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momentsbeforemass · 4 months ago
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Honest prayer
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Proverbs has one of the most honest prayers ever, with this ask:
    Give me neither poverty nor riches; provide me only with the food I need;
    Lest, being full, I deny you, saying, "Who is the LORD?"
    Or, being in want, I steal, and profane the name of my God.
This is the prayer of someone who knows themselves well. All too well.
Someone who knows that they are able to take any circumstance, any situation they find themselves in. And abuse it, to separate themselves from God.
This is someone who is so aware of the danger that they present to themselves, that they don’t even know what to ask for. 
It’s like driving a car. The windshield seems fine. Clean enough to be able see where you’re going.
But turn into the sun, and you get a surprise. You get to see the real condition of your windshield. All of the dirt and bugs. Maybe even a crack.
When you start praying regularly, it’s easy to feel good about yourself. Spending time with God will do that to you.
But as you get closer to God, at some point you get a surprise. You get to see yourself against the glory of a holy and perfect God.
Which means you get to see the real condition of you. All of the dirt and bugs. Maybe even a crack.
When that happens, our natural impulse is to turn away. Because seeing our real condition isn’t something we like to think about.
And that is exactly what makes this such a powerful prayer. Because at that very moment when it would be easier to turn away, or not think about it, this prayer doesn’t even blink.
It says “God, you know me better than I do. How easily I can screw this up. Give me not what I think I want, but what you know I really need. God, I trust you.”
It’s one of the most honest prayers ever.
One that needs to be yours and mine.
Today’s Readings
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nathan-r-dooley · 1 day ago
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Job 17:1-16 | Job’s Ongoing Lament
The Verses “My spirit is broken, my days are extinguished,The grave is ready for me.Certainly mockers are with me,And my eye gazes on their provocation. Make a pledge for me with Yourself;Who is there that will be my guarantor?For You have kept their hearts away from understanding;Therefore You will not exalt them.He who informs against friends for share of the spoils,The eyes of his children…
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bowenoke · 10 months ago
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if you like florence + the machine and also kristen applebees and figueroth faeth. may i offer you cassandra
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cockroachesunite · 10 months ago
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Priorities
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trensu · 10 months ago
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Heyyy, long time no post, huh? I'm dropping another chunk of stasis in darkness for you guys! And I wanted to remind people that these posts are basically rough drafts. The final product will hopefully be more polished but in the meantime please enjoy!
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After Steve convinced the old man he meant no harm, he’d been allowed into the home. The Lord of Night hadn’t been super specific about the purpose of his quest, only that Steve had to bring him to Wayne Munson. Steve discreetly looked around the home as he entered it. The old man was obviously unwell and had been for a while, given the state of the house. Steve had the creeping suspicion that the time limit the Lord of Night mentioned was linked to the man’s health.
“What are you doing?” Wayne Munson asked suspiciously once he had returned to the kitchen with Steve in tow. He had sat heavily in one of the old worn chairs at the table but Steve, instead of joining him, began to clear the table on impulse. Steve halted awkwardly.
“This ain’t your house, boy,” Wayne said with a scowl. “I can take care of myself.”
Steve did his very best not to look at the scattered mess in the kitchen or living room. It was not the mess of a dirty, careless person. It was the mess of someone tired and overwhelmed. It was the mess of someone in pain who was too proud to ask for help. Steve took in Wayne Munson’s watery eyes, wan skin, and the clothes that were plain things, tattered from use, but mostly stain-free. Steve quickly added all these details and came up with a plan of attack. He set the plate back down.
“Yes, sir,” Steve agreed easily. “I’m aware, but I serve the Lord of Night and he sent me to you specifically. In our god’s name, I must assist you in any way I can.” 
Wayne’s expression wavered. Steve pushed again. He lowered his gaze in a slightly embarrassed manner, letting a note of uncertainty color his words.
“I don’t know what else to do until nightfall,” Steve said. He rubbed the back of his neck bashfully. “I don’t want him to think I’ve neglected you.”
“What happens at nightfall?” Wayne asked.
“It’s when the Lord of Night wants to see you,” Steve said. Wayne blinked.
“Me? He wants to see me?”
“Yeah! So, if you could please let me,” Steve said, putting on his most endearing smile, “I’d like to take care of you until then. You know, make sure you’re comfortable and get the place ready for a divine visit. If it’s not too much trouble, sir?”
“Uh, no, that should be fine. Is…is there anything I should do?” Wayne asked dazedly.
“Not really. All I know is he really wants to see you tonight. Oh, maybe you’d like to rest until then? A nap, so you’re not drowsy when he arrives.”
Wayne nods, still in shock at the news. He didn’t protest when Steve helped him out of the chair and let him lean his weight on him as they navigated to the bedroom. Wayne sat on the bed as Steve drew curtains closed over the room’s single window. The curtains were thick enough to dim the sun to a pale yellow glow.
“I didn’t know there was anyone else who followed him,” Wayne said as he lay himself down over the covers.
"He told me you’re the only one left, besides me,” Steve told him. “And I only discovered him a month ago by accident.”
“By accident?” Wayne asked with a wry grin.
“My friends found a holy text when we were researching other gods. It was the only one of his in the city's whole library. Then we had a hell of a time trying to find his last shrine. When I finally found it, it was falling apart. He’s been forgotten,” Steve said. At Wayne’s troubled expression, he hurriedly added, “But now that I’ve pledged myself to him, I’m going to make sure people know him again.”
Wayne did not appear convinced, but he finally settled to rest after Steve promised to wake him before sunset. Steve took the opportunity to clean. He hadn’t been lying to Wayne when he said he wasn’t sure what to do until nightfall. It didn’t help that Steve also liked to keep himself busy. Being idle made him itch.
The house was small. Aside from Wayne's bedroom, there was only a cramped kitchen and a modest living room. From the small window of the backdoor, Steve could see a short, worn path to an outhouse. 
Given the size of the house, though there was a mess everywhere, it didn’t take Steve very long to clean it all. When it was done to his satisfaction, there were still a few hours left until sunset so he wandered outside. The porch railing was covered with broad green leaves from intertwining vines but Steve left that alone when he saw the small garden nearby. It was full of ripe vegetables that Steve assumed Wayne had been unable to pick himself given his condition. 
By the time Steve had picked the vegetables, pulled the weeds, and watered the garden, the sun hung low in the horizon. He cleaned himself up the best he could in the kitchen sink and took one of the chairs from the table to the bedroom before waking Wayne.
He told Wayne what he accomplished during Wayne’s repose. While Wayne expressed his gratitude politely enough, it was still apparent to Steve that the old man was irritated at having needed the assistance at all. To keep Wayne from dwelling on that, as well as to satisfy his own curiosity, he coaxed Wayne into conversation.
“Can I ask, uh, how you–I mean, how did you know? How did you know the Lord of Night existed?"
Wayne laughed at Steve’s befuddled tone. The laugh turned into a coughing fit. Steve quickly fetched him a glass of water and put it on the bedside table after Wayne had a drink.
“My family’s a bunch of no-good criminals,” Wayne croaked. “Were. It’s only me now. But before, each generation of Munsons took it up. Like a family tradition.”
“Criminals?” asked Steve cautiously. 
“Thieves and con men. Some ladies of the night, if you catch my meaning. They knew of our Lord of Night and passed the knowledge down,” Wayne sighed sadly. “The life of a criminal ain’t what you call stable. We lost bits and pieces of him with every generation. Like his name. No one’s known his name for a very long time. Is that why he wants to see me? Did I fail him?”
There was genuine distress in Wayne’s question so Steve hid his disappointment. He had hoped the Lord of Night’s last worshiper would at least have a clue about where to start the search for the lost name. He focused, instead, on reassuring the old man.
“I don’t know why he wants to see you, but he wasn’t angry when he sent me. He sounded excited.”
“I suppose that’s a good thing,” Wayne said uncertainly.
“Definitely,” Steve assured. Before Wayne could sink into his gloom again, Steve said, “I know you said you’ve lost some knowledge, but do you know if the Lord of Night has any prayers? I haven’t…I mean, I’ve tried to worship him but I don’t think I can do it right without a prayer. I’m kind of new at all this.”
“My ma used to say our Lord didn’t have patience for formalities,” Wayne said, brow furrowed. “They bored him so he only had a few official prayers. There was one where we’d thank him for any dreams he gave us. I think there was another one that asked for dreams to bring inspiration or something of that sort. I don’t really remember those–ma would be boxing my ears for that if she was still around. I remember the one for protection, since we used that one a lot. It goes: 
Lord of Night,  Guide us through all phases Of the moon; May the dark be free of All dangers, While your many stars burn.
Wayne’s voice cracked into a coughing fit near the end. Steve hurriedly offered him water again once Wayne had caught it again. Wayne took a few mouthfuls and repeated the prayer again so Steve could learn it. It took a few tries, but Wayne was patient and by the end of it, Steve had it memorized.
“Is that the only one?” Steve asked, hoping to learn more. Wayne grimaced.
“It’s the only one I really remember. The Lord of Night prefers stories. My ma would tell us the best bedtime stories. Said they were for our god as much as for me and my brother. I was never good at coming up with new stories, so I retell my favorites or tell our Lord about my days and give him a little offering.”
Steve wasn't much of a story teller. He supposed he could do as Wayne did until he met up with Robin and Dustin again. They constantly chatted about books they’d read. Steve couldn’t help but notice how, once again, his friends seemed a better fit for his god than he was; all Steve could give his god was his shield and sword. It was discouraging. He had to figure out a way to make up for it somehow.
“What kind of offerings?” Steve asked. 
He wanted to give his god more; he wanted to give the Lord of Night something he’d actually like. It wasn’t lost on him that the Lord of Night took him under duress. Who else would’ve been able to complete this quest? 
“When I was young, it was horse shoes,” Wayne chuckled at Steve’s confusion. “Thieves are supposed to give him a part of their loot but my ma and pa were horse thieves. They got horseshoes and would leave one for each horse they stole, tied with a braid made of the stolen horse’s mane.”
“You stole horses?” Steve said, unable to fight off a grin as he remembered the conversation he had with the Lord of Night about it.
“Me and my brother, before he passed,” Wayne said with a weak nod. 
The sky had darkened by now. Steve pulled the stone out of his satchel. He carefully unwrapped it from the cloth and set it gently on the bedside table next to the glass of water. Wayne eyed it quizzically.
“It’s from his shrine,” Steve explained. Without any further fussing, Steve stood up and went to the door.
“Don’t leave,” the Lord of Night said. 
Steve turned to see the god, hooded in his cloak of constellations, sitting in the chair Steve had vacated. The Lord of Night had not even glanced Steve's way when he spoke to him. The god’s attention rested solely on Wayne.
Steve hadn’t seen or spoken to the Lord of Night since he’d been accepted as his holy warrior. The god had needed to conserve his energy, he explained to Steve, so that Steve could complete his quest. The god’s cloak was as mesmerizing as the first time. However, this far from the shrine, the god did not look as solid as he had during the nights he spent with Steve. 
“I wanted to give you two some privacy,” Steve said softly. 
“I think Wayne would appreciate not being alone,” the Lord of Night said. 
The old man stared at the god unblinkingly. Wayne’s expression was one of awe and fear, so Steve did as he was told and stayed in the room though he chose to lean on the wall furthest from the pair. He was still close to them in the tiny bedroom, but it provided the pretense of privacy.
“My Lord?” Wayne’s voice was barely audible.
“Hello. I’ve wanted to meet you for years,” the god said.
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mustbethursdayy · 6 months ago
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I don’t think it’s a tragedy that the show that reduced lightsabers to phallic symbols was canceled.
That might just be me though.
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projectjasper · 26 days ago
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the little smile at the end 🤏 cr. kabomb_smileclub
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theodora14pines · 4 months ago
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Here's what I did for day 10-Prayer.
I remembered that Timmy Turner prayer meme and thought "Welp, I think Yamcha is the perfect fit for this!" and here's a version without the the text and "watermark", and the one with and saying "Kami please, give me a partner! Preferably a hot one!"
I mean according to FighterZ and other games, Yamcha just wants to find someone to be with and honestly I couldn't agree more! Anyways, he deserves good things! Also Kami because that is their god there in that world so it just makes sense.
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activelife2024 · 10 months ago
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pratchettquotes · 2 years ago
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"I thought you whispered something," said Agnes.
"I was, er, saying a short prayer," said Oats.
"Will that help?" said Agnes.
"Er...it helps me. The Prophet Brutha said that Om helps those who help one another."
"And does he?"
"To be honest, there are a number of opinions of what was meant."
Terry Pratchett, Carpe Jugulum
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demphix · 8 months ago
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It's fuckin Charif Time
All the music and cover arts I made for her
Here's the YouTube playlist of the themes:
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLWcBEk8qiFhUEMeydinegtXnklzvRqYfg&si=dT9bHFJymG44-KFy
And here's the cover arts but NOT compressed as shit!
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familyvideostevie · 7 months ago
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wanna start writing again anyone have any tips on how to return from the abyss
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itspileofgoodthings · 1 year ago
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If Jane Austen could write about my family from the outside and I could read it then maybe I would be healed.
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afaroffsong · 11 months ago
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An ambulance came for my boss's mother this morning. It's only been two months since his father passed... I don't know what's going on but I do know she hasn't been well for a few weeks now. Please pray for the family if you get a chance.
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ominouspositivity-or-else · 3 hours ago
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speaking honestly and making people concerned for the state of my soul, starring me
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songsofbloodandwater · 2 months ago
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In times of injustice, cruelty and turmoil, we call on the Red Queens, Princesses, Mothers, Priestesses of Blood of our lineage ⚔️ collectively represented under the fleur-de-lis symbol ⚜
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