#honestly bucky got every right to beat his ass lmao

[lieshot]

He expected some resistance, an ARGUMENT that telling Clint wouldn't resolve jack shit. And yet, how quickly the other seemed to agree. It was enough to cause Barney to make a small tsk against his teeth, laying back against the cot. ❝ Ty po-prezhnemu gotov podchinyat'sya prikazam, kak khoroshiy malen'kiy soldat, ❞ he muttered in Russian as a dig. You're still willing to obey orders like a good little soldier. And here he was calling Barney the dog. At least he wasn't no damn german shepherd just handing someone else the LEASH after being free. Maybe part of him had wanted that CONFLICT. Just give him a reason to let loose. Right now he was only being cordial for the sake of the cigarette he took a drag from, but he was ready to SNAP at any moment.

And Bucky was giving him every single reason with the following words that fell past his lips. It visibly made him TENSE, the cigarette filter being crushed between his fingers and eyes avoiding looking directly at the man. Jaw set and locked, one hand trembling with every URGE to stand up and beat him senseless. He didn't know shit, didn't know anything, he couldn't. But part of it was a terrifying truth: He could recall his dad's face perfectly. Beet red from the liquor, contorted into the perfect vision of RAGE. He didn't know it but practically the spitting image of when Barney had gone BERZERK on Bucky in that warehouse, swinging a knife around to get any sort of hit down on him. Clearly anger ran more in the blood of one brother than the other though he wouldn't dare compare Clint to their ma.

The worst part was that some days, if he really tried, he still couldn't get a perfect image of his mother's face. How he had loved her and he could barely recall what she looked like. Whisps of blonde hair, a broken smile, but that was about it. Probably blue eyes but Barney couldn't recall for certain.

❝ You shut your goddamn mouth when you're talkin' about her. ❞ That country twang came out just a little thicker, too pissed off to rely on the slightly more city accent he'd adopted in his twenties. No one had any RIGHT to even mention her and that's all Bucky seemed to be doing. Bringing up his parents, throwing those memories back in his face. A trip down hellish memory lane, the man having been determined to keep the thoughts of HYDRA and his childhood locked away in the furthest recesses of his mind. Don't think about them, don't let them break him DOWN. And like hell he was going to admit that he could barely recall his mother to the asshole in the cell with him.

Just STOP talking. Of course Barney wouldn't have just let Clint rot. How many times in the army had he others sat, waiting for news of MIA comrades? How many times had he and the others been the ones to go and recover whoever and whatever they could after a mission? Dog tags had never been SUFFICIENT enough for Barney back then, though that was part of their whole purpose. No body, no proof, especially when their missing brothers could just as easily wind up as prisoners of war. There was always a sense of RELIEF when a corpse was found though it was coupled by grief. At least they were done suffering. At least they were done FIGHTING. Right now, he'd liken them more to his brothers than his own flesh and blood. The one that had been CONTENT to just sit back and do nothing. If they had known, if they had heard about him 'dying' while undercover—— well, Barney would bet all he had that they'd be looking for him.

Clint had just sat back and either KNEW or didn't give a shit enough to actually look. It still felt like the former, especially with how many times the little Avengers had come to blows with HYDRA and he never knew? Never looked over records or anything? ❝ I might have gone lookin'. But that's just because I had a duty of fuckin' care put on me as a kid for the damned RUNT. You know how many bodies I had to pull back in the army? Clint never really learned the lesson of 'no man left behind'. ❞ He didn't deserve to be anyone's HERO.

Not with what Barney knew. Not with what he wanted the WORLD to know.

He could see the shift in the other at the mention of bringing Clint down and his lips twitched upwards for just a moment in a clear smirk before settling back down. Clearly he wasn't the only one with a TEMPER. Sitting back up, Barney was slow to get to his feet. Just in case, he wouldn't be caught off guard again. ❝ No, you aren't getting the PICTURE yet. First, I'm going to ruin his name. Make every fuckin' civilian doubt him. Maybe even his own little teammates. Then I'm gonna start picking off anything he cares about. Rip him apart, piece by piece. Beat him to hell several times, not just once. Maybe I'll come for you first to get under his skin, maybe after so you can see the AFTERMATH, who knows? But he's gonna regret every day I was left down there. I'll destroy him until he just wishes it was over. And you might just be around to see the FINALE of this little fuckin' circus act. ❞ Once and for all. Then maybe Clint would have an idea of what he had gone through. Break him down just like HYDRA had tried to do.

Bucky’s jaw twitched and his eyebrows drew together.  He wasn’t scared of much, but telling Clint all the things he did to his brother?  Yeah, he was scared of that.  No matter what the outcome was, it would be shit.  Clint could be volatile.  He was a good guy but he was fueled by emotion and instinct and sometimes that ended up coming out in ways he regretted later.  There was a good chance Clint wouldn’t even let him finish.  He’d just storm out and tell him not to be there when he got back.  That would be heartbreaking for Bucky.  Worse still would be if he just said it was okay, that it wasn’t Bucky.  He’d heard so many times that when he had done that back then, he was a victim too, and he Bucky hated hearing it.  And if Clint did that, Barney would hold it against him.

Either way he knew that Clint wouldn’t be able to look at him.  Not right away.  Maybe not for a week or so while he processed it.  Even if he did tell him it wasn’t his fault.

But Barney was also right.  Not only did Bucky need to do this so Clint could make the choice to be with him based on all the information, but Bucky had hurt Barney and if Barney wanted him to tell the whole damned world what he’d done to the man, he’d do it.  Barney deserved that respect at least.

“Okay,” he said.  “I’ll tell him.”

Bucky shook his head.  “There’s a difference.  There’s a difference between your dad and Clint and all the rest of them.  Including me.  You want me to hurt.  You want me to feel everything I put you through.  It doesn’t matter that I did or worse before you got there.  You want it to be from your own hand.  But you watch the life drain out of my eye and you’re done.  You don’t mourn me.  You might think of me again but never consciously.  I’m just the avatar for the trauma you went through.  Your family though?  There’s always love there, even when there shouldn’t be.  You HATE your dad because he should have LOVED you.  You wanted that, right?  Wanted him to stop hitting you and tell you he was sorry.  The way he died wasn’t good enough because there was no resolution.  There was just an escape that took your mother with it.   There was no, I was wrong.  I should have been better.  There was just the cops at your door and  them taking you to the next place where the cycle started over.  But you don’t think about those foster parents with the same burning hatred you feel for your dad right?  They’re just faceless fists that hit you or abused you in other ways and then bounced you to the next faceless abusers.  I bet you can still see your dad’s face right?  Probably even clearer than your moms.  Because he had one job and that job was to love you and you were a little boy who couldn’t see why you didn’t get that.”

That was a risky speech.  He knew there was truth to it.  He had so many friends with that same trauma.  He’d heard it again and again like a loop.  He’d heard all those things from Clint’s lips when he’d been drunk and hurting so bad he was doubled over with it. Steve Rogers’ dad who beat him and his mother until he died young.  Tony Stark who’s would be pacing the room while he talked about needing a drink because his father had taught him that’s how you processed pain and grief from the age of seven.  Bruce Banner who had been thrown down the stairs by his father at the age of two and then ended up beating that same man to death by his mother’s grave.

But Barney wouldn’t want to hear it.  Not from anyone, especially not from Bucky Barnes.  And there was a chance it would be the straw that sent his rage right over.

“But Clint - Clint’s different again.  Because you do actually love him.  You love him and hate him and resent him.  It’s all a jumble of emotions.  He never beat you.  All he did was be the imperfect person he is.  Good enough to get accolades, but caught up in his ego not to realize who was getting left behind or yes, even hurt.  And that’s what hurts.  He SHOULD have noticed.  Because YOU would have, right?  You wouldn’t have left him to rot in HYDRA.  If there was no body, YOU wouldn’t have rested until you found one.  Because you love him.  And it stings to know that he didn’t do the same for you.  Especially when you were going through what you did.  But YOU - the real you, not THIS  - YOU wouldn’t want him dead for that.  The real you will grieve if you do it.  So you gotta get to the bottom of this because it won’t fix it.  It won’t.  You’re just gonna make it worse.”

His prosthetic flexes and he’s hit by the sudden urge to remind Barney exactly who he’s dealing with.  To start beating on him until SHIELD come in and drag him out of there.  The conversation is done.  If he stays in here any longer one of them will snap and it won’t be pretty.   He shoves his hands into his pockets and nods at the security camera.  “You’ve warned me.  And I’ve warned you.  The people who are important to Clint are important to me too.  You get out of here, I know what’s gonna happen.  I won’t stop.  I won’t be held on a leash.  I’ll put you down.  You know I can do it, all that bravado doesn’t change what you know to be true.” 

[gothgirlmahi]

Selfish

These tumblr writings have become my one way ticket to hell I hope you guys are happy lmao

Dark!Steve x Reader, Bucky x Reader Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3

Summary: Steve is your husband’s best friend but with Bucky on a mission, he jumps at the chance to become more.

Warnings: non con

A knock on the door disturbed you from your evening rituals of drinking tea and watching trashy reality TV. You turned the show down and ran to take a peek at your visitor. Steve was standing on your porch, shuffling around with his hands in his pockets. 

What was Steve doing here?

Bucky was on a mission and you thought he would know that. Maybe he left something here?

You were puzzled but opened the door to greet him nonetheless.

“Hi, Steve.”

“Hey, uh, can I come in?”

Everything in you was saying no. No you can’t come in. I’m busy doing—what did they call it? Self care. Get off of my porch.

“Yeah, sure.” Stupid. You couldn’t refuse. He was Bucky’s best friend and Captain America. He wouldn’t come over if he didn’t need anything. The sooner in, the sooner out you supposed. 

You all walked into the kitchen where you propped yourself against the counter and waited for him to explain himself. When he didn’t, you had to ask.

“Why are you here, Steve?” Your intent wasn’t to sound callous but you wanted to know why he was here. Your anxiety started to build as you hoped he hadn’t come with bad news about Bucky.

“I have to be honest. I came here for you.”

“What do you mean?”

He ran a hand through his hair with a nervous laugh.

“This is embarrassing. I don’t know how to put this. I care about you.”

Your heart stopped.

“Okay?” You blinked in confusion, hoping he didn’t mean what you thought. Steve shook his head.

“No, you don’t understand. I have feelings for you. I love you. I’m in love with you.”

Instinctively you took a few steps back.

“That’s not funny.”

“It’s not a joke.” He backed you into the counter, trapping you between his arms.

“I’m married to Bucky, I’m married to your best friend. Steve, I do not have feelings for you.”

He put his head down, sighing deeply.

“I was afraid you’d say that. Are you sure? I thought there were some times we really connected.”

“Steve, you’re scaring me.”

“I know. Your heart is beating fast. You should probably calm down.” “I’ll calm down when you get away from me.”

He was quiet for a moment, just staring at you and smiling. His hand came to caress your cheek and you slapped it away. His face fell, turning quickly to anger.

“Turn around. Right now,” he commanded. You shook your head, adrenaline racing through your veins. Steve had lost it.

“Steve, please. Stop. You’re scaring me.”

Steve ignored you and roughly flipped you so your stomach was laying against the counter. You tried to reach back and hit him, but he firmly held both of your hands at your lower back Steve was much stronger than you were. There was no chance of you getting out of his hold. His hips pushed against yours and you could feel his erection brushing against your ass. Tears welled in your eyes.

“Steve, stop. Please just think about Bucky.”

He groaned and spanked you hard.

“Trust me, Bucky isn’t who I’m thinking about right now.”

You tried to kick at him but his legs held yours in place while he pushed your dress over your ass. He easily ripped your panties off, exposing all of you to him. He rutted against you for a moment before pulling back.

“God, I can’t wait to have you.”

You could barely talk between your sobbing and hiccuping.

“Steve, stop! Why are you doing this?!”

“Hey, shh. It’s all okay. I’ll make it good for you. I promise.”

His hand strayed down to cover your clit and you gasped. He pulled back, licking two of his fingers before putting them back on you and rubbing. You squirmed around in discomfort and Steve pushed you harder into the counter.

Even as he played with you, you were honestly too scared to be aroused. Your husband’s best friend was literally holding you down about to take you against your will. It was fucked up on every level. You were frozen to your spot, your body tense as he dipped between your dry folds. He sighed.

“I see this isn’t working. Are you really not attracted to me?” he asked, sounding a little hurt.

As you were shaking your head, he pulled something out of his pocket. A bottle of lube. You glared at him through your tears and he smirked.

“I told you I didn’t want to hurt you. I need to get you ready for me.”

He let go of your hands and used his body weight to hold you down. Even through his clothes, you could feel how big he was as he rubbed himself against your bare ass. A few more tears fell.

He flipped the cap of the lube open, pouring some out onto his hand before setting it on the counter. His hand came to hold both of yours down again and he let up on his body weight. Two of his fingers were shoved inside you without warning, easily gliding in with the lube. He fingered you quickly, scissoring his fingers and trying to work you open. He added another finger and you cried out, clenching around him. As much as you hated it, you were getting wet for him. You could feel the slickness covering your folds. Steve laughed to himself. 

“This is even better than I imagined.”

It was sick. He had imagined this. He had planned this. You had to wonder how long you had been the object of his desire. What was it about you that attracted him? Some days you weren’t even sure why Bucky kept you around so you couldn’t imagine why s man like Steve would want you. He could have any girl on the planet begging for him but he had to choose the one who wasn’t interested. The one woman that should have been off limits for him.

Steve pulled out to focus on your clit and you tried to stifle a moan with your hand. You could feel yourself getting closer. You really didn’t want to come like this but Steve wasn’t exactly asking. He laughed again at the sight of your shaking legs.

“Don’t act like you’re not enjoying it. No one’s here to hear you except me. You can cry and scream all you need to, but you will come for me.”

He was right. You couldn’t stop it. The pleasure building in your core was too much. Even as you were frightened and disgusted of your situation, your body was still reacting to him. You bit into the sleeve of your dress as you came and Steve never let up as you went through it. You bucked against his hand as you came down from your high.

When you heard him undoing his belt, all the fight rushed back into you. You kicked and screamed, trying to push him off of you. Steve was able to quell your rebellion embarrassingly quick, holding you down to the counter like it was nothing. He continued undoing his pants until he was able to pull himself out. When you felt his naked cock against you, a fresh wave of tears hit you. You sobbed and cried and begged him to stop. He wouldn’t have any of it.

Steve pushed his thick length inside of you until he bottomed out. You screamed again, shocked by how big he was and how much it hurt. He leaned to whisper in your ear as he attempted to push even further into you.

“I know it’s selfish but I had to have you. And feeling you around me is worth it. Fuck, Bucky is a lucky man.”

Steve slid you slightly off of the counter to get a better angle. One strong arm wrapped around your waist and the other over your shoulder for leverage. You squirmed and you knew it was futile but you mind kept telling you that you had to try. 

He gave a few experimental thrusts inside you before picking up a rhythm. He laid himself over you, kissing at your neck and down your back while he fucked into you. Steve was a bit bigger than Bucky, uncomfortably so and you flinched every time he hit a little too deep.

“I’m being too gentle, aren’t I? You and Bucky like to hate fuck. Isn’t that right?”

You and Bucky had issues sure, and sometimes you worked them out in bed but how did he know that?

Steve tried to concentrate. The feeling of your walls snug around him kept pulling him back in. He knew it was wrong to force you into this, but it felt good. He knew he could make it good for you too. He’d just have to give you more of what you liked. The way you screamed for him only made him want you more.

“Ah, you’re gorgeous. Wish you were mine.”

He pulled you up so your back was to his chest, moving you up and down on his cock. The change in position helped your discomfort move to something else. The friction of his cock against your inner walls had you biting your lip to keep from making any noise. You didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of knowing the effect he had on you.

His hand slid up to palm your breast and he groaned into the skin of your neck. The tension building in your abdomen burst and you screamed as he rutted into you. You tightened around his length, hating yourself for enjoying what he was doing to you. 

Steve leaned close to your ear and whispered.

“This is a dream come true. I’m gonna cum. Gonna cum in that tight little pussy.”

Your mind flew into a panic.

“No! Steve, pull out! Please, pull out!”

“I know you and Buck were trying for a kid, but—fuck—I’m here and he’s not.” Steve buried his face in your hair as he came, filling you completely. Your lip quivered as you thought about the consequences of what he did. About what would happen when Bucky got home. About what would happen if you had a baby that looked a bit too much like the wrong super soldier...

Steve wasn’t proud of what he did, but he had to deal with his attraction to his friend’s wife. Had to have her one good time to get it out of his system. But now that he had her, he only wanted more. More of the moans he was able to draw from you. More of your tight heat clenching around him as you tried to fight your release.

And if he was lucky, you might even make him a father.

[awesome-timtams]

Avengers: Endgame Spoiler Review/Thoughts and shit

(if you want me to add more tags to this, just comment or something and I’ll get on it ASAP)

Alright, so I saw Avengers: Endgame this morning. I guess this is going to be a review of sorts? Mostly just me typing out all my thoughts. So yeah, review, theories (ish?) and other things amongst all that.

 I did this last year for Infinity War and it was a huge mess. I decided to actually properly capitalise my words this time so it’s a bit more readable lmao. I’ve sort of had all day (12 hours) to really think about this so hopefully it’s a bit more coherent than my last year’s mindless rambling? I’m already rambling. Welp ;-;

 MAJOR SPOILERS UNDERNEATH CUT!! DO NOT PRESS READ MORE IF YOU DON’T WANT TO READ MORE.

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Everybody who doesn’t want spoilers gone? This is your last chance.

  Ok, first things first, the movie is fucking amazing. There were so many instances where I cried, or laughed, or just really wanted to fucking scream because holy hell this movie was really intense. Honestly, I thought the humour managed to flow into the dramatic scenes really well. There was never a moment where I felt like a joke fell flat or came in at an inappropriate time.

 The feels. THE FEELS. The emotions. I can't. I was already sobbing by the time the first 20 minutes were over. A character appears on screen? Tears. Every single time there was a team shot? Tears. Somebody even opens their mouth to say something? Tears. But yeah, this movie made me an emotional wreck and I can't even.

 The movie starting off with Clint, and his family turning into dust? Expected, but still incredibly cruel, and still hurt a lot. Like, damn, I knew Endgame was going to be intense, but being reduced to tears in the first five minutes was incredibly unfair and just goddamned hurtful. Clint's dedication to his family was really sweet and I just garghhhhhhhhhh I loved it.

 So yeah. Character deaths. Natasha dying just about ruined my century, so thanks Marvel. I first started panicking when they said they were gonna get the stones, and Clint and Natasha were heading to Vormir. And then it kinda hit me that one of them was gonna have to sacrifice the other for the stone. And then the whole scene with Clint and Natasha trying to beat each other into throwing themselves off the cliff. Dumbasses. Why couldn't they both just live and nobody has to sacrifice anybody? And now I feel depressed again ;-; . On the other hand, I'm sort of happy that Natasha at least died feeling like she'd made amends for her past (she didn't have to she was already amazing :'(( ). Her character arc finished with her sacrifice and wow that's so depressing ;-;;; At least we get to see her in the Black Widow movie one last time? ;-;

 And Tony. I honestly didn't really think Marvel was going to go through with Tony's death tbh. I think it was probably one of the most depressing scenes I've had to witness with my own two eyes ever, and I definitely wasn't ready for it to happen. I fucking broke when Peter started crying and calling him 'Tony' because like, have we ever seen him refer to Tony as anything other than Mr Stark? I fucking lost it man. And Tony had Pepper, and he was married to her, and they had a little house by the lake, and a daughter (his daughter is so precious omg). And now he's dead and she'll grow up without her father I just fucking arGHHHHHHH. Honestly I just feel really attacked and hurt and this movie has ruined me. At least he got closure with his father. That was kinda a really sweet scene, and I cried at that too. I cried at fucking everything in this movie ;-;

 But yes, depressing scenes aside, can we just. Take a moment to talk about the final battle? Because that scene was absolutely splendid. I loved how every character got a couple seconds to themselves to just have a little hero moment, and how they did the whole girl power thing with the whole squad and they were so badass and I sort of teared up at that part too because they were all so amazing and I just love them so much and the only thing that would've made that scene better would be if Natasha had been with them but she can't because she's fucking dead oh my god.

 But when the portals opened up and all the characters stepped out of them. It looked fucking magical. I swear to God I had So Many Chills. It was just so fucking amazing to watch them all step out as one and yanno…”Avengers, Assemble!”. God bless them all. The audience lost their shit at this bit. Screaming and clapping and it was just absolutely breathtaking to see this scene. Like, there's just this energy, yanno? And the group shots. T’Challa leading his kingdom into the fight. Tony and Pepper’s really cute scene in their armour together. And, can we just take a break to talk about our fucking lord and saviour Steve Rogers? I love that boy so much holy shit. When Thor was about to die, and Mjolnir had flown in and hit Thanos, before flying off to the person who had thrown it. And it’s Steve Fucking Rogers, standing there holding Mjolnir? And he starts walking down the battlefield with his half broken shield in one hand and Mjolnir in the other? That was such a powerful image have I mentioned I fucking love Steve Rogers? But yeah, I love how they carried that on from AoU. But then that sort of begs the question: was Steve really able to lift Mjolnir in AoU but didn’t because he didn’t want to draw more attention to himself, or was he just not able to because he hadn’t reached peak worthiness yet?

 Also, the whole New York scene was just amazing, fucking hilarious and just amazing. Who knew that all we needed to make a sequence great was to have a 100% necessary focus on Steve's ass? Jokes aside, it was really nostalgic seeing the whole 2012 New York battle again. I especially loved how they let us see parts that actually weren't in the movie, like the whole 'Avengers running into Pierce' thing. And how HYDRA got their hands on the sceptre. Seeing Steve do the whole 'Hail Hydra' thing to blend in kinda gave me chills lol. And Steve's fight with 2012!Steve was also really amazingly done and I fucking loved that sequence. The whole "I can do this all da-" "yeah yeAH I kNow I knOOW" was fucking hilarious tbh. (And also: "That is America's ass…")

Also, can I say that Steve was just really done with everything in this movie lmao. He was a solid fucking mood honestly. (”Are you shitting me??” “...he’s a baby.” “-.-”) And then his scene with Bucky at the end oh my goddd. “Don’t do anything stupid.” “How can I? You’re taking all the stupid with you.” And honestly I sort of died right there...It’s also this moment I’m realising Bucky probably knew about Steve’s plans, because otherwise they wouldn’t have said goodbye like that if Steve was only going to be gone for a bit. And Bucky wasn’t panicked at all when Steve missed the jump back. So what, does that mean they planned for Steve to have his dramatic ass entrance back into the present by appearing besides the lake? Kind of a funny image lol. Anyway, I’ll stop talking about Steve lmao.

 Thor was fucking amazing in this movie tbh. His first scene in the future is hilarious, with the whole drunkard attitude and the beer gut and Korg playing fucking Fortnite Jesus Christ. His scene with Frigga in the movie also made me cry so much. It kinda made me realise he never really managed to get a proper goodbye with his mother before she died, yanno? And now he's finally getting it, and he can go on to the future with the knowledge that his mother is proud of him and believes he's a hero and afilajiopklgskl. Also, the pure joy when he finds out he's still worthy of Mjolnir? Such a sweet happy wholesome character despite all the losses he's gone through ;-; . Although, since he has decided to join the Guardians, does that mean he's going to be in Guardians of the Galaxy 3? And we know how there's been talk of a Thor 4 recently, right? It's probably just code for GOTG3 lol.

 And finally, Bruce Banner. It was really funny to see him emerge as a mix of himself and Hulk together, I'm not gonna lie. A lot of people in the audience started laughing when we saw the Hulk emerge in a sweater and jeans or whatever the hell he was wearing. But yeah, Bruce was great. When he volunteered himself to wield the Infinity Gauntlet v2.0? Legendary. But yeah, I honestly don't have much to say about Bruce honestly. Other than the fact that he dabbed at the beginning of the movie. Legendary. And when Scott spilled his tacos so Bruce offered him more with the purest smile on his face? I melted. Legendary.

 Anyway, miscellaneous thoughts time. I'm lowkey sort of kinda disappointed Nebula didn't get to kill Thanos? Like, I feel like, if anybody really deserved to kill that asshole, it was Nebula. She's suffered an entire life of torture and abuse from this dickhead, and has been manipulated by him so many times to do his dirty work. And how she still couldn't stop seeing him as a father figure in the end, despite all the terrible shit he's done to her? Actually, that's probably why she didn't get to kill him lol. And also, Sam Wilson is the new fucking Captain America bitches. I really fucking hoped that, if under any circumstances Steve had to give up his shield, it would go to Sam Wilson, because he fucking deserves it. Of course, I wouldn't have minded it going to Bucky, but my poor baby's already been through enough ;-; . Let him rest ;-; (but then, there's the whole Falcon and Winter Soldier show coming up fuck I'm so excited for it lmao).

 And also, Valkyrie. Is now. The new Queen of Asgard. I can't even. My baby girl deserves fucking everything :') She deserves the title of Queen so much and I'm so glad that's a new development. Hopefully we get to see more of her in the future and how she fares with the title of leader in Asgard :'D

 But yeah, I think that's about it for what I have on characters. So, moving on to theories and sort of plot holes I suppose?

 So, have we had any news on what the Loki show is going to focus on? I haven't really been paying enough attention to news on the shows tbh. But if nothing's been confirmed yet, I sort of have a theory. So we know how, when they're trying to get the Space Stone in New York, they fail and Loki gets away with the stone? I'm wondering if the TV show might potentially focus on what he does after he escapes New York with the stone. It's a possibility, I suppose.

 And now, finally, one of my biggest…annoyances (? I'm not sure this is the word I want to use but the only other word that's coming to mind is iffs which isn't even a real word so moving on) (edit: issues! I found the right word :D . The word I want to use is issues lol) with the movie is the last scene. 

Steggy is a fucking blessed ship, and I love them, don't get me wrong. The plane scene in TFA and the hospital scene in TWS never fail to reduce me to a big sobbing fucking baby. And I'm so fucking happy that they finally got the dance that's been promised to them for so many decades. But the whole thing just doesn't really make sense to me.

 So basically, in the earlier parts of the movie, Bruce has already stated that time travel does not work like how we've all been trained to understand from other parts of pop culture. It's not quite travelling to the past, as nothing they do there will affect their future. What I interpreted from that (and I could be wrong, but this is my understanding) is that when they travel to the past, they end up creating a separate branch of events and shit that diverges from the timeline of events that will lead to their present. It doesn't erase their present, but just sort of forms a permanent branch, you feel? So, Steve travelling back to the past in order to live his life with Peggy only to end up in their present again brought in a huge amount of plot holes.

 For Steve to have lived a life with Peggy and marry her, that would mean events would change drastically. I doubt they got married in secret, so people must've known 'Steve' was alive and OK. Would that mean the search for the past Steve that's still frozen in the Arctic stop, since they're all assuming he's alive? If that happens, that means the Tesseract would've never been found, and that would've led to a whole bunch of other events that would definitely not allow for grandpa Steve to join up again with the MCU's present timeline, as it would've brought him into a different branch instead.

 But, hypothetically, let's say Steve lives with Peggy in secret. They get married in secret, nobody knows he's still alive, they continue with the search, yadda yadda. Now, since Steve is from the future, he would know that SHIELD is being infiltrated by HYDRA, and that Bucky would still be alive and is currently being the Winter Soldier and doing assassin-y shit. And I really, really, highly doubt that Steve would just live a life with Peggy and not interrupt with any of this shit. It's just so against his nature to ignore all of this? So, let's say he does root out HYDRA. That would affect the future. TWS, and everything afterwards would've never happened. So it definitely wouldn't be possible for Steve to return to the MCU's current, present timeline if he lived out his life, as he would've been, once again, on a different, permanently separated branch.

 Let's say, hypothetically, he lived with Peggy in secret. Nobody knew he was alive. He knew HYDRA was growing inside SHIELD and didn't do anything. He knew his best friend was being tortured and brainwashed for decades and didn't do anything. Even then, him just living with Peggy and marrying her would've changed all the events and wouldn't have allowed him to just let his branch converge with the present MCU timeline without messing around with some serious science and shit (which is all highly unlikely tbh).

 So basically, what I'm trying to say is, the whole last scene is fucked and can't have happened without saying 'fuck-it-all' to the rules established in the movie. But yeah, that was just the one and only glaring issue to me I couldn't stop thinking about. But either way, I loved the way the movie ended with the Steggy scene. It was really beautiful and sweet and just everything we could've wanted for their dance :')) . It was also a really bittersweet sort of tone to end the film on? Absolutely gorgeous. 

(edit: wow OK so I made a whole separate post just for this scene because a couple days after I posted this, I realised my thoughts and feelings towards this scene had changed and I had a lot more to say about it. So. Yeah. Here it is.)

 But anyway. Shit. That's it. I've spent this whole past year thinking about this movie and waiting for it, and now that I've watched it and it's over, I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. This whole day, I've been feeling incredibly empty honestly. I'm still not quite over Natasha and Tony, and I don't think I'll ever be (which, by the way. Marvel, I'll be sending you the bill for all the emotional trauma you've caused.) But this movie was a bloody masterpiece, and I fucking loved it. The trip down memory lane with the time travel was honestly so incredibly implemented. I was really worried when I realised time travel was going to be involved with this movie, because it introduces a device that can retcon everything and just basically takes away the emotional impact of every event that happens because you can just time travel. But the fact that they introduced the mechanic where you can't affect the past by travelling there does close that issue up. Well done. Very clever.

 But, yeah. Fuck. It's over. 11 years, and it went out with a bang. I honestly have no idea how Marvel is gonna top this for the next era. It seems almost impossible, honestly. I just really hope they do, because I would hate to have a franchise as amazing as the MCU end up fizzling out because their most impressive movie came years before the end and they end up never being able to top it. But these are probably just irrational worries.

 Anyway, final score. 14000605/1. Would definitely watch again. Just not immediately. I still haven't fully digested the movie, and I still feel really empty and full of emotions at the same time even though it's been more than 12 hours since I've seen the movie. So yeah. Imma wait a bit, and then I'll probs rewatch it.

 Anyway, rant over. Hope you enjoyed, I guess? I nearly burst into tears so many times trying to write this fucking thing. If you've seen the movie, feel free to DM me. I'm always up to chat with people lol. And if you haven't seen the movie, what the fuck are you doing reading this? Go watch the damned movie. Christ.

 I might end up making edits to this if I think up of more things to talk about. Or maybe I'll make a separate post. I'll probs make a separate post. But anyway. Farewell, y'all. Time to go hide under my blankets and cry until Far From Home comes out.

 (Also, this thing is 3069 words. Wow. Jesus Christ. If I put this amount of effort into my assignments, I’d be bringing in straight As. Oops.)

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4, 6, 9, 10, 12: Rhodey and Bucky, 15, 16, 21, 23, 27, 29, 30, 32, 35, 37, 43, 46, 50, 54: Tony

You know that meme where the white woman is looking at the math overlaying the picture in confusion? That was me when I got this ask because instead of reading the fucking questions on the ask meme I put up I decided ‘Rhodey and Bucky’ were some other thing? Long story short I’m a moron lmao.

4- Favorite actress

Tbh I don’t pay much attention to the actresses and thus I almost missed out of saying Tessa Thompson like some kind of savage. I appreciate how hard she worked to try and make Valkyrie bisexual and also her character was basically the only thing I liked about Thor: Ragnarok (controversial opinion, I know).

6- Favorite quote

“Trust my rage” from Thor The Dark World. This line is so visceral and poetic. Like shit son, the rest of the movie was eh, but that line? Fucking amazing, and Hiddleston’s delivery of it is top tier bois.

9- BROTP

Pepper and Tony. I’ve never seen the romance between them, and in my opinion it was there because it seems movies are fucking incapable of not having a romance subplot (no hate to pepperony shippers either, everyone likes what they like and the entire point of fic is to circumvent canon anyways). But as a friendship pairing these two are excellent- they’re a great team, they understand each other on a fundamental level, and their friendship dynamic is interesting. Also, to me, I think their relationship is more compelling without the romance.

10- How did I discovered Marvel?

I’ve mentioned this in other asks but I had a friend make me watch Avengers and I didn’t like it lmao. I only gave it another show two years later and started from the beginning with CA:TFA and then I got into it. I’m not sure what changed or why I took to it later, especially when I found the later half of TFA to be kind of boring (I love Skinny!Steve ok) but it happened and when WS came out I saw it in theaters. From then I was hooked.

12- Make me choose between two characters: Rhodey and Bucky

Damn, I’d rather not have to choose, you suck! But, for the sake of the ask, Rhodey. As a character he’s better constructed, has his own story and motivation outside Tony, he’s funny, and while he has his moments (that I mostly blame on shit writing) he’s a great friend. I honestly wish that we could get a whole movie about him doing things but I did hear some rumors not long ago about Marvel looking into making Iron Man 4 an Ironheart movie and the only thing that would make that better is if Rhodey were her mentor (I literally wrote a story about this once).

Anyways, although I write Bucky a lot more than I do Rhodey I do prefer his character in a more fundamental way simply because he’s more fleshed out. Plus I love male friendships that are actually good and James Rhodey Rhodes is the God Tier of friends. The man spent 3 fucking months combing the desert for his disaster friend and that’s some damn dedication. Especially when you know people must have gotten real damn annoyed with him using resources and shit. But that action alone tells you everything you need to know about him and none of it is bad. I love Rhodey, seriously.

15- Top 5 ships

Tony/T’Challa

Tony/ Bucky

Tony/ Stephen

Tony/Rhodey

And, because I feel compelled to put a ship that doesn’t have Tony in it Steve/Howard

Honorable Mentions: Tony/ Peter Q

16- Top 5 villains

THANOS

Erik Killmonger

Loki

Justin Hammer (he’s just so absurd)

Ghost (from Ant Man and The Wasp)

Seriously, this was hard because Marvel’s villains are shit. They’re all the same one dimensional ‘they’re evil’ type characters.

21- Dream crossover

Basically any urban fantasy world I loved in my teens and the MCU. I’ve written a Vampire Academy/ MCU crossover but I’d love to write a House of Night crossover (I hate the characters in HoN, but love the world ok don’t judge), and a Shadowhunters crossover. I’ve seen some cool stuff with Teen Wolf being crossed over too though.

23- Most layered character

Tony fucking easily. His arcs are always the most compelling (or close to it), he’s had the most character development, and his trauma plays out so beautifully on screen. I’d argue Steve is a close second post WS, but the MCU will never let his character play out the development he’s gotten because they’ll never let Steve be less than perfect, which pisses me off. Otherwise his transition from a solider who wants to do right by his country to a cynical man who doesn’t know how to process the new world he’s been tossed into or how to handle a situation in which the morally correct solution isn’t abundantly obvious would be a compelling watch. But its been consistently proven that Steve will never get a real realization of his new characterization because ~~perfection~~.

27- Favorite moment

Shiiiit. That’s a lot of material and because I have a bad memory I’m going to go with ‘don’t call us plucky, we don’t know what it means’ because that was hilarious lmao.

29- Saddest moment

Shit boi, probs a toss up between Peter P’s death and Bucky’s. Peter’s is obvious but Bucky fucking dusting in front of the dude who spent so long trying to find him again in an effort to feel, even if its just for a moment, like he’s home again? Sad af. I felt awful for Steve there.

30- Most beautiful scene

Pretty much all of Black Panther is a visual treat, but I’m especially fond of T’Challa in the dream world with his father. That scene was so beautiful, and all the colors? Amazing. Only Guardians of the Galaxy even compares visually and even then Wakanda’s beauty has something else to offer that space doesn’t.

32- Actor/Actress I’d like to be cast by Marvel

As mentioned above I pay literally zero attention to actors- its a personal choice not to spend time being a voyeur into other people’s lives and treat them like commodities to consume because I loath celebrity culture (and this isn’t a slam to anyone who enjoys it, its more a slam to people who over engage in it- ie people who care enough to send death threats or paps basically). Anyways that’s an opinion you didn’t ask for, but because of that personal opinion I have no real cast choice lmao.

35- Most boring plotline?

I love Thor but all his movies. The first movie had good personal growth but eh. The second was an ok movie but forgettable (aside from my fav line from Loki in it), and unpopular opinion I hated Thor Ragarok. I mean it was funny. That’s all the good I have to say about it really. Though I have no idea why every comedy writers room is not leaping at a chance to get Taikia on their staff because the man is a comedic genius and that’s honestly being impolite to his comedy skill. Still, as much as I like Thor I didn’t really love any of his movies and all his villains were so fucking boring, even Loki wasn’t that interesting till Avengers. Poor Thor, MCU did him dirty :(

37- Most well done character death

Peter P. I give this to him over Bucky because apparently most of that scene was improv? I cried over my spider son ok. There’s someone who was in that theater with me who heard me sob out ‘my spider son’ and went home to tell people about it. That shit was heartbreaking. Second runner up goes to T’Challa but I didn’t think it was well done, I just thought it was sad as shit for Okoye and I love her so it was upsetting to see her lose her king :(

43- Characters I wish they’ve met

I don’t understand the question :( I think it’s supposed to be ‘characters you wish would met’ but all my wishes were granted in IW. Tony and Stephen met and so did Tony and Quill. I shipped Tony with both characters before they’d interacted on screen so it was nice to see :) Rhodey and Quill would be a fucking hoot together though, throw in Okoye and Valkyrie and you’ve got a bunch of drunk overpowered people telling war stories or, in Quill’s case, stories about that time he stole some shit.

46- What characters outside of the Mcu I’d like to see in a Marvel movie?

Ironheart, but I heard rumors they might do a movie with her. I think it’d be fun to have Riri in screen, especially since Peter is around her age. I’d also love to see a Young Avengers movie or a Kamala Khan/ Ms. Marvel movie though apparently there’s rumors of that too.

50- Characters that deserved better

Tony, Bucky, and Steve but all for different reasons. Steve deserves his fall from grace and not because I think he should suffer, but because keeping him on his pedestal means he’ll never be able to fully process his trauma and move on. Allow him to fall, allow him to know he isn’t perfect, then allow him to know that that’s ok, he doesn’t need to be, he just needs to do the best he can and then allow him a proper chance to move on.

Bucky because he deserves to be a character outside of Steve and, to a much smaller extent, Tony. Let the man have a movie about self actualization after trauma, let him figure out he isn’t Steve Roger’s best friend anymore (and that Steve isn’t really Steve anymore) and that that’s ok, they can both accept themselves as they exist now and still be friends. Let him develop hobbies outside of Steve, have him bond with Rhodey, he needs a good friend. Shit, let him bond with Sam too. Give me a buddy movie where Sam lowkey therapies Bucky into being a fuckin person again and Bucky finds some way to repay him. He can go beat up Scott for that time he kicked Sam’s ass lol.

And Tony because the MCU makes fuckin everything his fault, even stuff that only somewhat involves him. They drive him to an absolute breaking point and then have the characters get pissed that he broke? The only one that I found acceptable was Pepper and that’s mostly because I understand why she’d be freaked out both by Tony’s obsessive behavior and by nearly being eaten by one of his suits. She had her own shit she was dealing with post Mandarin so her I understand. Everyone else though? Mostly makes no sense. Why are you surprised that a person snaps when they’re pushed to the limit? That’s how people work lmao but that’s also because the writers make an active, and completely senseless, choice to have the characters react like Tony’s mental health problems are a choice he made and now he has to suffer because he has PTSD or some shit. Idk, but AoU was the worst for it, and, to a lesser extend IM3 but I refuse to believe Rhodey would really tell Tony to get over himself after a panic attack- the man is emotionally intelligent ok, IM3 did Rhodey dirty.

54- 5 things I love most about: Tony

Tony’s sheer level of wonder at the world around him- the look on his face in IM2 when he rediscovers that element perfectly encapsulates how he feels about learning and moving forward. (Flipside is that sometimes he has trouble staying in the present and that causes problems).

The way he tries no matter how badly he fails. Bih, if my random tests on a rock nearly ended the world I’d out and out throw myself off a cliff. Instead he accepts his part in it (and more) and chooses to try and make the best of it. He’s done that from the moment he got snatched by terrorists in Afghanistan. That in itself is basically a superpower.

His humor. I, too, hide my emotional distress under jokes so I can relate to being a lil bit of an asshole to hide how I feel. (Flipside: people don’t think he takes stuff seriously- hence Steve in the Avengers).

His mental health problems. Ok this one is weird, but I can appreciate that someone drew up a hero that isn’t based in perfection, but who tries to get there anyways. But the dude has problems, a lot of problems, and they aren’t always pretty. But they are complicated and it is compelling to watch.

The way he builds relationships. Its unconventional- Rhodey is probably the only person he’s super close to that he met in a normal way. Happy and Pepper were both people that worked for him and instead of just being their boss he took the time to learn about them and get to know them on a personal level. Obviously he ended up engaged to Pepper, but a guy who knows what his driver’s favorite show is and why he likes it is a good dude. He’d be nice to wait staff in restaurants.

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gimme some winteriron like...fluff its my secret weakness (maybe a halloween party and buck has a really dumb old costume or something? go wild)

Ahaaaaa I think I sort of turned fluff into angst but like, it’s STILL THERE SO

Also I just had to include Peter lmao

Send me a prompt!

Buckywas going to kill Steve. No joke, he was. He was going tosteal that top hat of his and shove his stupid walking cane up hisass, see if blond President Lincoln was still smirking then.

“Cometo the party, they said,” he muttered. “It’ll be fun,they said.”

Sufficeto say, Steve wasn’t very happy with his best friend doing nothingwith his life except workout, catch up with the 21st century and dodge any form of socializing– he was not hiding,Steve – with any of his so called new team mates. He had so manydifficulties trying not to mix up English with Russian for a whilethere, or trying to sleep without blood-curdling nightmares assaultinghim every night, or trying not to kill people who accidentally snuckup on him.

So.Eat, sleep, train, repeat.

Also,attend arm maintenance sessions. Which was also a bit of a problem.Not at first, mind you—he was begrudgingly fine with letting HowardStark’s son tamper with his arm if it meant he could stop some ofthe chronic pain that throbbed and burned every day at his shoulderand phantom arm, or ease his every move so that he could punch thebad guys in the face with minimal casualties. Regarding himself, thatis.

Butdon’t think he was leaping at the chance of yet another wackymechanic poking at his arm and reminding him how much of a freak he’sbecome. No, it was because Tony Stark was a wonder. He was theone who noticed, the pain whenever he moved, the rust thatreared its ugly head in battle. And when he asked to take a look, itwas as if he was barely holding back his excitement. As if his armwas something to marvel about.

Stevehad mentioned a therapist to help him, but the already ludicrous ideaturned useless as he adhered to sessions with Tony in the workshop.

Hedidn’t understand or try to help him, no. He just listened. Helistened, and refused to treat him as if he were glass, likesome people. Despite what Bucky did to him, he still talked tohim as himself, talked to him how he would talk to an equal humanbeing.

AndBucky soon found himself lost, lostin those doe brown eyes and clever hands, and he was a God damnidiot, that’s what he was.

Goodjob, pal. You’re gone on Tony Stark. And you killed his parents.

Givingup on yet the third try at picking up his beer, Bucky let Russianslip through his teeth as he cursed his choice of costume. Again. Hereally was going tokill Steve for convincing him into coming to Tony’s Halloweenparty. And he was going to kill himself for coming as werewolf,of all ridiculous things.

He’dasked Sam how he could hide his arm and he’d suggested full-bodycostumes, saying he had the perfect one, but Bucky did not expectthis one. Noteto self: kill Sam too.

“Doyou need help with that?”

Buckyraised one eyebrow at the shorty cloakedin white on the other side of the kitchenisland.

“Whatare you, a spider ghost?”

Spider-Manflailed. “I’m justa ghost! The eyes are so that people know who’s under thedisguise.”

“Doesn’t that go against the point of a disguise?”

Thekid blinked at him – or his specs did.

“Yousir, can lick away the beer fromthe floor.”

Buckysnorted and watched him dash back to the party, beer can on one handand Coke on the other, before settling next to the oneperson he’d obviously only go to. His black tux suited him like asecond skin and his eyes gleamed all the way from across the room ashe spun a tale to the very skeptical Agent Hill.Bucky could hear his laughter, and so could the butterflies in hisstomach, apparently.

Abunny. Tony was dressed as abunny, fluffy whiteears sprouting from his dark hair and nose painted into a pink snout.When he’d turned, Bucky felt blood rushing at the sight of a whitelittle ball just over his backside, nestled in the creasethat joined the tails of his coat. God damnit.

APlayboy bunny, Natasha hadclarified,dressed indark green pants, black gloves, black top, and avariety of weapons beltedalong her hips. Hadn’tSpidey blurted out, “Kim Possible!” right next to him, Buckywould have never remembered the show. Honestly,he’d expected something a lot more high maintenance from her.

He’dalso expected a high maintenance party, knowing Tony, but the Playboybunny in question convincedMs. Potts into dealing with the lavish Halloween party while he hadanother, more intimate party to finally reconnect with his old teammates, after a long way down the mutual apologies path.But Bucky would have paid tosee Clint and his Wonder Woman costume at a black tie event.

Butit wasn’t the party that was the only problem, obviously. Tonyin a bunny costume. Itwas sexy, alright. Damn sexy. But it was also adorable.Bucky had thought Tony was cute from the moment he’d first glancedat him, but this—thiswas almost torture. It fit Tony so well,what with the undying, endearing curiosity that watermarked hispersonality. He made the perfect bunny and Bucky was gonnathrow Steve and Sam out the window, how quick would that laughterdie, he wondered.

Hegrowled in their direction and turned away from the party. He reallyshouldn’t have come. He shouldn’t have lefthis rooms. He shouldn’thave caved to Steve’s begging. He shouldn’t have caved to Tony’sbegging to check on his arm, heshouldn’t have read too much into his stares, he shouldn’t havemoved into the compound. He shouldn’t have left cryo.

Cometo think of it, maybe he should have stayed dead.

“Hey,sour wolf, party’sover there.”

Ifit were anyone else, Bucky would have grabbed them by the scruff andflung them at the wall. As it was, he just frowned at Tony’sconcern. His peripheral vision was jacked because of his costume, sohe heard more than saw the half-empty beer can as it came in contactwith the counter.

“Isit the arm? I could have a quick look.”

Buckywanted to laugh. He really didn’t deserve this man.

“No,it’s not that.” He swallowed back saliva. “I’m just thinkingI wasn’t that ready to do this.”

Tony’shand on his was definitely a surprise, butdefinitely not unwelcome. His pristine white gloves differed starklyfrom the dark fur covering his hand. Bucky turned slightly, just so,and met earnest brown. Tony’s smile was a rueful upturn of hismouth.

“Wenever really are,” he said. Something in his eyes made hope flarein Bucky’s chest. “Now come on, I need someone to laugh at Fury’spirate costume with me.”

“Youfreakin’serious—”

Buckyscanned the room and indeed, lo and behold, there was Nick Fury withhis ever permanent scowl and a blue pirate hat on his bald head. It was clearly shovedon by someone far too drunk and Bucky had never seen anythingfunnier.

Tonygrinned at his guffaw.“I really thought I’d get a treat from you, tonight.”

Buckyfelt his lips mirror his before he could help himself.

“Atreat?”

“Yes,instead I got tricked becauseyou got tricked intoSam’s suggestions. Now all thoughts of slobbering over hot soldierBucky Barnes on a Tarzanthong are out the window.”

Buckylaughed way too loud,feeling far too giddy for someone who hadn’t a single drop of boozeall evening.

“Ididn’t know what to do about the arm. And the hair.”

“Thearm didn’t need anything to be done with, thank you very much,”Tony chastised. He seemed to think for a moment. “You wouldhave rocked theAragorn look. I couldhave supplied a super realistic costume and everything.”

“Idon’t remember any Lord of the Rings characters with murderousmetal arms.”

Tonywaved a hand. “Steampunk. It’s a thing.”

Buckysmirked.

“Doesmy costume really put you off?” He lowered his head and his voice.“Is the little bunny afraid of the big bad wolf?”

Tonylooked more amused than charmed, lips tight like he was trying not tolaugh. His fake whiskersstretched on his cheeks as their eyes met, and his pink nosetwitched. It was cute as hell, too cute. Bucky wanted to steal akiss.

WhenTony beat him to it, he thought that maybe coming to the party wasn’t that much of a bad decision after all.