes the move to kiss him both times, she is very tender and sweet with him, and she freaking asks him to leave Gotham with her - she demonstrably does not have to angstily reconcile these feelings the way he does. She isn’t worrying that she is less of a Strong Female Character TM if she wants the bat D for Christ sake, because she’s actually written like a real human person and not the honestly superficial-as-fuck, supposedly one-size-fits-all idea of what even makes a "strong female character” that is generally agreed upon by abled white people.

It feels simplifying to say that the way she’s turned out differently than him and the Riddler has everything to do with how being white and male makes one internalize different lessons from the world about one’s own individual importance and how to deal with pain, but in this case the shoe fits pretty damn well? Selina is the only female character in this movie with any real development, and it feels significant that although she can defend herself and is willing to use violence, she generally operates like a classic noir femme fatale, through duplicity and subterfuge instead of direct confrontation or aggression. Even if she never slept with anyone to get close to Falcone’s outfit, she certainly knows how to use her sexuality and attractiveness as a tool. It’s definitely part of why Bruce’s first instincts are to suspect she could be an untrustworthy and immoral person, when ironically she’s just a woman trying to take care of herself, not destructively forcing her extreme convictions on the world like two guys we know.

She’s a very damaged and traumatized person who shows it in her own way, of course. Considering how obviously more fucked up and not ready for a relationship Batman is, one could certainly say she forgives his faults and trusts him a little too quickly and easily, despite what she claims about also assuming the worst about people, because she is lonely and she can’t not see herself in him in a way that hits a nerve. Strays truly are a weakness for her, lol. And she must want to kill Falcone at first because part of her thinks she doesn’t deserve better than to throw her future away in a much more life-changing way than any of her crimes so far. But the difference is Selina doesn’t bleed out in a way that hurts other people. And not having learned the same toxic aggro way to deal with trauma as Bruce, she doesn’t necessarily have the same issues with intimacy either.

Other people have already discussed at length and better than I can how the way a lot of fandom is portraying Selina is so obviously rooted in racism, but I guess this post is a long way of saying that this version of her is...not really that different from the Catwomen we know from other canon, lol (without the film pretending that her race doesn’t matter). And yet people look at her and are like “Badass bi girlboss who will step on you, obviously.” Catwoman has generally always been a beautiful, sexy, feminine antagonist who uses the way she’s perceived as a woman and the attraction men have to her to her advantage and also has a huge romantic side. Funny how suddenly people just can’t see the character in a similar way when, you know...it’s Zoe Kravitz.