#honest to god love her sfm

[alwaysahiccupandastrid]

Just finished watching the FNAF movie (hooray for early UK release!) and I unironically loved it. Some things I want to mention…

Spoilers under the cut!

MATTHEW LILLARD AS WILLIAM AFTON 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

JOSH HUTCHINSON AS MIKE SCHMIDT 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

Honestly me just losing my fucking shit whenever there was a reference to the lore/games?!?! Like I was SO excited it was unreal

THE TOREADOR MARCH?!? FOXY SINGING?!? BALLOON BOY?!?! VANESSA?!? THE FREDDY LAUGH?!? THE “IT’S ME” WRITTEN ON THE MIRROR?!?

Not gory at all tbh like there’s a couple of scenes involving blood but most of the kills cut away before showing anything (there WAS a scene where Freddy chomped someone’s torso in half but you only see her bottom half afterwards, like the bite happens in the shadows)

There were, in fact, five nights at Freddy’s (and one day) (yes I counted lol) and absolutely nothing of particular scariness happened on Nights 1 or 2, Night 3 was cute, Night 4 started off cute but got sad and then Night 5 was kind of terrifying, kind of funny, kind of fucking awesome and filled with lore

They definitely missed a trick by not mentioning the Bite of ‘87 (or ‘83? Idk) or Golden Freddy but I know there MIGHT be a sequel so… 👀

I spent the whole of the movie trying to figure out who the fifth child/animatronic was 💀 like obviously Freddy, Chica, Bonnie and Foxy… was the fifth one the fucking cupcake?!?!

The cupcake was kinda goofy but I loved it all the same

The animatronics went from villains to not villains to villains to not villains again like what a journey

Look most of my FNAF knowledge admittedly comes from watching Markiplier and JackSepticEye playthroughs but since when was Vanessa William Afton’s daughter?!? Also is Vanessa THE Vanny???

Going into soft play with the pre schoolers at work is NOT going to be the same after this film 💀

Literally all of the people in the cinema freaked out when Springtrap appeared oh my god

We have come SO FAR since the SFM fanmade videos of William Afton in the Springtrap suit getting springlocked and dying surrounded by the ghost children in the animatronics like holy shIT?!?!

“I always come back” - cue the 20 people at the 10:50am showing I was in absolutely losing their fucking shit

In the sequel (if there’s a sequel) I DEMAND more Matthew Lillard as William Afton/Springtrap like yeah he’s dead but FLASHBACKS!!!! Prequels?!? So much potential there. What I’m trying to say is that we deserved more of him, he was amazing but only there at the beginning and the very end, that’s my top complaint tbh

Not that scary to be honest but there’s some jump scares

I will say this, it definitely felt VERY campy at times, like there were moments involving murderous animatronics where we were all giggling in the cinema

Abby (Abi?) was VERY cute and sweet but also I wanted to shake her like you fucking idiot why are you going up to the scary ass animatronics?!? Stay in the office with your sleeping brother

The fact Mike still has custody of his sister after their aunt was presumably murdered in his home is not adding up but hey ho 😂

Is it the best movie ever made? No, but it was enjoyable for me so I call it a win

If anyone has any questions or wants to talk about it, feel free to hit me up, I won’t be able to reply until just over 4 hours time though as I’m about to head into nursery and do a shift so… yep!

[ssweeneys]

[ultimaid]

there's no way I can't suggest for s4m for the blorbo thing

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

jimothan. honest to god it is jimothan. i rotate him in my mind. kamal and habit are up there tho

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)

hrn…. hmm. there’s a lot of really cute characters in sfm but i gotta go for putunia

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

jimothan again but also marv. i need more people to care about marv

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

i’ll go for fortune teller carla. i love her a lot she is nice

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

parsley, not because he’s problematic, but because i want to dunk him in soapy water and then hang him up to dry with clothespins

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

havent they all had enough torment

eeby deeby (character i would send to superhell)

cowboy bed

[thegreymoon]

Ever Night

I have talked TWO whole people into watching this show since last night! 😆😆 It is now my mission to inflict it on as many poor souls as possible and that will be my evil deed for this year!! *evil laughter intensifies*

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LMAO, I love how much obvious contempt he has for the Princess and her entire obnoxious family 🤣🤣

I’m still not over how she tried to claim credit for Ning Que helping Chao Xiaoshu to manipulate him into supporting her against the Empress, and also how she insisted on calling him ‘uncle’ when he made it clear that he was uncomfortable with the familiarity. 

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In love with this place 😭😭

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LMAO, I aspire to take all my exams with the same nonchalance that Ning Que takes his with 🤣🤣

He’s so delightfully unbothered!! 

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I am screaming 🤣🤣

He is such an inspiration! 🤣🤣

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Aww, no, why did you walk out of the music exam, baby?? I was really looking forward to your performance!! 🤣🤣

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LMAOOOOO, she failed his fanfic because it’s too good!! 🤣🤣

I AM DEAD AND BURIED AND CURRENTLY DRINKING TEA WITH HUA CHENG 👻👻

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I AM LIVING!! 🤣🤣

He’s so jelly!! 🤣🤣 Anyway, definitely shipping the Princess with the hot bodyguard 🔥🔥 Get it, sis! I am rooting for you!! 😋😋

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My obituary is going to list the cause of death as ‘Died of Laughter at Ning Que’s Entrance Exam’ 🤣🤣

I love his crazy, shameless ass sfm! 🤣🤣 I love it doubly so when I remember that this is what poor Chu Wanning had to put up with for years 🤣🤣 I remember someone saying once that Mo Ran may be Chu Wanning’s beloved husband, but he was definitely his least favourite disciple because Shi Mei at least did his homework 🤣🤣

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Wait, so this insane sewer villain actually loves her? 

Interesting 🤔🤔

Still shipping her with the bodyguard, though. 

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Poor baby, it seems like he’s doomed to beg aloof, antisocial masters to teach him to cultivate in every incarnation 🤣🤣

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Hot, passionate and smart! 😋

Not to mention, so smitten with her!! 😆😆 I hope they won’t kill him off too fast 😕

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What is this place so gorgeous for 😭😭

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This episode is killing me 🤣🤣

Honest to God, it looks like a toilet! 🤣🤣

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Their faces!! 🤣🤣

I AM SCREAMING 🤣🤣

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LMAO, he’s certifiably insane 😬

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This actor is fantastic, though! Truly, a master!

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Is this show intentionally channeling Catholic vibes or am I imagining things? 

This whole evil Church with their Holy God is so Christian, and that is before we even get to the whole son of the King of Hell who will bring about the end of the world and destruction of humankind 🤔

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Like, at this point, I am half-expecting Bradley James to show up, shirtless and covered in blood 😅

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Shut up, you disaster, we’ve all seen you prop the table up with your books 🤣🤣

My love for him knows no bounds 🤣🤣

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WEN QING!!

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LMAO, passing the entrance exam seems to have been truly difficult 🤣🤣

God, entrance exams are such garbage 😫 I passed three college entrance exams in my life so far and studied less and less for each subsequent one (or, more accurately, not at all for the third one, I showed up not even knowing what they were testing) 🤣🤣

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LMAO, Ning Que, I love you!! 🤣🤣

Also, eeeeeewww 🤢🤮

[deunan403]

41, 42, 43, 44

Whoaa, how did I miss this one?? I ain’t nowhere popular enough to overlook asks so plz forgive my late ass.

41. Character you’d choose to be your moirail?

This one’s hard, but I think my pick would definitely be Meenah. I love that bitch sfm. God, I love her. The shenanigans we’d get into though. Best main dude.

42. Character you’d choose to be your kismesis?

UH. Mm. To my own surprise, I’mma say Terezi probably. She has the right kind of personality that would make me go “you son of a bitch, I’ll fuckin’ murder you” as much as I would be like “awh, you precious thot.” Though granted, half the time I don’t understand what the fuck she’s saying, which would make me even more angry and flustered when dealing with her.

43. Character you’d choose to be your matesprit?

Why you gotta put me on the spot like this. What is this befriend/fuck/marry sequence of questions. I ain’t out here tryin to fuck the HS cast. But if I were, it would be Roxy, hands down. They’re my bae and I would watch the world burn for their happiness. Just sayin.

45. Character you’d vacillate quadrants with?

Another tough one, you sly trick. I see you. Took much deliberating since there are plenty I’d want to chill with, love on, but also beat the shit out of if I’m being honest. But ultimately, it would more than likely wind up being Jake fuckin English. I almost feel bad for saying it, but it’s gotta be the Dirk in me. Damn that idiot asshole and his himbo underdog charms. They’re my one weakness.

[janiedean]

so admittingly I don't know much about springsteen but your top 5/10 springsteen songs and why?

WELL THEN HERE WE GO (sorry this required a long answer) (also if I start going like ‘this is it bUT IN THIS VERSION NOT IN THAT ONE it’s because actually he has wildly different version of the same song XDDD)

*cough* *drum roll* videos for the first five + links for the others as usual xD

one: the ghost of tom joad

I once ranted about this specific song in detail so here if anyone’s interested, but: it took me years to decide on which one was my favorite overall but then I went for tom joad because it has all. it’s a heartbreaking song that updates one of my favorite ever novels (the grapes of wrath) to current days situations and guys I swear to god the fact that he put to music tom’s speech to his mother in the novel at the end after rehashing the themes in a new light in the rest of it killed me and I want it tattooed, so. tom joad now and always thanks guys. I love this damned song to levels that are embarrassing as hell.

two: no surrender (in the live 75-85 version)

so: no surrender is originally on born in the usa and actually it’s my favorite song from that record regardless - like, it opens side two and I remember that the first time I heard it was on a tape a friend’s dad (haha) had lent me bc he knew I was into bruce and he was too and I turned it to the second side of the tape and played it and I was like holy crap this is it but then I heard the acoustic live version from the following tour and guys. guys. if you ever had friends you fell out of touch with but still remember fondly and/or friendships you know that even if you don’t talk for a while you’ll always be close when you meet again this is.. just… idk it hit me like a punch in the stomach and it never left. I cried every single time he played it live when I went to see him. no regrets. I love this song sfm and the melancholy in the acoustic version just destroys me.

three: for you (acoustic piano version)

I 100% realize this is probably a weird choice for top three, but: this was on his first album and the version on there is pretty damned good - it’s about a guy whose girlfriend tries to commit suicide and reminesces about their relationship - and you’d go like why, but: first of all he has some of his best lines in this (my electric surges free I just sdgsldjl) and the entire last stanza where he goes from where I found you broken at the beach to the end is just a knife into your heart, but this goddamned version here just goes and tears your heart out and stomps on it and I swear if there is one thing I want from bruce is that he plays this in front of me next time I see him live because for now I never managed and just - the slow piano kills me. I love it. the fact that when I asked brian fallon in a tumblr q&a his fave bruce song and he said this specific one just confirmed he’s a true intellectual. ;)

four: drive all night

or: this is the love song. I just. the first time I heard this I fell off the chair or something and it was the studio version which is nowhere near as heartfelt as the live versions and I swear it’s just - it has very lovely lyrics that perfectly balance melancholy and hopeful and don’t make it saccharine, the fucking sax solo destroys me every single goddamned time I hear it and when you get to the end and he says that she has his love heart and soul it’s The Most Heartfelt Thing I Have Ever Heard In My Life Or Close To It and I just, I love drive all night with every inch of my atoms, bye.

five: badlands

I ranted about this extensively yesterday here so I refer you to it for long rant about it, but tldr: this was actually the first bruce song I ever heard knowing it was by bruce - it wasn’t what got me on that train but it still was the first and like… I didn’t understand it for a long time bc my first run-in with bruce was a hit and miss but then I did and like, this song is basically quintessential bruce because it has all his themes rolled up into one, all the good stuff, everything that is good about his music and most of all live it’s a goddamned religious experience. 

so, that was for the top five, but top ten…

six: youngstown (click here for full rant from last year) which was a hard choice but this damned song slays me whether acoustic or electric and I love his use of language and how he built it and how he teaches you things in five minutes pretty much and how the music/mood matches the words in both versions and seems to mean different approaches but still doesn’t change the core of it, and is2g the last two lines and the second stanza and the line he recycled from the mahardige book he inspired himself with when he wrote this are just goddamned out of this world and like this one raised the ladder for years but I just, love it to pieces

seven: rosalita (come out tonight), or: bruce does serious and politics incredibly well but this one is just a delight from beginning to end, it’s fun, I could listen to it for a month without getting tired, it always puts a smile on my face and the entire last part where he tells her to inform her dad he has a record company now so no reason to hate that his daughter is with a moneyless musician is just… so… lovely and fun and lighthearted and I just really love this song a lot ;;

eight: highway patrolman or, there’s no way a top ten bruce songs has no nebraska material from me because nebraska Is A Damn Masterpiece and this one’s my fave off it, but tldr: the utter, absolute way this thing slays you with just voice and guitar and the way he makes you feel about the cop who ends up letting his brother with ptsd from vietnam escape after he accidentally kills someone is out of this world and I just, this one really has a way to make you empathize with the narrator and my heart ;_; (also the movie they made from it which is in that video is really good k viggo mortensen playing the brother with ptsd isn’t leaving me anytime soon)

nine: thunder road (rant attached to the link) or: this one is short and sweet but honest, it’s not The Definitive Love Song To Me just bc drive all night exists. this damned song is a masterpiece in itself. it’s flawless. it has the crescendo, it has the fact that at whichever moment in his life he sings it it works, ‘it’s a town full of losers and I’m pulling out of here to win’ is the most iconic line that ever ended a song or close to it and it’s exactly the kinda love song you wanna hear if you want realistic love song material and just, legendary. okay? legendary.

ten: american skin (41 shots), or: this actually is what got me into springsteen bc I borrowed the live album it was published on originally after my first try with darkness went so-so, I listened to it and was like ‘okay yeah he’s good’, then I got to this one and went like ‘wait a fucking moment this isn’t just good’ (count that I was twelve and understood maybe 1/5th in the english songs I heard), I actually looked it up, went like woah wait aaand listened to it for two weeks straight, bought the record, translated everything by hand, started reading about what the fuck was wrong with the circumstances for which it was written and here I am twenty years later dying over bruce and having been introduced thanks to him to 80% of his country’s societal issues or I’d have had no idea that early in my life. anyway: other than the sentimental value, it’s honestly out of this world good and the live version just nailed it way better than the studio that was released years later and I love bruce a lot, k? k.

thanks for letting me rant ;)

[chimcharstar]

Questions 1, 2, skip a few, 99 100! ANSWER THEM ALL!!!!!!

LETS DO THIS

99 gay-ish asks

how tall are you?5 SOMETHING

what is your body type?SLENDERMAN

what is your favorite part about your body?THE T

is your current hair color your natural hair color?YES

are you more outgoing or more shy?SHY

are you more femme or butch?ITS COMPLICATED, BUT, BUTCH

are you tol or smol?APPARENTLY IM TWINK. NOT SURE WHERE THAT IS ON THIS SCALE

wine mom or vodka aunt?NO

weird habit?I EAT BREAKFAST FOOD AT ANY HOUR

favorite meme?VIBE CHECK, IM SMUG ABOUT MY URL

do you sing in the shower?NO BUT I USED TO. JUST SHY ABOUT ROOMMATES. I DO IN MY CAR

ever used a bow and arrow?NO, BUT MY BROTHER DESIGNED AND BUILT ONE, GOT IN TROUBLE FOR MAKING A WEAPON

are/were you a theatre kid?IN AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE WHERE IM ALLOWED TO HAVE AN EGO, YES

have you ever seen a broadway musical?NO

do you think musicals are cheesy?NO I THINK THEYRE JUST A MEDIUM OF ART

have you ever been a part of a protest or a march?NO WEIRDLY

favorite Cards Against Humanity Card?IDK THEM

last movie you watched?PROBABLY MEGEAMIND

behind the camera or in front of it?BEHIND. BUT BOTH IS GOOD

favorite tv show?AVATAR THE LAST AIRBENDER

meaning behind your urlTHE ACTUAL REASON IS IT REMINDS ME I CAN TRUST MY INTUITION

reason you joined tumblrA CRUSH WROTE IN MY YEARBOOK I SHOULD GET IT. DONT WRITE THAT IN PEOPLES YEARBOOKS

who’s your closest tumblr friend?THE PERSON ASKING ME 99 QUESTIONS

what’s something most people love that you hate?TACOS AT WORK. THEYRE POPULAR OF COURSE. I MAY NOT KNOW MY TACOS, BUT PLAIN RAW CABBAGE ON THEM MAKES ME DOUBT

have you ever taken narcotics?NO

have you had sex?NO

have you ever gotten caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?I DONT GET CAUGHT!!!! IM SO SNEAKY… AND TRAUMATIZED. I ONLY GOT CAUGHT WHEN PEOPLE WERE LIKE, HUNTING ME. NOT FAIR. ALSO HOW DO YOU “GET CAUGHT” FOR DOING NORMAL THINGS LIKE READING AND HAVING CLOTHES

worst/funniest lie you’ve ever told?PROBABLY THE REASSURING CHRISTIAN VALUES THINGS I TOLD MY PARENTS TO GET MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE. IT WAS THE FUNNIEST BECAUSE FOR SOMEONE INCONVENIENTLY TRUTHFUL, THAT WAS SOME PRETTY HARDCORE LYING IN A RIDICULOUS SITUATION, AND THE WORST BECAUSE WHAT A HORRIBLE THING TO HAVE TO DO. IT WAS HORRIBLE BECAUSE I WAS SO CONVINCING BECAUSE I MIXED IT WITH THE TRUTH I COULD SINCERELY EXPRESS

describe your passion without mentioning it.HEY GUYS IM WRITING CHAPTER 1 AGAIN I THINK I FIGURED IT OUT THIS TIME

describe your best friend.WARM STRONG RESILIENT UNCONDITIONALLY LOVING KINDLY HONEST CREATIVE TALENTED BRAVE HARDWORKING BEAUTIFUL ORIGINAL NURTURING SELF CONFIDENT

give us one thing about you that no one knows.NO ONE KNOWS THE GRITTY DETAILS OF SOME SAD MOMENTS IN MY PAST. DID YOU KNOW I HATE THE SMELL OF HOSPITAL FOOD FROM WHEN I VISITED A FAMILY MEMBER IN A PSYCH WARD

how do you feel right now?GOOD, I SHOULD PROBABLY GO TO BED THOUGH

what is your biggest fear?BREAKING SELF HARM STREAK

what’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?SING A SONG EARTH WIND AND FIRE

what is the best decision you’ve made in your life so far?LEAVING MY PARENTS. ITS TAKEN ME AGES TO UNLEARN SO MUCH SELF-DEFEATING STUFF

have you ever tried your hardest and then been disappointed in the end?MOSTLY EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE BUT IM CHILL

something you fantasize about.ACTUALLY DANCING TO MUSIC I LIKE. I NEVER LEARNED HOW TO DANCE BUT I WANT TO SFM

last time you cried and whyTHAT PREACHER GUY IN LUCIFER. IT SUCKED BUT IM SO BLOWN AWAY BY LUCIFERS ANGRY YELLING AT THE SKY. WHAT A GIANT MOOD

what was the last thing that made you laugh?MY SISTER ASKING ME WHAT DILF MEANT

do you really, truly miss someone right now?NO. IF I MISS SOMEONE, ITS A SIGN THEY WERE A BAG OF DICKS TO ME AND MESSED UP MY INNER CLARITY

who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?YOU

the last time you felt broken?WHEN MY TWO FRIENDS AT THE TIME GANGED UP ON ME AND ABANDONED ME AT A NOT PRETTY TIME IN MY LIFE. I COULDNT EAT WHICH AND I STILL STRUGGLE WITH EATING, I NEVER USED TO

are you starting to realize anything?THAT IF I RELY ON MY LIFE EXPERIENCE, ILL EXPECT TO FAIL AND SABOTAGE MYSELF, AND INSTEAD I NEED TO TAKE RISKS AND PUT FAITH IN MY FUTURE.

are you more dominant or more submissive?THERES EVIDENCE FOR BOTH, BUT I THINK THE LATTER IS JUST FROM ABUSE AND GIRL RULES

i’ll only date you if _____. (fill in the blank)WASH YOUR HANDS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

do you prefer to date people the same age as you, younger, or older?AROUND MY AGE THERE IS SOME UNDERSTANDING

describe the person you’re in love with/have a crush on in great detail.IM NOT IN LOVE I DONT EVEN HAVE A CRUSH. I MAY HAVE A SQUISH

do you have any kinks?MAYBE SO

first thing you notice in a person?HOW THEY HANDLE STRESS AND PROBLEMS, IF THEY BLAME/GET ANGRY, OR IF THEY ARE COMPASSIONATE AND PATIENT. LOOKING FOR RED FLAGS

how can someone win your heart?FOOD. CHEESECAKE WAS A POWER MOVE. BONDING… OVER FOOD. I HAVE HAPPY MEMORIES ATTACHED TO BEVERAGES.

been rejected by a crush?YES

have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?YES

would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?NO

is trust a big issue for you?YES

did you hang out with the person you like recently?NO

is confidence cute?YES, SELF LOVE LOOKS GOOD ON PEOPLE

what would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?GOOD FOR THEM. I DONT LIKE ANYONE RIGHT NOW

would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?NO. GIGGLING LIKE A LUNATIC IS AN IMPORTANT PART OF MY LIFE AND YOU NEED TO KEEP UP

does the person you have feelings for right now know you do?IF THEYRE FEELINGS, PROBABLY, BECAUSE IM TRANSPARENT

ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?IVE HAD MY EMBARRASSMENT GLANDS REMOVED FOR MY FTM TRANSITION

do you want to get marriedYEAH WHEN IM FIFTY THEN ILL GET A BUNCH OF DOGS AND CATS AND CHICKENS

worst thing you’ve ever done?APPARENTLY IVE BORROWED BOOKS AND NEVER RETURNED THEM

three things that turn you on.IM GOING THRU PUBERTY 2, TEENAGE BOY EDITION, IT DOESNT TAKE MUCH

who do you hate?I DONT LIKE SUCH SIMPLE CATEGORIES, BUT I START TO FEEL HATRED WITH REPEATED CRUELTY/WHEN SOMEONE REFUSES TO HEAR ME

favorite term of endearment?MY FRIEND

who was your celebrity/fictional gay awakening?I DIDNT REALLY HAVE TVS/POP CULTURE GROWING UP LIKE MOST PEOPLE, PROBABLY FOUND IT IN CREATIVE WRITING

intimidating girls or kind girls?KIND

what do you look for in a possible partner?EQUALITY

do you tend to like more masculine, feminine, or androgynous girls?YES

are you good at flirting?PERHAPS. WHEN IM NOT THINKING ABOUT IT

who was the first person you came out to?I DONT ACTUALLY REMEMBER. A HIGH SCHOOL FRIEND. IT WAS A STRESSFUL COMPLICATED TIME, MY WORLD WAS UPSIDE DOWN, IT WAS GRADUAL

do you have any friends who are wlw?PROBABLY

is your crush wlw?IDK

last person to make you reconsider your sexuality?A DOUCHE CANOE UNFORTUNATELY

write a short love poem to your crush/self?DEAR PERSON,THANK YOU FOR THE CHEESECAKEIT WAS SO GOODBUT ONLY BECAUSE IT WAS FROM YOU

do you fall in love easily?NO. I WISH I DID. I COULD USE THE HIGH TO GET STUFF DONE

is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?I HATE TALKING ABOUT THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL HUMILIATED AND ASHAMED, SO I JUST DONT. I ALSO HATE TALKING ABOUT SELF HARM BECAUSE I NEVER KNOW HOW. AM I GOING TO TRIGGER PEOPLE? AND IT IS SHROUDED IN SHAME AND FEAR.

are you good at hiding your feelings?YES, WHEN I CONSCIOUSLY MAKE AN EFFORT TO

are you a forgiving person?NO. I USED TO BE ALL ABOUT FORGIVENESS, AND GREW UP FORGIVING ABUSIVE CYCLES, IT WAS SO UNHEALTHY. NOW I FEEL LIKE A CROW HOLDING GRUDGES FOR CENTURIES, AND I DONT WANT TO BE BITTER EITHER – I OFTEN FEEL BAD FOR NOT FORGIVING, EVEN IF ITS JUST FORGIVENESS FOR MY OWN SAKE. BUT ITS A NEW DEVELOPMENT THAT IM ALLOWING MYSELF TO FEEL ANGRY, BE TRUTHFUL ABOUT BEING WRONGED, WANT JUSTICE FOR MYSELF. AND MAYBE SOME THINGS SHOULDNT BE FORGIVEN.

what is your “type?”I DONT KNOW. I RECENTLY STARTED GROWING SOME SELF WORTH, AND I DONT THINK THE PEOPLE IVE SOUGHT OUT TO RELIVE MY PAIN COUNTS

fall asleep in her arms or rub her back until she falls asleep in yours?LAST ONE

tall girls or short girls?BOTH IS GOOD

hugs or kisses?HUGS

twirl her around or get twirled?I WANNA TWIRL PEOPLE

tummy kisses or thigh kisses?BOTH

hairline kisses or neck kisses?NECK

play with her hair or stroke her tummy?PLAYING WITH HAIR

making out or soft kisses?MAKING OUT

hugs around the neck or hugs around the waist?WAIST

how confident are you in your sexuality?I THINK PEOPLE WOULD ASSUME IM NOT. IM SHY, AND MY NERDY CHRISTIAN VIBE ISNT GOING ANYWHERE. IM ALSO JUST BEGINNING TO LIVE AS MYSELF AND IM RELEARNING EVERYTHING. BUT WHEN IT COMES TO REALLY KNOWING MYSELF IM CONFIDENT

when you like someone do you blush or get butterflies in your stomach?NO. I WILL START CRANKING OUT ART AND FOCUS LESS THAN USUAL

have you ever liked a friend as more than a friend? did you tell them?YES

how old were you when you realized you were into girls?20ISH BUT THE SIGNS WERE THERE LONG BEFORE

most embarrassing thing you’ve done in front of a cute girl?I GOT MY EMBARRASSMENT GLANDS REMOVED REMEMBER

do you have a favorite lesbian ship? is it canon?I DONT KNOW MANY BUT IM HAPPY FOR THE CANON MARCELINE AND BUBBLEGUM

what is the most aggravating thing someone has said to you about your sexuality?MY SISTER PROJECTING ABOUT HER LIFE. WE HAVE CONSERVATIVE MISOGYNIST PARENTS BUT WE ARE VERY DIFFERENT PEOPLE AND IT DID NOT AFFECT US IN THE SAME WAY

when was the last time a girl made your heart flutter?I FEEL LIKE IM FORGETTING SOMETHING NICE A STRANGER SAID ONCE

what is love to you?NOT SOMETHING YOU DISPENSE AT YOUR CONVENIENCE. ITS A WAY OF LIVING – IF YOU LOVE YOURSELF, YOU LOVE OTHER PEOPLE, AND YOU LOVE THE WORLD AROUND YOU AND TAKE CARE OF IT. ITS NEITHER FAWNING NOR CONTROL – ITS ACCEPTANCE

ask me anything.YOU DIDNT ASK ME ANYTHING SO IM JUST GOING TO TELL YOU SOMETHING. IVE BEEN EATING POPCORN CHICKEN WITH HONEY

[soldierwatch]

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it’s been half a year already !! i’ve had an Excellent time writing for jack, but such fun could not be had without the incredible people i’ve had the upmost pleasure of interacting with !! BIG Thank Yous to all of you who’ve supported this mess. i’ve got a lot of love for you guys. ♥

PLAY OF THE GAME

@animosus  ➡ okay baby, we gotta start with you because NOT ONLY do i love you a stupid amount, but because it’s ENTIRELY YOUR FAULT i’m even here. you letting me watch you play overwatch... you spilling a little bit of lore here & there... you not being there to Stop Me when impulses guided me into buying the game... but that’s okay. that’s more than okay. because of you i found jack, & he & i are Very Happy Together. but not as happy as i am with you !! g o s h you are my Best Friend ;; thank you for stickin’ with me for so long. You Are My Soulmate, You Are My maple-flavored Dream. ♥ thank you for all the support you’ve given me through the years, thanks for being my partner in every context, & thank you for just being in my life. I love you.

@circusglass  ➡ mav you are like ;; The Best ;;;; your presence alone is honestly COMFORTING, & when i see you on my dash my heart gets all ‘ !!! ’ i adore you !! you’re fun, you’re engaging, you’re silly, you support my trash gremlin ( which means a HELLUVA lot, cause i’ve put a lot of work into that blog--- ) & just---i don’t know how to put into words how BRIGHT you are. you are like the golden petals of a field of dandelions !! ilusfm,,

@greenxscarves  ➡ amulu !! i want to start by saying Thank You. you are always there when i need you, without fail, supplying support & distractions & just company that i can TRUST---you make me feel SAFE, if that makes sense. i really treasure you & all you do, all you CONTRIBUTE ; you’re absolutely one of my favorite people to have met on this site. i. i’m literally sitting here emotional just thinking about you. i struggle a lot in communicating, but you never make me feel like i’m at FAULT for it, nor do you ever make me feel ABANDONED, &. just. god, that means more than i can say. i could tell you i’m grateful for you every day for the rest of my life, & it’d still never be enough. thank you. ...& also, i absolutely Love the relationship we’ve built for our muses ; jack quasi-adopting emi means Everything to me & He Would Die For Her. 

@thewitchandtheangels  ➡ F A T E. gosh where do i BEGIN with you---listen, I LOVE YOU. thank you for supporting me for so long,, the fact you’ve been with me all the way since adam means a lot !! i have absolutely treasured all of the relationships we’ve built between a myriad of muses over the years, & it’s all got to do with the fact that you are one of my Very Favorite people to interact with. i’m always gonna be in support of YOU, i hope you know. i think of you often, & it always puts me in a good mood when i do. ♥

@mulltitudinous ➡ HEY BIRB, THANKS FOR LETTING ME BOUNCE JACK OFF YOU SO MUCH---words could never express How Much i love the writing we’ve done together so far. i love what we’ve been able to throw down, because ANGRY jack is Hands-Down one of my FAVORITES to write. i am endlessly appreciative of you allowing me to thread such content with you, & i always get stupidly giddy when i see a reply from you come back. ...also i appreciate all the art you send me, as well as the dragons you’ve shown me ( bonsai is #1 in my heart ). you’re an honest treat to have as a writing partner ;; Thank You ♥

@aquaeques & @seapromised ➡ i wanted to write a message to the Both of you, since there cannot be one without the other. i love you guys to Pieces, & honestly have ever since i first met you both. ;w; the nights spent staying up Too Late plotting klaneo while kira (commanded) urged gohan & i to bed will always be remembered fondly. from all the AUs we’ve all ever come up with, to the way you two break my heart in ways only You Two CAN, i just. i have a lot of affection for you nerds. i love you both a whole lot. ♥♥♥

@ncscope  ➡ Dear Woody,,, it’s been a little while since you’ve been around, my friend, & i think if you pop back in you’ll find a number of messages from me alREADY, but---here’s another just to say You’re Wonderful, & I Am Forever Ecstatic Over Your Incredible Portrayal of Ana. i hope wherever you are, you’re doing well ;; i’m wishing you the best !! 

@preservedhearts  ➡ hey king hey king hey king !! listen you & your friendship means a Helluva lot to me, & i’m so glad to have you in my life. you’ve been the voice of reason in a lot of situations, more than i think you know---you’re kind & compassionate, you’re considerate, & you’re CREATIVE---in addition to you, i love LUTHER as well. he’s more than deserving of all the affection i ( & jack ) can give him, & i am Extremely happy you’re willing to throw him @ me & gun daddy over here. ;w; i love you tons & tons, & then so much more.

@vagasbonds  ➡ cABOOSE. your turn. so, like, LISTEN---grouchy bratty characters have always been a FAVORITE of mine, & you have blessed me with interactions involving elias, the BEST grouchy brat OF ALL. but no matter how much of a grump your muse is, you yourself are still such a sweetheart & i Love You A Whole Lot !! i’m really glad we’ve developed whatever we’ve developed here, because jack dad’ing elias ? elias slowly conceding to it ? eliAS TRUSTING JACK ? that’s what i’m Living for. i love you & your sassy child. c;

HIGHLIGHTS

@valkyrieonlinc ( bee, you are Incredibly sweet & I Hope You’re Well ) ➡ @simple-geometry ( hey neptune, i hope you’re having fun on your trip !! i hope you’re having a more safe time than jack !! ) ➡ @devoutbrother ( HEY HANNAH, i know you don’t write him anymore, but you will Always be my favorite hanzo, & that thread we had ? i go back to read it often just because i Love It Sfm. )  ➡ @bamftumbleweeds ( it’s been a while, my friend ! i think of you often, & always fondly. )  ➡ @owobunnyowo ( daddy/daughter relationship takes Two... listen i love you & the hana interpretation you’ve gifted my dash with. ) ➡ @walcure ( emmett, elias is the Only Reason to be on this site. the two of you are Wonderful. ) ➡ @mekaon ( nanners, i am wishing you All The Best at All Points In Time ;; i thoroughly enjoy Everything you post. ) ➡ @yukitscne ( tez, jack & zen as baking buddies will Always hold a Big Place in my heart )

BLUE TEAM

i admire you all ; keep doin’ what you’re doin’, I’m Rootin’ For You. 

@neuroaltered ஃ @ircnego ஃ @plcytowin ஃ @twotailshakes ஃ @atrophid ஃ @crrypt ஃ @crownedwidow ஃ @xrevolucionario ஃ @infiltratetm ஃ @shrikebled ஃ @adflicte ஃ @duskbrokcn ஃ @dawnbrokcn ஃ @tyzics ஃ @vvarbled ஃ @synthmama ஃ @portalipsis ஃ @spendourlives ஃ @samanupatiika ஃ @ancmalyy ஃ @uchitoru ஃ @fromtheshadcws ஃ @leftxbchind ஃ @captainslain

& to all others who have supported me in one way or another, the Loudest thank you from the very bottom of my heart ; you guys have all helped in part to make it an exciting six months.  here’s hoping i can wring a few more outta jack. ♥

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Let me please squeal a minute, because the combination of Sailor Moon and Doctor Quinn? I don't see those two often. To be honest, I just saw them with you. Oh my God I am so excited about this! I am sorry. I'm finished now ��

lmaoTHANK YOU! tbh, i LOVE doctor quinn sfm XD i watched all the episodes i don’t know how many times haha i wanted to be a doctor when little only because of her!

and yes sailor moon! i have all the mangas, and i think i sill have a few dolls. my favs are sailor moon & sailor saturn haha

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this is gonna be one long ass post so pls bear with me. i just felt like i must write everything in details! today was probably the most surprising day ever for me (pun intended 😂) the night before han asked me if i had any plans or if i wanted to go anywhere on sunday of which i said, no because i really didn't have anywhere i needed to be so i asked him to plan something. he then said, "ok ah i plan but you cannot ask me any questions about whatever i plan. you just follow me only. if you ask also, i will just ignore and not answer the questions." which i agreed to!!! and i was honestly looking forward to see if he actually really did planned anything. the next day, i was in a frikin dilemma LOL. mainly because i didn't know what to wear. i thought of wearing something casual, an oversized tee with a jacket or something but i figured i might be too underdressed and for some reason i wanted to look bomb af for my man. i even put on my gold metallic eyeshadow which i usually never do and mascara!!!!! i just wanted to look cute la ok hahahaha to the point that i even asked seanna what to wear or to give me some ideas for an outfit. but i ended up just piecing my own look together - i wore this cute floral top which i got the other day at temt and my black pleated skirt. pairing it with my chucks and backpack made me look almost like a 90s high school kid or smth HAHAHAAH (what an exaggeration LOL) should have worn my choker out too but ughHh i think i may need to get a new one cus the one i have is a tad bit thick and feels uncomfortable after awhile. bc of my get-up, i felt like +1 to my self confidence!! it made me feel happy. anyway, he came over to my place to fetch me and was alr waiting for me when i came down. the first thing he said when he saw me was, "why you so prettyyyyy" FML can you imagine just how much i was bursting with excitement on the insides and how happy i was???? ofc he always do compliment me from time to time but this time it made me feel really happy because he said "i can see the effort you put into your look today"!!!!! which is true i rly did put quite a bit of extra effort than usual into picking out my outfit and make up today ^^ and those actually boosted my self confidence, it made me feel cute. but oh boy what he did on the bus made me feel all electrifying and melty wtf (can you feel two diff emotions at once bc i did!!!!) so we boarded the bus and took a seat and the next thing he said again was, "why you so prettyyyy" of which i humbly said "nooOoOooO" because i'm so shy???? wtf how long together already still so shy hahahaah. and then proceeded to sniff(?) and kiss my cheek and then a lot of skinship happened wtf i love skinship with han it makes me feel so loved omg the feeling is indescribable la if you really love someone, you will probably feel the same way i do!!!! my fav was when he kept looking at my tummy (ok i'm still actually rly shy about this even tho he said that he doesn't mind and find it cute) and then joked about how the top stretches out and became white (it's a black base top) bc of my tummy. and then i just kept like poking my tummy???????? and then he just grabbed my whole body into his arms and squished me tightly and said smth like "eeee geramnye!!!" wah fuk i rly love it when he speaks malay and go all touchy and clingy HAHAHAAHAH oh i also asked if he had alr eaten and if he still hasn't made any plans we can maybe go grab a bite first then walk around the mall or smth if we don't have any plans for the day. honest to God i don't mind not doing anything as long as i'm with him!! this is absolutely legit. we don't even have to talk or whatever as long as he's physically there for me to see and hold on to ya know what i mean? ok and then we walked towards the mrt and by this time i still don't know where we were going!!!! i kept asking but like he told me the night before, he just ignored my questions and left them unanswered. he then asked me to sit under the fan (it was blazing hot today) while he walked over to he mrt waiting area and as i observed, took out his phone (i thought hmmm maybe he's trying to search where to eat or smth) and then we boarded the train and stopped at kembangan????? which just makes me questioned him again bc why kembangan when there's nothing there at all! there are no malls and places there seems barren. again, he didn't answer and then took me to the taxi stand. by this time i was kinda trying to be patient bc it was so hot and i was perspiring and my makeup was melting and my outfit felt sticky under all that perspiration i just didn't feel cute anymore. i kinda felt like all my efforts to dress up for him was gone just like that and i blame the sun!!!!! it has been rather humid lately and i hate it sfm! and then he told me to stand under the shade while he smoked a stick and then made some calls. by this time i knew he was alr booking a grab and i demanded answers. i wanted to know why he's wasting his money on grab YET AGAIN when we could have just taken the train and save $$!!! we ended up taking the grab anyway and i kinda snapped at him inside and i felt rly sorry for it bc i can be quite a bitch when i'm hot and sweaty. and then bc he didn't wanna tell me where were we going i thought maybe i can ask the grab driver but apparently EVEN SHE WAS IN CAHOOTS WITH HAN OK like i came to a sudden realization that maybe han called her to tell her not to tell me if i asked!!!!!!!! and then she drove thru geylang area and i asked han again where we're going and this time he gave me a hint!!!!!! he said "we're going somewhere where there are lots of food" so ofc my initial thought was onekm!! bc we were nearby and then i asked him "is it onekm?" and then he said "ya how u know!!!" but ugh he lied bc the driver drove past onekm and then all of a sudden we were nearby suntec area. han tried to cover my sight bc he didn't want me to see where we were gonna end up at but i struggled (i was in an uncomfortable position) so he finally relented and then spilled the beans by pointing to a poster of yayoi kusama outside and telling me that's where we're going. AND I WAS SO SHOOKETH!!!! wtf i rly was so shocked ..... ............ it never crossed my mind, not even once throughout the whole journey that he was taking me to the art gallery to see her exhibitions. istg i was so shook i didn't know what to say to him. all i rmbr saying was "omg yayoi kusama??? you're bringing me to yayoi kusama????? it's expensive tho omg whattttttttt" and then i said smth like "noOoo let's not go and waste money it's rly expensive it's like 30 bux per entry wtf" and then he said smth like "u dw go then i go myself la" and i was like "no wth!!!!!" and when we reached there, unfortunately the tickets were all sold out ahahahahah it was rly quite unfortunate bc han took so much effort and wasted money on grabbing down but honestly i felt really fucking touched by his actions today. like all those efforts to keep it a surprise till the very end, money spent on grab bc he thought that if we take the train all the way we will be late for the exhibitions, trying to plan something even though he's a horrible planner. everything he did makes me appreciate his existence in my life even more. he's rly so boyfriend material now wtf so fucking sweet and romantic. but he was really really disappointed to find out that the tickets were all sold out to the point that he even went back down to ask the person at the counter if there's really no tickets left. he said smth like "i don't usually do this and it's not everyday that i plan smth for u but the tickets are all sold out. i should have made an online booking la fuck la" he was just blaming himself all the way and i really felt so sad for him. i wanted to cheer him up but i didn't rly know how to bc i knew how much he tried his best to make me happy today. and for that, i am really really thankful bc in the end, it's the thought that really counts!!! his mood from there on just changed :( and he suddenly became rather grouchy and masked it by saying that he was hungry. but i knew he was still disappointed by the fact that his plans was botched. OK I WILL CONTINUE PART 2 LATER WHEN I AWAKEN FROM MY SLUMBER BC ITS 4:50AM AND IM STARTING TO FEEL SLEEPY