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[hyperfocusthusly]

Lifelines

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| Part one |

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Tommy leads them up to the front door, shifting her up onto his shoulder, holds her in one arm, hand cradling her head while he opens the door. She snuffles reaching out in sleepy blindness. He tilts his head towards her, presses a kiss to her forehead. Her little hand grasps around until she finds the shell of his ear and settles immediately.

“She’s cute.”

“Ava, her name is Ava.”

He glances up the stairs, normally he would put her down. The one blessing in all of this is that Ava is as big a fan of sleeping as Tommy. He doesn’t want to put her down now, instead he picks the small blanket off the back of the sofa and tucks it around her. He sits down and immediately remembers he’s supposed to be making coffee. He sighs and goes to get up again, but Chimney is quicker.

“Kitchen in there?” He asks, pointing out of the door and down the hall.

“Yeah, but you don’t have to, I can-“ he is cut off by a wave of Chimney’s hand.

“Sit down man, I remember what this bit is like, I’ll make the coffee.”

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“My sister died. Her husband too. A car wreck.”

Chimney winces. He knew that it wasn’t going to be good.

“I’m sorry.” It doesn’t feel like anything close to enough.

Tommy scrubs his face with his free hand.

“I don’t how to do this Howie.” Tommy swallows around the lump in his throat. The admission that had been swirling in his mind for the last two months, finally said out loud.

Chimney makes a sympathetic sound.

“I was taking her to this group but- it’s stupid, everyone thinks I’m her dad, and when I tell them I’m just her Uncle they- they look at me differently. Like I’m not part of their club, like-” he hears his voice crack, he closes his eyes and forces himself to take a breath.

“I haven’t gone the last couple of weeks.”

“Something happened?”

“One of the mums, she didn’t mean to, she was just trying to make conversation.” He chews on his lip. “She asked what Ava’s parents do for work.”

Chimney blows out a breath.

“And I just couldn’t, I couldn’t speak. I felt like she’d just punched me in the face.” He laughs humourlessly. “I’d probably have felt better if she had. I haven’t gone back. I can’t even think about it because-” the edge of his vision begins to blur. “Because if I think about it then- I’ll never be her parent. W-what if I can’t do it? What if I just drag her down with me and-“ A tear slips free, he’s hyper aware of it as it tracks down his cheek.

Chimney shifts on the couch, puts his hand on Tommy’s knee.

“I know. When Kevin died, it felt like I was falling. All the time.” Chimney ducks his head. “He’d been there my whole life, and then he just wasn’t. So I get it.” He looks up, meeting Tommy’s gaze. “But if there’s one thing I’ve always known about you, it’s that you come through. It’s doesn’t matter what it is, you show up. That’s all she needs. She just needs someone who is going to show up for her, that’s enough.”

Tommy takes a shaky breath, the doubt clear on his face.

“She’s so little. I just- I don’t know how I’ll ever explain to her what happened. That I’m not who she thinks I am.”

“I mean it, you are enough. And if you need some help then that’s not you failing, Tommy. An 8 month old by yourself is no picnic, I would know.”

“I don’t-“ he swallows harshly. “I don’t want to put you in that position.”

“In what position? Helping out a friend?”

“You know what I mean.”

Chimney sighs.

“Yeah, I know what you mean. But if you think he wouldn’t be twice as mad about me knowing and not helping then-” he stops short. It hangs between them.

“What happened? You guys seemed so good and the next thing I know I’m drowning in poppy seed loaf.”

Tommy shoots him a quizzical look.

“He’s dealing with it by baking. A lot. Honestly it’s getting to be an issue.”

“He asked me to move in with him.”

Chimney does a great job of not spitting out the sip of coffee he was taking.

“He did what?”

“He didn’t tell you?”

“No, oh my god, that’s so Buck of him. All in, all the time.”

Tommy chuckles, but the humour quickly drains.

“It scared the shit out of me. I’ve done this before and it doesn’t matter how much I l-” he cuts himself off. “I’m not the guy people end up with.”

“So you ran?”

“Haven’t you heard Howie? Running is the only thing I’m really good at.”

“Hey, that’s not true. You’re pretty nifty with a helicopter.”

Tommy smiles, but it’s tight.

“I was going to call, I was and then-” he clenched his jaw. “It doesn’t matter now anyway.” He turns his head, resting his cheek against Ava’s.

“If your biggest problem was that you cared about him so much that it gave you the jitters, then I think it very much does matter.”

Tommy shakes his head minutely.

“What am I supposed to say? You went too fast and scared me, I need to be able to slow down and make sure we’re doing this right. Oh and by the way I have a child now.” Chimney rolls his eyes exaggeratedly.

“Well you could take the sarcasm down a notch and give him some credit.” There’s the slightest tinge of sharpness to Chimney’s voice. His phone chimes and he glances down at the screen.

“I’ve got to go, just- just call him. Tell him what you told me. If there’s one thing I know, it’s that you don’t just let go of something like this.” He stands, picking up the mugs from the coffee table and taking them into the kitchen. For a moment Tommy thinks he might just leave, but he doesn’t. Instead he crouches down next to the couch, gives Tommy a soft look.

“I meant it, when I said I would help. I’ll come by next week, we can go for a walk or something - or I can take her and give you a break. Whatever you need.”

Tommy feels his heart clench inside his chest.

“Yeah, okay. That would be good.”

“Great.”

Chimney heads to the door, just before he closes it he yells back into the house.

“Call him!”

The door clicks shut and Tommy feels like his entire body turns into jelly. An indeterminate amount of time later he forces himself up off the couch, takes Ava upstairs and gently lays her down in her crib. He pulls out his phone and finds the contact.

He takes a deep breath and presses the call button.

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[Read on A03]

| Part three |

Winner of the name! that! baby! event is the lovely @rubydaiquiri 🥳🥳🥳 Ava stole my heart! Thank you to everyone who gave me suggestions and the feedback on the first part blew me away, you are all truly amazing 🫶🏻

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[thepunkpanther]

hazel a dr suess character confirmed

[kindahoping4forever]

🧡 The 5SOS Show Tour Prague 🧡

[hl-obsessed]

Liam Payne singing Night Changes on the way to Niall concert in Argentina - 2/10/24

[the-writing-mobster]

Hey guys! This is gonna be a tough post but I just need somewhere to vent a bit, I've been through the ringer this past week. This is kind of a personal post too? So by all means scroll by if you don't want to read stuff about medical emergencies...

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Kay. So... I had to take my mother to the ER due to complications with a recent surgery. Scary. Emotional. Exhausting.

Recovery for her will be a long and very difficult journey. Painful. She's doing better now and she gets stronger everyday but it's still a deep concern for me. I know the first week after she's released from the hospital will be extremely tough for everyone, especially her.

Personally, I've been really emotional. Crying on and off. Trying my best to be strong for her. So tired. So tired.

We were hit with a bombshell that she could have cancer, but the very next day were relieved to hear pathology reports showed the mass that'd been removed last week was benign, so that's def one less thing to worry about and a huge weight lifted off our shoulders....

All that being said — Honestly?

I could really use some kind words. Encouragement to help me get back into the right mindset to continue with art and writing. That's my safe space, you know?

Anyway, thank you all, and thank you to my wonderful mutuals who have been listening to me vent these past couple of days.

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[messrsrarchives]

Hi <3

This isnt an ask

Just want to say that you're such an important person to me in this fandom.

No matter what, even if we have some diferent headcanons. But your recs are always on point. Also im a fan of your yaps, keep yapping, I'll always listening

Well, that's all

hi i have nothing to say rn besides that this made me weepy 🫂

[evolnoomym]

✨people i want to get to know better✨

Thank you for the tag @sugarcoated-lame @joelslegalwhre @ace-turned-confused 🙏🏻

Last song: Salad by Blondshell

Favorite color: Black 🖤

Currently watching: The Office

Last movie: idk 😅

Current obsession: being anxious 😬

Relationship status: single forever

Last thing i Googled: some website looking for apartments in my town 🙂

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[familyvideostevie]

wanna start writing again anyone have any tips on how to return from the abyss

[lifesizehysteria]

random ask for you but what’s your favourite fruit 👀

That is truly difficult because I really like fruit in general but there is little in the world that beats a perfectly ripe nectarine. I do also love watermelon. It’s is the pizza of fruit. Even when it’s not that good, it’s still okay.

What is yours???

[lillysdreaminnn]

happy new year everyone I love y'all and I'm proud of y'all mwah 💖

[fxreflyes]

hiiii lovely!! I would love a playlist that fits my vibe. 💖

hi Karfy my beloved!!! I’m so sorry this is so late my mind has been off, but I am here with a playlist :) I tried to make this one more songs you might not know?? (an impossible task, I know) or at least not know as well?? (They say that it’s the thought that counts right)

1. Tyrant - the bravery (I know you prob know thsi? But the intro is soooo good)

2. Are you gonna be my girl - jet (I know you know this but I felt unreasonably compelled to add this regardless like the vibes were just too good)

3. Piece and pound coins - the ninth wave (for some reason I seem to think I sent this to u already but alas)

4. Moe tucker - the Jesus and the Mary chain (this is oddly catchy)

5. Moonlight shadow - Mike oldfield (this is all vibes and idk the vibes r just v good w this song)

6. Drive it all over me - my bloody valentine

7. King of the world - angelfish

8. Debonair - the afghan whigs

9. Gutache - close lobsters

10. Soul searchin’- the litter

11. John cage bubblegum - stereo lab

12. Two people in a room - wire

link to a playlist w the songs :)

Music asks - ask me anything :•)

[kindahoping4forever]

Calum IG Story

[the-writing-mobster]

Hey.

Just a gentle reminder... That in an overwhelming majority of Undertale fanfic, Frisk IS the villain.

This is a gentle reminder that a majority of fanfics where Frisk is Sans's victim... Sans is the point of view character.

A gentle reminder that in an overwhelming majority of murder mystery novels, victims are used as plot devices and seen as objects to be brutalized for the story, and detectives are the main characters.

A gentle reminder that pop culture is deeply fascinated with the minds of cruel men, and their stories are told 90% of the time.

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So... TMDG is a small drop in the well of something that is not that. It's a murder mystery I want to tell focused on the victims; their hopes, their dreams, and how that was robbed of them...

And Undertale just happens to be the gift wrapping I chose to present this story in, because Sans is my muse.

Thank you! Enjoy! Go forth and prosper, darlings.

Mwah!

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[lavalamp-juice]

HI I JUST SAW YOUR REBLOG ON MY GUY'S NIGHT POST WITH ALL THE MEMES AND I'M CRYING LAUGHING THANK YOU THEY'RE SO FUNNY AND I LOVE YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAY

AWW IM GLAD YOU LIKE IT!!!!

I had so much fun reading that fic and making that post ^^

[8iunie]

via Ethan’s Instagram story, 29.03.2023